#DAD THE JOKER IS QUEER GET OVER IT

[sleepyfriend]

always remember the rage that lego batman inflicted on homophobic batman fans, the cries of little pissbabies everywhere, the petitions to ban the movie, parents fuming. remember that all it took was two fictional legos to look at each other for a little longer than expected, now wait till these fans find out what telltale did... omg

[theodorecanaryhood]

The ticking time bomb

Jason Todd x male! Reader

Warnings: violence, homophobia, sex and swearing

Everyone has a story and not every story is the same, in fact some or most stories can be similar, but details are varied for every person.

In all honesty, anyone who says they grew up with the ‘perfect life’ is full of shit, at least that was Jason’s POV to that.

He grew up in a toxic home with his dad Willis Todd, his gun and drug dealer grandmother, Faye, Jason had no idea who his birth mother was until he was 14, to which by this point he was living on the streets.

Scared, helpless, alone and desperate to stay alive in Crime Alley, Jason attempted to steal the wheels off the Batmobile. Batman caught him though, but instead of grilling the young teen, Batman convinced Jason to go into care - also, highly convenient, Bruce Wayne just shows up and adopts Jason out of the blue.

Not too much time later, Jason is the second Robin. Angry at the world for his upbringing and problems, he becomes a little too much for himself. Getting captured and tortured, eventually murdered by the Joker.

Tragic, really tragic.

Jason came back a different person after his resurrection, even meaner and angrier than before. Which just played into Jason’s psychopathic tendencies, along with his constant role as the victim.

That was before, Jason likes to think of himself a changed man. But how much can one person really change? That’s the real question.

‘Fuck’ Jason moaned out as he held his hard meat in his hand, wrapping his fingers around the base.

Jason had been tense and stressed AF lately and needed some release, typically as a single man, he only knew one way to do it.

Jason stared at his phone as he watched the video of the woman get bent over, the man in the video slid himself in with ease as she called out in pleasure.

Jason had a hard time focusing his full attention on the woman, he kept saying to himself in his head that the video was boring, she’s too loud etc…then he just lost interest and felt himself not hard anymore.

Scrolling through the hub Jason wanted something a little more interesting, typing into the search bar for ‘blowjob’ videos.

Hitting a video out of nowhere Jason found himself instantly hard again, jerking himself till he was empty of his seed and stress.

See, most people know early on who they are and who they’re attracted to. But, Jason was taken too young to ever have time to figure out. Also, due to his ‘manly’ father, Jason always told himself he had to be ‘normal’.

Scenes from Jason’s childhood popped into his head, his dad Willis had a guy on the floor beaten and bloodied, hitting him over and over.

‘Fucking fag, don’t show your face here again’ Willis boomed, hate crime was not uncommon.

Willis Todd was known to beat up any man or woman, did not hold back even more if they were gay, or not white.

Jason hated Willis for what he did and what he exposed Jason too. Hated it so much he felt sick, no literally Jason was going to vomit.

Shoving his head down the toilet he vomited hard as he felt the agony come to bay, Jason had watched in memory as he beat himself off to two men having sex. Enjoying it so much, Jason came. Really hard, and liked it.

It had happened before in a time similar to this, as Jason recalled he couldn’t focus on the woman in the porn video, so focused his attention to the guy. His sweaty abs, his biceps and the moans. He loved it, and Jason hated that he loved it.

Jason cried to himself as he came to realisation that he is, in fact, exactly what his father Willis hates. He’s gay.

Willis Todd was long in prison by this point and Jason is a grown man with his own life, but he couldn’t help himself but revert his mental state back to the 8 year old, that saw his Father in action.

‘Fucking queer’ Willis screamed as he bashed the man around the head, the baseball bat hitting the spots that could do some serious damage, if not kill.

‘Fuck’ Jason muttered to himself, looking back at his phone to see the video still up, and watching it again.

Jason liked it, he really liked it and didn’t want to accept that he did.

Some time went by, Jason had been dealing with his own problems, but he couldn’t deny that he was feeling isolated. His pain and deep homophobia was battling together.

‘Hey, what can I get you?’ You asked from behind the bar, Jason sitting down in front of you.

‘Can I just get a Corona please?’ Jason asked, a little shy as he stared at you. You smiled and nodded.

Jason hadn’t played scenes in his head so much in a long time, though he did like that it distracted him from the trauma of his death.

‘You look lost, something bothering you?’ You asked as Jason sipped his beer.

‘You ever just start to rethink your life? Like, the lessons your parents taught you were wrong but, you almost always fail to think different’ he asked, you nodded a little with a slight shrug.

‘I guess, but then my parents always told me to be myself and love everyone the same’

Jason smiled, for what felt like the first time in centuries. He actually showed teeth too, feeling himself blush Jason quickly straightened his face.

Jason kept coming to the same bar and always being served by the same bartender, though it was clear he didn’t come for the service or the drinks, he came because he slowly accepted, Jason began to get acceptance from himself.

After months, Jason was finally able to find courage to ask for your number, to talk to you when you weren’t serving him.

Hanging out a few times, Jason felt an attraction but never said anything. He hadn’t had a real friend since he was a kid and didn’t want to ruin it.

‘So, you been watching it? Season 5 is way better, it gets really dark’ you bubbled in excitement, Jason was binge watching a series on Netflix you’d suggested.

Jason just enjoyed the company, he also really enjoyed that he was watching new things.

Jason also found himself jacking off a lot more to gay porn, but this time he was picturing himself with you. Moaning out your name. Coming hard as he smiled.

Was it your h/c hair that pulled him in? Was it your voice? Your face? Or was it simply that Jason hadn’t touched a man his whole life? Probably all of it, but you’d never let on who you were into. Men or women? Both? Neither?

‘We really should hang out more, maybe go catch a movie or something’ you said as you walked to Jason’s door, leaving another hang out session.

Jason nodded as he smirked a little, getting the door for you.

‘I’d really like that y/n’ Jason replied as you leant in and gave Jason a hug goodbye.

It was the first time you’d hugged him and Jason shot right up, if you catch the drift, realising he 100% was into you.

��Take care buddy’ you waved as you left, Jason awkwardly covered his crotch area with his hand as he shut the door.

‘Crap’ he mumbled to himself, feeling the need for yet another release as he stood hard in his pants.

As time went on Jason felt he needed to just be truthful, tell you the truth.

‘It’s been bothering me for so long, I haven’t said anything cause I didn’t want to make you feel uncomfortable or anything, but’ Jason began, you sitting opposite him at the table in Jason’s dining room.

‘What is it?’ You ask, concerned as Jason stopped himself, looking to the ground. Fidgeting with his sweater sleeve.

‘I like you a lot y/n’ Jason admitted, you smiled as you looked in Jason’s eyes.

‘I like you too’

Jason looked back as deep into your eyes as you did his, not hesitating anymore.

‘No, y/n I really like you, I mean I like you more than a friend’ Jason shyly told you the truth, you sighed and looked down to the floor.

Jason instantly regretted his decision and was aware he wouldn’t be able to take it back. You looked back up, placing your hand on Jason’s.

‘Took you long enough to admit it’ you chuckled, Jason looked confused.

‘What?’ He asked in shock.

‘I mean, you check me out a lot, you always try to cover your crotch when I come near you’ you smiled, Jason smiled softly.

Jason thought it sweet how you noticed it all but never said anything, as not to embarrass him. Jason also felt an overwhelming urge to touch you.

Jason leant in while placing his hand on your face, kissing your lips softly. You smiled into the kiss and pulled him in deeper.

Jason had mental flashes of his father, Willis, and froze for a second before abruptly pulling away. Making you pull away too in apology.

‘I’m sorry, I’m really sorry’ you urged as you held a hand out, Jason shook his head.

‘It’s fine y/n, it’s not you, I’m just not ready for…’ Jason tried to explain.

You understood of course, everyone has their demons. And Jason definitely had a fair share of them.

However, he still felt shameful about himself and couldn’t admit the truth. Not himself. Not completely.

Jason watched the same videos again of two men going at each other, bareback. Jason felt so much pleasure being released as he spilled on himself.

‘Y/n’ Jason whispered to himself, feeling the warmth as he pictured your face. Then felt the nausea return once again.

Jason couldn’t do it anymore, he couldn’t keep denying himself. Especially, as you began to notice that Jason was avoiding you.

Jason texted you to come over as he poured some shots down, bucking up his courage.

‘Hey’ you smiled as Jason let you in, him smiling at you and giving you a side hug.

‘Thanks for coming y/n’ Jason said as he handed you a beer from the fridge.

You both sat on the couch in the living room as Jason tried to voice a way to express how he feels, why he has been trying to make himself distant from you.

‘I was starting to think you weren’t interested anymore’ you broke the silence.

‘No, I do really like you still, it’s just, I’m not ready’ Jason took your hand in his, intertwining his fingers with yours.

‘Not ready for what? A relationship?’

Jason heard his dad again calling out homophobic slurs, his mind drifted to a different night he could remember. Willis had beat up a 16 year old boy, and his boyfriend. Jason stood and watched. Not knowing what to do.

‘Jason? What’s going on?’ You asked, bringing Jason back.

‘I grew up in a really bad environment, my dad beat up a few guys because they were gay. He did other stuff too. I could never accept myself since then’ Jason admitted, you took a slight grip on his hand.

You smiled with empathy as Jason she’d a tear from his eye, he was scared of what would happen to him.

‘It was a long time ago Jason, you’re a better person. Nothing bad will happen if you say it’ you wiped the tear away with your thumb as Jason took a breath.

‘I’m gay, y/n, I like you and I want to take you out, as a date’ Jason sighed as you smiled a little.

You leant in and kissed Jason as he pulled you in tighter. For the first time, Jason was enjoying this kiss as he just thought about you, being there with him.

Jason was so hard and could feel you were too through your pants, he rolled over and sat on the couch with you sitting on his lap.

‘Oh, Jason’ you gasped as Jason began to lift your shirt over your head. Him lifting his off too.

‘Fuck, I want you so bad’ Jason growled as he sunk his teeth into your neck and collarbone.

You threw your head back as you slid off Jason and removed the rest of your clothes, Jason doing the same.

Jason sat back down while you sat on Jason lap, gasping when you saw Jason dick that was at least 11 inches.

The two of you made out more as Jason gripped your ass cheeks, biting you all over. Sure enough to leave a mark.

‘You sure?’ You asked sweetly as Jason nodded, pulling you in for another kiss.

You slid down again as this time to you went on your knees and began to kiss, lick and suck Jason’s length. Which stood right up, exposed for you.

Jason had been in these situations before, he’d had sex before…many times. But, he never did it with men. He could never get that far. Denying himself so hard.

Saying that, Jason had never experienced a blowjob like this before. He had read about the differences between getting blowjobs from men compared to women.

Apparently, it’s better from men due to men knowing what they like to get from oral. Jason didn’t know if it was true, but he guessed it must be as this was the best he’d ever experienced.

‘I’m gonna come if you keep doing that’ Jason chuckled as you looked up at him.

‘Is that so bad?’ You laughed, as you crawled back up Jason’s seated form.

You slid down Jason’s big, hard shaft and gasped at the sudden pressure. Breathing deeply as Jason filled you up.

‘You’re so fucking hot’ Jason breathed out as he began with a rhythm that worked for you both, you gripping the back of the couch.

‘Oh God, Jason’ you called out as you arched your back, while meeting Jason’s rhythm.

It was minutes of bliss as Jason sped up and slammed into you, you moaning in the pleasure.

Jason placed both his hands on your waist as you rode on his dick, you jerking yourself while Jason grunted beneath you. His hard dick filling every part of you.

‘Fuck, Jason’ you almost screamed as you shot your seed out all over Jason’s stomach.

‘Shit’ Jason smiled, still holding your waist as you breathed out in bliss.

Jason lifted his hips up in an unbelievable way that your pleasure hadn’t come to a close, Jason grunted and threw his head back as he felt the start of the big finish.

‘Y/n, I’m coming, I’m coming’ Jason called as he began to hit into you slowly as he emptied himself.

You both panted put in satisfaction as you moved over and sat next to Jason. Your naked bodies, sweat sticking to the couch and each other, you both smiled as you sat in silence.

Jason took your hand in his again as he turned his head to kiss you, which you accepted with no hesitation.

You rested your head on Jason’s shoulder as he began to internally scream in happiness, Jason could finally accept himself. And, he had you.

[bat-besties]

Trans Barbara Gordon 

Barbara is a smart and happy kid, and when she insists she’s a girl or that she’s Barbara (the name she would have had if born female), Jim just takes it as a sign he’s raising his son as a feminist. Jim doesn’t really know very much about trans culture, it’s the 90s so it isn’t on his radar for his kid. At work, he’s pushing for policing changes and listens to lobbyists, but it isn’t a priority for him.

When Barbara begins to grow her hair out at twelve he teases that she’s looking like a girl, and doesn’t understand when she gets upset.

Barbara, angry and hurt and feeling so, so wrong doesn’t know why she’s upset either. When later her dad clumsily talks about how it’s so cool that David Bowie is bisexual and oh wow he loves that makeup and everyone thinks Bowie is such a cool rockstar, she feels a little better.

She does feel an affinity with queer men, but she prefers thinking about Batwoman than Robin - maybe that’s bisexual. Her dad stops talking about her wife and starts saying partner, and that makes her feel better.

When she sees the word “transgender” for the first time at fourteen it’s like the world tilts on its axis. She logs into the internet, reading everything she can - forums and chat rooms filled with people just like her. She sobs with the sudden relief - relief and fear and joy and dysphoria and understanding. Ever the librarian, she gathers as much information as she can.

She considers a few names - Cassandra is pretty, and has a meaning she loves, but she decides to keep things simple. Barbara Gordon, as she always should have been.

When she tells her dad, she’s entirely professional and serious. She doesn’t miss how his confusion gives way to fear, but she knows it isn’t of her but for her.

Jim takes a while to entirely switch names and pronouns, but she doesn’t care when the effort is there. He takes her out shopping for new clothes, agreeing between them that for safety they’ll say they’re trying to find a surprise outfit for her twin sister if anyone asks. Nobody does - but the plan makes them both more at ease. They argue over an ugly corduroy skirt Jim loves and she says is hideous. She mostly gets women’s sweaters and trousers, in purple and green and black.

Things are easier from her computer where A/S/L is at the click of her keyboard, and nobody can tell her what she should be. She remains closeted at school at first, for her own safety. Then once she goes to high school, she switches schools and starts her life new.

Jim had already taught her how to fight. He teaches her again.

Things are hard- but she gets through it. Still, graduation is a relief when she can just keep contact with her few good friends.

Life after high school is good, but there’s a frustration running through it. As her father becomes police commissioner, it’s harder to hear her friends in the gay bars of Gotham talk about their experiences and still come into office to chat with her dad’s coworkers like she always used to. She knows she’s protected by her dad, and everyone should have that same protection. He urges for slow, systemic change, and she can’t wait for that.

When she wears the Bat’s symbol, it’s purely to piss her dad off, to take her cue from another vigilante. She didn’t expect to become caught up with the man himself.

She didn’t pick the name Batgirl either - it’s a shame Batwoman was taken - when she chooses her own name later, as Oracle, her gender doesn’t factor into it.

Still, having a billionaire fund your transition is a small perk for risking your life every night.

Finally, she’s fulfilled.

And then - a fight, the Joker, a gunshot.

Paralysis brings with it a wave of self-hatred towards her body she thought she’d left behind forever. She’s stuck, once again. Familiar anger curls into her bones. Physical therapy feels like a joke, a band-aid over a gaping wound. The pain is physical now, invading her body and fogging her brain. After so long saying she can do as much as anyone else, now she genuinely, physically, can’t.

She tries not to think of the word joke.

It’s a small thing which triggers the self reflection - her dad’s chasing a case and is asking her for advice. One suspect’s name is familiar to him, and he just can’t place it…

She laughs, for the first time in a while. It’s her deadname.

Jim feels like an idiot, and she tries to remind him to rest and sleep amidst her teasing. But she remembers being fourteen and thinking her dad would never switch, never truly see her as his daughter. And now, here they are.

Names are not fast to change, but that doesn’t make the change any less necessary.

Oracle - she takes a while to come across the new name, and as she wakes from the dream which brought it, she instantly knows it is right.

Once again she’s behind a screen, building herself a new identity. She can’t run over rooftops or hold her own in a fight, but she goes to the library and takes out every book on disability justice and reframes what independence and power mean to her. So she can’t do what abled people can - how many of them can do this?

Pain doesn’t mean what it did as Batgirl, the cost of a battle lost and a war won. It doesn’t mean anything - and perhaps it never did at all. She takes her painkillers and does her breathing exercises, and naps with the computers running.

Her body looks wrong in the mirror, and this time she can’t change anything about it. But she can buy a wheelchair she actually likes the look of, and donate the trousers which bunch weirdly when she sits down, and practice looking herself in the eye.

Then comes Black Canary and Huntress, Katana and Lady Blackhawk, and so many more.

Her Birds of Prey are no more her legs than she’s their brains. They’re her friends, her partners, her heroes - just as she is theirs.

Of course, she is in an incredibly complex sapphic polycule with many members.

And then come the Batgirls....who I’m going to do individual hc posts for with transfemme Cass and trans Steph. 

[found--family]

✨ let's play 10 Qs for GK! 🎆

1- fave character besides harvey/twoface? 2- fave harvey/twoface scene? 3- fave dynamic between 2 characters? 4- best character development? 5- most memorable line? 6- fave plot twist? 7- what did you think of twoface? 8- something you loved about the creation/design? 9- anything you would change about the season 1 plot or characters? 10- what did you think of the season 2 setup?

💌 thanks for sharing the love! #GothamKnights 🦇💋

(i've been thinking on these for a few days..) 

1. fave character besides harvey/twoface? 

Duela 

I was intrigued by all the characters' backstories and wanted to see where their journeys went.. but Duela's story was just a cut above the rest for me. Put it this way: I don't tend to watch shows without queer rep front and centre. I'd watch spinoffs for Harper, Steph and Cullen but as much as I enjoyed the actors and their arcs and dynamics, I'd be tuning in for the queer stuff more than anything else. Whereas with Duela? I'd follow her story anywhere (and she's not queer, far as I know; maybe the comics say different but in GK she's hetero with a snarky/flirty side). 

I love a mysterious backstory. I love complex badguys who turn out not to be so bad. ORK's portrayal was like watching a star get their first big break. She's such a talented actor - the kind who steals every scene without trying, the kind who you want to see in more scenes. She's award-worthy and aside form Misha she was the best casting choice imho in that she has big talent and I'm grateful we had her in this little dc show. 

And I just want to point out Duela's reverse parallel storyline to Harvey's because I love it: she started out as a badguy while Harvey started out as a good guy, and over the season they switched roles with Duela wilfully becoming a Gotham Knight and Harvey becoming the killer Two-Face. The more I think about these characters both individually and how they relate to each other, the more I swoon over what the writers have crafted for us. 

I thoroughly enjoyed Duela's character development and would've loved to see her journey continue in season 2 as she carries on without Turner and her dad and then finding out they're both still alive; what would she think about Turner training to be a killer following in his parents' footsteps? Would she try to honour Harvey's promise and bring him back to the driver's seat or would she find a strange kinship with this new villain Two-Face? That would've been such a rich confrontation given that she grew up with The Joker as her father figure and everything that happened with her mom. Just.. top tier potential. 

2. fave harvey/twoface scene? 

Meet In The Middle

Every Harvey scene was gold but the dream sequence where Misha plays both Harvey and dark!Harvey was amazing because not only did we get to see both Harveys interact we saw Misha exhibit how he can make you believe you're watching twin actors portray two different characters?! (and if you're a fan of that you should check out Supernatural because he plays like 8 different versions of Cas through the years and they're all distinct. I love this talented dude!) 

3. fave dynamic between 2 characters? 

Sharper  

Steph and Harper going from rivals to allies to tentative friends, Harper thinking her feelings were one-sided, Steph dealing with her parental mess. They were such a good contrast to each other while also having the common ground of tech-engineering to geek out about and compete over. From the jump we were shipping them wondering how the show would go about it - because we didn't know! It was textual but the see double ew cannot be trusted for positive queer rep. The writers laid the groundwork without being obvious - the way too many queer relationship are these days, just boring from the start because you know they're gonna end up together - and then when the show actually followed through?! Euphoria! (the feeling, not the other show). 

4. best character development? 

Duela, Brody 

I'm torn between these two. On the one hand Duela's entire character arc had me glued to the screen and her gradual shift from lone wolf to pack member was so nice to see. But on the other hand I'm glad they did something to shift Brody away from the rich jerk dude into a caring, helpful, immortal?! member of the team. The issues they both faced with their parents (all the batbrats and their parents, really) makes me think we could've seen a friendship form between them in season 2, which would've been interesting. 

5. most memorable line? 

"Two-faced" 

There's a few jokey comments I can't remember off the top of my head, but I do remember Lincoln and Jane (and others?) referring to Harvey as "two-faced" and I just loved how it suited the narrative they were telling but also worked as foreshadowing. Made me giggle every time! 

6. fave plot twist? 

Duela Dent 

I saw it coming but I still loved it. I think I loved it because they teased the possibility of it in dialogue and unrevealed details through the season and then followed through on it. Follow-through is everything! I'm so sick of movies and shows teasing one thing then doing something else because they want to surprise the audience; a good story isn't about pulling a twist out of nowhere it's about laying the groundwork and trusting your audience to pick up on clues and subtext. 

Speaking of which: I was so surprised by Rebecca being the head of the Court - I didn't see that coming! But there's hints in the subtext and in Lauren's portrayal if you rewatch. I loved evil af Rebecca and was so glad to be done away with the demure meek damsel. 

7. what did you think of twoface? 

7.5 / 10 

All in all, I loved him. I loved his scenes and the way Misha took on a more menacing quality for him. I loved that the first thing we see Two-Face do is kill someone, and then he uses the coin to kill again without hesitation (for his daughter! Which is also a great callback to The Joker losing interest when Duela could fend for herself, because now we have Duela grown up and capabale and now she's safe but Two-Face wants Jane to pay for 'hurting her' - the villain has a heart! He's a two-time killer but we love him!). 

Sadly my score isn't perfect because of the prosthetics [minus 2]. As cool and creepy as the scarring is, the design reminds me of Freddie Kreuger in that 80s plastic monster look - which isn't bad, it's just that it looks fake because it doesn't fit the timeline of events: it's only been a few days at most since the acid attack so the skin should still be peeling and wet and bloody and gross, but it looks healed. It looks how I imagined Two-Face would've looked in season 2 set six months later - which I love, but. Basically it looks like a scar instead of an open festering wound. 

I think the make-up department did a stellar job, and I love how they pulled Misha's lips back and gave him a milky eye and made sure to scar all the way back over his skull! I just wonder why they didn't rough and gummy it up a bit more? Probably because it was on the see double ew so they couldn't have it look too gorey? 

The acid-burn effects when Harvey first gets hit is amazing! I don't know if they used cgi or prosthetics but it looked real af - and that's how you know it's good, if you can't tell the difference. Given how amazing that scene fragment was it actually raised my hopes for Two-Face's face, so I was let down when the final scene wasn't on-par with the visceral believability of the attack scene. 

Misha's Two-Face voice was (almost) perfection! (I do wish he'd obstructed his mouth a little more in the dubbing session so it would've sounded more believable as a guy with half his face melted off --I minus 1/2 for this reason-- but..) It had a tinge of Jack Nicholson in there which leant this unsettling vibe; there was malicious intent and deadly swagger in the way he moved and spoke, you knew he was dangerous - you can see how terrified Jane is - but he also has a slight penchant for theatre. That final shot of him faux commiserating with Jane over the coin flip before shooting her point-blank was like: there he is, there's the iconic villain cemented. 

8. something you loved about the creation/design? 

Lighting + Wardrobe 

a] GK proves you can shoot night scenes without underlighting the setting and your characters. Whether it was nighttime in the Belfrey (that blue clock glow), or a Court of Owls meeting (golden candlelight), a fight scene on the streets (orange and blue streetlights), or countless other indoor settings like Steph's house, Harvey's office, the main Belfrey, the inside of a van, nighttime in the woods - the lighting team didn't trade detail for criminally underlit aesthetic, they gave us the atmosphere while letting us see what was happening! There's this insane notion in big budget fantasy/sci-fi productions that they have to let scenes be almost pitchblack to set the tone, but it's bullshit because all you get is audience members squinting and trying to up the brightness (and still failing to see anything because the contrast is so low). GK shines a light on each and every scene by upping the power from various in-world light sources (streelights, halogens, lamps, moonlight) so not only does it feel in-line with setting and aesthetic but we can we actually see the story unfolding, we can see the faces of the cast and the details on and around them that make up the environment of the scene. 

b] JMN didn't just weave meta details into the costumes for every character, she shared behind the scenes insight into how and why the pieces were chosen and crafted. She engaged with fans excited about the process which made for an even more rich and layered viewing experience! We didn't just get a peek on-set or in fittings, we got the chance to interact with someone who loves the intricacies of storytelling as much as we do! (Same goes for Nat and the rest of the crew, sharing so much love for fans and glimpses into the making of this wonderful show.) 

[sidenote: the lighting and wardrobe detail reminds me a lot of spn; we're meta mad over that show for many reasons but a lot of it is because there's so much going on in the details and the beauty of the scenes] 

9. anything you would change about the season 1 plot or characters? 

Brody + Minor Characters   

While I do like Brody's character growth I don't like that they started him out as the rich jerk bully stereotype. They could've changed tack with him in the early days just a bit to not be annoyed by him from the jump and glad he's not in more scenes. 

I was also hoping to see a few more scenes with the various minor characters we only saw briefly: Harvey's assistant could've been sus, Harvey's campaign manager could've dumped him after the Duela Dent reveal, the police chief wasn't in it enough.. The main cast being so big makes it difficult to give lesser characters more screentime but it would've helped to expand the world a little. There were times when it felt like they were either on the belfrey soundstage or in the streets with not much else going on. More locations would've been good - every genuine outdoors scene helped ground the narrative and we didn't get many, like Harvey at the lake, or the court in the woods. 

(Second seasons tend to expand the world so I can imagine more locations and even new side characters coming in like an intrepid reporter..) 

10. what did you think of the season 2 setup? 

9 / 10 

I liked the stuff with Turner's parents and the trainer dude, but I wish they'd threaded a few of those details through the season because it kinda came out of nowhere; it makes sense, and I like it, but I would love to be able to look back at early episodes and be like ohhh! (tbf maybe the clues were there and I just missed them because tbh Turner's broody teen angst was annoying and I kinda tuned out when he was the focus of a scene). 

The Gotham Knights becoming legit (thanks Duela!) was a nice capper and setup for the months ahead - working with the cops to take down bad guys including some newbie making waves.. who they eventually find out is Two-Face?! Meanwhile Duela is grieving both her parents and later (mid-season or towards the end) finds out Harvey is still alive but he's fucked up so now what will she do?! I look forward to fic writers giving us many second seasons that the see double ew denied us. 

[specterthief]

Sojiro for the ask meme?

Sexuality Headcanon: bi but "feels the need to no homo over having his 16 year old ward's number in his phone" levels of in denial about it until having two very queer adopted kids makes him confront some things Gender Headcanon: cis guy A ship I have with said character: i don't particularly ship him with anyone, though i do kind of like the idea of some very very slow burn sojiro/iwai. the single dads... A BROTP I have with said character: i love the sojiro + futaba + joker found family unit more than i can express, and the slow found family development between him and joker in general, especially with how rough things are at the start!!! i also have to cry a little bit about sojiro and wakaba because while there were definitely feelings on sojiro's end he really doesn't seem like... bothered at all by the fact that they never had a Relationship and the fact that he adores her so much and was so important to her and adopted her daughter and is so determined to do right by her memory and the fact that they were "only friends" and he still feels that way just makes me CRY (i read wakaba as aroace and imagine that in any reality where she lived she and sojiro would have always been platonic life partners and the fact that she wouldn't reciprocate the exact same type of love would never be a problem between them) A NOTP I have with said character: i can't think of anything i've actually seen out there that i feel strongly about...? i don't care for sojiro/sae because sae is also very gay to me and i just. don't see that in their dynamic but that's it i guess A random headcanon: he rescues a cat himself some time after joker moves out, ostensibly because the cat basically just moves into his yard and he starts feeding it and then he might as well let it in and get it fixed and everything, and he thinks it would be good for futaba—but really just because he got used to morgana being around and he got really attached to the idea of looking after a cat General Opinion over said character:

i love him

[zorilleerrant]

Do you ever notice how when people are asked to describe who Batfam members are there’s always a specific way they answer the question, and it isn’t the same for any of them?

Bruce: Overview of his backstory compared across various canons, discussion of different personalities he’s given in various canons and fanons, explanation of costume variations.

Alfred: “He’s Bruce’s butler-dad.” Theories about how old he is and which war(s) he was in.

Dick: “He’s from the circus.” Loving description of that specific person’s favorite adventures that he’s been on and what his friendships mean to him. Slow slide into headcanon with no clear delineation on where that begins.

Kathy: “No, not the lesbian one. This one’s Bruce’s love interest.” Either calls her a BAMF MILF or complains about how nothing she does makes any sense and it just seems random.

Bette: A bunch of Dick jokes. Complaints about the representation of girls and women in comics for old Bette, narrative rundown for revamped Bette. Comments about Dick seeming gay.

Babs: Either discussion of computers and everything comics gets wrong/secret theories for how it all works OR digression into representations of disability in comics and why she’s a badass disabled character.

Helena: Description of her costume and weapons. “Wait the other Helena?” Awkward befuddlement over how to explain the various Helenas. Discussion of what her physical appearance/race should be.

Jason: “He died.” Long screed on why it is or isn’t okay to do/represent murder, long argument for/against the white streak in his hair, minor aside for/against an autopsy scar on his chest, vitriol against the Joker. “Oh, yeah, he’s the second Robin, the one that died.”

Carrie: “She’s the girl Robin. No, the first one.” Either praise for Frank Miller as a writer or complaints about Frank Miller as a person, possibly both. Attempting to describe how her timeline diverges. “And then DC wouldn’t bring her back, can you believe that?”

Tim: Explanation of the differences between Canon Tim and Fanon Tim and then that person’s personal headcanon about his personality and the driving forces behind his decisions/morality. Recently, philippic about his sexuality and opinions about Bernard. Crying over his hero name.

Steph: “Everyone skips her as Robin.” In depth rundown of her tragic backstory, and why her dad is the worst ever. Theories about her social position and how that impacts her view of the world, why they personally relate to that/her. Waffles.

Terry: Description of the world of Batman Beyond. Complaints about the world of Batman Beyond. Conspiracy theories about the world of Batman Beyond. How Batman Beyond would fit into main canon if it were rolled in more thoroughly. Possibly a complaint about Amanda Waller/retcons; “supposedly he’s Asian.” At no point any actual description of who Terry is.

Cass: Assertion that it’s important to have characters of color/woc specifically. Either a list of things they’ve assigned to her because they think Chinese culture is genetic, or more generic Asian stereotypes. Comments about how she’s very polite and demure and Bruce’s favorite. Sometimes complaints about her “evil mother” but rarely complaints about the world’s worst (white) dad. OR discussion of speech and sign in fiction.

Damian: “He’s a baby assassin.” Personal headcanons about his cultural background and how he feels about that. List of his pets. Description of his friendship with Jon-el and how much the speaker loves/hates that and loves/hates other people’s opinions on it. Discussion of his morality and why DC did him dirty. List of other pets he has that are only semi-canonical, and more pets he should have.

Kate: Discussion of the history of queer representation in comics, possibly with asides into retcons and how that impacts perception of later canonically queer characters, complaints about the TV show.

Maps: Unhinged declaration of why you need to love Maps. Sometimes something about ghosts or mysteries.

Duke: Long explanation of what his powers are a metaphor for. Theories about his relationships with the Batfam and Gotham, and then another extended metaphor about a different thing this time. Light puns.

Harper: “She’s bisexual and she has blue hair.” Positioning her as a protector and describing her tragic backstory.

Cullen: “He’s gay.”

[laceymorganwrites]

Masterlist 3

Link to my second one:

https://laceymorganwrites.tumblr.com/post/614740868569710592/masterlist-2

Jujutsu Kaisen

Filth alphabet: Satoru Gojo

Fluff alphabet: Satoru Gojo

Milestones: Satoru Gojo

Satoru Gojo relationship hcs

Dämmerlicht 

Sukuna filth hcs

Getou x civilian!reader relationship hcs

Choso relationship hcs

Older sister hcs // part 2 // part 3 // part 4

Choso - Dämmerlicht

Fushiguro fluff

JJK charas reacting to their S/O coming home with a different hair style

JJK charas reacting to their S/O crying at the end of a movie/show

Daylight (best friend!Gojo x reader)

Sukuna is sex obsessed hcs

Choso x reader x Nanami

JJK Tokyo gang going to a gay cafe

Nanami, Maki mini hcs

Mini hcs: Eso

Sukuna finding out his great-great-great....grand daughter is dating Gojo

Quality time with them

Megumi, Sukuna and Gojo reacting to their S/O being scared of sex

Nobara and her S/O dancing in the rain together

Gojo publically proposing to his S/O

Gojo reacting to accidentally hurting his S/O who gets injured easily

His queen (Sukuna x fem!reader)

King of hell (Sukuna x fem!reader, 18+)

Dad hcs (Choso, Getou, Nanami)

Characters and the anime you watch together

Boku no hero academia:

More Hawks hcs

I almost wished we never happened (Dabi x reader)

Dabi drabble

Dabi falling in love with his band´s electric guitarist

Sub!Shigaraki x male!reader

Staying in with Dabi on a stormy day

Happy AU: Overhaul

Colors (Dabi x reader, heavy angst)

Dabi cinema hcs

Happy AU: Touya

Hawks´ eyes

Fantasy AU: Iida

Haikyuu

On with the show (Nikki Sixx!Kuroo x reader)

Too fast for love (Vince Neil!Yuuji x reader)

Oikawa drabble

Tendou drabble

Osamu w an artist!S/O

Kunimi Valentine´s Day fluff

Red hot (Tommy Lee!Bokuto x reader)

Sub!Tendou x male!reader

Watching soccer w them for the first time (Kuroo, Oikawa, Atsumu, Suna)

Them reacting to you fangirling over other athletes at the olympics

Tendou and his pastry chef!S/O running a shop together

In the afterlife (Tendou x reader)

JoJo´s:

Abbacchio relationship hcs

One Piece:

Killer filth alphabet

Law drabble

Oden sadness hcs

Kid x fem!reader

Monster trio + Ace reacting to their S/O giving them a hickey

Benn Beckman filth hcs

S/O winning a food eating contest

S/O asking for a piggyback ride

Zoro x reader x Killer hcs

Yamato x reader relationship hcs

The damn jacket (modern au Kid)

Robin, Katakuri and Kid reacting to their S/O being genderfluid

Kid pirates at pride parade

Okiku x reader x Zoro

Yamato mini hcs

Gay for the captain (Kid x male!reader)

Filth Law hcs: devil fruit edition

My favorite OP characters at the Victoria Punk cafe

Naruto:

Hidan jealousy hcs

Naruto girls smut

Madara x fem!S/O spicy body swap hcs

Attack on titan:

Period sex w Levi

Sub!Levi x male!reader

Jean x reader

Nanatsu no Taizai:

The story of the sad chapter 17

Meliodas falling out of love with Elizabeth and in love with reader

Filth alphabet: Jericho

Fire Force:

Joker relationship hcs

Benimaru fluff

First time meeting: Joker

Black Clover:

Shallow love (Nacht x reader)

Lesson learned (Dante x fem!reader smut)

The light behind your eyes (Nacht x reader)

Nacht relationship hcs

Filth alphabet: Yami

Mini hcs: Asta

Zenon with an overly affectionate S/O

Zora relationship hcs

Filth alphabet: Nacht

Yami relationship hcs

Hunter x Hunter:

Domestic hcs: Hisoka

Hisoka filth hcs

Hisoka crashing your high school reunion

Hisoka waking you up at 3am

Milestones: Feitan

Feitan´s little run in with your ex

Fluff alphabet: Feitan

Filth alphabet: Feitan

forget me too (Feitan x reader)

One of us (Illumi x reader)

Vampire!Illumi hcs

Tokyo Revengers:

Draken x reader relationship hcs

Dear daughter (Mikey x fem!reader x Draken):

Chapter 1

Chapter 2

Chapter 3

Chapter 4

Chapter 5

Chapter 6

Chapter 7

Chapter 8

Chapter 9

Chapter 10

Friends to lovers: Manjiro

Mitsuya relationship hcs

Family life with Draken

Filth alphabet: Draken

Hanma relationship hcs

Queer!femboy!Sanzu hcs

Naoto x male!reader

Filth alphabet: Mikey

Characters as random things I have in my room

Characters and the types of dates they take you on

Akashi x reader

Baji relationship hcs

Souvenir (Mikey x fem!reader)

Akashi family dinner hcs

Reaper!Hanma hcs

A dragon´s claim (Baji x reader)

Love letters: Hanma

Being roommates with Toman

Demon Slayer:

Filth hcs: Sanemi, Rengoku

Monster AU: Uzui

Yokai AU: Genya

Nanbaka:

Musashi hcs that are the Brat to my wurst

Halloween in Nanba prison

Vanitas no carte:

Relationship hcs: chausseurs

Noé x reader x Vanitas

Golden Kamuy:

Ogata relationship hcs

[geekynichelle]

So, I saw this tweet, and it started a conversation about the appeal of Harley Quinn, and I wrote this because I was possessed. It’s long so I put it below the cut. All opinions are my own.

Is Harleen Quinzel overrated? Honestly, I don’t know. Nor do I really care. Plenty of people love characters that others find overdone, and that shouldn’t have any bearing on whether or not they are liked on a personal level. You could equally say that Loki or Deadpool are overrated, and while I do believe race plays a role in why all three of these chaos agents are popular, gender is obviously why more people are vocal about finding Harley played out. 

Getting that out of the way, let’s dive into the nitty gritty. What the hell is appealing about this clown to a Black, queer and neurodivergent woman? To start I want to bring into play the idea that what Black women do and don’t enjoy is often put in a narrow box. Growing up I knew my mother liked action movies (even more so than my step-dad- huzzah for breaking gender stereotypes), and in her own words the reason for that is that she likes to see “people who deserve it get their ass kicked”. In our real life, society rarely dishes out justice for Black people the way we deserve, and while the action genre is made up of mostly white dudes, who is good and who is bad are clear cut, and we can always root for someone who punches out racists and misogynists. As a result I should have been less surprised that my mother would like Deadpool, but it still amuses me to this day. 

Deadpool, in his sequel film, has a moment when he with no hesitation shoots a man who he knows to be a child abuser, because unlike a traditional heroic figure there’s no question in his mind that that was the right thing to do. Whether this would be good in the real world or not is irrelevant because the catharsis comes from the fact that to Deadpool the child harmed mattered way more than anything other factors in that scenario. 

This is the appeal of those types of characters in general. Translating this to Harley Quinn in that way is easy. Evil deeds aside, her initial/general backstory is that she was a doctor (of psychology) that fresh out of grad school was sent to talk to the Joker, who in turn manipulated her compassion and convinced her to free him/join him. In the 90s animated series, which is where she first appears, the episode Mad Love shows us that not only was Harley taken advantage of, but also that she is extremely capable on her own. Batman point blank tells the Joker (after he’s hit her/tossed her out a window) that Harley is the only person that’s come that close to killing him. The Joker (who was initially going to leave her for good) realizes that he’s unleashed someone arguably better than him into the world, and like any abuser decides to get back on her good side to maintain control over her chaos rather than let her realize her worth. 

The new animated series dedicated just to Quinn, explores that notion further, and at some point during the second season sees Harley realize that she isn’t a hero or a villain, but rather a reactionary. She seems to have a soft spot for other abuse victims and in the series draws the line at over excessive killing, especially of innocent people. Ivy even states that while Harley is a criminal she is (at least in Ivy’s eyes) a good person. She has after all genuinely helped Ivy, and on occasion has helped save the day of her own free will. 

Obviously, like with any comic book character, how she is characterized depends on the writer, but it’s fair to say based on the media I’ve personally consumed putting Harley in a morality box is a wasted effort. What makes her special is that she resides in those grey areas. As I mentioned earlier her ability to reside there and remain popular of course relates to her whiteness, however I do think it’s important to remember that Harley Quinn is also Jewish and is therefore not a complete stranger to concepts of oppression. She is also in recent years officially considered Bisexual, and while all Batman villains are vaguely mental ill, she does fill up that category as well. 

I came across a tweet earlier today that suggested her whiteness is why many of her fans have turned her into a girlboss and downplayed her violence. I can certainly see where that person was coming from, but on a personal note, based on the above information that is certainly not the case for me. I know that I would enjoy Harley just as much (if not more) if she was a non-white woman, and that her violence and moral ambiguity are apart of what makes her a fun character. I’d never downplay her evil deeds. Granted, what I consider canon has a lot to do with the stories I’ve consumed (i.e I’ve never read anything about her involvement in the Jason Todd storyline therefore to me it doesn’t really exist), but ultimately Harley is no girlboss. She is a mess, and to quote Marie Kondo, “I love mess.” 

To put this further in perspective, when I was a kid I didn’t even know Bisexuality was a thing, but I did know that I liked when Harley and Ivy were together, and now as an adult who is out, seeing them officially canon affected me a bit more than I thought it would. They might not be good people, but I don’t think representation needs to always be about being squeaky clean. And ultimately that’s the rub isn’t it? Harley isn’t exactly like me and I’m not exactly like her, but she represents a level of chaos that yeah, as a marginalized person I’m not allowed to express. She can be a good person, but she can also be extremely outrageous. She shows that being the victim of abuse isn’t about how smart you are and that it can happen to anyone. She also shows that you can leave that behind and get stronger mentally and physically. In the case of the new animated series she does this without motherhood/babies thrust upon her, but through good friends who love her. 

Why Harley Quinn? Well, for me my current answer is because she’s complex. If you asked me as a child though, I’d probably say it’s because she was goofy and fun, and I wanted better for her than the Joker. Either way she’s currently being written by a Black, Disabled, Queer writer and as a long time fan, I absolutely look forward to the nuisances that’ll be added to the character as a result.

[davidmann95]

Comics this week (12/1/2020)?

calvatronlordofall said: Today’s comics?

Far Sector #9: Another comic I won’t understand until it’s done and I can reread the whole thing but that I’m enjoying anyway. Really, really hope Jemisin continues contributing to the medium in some form after this, because she absolutely has a gift for it.

Strange Adventures #7: He doesn’t care for tyranny, folks. And JEEESSSUUUUS, Doc

DCeased: Dead Planet #6: Some quality DC Comics nonsense problem-solving, but not sure at all whether the chips are gonna fall in favor of the stuff about this I’ve been really liking or the aspects I simply don’t care about at all.

Tales From The Dark Multiverse: Wonder Woman: War Of The Gods: While I’ve seen plenty of them around the periphery in anthologies and so forth I think this is Vita Ayala’s first full work I’ve been exposed to, and tbh I can’t say I’m taken, even given the pretty threadbare-seeming material for them to work with. I’ll still give Children of the Atom a try, but my expectations have been lowered. Nice seeing Trish Mulviihill’s colors though, thought they looked familiar and it turns out she worked on my beloved Superman & Bugs Bunny.

Batman: The Adventures Continue #7: Yeah, now that it’s all said and done, definitely the best take on the death and return of Jason Todd.

Batman #104: Art’s taken a hit, but Ghostmaker’s getting more and more fun as a character the more that comes out about him. And surprising seeing Dick in his real Robin suit in flashback, Dark Designs had him still rocking that New 52 abomination. It really seems like the policy RE: costumes in flashbacks with him remains up in the air at any given time?

Anonymous said: Thoughts on the long-awaited BatCat?

Anonymous said: Bat/Cat the objectively best comic of the week. Thots.

Batman/Catwoman #1: I imagine disappointingly, quite few - both the best and worst part of this book is that King’s entire spiel on “This is gonna be such a different animal from my regular run, this is my DKR, this is my ultimate prestige statement on the characters” was pure hype, this is just the next issue of his Batman run with Clay Mann as the new main artist. And it’s good! I like it! I think it’d take awhile for anybody to tumble onto the ‘three timelines’ aspect of it if they didn’t go in knowing about it since the color of Catwoman’s suit is the only obvious tipoff for a chunk of it, but it’s still a well-constructed piece of comics in line with the story up to this point, even if it’s so in line with it that it pretty much puts the lie to the notion that this was originally conceived of as a special prestige project in the same way as Strange Adventures or Rorschach. Mostly I’m just struck now that it’s out by the guts of doing a straight sequel to Mask of the Phantasm, given that’s maybe the singularly least divisive major Batman story: everybody on every side of the Batman-loving aisle recognizes it as hallowed ground, so nobody’s gonna not be let down if you fuck it up. I really need to rewatch it, it’s been well over a decade and unlike Return of the Joker my memories of it have almost entirely faded.

Black Widow #4: The further in I get the more I’m struck by the cleverness of the central conceit. How do you construct a drama around a century-old woman whose business has her have to mostly forsake most normal human connection? Make the literal supervillain plot that she’s been forced to have incredibly intimate human connections, and now she’s just gotta deal with that on top of what would otherwise be fairly routine Black Widow stuff.

Miles Morales: Spider-Man #21: Hate to say it folks, but even discounting the severity of the delays this arc’s been a dud. Really hoping it finds its feet again soon.

King In Black #1: Holy cow, this was ass. I went in thinking “well, I’ve resigned myself to having to get this to understand the crossovers into books I’m already getting and tie-in minis I do care about, but Cates still has a baseline level of competency so it should still be perfectly readable”, but this is just...nothing. This is that modern Dan Jurgens tier where it’s so bland and perfunctory and inoffensively executed it loops back around to infuriating, except Dan Jurgens’s writing if nothing else at least doesn’t strut around in tangible self-regard as the next great sales-shattering triumph of the Punk Rock God Of Comixxx like Cates’. And when was the last Marvel event on this scale with such little hype behind it? Even Empyre seemed like it had more weight on arrival, and much as I enjoyed it I’m pretty sure that book mainly existed to fill space until we got this. Maybe it’s just the circle I run in. I swear I remember Thanos Wins being pretty fun, and I just reread Atomahawk and that was still a hoot, so it’s a shame Cates has turned out this way, and worse he’s ended up Marvel’s new golden boy. Unless my dad likes it (and if so hey, he’s not alone, I imagine this is selling gangbusters) I’m sure not grabbing another issue, so I guess I’ll have to do my best with context clues in figuring out what’s going on for...Guardians of the Galaxy, S.W.O.R.D., Daredevil, Namor, Return of the Valkyries, the Joe Fixit Immortal Hulk one-shot, Iron Man/Doctor Doom, and the next book below. Fuck.

The Union #1: I’ve only read Everything Used To Be Black And White for Jack Staff but I was definitely curious what Grist would do here, and it didn’t disappoint! Fun little story, bunch of neat character ideas I’m looking forward to seeing developed further, very lived-in feeling slice of its corner of a superhero world.

Marvels Snapshots: Civil War: An excellent little parable that I’m surprised we didn’t actually see the likes of in ‘06, and frankly worth getting a mediocre Miles Morales arc for (even if it was disappointing that that one had to be where the ball was dropped) if this is where Ahmed’s attention was going instead.

Daredevil #25: So I turned two pages at once and accidentally spoiled myself at the last possible moment for the big reveal of the issue, so that sucks. Still a great issue though - one that manages to function as a logical extension of an incredibly street-level story even though it can only possibly exist as an extrapolation of the wildest excesses of the Marvel universe - but I cannot imagine how the hell the next is gonna cleanly pivot into King in Black shenanigans.

Kill A Man: A new OGN by Steve Orlando, cowritten with Phillip Kennedy Johnson and with art by Al Morgan and letters by Jim Campbell, the reductive though not inaccurate pitch is ‘queer Creed’. But since this is likely to sail under the radar I need to emphasize this is one of Orlando’s absolute best works, a real triumph of the form that’s among the best comics of the year (good GOD does this put to shame 99% of superhero comics fight scenes by the end), and a must-buy for any fans of his work. I’m just gonna let how hard the title and solicit text go speak for themselves:

“As a child, James Bellyi watched his father die in the ring as payback for slurs thrown at the other fighter. Today, he's a Mixed Martial Arts star at the top of his game, and one of the most popular fighters in the world...until he's outed as gay in his title shot press conference. Abandoned overnight by his training camp, his endorsements, his fans and his sport, to regain his title shot Bellyi is forced to turn to the last person he ever wants to see again: Xavier Mayne, a gay, once-great fighter in his own right...and the man James once watched kill his father.”

[queerlyhalloween]

Not to sound like the joker™️ but i hate western society. I know that hair and clothes aren't gendered, so do most of my mates, ive been working hard at unlearning the internalized transphobia that's just a part of being trans in the UK and actually ALLOWING myself to think about going on hormones and dressing in ways other than "ambigious as possible" despite the fact im non-binary

i grew myself a little mullet because ive not been working in the pub and wanted solid snake hair, ive allowed myself to look at my face and the long hair around it and not despair because i know that longer hair doesn't make me a woman, but the moment you go into a shop, or get takeaway or pass by people in the street its all "move out the way of this lady!" and "thank you, ma'am"

i dont want the gender option of 'other' on my ID i want to know 1 good reason why gender should be listed on an ID in the 1st place

ive just come back from the range and i had my hair up like some e-thot fuckboy, i had to go BACK to the range because they got my click and collect order wrong so ive got two members of staff looking over my order, im dressed in black jeans and a black masc-looking ripped shirt, mask covering half my face and as the manager's showing the kid who served me the receipt they go "oh I served that guy earlier" and the manager corrects them "its a lady". I say "im niether" and they both just stare at me like im a toddler. Im already panicking because the air feels the same way it did when some cunt came after me in the pub toliets. "dont worry about it :)" i say, they both turn back to the tills and completely ignore me.

Anyway, micro-aggressions, ive experienced a lot of them for many reasons over the course of my life and today ive decided to snap.

Not at the people in the range like, just in general.

I will never pass. That's just an element of trans euphoria i will never get to experience. Not right off the bat, anyway. Not where i live, and most likely not in my lifetime. Maybe for kids in LA or Brighton, and hey power to you guys man im happy for you, but people assume or guess m/f when they look at me and they will never get it right.

So when i see people on this site try and twitter etc rank "who's the most oppressed"™️ like a godamn smash bros tier list it blows my mind because of all the things you could spend your days doing thats what youre expending energy on?!

You could be the exact same age, race, sex, gender, sexuality, you could have the exact same disabilities, mental health conditions and money in your bank as another person on this site and you'd still never understand what they've been through. Our experiences, our families, our morals and lives are always gonna be different and the moment you try to write definitive rules on whose got it worse you've already lost and you're already wrong. Oppressed classes are not a fucking hivemind and pretending they are is only going to cause you more problems. I get the strong sense that some of you looked at the word intersectionality, went "ah yeah, i know what that means" having never read up on the matter, then proceeded to play the pain olympics.

And its creating a culture where kids feel the need to spills their souls online to justify living their lives!

You've not listed your disabilites in your bio so you're able-bodied. You're Irish but haven't listed your race so you're white. You're cis man so you've never played with gender and suffered as a result. You're asexual so clearly you're a cringeworthy baby who's never experienced a wrong-doing in their life.

The reverse is true too, if you list every aspect of yourself then you're automatically honest. The more opressed you are the less likely you are of causing harm to others. Psht, don't have a carrd in this day and age? What are you, a fraud? cishet white man playing make believe? Post a selfie or face the wrath of ozymandaus. What's privacy? It takes me 3 minutes to read the bio on this discourse side-blog so clearly they're an angel.

my mam abused me for years, she did the same to my brother when i left home at 18 and my dad drank himself to death. My nan, his mother, never believed me because my mam's a disabled woman with a lot of trauma, and at 14 how do you explain to the woman who takes you to the beach that it's WORSE because as she's beckoning you to the side of her bed so she can scream point blank in your face, or hit you, you're never truely sure, you're thinking about running away because of course she physically can't chase you but she can throw. And then where would you go if you did buggar off?

"You have to sleep sometimes" she used to say to me when I'd piss her off. Other days she told me horror stories about kids in care, and disabled people having their kids taken away, made me promise that I'd always love her and always be her baby, and I'd do that for her because she's my mam, she'd be satisfied then ignore me for a while. I grew up thinking that was entirely normal until i'd tell funny family stories at school and nobody would laugh. The closest I got to truely running away was when I changed my name and pronouns and her rejection, turned to vitriol one night and I so, so, nearly held a knife to my throat and simply fell forwards in the uni showers. Obviously I didn't do that.

But she's had a shitter life than me thus far so she's in the right, as the online black/white dichotomy states. I keep her at arm's length but I'm unable to cut her away without losing the rest of my family because I dared defy the role of eldest child and care for her as I've done my whole life, as is expected.

we need to take things on a case by case basis, and learn when stuff is none of our business.

"Hey! :) I see you've reclaimed (X) slur, without submitting the proper paperwork. Real quick tell me every trauma you've ever experienced or I'll write a callout post :) delete this anonymous message (as is your right) and i'll assume you as sus ❤"

you can only call yourself a dyke if on your 13th birthday, the moon's tender rays struck you through your bedroom window and gave you your first wet dream about girls.

Great, cool. I have no interest in calling myself a dyke, i cant call myself a lesbian because it makes me dysphoric, thats why im queer, but i can assure you that when 3 kids from catholic school pinned me under the bridge and threatened to cut me open for being a "dirty dyke tramp" they didn't play 20Qs with me first to check that i was actually a lesbian.

if your first thought is "well thats just misdirected homophobia, so youre not ACTUALLY a victim" log the fuck off and consider what's wrong with you. Because all our oppressors care about is sniffing out the wrong on you and beating it out, they dont care what breed of wrong it is.

so you're going to spend your day, the enlightened adult that you are, frothing at the mouth because some 15yr old dared call themselves butch despite them being OnLY a BiSexUAl? You're gonna say that trans woman deserves to be suicidal because yes she may be trans BUT she's from the UK, so clearly she loves her horrid country and government. You're gonna say that black lad deserves racial abuse because he's trying to focus on his studies rather than go to protests. That 19yr old who's living in poverty deserves it because they work for Amazon. Texans deserve to freeze to death because there are republicans in Texas.

You're going to harass a complete stranger coming to terms with the parts of themselves society has taught them are worthless at best because they're not doing it the way YOU think is right.

This post has not ended where I started it but I really dont care:

Some of you are so fucking desperate to be the bullies you never got to be in secondary school and it shows. But you're cowards. You can't just admit you want to divide and concur so you do it in a new woke way and when your time on this earth is done, you'll have commited the same pain that's been dealt to you and wonder why you died miserable in a world thats more or less the same.

okay to reblog but dont @ me for a debate because i have, like, real problems and will just block you

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A Comprehensive List of Stan and Kyle Moments (I UPD8 AS I GO)

A Comprehensive List of Stan and Kyle Moments (I UPD8 AS I GO)

Hello. Yes, you heard me. Here are all the scenes that legit scream out “STYLE” in South Park, whether these scenes are too far of a reach or not. I mostly compiled this out of my very own convenience, and hopefully this’ll help you a whole lot too. This is extremely text heavy, so I’ll put this under “Read More”. I haven’t played any of the games, so I won’t be including it here at this time, so if you guys know any good moments from the games, please let me know and I’ll add it to the list.

Cherokee Hair Tampons:

- The entire goshdarn episode.

- Stan being concerned and distraught over a dying Kyle breaks my heart. He was even bawling next to Kenny.

- Stan willing to donate his kidney to Kyle, even if it’d hurt a lot.

- Stan knowing that Kyle ate a bean and bacon soup half an hour ago shows that he’s been by Kyle’s side for quite some time now.

- Stan holding onto Kyle while they were at Cartman’s house.

- “Dude, you’re my best friend. I don’t want you to die before I do...”

Super Best Friends:

- Yeah, um, this episode...is gay.

- Stan and Kyle entering the episode with ice cream cones while Butters and Cartman wondering where they got them from. It’s assumed Stan and Kyle were hanging out with each other off-screen.

- I think Kyle being convinced that he’s not “really happy” through brainwashing is parallel to Stan being convinced that he’s “depressed” by the Church of Scientology.

- Stan trying to help Kyle escape with him, not even mentioning this plan to Kenny, Cartman or even Butters.

- Stan and Kyle looking at each other with longing looks while dramatic music plays in the background. Ah yes. I am...not even joking...this legit happened.

- How to Find Your Boyfriend 101: “OH MY GOD! THEY KILLED KENNY!!” “Y-you bastards...”

- Stan pleading Kyle not to kill himself and to hold his breath while being there for him.

- The ending where they call each other Super Best Friends and both proceed to beat up Cartman when he teased that they should make out.

Cartmanland:

- Stan comforting a distraught Kyle.

- @belovedhomosexuals mentioned that canonically, Stan helps Kyle with his hemorrhoid cream, and IM-

- Stan doing everything he can to get back at Cartman for Kyle’s sake.

- Stan demanding the doctor to wheel Kyle out to see Cartman in misery.

Asspen:

- “YOU DON’T EVEN KNOW HEATHER!!” >:(

- Kyle not wanting Stan to do the K-13. He doesn’t want him to die.

- Kyle holds a polaroid photo of the both of them. How cute. Does he bring it with him wherever he goes?

The Biggest Douche In The Universe:

- Stan not wanting to go back to Colorado without Kyle and does all he can to convince him that John Edward is a fraud.

Follow That Egg:

- They are dads.

- They take care of their egg really well.

- “As a matter of fact, it is the nicest hat I’ve ever known”

- They’re the reasons gays could get married.

- Stan getting jealous of Kyle being paired up with Wendy. It does seem like a reach I have to admit, but if you’re a Stylendy fan, then this one’s for you.

Return of Chef

- The iconic beginning “flashback” where they both look at the sunset together.

Smug Alert:

- Stan and Kyle meeting in the parking lot in the beginning when Kyle was helping his dad give fake tickets.

- Kyle being moved away from South Park has Stan write a song to get Kyle and his family to come back.

- The cute hug in the end.

Fantastic Easter Special

- Stan, out of breath, asks Kyle for help in protecting Snowball

- Kyle helping him out anyways even though he was busy with fingerprinting.

- Cinematic parallels of Kyle killing Jesus and Stan killing that alien in Pinewood Derby.

Imaginationland Trilogy

- Kyle calling Stan in the morning regarding the “dream.”

- Stan and Kyle, unsure of the notes, both trying to recall the Imagination song. It was cute.

- Stan being distraught when ManBearPig got a hold on Kyle. (I swear, I’ve used the word “distraught” for over 1948388 times now)

- Kyle communicating through Stan telepathically with his Imagination.

Guiltar Queer O

- The whole episode.

- “I know...I need you.”

- The whole episode was literally as if they went through a break up.

- They’re both in sync when playing, right up to their tongues up.

- “Oh, so the gallant knight now comes to rescue me from the bowels of mediocrity! Oh, thank you, your royal lordship!” (Foreshadowing for SOT?)

- Stan thinking of Kyle as he’s “driving”.

The List:

- Stan doing all he can to prove that Kyle is a handsome mf. Another episode that screams Stylendy rights.

You Got F’d in the A:

- Kyle being so happy to see Stan dancing back to the Orange County kids.

- It’s canon that Stan can dance well while Kyle doesn’t have rhythm whatsoever. Wouldn’t it be a cute idea for Stan to teach Kyle how to dance?

You Have 0 Friends

- Kyle pleading Stan to water his crops.

- A short detail but if you noticed when Kyle announced that they made an FB account for Stan, he only added himself as Stan’s friend. This means that Kyle legit “friended” himself in Stan’s profile and didn’t bother to add Kenny or Cartman to Stan’s friend list.

- “Yes. WE’RE REALLY GREAT FRIENDS STAN!!” :D

You’re Getting Old:

- Oof. Yeah....

- Stan obviously loves Kyle a whole lot, but him seeing Kyle slowly turn into a turd probably did break his heart little by little. And when I mean by probably, I mean massively.

- Kyle shouldn’t exactly be demonized for not being able to handle Stan’s cynicism. Because I think it’s ok to admit you can’t handle such emotional drainage even if coming from your SBF, but do mind that him leaving Stan was most likely NOT easy for him. It’s kinda sad that they’ve slowly drifted away since then. BUT NO I REFUSE TO LET THAT HAPPEN ;-;

Assburgers:

- “Fuck you Kyle! You’re a piece of shit...Kyle, I love you. You’re a piece if shit though, fuck you...! I love you...”

- Stan immediately going back to Kyle when he’s feeling “better”

- That McDonalds Exec. literally narrating Stan and Kyle’s current rocky relationship and not believing every second of if.

A Nightmare on Facetime:

- “WILL SOMEONE GET ME A CHARGER OVER HERE!!’

- Kyle bringing and guiding Stan through the iPad.

Ginger Cow:

- Jokes aside, when Stan was asking Kyle about Cartman’s farts, he was really sweet and understanding to him. He genuinely wants to understand why Kyle likes Cartman’s farts so much and knew something was up by the way Kyle was hiding things.

- I also like how he was not afraid to call Kyle a dick. I think a good level of transparency is needed in a healthy relationship. That’s just how they roll.

- Stan helping Kyle cover up in the end....though it did backfire.

Black Friday Trilogy:

- “DID KYLE KNOW ABOUT THIS?!” “Kyle thought of it.” ;-;

- Stan being grounded and Kyle apologizing at the other side of the door was peak gay angst level.

- “That’s just how Xbox people are...” D:

- Ok now for something sweet. In the deleted scene, Stan was showing Kyle how the playstation controller works and...wow.......what cute babies.

Prehistoric Ice Man:

- “Oh my god! They killed Kenny!!” *looks at Kyle* “What? I’m not talking to you anymore.”

- Them fighting and arguing was so adorable. Their voices were so squeaky and cute in this episode.

- “First one to die loses.” SOGKEKGKRI WHAT MORONS

- Stan and Kyle kind of awkwardly trying to start the fight reminds me of Tweek vs Craig.

Mexican Joker:

- Stan angrily sending Cartman to the detention center after hearing about him sending Kyle there.

Band in China:

- “kyyyyyyYYYYYLEEEE :D DUDE YOU’RE BACK!!”

- Stan making a death metal band because a.) He hates living in the farm and b.) He misses Kyle so hard.

Britney’s New Look:

- Another Stan and Kyle episode where they both realized how so far in the wrong they’re in, and they desperately want to fix it.

- Stan and Kyle giving up in the end and joining in the chant.

The Death of Eric Cartman:

- Stan offering Kyle money so he could buy milk for lunch.

Two Guys Naked In A Hot Tub:

- “You can't just hang out with your buddy Kyle all the time. People will think you guys are, you know, funny.”

- When Kyle walks over in the end, Stan proceeds to complain to him how he had the worst night and they both go to Kyle’s house to hang.

The China Probrem

- In the beginning, Stan telling Kyle to refute Cartman’s racist sayings and got overly concerned when Kyle said he couldn’t do this anymore.

- Stan going in Kyle’s room to talk about moving on from what they’ve witnessed.

- Stan holding Kyle’s hand to run away in Kyle’s dream. Kyle waking up and crying when Stan wasn’t around to comfort him.

- Stan and Kyle crying in each other’s arms and telling each other “I love you”.

- Small detail but when they were leaving the attorney’s office and the attorney and the kids were crying altogether, Stan put a hand on Kyle to comfort him as they were crying.

The Mystery of the Urinal Deuce:

- Stan appearing in Kyle’s living room suddenly.

- “Well dude, maybe we're just super badass. Have you thought of that?” Yeah I know Stan was trying to cover up what he just did by saying that but still.

Cartman Gets An Anal Probe:

- Stan helping Kyle save Ike.

- “Hahaha you farted.” WHAT GROSS DORKS

- Kyle telling a speech to the aliens and Stan remarking how beautiful it was.

A Very Crappy Christmas:

- Kyle calling Stan in the middle of the night to get the guys, and Stan answering all sleepily is so adorable.

- Stan and Kyle voice acting together.

- Stan and Kyle doing the stopmotion animation together.

- Stan and Kyle laughing when they had Stan voice act Cartman to say the “ham” line.

Fun With Veal:

- Kyle taking care of a sickly Stan despite being a bit of a germaphobe.

The Snuke:

- Stan coming over to a sick Kyle’s house immediately after school has been suspended.

Crack Baby Athletic Association:

- Stan not being afraid to call out on Kyle.

- Kyle snuck into Stan’s room and Stan was listening to him unfazed.

Quintuplets 2000:

- Them trying to do gymnastics.

Pee:

- Kyle getting disgusted after hearing Stan talk about how it’s normal for people to pee in pools and in the shower.

Butterballs:

- Kyle calling Stan out in the bathroom, and they have this long ass stare. Kyle knowing that Stan will be jackin it in San Diego.

Bike Parade:

- Stan making Kyle laugh.

Proper Condom Use

- Stan and Kyle playing with a Jennifer Lopez doll and roleplaying.

- “SCREAM FOR ME BITCH!” “AHHHHHHHHH”

- Stan and Kyle in the same car with their cute big heads protruding.

World War Zimmerman:

- Stan and Kyle playing football.

The Scoots:

- Once again, Stan and Kyle playing football.

City on the Edge of Forever:

- Stan saving Kyle in his dream.

- Stan and Kyle sitting a bit closer to each other than usual in Stan’s dream.

Grounded Vindaloop:

- The tetherball date.

- Stan and Kyle saying “fuck you” to Kenny.

Clubhouses:

- Stan reading Bebe’s note, and Kyle being unfazed about it later in the episode. It was never defined whether he was informed the note came from Bebe.

#REHASH:

- Stan and Kyle being called grandpas by the little kids.

Tegridy Farms:

- When one of Ike’s classmates blew smoke in front of Kyle, Stan got extremely defensive about it.

Raising the Bar:

- Stan informing Kyle that it isn’t cool to continue on with “Fatty Doo Doo”.

- Stan checking up on Kyle as he’s sitting alone and listening to him lament about how the bar has sunk so low because of people.

Go Fund Yourself:

- *looking at Kyle’s ass* Boy this is the life huh.

Truth and Advertising:

- Stan and Kyle fist fighting for real, and Tweek and Craig looking at them concerned since they rarely ever fight like this.

Conjoined Fetus Lady:

- Stan preparing to catch Kyle if ever he fails to catch the dodgeball.

Stanley’s Cup:

- THEIR YOUNGER SELVES PLAYING HOCKEY!

ManBearPig:

- Stan’s head on Kyle’s lap. It’s so beautifully rendered.

Board Girls:

- “Wow, you are really into board games.”

A Scause for Applause:

- Kyle confronts Stan about cutting the bracelet by saying Heidi Turner saw him with super glue.

The Death Camp of Tolerance:

- “KYLE! KYLE! YOU HAVE TO KEEP MAKING YOUR MACARONI PICTURES!!”

South Park Bigger, Longer and Uncut:

- Stan getting jealous that even Kyle is amazed at Gregory.

Cartman Join NAMBLA:

- Stan and Kyle putting their face against the glass.

Mr. Hankey’s Christmas Classics:

- Stan and Kyle making fun of Shelly behind her back.

Raisins:

- Kyle coming to visit Stan with the gang after the whole breakup.

- Kyle wanting Stan to be happy again by bringing him to Raisins.

- Kyle being annoyed over Stan being distraught over Wendy. Jealous?

Mr. Jefferson:

- When Stan hears a knock on his window, he assumes it’s Kyle.

- Stan and Kyle being good caretakers of Blanket.

- Stan and Kyle sleeping with Blanket.

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Lmao you keep convincing yourself that Byler is a thing when there was only like 2 scenes the whole season. You’re gonna drive yourself crazy trying to pick the show apart like that for some fake ship.

Well, they had way more than 2 scenes, but regardless of whether I’m just “crazy” over a “fake ship”. I mean …with how common queer baiting is, I sadly wouldn’t be surprised if I was XD. But…

I’m asking this genuinely (without animosity) … are most people happy with the mileven rep they got in s3? 

If you are, that’s great -good for you :) !  As a multi shipper, i thought they were cute before- but I feel like s3 ruined them, almost beyond repair. And almost every one of my mileven shipping followers or mutuals was (justifiably) upset.

-We have El dump Mike, smile and laugh about it, high five Max, not shed a single tear over him, and have a slumber party and laugh and read comics with Max. 

Juxtaposed with Will and Mike having a small fight, and Will running away in the rain, sadly reading his comic book, then looking at a photo of the gang and repeatedly calling himself “stupid” 4 times ( for thinking he ever had a chance with Mike), tearing apart his photos, sobbing,  and having a mental breakdown,and destroying his safe place.

This is literally our first scene with with Will & El after their fights with Mike… the difference is obvious.

- And when asked if Mike was a good kisser,  she just said “I don’t know he’s my 1st boyfriend.” (implying she’s thinking, at least subconsciously, of having other boyfriends ,who are not Mike in the future).  But when Mike asks“ I mean, what did you think, really? That we were never gonna get girlfriends? We were just gonna sit in my basement all day and play games for the rest of our lives?“ Will just sadly responds “yeah, I guess I did. I really did!” Unlike, El, Will always saw Mike as his future, his forever.

-And when Mike says “it’s just a break” , Max says “No it’s not!”, and we see El laugh along with Max’s comment. She is not heartbroken at the idea of never getting back together with him, romantically.

They both even laugh and say he ‘talks too much’, behind his back.

- We have El eavesdrop on her ex, which she held no remorse for. And we also overhear Mike say sexist shit about El. And we have multiple female characters call Mike out for treating El as if she’s dumb, and can’t handle herself.It’s like the writers are trying to say the aren’t good for each other?

- When Mike says to El  “you’re most important thing to me”in the pool shed. El doesn’t even acknowledge the comment, she just responds by saying that Hopper was right about them spending too much time together. Juxtaposed to Mike saying (in the shed) to Will , that asking him to be his friend was “ the best thing I’ve ever done”, and we have Will cry and almost break away from his possession because of his words.

Like if we’re comparing these 2 scenes . You’re lying if you say the mileven shed confession was more emotional and heartfelt.

- In the last ep, we see El, confront Mike about what he said in the cabin, when fighting with max (“I love her!”).  Mike is confused, that was 3 months ago and El says “You talked about your feelings your heart”. Mike just says “Oh! Oh, yeah that.Man, that was so long ago. Um…”  and starts to scratch his head. Then he excuses what he said at the cabin, saying it was “in the heat of the moment stuff and we were arguing… I don’t actually remember. What did I say exactly?”  But he remembers exactly what he said to Will, almost 10 years ago? AND NO, he’s not pretending to not remember, he is genuinely confused. 

And when El kisses him, no joke Mike keeps his eyes open the WHOLE time - and he doesn’t kiss her back . It was awkward… (you’re telling me they didn’t have a better take than this?!)

And right after this kiss , Mike is just confused, they’ve been broken up for 3 months (½ the time-6 months- they dated). He’s just genuinely confused because he probably assumed they transitioned back to great friends that love each other, not that she “loves” him… Mike never once in the season says to El face to face he “loves” her.

She thought Mike was in love with her for 3 months, and didn’t get back together with him- but it’s the moment she leaves that she says she loves him? Maybe she just had too much on her plate after her dad’s death, moving in with the Byers and then having to move away (to actually get back together with Mike and talk about her ‘feelings’ for him)? And then they snuggle noses outside after- cause… they’re back together? The writing and directing were so poor this season, it’s hard to interpret what the writers’ intentions were. I wouldn’t be surprised if Mike is just going to date her in s4 (at long-distance) because he’s in denial about his feelings for Will. Which I’ve talked about  (relating to s3) here, here, and here (I also talked about all of Mike’s bi-coding from s1-2).

But let’s just ignore that. Even if byler has 0% chance of happening. Do you think Mileven was portrayed as ‘soulmates’ who love each other and should be ‘endgame’, from what we saw in s3? Cause honestly,  I think if they have them end up together … it makes little to no sense, given how they set this up. They ruined mileven’s potential/dynamic from previous seasons on purpose. And if they backtrack now, it’ll look like Mike and El are ending up with people who aren’t good for them romantically.

*gif credit- 1st elmax pic from user jokerous ,2nd elmax pic from user carolchewies, Will gifs from michonnegrimes , byler pic (found on wheheart.com- user dream_daisy, not sure if they also have a Tumblr), those shitty gifs … mine XD

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                  cassel resident : jess hinkley.

full name. . jess hinkley. age. twenty six birthdate. august 10th, 1994          zodiac. leo. gender. non-binary                            pronouns. they/them occupation. clerk at bookends secondhand bookstore lives in. main street.

                                      about jess hinkley.

triggers: terminal illness, parental death, injury, hospitalization, loss of limb/amputation, vehicle crash, drug use

When Jess Hinkley was born, there were two very different stories reaching integral points; the beginning of the end for one and the end of the beginning for the other. The first was the story of Jess’ mother, Robin Hinkley (nee Hartford). Robin’s own story started in Cassel, Illinois, where her family had lived for generations. Like an increasing number of folks in town, she wanted to get out of Cassel the first chance she got. The moment she graduated high school, she was off to Kansas City to study literature at the University of Missouri. She loved everything to do with words; hand-writing letters, learning new styles of calligraphy, reading any literature she could get her hands on. She especially loved classic adventure novels like Treasure Island, Around the World in Eighty Days, and the Swiss Family Robinson, and dreamed of writing a story like that of her own. Shortly after arriving, she answered a wanted ad at a local barbeque place and waited tables there for years before the restaurant hired a new pitmaster. A local chef, Guy Hinkley, came to fill the position and the rest was history. Robin fell for Guy in a matter of a few short weeks, and they were married hardly more than a year after they met.

The second story unfolding when Jess was born belonged to Guy Hinkley, their father. For all that he looked the strong and silent type, he was a goofy and memorable father. The birth of his and Robin’s first child, Elijah, had given him a new lease on life and Guy used that newfound confidence to convince his wife that they should take their show on the road. More specifically, that his dream of owning his own restaurant would be better realized in sunny California. Five years before Jess was born, they moved their little family from Kansas City to San Diego, where they opened up Robin’s Barbeque. Though Guy often became distracted with work in the restaurant, Jess’ mother was a warm, gentle, and fun-loving mother despite a lifelong illness that often dampened her plans. No matter how sick she got, she still managed to fill her children’s lives with adventure when they couldn’t go on adventures out in the real world. Her children would come to associate anything related to books and writing with their mother. In a cruel twist of fate, the Hinkley kids lost their mother when Jess was 11, their brother Elijah was 18, and their little sister Kenzie wasn’t even two. Though he tried his best to hide it, the loss cut their father Guy to his very core and changed him permanently.

When Jess’ mother was alive, their father only really seemed to care about their restaurant. Every moment he spent in that kitchen was less time with his family, but Jess’ mother had always known he did it for them. Jess didn’t see it this way for a long time, especially after losing their mother, but when they started working in the family restaurant at 14, they understood it right away. The restaurant was full of reminders of their mother; pictures in the kitchen and on the walls, all her favorite dishes on the menu, her name on the sign outside. Robin’s Barbeque was a labor of love, and that revelation was a turning point for Jess, whose heart was starting to turn bitter in the wake of their troubled adolescence. In the years after their mother’s death, Jess and their siblings became even more tightly knit and learned to fend for themselves, for the most part. Their father spent more time at home than he did when their mother was around, but even their little sister understood from a young age what it meant for their father to keep the restaurant up and running in their mother’s memory.

Being the middle child and barely in middle school, Jess didn’t have the same level responsibility as their older brother when their mother passed. As they got older, Jess started to chip in and help with their younger sister, but their head was always in the clouds and their heart always flipped from one desire to the next; their self-control never coming along for the ride. Their older brother developed into a serious and strong-willed young man, while Jess became anything but. They spent years sneaking out of the house to get up to traditional rapscallion activities with the other kids who didn’t feel like they fit in anywhere else. There were five or six of them in their group, all from imperfect homes who had less than perfect morals and dark senses of humor, and mostly queer kids like Jess. Besides smoking weed in the park, petty vandalism of abandoned buildings, and gas station parking lot loitering, the worst they really ever did was play their music too loud in Jess’ family’s basement and turn to fisticuffs a couple times a year when high school betrayals went too far.

Of course, like any good high school story, there was one rapscallion who wasn’t like the rest of them, at least to Jess. It didn’t matter how broken she was (really, how broken they all were), Jess thought she was sunshine incarnate. Jess’ jokes were stupid and goofy, and they could be mean when they were upset or drunk, but their high school sweetheart was wholesome and caring to Jess; thoughtful. When Jess started with a season-long perfect record on the track team, and every coach within 100 miles suddenly came to recruit them, their girlfriend was at every event. When everyone pushed Jess to train for the Olympics, she was by Jess’ side the whole time; the greatest support a joker like them could ask for. She believed in Jess, and suddenly Jess had a reason to believe in themself, as nonconforming as they turned out to be. They started conditioning for the next Olympics and for once in their life, had a real plan for their future. Then college took their sweetheart halfway around the world, and Jess was never the same.

Life during their last year of high school and beyond proved troublesome, but Jess ran hard and fast (from the cops and during their track events) to avoid any kind of a permanent record that might disqualify them from the Olympics, disappoint their father and brother, or impede their ability to look after their little sister. It was bittersweet, running without the support they had once had after their first love was gone, but supporting their family was enough motivation for Jess to run faster and jump higher than they ever had. To Jess, supporting their family meant qualifying for and competing in the Olympics. In return, their family stepped up and provided the support they needed when they needed it most. When news got out that Jess had qualified for the Olympic trials in Oregon at 20 years old, the town started to rally behind them as well; an unlikely hometown hero if there ever was one. The most difficult training of their life began immediately and before they could believe it, Jess was heading to Oregon to face the toughest competition they could’ve ever imagined.

In an afternoon that they would never forget, Jess came out on top in their event and it became official: Jess Hinkley was going to the Olympics. Santa Diego lit up with news that they were home to another Olympic hopeful and Jess’ father bought 50 copies of the newspaper with Jess on the front page, handing them out to anybody who would take one. They floated on that high for two months before a summer blowout celebration, when the boat Jess and their friends were on was hit by another boat, killing two of the fourteen people involved and injuring nearly everyone else. Jess themself was injured so badly that their right leg had to be amputated from the knee down after the accident, which meant one thing to them when they woke up: their Olympic dreams were over. Not many people in the city actually blamed Jess for the losses, though most people in town had heard the “official” story – that Jess had been the one to steal the boat they were on from their girlfriend’s family and let someone underage and drunk drive it – but it was still the biggest blow and toughest failure Jess had ever known.

For weeks, Jess’ hospital room was all they knew. They went through the stages of grief after losing their leg, almost akin to having lost a family member. On the back of the sudden shock, they struggled to see the accident as anything but the death of their independence, their dreams, and their future. Even after the hardest part of their physical therapy ended and they could see the light at the end of the tunnel, it took months for Jess to be fitted and actually receive their prosthetic; months which they spent coming to terms with the abrupt changes in their life and getting used to crutches when they did (rarely) get out of bed. Slowly, Jess spent more and more time on their crutches and moving around without too much complaining. They started small by going on walks with their little sister and eventually meeting up with their friends, but after two or so years, Jess was nearly back to their former self and able to do most of the things they’d missed so much. They moved out of their dad’s house and into an apartment with a couple of friends, and that independence put the true spirit of Jess back into them. They regained the sparkle in their eye, the mischief in their grin, and the signature curiosity that had followed Jess around since they were knee high to a grasshopper.

That curiosity was triggered, and not for the first time, when their mother’s hometown of Cassel, Illinois was brought up. It had been years since they’d thought about Cassel, but it had come as news to Jess during a family dinner that their aunt and grandmother still lived there, and they couldn’t stop thinking about it after that night. Gathering up all the information they had and twenty-six years of questions, Jess packed their bags and flew 2,000 miles to Cassel. They expected it to take weeks to find out anything more about her mother than they already knew, and even rented a room in anticipation of being in town for a while. What they didn’t expect was to feel their mother’s presence the moment they stepped into town. It was rundown and obviously no longer in its heyday, but every corner brought a new vision to Jess’ memory: their mother gossiping as she walked home with friends after school, sharing a milkshake at the diner and dancing to the song on the jukebox, making a place for herself in the local bookstore and devouring tales of adventure and life well lived voraciously. It’s been two years since Jess first arrived and they have no plans of leaving. Their bond with their grandmother and their aunt’s family started tentatively, but has blossomed into a support system they can lean on when they feel stranded in the small town; just as their mother had when she was still in town.

Jess had their life in a certain “organized chaotic” order when they left home, and they’ve tried to keep that up now that they’re out of California. Their regimen doesn’t include as much adaptive yoga or green juice as it did back home, but they’re okay with that. After applying for and receiving a grant, crowdfunding money for a prosthetic sports blade, and a dozen appointments with their prostheticist, they’re even able to run and hike again, and they’ve even started rock climbing at a local gym. The band they’ve played drums in since they were 15 took a hiatus when they left town, and Jess has been searching high and low for someone to jam with around Cassel. After having to completely re-learn how to skate with a prosthetic, their skateboard has plenty of scrapes and scratches on it, but it made it all the way to Illinois. You can find them decked out in ‘fits from the local thrift shops, hunkered over the arcade games at the bowling alley, or trying to invent a new pizza combination at their new favorite pizza place like they have been since they were a kid (even if their favorite pizza place has changed half a dozen times). And for now, that’s enough.

                                    five songs. brandy [ you’re a fine looking girl ] ( looking glass ) / once in a lifetime ( talking heads ) / dancing in the moonlight ( king harvest ) / heroes ( david bowie ) / rio ( duran duran )

        ↳ jess hinkley is faced by brigette lundy paine and penned by bird.

[metaphysical-human-being]

Switcheroo 4

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3

5

A/N: This is late. I apologize. Yeah that's all.

Warnings: Swearing, mentions of violence, food mention,  tell me if I missed anymore. 

Summary: Roman tells his parents of his encounter with Remus. The problem is solved...for now. 

Logan drove Roman home. Both males were as silent as the passage of time and maybe quieter. The only sounds in the car were the whir of the air conditioner and movement of the wheels on the road. 

Roman had forced himself to focus on that movement which led him to thinking about the fact that he was basically floating in the air going 89 miles per hour and the only thing keeping him up was a thin but durable piece of a random metal and rubber circle things invented years ago and he could feel the movement and-

They stopped. Romans brain did too, apparently. 

"We are here." Logan said, voice strained and soft. The type of voice he had used on Roman...earlier.

Roman simply nodded and grabbed his bag before getting out of the car. He wanted to slam the door. He wanted to slam any door, really, but he didn't. He just sighed and walked into his house. Logan huffed and closed his door for him before also walking into the small 2 story bungalow.

Roman was already in the kitchen when Logan walked in and closed the door behind him. 

"When will your parents be home?" Logan had called, setting his shoes aside by the door and making his way to the kitchen. Roman was sitting on an island stool, angrily munching on some crackers. 

"I don't know. What time is it?"

"Two-thirty."

"The non-birth giver should be back in three or so hours." Roman answered. Logan raised a brow but didn't comment. Roman always called his mother, Mother dearest. He only called her by another title when he was upset. 

"Okay." Logan replied and got to work preparing something for dinner. Roman alternated between eating crackers and going on his phone or just silently watching Logan. After three hours and a bowl of fancy ramen( "I told you, Roman, it is not fancy ramen. I made it as instructed just improvised a bit.")they found themselves in the living room. Logan was grading some last minute make up work and Roman was sitting in front of the TV playing Mario kart. 

The door opened suddenly but neither paid it much attention. The sound of keys being thrown into a bowl and shoes tossed somewhere on the ground echoed through the house before the, inevitable, sound of footsteps. 

"Ah, Lo, I thought that was your car in the driveway," Eliana, Romans mother, said. She tossed her bag onto a random chair and sat down next to Logan, placing her head on his shoulder. 

He glanced down at her. "Hello, El. How was work?" He asked, scowling at something stupid on a kids paper. Eliana glanced at the paper Logan had and scoffed. 

"Same old shit. Isn't that the kid that you hate?" She asked, glancing at the name and recognizing it as a name he's screeched about multiple times. Logan saw Roman perk up but it was faint so he obviously didn't want them to think he was listening. 

"No, El," he muttered, shoving the papers aside. "I don't hate any of the kids-"

"That's a fucking lie-"

"There are merely ones that are...more difficult than others." He stated, placing his head on top of Elianas and focusing on the game on the screen. 

After a half hour George, Roman father, came home. Eliana had dozed off but wasn't fully asleep and Logan was close to following. Barely keeping his eyes open.

"Okay... I'm home and everyone is quiet. What happened?" He asked to no one in particular. Eliana startled awake and accidentally hit her head against Logans making Logan sit up with a hiss of pain. 

George walked over to the two on the couch and gave Eliana a quick peck on the lips. 

"What? No kiss for me?" Logan asked, jokingly. He wasn't much of a joker but he was half awake and didn't really have much control over his mouth. 

"Sorry, no. Only kisses for lovely wives, such as mine,"

"Oh hush, you flirt." she yawned and got up from the couch. She moved to place a kiss on his cheek but he turned his head at the last second and stole a kiss on the lips. 

"Score," he mumbled, smiling softly into the kiss. Roman stole a glance at Logan and Logan looked back. 

"Get a room!" Roman called as he went back to his game. Both adults broke apart with a chuckle and a tiny glad at Roman. Eliana moved to sit back next to Logan and George went to go change into some more comfortable clothes. Three piece suits got uncomfy after a while. 

"Okay, serious talk time!" George called, walking back into the living room. Eliana spared him a glance but besides that no one paid him any mind. George did not like this. He walked over to the TV and turned it off, ignoring the offended squawks he got from Roman and went to sit on Elianas other side. 

"Roman, can you please take a seat on the chair of talking?" George asked. Roman tensed but made his way over onto the lavender moon chair. He tucked his feet under him and crossed his arms, refusing to look at any adults. 

Eliana and Logan sat up, realizing it was now "serious talk time", as Roman so elegantly named it. 

"So," his father started, wrapping an arm around his wife. "why exactly did Logan bring you home and stay. It's not movie Wednesday, that's next week." His father said. His wife leaned into him and stared at her son. Logan already had his gaze on Roman and continued to stare. With all those gazes on him Roman felt very...exposed. He decided he didn't like it all that much. 

"Right, well…" he started, looking at his shoes and rubbing at the back of his neck. "I-i may have...may have h-had a l-little….problem, at school…" he trailed off, cringing at the amount of stutters in that one sentence. 

His parents frowned, a lot more concerned then they originally were. Logan looked the same but if you looked closely enough you would see that small little bit of concern in his eyes. 

"What happened? Logan what happened?" Eliana turned to Logan, gripping his right arm and shaking it lightly. Logan waited until she had stopped the shaking to answer. 

"I...I don't really know." He looked towards Roman, Elianas grip on his arm still present. "All Roman told me was…" he gulped. "Was that he saw his twin."

Roman winced and Eliana and George went rigid. 

"Y-you...you saw Remus?" Eliana asked, her voice nothing more than a frightened whisper. Roman nodded, gloomily. A word almost never used to describe him. 

"Okay.." George said, nodding his head a little bit. "I know how to fix this."

-

"I just- I just don't understand why we have to-"

"Yes, you've said it multiple times, Mr. Ellards but I'm telling you that this is necessary!"

"Mr. Perez!" Mr. Ellards yelled seethed, his dark brown eyes turning to slits as he glared at Romans father. Romans father glared back, determined. The large, round man sighed a bit before settling into his seat a bit. He folded his hands and looked up at George. 

"Mr. Perez, I understand your concern, really I do but we can't just change students schedules all willy-nilly! Our policy says that we may only do so if we fear that some sort of physical violence may happen between two, or more, students. We can't bend the rules just because of a little sibling fue-"

"I hit him." Roman cut in, deathly calm and voice even. Unnaturally so for the, usually, dramatic student. Mr. Ellards raised a brow and pushed up his glasses.

"You, what." He questioned, flatly. It didn't sound like a question, not really, but it was one of those things that teachers did. They seemed to favour it. 

"I hit him. Slapped him, is the more correct term. A-across the face," Roman stuttered, diverting his gaze to his shoes. Mr. Ellards nodded his round( and quite frankly, kinda fat) head up and down. Slowly, as if he didn't know he was doing it. 

He leaned forward. "Roman you are aware of the consequences of admitting to such a thing, correct?" He asked him. Roman nodded. 

"Yes, sir."

"And you still admit to it?"

"Yes, sir."

"I see," he concluded, sitting back in his chair. Romans dad had already sat down by now and was waiting to see what happened next. He had already known about the slap and was just waiting for another reason to yell at Mr. Ellards.

Mr. Ellards tapped on the desk with his sausage fingers before pointing one at Roman. 

"Either detention for a week or suspension for a day." He had said. Romans eyebrows shot up. 

He was about to ask for any proof of him doing so but then he remembered that he had just confessed. He looked towards his dad. George looked back. 

"Suspension." They both said in unison. The principal nodded. 

"Okay. I'll talk to the guidance counselor and make sure they're classes are changed so that, as long as they don't try, they'll never see each other. 

George nodded. Roman nodded. Mr. Ellards nodded. 

All was good and it stayed that way. For the rest of freshmen year they never saw each other once. Roman never told his friends about his twin, because he saw no reason and Remus never told De about his sudden class change. He had an idea of what happened but never commented. 

It seemed perfect…..until two men met in a coffee shop. 

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[all-or-nothing-baby]

Fuck You to the bigoted TWATS Who Have Convinced My Usually Incredibly Liberal and Humanistic 20 year old that Being Genderqueer is 'Made Up'

I'm fucking crying typing this.

I've just had a visit from my adult son, as it's my ex's birthday (my son's step-dad) and he popped round on his way over to see him.

Just for a bit of background, my son is ordinarily (as stated in the title) a really broadminded individual, surrounded by other like-minded individuals. He's never had any prejudices against anybody with regards to race, sexual orientation, age, or anything else one could be discriminative about. His best friend has a multiethnic background; I'm pansexual; one of his step-dad's best friends is a lesbian; one of his other good friends is bisexual... I could go on but won't. Basically, he's never shown any animosity whatsoever towards anyone for who they are.

Just before he left this afternoon, we got into a conversation about gender--a topic that has been coming up quite a lot of late. He became obviously irked at a couple of things I said. Then (it seemed like) he finally said (what very much felt like) what he's been wanting to say for a while. It was somewhere along the lines of:

Transgender, gender fluid and non binary people (and all there is in-between, allegedly) don't exist. It's a chemical imbalance; a mental illness. Blue-haired lesbians have just made this shit it up.

He said the last statement was quoting THIS FUCKING STUPID and OFFENSIVE MEME:

He then said he's nothing at all against queers, but was using the meme as an example of how people have gone "over the top" with "the Gender Thing". He also said that he believes sex and gender to be one and the same and that he thinks the study of gender is just a "poxy pseudoscience".

THIS IS COMING FROM MY OWN AWESOME, BEAUTIFUL AND KIND-HEARTED SON AND I JUST CAN'T WRAP MY HEAD AROUND HIM SAYING SUCH TOSH.

But people get ideas in their heads, I know that. He said he's been having discussions with people about it recently--obviously some FUCKING ASSHOLES who've put this bullshit and hate (and it is hate-speak, as he's fully mocking these individuals) into his head.

Now, AS A PERSON, who is also realising they are probably genderqueer, I'M FUCKING HORRIFIED by his sheer unwillingness to listen to my views and be respectful of the way that I--and so many others--are; not feel but are. He's incredibly stubborn (always had been tbf) and won't even let me discuss it with him, just shooting me down when I'm trying to get my views across. And I'M OFFENDED. Even if I wasn't questioning my own gender, I'd be offended.

As a parent, I'm obviously also HORRIFIED AND UPSET BY THIS; at my wonderful and intelligent offspring buying into somebody's utterly ridiculous, disrespectful and wholly incorrect WANK. But I'm also worried--not only for him as a person, obviously, but about how best do deal with this situation. We are both autistic and have adhd and communication can often be quite difficult, especially when emotions are involved.

I'm putting this out here for MUCH NEEDED ADVICE, from anyone who may have experience in HOW BEST TO HANDLE THIS. I know I can't make him believe something he doesn't want to believe, I just don't know how I should best approach the situation. I'm normally too insular to ask for help (or even discuss things that are really upsetting me) but I'm struggling with how best to deal here. So, if you have anything for me to go on, I'd be very grateful of the input.

If you've read this, THANK YOU. If you have any constructive ideas (jokers can get to fuck and back right now) please add to this post, send me an ask or inbox me.

ALL THE LOVE,

Lucy <3

[lunar-winterlude]

Answered all the questions on this post because @missingparentheses suggested it and why not. Under the cut, unless Tumblr decides to break it, in which case I apologize for the long post...............

1. What was the name of the first person you ever had a crush on? Why did you like them? Her name was Jessie and she was a year ahead of me in Sunday school. She had long dark hair that I thought was really pretty, and she always seemed happy and confident and outgoing. I used to write her name on stuff at home and imagine that we were best friends. We talked exactly one (1) time in the years that my family attended that church, but I remember being in awe of how cool she was. Of course, I didn’t realize that I’d had a crush on her until much, much later. At the time (first/second grade) I didn’t know queer crushes were a thing.

2. What is one thing you regret having done or not done in your life? I regret not speaking my mind more.

3. Which parent do you identify with the most? I’ve always identified more with my dad which is HORRIFYING. Growing up, he was marginally easier to talk to than my mom. Things have completely changed since then, now that I’ve begun to understand my mom and the reasons behind her actions.

4. What do you think you cook or bake the best? I make good crockpot meals lmao. Chicken alfredo, chili, mac n cheese, brownies...yeah, it’s great.

5. If you could change your first name what would it be? I like my name! I do go by Shay on some accounts though, so maybe that.

6. Can you hula hoop? Hell yes. I can swivel these hips for days.

7. What embarrasses you the most in front of other people? Crying in front of anyone. I cried while talking to my therapist once and just thinking about it squicks me out. Before that, the last time I cried in front of anyone was my parents in 2012 (holy shit), when I got home from teaching the day the principal yelled at me in front of my class. SO YEAH if I ever cry in front of you, it’s probably because something traumatizing has happened.

8. Have you considered running for president? Nope, never.

9. If you had to choose one thing you were most passionate about, what would it be and why? Creating stuff! Making music, crafting stories, all that good stuff. I’m my own worst enemy when it comes to that. Lots of insecurities get in the way.

10. Who are you most envious of—real or fictional—and why? I’m envious of creative queer women with long-term partners and financially stable lives. Ultimately, that’s where I want to be.

11. Where is the most beautiful place on earth and why? Haven’t been to many places I’d consider beautiful, but the Cape Fear River is gorgeous!

12. Are ghosts real? Maybe?

13. Are aliens real? Probably! The universe is huge.

14. How old is the most expired item in your fridge? I just checked and nothing in there is expired. My sister and I don’t play when it comes to stuff like that, and this is why we’re great roommates.

15. What are your favorite style of underwear? Boxer briefs!

16. What’s the saddest song you’ve ever heard? Joji - Yeah Right. Perfectly encapsulates how it feels to know you’re being used.

17. How about the sweetest song? Shawn Wasabi - Spicy Boyfriend. YEAH I KNOW the lyrics are nothing. But the music itself?? That’s how sweetness sounds to me.

18. Do you know how to play dominoes? Yes! My mom showed us when we were kids. It was boring...

19. What’s under your bed? A replica Joker knife I got at my first con and a baseball bat. Don’t mess.

20. Have you ever prank called someone? Once when I was like five, I called my grandpop and hung up when he answered, does that count.

21. 100 kittens or 3 baby sloths? What, to keep as pets? Neither. But if I had to choose which to hang out with for a bit??? I’m allergic to most cats but kittens are adorable.

22. Are you proud of what you’re doing with your heart and time right now? No.

23. Why or why not? I’m still hung up on past rejections. Fixating on “what if,” and wondering if things would have turned out differently if only I’d been funnier, hotter, more clever, interesting, assertive, outgoing, etc...yeah this is a bad road and I ain’t going down it tonight.

24. How many bones have you broken? NONE

25. Have you ever won anything? Big or small? I won a spot in the NJ all-state wind ensemble on my first time auditioning after playing bassoon for a little over a year. It was a big deal because bassoon isn’t an instrument that people learn very quickly. But I spent an obscene amount of time practicing it in high school, and most of the other bassoons hardly practiced at all. That counts, right?

26. If you could buy one material thing, and money was not an issue, what would it be? A custom-built gaming PC. I want to play the Witcher 3 goddammit

27. What’s your favorite movie from your childhood? Hmmm, maybe “Honey we shrunk the kids.” My sister and I watched it again recently and it's still hilarious.

28. What food will you absolutely not, under any circumstances, eat? Anything I’m allergic to. Keep peanut butter far away from me. Other than that, I’ll try anything once.

29. What’s the best way to comfort you when you’re having a really terrible day? Just check in on me, ask me questions, let me ramble, say something affirming, maybe give me a hug if I ask?

30. Has anything/anyone every saved your life before? When I was a teenager, I liked to say that music saved my life because everyone I knew said that. But honestly? I don’t know..

31. Would you ever adopt a child? Nope, no kids here. I don’t have the emotional capacity for raising children.

32. What is one thing you’re embarrassed to admit you want to try? I’m drawing a blank here...am I supposed to say sex stuff? I’m legit curious to try pegging a guy once, but I also have zero interest in sleeping with guys right now, so that may never happen.

33. If you were a cake which cake would you be? Molten chocolate cake. I know that “molten” isn’t referring to the temperature BUT I’m black and sometimes SOMETIMES I’d like to believe that I’m hot and oh god that was a terrible answer but I can’t think of anything better whoopssss

34. What is the most important material possession you have and why? Definitely my car. Without it, I’m screwed.

35. What is the most important memory you have and why? I’m only coming up with memories of disappointment, so I’m gonna pass on this one.

36. When was the last time you cried? I cried while watching Into the Spiderverse. I’m like Rhett when it comes to crying in movies. But only if I’m alone! Crying in front of other people is a huge nope, as I said earlier.

37. How old was your mother when she had you? She was 33

38. Which famous person would you like to be BFFs with? Janelle Monae!!!

39. Is there something you wish you had said sorry for but never did? I can’t think of anything. There are definitely things I wish I hadn’t apologized for, though.

40. Have you been on your first date? If so, how did it go? Sort of?? I met up with a girl I was talking to online. No one called it a date, so maybe this doesn’t count. We hung out at this little bar that had board games. She was nice, but it was so awkward. We talked for two minutes, realized we had very little in common, but valiantly tried to play a board game or two anyway. Trouble is, most games are meant for more than two people, and my clumsy attempts at keeping the conversation going weren’t working. So after a miserable hour, (miserable for me, at least) we parted ways and haven’t spoken since.

She correctly guessed my reasons for coming out when I did, so that was amusing, I guess.

Heartbreak was the one thing we had in common.