#I’m just whining ignore me

[greenbergsays]

A recap of the last month in the life of Des

Someone hits my car

My great aunt declines rapidly, ultimately dying the Friday before Thanksgiving. I wasn’t close to her, but her death was hard on the people I am close to and so it was hard on me in a roundabout way.

The day before Thanksgiving, my grandmother tests positive for COVID

The day after Thanksgiving, the Teenager tests positive for COVID

I spend that whole time cleaning, enforcing quarantine, & trying to take care of them, even though I don’t feel well myself. I never tested positive, but my body was obviously fighting infection because I was tired and vaguely blah the Whole Time

My work scanner breaks this past Monday, despite my best efforts, I cannot get it to work again until Friday afternoon, which means I couldn’t do half my job for the whole week

That same Friday, Shadow has his longest seizure yet and I end up with a $280 expense that I was not expecting, this is what I get for liking animals

I have my first anxiety attack in five years in the vets office, and it was so bad I thought I was gonna pass out

Today, Saturday, someone hits my car…again. And drives off…again. It’s just scratches this time, but that’s not the point

If you need me, I have officially Given Up

[kindlystrawberry]

[fuckyeah-bears]

whhhhyyyyyyyyy is everything sooooo motherfucking expensive????? don’t they know I can’t afford all this shit???

[archduke-enver-gortash]

[enby-anxiety]

Ok but the entire season was leading up and showing us that while Crowley knows he’s lying and fucking up the plan, Aziraphale still thinks he’s mostly doing the right thing! He has been actively working against the “divine plan” almost since he met Crowley but Crowley has shielded him completely from the knowledge that he’s doing it.

Because Crowley takes the blame and lets Aziraphale think he’s doing the Good thing, Aziraphale still thinks he’s been doing heaven’s work. Aziraphale believes that he’s just doing it all in a slightly different way rather than totally fucking things up and lying and going against everything he’s supposed to do. Crowley knows it. Crowley has been fully aware of his own path and he knows what Aziraphale feels and thinks as well and he also KNOWS that despite his doubts Aziraphale cares too much about being Right and Good and Heavenly. And because Crowley loves him and knows what it is to lose his own faith he has been protecting Aziraphale from that the whole time by taking responsibility for “tempting” the Angel into things he already wanted to do anyway.

Of course Aziraphale thinks he can change Heaven. He doesn’t even know that he’s been defying them so badly. He hasn’t had to confront it. Crowley didn’t even tell him he’d be fully erased from existence for helping Gabriel. He doesn’t know that he has been off heaven’s side for a very long time. Aziraphale trusted Crowley so much that he doesn’t realize Crowley has been twisting the truth this whole time to make him feel better about doing the wrong thing. And it backfires because Crowley assumes Aziraphale knows the truth of his own actions.

It’s ok I’m just screaming.

[nowshesdoingitallthetime]

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Insomnia is the fucking bane of my existence, what do you mean it’s 26 hours since I last slept and there’s no telling when I’ll be able to fall asleep😭

[aceghosts]

This shitty air quality shit fucking sucks.

[evansbby]

I swear to god this place gives me so much anxiety now

[padfootastic]

so, this is a note that i wrote myself just over a year ago. at that point, i hadn’t written prongsfoot like, at all. all i knew was that i was obsessed with james & sirius in any capacity, whether alone or together. and i’d exhausted almost all the platonic options so moving onto romantic was the next step. at this point, i was devouring j/s fics like nobody’s business and i really, really wanted to try my hand at romance.

today, i’ve done this and so much more and it makes me very, very happy 🥰🥰

[disco-tea]

Sometimes I worry my writing is often too depressing and “raw” but also I know if I pull any punches emotionally then it wouldn’t be as genuine. It would cheapen it to me. Feel like I didn’t fully explored the depth of the characters emotions or pain or whatever it is they’re going through. Because to me, there’s nothing more frustrating and abysmal then a story that refuses to let itself be genuine, that lets it’s characters go to the brink of an emotion but not truly cross the line, or not cross the line as fully as they could have. I would rather read (or write) a story that’s depressing and raw then a story where the characters are indifferent to each other. Indifference just feels…empty, to me.

[dreamofbecoming]

so i have 2 windows in my bedroom, and normally they’re both open, but obviously open windows are a terrible idea in new york rn, so all the windows in the house are closed, right? except one of the windows in my room is in a really hard to access position, and on top of that it sticks, and the last time the smoke hit the city i physically injured myself closing/reopening it, and i didn’t really want to spend another 2 weeks healing from a wrenched shoulder, so i’ve boarded it up with the plastic trays i bought to keep plants on my windowsills in, but they aren’t quite the right size so there are two little slivers of screen still exposed bleeding poison into my air, and i’ve got the air purifier running but idk how effective it is when the room isn’t sealed and my head hurts and my chest hurts and i’m just having a bad time yall

[dark-mnjiro]

I just want snuggles with Shin. 🥺

[fireladybuckley]

Very tired of being me today >.>

[cozy-the-overlord]

Me: I think I’m feeling much better today— calmer, more stable, not as wildly emotional. I think everything’s getting better—

Mom: <sends a picture of my cat>

Me: <immediately starts crying in public>

[aureutr]

The more I run into it, the more D1nc0bb has shifted from “not my jam” to a full-on NOTP. I can see exactly two things about it that might make it appealing:

1) Pedro and Timothy are both attractive

2) Cowboys

And if that’s what does it for you, then that’s great! Legitimately, I’m happy for you. But under the cut I’m going to rant about why it’s not for me.

But there’s no narrative cohesion. They don’t make sense together as longterm partners. Hookups, sure, but nothing more. I’ll ignore modern AU because anything goes there, but in GFFA (my strong preference)?

C0bb has people he’s responsible for, and there is no way in hell he would leave them. And after how hard they fought for the land they’re on? No way is Freetown pulling up stakes. You could maybe write a Tusken landback story but even then, they have decent relations with the tribe nearest them now.

That means that C0bb joining D1n on Mandalore or jetting around the galaxy doesn’t make any sense.

Similarly, D1n is either going to throw himself back into bounty hunting, unite Mandalore, or straight up die. Or some combination thereof. Even if he settles down somewhere quiet, it’s going to be somewhere Grogu would be comfortable. I.e., not Tatooine. Their possible longterm goals alone keep them far apart.

And I know that canon is a sandbox and you can throw out anything you dislike, but at a certain point it’s not interesting anymore? Like, I’m down for alternate character interpretations but it’s gotta be something like “let’s change this one component of their backstory or single element of their character, then what?” not “let’s ignore 100% of their characterization and motivations.”

I don’t see the point in shipping when you get to that point. If you strip too much away, you could put any cookie cutter version of any character into your story. I make jokes about “slamming Barbie dolls together” but I guess I do have a limit!

Like, I came back to fandom after years and years because I stumbled across Dinluke and went “!!! The parallels! The potential! Starcrossed lovers??” There are options and so many of them make sense or need very little massaging to get there. Also I like Luke best, hee.

I don’t dislike C0bb, I just don’t like him for D1n. Now, Boba? THAT makes sense and has some fascinating narrative potential. Tension between daimyo and Freetown? Third party throwing hydrospanner in the works? Tense negotiations that end with falling into bed? Possible Bobafenc0bb? Hell yeah, that’s got some meat.

But every time I look at D1nc0bb I go

[angelshimaa-archive]

eijirou would try to drag me to bed but i’d just pout like an idiot the cutie i am and he can’t even do anything

and negotiating when i sleep would only make me sleep later in the end bc he rlly cant say no to me