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[ntamain]

Is my (24F) neighbour (27F) into me or is she just being friendly? How do I know if she's gay?

another gay gem from the r/relationship reddit

Update:

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The text reads “Update post is now locked, I cant believe so many people were interested in us!! Thank you again for your support, comments and messages.

Hi all, I can't believe I'm asking for advice from a bunch of strangers on the internet but I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this. Sorry for the incoming essay but I guess I need to give history. I bought my first house in September last year, It was an odd time but everything just fell into place. It's quite a small village and everyone is really friendly so I got to know my neighbours soon after moving in - yes, socially distanced. Then I met my over-the-road neighbour, let's call her Elle. I can't describe it but it's the first time I've ever met someone and been lost for words and my heart was racing and just thought "omg", y'know?? So after I blushed my way through a welcome to the village type convo we only saw each other for a wave and hello for a few days.

To help kinda settle in I had my dog (Bea) with me for the first few weeks. During this time there was a massive increase in dog thefts in a nearby town, not just from gardens but literally wrestled away from people. If I'd have been working (furloughed off and on since March) then I would've taken Bea back to mum's but since I was home with her all day she stayed. So the local police advised to not walk dogs alone but we go out twice a day, a 10k run in the morning and a few miles walk in the evening. So obvs this scares me, but at the same time she is honestly a pain in the arse and gets upset if she doesn't go for a run and needs to be tired out so I'm kind of stuck at this point. Then along comes Elle. She knocked on the door and offered to come with us as she'd seen Bea and me in the evenings and everything kind of spiralled from there. I told her about my morning runs but she didn't really bite so I thought nothing of it. Then a few days later I bumped into her on a run, so she started joining us on those too.

A few months later and we are spending more and more time together everyday. It has now progressed to a run early morning, afternoon coffee, dinner most evenings and then the evening walk. It just seemed to happen without me really noticing. I didn't read into things that much as I don't want to get my hopes up and ruin anything until another neighbour commented about how much time we spend together and how "it's nice to see you young gals getting on" and winked. She actually winked at me. I asked her what she meant but she just laughed and said "you know what I mean". So now I'm looking back on things and wondering if she could like me too?

Here's some reasons why she might like me:

I went running along the same route at the same time for nearly 2 weeks before I happened to run into her a few days after I told her this?

I make her a coffee every afternoon (Elle is WFH) and take it over in her fave mug. She says I make good coffee but I'm pretty sure I saw a fancy coffee machine the first time I went round (it's not there now?).

Elle carried on running and walking with me even after Bea went home. I told her she was going back to mum's and she said well "I'll have to make another excuse to join you" and then we just carried on everyday.

She has tried really hard to bond with Bea. Bea is a very anxious dog and is scared of everyone except me and mum. Elle bought special treats to give her everyday and has been so amazing with her and never tried to force anything. When I asked her she said "it's important to me that she likes me and is comfortable". Bea actually fell asleep between us on the sofa yesterday and It just makes my heart skip a beat guys.

She invited me to the zoom quiz she does with her friends every fortnight or so and they were all like "oh so this is who we've heard so much about "

We realised we had become each other's support bubble. Elle asked if I was meeting anyone else and I said no, she said she was glad she had me all to herself (!!)

We gave each other quite personal xmas presents. Like, it actually made me tear up it meant so much to me. And she bought stuff for Bea!!

Reasons why she might not like me:

All the reasons above, but that she's just doing them because she's a fucking great person and we're friends?

It might sound dumb but idk I need your help guys. She is the just the most incredible person I have ever met and I really really like her but if she isn't gay or doesn't feel the same I don't want to lose her friendship as she has become such a huge part of my life. I genuinely have no experience with these kind of things as I went to quite a strict all girls school, so it's not as if there were any relationships around me as a teen and then I went to a very small uni (8 of us on my course). I guess another reason is that I've struggled with anxiety and depression for the past 10 years, as well as my weight and working on my self confidence, but I can say that right now I am the happiest and healthiest (both mentally and physically) I have ever been. I've only just really become comfortable with the fact that I'm gay and I have never really told anyone in real life, but I don't think people would be too surprised lol. I don't have any close friends as no one stuck around when I was really struggling with my MH a few years ago so I can't discuss this with anyone irl.

So I need your advice : how do I find out if she is gay? And no, I don't have the confidence to just ask!! What if she says no and I ruin everything? She has never mentioned anything about past relationships and I'm pretty tactless so not sure how I could naturally slip it into the convo. Like, "hey tell me have you ever had a girlfriend? Do you want one now?" Lol. And how can I make a move without really making a move so I don't ruin things??

tl;dr : Don't know whether my neighbour is gay and into me or is just really friendly. How can I make a move without ruining our friendship?

Edit: Ok guys, thank you so so much for all your support and encouragement. You've all given me a lot to think about. I think I'm going to casually slip some gay stuff into conversation and see how she reacts. Then bring up the neighbours comment like some of you suggested, seeing as tho the neighbour was heavily implying that we're gay. I'll do it tonight otherwise I'll talk myself out of it again. I will post an update to let you know what happens (eek). If you never hear from me again assume it went badly and I am consoling myself with cake and watching brokeback mountain in floods of tears.

Hi reddit, yes it's me the useless lesbian. First off I want to thank you all for your support, encouragement and advice - and the undeserved awards! I never expected this many of you to take the time to comment and that so many of you were rooting for us.

So I had the plan to drop these gay hints into convo like you guys suggested but honestly it all went out the window. Elle was kinda stressed friday after a shitty work zoom and just needed to vent so it wasnt the right time to start anything. Though I guess I must have been a bit off thanks to spending all day overthinking things on here, as Elle turned up Saturday morning rambling about stressing me out and apologised (!!) for ruining dinner. Obvs I said "what are you talking about you can talk to me about anything", and she said "anything?" and I said "anything" back. And guys the tension was unreal, staring at each other and hoping our lesbian mind reading powers would kick in.

Then there was some loud noise like a car backfiring or something and the moment went. So I went to make coffee and then Elle asked me why I was a bit quiet the night before and I said something about overthinking stuff and she said "what stuff" and idk you guys I wasnt prepared to be put on the spot my casual gay pop culture references were useless in this moment. My mind just went completely blank and I forgot every single thing you guys suggested and my heart was pounding and I just blurted out you know I like you, right?.

...And then she kissed me. Kissed me. We straight up just snogged in the kitchen and it was fucking great. So...you were right. You were all fucking right. She's gay, she likes me and has been trying to drop hints for nearly 5 months. sigh

We were both just too scared to make a move or ruin anything. Turns out she's been burned by straight girls in the past, so she's pretty wary and was hoping I'd straight up say I'm a lesbian so she'd know for sure - maybe the I'm a lesbian wall hanging would've been a good idea after all? Her friends have been helping her drop hints, she showed me the group chat and guys their suggestions ranged from flirting more to just turning up in a trenchcoat and nothing else lol. Also, the winking neighbour has been making comments to her as well, so shout out to her for trying to make this happen too.

So no cake and cry watching brokeback mountain, just 5 months of dating to catch up on. As for worrying about how our current schedule could be more date like during lockdown, you were right it's kinda irrelevant when you've essentially been dating the whole time. Though we never made it to our morning run yesterday, in fact we didn't leave the house at all, ha.

Thank you guys for giving me hope, even if all your suggestions completely disappeared in the moment. Maybe I'll show her the post later and ask if any of the suggestions would have worked.

tl;dr: she's gay, into me and I'm an idiot”

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[justbreatheeme]

The Devil On My Shoulder.

"everythings heavy."

like your body for instance?

all one hundred ninety-four pounds.

put the food down.

every bite is guilt

more guilt adds to the plate

and your plate is full.

your. plate. is. full.

i told you "no"

you didn't listen and in a month from now

you wont fit into your favorite pair of jeans.

tell yourself "one more..."

wow, you really outdid yourself.

was the five pound weight gain worth "one more"

congratulations, your jeans don't fit.

what did i tell you?

i told you "no"

you didn't listen and soon everyone will notice.

what are you gonna do?

are you gonna have "one more?"

but of course.

another five pounds and you won't be able to look at yourself in the mirror.

why aren't you listening to me?

oh right, you cant hear me over the food you just ate.

chomp. chomp. chomp.

you'll never learn.

pathetic.

this morning you skipped breakfast.

im so proud of you.

that's 700 calories you dont have to worry about.

keep it up and your jeans will fit again.

your mom asked what you wanted for dinner

you lied and said you already ate.

i guess you aren't as stupid as i thought.

step up on that scale buddy

whats it say? how much did you lose?

"im down another five, but its still not enough"

that a girl....

gooooooood morning beautiful.

today is a great day to go buy a new pair of jeans

cause those ones are too big!

more money on clothes means less money on food.

what in the actual fuck...

im not understanding why you had dessert after dinner

this is not okay and you need to take care of this right away

excuse yourself to the bathroom. do what you gotta do.

don't disappoint me.

i can see you looking at that girl over there.

comparing yourself to her, as you should.

shes skinnier than you and well...

we cant have that.

wakey wakey, no eggs or bakey

and for good reason, you're down 10 pounds this time.

how do you feel? do you feel good?

you shouldn't, because its not enough.

its never fucking enough.

and ill remind you every single day.

"everythings heavy"

and it always will be as long as im around

and baby, im not going anywhere.

im the devil on your shoulder.

and whatever i say goes.

[ofstarsandvibranium]

I remember how my mom prevented me from doing the things I wanted like going to this summer program to learn how to ride a horse all because I was chubby. She told me "You have to lose weight first or else the horse can't handle it". I'm like 1. It's a fuckin horse and 2. I was 9-10 years old. Then she pressures me to do stuff like martial arts, guilt tripping me and saying she always wanted to go and she wished her parents gave her the opportunity to go. The thing is, i always wanted to go, too, but she always hovered around me during practice and I feel pressured to do good and I hated that feeling so I quit after the first day. I'm tired of doing things just so she could have a sense of self fulfillment through me instead of doing things for me. I'm in my 20s and shes still like this, using everything as an excuse and saying "Use this as a motivator to lose weight!" Like, no! And it's not like shes a health expert but she keeps going off on what she found on yt and making like shes an expert on exercise as if I dont know what push ups are or jogging in place. Plus, she made me hate shopping for clothes because of how she'd remind me to lose weight so I can wear the nice clothes that she wants me to wear and she rarely let's me pick my own clothes.

I once had an argument with my mom about how she needs to stop trying to force me to do things so she can live through my experiences. She stopped trying to make me do things after that.

Like, why cant parents just give their kids a break? We understand that they do and say the things they do and say because they care about us but also....they're mentally and emotionally scarring us in the process.

[smallfrailfairy]

TW: child abuse, domestic abuse, eating disorder, suicide

So today I binged. Yesterday I ate well and walked for about 2 hrs and burned a little over 500 cals. I am trying to figure out why I binge. What triggers me? Am I even triggered? Is it boredom? Am I upset? Or maybe I have just gotten so used to binging and being overweight that I cant imagine being healthy. Maybe I am so used to the abuse and neglect from my partner that I binge to stay overweight and then I have an excuse to blame the abuse on. I dont know.

I had the urge to binge while watching a podcast that had someone calling someone else fat and making them feel ashamed for what they ate. I immediately wanted to binge and couldnt get the extra cheesy quesadillas and oily yellow rice all smothered in full fat sour cream and topped with avocados out of my head. Just 20 min before I ate 2 small chicken thighs with healthy homemade ranch. I was not hungry. The thoughts consumed me and before I knew it I was off my bed and in the kitchen cooking everything up. I sat back down on my bed and resumed the podcast and binged 2 large extra cheesy extra saucy quesadillas, 2 cups cooked oily yellow rice, 2 scoops sour cream and an avocado. I ate it all in 10 min.

I didnt think about the food as I ate it. I barely watched the podcast while I ate it. I barely thought about anything while I ate it. I didnt even really taste it. I realized that I sort of blacked out. I went into auto pilot while cooking and eating. I didnt even get to enjoy it. It was like my spirit sat behind my physical body and watched while my physical body gorged.

When I came back into reality I was a little taken aback at what happened. I never really realized I went into auto pilot like that. I'm starting to think that I've been in auto pilot for a lot of things.

I'm really scared that I'm never going to get a grip on this binging. It's been 5 yrs now of just straight eating. I'm still so fat. The moment I see the scale go down even a few pounds away from my starting weight I binge. Why? Maybe life would be scary if I lost weight. Maybe life wouldn't get better if I lost weight and all that suffering would have been for nothing. I could just binge now and slowly eat myself to death. There's a gun in my closet and I look at it a lot. But I dont want to be fat at my funeral. I also want people to know about the domestic emotional abuse my partner is putting me through as well. I want his family and my family to know everything. My partner hides their true identity so well. Theyll do anything to continue to hide what they have done and continue to do to me.

I feel so lost. I have lost faith in God and the universe. I have no beliefs anymore. Theres no way anything exists out there that would let people suffer as much as we do. Why do I have to watch my abuser keep succeeding? If there is a God, why does my abuser keep getting your blessings? Why wont you reveal their true self? Why have you abandoned me?

I really just dont know. I'm so close to losing it.

If you've made it this far, I'm not saying any of this for well wishes, or sympathy or pity. I dont want to hear "dont worry! You'll get through it!" I dont want to "get through it" anymore. I'm tired. So many years of abuse. From family and now my partner. So many years of my life taken from me. So many people who knew of my abuse and know of it now who tell me "that's just how life is sometimes." Telling my 2 friends who were in my life 10+ years what I'm going through currently with everything. Finally opening up and get 2 "damn that sucks :/" from both friends and then them never talking to me again. That was last June. I just dont understand. I feel like I'm being singled out. Like I'm getting picked on.

Some people think we have life paths. We pick what happens to us before we get to earth in our physical bodies. I cant help thinking that my life path was supposed to end years ago and that's why it's gotten so much harder. Maybe I wasnt supposed to survive going through child abuse. I tried several times to end it but was too afraid of death. Maybe I was supposed to. Maybe my life path ended a while ago.

My family doesnt talk to me. They "didnt believe" the abuse i was put through as a child and told me to keep quiet about it. They "dont believe" me now that I'm going through abuse again and again tell me to keep quiet. They have stopped talking to me. I am terrified to tell my partners family what they're really like and my partner has been filling his family and friends heads with lies about me for years. They dont talk to me either. They think I am "shy" and "sick". I dont think they would stop my partner even if they knew anyways. I do not have any proof of this I just have a bad feeling that they wouldn't care. My 2 friends ghosted me the moment I stopped pretending to be happy and no longer speak to me.

I have no family. I have no friends. I have no support. I have no money. I have no job. I was forced into marriage with my abusive partner. I am lost. I am so lost. I am the saddest I have ever been. The child abuse I went through for 17 years was truly awful but in a way it doesnt compare to this. I dont even know what to say anymore.

I opened up to my partner about this. We dont talk. We live in separate parts of the house. I told them that I'm really worried I'm going to do something to myself if this all keeps going on. I completely broke down. I mentioned their gun still in the bedroom that I sleep in. How I look at it every night. They listened then went about their day. The gun was left were it is. They continue to abuse me.

I just dont know what to do. Thanks for letting me rant. Sorry for ending things on this rant so abruptly. I dont know what else to say. I just want out. I'm so tired.

Thanks for listening. Thanks for reading. I hope you are all doing better than me at the moment.

[ninatastic]

@kay-licious how dare u (thanks <3) @silent-calling youre doing amazing sweetie

1. Are looks important in a relationship?

I wouldnt call it a key factor but it’s important to feel attraction towards your partner

2. Are relationships ever worth it?

sure! If it’s a healthy one definitely :D

3. Are you a virgin?

nah 

4. Are you in a relationship?

yeh!

5. Are you in love?

I’d say so!

6. Are you single this year?

no

7. Can you commit to one person?

yes

8. Describe your crush

it me bf

9. Describe your perfect mate

same as above c: 

10. Do you believe in love at first sight?

no, only when it comes to animals c;

11. Do you ever want to get married?

thats a dream of mine tbh

12. Do you forgive betrayal?

I guess every healthy person would say no but yes, I’d absolutely do (only the first time tho, after the second time you gotta ask yourself if it’s really worth it)

13. Do you get jealous easily?

in regard to my bf: I used to but it’s a hell of a lot less nowadays. In regard to people in general, sometimes, especially when im not doing well mentally

14. Do you have a crush on anyone?

me bf

15. Do you have any piercings?

just have my ears pierced!

16. Do you have any tattoos?

no but maybe soon

17. Do you like kissing in public?

only if its sweet forehead or cheek kisses, or quick kisses on the mouth or hand kisses

20. Do you shower every day?

yes though I gotta admit I really have to force myself. Not because I like being stinky but because everything is kinda difficult sometimes

21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?

bruh I sure hope my bf does;;

22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?

nah

23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?

I’ve been in a relationship for 5 and a half years now, I think so

24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?

it is possible but who tf knows

25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?

idk, to be frank: I think my life would be a bit easier if I wasnt in a relationship, or if I hadnt been in a relationship for the past 1-2 years. And I often feel like im more of a burden to my bf than anything else. But thats a different story

26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?

as in losing touch with me? I guess so

27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?

a song yes and it was awkward as hell ajhajdfha and people have done drawings for me which is <3<3<3<3<3<<3<3<33

28. Have you ever been cheated on?

Yup

29. Have you ever cheated on someone?

very very unfortunately yes, and just like a bunch of you guys I was this close to killing myself. I was in a very bad place which I know is not an excuse for this. I still think about it even if it’s been a time since then but I think I cqan never forgive myself because of that

30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?

often but im too much of a scared cat dsfskjf  idk though, I would love to be much more petite size wise

31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?

oh often

32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

yeah;; I’m not exactly pretty or popular, so puberty was hard

33. Have you ever had sex with a man?

hell yeah

34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?

:( no

35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?

yeh!!

36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?

Yeah and it’s difficult to be normal then aaaaaahhhhhhh

37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?

some of my friends have a strong disliking towards my current bf but i dont know if you can call it hate

38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?

yeah and it ruined me for a while

39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?

uuuuhh not really I think

40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?

whenever I write bday cards I always put a poem in it :D

41. Have you had sex so far this year?

hella

42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?

depends on how thirsty I am

43. How long was your longest relationship?

5 and a half years and counting

44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

2-3

45. How many people did you kiss in 2011?

uuhh I was 14, no one 

46. How many times did you have sex last year?

HELLA

47. How old are you?

22 my dudes

48. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?

I#d try to play it cool because internally I’m panicking, someone help me

49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

I love about my bf how you can ALWAYS count on him when shit gets down, even if he hasnt talked to a friend for a good while and they’re like “hey I need you”, he’ll be there in a sec Also that he is still able to surprise me

50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?

jsdfhsjdfks GO AWAY, I’d say while closing the door and shutting the blinds quicker than lightning

51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?

yeah, but that’s probably because I have bpd and depressions

52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?

yeah, I tried to help them on all occassions, so much that I ruined my own life partially and made myself sick. But whatever I did or said, they apparently want to suffer, so i gave up trying. 

53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?

yeah my abuser probably

54. Is there someone you will never forget?

unfortunately yes and fortunately yes

55. Share a relationship story.

uuuuuuhhhhh; I dont really know what to write here. Guess I’ll never forget when my bf held a kitten (which was only a week old) in his hands and he almost cried because he loved the baby so much. Haha, he was afraid of crushing it though because it was much smaller than the palms of his hands

56. State 8 facts about your body

I gained a lot of weight since last year which is why I avoid posting or taking pics, but according to everyone else you dont see it that much (?); my hair is getting its natural curliness back; I fucked up my knee so I’ll have knee surgery next year; I bruise easily; I have a shit ton of scars; I love my super green eyes; I have thicc thighs and if I’m very emotional I get red spots all over my body

57. Things you want to say to an ex

to my first ever bf: fuck u lmao to the second bf I had: I’m so sorry for everything and I hope that you found your place :)

58. What are five ways to win your heart?

uuuhhh be sweet and understanding, be funny, be somewhat smart, dont be a mean asshole and be nice to other people (especially kids) and animals and also be able to be fascinated by small things 

59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)

yikes

60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?

my current bf is 8 years older than me

61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

how open and nice they are? Idk I always choose my ppl to hang out with according to this

62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

even though I’m a switch I have a big preference for being the sub, so if someone can dominate me and yknow do stull like carry me princess style or something im all like !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

63. What is your definition of “having sex”?

everything that comes after kissing imo

64. What is your definition of cheating?

I think as soon as you try to pursue someone emotionally that already counts as cheating

65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?

kissing, grinding, I love when someone talks dirty to me

66. What is your favourite roleplay?

if it aint too much of a tmi i’d love to admit that we have a collar and a leash so (not thinking about pet play uughfjhjsdfkhsd, just yknow someone is able to drag me to them like this or being held in place while being taken from behind is p nice)

67. What is your idea of the perfect date?

something something being outside in the nature and also good food 

68. What is your sexual orientation?

69. What turns you off?

super super wet kisses where also my nose somehow gets stuck in someone elses mouth Like dude r u a vacuum cleaner sdfhsdkjhfks

70. What turns you on?

being manhandled

71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?

idk I dont really have a lot of wet dreams and usually theyre not very kinky but rather sweet and slow 

72. What words do you like to hear during sex?

I like dirty talk, so imma leave that open 

73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?

i love to get flowers, or lil stuff that reminds us of our friendship or something, self made/home made stuff is always !!!!!!!!!!!!

74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for?

probably hands? I love it when girls have super slender hands and when boys have rough and big hands

75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?

I already answered that c:

76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?

I have a few stories I’m proud of! But I really love this one: When I was little I grew up in a village in which like 300-400 people lived (maximum) and next to us lived this sweet older couple who always gave us sweets and vegetable for our parents, or they brought us stuff from when they went on vacation. The man is now constantly sick, he suffers from parkinson and you see the early statges of dementia setting in. A while ago he wanted to go and get the German version of fish and chips with his wife but due to him needing a ton of surgeriesw constantly he wasnt able to go out with his wife. When my mom told me this I was like wtf u cant just tell me this, I’m too soft. So I went and got fish and chips from the best market around us for him and flowers for his wife, despite the fact that I havent seen them in YEARS. When I arrived at their front door both of them hugged me and cried a bit

77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?

not bad if everything is consensual and if there’s a power balance thats equal 

78. What’s your dirtiest secret?

I think the leash thing is one of the kinkiest things we’ve ever done tbh

79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?

yesterday a bit when my bf went out wth friends and had a few beers while I was stuck at home with the thought that I can never have a beer again dkadfjahdf as stupid as that sounds but I always enjoyed these chill evenings with a beer and friends

80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?

this morning when I cuddled my cats :D

81. Who are five people you find attractive?

my bf and many videogame and anime characters, also my best female friend is hella attractive, also some of my friends are to die for

82. Who is the last person you hugged?

my bf!!

83. Who was your first kiss with?

my first bf sdfjsdfs

84. Why did your last relationship fail?

it didnt really work out, it seemed as he was more interested in saying “hey im in a relationship!” than in me, hah;;

85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?

yeah, sure

[cececils]

So going under his tag on tumblr after not watching him for a year i decided to finally say how i feel about onision because it’s the internet and im allowed to put in my input on why i unsubbed and stayed away from Greg.

So i was about 14~ when i first subscribed to him, i was young and he seemed to be funny to me and he liked anime and had views i could kinda of agree with, and he loved Andy and at the time i was OBSESSED with Black Veil Brides. I was learning to except myself as trans and even till today i dont like republicans so those videos were funny to me too. but then as i kept watching him and grew older i realized some things were off.

1.) His idea of being superior to everyone else because he’s vegan. Listen im vegan too more because i have no choice im lactose intolerant, eating meat makes me sick something to do with my body rejecting the bacteria, and im allergic to eggs. I literally have no choice. I have non vegan and vegan friends. But not once do i tell my friends that theyre dumb and shit for eating meat. Their lifestyle their choice hell if i could without getting sick id love to eat a cheeseburger again in my life. But watching his videos i got off put on how superior he made himself to others over a diet choice for someone in his thirties im just so surprised he wastes his time on that dont tell people they are wrong for wanting to not be vegan?

2.) Riding on the last point how he treats medically obese people is terrible. It’s one thing to be concerned for people’s health but dont sit there and make fun of them. My aunt had a thyroid problem and it makes her overweight and she works her hella hardest to lose weight but she just cant, she is vegan and works out when she’s not at work or trying to get some sleep but she’s still overweight. I’d hate for him to make fun of someone like her when he has no place to that and i remember him saying something about muffin tops and honestly? He has no place there, we all cant be small like Taylor.

3.) His and Taylor’s relationship. They’ve denied he’s abusive but at the same time they’ve admitted to so much shit happening between them.Their  age when they first started dating is already a problem and the whole thing with Billie was the shittiest excuse for a poly relationship i’ve ever seen. As someone who is poly i have to say that was so bad. And as a side note i used to be subscribed to Taylor too because i was so happy to find an agender youtuber! But they try being a kid and it is giving us such a bad rep they want sympathy for something they can leave my mom did with four kids it was hard but you absolutely can leave and they do have chances to with safety, not only that but Greg was in every video of hers i clicked on and it made it seem like he either had to be in the spotlight or she wasnt allowed to make a video alone. :/

4.) His harassment of other youtubers. Stop making videos about Social Repose, stop talking about Eugenia , leave Shane alone and mos importantly LEAVE DAN ALONE. I dont like the first two just because they arent my type pf youtuber, my partner likes Shane but im ok with him, im subscribed to his boyfriend though, but i feel bad for Dan it literally made me uncomfortable how he talked about Dan and now looking back how he talked about Andy wasn't any better.

5.) He made so many videos with the title just saying he was quitting youtube but he’s still there?

6.) It really made me feel like shit when his early videos and even the last ones i seen was him saying his fans basically were shit and he was the best and if we didnt like it then we could leave, but then as people left he got pissed? Im sorry but you are catering to the masses as your job and so if you want to keep making money then dont tell the masses you basically hate them.

7.) Im turning 17 soon so i look back and realize that the body rating was horrible. Not only would you make young girls hate their body by saying shit about their body that YOU dont like without saying like to not take your opinion seriously but like they were my age and the more i thought about it th more i realized how gross that is. Like im still under 18 and most of them are too i still dont want a grown man rating my body, and yes they turned it in but he is the adult he should say no because most were of noticeably young girls.

8.) Religion. Listen when i was younger i agreed with him on religion and im still an atheist but ill be damned they day i tell my friends praying for safety or something nie or giving me a prayer that they are wrong or dumb, thats what they believe in and even if i find it useless they think theyre doing a good thing for me and so why should i stop them?

9.) His kinks and bringing them forward. Listen you know you have kids watching and even then not everyone wants to see you in a diaper on Twitter. Dont talk about your daddy kink just dont. You’re thirty.

10.) Even the most recent picture on his Tumblr right now makes him look crazy af and honestly he reminds me of my dad when he was losing it before he died.

11.) Shitting on Walmart shoppers. It’s a store leave them be.

12.) Refusing to take criticism.

So thats what i had to say and what i could remember to say off the top of my head, thats why i stopped watching him not long after i turned 16. I used to support him so much but i just cant anymore, i agree with the basics of things he brings up like feminism but he’s such a bad and abusive person at the end of the day i really cant and just being curious about maybe resubscribing and then seeing what he’s up to and finding such bad shit i just cant. I was always afraid he’d put this in a video so i tried not to say anything but at this point maybe he could listen or maybe he’ll make a joke and keep going while not giving a shit. It’s his choice.

If you want to add on you absolutely can.

[uniqueits]

7 Killer Ways To Maximize Your Fat Burning In The Gym Hey, we all want to shed some pounds and get back to the body that we had when we were younger and didn't appreciate it but it takes discipline, planning, and dedication to make that happen. All too often people shed 10 or 15 pounds and then seem to stop losing weight. There is definitely a reason this happens and it should not be seen as failure or an excuse to give up on your weight loss goals. Here are 7 absolutely killer ways to maximize your fat burning routine and help ensure success with your weight loss goals. #Human Body health tips #Health tips and Solutions, #Human Body health Tips, #Health Tips and education #Health Tips and Videos, # health, # fitness, # healthy, # how to be healthy, # Workout, how to start a healthy lifestyle, how to get motivated to be healthy, three healthy habits, how to be fit, how to be healthy, how to live longe 1) Anaerobic Exercise v If you think you can just run laps or pedal that fat away, think again. Muscle tissue is what burns the most calories in our bodies and you need to life weights in order to create bigger muscles that will burn more calories. Now although aerobic exercises such as cycling or swimming are also necessary, the fact remains that building bigger muscles is the best way to lose weight and keep it off. This is because you are creating a more efficient calorie burning machine by lifting weights which will ensure you success with your weight loss goals. 2) Warm-up and Cool Down Warming up before exercising and taking the time to cool down afterwards with some light exercises are not generally seen as essential to a fat burning program. However, the reason why a lot of people tend to give up on their weight loss goals is because they failed to see the progress they hoped for when they began. An injury, even one that only lasts for a few days, can set your weight loss goals back by weeks and lead to a loss of stimulation. You need to plan an extra twenty minutes into your weight lifting routine for these two essential activities or you risk injury and derailing your weight loss plan. 3) Diet, Diet, Diet This should not be a killer way to maximize your weight loss goals but it is. The reason for this is because people tend to think of losing weight in two ways: diet, or exercise. Hey, these two go hand in hand and you are never going to maximize your fat burning routine in the gym unless you take care of your body outside of the gym. Stop thinking of meals in terms of three: instead, think 5 meals with smaller portions. The FDA recently developed a new food pyramid with this very idea in mind and you should check it out before starting your fat burning program because it can save you a lot of time and energy if you get the diet part figured out before even stepping into the gym. 4) Plan Workouts The body is the most complex machine on the planet and you can't just hope to step into a gym and jump on a machine or some weights and think that you are going to see the results you want without knowing how they affect your body. The ideal exercise routine is done only 3 or 4 times per week for beginners and only for 30-45 minutes at a time. You cannot work your body more than this because it will actually cause your muscles to break down which means you will be burning fewer calories, and therefore, not maximizing your fat burning routine in the gym. 5) Nutritional Supplements: If you really want to maximize your fat burning routine in the gym, then you need to consider using nutritional supplements. Now I am not talking about those crazy supplements that promise to burn fat for you while you sit and watch tv! I am talking about essential fatty acids, amino acids, whey proteins and things that will truly maximize your workouts that you cant always expect to get in the foods you eat every day. Again, consult your physician or trainer if you want to know which supplements are best for your weight loss goals, but I use Rocksolid Nutrition product which you can find in my store. 6) Set Weekly Goals I know that this just seems terribly obvious but the truth is that most people are not thrilled with the idea of working out, so it is easy for them to skip a session or indulge in some pizza and think that they will make up for it next time. Listen, next time never comes and when you stop seeing the scales go down, the motivation just seems to stop. By setting weekly goals, you can track your progress and make it that much more likely that you will adhere to the goals when you see things are not going as expected. 7) No More Late Night Snacks https://ift.tt/2L66IB0 https://twitter.com/Rafiquebn https://ift.tt/2crT9fk https://ift.tt/2L8D0eN https://ift.tt/2NEQCju... https://ift.tt/2L6gdjx https://ift.tt/2NEOxE0

[briemudzinski]

Unexpected

Frank

           When I looked into his case I was an intern at the NYT’s I was there to hand out paper work at meetings, and collect coffee orders. I wasn’t allowed into press conferences or allowed to voice my opinion, the newspaper was constantly face passed and always moving so I stayed on the side and absorbed everything I could. I had just graduated that May and had landed an internship anyone would have dreamed of, however when signing up I did believe it would have been a little bit different. However, I knew one day I wouldn’t just be delivering caramel mochas, and hot espresso shots. I would get my chance to voice my opinion, however who would have guessed I would find my voice on one of the deadliest cases to ever hit New York city. It was mid November 2017, and just about everyone had heard of “the punisher”, a cold stoned killer ravaging his way through New York city, no eyes on him, not a trace of him, just bodies to follow his name. For all we knew the punisher was a woman. The only thing that had been stated about this killer was that he or she didn’t kill for sport, all of these murders had been of people accused of something; murder, man slaughter, stealing, rape, underground mafia. Every kill had an explanation, so were these kills worth it maybe so. Maybe this so-called punisher was a good guy but that was only seen by so many people. Labeled as a terrorist and constantly wanted on every news screen, people were warned not to walk out late at night, not to peruse New York city in the dark however being a true new Yorker myself everyone knows in the city that never sleeps you don’t really get a choice in the matter.

So, leaving my internship to head back to my apartment one late night of sorting through paperwork and filling away old stories, had me kept up late in the office. I left at around 6:30, so it was pitch black out with only the slight ora of a street lamp to guide my way home. I lived in hell’s kitchen, it was close enough to the main areas of the city where I could always find something to do but far away enough where I could get some space. My internship payed me very well, as well as having my trust fund from my grandparents, I was able to live on my own with out so much of a worry other than walking home alone at night. I walked with a usual fast pace, keeping to myself with my headphones in walking to the beat of the music. I was bundled up with my leggings, pea coat, scarf and gloves however the wind was a bitter hold this night that had my exposed skin burning. The air smelled of winter it was crisp and cold which was comforting because it usually smelled of hot cement and perspiration. I was about 10 minutes away from home following a few short cuts down an alley to cut my time in half, I usually never take this way but I thought with this late night it would be in my best interest to get home as soon as I could however in doing this soon I soon realized I should have taken my regular route home. The alley had smelt of garbage and old beer, I kept my head down and watched my footing, this alley was notorious to hold a few homeless men, but they were usually asleep when I would walk though, dropping change every now and then. At the end of the alley were a few men gathered around a fire in one of the old garbage bins, trying to keep warm they huddled together. I saw a few of them swaying back and forth and could hear their laughter through my headphones. I don’t know what it was that made my stomach turn, it might have been the sight of them or maybe the smell of them liquor excreted from there pores and wafted into my face, but I did everything I could to walk by them as quickly as possible without drawing to much attention to myself. I pushed myself to the right grazing the brick wall to keep myself as far away as possible. Out of sight and out of mind however I was in their sight and officially planted into there minds. I heard a few cat calling whistles as I walked past, I smiled trying to be polite but had refused to pay them any mind. However, they took more offense to that, with a abrupt stop I halted myself to stop from running into the tallest mans chest, he made his way to stand in front of me blocking my way of getting to the end of the alley. I took a few steps back and ended up bumping into the larger male with a strong chest. There breathe smelled of bitter tequila and bad breath. The third man stood a few feet behind to watch. “Please excuse me gentleman” I said to them as I kept my head down and tried to move to the side and out of the way. However, the tall gentleman in front had other ideas. “Come on sweetness why don’t you stay a while we don’t bite,” the men behind me laughed at his comment. Once again, I smiled but tried to move out of his way, “please I would like to go home its getting late.” I could feel the gentleman behind me drawing closer to my body, I could feel him trying to smell me, I shiver ran down my spine. I had no idea how I was going to get out of this, what I should do. Scream? Run? All three of them would over power me, but maybe in the state they were in I would be able to outrun them and reach a public area. I was a fool for coming down this alley, I wanted to cry for being such an imbusil but I knew at this moment I had to stay strong. The man behind me walking closer as well as the taller one in front of me drawing closer I wasn’t sure which way I should turn. “What are we not good enough for you?” the man asked with an irritaeted tone “no please”. I whimpered stepping away, “I think we can show you how good we actually are for you, cant we boys?” the leader of the group clearly stood out and was the main one asking all the questions. The boys had agreed with laughter and had, had enough of me not complying as they drew closer. Without any other choice I pushed the taller man in front of me with all the power I had in me, and watched with a shocked expression as he toppled over and hit his head hard against the frozen cement, and with that I had taken my opportunity to run. I ran with all of my might trying to reach the end of the alley, I knew at this point I was already crying but I kept running I knew I was about to make it until I felt a firm grip on my hair wrench me back. It hurt terribly as I was flung against a wall my head taking the brunt of the hit, I let out a high-pitched scream as my head cracked against the brick wall I was dizzy but didn’t pass out. As I slid down the wall I felt a body crawl on top of me, with panic in my heart I started to scream and cry. Hitting with all of my might I felt completely weak underneath this man, he was heavy and sweating even in the cold weather, he smelt of garbage and liquor. I felt him panting on top of me swearing and muttering to himself as the two others behind him coaxed him on. He reached for his belt and that’s what drew me into fight or flight, I tried to buck him off of me, I screamed and spit in his face scratching at his skin. With a hard smack across my face that I knew would bruise, I hoped he would hit me again harder maybe it would knock me out, maybe I wouldn’t feel anything. I tried to regain my strength a little bit more screaming for anyone to help me. I closed my eyes trying to will myself to pass out maybe it would go by fast maybe I wouldn’t feel anything. I quietly whimpered to myself as I felt his greedy hands tear at my clothes, and then I heard something behind him but didn’t dare to open my eyes. With gruphs and yelling going on behind him I heard yells and cracks, something that sounded branches breaking in a harsh storm, like rocks hitting against one another, I heard a few loud yells and then nothing. The man still laid on top of me before he was gone in seconds. The weight lifted off of my body instantaneously, it felt like a dream like he wasn’t even there. I prayed to myself, something I rarely do not being a religious person, but at this moment I needed anyone to talk to. I curled myself up against the wall as I heard more yells a few feet away continuous smashing sounds and cracking’s, whatever it was didn’t sound good in the slightest but I was grateful for whatever it was. I stayed in my ball against the wall the cold cement underneath me causing me to shacking uncontrollably. I squeezed my eyes shut so tightly I felt my eyelids start to cramp but I was too scared to open them. I felt a hand gently wrap itself around my leg however I delt no other choice but to try and scream and pull away again. However, with the hand tightening around me this person spoke to me and he don’t sound like the other men. “Shh shh darling it’s okay, your okay” “Please, please, don’t hurt me” I begged the mysterious man as I tried to crawl away. “No, no, I’m not here to hurt yuh. I took care of it don’t you worry yourself.” “Did they hurt you? Did any of them touch you?” his voice was deep with a certain rasp to it and heavily New Yorker. He sounded concerned, was he the one who had stopped this from going any further. I didn’t know how to answer him. I finally opened my eyes to look around, my vision was blurred and everything was spinning. I took a look at myself covered in dirt and muck some of my clothes ripped, I tried to pull myself together and cover my exposed skin to the stranger who I assumed saved my life. I finally looked up at him, covered head to toe in black and face barely visible through facial hair and covered in a hoodie. His eyes were a deep brown, almost black his face slightly bruised almost as if he was healing from a past confrontation. I tried to answer him, but I couldn’t find the words to speak or the will to move I was losing my breathe everything that had just happened all coming back to me running through my head I felt as if I was going to pass out. I tried to stand up but only found that my legs had gone numb from the cold causing me to fall over, with a firm grasp on me the man has managed to move from my leg to hosting me up on my own two feet. He stood a full foot taller than me, as I looked up at him through my lashes, moving up to fast I got dizzy once again leaning back getting ready to hit the brick wall again. “Hey, hey, hey, you’re alright. You gotta stay with me you hit your head pretty hard.” I heard him say to me with his deep brooding voice which seemed intimidating however at this moment it soothed me. I did try, I tried to keep my eyes open to stare at my savior however the more I tried to keep my eyes open the more the world seemed to spin around me. Within the matter of seconds I felt myself lifted from the ground and wrapped in this stranger’s arms, close to his chest he was warm and full his arms feeling like the closest thing to home at this moment, his scent was warm a mix of mint and vanilla. I didn’t know if I had a concussion but right now all I wanted to do was shut my eyes and forget everything, and so I did.

[survivorgalaxysedge]

Episode 5 | Forgive Me Cowtown For I Have Sinned - Ari

ohhhhh i found something JUICY tonight!!! so yesterday the hosts got tired of me constantly asking how many fuel i have and gave me the command to view it, and i knew i was outta points so i was like ok cool we'll check it out tomorrow. TURNS OUT the scorekeeper bot shows you not just your personal points.... but the points of everyone in the game.... and WHOM is number two on that list with 36 entire points? that's right. my best friend keegan. my first thought was wtf ew how did he already recover from my sabotage, i feel zero percent guilty about doing that now! and then my second thought was WAIT...... this is PERFECT. so you can bet i ran right to all three of my allies to be like "hey omg i found something shady :0 didn't keegan say all his fuel got blown up the other day? well i pulled some receipts and it turns out he still has all of it! why would he lie about that??? so sus!" and now i'm laughing because there could not be a more perfect excuse to get him gone!!! i'm not gonna push it any more than that right now - for all i know, we'll prob win the next challenge again - but i've tucked the ammo away in my pocket, planted the ari seed in jonathan and zoe's heads, and i'll let it sit pretty there until i need it. also, i ended up telling ali what i did to keegan simply because he is 100% not going against me and i needed someone to tell me i'm funny, so i also let him know about this plan o mine and that we could use this against sir keegan, which he's so down for. god. i cannot wait to tell mj about all this shit.

Jacob being voted out of NuTrian is the second best thing that could have happened. Preferably Nathan but my OG Andro and Jessie are safe so that’s very good. Now we’ve got a Guess Who challenge which is okay. I don’t care if we get first or second, I just really really don’t want to get last. Let’s keep the good vibes going and be safe for a fifth straight tribal council. Ali told me he scored 11 points, I scored 10. I hope Zoe can whip out her survivor magic with a score of 8 or 9. And then hopefully Jonathan can pull out a good score as well. Nathan and Zach have both scored 12 on this challenge before, so I can only hope they keep up with that and score high again. Gotta make sure those other tribes flop. I’m still incredibly uncertain about how to play this steal a player advantage. It’s possible we ride this 3 tribe split all the way to merge. My guess is merge at 11 or 10. That would be quite a few tribals to go without another swap but it’s certainly possible. Though I could absolutely see a swap now at 12. Two tribes of six, and then merge at 10. A final 3 with 7 jurors perhaps? Either way, I think I’ll hold on to this advantage until it seems likely that I’ll need it. No sense in causing some chaos if it isn’t necessary.

ok so i'm doing well in challenges rn, as best as i can at least, and i feel like that's the only thing keeping me alive bc.... nobody talks to me. i feel like i'm starting every one on one conversation and desperately trying to keep it alive and not be left on read. idk if they're like this with each other or if its just me but !!!!!! it doesnt make me feel good abt potentially losing a challenge. so i will just keep carrying my weight and keeping my cute little head down and pray im just being paranoid<3

WELL We lost the immunity challenge which is the first loss after four straight immunity wins. That was a nice little break while it lasted. The obvious choice right off the bat is to vote for Ali. Keeps the OG Andro tribe fully intact, and avoids the most possible drama. However, I worry he might have found the Circi idol from his original tribe. Plus whatever advantage he may have gotten from the first challenge of the season. So the alternate thought is to maybe vote for Jonathan or Zoe. I adore Ari would not want to vote them out. It's tempting to throw a vote on one of them in the event of Ali playing an idol, just to keep myself safe. But if Ali doesn't have an idol, that could cause a whole world of issues. On the flip side, I wouldn't be entirely surprised if some or any of my tribe mates decided to throw my name under the bus. I haven't been the most social person and while I have definitely pulled my weight in the challenges, I could see them having their own little group that's willing to throw my under the bus and make things as painless as possible for the rest of them, especially considering they've all said they like Ali a lot. Ahhh this is all so much worse considering I have the hidden immunity idol. I don't want to waste it, but I also don't want to pull a Kellee Kim and go home with it in my pocket. 

it's kind of ridiculous how well this is all going???? why havent they voted me out yet i am running this shit -talked to ali, told him he's gonna be fine we just need to get people to vote for keegan -talked to jonathan, convinced him keegan is the most logical vote "because he's shady" and because it also means we can vote ali easily next time (versus going down to andro 4 and having it get much more messy) -jonathan was like "should we tell ali right before the vote?" and i was like i think you should call him and see where his head is at and we can go from there, jonathan said ok good point, if he says he wants to vote keegan and he also tells you that without any prompting from either of us we know he's real about it -yeeted myself into ali's dms the very second jonathan hung up like OK LISTEN HERE IS EXACTLY WHAT YOU HAVE TO SAY WHEN HE CALLS YOU, HE CANT KNOW I TOLD YOU ANY OF THIS -ali called me half an hour later like "omg we had such a good talk i love jonathan now deadass, i told him exactly what you said to say and he's so down" -presumably in the morning jonathan will call me and say "wow had a great talk with ali he seems cool and great and he said he'd vote keegan, what did he tell you?" and i can say "yeah same he mentioned keegan so i think we're good!" and jonathan will feel like we Did This Together and ali will feel like i Did This For Him and everyone will be in love with me -all i have to do tomorrow is make sure zoe is on board & that she doesn't feel pushed, and prob call keegan and make him some vague promises about working together long term, and then cross my fingers that i don't get blindsided during my editorial meeting at 9pm est i am having so much fun

i just keep thinking about how funny it’s gonna be when we get to merge and mj tells me to vote out all these people i’ve been making f2s with and i’ll be like “okay!!!!<3”

Not to go back to INV this round, but not much has been going on. I've been keeping up socializing but since we're not going to tribal it's been more quiet than it has been last round. I'm really glad we won though bc I feel vulnerable if we go to tribal again. Cindi seems close to Nathan, and Nathan and Jessie seem closer to each other than they will be to me so I'm worried I'd be an easy vote. So I'm really hoping for a swap or merge tonight, or at least a challenge we can excel in. Don't want it to come down to one point again.

^_^ Okay, so no important updates with this tribe! It's freaking QUIET. I haven't talked to Zach or Silver at ALL since being with this tribe. I've talked to Jules a lot and Asya some, though. I'd like to work with the two of them if possible and if we ever go to tribal here, which I don't want to do because uhhh it's worrisome! Anyway, the only actual update I have is that I found the legacy advantage!!! Randomly at like 2AM I found it. I don't remember what I was doing exactly... I think I just went to watch the Circi round 3 tribal and then the Trian round 4 tribal... and then I think I went to watch the Tribe Swap video to see if there was some sort of announcement made regarded the Oxygen Tank amounts because I was confused why that number was changed more than double. I guess I was also thinking that since the hosts didn't make an announcement that the adventure was resetting at the swap then MAYBE there would be a new twist/advantage inserted elsewhere for this next phase of the game? Now, being the crackhead that I am, of course back on original tribes, I SEARCHED everywhere on the blog that I could think of. Extenders URLs, the source code, hidden hyperlinks - everything. Nothing was there. But in this case, my brain said, hmm, let's just scroll down and see if there's anything in the description of the Tribe Swap Youtube video...and... there was!! I didn't really know what it was at first but when I opened it everything CLICKED! Finally the Reem Cameo from launch night serving a bigger purpose made total sense. After seeing this link in the description though and realizing it was calling back to something we were told about night one, I went back and checked to see if this had been hidden all along, and of course it's literally in the description of the Cast Reveal video!!! and every other video after that!!! Keeping in mind that I found this 11 days into the game, I was like, oh there's definitely some nerd that found this instantly on night 1 so I'm probably just gonna get a message saying nothing here or something like that. Obviously that wasn't the case though. I think nobody found this because I lot of people operate via mobile in these, and Youtube descriptions require an addition click to reveal what's there. Alternatively, for desktop users, who the hell is scrolling down for any reason while you're watching videos from your ORG?? It's nothing something anyone does naturally. So that explains that. Anyway, I'm happy I found it even though it has absolutely no use until Day 39. I will say though that having this and knowing that, it has really motivated me to get to the end of this game. Coincidentally, HOURS before I found this, I had a conversation with Jules about how quiet this tribe has been and that I'd like to start working towards bettering our positions moving forward seeing as there are people here with more/stronger connections than either of us. I just love that I found an advantage that motivates me to start playing this game, exactly how I'd voiced to Jules about feeling a desire to start doing SOMETHING. We love a live narrative!!!! Anyway, I'm not gonna tell Jules about the legacy advantage because it's an advantage that incentivizes people to vote out the owner and have it passed on. I trust Jules, we go YEARS back and have to successful runs as allies under our belts, but this is just something I'd like to keep to myself. Earlier today I also decided that I'm probably never gonna tell Ari about it either if our paths ever (hopefully) cross in this game. I wanna surprise my bestie! At any rate, Jules did tell me that Zach and Asya seem like the type of players that only play on tribal days (at least in this case of this game) which is fine, but I've played a few super intense, intimate, and high-stakes ORGs in the past couple of years which has made me prioritize personal relationships with people over barebones game relationships. This makes dealing with people who aren't that interested in getting to know me or revealing themselves to me a SUPER off-putting experience and a drastic change of pace from what I've become accustomed to. But I'm totally capable of adapting to this environment... I just don't necessarily prefer it. I feel like I have room to connect with Asya on a personal level if given the chance. Zach and Silver I don't know. Although, I do think that if we ever lose immunity here I could for sure spit some game to Silver that would make him believe I want to work with him. I already have an idea of how that conversation goes, and the potential negative consequence of it is practically non-existent on this swap tribe, whereas it could have backfired on me if original Trian lost that third challenge. Anyway, I'll get into that whenever we lose or if I get bored and initiate that chat just to feel something lol

No tribal ever again until merge or swap please. Jessie would be the one I'd want out and I assume Jay would as well but she has Nathan's shard so, like, he'd lose that and then I lose my hope of getting both their shards and misplaying my first idol because I'm not good at survivor

Yayyyy we won immunity. Idk what much else to say except that I got 40 fuel tanks

today i am mad and sad. lost the challenge, was my fault bc purple not pink. no i will not elaborate. now ari jonathan and i have decided to save ali and vote out keegan. i hope it goes well. i am filled with anxiety. i don’t even want keegan to go, we just have to make the decision based on the fact that we don’t want to be seen as a tight alliance going into merge, and keegan can make it look like there was a crack therefore not making us look strong. but he is just sacrificial unfortunately. but we’ll see how it goes. i’m still anxious

Wow we won what a concept See what happens when we don’t throw comps ? Anyways yeah that’s it I guess lol

Honestly I I'm done with these hoes I'm ready to vote off Keegan 

This is definitely a very stressful and emotional tribal. I hate that we’re voting for Ali because he is a genuinely fantastic person and under different circumstances I think we could have worked really well together in this game. But when there’s a 4-1 tribe swap and the four of us have absolutely no beef with each other, there’s not a whole lot that can be done. None of my other 3 OG Andro players come across as big move players either. So unless I’m being straight up lied to and am about to get completely blindsided, it’s looking like a unanimous Ali boot. Which is incredibly sad. I really wanted us to win out until merge so we wouldn’t have to vote him out. But such is the game. Keegan signing off (hopefully not for the last time)

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My Mind -  Trying To Write Down How My Depression Feels.

I don't know where to start. My description may not even make sense or give what I and many people have justice. This is just the only way i can think of to make sense of it all and hopefully make other people realise to an extent what it is like. You never really know or can understand depression or anxiety until you have it. This is what makes it so hard. People despite not having certain illnesses, seem to understand and support many i.e. Cancer or a broken leg. But many illnesses that you cant see as such that don't show physicality in the way we would believe, such as Arthritis or a mental illness, people don't understand and to some extent don't believe the extent in which it affects their persons life. Im not saying that illnesses are worse than others, it all depends on the person and the illness. I am just writing this to try and make you understand my illness and how it affects me. Writing illness makes me cringe in a way where I see it as wrong. Labelling what people don’t validate as an illness. We are taught by society that surely it cant be real. I know this is changing and how society views these illnesses is changing, however right now there is still a stigma attached. I have thought about my illness and put up with my illness for almost 10 years now. I have an illness. Im not making this up, its not convenient, its not an excuse. Many people judge me when I give the reason of my depression or anxiety as an excuse, people judge that because I've had it for 10 years and because i have suicidal thoughts, yet haven't killed myself yet, it must be fake. Its not simple, it is not a black and white disease.

Describing my depression in the only way I know how. Im terrible at expressing my emotions, so i use the only way i know how, which is analogies. Every day getting out of bed is hard. Participating in life is hard, no matter how good my life is at the moment or how bad. This isn't the usual, my bed was so comfy or I'm not a morning person so getting out of bed is hard. This is harder than people realise. Don't get me wrong some days it is easier, some days i even feel ready to face the day but not often. Imagine you've just woken up, from a peaceful sleep, maybe you even got more than 3/4 hours uninterrupted. As soon as you wake up, within a split second, there is a person standing next to your bed screaming abuse at you. ‘ You shouldn't get out of bed!, You're a waste of space, You are just being a burden to all of your friends and family, you depress everyone, you are spreading pain, you should just die, there is no point in being here, no-one needs you, no-one wants you here, you cant even get out of bed’ You at this point just want to go back to sleep, you don't want to listen to someone abusing you constantly. This happens every day. Some days if you have the right medication, may be slightly silenced. The person is still there but there is a slight barrier. For instance when your ears get blocked with water and you can still hear but its silenced ever so slightly. This is what medication is like. Now getting out of bed and facing not only the world but this person. So now you're still listening to this person abusing you and you want it to go away but it won’t. You get up in the hope that if you do something if you throw yourself into something it will stop if not be at the back of your mind. You get up, this person now starts beating you physically. Throwing punches, kicking you, pushing you down. Whilst still shouting abuse, whilst still reminding you how pathetic, weak and how much of a burden you are. You try and fight back but here is the catch. You fight back and the person that has been shouting and beating you, turns out it is you. You hit them back and it hits you twice as hard. You punch and get a moment of relief, it then punches back twice was hard and because you had that relief it hurts more, it punches harder. You go about your day but that voice and those punches are still there. Its constant. You become fed up, you become tired physically and mentally. You just want this person to stop. But it doesn’t. It comes back every day. Sometimes whilst you're going about your day, it may be distracted. You go out for a drink with your best friend or you just sit there with someone watching a film. These may be your favourite moments. It distracts the person for a moment. It may not stop but its not as hard, its not as pressing. Like a person who is talking to someone whilst intently watching a film, the speech is slower. Not as powerful but still there. Sometimes this lasts whilst you're hanging out with your friend but sometimes out of no where its louder. They are back. Its hits you. You cant understand why. But this person doesn't always have a reason as to why they are there but they are and they know that you are weak and not worth keeping alive. Now add Anxiety to this. All of a sudden there is another person, they become a team, set out against you. You are constantly fighting yourself, with two against one, its hard to see how you could win. Now anxiety also hits back but not so much in a physical way but in a way it affects you from the inside. Your hearts starts racing for no reason, you feel like you can't breathe. Imagine a scenario where you are in a room- you go to leave but the door is locked. You really need to leave, you're late for something. You look around for a window to escape out of but there are none. All of a sudden the room starts getting smaller and smaller and smaller. the walls are caving in. you still have no escape. You're panicking, your heart getting faster and faster. To add to this situation, the room is now filling up with water, you can swim but not very well. the room still getting smaller and filling up, the door still locked with no window in sight. you are now swimming to float to the top of the water, to push your head up to breathe, gasping for air, breathing from the slight air pocket at the top of the room, water still rising. You are gasping, heart rate becoming faster still, you get a pain in your body from trying to keep swimming. You're dragged downwards, pulled under water. You look down and you notice a rope tied to your leg. you're trapped but you can still reach that pocket of air. you panic, the water is still rising. Soon you are under water. no escape, tied to the ground. you cant breathe you feel like you're gonna die. Your depression helps this process all the way in the hope that you will die but you still fight. it feels like a losing battle.- Now this is how i would describe my  panic attacks, this scenario plays out. However anxiety isn't always a full blown panic attack, sometimes the scenario only plays to certain stages or gets stuck in a stage. Sometimes I'm panicking to the point of where i am stuck in that room just looking for a window or trying to open the door. Other times everything happens, I'm trapped, unable to breathe under the water. This is how the anxiety physically deals with me. Its hard to put yourself into a position where that scenario could play out even if only a little because you know it could continue to play and you're in that situation once again. Now mentally the anxiety is like the depression but it is more selective. Its not instant when i wake up, its not instantly telling me all these things that are wrong with me. Its doesn't even scream , except rarely. Anxiety is different. This second person will follow me. When I'm getting ready to go out anywhere, it will just come real close to me and whisper in my ear, sometimes a normal voice and tell me every possibility of what could go wrong, what I've done wrong and how people are going to see this. ‘What if you start sweating, what if a car was to accidentally run you over as you were walking along, what if you were to fall down the stairs, did you know you look really bad today, people will think you're ill, people will be disgusted by you, people will have their days worsened by seeing you, what if you accidentally crash your car, what if you were to hurt someone, what if you have the wrong change for the bus, the bus driver will judge you, you have made his day harder, what if you become known as the girl who looks disgusting, who is stupid, what will people think, no-one actually wants to see you, what if they don't talk to you and only your friend because they don't like you, you're weird, they don't want to get to know you, why are you even making an appearance in their day, they don't want that, they are gonna see you sweating and think you're disgusting, your make up looks awful, you've got massive spots and everyone will be grossed out, how could you even walk out the house being as fat as you are, none needs to see that, what if you accidentally crush someone, people are gonna see you eating, you pig, people are gonna see that your heart is beating fast, why is it?, they are gonna see how weird you are and talk about it to everyone, everyone knows, everyone sees your scars, everyone judges you, everyone thinks its for attention, in fact everyone thinks they know its for attention, ugh, you are the worst in everyones eyes, they are laughing about you, about the way you look, your weight, your sweating, your heavy breathing, your constant fiddling with your hands, your scars.’  all of these thoughts are being said to you all within the space of a few minutes, its a lot to take in. the person is saying all of this to you whilst speaking faster and faster as your heart rate fastens, all of a sudden you cant breathe. It is nervousness x1000. Its a constant worry about what everyone will think and what will happen. I know that a lot of these worries are stupid and unreasonable but the thing about anxiety is that doesn't matter! these worries no matter how stupid you believe they are will affect you, will overtake your mind, will cause these physical effects and there is nothing you can do to stop it. It goes with that saying that ‘people put you down enough. you start to believe it.’ the person putting you down is you. Self harm. I self harm. people judge me for it, they say its for attention. Its not and let me explain. Self harm is control, its escape. I first self harmed in a way that i didn't know what i was doing. I was 10 at the time. I like most younger people was bullied and one day this person told me i had hairy arms. Everyone jumped on the bandwagon and by the end of the day i was really affected by this. I went home and saw my mums razor on the side. I thought to myself that i could just shave my arms, then there wont be any hair at all.  I took the razor to my arm, dry and attempted to shave up my arm. This cut my arm up, all the way from my wrist to my elbow. I at this time had already been suffering with what i didn't know was depression and anxiety. I had had suicidal thoughts and many others that i thought was normal, thats just the way i and everyone thinks. When i used the razor these voices stopped momentarily. I was amazed that i know longer heard the abuse but instead just felt the pain and throbbing of my arm whilst watching the blood dripping down my arm. The sight of that blood, the feeling of pain was a relief from the mental pain i had been feeling. I from then associated physical pain and bleeding with relief. This is how it started. I realised that in taking a blade to my skin, by burning myself, by using a rubber band against my wrist, i gained relief. If i cut myself, it also cut that person abusing me, they could no longer shout abuse because they were feeling the same physical pain, all focus is on the pain. The blood is what reminds you its real. Its a coping mechanism, it is the escape that i need. this is only temporary. Once the scars stop bleeding, it stings for days so it does give you slight relief for days after. When it stops hurting you are left with a physical reminder that you needed the escape, you were weak, you gave in. Then if anyone sees they judge you. Also it is a reminder than in that moment i chose self harm over suicide. Its a way of tricking your depression almost that you are going to kill yourself, as it wishes, but you don't actually go that far. The scars however are then with you for life. Is it worth it? im not sure. you feel weak, pathetic and stupid after but also in that moment you survived. I hate doing it but i have to if i am to remain here. I cant always run to people when I'm in that situation, i am a burden. however it is a constant worry that one day it wont be enough, i will go deeper and that will be the end. Its a risk i take. Its not a risk that anyone should take, that anyone should feel is an option but this is my only option to stop the pain.

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Perfect Fat Burning Dinner -- Even If You Can't Cook!!

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Perfect Fat Burning Dinner -- Even If You Can't Cook!!

Hey everybody! Hannibal Bray, Perfect Day Lifestyle and I'm gonna take just a couple of minutes to show you a super easy way to prepare a healthy dinner for one even if you have zero cooking skills okay? But first things first let me give a little shout out here to – what's up Atticus? Atticus is gonna play the part of my cameraman today he's gonna help me out here aren't you okay and I also gotta give props to Babette, Babette's gonna play the part of the cat just kind of doing her thing, so first things first it's all about the prep it helps if you do some prep ahead of time I'm gonna do a video this weekend probably Saturday and Sunday I'll do a couple of videos as I'm doing my prep for the week and I'll just show you guys exactly how I do this how I get all my salads ready how you can actually do a lot of the cooking ahead of time so if you've got a busy lifestyle like most of us do it's still real easy so let's um let's go over here do fridge so in the fridge here's what I'm gonna get I've done my prep already so I've got my uh my salad basically just some leftovers from last night I got my Bubbies sauerkraut which is awesome and that one's almost empty so I'm gonna get may get a second one here we're gonna finish that off and then I'll bring this out just you can see this is my my recipe for the salad dressing and then while we're in here eggs so these are hard-boiled eggs because tomorrow morning I gotta get up really early I don't have time to cook before I hit the road so I'm just gonna grab two eggs hit the road and go and what what's this what what I don't think I don't think this is on the Perfect Day Lifestyle is this is this Atticus is this yours is this yours? okay all right so not everybody here at the Bray household is on the Perfect Day Lifestyle and that's okay so I'm gonna hand this off to Atticus here he's gonna do a little bit of filming for me all right you got that buddy all right so what do we gotta do sauerkraut so sauerkraut is awesome and if something about fermented food I never knew this I mean you can make your own fermented foods sauerkraut's like the easiest one like readily available to get you can get this at the grocery store and I really prefer this this Bubbies brand because there's no vinegar or anything in there you don't have to cook this to do anything to prepare it except just spoon it out of the jar right and you're supposed to like leave it in the juice you can drain some of the juice out of there as you start to work your way through the bottle but I've kind of measured out before I try and do a full cup size serving because I'm

you don't have to do that if you're already pretty fit yeah you don't have much weight to lose you don't have to do that but I'm in still in like maximum weight loss mode where I'm trying to drop another 10-15 pounds and so I'm maximizing these fermented foods, if when I fill this little thing up here I know it's about a cup about one cup of sauerkraut so that's all set ready to go and the other thing I'll show you is this is so I've already got my lunch all set ready to go for tomorrow too so I've got this ready I got this handy dandy little neoprene deal and I've got these little guys right here I've got a bunch of these so I can fill them up with sauerkraut so I've got ready to go and we already see the salad I'm going to show you what we do with that all right so sauerkraut's all done take a peek there zoom in yeah sweet treats out of the way if you if you want to try out this recipe I mean it couldn't be simpler for salad dressing yeah we have to go to salad dressing recipes around here this is one and I have another video here you can see kind of how you put it all together and the other one is even simpler it's just lemon lemon juice I take half a lemon take a little little squeezer and I usually put this little thing like this lemon juice and then olive oil give that a little stir that's uh that's my wife's favorite so we do that we mix it up kind of 50/50 with this so we got our sauerkraut ready to go this is how how I pack my salads screw-top I don't have to worry about this making a mess got my little salad dressing here this is rubbermaid you can get these on Amazon but it holds like 2 tablespoons of a salad dressing which is perfect I got my protein here so this is typically gonna be I know this this may not look like much but when you're eating everything else here on this your perfectly balanced meal plan this is plenty this is really plenty of protein about the size of your fist and this is probably a little bit a little bit smaller but I'm taking like a protein shake in the afternoon so I'm trust me I'm getting plenty of protein this is just chicken thighs and you can bake like a whole tray of these in the oven on the weekend and that's what we do is this is actually half of one chicken thigh season just with salt and pepper no olive oil none of that I just put it on the on the on the tray with some parchment paper or some aluminum foil and you're good to go little paper towel in there just to kind of keep you know stuff from getting all mixed together so all I do in my salad again I'll show you this this weekend but I've got some greens you can buy some some pre-sorted fresh greens I usually throw in some some red cabbage just because I like the antioxidants and cabbage is really good for helping you to get into ketosis and this isn't a keto diet per se but there's some elements of a ketogenic diet that are certainly in here carrots I go easy on carrots because there's a lot of sugar in carrots but carrots are fine in salads I won't run them through my juicer though because it just turns them in a straight sugar we got some green pepper got some green onion I got walnuts I've got pumpkin seeds and that's about it so what do i what I like to do is I take the salad dressing give a little shake and I can do this anywhere I can do this if I'm at, you know working at a hospital cafeteria I can do this in my car you know if I get stuck somewhere or whatever and I usually screw this back on you know shake oh so this I don't even know Atticus is asking me what size are the the containers I don't know I got these away it spilling oh, is it spilling? no biggie dump it in there get all the good stuff in there take my little fork make sure we're all set and if you want you can heat up the protein whether it's you know chicken or chicken or steak or fish but I can just have cold usually totally fine if you want to heat it up you sure can and you can have this on the side I usually just dump it right in the first couple times ended I thought it was kind of weird to add the sauerkraut into the salad but now I've really developed a taste for it and it is all good just boom there's my dinner and I promise you I will not be hungry this will fill me up um if I do find myself hungry I've got some broccoli from last night I'll pull that out and I'll throw that in the microwave well that's it guys healthy dinner for one because oh you don't thing I wanted to address healthy dinner for one I mean when if you if you're trying to adopt a more healthy lifestyle right whether it's exercise nutrition it can be and I was kind of joking about it at the beginning you know my wife's got you know the sweet treats here the first two or three weeks this would have been a real problem if this was in the fridge okay I would have gobbled this right up and like like nobody's business um cuz I have yeah cuz she always has leftovers and that was that was part of the dilemma for the last two years um my wife went back to school for a second career long hours out the door early home after like 8:30 9:00 o'clock at night so I'm kind of left to my own devices and I was traveling a lot to work making really bad food choices and then we got pregnant with this one and so for two years you know I had excuses for you know why I was eating like crap so I had habits that I had to overcome you know I had you know I know you know I had I'd uh I'd detox you know I had to go through the the carb withdrawal and all that and it only took about ten days to really detox off all the hey buddy only took about ten days to detox off all the carbs but I'll say it probably took a full six weeks if not closer to eight weeks to establish the new habit to the point where this is ingrained in me and I'm like fine like in social situations other people are eating crap or if I can smell you know fresh bread or you know if somebody else is drinking like you know I will I will drink alcohol again but right now alcohol is not it doesn't contribute to weight loss and you know I believe in moderation if you're trying to maintain but I'm not in maintenance phase yeah I'm still trying to lose weight so I just made a decision that if it doesn't contribute and help the weight loss it's not on my diet for me okay once you get down to your target way you can reintroduce things you can reintroduce some of those fruits you can reintroduce some of those carbs particularly particularly you know you're gonna be more active so it's not just one diet it's not just a one specific meal plan that works and everybody's a little bit different but what I found to work is you know these perfectly balanced meals where I have my eggs and my green juice in the morning I have a lunch that looks almost exactly like this a dinner that looks almost exactly like this and I supplement in the afternoon with a protein shake and I take some vitamins and stuff that I'll talk a little bit about later in a future video but hopefully this helps and if you know if you can get the whole family on board that's great but even if you can't you just have to carve out you know carve out some shelf space in the fridge you know carve out some cupboards and and that's what we did before we started this we came back from Thanksgiving and I'm like all right hun, this little cupboard here is mine this little spot here is mine you can keep all your you know your goody stuff because you know you can't inflict this on somebody else if they're not ready to make a healthy change that's um that's you know that's cool you just have to you have to do you know you have to do what's what's best for you what's what's going on? Nicole:I said "plus, I'm breastfeeding" Oh, I guess I didn't really take the hint Plus, my wife's breastfeeding so she's yeah she's definitely got to to supplement and eat a little bit more but I can't see the comments if you have questions shoutouts go ahead and drop him in here if there's certain things that you'd like us to cover in in future videos let me know give me some ideas or anything you're seeing popping up oh yeah Nick just said next thing you know you'll be on the food TV on food TV I don't buddy I don't think there's any any danger of that, Gordon Ramsay or Martha Stewart I am NOT but I'm all about keeping this real if I can do this Rachael Ray keeps it real, Rachael Ray yeah next it can be then mister Rachael Ray, Rachael Bray or yeah alright appreciate you guys I want to encourage you if you have not here let me flip this around boom if you have not um downloaded yet I've got this uh show you this here I've got this free report here okay it's called Perfect Day Lifestyle it's just a one pager here this is exact this is all the elements of the program this is exactly what I did to lose 52 pounds in ten weeks and you may not have that much to lose you may have more than that to lose but download this totally for free go to perfect day lifestyle dot com, check it out and if you have friends who want to check this out to invite them to join the Facebook group here, we'll talk to you soon, take care!

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The chicken store mile and how Britain went fat

With cheap and fattening nutrient everywhere, the committee had been a condition alter that intends beings do not recognise obesity when they see it in the mirror

The Mile End Road in east London is awash with chicken browses not homes to buy fresh poultry but takeaways where the lubricant is always rippling and everything comes with microchips. One patch of chicken in batter with fries and a can of full-sugar sip for PS1. 99. Two segments for PS2. 79. “Theres” utilitarian counters inside with red-faced and white plastic cloths and large containers of ketchup, but many of the customers feed as they stray home in their school uniform.

In this London borough Tower Hamlets one in eight children starting elementary school are obese, and that doubleds to more than one in four when they leave, at age 11. The parish has the fifth-highest rate of child obesity in London and the sixth in the country.

Sir Sam Everington, a GP, deplores the chicken patronize mile that begins merely a short path from his innovative Bromley-by-Bow health centre, where social and psychological questions are taken as seriously as the diseases that producing parties in. There are all sorts of reasons why people become obese, but the 42 chicken patronizes per secondary school in the parish are definitely among them.

The child obesity digits are a disaster, is in accordance with Everington, who chairs the boroughs clinical commissioning group. Its a spectrum of hunger, he says over coffee in the delightful cafe that is an integral part of the health core. My assumption is everything their own children are malnourished.

Chicken patronizes on Mile End Road, east London. Composite: Graeme Robertson

One of the worlds more affluent municipalities has children with questions we acquire do not subsist outside the developing world. Hunger is not just about starvation. And apart from the real danger that obesity will lead to heart disease, stroking and cancer in later life, the diet children are chewing too leads to vitamin shortages and mouths full of rotten teeth.

For the NHS, this scenario is destroying. Even now, character 2 diabetes which relates to obesity eats nearly a 10 th of the annual budget. There is some proof that the rise in obesity in children nationally may have stumbled a plateau, but it is stabilising , not removing. And weight particularly in adults but also in children is very hard to switch, thanks to our inbuilt biological excuses. Our metabolism dramatically slow-going weight loss after a couple of months to prevent us starving to death.

Graph obesity in UK

Obesity is the new smoking, Simon Stevens, NHS Englands chief executive, has told the Guardian. It represents a slow-motion car clang to its implementation of avoidable illness and rising healthcare expenses. If as a commonwealth we prevent piling on the pounds around the waistline, well be piling on the pounds in terms of future taxes necessitated simply to keep the NHS afloat.

Britain invests more on obesity-related healthcare rates than on the police, the fire services, prisons and the criminal justice system blended, he says. Obesity-related status expense the NHS PS6bn a year and rising. The diabetes invoice is PS9bn more. Its not just the wellbeing of beings in this country and our children, but its too the sustainability of the NHS itself, Stevens said.

The NHS has to prevent people growing ill in the first place. Stevens lately pledged a price rise for sugary sips sold on NHS propositions to staff and patients. Its a start, but theres a long way to go.

Obseity

Around the country, merely the type of takeaway goes, from fried chicken to fish in calorie-loaded batter to curries and burgers( all offered with sugary alcohols ). The difficulty is the same. A cultural transformation has taken place over the past few decades. Cheap and fattening nutrient is everywhere in pub, eateries, fast-food shops and supermarkets. A chassis alter has followed. Those living in areas where people are mainly overweight no longer recognise obesity where reference is gazes back at them from the mirror.

In the north-east of England, Sean Woodcock, a bariatric surgeon, are dealing here with the consequences. There is a treatment that works, “but its” drastic and not for everybody. Stomach-shrinking surgery actions those who go through it to devours little, because they appear full after minuscule sums of meat. Beings shed significant amounts of weight, get out of their wheelchairs and regain their lives. But its a hard street to travelling and Woodcock tells them so.

Bariatric surgeon Sean Woodcock contains a framework of a stomach. Photo: Murdo Macleod for the Guardian

At a meeting in Monkseaton medical core near Newcastle, where the Northumbria healthcare NHS foundation trust has taken over infinite for a dedicated bariatric outpatient gang, Woodcock looks all over the semicircle of morbidly obese surgery nominees sitting on extra large chairs. He flicks up a slip of a glinting cartoon fairy godmother. I guided out of fairy dust a long time ago, he tells them. There is no quick fix. It is hard work before the surgery because it is hard work after surgery. Motivated and advised patients get the best results.

Who has had a takeaway in the last week? he questions. A couple of handwritings go up. In the last month? Most handwritings are in the breath. That has to end, he tells them. Who boozes fizzies daddy? Everybody does. Some of my patients drink litres of the stuff every day, he says. My patients booze three or four litre-bottles of full fortitude[ sugar-sweetened] and say: I dont know why I dont lose weight, Mr Woodcock.

Graph obesity in Europe

Beer is an underestimated question, very. John Smiths contains 250 calories a beer and Stella Artois 300. Ten pints is up to 2,500 or 3,000 calories and thats without going for your kebab, he tells them.

Nobody goes surgery without undertaking a weight handling direction, in which they find themselves teach about diet and nutrition, fitness and exercise. They must demonstrate they are serious by misplacing a significant amount of load thats where the avoidance of takeaways and fizzy pa be coming back.

And they must also learn how to eat, pole surgery. Some meat, such as bread and chewy meat, will not go down. They cannot booze and eat at the same occasion there must be at least half an hour between. Meals will be tiny. Anita Attala, expert dietitian at the unit, says: You cant have the sugared occasions and you have to eat in a certain lane and munch the nutrient well. There is a risk of malnutrition and people must take vitamin supplements.

It represents a slow-motion vehicle clang in terms of avoidable illness and rising healthcare payments. Simon Stevens Photograph: Graeme Robertson for the Guardian

The staff, unlike much of the public, have infinite approbation for the people they ascertain. In most cases, there are mental prompts behind the load amplification and many people have cleared big efforts to lose weight. The vast majority are on a diet cycles/second, says Attala. They follow a commercial-grade nutrition, lose weight, plateau and then pile everything there is on again. They start again and neglect again. Commercial slimming organisations know it happens. Its why it is such a good business prototype. It is demoralising for parties because they think its their lack. We had one patient “whos been” been a slimmer of the year.

Claire Browell has been trying to lose weight since she was 18 Weight Watchers, Slimming World, commercial-grade foods, capsules you appoint it, she has done it. Aged 41, she was morbidly obese, with arthritis in her knees. She could not walk and was depressed. She has managed to lose more than 19 kg( 3 stone) on the educational weight handling its programs and Woodcock has just countenanced her for surgery on 15 June. She is joyous.

She has taken to heart what Woodcock tells his patients that obesity-related cancers could cut their lifespan by 11 years. But Browell has not gone into this gently. Surgery has its own risks. I have two children and it was a example of who is going to look after them if something happens to me? she says. If anything bad is going to happen, it is generally happens to me. Who would look after my sons?

But eventually she came to realise her fortunes were worse without surgery. Who would look after the boys if she died from a blow or heart attack as a result of her weight?

Claire Browell. Photo: Murdo Macleod for the Guardian

Stevens says bariatric surgery is not the answer for all 1.4 million people who are severely obese. It would cost PS8. 4bn same to the pledged authority increase in the NHS budget by 2021. It could bankrupt the health services. The explanation, he says, has to lie upstream. We have to prevent obesity in the first place.

Everington concurs. It should begin with babies and breastfeeding, which safeguards children against excessive load gain. In academies, the GP says, I personally think health should be a obligatory part of the curriculum, ahead of maths and English. What is more important in life than health? I exactly miss my kids to be happy and healthy. So all children should be taught cooking throughout their school vocation, and they need to run about much more. He quotes the Stirling primary school that cut its obesity pace to zeroby instituting a one-mile running or gait every day for all staff and pupils.

Outside school, we need safe cycles/second roads( Tower Hamlets is constructing them ), commons and restrictions on brand-new takeaways. The existing practice cannot be closed. And, says Everington, GP practises, schools and other “communitys institutions” must all understand that they are well placed to help changeour minds about the method we live and its impact on our health. A culture alteration adjusted us off down this road. There needs to be another.

Sarah Boseley is the author of The Shape Were In: how junk food and nutritions are abridging our lives, published by Guardian Faber .

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long.. complaint post essentially

id say rant but its less anger than just.. despair i guess

oh god i feel at this moment.... very hopeless

ive just kinda been frozen since i got home,,, talked some, ate dinner, etc... but there is so much i need to get done but i {feel i} cant do until i finish one thing in particular...... like so many rows stacked up in tetris that all get cleared with the one block that fits them all... i mean perhaps nobody thinks its that big a deal,,, idk......... i just feel like i cant breath... literally it feels like my chest is a bit tight just thinking of all this shit stressing me... like once i finally get one thing done turns out its not done and i had 10 more things to do as well... i feel that in the time it takes for me to take one step, i’m pushed back like 20 paces....

you know when you have so much stressing you that you play games or just fucking fill your mind with static to pretend nothing is wrong?? you waste time having fun while the stress just looms next to you all day every day?? thats like my usual state of being.... and here is the other end.. where things come crashing down, and im panicking, and im frozen because i can never solve things, i have to find an order in the chaos, and at this point everything immidiately turns negative and i wonder why im even alive rn... i like that ive written this much and still remained so vague.......... SIGH

uh lets see i mean its mostly all just financial shit

the biggest block rn is the fucking gym... gee am i getting so damn sick of this shit.... i am ready to sccream over this fucking gym...... ive been trying to quit almost since ive started... i FINALLY send the shit i need to on time..... and they didnt do it???? so i need to call them tomorrow asking why they havent drafted the quitting fee, and im sure theyll ask if i did the fucking secure mail where i get notified when they recieve it, and no i didnt bc i dont have money, and they will come up with some bullshit excuse reason why i cant quit still, and at that point ill want to scream and cry, i fucking wish that could solve my problem??? why cant i be like my dad who yells at the customer service people on the phone till they solve everything for free???? why cant i ask that of him now?? thoughts like these... who let me be an adult, how will i not get fucked out of shit because im a fucking pushover who just wants to please everyone and be polite.....

then lets see.......... the student loans..... the big issue with this... i mean 50 bucks a month starting in october... i mean we will fucking see if i have the money... considering im already drowning now, i fucking doubt, but my biggest concern is the logistics... what amount am i paying back? how do i know that its set up to draft out of my account??? questions i dont want to ask anyone because i’ll feel like a fucking idiot and i’ll just cry about it instead pls.... so i’ll just rot till october tyvm...

and what else... my biggest fear is the combination of these two, that i cant quit the gym and im paying like 75 fucking bucks a month for two things that have made my life nothing but hell...

but i think the other biggest stressor is the small shit adding up rn... for like 2+ months (i havent really counted but i know its been a long time now) my phone isnt working without a charger.... and to even get it replaced for a working model is like 75 bucks.. id buy some shit phone but thats 20 bucks that can be spent towards surviving... like, see above bills.... oh and id switch to an old phone of mine to even ask if thats possible would fucking cost money bc metro pcs wont answer shit without seeing money first ugh.. its made all communication and leisure time way more difficult as im chained to the wall and only a few short times a day for either.... so setting aside that, ill just fucking pray for that for christmas orz the other “small shit”...... oil needs to be changed on the car,,, means i have to find some time to buy oil, figure out what fucking oil to buy, where to buuy, if i have the money, etc... communicate with coworker friend and get a day we both have off so her friend?? can change my oil for me for free, bless.... but thats not even possible till i get back from my vacation.... so a week or two..... then we have the registration sticker that needs to be updated before september,,,, 80 to 85 bucks my dad said... that obv cant be updated with a code on my car so again, it has to wait a couple weeks... even driving with a code on my car gives me such anxiety...

so moving on to.... i guess the tiny shit that isnt as big problems but only have become such because im mega stressed..... thought i had finished the laundry... found another bag orz... apartment much more disorganized than i thought.. you know how order in the home gives a certain peace of mind.... and vise versa.... bf and i are fucking depressed and at least i want pills but that is a faraway dream rn, booking a fucking appointment, much less having $$ for a perscription????? trying to work out then losing motivation so quickly as always... but because i want to dedicate my energy towards cleaning this place... which just somehow never happens.... just never seeing a way to save money??? ive been so damn frugal and i still cant pay my bills and here i am with more bills, meanwhile my dad posting his stupid fucking bullshit on facebook about “choose happiness” like money doesnt have a fucking say in the matter.... and all the low self esteem and negative thoughts that accompany all this situation... wanting to “do something nice because ive been having a hard life/week” and then still feeling like shit, or feeling guilty for having spent anything then complaining about money...

i guess last thing i wanted to touch on..... the vacation... bfs mom takes me with them on their family vacations.... honestly i feel like the goth in the prep family? like im too much drama to make them happy.. ive been pretty open with her about my feelings towards my dad and stepmom, mostly bc she is super giving and nice and agrees with me against them.. and recently ive been more open, like about my depression even... and like... she even said she would get me a scrip... like....... i just.. this kind of thing, the vacations, the covering my half of rent, even while she doesnt have a job rn (she is rich but tighter on $$ now so) but i feel so guilty accepting it.. like if i justify it, then arent i being too greedy?? but i literally cant refuse it, or i’d be on the street right now so..... but i just feel like she owns me... if i were her daughter i think id be more okay but like... if john and i break up she put like, thousands into SOME CHICK.... i feel like in the far future i’ll need to write her a check too;; i told bf i wasnt rly feeling the vacation... of course because of the neverending drama surrounding me (yeah yeah im not saying drama is drawn to me, yeah i create it okay) this will just kinda strain more the relationship and they’ll all think i have some issue with them or smth that i gotta ruin every family trip... so i’ll just go.. but like... self esteem is out the window, so i wont want any pics.. i doubt bf will either, we both have gained so much weight, and i have perma acne that gets worse by the day, and i cant even afford to get my hair cut or colored again so its just this grown out mess.... then in the other respect of a vacation... i think ill just be worried the whole time about my finances... i mean i wont be able to spend money on anything so -shrugs- i get to just look at a bunch of nice things, thinking “i wish” or feel the guilt of her wanting to get it for me.... oh god yeah and same things w my friends.... i want to hang with them?? but i dont have money for shit??? and every time they pay for smth i die inside bc when will i even be able to pay them back its the same thing but theyre poor TT

anyways i guess thats most of it..... i guess im feeling tired maybe ill just pass out watching some youtube videos.... i was wanting to get a drawing done but ~*the cycle of feeling like shit*~ will occur worse then...

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Abuse??

I need some advice. I know that you all aren't professionals or anything and it's hard to judge something from an online account of it, but I really have NOT been able to get something off my mind recently. I've been constantly thinking about my parents/brothers treatment of me growing up. There's a lot of things that stick in my mind and they just kinda hit me this year, when I moved away to college. I just want to start this by saying I wasn't physically abused. I mean, not really. There were 4 instances that stick out in my mind in terms of getting physical. First, my dad hit me on the leg (hard enough to sting) because we were having a discussion in the car. I have no clue what it was about. Second, one time I was fighting with my mom and she slapped me on the arm. Not hard. Last, again I was fighting with my mom and my dad kinda yelled to stop it. I said something to him (I think it was like "this doesn't involve you" but I'm not sure.) And kinda ran towards me and grabbed me by the hair. This happened twice. I don't remember why he grabbed my hair the second time. What I really want to ask about is emotional stuff. Let me start with my brother. When I was younger, I remember some times when he tormented me. Now I know that this is fairly normal and he probably didn't realize what he was doing, but I remember being so genuinely terrified that I would hide from him and call my parents (who would be working on a house we were building in the backyard). I would be with my back against a door and he would grab at my ankles. I don't know how to feel about this... but I can say that I can't think of a recent particular instance that I've felt scared or victimized by him, only then. Then there's my dad - first off, he is not okay with me having a different political opinion than him and makes me feel very guilty about disagreeing. He will scream over me, even now, and tell me to shut up. Also, I remember one time we all went on vacation to Florida. I don't do this often and so I asked of we could stop by Myrtle Beach at some point (because we were driving and passing through) and everyone undoubtedly said no. Of course, I was disappointed and acted like I was (which, admittedly we were on vacation and I should've just went with it... There's always another time to go) and he called me a bitch... more than once, yelling over me when I tried to defend myself. He said "this is what I hate, that defeatist attitude from you." Then he called me that. Also, there were a lot of times where he said the words "I know you're [insert any age below 18 here] but don't think I won't hesitate to beat your ass." Of course, he was referring to spanking me? Which I find VERY weird and am confused because I believe I was almost 18 the last time he said this to me? Plus, I don't think spanking is every appropriate for a kid anyway... but that's another thing. He would also say "YOU aren't going to tell me what YOU'RE going to do." Again, all the way until I was 18. This was usually in relation to things like me not wanting to help them clean at home when I had made plans prior. I'm sure there's stuff I'm missing about the other two, but I want to move onto my mom. Whoo boy, there's a lot. First off, I remember being a very passive child and kinda doing anything anyone told me because I just assumed they were right. Now, I was like this all the way up until about middle school (7th grade) and I remember being SEVERLY depressed for 5th and 6th. Like, cried myself to sleep, and ate very little food. Idk, it was bad. But when I got to middle school, things got better and I started to find my voice. Still a pushover, but better, and I wasn't so depressed anymore. I'm honestly not sure what changed. But then, again my sophomore year of high school it got really bad for a second time, and was like that for a whole year. Like... i wasnt eaying bad. Then it got better again, idk how to explain it. But anyway, I digress. Around the first time I started to feel better, my mom starting saying how much I had changed and how bad it was. She used to say "you were such a sweet child then, and now you aren't, and you don't listen to me. What changed?" Which.. I always found very insulting because this was the time I feel I began to become better.. not worse. I remember her humiliating me in front of my friends. At the time, I HATED my dance classes (I can admit that it totally was a phase, I love dance) and she had me stick with them. I would make excuses not to go a lot, and admittedly part of this was because of my emotional state. But anyways, one time my friend was over and was going to carpool (because we had the same dance class) and I can't remember if I lied about not having the right shoes so I couldn't go, or if I genuinely couldn't find them. (Which obviously, I shouldn't lie and shouldn't lose things) also, I had a very messy closet. I just remember yanking everything out of my closet, throwing it all over the place and screaming because she was trying to find my shoes. In front of my friend. Idk. She also CONSTANTLY comments on my weight and appearance. She made me feel self conscious about things I didn't even k ow were there. Her comments are always unwarranted and she acts innocent when I confront her about them. She does the same with acne. She also gets very upset that I talk a lot. Like, she berates me for it? I'm making this sound way worse than it is lol. The first time she visited my college, I swore (accidently.. ik I shouldn't swear at my mom) and she was like.. "if this is what this place teaches you then don't think we won't hesitate to pull you out." When I'm the one paying for it. Speaking of my college, she does nothing but insult it.. She made negative comments about my room being too clean the first time she came. She also tries to keep me from getting a summer job. I go to school 10 hours away, and I'm home for the summer. (This is my first year.) I told her I'm going to work when I'm home, and she gave me a myriad of reasons why I cant. She said 1. They would lose food stamps and federal assistance because I would be making money and coming off from them as a dependant 2. I wouldn't be home to "help her" get the house together (there are piles of junk all around and in the property she wants to get clean... bit I've tried to help before and she was saying this for years. Nothing gets done on it) and 3. Bringing up reasons why I HATED my job last year and telling me all jobs would be like that. Also one time.. And this was by far the worst... it took place this year. I was home for Christmas break (about a month long) and my only goal other than having a nice holiday was to get a particular ear piercing before I went back to school. Now, I'm 18 and have money so I had no problems going to get that done and doing the last few errands I had to do by myself before and went back, and said as much. But my mom wanted to come, and I said whatever because I'm a little scared of driving. (Even though I've done it for a few years now 😂😂). I did tell her though that once we were downtown, I wanted to do the ear piercing first because it was on the way, and the website for the place I was getting it done didn't list hours. We had a full list of groceries and stuff to do and I thought we might get there too late.. And this was really the last day I had to get it done before I went back. She agreed, no problem, to doing this.. even though I knew she wasn't too happy about me getting the piercing. So, as soon as we get downtown, (she's driving) she starts saying that she wants to go everywhere else first before my piercing. I got upset.. And said to her that the only reason she's doing that is because she knows it'll be too late to go the piercing parlor by the time we finish everything else, and she doesn't want me to get it. (Once again, I probably shouldn't have been so accusatory.) But.. She starts yelling that I'm paranoid and need to see a psychiatrist because I'm downright crazy for assuming things, and paranoid that everyone is out to get me. This was while we were driving and I started sobbing hysterically.. which she didn't care.. And you know, there's a difference between telling someone you care about you think they need help and using that comment to hurt them. Especially because before she had outright stated how she thought anyone on medication was crazy and looked down on them. She continued errands leaving me in the car, and when she returned and I didn't want to talk this just made her more upset. Of course, she denies a lot of this and is the kinda "well I'm sorry if you were offended" person and she's always blaming someone else. One time she said she didn't like aspects of my personality and then called me too sensitive when I got upset. There's also a lot of instances of my parents fighting and involving me in ways I shouldn't have been. Making me feel guilty about money, etc. Telling me personal things about my brother that were none of my business. My parents also never let me cut my hair. Also, something I really hated my sophomore year was high school band, and I told my parents this and I was forced to continue. Eventually I started skipping (Which I shouldn't have done 😣) and lying to them, telling them I was going. (Which again, shouldn't have done) well, long story short they found out because my teacher called them, and they didn't tell me, getting me to confess. This all came to a head because there was a school parade I was supposed to be in, (on a saturday) and I went to my friends the night before. My dad said he would pick me up in the morning and take me, and I was just going to like hang out at the school and pretend I went. (I know, I shpudnt have done this) So, my friend was aware of this situation and very supportive. She said to call my dad and just tell them her dad would take me, so I didn't have to just sit at the band room. So I did.. And my dad informs me that he has a friend there that can tell him if I'm not there. So.. I just come clean. (Mind you, I've managed to officially withdraw from band at this point because my parents never called the band teacher back and he just ended up dropping me from his roster) and he instantly says, "then you're done with cheering, and I'm coming to get you right now." *click* cheering was one of the things I truly enjoyed. But anyway, he came to get me and they both reemed me out. They didn't end up taking me out of cheering though. That said, my mom still lords it over my head even though I've told her it was contributing to my depression because it is literally the only big lie I've told. I don't know what to make over all that. I'm sure I'm missing things, but there's a lot to this post already and I just want to say that of course I'm not talking about the happy times either. And there's a lot of those! So, to get back to the point of this post... would this be considered emotional abuse? Should I see a therapist? I think I have anxiety/depression but I know you shouldn't self diagnose, and I don't want to pretend I have something I don't.. But I also have a block about therapy I suppose. But I don't know if I was abused and I always doubt how I feel on it and I just wanted other opinions. Thank you for reading and thank you in advance for commenting.

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20 Things I Learned During My Weight Loss Journey Of Losing 96 Pounds

Did you ever see one of those before and after weight loss transformation pictures and think, That doesnt even look like the same person! or They purposely picked an unflattering before photo?

I have lost almost 100 pounds, and have kept it off for so long that there are people I know now who never knew me during the time in my life when I was heavy. One such friend saw an old picture up while visiting and said, I still cant believe it, you look so different, Id almost think you had cosmetic surgery. If she had a true understanding of my intense fear of needles (I passed out getting my ears pierced!) shed know that absolutely wasn’t the case.

Another time, a house cleaner didnt recognize me in my own wedding photo and, when I confirmed it was me she looked at her friend and said something in Portuguese that included the word gorda. After three years of high school Spanish, I know the word fat in Spanish when I hear it!

Which brings me to this point: You’ll be surprised how weight loss affects you. I mean, sure you think youll look better, and you will, but the way you feel, the manner in which you hold yourself and the amount of times youll flash a smile, all change too.

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Because of the dramatic changes my body has undergone since I lost weight, I get asked quite a lot how I did it, so here is my own condensed guide to getting into great shape. Let’s call it the Cliff Notes version of everything I’ve learned along my weight loss journey.

1. As a general rule, unless its cauliflower or a White Chocolate Luna bar, if its white, dont eat it.

2. Think of food as a choice, and not as a reward or a punishment. You dont deserve a decadent dessert, nor are you depriving yourself if you dont have it.

3. Dont get comfortable with some success. Theres no finish line or touchdown dance. As I was losing weight, and every time I went down a size, I would only buy one pair of jeans, one pair of tan pants, and one pair of black pants. I wouldnt spend a lot, and I would tell myself, Dont invest in this size, as youre not going to be staying here for long.

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4. BLTs count: Bites, Licks and Tastes add up and Sips too (so try your best not to drink your calories!)

5. Eat foods in their lowest common denominator: Think orange, not orange juice, and shop the outside aisles of the supermarket. Its where the least processed foods are.

6. Avoid any food that has a television commercial.

7. Do, dont watch.

8. Make rules for yourself. I have a rule that, unless its a family movie or sporting event that we are watching as a group, I DVR my favorite programs and hop on my exercise bike when I want to watch. Do you have a pedometer? Make a minimum step commitment for each day. I also have a rule of not taking the elevator unless its going up or down more than 20 flights.

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9. Never walk by a source of clean water. Drink up!

10. Make your workouts like brushing your teeth, just something you do without question.

11. You getto workout, you dont haveto workout. (This one is a biggie!)

12. Meals should be a balance of lean proteins, complex carbohydrates and healthy fats.

13. A stumble doesnt have to be a free fall. Having a row of Oreos doesnt have to be a full out surrender.

14. Nix the excuses. Youre no busier than a fit person. Theyre all busy too.

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15. And now, to quote Vezzini from my favorite film, The Princess Bride: You fell victim to one of the classic blunders. The first is, never get involved in a land war in Asia, but only slightly less well known is this

16. Never order a grilled chicken Caesar salad and think you ordered a fit and clean meal. Theres as much fat and calories in this standard restaurant salad staple as a cheeseburger and French fries. Still want the salad? Get it without the cheese and croutons, and skip the Caesar dressing for a lighter dressing on the side and drizzle, not drown, your greens. Plenty of times people go off track as they ate something they thought was a good choice.

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17. Never avoid lifting weights thinking that they will make you bulky. If it was that easy to bulk up, there would be a lot more men walking around looking like Arnold Schwarzenegger in his heyday. Speaking of lifting weights, nix the weenie weights too, unless thats really your starting point. If you can breeze through twelve repetitions of a move, its time to increase that weight! Heavy weights do great things for your body. Resistance training boosts your metabolism, burns more calories, even after youve stopped working out, and builds muscle, which burns even more calories at rest.

18. Its very tempting to let food be a stress reliever. Theres a reason why theres the term comfort food. My suggestion is just to try to be accountable for what you decide to do or not do. Ultimately, youre captain of your own ship, and you shouldnt put the wheel in other peoples hands. Caught up in some drama? Figure out if its really your problem. I find myself breaking out the Not my circus, not my monkeys, idiom a lot. Even when it is my circus and my monkeys, I tell myself that working out will give me the strength to handle it. If I decide Id rather trade my dinner for martinis and tortilla chips, I do my best to take responsibility for my choice.

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19. Never solely rely on your workout buddy or diet challenge friends when weight loss is on the line. While it can be fun to workout with a friend, or as part of a group, ultimately your weight loss and fitness goals are an individual achievement. If your friend needs to skip the gym one day, thats not a license for you to do the same.

20. Likewise, if youre out on the town and a challenge mate suggests splitting the fried Blooming Onion, youll need to be the one throwing a fork at them, I mean, politely declining. Did you ever hear that expression, Show me your friends and Ill show you your future? If youre trying to develop healthier eating habits and a solid fitness routine, you may be surprised by how those people closest to you respond. Ive said it a hundred times, saboteurs are everywhere with their very tempting catchphrases: Well start tomorrow. Just this once. Youre no fun anymore. Dont deprive yourself. Youre going to need to be the captain of your own fitness ship. As captain, you should also be aware that your crew is not always going to be supportive or encouraging. There may be for a million reasons why, and youll drive yourself crazy trying to figure it out.

Charlene Bazarian is a fitness and weight loss success story after losing 96 pounds. She mixes her no-nonsense style of fitness advice with humor on her blog atFbjfit.comand on Facebook atFBJ Fit.

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Do you not have enough time to workout? Wanna know why you can't workout? Are you constantly making excuses? Maybe one of these people are you! Be the change you want to see in the world. These are 10 common excuses we make as to why we can't work out! Enjoy! MissFitProgress| 10 Excuses Why We DON'T Workout