#I wrote this on my phone in 30 minutes IDK

[odinsblog]

i havent been inside a grocery store in what feels like forever but last night i couldnt avoid it. when i went inside, there was this kid (maybe 18? 20? idk, im terrible at judging peoples age) swearing up a storm at her phone looking really exasperated, so i asked her if everything was okay?

(in my experience, when you ask people “is everything ok?” they usually say yes even if theyre in distress - people suffer in silence literally all the time bc unfortunately thats our culture - but when someone details out e x a c t l y what is wrong, they are asking you for your help even if they do not explicitly say the words, “please help me”)

she said her phone screen had just died (phone working, but screen display not working) and her parents had just sent her to the grocery store to get some stuff, but they insisted that she write everything down old school on a piece of paper, and the kid adamantly refused bc she said she could easily remember everything. now, unbeknownst to her parents, what she did was write it all down in a text message to herself. but now her screen had just died and she was DESPERATE to not have to go back to her parents for the list

after hearing this i suggest that she just use voice control to read her text messages back to her and she was like 🤯

i said yeah, just say something like “hey siri read back my last text message” and it should read back whatever messages you received recently. lol, and at first she looked like she didnt believe me and i told her to just try it. so she invoked siri and ofc it worked and read her back her text message with the grocery list. it was funny af because at first she didnt write anything down and she was like, OMG I DIDNT WRITE IT DOWN!! but since i was just getting off of work, i had a pen and paper on me so she wrote it down the second time. and she was sooo happy she was literally jumping up and down afterwards. sadly, she said her parents treat her like a dummy (her words) and she couldnt have beared having to go back and ask them for the list

so she gave me a big hug and (masked) kiss on the cheek and thanked me repeatedly and profusely

now here is the really funny part that tickled me and got me laughing out loud: without even the slightest bit of intentional derisiveness, she says, “thanks so much! i really think its great when people your age know how to use technology and computers”

and that was straight up the funniest shit thats happened to me in a hot minute. like, whats next, people holding the door open for me and saying, “here you go sir”? i actually got carded the other day. will that suddenly come to a halt now?

lmao. idc about getting older. i care about *not* getting older. imma live to be 800yrs old istg

so anyway i have about 3 more days left of officially being in my 30s

any suggestions on how i should finish out the last few days of my 30s?

[pupkashi]

priorities

gojo has his priorities straight: you’ll always be the most important

wrote this after waiting for my friend to pick me up after lecture in 30° weather (texas slay) i hope u all enjoy & I’ll get to requests soon <33

wordcount: 1,092

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you’re barely exiting the lecture hall, making small talk with one of your friends when you’re phone vibrates in your pocket, the familiar heartbeat vibration letting you know it was satoru texting you.

“I’ll see you tomorrow!” you call out, the cold air nipping at your cheeks as your friend walks the other way to their next class. you tug the fuzzy jacket you were wearing a bit tighter against your body. small drops of water hitting your eyes causing them to water a bit.

after a bit more walking you mustered the courage to grab your phone from your pocket, exposing your once warm hands to the harsh winter air.

hi sweetheart how was class ?

you smiled at the message, your body feeling a bit warmer at the kind gesture. gojo never failed to text you as soon as your lectures ended.

pretty good , didn’t fall asleep this time :P

gojo smiled at your response, he always scolded you for staying up too late. he’d tell you that you’d be exhausted the next day but you’d always brush him off continuing to either study or stay up for fun with him.

proud of you sweetheart :)

you were about halfway to the bus stop, the cold winds causing your eyes to continue to water a bit. you put your hands back in your pockets, walking a bit faster in hopes of reaching the bus on time.

after a couple more minutes of walking you replied to gojo, asking about his day, trying to keep your mind off the cold surrounding you.

you looked up from your phone and saw your bus approaching your stop. your eyes widened and you picked up your pace, praying to any higher forces it would stop for longer than ten seconds. you walked as quickly as you could, your heart plummeting when the bud left as soon as you rounded the corner.

you sighed, seeing your breath form in front of you. when you pulled out your phone your boyfriend had replied in excruciating detail about the bickering occurring between his students. a small smile formed on your lips as you typed out a reply, by the time you’d finished replying to every part of his text you could barely move your fingers.

how long had you been sitting in the cold for? when the fuck is this bus getting here? your brows furrowed as you opened the bus app for your campus, a frown on your face when you saw how far the bus was and the slow rate it was moving at.

I’ll text you when I’m home toru i cant feel my fingers anymore and idk when the bus is getting here

you’re waiting for the bus ???

gojo was shocked that you hadn’t told him you were waiting for the bus, especially in this weather. he glanced at the first years, walking over to them with a small smile on his face.

“i know i said this would be a learning experience” he began, putting the three students behind him, he cracked his neck before signing and looking at the curse, “but something came up.”

as he finished the sentence he walked calmly up to the curse, hitting it easily with more than enough cursed energy to exorcise it. his three students stared at him in silence, a small scowl on nobara and megumi’s face, yuji only stared at him in admiration.

“you guys know how to get back right? see you later!” he smiled, taking no time to disappear and reappear on your campus.

the cold air hit his cheeks and he frowned when he thought of you having to walk across campus in the cold and then waiting who knows how long after that.

it had only been a minute or two for you when you saw a familiar snowy haired man walking down the sidewalk, glancing at the bus stop number until his eyes landed on your shivering form.

“sweetheart!” he called out, you smiled at him, getting up and walking past the crowd of people that had formed during your wait.

“toru? what’re you doing here i thought you had a mission with the kids?” you asked, allowing him to wrap his arms around you. even through your three layers and his two layers you could still feel the heat radiating off him.

“you’re more important, can’t have you waiting in the cold” he pouted, his slender fingers intertwining with your cold ones. “how ‘bout we go home now yeah?” you nodded quickly, walking away from the crowd.

gojo held you close him tightly, smiling as you squeezed your eyes shut when you felt the air around whoosh, your stomach dropping as if you were on a rollercoaster.

you knew you were home when the warm air hit your flushed face, the smell of gojo’s cologne still filling your nose. when your eyes opened you let out a content sigh.

“thank you toru” you began, “but please tell me you didn’t leave the kids along in this weather” you frowned gojo pressed a gentle kiss to your temple.

“i texted Nitta to pick ‘em up before i left” he mumbled, pressing another kiss to your forehead, “you hungry? go get changed I’ll make us something quick to eat.”

you didn’t argue against him, between your 8am and the three other classes you had today you were beyond exhausted.

it took no time for you to change into some pajama pants, gojos sweatshirt that drowned you and some fuzzy socks. as you emerged comfy as ever you smiled at the sight of hot chocolate sitting on the coffee table.

“you made hot chocolate?” you asked and gojo peered over from the kitchen, a soft smile on his face.

“to warm you up a bit before the foods ready” he replied, “should be done soon.”

you didn’t mind waiting, as long as you were in the comfort of your warm apartment you were fine.

your eyes wandered from the tv to the kitchen, watching with adoring eyes as your lover followed the recipe on his phone for a soup perfect for cold weather. gojos tongue stuck out a bit as he measured some seasoning, taking a sniff of the broth before tasting it and smiling widely.

you wouldn’t mind waiting in the cold for hours on end, cold and hungry if it meant coming home to the love of your life. in the back of your mind you knew you’d never wait that long, gojo wouldn’t allow it.

[julilovesyou444]

the only exception ~ tom kaulitz

background: you and Tom had been hooking up for a while now, probably close to around half a year. you had a big crush on him but were very aware that he didn’t do relationships, so even though you were ‘physically’ with him, you never let yourself get super emotionally attached. Tom couldn’t say the same for himself, though. He wanted you, and only you.

warnings: nothing much just kissing and swearing lol

a/n~ sorry for being m.I.a!! I had to visit my dad in serbia and it sucked because I hate my dad and he hates me lolllll speaking of I wrote a fic that was requested where like the ready has daddy issues and tom like helps her through it but I think I made it wayyyy to like serious I think the word is? and its very long so I’m considering scrapping it idk, also I’m getting to all ur requests that I wanna do dont worry !!

~

“hello?”, i said, picking up my phone. it was tom, my long-term fling. I can’t remember exactly how I met him, or exactly how we started hooking-up. I had heard about his band before we met, and I thought they were cool, but i didn’t quite understand just how popular they were. Until after meeting Tom, i didnt know about his ‘reputation’ either. I didn’t know until after the first time we hooked up. He had made us trade numbers, and i was expecting a call at least a day or two after we had seen each other, but nothing. I decided to do some research, just to find out that the boy i was crushing on was in fact a hardcore player. A womanizer, if you will. Part of me wanted to never go out with him again, the smart part of me. But another part of me wanted him so badly, so overwhelmingly bad that I went with my heart instead of my head. I liked Tom, I really did. I couldn’t help it. But I didn’t want myself to get hurt, so I expected just about nothing from him. We fuck and then it’s over. Whenever he would ask me to stay the night or do any of that stuff, I would politely decline and leave. Sometimes we would go out and do non-sexual things, but they always ended sexual. I learned to become okay with that, and I ultimately stopped expecting us to do anything that was hooking up.

“Hey, are you busy?”, he asked.

“Hmm, i dont know, maybe, depends on why you’re calling.”, I teased. he chuckled.

“Uh-huh… well I was thinking, that if you’re free, I could take you out somewhere.”

“take me out, huh? is that code for fucking?”, this earned me another laugh.

“no, no, it can be, but I want to actually take you out.”, he chuckled.

“are you asking me out on a date?”, i asked, a little confused.

“…yes?”

I was quiet for a second, apparently a second too long.

“look if you dont want to, we don’t have to, I just thought-“, he started.

“no, no! sorry! I was thinking but yes, I’m free and we should go out!”, I interrupted. I heard him release a breath he was holding, probably one he didn’t intend for me to hear.

“okay, yea, cool. when can I pick you up?”

“hmm let’s say in about 30 minutes? does that work?”

“perfect.”

“mhm, I’ll see you then.”

“bye.”, he said just before I hung up.

tom kaulitz. taking me out on a date?? what????

I got up almost immediately and started to get ready. I wanted to look as cute as possible. I ran over to my wardrobe and searched through it for a good five minutes. I found this super cute, also pretty tiny, pleated denim skirt and this purple and black top that had a lot of lace detailing and these little puffy princess sleeves. I put on some jewelry, makeup, and these black boots I had. I left my hair down, i noticed that when I did, Tom always complimented it. I grabbed my purse and threw some gum, lipgloss, my phone, and my little digital camera in there.

I glanced at the clock and saw that he should be here any minute. I stepped outside and waited for about 3 minutes, which would’ve been fine, if it wasn’t as cold as it was. I didn’t feel like going back in, just in case he showed up right as i did. I was shivering a tiny bit and got some goosebumps, but to my relief, and pulled in front of my house not too much later. I got in, the warm air of his car heaters hitting me.

“shit, you look freezing. how long were you out there for?”, Tom asked, looking genuinely concerned.

“I’m cold but I’m fine.”, I laughed it off.

“okay, do you need a jacket or-“

“No!! I’m serious! I’m okay.”, I laughed some more.

“okay, okay! just checking.”, he smiled. I watched as his eyes did a quick scan over me.

“you look pretty. your hair looks really nice too.”, he said, his eyes averting back forward as he began to drive away.

“thank you. you don’t look too bad yourself.”

he playfully rolled his eyes but he couldn’t help but smile as well.

“sooo… where are we going?”, I questioned.

“you’ll see.”

“Oh, c’mon. I hate surprises.”

“You’ll like this one, trust me.”

I sighed and faced myself back forward. Some radio station was playing softly in the background as we raced down the highway.

the drive to the mystery place wasn’t far, only a 20 minute drive, which I filled with a lot of talking. mainly about random stuff, Tom telling a few jokes which never failed to make me laugh. He pulled into a parking lot which only had a few other cars. I looked around, it looked like we were at some kind of fancy park. A garden maybe? He leaned over the center console and grabbed something from the backseat.

Tom dropped a large black zip up jacket in my lap.

“My jacket, so you aren’t freezing your ass off the entire time.”

“Oh, thank you.”, i said quietly. He got out of the car and made his way to the back. I followed his lead, getting out of the car, putting on the jacket but not zipping it. I walked around to the back of the car where the trunk was open. There were two big woven picnic baskets. Tom grabbed both and I shut the trunk door as he began to walk off. I caught up with him.

“Do you want me to carry one?”, i motioned to the baskets.

“It’s okay, just follow me.”, he said, continuing his venture into the park. I followed close behind.

We didn’t walk for long, it was a really beautiful park. There were lots of flowers and little benches everywhere. Lots of really big and beautiful trees too. We stopped in front of this big pond, the water was so clear you could see the miniature fish swimming. there was a swan that swam around too.

Tom opened one of the baskets, revealing a big blanket. Without a word, I helped him spread it out over the fluffy grass. He sat down on it and patted the little space next to him, indicating for me to sit down as well. I did. He grabbed the other basket next to him and moved it to be in front of us. Tom opened it and inside were a ton of snacks. All of my favorites. I was shocked to say the least.

“Oh my god, how did you know?”, i said, mouth slightly agaped. He looked proud of himself.

“You mentioned some of your favorite snacks once or twice.”, he nonchalantly shrugged.

“This is lovely, Tom.”, I replied, sounding as genuine as I ever had. His eyes met mine and I gave him a little smile which he returned.

“What is all of this for?”, i added.

“Just wanted to do something nice for you, I guess.”, he mumbled and looked away.

I gently placed my hand over his, his head turned to mine.

“I appreciate it, I really do.”, i smiled. my thumb caressed his hand for a second.

“I like spending time with you, y’know? even when we’re not…”, he trailed off. I laughed, taking my hand off his, an action that didn’t go unnoticed by Tom.

I grabbed one of the many snacks he packed and started to eat. In between bites, I would ramble about different things. He always would just listen to me talk, admiring me as he did. This went on for a while. Tom started eating some. Somewhere in the midst of this, my position changed. I now had my head laid across his legs, my legs stretched out and my hair splayed all over his lap. i stopped eating and just started talking. Tom gazed down at me. Eventually he lit a cigarette and started smoking. He held the cigarettes between his pointer and middle finger, moving it down for me to take a puff. I did, peering into his eyes as I did so. They weren’t filled with their normal lust, but they looked like they had something else in them. I couldn’t figure it out.

Tom talked some too, mainly making crude jokes. I always laughed, no matter how stupid. I think he enjoyed that.

He took a hit and then leaned over, his mouth hovering over mine. I opened and allowed him to blow the smoke in my mouth. He sat back up and watched as slowly blew it out.

“I know this isn’t a normal thing to do when we ‘meet up’, but i really like it.”, Tom said, his fingers intertwined with the ends of my hair.

“Really?”, i asked. I knew for a fact he enjoyed my body, but I wasn’t aware he liked spending time with me when we weren’t doing one another.

“yea… why’s that so shocking?”

“Um, i dont know. I guess I thought you really only wanted sex from me.”

“Oh.”

“Yea..”

“Uh, I guess that’s just what I wanted at first. But the more I started seeing you, the more I wanted to see you again.”

“Oh?”

“Yea, and whenever I would invite you to stay over or do anything like that, you would always say no. Kind of assumed you were the one who only wanted me for sex.”

“I don’t, I just assumed you were trying to be polite or something. It’s stupid, I guess.”

“No, it’s not. At this point, you know me and you know the reputation I have, so i understood why you thought that.”

“Sorry…”, I muttered, feeling a little embarrassed.

“Don’t be sorry.”

We sat in silence for a few moments, but it wasn’t awkward.

“I was thinking about maybe doing this kinda thing more often with you, I mean, we can still do our normal things we do, but maybe we can start doing more of this too.”

“What? Like go on dates?”, i furrowed my brows.

“Yea, something like that.”

“I feel like that’s something only couples do.”, i sorta laughed. He was quiet, which made me sit up, I looked over at him. He was staring at his lap in my absence.

“Is that… not a possibility?”, he murmured.

“But… I thought you dont do commitment? and relationships?”

“Yea, i dont usually.”

“I can’t go on dates with you and act all boyfriend-girlfriend unless you are actually going to commit. I’m not going to do that to myself, Tom. I can’t let myself get hurt like that.”, i said quietly but sternly. I had to be sensible, i didn’t want to be just another girl that got fooled by Tom Kaulitz.

“I know, but i want to try.”, he looked up at me with pleading eyes.

“What changed? What’s different now than from when I first met you?”, I asked, still unsure.

“I hate talking about my feelings.”, he huffed.

“I’m not gonna judge you or anything, I just need to know.”

“You changed me. You did. I didn’t want to date any of the girls I hooked up with for one night because they just weren’t worth it and they didn’t mean that much to me. You’re one of the only girls I’ve consistently seen for more than a month. I haven’t gotten with any other girl than you for like 4 months. I don’t know what it is about you, but I can’t ignore it. And I want more of you. More than just the physical aspects. Dont get me wrong, I love those parts of you too, but i want you for more than just your body. Dude, I can’t stop saying stupid ass jokes to you just because I want to hear your laugh. So yeah, I haven’t ever really commited before because I didn’t really do relationship. But, for you, it’s different. You are the only exception.”

“What? Really? I had zero idea you felt that way at all…”, I replied, astounded.

“Well I do feel that way and have for a little while now.”

“You aren’t playing with me, right?”, i asked, still not believing it.

“Really?? I practically just confessed myself to you and you still don’t believe me?”

“Okay, I’m sorry! You’re right, this was just, unexpected from you.”

“So… what do you think?”

“I want you too, Tom.”, I managed to say. A smile grew on his once nervous face. He cupped my face in his hands and began to lean in.

“Can I kiss you?”

“Mhm.”, i responded. He kissed me so passionately, I felt like I was floating. My hand went to his jaw, my thumb subconsciously tracing little hearts on his lower cheek. I could feel him smile into the kiss. I pulled away, my forehead still connected with his. I started giggling a little, looking away and hiding my face.

“Oh, c’mon. Dont be shy, now.”, Tom pulled my back towards him so I was leaned against his frame, his arms wrapped around my torso. He left little kisses on the top of my head.

“Wow.”

“Hm?”, he hummed.

“Can’t believe I was your only exception.”, i said with a cocky smile in attempt to poke fun at him.

I could feel him roll his eyes.

“Uh-huh, whatever. Its true.”

“I kinda never thought this day would come.”, i said, my finger trailing up and down his, that rested on my stomach.

“Yea, me too, I guess. But I’m glad that it did.”

I smiled, turning my head around to kiss him again.

A new beginning.

His first real relationship.

It was me, I was his only exception.

Something about that phrase made me feel like the most special girl in the world.

~

[ros3ybabe]

Day 0 - 90 Day Challenge

My goals for today are going to be listed below! At the end of the day I will upload with what I have actually accomplished and an updated list for tomorrow!

🏋‍♀️ Physical Health

Take a 30+ Minute Walk Outside

Drink at least 4, 16oz bottles of water (1 with an electrolyte tablet)

🧠 Mental Health

Therapy Apppointment

Guided Journal AM + PM

❤️ Emotional Health

Write one daily journal entry/answer journal prompt

Read 10 pages of 101 Essays to Change the Way You Think

📚 Intellectual Health

Complete 1 Spanish Duolingo Lessons + 1 Japanese Busuu Lesson

Complete at least 2 homework assignments

🥳 Social Health

Zoom Call with Boyfriend

Phone call with Dad

🥰 Self Love/Care

AM + PM Skincare

Clean bathroom/Do laundry

That's my list of stuff for today <3 I might add an Adulting category for stuff like grocery shopping, meal cooking/prepping, and other adulting type tasks I have to complete, but idk yet. Some of these were goals I wrote earlier that I've already completed, but they are still goals for today that I wanted to add!

I'll update tonight on what I actually accomplished, in more detail!

til tonight, lovelies 🩷

[yuriririnnie]

Us, On the Last Month of the Year

A/N: Happy New Year! Finally, a fic for my bias. It's mostly rushed and IDK how I was able to not post this before the year ended but here it is anyway.

Also, of course, I wrote this on my phone within just 30 minutes because honestly this wasn't something I was planning on making. I have like 5 stories pending for TXT and Enha but oh well~

NP: Huling Sandali (Tayo sa Huling Buwan ng Taon) by December Avenue

PAIRING | Choi Soobin x Female Reader

WC | 983 words

GENRE | fluff; f2l (duh)

WARNINGS | None

SYNOPSIS | Maybe it was him all along and even if it was obvious for everyone else, it wasn't for you.

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"Happy birthday, Soob." you take his hand as you sat on the swing. It was exactly 12 midnight, December 5th, 2023.

Soobin smiled, circling his thumb on the back of your hand, around your knuckles, his eyes on yours sending a chill down your spine. It was an electrifying feeling, something you've felt before but haven't really acknowledged all these years.

It was the 10th birthday of his you've spent together and the familiarity of it all made you feel warm, a sense of security you only feel when you're with him. It was his birthday but it was you who felt like you were reborn, on this day, like something awakened in you, only now, just when he turned 23. He's been an adult for a while and you too. You spent an entire childhood together, witnessed each other's puberty, and went through the early stages of adulthood, but tonight was something new. You have memorized his every feature being so close to him countless of times though now was different. Physically, you've been closer before, sitting on the couch as you watched anime together, sometimes even chest to chest on the train during the rush hours, one time even nose to nose under your dining table hiding from your parents for when he was being asked to come home after spending an entire play day with you.

Soobin and you. Best friends forever you vowed on his 16th birthday. It has been years since that promise and you've kept it to this day. Now, hand in hand on the swing but at arm's length, you felt like this is the closest you've ever been with him. You looked at each other for a second, but it felt like eternities in his eyes.

Was he always this handsome? Did his eyes always glint this way when he talked about his favorite movies? Were his lips always this plump as he smiled, as he pouted? Did his nose always have that line in the middle that resembled a confused little rabbit? Was his skin always this smooth, and was he always this pale? Were his hands always this gigantic as it held yours? You knew he had dimples, but were they always this deep? Was he always this cute? Did he always have this effect on you?

You don't know at what point of the night and at which part in the midst of this friendship you crossed the thin line of being platonic to romantic. It was always just a tiptoe away, a teeny-tiny push from friends to lovers but never did you think of crossing it because the mere thought of losing him as a friend when you meet your inevitable break up (if you do decide to date at an early time) dreaded you like it was a life sentence. It was the curse you had to live with to keep him by your side.

"Thanks, Y/N." he said, still never letting go, still holding onto that grip you initiated when you plucked up the courage to jump; to painfully rip the friendship tape off of your chest that covered your undying, unplatonic love for him. He loved you, adored you, endured every relationship you guys ever had that wasn't with each other. All that for this very moment, the day you decided to finally break out of that shell and dive into the pool of love.

"I love you, Soobin." your breath was visible in the cold night air. You've said this to him before, but never in this way. And he immediately knew the difference.

The temperature was low but your adrenaline was high. You have never been this brave and you regret the days where you thought you were at your most courageous because Soobin was always your source of strength, the walking talking post of hope, and all-encompassing security blanket you needed when you were afraid. He supported you all your life but you knew this was something you had to confess on your own. It was to him, for him, after all.

His eyes widen in shock, and you were ready to take back your hand, run away, and never speak to him again. The creeping possibility of a rejection rang loud inside your head and it was all you could hear.

But instead of a rejection, you see a smile. You see the gorgeous smile you've always seen before but this time full of relief, affirmation, and happiness. Back then Soobin always showed you how happy he was but he couldn't hide the look of longingness in the way he saw you smile for another. However, tonight, his smile was perfect. He was perfect.

"I love you, Y/N." he chuckled, and you could have sworn you saw his eyes water. "I love you as a woman, as my anchor, a lover, and a best friend."

All these years of being so dense and oblivious to how you felt towards each other came crashing down with just one night, one confession, one hand to hold, and just weeks before the year, your 10th year together ended.

You couldn't believe he was finally yours, and he couldn't believe you were finally his. On the last month of the year, on his birthday, you share your first kiss with your one true love, your rock, your everything, your best friend.

[larissalover3]

over and over again

author note: i’m ngl, this is my first fic thst i’ve ever written so pls don’t come for me. i also may have wrote this on my school ipad and didn’t want to get flagged to it’s not exactly sexual or anything. but if you have any requests, just message me. if they’re closed… lemme look at my requests for a moment. but that’s all

warnings: choking, fluff, mentions of crying, mean mommy larissa (for 5 seconds), dom/sub ig idk? jealous larissa

        Cold was the night. You were sitting on the couch in front of the fireplace, shivering as if you couldn’t feel the roaring flame on your face. You were wrapped in your heated blanket as you scrolled on instagram. Only seeing your wife, Larissa’s, photos, due to the fact that she was extremely jealous. If she were to see that you were on another woman’s instagram, she would tell you to unfollow them. And you would, given the fact that Larissa was always the dominant one between the two of you. It was worse when she was at work. If she saw that you had liked a girl's post that wasn’t her own, she would immediately text you. Sometimes you may have done it on purpose, just to see how mad she would get. You loved how she looked when she was angry with you. But you would never admit it. She was like a mama duck. And you would always be her little duckling, following her every demand she would throw at you. You loved Larissa with your whole entire heart, and yes, of course you loved that she cared about you and wanted you all to herself. But sometimes she let her jealousy get in the way of other things. Like the time that you smiled at a girl while you were on a date with Larissa at the promenade. Like you would every Friday. You guys were walking to dinner when you saw the woman. She smiled at you, so you smiled back. Larissa, of course, saw you since she wasn’t taking her eyes off of you. She gently squeezed your hand, letting you know to stop before she were to say something she would regret. You never disobeyed her. To be honest, you were scared of her. Thinking back to the time when you guys were working together at Nevermore Academy. At the time, you were the school's only choir teacher. And of course, there were a handful of students who joined the choir. You were standing up in the center of the classroom, conducting the students while they were singing a winter hymnal. About 30 seconds into the song, you hear the familiar clicking of her heels. Although the students were loud and you were right in front of them, those clacks which drowned out any noise from a mile away were heard. Your students finished their song and you let out a low breath, which frankly, you didn’t know you were holding. As Larissa started clapping, you turned around and saw the familiar, beautiful face. All of the students' faces lit up when they saw the principal. A few even went to give her a hug, which you both responded with a smile on your faces.

“Darling, can you come to my office for a minute? I’ll have Ms. Brinks look after your students while you’re gone.” Larissa said with an innocent smile on her face.

“I’m sorry Lariss- Ms. Weems but I'm afraid I can’t.” You said, slightly scared for your life. You informed her that the students really needed to practice for the concert that was occurring that night. Before you knew it, she was whipping her phone out of her pocket, and calling a teacher to come and watch your students.

“There. Now you have no reason not to come to my office. It’ll only take a few moments, students.” As she told your students, smiling. She then grabbed your arm and you felt as though she was dragging you through the hallway. 

“Slow down Larissa, I’m nearly tripping over my own feet.” You choked out, laughing.

“You will call me Ms. Weems at school. Now be quiet. I don’t want you to distract anyone in class.” She almost shouted at you. You were more scared than you were before. She had never talked to you that way before. She was walking quite fast. That was mostly because she was standing tall at 6 foot and 3 inches. She was a whole foot taller than you. You picked up your pace, practically jogging. Once you finally made it to her office, she sat you down in a chair that was in front of her desk. She rounded her desk sitting on the side of it. 

“Darling, why did you say no the first time I asked you to come with me” Larissa cooed out.

“I already told you, I had students to take care of.” You said, looking at the ground.

“Don’t. You. Dare. Use that tone with me, young lady. And look at me when I am speaking to you.” Larissa almost shouted that last sentence out. Embarrassed, and also worried, you refused to look at her. Without saying a word she grabbed your chin with her pale hands. Her long fingers squeezing your cheeks gently. It hurt. It really did. You didn’t want to upset her anymore by saying something but it just squeaked out. 

“Ouch!” You said, immediately looking away from her, even though her hand was holding your face in place. You were too scared to look her in the eyes. She looked at you like you were crazy. You looked back at her, and she was staring you dead in the eyes. Like she was penetrating you with lasers that came from her own blue sets. 

“Make another noise, and ill make sure your crying and begging to leave.” Larissa said in a stern tone. You knew you were done for. But still you sat there a made the smallest whimper when her hand slid down to your throat. She started squeezing. And you thought that was it. You were going to die right there in her office. But then suddenly, she came close to you and whispered something to you. Barely audible if there was anyone else around.

“I want you y/n. You have no idea how much i love you. I wish I could wake up every morning next to you. I hope you feel the same.” Larissa said, slightly nervous.

“I love you too Larissa.” You said before you could even comprehend what you had just said. Now back to the present day. The fire is booming now, and you feel warm enough so you go to your room and lie down. You hear the garage opening but ignore it. Once again, you hear her heels clicking against the hardwood floors. She came into your room, somehow knowing what room you were in. She discarded her coat and heels. As she let down her headache causing updo, as she did everyday. You felt the bed dip down when she bent over it to give you a long, passionate kiss to your soft, touch starved lips. She whispered sweet nothings into your ear and kissed you down your temple. She was in the crook of your neck when you flipped her over in the bed, switching spots with her. Now you were the one all of her. You needed her. This is what you had been missing all day.

“How was your day my love?” You asked her with compassion in your eyes.

“It was good darling. How was your day amor?” She responded with the same look in her blue pair.

“Better now that I’m with you.” You said smiling, but also visibly cringing at yourself. She couldn’t help but control her laughter. Which then caused you to start laughing along with her until you two were syncing. She then went to the bathroom and changed into her bed clothes. Walking out, she was wearing a black satin dress with lace at the top of the chest area. It fell just above her knees. Seeing her sweet porcelain skin made your mouth go dry. As she was walking to look in the mirror, brushing her hair, she made sure to sway her hips a little bit. Just to tease you. And she did it on purpose. But you already knew that much. She watched as her lips curled into a smile. She sat her brush down on her night stand and she slipped under the covers, with her body touching yours. This was the type of warmth you had been looking for, which you couldn’t get from the fireplace. She hugged you tightly while she ran her fingers through your hair, massaging your scalp. You and Larissa eventually fell asleep, holding each other. When you woke up, she was already looking at you with a slight smirk on her face. She looked beautiful all the time, but it was times like these that made you think how lucky you were. Getting to wake up with her every morning and seeing her in her early morning state. With her hair in her face, eyes puffy, drool all over the face. You had fallen in love with her over and over again.

(a/n: i realize the end is super rushed but i have been asked to make a part two so i will be making one very soon (:)

[14muffinz]

Asking some writers/artists I follow:

Is there anything in your fic/comic that you as the author know about, but won't end up in the actual story?

oh for sure

i'll start with the TMNT stuff first because of your PFP, but we gonna be here a while.

[lab rats stuff at the bottom]

warning: fic spoilers galore

In WIBE, one of the characters we meet is Yuichi Usagi, who works at the human ROTM. He also works in the original ROTM. He was robbed while on a trip to the Hidden City, and is originally from a different city entirely. Hueso is doing his best to help him out, but it'll likely be a long time before Yuichi gets to go home.

Some other WIBE background characters in WIBE include: MM!Kendra, MM!Robyn O'Neil, MM!Irma, & MM!Casey Jones. I don't have a lot to say abt Kendra and Irma, since it's been a long time since I wrote any of it down, but I can give it my best shot with Robyn and Casey.

Robyn has been diagnosed with Generalised Anxiety disorder for a few years pre-fic. She's in her first year of college which is out-of-state, and does her best to check up on her family via phone call at least every other week. She's also sort of invested in all of April's new drama, but she won't admit it.

Casey's been playing hockey for as long as he can remember, and intends to keep at it for as long as he's physically able. He's also got a knack for engineering, and I'd gamble that sometime not long after the ending of WIBE, he'd start up the Casey Jones vigilante batshittery. His parents are divorced, but he spends most of his time with his Jewish mother, and while he's never been actually taught much about his religion he accepts it as a part of his identity, and if people don't like that then they shouldn't be around him in the first place. He finds the existence of the turtles to be one of the coolest things ever, but after actually getting to know Raph and the others, it doesn't impress him as much as it used to. (If I had time, I'd add in a tiny crush on Raph, but I'm an aro with WAY too many ideas for this tiny fic)

Then there's experienced fighters, where the main thing is me ALWAYS knowing what song is playing in the background. I really love how much music is in MM, and I love being able to say hey! here's the musical vibes of the environment!

sort of on that topic, i've got a hc that any song with even small references to space are songs that rise, 2k12, and MM leo are more likely to enjoy. they don't realize these patterns, but they sure are there.

and to end off the music rant, one of these days i'm gonna make a playlist of songs that I think the rise crew all collectively agree are good enough (this is what space feels like, goodie bag, punk tactics, etc. etc.)

there's also two in one, which is based off an au by @blackfire-fanfiction. I have to be real cautious abt what I put in there, because a lot of people are looking at it instead of the extended context of the real thing, not to mention how many Thoughts that aren't really canon I have about it. For instance: today I had a good 30 minute daydreaming session abt the concept of rise!Donnie reading leonardo's notebook while he's comatose post-rise movie and finding out about the switching

in dimension desync, I poke a bit at my head canons about peni parker's movie universe and her mental health at home, and have expanded on this even further in an abandoned draft. this is going to be LONG, so here we go: Gwen Stacy and Richard Parker were around in Peni's universe before she herself was, each piloting a mech of their own [Ven#m and Sp//DR]. A few months after Peni's mother is pregnant with her, Richard dies in action, and a few months later, Ven#m sort of devours Gwen (go read the comics because it's really fucked up but idk how to describe it) So then the role of SP//DR is forcefully thrust upon Peni at the age of eleven, and her connection with SP//DR isn't exactly... perfect.

in my team blue universe, I'm fleshing the hell out of Sam-13 and Shadowcat (both from earth 65). Sam was created by corrupt parts of SHIELD (that have yet to have been identified as corrupt) but now is just a regular agent. Cap returned to their dimension when he was 14 and has been in charge of training him ever since. Cap is stubborn to a fault and is def being manipulated by the corrupt agents, but none of the kids have gotten close to that bigger picture yet. Meanwhile, Kitty was inducted into the weapon x program (or 65's equivalent of it, I don't remember much of the wolverine origin story) at the age of 8, and despite odds survived. Wolverine took her in, and she's been helping him bounty hunt since about 13, even though he's trying to stop her.

team blue is also starting to extend to universes that the spider-verse movies don't really deal with through plants that have yet to be explained. but miguel's spite at e-199999 has definitely transferred, which means that, if they were ever to interact, not many of the main team would like the mcu-vengers

in my very obscure mech-x4 series, Olivia (who is only referenced by name once in the show) is veracity's little sister, who is 7 years old. This series is more of a set of vaguely connected oneshots, but still.

i could go ON AND ON about Oliver in all of my mighty med/lab rats fics, but in short: arcturion made his hair start growing in blonde, which he hates. Horace is his adopted dad and so it sucks ass when he dies. Oliver also comes with built in hypothermia! This is also definitely a headcanon, but I think that in EF once the rats have the upgraded chips, Chase's laser bō is green instead of blue, and his super senses are togglerable (to a degree) I also like to imagine Kaz's lil bro Kyle is his number one fan and nobody in his family listens to him when he claims that Kaz is one of the bionic guys on the news.

... yeah I think that's enough for now

[rosalie-starfall]

1, 2, 11, 20 ❤️

What song makes you feel better? - I have a whole playlist of songs for just this purpose.

All the songs on this list make me feel better and put my soul at ease

2. What is your go to comfort show? - I have a lot of comfort shows, Right now Ghosts is my current comfort show, But I can always rely on 30 Rock, Cheers, Hot in Cleveland, and then of course essentially all of Star Trek (But mostly TNG and Voyager).

Also I cannot recommend Alexandra Gater enough if you are looking for fun sweet comfort feels in an interior design show on youtube. (She and the AG team are amazing and I love the show and it's smart and effective renter/budget friendly designs. I'm essentially finished with designing my space but I still love to watch because its adorable and gives me even more ideas to make the space better)

11. Do you have a comfort item? Tell us about it! - I have a few Sweaters that I absolutely love to wear around the house. I am almost always wearing one of them when I'm at home, I also just completed a little book nook. It give me great comfort.

20. Tell us about a memory you hold close to your heart. - The time my moms flip flop broken when we went to the movies. I wrote about this memory before so I'm gonna paste the story:

IDK exactly what the hardest was but I have a few that are up there. One time my mom and I were at the Alamo to see The Spy Who Dumped Me. (I think) When the movie ended we had got up to leave I was in front of her and I wound up way ahead of her so I yelled back what the deal was. She was scooting her foot along the floor almost like a limp and just kind of laughing. Her flip flop had broken and she was trying to keep it on her foot but also trying to walk.  We were at the very last theater in the building so she took forever to walk the distance to back the lobby and watching her try and walk like that had my dying of laughter and that in turn made her laugh even harder. I honestly thought I might throw up I was laughing so hard. I told her to just take her shoe off but she said she had to use the restroom so she didn’t want to go into the public bathroom barefooted. (Totally understandable) To get away from her and to try and calm my giggles down and catch my breath I decided to go pull the car up so she wouldn’t have to walk all the way back to the car with her broken flip flop.  It was so dumb but seriously so funny and even me writing this out and remembering it I’m crying from laughing again. I really think that might have been the hardest I ever laughed.  I’ll just add the time that she and I were going to brunch and I was looking at my phone and not paying attention as she drove to the end of our block she waved at one of our neighbors that was working in his yard. Because I wasn’t paying attention with my head down I didn’t know she was waving at someone. All I saw was her holding her hand up so I gave her a High Five thinking that’s what she was waiting for. We laughed for a good 10 Minutes that time. She had to pull the car over because she was laughing so hard she (We) started crying.

[mamamittens]

Alright, ngl, I fully planned on writing this week but work decided it was time to do inventory again. At the literal last minute.

I. Hauled. Ass.

And tomorrow I'm probably going to be counting a fuck ton of shit sooooo RIP IG

Anyway, as a small apology lemme talk about the au of Sweet Child, Grow (now the nickname for "How our Seeds Grow"). And fittingly, I'll start with the name!

I actually didn't think too much about the name before rolling with that but it's kinda genius in hindsight because now the two read as "Oh, sweet child of mine, how our seeds grow" which sounds awful wistful don't it? And sweet. I like it. And it's very poignant considering the au is all about little reader growing up with the WBP.

Also! I did write a fair bit for the next chapter but it felt short and I thought I could more or less squeeze in a few chapters now that the narrator (child reader) is way less angsty about being kidnapped and not as observant so there's less wordage to get across here. And as I did I realized I accidentally wrote in a little plot hole in the first one.

See, reader's supposed to really love animals. But what happened to their den den mushi? The snail from the beginning? So I'm taking a moment to answer what no one has asked.

They didn't get to keep the snail until well after they returned since it's apparently pretty easy to convert them into 'phones' so to minimize shenanigans, they just withheld it until they felt they could trust reader.

And since in Grow the reader is just a scared kid, they get to keep the snail with a normal shell. Reader named him 'Cream' even though they weren't supposed to because it's not 'their' snail. It's the marine's snail. Little reader has gotten better at hiding how attached they are to their issued snail at whatever base they're on but not very well.

As a treat, here's a little snippet!

Oh! And before I forget!

I'll try to remember y'all that asked to be tagged in the next update but I make no promises! If you're super concerned about it though as soon as it comes out you can also read not only Sweet Child but Grow as well on AO3! Or maybe follow the tag for the story??? Idk how reliable that is, I don't really follow specific tags on Tumblr ngl

AO3 is currently experiencing some minor issues (8/30/23) though, so please be patient if it won't work immediately and perhaps check back later!

Anyway! Thanks for being patient everyone, as well as the fairly positive-ish neutral reaction to my new rule concerning asks for updates! It's a lot less stressful thinking about which fics to update now that I have a hard line. I'm afraid the personal clash between pathological demand avoidance and people pleasing is incredibly uncomfortable to grapple with at the best of times. And it leaves me feeling like either a raging bitch or a doormat 😬

I'm hoping to get some writing done soon but with inventory in full swing tomorrow I won't be surprised if I just pass the fuck out when I get home. Istg I opened cult of the lamb for a quick sesh and next thing I knew it was 9 (my bad entirely. I know damn well that game is very hard to put down- always one last thing I can do before going to bed but it's never just one is it???)

Speaking of which! I gotta go to sleep now lol

[aninhrys]

@justwonder113 YOU ASKED ME TO TELL YOU ABT MY IDEAS BUT THE COMENT WAS TOO LONG AND I COULDN'T SAY EVERYTHING I WANTED😭😭 SO ILL MAKE THIS BLOG FOR U AND AFTER U READ AND STUFF ILL DELETE IT (my low profile side screaming rn)

okaaay so FIRST OF ALL, English is not my first language so possibly I wrote everything wrong with my broke english😭and idk if this is gonna sound good but-

so back in 2022, u remember when jeongin almost fainted on MAMA stage? at the end.. so, u could make like y/n is his girlfrienn(I think it could be a girl, but if u dont want to make AN SPECIFIC GENDER that's okay) and she watched the whole performance and after some minutes after the performance (like 30/40 minutes?) she opened her social midias and saw STAYS sharing a video of him falling, looking so tired and almost sick. Worried, she calls him just when she saw the posts, no even thinking if he was at work or something. So at the same time someone answers the phone, but isnt jeongin. Its chan(chan was in the same room at him that time, thats why he answered) yn ask what happened and that she saw what actually happened to him and he says that they were at a hotel and jeongin was feeling sick and tired bcs he overworked himself and didnt ate well (at his point, he wanted to look good for stays and thought he was getting too..swolled? uk jeongin have those problems with his self esteem) and yn understood just by hearing chan saying that he "overworked" himself, bc she know the boyfriend she have. so she go to jeongin's hotel room, even being almost 12pm she didnt cared, as she needed to take care of her boyfriend.

when she got there, he was struggling with fever and didn't wanted to eat.. this time not bcs of his self esteem but because he couldn't eat because of his fever, he just wanted to rest.. and maybe wanted his girlfriend.

I don't have the best imagination so you can change whatever u want and do whatever u want with this idea, my idea is just him being sick after the MAMA and she shower him with a lot of love and maybe increase his self steem? SORRY IM SO BAD AT THIS BUT I THINK U CATCHED THE IDEA😭

[bigwizardhat]

begging when did you get possessed

FUCK SORRY i forgot to answer this!! a few years ago i got mildly drunk and was going to go to bed but apparently before i got into bed i blacked out and typed a message like "I AM THE GOD I AM THE SHADOW I AM INSIDE I SEE EVERYTHING" in complete jibberish. i wasnt drunk enough to black out and i remember what i was doing both before and after that blackout but either way, apparently that was what happened. either i blacked out for like the 30 seconds it wouldve taken me to type the message of my own accord or i was possessed for like. a minute.

i would be more prone to believe the former but my brother has also been briefly possessed while smoking weed in a similar fashion to how i was possessed (he blacked out for like a minute and his friend said he was speaking in tongues) so idk ! i might find the image of what i wrote out bc i think i have a pic on my phone but idk if anyone cares its mostly nonsense

[marigoldwitch]

🌙 Alternative Book of Shadows Idea 🔮

Felicity (the show) has inspired me to explore a different method of journaling and record keeping, of my spells and rituals. In the show she and Sally record their letters to each other on cassette tapes instead of writing. This gave me the idea to do the same, except I’d record my spells, rituals and journal entries.

I’ve already been kinda doing this for a while now anyways, except with newer technology lol. I video record some of my spells and rituals on my phone and save them to my drive incase I need to revisit them in the future. I still write them down as well. But sometimes my rituals could be 30+ minutes long and it’s impossible to write down every little thing. And I noticed, when I’d go back and re-watch them later, there were definitely things I missed that I didn’t write down; specifically I’d mention a feeling I was experiencing in the moment (on video) but I never wrote it down in my journal.

Well anyways, I wanted to try a more “retro” version of this method and switch to a cassette tape instead. I looked online and they aren’t that expensive, they’re not really all that cheap either. However, I’m gonna check the thrift stores and pawn shops first lol. Cassette tapes are a bit expensive though. A pack of 3 run about $15. Which gives me 3 hours of recording time though, so that’s pretty good I guess. About $5 an hour— if you want to break it down that way.

Honestly I just miss all aspects of my craft being tangible. Everything stored on hard drives and in cloud storage makes it feel disconnected in a way. So I just wanted to bounce this idea around and put it out there to see what other witches think.

The plan would be to record some of my spells, rituals and journal entries — along with photos of my spells, rituals and just journal related stuff. To best keep them organized I’d still make entries in my normal journals but include the tape number (and time stamp) for reference. I figured I can just continue to use my box method for storing them. Right now I have a journal box that has a bunch of journals, photos, spell reminisces, random bits and bobs. Basically MarigoldWitch in a box lol.

I could even record my tarot readings, my personal ones that are just for me. Idk how many people have a cassette player but I could also offer a cassette option to my shop for readings in the future as well.

What do y’all think? Good idea? Bad idea?

I guess I could just record audio on my phone (instead of video) to save some space in on my drive but I really like the idea of being able to access my recordings without the internet, without a phone or computer. Like if the power goes out, provided I got batteries, I can listen or record without having to worry about if my phone will stay charged long enough. And the idea that no one will be able to access these recordings without my permission also is a plus. Since having them stored in an online drive makes them accessible to hacking (not that I think anyone wants to hack me lol).

[hologramcowboy]

Hi!! Idk if this is weird but i saw you mentioned once that you work out and I wanted to ask some advice. My New Year’s resolution is to work out more. Im not necessarily trying to lose an excessive amount of weight, as I’m at a normal/healthy weight, just want to start a new hobby and be more healthy. I’ve never really been a “workout girly” lol, I’ve worked out a few times in my life, but never consistently. I was just wondering if you had any tips for a beginner, or how to create my own exercise routine, or any exercises for a beginner. Thanks for any advice and happy holidays!☺️

Not weird at all. I love your resolution. ♥️ It's a very healthy one that will benefit your mind, body and spirit.

First and foremost I would recommend priming your environment because it will, in turn, prime your mind.

What I mean is: Post pictures of your ideal body in places you can easily see them. This includes your phone or laptop/pc wallpaper. Just ensure they are images that make you feel good and remind you to exercise,e are not meant to pressure you but rather promot your mind towards your set goal so be careful that it doesn't become something toxic, if it feels off to you just avoid this step. Same goes for everything else I wrote, we're all different.

Move the treats and sweets some place where they are complicated to reach. Notice I didn't day stop eating them, it's important to enjoy the good things in life, just be balanced. If you tend to overeat then make it harder to reach certain foods and set days when you indulge because those are also important.

Set up and area in your home specifically dedicated to work outs and decorate it accordingly.

Ensure your workout clothes, gear and post workout stuff are all easily reachable and preferably somewhere in sight.

Select workout clothes that are fun to you, that you look forward to flaunting.

Prepare a playlist of songs that get you moving, songs you can't resist. Be careful about the lyrics as whatever your hear also affects your subconscious so pick motivating songs with positive lyrics, feed your mind energy basically.

Do a short warm up. Doesn't have to be crazy just ensure you warm up.

Start with small workouts, 5-7 minutes of HIIT should do the trick(you can find so many on Youtube, for example, Lucy Wyndham is a great one), it will raise your heart rhythm and then switch intensity which creates excess post oxygen consumption and this will ensure that looong after your workout your body will be burning even more calories than you did during your workout so you will be raising your metabolic rate. These workouts are actually more effective then drawn out ones.

You don't necessarily need to use equipment, in fact, the best HIIT exercises rely on engaging your core and muscles and require no equipment.

Commit to doing the exercises daily (they are short and easy to include throughout your day so if you feel like doing more go for it) and rest during the weekend. Reward yourself each time you finish a workout, this is important because it conditiones your brain to associate workouts with pleasure rather than pain.

Consider possibly using a printed tracker or a task app and always note the session you complete. Those little victories will energize you.

Hydrate properly. This is key.

First few days even a 7 minute workout will seem challenging if you are a beginner but they will go by very fast and, in no time, you will feel more confident, in shape and your strength and endurance will increase. Your body will feel fit and your mood and energy will improve.

Over time, if you feel inspired to, you can increase the duration but keep in mind that exhausting the body isn't necessary as you can burn more calories by doing a HIIT than by engaging in long work outs precisely because of the heart rhythm thing.

You could also consider jump rope and, if you do, then I would recommend 15-30 minutes per day if weight loss is your goal.

If you love music you could consider searching for choreographies of your favorite songs and commiting to learning those as opposes to doing a regular work out. Bonus is you get new moves to show off during parties.

Swimming and especially pool exercises are fantastic.

Basically any activity that raises your heart rate for at least 30 seconds and then lowers it will help you get in shape so consider what you naturally love to do, maybe you prefer rising a bike or hiking, whatever works for you commit to incorporating that at least 3 times per week and do it for as long as you feel inspired to.

If you plan on losing weight then keep in mind that diet plays an important role so choose healthy foods. I do see you've written you're already at an ideal size so continuous seven minute AMRAPs (as many rounds/reps as possible), HIIT and 20 sec fully engaged 10 sec rest moves (tabata) will help you increase flexibility, strength and endurance and obviously will benefit your mind, heart, muscles and joints not just increase your metabolic rate.

Remember to stretch afterwards.

Have a fallback routine for those days where you don't really feel up to complete certain workouts. For example, I love to use small weights and incorporate self defense moves in my work out when I am uninspired on what to do or can't pick. Also, some days I have long sessions, others I stick to small workouts, it depends on how busy I am and how much energy to burn off I have but please know you should increase duration gradually once your body is ready and also, as mentioned previously short workouts can be even more effective when done right.

Post workout, it helps if you develop a self care routine that will have you looking forward to successfully completing the work out so you can then enjoy those relaxed, self care moments.

If you feel more inspired when doing things with others then consider creating a mini group and working out together, try online over Zoom if covid has you under restrictions.

Some online platforms and trainers offer free workout sessions within their online communities so you also have that as an option.

If there's something particular you want to reach, let's say if you are actor looking to develop a certain body then I would recommend hiring a trainer that will design specific session for you but please know you can absolutely work out from home, without spending money and be just as effective. It's all in how commited you are.

Finally, I would also suggest hypnosis, more specifically work out focused ones as it helps prime your mind and if you aren't into that then simply remember everything you tell yourself influences your body so choose to think empowering thoughts about working out because that instructs your brain into developing the preference. So if, let's say, you hate working out or feel like it's hard then "self hypnotize" yourself by only carefully focusing on thoughts like " the benefits of this far out weigh the effort", "I'm going to feel fantastic while enjoying this and even better after", "My body is incredibly capable", " I deeply appreciate where I am right now body wise and I look forward to the improvements that are coming" etc. because how you choose to filter the experience greatly impacts your body's ability to reach homeostasis and access deeper resources.

I guess I should have just distilled the whole post into one single suggestion: Have fun! 🤣 Because the more engaged you are the better the experience.

It's up to you how often you exercise and how long but I would recommend starting with a daily short work out and then expanding into a more personalized routine once you are comfortable.

Important: There will be days when you need rest and self care more than working out so please ensure you follow your own body's rhythm.

Disclaimer: If you have particular medical issues please consult your doctor before engaging in a particular work out.

Oh and almost forgot, for the ladies, if you are blessed chest wise like I am, then please ensure you buy sports bras that offer high support.

That's all that comes to mind right now, I had replied to this post earlier and had written it much better but Tumblr gave me the "ate your post" error and didn't save any draft but hopefully this is also clear. If not, feel free to let me know.

[hotchocolatedoodles]

Lazy Morning | An Emunene Fanfic

I noticed the lack of Emunene fanfics on Ao3 especially compared to the Ruikasa fanfics so I wanna change that!! I literally wrote this just now within maybe two or three hours (??) Idk lol sorry for any mistakes it's my first time writing something for a Fandom I'm in. I hope you enjoy!! It's all fluff btw!! 🍬🤖

Main Pairing: Ootori Emu/Kusanagi Nene

Other Pairings: Kamishiro Rui/Tenma Tsukasa

Characters: Kusanagi Nene, Ootori Emu, Kamishiro Rui, Tenma Tsukasa

Word Count: 1,273 words

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It was about 11:00 A.M. when Nene’s phone started ringing. No reaction. The ringing faded and after a while it started again. It was then that Nene slowly came to her senses although she still seemed to be more asleep than awake. With her left hand she rubbed her eyes while she was holding her pink haired partner tight with her right.

After their practice last night, Emu wanted to stay the night at Nene’s place. So, obviously she asked the green haired diva if that would be okay for her and received a rather flustered Nene who, of course, couldn’t say no to that request. To be honest, Nene was a little embarrassed being confronted with that question in front of their other troupe mates but she didn’t mind because that’s just how much she loved her bubbly partner. They spent the night playing video games, watching some movies and cuddling. At around 01:30 A.M. they realized just how late it had got and decided to go to sleep.

Nene really didn’t want to leave Emu’s side right now. She felt too comfortable like this, holding her girlfriend in her arms and close to her chest. On top of that, she really didn’t want to risk waking Emu up when she was sleeping this soundly. But when Nene’s phone started ringing for the third time this morning, Emu slowly fluttered her eyes open. Now, Nene needn’t had to worry about waking Emu up anymore when her phone did the job for her. But the sleepy diva had no time to frown when she was greeted with the most sparkly pink eyes in existence and she could feel her heart melt on the spot.

“Mhhh good moooorniiiing, Nene-chaaan~,” exclaimed Emu, excited to start the day with her favourite person in the whole wide world. She stretched her arms and took Nene into a big, tight hug. Nene returned the hug without realizing that her phone stopped ringing once again. “Good morning, Emu,” Nene murmured into Emu’s hair with a small smile on her face. Emu nuzzled her head deeper into Nene’s chest. They were both overjoyed, being able to hold each other so close without a soul interrupting their peace.

Well, maybe there was one thing that could interrupt their peace after all.

Nene’s phone rang once more and this time Nene couldn’t ignore it anymore. With a frown on her face she sighed and released herself from the oh so comfortable grip of her girlfriend and grabbed her phone. Rui and Tsukasa have tried calling them for the past 10 minutes and Nene noticed about 50 unread messages, of which most were messages from Tsukasa, all in caps, as if it would make Nene read them sooner.

Nene answered the call.

“Hello…” Nene’s throat felt dry and she’d rather go back to cuddling with Emu now.

“Good morning, Nene. Or should I rather say good noon?” despite not being able to see his face, Nene could see Rui’s grin.

“Ugh… What’s the matter?” Nene asked while massaging her forehead.

“Um… Well, you do know that we have agreed to meet up for practice today, right? You didn’t forget that, did you?”

At first there was no reply on the other end but Rui waited patiently, unlike his noisy boyfriend who could be heard in the distance. Nene needed a few seconds to process what she just got told by her childhood friend and when she remembered their agreement, she slapped her hand onto her face and let out a quiet “Fuck…” which unfortunately wasn’t quiet enough for Rui not to hear.

“Fufu~ so you did forget, huh?” again, Nene could see Rui grinning widely. She couldn’t tell if that was better than him being upset about Emu and her not appearing for practice, though.

“sigh… Yeah, Emu and I… We may have overslept a little. Sorry about that, Rui.” Emu, who sat up on Nene’s bed in the meantime, noticed how Nene genuinely felt bad for forgetting about practice, so she moved closer to the girl with messy, green hair and hugged her from behind. Nene welcomed that gesture by placing her free hand over Emu’s.

“Emu and I will hurry over. We just need to get dressed quickly and we’ll be on our way!” Nene promised and Emu, head resting on her girlfriend’s shoulder, quickly added, “YEAH! We’ll be there in no time!!”

There was a short silence before Rui said, “No need, it’s fine.”

The girls were a little surprised at the response but before either of them could say another thing, their director continued to speak.

“Take the day off, you two. We’re everything but on a tight schedule, so just enjoy yourselves today. Tsukasa-kun and I have plans of our own for today and it’s a nice surprise to get to them sooner than expected.” Rui spoke with an unusual tone in his voice.

“Oh- But is it really okay? You two have probably been waiting for quite some ti-”

“OF COURSE IT’S OKAY!” Tsukasa snatched Rui’s phone and cut Nene off mid-sentence. “Did you really think we were doing nothing while waiting for you two? Of course we did some practicing while waiting as a means not to waste time!”

Nene and Emu were looking at each other and began to smile. A synchronized “Thank you!” was heard from the girls and Nene then hung up the phone, placing it back onto her bedside table. First, the two girls just kept staring at each other, their smiles becoming wider and their blush turning a deeper shade of red until Emu pulled Nene back down on the bed with all her force, making both of them laugh. Nene hid her face in her hands as she was laughing.

“We’re so dumb. How did we forget practice?” Nene breathed out in-between laughs, slightly embarrassed about forgetting. She was happy nonetheless because she forgot together with her girlfriend, who she adored so much. Emu couldn’t even form a reply, she was laughing that much. She simply pulled Nene into a tight hug again, nuzzling her face back into the older one’s chest. Nene carefully placed her hands on each side of the pink haired girl’s head, pulling her face up a little to place a soft kiss on Emu’s forehead. Immediately after, Nene placed her arms around Emu’s head and held her close to her. The younger one’s blush deepens even more as she hugs her dearest Nene tighter.

The two of them kept lying there, snuggling, legs intertwined and simply enjoying each other’s company for as long as possible. They forgot everything around them, the only thing on their minds being their partner until…

rumble

Until Emu’s stomach disturbed their peace. Neither of them has eaten anything for breakfast until now because they yet had to leave Nene’s room. They giggled as they heard Nene’s stomach rumbling now, too.

“I think we should go grab something to eat haha!” Nene suggested.

“Yeah we should definitely! Can we make some extra, super duper, wonderhoi-ish poofy waffles together?? Pretty please???” Emu asked with big puppy eyes, holding Nene by the collar of her shirt.

“Hihi of course we can,” Nene replied, her eyes and smile turning softer with each passing second.

The two lovebirds got out of bed, the green haired girl taking the pink’s hand, and in return the younger gave the older a quick peck on the cheek as they left the room to make breakfast. Or, looking back at how much time had passed already, perhaps it would be more fitting to call it lunch at this point.

[hollandorks]

Do you have any advice for someone who’s attempting to foray into writing but already has other obligations? Any suggestions for balancing work and other aspects of your life with writing? Also have you encountered any issues with creating an original work based on a your own fanfiction such as toeing the line with being original and paying homage? You seem successful with all of your writing and so getting your thoughts would be so great!

*cracks knuckles* had to get on desktop for this to be sure I answered thoroughly! First of all, thank you!! I don't necessarily feel succcessful with my writing but it's really nice to hear.

I actually asked a lot of favorite authors about this (especially when I was in college!) during their Q&A on social media etc and the #1 response I got was: you have to make time. And it's so true. Obligations suck, work sucks, school sucks. Those things unfortunately have to come first just because, yknow, life!

So you have to carve out time to write and be purposeful about it. For motn I wrote a ton on my lunch break at work on my phone but I also like....gave up on laundry and keeping my house clean as often as I needed to in order to write more after work.

Even if it's only 15-30 minutes a day, you have to just purposely make time, which sucks. But also, prioritize it if it's really important to you. Like I said, I decided laundry and a clean bathroom were a lot less important (lol) when writing motn. Just decide what's most important and focus on that, even if only a little at a time.

On to the next part of the question: an original work from a fan work. Listen, you have to get rid of copyright stuff. For motn, I got rid of anything even remotely related to Batman. Symbols, names, etc. I renamed the vigilante, the city, revamped the backgrounds and such. And when I paid for a beta reader, I let her know that it was based on the Batman movie and she purposely looked out for stuff that was too similar! (Like a couple of lines she noted that it sounded "too Batman-y" so I changed it accordingly)

I can't answer about legal stuff (like if I'll have to delete the original motn) because I'm not there yet! I do know Ali Hazelwood wrote the Love Hypothesis, a hugely popular romance book, that was based on her own fanfiction, but it also isn't set in the same kind of world of the movie if that makes sense! (As in, it was a Star Wars AU fic I think, and the book is set in the "real world" so she likely didn't have to change much other than names!)

I definitely toed the line in a lot of places. I mean, I set it in a gritty, corrupt city that has a vigilante who is a billionaire with cool gadgets and an armored car and dead parents....but still altered enough to not be copyrighted. Again, I'm not really into the publishing process yet so I may get notes back (if I get any) saying it's still too close to the source material! But my goal is for 1) anyone familiar with Batman at all to get the gist and 2) OG readers of motn to still be able to recognize it!

Last but not least, it's super important to realize that every person is different and every story is different. What worked for motn might not work for my next project! And what worked for me, personally, might not work for you. It's just a matter of keeping at it and being persistent until you find what works.

Idk if any of this makes sense so feel free to send any other questions and stuff! I'm happy to answer them, I love writing and am passionate about it and love to talk about it!

[nathank77]

6/21/24

8:46 a.m Edited/Added to Significantly

Sleep was weird last night. I had many trauma nightmares. I can't tell the difference between reality or not with these dreams without my sleep tracker and even still I can't 100%.

So I set my tv timer to go off at 11:30 p.m. I was going to take another half once this went off. As at that point it had been a hour since I had my eyes closed.

The tv turned off, and I remember thinking I'll give it a few minutes at least before I take another half bc I don't want my tolerance raising. Did this really happen? I can't tell you all I know is I dreamt- that I gave up, got up and took another half and another Hydroxyzine wrote it in my sleep tracker.. and then went to sleep. When I actually woke up at like 2:30 a.m I checked my sleep tracker and it was not logged.

I know I didnt take that half mg or that Hydroxyzine but idk if I was actually awake when my tv turned off due to the sleep timer. I had several dreams of waking up and checking the clock... and when I woke up at 2:30 a.m my last dream was waking up at like I think 5 a.m and I was like wow so all of that was trauma nightmares from microsleep. But did I actually close my eyes for a hour and hear my tv go off? I don't fucking know. I just know i didn't take that second half mg or the second Hydroxyzine.

All I know is I had another dream about gluttony. I was hanging out with assholes and they started throwing jelly munchkin at me. And eventually I sat down and ate a monterous amount of donuts and cookies and I remember thinking this was a bad cheat day I didnt even mark down when I started eating and what I ate.

I wish I had eaten smiley fries and a cheese burger instead and the dream ended. I do wonder why i had two dreams about gluttony over the last few weeks.

I wish the trauma microsleep dreams would stop. I really wish that I knew if I had heard my sleep timer go off on my tv. But today marks another day I'm thankful that I do a sleep tracker. I know exactly what I eat, what pills I take and when. I know about my bowel movements, the Toothpaste I use. And I know when it's a dreams versus reality for the most part bc I'd never take a pill if I didn't put it on my sleep tracker.

I also had a mental picture of a storage bin dropping on the floor and an auditory hallucination of the bang... I think this really happened. That scared me bc I usually don't have this happen until 6 hours or so after xanax once the half life is in effect. It makes me feel like it's not real xanax but it must be.

The day I didnt sleep about 6 hours after I took xanax I had a mental image of my hand spraying disinfect on a storage bin and I heard the disinfectant coming out of the bottle.

I do think I struggled to fall asleep but idk if it was a hour to the sleep timer.

I woke up at 2:30 a.m took a Benadryl and a Melatonin 1mg and fell asleep by 3 a.m or do and woke up around 7 a.m.

Another thing I'd like to note is twice, yesterday and the day before as I had been playing music in my pocket at a regular volume to block the hallucination from driving me crazy that I heard my music very low. And then I checked my phone and music wasn't playing. I checked my car radio and it was at zero... and the next time it happened. I wasn't in my car. It was last night i checked my tv and it was paused. I checked my phone and it was off. I almost cried cause if only my voice auditory hallucination turned into that I may finally be given a small amount of internal peace again.