#uggghh that speech

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"I will give you everything"

[delimeful]

a still-glowing ember (3)

warnings: panic, guilt, injury mention, mentions of assumed character death (mistaken), arguing, lmk if i missed any

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Virgil had spent nearly half the night attempting to coax the sprite’s spark back into something resembling a healthy state, feeling his stress levels spike unbearably with every pained twitch his unconscious patient had made. Working to heal someone that small, even with the assistance of magic, was no simple feat. It had been hours of exacting, meticulous work that had left him exhausted.

So, naturally, mere moments after Virgil finally called the job done, crawled into bed, and managed to fall asleep, the little idiot woke up and started shrieking loud enough to wake the dead.

Virgil had left the sprite on an extra pillow next to him, one of his hands cupped over the tiny figure to monitor any sudden changes in temperature, which basically meant that he’d gotten an unwanted earful at close range.

For someone who’d barely been able to string two words together before, the sprite certainly had a set of lungs on him. Stars almighty, that was loud.

“Will you cut that out?” he groaned with his face still half-mushed into his pillow, only earning himself an alarmed, shrill whistle-chirp and frantic scrabbling under his hand in response. Ugh. Sprites.

Did the guy not remember Virgil literally going to embarrassing lengths to save his life a handful of hours ago, or something?

Well. Actually, thinking back, he was pretty sure the sprite had been more-or-less unconscious at that point, only latching onto Virgil’s proffered magic after much nudging and coaxing of that terrifyingly unresponsive form. Maybe he actually didn’t recall any of that.

In that case, he had a little more sympathy. Not enough to keep him from pushing up onto his elbows and sending the noisy creature a nasty glare, but enough that he didn’t jump directly to mostly-facetious threats on the sprite’s life. See? Forget what everyone who’d ever met him had said, he was a master of restraint and compassion.

“Seriously, pipe down. I’m trying to sleep over here.” Okay, so not that much compassion.

The sprite’s wings were aggressively fluffed up behind him, meaning they hadn’t turned into frostbitten hunks of flesh and fallen off in the night, which was good. Virgil knew elemental beings were far more resistant to physical damage than most mortal types were, but feeling someone so iced-over always brought around that old panic anyhow.

Mostly assured that the sprite wasn’t going to keel over the moment he wasn’t in contact with him, Virgil retracted his hand entirely, leaving the sprite sprawled out on the pillow, breathing hard as his bedraggled feathers puffed up further. Virgil shifted into his fluffier form, as though his fur coat would chase away even the memory of the chill, and curled up more firmly, wrapping his tail around his paws. If he could just get a few more minutes of rest…

“I’ve been abducted,” the sprite said to himself, the words starting as a near whisper and slowly growing to a near wail. “I was nearly frozen, hunted for sport, and now I’ve been kidnapped away for my transgressions!”

Uggghh. He shifted back, mostly for ease of speech, and rolled his eyes when the sprite tried to scramble back and mostly just tripped over himself.

“I didn’t kidnap you,” he grumbled, turning his head to stare with one half-lidded eye. “I basically saved your life, actually, so maybe you should be a little more gracious.”

“Gracious?!” the sprite echoed in a shriek that was far too high-pitched for Virgil’s sleep deprivation-fried brain. “I’m fairly certain you threatened to end my life, not preserve it!”

Now, that much was probably true. Even if he hadn’t meant it, he certainly might have said something along those lines. He tended to get a little snappish when he was irritated, and also when it was cold out, and also when people bothered him in his own damn territory.

In short, the sprite had been dealt an extremely unlucky hand last night, in regards to Virgil specifically. And… intentional or not, he had almost gotten the tiny idiot killed.

He still remembered how his spiteful satisfaction at scaring the living daylights out of a rude intruder had slowly begun to shift into a creeping feeling of dread as the sprite utterly failed to do anything resembling normal flying, let alone escaping. The moment his fingers had wrapped around that ice-cold frame, the apprehension had abruptly firmed into the certainty that something was terribly wrong.

No creature of fire should ever feel so still and icy, especially not a lively, quick-burning sprite.

Virgil’s ears pressed flat against his skull, his guilt swamping him again. He supposed he probably at least owed the guy an explanation. Uuuuggghhhh.

“I’m not going to hurt you,” he told the sprite, tucking his hands under himself in an act of goodwill. “I know we got off on the wrong foot—,”

“The wrong foot?! An upside-down centipede has less wrong feet than our meeting!” the sprite screeched, continuing to be far more verbose when he wasn’t in the middle of freezing to death. Funny how that worked.

“Okay, fine,” Virgil cut in. “I heavily implied that I was going to murder you, but in my defense, I had no idea you were actually in a prime state to be murdered at the time, and also I’d been having a really bad night.”

The sprite stared at him like he was insane, and Virgil felt his shoulders rise to hunch up around his ears. This was why he didn’t talk to people.

“You had a bad night?!” the sprite asked in a near-shout, his tone incredulous.

The indignant question was accompanied by a twitch of movement, like the sprite had attempted to throw his arms up in an exasperated gesture only to find one limb restrained. He looked down at the sling around his injured arm, blinking in bewilderment.

“Okay, that one wasn’t my fault,” Virgil protested preemptively. “You were already like that when I— hey, hey! Don’t jostle it, jeez!”

He reached forward despite himself, gently batting the sprite’s hand away from the sling. Naturally, he earned himself a buffeting slap from one of those tiny wings for his good deed, but going by the horrified stare the sprite sent his own appendage, Virgil was fairly sure the motion had been entirely instinctual.

“Seriously, don’t mess with that,” he instructed, slowly withdrawing once it became clear that the sprite had gone stock-still with fear. “It took me ages to put together a sling that tiny, let alone tie it. Just leave it be.”

The sprite’s face pinched with uncertainty. “You made this? Why?”

There it was, the exact question he’d been trying to avoid. Great, just great.

He shrugged, faux-casual. “Maybe I just didn’t want some random pesky sprite dropping dead in my stretch of woods. Bad for the decor or whatever.”

The sprite narrowed his eyes at him, clearly not buying it.

“Look,” Virgil said, trying to head off the accusations of nefarious plots that he could practically see on the tip of the sprite’s tongue, “I clearly could have murdered you, and I didn’t, so can we just agree to not ask any more questions and part ways as unfriendly strangers?”

“What did you mean, you were having a bad night?” the sprite asked, apparently deciding to completely ignore Virgil’s very reasonable suggestion.

“I mean, I was having a bad night,” Virgil repeated with the slightest growl to the words. “I got robbed by annoying pixies twice, and now I’m going to have to go repair those boundary markers and make sure that nothing snuck in while they were down, which means I’ll have to waste a whole day just scouring the forest when I have winter supplies to be storing—,”

“Twice?” the sprite echoed, face pinching even further into a confused frown. “I only stole one boundary marker— and under severe duress, with all intention of returning the pilfered power once I had recovered at home!”

Virgil rolled his eyes, ignoring the tacked-on excuses. “Yeah, but you were the second sprite to do that. Like, my bad for thinking both times were you, but in my defense, the other sprite looked pretty damn similar—,”

“There was another sprite?” the sprite interrupted again, and this time he didn’t even seem to notice Virgil’s annoyed growl, his entire body gone tense with a sudden sharp focus. “You’re sure?”

Virgil frowned, a foreboding feeling creeping up on him. “Yeah, especially with what you just said. In hindsight, there were signs that the two of you were different. You were tripping over your words, while the first guy nearly woke the whole forest with all the maniacal shrieking laughter.”

“Remus,” the sprite whispered with wide eyes, his hands fisting in the loose fabric of the pillow. “Did you see which way he went?”

For the first time, he was leaning toward Virgil, practically hanging on his every word as he sought the answer.

“I dunno, north-ish?” Virgil replied, ears flicking back in slight bewilderment. “I wasn’t exactly close enough to catch him. What, do you know the guy or— woah! What are you doing?”

The sprite had pushed himself to his feet in one determined motion, and now pinwheeled, trying to keep his balance atop the soft surface of the pillow. His wings were lifting sluggishly into position, like he actually thought the ragged limbs would carry him anywhere in his current state.

Virgil hovered a hand nearby, prepared to catch the idiot when he want toppling down, but the sprite ducked away.

“I’m going to go find my brother,” the sprite spat, looking as though he’d like nothing better than for Virgil to try and stop him. “He’s out there, alone!”

The sense of foreboding doubled. The odds of a fire sprite, even one ballsy enough to steal three territory markers, surviving a winter storm all through the night were extremely low.

“If you go out there in this state, the only thing you’ll accomplish is crashing and dislocating your other shoulder,” he warned, trying to soften the bite in his voice as much as possible. “The forest is huge. There’s no way you’ll find him, wherever he is.”

Whatever condition he’s in, Virgil didn’t add, because even he had some tact.

“I don’t care,” the sprite said, chin lifted stubbornly as he started taking wobbly steps down the side of the pillow, heading for the edge of the bed. “He’s my brother. I’m not going to just abandon him!”

Virgil groaned. There was virtually no way the other sprite was alive, but there was no point telling his guest that, not when the tremble to his chin showed that he was already well aware, and determined to see this through anyhow.

…At the very least, anyone who’d lost family deserved the closure of finding their body.

The sprite reached the edge of the bed and surveyed the drop, lifting his shaking wings into position to catch the den’s still air the best they could.

With a sigh, Virgil reached out and wrapped his hand around the sprite before he could jump, lifting him up into the air despite his furious protests.

“What’s your name?” he asked, and the non-sequitur was enough to grab the sprite’s attention for at least a moment.

“It’s Roman,” he snapped, and the way his wings were smacking at Virgil’s hand in protest were entirely purposeful, this time. “Now, let me go—!”

“Okay, Roman, look. You’re going to get yourself killed if you go alone,” Virgil informed him. “And seeing as I just spent a ridiculous amount of time preventing your untimely demise, I’ll be really irritated if you kick the bucket now.”

Roman’s face screwed up with clear anger, but before he could start shouting, Virgil set him down solidly on his shoulder, making sure that he was well balanced before releasing him.

“So,” he continued, swinging his legs around to stand himself, “if you promise not to yell directly in my ear, I guess I can keep all that hard work from going to waste by going with you.”

He could practically hear the way Roman’s brain ground to a halt, struggling to shift gears. “You’re going to help me?”

Virgil shrugged his unoccupied shoulder, heading for his den’s entryway. “Might as well. It’s not like it’ll be too difficult to track down the scent, if he smells anywhere near as strong as you.”

Roman laughed, a short, surprised bark. “He— Trust me, he’s much worse.”

“Ugh, great,” Virgil replied with a wrinkle of his nose, and tried not to think about what they’d do whenever they did find whatever was left of Roman’s brother.

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Agents of SHIELD S2E16-S2E18 reaction

Agents of SHIELD S2E16

-Is that real needles on Skye

-That does not look like props

-the actress actually got acupuncture for this scene?

-but omfg Skye is so gorgeous

-I LIVE for Bobbi defending Skye

-Simmons is so beautiful too oh wow

-I can understand this old guy's motives but still he is annoying as hell

-So Simmons' gloves made Skye's transition harder?

-Did the new guy just make Skye fly?

-That's cool

-Is Simmons really helping this old dude open the toolbox? Simmons should be more loyal to Coulson than this???

-annnd FitzSimmons are arguing again

-why is this show tearing my heart apart

-ahhh Mike is Coulson's back up!!!

-I've missed him!!

-lol Skye is so smart, figuring out that Raina is here by just a sentence

-I can understand why Skye is mad at Raina, cause I think Skye kinda blames Raina for Trip's death

-Also she kinda wants to blame Raina for her getting her power

-Skye almost killed Raina by just looking at her??

-Oh shit that's Skye's mom isn't it??? she's got scars on her face but that's the same woman who was cut by Whitehall?

-family reunion time! ahhhhh!!!

-Skye that's your mom!!!

-So her mom really never ages huh

-This show is trying very hard to make the old man be likable but still, I'm just mostly annoyed by him lol

-He's got the whole moral high ground figured out huh

-So there's still a hydra head out there

-Do they ever die out

-ahhhh I knew it!!! I knew Simmons wouldn't have betrayed Coulson so easily!! Fitz's got the toolbox!!

-Good job FitzSimmons!!

-Awww and Jemma packed him the sandwich UwU

-They are soooo cute

Agents of SHIELD S2E17

-what am I seeing oh wow May in the shower???????

-Ma'am that is...That is a sight to see

-is this finally introducing May's background story??

-ahhhhh I'm so excited

-FitzSimmons' teacher is very good-looking, but that hair does her wrong. Why would they give her that hairstyle it's so ugly it hurts my eyes

-Okay. YET AGAIN. this speech that Skye's mom is giving her about how resonate frequency works should be FitzSimmons's speech like come on now

-This show is trying to make me believe that FITZ, god damn engineer who works communication ALL THE TIME, didn't tell Skye about frequencies and resonance.

-Are we going to pretend like Fitz didn't excitedly explain to Skye about the classical example of resonant vibrations destroying the Tacoma Narrows Bridge in Washington

-I like the new electricity guy and Skye's mom and no-eyes-man but come on now that frequency talk is science and belong to FitzSimmons

-Uggghh Can I get a fanfiction where FitzSimmons are the ones who helped Skye understand her powers?

-what is theta protocol though

-so Skye's power can play a note in a cup?

-if Skye can really control frequency her power is limitless omfg

-like she can legit change people's words when they are speaking or any sound traveling in the air because sound itself is vibrations that pass between air particles

-if she can learn how to alter visible light frequencies then she can basically make the enemy see a bunch of baby elephants when she's fighting them too lol

-She can destroy every object in the universe with minimum effort just by using the object's frequency

-Also she can just tap into phone signal, satellite, wifi, TV, GPS... basically all forms of communication by using her power, and she can alter them too

-Also Skye can use her power as a microwave lol how cool is that

-The ability to control frequency has to be the most versatile superpower there is ahhh her power is limitless

-ahhhh The engineer in me is fully having a happiness induced meltdown rn lol

-but hearing Skye talk about being in foster has got to be the saddest thing ever

-especially when her mom is right here

-The foster homes send her back to the orphanage for a glass??

-and they sent her back on her birthday once?

-That's a lot for a kid I feel so sad

-so July 2nd is Skye's birthday

-and her mom still remembers what happened on Skye's birthday awwww

-My baby has found and met both parents! ahhhhh I feel so happy for her

-ahhh I wonder what would happen if Skye had grown up with her parents

-May calls her husband before going in on a mission that's so soft awww

-her smile is so pretty too

-annnd ohhhh we're in combat mode

-she so handsome

-so May's mission is about Skye's mom's superpower group

-Did May end up killing the little girl

-oh fuck no May went in for the girl and ended up killing the girl herself

-welp killing a kid will for sure fuck someone up, especially a good person like May

-I feel so bad for May omfg

-awww Skye finally got to have a family dinner with both her mom and her dad

-Fuck hydra ugghh they really fucked up Skye's family

-they could have been very happy together as a little family if Hydra didn't fuck with Skye's mom

-Ohhhh Raina can see the future???

Agents of SHIELD S2E18

-awww I'm so glad that the family dinner went well for Skye

-ohhhh Bobbi is in work out outfit

-why is Bobbi hot in everything

-lmao why is Coulson calling Ward "hey sweetie" sooooo hilarious lololol

-mmmm interesting

-seems like Ward is finally getting redeemed?

-Skye's mom really does not care for normal people huh

-poor Fitz. he's being forced to be on the same plane as Ward, the man who damaged his brain

-I don't blame him for being emotional

-awww Skye's parents even got her school planned out

-I can understand Skye's dad's anger towards Whitehall and why he wanted to kill Whitehall himself. Whitehall fucked up all three of them in Skye's family

-holy shit Skye's dad owns a whole damn building

-how can he with a straight face say that he's not rich lol I feel poor now

-Skye could have lived a comfortable life like a princess

-It's a shame they can't make up for lost time

-Skye falling on top of electricity guy is sooo cliche lol

-what is this, some romantic novel's scene come to life? lol

-lmao May and Simmons and Skye looking at Coulson working with Ward has got to be some of the best reactions ever lol

-deathlock vs sparky electricity guy lol they fight each other to the death and then get captured together lmao just why

-So Ward is really gonna be redeemed huh

-The way Ward calls Coulson "Boss" reminds me so much of good guy Ward

-mmm what's Coulson planning? just surrendering like that?

[coweggomelet]

volume 5

im so sad please do funny things

i know what’s coming though so

i’ll be crying while i laugh

- i love how qrow walks he looks like he has back problems

- oooo pretty waterfall

- ruby gushing over weapons is my favorite thing

- ahahaaaa frozen background gays that’s representation babey

- oh shit he just wanted to finish the job and go home 😢

- wait are all the academy headmasters characters from the wizard of oz? like ironwood is the tin man, lionheart is the cowardly lion, oz is...oz. who’s the headmaster of shade? the scarecrow? dorothy? i am 100% sure that people have already connected these dots but that just occurred to me

- oh ilia you poor little lesbian

- ahahahaaaa qrow “i did it!”

-uggghh the new intro i need my babies to be back together

- ew watts don’t smile with your teeth like that it’s creepy

- oh yeah cinder can talk now! gimme that fun ominous banter-y dialogue pleeeaase

- floating islands babeeeyyy

- ooooh i love this pilot! he’s so nice and funny and he works well with weiss. so sad he dies in a couple minutes

- adam you are such an asshole siena was SO COOL

- AAAHHHHH he’s got dad reading glasses!! i love ghira

- i would DIE i would lay down my little life for oscar and ruby the BABIES

- fuck yeah yang!! you stand up to her!!

- WE GOT TWO OUT OF FOUR GANG TWO OUT OF FOUR

- awww hugs

- of course you’re more scared than you've ever been, oscar, you are a CHILD who worked on a farm!! it’s okay to be scared!! it’s okay to have to adjust!!

- SHE SURE IS REMARKABLE OZPIN

- uh oh ilia doesn’t wanna kill blake i smell a gay

- hehehe awkward backpedal

- ooohhh man the kid... fuck, all those people are just... gone. and we can guess what happened to them, it’s pretty obvious but we’re never told exactly what happened and it’s so sad and scary

- awkward tea time with mom

- ugh raven shut up you SUUUCK

- THREE OUT OF FOUR BABEEEYYY IM GONNA CRY

- they all love each other SO MUCH this is ILLEGAL

- yesssss arm wrestleeee

- ooooo the ticking clock is so ominous

- she’s gonna come back, yang, don't worry

- weiss i love youuuu you’ve grown so much i’m so proud!!

- oh ilia you poor thing

- oh boyyyy here we gooooo!! the fake out of the century!!

- mercury. shut up. you’re a good fighter and people underestimate you. but. you’re a kid. and there’s some real big players now. no one’s afraid of you. you’re not that scary.

- god this plan is so goddamn smart. raven wears her helmet. vernal keeps her eyes closed the whole time. so fucking clever. jesus. also?? vernal’s subtle showmanship?? amazing. great detail

- aang??!!?

- i really wanna know how oz hid the vault at beacon. there’s gotta be something about it other than he’s just old and powerful, there’s gotta be some shenanigans there

- god i love this theme it’s so good. casey really just gives it her all every time and i’m so grateful to her

- oh boy the fuckin lobby here we go

- siblings amirite

- boys and girls? really cinder? let’s be more inclusive please

- surprise y’all they’re murder teens sorry you had to find out this way

- fuck i forgot how much jaune’s lil speech hurts. he’s still just so sad and he’s breaking down a little cause he’s so good and can’t understand why or how someone could be so bad. god i love my lil sweet boy he’s breaking my heart

- qrow i think the time has passed for everybody to be cool. cinder’s already talking smack. there’s no going back buddy

- “who are you again?” CINDER ILL STAB YOU. but also… good— good line. absolutely devastating

- emerald’s like “gotta protect my mommy girlfriend”

- shut UP mercury

- siblings amirite part 2

- THATS MY BOOYYY GO OSCAARR

- ooooohhhhh this muuuussiiiicccc

- ope there’s an aura break oh FUCK weiss gets stabbed in this episode doesn’t she and JAUNEY BOY DISCOVERS HIS SEMBLANCE i love him

- AHAHAHAAAA fuck her uuuuppp ruby

- ohhhhh shit here it comes oh god oh no

- god with pyrrha’s spear too. cinder’s really got a taste for dramatics doesn’t she

- oh god and the spear dissolving like pyrrha did i CANT

- when i say i LOST MY SHIT i said no fuckin way they kill weiss right now NO FUCKIN WAY and my friend had the AUDACITY to say “just watch”???? RUDE

- oooohh GET HIM oscar

- HES DOING IT MY SWEET BOY I LOVE YOUUU

- ohhh the tree of knowledge! i just got that

- there’s the grimm elastigirl arm

- SIKE CINDER THERES NO POWER TO TAKE FROM HER YOU JUST KILLED HER FOR NO REASON

- GOD WHAT A REVEAL

- again i lost my shit

- the amount of times i lost my shit and my friend had to tell me to be quiet was… a Lot

- NORRAAAA I LOVE YOUUUU

- oh hazel. can’t wait for your Growth

- THERE SHE IIISSS MY GIRL WHAT AN ENTRANCE BLAKE

- uh oh hazel is disheveled that means he’s unhinged

- oh FUCK yeah blake you’ve LEARNED i’m so proud of all my babieeesss

- WEISS what a power stance!

- THE LOOK they’re so GAY

- ooooo i love this fight it’s maiden vs maiden babey

- poor vernal. she spent the last moment of her life helping a woman who probably manipulated her and used her, and she helped her try to kill someone who didn’t even end up dying. vernal deserved better

- OH HERE WE GO RAVEN ITS YOUR DAUGHTER BITCH AND SHES HAD GROWTH

- oooo get him blake

- ooof the shoulder check. raven she fuckin nailed you on the head and did not hold back and knew EXACTLY what to say and you did EXACTLY what she said you were gonna do— run away. she is SO MUCH better than you and you will never recognize that and that is so heartbreaking

- uh oh the clicky orb thing. you’re gonna die lionheart

- oh emerald my baby. she relied on cinder so much, was so dependent on her, that she was powerful enough to make that in like 8 brains at once. that’s grief babey

- it took them. TWO WHOLE VOLUMES. to all get back together. this is illegal. and also i’m crying

- this is not ALLOWED they can’t look at each other like that my heart can’t take it

- awww qrow’s default really is just taking care of kids. good guy

- i’m always so exhausted at the end of a volume

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Susan logic day 2

Susan: Liberals are so easily triggered uggghh

Gay couple: *gets married*

Susan: YOURE INFRINGEING ON MY FREEDOM OF SPEECH WAAAAAH!!!

[easypeasybreezy]

SPN 14 Countdown- 4 Days

We’re so close now! Here’s number 4, which is-

The good parts of Bring ‘em Back Alive

Another mixed bag of an episode. Ok, so Dean, Ketch, and Charlie were cool, and Lucifer at the exorcism was kinda funny, but I’m here for Gabriel (and the sabriel lol). Uhh, this one got long, so I’ll put it under the cut.

First off, why did they choose the I need you speech for the episode preview?! I was freaking out so much at that promo, it was insane. I just wonder what would have happened if I didn’t see it until it actually aired. But jkfaldjhflasjdk that scene. It starts off with Sam sitting in that chair, for who knows how long, and he pleads to Gabriel. I need you. And Gabe comes back with the perfect response (see above lol). Sam brought him back. I don’t care what other people say, I loved it.

A small thing, when Sam was trying to talk to Gabe earlier and he was like “It’s Sam Winchester, do you remember?” And what he brings up is the video Gabriel left to help stop the apocalypse. I thought it was so nice that Sam thought of that first. 

Then wings!! And Gabriel destroys Asmodeus to save Sam and Cas. That was so satisfying. “I always hated that dumbass suit.” SO good. Then, oof that part at the end. Sam was so adorable when he said welcome to the team :) Then Gabe was like, nope. And, I’m just gonna put this whole next part here-

SAM: No, Gabriel, don't -- you -- you can't just walk away. If Michael comes here, he will end this world.

GABRIEL: And the last time the world was ending, I put my money on you. I think you can pull it off again.

CASTIEL: No. You cannot turn your back on your father's creation.

GABRIEL: Castiel... my father turned his back on his creation. Guess it just runs in the family.

SAM: No, Gabriel, please.

Ok, Gabriel saying you, specifically meaning Sam. Cas brings up god, just uggghh Chuck and Gabe need to talk. AND Sam says please again. This little part is sooo good. Then Gabriel leaves. I was so surprised, I definitely understood why he left soon after, but at the moment I was like, nooooo. I saw a con panel where Rich explained it well. He said (I’m paraphrasing here) it was good if you were surprised that Gabe was leaving, because then you were feeling what Sam Winchester felt. Just wow, yes. 

Idk why this got so long, I guess I felt like I needed to defend this choice or something lol. All of the Gabriel stuff was so good though.  So, yeah, I really enjoyed this episode.

Well, we are down to the top three now. I think two of my choices are pretty obvious, but one might be a surprise? Number 3 is tomorrow!

[gottalovetheletos]

Bright Lights, Big City. Series. Chapter 1.

Okay, so I wasn’t going to release this new series yet but I cant hold off. I think I’m going to do one more chapter to each of Jared’s and Shannon’s series. I was then going to release this one but screw it. I’m super excited for this and have been thinking about it for a few weeks. I hope you like the start of a new series!!!

Authors note:  I’ve tried to proof read it, but knowing me there’s still mistakes lol. Anyway a new series. I’m very excited about this one. I hope you are too. Enjoy. 

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Warnings: None.

Word Count: 1,895.

Bright Lights, Big City. Chapter 1.

CHAPTER 1

“I guess it’s time to finish off the planning for the charity opening day” I said to myself as I walked into my home office. I worked as an coordinator of a charity called ‘Bright Lights, Big City’. We had many departments from helping the less fortunate and going through hard times to rebuilding homes destroyed by natural disasters. That was my department among a few more. I had organised all of the volunteers and how they were all getting there and a sponsor, we needed them . I had reached out to many celebrities such as Miley Cyrus, John Mayer and even Prince Harry from England, worth a shot but hadn’t yet received a reply. I mean in past projects we’ve had Demi Lovato, Liam Hemsworth and Ed Sheeran. 

  We’d had a few celebrities to help sponsor us and bring in extra helpers because of the 'celebrity endorsement’, so to speak, we were using them, but for a good cause. I sat at my very tidy desk and logged into my email. It was taking it’s time to load so I turned around to plug my phone into the tower speaker to play some music. The first song was House of the rising sun by the animals. Just as the song was ending my emails had loaded, 17 new emails. I went through every one of them. Most were about the deliveries for the construction materials. As I replied to each email Kings and Queens started blaring through my speakers. Singing along I checked the second to last email. 

Subject: Bright Lights, Big City Sponsor. Oh my god this was it, 2 weeks before we are supposed to start and we have a sponsor, thank goodness. So I scrolled down to read the email. Hello, Y/N/&/ Y/L/N.  I’m writing to you to confirm that Thirty Seconds To Mars would like to sponsor your charity as I had done some research and they were impressed by what your charity has done for everyone you’ve helped. They also liked all of the past and current projects and would like to sponsor more in the future.   Please get back to us so we know you’d still like them to be the sponsor for this project. I will then be  able to give you contact details as well as receive yours. I hope to hear from you soon. Kind Regards The office of Thirty Seconds To Mars.    My hands were over my mouth as I sat there in shock. They’d been my favorite band for years and now they’re going to sponsor a charity project that I am in charge of. Holy crap! To be quite honest I forgotten that I’d sent them an email about this but then again I had reached out to a lot of celebrities. I replied back to the email. Hello, Office of Thirty Seconds To Mars, I’d like to gracefully accept for Thirty Seconds To Mars to be our sponsor for this project. Let me go through the plans and I will email you back tomorrow with my details. Thank you once again for agreeing to sponsor this project. I and the people we will be helping cannot thank you enough. Yours sincerely Miss Y/N/&/Y/L/N. I was shaking from the excitement. Still no time for that now. I can be excited later I now need to find a location for all of the volunteers to meet so we can discuss the plans for the buildings. I rang up a few meeting room places close to the location of our project so we could easily walk there and I found one. For this place I would only need to bring my own laptop as they had a projector there which was handy. I could now tick that off of my check list. As I’d finished for the evening I decided to sit in the back yard so I could breath in a little fresh air. I took my vape pen with me so I could take a few puffs to help calm me down, the adrenaline was still coursing through my veins as I sat there and thought about what was happening. I watched my dogs roam around the dimly lit yard. I had a great dane rescue who I named blue as his color was blue and I had Tank my Husky rescue, I called him tank because he was a stocky thing that would knock anything over in his path and there was Nellie the Chihuahua mix, she was my first dog, small but feisty, definitely the leader of the pack. The boys needed to be re homed together and people usually don’t want 2 big dogs, well puppies. They were only 8 months old but had been together since 5 weeks as the person who gave them to the rescue bought them way too early and didn’t want them once they both teamed up and destroyed the house. Once they were at the rescue they were trained to not ruin furniture and trained to be fairly good dogs. I mean they’re still puppies so I’m  a little lenient with them. But I’d never change them in any way, they are my babies, I’ll be it big babies, but babies none the less. I called them inside and locked the doors. I was on the computer for so long that it had passed dinner time so I didn’t bother. I went upstairs to have a shower, then laid in bed after. I couldn’t sleep, I was thinking about all the things I needed to get ready. I was going through my mental check list in my head. I had the materials. ✔️ the storage for materials. ✔️ the sponsor. ✔️ the meeting room. ✔️ the transport. ✔️ the volunteers. ✔️ the blueprints. ✔️ the tools. ✔️ As I was going through them ticking more and more off I started to feel better and more prepared. Checking things off my list was like counting sheep and before I knew it I was asleep.  The next two weeks flew by what with all the preparing I was doing. I had finished my presentation and a speech for the first day and was now packing it all into my bag ready for tomorrow. The office of thirty seconds to mars and I had been emailing back and forth. For a sponsor they sure wanted to know every detail of my plan, which was a little intimidating because our other sponsors had never wanted such detailed descriptions of what was going on, but it was fine. I felt pretty organised. That night my bag with my laptop, paperwork and handouts were by the door. I was showered and had my outfit picked out for tomorrow which was fairly business-ey. I was in bed reading over the final plans for tomorrow. Once the clock hit 10 pm I decided to go to sleep.   *beep beep beep beep beep* “Uggghh” I sighed to myself. I rolled over to see that it was 6 am. I slammed my hand down on the alarm and scrambled out of bed and went straight to the bathroom to go to the toilet and wash my face. After I made breakfast for myself and the dogs and sat at the table. I let the dogs out while I got dressed.

I’ll admit this outfit was not suitable for a construction site but I’ve done this enough times to know I can climb a ladder in heels and a skirt if needed.  I fixed my hair, let the dogs back in and got ready to leave. I grabbed my bag and car keys had a last check in the mirror. I closed the door took a deep breath and tried to think positively. I arrived at the meeting place where everyone would be arriving in about half an hour. Plenty of time for me to get hooked up to the projector. Luckily they had already set the chairs out for me. About 150. Staring at the empty chairs made me feel slightly nervous, but I can do this. About 10 minutes before everyone would be arriving on the buses I heard a commotion outside so decided to investigate. I went to the front desk and asked what was going on. “Well Miss, it’s some band, they’ve come to see you”. I stared at the man with wide eyes. “Me? What’s the bands name?” I ask him. “Thirty something something, at least I think that what they were screaming outside” he replied. 'Oh god’ I thought to myself. I went back to my meeting room to wait for them and to try and calm myself. I gave it a couple of minutes and there they were. Well two thirds of them. Shannon and Jared walked towards me. “Hi, I’m Jared ad this is Shannon are you the coordinator of the Bright lights, big city organisation” Jared held out a hand for me to shake. “Hi yes I am. I’m Y/N/&/Y/L/N. Do forgive me but may I ask why you’re here?” I didn’t want to sound rude but sponsors don’t usually show up until we’ve finished all the work and we have the little celebration party at the end. “Well my brother thought it would be a great idea if we came along to find out whats going to happen and if we could help in any way” Shannon answered not looking too happy. “You don’t look like the type of girl who does this very often. You’re dressed to girly. Who’s actually in charge of the building here?” he added. “Well actually I have been coordinator of about 30 very successful projects and I am in charge, thank you very much” I defended myself. People started coming off of the buses and into the venue. The two men went to the back of the room and took seats. I turned around and tried to gather my thoughts. I wondered why Shannon was annoyed with me already. Was it the way I was dressed. Did I do something to piss him off. I cant loose the sponsors already. I shook the negative thoughts out of my head and turned back around to see the room full of people. “If we’re all ready and seated I’d like to get started” I announced with a smile. “I’d like to thank each and every one of you for volunteering and agreeing to help with this project. As you know” I flip to the first slid. “The area we will be working on was affected by a very big storm that passed through. It has taken over 200 homes and we are all here to help build them back up so I hope you’re good with tools” I gained a little laugh. I looked over to Jared and Shannon. Jared was listening to my every word and Shannon was busy on his pone looking more and more annoyed. I was just hoping it wasn’t at me. I carried on with the presentation and at the end I introduced out sponsors. It lasted around 45 minutes. I sent everyone for a coffee break then we’d get onto the buses so I could show everyone the location and where we’d be starting tomorrow.

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Chapter 2. 

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[2020diary4]

Part 6 of 2020 diary

Monday March 31 2020

3:17

I meant to record yesterday but I was to busy cleaning. Monday’s is the day my mom and I take are meds and clean.

I woke up around 8ish. I cleaned our bathroom.

Yesterday I picked out my classes for my sophomore year.

English College prep (I have a speech disorder call Childhood speech of Apraxia. So English hates me)

IM3 honors (junior math) (Algebra 1 and pre calc in 1)

Chemistry Honors

AP World History (I’m so gonna to regret this.)

German 3/4

Art 1/2

( I don’t have to take P.E. this year since I am on varsity wrestling)

My granny called and said VA was put on shelter in place.

Today

My dad is not working today since it is Ceazar Shavas day off. It’s a holiday for union workers. It has something to do with a dude who got workers rights or something for grape pickers in California or something. First year we moved here my dad did not know that he hade the day off. When he got to work a few hours later he realized no one was there. He was so confused at first (especially since it was April 1st). Then he call John (his friend he used to work with) and he explained to my dad.

I woke up at 5 today since I went to bed early (10:00 can you believe it). Apparently everyone in my family to get up at that time.

I made French toast for everyone. My mom has been trying to find stuff today. It’s been so annoying. Uggghh. Just let me lazy and my brain rot.

From,

WIYBT

(yes I just relized that I don't put my sign off at the end of the post) (I put my real name but change it because this is the internet)

[koreahhworld-blog]

Aint No Party Like An AOMG Party! (Part Two)

You and Luna finally arrived at the party. You both made sure to fix your makeup and outfit before going inside.

You stepped into the gate walking arm in arm. You hated to admit it but you two looked really good. The both of you made your way over to a table with two empty seats and sat down.

“Damn. There are so many people here.”

You said to Luna. She was looking around with wide eyes. You could tell she was in her element.

“Want a drink? I’ll be right back.”

“Luna, you better not leave me here alone.”

“Look, I’ll be right back. Just sit tight.”

At least 10 min. Passed and you realized she wasn’t coming back when you looked up and spotted her dancing with someone in the crowd. You rolled your eyes, put on your shades and got up from your chair.

“Fine, I’ll get my drink myself.”

You said to yourself, trying to block out your anxiety.

You were making a your way through the crowd when you got a phone call.

Call from Hera

Click

“Hello?”

“Wh- up- gi- ju-“

“I can’t hear you. I’m going to have to call you back.”

Bam

Before you could hang up someone slammed into you and knocked your phone out of your hand.

“I’m sorry about that. I wasn’t paying attention.”

“No that’s okay. It’s an old phone anyway.”

He reached down to pick up the phone and when he looked up to give it to you, you couldn’t believe it. It was ph-1.

“Here you go.”

“Thank you.”

You two stared at each other for a few seconds and you scurried off back into the crowd.

“what the hell. Why didn’t I say anything. Uggghh”

You pulled out your phone and texted Luna.

(You) I just bumped into ph-1. Well, he bumped into me but well, he spoke to me.

(Luna)…

She left you on writing but never responded but you really just wanted to get your drink. You finally made it to the bar and found a seat.

“What can I get for you?”

“Can I have a glass of patron with lime.”

The bartender began to make your drink and a loud “wassupppp!” caught everyone’s attention. You looked over to where it was coming from and could see AOMG standing on the stage. Including artists from other labels as well. The person on the microphone was Jay Park.

“How is everybody feeling tonight?”

"Yeeeaaaaa!”

The crowd yelled.

Jay Park and Simon D gave their speeches and that’s when the performances started. You were sipping on your drink when someone grabbed you from behind.

“Girl! I was looking for you. Let's go dance.”

Luna pulled you from the bar and into the crowd. You didn’t mind dancing in the crowd but then you realized she was pulling you to the front near the stage. Luna really had no limit in having a good time. You two got the front and started dancing. At this point, Jay Park was performing his new song yacht. You danced with luna and a couple of other people you didn’t know. You looked up at the stage and saw Gray pointing at you and smiling.

The performances went on and you and Luna decided to head off and get another drink. You held hands and approached the bar. Still looking cute, of course.

You both stood at the bar, dancing and drinking all night until the party was finally over. Or so you thought…

As you and Luna were just about to make your way out of the gate, Jay Park walked up.

“Hey, we saw you two up there by the stage, yall are really dope. Were having an after party. Want to stay?”

You both looked at eachother and turn to Jay.

“Yes!”

You both said at the same time.

[floralpursuit]

Uggghh, dysphoria is getting bad 😒 Was thinking I have about 2 months till HRT start date, but a work trip might push that out to 3 months…

At least I might have a clinic to go to. It’s in the depths if Chicago which is a long drive for me, but supposedly they’re really good! We’ll see. I’m just excited to get going now. Meeting and getting to know other trans folks helped absolve a lot of my paranoia over HRT. It’s a pretty drastic turnaround from my previous stance, haha.

My biggest hurdle now is just figuring out what to do for my voice… guides online are kinda helpful, yet not perfect. Speech therapists can help, but I have no idea where to even start to find someone locally. The hunt for trans resources continues!

I’m also getting bummed out about my hairline. I’ve thrown everything at it at this point, including finasteride, and I’m recovering very little. HRT might help a bit, but at this point I’m probably going to have to consider the hair transplant route. It’s expensive and uncomfortable, but I need to toughen up. I need to toughen up on a lot of things, really.

Have a good evening, everyone ❤❤❤

[comradenanti]

I try and make some plans and then someone always stops them

[lilbreck]

Hayley may have loved Jackson, I don't really care, but the whole situation was bullshit, because Jackson himself pointed out that she was still in love with Elijah and then Hayley made this big speech about not getting together with Elijah because it was disrespectful to Jacksons memory and then slept with him like a week later??? He, if I'm recalling correctly was a pretty good guy, but Hayley really didn't deserve him and the whole arranged marriage plot was just uggghh.

Hayley and Elijah getting together isn't bad per say, it's just ridiculous storytelling, because there was so much plot and focus around Hayley and Jackson being each other's family and him making her feel loved and happy, and then when Hay*jah got together it erased all of that because it transported everything back to season 2 and was repetitive. Jackson did a Cami, and was mentioned once or twice to help develop the scene but that's it. There was no other impact. This show... 

I’m not denying that the whole situation was bullshit. The whole show is fucked. I just had a major issue with Nony coming into my inbox and going off about how Hayley was disrespecting Jackson’s memory by keeping his last name and then brought her love life into it like somehow, the fact that she had the nerve to sleep with people as a widow was evil or some shit. It reeked of misogynistic bullshit that weighs a woman’s worth based on her sex life.

I’m also pissed that that Nony forced me into the spot of defending a character I in no way, shape, or form like.

[themostbritishamerican]

Shadowhunters Season 2 Episode 6 Thoughts- Notes

IM SO FUCKING READY FOR THIS DATE MY MAN HOLY SHIT

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I FORGOT ABOUT SIMON AND LUKE AHHHHH!!!!

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Is one of the iron sister's Billie from Supernatural?

Badass women fighting is what I'm here for

That wall run was lit

Clary's drawing runes!

You can't find it because she created it!!!

RAPHAEL AND SIMON AHHHH

Oh god what is Raphael gonna do

CLIZZY!!!

Izzy's hair is beautiful

No, you're not all healed Izzy

Izzy's a liar and is definitely using too much

Izzy loves her back up Aldertree

Simon and Clarry queer besties

Wow wolves are such assholes to Simon like he didn't choose this life back up

Ooh Maia

Luke wtf

Wolf transformations look painful

One commercial break and no date- not even Alec

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MAGNUS THIS IS WHAT I WANTED

ALEC AHHH

MALEC THIS IS WHAT I WANT

MAGNUS CALLING ALEC ALEXANDER IS MY KINK

I FUCKING LOVE THEM

MAGNUS TELLING ALEC HE NEEDS TO TAKE CARE OF HIMSELF IS MY KINK

THEYRE IN SUCH A GOOD RELATIONSHIP

Simon and Maia- did they get together in the books?

I want them to work together to find Luke because I need them to find Luke

The outside of the iron sister's HQ looks so fake

Izzy and Clary are such a power couple

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Woah Luke has a sister?

Ooh she's a demonic impurity Clary's fucked because she's contaminated

You can fuck off Aldertree

Yeah Jace- he's such a protector I respect that

ITS THE DATE

"I'm not a drinker at all" AHHHH THEY'RE SO CUTE TOGETHER

AHH ITS THE POOL SCENE

AHHHHHHHHH

I FUCKING LOVE THEM

AHHHH THEY'RE SO CUTE

Besties since first grade- so cute

Ha awkward- tried to kill your vampire ally's best friend's love interest

Maia and Simon are such cute friends- sharing horror stores

AHHH BACK TO THE DATE

They ARE both competitive

OMG MAGNUS IS FINDING OUT ALEC'S NEVER BEEN IN A RELATIONSHIP

ALEC LOOKS SO SHY

IM SO SHOOK

MAGNUS IS SO SHOOK

THE WORLD IS SHOOK OMFG

Clary's such a stubborn bitch of course we're gonna think you had demon blood too

Omg she doesn't?! That makes no sense

Did this really have to be a wet t-shirt contest

Omg Izzy will though because of the unhealed wound on her back

I knew it

NOOO IZZY

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Poor Izzy it was her dream to be one of them

SEE I KNEW ALDERTREE WAS A LYING BITCH THAT MOTHERFUCKER'S GONNA DIE

Simon and Maia have so much in common they're really cute fuck I don't wanna ship them

Aww Maia was so scared

Her hair was cute long but I do prefer it as it is

Luke is such a nice guy he's such a dad omg

OMG THE DATE

MAGNUS IS NOT JUDGING YOU OKAY ALEC

THERES NOTHING WRONG WITH YOU ALEC I LOVE YOU

"Until you came along" AHHHH

"You're so innocent" AHHHH

YES YOU ARE DIFFERENT HE'S NEVER BEEN WITH A SHADOWHUNTER LIKE YOU

OMG 17?! IS IT BECAUSE OF THE EMOTIONAL TRUAMA OF THEIR DEATHS

OMG 17000 HOLY SHIT

ALEC LOOKS SO SHOOK

DON'T COMPARE YOURSELF TO THEM ALEC

WHY DID YOU ASK ALEC

I JUST WANTED A CUTE DATE WHY YOU GOTTA DO THIS

UGGGHH THEYRE SO CUTE I JUST WANT THEM TO BE HAPPY

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I really don't care about Jace and his problems

BUT FUCK ALDERTREE THIS BITCH CAN GO

Luke is not gonna kill innocents I know that

That IS Billie from Supernatural

SIMON IS STANDING IN THE WAY OMG SO BRAVE

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SIMON GIVING THIS CUTE ASS REMINISCENT SPEECH HURTS MY HEART

Really? An eavesdropping rune?

LUKE IS OKAY THANK GOD

LUKE IS SO BROKEN OMG

OMG MAGUS AND ALEC WALKED HOME

ALEC WAS QUIET NOOO

YOU TWO ARE NOT TOO DIFFERENT YOU'RE OPPOSITES AND THATS WHY YOU LOVE EACH OHER

NO ALEC DONT LEAVE

MAGNUS DONT LET HIM LEAVE

ALEC STAY

YESSSS HE STAYED

HE IS LEARNING TO NOT RUN AWAY FROM HIS PROBLEMS AND TO FACE THEM AND WORK THROUGH THEM AND IM SO PROUD OF MY BABY BOY

"I don't care how many people you've been with/ And I don't care about how many people you haven't been with" OMFG YES THIS IS SO GOOD COMMUNICATION AND ACCEPTANCE THIS IS WHAT IM HERE FOR I LOVE THEM SO MUCH

THEY KISSED OMG THIS IS WHAT I WAS WAITING FOR

THE CROPS ARE GROWING THE SKY IS BLUE LIFE IS BLESSED BY THIS KISS

JACE WHAT THE FUCK

YOU FUCKING COCKBLOCKING BITCH

UGH JACE WHY

OMG MAGNUS' ARM WAS AROUND HIS WAIST AAAHHHH FUCK ME UP

I have Jace's exact jacket omg

OMG THIS IS THE START OF THE SIMON/JACE/MAGNUS LIVING TOGETHER AHHH

Maia and Simon are cute- I don't wanna ship them but they're cute

Clary looks a bit jealous. Idk why since she hasn't ever found him interesting but okay we'll go with this

Luke is such a good dad

Izzy is telling Aldertree off yes fuck this deceitful bitch

YES IZZY DIDNT SNITCH ABOUT THE RUNE IZZY IS SUCH A LOYAL GF I LOVE HER

FUCK YOU ALDERTREE

OMG WHY DID SHE STAB HER

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON

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JACE AS SIMON'S WING MAN AWWW

ALBERTO'S ABS YESSSS

HOLY FUCKING SHIT

ARE WE GETTING A MALEC SEX SCENE

HOLD IT

STOP TIME

I NEED A YEAR TO PROCESS THIS

I CANNOT

WHAT

IS LIFE REAL

I CANNOT

HOLY FUCKING SHIT WE MAY GET A SEX SCENE

IF JACE FUCKS THIS UP TOO I WILL PERSONALLY KILL HIM

[colorisbyshe]

As a butch lesbian, it's so frustrating to see people call femme/butch relationships "heteronormative" or see clearly lesbian-coded characters that are butches and act like uggghh that's so stereotypical and not valid representation. People really can't see the nuance in shit except when there's literally not nuance to it all and go "maybe nazis are ok??? freedom of speech, right?"

I don’t think those dumb asses realize heteronormativity requires... a man and a woman. Or that butch women aren’t stereotypes. (Nor are they over represented?? Like the biggest complaint I see when someone headcanons butch women as gay is that that it’s actually... more radical to want her to be straight??? Like with Brienne??? SHE’S A LESBIAN. Also where are they where butch lesbians have too much representatioN??? SHOW ME.)

But, yeah, people keep applying bad politics onto gay people and refuse to acknowledge that it’s 100% fueled by homophobia (specifically lesbophobia in this case). There’s no reason to compare lesbians to straight people unless you’re trying to attack lesbians. There’s no reason to criticize butches unless, y’unno, you’re trying to attack lesbians.

Gender politics are DIFFERENT with gay and bi people, inherently. Because being attracted to the same gender is inherently gender non conforming and being in same gender relationships completely changes the dynamics. It’s not an oppressor (man) and the one they oppress (woman) in a m/f relationship, so ti can’t be the same.