#when the unhealthy coping mechanism is unhealthy

[sunnystrollblog]

More incorrect quotes

Branch: School sucks.

Floyd: I know, but you have to do it so you can get a job.

Branch: What are jobs like?

Floyd: They suck.

Floyd: Are you ever going to listen to me?

Branch: Yes. Absolutely.

Floyd: When?

Branch: When you're right.

Floyd: Are you laughing at that video of Creek and branch fighting?

John Dory : No.

John Dory : I'm laughing at the comments.

Branch : Physically, yes, I could fight a bird, but emotionally? Imagine the toll!

Branch: When I first got my autism diagnosis, my first thought was “woah… it’s canon” and I think that maybe thoughts like that is why John Dory made me get tested.

poppy: Are you having another depressive episode?

Branch : A depressive episode?

Branch : I'm having a depressive series and we're just on season one.

Branch : I scare people a lot because I walk very softly and they don't hear me enter rooms. So when they turn around, I'm just kind of there and their fear fuels me.

poppy: You know, when I first met you I thought you were a real bitch.

Branch : What changed your mind?

poppy: Oh, I still think you're a bitch. I've just grown to like that about you.

Floyd: *shatters a window and climbs through it*

Floyd: *turns around and helps Branch through it* Breaking and entering is wrong Branch .

Baby Branch : Okay.

Bruce: You're ignoring all your problems.

Branch : I know.

Bruce: You also know it's an unhealthy coping mechanism?

Branch : I'm ignoring that fact as well.

Bruce:

Branch , sniffling: Calm down, I’m probably not sick. It might just be allergies.

Floyd: Okay, tell me this: are you like, really tired?

Branch : I have depression, what do you think?

Bruce: We’re about to do the taser challenge. You want in?

John Dory : What's the taser challenge?

Branch : We tase eachother, then drink.

John Dory : How do you win?

Bruce: What are you, a lawyer? You want in or not?

[gachagon]

This post delves heavily into Kaiser's backstory that was revealed in recent chapters of Blue Lock. The following content has graphic depictions of child abuse and neglect, so please don't click if that is something that is triggering for you.

I'll be honest and say that i was one of the few people who just originally assumed Kaiser was this rich pompous kid like Reo who's parents probably just neglected him because they were so rich, which is WHY he spends so much time trying to not only be the best but look the best.

But now that we know the truth, and that he actually had what is arguably the WORST childhood out of any of the Blue Lock boys, I think this backstory makes far more sense than what I originally thought.

Kaiser has always been one of the most egotistical players on the field, and I don't think he's ever had moments where he genuinely doubts himself outside of when he's trying to beat Isagi. But we never knew where that ego came from and why he's so hellbent on surpassing everyone. I definitely think growing up in a poverty stricken abusive household with a parent who cares nothing for you would definitely morph your sense of identity into something more than a healthy level of egotism.

And here we can even see an explanation for how Kaiser and Ness got such an unhealthy codependent relationship from the jump. It's not Ness that's the "problem" it's Kaiser (Shocking turn of events wow) Kaiser used soccer as an emotional outlet from the abuse his father subjected him too, but it's the only thing he really has to ground him since he has always been hyper-independent from early childhood.

Kaiser's backstory is interesting because unlike the other Blue Lock boys who's main issue was that they were either too good for soccer, or that the people they played soccer with couldn't keep up, Kaiser's issue was that he ONLY had soccer.

He had no one to compete with and no one to befriend, and his only way of dealing with his home life is by playing alone.

I think this really explains why he treats Ness like a grounding tool or someone to satiate his own ego and worries. He's literally not used to having friends like everyone else, and the one person he did befriend is just as socially stunted as he is. So their relationship just became toxic the more they obsessed over their own personal goals. Kaiser's goal is to become the best, and Ness' goal is to see Kaiser become the best, but when faced with road blocks in their goals they don't know how to handle it all and they immediately end up spiraling.

Kaiser also just doesn't have any healthy coping mechanisms outside of soccer because it is both his goal and his reason for living. So when someone like Isagi who's just an enigma to him stops him in his tracks from being able to succeed, he doesn't have anything after that. If soccer is his coping mechanism but it is also tied into his goals, he can't play it to 'feel better' because it'll just remind him of how he lost or how he's not as good as he should be right now.

I think this panel also explains his whole "choking" thing that Ness walked in on. Now that we also know the origin of the blue rose as well, I find it to be really sad that this symbol of the impossible has been revealed to be tied so heavily with the abuse he faced as a child. It makes the scene where he's choking himself seem less like him trying to "focus" more like he went to also punish himself for being "inadequate".

Even in the panels above where his dad is literally choking him for no reason, his father is telling him how he is worthless and useless etc. It definitely puts into perspective his mindset when he was harming himself.

All this to say that Kaiser has internalized his trauma to a dangerous degree if the current state of his mind is anything to go off of.

[whattimeisitfic]

So I was fucking around with an incorrect quote generator and these are some of the funny prompts I got for Luci and his brothers. Most of them are just Raphael and Gabriel having the pettiest sibling rivalry in existence.

—

Pre-Fall days. Lucifer is still getting the hang of proper utility usage…

Gabriel: Hi could I ask how exactly does one accidentally set a lemon on fire?

Lucifer: Microwave for 40 minutes

Michael: WHY WERE YOU MICROWAVING A LEMON?!

Lucifer: I read boiling lemons helps cover up bad smells and I wanted to cover up the scent of burnt oranges, but I didn’t on any pots…

Raphael: Did you burn an orange too? HOW?!

Lucifer: Microwave for 40 minutes.

—

Gabriel addressing the Council. Probably on some really memorable, meaningful event for him or something.

Gabriel: I just wanted to say that over the years, I have come to regard you as… people I met.

—

Does this need context? Could happen literally any time.

Gabriel: You look mentally ill.

Lucifer: I am. Let’s go.

—

Once again, could realistically happen any time, though more likely in their younger years.

Gabriel: Bet you can’t eat 15 crayons

Raphael: Bet you I can!

Michael: *sips coffee, checks to make sure 911 is still on speed dial and goes back to reading the paper*

—

These two I stg—

Raphael: Can I have some water?

Gabriel: *starts chugging their water bottle*

Gabriel: *chokes from drinking too fast*

Gabriel: *spills water all over themselves*

Gabriel, coughing: I don’t have any water.

—

My man is absolutely clueless in the most adorable way possible. We love him for it tho. Was probably Rals texting him.

Lucifer: Gabriel, what does IDK, ILY, and TTYL mean?

Gabriel: I don’t know, I love you, talk to you later.

Lucifer: Alright, I love you too, I’ll ask Michael

Gabriel: Wait, Lucifer, no—

—

You can’t tell me Lucifer wasn’t a chaotic little shit pre-Fall.

Raphael: I have a question.

Michael: Shoot.

Raphael: Is the S or C in scent silent?

Gabriel: Fuck you, I’m going to be thinking about this all day.

Michael: Okay well, cent is pronounced the same way as scent so I’m gonna say the S is silent

Raphael: Okay, but sent is also spelled the same way

Gabriel: Google says that the C was added in the late seventeenth century, so I guess the S is silent.

Lucifer: Plot twist, both the S and the C are silent and the E actually makes the sss sound

Gabriel: Lucifer is not allowed to talk anymore

—

Once again, plausible any time at present.

Michael: You’e ignoring all your problems.

Lucifer: I know.

Michael: You also know it’s an unhealthy coping mechanism?

Lucifer: I’m ignoring that fact as well

Michael:

—

Lucifer can do no wrong.

Michael: WHOEVER CAUSED THIS MESS IS GOING TO-

Lucifer: it was me

Michael: …Is going to be forgiven because very one deserves a second chance.

—

He lasted all of five seconds, and the he had to sass.

Raphael: Oh, hey, I didn’t see you come in! You should have come by and said hello!

Gabriel: Oh! Yeah, I uh…

Gabriel: Didn’t want to bother you.

Gabriel: Or talk to or listen to or be around you.

—

Back when Lucifer wasn’t recovering from near death, and actually didn’t sleep.

Raphael: Truth or dare?

Lucifer: Truth.

Raphael: How many hours have you slept this week?

Lucifer:

Lucifer: Dare.

Raphael: Go to sleep.

Lucifer: I don’t like this game

—

They had an argument. Typical occurrence.

Michael: You have to apologize to Gabriel!

Raphael: Fine!

Raphael: Unfuck you or whatever!

—

I think this about sums it up.

Raphael: Are you alright?

Lucifer: Short answer or long answer?

Raphael: Short?

Lucifer: No.

Raphael: Long?

Lucifer: Nooooooo

—

I’ll say it again: these two—

Raphael: Guys, I have a question.

Gabriel: kys <3

Raphael: I love you too.

Michael: Ah. Yes. Siblings.

—

If Lucifer ever went out drinking w/ his siblings (u know, to the places that actually serve shit to get him wasted)

Lucifer, clearly drunk: Gabriel, hit me another drink… wooOO HOOoo…

Gabriel: I think you need a therapist and not a bottle

Lucifer: I think yooOOoouu need to shuUT YOUR MOUTH!

—

Last one. You can’t tell me Raphael doesn’t get weird obsessions w/ shows like this and convinces himself he’s gonna somehow end up in a similar situation. Michael is concerned

Raphael: When I get murdered, can you make sure I become an unsolved case?

Michael: wHat?

Raphael: I want to be on Buzzfeed Unsolved

Michael: Can we go back to the part when you said “when I get murdered”?

—

Alright that’s all I got for now ducklings! I just thought it was kind of funny.

If you’re reading this with no context but are interested, consider checking out my Hazbin Hotel Lucifer-centric fic on AO3 What Time Is It. I try to update daily and do my best to answer all comments ;)

[serpensortiamaxima]

I'd love to hear about all of your MC's flaws, beyond the relative murderousness that the game pushes the player to.

Like, are they too impulsive for their own good? Do they have the emotional capacity/moral compass of a clamshell or are they too emotional? Do they have unhealthy coping mechanisms? Like, what's going on in their heads? How did you make them more dimensional beyond what the game allows?

I can start with Anwen. The girl is elusive and doesn't let people in. She hates feeling endebted towards people and refuses help unless she asks for it first. For example, I imagine that Ominis tried to check on her after Sebastian cast the cruciatus curse on her, and she was quick to dismiss him ("I appreciate your concern, but I'm not the one you should be worrying about."). Everything has to be on her own terms and it makes her incredibly difficult to deal with for anyone who actually wants to know her. This aligns with the wand wood she wields, pine ("The straight-grained pine wand always chooses an independent, individual master who may be perceived as a loner, intriguing and perhaps mysterious."), but in her case, it's pushed to annoying degrees.

She puts up a front and will act unaffected by just about anything until it reaches a breaking point. And when this happens, she retreats instead of seeking support. She has two preferred hiding spots to wallow in her feelings, the underground harbour and Apollonia's Grotto after the Ghost of Love quest, because she knows she'll be alone. She went to the underground harbour after Sebastian told her Anne wasn't going to turn him in and broke down there instead.

[mako-neexu]

smth smth rambles that are entirely my opinion and i could be wrong (so dont attack me) you know this chapter made guda, fuijmaru ritsuka with already Many Issues worse is because of "mash" or rather kyrie's death but ultimately comes back to mash...that dantes did for them.

we even see a while back how guda was already shaken by not knowing whether mash is safe during lb6 after that fog like their priority is mash. mash.

they were already frantic as soon as they remembered mash almost questioning everyone about her whereabouts and immediately got reckless just trying to reach her at norwich. and when only when they were together did the "narrator" emphasize on the sheer relief guda felt like-- wow the obvious signs in OC chapter 2 makes you realize furthermore that guda's sanity hangs on a thin thread named 'mash' asdfgh

yes guda loves mash!! yes they care about her!!! but look and read at how guda tells absolutely nothing to mash- and that applied the same to kyrie!

(more below)

kyrie wanted to know and ask her senpai about the situation like we see her really wanting it but ultimately backtracking in the end because she trusts guda and she's even supportive. and guda was grateful/relieved that she stays innocent about the weird things going on in their tokyo.

they do compromise at one point that if kyrie really demands on explanations, guda would tell her but...

guda doesnt tell her anything, (kyrie believes in her senpai so even when faced with death, kyrie didnt break under pressure) keeps her in the dark so no one comes after her. for her to be ultimately safe. so she remains...innocent, normal who stands alongside "mama" and "little sister" as they arent involved in the first place about whats been happening. and guda wants to keep it that way for their family. not a real family, but a family nonetheless that cared about guda. an epitome of normal- which mash kyrielight has attained.

and now you see guda, who, upon waking up asks mash kyrielight if she was okay. if she was alright. guda doesnt stop their questions until mash answered. and so mash answered.

"I'm okay, Senpai. My vital signs are normal... so I'm completely okay."

all the while guda had just dismissed being in pain literally one minute ago and just hugged her tight. they "save mash the trouble" to tell her about the pains they went through in the singularity so as not to burden mash. so they stuff their pain inside the corner of their heart again, completely satisfied with mash's safety and disregarding their own health. (you also see in section 23 that theyre cherishing the normal and small moments with mash.)

mash is normal. mash looks pure to guda, her heart filled with "color" in comparison to guda whose heart has become "transparent". an inverse character development which will ultimately destroy them both.

for mash, who sees her Senpai as strong and unwavering, the image of kindness and strength when they held her hand during part 1 crushed by a coffin which she continues to believe them to be that way until now.

for guda, who sees mash as someone who's become normal. one last remnant that reminds them of a past life lost, mash with that purity and normalcy becoming an ideal to protect (as if she was glass) because they no longer have their own. (and mash is also literally the only one left close to guda, who remembers all the events of part 1. which... adds more to how losing mash would break guda even further.)

(also we see guda say 'tadaima' coming home to an empty house, the loss of kyrie and their family still in mind, and a little later, the Avenger mindset comes back and settles in as they're plagued by bloodlust. then when guda comes back to mash, their home, mash is their home. do you realize that? do you realize what im saying? mash says: "welcome home, senpai." and that was enough for guda. that eased everything in guda's tumultuous heart.)

i remembered guda avoiding on telling "mom" that they and kyrie were near the "gas leak site" / britoalter's battleground so like.....of course their lying to medical staff about getting back to the battlefield would carry over here.

deliberately making sure the "normal" components of their fake high school life remain untainted is what we see guda do. they shouldered everything, terrifying as it is, just to protect them but ended up inevitably losing them in the process.

there's also that contrast in seeing a dead body between kyrie and guda. kyrie still stood strong against dantes and remained rational and calm while telling "ojisama" that this wasnt good for guda. meanwhile guda, while still able to think about calling the ambulance after seeing the da vincis absolutely lost their mind when it came to kyrie which their mind thought of mash- and i think guda thought of both as 'one' person so they went absolutely insane right then and there

during the conversation with amatsuka, thats the part where guda became finally stable. because its implied guda's mental state really broke at kyrie's death which their mind automatically thought it to be "=mash is dead". but ukelele-senpai saved the day by reminding guda where they are, if mash and kyrie were the same person, and helping guda calm down and think of seeing that blue sky with mash during the part 1 epilogue.

and augh guda you shit!!! you need therapy!! dont put mash in a pedestal!! dont treat her as if she's fragile!! dont treat her like porcelain meant to be protected while you take on everything for the sake of keeping mash safe because she is the only remnant of your past left, because she is the only "normal" person you have left!!! guda you need to understand that if ever mash gets hurt someday or dies and its out of your control, you need to understand that it wont be your fault!! you need to understand that because someday you will part ways with her as well and you need to be able to be ready to lose again. if you lose mash once and for all, what will you do!?!?!? this is not healthy guda!! gudaaa you hear me!!?? gudaaaaaaa

[mamawasatesttube]

timcassie is so compelling to me. they were not into each other even a little bit. it was such a messy coping mechanism fuelled entirely by grief. they were making out with each other because they were both substituting each other for kon. cassie was far more aware she was doing this than tim was. unironically, dating a girl here is one of the gayest things tim has done

[kataraavatara]

“guys, the house of wind was like REHAB for nesta” THEY FUCK YOU IN REHAB??????

[piosplayhouse]

We are not wise is yet again making me sad about how shen jiu could've had SUCH a good redemption if only he didn't pick literally the WORST possible profession for himself where he'd be constantly surrounded by wealthy privileged male kids who'd make him constantly reopen his wounds and relive his childhood

[rocksinmuffin]

Without posting any details because I do not want to bum anyone out, I have been having one of the most stressful weeks I have ever had in over a decade so I want the people who are waiting on their commissions to know I HAVE been working on them and they WILL be out soon but also I am going to unhealthily cope today by getting edible high and watching the bad CATS 2019 musical and posting on my @adamsandgirl high blog because I need to shut my brain off but also do the funniest self harm possible

[anaalnathrakhs]

when sad, print a picture of your favorite old man and stick it in a heart locket

[autistic-katara]

you self harm bcz on an unhealthy coping mechanism u picked up.

i self harm bcz i’m apparently a fucking masochist.

we are not the same.

[nickythehickey]

un-mask

(read on ao3: https://archiveofourown.org/works/54520237)

CW: Implied/referenced sh, brief descriptions of physical pain, identity issues, metaphors about/allusions to autistic masking

For what it may have been worth, Atlas hated his mask. He supposed he could see why someone might initially be impressed with it– at first glance, it appeared to be made of a brilliant bright porcelain, held on his head with black satin ribbons that buckled together in the back and adorned with a carefully painted face. Whoever made it must’ve spent a long, long time on it. But there were flaws; the “porcelain” was actually a thin, scratchy plastic, with rough edges that sanded away at his skin whenever he wore it. The painted red lips were starting to chip away, and no matter how often he tried to fill the cracks he just couldn't get it back to looking new. The coverings over the eye holes were nearly impossible to see through. Even though it looked like him, it also undeniably didn’t– it looked like someone else’s idea of what a perfect “him” would look like. No matter what he did, he couldn’t ignore how terrible the mask really was. Wearing it made him miserable, but apparently, he was the only one who saw it for what it was. He never understood why everyone else thought it was so beautiful. Why they seemingly couldn’t stand him without it. Why it was the only way people would stay.

It really did seem like the cycle never ended. It was always the same. He’d meet someone, they’d become friends, he’d feel close enough with them to take off the mask. They’d realize they didn’t actually like him. They’d leave.

Enough. He’d had enough. This time was one time too many. If a mask was what everyone wanted, then a mask they’d get. As a matter of fact, they’d never get anything else again.

Atlas sat on his bed, door locked, the only light a soft navy glow through his window. In his lap: the mask, its cheap white plastic and bright red mouth openly mocking him. In his hand: a hot glue gun. Why hot glue? It was the best adhesive he could think of at the time. Or maybe he wanted what he was doing to hurt. He didn’t know.

He tied his hair back, plugged the glue gun into the lamp on his nightstand, and waited… far too long for it to heat up. Occasionally, he’d pump the trigger a few times to test if it was usable yet. Damn his impatience– you’d think the extra time would make him rethink what he was doing, but instead it simply made him more frustrated, more upset, more set in his decision. He did tend to be rash and stubborn when emotional… and he had the nerve to be annoyed by Juno’s impulsiveness. Figures.

For the love of Harmonia, he needed to get this done. Was it…? He checked the gun again, and sure enough, the clear glue started to ooze from the tip. Took long enough.

He made a ring of glue around the edge of the mask. No going back now. He filled in some of the extra surface area over the anchor points- nose, forehead, chin... it needed to be as secure as he could possibly make it. He made sure to use just about the whole stick of glue, filling in more and more until the melted plastic stopped flowing from the tip of the gun.

Setting the gun down, he took a deep breath, and a final moment to internally yell at himself to just do it already. He tensed nearly every muscle in his body and firmly pressed the mask to his face.

It burned. It burned immediately, and it burned bad. It may not have been the worst pain he'd felt, but it was enough to make his eyes water. Time almost seemed to slow as his grip tightened, the glue seeping into the hairs along his chin and spreading across his skin, taking the heat with it. He ignored it. He just kept holding the plastic to his face.

He hated this. He hated the mask. He hated needing it. He hated Juno and Simon for not needing masks of their own. He hated himself for being so pathetic that he had no choice but to hide behind a facade. He hated the world for not wanting him without it.

He was ripped from his thoughts by the sting of sunlight in his eyes. Damn. It was morning already. He'd been up all night again. When did that happen?

Oh well. He might as well start trying to figure out how to eat with a hard plastic sheet covering his mouth. He tied the ribbon behind his head; it no longer served a purpose, but he supposed it looked neater that way. He had no idea what time it was, but hopefully, it was just the right time for him to do so alone.

— —

Of course, it wasn't the right time. Of course, it was just early enough for Juno to still be awake from the night before and just late enough for Simon to have woken up for the day. Of course, BOTH of his other thirds had to be in the kitchen at the same time. Of course, they weren’t even distracted by an argument. Just his luck.

When they greeted him, he said nothing. Talking with the mask was always difficult, even before he accidentally glued his jaw shut. He’d handle that problem later. Probably.

Naturally, Simon was the first to notice everything. “You know you don't have to wear that thing around us, right? We do like you without it.”

Even if it didn't matter now, he still wished he could believe them.

[dirtytransmasc]

say sike... say sike right now PLEASE

[wow-an-unfunny-joke]

The second I think I’m safe, just vibing with welcome home tmnt and South Park, out of fucking nowhere hermitcraft and my hero academia just grab me by my Fucking ear and drag me outta the place just for omori to straight up BODY SLAM ME

[jaypgartifacts]

october is coming. which means, of course, that it is time for the horrors. tfw the dream self must confront the Nightmare Self

[neriumdelusion]

Anyone ever think how Charles living in a ghost town is very much the peak of having life pass you by, dissociation and melancholy depression as a town itself. You ever think about how jarring the vibrancy of dbt would’ve been for him. The relief he would’ve felt for Donovan’s sake that he’d grow up with this instead. The way you feel when you go outside after weeks rotting in your room. Despite any of the strex history of db it’s ALIVE. It’s very aggressively fucking alive, it’s a healing community vs the death and almost paused existence state of pine cliff