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Sigma Quote of the Day

It's no about who howls the loudest, it's about who howls the strongest.

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Day Two - 30 days of writing

kittens, the warmth I feel from simulating being a mother. how it feels to raise them.

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Day One - 30 days of writing

I am sweet like peach tea with three artificial sugar packets, never real sugar. I am barely human, something in-between of cyber human and angel. I'm in love with my computer, I will disembowel myself and replace my insides with cords. I love arts and crafts!

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Alt Kid Quiz!! (15 q's)

1. Favorite piece of merch?

2. The most niche band/group/singer you know?

3. Favorite OR your personal alternative style?

4. Major misconception(s) about that style?

5. Favorite icon/persona who popularized the style?

6. Least favorite icon/persona who popularized the style?

7. Song(s) that encapsulate the style?

8. How long have you been committed to the style?

9. Most creative insult you've heard while wearing the style?

10. Best part about the style?

11. Worst part about the style?

12. What lifestyle choices do you make to commit to the style?

13. Are your friends/family supportive?

14. Is your style easy to shop for?

15. Recommendations for any one trying to start dressing in that style?

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My main playlists

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Give me one good reason

I was exposed at a young age to this thing called jealousy. See, I was in love with all of my friends. I have a love for them that wasn’t romantic or friendly, but it wasn’t reciprocated. It felt nice to love them. But being their friend was torture. So I found comfort in Him. But His existence only made things worse. I felt friendly attraction for the first time with Him. He was just a friend. But he found romantic attraction in me for the first time. We never disagreed, or fought, but I could see in his eyes that He wanted more from me. He expected more. And I felt nothing. So He kissed me. And I felt nothing. And He kissed me. And I felt nothing. And there wasn’t anything wrong with what he did. But it changed me. And I can’t call it traumatic because apparently it wasn’t ‘a big enough deal to be worth something’ but it was. Because it changed. Me. I sought to serve in love, instead of understanding someone. I kept my eyes forward, my head down, and served. I was on top of birthday presents and quick replies. But this eagerness scared off all of my partners. Until I learned to calm down. Once I started seeing love differently I learned how to feel it and accept it. And then someone else walked into my life and they allowed me to learn how to know someone and then love someone. And I like and love them for that. To learn gentleness changed me more than anything I’d ever known.

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Rotting lemons

It’s supposed to be sweet when you bite into it

It’s supposed to be sweet

But it’s not

It’s moldy and it tastes wrong and I don’t want to bite into this anymore

Is the lemon rotting

Or am I not fit to eat lemons?

Am I allergic?

Am I allergic to this love?

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My favorite weirdo songs for loser emo bitches

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the real me

once I remove the atrocities on my chest

and I do my hair how I want

and begin to grow a beard

and a fancy mustache

and I define my jaw

and deepen my voice

Maybe, bust maybe then

They will see the same man that I see in the mirror

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violent words cut deep

I usually don't tolerate being told what to do. Moths fly around my head like I'm dizzy and dainty and maybe I am just another moth circling the light source. I always tell myself I'm independent and a free thinker but I'm just selective with my listening.

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bury me inside my lovers ribs

bury me inside my lovers ribs

bury me inside my lovers bones

let me sit next to the heart

let me sit next to the lungs

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I’ll never forget the first trans person I met

His father was a teacher at my school, and he proudly introduced his new son

But his son was hesitant

His son told me that still calling him “lily” was fine,

And that we didn’t have to use his proper pronouns if we didn’t want to

He said his trans-mess was a bad mental disease

And that we didn’t have to respect him

But I did

I called him his true name

And I used his proper pronouns

And I complimented his new hair and clothes

I told him that I could be the first to like him as a boy if he couldn’t do that for himself

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Fun fact: ace people can wear clothing which can be interpreted as sexual despite being ace.

like

Just because someone has skin showing doesn’t mean they want to have sex. Thinking like that is…kinda just really weird

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I died a while back

I like to say that I died

But in reality I just lost humanity

No meaning, no purpose

No memory, just torment

And an intense headache that only went away after years of clutching my arms by my side

Telling myself it would be over soon

To be stranded and abandoned by god and your own sanity

To be haunted by the memories of what once was

To spend months manically rambling about prophecies and Jesus

Then restarting all over again

It’s fitting to say that I died

Because I don’t even recognize my old thoughts

That isn’t me.