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i live in ontario. it's 32 celsius right now. i would do anything for 26.

(keep in mind yesterday it was 40c and i passed out from heat intolerance and pots)

Personality test, is 80f/26c too hot for you?

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save me all for the game save me

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i either like something for 2 hours or for 2 years

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hello

please remember that a large part (77%) of russia is in asia.

which means that me + my brother + my mum's family are asian.

anyway that's it that's the post

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"your scars aren't that obvious, i didn't notice them!"

liar i saw you staring at me when i walked into second period geography without a hoodie on and you could see all the scars on my arms don't try the i didn't notice them shit with me

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people suck so psa time i guess!!!!!

hEDS genuinely hurts.

i am in pain CONSTANTLY.

my hypermobility is not a party trick i can turn off whenever.

it causes debilitating pain and fatigue and fainting and constant doctor visits.

people look at me with DISGUST in their eyes when i dislocate my joints.

people tell me i am disgusting for my knees that go in rather than sit in place, for the pain i am in, for the amount of energy it takes to get out of bed, for popping my joints back into place.

i'm told i'm faking it when i use my mobility aids because i don't LOOK like i'm in pain.

i cannot turn it off.

even when i want to.

because it doesn't work like that.

i can't change it if people are uncomfortable with the way my body works.

braces do not fix everything. standing differently doesn't not fix everything (i also have a knee injury so idk why people think i can stand differently????????)

my hypermobility is not because i do gymnastics. it is because i have hEDS. and hEDS is a horrible and disabling condition to have.

"pretty much everyone is hypermobile to some degree though!!!!!" but their bodies don't decide to not work whenever it damn pleases. but their bodies don't hurt everywhere whenever they do anything. but they don't dislocate their joints when they're sleeping. but they don't go to the hospital and have surgery to fix their bodies.

anyway. hEDS (and all other types of EDS) sucks absolute balls. and if you think i can just turn it off whenever i damn please you are wrong in every way possible.

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as a very queer very trans person

please stop telling cishets that they are queer

"im straight" "no you're trans and queer"

IT IS NOT YOUR JOB TO MAKE THEM BE QUEER!!!!!!!!!!!!

not everyone is queer or trans. not everyone is cis or het.

but sometimes!!!!!!! people are still cishets!!!!!!!!!!!

and i make jokes about not liking cishets because a lot of the ones i know irl are interesting people who call me a monster for having disorders and being a tranny

but please!!!!!!!!! stop telling people that theyre trans if they say that they aren't

I have some of the strangest experiences in queer spaces as a cishet person. Tell me why so many of them either - immediately assume i'm a predator of some kind (no I don't want to turn lesbians straight, are you high?) - assume i'm in the closet or my egg is uncracked (If I have to explain how yes i am actually cishet one more time i'm gonna explode) - make judgements about my relationship (just because i'm married to a queer woman doesn't make me a weirdo and I'm not hir fucking "jakey," whatever the hell that means) - tell me that I'm not allowed to have opinions or take part in discussion because I'm cishet so I can't possibly ever understand (???) - straight up do not believe me because I "act too queer" to be cishet (yes, i have actually been told this.)

I get that the queer community can be kind of insular sometimes. I get that many queers retreat into the community for safety and understanding and don't tend to venture out of it a lot. But like. Y'all need to get better at treating allies like they're still people.

You do not have the luxury of being judgemental and exclusionary when you are public enemy #1 in a lot of places. Allies can be imperfect. We can make mistakes and overstep and talk over and misunderstand. Sometimes allies aren't very good allies at all. But wouldn't you rather stand with someone than stand alone? Alienating your allies only ever harms the community.

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reminder that seizures can cause traumatic brain injuries

i got a tbi when i was 10 years old because of a grand mal seizure. like full on severe brain damage. and then i had to live through 2020 — yeah, the global pandemic year — while dealing with untreated brain damage. and guess what? people like me exist. and we’re constantly erased from both seizure discourse and tbi discourse.

not all brain injuries come from car crashes or football. some of us got brain damage from our own nervous systems betraying us. from our own bodies short circuiting. and no one talks about it.

we deserve acceptance. we deserve awareness. we deserve to be included in conversations about neurodivergence and disability without being told we’re making it up or “it’s not the same thing.”

people treat tbi like it’s only valid if it’s visible. like unless you’re in a wheelchair or wearing a helmet you’re just faking it. newsflash: you can’t see what’s going on inside my skull. but it’s real. and it’s hard.

so yeah. shoutout to the seizure survivors with brain injuries. shoutout to the kids who had seizures and never fully recovered. shoutout to the people who went through brain trauma and were expected to just keep functioning normally like nothing happened.

we’re here. we exist. and we’re done being quiet about it.

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hello anti rq teen with biid. one of my friends also had biid. he died after cutting his eye out. i am not transabled for having a disability!! i did not ask for it!! i do not want it!! it makes me feel disgusting to have this disorder, these thoughts. knowing that it kills people. i hate it.

anyways people with biid are cool and i like us a lot.

As someone who has BIID, i am so fucking sick of transabled people. I'm sick of hearing of them, I'm sick of being accused of being one of them, I'm sick of thinking about them, I'm sick of them fucking invading our spaces and claiming our title. God. I'm so fucking sick.

This disorder is already poorly recognised as it is. There's barely any research on us, never any acknowledgement of our struggles, and we're fighting a literal battle to have our autonomy recognised in the medical field. No one fucking knows who we are. But they know the transableds. I have been banned and kicked out of multiple online spaces for trying to talk about my BIID under accusations of being transabled. Transabled people are and always will be incredibly fucking dangerous for the BIID community and I fucking hate them.

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“DNI ENDO positive”

Why do you hate people with endometriosis?

i dont (i actually have endometriosis)

i also don't hate endogenic systems (people who claim to have did without childhood trauma) because did is a traumagenic disorder

anywho

yes lets go people with endometriosis

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me and @sh4rkonesie real??

We need to normalise bpd4bpd relationships of all kinds, honestly. They are the most wonderful thing!

This goes for platonic, exclusively sexual, exclusively romantic, both, sibling (which fits under platonic of course), and queerplatonic relationships!! We are like best friends we understand eachother on a level no one outside of our relationship ever will.

We will literally not talk for weeks, months even, and then talk like we are soulmates that talk to eachother 24/7 when we eventually do once again.

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disability pride month is july and im on vacation and have not checked tumblr in a week but here is some love for people with personality disorders <33 because yes they are disabling and it sucks. SO:

i love you people with npd

i love you people with bpd

i love you people with aspd

i love you people with hpd

i love you people with stpd

i love you people with szpd

i love you people with ppd

i love you people with avpd

i love you people with ocpd

i love you people with dpd

i love you people with personality disorders

i love you people who were told they feel nothing when they feel too much

i love you people with scary feelings

i love you if you call yourself a narcissist or just say you have npd

i love you people with disorders that make people flinch

i love you people with the big scary disorders

i love you people who spiral because they didn't text back in a few minutes

i love you people who feel safer when hidden behind a mask

i love you people who always mask and i love you people who don't mask and i love you people who can't mask

yall are amazing and i love you so much

you are deserving of love and appreciation and understanding even if you aren't "healed"

love, a pwPDs

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With an influx of asks and comments I have seen on multiple different blogs scolding people for talking in a simpler way (e.g. third person, less use of inbetween words, simpler words, etc), here is a non exhaustive list of why someone may speak like that:

- Intellectual disability

- Autism (All autistics. Not just level 3.)

- Dyspraxia

- Traumatic brain injuries

- Cognitive issues

- Processing issues

- Systems/plurals

- Not have the energy for "proper" wording

- AAC (It takes a while to type on AAC so it's often easier to use simpler wording)

- May just prefer it

I don't think I have ever seen someone who talks like this say that only people who always speak like that are allowed to speak like that. Unless the person is being mean with it (mocking) then they aren't doing anything wrong. Just let people speak comfortably and how they want to, please.

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i would like to add canadians because as a canadian i hear it + say it a lot

when ur talking to a new online friend and they say "bloody" for the first time

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not in here (im asian russian) but yes!!!!!!!! i love yall

Shoutout to all Asian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Bruneian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Burmese LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Cambodian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Filipino LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout all Hmong LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Indonesian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Laotian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Malaysian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Mien LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Singaporean LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Timorese LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Thai LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Vietnamese LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Afghani LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Armenian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Azerbaijani LGBTQ+ folks.

Shout to all Georgian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Kazakh LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Kyrgyz LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Mongolian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Tajik LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Turkmen LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Uzbek LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Chinese LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Japanese LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Korean LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Okinawan LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Taiwanese LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Tibetan LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Bangladeshi LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Bhutanese LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Indian LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Maldivians LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Nepali LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Sri Lankan LGBTQ+ folks.

Shoutout to all Pakistani LGBTQ+ folks.

Take pride in it all. Your culture, your identity, it’s all so beautiful. Celebrate where you are from and who you are. It makes you you, and that is something to be proud of.

post for Pacific Islanders, post for Middle Easterners, post for Oceanic folks , post for Hispanics, post for Africans, post for Native Americans, post for Caribbeans

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ICE CREAM DELIVERY!!! give ice cream to your favorite bloggers and help them stay cool this summer 🍦

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i love ice cream !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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!!!!!!!!!!

i am personally considered "low support needs autistic". i can go to school (sometimes), i can go to the mall (rarely), i can usually communicate in some way. i am a minor and thus don't pay taxes (i have seen my neurotypical mother do taxes and have a breakdown, i would not be able to do it without a lot of help). i cannot work due to other disorders and disabilities. my psychosis handicaps me to the point of autistic meltdowns. i can barely fit into society's definition of useful and productive. i go nonverbal the second i am upset. i age regress. i am sometimes considered "visibly autistic". i am a poc. i am trans and queer. i do have other disabilities.

canada (and other countries but im from canada so) loves to say that they are so helpful and accommodating for autistic people. we aren't. my school does not understand my needs or my autistic peers needs. they dont even understand epilepsy, why would they understand autism (/sarcasm)?

the people considered visibly autistic will always be the most vulnerable whether we like it or not and that is a PROBLEM.

thank you and goodnight.

dear autistics who

white

low support needs

not need 24/7 support

can work independently

can pay taxes

language privileged

intellectual & cognitive privileged

who can fit in societal definition of useful & productive (yes, even if hard)

when fight back against eugenics & ableism, you NEED to fight alongside, fight with, n fight for autistics who

radicalized & POC

from places of world where there critically lack autism knowledge n support

visibly autistic

higher support needs

need 24/7 care

can’t work independently or even work at all

can’t pay taxes

nonverbal, nonspeaking, minimally verbal, without functional communication, or cannot communicate via language at all even AAC

w intellectual disability or cognitive disabilities

who cannot fit into society definition of useful n productive, no matter how hard we try

because we always are & always will be primary target.

because we most vulnerable most marginalized within our, OUR community, which you belong in.

because once they finish us off you won’t be spared.