Tumgik
#I had to go get them then drive an hour and a half to go to the damn thing. I had to make the plans. I paid for everything i wanted.
wanderingblindly · 6 hours
Text
On Intimacy (Lando Norris/Oscar Piastri, 600 words, Drabble)
Written in a 20-minute sprint with some very supportive besties on Discord, who are single handedly prying me from my writing slump. For the prompt: "There isn't anything that I wouldn't do for you"
God, it's embarrassing. He's only 24 years old, he's a professional athlete. Allegedly, he's in his prime – he should be, at least. And yet, staring down at his trainers beside the door, he's not.
He leans forward a fraction of a centimeter, hardly visible.
His back twinges.
It shows on his face.
It's been like this for days; the double headers and endless hours on the plane are taking their toll, the rough tracks are the icing on the cake. Jon's doing his best to work on him, he's doing his best to take care of it, and yet. And yet.
He can't bend down to get his shoes on, back extra stiff first thing in the morning.
He could do it, really, if he just admitted that he had to do it differently. Bending at the knee, keeping his back mostly stiff – he could do it. But he shouldn't have to; he's Lando Norris, he eats his stupid trainer-approved food and sleeps early when his schedule necessitates it.
His cheeks start to grow hot, vision going blurry with a destabilizing wash of budding tears.
Embarrassing.
"You ready to go?" Oscar calls from the kitchen, closing the fridge and probably tossing a water bottle between his hands. He raises a brow at Lando when he approaches the entryway, noticing Lando's fixated stare at his feet – at his trainers just a step away. "Lando?"
"Yeah," He says, wincing at the wobble in his voice.
Embarrassing.
But he can do it, of course he can do it. So he leans forward before jerking still – unable to keep the wince off his face. The tears – hot and frustrated and pricking at him from the inside – lose their battle with gravity, sliding down his cheeks.
"You're meeting with Jon first thing, right?" Oscar asks calmly, closing the distance between them with a quick stride. Lando nods, rubbing harshly at his eyes like he can will the tears away.
He doesn't see Oscar slide down to one knee, but he hears his water bottle thud against the floor.
With his palms still pressed to his eyes: "Get up." Lando's voice cracks, awash with a new wave of mortification.
"It's fine," He says, and Lando looks; Oscar's looking up at him, he tilted slightly to the side, fingers making quick work of loosening Lando's laces.
"I don't need you to put on my fucking shoes," The words are harsh, but his voice is pathetic; he's not angry, but rather hurt – self-flagellating.
Oscar shrugs, putting the shoe back on the ground and grabbing Lando's ankle. "I know you don't," His voice is calm, gaze fixed on guiding Lando's foot into the trainer, tying it up.
Lando's breath catches at the delicacy of his touch, something about it burrowing deep in his chest.
One shoe on and the other in hand, Oscar looks back up at him – the thin skin under his eyes flushed pink, lips quirked into the soft half-smile he saves just for when they're alone.
"But I want to." He finishes, driving the point home by reaching for Lando's other ankle.
"It's –" Lando starts to protest instinctively. Degrading. Unnecessary. Awkward.
Oscar cuts him off. "You know I'd do anything for you." He ties the second shoe with a sense of finality, not leaving any room for Lando's poor attempt at pride.
"Yeah," Lando says softly, pulling Oscar's gaze back up to him. He stands slowly, not breaking eye contact – nearly nose to nose. "Thanks."
"Of course," He smiles, leaning forward for a chaste kiss. "We're gonna be late to the track."
It's dizzying. Lando feels like he's floating on air, images of Oscar looking up at him running behind his reddened eyes.
He fights the butterflies in his stomach to get it out: "Right."
96 notes · View notes
canirove · 2 days
Text
Friends, lovers… and an orange | Chapter 12
Previous chapter | Next chapter (coming out on Tuesday)
Masterlist
Tumblr media
“Are you going to eat all that?” Mason chuckled.
“Yep” Adele said as she sat at the table.
“I still can’t believe you woke up early to go for a run after going out last night. What time was it when we came back?”
“Around 3 a.m.”
“And when did you leave?”
“At 7.”
“Addie, did you sleep?” Mason laughed.
“The moment my head touched the pillow I was out” she shrugged. Which was the biggest lie ever.
She had probably managed to sleep for maybe an hour and a half, and the moment there was light coming through the window, she had gotten up and ready to do the one thing that she knew always allowed her to not think about anything: running. So she put on her shoes, chose her favourite playlist, and left the hotel. 
“Lucky you” he sighed. 
“Didn’t you manage to sleep?”
“I did, but it wasn't pleasant. I kept waking up and… urgh” he groaned, checking his phone.
“What is it?” Adele asked, giving her croissant a big bite.
“My agency. I have a meeting in half an hour with them and they are already bothering me about it.”
“Is that the reason why you didn’t sleep well?”
“Yeah. We are organizing everything for the launch of the perfume's campaign, and it is driving me crazy.”
“Oh, the perfume… The one that started it all.”
“The same one” Mason smiled. Though it was his sad smile, the one Adele knew meant that something was going on. 
“Mase, are you ok?” she asked, reaching for his hand.
“I am, yes. Just tired” he said, his thumb caressing her knuckles, the butterflies on her stomach waking up.
“Are you sure? You know you can tell me anything.”
“I know. Thank you, Addie” he smiled. But again, it wasn’t his usual smile. “Anyway, I better go get ready. It’s a zoom meeting and I want to look a bit more presentable.”
“I like the way you look” she said, speaking before thinking.
“Even if my hair is a mess?” Mason laughed.
“Messy hair is the best hair” she shrugged, not daring to look him in the eyes. “Will I see you later?”
“Of course. I want to take you to El Retiro, maybe go on one of those small boats they have?”
“The walk part sounds perfect. The one about the boats… I don’t know if I trust you” Adele teased him.
“I would never let anything happen to you. Ever” Mason said, the way he was looking at her, giving her the impression that there was something else behind those words. “And I better get going. See you later, Miss Turlington” he smiled, lifting her hand and kissing it. They hadn't stopped holding hands since the moment Adele had reached for his.
“See you later, Mr. Mount" she replied.
━━━━━━❃━━━━━━
“Are you going to tell me what is going on?”
“Uh?”
“Mase, you've been acting super weird the whole day. Did something happen during the meeting?” Adele asked him after their walk. 
“No.”
“Then why do look you so…” she said, gesturing with her hands.
“So?”
“Miserable. You look the same you did before your birthday.”
“It’s nothing.”
“There definitely is something. C´mon, talk to me” Adele said, following him as he walked towards his room.
“It’s nothing” he repeated.
“Mase… Mason” she said, grabbing his arm and making him stop. “Talk to me.”
“It’s… Fine” he sighed. “Come inside.”
━━━━━━❃━━━━━━
“I’m ready when you are ready” Adele said, grabbing Mason’s hand and giving it an encouraging squeeze. They had been sitting on his bed in silence for what felt like an eternity, which was only making her feel more and more nervous. What could have happened in that meeting for him to go back to this mood?
“Remember that I told you that the meeting was for the launch of the perfume?”
“Yes.”
“Well, we are going to be throwing a party in Tuscany because that's where we got the inspiration from and where we shot the campaign.”
"I remember your trip there. It was when I was in Paris with my mum.”
“That's the one, yes. This party… this party is gonna be huge, Addie. Big names in fashion will be attending, and also actors, musicians, influencers… Even some football players.”
“That is amazing, isn’t it?”
“It is, yes. But…”
“But?” Adele said, squeezing his hand once again.
“My agency has asked for something. Something related to us.”
“I already told them I will be at the party. What else do they want?”
“Something you aren't going to like, Addie.”
“What do they want, Mason?” she asked.
“They… they want us to walk the red carpet together.”
“No” Adele said, letting go of his hand and standing up. “No, no, no. We agreed I would not walk any red carpet or do anything that involves me having to actually pose in front of a camera.”
“But Addie…”
“I said no. You know how much I hate it.”
“I do. But they are insisting.”
“You mean they are threatening you again. I can’t believe it” she said as she started to pace around the room. “This has to stop, Mason. You can’t keep working with such horrible people.”
“I don’t have another choice.”
“Yes, you do! Sue them and leave them! My dad knows really good lawyers, they could help you.”
“It isn’t that easy” he said, nervously playing with his hands.
“Why not? Whatever those clauses are, I’m sure they will find a way to, I don’t know, annul them? There is this guy I met once in Barcelona who works with football teams and…”
“Adele, no” Mason cut her, also standing up. “Lawyers can’t fix this. And if they can, it will be too late. My career will already be ruined.”
“Because of some clauses on your contract?”
“Because… because… urgh” he said, running a hand through his hair.
“Mase, hey” Adele whispered, caressing his cheek. “You can tell me whatever it is.”
“I can’t. Not this.”
“Why not? Mase, look at me” she said, cupping his face and forcing him to look at her. “Why not?"
“Because if I tell you what they have against me, what they are using to make me do all these things I don’t want to… You won’t be able to look at me the same way. And I can’t lose you, Adele. I can’t” he cried, resting his forehead on hers.
“You won’t lose me, Mason. Whatever it is… I’m not going anywhere. But you have to tell me. You have to let me help you. Because this, keeping this secret, is hurting us both.”
“I know” he sobbed.
“Then tell me. What do they have that is so bad that it could end your career?”
“Addie…”
“Mason, please” she begged him, feeling a tear down her cheek. “Please, tell me what it is. Trust me.”
“Ok…” he sighed. “It’s… They… They have a sex tape.”
31 notes · View notes
Text
Bad Batch As People on a Family Road Trip
Hunter
The driver. It used to be Tech but he was banned from driving on long road trips, so Hunter had to take over.
Made them leave twenty minutes later than schedule because he decided that when they were getting into the car was the perfect time to use the restroom.
In charge of the music (he’s playing typical American dad on a road trip music). To everyone’s horror, he sings along (I headcanon that he cannot sing for shit).
Regularly reaching his hand back for snacks.
Will get annoyed at least once and threaten to turn the car around.
Somehow knows which route will take them by the best spot to stop for food.
Constantly checking on his siblings to see how they are doing. Mostly Crosshair.
Wrecker
Sitting in the back with Omega.
Constantly asking Echo for snacks and sharing with Omega.
Got bored halfway through Sleeping Beauty and decided to try and annoy Tech.
Kept trying not to laugh with Omega after Hunter yelled at them, but was actually solemn when Echo yelled at them.
Lets Omega rest on his shoulder.
Encourages Hunter’s singing and sings along with him occasionally.
Falls asleep in the last half hour of the trip.
Tech
Banned from driving because the last time he drove on a road trip he made Crosshair throw up twice and gave Hunter a migraine.
Just listens to podcasts now and stares out the window, occasionally pointing things out to Omega. Also texting a lot with Phee and occasionally smiling at his phone, causing Echo to tease him a bit.
Starts the most random conversations out of the blue. He’s just like me fr
At one rest stop he noticed Crosshair looking particularly pale, so he wordlessly disappeared to buy some cold cans of ginger ale for him to have in the cooler if he needed them.
Got so annoyed at Wrecker kicking his chair that he actually snapped and said some curse words. Echo and Hunter were not impressed.
Crosshair
Passenger Princess because he gets carsick.
His carsickness is the reason the AC is on full blast and everyone in the car either has on a sweater or sweatshirt or a blanket draped over themselves.
The only one who gets to ask to take a break outside of Hunter’s pre-planned schedule.
Was very touched by Tech buying him some soda when he wasn’t feeling that great.
Doesn’t talk much during the trip, mostly just stares at the road in front of him, drinks the ginger ale Tech got him or eats some crackers, or tries to take a nap until they get to wherever they’re going.
Complains about Hunter’s singing and music, but secretly enjoys it since it helps to distract him from how awful he feels.
Echo
Has a large bag with everything they might possibly need, from medicine to snacks to essential oils to hand sanitizer to barf bags. His brothers started calling it the diaper bag. He points out that they’re the ones who use it the most, so what does that make them?
Only person fussing over Crosshair more than Hunter. Constantly asking if he needs more ginger ale, meds, crackers, or a bag. Crosshair would find it endearing if it wasn’t so annoying.
Lost his cool and yelled at Tech and Wrecker for fighting, which made the whole car sit in tense silence for about twenty minutes.
Brought a cooler full of snacks and drinks for the car and to have at their final destination so they don’t need to go shopping.
Omega
The reason for the road trip.
Watching Disney movies with Wrecker in the backseat.
Ends up taking a little nap after lunch on Wrecker’s shoulder.
Convinces her brothers to get a sweet treat from a random drive-thru after lunch.
Also points out things she sees through the window, mostly so she and Tech can chat about them.
36 notes · View notes
Pairing: Slasher! Steddie x reader
Genre: maybe a little angst, some fluff, and leading up to smut
Warnings: some creepy basketball players, Steddie beat the crap out of these creeps, implied mœrder, spiking of the drinks, kissing, a threesome
——
You were being followed.
You had to be.
Theres no other way to describe the crawling up your spine and the faux burning sensation you feel digging it’s way into the vertebrae of your neck.
You knew it was stupid to go outside. Stupid. Stupid. Stupid. But you didn’t feel safe at home, not with you being home alone for two weeks now and hearing too many weird noises outside your house late at night. So you’re only option was to take your non-driving self and walk all the way to your friend, Steve Harrington’s, house a couple blocks away. But there seemed to be more blocks at night than there are during the day, and that was one of the other things that unnerved you that night.
A snap of a twig caused an animalistic, fight or flight response of whipping your body around. You flit your eyes around, seeing nothing in the distant dark past the streetlights lining the neighborhood. You turn around and bump into a body that wasn’t there before. Taking one step back, you’re eye meet a white and green letterman, a basketball player. By the name of the shiny green leather, Jake Turner was in front of you.
You step back two more, apologies building in your throat only for you to bump into another body. It’s Tanner Johnson, also on the basketball team.
“Oh I’m sorry,” You speak out around the dryness in your throat.
You step forward away from Tanner, but not too close to Jake. You look to the sides to see four more basketball players have joined the duo, Jason not among them. You remember the news from the day before that Jason had fallen victim to the flu, but that didn’t stop the basketball’s team reign of terror on the unpopular of the Hawkins High’s hallways.
You swallow, nervous. You’re already clammy hands grow clammier, and a nervous heat gathers in your palms and climbs up your arms.
“Where are you off too so late at night?” Jake asked, taking half a step forward.
“Umm- uh.. Steve’s..,” You tell him, glancing at the taller boys around you.
“Harrington’s?” He asks.
You nod.
He only hums, making eye contact with the boy behind you. You feel hands on your hips and the foreign feeling shoots painful jabs of shock from the area of contact out to the rest of your body, overloading your nervous system. You look around again, noting that you’d stopped just at the end of Steve’s block. But how are you going to get away from all the boys and get to safety, you’re greatly outnumbered and outmuscled.
“It’s cold out,” Jake mutters only loud enough for you and the other boys to hear. “No jacket. You wanna stop by and warm up?”
“No-no thank you,” You stutter. “Steve’s just a few houses up.”
“You sure, even with a killer stalking his way around Hawkins?” It sounds almost like the threat.
But the killer. Your stupid, afraid lizard brain completely forgot of a killer roaming Hawkins as you speak, killing a few non-important people of Hawkins that were on the news for three days max, only to be forgotten when that 72 hour timer was up. Only two of your classmates had been killed, but no one of note.
“I’m sure i’ll be fine. Steve’s is just a few houses up,” You say again, a little louder this time.
“C’mon,” Tanner purrs, pushing your hips forward causing you to stumble forward. “Let’s just get your warmed up.”
Jake falls in beside you, a hand coming up to grip the nape of your neck to push your forward.
“No-no!” You struggle, trying to elbow the body behind you. “I don’t wanna go! Let me go!!”
The boys only surge your body forward and you fall into the grass of a nearby yard, it’s cold and wet. You do your best to scramble away but your hands slip on the wet grass.
“This wouldn’t be so hard if you didn’t struggle,” You feel a weight on your body and it only overloads your senses even more.
You decided to take a chance and take advantage of the quiet night and yell.
“STEVE!! STEVE!!”
“Shush,” One of the boys says, shoving you down and your face pressed against the grass. Tears, that’d flooded your eyes, spilled over your lash line.
You claw and kick, trying to dislodge whoever was holding you down.
It works, or so you think. You barely hear a hard kick, an “oof”, and the the weight is no longer there.
“Shit-“ You hear a voice.
Another hard thud against a body and a groan of pain.
“Guys, it’s-“
You turn around, sitting up. Your met with a tall, black clothed figure. No distinct features other than the knife in their hand and the paper white mask that features a sad scream.
“Oh shit-“ Tanner backs away, only to be shoved forward by another dark clothes figure, identical to the first one, but they hold a blood stained bat, nails dotted the fat part of the bat.
The first figure with the knife pulls Jake, who was laid on the ground, up by his hair. He’s placed in a sloppy downward dog position and his face is twisted in pain.
“There’s two of them??” One of the basketball guys mutters.
“C’mon man, we gotta go.”
Theres a shuffling of feet and you watch as the four unnamed basketball players sloppily panic sprint away, leaving behind Tanner and Jake.
The figure with the bat swings and you advert your eyes as a sickening thud and a yell of pain is ripped from Tanner’s body.
“I’m only gonna hurt you a little bit,” The ghost with the knife mutters. “Not enough to kill you, but enough for you to remember.”
You’re to scared to back away, but you want to think the knife ghost is mindful. They’re positioned in a way of blocking your view of both his victim and the bat ghost’s victim.
It’s a painful few minutes of whatever happens to both the basketball players, your eyes screwed shut and hands over your ears. And it’s a hand that shocks you out of the barely safe haven. It’s gentle, and you scramble back when you make eye contact with the white mask. You can’t tell which one it is, but whichever one it is, they make no move to hurt you.
They stand to their full height, there’s a knife in their hand. It’s bloody. But they reach their opposite hand towards you.
“C’mon,” The ghost speaks. “Up.”
Despite your mind saying no, you take their hand and the ghost hoists you up. They’re tall, intimidating.
“Let’s get you home.”
The ghost blocks your view of the basketball boys, walking you to the sidewalk and up towards Steve’s house.
The other ghost, the one with the bat, joins on your other side. Both lead you up the way to Steve’s house. It’s silent until you speak up.
“Did you kill them?” You don’t look at either of them.
The ghost on your left, the one with the bat, speaks up, “Only the one that touched you.”
Tanner. Tanner touched you.
And now he’s dead. Because he touched you.
It’s silent again. And they walk you all the way up to Steve’s lit up porch. But you grow confused when the ghost with the bat opens the door, waits for you and the other ghost to walk in, which you do cautiously. But it’s Steve’s house, nothing bad ever happens in Steve’s house.
You watch as the bat ghost shuts the front door, locks both locks, and set the bloodied bat against the wall. They bring their hands up to the mask, pull it up, and they reveal their face.
You can barely believe it. It’s..
It’s Steve.
Steve Harrington.
Steve Harrington just murdered a classmate, all because he harassed you and touched you.
You turn around and the other ghost is shaking his hair out, black curls flying about. And then you catch his face. It’s Eddie. Eddie Munson.
Steve and Eddie are the ghosts that have been terrorizing your town for a few weeks now. Murdering town folk and classmates, and they’ve just added another to their list. And these ghosts are also your best friends.
“But why?” You asks, not caring which one answers.
“Why?” Steve starts, pulling the dirtied robe from his body. “Why do we kill or why did we kill Tanner?”
You pause, “Why do you kill?”
“For you,” Steve answers, he pulls the long sleeved shirt that he had on under the robe off, blood had soaked through and gotten it messy as well.
You blinked, mind blank with shock. For you? But why?? Why would someone kill for you? What reasoning could they possibly have?
"Why?" You ask.
"Because, we care about you," Eddie's come up behind you, his mask and robe tossed aside but he still has on a tight fitting long, black sleeved shirt, the sleeved are pushed up to just above his elbows. "Anyone that cares about you enough would kill for you."
"You care about me?" You pause. "That much?"
"Of course," Steve answers.
Eddie gently turns you around with his hands on your shoulders, and you see the same, dark chocolate eyes you've always seen. They look at you with adoration. These don't look like the eyes of a killer, they're just the eyes of one of your closest friends.
"You remember Cody Durrington?" Eddie asks.
Cody Durrington. You'd met him at a party you went to with Steve, Robin, and Eddie. You don't remember much, only that you'd separated from the group and Cody Durrington had been nice and offered you a drink. The next thing you remember is drinking a bottle of blue gatorade through a straw in Steve's bathroom. Robin stood in the doorway and Steve was holding your drink. The next morning, the news had reported Durrington dead, just a block away from the house where the party was at.
"You came crying to me cause you didn't feel good. I figured you drank too much until a little bird told me that Cody Durrington had spiked that drink that he gave you," Eddie told you, still holding you by the shoulders and making strong eye contact. "Apparently he had planned on bringing you home with him that night, but couldn't after you came wobbling over to Steve and I. Obviously, I just couldn't let all that slide, not when it came to you. So I had Steve and Robin bring you home to sober you up and I dragged Cody away and killed him."
"That was you?"
"Of course," Eddie seemed to have a bit of pride swimming in his eyes at his declaration. "I tell you all the time, sweetheart, I won't let anything happen to you."
"It's cause we care about you, baby. But you know that, right?" Steve is still behind you. He's so close that you can feel the heat radiating from his bare chest. Though you're sure that the thin shirt you threw on before you left your house isn't much of a barrier anyway.
You nod. Words aren't forming in your brain because of the close proximity of the taller men, and also probably because of the shock of the current situation. But it's most definitely because of your two very tall, very handsome best friends that are sandwiching you in the living room right now.
You'd always found your two best friends attractive, ever since you met them. But now? That you know that they'd do anything for you? You can't help but see your boys even more attractive. They always told you that they wouldn't let anything happen to you and that you're always safe with them, but now you know positively mean it. You know that they'd do anything for you, and more.
"You okay?" Eddie asks, his hands are on your upper arms, rubbing up and down in a small motion.
"I uh- Yeah," You stutter, smiling. It's not a confident smile, but you're very nervous all of the sudden.
"You sure?"
You move your hands up to grip onto Eddie's arms and nod, "Yeah."
It's almost like a staring contest between you and Eddie. You breathe, barely, but it fully stops when Eddie's hands move to your face. They're warm against your cheeks, and big. His palms hold pretty much the entirety of your cheeks and his fingers place themselves comfortably around your ears, his pointer resting above your ear while the rest slot themselves underneath your lobe. You blush and Eddie can feel it cause you see the small smile grow on his face. You've never been this close with Eddie, and you're extremely nervous. You can feel your heartbeat pick up and the hint of sweat glossing your cheeks.
Then, Eddie starts leaning in. For what? Is he going to kiss you? Oh you so dearly hoping that the hands on your cheeks and him leaning in are strong telltale signs of a kiss from Eddie Munson. And he only leans closer and closer until your lips meet, and he's kissing you! Eddie fucking Munson is kissing you!! The only thing you can do is kiss him back. Your heart feels like it's beating 100 miles per minutes and you pray to whatever higher power there is in this moment that you don't go into cardiac arrest cause that would be super embarrassing.
Eddie kisses you and kisses you, holding your face so gently in his hands. He keeps pulling back, but you push forward in eagerness. Eddie's happy to be just as eagered as he starts kissing you a little more harshly. But before you get too eagered into kissing, Steve speaks up.
"Hey, can I have a turn now?"
You and Eddie separate, and you turn. Your vision is blurry and your legs feel like jello. You blink a few times and smile up at the older man.
"Of course," You tell him and grab his cheeks to pull him down to your height.
Steve places his hands on the junction where your neck and jaw meet and your lips meet his. You feel the same feeling as you felt when you were kissing Eddie, nervous and like you were about to pass out but oh so excited. Steve is softer, he's eagered to meet your lips but you can tell he likes to take things slow. He places one last, slightly wet kiss to your lips before fully pulling back. You take a moment to realize that you little kissing session with Steve has ended, hopefully temporarily.
"Eagered, are we?" Steve asks, a smirk on his face.
You nod.
"Words, baby. You know I like hearing you talk," Steve gently orders, rubbing your jaw with his thumb.
"Yeah," You breathed out.
Steve nodded, satisfied with your answer.
Your concentration on Steve is interrupted by a pair of hands on your upper waist. You jump, not expecting the touch.
"Sorry," You hear Eddie mutter as he noses your neck, pressing his body into yours from behind.
Both of these boys are so warm, and oh so tall. It makes you extremely flustered and nervous for whatever is going to come out of the current situation.
“You wanna lock up and I’ll bring our pretty girl upstairs? Get her started?” Steve suggests, looking past you at Eddie.
“Sure. I’ll bring up a water or two as well,” Eddie presses a soft kiss to your neck and pulls away.
The action spreads head throughout your body, but it’s centered at the area between your legs. Your legs are a little wobbly as you follow Steve up the stairs, your hand in his. You can’t help but admire his back. It’s muscly and you like how his shoulder blade has adjusted to the way his arm his pulled back to keep contact with you. Your eyes glide down the dip where his spine is located and along the symmetrical lines that located the tops of his hip bones that disappear under Steve’s denim jeans.
You barely register the blank walls of the hallway and the semi-empty room that Steve calls his bedroom. You sit obediently on the soft unmade bed. It smells like Steve; woody, a little bit of expensive cologne, a hint of hairspray, and an underlying smell of musk. There’s also a lingering smell of weed and cigarettes, and you make a mental note that Eddie must frequent here as well.
“Arm’s up,” Steve tells you, standing in front of you.
You do as your told and Steve pulls your t-shirt up over your head and drops it onto the floor beside you. Steve brings his hands to your face and leans down to kiss you again, letting his hands roam down your neck, over your shoulders, and down to the middle of your back to unhook the clasps of your bra. He pulls the straps of the material down your shoulders and you help him get your arms out of the loops so Steve can drop your bra on the ground with your shirt.
Steve pulls away from you. You watch as Steve stalks around the bed and goes to settle on the left side of the bed. He adjusts so he’s sitting up against a couple pillows on the headboard, his legs parted and only a few strands of hair falling over his forehead.
“C’mere, baby. You wanna come sit on my lap?” He asks, watching you.
You nod, getting up from your spot and making your way to the man. You’re hesitant as you swing your legs up over Steve and you hover, not sure where to sit.
Steve puts his hands on your hips and pulls you forward and down. As he pulls you down, the boy pushes his hips upwards. He groans a little at the feeling. He slides his hands up your abdomen to your cheeks, cradling them.
“Kiss me?” Steve asks, still holding your face.
You nod.
Steve pulls you down gently. Your hair gets in your face a little and Steve adjusts his hands so your hair stays out of both of your ways. You kiss and kiss, using only a little tongue. You’re letting Steve guide you and it’s obvious he doesn’t want to push you too much, which you’re thankful for.
You’re interrupted by a knock on the doorframe of the bedroom.
“Knock knock, lovebirds,” It’s Eddie. “Water delivery.”
You sit up from kissing Steve, shyly brushing some hair behind your ear. You watch as Eddie sets the two glasses of water on the bedside table. He plops down on the bed, still in his black long sleeve shirt.
“Dude,” Steve deadpans, looking at his male companion.
“What?” Eddie looks back him.
“Your shirt,” Steve points out.
“These sheets need washed anyway,” Eddie waves him off. “You’ll be fine.”
Steve scoffs and turns his head to you. He give you a “this guy” look.
You only smile.
“Sooo…,” Eddie trails. “My turn?”
He looks at you, awaiting your answer.
“Sure,” You shrug, still smiling.
You carefully make your way over to Eddie, being mindful of your knees. You settle on Eddie’s lap just like you did Steve’s but you actually sit down this time.
Eddie pulls you down. He’s a little more aggressive than Steve, you note, but still caring. Eddie dives right into the kiss, using tongue and only a hint of teeth.
After what feels like forever and seconds at the same time, you’re pulled away from Eddie by your hair. You groan, not really in pain but not in too much pleasure either. Steve gently maneuvers you between them, laying you on your back on the bed.
“Off?” Steve asks, sitting up on his haunches beside you. He gently pulls on the pj shorts you have on.
“Uhmm..,” You hesitate for a moment, nervous. “Sure.”
“You sure?” Steve senses your nervousness.
You nod, “No time like the present.”
Steve nods, checking one more time before he pulls your shorts off.
You’re left there in your thin pj shirt and panties. The cold air of the room makes goosebumps erupt on your skin.
In light of exposed skin, Eddie pulls off his own shirt. He shakes out his hair, fluffing it up. You’d only seen Eddie shirt a handful of times, but now was the only time you were only really paying attention. He had a slightly toned chest and a soft tummy. Below his belly button, you followed his thatch of hair that disappeared into his black jeans. Back up to his chest, there was the demon head and the black widow. On the right forearm were his bat tattoos. On his bicep, was the puppet master and on his left bicep was the serpent.
“You like what you see?” Eddie asked, a smug expression on his face.
You averted your gaze in embarrassment.
“There’s no need to get embarrassed,” Eddie told you, turning your head back towards him. “Now let’s get this party started.”
———
A/N: Hello! This has been in my drafts for forever and it’s been getting a little long so I decided to end it where it was. If yall want more eye-pœrn then please please please beg for it cause I honestly have no motivation to write smut for Eddie anymore. But if yall beg for a part 2, I will give yall a part 2
34 notes · View notes
whyisablog · 5 months
Text
Had a dream recently where I was trying to get home from boston through the back roads (roads that obviously avoid the highway cause i hate driving on the highway irl) and driving through cities both kinda looked like driving home from work and walking through a mall/trader joes/omega mart, las vegas you know the one.
Anyway after checking a map, which was actually somewhat legible though was far too short of a distance to be plausible, me and my traveling companions passed through this coastal town that featured a salt water cranberry bog maze as it's main tourist attraction. Since we missed out on the local traveling carnival, we said fuck it, and decided to try it out.
The idea here was to go through the maze on your little paddle boat- imagine an innertube from a roaring rapids theme park ride but swan boat style -through the deep water with not only the bog spiders in mind, but also the cranberry dolphins that not only looked and acted like mini orca whales, but frequented the maze with the sole intent to terrorize patrons. Mostly because these paddle boats had open bottoms like flinstones cars and peoples feet looked like delicious, delectable swedish fish to these guys, but that's beside the point. (This was also, very much, a large part of the point.)
These dolphins immediately were the main concern over the bog spiders, as you can imagine. As soon as we found out about the dolphins, we paddled towards the exit.
The dolphins then capsized our vessel and we were forced to wade to the docks for safety.
My favorite part about this was not the burgandy psuedo orcas, but the little nature walk/dangerous jungle style signs warning us about them and the bog spiders, despite the spiders not even making an appearance, though the signs were kind of small and too far away from where the boats tended to travel to be great warnings... Also the cranberry bog looked more like an overgrown yet nicely organized saltwater marsh but taller and more jungle like.
#the visuals had me on the edge of my seat though#like the main voyage was immediately set aside for the side quest that was Cranberry Bog#also on the way to the city that had the cranberry bog there was a funhouse mirror style hall of elevators at this mall we stopped at#we were on our way down from the food court and had to use an elevator as you do#but for some reason the elevators in my dreams are incredibly fucked up#like sometimes they stop halfway or get pulled up when you want to go down#or drop through the ground instead of go a floor down like you wanted it to#anyway this hall of elevators was just#you know when you get to where the elevators are and there are like 6 elevators#there had to be at least eight on either side of this hallway and in each elevator the car was at varying degrees of stuck in the shaft#one of them was blocked off entirely because there was no car#a few of them the people inside them were stuck either half way up or halfway down and they were on their phones complaining#that they'd been stuck there for hours#this one lady said yeah I've been stuck here since 2002 i don't think you should use any of the elevators.#we ended up taking the stairs#which were also like a minecraft parkour#but im not about to get into that lol#also my dreams feature a lot of milkshake bars and im so totally into that oh my god#and driving to the grocery store#oh yeah there was also this one scene in my dream where i was walking down the street from this burger joint and i passed this guy#he was standing outside this pay to park car park selling free puppies for a dollar#and this girl walks past and she says oh i dont have any cash#just cards#and he says yeah thats fine it'll be 5 dollars.#he scams her out of 220 dollars leaving her with only 2 cents and doesnt even give her the dog#anyway haopy 2024 you guys cant wait to tell you more dreams#hey should i make a tumblr thats just a dream journal about my dreams? that would be dope#i know onetimeidreamt exists but thats not all HER dreams. im talkimg about a tumblr of just MY dreams#thats probably already been done but fuck it#sorry if the tags got a little long the dream itself had too many moving parts and i didnt want to make it too long
2 notes · View notes
airenyah · 6 months
Text
sometimes i feel like i missed out on a lot of "italian-ness" bc we stopped going there on a regular basis when i was 9 and i hardly ever saw that side of the family but then i come across a video on youtube titled "southern italians arguing" and it's just a civil (but lively) discussion about a card game the men were in the middle of playing and i'm getting flashes of what it sounds like when my sicilian dad gets real angry and it reminds me of that one time last year when i was working as an intern at a theater (in austria) and one of my tasks was to feed the actors their lines during rehearsals and one time the lead actor came up to me saying "i'm sorry that i'm always so snappy and impatient when i ask for my lines" and i went "this is nothing?? no offense taken"
or this other time, i can't remember if it was at that theater as well or if it was a different context (still in austria) but one time someone got a little loud with me (bc they were irritable and it didn't have anything to do with me or anything that i'd done) and afterwards those who were witnessing the situation were telling me "you do know you don't have to let yourself be treated like that and that you can tell them off, right?" and i was just there like ".......wait i was getting yelled at just now????"
i'm so used to my sicilian dad (and my half-sicilian brother) getting loud at any random minor inconvenience that it for real didn't even register that this person was "yelling" at me for austrian standards, ESPECIALLY since i knew i hadn't done anything wrong and it was all them and their bad mood at the time. and while i did realize that this person wasn't having the best of times in that moment, the fact that they were getting loud at me just simply didn't register. my brain honest to god just went "ah yes this is a completely Normal volume for this level of bad mood, cool cool" and i just kept chilling while everyone around me went "the audacity?? how could they be so rude to you?? are you okay??"
#it was so funny bc everyone was so concerned for me‚ meanwhile the situation hadn't fazed me whatsoever#these are the moments when i realize that i am in fact less austrian than i always think i am#no really you should have seen my dad get into a rage on monday when pedestrians were crossing the street in front of our car#on a pedestrian crossing mind you#basically the situation was that we were on our way to a dinner reservation and it was rush hour#and we were at this Known busy intersection that has a pedestrian crossing for people coming up from the river going into town#that pedestrian crossing doesn't have a stoplight but there is a stoplight for the cars a couple of meters AFTER the pedestrian crossing#bc the street merges into another street and so that stop light is there to let the cars from the other street pass before you get on it#and that car stoplight was red and my dad stopped the car right before the pedestrian crossing so the people waiting there could pass#except they didn't. they just kept standing there while my dad and the car next to us had stopped leaving the pedestrian crossing empty#and only when the stoplight for the cars turned green and my dad went to go on driving did these people decide to cross the street#and my dad got SO angry‚ he was yelling at the pedestrians from the car complete with big italian gesturing#he was all 'i've been standing here leaving room for them the entire time it was red for us cars but the moment it turns green they walk!!'#my mom laughed and made a comment how the pedestrians could tell they were getting yelled at even through the windshield#which had my dad come to his senses and realize how silly he was being#within seconds he went from raging to cracking up about the absurdity of the situation#of him yelling angrily at pedestrians crossing the street on a pedestrian crossing as is their right#so yeah half the time i don't even realize when austrians are getting loud and ''yelling'' at me lol#airenyah plappert#hate to say it but sometimes the stereotypes ARE true lol
2 notes · View notes
quietwingsinthesky · 8 months
Text
none of the archangels have their shit together, but gabriel is the closest to pulling it off and you gotta respect him for that
#sorry i was thinking about human au fanfics that make raphael the reasonable and boring one again sorry you are wrong#human!au raphael doesn’t even get to inherit their dead dad’s business or anything. they just inherit ‘keeping michael alive’.#they should literally be at the club but instead they are inventing lobotomy for office workers so that michael’s job is easier#gabriel is like. a moderately well-paid janitor who fucks with people and gets away with it because of the anonymity of being the guy who#cleans everything. he has a mortgage. raphael has not moved out of their dead father’s house. raphael is acting like michael sleeping in#their dead dad’s bed and wearing his clothes and working in his office is both Normal and also Doesn’t Make Them Furious#raphael has zero healthy outlets for their emotions. they destroy the shed outside their house one time because everything is Too Much and#then immediately blame it on lucifer (not even in the state when this happened) and michael believes them#gabriel adopted a dog. raphael is going to have to micromanage their grieving brother while locking themselves in their room to scream into#a pillow every few hours to survive. and this is before michael gets hitched to adam after a one night stand that was So Fucking Loud#that raphael actually left the house and slept in their car for half of the night before driving the gabriel’s. and they didn’t even go in#on their own. he had to come out and get them. and drag them inside. and for a brief night in the past few years of hell they’d been through#they got to sit on the floor with their brother’s dog in their lap and watch stupid romcom movies with him.#and then they went right back to being self-destructive.
6 notes · View notes
allisonreader · 1 year
Text
Tumblr media
3 notes · View notes
opens-up-4-nobody · 2 years
Text
...
#todsy the universe was kind to us ad we didnt have to collect samples on our transects so we finished after only like a couple hours#we had to do a lot of getting around on ATVs so we got back around 4.30 or something#the drive up was really pretty. lots of trees and streams bc we were going up in elevation it was v different#the site was also v pretty. lots of wildflowers. however. whatever was tossing out lots of pollin was murdering my face#i had snot literally pouring out of my face. it was crazy. it was like i was crying from my nose#sneezing all the time and my throat was tight if i walked to one side of the transects so i think it was the pine trees#my nose is so raw now and my lips are like horrifically chapped#like ive got that horrible sicky feeling u get when ur nose has running too much#like down the back of my throat. blah.#sigh... 2 sampling days left and then 2 dats if traveling#ive got a bad feeling abt tomorrow's site. hopefully im wrong#my boss keeps implying that i want to kill her and i csnt tell if its just bc that's what ppl say abt non talkative ppl or if im#just giving off horrible vibes. could b both. its so frustrating tho. like im not plotting anything. i just dont have anything to say rn#and irrationally i feel really guilty for not working on anything when i get back. which is insane bc im physical and mentality exhausted#but i just get back and draw whole time and not in a way that's even satisfying bc half my brain is still on high alert bc there r ppl#around. i sat outside and cried for like a minute bc im too aware of them to even have a proper cry#like i just keep looking at the windows like who's gonna see me? hhhh exhausting#and i think my boss has to finish a poster tonight and its 11 now and shes still in the room on the computer#am i gonna have to stay up until she finishes bc i get freaked out by ppl being awake while im asleep? maybe. i guess we'll find out#and i swear if i bleed thru these fucking sweatpants tonight im gonna lose it#fuck. i shoulf habe put on running shorts when i got ready for bed#now im stuck here 😑#unrelated
7 notes · View notes
milo-is-rambling · 5 days
Text
Weight talk tw I guess idk how to describe the post sorry im a little high
It’s so weird being around people who talk about weight problems (IOP) and like idk it brings up weird shit in my brain almost anxiety that I should feel bad about myself somehow like I’m doing this wrong being confident idk. Weird self doubt thing that happens when you’ve loved yourself (hmm. Rephrase. I don’t care about being fat. let’s say that.) and then you’re in a room full of people having a group discussion about how they avoid living their life in happy ways because they don’t want to become like you. But you love yourself. But everyone in your life since you were little has been dieting and talking about weight and specific numbers (someone was anxious about gaining seven pounds! SEVEN. If they saw my scale they would shit themselves. I put on seven pounds taking a big bong rip Jesus fucking Christ seven pounds. I wanted to rip my hair out.)
Next time weight issues come up in IOP I’m stepping out of the room. Like idk how to explain it cause it’s like not a trigger but I guess it is ? But it’s just so weird like the way I’m triggered makes me want to cry why does the world hate me for being fat what the fuck !!!!
#me when I gain weight issues through thinking about my own body in a group setting#ughhh#whatever fuck it#taking an anxiety med chavas at work Levi’s on a train (EXCITED!!!!) I’m gonna take my little sedative friend and try to take a nap bc six#and a half hours after the last two days I’ve had is fucking nothing. going to nap city will fix me.#also taking my morning med. I haven’t done that yet I need to eat *stares into camera* to take my meds gahhhh I hate having a human form an#intestines just take the med with one cracker and not get sick what the fuck body I’m so sick of heart burn I want to burn down the world#and now that I’ve had a med increase I get fucking withdrawal symptoms if I miss a morning dose which I found out bc I left my meds at home#accidentally on Monday when I was so overtired and forgot to put them back in my bag for IOP (cause they have food at IOP so I take them#there once I’ve eaten) and then I had a headache for like half of the day and I was so overtired I was crying on the drive home cause I#wanted to sleep so bad and then I got home and my brain wouldn’t shut the fuck up even on the sleep meds until I talked to kath and she#calmed me down just existing the little sweetheart god I love her okay anyways babble over I’m very overtired and a little cranky and my#brother has been in a very bitchy mood recently idk what’s got him on edge but everything is setting him off into little fights like not#just with me he was fighting with mom this morning he’s just kick to getting worked up recently which leads to me being angry wanting to be#rude which means do the opposite which means show extra compassion woohoo coping skills 🗣️🗣️#anyways. post panic attack sedative nap (my beloved) or perhaps work on editing my vlog#I’m high ​ I forgot you can’t hit comma on tags. edit my vlog. vacuum. (I always spell vacuum with two c’s and not two u’s and I think#autocorrect should not correct me on that one bc I think I am right in my soul idk why#there’s another word I’m like that with but I forget what it is . okay bye thank you for listening to my type words goodbye goodnight mwah#it’s ​nap time babyyyyyy#idk if I have to trigger tag this ? someone let me know if I do please
1 note · View note
waterbearwasteland · 1 month
Text
My cat is so good at telling time and it drives me insane. I used to get up at 7:15 and take like 5 minutes to lay in bed and cuddle her because every time it’d go off she’d come running in for her designated baby time before I’d get ready to leave. Now my alarms are set for 7:45 bc I work from home but every morning she comes in at 7:10, cries a little and paws at my face until I wake up enough to roll over and let her lay across my chest so she can be held until 7:45
0 notes
Text
drove to the airport one time in february 2022 and that specific car trip had such Nice Vibes i have been chasing the high of that car trip every since
#i was also blasting my vflower playlist the whole time and staring out the window and staring at the water so that contributed#and we were at this giant target for a while and i was kinda loopy and i had mobius stuck in my head#and then we drove out of the giant parking structure to the airport and it looked blue outside but like. nice blue?? like the kind that#makes you wanna go outside even though it was like 60 degrees#and i was listening to ressentiment club for like half the drive cus i really liked it at the time so that very much contributed to the vib#oh and i saw my brother for the first time in like 5 years so that was cool too#idk why i liked that drive so much it was just a Really Nice Drive#i looooooove driving to and from the airport and being in the airport and planes i just really like airports and travel relating to them#plane flights are my favorite thing in the wooooorrrrrrrrrlllllddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddddd theyre so nice#literally one of my favorite things about visiting my family is the 34 hour plane flight lmao#its so fun :DD#obvoiusly i like my family too lmao its just fun getting there#i completely forgot where i was going with this#anyways i heart plane flights#RIGHT THE CAR TRIP#thats where this started#i like the san francisco airport very mcuh#and driving through san francisco to get there is nice :D#like obviously traffic yeah but its nice looking around and the vibes are vibey#oh yeah and while we were in the parking lot of that target i ate a random plant off the floor#idk why i did that but i remember posting about it once i got home#i mightve deleted it tho cus i cant find it :(#anyways#that was a nice trip#ramble over lmao#EDIT#OK TURNS OUT I DID NOT IN FACT DELETE THE POST :DD#its from feb 20 2022 so ig that was the peak of my life lmao#general random crap (tm)#<- auhgughauaaaaaaaa i havent used that tag in so long............ memoies...........................
0 notes
miniimight · 20 days
Note
I need more dad Sukuna and mom reader fics / headcsnons, I love the way you wrote for them!!
hey anon thank you! i'm thinking about making this a series, if you guys have any ideas/requests/prompts lmk <3
PICKING UP BABY FROM SCHOOL oops, toddlers can't ride motorcyles! (dad!sukuna x mom!reader)
sukuna rolled up about twenty minutes before his daughter's school got out, deploying the kickstand of his pitch black motorcycle against the rainbow colored fencing. he pulled off his helmet, sighing deeply when he met fresh air again.
his phone buzzed against his thigh. he pulled it out of his tight cargo pocket, answering immediately when he saw your caller ID. "hey, doll."
"you got there okay?" you asked.
"mhm."
"and you're on the right side of the building? that's where her class comes out."
"mhm."
"great." you exhaled. "m'sorry i couldn't make it this time—"
"stop." he says gruffly, his phone between his shoulder and ear as he pulls off his gloves. "what are you sorry for, silly girl? you're sick and should rest."
he doesn't mind anything when it comes to his two girls, not the fifteen minute commute to her school or the half hour of waiting just to get a parking spot nice and close to the doors.
your laugh was warbled over the phone. "at least the car is air conditioned. it's been getting warmer lately."
"..." he looked down at his bike.
"ryo, baby?" you hummed.
"hm?"
"you did take the car, right?"
"..."
his silence was all you needed to hear. he tuned out your worried rambling about how the hell is your daughter going to get home on that thing in order to process. toddlers don't usually use motorcycles as a mode of transportation... and he should've thought of this before!
"it'd be fine if i had an extra seat." he mused, debating on how he could manage this situation without having to call you to get them.
"an extra seat?! not even an extra helmet?" you shrieked. "baby, i swear, if you're actually thinking about driving with my baby girl on that thing—"
"relax, doll," he grumbled, pushing down the traces of embarrassment burning at his ears. "the brat will be fine, s'just a couple blocks away. she can handle the wind."
"..."
the bell rang and the doors swung open, children pouring out of the hallway and buzzing around in search of their parents.
"she's out, we'll see you soon." he was about to hang up when he heard,
"i'm literally about to come get you, do NOT go anywhere."
he frowns, his eyes scouring the crowd of midgets for his kid. he didn't mean to make you so upset and worried. he just... overlooked important details sometimes. not his fault, he's trying his best :(
"y/n, you will sit your ass down in bed. when i come home, you better be laying down exactly how i left you." he warned. he heard your breath hitch. "you trust me, don't you, baby?"
"yes... unfortunately."
he nodded. "we'll be home soon."
"in one piece?"
he rolled his eyes, grumbling. "yes, woman."
"hm." you huffed and hung up.
he strolled into the compound. as soon as he saw those pretty eyes that creased happily when they landed on him, he smiled and crouched down.
she ran over to him, her backpack jostling behind her. she held up a painting she made. "daddy, look!"
"i see." he pulled her closer, holding the backpack off her back and letting her walk off it. he slung the bedazzled bratz backpack over his shoulder, lifting her up in his arms. "what is it?"
"for mama."
"oh. all your crafts seem to be for mama. still nothing for me." he complained with a drawn out sigh.
she rolled her eyes, and he swore he was looking at you for a second.
"don't roll your eyes at me, brat." he scoffed. "who the hell even taught you that?" he muttered under his breath.
sukuna finally stopped in front of his bike. her eyes lit up as her legs started to kick in excitement. she's only ever seen daddy ride off on this thing, now she gets to ride with him?
he swung his leg over the bike, ignoring the mix of distasteful and flirtatious looks thrown at him. "okay, kid." he exhaled, shrugging off his jacket and holding it up to her. "gotta put this on."
she turned up her nose. "stinky."
his jaw dropped open. "i showered before i came to wait half an hour for you, chubby brat. the hell do you think you're talking to?"
she looked at him as if it were obvious.
"you'll put this on now. give me mama's painting, i'll put it in your bag." he said gruffly yet gently slid the painting into her backpack with the utmost care.
the jacket drowned her, the sleeves near triple the length of her arms. sukuna zipped her up and put the helmet on her head.
she started to whine. "stinky." she wailed.
"hush." he hissed, slapping some shades on and holding her towards her chest firmly. with her protected as best as he could with what he had, and with the jeweled backpack strapped to his back, he began to roll out into the road.
that drive home was the longest thirty minutes of his life. he had never drove so slow before.
you were waiting by the front door, running down to meet them as your husband pulled into the driveway.
"oh my god oh my god," you ripped your baby from his arms, tossing the helmet off her head. "are you okay, baby?" you smoothed away the sweaty hair from her face, your lips pursing when you hear her sniffles.
"my poor baby. daddy's never gonna pick you up again, don't you worry." you peppered her face with kisses.
sukuna caught the helmet before it crashed to the ground, walking behind you with his hands in his pockets. he kissed your temple as he leaned over your shoulder to peer down at his daughter. "daddy didn't do so bad."
you glare at him, cradling your daughter's head against your chest. you whirl away and storm into the house.
he sighed.
after many apologetic kisses and a good amount of groveling, you let him do pick-ups and drop-offs again. though you made sure to watch him get into the car before he drove off.
© miniimight ! thanks for reading <3
4K notes · View notes
medicinemane · 10 months
Text
Anyway... I've been following this invasion since the lead up to it, don't think there's been a single day I didn't look at an update about it, unless I was just too tired and rolled that update in with the one from the next day
Point is, if you have question I may not have all the answers, but I have a basic understanding and would be happy to answer them
I just think that supporting Ukraine is something important in the same way that knowing about the Iranian people's struggles and supporting them against their government is important
I hope we're all on the same page here, but if you don't support Ukraine I've got a mountain of reasons why I do, and I'm happy to answer questions
#I mean in many ways it's just better to follow someone actually living there; they say stuff before it's reported on in the news#(if it gets reported at all)#but people may not know any Ukrainians on here and... I mean I really am happy to talk about this#also had a moment the other day where I realized that I was going#'well obvious people don't know the details of the invasion of Ukraine; but obviously everyone has a basic knowledge of wagner'#turns out they do not; spent like half an hour of the drive giving my mom a summary of wagner and their role in things#(I was joking about how while people complain about Ukrainian neonazis that wagner... it's basically packed to the gills with them)#(turns out that's not something everybody knows)#(ultra condensed summary if you don't know who they are)#(they're mercenaries who work for russia; they're literally named after hitler's favorite composer because he was hitler's favorite compose#(for a long time they were the only ones taking any ground in Ukraine)#(and then they tried to do a mutiny and march on moscow; and now their leader is chilling in Belarus)#(he wasn't punished for it or anything; cause it turns out putin is in fact a push over)#anyway... yeah... may not know all the details about everything#but turns out I may have a lot more specialized knowledge that I realize given not everyone knows who wagner are#so they probably don't know a lot of the rest of the stuff... so yeah... happy to talk about it if you've got any questions
0 notes
Text
god ive just completely wasted the last two months of my life haven't i 🙃
#so originally my plan was to take about a month off then get a job#at the local theater#but then my mom decided we had to immediately fly out to florida bc of a family emergency#so i thought 'well we got that family vacation in june so ill wait till that's out of the way then get a job#but NO#immediately after THAT trip we had to go out of town for a funeral#and THEN we had to drive to pittsburgh bc my aunt hAsnT sEeN uS iN fOreVeR#and all of a sudden it's the fourth of july#im JUST NOW getting hired AND had to postpone a paperwork session bc the stupid system didn't send me the stupid link#so i have to start like a WEEK late#AND my parents decided we're doing a week long family road trip to florida to visit family#and all in all im just tired of all this like i just want to spend the last month and a half at home working a part time job#maybe get ahead on school#there's this random ass family car trip at the end of the month then i have like TWO AND A HALF FUCKING WEEKS before i have to move in#i probably could have started work two weeks ago if it weren't for these random family trips my parents decided we're going on#and both of them were like drive six hours stay one day drive six hours#SO WHAT WAS EVEN THE POINT#just two full days of driving and one day there every time#like ik my family loves road trips bc flights for 8 people are super expensive#but this is ridiculous i am SICK of road trips and we got two 14 hour trips this summer fml#anyone who sees this ik ik first world problems#but im tired#im just so tired disappointed in myself and so so goddamn STUPID
0 notes
inkskinned · 6 months
Text
it is the first snow today. i think we should all have off work, even though it didn't stick. i think there should be 4 national holidays, one for each season. happy first snow, go home and make cookies. for spring it can be the first crocus. for summer the first lightning bug. for autumn, the first golden leaf. go home, kiss your dog, feed your cat (who is absolutely already-fed but somehow still starving.)
i think we should all take more showers together, but i mean that in the soft way. i mean it like taking a nap. two years ago i had 5 adult friends in my queen bed, all of us laying across each other, head over belly over thigh over hand. any time one of us would giggle, it would ripple over each of us, like pulling on a spiderweb. kim actually needed to nap and didn't get to sleep and i am still sorry for it even though this is one of my most precious memories.
i think we should all wash each other's hair, i mean. i walk my dog and i watch someone put up twinkle lights around their front porch. alex and i just moved, and i love the neighborhood. already so many of our new neighbors have stopped by to say hello. the nice lady downstairs also collects plants, like me. she gave us her number on a pink post-it note. i am trying to decide whether to make her cookies or brownies.
i am going through a very hard time. something bad happened this weekend that i do not wish to discuss. it is hanging over me. i think of the green ribbon, and the woman who had her throat cut. it feels like that sometimes, inside of my body. like i am walking and talking despite being half-corpsed. like i am hanging on by a ribbon, standing on some kind of cusp. i keep saying - at least it wasn't worse. we are so lucky it wasn't worse. the idea is river-rock smooth now, all the edges worried off.
in this very dark night - the sun sets by 3 now - people don't need to, but they try anyway. they paint the missing light into things. i have an embarrassing number of missed calls and texts, but i feel the love from them nevertheless - hey. if you need something, i'm here. i will bring you food/puzzles/anything. i got you.
i think we should all have a big group chat where we do errands with strangers. this week i got lost in a home depot, which is wild because i'm a lesbian and we are actually hatched in a lowe's lumber section. there were two other women in the whole store. we ended up shopping together, at first by accident (we all needed things in the same aisle), and then because, well, why not. one of the ladies was taller than me, so she pulled down the screws i needed. i am agile and have the personality of a raccoon, so they sent me after anything below 3 feet. we talked about holiday plans and never learned each other's names, but did learn all the drama about each other's families.
i am making you cupcakes, because i have so much affection i want to pour it into batter. you ask me if i am eating enough per meal. i wrap your gift twice, trying to do it prettily. i get excited to give it to you, just because i hope you'll be excited too.
my parents drive an hour just to see the new apartment and to do the parent thing; standing in the kitchen saying things like "oh you'll get so much use from this dishwasher" and "well, you could paint that" and "when your mother and i moved it was uphill both ways and in a snowstorm and of course your brother was an infant." my mother brought me a plant for housewarming. i always say i love you before she leaves.
i play dnd on tuesdays still, after all these years. we all keep that night free. at one point, between grad school and marriage and all of it, we had to have a serious discussion about how to keep it running. we will keep going, we decided eventually. just to see each other, even if we don't play - you are all important to me. sebastian is not prone to affection but last night he stole my usual sign off - i love you all, be good, he said. he was laughing.
i don't love the winter, actually. i like snow in theory, but i grew up in the north, and am too-familiar with the season of "mud and sludge". i don't like being cold. but i do love something kind of soft and rare: every year around this time, people remember oh yes. you and i are human together. and i have love to spare.
it is the first snow, and something in my heart is finally warm again. i have spent what felt like the last 18 months just going-through-the-motions. it has felt blank and immediate, like i would never actually feel again. that sounds extremely trite and stupid - but that is the boring and familiar experience of depression. life just washes up against your windows, and you watch it happening. you see things that should be lovely and affecting, and it just whispers too-thin. i was desperately uncreative. uninterested in my hobbies. unimpressed by my writing. i told my therapist, often, i don't know how to find hope again.
almost sheepishly, something strange and lovely is burning in my chest. i keep not-looking at it, worried it will scamper back into the shadows again. it is skittish and wild, but it is so warm i want to sink my hands into its fur and feel it breathing. i love-hate it: if it's real, it can hurt me when it leaves again. but i am icarus-born, sun-lover and poet: i can't help myself. despite my best intentions, i am falling in love with life again.
i am planning to make cookies for my friends. alex and i are going to go christmas tree shopping. we picked out matching dish towels last night, and they have little mushrooms on them.
i love you. it does come back. yes, even after a long time. even for you. i promise. keep trying. you will wake up and it will be a day you can smile about.
write me when you get there. we will take the day off of work, and i will wash your hair, and we will both be laughing.
4K notes · View notes