#i wanna be normal

[sawiet]

it is hard for me to be mad at my mom for not protecting me when i was little because she couldn't protect herself either

[gummygor]

I know I'm going to relapse but I've only been working for 3 weeks.

I'm afraid of cutting myself again but I want that too

[goddesseris-posts]

Tea in bed because he knows I don’t feel good

[deerbxy]

"Wow you're homeschooled? You're so lucky!!" Yes I love not knowing anything because my parents are too lazy to actually school me, I love how I didn't know times tables or my own anatomy until this year despite the fact I'm turning 15 this year, I love how I had to learn tons of stuff through the internet, I love never seeing anyone my age irl, I love living in the middle of nowhere on top of all of this it's so fun!!!!! /satire very satire

[emotionlesss-switch]

Being asexual and having a tickle kink really blows man

[jaymesdoodles]

me: "I'll go sit with my family so I can ignore my delusions and maybe stop dissociating"

me: *goes outside. the bees won't leave me alone, almost leads me to a panic attack*

[angryatitall]

I am 23, I try to look like a 'normal adult'..i meet up with people for a meeting and it goes wrong right away.

They always see someone who needs help, who they need to talk to like I'm a child.

I try to talk with them, but I can't. They don't understand me so they just laugh a bit. I am tired.

[ruifictiveapproved]

today has honestly just been such a shitty day im gonns vent about it

woke up exaughsted. is sick. was almost late for school. preparing for testing. got bullied. friends dont like me as usual. band sucked. couldnt play as well as usual, too overwhelming. too sick. got made fun of more. got overstimulated. had to help 6th-7th grader percussion players. they wouldnt listen. one of them talks shit about me. says stuff im sensitive about. gets headache. back hurts. sick. sick and tired. cramps more. gets home and gets yelled at for "sh-ing" when i didnt and for "not telling the whole truth" to my mom when she asked what was wrong. 3 of my friends including partner almost got hospitalized today. got so nervous about a talk another friend wanted to have that i threw up and couldnt breathe for a minute. feels bad for being selfish friend. overreacts. hurts ankle. has 3 seizures. cries. cries some more. doesnt take csre of myself. takes meds. gets judged and yelled at by family more. overworks myself. lays in bed miserably unable to sleep.

[oars]

[thismylifebitch]

just when i thought i could give myself mercy, I think of all the people that I’ve hurt and left behind. and then I’m reminded that I’ll always be a dog that bites.

[gummygor]

I'm not a good person, I'm afraid to say what my traumas have led me to do, everyone has secrets, of course, but I wish I didn't, I wish I was normal, but I see so many like me that sometimes I think I'm normal, and I'm not.

[sandyspaghettibag]

idk how else to explain it, like I've been given more than one chance in the past year alone, it's almost as if I need someone on the exact same wavelength as me to actually fit in with them. is this another cost of being closeted and unable to even talk about who i wanna kiss or am i just a really really bad friend? i guess i'm waiting to find friends who i actually ENJOY spending time with enough to schedule times to see them again. like damn, i really don't enjoy my friends right now and i'm convinced that i'm the annoyingly awkward one in their eyes. case in point: nobody in my real life follows my tumblr or even knows i have one. they don't know shit about me and i can't open up for some reason

[idkhow-butyoufoundme]

I envy basic people sometimes

[red-rover-au]

These are the vibes the first meeting with Big Mama gave off lmao

[rustencohle]

i have been spiralling about something for the past 2-3 hours it is absolutely insane how bad my ocd can get over the smallest things i feel sick bc it's like i can't escape it and the more i try to escape it the worse it gets

[s1xseasonsandamov1e]

I love so much and so hard it makes me physically ill.