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Rating HSR characters in relationships
Title is self-explanatory <3
Characters: Boothill, Dr Ratio, Blade, Aventurine (separately)
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CW: cursing, mostly fluff and some crack
CW Aventurine's part: toxic dynamics, emotional neglect, jealousy, Aventurine in general
Lmk if there's any warnings I should add!
Had to restrain myself on Dr. Ratio I have soo bad brain worms about him rn heās all I think about
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Boothill
10/10
DO NOT. AT ME. I PROMISE IāVE THOUGHT THIS THROUGH. I know most people who read that will be like āwhat the fuck Boothill would NOT be a perfect partnerā and thatās where youāre right ! No, he would be an awful partner !
For MOST people.Ā
But see, he wouldnāt be just ANYONEāS partner.Ā
If youāre dating him, it means youāre exactly his type and heās exactly yours. You wouldnāt date a guy like him if he wasnāt exactly what you wanted. He lays out all his cards on the table right away. Your relationship wonāt have the chance to even begin if youāre not head over heels immediately bro ššš
With most characters I can imagine them in a relationship with a lot of different kinds of people. Like for example yeah I can imagine Aventurine both dating someone more reserved and sweet or someone bold and loud. Or someone like Argenti Lord knows that man could love ANYONE (or anyTHING tbh), but with Boothill thereās just a very narrow range of personalities I can imagine him with. Hence the rating cause heād only be in one kind of relationship.Ā
You guys are a POWER COUPLE I tell you. Itās SICKENING how much you love each other and how well you fit together. Two peas in a pod. Iām gonna throw up.Ā
You both love the exact same things, you both HATE the exact same things, and you are both equally deranged and insane
The IPC hates to see you coming šš
Youāre constantly in a friendly competition to outdo each other. Who has the higher bounty ? (Usually him) Who can drink most alcohol before blacking out ? (You, surprisingly) Who can kiss the other the most times during this high-speed chase ? (You always tie on this)
He swallows a bullet. You say āIāll do you one better!ā and swallow a knife. You are a human and so he needs to take you to the hospital so you donāt fucking die
(You both think itās funny afterwards so itās okay)
Even when you guys āargueā itās never really that serious. Honestly you both think itās kind of hotā¦ā¦ you argue in a devious, sexy wayā¦ā¦. *smirks mischievously*
Sorry I cannot take him seriously
You match his freak <3
Nobody fucking likes you together. Separately ? Sure people like you. But the moment the two of you are in the same room itās like you merge into one singular, horrible, annoying entity and NOBODY wants to be around to see it šššššš neither of you have gotten a lecture about how inappropriate pda can be and also the two of you speak total nonsense itās incomprehensible to everyone else
Considering putting Boothill on my ādo not requestā list, not because I donāt like him but because even I donāt understand how the two of you would fit together I canāt write it yāall are that weird
Boothill is for the freaks and he is PERFECT FOR THEM !!!
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Dr. Ratio
9/10
Okay Iāll be honest Iām not very caught up on Dr Ratio (I briefly hated him I only recently started liking him again HELP) so forgive me if there is some mischaracterisation in this Iām working on it my view on him isnāt complete yet šš
Though Ratio is very ruled by logic, that doesnāt mean he doesnāt have emotions. Furthermore, he views these emotions as important. Logic is not inherently opposed to emotions, and in fact, ignoring them would be illogical.Ā
That is to say, yes, heās an intellectual man. But he also has a high emotional intelligence šš
Like not in the way of knowing how to cope with them. I donāt think he feels many strong emotions regularly (except for annoyance lol), so I think he in fact gets kind of overwhelmed by them around you and never knows how to regulate them properly HELP
But what I meant to say is that, in a relationship, he considers your thoughts and feelings a lot and makes an effort to prioritise them. He does not want for you to be unhappy.Ā
He values you very highly. He takes all your opinions into consideration and treats them with respect.
He loves you a lot itās actually ridiculous. He frequently gets annoyed at himself for how much he finds himself downright SIMPERING over you.Ā
And like yes Ratio can be very harsh in the way he speaks but I think that 1, his care for people (including the āfoolsā and āidiotsā he seems to scorn so often) shows and it shows even more apparently for people he cares about, and 2 I think he realises it would be inappropriate to be as rude as he usually is to you. You two are in a relationship, you are not some stranger. He cannot go around criticising you constantly, that would not be a healthy dynamic. Meaning he softens his vocabulary for you.Ā
His care for you is very blatantly obvious. In the beginning I think heās a bit embarrassed to show you affection. He hasnāt ever dated anyone, much less been in a relationship, with anyone before you (I honestly donāt even think heās had his first kiss šš), so I think his inexperience plays a part in it. But he still shows you as obviously as he can that he loves you, and he doesnāt shy away from vulnerability in private moments.Ā
Bro has researched how to be a good partner trust š¤
He communicates very clearly with you as often as possible. He hates misunderstandings, and tries to avoid them whenever possible. The two of you are almost always on the same page.Ā
Whenever you argue, he still does not want you to leave the argument feeling unloved. Type to sigh, let his eyes soften and say āI believe it would be best if we both had some time to cool downā, then squeeze your shoulder as he passes you out of the room. Kisses you goodnight before you go to sleep. Itās often easier to talk it out the next day.Ā
The only things bumping him down from a 10/10 for me is the fact that he doesnāt have that much time to spare for time with only you (his schedule is very packed), and the fact that he cannot cope with his OWN emotions š Great with yours because he can logistically figure out how to handle them, terrible with his own because theyāre affecting his own mind and he isnāt used to it
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Blade
7/10
Surprisingly high rating for a guy like him but I swear Iāve thought about this ok donāt leave ššš
I think it takesā¦. A lot. Like a lot a lot. To break through Bladeās tough outer shell
He hates letting people in so much itās actually crazy
The closest person he has before he meets you is probably Kafka, and thatās not really by his own choice he would shut her out too if he could šš
(Not to say he isnāt like, calm and polite to people. Heās pretty reserved and just, like, quiet ig usually, he only really gets weird and aggressive when the Mara flares up or he needs to be for a mission. I just mean he isnāt gonna be open and available for basically anyone lol)
Itās mainly difficult to GET INTO a relationship with Blade, but if you do manage it, it turns out a lot sweeter than youād expect
Heās just a deeply tired man. He is not malicious, he is not unnecessarily cruel. He is worn out and sick of living, of never getting the rest he so desperately craves. He finds some sort of respite in you, and so he treasures you.Ā
He trusts your judgement. He stands by you, no matter what. Heās loyal to a fault once you have him. The worst that could ever happen to him now is losing you. Even when he thinks youāre about to do something stupid (and he always tells you when he thinks itās stupid), heāll come with you. Better heās there to take the hit for you than letting you go alone.Ā
Even with the smaller things, he shows it even more obviously. He cooks you dinner and lunch every day, so you donāt have to. He lets you decorate his apartment, and he never adjusts the things you place in it, even when it clashes horribly with his own style. He lets you drag him along anywhere, whether it be a concert or a park, without complaint.Ā
The main downsides with Blade are that he never, ever, verbally tells you that he loves you. Maybe once during your entire relationship heāll say it, and probably when youāre on your deathbed, but he usually wonāt. Even if you try to pry it out of him.Ā
He can be really mean in the way he says things sometimes, like telling you straight up your ideas are dumb, but itās always softened by the way he agrees to do whatever you want anyways.
Another frustrating thing is how he cares very little for his own wellbeing. Itās a regular occurrence for him to come home with guts spilling out of his abdomen, and itās really uncomfortable to see even if you know he canāt die. He can still feel pain, even if heās learnt to cope with it well. Itās scary to see him so hurt so often.Ā
But you wouldnāt get into a relationship with him if you didnāt already know all this, hence why I rank him so high. Heās a lot better than you expected when you met him, which means youāre effectively in a better relationship than youād have hoped šš
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Aventurine
4/10 šš
I love him so much (my content is mostly Aventurine centric) but holy fuck man,,,
I have never and will never sugarcoat it Aventurine is TOXIC. Like GENUINELY. I wouldnāt say abusive but he can be really cruel. He gets lost in his own head and takes it out on you in ways he doesnāt really mean to. Aventurine is not a good person.Ā
Heās fucked up in all sorts of ways and itās no surprise it could easily destroy any relationship
Trust issues ? Jealousy issues ? Commitment issues ? Attachment issues ? Insecurity issues ? Mommy, daddy AND sister issues ? Every kind of possible issue you can probably imagine ? Yes on all fronts, broās the full issue package š
It would take a very special kind of person to endure in a relationship with him (I would not be able to do it if he was real Iāll be so honest)š
When things are good, theyāre really good. He can be so fun and playful and sweet and he loves to spoil you and everything that belongs to him belongs to you. He loves you more than the air he breathes and heād do anything to make you happy
The issue is, most of the time, things are not in fact good.Ā
I keep mentioning it but his relationships are always such a push and pull. A game of hot and cold. One second he clings to you and begs you to never leave him, and the next he wonāt respond to your calls or messages.Ā
Even worse, sometimes heāll be outright mean in order to push you away, insinuating youāre āholding him downā and that youāre āwasting his timeā. Youāll find yourself questioning if he actually does love you, because what sort of person does this to someone they love?
(It keeps him up at night when he treats you badly. He hates doing it, but he needs you to hate him as much as he hates himself.)
Usually heās a really smart guy. Even when he does stupid things (things like making a purposeless high-risk gamble, playing Russian roulette), heās fully aware of what heās doing. (He does it because he kind of hopes heāll actually die this time.) But with you, he loses all his composure and canāt really think straight.Ā
He feels safe with you, and that scares him. Heās a danger to your safety, and itās better to push you away, make you hate him, than it is to let himself be happy with you. His life is beyond saving, so all he can do to you if you stay is drag you into his mess. He canāt fix himself, not even for your sake.Ā
He lies to you, he neglects you (sometimes for weeks at a time), he builds up new walls between you constantly, but at the same time he gets insecure and jealous when you hang out with others. Only when you threaten to leave him does he finally start getting his act together, because he realises that now that heās had you, he couldnāt bear to live without you (even if he knows thatās very selfish of him).Ā
He gets better with time, but I really, really doubt heāll ever be fully healed. It doesnāt help that his job wouldnāt really allow it, and he canāt leave the IPC through any other means than death.Ā
I originally ranked him as a 3/10 (diabolically low rating I know šš) but I bumped him up one because he will get better. If you stick around long enough, heād probably make it to a 7/10, but since that would take like over 4 years of being in a relationship with him I felt it would be unfair to rank him much higher šš At the start he really fucking sucks dude Iām so sorry my condolencesĀ
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My inbox is open, feel free to send in asks or requests, I'd love to ramble about things <3
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I know it's not about them but I just read the Halloweenie details you shared (I'M SO EXCITED FOR IT I KNOW IT'LL BE FANTASTIC!!!!) and I just. Fellow and Giddyyy ššš my sillies! everytime you mentioned them I giggled.... Boss Fellow is such a yummy concept to me and also him having a soft spot for the kiddos,,,,,, he's such a dad. And gidel !!! My son, the best matchmaker out there, I can just picture him doing the heart chart jfdnfdjdj he's so cute, Fellow's so lucky actually because pursuing anyone would be so easy if he uses Gidel as the secret ultimate weapon. You just can't say no to that cute kid so me personally I'd very happily go out with his dad big bro and anything the lil boy asks me to-
I adore them both... sorry Skully this is about you but I just got distracted š
>w< hehehe I love Fellow and Gidel's roles in Halloweenie!!! They're so beloved!!
The entire cast is so found (work) family!!! Fellow sort of watched those kids grow up and go through character development (Rollo and Reader started working there when they were 18 and Skully when he was 15). Those are his liabilities (affectionate). Just don't let those three know he cares so much, otherwise they will exploit him with this new knowledge. I just love the idea of Fellow having a soft spot for them. Yes, they all get on his nerves sometimes. Yes, it feels like looking after a group of rowdy kids. But they're all so obviously troubled, and the Halloween store is kind of like their home away from home. It's comforting for their group of misfits, and Fellow looks out for them in his own ways. <3
But also,, they're all schemers who learned from the best (bad influence). Fellow is like "my goodness, who taught these dependable scholars such deceitful manners?!" And then seconds later he's like "oh, wait. I did! :D" the greatest life skill is being an actor, he'll tell you. Fake it until you make it. You never know how honest (lol) that advice of his is. I just love the idea that Fellow taught you how to get better at blending your eyeshadow and other makeup looks just as he helped Skully to feel more comfortable and confident being himself.
Fellow is going to give all of them the opportunity to make mistakes and learn in his shop. To be the mentor to them that he needed when he was growing up,, if that makes sense. Like when he teaches Gidel the alphabet and how to write out the letters in his card.
And Gidel!!! He adores you, Rollo, and Skully. Those are his friends!!! :D and Fellow's pleased to see everyone getting along with him. The heart chart is so silly,,, I can imagine Gidel pretending to scrutinize it and Skully is on the edge of his seat like: "omg omg!! What does it mean, Gidel?!" And he fanboys when Gidel colors it in just a little bit more. āØ progress āØ
Fellow really does have the upper hand if he's pursuing a darling who has a soft spot for children and loves to care for them!! He can play the role of single dad or big brother who has to take on a fatherly role because it's just him and Gidel, and you'll immediately sympathize and want to help out. Fellow gets a darling and Gidel gets another big sibling/parental figure. >:D all according to plan.
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I just thought of this now and knew it would be funny but,
What about a platonic!reader x aventurine but reader is like a grandma Madea. I feel like this would be funny since Madea does a lot of illegal stuff and since the IPC is sorta a government. Although she jokes around a lot, everyone knows she doesn't play when it comes to her family.
I feel like it would be really nice for Aventurine to see how much someone genuinely cares.
āYou've Got a Friendā
Summary: When IPCās gambling prodigy, Aventurine, meets a surprising new friendā[Name], a feisty grandma with Madea-like energy and a knack for stirring up troubleāhis life takes an unexpected turn.
Tags: Platonic, Aventurine & Grandma Reader, found family, humor, tough love, loyalty, protective reader, unconventional friendship, hurt/comfort, lighthearted moments, character growth, emotional support, Reader is implied female(she/her) but nothing in details, Reader refers Aventurine with nicknames.
Warnings: Mild language, references to emotional scars, some themes of loneliness
A/N: I'M SO SORRY IF I GOT THIS WRONG SOMEHOW OR SOMETHING!! I HAVE NEVER WATCHED THE FILM/MOVIE AND TO READ THE WIKIPEDIA TO UNDERSTAND HER CHARACTER!! š
Aventurine knew heād seen his share of unpredictable people, but nothing could have prepared him for you.
He'd met you by accidentāa rumor had surfaced of an unusual figure wreaking havoc at a nearby IPC office, and he thought he'd investigate, assuming it was just another rowdy client. When he arrived, however, he found the office staff staring in shock as you, in all your āgrandmaā glory, stood there lecturing a young agent on the importance of family values, all while waving around your purse like a weapon.
āNow, let me tell you something, sugar,ā you declared, your tone sweet but deadly serious. āWhen a boy like my grandson comes to your office, heās here for business, not to be messed with. You play nice, and so will I. Got it?ā
You didnāt notice Aventurine standing there at first, taking in the scene with a mix of curiosity and amusement. Finally, you turned, catching his gaze, your eyes narrowing slightly as you assessed him.
āWell, look at you, Mr. Fancy Pants,ā you said, giving him a once-over. āWhatās a younginā like you doing workinā for the government, hmm? Ain't no good come from trustin' those suits. Just you remember that.ā
The other employees in the office looked around nervously, but Aventurine only chuckled. āYou must beā¦[Name]?ā he asked, quirking an eyebrow.
āGrandma [Name] to you,ā you replied, adding a pointed finger jab in his direction. āBut you can call me Madea.ā
The friendship that blossomed between you and Aventurine wasā¦unusual, to say the least. You quickly took a liking to him, although you never hesitated to remind him you didn't trust āno government types.ā You even went as far as calling the IPC āthat mess of bureaucratic backstabbersā whenever Aventurine would bring up his job. Yet, despite the tough talk, you always had a glint in your eye whenever heād visit, bringing you little trinkets heād won in his latest gambling scheme or updates on his work.
One day, you caught him staring off into the distance, his confident smile faded just slightly, his guard down for just a moment. Without warning, you gave him a light smack on the back of his head, making him jump.
āWhat was that for?ā he asked, rubbing his head and glaring at you.
āStop lookin' like a kicked puppy. Youāre handsome, got a job, a snazzy suit, and them fancy-lookinā eyes. Life aināt all bad, honey.ā you said with a smirk.
āSince when do you hand out compliments?ā he asked, a hint of a genuine smile appearing.
āSince I realized you aināt got nobody who does it for ya,ā you replied, shrugging. āYou work so hard, pullinā strings, playinā games, but whoās there for you when things go south?ā
That got him. He paused, then looked away. āLife is a game, Madea,ā he said softly. āYou can only rely on yourself.ā
āWell, thatās a load of nonsense if I ever heard it,ā you said, crossing your arms. āYou got me, sugar. You just donāt know it yet.ā
One evening, while the two of you were hanging out (at his requestāthough heād never admit it), Aventurine made the mistake of mentioning that he had a meeting with some shady IPC officials that he didnāt quite trust.
āNow, what kinda mess you gettinā yourself into, huh?ā you asked, eyeing him suspiciously.
āItās business,ā he said, waving his hand dismissively. āNothing I canāt handle.ā
āOh, I donāt like that look youāre givinā me,ā you said, wagging a finger. āNow listen here, if any of them suit-wearin' snakes give you trouble, you come straight to me, you hear?ā
He laughed, holding his hands up. āI think I can handle myself just fine. Besides, itās not like youād be able to get into an IPC boardroom in the first place.ā
You shot him a wicked grin. āIs that a challenge, honey?ā
And sure enough, when Aventurine arrived at his meeting the next day, he was shocked to see you already inside the room. You were sitting there, looking comfortable and casual, surrounded by people in stiff business attire, a sly smirk on your face as you glanced up at him.
āHey there, sugar! Fancy seeinā you here!ā you called out, loud enough to startle the room.
The officials looked between the two of you, clearly baffled. Aventurine, unable to suppress his laughter, leaned in and whispered, āYou know, youāre absolutely insane.ā
āOnly insane thing is lettinā you walk in here without backup. They donāt scare me,ā you whispered back with a grin, ābut they should be scared of me.ā
Over time, you became a fixture in Aventurine's life, always popping up when he least expected it, giving him advice he didnāt think he needed, and occasionally pulling a prank or two on his IPC coworkers just to keep things interesting. And though Aventurine kept his usual, unbothered demeanor, he couldnāt deny itāhaving you around felt like having someone who actually cared.
One evening, after a particularly long day, you set down a plate of warm, homemade cookies in front of him. āA little somethinā to lift your spirits, sugar.ā you said.
Aventurine stared at the plate, then back at you. āI donātā¦know what to say.ā
āYou donāt gotta say nothinā. Just eat. And rememberāfamily aināt about blood. Sometimes, itās about whoās there to smack you upside the head when youāre actinā a fool.ā
A genuine smile broke through Aventurineās usual smirk, and he picked up a cookie, savoring it. For once, he let himself believe that maybe, just maybe, he didnāt have to play the game alone.
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fic writer interview!
shamelessly yoinking from @karliahs bc this looks fun as hell to do :]
How many works do you have on AO3?
32 fics total, between my main and rough draft pseud!! which feels like a really small amount, honestly-- i think my private WIPs list is MUCH higher šššš if we're counting my very first (and very abandoned) ao3 acct too, then that number is bumped up to 35!!
What's your total AO3 word count?
163,211, and a good 65k of that was written this year somehow??? according to my statistics ._. lowkey crazy to think about
What are your top 5 fics by kudos?
paid for it with all of my blood (BNHA | 8,452)
at times so self destructive (BNHA | 4,554)
lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) (HC/LIFE | 3,618)
or we can just have conversation (MSA | 1,834)
the art of rawgabbitry (BNHA | 1,609)
if youve been following me since my bnha fics in 2018 you deserve a veteran's discount
Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?
i used to answer every single comment i got, honestly, unless it came by years after i posted it-- the only reason i dont as much anymore is because it gets REALLY overwhelming for me to respond to everyone after the initial barrage š
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the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak etc etc. but i do read every comment and appreciate them SO SO MUCH, and whenever i find one particularly moving or want to just reassure people im still working on something i'll respond to those :]
What's the fic you've written with the angstiest ending?
not counting the wips that just never got finished and left off before their main shit could resolve, id say at times so self destructive (BNHA)-- i mean i LITERALLY ended it with izuku potentially dying šššš
What's the fic you've written with the happiest ending?
tbh i dont think i write happy endings so much as i write hopeful, bittersweet, or open-ended ones-- i tend to like catharsis more than fluff when it comes down to it. but out of my fluff fics i think honey it's starting to storm (HC) is one of the genuinely sweetest ive written. my runner-ups on that would probably be when the smoke does finally pass (TMA) and or we could just have conversation (MSA) :]
Do you write crossovers?
not typically, and ive never published any, but i am definitely not immune to them šššš i think my most niche crossover ive actually written (never to see the light of day) was a Nine Lives of Chloe King and Supernatural fic that was the definition of self-indulgent rot. only a little less niche than that was a Mortal Instruments and Supernatural crossover (theres a running theme here lol) lying in snippets on an ancient google doc in my oldest gmail acct. reread that one recently and its shockingly coherent for being written in like. 2016. id even call it decent (though theres a lot id change up if i were writing it now)
Have you ever received hate on a fic?
idk if it'd be considered hate but once i wrote a fic inspired by someone else's when i was very new to ao3, let them know (i didnt know about the "inspired by" option back then), and they got mad at me in my comments section because in their words, "its better than mine" ššššš„š„š„š„š„š„
Do you write smut? If so, what kind?
YOU COULD SAY THAT
as for what kind, honestly whatever strikes my fancy-- usually character/relationship studies, or just a fun focus on character intimacy. love 2 be asexual<3 love 2 write asexual sex<3
i had a discussion with my qpp recently about how in all honesty the smut i write is pretty tame, its just the character emotions written behind it that makes it feel a bit deranged. smth smth scarian is a chemical explosion. u understand
Have you ever had a fic stolen?
not to my knowledge!!!
Have you ever had a fic translated?
yeppers!! the art of rawgabbitry (BNHA) received a translation to Russian, which i always found a bit funny because rawgabbitry is. one of my least favorite works ive ever written, if only for the type of comments it tended to receive back in the day šššš
Have you ever co-written a fic before?
ive never managed it honestly-- i get a bit precious about my process, which can make it hard to collaborate on that level. but its something ive always wanted to grow enough as a writer to try :]
What's your all-time favorite ship?
not so much of a singular OTP type of guy as i have favorite pairings per fandom im in-- that being said rn its scarian :P
What's a WIP that you want to finish but don't think you ever will?
pretty much all of my dsmp wips honestly. i may surprise myself someday, but for now i just have zero urge to actually finish any of them
What are your writing strengths?
like my pal karliahs im gonna rip these from the comments ive received š
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but id definitely say imagery is my strongest skill!! i have a very strong imagination, and tend to see fic scenes as movie scenes in my head which i then transcribe into written format. id like to say im also really skilled at characterization and realistic dialogue that captures character voices very well!! and frankly i just love emotional realism so much i cant NOT write it, its always leaking into everything i do
What are your writing weaknesses?
i tend to get a little too funky and abstract with my descriptions sometimes-- that can work for some scenes, but grounding everything so that it feels more real and makes actual sense to the reader is something i often have to do on the second, third, and final passes
also to every person who has to crack open a thesaurus to understand what i write, i am so fucking sorryšš„š„š„š„š„š„š„
What are your thoughts on writing dialogue in other languages in a fic?
no thoughts beyond if its not a language you're proficient in you should probably get that checked over by a native speaker, just in case :P
What was the first fandom you wrote for?
fairy tail..... ff.net was a dark place
What's a fandom/ship you haven't written for yet but want to?
crying sobbing wailing as i desperately beg my brain to start writing that post-canon siffrin and odile relationship study. unfortunately i dont think i can have more than one longfic on my docket at a time so it shrimply must wait
What's your favorite fic you've written?
to the surprise of absolutely nobody, i'd have say lost in the dark (he's got a heavy heart) (HC/LIFE) :]
No obligation, but im tagging: @raichett, @kayawolfhorse, @boonbeenblade, @sillyfairygarden, and @grimfey !!! And anyone else who wants to do this ofc :]]]ā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļøā¤ļø
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A summary of the thoughts as I slowly realized that #Elrondriel would indeed become a thing in the show:
(for context, ROP was my first introduction to LOTR, so this was my perspective as a viewer with no concept of the lore)
Season 1:
Who is this guy? Is he her friend? More? Oh she touched his face, maybe itās like, unrequited? Am confused.
Is this how elves flirt? Whatās the history here? Oh well, sheās leaving anyway.
*Enter Halbrand* HOT DIGGITY DAWG now THATS what I call a love interest ššš
*Eating up all the enemies to lovers tropes and swooning over Halbrand*
*Elrond and Galadriel scenes* Me: Nah get this nice guy OUTTA HERE where is HOT HALBRAND? (future me is aghast that I would overlook the literal loml Elrond, Gal and I are the same ig)
Halbrand: *Is Sauron* Me: What!?? Nooo! No no no no no this canāt be happening oh noooo
*Elrond saves Galadriel*
Me: Wait
*Forehead touch, tears, deep breaths*
Me: Waaaiiittt
*Gasps* Omg. Of course, he loves her!! Theyāre going to fall in love! Itās perfect contrast to the enemies to lovers storyā a *slow burn, best friends, itās always been you* kind of love? Right? RIGHT!? That makes so much sense! Iām 1000% calling it for Season 2.
*Sometime between season 1 and season 2, discovers the heartbreaking truth* LOL what?? Sheās his WHAT??! ššš
*Still holding out hope, clutching my suspicions like theyāre my grandmas pearls*
Season 2:
Holy sheet heās mad. Ofc heās mad. But heās her best friend :c?? Pls donāt make me sad like this, youāre supposed to love each other!
āYou were my friend!!ā Mhm yknow they tend to use this word a lot
Thatāsā¦ thatās a lot of hand holding thereā¦
omg she put her hand on his CHEST OMGSJHDHFBF
āIt was entirely of your choosing, the lost king blah blahā Ok but this is literally him saying he knows her type?
Hollldd up, I see whatās happening. Tension. Thereās negative tension. Iāll bet if they stick to the trope, thereāll be a *moment* between them at the end that breaks the tension. There has to be.
*Galadriel gets caught by the Barrow-Wights* Wait for it babe, Elronds going to rescue her ohā yep, there he is. Saving her again. Because heās the love interest.
āPromise you will put defeating Sauron over saving my lifeā Pfft hahaha miss Galady, our boy has it bad, thereās no way heāll stay true to that promise. (For real though this sentence just showed us what the most important thing in the world is to him, itās her yāall)
*Galadriel gets captured and brought out to the battle field* Ooooh yup. Look at his FACE when he sees her, the slow mo and everything wow. Thatās his whole life right there. He canāt sacrifice her, he canāt do it.
Dang heās gonna do it???
āLet me bid her farewellā Omg please kiss her goodbye haha but no they wouldnā
0/////o!!???
O/////O!!!!!!!
I CALLED IT I FKING CALLED IT ARE YOU KIDDING ME I AM SCREAMING
THIS IS THE MOMENT THAT BROKE THE TENSION.
Everyone online: iT wASNt RoManTIC
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Sigh. Of course it āwasnāt romanticā. THATS THE WHOLE POINT. Thatās how this whole āforced to kissā trope works. They donāt have feelings for each other yet, that theyāre aware of anyway. Itās supposed to be an awakening. This is only the beginning.
*Continues to get gaslit by everyone and their mother including the actors and writers themselves*
Ok ok fine. Maybe Iām delusional about the whole thing. But every scene so far has been classic romantic arc set up. If they have a scene next episode where Elrond saves Galadriel again and maybe like, puts the ring on her finger all proposal style, then Iāll know. That would seal it for me.
*Episode 8*
*Speechless*
LITERALLY SPEECHLESS.
Thatās it yall. If you didnāt pick up on that, then Iāll see you next season for all the slow burn tropes. I can see them already. LFG. #Elrondriel for life.
#mic drop#i couldnāt make this shit up if i tried#just put me on the writing team already#obsessed with them#elrondriel#robert aramayo#elrond rings of power#galadriel rings of power
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I found your āIāll Die When Iām Deadā fic and I love it so much š
I love Timās relationships with everyone theyāre so unique and I love how you explore all of them! I especially love his relationship with Young Justice - platonic soulmates where itās ride or die like that are the BEST. š„¹
Iām also curious as to where the plot line with Dick will go now that he has finally realized that his love is selfish with the help of Life stepping in. Go Life! š
I was kinda curious if you had a particular endgame in mind? Or endgoal I guess? I know asking for an end chapter count is usually impossible but sometimes authors can give a guesstimate lmao
If not, thatās totally fine! Iām enjoying reading about Timās antics with Time and Death (I love Time - I feel like theyāre kinda like a feral cat that now likes Tim and now wishes they could have him be their favored tooā¦ can someone hold the favor of two almighty entities? š¤ If so, I feel like Tim would have Timeās favor since he is āadequateā I believe the word was š).
Thank you for writing this fun fic! I have it in my marked for later so I can be sure to get updated when a new chapter gets posted. I think the next fix of yours Iāll dive into will probably be the one where Tim gets turned into a toddler. That sounds like pure chaos and I am HERE for it! š
I'm so happy you like IDWID!!! š„° (it's my favourite one to write) Thank you! I love writing platonic soulmates, or just platonic relationships in general, it feels like there's a lot to explore there in a way people usually only reserve for romance. YJ is so much fun to write because they're kind of crazy and are definitely ride or die for each other š
Trust me, Dick still has a journey ahead of him, but it'll be worthwhile. I've got most of his next chapter ready, just a few more edits here and there needs to be done and then we'll see him again soon.
I do have an ending outlined, one I think will make sense for the characters. I've estimated that the work will be wrapped up by chapter 70 and I'm hoping to be done by February at the latest, so wish me luck!
Time does have feral cat energy š most of my characters do, really. I can't answer anything concerning the favoured as it would be giving away elements of the story (sorry!) but you're questions will get answered soon(ish)
Oh, toddler Tim is something š (very different from IDWID Tim) I hope you have fun with it! Thank you for sending this, I'm so glad you're enjoying my work(s) so far š
#dc comics#batfamily#batman#batfam#tim drake#robin#dick grayson#young justice#young just us#ao3#ao3 fanfic#fanfic
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The thought came to my mind and sparked some curiosity, so I wanna know(if u feel comfy sharing!!), what's your take on why Zico and Zeca live w/ ZĆ©? By the looks of it, I imagine he's their legal guardian, so you can't help but wonder what happened to make it end up that way.
My personal headcanon for it is that the twinās mother wasnāt the best parent, but something happened that made her completely snap, which eventually lead to the twins being taken away by CPS. ZĆ© was informed of this, and while It took a lot of thinking, he decided to adopt the kids. He didn't want them to suffer their whole life in a foster home, or be with somebody who might not even love them like a real parent should, so he stood up and took responbility. At first it was hard, as the people who had Zico and Zeca were hesitant on giving the kids to him. Everyone was, I mean, the guy has a reputation for being extremely lazy, how could he take care of not only one, but TWO kids? He fought in court, and proudly won the case, becoming their legal guardian.
(Bonus hc: Panchito and Donald helped a TON w/ raising the boys, once they learnt ZĆ© had taken custody, they immediately rushed to Vila Xurupita to help. They were there for 2 weeks, but once they had to go, Nestor immediately showed up, boxes filled to the brim with supplies needed to take care of toddlers, ready to help ZĆ© just has much as his partners did.)
Sorry if I started to ramble, I rlly like getting deep into things like lore and general hcāsšš
Hi there!! Thanks for sharing your headcanon, it was an interesting read! And yes! By the comics, JosĆ© is Zico and Zeca's legal guardian! He attends the twins' school festivals, parent-teacher meetings, cooks their meals and it's pretty much the only adult shown being responsible for them (having been threatened more than once with having the twins taken away from him as well LMAO). There is no mention of their mom or dad and weirder yet is how, despite the twins refering to ZĆ© as "uncle", ZĆ© is more than once said to be an only child! I do love the idea of Zico and Zeca not being blood related to ZĆ©, so that's a headcanon that I do consider canon compliant (at least for now). At the same time, I'm not a fan of JosĆ© being the sole caregiver for the twins or that their parents are completely taken out of the picture, as the comics insist on doing! At least that's my take in regards to their mother. Single mother households make up a significant proportion of Brazilian families, especially in favelas. So I think it would be cool for this aspect to be represented using these characters as well! I like to think Zico and Zeca's mother is still present in their life but, unlike ZĆ©, she works all kinds of crazy hours to provide for her kids. ZĆ© helps her out by staying with the twins while she's out and he's some sort of godfather to them, hence the uncle title š I do think it would be a funny gag for her face never to be shown, at least to kind of keep the tradition the comics have of never refering to Zico and Zeca's parents. I guess it would be some sort of middle ground XD
#I do like the idea of ZZ's mom being a nursing technician or smth of the sort#clearly she woud have more than one job that poor woman#sometimes she is not even working tho she leaves the kids w zƩ and goes out to dance or smth#let her have fun and wimsy too!#ask#scourgethehedgehogshrine
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If I may request a Rise fic!! Iām a huge sucker for comfort/cheer up tickles, so could you possibly write a disaster twins fic with Lee Leo and Ler Donnie where Leoās been having a pretty bad day (because of what is your choice!) and ends up feeling self conscious about himself and stuff, so Donnie decides to cheer up his twin!! Please donāt feel rushed and make sure youāre taking care of yourself ^_^
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āI canātĀ believeĀ youāreĀ doingĀ this to me again.ā Leo grumbled under his breath as he rested his mouth on his palm, glancing away from his brother as he sighed loudly.Ā
āWellĀ maybeĀ if you werenāt soĀ fuckingĀ recklessĀ I wouldnāt need to.ā Donnie growled lowly, glaring down at his twin.
āIām not aĀ baby,Ā Don. I donāt need to be supervised like Iām some bombĀ triggered toĀ explode.ā The younger said in exasperation, lying down on his bed whilst grabbing a comic book to read off of his desk.
If Leo was going to be told off and scolded by his dear beloved brow-loving brother, he should atĀ least have something to occupy himself with in the meanwhile.Ā
The softshell groaned eternally at his little brotherās action, quickly snatching the piece of literature out of the otherās hands and throwing it effortlessly to the ground.Ā
Uninterested lime green eyes locked with a determined yet fierce light golden, both of them refusing to look away or blink to show their dominance.
But after a while, the red eared slider grew more impatient, looking away again as he picked a hangnail on his thumb, āIf youāre going to yell at me,Ā can you just get it over with?Ā I saw a reddit post predicting whatās going to happen in The Umbrella Academy season four and IĀ needĀ to read it.āĀ
āYou can read thatĀ later,Ā Nardo. I promise you, that reddit post isnāt going toĀ fly away.ā The elder said as he pinched the bridge of his snout, āWhat IĀ needĀ you to do right now is acknowledge what you did today wasĀ stupid,ļæ½ļæ½alright?āĀ
Leo looked away from his older brother, scoffing lightly, āI do stupid things all the time.Ā What stupid action of mine are you wanting to scream at me forĀ thisĀ time?āĀ
The softshell turtle took a couple deep breaths at that comment, drumming his fingers on his left arm in a soothing motion because he wasĀ NOTĀ going to give into the urge of strangling his twin brotherā¦
ā¦No matter how much he deserved it.
āIām not planning on screaming at youā that wonāt helpĀ anyoneĀ orĀ anything.ā The purple banded turtle explained calmlyā¦but you could see andĀ tellĀ he was starting to lose his paitence.Ā
āBut you want to.ā The red eared slider pressed on.Ā
āLeoā¦please.Ā IĀ donātĀ want to argue right now.āĀ
āWeāre not arguing.Ā Weāre justĀ kindlyĀ discussing myĀ oh-soĀ stupidĀ descisionĀ that unfolded earlier today, right?ā The younger twin smirked smugly, his eyes locking once again with his brother.Ā
When it came to arguments, the leader in blueĀ alwaysĀ had thisĀ wonderfulĀ tactic to avoiding things:Ā attempting to annoy the other personĀ so muchĀ that they drop the subject they wanted to discuss with himĀ completely.
It always worked withĀ Raphā¦which the red eared slider didnāt know whether that was aĀ goodĀ thingĀ or aĀ badĀ thing.
But the only downside ofĀ doingĀ this tactic was his dumb twin sawĀ rightĀ through itā¦
ā¦And LeonardoĀ despisedĀ it.Ā
āNardoā¦youĀ knowĀ what Iām referring to.Ā And stop picking,Ā please.Ā Your going to hurt yourself.ā The older attempted to say in a tranquil voice, but it personally just sounded like he wasĀ one secondĀ away fromĀ losing. his.Ā shell.
āI sadlyĀ do not knowĀ what your referring to.ā The blue cladded teen said coyly, picking on his hangnail more desperately now, āCare to enlighten me, Tello?āĀ
Donnieās expression hardened ever so slightly at his younger brotherās absoluteĀ persistenceĀ on annoying him out of hisĀ right mindĀ so he could eventually drop the subjectā¦but the softshell turtle wasĀ notĀ budging.
His twin would have to tryĀ way harderĀ thanĀ that.
āIādĀ loveĀ to.ā The light golden eyed mutant said in a fake sweet tone as he walked over to lean his shell on Leoās closed door, crossing his arms in disaproval. The elder grabbed his brotherās sword, planting it right next to his foot so the blue banded turtle couldnāt reach for it.Ā
The red eared sliderās cocky grin turned to a small grimaceĀ (shake)Ā as he soon came to terms with what his older brother was doingā¦
ā¦He physically could not leave from this conversationā¦literally.
Leonardo crossed his arms, trying to mimick the otherās serious demeanor but was only met with an icy glare in return.Ā
āWhat you did during todayās mission was completleyĀ recklessĀ andĀ idiotic,Ā Leonardoā¦and you know it.ā The second oldest said, āI had that thugĀ exactlyĀ where I wanted him butĀ noooooo.Ā Because you saw meĀ tripĀ you thought it would be aĀ spectacularĀ ideaĀ to throw yourselfĀ on topĀ of me as that hooligan tried to hit me with hisĀ bat!!ā Donatello seethed.Ā
āWeāve been over thisĀ multipleĀ times,Ā Leo! There wasĀ noĀ reasonĀ for you to do that!ā The light golden eyed teen yelled, his glare only hardening more as he saw the younger stuttering over his words to try to defend himself.
āIām not done.ā The taller teen growled, all of his calmness and collectiveness thrown completley out of the window.
The slider slightly flinched (which went un-noticed by the other) at his brotherās genuine angry tone, his left leg fidgeting and bouncing up and down like crazy.Ā
His tactic wasĀ reallyĀ starting to not work in his favour at allā¦
āJustā¦stop putting yourself in the middle of danger like youāre just expecting the rest of us to justĀ watch.Ā Weāre your familyā¦and mostĀ importantly,Ā we can defend ourselves justĀ fine.āĀ
āWell ihisnātĀ thatĀ hypocritic!ā Leonardo scoffed before creasing his eye ridges together in genuine confusion, mumbling to himself, āHypā¦uhā¦hypocrotic?Ā Hypā¦Hypocraticā¦?āĀ
āHypocritical?ā The older deadpanned.
āYES!Ā THATĀ WORD!ā Leo said, āWhen we were fighting Kraang Prime on the ship and he went to take a blow at Mikeyā¦what did you do?ā
Donatello scowled, his eyes not leaving his twin, āā¦I went in front of him and shielded him with my mystic tech.ā
āExactly.ā The lime green eyed mutant scoffed, āAnd how is that any different from whatĀ IĀ did, hm?ā
āBECAUSEĀ IĀ HAD A PLAN!!!ā Donatello shouted, āIĀ plannedĀ to accordingly go in front of Mikey so my sheild could protect bothĀ him andĀ me.Ā Did it end up turning out perfect?Ā Fuck no.Ā Kraang Prime slashedĀ right through itĀ and me and Mikey wentĀ tumblingĀ towards the groundā¦ā The glasses wielding teen said through clenched teeth.Ā
The light golden eyed teen rubbed his face tiredly, his hands clenching and unclenching in frustration, āBut I had aĀ plan.Ā YouĀ on the other hand, just zoomedĀ recklesslyĀ on top of me and hoped for the best.ā
āā¦IĀ saved you,Ā didnāt Iā¦?ā The younger twin mumbled out meekly, causing Donatelloās blood to absolutleyĀ boil.Ā
āThatāsĀ notĀ theĀ point!!!ā The elder said as he clenched his hands at his sides again.
āThen whatĀ is?!ā Leo said desperately, āBecause from the looks of it, it just seems like you want toĀ yell at meĀ for just doing myĀ job.āĀ
Leonardo pulled on his mask tails anxiously, trying to calm himself down but ultimately just making himself feel worse by doing the action, āIāve beenĀ tryingĀ to be a better leaderāā
āLeoāā
āāForĀ youĀ andĀ MikeyĀ andĀ AprilĀ andĀ RaphĀ andĀ CaseyĀ andĀ C.J.Ā a-andĀ Dad!Ā But it seems like no matterĀ what the hell IĀ doĀ thereās alwaysĀ somethingĀ Iām doingĀ WRONG!!!ā The younger twin shouted, blinking back tears as he glared at the ground as if it took his Jupiter Jim comic.
Whichā¦itĀ did.Ā The blue banded mutant wanted it back now, actuallyā¦
āI saved you! I-I didnāt even getĀ hurtĀ by doing it butĀ somehowĀ thereās an issueā¦ā The lime green eyed teen murmured, both of his legs bouncing up and down as he tugged on his mask tails harder, āThere alwaysĀ isā¦ā
āLeonardo can youĀ pleaseĀ justĀ listenĀ to me?ā The older twin said in irritation.Ā
āBut Don Iāmāā
āNo, Leo!Ā JustĀ listen!Ā ThatāsĀ allĀ you need to do!ā Donnie snapped as he cut his brother off, āI donāt want you leapingĀ head firstĀ into harms way!Ā At all!Ā EspeciallyĀ if you donāt have a plan!ā The softshell turtle exclaimed as he flapped his hands against the side of his thighs, but his eye contanct remaining on his little brother.
āOho soĀ nowĀ you donāt trust me well enough to know that I can handle myself in combat?ā Leo said in a last desperate attempt to make his brother drop the conversation.
āIā¦ā The young scientistās eye twitched, his eyebrows creasing together as he had to physically restrain himself to not beat the ever livingĀ crapĀ out of the other teen, āTHIS ISĀ NOTĀ ABOUTĀ TRUST, NARDO!ā The light golden eyed mutant screamed desperately, his hands flapping faster as the red eared slider shrunk at his usage of tone, āThis is aboutĀ youĀ not evenĀ thinkingĀ about what would happen to yourself when you doĀ reckless nonsenseĀ like this.ā
Leo glanced to the side, his eyes watering as he bit the inside of his cheek.
He just wanted toĀ helpĀ and be the leader his brotherāsĀ deservedā¦
But he always found a way toĀ fuck it upĀ without even noticing, huh?
"You don'tĀ thinkĀ about what could happen to you andĀ IĀ hateĀ it!ā The elder cried, āWhat wouldāve happened if Raph didnāt come behind the guy and knocked him out cold at the last second, huh?! Would you have just stayed right on me as he continued to beat you with his bat?!ā
Leonardo bit the inside of his cheek harder, his legs bouncing up and down more as his fingernails dug unforgivingly into his arms, āI-Iām sorry, Donnieāā
āOr would you have tried toĀ fight himĀ instead?! Mind you, you dropped your sword before coming to me so youād haveĀ no weaponĀ to defend yourself.āĀ
āYou don't thinkĀ about how much itĀ scaresĀ me when you do dumb shit like that! IĀ hateĀ seeing you get hurtā¦I freakingĀ loatheĀ it.ā Donnie rested the back of his head on Leoās door, taking a couple deep breaths and hugging himself in an attempt to calm himself down.
Jeezā¦when the hell had he startedĀ yelling?Ā His throat stung like aĀ bitchĀ nowā¦
AndĀ whenĀ had he started shaking like a bobby head?!
The older twinās expression softened, pinching the bridge of his snout once more, āI care about youā¦soĀ fuckingĀ much,Ā okayā¦?ā The purple banded turtle said gently as he gradually started to simmer down and become more calm, āYour myĀ twinā¦myĀ little brother.Ā And IĀ hateĀ to be repetitive but I-I justĀ despiseĀ seeing you hurtā¦physically or emotionallyā¦soĀ pleaseĀ justā¦ā
The young scientistās eyes widened, peering down at his brother who did not seem to be followingā¦at all.Ā
Leoās eyes were wide as saucers as he hit his arm with his fist repeatedly whilst obviously trying to suck in whatever tearsĀ daredĀ to try and escape.Ā
The taller turtle basically ran to his distressed twin, trying to stop him from harming himself any further but was only met with a low grunt.
Shit.
Shit. Shit.Ā Fucking shit.Ā
Wonderful job, Donatello! You yelled at your brother so much he shut down!
Even though you knew he canātĀ fucking standĀ being yelled at and theĀ whole pointĀ of you evenĀ being hereĀ was to explain what he did wrongĀ collectively and calmlyĀ because that was the exactĀ oppositeof what Raph does when heās worriedā¦
But no!Ā You yelled at him anyway.
Wonderful job, Donatelloā¦wonderful. job.Ā
The older twin sighed sadly, gently grabbing his brotherās wrists so he would stop hitting himself. The two brotherās shared eye contact once again, an unsure lime green meeting an understanding yet uncertain light golden.
āNardoā¦ā The softshell started, squeezing the otherās hands gently, āā¦Are you with me, budā¦?ā
Leo just nodded quietly, squeezing back.Ā
āGodā¦Nardo IāmĀ soĀ sorryā¦ā The older muttered, āI donātā¦I donāt knowĀ why theĀ hellĀ I lost my cool like that. I-Iām sorry I yelled. IĀ shouldnātĀ of yelledā¦I-I justā¦ā Donatello sighed, squeezing his brotherās hands once again. āIām not angry with you. Iā¦I was just frustrated.ā
āWell, noā¦let me rephrase:Ā I amĀ angry with youāĀ livid even.Ā You know damn well enough that when you do those kinds of things my heart literallyĀ jumpsĀ out of my shell. I need you to put into consideration that I would like to live to atĀ leastĀ seventy-sevenā¦ā
The younger twin giggled wetly, fidgeting with his brotherās fingers as he spoke, āā¦Why seventy-seven?ā
āAlbert Einstein died when he was seventy-sixā¦I can andĀ willĀ outlive him.ā The light golden eyed teen said matter-of-factly, āBut back to what I was initially sayingā¦I know you meant well.Ā You saw that I was in troubleā¦and you dropped literallyĀ everythingĀ in order to help me get out of said trouble. You donāt think of what happens to youā¦you just do it because youāll know if you do weāll be alrightā¦ā
āI-I justā¦I just wanted to protect youā¦I-I just wanted to helpā¦ā Leo tried to explain.
āI know. I know, Leeā¦ā Donatello sighed, rubbing the sliderās knuckles gently with his thumb, āBut you need to understand that with you trying to protect us that way, your putting us in the same situation your trying to keep usĀ awayĀ from.ā The elder explained lightly, smiling softly as him and his twinās foreheadās touched.Ā
āYouāre getting hurtā or at the very leastĀ almostĀ getting hurt. Weāre feeling the same anguish and guilt you would feel if any of us did that. I get that you want to be a good leader and shitā¦but you can lead wellĀ withoutĀ doing thatā¦okay?āĀ
Leo fiddled with the otherās fingers a bit more, his bouncing leg starting to calm a bit, āIāllā¦try to be more careful when it comes to me protecting you guys like that. When I see you all in troubleā¦I justā¦react.Ā I donāt really care about what happens to me as long as you guys end up okay. Butā¦Iāll try to be more careful. And if I ever end up, like, being a bitĀ tooĀ recklessā¦you can just tell meā¦deal?ā
āDeal.ā Donnie nodded, squeezing Leoās hands one last time before letting go, wiping his twinās eyes with his hoodie sleeve, āNowĀ pleaseĀ stop crying or youāre going to makeĀ meĀ start crying.āĀ
Leo snorted, examining the otherās now tearing up expression, āI think itās a bit too late for thatā¦āĀ
āGAH!Ā FUHUCK!ā Donnie cursed, wiping his own eyes as the slider laughed loudly at his exclamation.
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āLeoā¦donāt you think youāre getting a bit tooĀ bigĀ for thisā¦?ā Donatello grumbled as Leonardo was on his lap, getting all nice and comfy as he rested his chin on the olderās shoulder. āNoooope.ā Leo drawed out, making a dramatic popping noise at the end of the 'p', ā'Sides, this is what you get for making me emo earlier.ā
āā¦IĀ saidĀ I wasĀ sorryā¦I didnāt mean to shout at you like that. I was just concernedā¦āĀ
āIĀ knowĀ that, you worrywart. I was just kidding.ā The lime green eyed teen said lovingly, squishing his brother into a tighter embrace. The older let out a short shriek at the hug but of course didnāt mind the other being so clingy.Ā
If the young scientist really and trulyĀ didĀ mind? Leo wouldāve been pushed to the floor by now.Ā
The two twins shared a comfortable silenceā¦wellā¦aĀ semi-comfortableĀ silence.
The purple banded teen feltā¦off.Ā His younger brother had thisā¦lookĀ in his eyes; like he wanted to say something but was afraid of what Donnie would say or how Donnie would react.
Which was so damn dumb Donatello didnāt even know how to explain it.
āā¦Thereās something else on your mind.ā The taller turtle hummed, his suspicions only rising as the other glanced to the side. āUhmā¦no there isnāt.Ā See?Ā This isĀ whyĀ I call you a worrywart.ā Leonardo said, tapping his fingers on his thigh nervously.Ā
Very convincing Leoā¦veryĀ convincing.
āDonāt evenĀ tryĀ lying to me, Leon. My older brotherĀ andĀ twin senses are tingling. You canāt argue against that kind of logic.ā The scientist said matter-of-factly.Ā
āWhat are you,Ā Spiderman?ā The younger snorted.Ā
āWe shall never know.ā The older shrugged, a small smile spreading to his face as he saw the other snort softly at his statement, āNow stop deflecting.Ā Spill.āĀ
āā¦Can youā¦adjust my elbow bracesā¦?ā The red eared slider muttered.
āā¦Why canātĀ youĀ do it?ā The other questioned. Not in a malicious way; he was just genuinely curious.Ā
āI like it when you do it. You make it more firm, y'know?ā The blue banded turtle whined dramatically, āPleeeeeease?ā
āUgh, JesusāĀ fine.Ā But drop the poutā¦you look ridiculous.ā The taller mutant sighed, lightly grabbing his brotherās arm as he readjusted the braces.Ā
The purple banded turtle meticulously took off the otherās left arm brace, tracing his twinās elbow to make sure it was healing correctlyā which the slider couldnāt help but wriggle slightly to.
As the older twin put the brace back on, he looked at the other turtle in complete worry, āā¦Why are you squirming around so much?ā Donatello asked in confusion.Ā
āā¦No reason.ā Leonardo stated, but let out a tiny squeak as Donnie lightly pinched his forearm.Ā
āYohou okayā¦?ā The glasses wielding mutant giggled.Ā Ā
āI-Iām fihine!ā The smaller turtle insisted, covering his mouth as he let out a loud shriek in result to his brother now lightly scribbling his forearm. āEEEEE!Ā P-Plehease moohoove yohour hahahand!!ā The younger sputtered out, hiding his face in the crook of the scientistās neck which the older turtle couldnāt help but let his heart melt to.
āOh.ā Donatello hummed, biting back an amused laugh, āSorry. Sometimes I forget how ticklish you areā¦ā
āSnrtĀ I-IhihiāmĀ nahatĀ ticklish. I juhust donāt wahant your hand thehereā¦āĀ
And isnāt thatĀ quaint.Ā
If Donnie had a penny for every time Leo said heĀ 'wasnāt ticklish',Ā the softshell would be richer thanĀ Elon Musk.
āā¦Right.Ā Soā¦you wouldnāt mind me doingĀ thisĀ then?ā The young genius mused as he scribbled one hand over his twinās ribs. āEEEEHEH!Ā Duhuhude noHOH!!Ā F-Fuhuck yohou!ā The younger twin managed through his small giggles, pushing on his brotherās plastron to try and escape while he still could.
The elder laughed fondly at his little brotherās futile actions, hugging him closer as he lightly tickled him, āNahardo! My brohohother in Christ gehetĀ back hereĀ or youāre gohoing to fahall off of the bed!
āN-NOHO!! LEHET ME GO!ā The lime green eyed teen screeched loudly, kicking his legs and pushing even harder on the otherās plastron, his eyeās widening in panic as his older brother casually lifted him up and pinned his arms above his head, his plastron now facing up on the bed.
Eugh boyā¦
Donnie grinned, sitting on the otherās thighs as he wiggled his unoccupied fingers in the air near the sliderās side, āThatās better~!ā
āWAHAIT WAHAHAITĀ snrtĀ PLEHEASE DEEHEE!!ā The red eared slider cried, kicking his legs from underneath the scientist.
If he was going to go downā¦he would atĀ leastĀ go down fighting.Ā
āI havenāt evenĀ touchedĀ you yet, you goofā¦ā The older twin chuckled.Ā
āB-BUHUT YOHOUR GOHOHONNA!āĀ
ā'Gonna'Ā what,Ā exactly?ā
āTihiHICKLE ME!!āĀ
āTickle you?Ā Well, why didnāt you justĀ sayĀ soĀ in the first place?ā Donatello snickered, using his free hand to skitter his fingers along the crookās of the youngerās neck.Ā
The blue banded turtle squealed, shaking his head back in forth whilst scrunching his shoulders, āGAHahaāĀ snrtĀ EEEEHEEHEHĀ oho cohomeĀ snrtĀ OHAHAN!!āĀ
āWhatās wrong, Leo? I thought you said youĀ werenāt ticklish~?ā The older teased.
āSnrtĀ STHDHAHAH! ShuhutĀ UP!Ā IHIāM naHAT!ā The younger shouted, tugging and pulling his arms to try and get his handās free from the otherās grasp. Donnie just laughed softly at the action, wiggling his fingers above his little brotherās stomach.Ā
The lime green eyed teenās eyes widened in panic, thrashing in the hold to try and loosen his brotherās grip but the purple banded turtle did not budge even aĀ smidge.Ā
Leoās laughs became more giddy and loud as he continued to squirm, small squeals and snorts escaping his beak as his twin brotherās hand wentĀ sloooooowlyĀ to his stomach.Ā
āN-NOHO NONONONO DAHAāĀ snrtĀ DOHON!!ā The smaller turtle snorted, hiding his face in the side of his arm which Donnie couldnāt help but giggle to.Ā
The light golden eyed mutant rested his hand on the sliderās plastron, making the younger turtleās laugh raise almost a thousand octaves.Ā
āDOHONāTĀ snrtĀ DOHONāT DOHOHONāTĀ snrtĀ YOU DARE!! YOHOUR SOHOĀ MEEHEEHEEAN!!ā Leonardo whined, hiding deeper into his arm and becoming a giggly flustered mess.
The older twin shook his head fondly at his little brotherās embarrassed state, taking the opportunity to tickle the youngerās stomach while he wasnāt looking.Ā
Leo let out a loud scream, descending into high-pitched cackles as evenĀ louderĀ snorts followed, āHAHAHAHELP!! IHIāMĀ SNRTĀ BEEHEEING SLAHAHAUTERED!!āĀ
āIām quite literally only usingĀ one hand,Ā Nardo. Stop being dramatic.ā The light golden eyed teen mused whilst watching his brother snort and squirm, āAnd here I thoughtĀ IĀ was the dancer of the family. Look at you! Youāre making up a wholeĀ dance routineĀ right now!ā He said as he let go of Leo, crossing his arms in amusement.Ā
āS-ShuhuhutĀ snrtĀ upā¦ā The younger twin wheezed out, hugging his middles as he playfully glared at his purple loving brother.Ā
Then, a lightbulb went on in the scientistās brain, a smug smile spreading to his face, āHmā¦you know, Leeāā
āDohont callĀ snrtĀ me thahat!ā Leo giggly interupted.Ā
āUh-huh.Ā Well, Leeā¦did you know that the underarms are one of theĀ warmestĀ places on the human body?ā The scientist said.Ā
The lime green eyed mutant cocked his head to the side in confusion, āSoho?āĀ
āSooooĀ my hands are cold.Ā VeryĀ cold, in fact. Iād be forever in your debt if you couldāā
āNO! NONOHO WAHAY INĀ HEHELL!Ā G-GOHOĀ AWAHAHAY!ā Leo squealed, reaching for his brotherās wrists as the elder tried to tickle his neck once again.
Sighā¦Leonardo made this too damnĀ easyĀ sometimes.
The glasses wielding teen wasnāt just going to miss thisĀ oh-so-definetly-not-plannedĀ opportunity! The softshell scribbled his fingers along the sliderās underarms, making the younger let out a loud squawk as he shot his arms down.Ā
āNAHAH AHAHAHAāĀ snrtĀ GEHET THEHE HEHELL OHAHAāĀ snrtĀ OHOHOUT!!ā Leonardo cried while banging his heels on the bed.Ā
āWhat~?ā Donnie hummed inocently.Ā
āGEHEHET AHAāĀ snrtĀ GEHET. OHOUT. OHOF THEHEHERE!ā
āAweā¦why~?ā
āBEEHEECAUSE IHITāS SOHO BAHAHAD!!!āĀ
āAnd?ā Donnie chuckled, āThat sounds like aĀ youĀ problem, little brother.āĀ
āAHHHAHAāĀ snrtĀ GAHAHADĀ FUHUCK YOHOU!!!ā
āPardonā¦what was that?ā Donnie questioned as he pinched where Leoās hip met his thigh. āN-NONOāĀ snrt NAHAHAH!!Ā I CANāTāĀ snrtĀ PLEHEHEASE IāMĀ snrtĀ SORRY!! I-IHI TAHAHAKE IHIT BAHAHCK!!āĀ
āNahā¦I think Iāll just stayĀ riiiiightĀ here for a bitā¦ā The taller turtle smiled, using both of his hands now to tickle Leo into a laughing and snorting blob.
The younger weakly hit his big brotherās arms, throwing his head back as he squeezed his eyes completely shut.Ā
āā¦And you know what, Lee~?āĀ
āWHAHAHATĀ NOW?!āĀ
āIām feelingā¦kind ofĀ famished.ā The elder mused, his smile almost looking like the signature Jokerās as he saw his younger brotherās face pale.Ā
Leonardo scrambled to sit up, fighting with his brotherās arms as he giggly protested, āPLAHAāĀ snrt PLAHAHEASE!Ā PLEHEASEĀ snrtĀ D-DOHONāT!!āĀ
Donnie pinched his brotherās thighs unforgivingly, āYou should have thought about that before yapping suchĀ illĀ nonsenseĀ about yourself.ā
āWHAHAāĀ snrtĀ WHAHAHAāĀ snrtĀ WHAHAT DIHIDĀ snrtĀ IHIHIĀ snrtĀ EVEN SAHAHAY?!ā The lime green eyed turtle cackled, flapping his hands on the mattress.Ā
It took literallyĀ everythingĀ in the older twin not to coo his baby brotherās adorable actions; instead, he lightly moved Leoās hands away, smiling evily as he lowered his head to the otherās plastron, āYou donāt even know. Guess youĀ reallyĀ want this, huh~?āĀ
The blue banded teen kicked his knees into his brotherās shoulders and shell, throwing his head back in complete hysterics whilst waiting for him complete and utter demise.Ā
The softshell wasted no time blowingĀ raspberriesĀ afterĀ raspberriesĀ in the middle of his youngerās stomach, making sure to move the otherās hands away any time he tried to push at the young geniusā head.Ā
Donnie didnāt feel like getting brain damage after all.
Plus, he had his signature glasses į“
į“É“į“į“į“ŹŹį“ į“į“ on! And those wereĀ trademarkedā¦as you canĀ wonderfullyĀ see.Ā
āGodā¦can youĀ getĀ more ticklish?ā Donatello giggled, squeezing and squishing the red eared sliderās knees with one hand and scribbling his sides with the other whilst contuinung to raspberry Leoās stomach.Ā
āDEEHEE DEEHEEHEEĀ SNRTĀ PLEHEHEASE!!!Ā IHIĀ SNRTĀ DAHAHAHāĀ SNRTĀ DAHAāĀ SNRTĀ DAHUNNO!!ā The smaller turtle screamed, happy stimming with his arms on the taller twinās shoulder.
Donnie couldnāt help but chuckle, deciding to show his twin aĀ tad bitĀ of mercy as he nibbled his stomach lightly.Ā
The slider let out bloody murder from his beak, happy tears threatening to fall from his eyes as his bubbly cackles and snorts bounced off the walls of his room.
āJeezā¦I think Peppa Pig has some competition, huh~?ā The light golden eyed mutant snickered.
āPLEHEHEASE!!Ā TEHEHELLOĀ SNRTĀ IHIāM GOHāĀ SNRTĀ GOHOHAā AHAHAĀ SNRTĀ MYHYHYĀ SNRTGAHAHAHAD!!!ā The smaller teen pleaded.
āDo you promise to stop putting yourself in between danger and your family?ā The older hummed.Ā
āYEHEHES!!ā The younger cried loudly.
āDo you promise to go easier on yourself?āĀ
āYAHAāĀ SNRTĀ YAHAāĀ SNRTĀ YEHEHES!!!ā
āDo you promise to accept your doing an amazing job as leader and we all love youāā
āMYĀ SNRTĀ FUHUHUCKINGĀ SNRTĀ GAHAHAD!!!Ā IHIHIĀ SNRTĀ GEHET IT!!ā Leonardo shouted, his blush now completley blending into the red stripes on his face.Ā
The softshell turtle got off of the other, sitting next to his little brother as his little brother in question hugged his middles and giggled tiredly.Ā
āY-Yohou could ohof juhuhust sahaid ahall of thahatĀ wihihithoutĀ tickling meeheeeā¦ā The younger grumbled despite the evident smile on his face.
āAnd whereās the fun in that?ā Donnie smiled back, his expression softening as Leo got up and leaned against him softly. The older wraped an arm around the youngerās shoulder, pulling him closer into a warm, protective gesture.Ā
āAhand would yohohou look ahat that! Ihi got yohour emo bahad boy ahahass toĀ smileĀ todahay. Your eheeven hugging me~!ā The blue banded leader spoke softly, his voice filled with affection as he poked his twinās forehead cheekily.Ā
āYou tellĀ anyoneĀ that and I willĀ not hesitateĀ to deny that extremely untrue statement.ā The scientist huffed, rolling his eyes fondly as his smile spread.
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#Rottmnt tickle#Rottmnt tickle fic#Lee!Leo#Ler!Donnie#WHOOOOOO BOYYYYYYā¦#Iām sorry but Iām not sorry š«¶š¾#Angst is like my second child š¶š¾ššššš#But I feel like I need to explain some stuff bc this fandom is probably holding me at gunpoint rn š
š«#The reason why I feel like Leo and Raph had so many disagreements when Leon became leader is bc Leo canāt handle yelling#LIKE AT ALLā he just sees it as whomever is yelling means their mad#So if Raphie boy was like: āI CARE ABOUT YOU AND LOVE YOU SO FUCKING MUCH YOU DUMB ASS BITCH WHY CANāT YOU JUST BE CAREFULāļøā#Leo would hear it as: āI HATE YOU SO MUCH RN WHY CANāT YOU DO ANYTHING RIGHTāļøā#This fandom has been sleeping on AuDHD Leo for Y E A R S and I shall not be silent anymore its SOOOOOOO OBVIOUS šā¼ļø#I could not remember the word āhypocriticalā for the LIFE of meā¦when I searched it up I probs wrote āhippopotamusā#Leon is trying PLEAAAASE catch him a break šš¾šš¾šš¾#Older twin Donnie is canon idgaf I was in the writers room TRUST šš¾šššš#Big bro senses š¤š¾ Twin senses#Donnie is fucking UNSTOPPABLE š¤š¾ā¦bud does need to learn how to control is volume when upset tho eheheheh#He genuinely doesnāt know when heās gradually getting louder or more upsetā¦thatās why he was so panicked when Leo had his lil meltdown LOL#Raphie just expresses his worry with yellingā¦ex: āAND NOT EAT POSIONā¼ļøā¼ļøā¼ļøā#Oh yeah this takes place a couple months after the Invasionā¦so everyone is like healed and everything but yk theyāre still traumatized obvs#ššš¾#Leoās lil tactic on dropping convoās is a HC I have so donāt quote me on it šš¾#GDGDGSHSN I ALSO NEED PPL TO DRAW DON WEARING HIS GLASSES MORE OFTEN HEāS SUCH A CUTIE PATOOTIE šššššššš©·#But tysm Nonnie!!! This was a TON of fun to write!#Make sure your taking care of yourself and drinking waterā or at least get a snack š„°#But after the mission Raph was SEETHINGā¦and usually Don tries to talk to Leon instead cuz like he doesnāt want either party being upset#Nor does he want either of them to feel overwhelmed. So when Leo was like āUr doing this to me again?!ā Hes referring to all the times Don#<- has done that#Leo doesnāt like feeling pitied but itās not Donās intention to make him feel that way he just loves him family
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the internet was cut off and i ran out of data so i asked my brother if i can connect to his hotspot and downloaded dol on my phone,,,,,,,,,
#were in the process of moving !!!!!!!!!! new apartment has wifi !!!!!!!!! but more importantly were not homeless !!!!!!!!!!!!!šš#my time completely cut off from everyone was very much like the pic LMAOAOA#dol was the only offline game i could think of that wasnt some dumbass puzzle game or something#i even play this shit in public cause i literally have nothing to do without internet except maybe look at my gallery for the 400th time#i turn off the combat animations tho so its just all text when im outside šlike im brave but not THAT brave#but anyway its safe to say that im getting back into it again š§āāļø#last time i played dol was before the pregnancy update and like knowing u can get pregnant now is scary#like what if im not prepared to take care of a fictional child#will i be a good mother?????????? i dont want to traumatize the kid and subject them to the horrors of the town like????????#im still like kind of early in + i still have yet to explore the other stuff i never did during my last playthrough so im pretty excited#also somehow course of temptation was still running in the browser i have opened on my chrome so yk..............#played a bit of that as well.........................#its so funny how every npc has names its insane and i love the phone thingy too#ok thats all i think#frambling...?
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hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing š¦š¦š¦ riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x
#seriously another shout out to my mutuals#id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being#and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting#bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!'#hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over#and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic#sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves š#okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals#like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful#so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up#than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess#they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds#so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW#okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE#SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES#if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends'#then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context#but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic#and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF#okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this#ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day
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things to keep in mind before reading my blog:
1.) self-improvement is not a "one size fits all" experience. my strengths, barriers, methods, and goals are going to be very different from everyone else's, and the methods, routines, and lists i post might not always apply to your life and might not be relevant to your experience at all. i am in no way claiming that my way is the only way; self-improvement is a very personal journey and it is through self-discovery that we learn what works best for us, which i encourage everyone to seek on this beautiful journey! ā¤ļø
2.) on this same note, this blog is a personal blog which means that i am posting my own unique-to-me self-improvement experience and not necessarily posting with anyone else in mind. please use discernment and only take what inspires you, leaving behind what doesn't. i ask that you do not attack me for posting what i am currently working on in my own journey, unless i am being harmful and need criticism. i am trying to not worry about what other people think of me and focus on my own self-improvement and i encourage you to do the same; keep your body and mind healthy and safe first and foremost, always!
3.) i am very aware of how detrimental the toxic positivity and productivity culture are, especially in north america where i am from, and i try to walk a fine line between discipline and play. my current journey is primarily focused on building up tolerance to discipline and hard work. if you are at a point in your journey where rest and recovery from over-working are integral to your growth, my posts might not be applicable to you and that is totally okay! i respect and support your journey, and please know that my need to focus on hard work at this moment is not in any way an attack on where you are at in yours.
4.) it is very important to me that the health and beauty related information i share is scientifically accurate and is not cultural appropriation. if i post something that is incorrect, insensitive, or harmful, please let me know and i will make sure to edit or take down the post and learn from my mistakes! accountability is important to me and i am always open to learning more.
5.) i do not follow people under the age of 18. it is nothing personal against you if you are a minor, it's just that it is important for me to follow people who are at a similar place in life as me and to make sure that the friends i make are within my appropriate age range. however, all people are welcome on my blog and it will ALWAYS be sfw! when i was a minor on tumblr, it was very important for me to follow adults that i looked up to and who were safe and treated me with respect so that i could grow and learn; you are welcome here, and i will always try to treat you and everyone i interact with with the utmost care and respect!
with love, bunny ā¤ļø
#this was brought to you by: someone saying that me wanting to wash my hair everyday was āhair propagandaā girl no its just greasy af šš#but i do understand their anger. so many people try to claim their way is the only way and that there is only one way to be beautiful or#productive. their anger was valid considering how toxic the self-improvement media and culture can be#i just wanted to make sure everyone knows that i'm coming from my own experience and that i in no way claim to know whats best. i only know#what is best for me and want to encourage others to find what works best for them <3#love you all so much!
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find a blorbo (nhl tag game)
RULES: Go through the roster of each NHL team and find at least one player that you can root for.
tagged by @bondedpairs!! when i say too many teams to count and here for the narrative um. i may not have lied. this is not an extensive list of my blorbos but in order to make it not ten thousand years long i made up the rule that i had to do it straight from memory :)
anaheim ducks: as evidenced by recent events i DO like mason mctavish and trevor zegras but i have to honor laura and mention troy terry and beloved goalie gibbie*
boston bruins: oh for sure brad marchandā¦ can i say patrice? one of the charlies got traded but i think mcavoy is still there because gryz is gone, brandon carlo is there still i think
buffalo sabres: cozens & thompson, owen power, rasmus dahlin, ukko pekka luukkonen
calgary flames: is chris tanev still here? is markstrom still here?? noah hanifin?? as a last resort iāll say blasty
carolina hurricanes: aho & jarvy & teuvo teravainen & brent burns is still playing maybe? i know sepe got traded
chicago hockey: the bedsy narrative is compelling but ANDREAS ATHANASIOU MY BELOVED reunited with tyler bertuzziā¦ thatās the real story. also i like foligno
colorado avalanche: gabe landeskog, whatever ross colton & miles wood have going on, natemac + jo, mikko
columbus blue jackets: have long been on the merzlikins train, have been swayed to the darkside of umich boys (brindley, kent johnson, fantilli, blankenburg who is now on nsh)
dallas stars: seggy! mush! roope + miro and otter and robo and wyjo (rip ty dellandrea) and harls! etc.
detroit red wings: MOST players. dilly larks, moritz seider, jv, raymond, rasmussen, kitty, lyon, etc except for k*ne
edmonton oilers: mcdrai, ofc. nugent-hopkins, nursey, rip vinny & skinny
florida panthers: tkachuk, reinhardt, sasha barkov, verhaeghe (is there still?)
los angeles kings: adrian kempeā¦ kevin fialaā¦ danaultā¦ quinton byfield & alex turcotte
minnesota wild: kirill, marat, fleury, brodes, fabes, boldy, moose, middsy, spurgeā¦ godās perfect idiots
montreal canadiens: going out on a limb here to say martin st. louis but also xhekaj (both), slafkovskĆ½, suzuki, my austrian reinbacher, yes fine cole caufield
nashville predators: MOST BEAUTIFUL D PAIR IN THE WORLD GRADY SKJEI AND ROMAN JOSI!! juuse, evangelista, isnāt stamkos there and also someone else who absolutely should not be
new jersey devils: nicoā¦ tuna (tatar), dawson mercer, siegenthaler, dougie hamilton, yes the hugheses whatever
new york islanders: barzy, zeeker & marty, anders lee, noah dobson lol
new york rangers: mika & chris, lafreniĆØre & kāandre, shesterkin
philadelphia flyers: frosty & beezer and tk and sanny and the new baby michkov and coots and scooty loots and foerster etc etc. you know the Guys
pittsburgh penguins: the two headed monster but also compelled by rutger mcgroarty, and kevin hayes was there!!!
ottawa senators: timmy stĆ¼ & brady! josh norris! the evolution of shane pinto! ullmark now and brƤnnstrƶm and claude giroux and chabot
san jose sharks: ekky, thrun, mario, borde, logan couture, shakir, that other vaguely blond rookie
seattle kraken: brandon tanev, andre burakovsky! grubauer & dāaccord also
st. louis blues: jordan kyrou, nathan walker (is still there?), rob thomas? is parayako still there?
tampa bay lightning: hedman, point, they dumped so many guys after the cup runā¦ is kucherov still there or is he in nashville?? anthony cirelli (notable for being made out with by pat maroon)
toronto maple leafs: mitch, jt, willy, alex nylander, kniesy, dewar, et
utah hockey: crouse, keller, tuba
vancouver canucks: quinn, brock, petey, jt, garly, hƶggy, i want to say dakota johnson, elias lindholm?
vegas golden knights: brandon montour is here nowā¦ alex pietrangelo, so sorry to one i canāt remember who loves the lions it will come back to me
washington capitals: full of love and stupidity. oshie, nicke/ovi, pierre-luc dubois, dowd, vrƔna, milano
winnipeg jets: adam lowry!! josh morissey and kc and morgan barron, also vladdy my beloved
tagging @stillfertile + @colap1nto + @songsandswords + @moregraceful if they havenāt done it yet, i know they follow at least a couple teams. if anybody else wants to play i love adopting blorbos!!
#it is literally my DREAM to get challenged by someone about how many hockey guys i can name because i am a freak like that#and i make up arguments in my head for fun. please Try Meeeee#me when i wear all of my different crewnecks out & make up an imaginary argument where i have to list five guys from every teamā¦ ok why not#in doing this i hope i expose so many of you to narratives and also donāt show my ass because weāre at the point in the season where i go#āhe got traded WHERE???ā & i forget where everyone got moved around š«” everyone who watches a game has to deal with me regularly going WAIT#tag games#liv in the replies#this is secretly just a love letter to everyone i follow who got me invested in these narratives. i WILL adopt ur interests &speech pattern#and like. it very much does NOT even come close to reflecting the narratives i have and will be invested in#hated my own rule as soon as i made it but it prevented me from creating an even MORE elaborate set of rules which was like. would you#actually root for this guy playing hockey vs are these all narrative characters so you need to them be able to back it up with a fic#which. given that itās BLORBO i was like none of them are about to named on the basis of their hockey and also i am a giant hater#if youāre playing the red wings i want you to lose if the red wings are out i cannot guarantee who i will root for. it is up to The Spirit#this took me too longā¦ worth it#like I donāt know as if iāll ever make a proper pinned post but this is high in contention simply for the fact that i just Talk about Guys#you guys missed the part where i tried to do it in alphabetical order but completely forgot all teams that started with a p and colorado#among other teams and then i had to google ā32 nhl teamsā because i could not for the life of me figure out who i was missing. rip ottawa#which is so funny because i love so many guys on their team. like. this list is such evidence of my BLANKING on the spot under pressure.#*everyone who saw this say stolarz no you didnāt. listen i knew ONE of them had gotten traded š and literally during the pre-season det/tor#game today i heard āstolarzā and went OH FUCK NO OH NO and wheezed my way here to fix it.
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saw a post about projecting your ethnicity onto a character and started missing vespa ilkay. so so bad
#pov u grow up in a 3rd world country(/planet) where healthcare workers are exported by the thousands like cheap produce to richer countries#it's your ticket out of poverty as long as you can deal with the loneliness the separation from everyone you know the discrimination etc#ive never talked about my hc that vespas mother was one of them sending money every month visiting every couple of years until it just stop#like why return to the swamps when youre doing fine working on a richer planet w much better living conditions#cost of living rises every year. sending home a % of your salary used to be enough to support your husband and daughter and then it isnt#you know how it goes#vespa is also dead set on this path until ranga realizes that hemorrhaging healthcare workers leaves them with little to none of their own#students on scholarships or in community/state universities are bound by return service agreements and are forbidden to leave the country#until theyve rendered a few years of work on ranga to pay back their tuition + as a really shitty solution to the brain drain problem#this is real in my country btw but my professors say a lot of ppl do break their rsa's and fucked off to work in other countries LOL#our state unis can barely afford decent facilities they do nottt have the budget to chase down their own alumni in other countries!#but the mental image is a bit funny#vespa ilkays first crime: tinakasan ang rsa#i do also think it lines up with her having a network of med friends everywhere in the galaxy (heart of it all) you kind of go into pre/med#expecting most of your classmates to leave to work in other countries eventually. mine are aiming for the usa / uae / europe / japan etc#anyway whether vespa breaks her rsa or not she leaves ranga asap decides to switch careers and the rest is history#i also deeply love the fact that she's superstitious i'm very sad it wasn't highlighted more (i've only heard s1-3)#as someone who did grow up in a rural area and went to more albularyos/folk healers than doctors in my childhood. (they never failed me)#lots of folk illnesses (ex. balis; pasma) local medical superstitions (dont eat noodles in hospital; youll have a really toxic shift) etcc#theres also a lot of potential in tying her past as a rangian + med student + assassin to me idk how to word this properly#being raised on cautionary tales of not to touch/disturb anything in the swamps then being given free reign to poke & prod at things in her#lab classes (now with the proper ppe)....she was having so much fun with the curemother prime too lmao#years of walking hanging bridges docks boathouses in ranga etc gave her great balance & stealth#cracking open alien shellfish in the swamps to cutting open bodies for studying then for assassination....#I MISS HER SO MUCH BALIK KN SAKEN šššššš#i get why most people + the canon focuses on her being an assassin bc people find that cooler i guess#but vespa being a swamp girl > 3rd world med student > assassin is so personal To Me. the whole pipeline. eugh.#skl.txt
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twitter is entering their "rts > likes" phase now that likes are private after they spent years calling us ungrateful for being demotivated by ratios lmao
#man fuck yall just support artists you enjoy#dont attack people who dont rb/rt your art (hell they might even have it scheduled) but also dont constantly demand ''content'' from people#ESPECIALLY without telling them that you appreciate the effort they put in to show you cool things they made for free#you should've been rt'ing/rb'ing from the START š just show people you care!#im just waiting to scroll through post after post of ppl calling out ''entitled artists'' lmao#btw my opinion on the whole thing is painfully neutral if you couldnt tell#i dont think you should care that much about numbers and ppl take it wayyyyyy too far#throwback to that one guy who personally @ everyone who didnt reblog their art that was CRAZY. i would straight up report you KJFGHKG#i also understand and have personally experienced how much engagement can change your mood#a simple ''i love this!'' can make someone's day. it's not hard to understand why ppl like engagement#when they make post after post without so much as a little tag they dont care about sharing anymore#the fact that people call that ''entitlement'' is also crazy#i have a lot of drawings i havent posted or just left nonrebloggable bc it really doesnt make a difference lmao#the only ones i leave rebloggable are the ones that i Know will do well and get attention. like the little pig redraw#if it's cute or funny it gets positive attention. anything else is shit on here lmao#it's just not as fun to share. it either leads to no engagement or negative engagement#would rather have nothing than something rude so whatever#some ppl say it's always been like this but no it absolutely was not always like this#idk what exactly caused the change. probably a lot of factors#could even just be the fandoms i hang around in! but considering i've seen the same sentiment from a bunch of ppl i doubt it's that#the best solution to no engagement is to just make friends and have fun#but 90% of the internet is hostile and negative and rude for no fucking reason#when i unfollowed someone on my old public twitter and they @ me over it. damn i dont know why but NOW i know why š#this post has gone way off course im just ranting at this point. i havent talked in a while hi how have you guys been#work was a lot yesterday and today is too slow (im not at work im just going crazy in my house)#(and i cant leave my house bc there's construction blocking the road someone save me)#chat
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My partner finally finished BG3 but has no idea that his ending was actually bad cause he was a pro-Vlaakith githyanki who rode off with Lae'zel but got NO EPILOGUE where Withers points out y'all died im ššš
they have no idea what happened with Gale or anyone else (who was still alive) after flying away ššš
#i cant even tell him cause hes gonna play again more ānormallyā#its so tragic he would like skip dialogue and just fight to get the jump on boss battles instead of waiting for the cutscenes to start#and he didn't exhaust dialogue trees!! like... how... why...#and also he staked Astarion š and p much never reloaded#and didn't clear the shadow curse so no Halsin#also everyone at Last Light Inn died so Dammon was gone and Karlach only got 2 upgrades#and he didnt know moonrise towers was basically a second town#and his game was buggy a lot maybe? cause he kept trying to be hella creative with things and do things out of order#like killing gortash before doing steel watch š#it's fine it's fine everyone plays differently#he tends to care more about gameplay than anything else but still!!#i just want him to know all the character backstories and see everything that made me emotional#i mean he did say he was sad when Lae'zel broke up with him in act 3 and when Karlach died and when he had Gale use the orb in act 2#which he considered his canon ending :/ sigh#i dont think he got Jaheira's lines about death#and he didnt understand why Karlach wouldn't go back to the hells#and he thought Wyll was happy being the duke (and has NO idea you could save his dad cause the mission didn't happen!! š)#the iron throne was like my fave mission outside of killing Cazador and I can't discuss either one cause he didn't do them properly yet šš#he also avoided talking to children so he missed those quests and yenna glitched so no cat appeared in camp š#sighhhhh cannot believe he plays so differently than i do lollll#he didn't even do unlimited kisses with Lae'zel!! meanwhile im over here kissing Astarion every night hahahah#hoping my partner doesn't see IRL if I have the office door open as if it matters lmfaooooo#i need him to play again and see why im in love with a video game character lol#maybe we could both um... benefit from knowing more about all of Astarion's scenes lmao#but like he has NOT SEEN Astarion's silly or sweet side yet just him being a bit of a chaotic vampire#and thinks i like him cause of vampires WRONG!! play the game again and see that i love his silly & sweet real self!#bg3 spoilers#baldur's gate 3 spoilers#bg3#baldur's gate 3
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how to write vent post title that does not come off as self-pitying and or accusatory (because it's NOT !)
#sorry tumblr is like a diary to me idk what i'll do w this blog after i (sigh) inevitably move on#either way#im convinced everyone hates me again :3 but realistically no one cares about me even enough to hate me im just stupid and self centred š#if anything me TYPING these posts is actuvely turning people against me#again with the assumptions that people care enough to read these š fhskfbhsjfkg#i hate that i care so much what people online think of me cuz irl it's like. whatever#but here there are so many cool people who i admire and would love to be friends with im always hyperparanoid of everything i do#and still i manage to overstep and come off as annoying#like obvs you're allowed to hate me even if you're someone i look up to like that's your perogative#but i hate worrying about IF anyone hates me#oughgh this is easier irl because usually people send off pretty clear signals if they dont like you#but online (esp with how prickly this fandom is) i don't know whether im being insecure and reading into things or whether people just don't#like me (which again is fine i would just rather know if anyone gets it)#i figure art is the one way i can get people to like me š which sounds kinda pathetic because irl i KNOW im liked and capable!#fandom has just become such a big part of my personality that i cant detach my self worth from it#and i do love art and drawing and such i hate that even if i know people my stuff EYE dont and it doesnt mean anything or act as a signifier#of my friendships#wow .... i really am my own therapist ..... i should shut up#the industrial revolution and its consequences (jofandom)#i think these posts are half self exploration half ... almost self harm? because sometimes im so derogatory about myself on purpose in a#'you're worthless' way. but at the same time it's cathartic and i always feel better having probed at my feelings and gotten them in order#not to do a complete 180 but it's MY post and JO LONDON IN *12* DAYS!!!!!!!! AHH i'm sooo excited if it doesnt live up to my expectations i#may cry a little. and there will be another vent post from me !#sometimes i wonder if anyone actually reads these š#vee rambles
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