#ANOREXIA NERVOSA

[dreamdropsystemarchive]

we're getting bad again..

[recoveryposting]

a little while ago i was talking to a friend about my ed and i dont remember the context but she said to me "I LOVE CARBOHYDRATES!!!!! I LOVE CALORIES!!!!!!" and i stopped and stared at my phone because i had genuinely never heard anyone say they love calories. like, even implicitly theres this messaging that lower calorie = better and that we should enjoy of food despite the calories it contains. and i was just floored that this was the first time i had ever heard anything like that and it made me feel so comforted. anyway appreciate your friends they are some of the most important people in the world

[fuck-your-proana-blog]

I'm so sick of pro anas glorifying anorexia by saying how "wonderful" and "lovely" it is to feel empty. This feeling does not last.. there might be a very short "honeymoon phase" with your restrictive ED where you think you're being "strong" and "pure" by starving when you first start losing weight, but it ends.. QUICK. I spent 13 years feeling what they described should make me feel "pure" and "lovely" and I HATED EVERY MOMENT. I was miserable, I developed organ damage, osteopenia, lost a good portion of my hair, my joints and ligaments are destroyed, my face was covered in lanugo, my gums recessed so bad my skull was exposed- clearly that would be painful, and it was- it got so bad I needed expensive, not covered by insurance surgery, which was the beginning of my recovery. Starving is never worth it. Now that I'm in recovery sure I gained weight, but I also gained satiety from food every day multiple times a day (which I can confirm feels better than starving), holidays don't scare me so much anymore, I eat more and exercise less than I have in 13 years and life is so much better. Weight is the least of what I've gained in recovery- I've gained the ability to eat at restaurants, not always know the calories of what I'm eating, a sense of humor (now that I'm not constantly angry/irritable that I feel like shit 24/7), a better relationship with my husband, and all the little joys that food, especially holidays surrounding food, can bring to our lives. If you reach your "ugw" and get diagnosed with anorexia nervosa, it is not an accomplishment. It is a sickness that will destroy your family, other relationships, body, and mind. Recovery or death are the only ways out of anorexia, and as I've recently learned through trial and error, I do not, in fact, want to die. I want to live- to wake up next to the love of my life and my cats, to have at least 3 meals a day so I'm never running on empty; it's amazing. Recovery is worth it, always- anorexia never is. So stop promoting it as some sort of badge of honor; it's not. Recover while you can, because 1/5 of anorexics die- either by starvation or suicide. I've been closer than anyone ever should be to dying of both. Being thin is not the most important thing in life, it really doesn't matter as much as the sickness in your mind convinces you it does. So get better, before your body and mind are so ravaged by your ED that there's no way out anymore.

[imperfection-circumspection]

ED Group chat

I'm thinking of making an Instagram group chat, if you wanna join us ask.

From ages 15-24

Meanspo only if asked

[dreamtydraw]

Hello there ! Today’s post is a bit special because it’s a game recruitment post.

For those who are unaware, last october I published a demo for my sapphic horror / romance game Apple bag. Since then i've been working on other projects but i now returning to wok on it to offer an expended demo release for this october ( Possibly for this year Yuri game jam ).

It’s this game :

I’m currently looking for :

Gui artist ( open )

-Work would consist of making entire new gui assets to make the game more polished visually.

Renpy programmers ( open )

-Work would consist of coding the gui assets as I am not knowledgeable enough to code it myself + Help reducing my coding workload by coding the dialogues and make the development quicker.

Sensitivity readers

More precisely :

-Someone who suffered or is knowledgeable about anorexia nervosa. ( open )

-Wasian person familiar with the struggle of double cultural identity, preferably Taiwanese / European. (Open )

-Work would consist of reading the script and making commentaries to ensure the content depicted in the story is correct and handled with care.

Additional position : Guest artist ( open )

-This isn't a work that is necessary for the game development but for game promotions. It would consist of having artist working on promotional art (chibis, simple ilus, doodles ) that could be used for promotional post ( ex VA announcement, promotional post, date announcement ). This position is more for fun and interest for artist who wants to do small amount of artworks.

The time frame this project will be worked on is august / october and most of the work regarding programming and commenting won't be requested before at least mid september. Additionally this project is unpaid because the game will be free upon release and I'm a broke college student working on this game by passion.

For questions you can leave them on this post or directly message me. For candidature please message me on my discord ( dreamty_dream ) or private message

Thank you for taking the time to read my post, wishing everyone a good day.

[the-bonez-tour]

having a supersize vs super skinny marathon for dinner

[arrowheadedbitch]

TRIGGER WARNING, THIS POST IS ABOUT EATONG DISORDERS!!! KEEP YOURSELVES SAFE!!!!

I'm in my developmental psychology class in college and I am PISSED that my middle AND high school totally misexplain eating disorders!!!!

They always told me anorexia is the "not eating one" and bulimia I'd the "purging/vomiting one" BUT THAT'S NOT TRUE!

Anorexia is categorized but being dangerously underweight, a relentless pursuit of thinness, and a distorted body image

This can be achieved through purging behavior!

This is the one you may hear about having a specific weight criteria

Bulimia can be normal weight or even slightly over!

They are characterized by regular engagement in binge eating episodes followed by purging or compulsory weight loss behavior

Not necessarily vomiting!

They might feel a loss of control around food and will end up trying to "make up" for it by vomiting, laxatives, other medication OR over exercising!

I know high schools and especially middle schools tend to 'dumb down' their information to make it easier for children to learn and to get through enough material but is it really appropriate to dumb down eating disorders?!

Come on!!

I think this is very important for people to know! If you think you may have an eating disorder, including binge eating which I didn't mention in the post bc it is usually taught correctly (or at least it was to me), but please seek help!

There are people who care about you! You matter and there is nothing wrong with your body or your brain!

You are perfect how you are, please don't feel afraid to ask for the help you need!

[melancholiederengel666]

Inhale your worst obsession

[briannabug]

rose hreidmarr ❦

[blackcoffeeandblood]

“wow how did you get so skinny so quickly???”

self hatred & diet coke :)

[religion-is-a-mental-illness]

By: Suzanne Moore

Published: Apr 9, 2024

The alarm bells have been ringing for some time, but now the entire narrative around adolescent gender dysphoria is breaking apart

I remember as a teenager reading about a strange disorder called anorexia. I had never heard of it – and then I noticed one of my best friends cleaning her teeth several times a day and exercising manically. And it wasn’t just her that was acting weirdly. Several girls I knew were clearly suffering. Then came bulimia, which turned the school loos into sad places in which certain girls spent worrying amounts of time.

Then, as a mother of daughters, I remember reading about an epidemic of cutting among teenagers. Surely this highly unusual behaviour was not rampant? Well, the internet told me it was and an NHS psychiatrist informed me about self-harm circles in certain schools. 

These thoughts occur because I am trying to understand how we started talking of “trans children” and thought this was somehow some kind of “progress”. This, after all, is a new phenomenon. In 2010, for instance, with the Equality Act, which made gender reassignment a protected characteristic, the intention was surely to avoid discrimination against adult transsexuals. This is a laudable aim, but no one was talking about children then. The phrase “gender dysphoria” was not bandied about. It was rare to come across a child who had such severe gender issues they needed specialist services. Indeed, in that year, only 75 children were referred to Gids (the NHS’s Gender Identity Development Service, based at the Tavistock Centre in north-west London). By 2021 it was 5,000.

Now we are in a situation where celebrities wear T-shirts saying Protect Trans Kids and where schools, even primary schools, are colluding with the idea that children are whatever they say they are, that their bodies are somehow wrong and that they can change their names without parental consent.

The alarm bells have been ringing for some time about Gids. What was most alarming was this sudden spike in girls presenting with gender dysphoria and the increasing evidence of the harms of puberty blockers.

When Dr Hilary Cass was commissioned to report on standards of care within the NHS, it was as if finally an adult had stepped into the room. She and her team have looked at the evidence and practices that had recently evolved the affirmative model (designed to support and affirm an individual’s gender identity) and found much wanting. She also signalled the high levels of comorbidities with gender dysphoria. A high proportion of these girls who did not want to be girls were autistic. Many had troubled childhoods or had been in care. Many were gay. All of this resulted in the unravelling of Gids and a ban on puberty blockers.

In the full report, which is due to be published this week, Cass is not only concerned with medical intervention (puberty blockers, cross-sex hormones, surgery) but is also expected to come out against “social transition”. Though this is not something that happens within the health service, it is, she says, an “active intervention because it may have significant effects on the child or young person in terms of psychological functioning. There are different views on the benefits versus the harms of early social transition… it is not a neutral act and better information is needed about outcomes.”

Some believe that socially transitioning kids will lock them into a gender identity and medical pathway that is detrimental. Cass emphasises that gender expression is indeed fluid and changeable for adolescents and that many may take till their mid-20s to settle. In other words, leave these kids alone.

Indeed, faced with this huge increase in kids saying they are trans, many schools have acquiesced. Yet teachers are not clinicians, nor are they there to diagnose children. Do they understand what they are doing? The entire narrative around trans children has been imported from America, but it is breaking apart.

Those who want to see themselves as compassionate and modern have embraced some seriously dodgy ideas. The evidence against puberty blockers, which were sold as “a pause” and reversible, mounts up. The Mayo Clinic has suggested that these drugs can lead to cancer. There is a court case coming up in Italy, and many predict that once the dam breaks, many who have been prescribed these drugs will sue their doctors. 

This has all been allowed to happen because children have been lied to. They are told they can change sex; they are told that puberty will be awful; they are told they will feel suicidal. Anyone who challenges this has been deemed a pariah. So we end up with newly qualified English teachers now deciding that they are doing the right thing by keeping a child’s fantasy identity secret from their parents.

Many are terrified of this issue and go along with what they must know to be dubious. We have yet to see where the Labour Party will go on this, because it too quakes in front of its own activists. Yet any serious person must address the issues around safeguarding. The gender dysphoric child must be protected, of course, but so must the other kids in the class who have a right to single-sex changing rooms.

Now is the time to step back and ask ourselves how we got here. The trans child is a manifestation of a recent story that the culture has told itself. This is a story of social contagion combined with the genuine distress of mostly young girls.

Children cannot be blamed for acting out, but the adults who have encouraged this, while patting themselves on the back for their progressive views, still need to be challenged. Cass is but the start. 

[x-halliza-x]

[recoveryposting]

make no mistake, the society we have built around us would rather see you skinny and dead than fat and alive. they might even convince you that you yourself would rather be skinny and dead. that's what's so evil about eating disorders, theyre practically built in to our lives. luckily for us, WE built this society, and we can change it too. step off the scales and dont let them win any longer.

[imperfection-circumspection]

When you finally realise that you're at the point of being so alone that no one actually cares about you

[random-nerd-posts]

I have a sad headcanon

So, I was watching “to the bone” that was launched as a Netflix original because I’m working on a Nimona (movie genre) pregnancy fic…

And I’m the movie they cover someone gaining weight and getting her period and getting pregnant and having a miscarriage because she purged.

But, that’s legit the scene I wanted to watch for my story, but the entire movie is very interesting and made me think about the following:

What if Ambrosius suffered from anorexia nervosa?

What anorexia nervosa is you suffer from an eating disorder and you irrationally fear weight gain and through that you throw up what you can because losing weight is better than gaining it.

It’s more common in females in their teens (high schoolers mainly) but it can happen in males as well.

So, what if the fear of being overweight while being a descendant of Gloreth made its mark and as a teen Ambrosius had to be taken out of knight school for a hot minute because he’s so sick.

What if they knew Ambrosius was close friends with Ballister and said that if he didn’t eat, they’d stop letting the two hang out together.

What if after the wall collapsed Ambrosius relapses and gets to below his original starting weight (the lowest he was at when he did his first in-patient stay)

And Ballister tries so hard to help but knows Ambrosius needs help, but he won’t threaten leaving because he knows that won’t do any good.

Just, yeah. I can’t stop thinking about the possibilities of Ambrosius having medical relapses because he’s so stressed about what his life was and now he has control his mind attacks him.

Just… the what if’s are too strong.

[fionna-cookie]

Me, watching a movie with an bulimic woman who tries to purge 1 bite of cake: "Ok. First thing darling... One bite of cake?! Second... You are not gonna get this easily out darling. Just freaking stop it!"

And at this time I realized I have way too much experience.