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System Log,

System experience is wanting to listen to new music and pulling up the liked playlist bc you don’t know what the hell you’re gonna find in there.

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System Log,

Its been awhile since I made a post.

Also I just figured put Octocon and Simply Plural were a thing.

Maybe we shouldn’t try both… buuutt WE GON TRY BOTH

Struggling to get a Job, struggling to afford rent so Im doordashing now.

Living has been feeling absolutely impossible. My tummy is hungry.

I go make food now 🥰

I dun wannaa make fooooddd

UGHHHHH

-✨🌙🥺💚🖤

[haru-kanashii]

System Log,

Remembering the time I put Home into google maps and it mapped to some place accross the country so I dropped the little orange guy on the map and it didn’t exist

Home??? Nah bro.

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System Log,

Frags just randomly be gaining personality???

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YESSSSS I LOVE THE ENTIRE COMMUNITY YALL ARE BEAUTIFUL AND AMAZING AND BEAUTIFUL or handome if you prefer just dripping with the water of the sunset and sunrise

WOOOOOOO

HAPPY ANNIVERSARY RAIN WORLD WOOOO YEAAAAH

[haru-kanashii]

System Log,

Missed period???

More like I never miss my period bc this hurts like hell.

(Glad I aint in college AND pregnant tho cuz it was 2 weeks late 😭)

HELP

AND I HAVE NO FOOD 😭 putting in a request for sugar, daddy.

-🧚🏼‍♀️ (and she was a fairy)

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One day. One year. I will help. I will do rw art month.

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System Log,

Nothing like a new eraser to inspire drawing just so I can use the beautiful thing.

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System log,

Just a lil guy

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Genuinely how do people find other people with DID to talk to even online it's always hard for us but we feel so isolated not being able to foster any sort of friendship with people who understand what it's like to live with this disorder. I think especially the others because they feel embarrassed introducing themselves to anyone who isn't well versed on DID.

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System Log,

The psychiatrist deduced Im too avoidant of society so they wont help me get my own room at college which I think is bullshit

Even though they said we show symptoms of ptsd and shit

And safety plans are bs too

Talking about all the trauma you have is bs too

-❄️

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System Log,

Good mazing people

I got so many things from mail. Ive been randomly struggling with words a whole lot where I camt speak. I got a star projector. Im so happy about my star projector. I got paper stars. I want to make tiny dinosaurs and sell them. Stuffed animal dinosaurs. Around 4 inches tall. Its spring break. Barely any hw. Im so happy.

[haru-kanashii]

System Log,

YALL ITS RAINWORLD ART MONTH

AHHHHHHH

AHHHHHHH

awawawaaawa

Have good art and day

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In true DID fashion, I've forgotten that March 5th is

🌈🌟 DID AWARENESS DAY 🌟🌈

I'm going to celebrate by dissociating

Happy awareness!

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My most common feeling of dissociation is like Im in a pool like you do floating on your back but Im floating at different levels and if Im sinking staring out into the world gets blurrier and blurrier while the water pressure numbs my body.

Occasionally we’ll have dissociation where it feels like we are constantly breathing cold air or when its like we are in a glass box. Sometimes colors get more or less vibrant. Major headaches too, and white static where its like everything around us is teleporting including us and thoughts are like teleporting too.

SYSTEM QUESTION!!!:

what does dissociation look for you? what does it feel like? do you know you're dissociating?

personally, dissociation looks very different for me! i have many ways! sometimes, i stare into space without thinking of anything. its like white noise in my brain. thats my most common!

but sometimes i feel like im about to have a sleep paralysis, without the actual sleep. my body starts becoming fuzzy and i feel like my whole SOUL is getting jerked out of my body.

dissociation is super hard to describe, so please do your best :D!!

[haru-kanashii]

System Log,

Feeling like I don’t want today to happen. Exhausted. My body will hurt when I wake up due to lack of sleep. I am anxious and tired.

My body is shutting down…

🤝

Contract sealed to fpr appropriate function today.

Denied?? Wdym denied??

👏

-🗒️🖋️

[haru-kanashii]

System Log,

In Bio Psych, have a candy bar, have a propel. I prayed Fajr today. Made it to class in time today

Feelin Good

- 🗒️