#I started the list w quick readings btw

[1moreoffkeyanthem]

It’s time for another Fic Rec List fellow humans!!!

And boy howdy do I have a LOT this time lmao. A good chunk of them are Kyle-centric, bc I, like my son Stan Marsh, have been fixated on that guy. Also there are multiple from the same authors bc I find something I like and read EVERYTHING by them.

There’s a range of pairings on this list too bc I’ll read pretty much anything (still mostly style they do be my favorite) so hopefully if u see ur favorite ship or an intriguing concept this’ll steer you to somethin u like!

Here ya go!

* (rem)ember by boxwinebaddie. Ok we all knew I was gonna start the list w this one bc I am OBSESSED!!! Style holy shit! Crimson Dawn! Mentally unstable law student Kyle! RAVEN!!! The friendships and group dynamics! Rm lives rent free in my head dude plsplspls check it out!

* Painted In Shrouds by courtanie. Y’all want some Kysterion? This is one of my favorites! And NOBODY does Kenny like this author seriously. We got espionage! We got organized crime! We got overworked cfo Kyle! We got working together to take down the bad guys! We got blood and injuries and falling in love!

* Swansong by OrcaTimes. Fair warning this made me ugly cry. No one writes Craig like OrcaTimes YALL the Cryle destroyed me and doctor Craig always slays!!! It’s a beautiful story about love and grief, just GORGEOUS!!!

* Collector by cement_shoes. WHOLESOME STYLE ONESHOT!!! Them over the years, taking care of each other, Kyle handling bugs for Stan when he’s scared of them, growing up together and the trials of being human, but with someone always on your side. This one is SO sweet and gorgeously written, and a quick read too.

* A Ballad Of True Hearts by luckypoppies. Dude we all know I’m feral about SOT Style and THIS RIGHT HERE EATS!!!!! The history, the betrayal, the FANTASY VIOLENCE AND THERES THIS FIGHT SO FAR THAT SLAYS SO HARD! Being falsely accused of treason and subsequently exiled, tasked with escorting your prince to safety, GOD you just FEEL for the boys in this (plus we got them taking care of each other like yes yes gimme that fantasy whump) the world building is AWESOME I love sot AU’s and how different authors come up w the lore!

* Behind The Wall by Jwink85. Alright this one STARTS OUT nice, and is such an accurate representation of manipulative abusive relationships. Damien man holy shit. There’s so much going on in this, and the STAN PLOT OMG (yes style I love them) Kyle and Stan reconciling, Ike is my DISTRUSTING KING, high school angst, Tweek and Kyle friendship, Kenny being an icon, and I’ve said before but I love when Kyle’s written as generally wanting to see the good in people but still fiery in his own right, this is (a lot of jwinks stuff really that’s why I like their works so much) a great example of that!

* Simply Expandable by Kivea. YO WHO ORDERED THE MOB AU!!! Dude we got private investigator Craig, rival gangs, supernatural elements and mystery, conspiracy, fucking MOB BOSS KYLE?!?!? Kyle’s a bamf in this holy shit and bodyguard Stan, (this is Cryle btw and it’s fantastic) former k2, twenny, underground fighting rings, some KICKASS gang fights and the true antagonists bro the reveal was SICK! And when I say it’s a The Gangs All Here fic, I mean EVERYONE it’s wild and such a fun read it had me on the edge of my seat!

* And The Lightning Cracks The Sky by PastorCraigEnjoyer. Yeah yeah it’s cringe to rec your own shit sue me. But like Druid prince Kyle, Smokejumper Stan, forest fires, little mermaid but in the northern rockies ass plot, OVERLY PERCEPTIVE KENNY, mutual pining, magic, my beloved injury recovery (I gotta fuck Stan up ok) (I’m the worst)(giving Kyle chronic pain who me never) falling in love and saving each other’s lives, EVIL Cartman, I LOVED WRITING THIS ONE SO FUCKING MUCH it’s truly my baby.

* A quiet place (where I can scream how I love you) by sleep2thefr33zing. Coming of age style!!! So much emotional tension dude the pining is so fucking good, the first chapter is Stan’s perspective and the second one is Kyle and it’s BEAUTIFULLY PAINFUL WHEN THEYRE BOTH DOWN BAD BUT THINK THE OTHER ISNT!!! I love them being there for each other through all the bullshit of growing up, how resonant their falling outs are, it’s just so incredibly gorgeous and you really feel their emotions along with them.

* Knives by SparrowGrim. Ok so kyman isn’t my cup of tea but I’m putting it on the list bc some people do like it and this is an OBJECTIVELY FANTASTIC STORY!!! Tbh I only clicked bc I saw that it was Kyle centric (and that injury tag what can I say I eat that shit up) but I was HOOKED! Dark urbania, gangs running the streets, THE CODE NAMES SLAY SO HARD, we also got creek bunny stendy dip, the character relations are all so cool and the plot is WILD! Also Butters Kenny Stan and Craig are so badass jesus. Not even a ship I like but I loved the story.

* Peering Through Windows by Jwink85. C’mon I gotta have another jwink on the list and this one is SO. FUCKING. GOOD. K2 has been one of my favorites lately and THIS!!! We got dark cryle (my beloved) but when I say dark I mean CRAIG IS SO DEPRAVED!!! Like dude. But the story is THRILLING and artist Kenny is so kickass, Stan is a dad I literally cried over that small detail lmfao and I love jwinks Kyles and their idealistic nature (also I’m a sucker for any artist character) this story broke my heart and mended it again it’s incredible.

* Hunger Pains by Bellweather. Ain’t nobody doin Stan like bellweather MY SWEET PRECIOUS BOY UGH!!! The style is so great omg. The main four dynamic in this is wonderful, them trying to help Kyle through his ED (damn I really do read a lot of shit where Kyle’s suffering huh) all the characters are so well fleshed out and IKE I LOVE IKE IN THIS! The chapters have individual content warnings which is a great touch. Craig having prophetic dreams! Kenny dying multiple times! Chaos! Teenage camaraderie! There’s plenty of humor to make up for the dark shit but it DOES get dark. The mystery element in the beginning is really cool too I definitely have read this one multiple times.

* Find Somebody by hypercatt. STYLE!!! Stan-centric and so so so good, I love a platonic stendy team up too. some of the senior class goes “missing” and WHEN I TELL YALL I WAS so nervous that I read it out of order to make sure everything turned out okay lmao seriously this one had me WRITHING! There’s a gorgeous analogy throughout of physical hurts as a metaphor for mental illness and healing that just SPOKE TO MY SOUL!!! And there are so many beautiful moments, especially near the end, and the message of opening up and not running from your problems is beautifully written. Another one that occupies my brain lmao.

* To Have And To Hold by courtanie. Yes this is another one where Craig is SERIOUSLY DEPRAVED but hear me out!!! The plot, like I would DIE to adapt this to the screen, you feel like you’re watching a dark kidnapping race against time when reading this. And THE K2 IN THIS HOLY FUCK!!! Another one of my favorite Kennys ever and it’s so frustrating for the reader and the characters because WE ALL KNOW WHO TOOK KYLE BUT THE COPS ARENT DOING SHIT! The ending is unbelievably satisfying and the rest of the gang teaming up is so awesome STAN AND KENNY GOING FERAL OVERPROTECTIVE I live for that. But god the shit Kyle is subjected to, but he doesn’t lose that fire (Kyle ily sry)

* When The World Shakes, Hold Me by Bellweather & Blinkxs. The world building in this is PHENOMENAL!!! Post apocalyptic stuff, survival, STYLE!!! Some serious dark themes tho this is a heartbreaking read like damn check the tags frfr but the writing is MAGNETIC!

* -South Park- Style Sickfic/ Injury Fic Requests by AlwaysInSTYLE. Alright alright we all know I love my style hurt comfort and this is a request book/ oneshot series that’s JUST Stan and Kyle taking care of each other and I LOVE IT. you’d think it would get old but it DOES NOT. they’re not repetitive at all, and really fun reads! If you check it out, tell her PCE sent you we’re homies.

* Rookie Mistakes by espyonz. I love me some stenny and BRUH STANSTERION!!! Long oneshot that had me hooked. We got gentle hearted detective Stan who truly wants to protect and serve and is out of place in a corrupt police department. KENNY AS MYSTERION we know I love that shit, and he’s so awesome in this!!! The team up of Kenny Stan and Wendy to find missing people and uncover the truth behind their disappearances is AMAZING. We got Wendy as the tech girl which is SO slay (plus she and Heidi are together asjdhdks) and Kenny is hilarious in this, like he’s such a little shit and I adore this adaptation of his superhero persona. This one dropped LAST NIGHT and I’m so glad I didn’t make a red list post until now bc THIS NEEDED TO BE ON IT!!!

* Seven Candles by courtanie. Yep another one I’m tellin u, one of the best Kenny writers out there. So uhh Kyle in a Very Bad Situation again, like some of it was really tough to read. BUT!!! We got a war between heaven and hell!!! KENNY AS A FUCKING ARCHANGEL ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!?!? (I live for courtanie’s overprotective kenny holy shit) this is legitimately my favorite Kenny interpretation IVE EVER READ HES SO FUCKING AWESOME!!! Plus we got satan being Done with Damien’s shit lmao and Kyle making friends with a hellhound which is fun. THE FINAL BATTLE WAS SO COOL TOO I LOST MY MIND!

* Why Remind Me by Kasen. One of the best style oneshots BRUH it’s so good with such a wholesome ending and the FEELINGS CONFESSIONS!!! The boys playing superhero, then later we got high school style and an accident that leads to a reminder of a kiss and UGH ITS SO CUTE!! Just- just read this one I love it sm.

[miutonium]

Boogie Man, Utionium and Bubbles!! ~@soft-spooks (good luck in class btw u got this!)

Thank you! I did okay for class when you send this Ask but I am now back in class and Im hoping it go well today ;w; thank u for the well wishes 💕💕💕

The Boogie Man 🎵 — Quick! Put your favorite playlist on shuffle and list the first five songs that come up!

My playlist basically went Mr.Worldwide 🧍‍♀️🏃‍♀️🏃‍♀️

Professor Utonium 🥼 — Are there any scientific inventions or discoveries that fascinate you?

You heard of girlies telling true crime like tea so let me talk about antibiotics like them too 💅

Radioactive is cool but the history of Penicillin (the first pure Antibiotic) is one of my fav. Im just gonna write a very simplified version of it after rereading it just now lol

There's reports of usage of mold to treat infection way way back before the 20th century especially in ancient greek and egypt but the creation of the first fully synthetic and commercialise antibiotic only started during the early 40s so like if you get any bacterial infection from uhhh lets say a cut on your pinky, you rubbed your eyes with a dirty hand, you look as someone at the wrong time, you had a hanky panky with Patty at the back alley or maybe you just exist, you can die. Existing antimicrobial meds like sulfanilamide even the strongest one sometimes doesnt work with diseases that in modern days we can simply heal with just 1 course of antibiotics.

Anyway how we discovered Penicillin was purely by accident when back in 1929, Alexander Fleming discovered one of the strep strain he was cultivating in his petri dish that he left for a few days for a holiday seemed off. Upon closer inspection he realized there's a strain of mold that grew on the dish and noticed that the bacteria didnt grow around the mold ring so he conducted a few experiments to comfirm his discovery and ended up publishing a paper about his findings. Despite this though no one wanted to do anything about it. They read the paper and just left him on seen and Fleming wasnt a chemist, he's a biologist, the lowest of the low for the nerds back in the 19th century because all the cool kids major in physics and studying radioactive and actively promoting radioactive quackery while their jaw is rotting off from the radium exposure so he couldn't do anything about it and he just let his research in the back burner until like 10 years later a group of nerds at Oxford found his paper and like "wait this man was actually cooking" and decided to take the challenge to purify this mold juice and see if they can turn it into an antibiotic.

In early stages of their research, there didnt use like a big steep container to 'procure' the mold but instead uses a narrow container with large surface area, think of casserole dish to get the juice because the mold only grows on the surface of the liquid instead of inside the liquid. Purifying isn't easy, at least 2000 litres of purified Penicillin juice were needed just to make antibiotics enough to treat 1 person so 2 of the big nerds, Howard Florey and Norman Heatley flew to the US and asked if anyone could mass produce it and then like jump to idk pages of wikipedia page later it was being mass produced in the early 40s during the peak of WW2 (there's too many conflict happens during this and the girls are fighting over who should be credited for it and I am not into some nerd drama rn)

Here's some interesting facts that I found out while reading:

- During the early stages of mass production, they still haven't produce enough Penicillin for the people they're treating and running clinical trials and they discovered that patients who received Penicillin shot also excreted those antibiotics back into their urine. At least 70% of the Penicillin they got is stored in the balls floating in the urine so they took the pee, crystallised them and extracted the Penicillin from the pee crystals so at least half of the people who gets the antibiotics shot got them from some guy's pee.

- When Florey and Heatley planned to fly to the US, they feared they couldn't bring the mold in a small glass tube without it being missing so they laced the pocket of their coat with the mold.

- Winston Churchill almost died from Pneumonia back in 1943 but fully cured by Sulfanilamide but the tabloid at time said Penicillin cured him simoly because they wanted to instill confidence to the public about antibiotic

- During Clinal Trials, they tested on animals for toxicity but they didn't tested it on guinea pigs. If they tested it on guinea pigs there's a possibility that antibiotics is not what we have now or didn't exist at all since Penicillin is toxic to guinea pigs

Anyway cut to decades later we abused the fuck out of antibiotics and there's rising cases of antibiotics resistant bacteria. It is estimated that we are 5 years away from creating antibiotics that works on the bacteria that resist antibiotics in the present. So the next time if you are prescribed with antibiotics, FINISH THEM ACCORDING TO DR'S ORDERS!!!

Bubbles 🫧 — List three things that bring you joy!

Answered here!

[maiverie]

HI DO U HAVE ANY TIPS ON STARTING A TUMBLR BLOG? like how you format your links and everything i'm new and want to start a blog but don't know how 😭😭

hi anon!!! omg sure yes I dooo!!! when I started I didn't have anyone to help me so it was literally such a shitshow lmfao so I HOPE THIS HELPS!!

— (long post below)

disclaimer: this is all based on my experience and im sure there are other users with better tips than me so DONT TAKE MY WORD FOR GOSPEL BAHAHA

(also I'm going to assume you reached out to me because you want to start a kpop writing blog and not smth else, so all these tips are obv specific to writing blogs. I also don't know how experienced u are w Tumblr so I might say some obvious things,, sorry if you already know most of these things!!)

anyway tumblr is actually really intuitive and after about two days I honestly think you'll get it (probably even within a day tbh). here are some quick steps I feel like make sense in my mind:

find a url (if you're starting a kpop writing blog,, most people seem to include the name/a reference to their bias but in my case i kinda just went w my name and played around w it until I liked it 😭 you can also search for "url ideas" in tumblr if you're having trouble!!) keep in mind you can literally change it at any point in time so don't worry about choosing the -perfect- one

set up your blog! most of the time, people have a navigation post (the pinned post where everything is linked so readers can navigate ur blog easily), a masterlist (a post that shows everything you've ever written), a wip list (a post that lists all your works in progress, so fics you're currently writing and want to publish in the near future). additionally, people have a post about themselves (like an about me section with blog rules and stuff. this is my old old one). personally, i have a carrd right now (this is mine here) and you'll find other users have one or the other!

set up your navigation post: hyperlink honestly everyone's different (btw don't worry about taking these tips too seriously bc honestly u should do whatever you want on your blog — it's yours after all!!) but I think most people include their name, pronouns, age (sometimes), timezone (sometimes) and hyperlinks to their masterlist + wip list.

how to hyperlink im sure you've done it before for school, but it's really easy! here's a demonstration — this link will send you to my navi, and this link will send you to one of my fics! to do it, you just need to copy the link of whatever post you're trying to hyperlink (three dots in the top right of the post -> "copy link"), typesomething, double click onto the word you're trying to link it to, tap the 🔗 button, and copy the link into that! (in this example, it'd look like this: something.)

how to make ur navi neat/pretty personally, I used to just search for moodboards (on tumblr) and pick 3 photos that I really liked (obviously give credit to whoever made the moodboard!). what I have now is just something that I designed but you can have one or the other, it doesn't really matter! other tips I think I'd suggest is to keep it as simple as possible; you can embellish it later but make sure it's easy to read and people can see all the links! I really like searching for "symbols" on Tumblr, and then there are cute lil symbols u can add to your post :) or just use emojis! or dashes! this might be a little ahead, but I have a tutorial on gradient text if you really care, but maybe focus on the base first :D just as an example, my moot @.hazyyu has a really pretty navi!

apply the same principles to your masterlist + wip list + about me just search for symbols, add whatever images you think look pretty, search for "line breaks" on Tumblr and there are pictures of links you can use to divide stuff up! making a carrd is easy but time-consuming (just search on YouTube "carrd tutorial")

there are other caveats to a writing blog, but those were just the basics! here are some other things I thought I could mention:

a permanent taglist is a list of people you tag every single time you publish a story/update it (for the purpose of them being notified every time you post) — sometimes people will ask u to "add me to your permanent taglist!" which just means tag them every time you post a story. personally, I have a google form for anyone that wants to be on the permanent taglist, but I didn't do that initially — I used to just wait until people sent in an ask asking to be on it and then I'd have a separate post with everyone who did. for example, this was my old one! doesn't matter whichever approach you do ^^

people also organise their blog via the hashtags I do this too! it's so much easier that way :)) for example, every time I get an ask, I tag it with "#ask" (umm a lot of people are much more creative w their tags but personally icb lmaoo — here's an example of my friend who used a different tag and it's really pretty!). if you want help with organising your blog w tags, here's an explanation I wrote a while back!

if you want help promoting your work, you should consider joining a few networks! these are basically big big blogs that reblog all your work so more people can see ur stuff ^^ here are some of the ones I'm a part of: kflixnet, enhanet, k-labels!

you'll meet other users along the way and call them your moots; most of the time this just means you interact w them a lot via asks/dms. personally I'm not really active and I kinda find it hard to keep track of a lot of moots so I stick to myself and interact w anyone that comes my way!! but bae u can do whatever u want!! go find blogs of people that seem rlly cool and send an ask and just see where it goes; just don't badger people, be nice and I think you'll pick up on sm things naturally!!!

ur blog is gna look great!!! let me know when you finish setting it up!!! I hope this helps 😋💖

[loud-sturniolos]

So I need to ramble about my ex “friend” bc this mf did some horrible shit recently and I have no one to talk to abt it‼️‼️ This is rlly long, and may not make sense, but yk drama is drama, read if u wanna🤷‍♂️ Also, ngl, I’m also toxic in this argument but idc😞‼️

Also I’ve said like a bajillion times but nobody does it; my asks are open for literally anything, like pls talk to me I’m lonely af😞 U can literally ask for drama and I will tell y’all some random ass drama from my life if u want js pls talk to me LMFAO🙏

SOOOOO This kid that I was “friends” with (more like acquaintances, I dont rlly do friends) is such a fucking bitch like if I see him im gonna fucking beat the shit out of him. He messages me like every few weeks out of nowhere about random shit as if we’re friends, so the other day I kinda snapped when he asked “how are you” and i was like “idk why you care, you literally never talk to me at all, you left me on delivered for 3 months when I had nobody then randomly showed up again and tried to act as if nothing happened” and that kinda started an argument but he was to much of a pussy to argue w me😞 (Haven’t had a proper argument in a good while icl). Anyways next day this snapchat accoumt messages me that I’ve had added since december but like idk who it is, they message me w a snap using a random ass filter and the caption “Damien you gave me an eating disorder” so OBVIOUSLY I’m fucking confused asf, bc what?? Who randomly claims someone gave them an eating disorder??? Like especially claiming I gave them one whilst I’m recovering from my own?? back tf up. but anyways im like “wtf, who r u? idk u” and they listed like a few basic things that anybody on my snap knows, and i said anyone would know that, and then this mf bitch goes “Well ik your real parents are druggies” (Long story short, im adopted bc my real mum was addicted to her dads meds, idk abt my real dad) and obviously im like SHOVKED bc i’d only ever told like 4 ppl abt this that I trusted (idrc now tho, ill tell the world tbh😞‼️) so im instantly like “wtf who r u??” and he tries to make a guessing game out of it?? Like what the actual fuck?? Making a game out of my personal life is like a straight up no? Anyways I start yk, stalking n shit bc bro wont tell me who they are and I see their user name has “bl00dy” in, what do I see on my quick add? Ex friends full name, on a different account BUT the username has “bl00dy” in (btw im not like censoring that, thats literally how they spell it in the user💀), so I’m instantly like Who does this ugly mf think they are adding me on a fake account to talk abt my real parents n shit like that, so I head on over to whatsapp bc thats where we message and i send a ss of the fake acc and i say “is this you”, he deny it, I tell him all the proof I have that it’s him (Same hair colour/length from the snap, identical usernames, same humour, same typing style) and he denies it.

Guess who messages me 20 minutes later confessing? he does. If u gonna lie at least keep up the lie like tf? Anyways, he confessed and I was obviously pissed off bc I trusted him with personal info abt my real parents yk?? And I basically tell him he’s a stupid fuck that needs to get a life and he goes “Maybe I went a bit too far.” A BIT?! A BIT TOO FAR?! No mf you went WAYYY too far. Anyways idk what happened adter that part bc whatsapp wont let me back on it bc my storage is HORRIBLE. But I have some screenshots and can remember a bit of it sooo..

Next thing I have is him telling me “Human error is a think yn, you might not be autistic” so obviously I go off at him for that umh.. I wrote a lot so I’ll js put in the screenshot

so yhh.. that part happened😽

Next thing I have screenshotted pissed me off so much y’all dont understand omg. So first, he called me a high school drop out and called me special n told me i got sent to a “special school”, basically mocking my mental health and autism?? When I tell you I know so much about his trauma, and his mental health that I could have brought up in that argument i swear. anyways, i told him how the school i go to now isnt a special school, and that I didnt get “sent” i literally chose to go there, and also I haven’t dropped out of high school bc im still enrolled in a school??? then he suddenly starts asking me abt what job I wanted to do when I’m older, so I tell him (Child protection officer or a detective) and he starts telling me how 1. I’d probably brag about making a child cry and thats a whole other fucking thing if i went on abt that this would be way too long. and 2. How I can never get the jobs bc I need science. Keep that shit in mind, SCIENCE. He starts telling me abt how to get the job i want, the job i’ve been researching into for 3 years, he js starts telling me abt how ill mever get it. Then he brings up how I need psychology for it. And he says how psychology is a science. When I tell u this mf stupid istg😞 So I have to go explaining to this dumbfuck that i do not, in fact, need a science degree i meed a psychology degree. Then he tries to tell me how detectives use chemicals and stuff and I’m like… you mean the forensics team need chemicals? Bc detectives and forensics teams are two different jobs bae😨.

anywaysss, next thing I have screenshotted is me mocking his dumbass but idk the messages b4 it. but the SS is just this:

so thats cute. Anyways, the next thing that happened is when I got my older sister involved bc mf should not have brought it up!!

So I told him at some point to sort his memory out bc he was telling me things that didnt happen, then this mf tells me to basically stop being a hypocrite and tells me that the pills im on fucks up my memory. So, then im confused bc.. I’m not on meds? So I’m like “where tf did you get that from? i dont take pills” and this little fucker i swear i will kill him if he comes near me again, he fucking says “You failed an overdose, hence why I thought you took pills”. Who the fuck does this fucker think he is to bring up MY mental health? To bring up MY suicide attempts?!?! Like actually, he can shut right up bc he’s attempted too, so????? Anyways I was like fully gobsmacked rhat this stupid little fuck thought he could bring up my mental health like that, so I gave the phone to my sister bc shes a toxic bitch and she will gladly argue w anyone🤗

Heres a lil list of things I remember happening but don’t remember the whole thing(that dont make sense but oh well):

He brought up (to my sister) that she hangs out with “druggies” (People in her friend group smoke, vape, do ket, and weed etc. but she only smokes and vapes)

He sent a very quickly deleted message that I managed to read that was basically him 1. calling me a she (transphobic little shit) and 2. telling someone else about MY overdose. Honestly💀. Me and my sister know who he was most likely telling anyways bc he only has one friend😽

Anyways rhats all I rlly rememberrrr.. I can probably remember skme other things, or drama that happened before this argument so if you want more of my drama filled life js ask‼️😽

[dicennio]

What are your favorite books ?

Hi, here’s a small list, 

These are prose only, it doesn’t include poetry books or science books but if you’re interested in either of them just let me know. I include two books per author only

The Suicide Club / Strange case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde by Robert Louis Stevenson

Of love and shadows / The house of the spirits by Isabel Allende

Tear this heart / Women with big eyes by Ángeles Mastreta

The complete short stories / The picture of Dorian Gray by Oscar Wilde

Stories of Love, Madness, and Death / The feather pillow by Horacio Quiroga

Kafka on the shore / Sputnik sweetheart Murakami Haruki

The bluest eye / Beloved by Toni Morrison

The Book of Laughter and Forgetting / The unbearable lightness of being Milan Kundera

The bell jar / The Letters of Sylvia Plath I & II by Sylvia Plath

Exodus / Mila 18 by Leon Uris

Gone Girl / Dark places by Gillian Flynn

She came to stay / The second sex by Simone de Beauvoir

The aleph / The book of Sand by Jorge Luis Borges

Mrs Dalloway / Orlando by Virginia Wolf

The Sailor Who Fell from Grace with the Sea / Thirst for love Yukio Mishima

One hundred years of solitude / Chronicle of a death foretold by Gabriel García Márquez

In search of lost time Vol 1-7 by Marcel Proust

The setting sun / No longer Human by Osamu Dazai

Peter Camenzind / Steppenwolf Hermann Hesse

The plague / The Strange by Albert Camus

The Trouble With Being Born / On the heights of despair by Emil Cioran

Nausea / No exit by Jean Paul Sartre

Human all too Human / Thus spoke Zarathustra by Friedrich Nietzsche

[dragondemoness]

Is it okay to request THH Boys having a s/o who is mute and the ultimate bookworm? Non-yandere btw-

I'm so fucking sorry this took so long-

THH Boys x Mute!Bookworm Reader

Note: I have no idea how to write for several of the guys on this list (particularly Mondo and Yasuhiro), so I'm sorry if they sucked, or if anything came out offensive. Enjoy!

Makoto Naegi

Thinks that you're really cute

He's not much of a reader himself, but if you recommend a book to him, he'll gladly read it

Enjoys reading a lot more because of you

Doesn't mind that you're mute

He'll pick up sign language, or let you try to teach him

You guys have moments where you sit in his dorm room, or yours, and just silently read together

I know I said he's not much of a reader, but he does enjoy manga

If you're even somewhat interested in his manga, he gets SO excited

This boi practically slams his whole stack of manga in front of you

He'll ask you to read one and give your honest opinion

If you like it, this boi is SO freaking happy

If you don't, then he's a lil bit disappointed, but he understands. Manga's not for everyone

And if you're already a manga reader?

Even better!

Even though he's a manga reader, he'll still read whatever you recommend to him

He'll always give his honest opinion

But if he doesn't like it, he'll be sure to let you down gently

"Oh... How did I like the book you recommended? Well... It's not really my thing. B-But don't be sad! There's t-tons of books you recommended that I liked!"

Poor boi doesn't wanna hurt your feelings🥺🥺🥺

Protect this wholesome boy, he loves you with all his hearttt

Byakuya Togami

Loves that you love to read like he does

His types of books are super heavy, complicated stuff

Stuff like Finnegan's Wake is nothing to him

He doesn't mind if you prefer reading lighter stuff, though

But he will try to get you to read something that's tougher than what you're used to

If you do enjoy heavier stuff, cool

Also doesn't mind if you're mute

I hc that he already knows some sign language, so he's prepared

But he'll allow you to teach him what he doesn't know

Byakuya is a very quick learner

With you, he's not afraid to admit he doesn't know something

You guys often read together in the library

Even though it's mostly silent, Byakuya loves sharing these moments with you

He loves having you in his presence

Sometimes, he'll look up from his book and watch you, enthralled in your own book

And he can't help but smile

And when you look up, and give him a smile of your own?

He just m e l t s

Overall, 10/10 relationship, Byakuya is super soft for u

Chihiro Fujisaki

Also not much of a reader, he's more into programming

But he'll read whatever you recommend to him

When you guys have a book that you both like, he'll program an audiobook into one of his creations, and you guys listen to it while cuddling

One of his favorite moments with you

You often hang out in his room and read while he's programming

Also doesn't mind that you're mute

I don't think any of the guys would, honestly

He will use a program to learn sign language

Also finds a way to program sign language into his creations

Alter Ego loves you btw-

At some point, he starts spending a LOT more time in his room

You worry he lost interest in you, until he runs up to you, looking like a tired mess, with the energy of a small child

He tells you that he made a voice box for you

He spent days in his room giving it upgrades and making it super advanced

You're stunned

So THAT was why he spent so much time in his room

'So you didn't lose interest in me?'

You sign to him

His happy and excited demeanor changes to a shocked one

"W-What? N-no, never! Why would you think that?"

'Well... Because I'm mute.'

His face falls as he takes your hands in his

"I'll never leave you, especially for something like that. I just wanted to help you, so you wouldn't have to use sign language anymore."

Using sign language isn't a bad thing of course

He just wanted to make things simpler for you

You're not sure if you want to use the program or not, but you're grateful he made it for you

If you do decide to use it, this boi is thrilled

If you like it, he's soooo happy🥰

He'll help you adjust to speaking, and make whatever changes you want

20/10 relationship, this bean will do anything for you🥺🥺

Leon Kuwata

This boy is anything BUT a reader

Thinks it's boring and for nerds

Teases you a little bit for being a nerd, but it's out of love don't worry

If you somehow find a book that he enjoys, he is VERY thankful

Starts reading more because of you

Asks you to teach him sign language

He's a slow learner, but he tries his best

After a while, he becomes somewhat fluent

We all know he doesn't give six flying fucks about baseball, but if you're interested, he'll reluctantly teach you

But honestly? He would rather read

You often hang out in his room reading while he plays video games or practices guitar

Gets SUPER excited if you're interested in learning

He dreams of being a musician, and he will take all the help he can get

But the love of his life?

Even better!

He'll help you learn guitar, and you help him with sign language

Y'all are an awesome team

And you find him some music books to help him learn guitar

This boi couldn't be any more grateful

Kiyotaka Ishimaru

Also loves to read

His taste in books is classic literature kinda stuff

Lord of the Flies, Moby Dick, A Tale of Two Cities, etc.

Also enjoys poetry

Also reads War and Peace when he has time

But he can't read Finnegan's Wake to save his asshole-

Loves that you love to read like he does

Asks a LOT of questions

What books do you like? What book is your favorite? How long have you loved reading?

Then remembers that you're mute and feels embarrassed and apologizes

He's a very quick learner, so he'll be glad to learn sign language from you

After two days, he's fully fluent

You guys spend a lot of time reading together

Or reading while he's studying

He will read ANYTHING you recommend to him

Anyone who loves reading as much as he does has to have a good taste in books

You guys also listen to audiobooks while cuddling

You take turns choosing books

Overall, also a big bookworm

He is very passionate about you and his relationship with you

15/10 relationship, Taka is loud and proud

Mondo Owada

Again, not a reader

He finds reading to be boring

Will begrudgingly read a book you recommend to him, though

If you give him a book he likes, or dare I say, loves, he acts like a big tsundere about it

"Oh... That book you lent me? It was...! It was alright, I guess. It wasn't nothin' special. But uh... Is it alright if I hold onto it?"

You can totally see through his tsundere facade

Mondo's not fooling anyone

Especially not you

Even when you give him a book he likes, he still doesn't read that often

He would rather play video games or ride his bike

With you of course

Tries to learn sign language, but he's not good at it

His hand gestures are messy and hard to understand sometimes

He's trying okay

He'll just ask a lot of yes or no questions

Believe me, he's trying his best

He loves you a lot, and he is very soft for you

Yasuhiro Hagakure

This guy is a bit of a dumbo-

He just doesn't read-

He'll try to read whatever you recommend him, but try not to give him anything super long or complicated

And don't give him both or he'll fry his brain

Also-

About sign language...

You thought Mondo was bad?

This man is unteachable

If you manage to teach him something, he'll forget it

He's trying, but it just doesn't work for him-

He's not a bad bf tho

Even though he's a bit of a dumbo, he's super sweet

You guys usually spend your time cuddling, or you read in his room while he's fucking around with his "crystal" ball

He loves and cares for you, and he's supportive of you no matter what

Hifumi Yamada

He's not as into reading, unless it's manga, but he'll read whatever you recommend to him

He'll give his honest opinion, and if he doesn't like it, he'll thank you for helping to expand his reading interests

Helping him figure out what he likes and doesn't like definitely plays a part in that

If he finds a book he likes, he's sooo happy omg

Even if he does expand his interests, he still prefers manga

Speaking of, he's asked you to read every manga he's ever written

He wants your honest opinion, but he's literally s w e a t i n g

If you like it, he's overjoyed!

If you don't, he's disappointed, but willing to listen to whatever constructive criticism you have

Asks you to teach him sign language

More like begging actually

Not a particular quick or slow learner

When he learns, he learns

He learns quicker than Hagakure tho-

If you're a manga reader too, he's ecstatic!

Asks you every possible manga question

Favorite type? Favorite trope? Favorite romances?

Overall, he is in deep love with you

If you're a manga reader, and you have a talent for writing, y'all are literally partners in crime

Sweet and romantic, and a supportive bf

Bonus: Monokuma

Oh boi-

This dude-

He doesn't read, doesn't bother to learn sign language

He is fun to be with tho

Whenever he's not clinging onto you demanding cuddles, you guys go out and cause chaos

Whether that's throwing eggs at people's houses or peeing in someone's flowers

No matter what you guys do together, you're wiped out by the end of it

He has fun with you too

Even if he doesn't read, he loves clinging onto you while you read

Sometimes you guys play video games, or just be lazy and cuddle together

He will not let you go anywhere when he's sleepy

Don't bother trying, his grip is too strong-

Even if he won't learn sign language, he doesn't mind that you're mute

He'll ask you a lot of yes or no questions, or you can write on paper

And he won't let anyone give you shit for being mute or for being a bookworm

Overall, a very fun and chaotic relationship, but also loving and attentive

[fukurodaze]

uhm for the 200 followers event (congratulations btw! i’m a long time follower and i rly love your works! 🙆🏻‍♀️) can i request for atsumu and the keywords are milestones, journey, and forevermore.

thank you for sending this in! ahhh thank you for loving my works! my heart went w h o o p i e when i read ‘long time follower’ <3

a/n: this is atsumu x fem!reader, where reader works with the black jackals :)

as drizzling raindrops turn into a nightly storm, the voice on the speaker announces that your flight is, once again, delayed, for another few hours. you blink tiredly, pulling the hood of your sweater up and over your hair, tugging on the strings and tying it in a small bow. your hands come to wrap themselves around the tall handle of your carry-on suitcase, filled with emergency amenities for the second ten-hour journey abroad. 

you let out a soft groan, and atsumu’s eyes flutter open. you feel the arm he has around your shoulders curl up into your neck. 

“wait, what time is it?” he stiffens up, scrambling to find his phone on your lap, “did we miss the flight?”

“it was delayed again,” you cock your head to the glass paned wall ahead, “we might even be staying overnight at this rate.”

atsumu yawns and stretches his arms out, bending down to get to his backpack. he reaches into the side compartment, taking a bright green, rectangular can - mints. he opens the container, shaking out a good four mints, and shoves all four of them in his mouth at once.

meanwhile, you’re stuck with the annoying charger wire that only works when you plug it in a certain angle. you remind yourself to buy a new charger later - you’re not sure when ‘later’ is, but you know it definitely isn’t now, when your feet have melted into your sweatpants that have melted into your seat. you sigh loudly, resting your phone on your lap on top of atsumu’s. 

you look to atsumu, smiling at how his hair sticks up in stray strands after his quick nap. “you nervous?”

he places a hand on your thigh, lightly caressing the fabric of your sweatpants, “for what?”

“your first away game. on the other side of the world.”

atsumu shrugs, and out of boredom, you lazily quip, “you know, the adlers have multiple games in the states all the time,” making sure you stress your tone on adlers and all the time.

at that, he meets your eyes, head panning slowly. you try your best to stifle a laugh, but you only get away with an obvious smirk. 

you lean back, arms crossed, your smirk turning into a smug pout, like taunting him, what you gonna do, huh?

atsumu briefly looks around the lounge, watching to see any of his teammates nearby the secluded sofa corner you two are seated in, before bringing your face in his hand and pulling your lips to his. it catches you by surprise, but you welcome it, missing the feeling of his lips like home. 

he is home, though oddly mint-tasting.

it’s an even bigger shock when he starts to slip his tongue into your mouth, and along with it, a tiny shaped candy you can only identify as his spearmint mentos. 

with a hand on his chest, you pull away, eyebrows furrowed, “what was that?”

he takes out the familiar bright green container, reading its title, “it’s mentos, pure fresh, pure breath, in the flavour of spearmint.”

you roll your eyes, sticking your tongue out, pointing at the mint in the middle of your tongue.

atsumu shrugs, muttering, “well, if you don’t want it, i could just-” 

as atsumu leans in once more, you’re quick to push on his chest, letting him back down onto his seat. you send him a look of question, and he confesses, “can’t get mad atcha.”

his hand returns to your lap, finding habit and solace in the touch. your head nuzzles up against his shoulder, your arms finding themselves around his arm. it’s silent for many moments, only the faint sound of a storm against thick, dual-paned windows.

“do you remember that yellow dress i wore?” you speak, quietly.

“the fifth date dress? the one you said you lost somewhere?”

you lift your head up for a second, eyebrows raised, “if you call it that, then yeah, that dress, you remember it, right?”

atsumu hums, and you continue, “well, i found it.”

“where?”

“it was in this suitcase, for like, three years.” you put a hand on the bag in front of you, “i think it was that one time we fought and i almost moved out.”

this time, atsumu’s hand reaches for yours, fingers intertwining.

“i’m thinking of wearing it while we’re there. we get, like, one free day.” you chuckle, “i heard it was going to be sunny.”

“maybe, if we like it there, we can add that to our list?”

“‘tsumu, our list is already a two-page google doc.”

“better more than less!”

you exhale through your nose with a smile on your face, the mint still dissolving in your mouth, “or maybe, instead of choosing only one place, what about we just go to all of them in like, ten years?”

atsumu jokes, “ya think we’ll get to ten years?”

you give him a light hit on the arm, “we got to five, we can do twice as much, don’tcha think?”

his thumb traces the backs of your fingers, stopping at your fourth, feeling the silver metal band cool to the touch. a small diamond sticks out of the ring, beholding the jewel up. he wants to ask you if gold would look much better as wedding rings, but he thinks the silver matches you just right. 

eventually, atsumu hums, “maybe a late honeymoon wouldn’t be so bad.”

although the storm continues to rage and the flight is continuously delayed, your thoughts start to fill with brighter daydreams. whether it be back in osaka, off to any one of the places on your list, or the place you’re supposed to be going to now, there’s one image that sticks: it’s you, in that yellow dress he’s dubbed a catchy name, prancing beside him, hand in hand. it’s loud around, but surprisingly calm with him, and you can almost feel his heartbeat in your fingers, going the same pace as yours. it’s then that you see the next ten, twenty, thirty, whatever many years, and you don’t find any doubt in the world that you’ll ever get tired of holding his hand.

you scoff to yourself, and at atsumu, whose head is rested on your head. 

you really wouldn’t mind spending forevermore beside him. 

[gaetoeinhaler]

HENTAI || sub!leviathan x hard!femdom!reader

tags ; @luxxlillies

words ; 1.5k+

warnings ; curse words, a bit of pain involvement on levi, hard!femdom!reader, making levi beg, dick sucking

a/n : so help me if i get hated on again, for making this w/ a dom!slight sadist!fem!reader, im not going to be happy. btw, this is my last obey me related content i make. im not taking requests or matchups for obey me anymore. though i will take it for other fandoms. just look at my masterlist & the rules for what fandoms ill do. kinda cringe so beware

masterlist

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boredom had settled over me. it was the weekend, meaning i was free from homework. but, if anything, it gets boring pretty easily. though, it gives me time to think.

does levi have hentai mangas? does he look at hentai? i mean, maybe i do, but, does he? its probably more on the heterosexual hentai side, since he doesnt seem like the type to look at yaoi hentai. though, i don't mind that. should i check if he does have hentai?

        hell yeah. i can disguise it as looking for a manga to read, and search through his collection.

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        after having the otaku demon let me in, buying my excuse of wanting to read one of his mangas. though, he had to lecture me. saying not to dirty or ruin them, etc etc. after he had lectured me, i was free to go.

        looking through the shelves of different mangas, i couldn't find any that seemed to be hentai. i looked at the covers, trying to find any source that he just so happens. finding nothing, i moved to the next manga, taking it out of its place.

        i was about to just call it a day when a small piece of paper was sticking out of the manga. looking back at levi, then at the paper, then back at him. he was busy with games, so he wouldn't notice i've touched the paper. taking it out of its place in the book, i read what message it had written on it.

it was a small list of online hentai comic strips and manga. though, the sites that were written down were not very good sites. they weren't very secured, nor did the manga they have was in high quality. well, except fakku. fakku was probably one of the best places to go to read online hentai.

        though, knowing that levi did look at hentai, answered my question. but the fact that he actually looks at it and not just has it just because.

        it made me wonder what he'd be like in bed. i mean, its confirmed that hes a switch, but mainly a bottom. what were to happen if i dominated him?

those thoughts alone were enough to get me in such mood. smirking, i stood up and walked towards levi, holding the paper in his hands. "hey, levi?" i asked, standing right beside his chair. i looked towards the screen, watching as he had played some sort of shooting game, kind of like call of duty. "did you find what manga you were looking for?" he asked, not pealing his eyes away from the screen.

        "no, not really, but i found something i have a question about." i said. he had just got a headshot, and soon the game had ended. he turned his head towards me, giving me his full attention. "what is it?"

        handing him the small piece of paper, his eyes scanned over the writing and widened. he looked up to me, ready to make an excuse. but, i wasn't going to allow him to.

        "never thought you'd be into hentai, levi. though, that should've been expected for someone such as you." i turned his chair a bit so i had more access, sitting down on his lap. his face exploded with shades of red. "though, i must say, for searching human world sites, you've picked out some weak sites."

i stared into his sunset-like eyes, seeing the emotion they held. embarrassment, excitement, nervousness, and lust. licking my lips, my hand reached down and palmed him through his pants. i could feel the bulge forming, causing excitement to arise within me. small, breathy gasps escaped his mouth, his grip around the piece of paper tightening.

"already that excited?" i whispered into his ear. i could see him gulp from the corner of my eye, having me chuckle softly.

"tell me what you want, levi." i whispered again, palming him harder. his mouth opened, but nothing came out, instead his words were replaced with breathy gasps and small moans. "(y/n)-" he was cut off with my mouth meeting his.

switching my position so i was straddling his hips, i grind against him, feeling him moan into my mouth. my lips met his in a heated kiss, moving against one another and colliding with such passion. i bit at his bottom lip, having him open his mouth and give me access. sliding my tongue in, i could feel his warm tongue against mine. my hands were settled against his chest, my eyes wide and staring into his.

i could feel my panties start to dampen. moving my mouth away from his, i moved my body to where i was kneeling on the ground, my hands placed on his thighs. i tugged his pants down, getting a better clear at his bulge. moving my hands from his pants towards his underwear, i tugged them down.

damn, levi had been packing. i knew of his abs, but damn he's bigger than what i expected.

taking his length in my hands, i started to pump him, a bit of pre cum spilling from his tip. my thumb rub against it gently, adding stimulation there. his breathy gasps turned into grunts and loud moans.

"ahh~ (y/n)~"

i smirked and leaned forward, giving his tip kitten licks. i could see his face darken as his eyes shut. his hands were gripping the handles of the spinning chair, his head thrown back as his moans flowed out. i licked from the bottom of his length and up towards the top, teasing him. i made sure to put pressure on the veins, hearing his groans becoming louder.

giving into his silent pleas, i took his length in my mouth, bobbing my head up and down as i sucked against him. i watched as his grip on the chair grew tighter and tighter, his fingers turning white from how hard he was gripping it. his hips bucked up, meeting my mouth. his length was shoved farther into my throat. letting out a low growl, my hands moved from his length and towards his hips, holding them down. i glared up at the demon, seeing his eyes open as i stopped.

lifting my head up from his saliva covered length, i glared at him. i didn't say anything, as my actions were enough to for him to understand. "change into your demon form." i ordered. with no time waisted, his set of horns and tail had appeared. the diamond like scales were visible against his neck. pleased that he had obeyed, i made quick work to stripping him free of his clothes, with his help.

        stripping myself of my own clothes, i sat in his lap once more. my heat just above his cock. slowly, i lowered myself onto him, my tightness engulfing his thick cock. he groaned, his hands finding there way to my hips. angered, i hit them, and he retracted them as soon as they were there. confused, he stared at me.

"you won't control my actions, leviathan." i growled, slamming myself down on him. his eyes widened, his mouth agape. a loud moan came from his throat.

"i'll control you. and if you're good, i'll make sure to treat you." leaning in, my hand slithered down, grabbing ahold of his tail and gripping it gently within my palm. my fingers caressed against the scales, adding intense pleasure. "but, if you're bad, i'll make sure to punish you."

with that, i let go of his tail and lifted myself off of him. "who do you belong to, leviathan?" i asked, making sure to use his whole name. his face was beet red, he uttered out a response. "y-you.." it was a whisper, barely audible. "what was that? i couldnt hear you~" i cooed, before hearing him shout. "YOU! I BELONG TO YOU!"

slamming my hips to his, his length fit fully inside me. his tip hit my g-spot, a loud moan coming from me. he groaned, as well. "that's right, you belong to me."

giving into both of our silent pleas, i started to ride the demon. my hips meeting his in a face manner, his tip hitting that special spot every time. my hands gripped ahold of his horns, in result to him moaning loudly. rubbing and gripping them harshly, my chest rubbed against his. my breasts were bouncing and pushing against his skin.

his tail made its way to toy with my clit, gently rubbing it, adding more waves of pleasure to course throughout my body. tears pricked at my eyes, wanting to spill out.

"i-i'm about to c-" i cut off levi, smashing my lips to his and slipping my tongue in. our warm muscles glided against each other, my hands harshly gripping on his horns.

slamming my hips on his, his seed shot inside of me whilst i experienced my own orgasm. panting, my grip ahold of his horns weakened, my body weakening and giving out. collapsing against his chest, i tried to catch my breathe. "that was..."

"AMAZING!" he cried out. "idiot," i chuckled. "i never said you could cum."

[2dmenenthusiast]

Let’s be sad together (Peter Parker x Depressed Reader)

A/N PLEASE READ!!: heeey so before we get into this, this story is told in the first person, which I know some people don’t like but I felt it was best for this particular fic because there is some self-hate in here and I didn’t want the reader to feel targetted and make them feel like shit? I hope that made sense. keep in mind this fic deals with themes of DEPRESSION, something I myself struggle with. So if you’re not comfortable with this, please don’t read. I’ve read plenty of x depressed! reader fics, and most of what I read doesn’t do the feelings justice or it romanticises depression. It’s usually like “oh youre depressed? Well i love you and boom youre fixed!” Yeah I hate shit like that lol. But I am certainly not trying to romanticise depression or mental illness by writing this. I wanted to make a fic people like me can relate to, the thoughts and feelings, etc. It was honestly super difficult, I wrote the first draft and completely scrapped it cuz I hated it. I really tried my best here, guys, and I hope you like it. And always remember that you’re not alone and things do eventually get better. It just takes time and a little help. Once again I tried to keep the reader as nuetral as possible so everyone can read! (I fucking suck at titles btw)

Plot: Peter notices something’s been wrong with you lately, and you prepare yourself for the inevitable break-up once he confronts you about it.

Words: 2,562

Warnings: Themes of depression and anxiety, self hate, angst

Loving Peter Parker was absolutely suffocating.

Sometimes I couldn’t decide if dating him was the worst or best decision I ever made, but I knew one thing for sure. He had me wrapped around his finger, and there was no leaving him even if I tried. Not that I wanted to. Peter is… well, he’s perfect. Sure, he’s dorky and can ramble about technical stuff that I can’t even begin to understand for hours on end, but if anything, those things only added to the list of reasons why he’s perfect. Oh, and he’s Spiderman. My boyfriend is Spiderman. In other words, nights were spent worrying about whether he’d make it home safely or not, and some were spent patching him up when he came knocking on my window after a particularly bad fight. He made me happy. Happier than I had ever been probably. So… why did I still feel this way?

At first, a part of me thought that being with Peter would… fix things, I guess. That maybe if I was in a relationship, it would cause all the rushing thoughts inside my head to go away. And at first, it did help. There were more nights that I could sleep peacefully, and there wasn’t a constant feeling of anxiousness sitting in my stomach. But of course, that relief never lasted long. I knew it wouldn’t, but a part of me hoped it would.

Overthinking had always been an issue. Every situation had a “what if,” and this was no different. Thoughts of Peter leaving me began to occupy my mind almost every second of every day, and now, rather than feeling relaxed in his presence, I felt a constant feeling of anxiety. Like my heart was stuck in my throat and I couldn’t breathe, an invisible weight crushing my chest. Sometimes I’d get so overwhelmed with my feelings that I’d have to leave the room and calm myself down so that I wouldn’t cry. And other days I’d completely close myself off from everyone, laying in my bed all day and feeling so upset and worthless.

This wasn’t Peter’s fault. No, he treated me like fucking royalty. This was due to my own dumb self and my own dumb emotions and my dumb fucking ways of overthinking shit I shouldn’t even be thinking about. But it’s always been like this, and no amount of listening to sad songs and telling myself everything was going to be okay was going to change that. I wasn’t immune to feeling insecure either. Especially when Peter hung out with his other friends, but I immediately told myself not to think about that stuff. I didn’t want to be that partner that gets jealous of their partner’s friends when I’m not getting every second of their attention. No, thinking that way felt toxic, and that was the last thing I wanted to be.

But sometimes, I couldn’t help those thoughts from sinking in. There were so many people out there. So many people that were funnier and better looking than me… So why did Peter settle for me? Why would he want to date someone with so much fucking baggage? Someone who could barely get out of bed in the morning while already wishing for the day to be over? Someone who thought so fucking little of themselves as a human being? There were times where I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror, because those were the days I really hated myself. Sometimes I feel like he fell out of love with me a long time ago and now he won’t leave me because he feels bad, which only made me feel worse for keeping him in a relationship he probably didn’t even want to be in. 

I couldn’t say anything to Peter about this. How could I? He would just try to fix everything and I didn’t need fixing. I just wanted him there to reassure me that he loved me as much as I loved him. That he wouldn’t leave me because of how mentally fucked I was. Even if he did tell me those things, I don’t know if I’d even believe him. My mind probably wouldn’t even let me. I imagined if I did try to tell him everything I was feeling, I probably wouldn’t be able to explain it in a way that he could understand. I was just so tired. Tired of waiting for the inevitable moment when Peter would break up with me, and I’d be left with an expected broken heart. I’ve even been preparing for the day it happens so that it doesn’t kill me when it hurts, just like I do with every situation. Rather than give my hopes up and be disappointed, I just assume the worst from the get-go. 

I don’t know how it hasn’t happened yet. How he hasn’t noticed the way I just shut down when the day gets hard. How I constantly look like I’m just in my own head, either when all of us are hanging out or when it’s just me and him. I want him to know. I want to tell him all the shit that’s running through my mind, but a part of me is terrified that I’ll just scare him away. So I just pretend it’s fine. Like I’m not ready to bust and rip open at the seams.

Today was another one of those days where I just felt like locking myself in my room and never coming out. However, the usual excuse of “I just don’t feel good,” didn’t work on Peter this time. He knew that there was something wrong. I could see it in the way he looked at me. I thought I had gotten away with it at first, laying in my bed and mindlessly scrolling on my phone, not even present in my head, just kind of there. But I knew I was screwed when I heard a knock on my window and opened my curtains just to see Peter sitting on the fire escape. I didn’t say anything as I opened the window, just watching as he stumbled into my room while pulling on the sleeves of my hoodie, something I often did when I felt that familiar anxiousness creeping in.

He made sure to shut the window after he was inside, and I immediately shrunk under his gaze when he turned to me, feeling too ashamed to meet his eyes.

“Hey, um…” 

He hesitated, and I watched the way he rubbed his palms against his jeans, almost as if he was feeling nervous. I could imagine how he was feeling, though. I was nervous too.

“I know this is kinda abrupt, um… but I just wanted to stop by and you know, make sure you’re feeling okay and all that. I was worried, so…”

Worried? He was worried about me? I blinked a few times, trying to rack my brain for a quick lie I could tell him, but that wasn’t what came out when I spoke.

“Uh… yeah. Yeah, I’m fine, I just… I guess I’ve just been feeling kinda low today.”

I immediately wanted to swallow the words that left my mouth, not believing that I actually willingly let him know that I wasn’t really feeling okay.

“Oh?” He took a step forward, which immediately made me want to take a step back. “How come? Was today just not a good day?”

Peter was so unbelievably sweet and considerate, I almost wanted to cry right then and there. He always treated me so well… but he deserved someone better. Someone that wasn’t me.

“I-I guess? I don’t know, it’s just kinda hard to explain,” I muttered, reaching a hand up to rub the back of my neck that felt strangely warm.

“Do you wanna talk about it? I have plenty of time. I actually left the group to come see you, so I don’t mind listening.”

My eyes slightly widened as my gaze quickly met his, looking at him as if he was crazy. Hell, he just might’ve been if he stopped hanging out with his friends just to see me.

“You… Why would you do that?” I asked softly, my voice almost a whisper as I tried to keep it from trembling.

His brows furrowed and he tilted his head slightly, looking at me almost incredulously as he stepped closer.

“Do I need a reason? I wanted to see you.”

He said it so confidently, as if he was so positive that he rather be spending his time with me than his buddies. It kind of made me feel a bit guilty. He could be spending his time with his friends and having fun, but instead, he was here, and I was trying not to break down in front of him.

“But your friends… wouldn’t you rather hang out with them?” I asked, arms crossing over my chest as if I was protecting myself from something.

Peter just smiled. “I could chill with them any time I want. Why would I skip out on an opportunity to see my baby, hm?”

My hand quickly shot up to cover my mouth, and I could feel tears starting to push through.

“He wouldn’t say that if he knew,” I thought, and it immediately became harder to contain the tears when he closed the short distance between us and placed his hands on my shoulders, his expression clearly one of concern.

“Hey, what’s wrong? Did something happen?”

I shook my head, sniffling as I reached up and wiped at my teary eyes.

“I’m fine, I just-”

You’re not. You’re really not fine, y/n. This is not fine.

My walls were quickly crumbling down as a tear slipped down my cheek, which caused more to follow, and I let out a choked sob as Peter placed a hand on the back of my head and gently pulled me into his chest, his other hand running over my back. He didn’t say anything, just let me cry to my heart’s content as I gripped onto the front of his shirt for dear life.

“I… I’m not okay, Peter. Nothing’s okay,” I mumbled into his chest, and he gently pushed me back as he carefully held my face in his hands, thumbs wiping at my tear stained cheeks.

“What’s not okay, y/n? C’mon, talk to me.”

“Everything!” I yelled, and I could tell he was surprised by my sudden outburst as I pulled myself away from his embrace.

“Everything is not okay, Peter. Fuck, I just…” I brought my arm up over my eyes as my bottom lip quivered, my eyes burning as more tears fell. “Everything’s just so hard and I’m so tired. And I’m making everything so complicated for myself, it’s not even anyone’s fault that I’m feeling like this. It’s mine.” I sniffled and wiped at my eyes again, but it did nothing to stop the endless tears that had spent too much time being held in. “A-And I don’t know what to do, Peter. I really don’t. I’m so fucking tired of hurting and I just want the thoughts and feelings to stop. Fuck sometimes I just wish I felt nothing!”

I looked up at Peter when he didn’t say anything, and found that he was just looking at me. There wasn’t any judgement or disgust in his eyes. At least, not from what I could tell. He looked… worried. Maybe even a little sad. Was he upset over what I said? Is he bummed out that he found out what I’m actually like? I let out a sigh and wiped my nose against my sleeve, suddenly finding my feet very interesting as I looked down. The silence was fucking deafening, and in that moment, I wanted to throw myself off the fire escape and into traffic below.

“How long have you felt like this?” Peter suddenly asked, his voice quiet as if he was trying to not startle me.

I hesitantly looked up at him, pulling at my sleeves again as I shrugged my shoulders.

“If you’re talking about all the depressing shit, ever since my early teens, I guess. But um… I’ve been having other thoughts recently. Ever since we got together, actually.”

I winced as soon as the words left my mouth. Would I regret this? Most definitely. Did Peter need to know? No, but he deserved to.

Peter frowned. “Really? Like… what kind of thoughts?”

I sighed and ran a hand down my face.

“Fuck, Peter, I just… You’re Peter Parker. You’re Spiderman! And I’m just-”

“Amazing, beautiful, the best partner I could ever ask for. Should I go on?” he asked with a small smirk, and I let out an amused huff as I placed a hand against his chest and lightly pushed him.

“I’m serious, Peter. I’m just… I’m fucked up, okay? Nothing about me is normal, hell the thoughts I have certainly aren’t. And I doubt you wanna be with someone who has so much shit going on with them-”

“Whoa, whoa, whoa,” Peter interrupted, waving his hands in front of my face. “Who said anything about me not wanting to be with you?”

I scoffed. “I mean, it’s a no brainer, Peter. You saw me just now. I mean, sometimes I break down over the dumbest shit-”

“It’s not dumb if it makes you upset,” he said, his tone a bit harsh.

I didn’t know how to respond to that. No one had ever really validated my feelings like that before.

“I-”

“No, y/n. Why would you think any of this would be a problem for me? I mean… No, nevermind, I understand why you would think that. You can’t help it right? But listen to me.” He placed his hands on my arms, making sure I was focusing on him. “No matter how messed up you think you are… you’ll always be my favorite person, y/n. You don’t have to hide how you feel, you don’t need to be scared. If you’re having a bad day, tell me, and we can have a bad day together. We can lay in bed all day and munch on food that will probably take years off of our life, we can do anything you want. Just tell me, okay? If something ever happened to you… shit, y/n.”

He then pulled me into a bone crushing hug, holding onto me as if I’d disappear if he let me go.

“That’s my worst nightmare. I could handle being kicked out of the avengers or any other terrible stuff. But losing you? Just thinking about it breaks my heart, baby.”

I felt the tears rising once again as I took in what he said, not used to hearing someone say these things to me. Leave it to Peter Parker to make me feel completely vulnerable and open, something I usually hated. I immediately relaxed in his embrace, letting out a soft cry as my arms wrapped around his waist and I buried my face in his neck.

“I love you, Peter,” I muttered softly, my heart skipping when I felt Peter’s lips against my temple, smiling against my skin.

“I love you too, y/n. Please don’t ever forget that.”

Maybe opening up a bit wasn’t the worst thing that could happen.

[dearhummingbird]

too easily influenced! I’ve been doing alot of reading and now I want to buy a bajillion books — my Bookshop cart was at $400+! — I feel guilty only because I’ve got so many on my shelves that I’ve not touched! ughh. I don’t know to amend my bookbuying habits other than by staving myself off from bookbuying completely, which is what I’ve done the past year or so. I know I’d feel a lot better if I donated what I didn’t want to thrift stores I just haven’t prioritised it but now it feels real, it feels serious. also it feels like I’m in that place again where I only read books to learn or gain something, or to find a certain kind of answer that will comfort me; nothing necessarily wrong but, I’m older now, you know? I want things to be different, expansive, more so than before. I probably don’t make sense to you and sound pedantic but I understand what I’m talking what. anyway not trying to be dramatic and never want to create or recreate a space of shame when it comes to books anymore, so here’s a list of things I’d love to buy:

Miriam Toews’ Women Talking

Robert Alter’s The Art of Biblical Narrative

Shahida Bari’s Dressed: A Philosophy of Clothes

James Wood’s How Fiction Works

Paisley Rekdal’s Appropriate: A Provocation

Herman Melville’s Moby Dick

these are kinda up there; Miriam Toew’s because she seems funny and manages humour without detracting from the weight of what she’s talking about, i also love the premise of her books; Alter because of Jennifer from Insert Literary Pun Here, she mentions how Alter consolidates what everyone assumes to be narrative contradictions in the Bible to be instead narrative strategies, and that’s something I’m really really interested in because every time there’s a contradiction of some sort I, small-mindedly, doubt the writer and their capabilities, instead of giving them some kind of chance or thinking hey maybe this was an intellectual choice. I’ve realised this and that makes me wonder why I’m such a skeptic reader, why am I this distrustful? so easily put off, so quick to judge.. anyway I think the Bibles very interesting too so I really want it; I want Dressed because I’m starting to sew and I just want to read about fashion through a literary lens, and this looks like it; I want to read Wood because I don’t want to immediately invest in Serious Noticing; I want Appropriate because of @dorothea-rising who has very clearly had a lot of influence on this list! Moby Dick too and because I want to read Gilead, not that I need the former to read the latter but I kind of want to. 

if you really really want my full list I’m going to put it here(also because I want to!!) 

George Saunder’s A Swim in A Pond in the Rain

Craft in the Real World by Matthew Salesses

Luster by Raven Leilani(people either loved this or thought it was meh so I wanna see how I feel about it!)

Savage Conversations by Leanne Howe(because of Claire Reads! <3)

A Brightness Long Ago by Guy Gavriel Kay

Ametora: How Japan Saved American Style by W. David Marx

Detransition, Baby by Torrey Peters(because of that interview about something like how straight people are increasingly seeing the world through a trans lens)

Changing My Mind by Zadie Smith

Braiding Sweetgrass by Robin Wall Kimmerer(duh!)

Lynn Nottage’s Intimate Apparel

All of It Singing by Linda Gregg

The Great Fires by Jack Gilbert 

Lauren Berlant’s Cruel Optimism

Infinitely Full of Hope: Fatherhood and the Future in an Age of Crisis and Disaster by Tom Whyman

Advice for Future Corpses (and Those Who Love Them): A Practical Perspective on Death and Dying by Sallie Tisdale

The Alleluia Files by Sharon Shinn(which I think is out of print which makes me very! upset! I put off buying this one for so long and now I got hunt it down and it’s my fault)

Sleeveless: Fashion, Image, Media, New York 2011-2019 by Natasha Stagg

The Art of Repair by Molly Martin

Notes From An Apocalypse by Mark O’Connell(because of Rosianna Halse Rojas + Parul Sehgal!!)

as you can see I’m kinda lusting for criticism + fashion, and btw I won Ocean Vuong’s On Earth We’re Briefly Gorgeous in a book giveaway(that came with a shampoo that’s locally and sustainably made! <3) which I don’t regret choosing because I’ve wanted it for months but Detransition, Baby was another option of three that I could’ve gotten! see, every book I have is influenced by one person or another and I always question whether I have any kind of readerly instinct because I always just read based on people’s recommendations.. it’s perfectly harmless but idk! Do you do the same?

currently from the library I’ve got The Essex Serpent, Uprooted, Rules for Visiting, The Gatekeeper by Nuraliah Norasid, When A Scot Ties the Knot by Tessa Dare, Love Medicine, Homeland by Barbara Kingsolver + A Cheater’s Guide to Love. 

[everybody-loves-purdy]

Hi again ‘Purdy :) it’s pebblewhisper again. Your rabies wind clan pov sounds amazing bcz 1 windclan pov and 2. Harestar getting rabies. Could you remind me a bit on whistlepaw? I looked up the wiki and must be missing a puzzle piece in my brain because it is not clicking as there isn’t much info on her 😅. It could be because i am switching between time lines so often and the last thing i read was the last hope. What did you think of firestar’s death scene btw? Would love to hear how you felt when u first read it/how u feel about it now. I am reading the original guide secrets of the clans rn before bed and under thunderclan’s list of “significant medicine cats” it goes: cloudspots...featherwhisker, and spottedleaf. Um. UHM HELLO WHAT ABOUT GOOSEFEATHER?!?! What is this goosefeather erasure??? Excuuuse me!?! I turned to my bf and he says “maybe starclan didn’t want to include him because he was crazy”. 😭 Also i wish we knew more about him visiting w both star clan and the df. Wish that novella was a SE! Am i crazy but have we seen goosefeather in the afterlife? (Prologue or something in starclan?) I am fuzzy on goosefeather rn for some reason. Can only think of snippets while he is alive but not after his death. (Like is he only in starclan or does he appear in both places after he dies?) Sorry for the long message it is nice to catch up tho! Would love to hear more about the whistlepaw/harestar thing also omg could u imagine breezepelt w rabies 😳

Hi again Pebblewhisper!

Whistlepaw hasn’t physically made an appearance yet they are a WindClan warrior apprentice (I think they’re supposed to be female but Kestrelflight referred to them as a male in the last book so for now gender fluid or trans Whistlepaw for the win lol), and basically in Darkness Within Kestrelflight talked about how he would like to take Whistlepaw on as an apprentice very soon since they seem interested in being a medicine cat - so hopefully we should get to meet Whistlepaw next book.

And yeah Firestar’s death scene - when I first read it was very sad and pretty cool and then was like “wait - that was a dick move for StarClan to drop a tree on him like that” and now although now apparently he was a gonner before the tree got dropped on him I still find it kind of funny how in my mind he wasn’t dying quick enough for StarClan so they dropped a tree on him to help speed up the process lol

Yeah this Goosefeather erasure is unacceptable- poor guy deserves better - and yeah I would have definitely been down for a Goosefeather SE rather than a novella - but I still do love the novella. About Goosefeather being in StarClan I did have to check up on that because I wasn’t 100% sure but he does appear in StarClan in Bluestar’s Prophecy and The Last Hope.

To be honest I imagine Breezepelt with rabies might not be too different lol. But yeah Harestar could have easily got infected a while ago and not noticed so this mysterious disease could seem like it comes out from nowhere I wouldn’t be surprised if the cats thought that StarClan had cursed Harestar - and even if Harestar loses a life and becomes fine, if he bit or scratched anyone they could potentially start showing symptoms after a few weeks leading to even more panic - and since it has such a long incubation period in cases maybe there could be paranoia growing in WindClan over who would show signs and when with cats turning on each other and trying to isolate to avoid being infected - and maybe a small group could turn to a more extreme version of their religion to try and appease StarClan so they can be spared from their apparent wrath. And since rabies has no cure once it’s symptomatic I can’t imagine how desperate and despairing Kestrelflight and Whistlepaw could get. And maybe if news spreads of this disease the other Clans could think that WindClan is cursed? Rabies could genuinely be so interesting

Never apologise for a long message - it was nice to catch up! Sorry for rambling a bit about rabies there at the end lol

[notsolstice]

Hey!! So that post about wayward son (after realizing not the song) made me monkey side-eye my bookcase to the two novels on my bookshelf and I googled what ppl's beef w her is and long story short, books are in the garbage lol. I literally only bought them bc of the Kevin wada art and never got around to reading them, so yeah waste of money, but no skin off my nose. That being said, you got any recs for some good books?? I don't think I have a particular preference, but I'd def prefer non-fiction (I get enough of real life from daily news articles tbh). If it's too much work, don't hesitate to trash this ask, but I just thought I'd give it a shot since u seem well read and I literally don't think I've read anything extensively since I hyperfixated on the Sherlock Holmes anthology for 16 hours straight lol

oh hell yeah successfully tricked someone else into thinking i am well-read

and oh yeah i know i joke but yea don’t read rainbow rowell’s books because it doesn’t matter how many beautiful covers she gets from a collab with a high profile asian american artists there’s no excusing her first mess of a book. plus the fact that they’re apparently making a movie (???) she’s really not trying to apologize or rehab her image very well lol

BUT ANYWAYS idk if you meant fiction instead of non-fiction but if you’re after non-fiction unfort I will not be of much help since I’ve read like, 2 non-fiction books in the last 10 years and I almost exclusively read genre fiction so apologies in advance if this list is useless 2 u. also just fyi i don’t really read modern YA because I’m a crotchety grandmother so if you are looking for YA that is more woke then I will also not be of much help here. and don’t read the raven cycle no matter what tumblr tells u

the southern reach trilogy by jeff vandermeer. the books are probably my all-time favorite sci-fi literature ever, although calling them sci-fi is probably not accurate. more like magical realism science fiction? first book starts with a team of all-women scientists exploring an area that is hostile to humans on behalf of a shady institution and things get weird from there. the second book drags a bit but it is SO worth it trust me. don’t watch the movie

piranesi by susanna clarke. this is her most recent book, and I’m reccing it instead of her first book, jonathan strange & mr norrell because piranesi is a quick read compared to jsamn which is 800 damn pages long and dense as HELL and probably a little intimidating if you’re out of practice reading. however I do also recommend that if you have the patience.

DISCWORLD by terry pratchett. the discworld series is actually about like 50 books or something ridiculous and ugh ok I was trying to keep this not intimidating but it’s so worth it I promise. dw was a foundational text to my sense of humor which, actually hm. that might not be the best endorsement but whatever. it started out as just a parody/satire of those trashy fantasy books from the 70s-80s but it expanded into its own universe. also you may know it if you watched/read good omens, sir terry was the other co-author besides neil gaiman. you do not have to read them in chronological publishing order btw, they’re actually more like comics, where you can pick a character/set of characters and read their series within the larger canon. there are a lot of reading order lists out there so it’s pretty easy to pick one and start, but I can definitely help more if u want!!!

salt: a world history by mark kurlansky. ok this is a non-fiction book I just picked up and it is very interesting despite the title but this has exhausted my recs for non-fiction i’m sorry. or you can read the giant book about cancer the emperor of all maladies which was great but wiped me out on non-fiction for about a decade

the matthew swift series by kate griffin. i think it’s got some other fancy name as a series title but i literally cannot remember it right now oh well. not the highest brow of Great Literature but i loved this series about a sad man brought back from the dead to do magic with garbage bins and telephone booths. and it’s a series of books about adults doing magic but in no way can it be described as “harry potter for grownups” so that earns it points immediately

wilder girls by rory power. oh wait I did read one YA book that I liked!!!!! this is kind of similar to jeff vandermeer’s writing, although a little less intense. there’s a lot of body horror and feral teenage girls and is delightful to read if you were at any point in your life a feral teenage girl

the starless sea by erin morgenstern. skirting the edge of YA with this one but it was fun and gay and what you should read instead of wayward sons. or just read some spn fanfic i got recs for that too

I have a lot more books I’m trying to read now but I feel like this is a decent place to stop before I start recommending chuck palahniuk and embarrassing myself with my cishet male taste

[some-cookie-crumbz]

Meet Cute prompts, 47" w TodoDeku???

OOOhhhh boi~! This was a real fun one~!

Prompt: Texting the wrong number but continuing the conversation.

"Get a studio apartment!" Natsuo had insisted. "You don't need a lot of space and it'll be more cost efficient!" He said.

Shouto made a mental note to inform Fuyumi that she was his only sibling now.

He groaned as he dropped his school bag and umbrella by the door, then kicked off his shoes. A loud clattering came from the small half-wall that separated the living room space from the bedroom space, watching as a cream colored cat tower toppled right over with a black and white lump fluffed to about twice his normal size clutching the side of it. He winced at the loud clatter it made, knowing that his neighbors would have words with him about that later, and let his head fall back. "Punchy," he breathed out, barely restraining the frustration in his tone.

An excited mewl came from the cat and, when he glanced back down, he'd abandoned the tree and was making a beeline for Shouto. His tail was up high and his yellow eyes gleamed with excitement.

"Punchy," he said, kneeling down to scoop him up, "why do you do this? Do you hate your tree?" He knew he was just talking to himself, but it helped to relax him. When he first got his apartment, he had been surprised by how lonely he felt. Fuyumi had suggested he get a pet, to help keep him company. Looking into it, he found that cats were listed as the best apartment animal, since they were typically pretty independent and could handle long stretches of time alone better than most breeds of dog.

Except, as fate would have it, Shouto had picked the clingiest, neediest kitten to ever exist. Not that he minded, really. He appreciated how affectionate and chatty his four-legged friend was. He just wished that his apartment was a little bit bigger, since it seemed that his rambunctious feline might need more room. 

Punchy let out a chirping little mew in response to his question before headbutting up against his chin. Shouto snorted a bit, bringing one hand up to gently scratch right between his eyes, then gave a few right between his shoulder blades and set him down. He propped the cat tree back up before changing out of his wet clothes and into something dry and warm.

Once that was done, he settled on the couch, his cat right behind him, and started reading articles on his phone. Punchy curled up on his stomach and he dropped one hand to gently pet his head and back, smiling at the rumbly purrs he was awarded. Things were all quiet for about fifteen minutes before his phone pinged with a new text messaging from an unfamiliar number. Which was followed almost immediately by another.

Shouto scowled and toggled over to his messages, clicking on the unread texts.

xxxx-xxx-xxx (5:34 P.M.):

JDOWOJDKIDI ITTY BITTIES

I FOUND ITTY BITTY BABY KITTIES

He blinked slowly, tilting his head curiously at the message. He wanted to say they were excited, but they could also be panicked and looking to ask a friend for help. He figured he should let them know, so they could make sure the tiny kittens were well taken care of.

Me (5:36 P.M.):

Sorry, wrong #

He then paused for a few moments, considering his next move carefully as interest took over, before jotting down another message.

Me (5:38 P.M.):

But pics or it didn't happen

He waited a full ten minutes, waiting to see if he heard back, before settling his phone aside and going to make himself dinner. By the time he was done preparing his own meal and serving Punchy's evening serving of wet food, his phone chimed again several times in a row. He set his plate down on the small table, slid to sitting, and pulled up the message.

He was greeted by several pictures. The first was a picture of five bundled up little fur balls, all squished together in a big and fluffy towel, being cradled by a lightly tanned arm littered in scars. All five had their heads tilted up to stare at the camera and he let out a small whine at how cute and tiny they all were. They were even smaller than Punchy when he brought him home eight months ago! And all their eyes were still that foggy blue-grey all kittens had until their natural color developed. They probably weren't any older than four, maybe five, weeks.

The pictures to follow were of the kittens individually, carefully held up in individual towels so that their markings could be better seen as well as to perhaps determine their genders. The first was mostly brown, but had white mittens on all four paws, the tip of its tail and ears, and it’s little chin. The second was of a little orange tabby kitten, but they seemed to be wiggling about too much and a portion of the green towel the mystery texter had bundled them in was covering the top of their little head. The next was of another tabby, but this one was grey; light grey over most of the body with darker grey stripes and little white paws just like the first. The fourth kitten was another brown and white mix, with the same white markings on their paws and tail as the first, but there was more white along their face, with a strip of brown leading from their little pink nose and getting wider and arching around his eyes and head. The last kitten was a tuxedo, much like Shouto’s own Punchy was, and had markings that seemed to be a sort of hod-podge of the first and fourth. Number five had the same white on its paws and tail as they did, but there was a bit more mottling on its paws where the fur colored changed from black to white - while the divide was clear on the other kittens - and there was more white markings on its face with a thin strip of black under each eye.

All in all, a ridiculously adorable litter of kittens.

Me (6:24 P.M.):

Oh no

They cute

He set his phone aside as he started to eat, turning the television on and switching it over to a crime show for background noise. His phone pinged two more times in the minutes to follow, but he waited until he was mostly done with his food to check again.

xxxx-xxx-xxx (6:27 P.M.):

rite?????

xxxx-xxx-xxx (6:33 P.M.):

Pic

I mom now

The picture was of all five kittens, nestled in their towels and being held between what seemed to be a heating pad and what was clearly a well-defined chest. And that chest was attached to a face, too. He seemed to be about Shouto’s age with wild green curls and big, bright, wide green eyes. His cheeks were covered in freckles and his lower lip was jutted out slightly, clearly melting over the five furry babies in his arm. Shouto’s heart gave a quick jolt in his chest.

Oh no, he was cute, too.

Me (6:44 P.M.):

I want them on the weekends and holidays.

xxxx-xxx-xxx (6:46 P.M.):

um?????

I am a strong, independent single cat mom who don’t need no man.

Shouto chuckled to himself at the response. He looked down at Punchy, who had clamored back into his lap and dozed off, as he came up with his response.

Me (6:49 P.M.):

You're breaking the family up.

They need their older brother.

xxxx-xxx-xxx (6:50 P.M.):

waIT

u hav kitty???

PICS NAO

Shouto laughed before clicking over to his gallery. He had plenty of pictures of Punchy, but it was determining which ones to send. He shifted through before selecting three. He picked one from when he first brought him home, when he was still just a teeny fuzzball, and put "Smol knockout" underneath. The next one he picked was from about two months ago, when his friends Tenya and Momo had come to hang out one evening. Momo had purchased a little red and black striped tie for him and, not wanting to miss a good photo op, they had put it on him and taken a few pictures. He added the notation of "Business casual Punchy" to that one. Last was from two weeks ago, when he'd come out to see Punchy sitting on the couch like a little person, back legs spread wide to completely expose his pudgy white tum, and one of his front paws resting on the remote as if he was about to change the channel. "It's been a week, hooman," he added to that one.

He grinned and scratched under the aforementioned cat's chin as he watched the little dots appear as the stranger formulated a response. After a moment, he was blown up with emojis and gifs expressing how much he adored the pictures. Then, after a moment, he actually strung words together.

xxxx-xxx-xxx (6:58 P.M.):

I LUV HIM

WAT

IS

HIS NAME

Me (6:59 P.M.):

His name is Punchy

xxxx-xxx-xxx (7:00 P.M.):

DID U NAME HIM AFTER THE CAT FROM AC????

Me (7:00 P.M.):

Ye

xxxx-xxx-xxx (7:01 P.M.):

OMGGGGG

PERF

HE PERF

Me (7:02 P.M.):

He is

From there, they wound up chatting about Animal Crossing, their favorite villagers, favorite games and their opinions on the changes made in New Horizons. They also ended up naming the five found kittens after five more villagers. They chose the names Kitty, Tangy, Lolly, Rudy and Tom for the little babies, given their color patterns and genders. Shouto himself wondered if perhaps he could take Tangy once she was a little bit bigger. Maybe having a little friend would help keep Punchy from going full lunatic when Shouto was away.

But if he wanted to do that, he’d need to know the stranger’s name.

Me (7:48 P.M.):

Btw, I still need to know your name

So I know where to send the custody paperwork

xxxx-xxx-xxx (7:50 P.M.):

u do kno i can counter sue rite?

And then, a second later, he got his actual answer.

xxxx-xxx-xxx (7:51):

Midoriya Izuku

Shouto blinked then chuckled to himself. Midoriya? Really? That felt like a bit of irony, considering the guy was pure green. He added him to his contacts quickly, grateful to have a name to apply to the hot kitten-saving man.

Me (7:53 P.M.):

Todoroki Shouto

Also, wanna come to my island?

I have Raymond

Midoriya Izuku (7:56 P.M.):

KJFGQLIHP9iuoawj;erfkjbhz;.esrhf

YES

IS THAT EVEN A QUESTION????

[angeldolanx]

First time with Grayson

Summary: first time having sex with Grayson, who is not your boyfriend but more then a friend. /btw it’s a part from my fanfiction called Bucket list/

Words: 5k.

Warnings: sexual content 

09.07.’19.

“I thought you aren’t gonna come” I said to Grayson after I opened my apartment's door for him. 

“Sorry we filmed all day” he replied while pulled me closer for a quick hug. To be honest as soon as I mentioned him that I am gonna cook some dinner he said that he is gonna come over later. Well it was around ten already, so it was a really late dinner for him, but he still came. 

After we went to my kitchen I put the pasta that I made to the microwave while he set on the bar stool. 

“How was your day?” I asked.

“Busy, but fun. Yours?”

“Chill. I looked after Sophie almost the whole day” I replied and put the plate in front of him with a fork.

“If it’s good, I am gonna marry you” he chuckled.

“Don’t wanna marry me just because I am good at cooking” I smiled.

While he ate I leaned against the counter behind me and we started to talk about basically everything. He explained what are they working on with E and what are their plans, and kept complimenting the food that was way too easy to create, but it was still cute how thankful he was for it. As he finished he jumped off from the bar stool, put the plate to the washer next to me and stepped really close to me. 

“Thank you” he whispered as he put his hand on my waist and grabbed it slightly. Touched like this were my favorite from him. It was always gentle but still manly, it always sent shivers down my spine.

“You are welcome” I replied quietly too. “You look tired” I added after I looked up into his eyes and put one of my hand gently on his face and brushed my thumb on his dark undereye bags. The way he leaned in more to get more from my touch and closed his eyes made me smile and my heart flutter.

“I don’t slept too good yesterday, noone was there to cuddle with me” he pouted while I just rolled my eyes with a light chuckle. 

“I never in my life had someone to cuddle with, so please don't think I am gonna feel sorry for you “ I grunted that made him laugh.

“You are so special” he looked deep into my eyes. The strong gaze made me look away from him while I bit my lip. 

“Stop” I pushed him away from me, I was still really bad at handling compliments. He just laughed at my reaction and went straight to my living room to lay down on my couch. I hesitated for a few long minutes about what should I say, but I rocked again with my now or never thought and I went for it. “You can sleep here if you don’t wanna drive home like this” I said. I could see that my words surprised him but he tried to cover it with that small smile on his face. Since I started to blush again I went to my bedroom, where Grayson followed me and now he laid straight on my bad. To be honest a men like him looked really great finally in my bedroom, for the first time ever. 

While he go comfortable on my bed, I went to the bathroom. I quickly took a hot shower, washed off my makeup and picked up a hoodie. There was a though in the back of my head that I should pick something more sexier or something, but the whole situation was already new to me and I didn’t wanted to make it even more uncomfortable for me. Before I went out I looked into the mirror and took a deep sigh. There is a men in my bed. At this point my brain tortured me with the thoughts that were on my head, so before I could overthink more I went back to the bedroom. 

“At least I am gonna have someone to cuddle with” he said with a cheeky smile on his face after I turned off the lights and I laid down next to him, but my back faced him. 

“ I am not a cuddly type of girl” I said. He chuckled while wrapped his arm around my waist and pulled me closer to him. The whole thing was just too intimate for me. I tried to took deep breaths for minutes meanwhile just hoped that he is gonna fall asleep quickly and I can move a bit farther from him.  I felt quite embarrassed because of the way my body reacted to him. Of course it reacted. Sometimes I felt like I got horny, because just the way he looked at me. He was just so attractive.

Why I am like this?

I was just angry at myself. It was quiet, but my mind raced with unspoken thoughts. I really tried to distract my thoughts, but I always ended up thinking about the slight poke on my ass. I bit my lip and moved a bit closer to him. My heart started to race in my chest as I moved my hips a bit and grinded myself against him. I thought he is sleeping but his arm tightened around my waist, clearly showing that he was still awake. I needed to bite my lips again when I felt his lips on the back of my neck. He started with small kisses, that slowly turned into little bites when he took my pace with his hips and moved against me. I could feel how he started to harden.

I was a weak idiot. In movies or fanfictions in these situations the girl turns around and kisses the boy or something. And what did I do? I just took Gray's hand off from me quickly,  stood up from the bed and went out to the kitchen. As soon as I was out from the bedroom I took a deep breath.

My whole brain was cloudy and I didn't even understood myself. I felt almost guilty, because Grayson had such a big impact on me, even though the whole thing was normal, just new to me. I never in my life met with a man like him and I hated it, that this situation was completely strange to me where I didn't know what's normal and what's not. I didn't even know his side. What are his thoughts and feelings when he is around me. I wonder if he can feel the sparks too when we make eye contact or is it just something, that I just telling to myself. With these thoughts I was definitely not ready to go back so I went to my kitchen, and poured myself a glass of water.

“What's wrong?”

I jumped a bit when I heard Grayson's deep voice behind me. I took a big sigh, before I turned around and looked at him.  He was shirtless and  a grey sweatpants was the only thing that covered his perfect body. Those pants definitely did nothing to cover what was underneath, only the thought that I caused that made me want to moan out loud. When I looked at his upper body I really tried to not think about the fact that how smooth his skin looked and how beautiful and attractive his muscles were. His mouth were so plump, pink and soft and the fact that he was such a good kisser made me wonder how they would feel somewhere else on my body.

I forgot to breath for a moment when I looked into his eyes, which looked darker this time. His gaze was so hard while he made eye contact with me.

“I was just thirsty” I answered the question that he asked and took a sip from the cold water, but I still tried to keep the eye contact with him. I saw how my response made his muscles tightened and he run his hand through his soft hair. God, if he would be just a little bit less attractive, my whole life would be so much easier.

“ You really answer me that in the most innocent way after the things that you've done?” he asked with a mad sigh. I bit my lip, and tried to look the other way as if it would help anything. “ Stop biting your fucking lip!

His voice was so deep and at this point I couldn't help myself and I let a smile spread on my face, that I couldn't stop. I simply enjoyed that I made this to him. He was turned on, he was frustrated and now he was a bit mad too.

With this smile my nervousness almost immediately eased and the confident me started to come back, who is aware of her abilities and know what she could do if she wants to. I leaned against the kitchen counter with my hand crossed in front of my chest. On my lips there was still a confident smile and now I didn't saw myself as a lost teenager anymore. The way he looked at me was enough to give my confidence back.

The air trapped in my throat when he began to approach me. I stood in a small terrain so it wasn't difficult to him to stood between my legs. He trapped me between him and the kitchen counter and he pushed me hard into it with his hips. My hand were still crossed in front of my chest and I tried to don’t show any reaction to him when I looked up into his beautiful eyes. He was so tall and wide compared to me, he could cover my comlite body with his when he stepped in front of me that close.

When he moved toward me with his face I thought he's gonna kiss me, but he didn't. Our eye contact was so intense, I could see his hungriness in his eyes. He driven me crazy with the fact that his lips were only a few millimeters away from mine, but he didn't do anything. I knew he did this on purpose, as a revenge because I teased him in my bedroom.

I thought now or never, so I stood on my tip toes and pressed our lips together. A manly groan leaved his mouth when our hips grinded because of my moves and then he started to kiss me passionately. He grabbed my wrist with his hands and placed my arms on his shoulders, meanwhile he put one arm around my waist and one on my ass, and squeezed it hard. At the same time his tongues fight for dominance against mine and I was the one, who gave up first and let him control our kiss.  This situation just showed us how stubborn we both were. Maybe that's why he enjoyed it so much when I gave the control to him so he could rule over me, and move me like a doll.

In a situation like this I didn't mind it that much, I was inexperienced and I enjoyed too much our amazing kiss to complain or protest. That quote, that I read the other day made sense now. Don't tell what to do, when I have my clothes on.

I whimpered to our kiss, when he held me closely by my ass to his hips, and keep rubbed his hardened dick against me. He only interrupted our kiss when he lifted me up by my thighs to the counter, and started to  kiss my jawline, making his way downward to my neck, and to my collarbone. I shout my eyes and slipped my hand to his soft hair while the other caressed his nape. I let out a breathy moan, when his cold hands slipped under my hoodie and grabbed my boobs while he kissed my neck softly and slowly, nibbling on my skin.

At this point I couldn't even think about anything. His soft touches and kisses made my head dizzy and I was so wet, only because of him and he didn't even touched me there yet.  

I was a bit confused when he stopped for a second and pulled a bit over from my neck and stared deeply into my eyes. He's hand still caressed my back and I moved closer to the edge of to counter so I could wrap my legs around his waist. I wanted to be as close to him as possible. I really didn't wanted to let him go.

“ You are so beautiful” he whispered. My lips were probably swollen from our kisses, and I could just imagine how messy my hair was and how red my cheeks were. As response I just bit my lower lip with my teeth and he immediately got on the opportunity and pulled my chin a bit, so I let out my lip and he bit it instead.  I smirked, I knew that biting my lip was his weakness and he probably fantasied about this situation a lot.

I was a bit surprised when I suddenly didn't felt the counter anymore underneath me because Grayson picked me up. I crossed my legs tight around his waist, while he held me. On our way to the bedroom now I was the one who started to torture the sensitive skin on his jawline first, and then moved down to his neck. As my lips brushed against his skin mixed with some kisses it was easy to find his weak spot. When I reached a point underneath his jawline his body tightened and grabbed my ass hard. I smirked and tried to gave that spot some extra attention till we got the my bedroom. He laid me down on my soft mattress gently and as he leaned over me and as he supported his weight on his arms the muscles tightened on his biceps. I caressed my hand on it slowly while he looked down at me with assertive eyes.

“I wanna see you” he whispered and reached to my lamp to turn it on, which filled the room with warm light. As he leaned back to me, now he pressed his whole body against mine and I spread my legs more so he could fit easier between them. When he touched my face with his hand and put back my hair under my ear I started to think about how could he be so gentle but passionate too at the same time. He drove me crazy with that. “ Are you sure, you are ready? “ he asked while looked deep into my eyes, like if he would need my absolute full consent before continuing.

“ I can't think of anything that I want more right now, than this” I answered and caressed my thumb on his soft lips.

His hands reached to my hoodie and I arched my back a bit so he could pull it of from me easily. I layed in front of him in a black lacy pants, while he sat on his calf and glazed down on me. He was the first men ever who saw me like that, but I liked how I looked in his glaze. His jaw clenched and his eyes burnt my skin.

He leaned a bit over and he put his hand on my neck and slowly began to slide down, while his eyes followed his hand's movements.  I held my breath back, his fingers moved around on both of my boobs and gently grabbed them, then moved towards.  He caressed my stomach, and when he reached the edge of my pantie I bit my lip and took a deep sigh. When he looked up to my face and saw that I am a bit tense he towered over me and he left a kiss on my forehead.

“ I got you, angel” whispered Grayson. The nickname made my heart flutter and I tried to derive my tension with a passionate kiss. He probably knew why I did that because I felt how he smirked and let me dominate as our tongues danced wildly. I got into that kiss so much, my brain just turned off and I didn't even realized what he was doing until I felt the cold air on my crotch area and he dropped my panties to the ground.

When he found a certain point,  which I didn't even know that is exist behind my ears, my body jolted and a slight  whimper came out from my mouth as he started to work on my weak spot. I gripped his biceps and moved my head to the side to give him even more space. His wet kisses slowly turned into harder sucking, till I hissed a bit when he gave me a hickey. As I let out a quiet moan I  still felt embarrassed to be louder, but for the first time in my life I didn't had a chance to overthink it, because his hands started to move downward to my boobs, down to my stomach and now he didn't stopped. I bit my lip because of the first feel of his fingers touching my pussy. As Grayson’s fingers began to lightly roll around my toes curled and I grabbed into the mattress with one hand, while the other slipped into his soft hair.

“You are so wet” he smirked down at me and I felt that my cheeks flushing in excitement yet embarrassment at the same time.

As he worked on my pussy I spread my legs more and at this point I was completely his, but I still completely trusted him. Her fingers slowly drifted down from my clit and he slid a finger into me, slowly at first.  Wet sounds of his fingers plunging in and out of my pussy could be heard from my bedroom as he started to move his hand faster. When he added an another finger my gasping started to getting louder with some moan.

“God, you are so sexy” he whispered to himself. His jaw clenched and I could see how frustrated and turned on he was too. I was glad that he kissed me, while he fingered me so good, my loud moans died in our passionate kiss. I needed to break our kiss to get some air when he curled his fingers and hit a good spot. At this point I didn't give a fuck about being loud or nah and I let out a really loud groan. “I found it” he smirked while I hid my face in his shoulder.

My brain was already completely fogged, the whole situation was so intense but still felt so good. I thought I should be a bit braver, so I moved my hands down on his muscular body and grabbed his rock hard bulge through his sweatpants. As I squeezed him a bit his loopy eyes wanted to shut tight at the feeling, he even came out of the rhythm with his fingers but he quickly pulled himself together and started to fuck me even harder with his fingers.

“Are you close? I can feel you clenching “ he mumbled to my neck.

“ Uhmm” I replied, and he started to finger me even faster and deeper than ever. The feeling in my stomach started to become more and more intense. I lost my self control, my legs started to shake and I cried out loudly when I came hard all over his fingers.

A huge sigh left my mouth, when he pulled out his fingers and I bit my lip when I looked up to his eyes. He had a confident smile on his face as he leaned over me fully again, and squeezed my ass. I always wondered if he is a more ass or tits guy, but now I am pretty sure about my thoughts.

“I want to fuck you so bad, babe” he muttered into my mouth, and then kissed me hard. I've felt that he can't wait more, so I pulled down his pants with his boxer and he helped me to remove them completely.  He still kissed me violently, his tongue fought with mine, while I slipped down my hands on his back and squeezed his ass. His hips moved a bit further and I felt his bare rock hard dick on my stomach.  With a slight smile I glanced down at him and wasn't surprise by the satisfied grin that I received from him. How is this gonna fit into me. - I thought to myself, and I tried really hard to not show him anything on my face about my thoughts of his size. He was already confident enough.

When he leaned to my nightstand for his wallet I took a deep breath. He opened the condom, and rolled it up to his large and hard dick. As he looked down at me, he saw that I am tense again so he leaned towards me and tried to distract my attention with his soft lips on my neck, on my face and then on my lips. At the same time, I felt that he positioned himself to my entrance then slowly,  inches by inches pushed himself inside me and then quickly stopped. He interrupted our kiss, and closed his eyes tightly, while his muscles tightened.

“You are so tight, holy shit” he said breathlessly. I saw that he really tried to hold himself back from going deeper and faster, while I was tried to distract my  thoughts from the strange feeling, which was oddly uncomfortable but still enjoyable. When I moved my hips he almost immediately understood that I am ready for more, so he continued to move a couple of inches farther.

“Keep.. keep going… “ I whispered while bit my inner lip.

“ I don't wanna hurt you” he mumbled to my neck. I was so fucking angry at myself, when I felt that my heart skipped a beat because of what he said. Just too much has happened at the same time. I started to think about my feelings, but at the same time I tried to get used to the odd feeling that in one minute was so uncomfortable but in the other it started to become a enjoyable pleasure.

When I moved my hips he moved further again and with that when I looked down I finally see that he's full length was in me. For a moment, it was too much. He was deep, so deep inside me, up to the point when I actually felt him almost in my stomach. It felt like this last few inches just stretched me out too much and it even hurt a bit. I spasmodically held to the sheet and pressed my head back to the pillow.

“You okay?”  Grayson mumbled to me when he noticed that I am uncomfortable, with his eyes and voice full of concern. I took a deep breath and nodded instead of answering. He reached to my hand and clasped it with his next to my head in the pillow. We looked deep into each others eyes. He was so attractive with the few sweat drops on his forehead and with the messy hair that probably I caused to him. At this point I knew that I fucked up, and it's gonna be really hard to be just friends with him in the future.

I felt like he would wait infinity, if that's what good for me, but as soon as the uncomfortable feeling eased I pulled him down to a violent kiss and I started to rock my hips as much as I could under him. He groaned to my mouth and then started to move his hips slowly. Inside me and back out. Again and again.

“ Oh my god” I whimpered as my face scrunched up in pleasure. Grayson looked surprised, but then he smirked down at me and he started to move braver. I knew he liked, when he heard my voice. I let out a breath that I didn’t know I've been holding while he placed his hand on my waist and started to thrust his hips. Rougher, deeper, fester but yet in a gentle motion. “ Fuck, it feels so good” I whispered with a breathy moan.

“So good” he repatied as he bent over and groaned to my ears.  

“Faster” I gasped, while my nails digged to his back from the pleasure.

“ Are you sure?” Grayson moaned in surprise.

“ Uhmm” I mumbled and for a second I clenched my walls around his cock. He hid his face in my neck to try to suppress his deep groan, and he couldn't take more. He began to move harder and faster, which was enough to make me start to feel the knot in my stomach get tighter and tighter. “ I am so close” I whimpered to his ear.

“Come on, angel. Cum for me” Grayson said while his hands moved down and grabbed my ass. My legs started to shake and my walls clenched around him. Grayson began to slam his hips into mine, ramming my walls a bit harder while small moans of pleasure began to leave his mouth too. I tried to roll my hips automatically into his, trying to shove him even deeper inside me. His cock stretched me out so well and the only thing that I could think was the pure pleasure that he gave me.

“Yes...yes. Grayson” I cried out when I came hard around him. My breathing was heavy when I hid my face in his neck. I completely lost my control and just gave myself fully to the pure pressure. Grayson kept going fast until I felt his cock twitching inside me. He let out a manly, deep groan and I even gave him more pleasure when i clenched my walls while he cumed. He was so sexy, his head fell back, and he closed his eyes tightly. His hips moved back and forth slowly to ride out his climax and then stopped. Before he pulled out he put his head on my chest and I played with his hair while we tried to calm down our heavy breathing. After a few minutes he lifted his head, and looked at me with a cheeky smile on his face, that made me giggle.

“Don't look at me like that” I said and tried to look to the other way from his face.

“Did you enjoyed it?” he asked. His voice was even deeper than normal. His eyes looked for mine, but after he failed he put his hand on my face and turned my face to his way.

“It wasn't clear enough?” I asked. A cheeky smile spread on his face before he placed a kiss on my forehead and laid next to me. “I’ll be back” I said as I picked up his white tee that Grayson wore today and went out to the bathroom.

I needed a few minutes alone to collect myself. As I looked into the mirror a light smile spread on my face as I pushed my hair to one side. I could see a sparkle in my eye that I never seen before and of course the hickeys that covered my neck on one side. As I went back Grayson immediately looked at me with a smile. The blanket only covered his legs, while his arms were under his head. I swear to god he looked like  fucking goddess on my bed. 

“Why are you looking at me like that?” I asked with a small laugh as I kneeled on the bed next to his body. He put his large palm on my thigh and moved it up and down as he looked deep into my eyes.

“Like what?”

“I don’t know..powerfully?” I shrugged my shoulder and even laughed on my own wording.

“Are you okay?” he asked seriously but he was not able to make my mood go down, or any bad thought come to my head.

“Are you joking? I am more than okay” 

Hearing my words he started to laugh and grabbed my waist with both of his hands to lay me down, and he leaned on my again.

“ I'm happy I waited, till I met you” I said now I am a lot more seriously. Instead of a answer he put my hair behind my ear and left a long kiss on my lips.

I was truly happy because that's how exactly I pictured my first time. I didn't wanted it to be a big deal, with flowers and candles and stuff. I know I waited for a long time, around me everyone around my age is a lot more experienced, but I never was ashamed because of it. I knew there's gonna be a guy, who I am gonna trust fully without any back thoughts and a memory gonna stay in me, that I can always look back with a smile on my face. Even if he would say that that’s it, he just wanted a night with me it would be still a good memory, because the whole experience was something else, that I never felt before. He was the one, who called me angel sometimes, that always causes butterflies in my stomach but sometimes I thought he is my angel. A angel who got suddenly in my life and turned it upside down to make me happier than I ever was before.

- lose virginity √

As I wrote in the summary that was a part from my fanfiction. If you are interested how these two got here and what’s the future brings to them on the girl’s trip to LA, check out the book on wattpad. :)

https://www.wattpad.com/story/207823579-bucket-list-grayson-dolan

[nyamafriend]

TELL US ABOUT YOUR OCS!!!!

Bro,,,,,, I love them sm. I’ll just do a quick bullet list of a few and if y’all wanna learn more about any of them (or wanna hear about any more of them) lmk. Some of them WILL be dnd characters, just btw

- First up is my girl Cassie! Her name is short for Cassiopeia bc I love mythology and stars. She’s in her 30s ish, and somehow she went from maybe saphhic to the biggest femme lesbian ever. Also probably ace. She’s very happy and colorful, lots of paintings (yeah she’s an art gay, deal w it) and pins, has like 3 cats. She has fairy lights up everywhere and is probably a plant mom

- Valerie!! I love her. So much. She’s Cassie’s adoptive/foster daughter (not sure which yet, but one of them) and she’s somewhere in her late teens (probably like 17). She only recently came out as trans, and is getting used to Cassie treating her in a supportive way. My girl has a dry sense of humor and names all of her belongings including her piccolo. His name is Bane, short for Bane-If-My-Existence. She is SUCH a cat mom, I’m serious those cats adore her. Her and Cassie have regular nail polish dates where they do each other’s nails and make a blanket fort and watch movies. I love their dynamic, which is great bc I made them!

- Fanta!!!! She’s an elf. There’s a story behind her name. Her dads name is Crush. Her moms name was Sunny (like Sunkist). Fanta isn’t her real name, she has a name that’s much more traditionally elven, but we don’t give a shit about that. Also I don’t remember it. She’s vv cheery, a cheerleader. Ears are a bit long bc of some goblin on her dads side. Somehow saphhic, even she doesn’t quite know what her actual sexuality is but she likes girls! At one point dated her best friend Sapphie, they lasted like 2 weeks max. Her hair is orange (no one is sure if it’s natural or dyed or magic and she doesn’t tell them) and always up in a ponytail. Also a bard, she talented. Accidentally became a little bit of a self insert haha whoops

- Dianin!! God I love this child. They’re a verdan, and my baby. Fine with any pronouns, typically uses she/they but honestly couldn’t give a shit. Vv smart, knows their way around a library. It’s honestly pretty scary. They’re really into stars (there’s some lore behind that but we aren’t gonna get into that now) and are immediately enraptured when you mention space. Very very very curious. Not the most social, so can seem a little standoffish at times but well-intentioned and willing to apologize if that happens

- Atolla Dew!!!!!! I just created her recently and my heart is FULL. This is my water genasi girl (also like 1/8 dragonborn so she has fangs bc I’m a simp) and I ADORE her. Her hair is smoke (might be water if it weren’t so hot and humid where she lives) and she is a weaponsmith! She mostly works with guns and she has her own bc my friend (who will be the dm) said she can have a gun. She’s so extremely scatterbrained and has been late to work countless times, it’s honestly so bad. She reads instruction manuals for fun bc she likes to figure out the inner workings of things. The embodiment of “longer I get my shit together, it’s over for yall” Also might end up dating her roommate Wisp but we shall see how I feel about that. Maybe QPPs

I have so many more and I love them all. If I talk about any more I’ll probably start talking about the dumb dnd characters I’ve made and put them together w their parties bc I love them all equally. Except for Fanta, out of those parties she’s my favorite

Anyway, thank you sm for asking! Fell free to ask me to elaborate or tell me to shut the fuck up

[alexisrodrigues]

SFW Alphabet for Alec Holland

Bc nobody asked, but here we go (pic not mine)

A = Affection (How affectionate are they? How do they show affection?)

 Alec is very affectionate if permission is given. Considering he does not have many friends due to what he did, he will cherish the new ones he may find. In a romantic aspect, likes to cuddle, kiss on the forehead, will either sit on SO's lap or pull them to his. He will probably call to check if his SO is okay during the day. When it comes to family, he's also very caring for his parents and will call them at least once a week to check how they're doing. Not a mama's boy, but, you know, has a deep respect for her due to all the sacrifices she has made to raise him and will not waste his second chance of getting it right this time.

B = Best friend (What would they be like as a best friend? How would the friendship start?)

 He is an easy friendship starter (if given the chance). Alec is easygoing, can and will talk about basically everything and loves to listen other people's opinions on subjects he likes. As a best friend, always checks on his friends well being, tends to plan small meetings for dinner and such, likes to go to the movies with them or just stay home watching anything on TV. Can talk for hours and listen for hours, great listener btw.

C = Cuddles (Do they like to cuddle? How would they cuddle?)

 He loves to cuddle ♡ Alec is the kind of man that knows his hugs and where to use them, so, if his friends and SOs ever feel down, he know just how to hug them to make them cry and feel better afterwards. Has special way of hugging, people can almost tell him their whole lives bc of that. Is the healer kind of hugger.

D = Domestic (Do they want to settle down? How are they at cooking and cleaning?)

 Settle down is def one of his plans. Wants to work as hard as he can to gain people's trusts back and his reputation while saving money for a house, a real home, where Garou can live more comfortably and him himself. Loves to cook and does it whenever he can. Likes to keep everything clean and neat bc he is the organized type (in his own disorganization).

E = Ending (If they had to break up with their partner, how would they do it?)

 Face to face ALWAYS. Honesty means a lot to him and if he ever had to do it (as he did before), he would suggest a meeting in a private place to really talk about their break up and would do his best not to anger the ex.

F = Fiance(e) (How do they feel about commitment? How quick would they want to get married?)

 Not rushing to marry the first person he sees, but, if the relationship becomes steady and strong, would consider the idea, specially if a soul sync between him and his SO exists.

G = Gentle (How gentle are they, both physically and emotionally?)

 Always gentle, even in hard situations. Knows that people react in different ways to everything and will do his best to be part of the solution and not the problem. Treats everyone with respect, even if he's angry with them. As a big hugger, total gentle with people he likes, and even more with friends, family and SO.

H = Hugs (Do they like hugs? How often do they do it? What are their hugs like?)

 BIG HUGGER screams when you look at him. Does it everyday with his SO, and whenever possible with his family and friends. Bear hug, firm, warm and gentle.

I = I love you (How fast do they say the L-word?)

 Considering how easily he falls in love with people, if he's in a relationship where, to a level, he has a lot in common with the other person, specially regarding world view, that will happen in less than six months. If all the passion and friendship is strong and stable, consider three months in for this to happen.

J = Jealousy (How jealous do they get? What do they do when they’re jealous?)

 He is calm in nature and trusts his SOs bc he knows himself and his worth (and would never get himself in a relationship where total disclosure, honesty and an open heart doesn't exists), so he doesn't get jealous, really, but rather annoyed if he figures his SO is being bothered by someone else. Will fight the asshole off if needed, but violence is always the last option.

K = Kisses (What are their kisses like? Where do they like to kiss you? Where do they like to be kissed?)

 Slow and intense, he likes to savour every little thing in his SO. Prefers to kiss where they are by themselves, and will go for the lips first. Loves to be kissed in the neck, it drives him wild.

L = Little ones (How are they around children?)

 He likes them and they like him bc he is the awkward uncle who tells them scary stories if camping and helps them with science stuff from school. Always amazed by their honesty. Would like to become a father once his life is stable enough, doesn't care if by adoption or natural born, but feels that adoption is the most adequate.

M = Morning (How are mornings spent with them?)

 Calm is the best way of describing it. Alec usually wakes up first, showers, dresses and makes breakfast for his SO. If it's a lazy day, will probably walk around the house or apt using his boxers and sandals only. After eating, will either read a book out loud to his SO or have a book read for him, maybe watch fluffy stuff like romance movies and such.

N = Night (How are nights spent with them?)

 After a long day of work, he tends to go home as soon as possible to shower and lay down. Will talk to his SO before sleeping, asking about their day. Sleeps in cotton pajamas bc they're comfy.

O = Open (When would they start revealing things about themselves? Do they say everything all at once or wait a while to reveal things slowly?)

 If the sync is great, intense, if they're on the same page, he will open up as soon as he can, and he will tell them everything, including the mistakes he has made, bc truth and trust are important to him.

P = Patience (How easily angered are they?)

 He doesn't. No, really, like, it takes a real asshole to unbalance him bc Alec knows that anger gets no one nowhere.

Q = Quizzes (How much would they remember about you? Do they remember every little detail you mention in passing, or do they kind of forget everything?)

 He doesn't remember every single thing, but doesn't forget everything neither. Will remember what he considers to be meaningful, tho.

R = Remember (What is their favorite moment in your relationship?)

 Probably the moment he realized he loved his SO.

S = Security (How protective are they? How would they protect you? How would they like to be protected?)

 Protective AF, but not in a overwhelming way. Calls to check on them, if they're injured he'll take care of them (if it's serious, will take them to the hospital in no time). He likes being taken care of, but doesn't feel the need of being protected (mainly bc he doesn't see danger in situations that only involve him, what is a huge problem and is what got him killed in the show in the first place).

T = Try (How much effort would they put into dates, anniversaries, gifts, everyday tasks?)

 A lot. He likes to impress his SO, so even if he's short on money, he'll improvise to make dates and anniversaries special. On everyday tasks, makes sure all is in order at home. If his SO writes the grocery shopping list, he'll maks sure he buys everything. Always has his house or apt clean and in order.

U = Ugly (What would be some bad habits of theirs?)

 Not eating properly at work, not sleeping as much as he should when he has to stay in his lab.

V = Vanity (How concerned are they with their looks?)

 Not much, but makes sure he has a haircut every month. Likes to keep his beard short. Likes to dress simple.

W = Whole (Would they feel incomplete without you?)

 If you were his soulmate and like, happen to die, he would feel a hole in his chest, see the life grey and shit. Nothing would make him happy like before.

X = Xtra (A random headcanon for them.)

 Helpless romantic. Whenever possible, will shower his SO with love.

Y = Yuck (What are some things they wouldn’t like, either in general or in a partner?)

 Too much perfume, his stomach gets upset.

Z = Zzz (What is a sleep habits of theirs?)

 Likes to sleep early, but if not possible, can endure almost a day without sleeping.

Which is really fckng dangerous.