#tw sobriety

[wildemaven]

today marks exactly 1 year since I’ve had alcohol. being sober curious, turned into realizing I relied on drinking to have a good time, sleep, drowned out thoughts and anxiety, fit in with social interactions. I like who I am and how I feel without it.

[tythezawmbieslayer]

TW: RECOVERING ADDICT, SUBSTANCE ABUSE

Look how big my pupils are and how tired I looked. Benadryl can kill you, and it could’ve killed me.

Say no to drugs.

[c-l-nichols]

Sobriety is a familiar stranger, one I’m afraid is knocking on my door. It is greeted with apprehension

- C L Nichols | untitled

[rockstarlwt28]

TW / Soberity, Drugs, Opiods.

TWO YEARS SOBER TODAY!!!! 🥳

[erin-mccormack]

“Do you think it would be in bad taste to throw a one-year-sober party?” Erin asked. “Because that’s coming up next month, and I totally want to mark the occasion, but I feel like some people might think a party is a bad idea. There wouldn’t be any booze, obviously,” She added. “Just sweets and snacks. I think it could be fun!”

[aubreymillerx]

Where: The Garden

Who: @maxdiaz

The biggest demon in Aubrey's life was her ex-husband, he was someone who was just in the back of her mind 24/7. Aubrey made the decision to go to AA meetings again, not drink anymore, and especially make amends and the biggest one was dealing with her ex. Max was nice enough to offer to come and support her while she was settling everything with her ex who suddenly decided that he was a "changed man". They agreed to meet in the garden, a public space, and her ex didn't know Max was coming since she didn't want him to back off just because someone else was witnessing him being his usual shitty self. "I am fucking nervous," Aubrey said glancing at Max before entering the garden.

[xxshadowbabexx]

tw: another rant (depression, self deprecation, abandonment issues, sobriety, alcohol, eating disorder, self isolation, anxiety)

i feel so needy its stupid. i only have one (in person) friend and shes on vacay rn and like im happy for her but… idfk what to do with myself. i miss her and i feel lonely.

i thrive off of social interaction but i also have horrid social anxiety and so i can’t go places without her without having a panic attack. shes all that keeps me calm.

so i havent left my dorm in three days and i feel sick. cooped up. but i know it wont be worth it to go outside because ill just end up having a panic attack.

i cant tell her any of this either. she almost canceled the trip because she was worried about leaving me alone and its not fair of me to hold her back. she shouldnt have to worry about me like this.

she wont be back for another nine days :( idk what im gonna do.

it feels so dumb tho. like i can’t function when my friend is gone for a little bit? its embarrassing.

part of me wants to just run to the store and get some liquor, drink my problems away. but im two years sober and dont want to fuck it up. its just looking real tempting right now.

and i havent eaten since my blow up last night. my tummy hurts but im scared to eat. i dont want to deal with the guilt that always comes after.

i wanna cry about everything but im too tired. maybe i just need a nap idk. putting my thoughts out here the other day helped so im just hoping it helps again.

[pale-pastel-girl]

i may have had an absolute mental breakdown today, but at the end of the day i’m still 65 days sober so i have that going for me

[saskiaxblog]

my whole body hurts, but pain of my thoughts are way more painful

[lavenderlyncis]

The past 500 days have taught me a lot.

I'll get into it under the cut. Nothing graphic at all, but I'll hide it anyway for people that don't wanna hear about it

This is maybe a very basic thought, but sobriety really isn't a state. I won't ever just be sober. It's very much a constant choice, one that I have to make evry day. And it doesn't really get easier. Maybe it did at first, when it was only a few months, but after 200, it stayed at the same level. I think it'll stay like this. There won't ever be a time where I've forgotten about it. I honestly hope it'll stay like this. I know how young I am and how much life I got in front of me. So much stress ahead that could lead me to break. I wish it could stay like this. This isn't good. But it's not bad.

[larlarmojo]

ur girl just hit 8 weeks of sobriety. Amazed at myself and quite proud tbh.

[awizardsdisaster]

hey do you ever wonder why you exist. like goddamn. if i’m here for a reason wtf is it. i can’t tell. all i can tell is that im being bullied by the people i thought were my friends, if i still had the stupid fhcking I Am Sober app id have to reset my timer today, and i want to fucking die. like what is that helping.

[tythezawmbieslayer]

I’ll never be able to stay sober from vaping no matter how hard I fucking try. I can’t do this anymore. I wish I never found it. I wish I never smoked. I wish I was perfect. I’m so fucking tired. I’ve betrayed everyone when I told them I’d be fucking sober. I BETRAYED THEM. It’s so hard. It’s so fucking hard.

I’m putting this thing in water for my friends and for my family. I can’t keep living like this. I just can’t.

WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. WHY CANT I JUST STAY SOBER.

[devilboycomic]

After party mess cleanup

[erin-mccormack]

“I’m just saying, maybe I should’ve gotten sober like two weeks earlier than I did. Because as fun as a one-year-sober party is, a combined sober birthday and actual birthday would be amazing.” Erin laughed. “Even if they were a few days apart. Week long party, who doesn’t want that?”

[shmingleping]

I just want to cry.

Part of me knows I did the right thing, because if I didn't do it then, I'm not sure when I actually would have felt "ready". My mind is causing the most problems for me right now. Anticipating, waiting...I'm nervous and hope it doesn't get any worse than what's going on right now. Not that right now is bad really, not when compared to the countless times I've tried this sorta thing before. So far, no withdrawals at all. Just my mind telling me I should have waited, had more time to use, another visit with my dealer... I have the smallest amount of shit left, but feel afraid to use it now just in case I'll actually have to resort to using it if I do end up in precipitated withdrawal. I'm afraid of the physical symptoms of that, but also what's really scaring me is what's going on in my head. The dreams I've been having. The thoughts that won't stop. It's too much and I now have nothing to use to escape it all. I'm not sure what to do, or if there is anything I can do. My head won for the majority if not all of my life. I've tried to escape it, quiet it. Now there's nothing stopping it. That's scary. Maybe that's why I'm constantly feeling on the verge of tears. Idk. This is all feeling like too much. I can't undo it though. I don't fucking want to, but I have no choice other than to just sit with it. Fuck.