#I wanna be better

[deseos-de-la-via-lactea]

by nutnoce

[tangledinink]

i dont think i really wanna do anything anymore is the thing.

[samykittyautibi]

So... do you remember this woman?

Well, she's Bonnie's mom, and I was hc for quite a long time how her face would look like, and after literal years of not drawing anything and painting it, the muse of art gave me energy to do THIS 👇🏼

Isn't she GORGEOUS?

I really hope so, if not I'm gonna cry 🥺

Aaaaaanyway..., this was made in [Saturday, 18 of May, 2024], the same day I'm posting it <3

Ñeh... I'm gonna post the dates of any art I publish in this website, just to have a sense of order in this HELLISH MESSY place that is Tumblr

Aside from that, here is the undeniable proof that I've done this fanart myself, look how cute she looks without her hair, cranium &... brain °-°

Hopefully I'll post more fanarts of whatever BRAINROT I'm currently on ♥️

[so-pretty-in-my-pain]

I hate who I am rn

Maybe tomorrow will be better

[dramaticsunshine27]

I HATE being like this.

I hate that when I don’t hear from someone important to me, that I think I’ve done something wrong to make them ignore me. When there’s usually a reasonable explanation.

I hate that if I do not receive constant reassurance that I am doing good, being good, or meeting your expectations, that I feel awful and start to worry about our every interaction like it’s about to be our last.

I hate that I when you’re going through something and need space, that I feel it’s actually something I’ve done wrong and you’re lying to me and don’t want me anymore.

I hate being inside my own head.

[skinnybfly]

I had 27 hours of fasting and I broke it because I felt sorry for my mother who bought a lot of good food and saw that I didn't eat...

I'm so sorry Ana... I will become better..

Yesterday (11:01PM) I stared new fasting:))

[delusionalanxiouskid]

cutting myself is not gonna help. I wanna hurt people but they don't give a shit. they are tired of me. tired of taking care of me. I seriously wanna kms just so ibcan see who would care to cry.

I know it's pathetic. I am pathetic. when I get into a fight with someone I think of everything we'll do once we're ok. I'm so pathetic I want to hurt myself. maybe I shd hurt myself not to get attention but to be better. everytimr I make a mistake I sh. yes. I don't wanna dirty myself tho, I don't wanna look ugly. I already am.

[nyxxx-777]

I ruin everything , even when I try SO hard not to…

[urgohthewanderer]

Horse gods

[endusviolence]

Rowling isn't denying holocaust. She just pointed out that burning of transgender health books is a lie as that form of cosmetic surgery didn't exist. But of course you knew that already, didn't you?

I was thinking I'd probably see one of you! You're wrong :) Let's review the history a bit, shall we?

In this case, what we're talking about is the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, or in English, The Institute of Sexology. This Institute was founded and headed by a gay Jewish sexologist named Magnus Hirschfeld. It was founded in July of 1919 as the first sexology research clinic in the world, and was run as a private, non-profit clinic. Hirschfeld and the researchers who worked there would give out consultations, medical advice, and even treatments for free to their poorer clientele, as well as give thousands of lectures and build a unique library full of books on gender, sexuality, and eroticism. Of course, being a gay man, Hirschfeld focused a lot on the gay community and proving that homosexuality was natural and could not be "cured".

Hirschfeld was unique in his time because he believed that nobody's gender was either one or the other. Rather, he contended that everyone is a mixture of both male and female, with every individual having their own unique mix of traits.

This leads into the Institute's work with transgender patients. Hirschfeld was actually the one to coin the term "transsexual" in 1923, though this word didn't become popular phrasing until 30 years later when Harry Benjamin began expanding his research (I'll just be shortening it to trans for this brief overview.) For the Institute, their revolutionary work with gay men eventually began to attract other members of the LGBTA+, including of course trans people.

Contrary to what Anon says, sex reassignment surgery was first tested in 1912. It'd already being used on humans throughout Europe during the 1920's by the time a doctor at the Institute named Ludwig Levy-Lenz began performing it on patients in 1931. Hirschfeld was at first opposed, but he came around quickly because it lowered the rate of suicide among their trans patients. Not only was reassignment performed at the Institute, but both facial feminization and facial masculization surgery were also done.

The Institute employed some of these patients, gave them therapy to help with other issues, even gave some of the mentioned surgeries for free to this who could not afford it! They spoke out on their behalf to the public, even getting Berlin police to help them create "transvestite passes" to allow people to dress however they wanted without the threat of being arrested. They worked together to fight the law, including trying to strike down Paragraph 175, which made it illegal to be homosexual. The picture below is from their holiday party, Magnus Hirschfeld being the gentleman on the right with the fabulous mustache. Many of the other people in this photo are transgender.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of a group of people. Some are smiling at the camera, others have serious expressions. Either way, they all seem to be happy. On the right side, an older gentleman in glasses- Magnus Hirschfeld- is sitting. He has short hair and a bushy mustache. He is resting one hand on the shoulder of the person in front of him. His other hand is being held by a person to his left. Another person to his right is holding his shoulder.]

There was always push back against the Institute, especially from conservatives who saw all of this as a bad thing. But conservatism can't stop progress without destroying it. They weren't willing to go that far for a good while. It all ended in March of 1933, when a new Chancellor was elected. The Nazis did not like homosexuals for several reasons. Chief among them, we break the boundaries of "normal" society. Shortly after the election, on May 6th, the book burnings began. The Jewish, gay, and obviously liberal Magnus Hirschfeld and his library of boundary-breaking literature was one of the very first targets. Thankfully, Hirschfeld was spared by virtue of being in Paris at the time (he would die in 1935, before the Nazis were able to invade France). His library wasn't so lucky.

This famous picture of the book burnings was taken after the Institute of Sexology had been raided. That's their books. Literature on so much about sexuality, eroticism, and gender, yes including their new work on trans people. This is the trans community's Alexandria. We're incredibly lucky that enough of it survived for Harry Benjamin and everyone who came after him was able to build on the Institute's work.

[Image ID: A black and white photo of the May Nazi book burning of the Institute of Sexology's library. A soldier, back facing the camera, is throwing a stack of books into the fire. In the background of the right side, a crowd is watching.]

As the Holocaust went on, the homosexuals of Germany became a targeted group. This did include transgender people, no matter what you say. To deny this reality is Holocaust denial. JK Rowling and everyone else who tries to pretend like this isn't reality is participating in that evil. You're agreeing with the Nazis.

But of course, you knew that already, didn't you?

Edit: Added image IDs. I apologize to those using screen readers for forgetting them. Please reblog this version instead.

[sailormarijuanera]

i fear i've just consumed and consumed for so long it feels impossible to be creative on my own

[hoshizoralone]

reflection

[feelo-fick]

why are you still here, then????

[theauraeater]

maybe one day everything will work out in my favor. for now i am comfortable where i am. the discomfort shows i am capable of change. maybe one day love will come back to me but for now i will just keep loving the creatures and the grass and the people in the world who aren’t me and the love will leak into me and i will be love and then love won’t have to come back because i will take it with me. maybe i’ll stop running away, then.

[raptorrobot]

...like antennas to heaven

link to the full image

[thismylifebitch]

just when i thought i could give myself mercy, I think of all the people that I’ve hurt and left behind. and then I’m reminded that I’ll always be a dog that bites.