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One of my Sirius headcanons is that he's not actually an extrovert. He's more of an ambivert pretending to be an extrovert.

Let me explain.

To me, Sirius feels like a very, very complex person who doesn't really let people in or trust easily, and he probably puts on an act of sorts in front of people, especially people he doesn't know. So why couldn't his extroverted nature also be part of this?

My headcanon is this: Sirius actually enjoys the peace and quiet, but only when he's with the people who can drown out his thoughts. He loves the quiet evenings spent lying on his bed while Remus reads to him and strokes his hair. He loves sitting quietly in the Quidditch stands and watching James practising too much again. He loves closing his eyes in front of the fireplace in the common room with Lily after everyone else has gone to bed, feeling the warmth of the flames against his skin.

But he likes the chaos too. He needs it, he craves it. It's the only thing stopping him from going insane when there's more than one other person there. It drowns out his thoughts, makes him feel the freedom he always craves when he's being stifled at home. He lives and breathes the chaos, but he can't cope without silence. Everyone has a breaking point, a point at which everything becomes too much, and Sirius needs peace more often than most students think.

I think he needs silence sometimes because he's so used to conflict. He's used to shouting and screaming at home, hearing both Regulus and himself being yelled at constantly, and he needs something to combat that. He needs the peace, coupled with a comforting presence to stop his thoughts from straying too far.

But any more than one person, and that softer, quieter side of him is gone, just like that. It's too much to be truly peaceful, so he resorts to his default setting of guarded and loud, cocky and arrogant. Because yes. That is who Sirius is. Just not always. He needs positive attention to survive, which is why he could never be an introvert, but he still craves peace just as much as he craves chaos.

And Remus, James and Lily? They're the ones who bring it to him.

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That feeling when your friends become your family <333

But they're all going to different schools now

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fuuuuck i just realized that the future idealized version of myself cant exist without current me being the catalyst for change and doing hard things. has anybody heard about this

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Making a LONGGG PowerPoint about the Marauders era... I'm already three hours in and have only covered the characters 👍

Should I post a link to it once it's done?

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I could not choose a section of the chapter to take out, but chapter 13 of A '70s Rhapsody is out now!! (Sorry it's late, whoops)

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Remus: Where are you going?

Sirius: To get MYSELF a gift cause somebody didn't get me one!

Remus: I told you I did! Its coming here on Friday!

James, knowing full well that Remus got Sirius an engagement ring: *eating popcorn*

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I actually haven't looked in a while but last I checked I was about 161cm (5'3)

Open tags :)

basic ahh tag game

idk i’m curious

how tall are you

i’m 4’11, ~150 cm (sobs)

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I loveee that jegulus are sometimes referred to as starchaser and sunseeker

Bc James is starchaser (he's chasing after Regulus, the star), and Regulus is sunseeker (he always seeks company from James, the sun).

But then regulus dies

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Remus: okay Harry, can you spell “blue”?

*5-year-old Harry*: B-L……-E…-U

James: no sweetie, that’s not-

Regulus coming from the kitchen: THAT’S FRENCH!

James: love, I don’t think he-

Regulus: MON PETIT GÉNIE!

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Friendly reminder to keep anti posts away from the regular ship tags. That's fandom etiquette 101 🫶🏻

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daily affirmations:

i am kind

i am in control of my emotions

it does not bother me when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

everyone in the house has the right to be in the kitchen

i am kind and in control of my emotions even when someone is in the kitchen while i was planning to be in there alone

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they should invent a me who is not exhausted by simply being alive

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I played video games with my sister because everything hurtssss

saw a video that was like “everybody comment what you did today so we can see how everyone experienced something different” and the comments have me tearing up on this train. what the fuckkkk. the human experience

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the whole spectrum etc…

follow everyone who reblogs ;)

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CONGRATS!!! YOU WERE MY 100th FOLLOWER :)

Omg I'm honoured 🥳

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Proud to say I can legally have sex now

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"just write a little every day" ok but what if i write nothing for 3 weeks and then suddenly type like i’m being hunted by god