#I’m not into the fact that ppl r gonna keep doing this :/!!! it’s uncomfortable!!!!

[residenceevil]

Luis get behind me I’ll protect u from all the white ppl that r gonna be writing smut about you and fetishizing the fact that you’re Hispanic

[mischas]

pod thoughts/quotes

I swear this took me least two hours to actually watch fully from start/stopping for quotes and going back for context and then I had to pause for a few minutes while I made dinner. But that was incredibly cathartic, I must say. I feel like I’ll be ready to do a deeper dive on the podcast in the coming days but for now here are my thoughts as I watched.

07:30, re: “Whoever you want me to be” it’s interesting that Mischa says they shot her lines so many different ways to establish tone. As if Marissa really is so into her role as lead deb/social chair/etc when Sandy mentions the fashion show. Rereading the pilot script, I can see where this was changed in the direction once it came to shooting it.

16:42, “The thing about the sports or something” made me LAUGH re: hiatus because of baseball in 2003

@ ferris wheel scene, do they know this show is avail in hd? 🥴👀

24:15, re: 2x01 lawn chair scene “I was so frustrated with some of the character writing and not knowing how to play it at that point” omg “Didn’t know what to do with some of the writing” 

What kind of vapid ppl are listening to this drivel if this scene was their #1

31:57, Mischa didn’t know there was an SNL skit based off Marissa shooting Trey. IF ONLY I WERE SO LUCKY

33:28, I swear to christ 😭 Mischa has no recollection of Marissa’s various traumas (re: almost r*pe). And I don’t blame her for this, I think she had to keep this show out of sight out of mind for so so long for her own sake, but I hope being reminded of these things will help her perception of Marissa as more than a strung out angsty teen with poor decision making. She seemed so shook being reminded by Melinda that Marissa was sexually assaulted.

35:40, MB seems to be saying something else behind her expression about shooting on the Mount St. Mary’s campus for 3x24. What do we think she meant by this? Just that she was uncomfortable being paraded around in that skimpy school uniform? Or something else? This location doubled for Harbor, right? She also acknowledged feeling uncomfortable in the explicit Volchok scenes.

37:54, 3x25 model home pool scene, “Oh my god her tattoo, I can’t” I really thought this was Mischa’s tattoo they wrote into the script! I’m truly surprised they even cared about continuity at this point.

38:33, same pool scene “It’s nice when you have days where you can just, like, do stuff that’s not quite so heavy” and Mischa/Marissa deserved this so much more!!!!

44:25, they’re watching the d**th scene, and I have always thought Mischa’s arms look so weird just dropped back like that. It’s probably more realistic than if they were tucked in, but it’s always taken me out of the scene

I haven’t seen this scene in years. literally

I’m tearing up but only a little. It’s too melodramatic for me this time. I know what I’m supposed to feel but it seems so detached from reality that I can easily act like Marissa survives this. There’s almost 40 min left of this pod ep what are they gonna talk about

ok going back real quick i’m supposed to believe this happened to Ryan RIGHT IN HIS LAP AND HE’S CAREFREE AND DATES SOMEONE ELSE NOT EVEN A FEW MONTHS LATER? LMFAO PLS THIS BOY WOULDN’T BE ABLE TO EVEN SPEAK FOR LIKE A YEAR IF THIS RLY HAPPENED

“This is the culmination of their whole love story, it is” okay wait 🥺

“I don’t wanna see the part where he gets all emotional, I’m done now” real

49:31, Melinda: “Truth be told, there was a huuuuuge part of the audience that tuned in just for Marissa and the ratings did go down in season 4 because you weren’t there. I’m just putting that out there.” *elmo fire gif* 🫡 

55:40, 1x10 Missoni dress “They got the dress and I was obsessed, like ‘she has to wear this dress.’ It’s beautiful, like my dream dress at the time. That’s the way I felt about it. It’s all sparkly in person and just very Missoni. You know, after the fact, I became quite good friends with the family but this was like my first introduction to a Missoni piece and I was like ‘Oh my god I’m obsessed with this dress’ to the point where I begged them. This was like one of the first things they let me wear off set and it was my first date dress with, like, one of my ex-boyfriends. I was so excited I got to wear it out. It was special. So that dress has a special place in my heart, that’s for sure.”

1:01:40, fan question, “What do you think is the biggest misconception about Marissa? What’s the one thing that you just wish people would understand about her?”

“That she’s a caring– a very sensitive person. That’s the main thing about her, she’s just this sensitive and– that she wants to care for people and help them. she has a big heart like that.” 🥹

1:05:36 “Originally, they wanted her to be more like Legally Blonde.” 

Melinda, “Like bubbly?”

Mischa’s fucking face here lmao

1:06:00, to find Marissa’s character “They had me watch Kate Hudson in Almost Famous again and again, certain scenes.” Why is this actually making sense to me ljkhgf

1:07:04, Marissa at the party post-fashion show in the pilot was filmed many different ways drunk, “I remember I was asked to play that every way to Sunday. ‘Like now she should be fall down drunk, like she’s stumbling through the party’ and then there were takes where I was, like, completely composed. A little bit slurring my words. That was all find it as you go.”

1:08:10, “A lot of opposing types of direction” re: doug, mcg, josh

1:09:36, “Remember when they started shooting two episodes at a time and they would just hand me pages–I don’t know if you guys had as much of this– But they would be like ‘this is gonna be probably in the next episode and since we’re on this set we’re gonna give this scene a go so here’s a couple pages from what’s probably gonna happen’ and I’d be like ‘this is wild! what have you written for the next episode?’ You'd read it and be like ‘holy shit where are we going with this?’ so I remember a lot of that.” She mentioned this in the E! interview but hearing it again is super interesting.

1:10:27, fan question, “I wanted to ask you if there are any storylines you would’ve wanted to see more of for Marissa or if there’s anything you would’ve liked to have seen of Marissa explored.”

“Yeah, I feel like definitely the Alex storyline is what jumps to mind. I feel like that could’ve been explored more. Also there’s not a lot of her and her sister, really. You know? That could’ve been explored more.”

1:11:39, mentioning that the Alex storyline really was ‘her thing’ ie. something I’ve said in the past. The Alex storyline was the only one that was ever Marissa’s alone.

1:12:26, fan submission “Marissa was my favorite character. One of my favorite moments of her was midway through season 2 when Marissa shows up to the Cohen house with bagels and they take her in and comfort her.” real!!!! theeee sweetest scene of all time

1:17:20, Tacking on that fan question at the end about Marissa and mental health. Mischa has such an eloquent answer and to answer my own question from above I feel like this may change the discourse with which MB speaks about the character. At least I hope so. Love that caller for sending it in and honestly the pod for including it. 

“Obviously she suffers from depression and anxiety and all sorts of things. That’s what I was saying about the overdose scene. I do not remember what we think she’s on or what we really think her biggest problem is. Ultimately it’s rooted in mental wellness, isn’t it? I mean, so much of anything is. Any kind of addiction, it’s not really about just one thing or vice that she has. It’s about being at that age and being so overwhelmed about the world around you and not really feeling like she had the tools to cope.”

MC: “The episode is called ‘The Escape’. So she’s escaping that pain that she’s living through that the parents are oblivious to.”

MB: “Right. There’s nobody. There’s never, like, a counselor there or a teacher there. It does feel like she’s always grasping in different directions. It’s not properly defined and I think, maybe in today’s terms, we would handle that differently. But I definitely think that she’s going through all of it and searching for herself.”

Whew, you guys. I need to decompress. 

[otgwbgyu]

first off, my schedule sucks ass like actual ass

i only share 3/7 of my classes with friends

in my first hour i’m actually all alone and did try to communicate w my neighbor (someone i thought was an ally) to discuss our answers but got ignored so i looked away and as soon as i did she started talking with the ppl behind her 🙂 even if she’s just awkward and prefers talking w her friends it’s still so embarrassing and upsetting

my science class is ok ig, there’s only ~16 of us and 4 (including me) r girls 🥳 and i sit next to corbin riley but he seems cooler than usual these days

in my programming class i’m the only girl among a bunch of freshman boys (and braden) that’s not anxiety-inducing it’s just uncomfortable and awkward

but yeah it’s mainly ethics that’s got my panties in a twist it’s enough to have me break down crying before school while in the car w my dad hahahahahaha

and after that crying session i got the best announcement ever! my lunch period was changed!!! TO THE ONE WHERE NONE OF MY FRIENDS ARE!!!

me and my friends were ALL in 3rd lunch together, but now me and lola got downgraded to 4th lunch with all the freshmen!! yay!!!

FUCKING GEOMETRY IS A SOPHOMORE LEVEL CLASS. SOPHOMORE. IDC IF THERE’S FRESHMEN TAKING THE COURSE, THEY SHOULD’VE EXPECTED NOT HAVING FRESHMAN LUNCH BC THEY WILLINGLY TOOK A SOPHOMORE CLASS

i swear someone in the administration has it out for me i’m not even joking im gonna wake up to a dead bird outside my house signed by the administration in blood

idc if i’m being dramatic or if im being a big baby it’s just all these not even minor fuck ups have been piling and piling and only seem to be piling. before i know it im gonna get switched around to an even worse schedule

and not to mention the fact i don’t rlly like my geometry teacher. she beats around the bush wayyy too much and needs to get to the point sooner. like she keeps asking students to solve a problem when they keep getting it wrong like stop at the second attempt and explain it pls

she’s also the typa teacher who says “no! 😊” whenever u ask anything like it’s so passive aggressive it sends chills down my spine like u can talk normally and maybe add a “sorry” i dunno…. being a teacher doesn’t give u the right to do all that

and now i only got 80% for my latest assignment bc i didn’t do ONE problem that i SWEAR i did. the stupid assignment isn’t counted as completed until u do all the problems so mine wasn’t submitted until today aka after the due date meaning i only get 80% for all my work. i did 25 (i swear it was 26) yesterday and ONE today. ONE. ONE SINGULAR PROBLEM LATE. and boom my grade drops a letter. fuck this shit i’m sick and tired i might actually kms or something livings overrated atp

i also have an 89 in english but that’s manageable, no one else did well on that stupid test except for lily and her 6th sense. that test was fucking stupid. fym “does holden think his mom has good taste in clothes” i don’t know??? am i supposed to? apparently i am bc apparently it’s proof he might be a fag. he’s already a major twink tho so who’s surprised

[cevansbrat0007]

oh ok. i was wondering if u could do something where y/n steve and bucky r on a road trip and while they’re in a more desolate area she’s misbehaving so they stop the car and all get out and paddle her over the hood of the car? maybe not a lot of ppl see obv since it’s an empty ish road but maybe one or two cars drive by 😉

Know Your Girl

Summary: You piss Steve and Bucky off on the way to a Party. Read the earlier installments: No Biting, Watch Your Hands, Don’t Keep Secrets Steve Rogers x Black!Reader x Bucky Barnes *Warnings: Angry Stucky, Daddy Kink, Spanking with a Paddle, Cursing, Bratty Reader, Butt Plugs, Pet Names, Minors DNI _______

Yes, you were sulking. So what? You’d told Steve and Bucky that you hadn’t wanted to go to this stupid party from the beginning. In fact, you’d even begged them to let you stay home, which was unusual for you since you were always begging to get out of the damn house. 

Had they listened to you? Of course not! They had informed you that if you couldn’t be bothered to shower and dress yourself, then they would do it for you. And they had promised that you wouldn’t enjoy it. 

Not wanting them to make good on their threat, you’d done as they asked. Both of your men, or your Daddies as they were, knew that you didn’t exactly care for many of the people attending this party. This was especially true of the women, it was something about this particular group…they had no shame. You walk into the wrong room and you might interrupt a multi-person sexcapade.

That’s not to say you weren’t open minded, because you were. After all, you were dating two men at the same time. Two men who had, uh, a number of questionable business dealings.

So here you sat in the back of the town car, sandwiched between your incredibly handsome boyfriends. They were both dressed to the nines. If you had to be honest, seeing them decked out in their matching black suits…it was hard not to want to jump their bones. But right now, you’re angry. You’re pouting. And if there is one thing your men hate when it comes to you, it’s pouting. 

Too damn bad, boys. You’re gonna have to deal with my shitty attitude all fucking night if I feel like it. You think to yourself. 

Bucky’s hand grips your knee, stroking it gently. “I’m going to need to see a smile, doll. And I’m going to need to see it fast.” You look over at him and make a show of narrowing your eyes. 

With a sigh, you purse your lips and return your eyes to the road ahead. “I told you I didn’t want to come. I’m here under duress. Therefore, I think it’s only fair that you accept whatever attitude I choose to give you.” 

The weight of Steve’s gaze heats your skin. “Y/N, how many times do Daddy Buck and I need to remind you to do as you’re told?” You say nothing. “We’ve promised you that no one is going to touch you tonight. You believe us don’t you?” His lips brush your check as they sweep their way down your neck, giving you goose pimples. You shrug him off, which makes him growl. 

“I already told you that I am uncomfortable and I don’t want to go. You won’t listen, so guess who else won’t be touching me tonight?” They both turn to stare at you, as if daring you to finish your statement. “That’s right boys, it’s you.” Somehow you force yourself to ignore their twin snarls.

“Not that I’m sure you���ll mind all that much. Those stupid bimbos you’re about to make me deal with will be all over you, I’m sure. Just like always.” And they would be, whereas you were practically forbidden from even making eye contact with another man, no matter how friendly the encounter seemed to be.

You pick up Bucky’s hand and remove it from your knee. “So, starting now, do not touch me.” You’re far too irritated to notice your slip. 

Steve hisses out a breath as Bucky’s tongue kisses his teeth. “Is that so, baby?” Bucky responds, his voice soft and menacing. “And what gave you the right to keep our pussy from us?”

“Because it’s my pussy! It belongs to me, damn you.” You pound your fist into your lap while your men share a look above your head. Steve grabs ahold of your chin and roughly turns you to face him.

“You’re uncomfortable, sweetheart? Is that right?” When you try to jerk your head away he just applies more pressure, squeezing your cheeks. “Would you like Daddy Buck and I to show you just how uncomfortable we can make you?”

Your heart is pounding in your chest as Bucky leans over to whisper “because we can do that for you, baby. Would you like us to show you how?” He catches the lobe of your ear between his sharp teeth. Now your breath is coming in short, hot pants.

Using your last bit of courage, you manage to grit out: “I thought I told you not to touch me.” 

Bucky leans away from you to press the intercom button. “Hey Monty, pull the fuck over. Now.” Immediately you feel the car coast to the side of the highway before coming to a stop. 

Oh fuck. Fuck! Fuck! Fuck! 

“Alright Monty, I want you to take a walk.” He reaches into his wallet to hand the man a crisp $100 bill. “How about you head over to that diner just down the road there, and order us all some burgers and sodas. Get something for yourself too. You know how Steve and I like ours, and as for Y/N here…no mayo, no onion, extra pickle. Bring plenty of napkins. We’ll see you in 30.” With that Monty is out of the car and striding down the road towards the tiny establishment.  

“Yo Punk, did you bring it with you?” 

“Of course I did.” Steve replies with a knowing smirk. “I told you we might need it. I know what I’m talking about when it comes to our girl, pal.” Your stomach drops when you see a flash of pink. Oh no…not…not… “That’s right, Princess. Your Daddies brought along your favorite paddle. See how much we care about you?” He sinks his pearly white teeth into his lower lip. 

They open their respective car doors and get out, before requesting that you do the same. When you hesitate for a fraction too long, Bucky yanks you out himself. With minimal effort, he drags you around the side of the car away from traffic. Not there was much traffic on this stretch of the highway anyway. You couldn’t seem to recall the last time you’d even seen a car pass you by, coming or going. 

“No…no please.” You whimper when it finally dawns on you what you’ve done to yourself. “Daddy I - I’m sorry!” Your frantic eyes meet Steve’s, who frowns at you. He removes his suit jacket and drapes it over the hood of the vehicle. 

He points at it. “Bend over.”

“Daddy Buck, please. Let’s just talk about this…please!” The tears are already falling. 

He leans down to kiss your nose. “At this point, both of your Daddies think that you have talked enough. Now do as Stevie says and bend over. Monty will be back with our food sooner rather than later. Do you really want him to see your naughty little ass being punished?”

“Y/N. If I have to repeat myself a third time, I’m adding ten more. We clear, baby?” Steve crosses his arms, tapping the menacing paddle against his shoulder. Feeling hopeless, you have no choice to do as you’re told. 

Resolving yourself to your fate you walk over and bend over the hood of the car, suddenly thankful for the suit jacket that protects you from the hot metal. “Finally.” Steve grumbles. “Good girl. Lift your dress, baby. Now heads on top of your head - don’t move them.”

Once again you do as you’re told. There’s no need for them to ask you to lower your panties because, frankly, you weren’t wearing any. You weren’t allowed to. 

“Spread your legs a little, baby.” Bucky purrs. “And poke that pretty little ass out. Show us you’re ready to take your spanking.” Squeezing your eyes shut, you push your bottom up and out into the air. “Very nice. Give her twenty, Stevie.” The blonde simply grunts in response.

There’s no announcement, no warning. One moment everything is fine, and the next you feel the cold, hard crack of the paddle on your ass.

“Oww! Oh shit!” You eek out. Both of your men sigh in disappointment. “All this bad language we’ve heard from you tonight, Y/N. You know better.” Bucky’s vibranium hand smacks your ass hard. “We’ll have to start over every time you say a naughty word.” 

“I’m sorry, Daddy. I’ll do better.” You weren’t sure how that was going to happen, but you would try. Without a word, the paddle strikes you again with a resounding CRACK!  

“Ahh! Oh god - oh!” You yelp. 

CRACK!

“Daddy Steve, I’m sorry!” You cry out, your legs kicking out in the air. “Don’t you dare move those hands, baby girl.” Steve growls as he wields the stupid fucking implement with both authority and precision.  

CRACK! CRACK! “Ooooh! Jesus no!” God, this pain was awful. You hated this damned paddle. Hated it! “Stop it please!

CRACK! CRACK! CRACK!

“Ahhhh!” You sob, burying your face in Steve’s jacket. “I get it, okay?!

“Yeah?” Bucky responds from his relaxed position nearby. “You gonna start absorbing what we’re saying, Princess? Are you?” CRACK!

“Oh for the love of god, yes!” You cry out. “I’ll absorb it like a freaking sponge! Okay, Daddies? I swear it. Just no more!” 

You hear them chuckle behind you. “Well, we’re glad to hear that. But I’m afraid you’ve still got twelve more to go. What's to say we finish those out and then your Daddies will give you a present?” All you can do is sob harder as Steve starts up again. He makes quick work of the last twelve. You’re glad that no one is around because by the end you are screaming, begging, pleading…

You’re a shuddering, whimpering mess when it’s finally over. Steve and Bucky make a point of softly rubbing your back. Cooing at you and praising you for how well you took your punishment, telling you how proud they were of you for not moving your hands. 

“Since you did such a good job, it’s time for your present.” You let out another whimper.

“That’s right, sweetheart.” Steve murmurs seductively against the shell of your ear. “Daddy Buck and I went and picked out some special jewelry just for you, and we want you to wear it for us…tonight. You gulp at his words. “Now show us that cute bottom hole we love so much.”

“Yes, Daddy.” Not wanting to risk further punishment, you reach your shaking hands back and spread your cheeks. You flinch when you feel something cool and slippery touch you there, followed by the presence of hard, unrelenting metal. They take time to work it into you, to let you get used to the pressure. 

In and out. In and out. In and out. 

All you’re focused on is trying to breathe. It’s not that they hadn’t used a plug on you before, but this one felt…bigger. You can’t help but let out a sigh of relief once it’s finally settled in place.   

“Look at that, Stevie. A jewel fit for a princess, and her little pussy is fucking dripping. Keep those cheeks open, Y/N. We want to look at your beauty until Monty comes back.” You hear the snap of a camera before Bucky leans over to show you a picture of the sparkling pink butt plug that was now lodged firmly in your tight little hole. You turn your head away with a whine. 

“Hey!” Steve barks. “Aren’t you going to thank your Daddies for your special gift?”

“Thank - thank you, Daddies. I - I love it..” You receive twin grunts of satisfaction in response. 

“Good. Now remember to hold them open. We want to admire you until Monty gets back.” Which is what you do, which honestly gives you time to calm down. “And tonight, we’re going to make you feel so good, baby girl. So good. You just use the next few hours to think about how to talk to your Daddies from here on out.” You nod. You’re not sure how long you remain in position, but eventually they tug your dress down and help you back into the car. 

Between your sore ass and the…foreign object invading your body…you are now well and truly uncomfortable. Of course this doesn’t go unnoticed by Steve and Bucky, but since they happen to be the root cause of your discomfort, they don’t really care. In fact, you’re convinced that they’re kind of enjoying your squirming.     Monty gets back in the car and quickly doles out the food. He doesn’t look you in the eyes when he hands you your burger, but you know he’s noticed your smeared make-up and puffy eyes.

“Eat, baby.” Bucky urges you, as he unwraps his food. “You need to regain your strength.” You slowly do as he asks and tentatively take a bite. Some days you wondered how you could love these men, and yet you did. 

“Mmm.” Steve groans as he takes another bite of his burger. “This was such a good idea. You know how much I hate the food at these things anyway.” He places a smacking kiss on your cheek. 

“Thanks for giving us a reason to stop, Y/N. I bet we won’t forget this place.” He says with a wink.         

END

[dumbass-extraordinaire]

all right buckle up fuckers listen up cos im very trans and very fed up so im only gonna say this shit once: i’m sick and tired of “afab in skinny jeans” being the only widely accepted way to be nonbinary!

i’m tired of skirts and traditionally feminine attire only being considered gnc if it’s on cis men (this is not meant to hate on cis men who wear skirts, keep doing what ur doing y’all)

im so FUCKING SICK AND TIRED of cis “allies” and binary trans ppl who try to gatekeep all amab enbies bc they’ve decided that nonbinary just means “woman light”

like full offense but if u pull shit like “woman and nonbinary friendly” or some similar bullshit, i don’t fucking trust you or want you in may general vicinity bc i know for a fact that u r the type of bitch who misgenders me as soon as i’m not around

and it’s not just cis and binary trans ppl, i know that other afab enbies pull this shit all the time 

like yeah so what if their amab and look like a fucking lumberjack and have a full beard, they’re still nonbinary

the whole goddamn point of being nonbinary is not adhering to the traditional gender binary, thats the fucking point and im sick of having to correct fucking everyone on my pronouns over and over every time i’m in a conversation just because i like to dress feminine

just bc i dress like an egirl doesn’t give you the fucking right to she/her me all the goddamn time

amab enbies are fucking valid, no matter how they present, they are not flamboyant gay men or confused trans women, and i am still nonbinary no matter how feminine i dress 

nonbinary ppl don’t owe you androgyny, and they don’t owe you a fucking explanation and if that makes you uncomfortable then you can go fuck yourself

[smutty-ki113r]

So first; i have a few tips for u if shifting isn't working. I mean i have been shifting for almost 10 years and only recently found out that it's a thing many ppl do lol. Maybe try meditation before? It helps for a lot of ppl. once u feel like u got that down; try different shifting methods and either listen to ambient music or your fav music. That's what works for me at least. don't stress abt it; stay calm and just believe that u can do it. coming back after is probably the hardest part for me ngl. but for me it helps to think abt my cat or my things i have in my room.

anyways...the brainrot *cracks knuckles* soo I was kinda unsure of ben in the beginning since, u know i actually think he kinda smexy and all, but we kinda hung out from the beginning. I think I already told u quite a bit abt him. Oh yeah they r a ll in their 20's btw.

He's so chill. we paint eachothers nails and i do his makeup sometimes lol. Oh and i actually have my phone there too. Sometimes I read him fanficts (yes yours too) he loves it sm. he always calls me out when i stare at toby and jeff.

Those two idiots- man one time i watched them fight over a fuckn spoon; for like 20 minutes; for cereal. cuz u best believe noone does the dishes. they were both still in their sleepwear...so yeah basically half naked bois. I was obviously staring but they were way too busy fighting over a spoon. ben was sitting beside me eating his cereal with his perfectly fine spoon; side eyeing me and enjoying the drama. I think abt that daily-

Another time i was singing with Nina, uh this song "guy.exe" lol it was so much fun. And then those three (they usually hang out together ig) walked in on that whole stick. it was uncomfortable to say the least 😃 well Nina is great at encouraging others tho. They basically tell me the same thing u did, all the time. Nina's pronouns are they/she btw. Nina also often tells me abt when she used to be obsessed with jeff lol. She isn't anymore guess that was to be expected since Nina is like 21 now. Don't get me wrong they still think he's hot but they don't give a shit if he likes them or not. Basically Nina is a Bad bitch who doesn't need a man. rave/scene queen👑

I'll keep it at that for now.

Wanna know abt any of the others?? I am very open to tell abt my experiences.

-🃏

First I really really appreciate your shifting tips I love it when you pop into my inbox and even more when you talk about shifting because it gives me a lot of hope. I always try to listen to subliminals or songs that sort of connects my emotional state to my intention. 

The fact that I had to wait like three hours to respond to this because I could not stop crying. That he knows about??? God I’m gonna be crucified. What does he say I’m so curious I spent so long not knowing how I felt about this. I was like am I jealous or am I extremely sad or am I happy that he knows?? But he knows about me and well I assume he knows about me but if not he he knows that I write a fan fictions and that makes me so pathetic I know.

I can definitely see Jeff and Toby fighting over a spoon. Bro Nina knows what’s up I literally love them. Baddddddd bitch literally the baddest bitch.

Literally tell us everything that you want to tell us this is your place and your space to give us all the tea because I’m pretty sure I’m not the only one who absolutely loves to hear about this stuff and it definitely gives hope to those of us who are trying to shift!!

TELL US EVERYTHING

[megandzane]

The way royal fans talk about harry tells me all I need to know like theyd rather have him go back to that place so he can continue playin third wheel to his brother rather than heal. His healing is uncomfortable to royal fans because harry is breaking that fairytale image? Well too bad. Fuck outta here. It bothers me specially when they do the faux concern thing of saying he shouldn’t air out his business and speak against charles or William. To that all I will say is 1) he has actually spoken pretty kindly about them. He could have gone way harder against them. Sure he has said he’s hurt but it comes from an understanding place, he even has said he gets how difficult it’s been for them too. he doesn’t sound angry to me, he jus sounds like he wants to share his experience. 2) as someone who comes from an abusive family myself the only people I’ve ever heard pull that “it has to stay in the family” line are the main abusers or the people in the situation who are complicit and benefit from the silence. So miss me with that... because no. I hope he gets it off his chest lol! Also all the royals fans saying this operate on the assumptions that Charles and William are not out there airing family business too which they r, they are just cowards and don’t say it with their full chest so they have to leak thru others. lol. The only thing I’m worried about is maybe the general public getting tired of it because I know a lot of ppl don’t love the Royal drama but then I remember the only ones who are getting constant updates are us fans and people who read the daily mail. So by the time the memoir comes out late next year people won’t have thought about any of this for a while so I think it will be fine. Idk! Love ur blog 💜💜💜

I agree with all of this. I’ve been saying for a few years, for so much of these people it’s projection. Harry’s never hidden how much he wanted to just be a regular guy, but they ignore that. They use the fantasy world of the royals to escape. They are mad that he’s not the character they’ve created for him .

It’s not Harry’s job to protect the image of those who are happy to throw him and his wife under the bus. He has a right to speak for himself. He had a right to share his truth.

You make a really good point for number 1. He’s never trashed them, even when critical he still shows so much empathy for the fact that they are still trapped in that environment. He was empathetic to the fact that Charles was treated the same way by his own father. And the fact that they are still so worried about what he’s going to say concerns me...what are y’all trying to keep hidden??

I know people want Harry to expose them all, but I really can’t see him revealing anything super explosive in his book. I don’t think it’s his style. And the money is going to charity, it’s just about him telling his story. But if he did air out the family’s dirty laundry, they really have no room to talk because they always do that. I’d really like to know why it’s more acceptable to cowardly leak things via “ sources “ than own what you say.

I come from a toxic family as well , Toxic people hate being called out on their toxicity. They do everything they can to silence and gaslight their victims. So the backlash and smears are not at all unexpected. Toxic people don’t want you to succeed without them, because now who are they gonna blame?

I’ve seen people on here address concerns about the timing, and fears of overexposure. And that is a valid concern, but that’s a really good point about supporters’ perception being different , most of the general public isn’t looking for articles about them. The Oprah interview was huge because that was on prime time and broadcasts in multiple countries. But there was very little noise from the general public about Harry’s interview on Armchair Expert or really even TMYCS.

I also think them living and working in the US mediates the risks.

The US doesn’t have that same hype around the royals, that really exists in england only. The US media report on the story, they don’t create multiple articles about one event and look for negative spins.

By 2022, I think enough time will have passed from the Oprah interview , podcast , and Tmycs. And it’s very possible that by them they will be in the news more for their work with Archewell than because of the royal family.

Thanks for the kind words about the blog 😊

[icharchivist]

first: WAHHHHHHHHH 😭😭😭 I got so emotional!!! so emotional!!!! so much that I can’t even do this first second pattern bc I have SO MANY thoughts!!!!!!! I’m writing this in my notes instead of straight into the askbox so u know it’s serious business™

ok so debut night!!! I was like ahah yeah it’s a tragedy whatever it’ll be fun to start out with and then the voice acting was SO good that it knocked me out of the park and I almost cried haha. it’s crazy how good the voice acting in a3 is like I love how the dialogue and voice acting works well together bc like it’s limited but so effective!! u can so very clearly see and understand the style they’re going for. especially like tsumugi’s death scene... the Talent jumped out it really did... uh and ok so. I think I may be a littleeee confused abt the play bc I had always interpreted tasukus last lines as raphael to be like abt his being secretly in love with michael. but now that I’m actually reading the line that’s like oh don’t fall for a human it only ends in misery I know that all too well or whatever... ig the implication is that raphael was in love with another human / the same lady michael was in love with in the play. side note I had to go back and edit the proper names in instead of tasuku and tsumugi lol... but speaking of!! speaking of the voice acting and the play itself I 1) love how blatantly obvious it is when tsumugi goes for that grander, tasuku like style of delivery!! like u could just so easily feel the difference it was wild... and 2) tsuzuru is once again spot on with his writing, lol... I felt that like raphaels inability to save or help michael really parallels how tasuku feels abt tsumugi so well, and it’s wonderful that they r able to resolve things and tasuku can properly compliment him on his acting where the angels fail to do so. it’s very good. and I think the play rly highlights (for me at least) that like. to tasuku, it was tsumugi who was sort of an unreachable existence. like were he to idolize and respect someone’s acting, it would be tsumugi. and I think that like caring carries over into their roles really well, because I think in michael’s love for a human tasuku sees like... tsumugi’s style of acting. the heart that he’d lost while within the god troupe. mb I’m losing my mind a little but ah. the play rly works with their relationship so well!! im very excited to see the other winter ppl get main roles tho—same for all the troupes!!! now this ask is too long so I’ll have to do another part lol

going to start off this second part of the ask abt hisoka bc oh my GOD. hisoka. like I was just thinking “hm where r the winter troupe cgs anyways” and then BAM. hisoka CRYING???? especially since he doesn’t seem that emotional it was a really hard hit!!! and who tf is august.... ok well actually theory time!! skipping ahead to the end theres that note that like mentions December and April and. not to expose my friend but very many years ago (a couple years before a3 was launched, at the very least) she wrote this story where there were like 12 orphan assassins and they were all named after months. I remember the main dude was named dec lol. coupled with my “hisoka is capable of murder” bit? listen.... I’m not saying anything but I’m also not not saying anything if u feel me. also I feel like assassin / thief with mysterious background is a common trope!! that was silver from the pokémon adventures manga too... why is this my reference point lmao. anyways I’m unclear if assassins would make it into a3 but like.... if the yakuza and supernatural stuff makes it in...

okay moving away from conspiracy theories and into emotions!!! the quotes from like EVERY mankai actor before the final production made me SO emo... and yay!!! they won!!!! (though admittedly I almost had a heart attack when no one clapped) but they won!!!! that ending cg!!!! and I adore how sakyo immediately goes after god troupe man (I know his name is reni I just don’t feel like calling him that) for the money lol it’s just so sakyo-like. also I love the lil mixed troupe interactions!! I found the game night ch so fun.... ahh, now I wanna reread that ch since it was so good lol

all in all I was super satisfied ahh!! I am SO excited to start up spring troupe again (HELLO character development!!! and chikage) and I’m even MORE excited to get thru all the act 1 events!!!! as a final note, is there any way to reread or replay the flair conversations? I didn’t want any spoilers for the plays while I was doing the practices for them so I kinda sped thru the first time ahah...

HELLO FRIEND IM SO HAPPY TO GET SUCH A LENGHTY ASK ABOUT WINTER IM LKDJFLKDJFLKFD  Winter makes me feel shrimps emotions (i know the whole “shrimps can see more colors than humans can’t comprehend” thing has been disproved but i’m not letting go of that expression, i REALLY feel emotions humans can’t comprehend anymore and i’m going to make it everyone else’s problem)

1) First about the voice acting, rIGHT this is just so fascinating to me!!! I remember after act 2 i came back to reread the main act 1 chapter and i was so thrown out by how GOOD the voice acting was, especially for the first few troupes having to convince you they’re not comfortable or good at acting yet. Winter whole thing is that they’re more subtle and mature and you really feel that with their voice acting, Tsumugi’s voice especially knock it off the park anytime he’s on screen. 

2) Second: what does it say about me that i’ve never, ever considered your reading a possibility because i was so set on “oh Raphael you’re in love with Michael sooooo bad you see it as a tragedy already because you can see him throw his life away” i didn’t even consider “maybe Raphael went through that too”. Though i guess if we’re going with that reading i can totally see “The Woman” they let themselves consumed by easily be a representation of acting or even more the God Troupe, with Raphael/Tasuku knowing to step away before it consumes him completely while Michael/Tsumugi, by his love and passion, pushed himself until he broke, which fits and it hurtsssss god Winter plays hits so hard.

3) Third: oh god yeah when Tsumugi goes for Tasuku’s acting it’s just. It makes me SO uncomfortable, i’ve experienced this scene like three times by now and the third time i was just “can i skip it i can’t go through this again i can’t Tsumugi i love you i can’t do this”. It doesn’t match the play at all and it just throws everyone off balance, and Tsumu you could have told theM YOU WANTED TO DO THAT.... god

4) Fourth: I LOVE YOUR READING SO MUCH I LOVE IT I LOVE IT YES YOU’RE RIGHT!!! Just as we follow Tsumugi let his passion consumes him until he breaks, Tasuku’s character arc really jumps out in Raphael, like, everything you say!!!  The way Tasuku/Raphael knew how the feelings Tsumugi/Michael felt would hurt him on the long run but he didn’t know what to do about it until it was too late, the regrets and the way Raphael voices his frustrations.... Tasuku struggles to be honest without acting (Tasuku pls i love you) but having such a role really help him expressing all he feels about Tsumugi and i’m HHHH this is so good so so good!!! but yeah i also love that Tasuku finally manages to actually compliment Tsumugi naturally, that he understands he can’t let him destroys himself again and it’s just gnhhhhh Tasuku is so kind and considerate and i care about him so much....!!!

5) Fifth: “i’m losing my mind a little” winter mood, winter mood winter mood- (though every troupe’s mood tbh but Winter is gnhhhhh kdhd hdhjf??? you feel me) (i am BIASED i can’t help it TwT) but yeaH i’m looking forward to see how you react to the others plays because the roller coaster juST BEGUN!!!

Onto part 2... Winter Troupe Chapter Feels... 2!

6) Sixth: DLFJDFKLDF HISOKAAAAAAAAAA I LOVE HIM SO MUCHHHHH. Hisoka crying fucked me up so bad!! so so bad!! Like on my first read i didn’t know what to think of him as he starts out very apathic to his troupe and then the more it goes on the more you can feel he starts to open up and i’m soft for this sort of slow burn, but then this whole scene happened and it HIT ME IN THE FACE, he was crying, i was crying, we were all crying, the Unopening Door opened a flood of emotions i can’t cope with. He sounds SO VULNERABLE during that scene and i know all of the Winter Troupe united on “taking care of him” but that’s really the moment i went “i care you and i will keep taking care of you” and look at me now. Thanks funky little scene for ruining my life. I’m glad you liked it i’m aldhjflkjdfkd Hisokaaaaa.....

7) Seventh: I am not commenting on the theory but 👀 that’s so highly specific your friend has a galaxy brain i love it. and i love the idea of “well we have yakuza and supernatural entity what’s an assassin adding himself to it” dLKFJDLKF i know everyone in Mankai calls Izumi out everytime someone joins but that’d be peak. I’m not going further about what December and August and April are all about but i love this plotline sO much, the few mentions of August when Hisoka regained his memories for a minute still haunts me, the guilt he seems to feel and this pain i’m just... godddd such a good set up. I love this plotline.

8) Eigth: EMOTIONS!!  Oh GOD YEAH THE ENDING WITH ALL THE OTHER ACTORS... I cried so hard it’s just. It really shows you it’s not just the culmination of the Winter chapter but of all the act 1 main plot and it really makes you feel how much of a journey you’ve been onto!! A3 is so good at showing you the growth of its characters that especially by the end of Winter you really saw how all of them grew in their respective chapters and how cozy they felt in their new home in the remaining chapters, and the fact this chap has those defining character arc’s lines really drive home “oh my god that was a journey” i love them sO MUCH.... 

9) Ninth: wE WOOOON!!! They’re all so good i just. i’m gonna cry just thinking about it dlfdjlfk i know like, the game has so many content so you know it can’t end at the end of Winter but the suspense really was there. BUT YEAH LMAO I LOVE SAKYO DOING THAT IMMEDIATLY, man sure has the eyes on the prize and we love him for that.  AND THE GAME NIGHT SCENE they are all sO CUTE and sWEET and they’re a family now and i’m hHHHHH i love a3 a normal healthy amount that isn’t just making me cry thinking about how all of them grew so close even through mixed troupes.

10) Tenth: I am SO happy you were satisfied with the plot so far!! I’m genuinely so happy that you decided to take that journey with us and that you shared all of this with me, and i’m so so happy you liked it!! There is still so much content and all of it is so worth it! 

11) Eleventh: Yes!! The flair conversations are all readable on the Mini-Chat tab! So they’re easily accessible and they’re sorted in a way that’s easy to read so you can feel comfortable skipping the flairs if you want until you have seen the stories the flairs are all about. They’re all kinda set during the rehearsals (except for some crosstroupe conversation that wouldn’t make sense if they were like how the Summer Troupe talks with the Spring Troupe in their Flairs DKLFJDF but it’s okay what is a timeline anyway) so some of them are set pre-development and it’s wild to get back to them. I love rereading Flairs i get emotional everytime.

ANND That’s it for this ask! i had a blast reading through your thoughts and i’m so happy and excited!! i’ll send you the drive now so you can start digging through it whenever you feel like it :3c good luck grinding for act 2, meanwhile i hope you’ll have fun with all the act 1 events i compiled for you!!

(side note i need to update the drive too but it’s mostly act 2 content anyway, the only two act 1 things i need to update on it is Sakuya’s birthday card i think?? i think Itaru’s is already in act 2 so i’ll try to get around to it eventually but it’s so far away anyway) (edit: i forgot that the three cards i got for the latest revival are from act 1 DLKJFD okay so i’m missing three cards -)

The drive has backstages and event stories and it may be a lot and overwhelming ahah. Focus on the event stories for the plot and go back to the backstages whenever you feel like it, no need to read them at the same time, unless you want to in which case everything is set up for you :3c and there’s a file with cards that aren’t associated to events too so... lots of goodies hanging around. I’ll send it to you in DM ;O 

Take care and thank you so much for all your thoughts! my inbox remains wide opened for any others thoughts you may have as you go further into it :3c

[wincore]

AGREEEE, WORKING OVER THE WEEKEND IS THE WORST esp since im in uni full time and i work 9-5 on the weekends which means... no breaks for me ever.. 🥲

MASSIVE CRUSH ON OIKAWA OMGGG I SUPPORT THIS!!!!! but i am unfortunately much older than 15 and still enamored by 2d men 😔 life’s rough like that HDJWKDJ YES ATSUMU CAUSES PROBLEMS ON PURPOSE.. HES THE WORST!! btw.. ive heard that the oikawa to atsumu stan pipeline is very real... so if u get to s4.. u may develop atsumu brain rot like me 👁_👁

OOO alright run on, extracurricular, vincenzo, true beauty, love alarm, & perfect crime. NOTED!! ive actually been meaning to watch extracurricular for a while now, it looks so interesting!! now that it has the wincore seal of approval i must watch 😤 OMGG SAKURADA DORI I SAW HIM IN ALICE IN BORDERLAND!! super good show but really gore heavy at some points 👁

ahh ok thank u for the reccs, ive been thinking about starting demon slayer too!! shoplifters sounds really interesting :oo crime??? i havent watched a full movie in a while so i will def check it out!! THESE R ALL GOING IN MY NOTES APP.

NEXT YEARRR omg it sounds far away but i know time passes so quickly nowadays so I WILL WISH U LUCK ONCE AGAIN 💛 i hope u update us when the time comes!!

UGHWHHD EVEN THIS SYNOPSIS IS MAKING ME MISS UR WRITING?!? I LOVE THE WAY U WORD IT... “given a choice to pretend, you find that jaehyun is the lesser of the two burdens to bear” AHHHHHHH omg “he’s in a relationship and doesn’t rlly care about the soulmate system” THIS IS ALWAYS SUCH A PAINFUL SCENARIO IN SOULMATE AUS PLSS!!! Wait is the soulmate of yn gonna be an oc/vague character or another member :O EITHER WAY... PAIN! THIS IS GETTING ME SO EXCITED AND U HAVENT EVEN MENTIONED ANYTHING ABOUT WHAT JAEHYUN’S LIKE IN THIS FIC YET

RUNWAY CHARACTER CAMEOOOS YESS I LOVE RUNWAY YN!!!! i actually reread it last night and ugh i was reminded how much i love yns personality... just the process of experiencing all tht self doubt with them!!! so real & makes u root for them :’)

“if jeno plays edward i need him to that apple scene like taemin did” WHHHHHWJDJJWJDBW THIS MADE ME CHOKE ON THE WATER I WAS DRINKING LMFAO

GODDDD THESE TROPE/MEMBER PAIRINGS, HARD AGREE HARD AGREE!!! HAECHAN AND RENJUN ARE E2L 100%!!!! i think bc the ppl in the bff2l category cant convincingly hate yn back LOL

“gets complimented on his lyricism often but like every song’s about you” STOPPPPP HES SO PERFDCT FOR THIS TROPE!!!!!

OMG I SEE EXACTLY WHAT U MEAN ABT SICHENG IN ROYALTY/CHAEBOL AUS... i think like u said it’s because of his poise & the way ppl are generally in awe of him but also bc of his reluctance to open up!! more reserved until he trusts u... funny and kind but sometimes perceived as aloof... those r some prince tendencies! “what are corporate businesses but modern day kingdoms” LMFAOOWJDJ SERIOUSLY THO

“mans really said i will not give you any onscreen idol personality to work with” HDJWJDJWJSJ LITERALLYYYY this is why i have trouble reading jaehyun fics sometimes bc sometimes they can feel “inaccurate” but its mostly just bc there’s no Standard Personality Stereotype to go off of. but a random & uncommon trope i think he’d pair well with is exes to lovers!! Yes im basically just a jaehyun + angst advocate.

“i think most of them would pair well with bff2l??” FACTTTTTTT and no im not just saying this bc its one of my favorite tropes.. heh... i think i told u this before?? but ur like the main reason i started enjoying e2l!!! i didnt like it before bc i love the PINING in bff2l but then i started reading ur works n was like OH SHIT! THERES LOADS OF PINING HERE TOO...

i think yangyang is not bff2l or e2l, he is in his own category which is Annoyer2Lover HDJWKDJ ex: troublemaker, wasted nights

OMGGGG I DID NOT EXPECT ROYALTY AU TO HAVE SUCH A LARGE LEAD IN THE SURVEY??? and cryptids is so low 😔😔 cmon guys, vampires r fun!!!

WE R LITERALLY WRITING ESSAYS TO EACH OTHER RN BUT I LOVE IT 🥺🥺 its a such a nice break to read ur response when im burnt out from studying!!

OMG IM GOING THROUGH #moonwrites AND IM LITERALLY AN IDIOTTTT IVE BEEN OFF TUMBLR FOR SO LONG I DIDNT REALIZE THAT ROMEO ROULETTE HAD A PREVIEW OUT????

“And I get what out of this?” “Me?” IM IN LOVE WITH THIS CHARACTERS PERSONALITY ALREADY LMFAOO

“—and when this whole game you’re playing is over, you’re going to say I rejected you.” ?!?!???? THE WAY JAEHYUN IS A LITTLE SHIT! THEIR PERSONALITIES ARE BOTH SO FUN PLSJWJDJEJ IM MORE EXCITED NOW!!

pls disregard the part in my last ask where i asked abt romeo roulette.... i had no idea all of the information i needed was sitting right in front of me 😔😔

- tata

WHAT 9 TO 5 ON EVERY WEEKEND???? the system has failed you this honestly feels like a villain origin story 😭 when does it get better???

ALSO let me answer the other asks separately for better readability lol we really out here writing essays GOOD THING i have practice writing but like. this is infinitely better to write 🥰

PLSSS SOMETIMES I WILL SEE AN EDIT/TIKTOK OF OIKAWA AND BE LIKE DAMN I REALLY NEED TO CATCH UP I MISS THIS MF also are you daring me to ruin my life for 2d men bc i will do it without hesitation. wait till i watch hq again and get that atsumu brainrot with you he seems annoying enough for me to like ^_^

AND YES PLS I WAS SO ABSORBED IN IT!! extracurricular was the most gripping show i’ve watched in a while like yes enough teen romance give me two unhinged teenagers doing crime 🤩 AND OMG??? THAT’S WHERE WE SAW HIM TOO and although niragi was literally vomit-inducing human trash, sakurada dori is like. a good actor. except i hated coffee&vanilla which starred him it was literally so cringe i couldn’t 😭 i blame the writers for that though. IM EXCITED FOR S2 OF ALICE IN BORDERLAND THO i really like horror (and i can tolerate gore if ive been desensitized enough) and like i read the manga too!!! the games were really interesting (although morbid).

😭😭 MY NOTES APP IS FULL OF RECS FROM FRIENDS ALL OF THEM HATE ME FOR NOT WATCHING THE SHOWS BUT LIKE. i binge 3 or 4 at a time and strike them off and then go 6 months without watching a single tv series hhh.

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!! I SURE WILL UPDATE !!! it’s so exciting to think about grad school sometimes :33

AHHH IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE IT AND THE PREVIEW TOO SGSDJKDS there’s a few differences in the actual fic i think bc i changed up the language (and i dont remember what else bc i refuse to look at my writing) JAEHYUN RLLY IS A LITTLE SHIT he’ll be like hm yeah im pretty chill :) and then proceed to beat yn at her own game at times. (she wins mostly dw) the fact that i made her soulmate cha eunwoo like girl if i were you i’d crash their relationship 🥱 (jk) but like. jaehyun too is 🤩 despite being dry af

ASDKDSKDS YOU REREAD ALL (ALMOST) 19K WORDS ??? IM SO GLAD YOU LIKE THAT FIC SM AAAAHHH IM FEELING LIKE AN ACTUAL AUTHOR 🥰 i loved runway yn too they were like boss attitude with 20% anxiety.

LOOK JENO BETTER BE PULLING MOVES LIKE THAT TO IMPRESS THE GIRLS 😤 if he hits himself in the forehead with the apple, bonus points bc that was true comedy (as invented by taemin)

AND YES. LIKE I KNOW MARK HATED DONGHYUCK SO MUCH HE WANTED TO LEAVE SM BUT LIKE HE’S TOO NICE WITH EVERYONE ELSE 😭😭😭 i cannot picture him pissed off apart from that summer fight </3

thinking about dejun getting rejected by a girl he wrote a song for. rip brother.

IM GLAD YOU PUT THAT INTO WORDS BC THAT’S EXACTLY WHAT IT IS!!! he’s got all of these regal qualities but he’s still human ykyk so it makes for the most amiable person on earth 😌 i love this characterization of him!!

oof exes to lovers with jaehyun... i had a similar idea a while ago (with theme song sincerity is scary by the 1975) that i discarded bc i don’t think i’m cut out to write that 😭 (YET) so i will keep this is mind. u r so right about jaehyun feeling inaccurate bc it’s like he’s very mild in personality onscreen sometimes?? so him having strong personality traits makes me go 🤔🤔 that man is overreacting. (jkjk but like you get the idea)

WAIT RLLY OMG BC OF ME???? i would never enjoy e2l irl bc irl dudes are 🤢🤢 and if they annoy me i will end them. but in fiction the mutual pining and initial disgust at yourself for liking the other??? helllooo 🤩🤩🤩 especially if it’s in a romcom style <3 bff2l is also better in fiction bc if the relationship doesnt work out irl and the person become uncomfortable with me i will just get annoyed jskshdl

LMAO YOU ARE SO RIGHT ABOUT YANGYANG HE’S JUST THAT™ DUDE skgkhs he feels like someone fun to hang out with but he would annoy you the whole time. also he is cute 🥰

AND EXACTLY!!!! IM HAPPY FOR ROYALTY AUS BUT CMON. LOOK AT THOSE VAMPIRE TEETH. feel like media ruined vampires for people 😔 

THIS IS SUCH A NICE BREAK FROM STUDYING HONESTLY!!!! im like working on two semi-large projects AND studying course and out-of-course material simultaneously so my brain is a little fried. thank u for this 😘

[keepyourpantsongohan]

Ayesha Liveblogs Naruto Shippuden S21

What a tender intro omg also why is this filler so well animated

The introduction of modern technology will never not be funny to me. Kakashi on a laptop. Gaara sending emails. What has the ninja world come to 

I know it’s just superfluous background motion but that angry little cat design was amazing. Takes me tf out 

Hello again New English Iruka Voice time to feel slightly uncomfortable 

Doesn’t Inuyasha have a monopoly on this baby with a red ball imagery

Why! Is! No one! Making sure! Naruto is fed! He’s a baby!!!!!!

Naruto and Sasuke were such adorable children my heart

SOMEONE PLEASE EXPLAIN THE FAMILY WHERE ONE OF THE CHILDREN IS JUST A FROG? WHO IS DOING THESE BACKGROUND ANIMATIONS?????

In case you thought I wasn’t being literal:

[Accompanying dialogue to this image: “Did you hear the rumours that Lord Fourth died because of him?” WHO IS THIS FROG CHILD WITH A VENDETTA AGAINST MINATO]

This ninja cowboy music seems slightly misplaced but okay

Hiruzen. U r the literal ninja president. Naruto is foraging in the forest for food bc no one is taking care of him! How r u like ‘Hahah I’m hungry too :D’ 

“The things that we inconsequential humans worry about are often very petty indeed” “You’re right” It’s Philosophy Hours ft. Pre-Schoolers 

“Are you sure these mushrooms are safe to eat? “Won’t know ‘til we eat ‘em” HIRUZEN PICK UP THE PHONE 

SCREAMS FIVE YEAR OLD NARUTO JUST JUMPED OFF THE HOKAGE MONUMENT AHHHHHH

I miss Neji :((((((((((((((((

“Please make sure that you look after Neji” show us Neji’s mum you cowards!!!

“You have to be more positive, and confident!” Nejiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii my boy

“I wish that I could switch places with you, big brother” There’s a lot to unpack here and I’m wildly concerned about all of it. This episode ought to be titled Konoha Desperately Requires Child Welfare Programs

Making an mini-episode which largely depicts Neji’s tragic backstory and centring its ending on Hinata seems like an odd angle to take

 “I’m alone. I don’t have anyone, but I never cry” NARUTOOOOO

KJHFKJHG THIS NINJA BASEBALL OUTRO I LOVE IT 

SASUKE USING HIS SHARINGAN TO CHEAT AT BASEBALL I WHEEZE

Also not that I don’t like Genma but why is he a central figure in this ending. Has he had more than a single conversation with Naruto in his life

Lmao @ Sasuke and Itachi’s child versions going back to having their adult voices. Pick a lane SP!!!

“Things in season are always cheap and tasty” “Oh, is that so, Sasuke? Hahaha” Sasuke learning about the ninja economy

“We’re going to visit your mother’s family” Two questions: 1) Aren’t your families the same family (eep) and 2) Don’t they all live in the same part of the village

90% of this dialogue is recycled from prior episodes except delivered more slowly and it’s a little confusing 

Itachi sure knows a lot about cooking for an eleven-year-old 

Sasuke being a clumsy child is such a cute character detail ahhhh I love him so much 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭

“[Confused laughter] You want to be like me?” What a Mood Itachi

Sakura’s hideout in the woods is so sweet yes 2 semi-normal childhoods

Poor little Sakura already concerned about her appearance they never let girls live do they

“You’re really cute Sakura, don’t hide it” Ino and Sakura are the most adorable children in the WORLD I love their relationship 4ever

“If she’s cute like you say, then I would love to meet her” who will stop all men

“But Ino, aren’t you good friends with Sakura?” “No, not really” Okay not to project but. I have a lot of thoughts on this narrative 

GASP Inner Sakura’s first appearance!!

Tiny Team 7 is all I need in the world honestly I would watch a whole show that was just those three growing up

I have only just now noticed Suigetsu as third baseman. This ninja baseball game and season in general raise so many questions

Noooo Gaara don’t cry you are gonna be so loved in the future

Rasa, can I just say, from the bottom of my heart, I’m going to yeet you into the sun

“When I look up at the sky, the pain inside my heart feels a little bit better” He’s like 4!!!!!!! >:(

“Instead of a mother, you get to have me, Lord Gaara” Yashamaru: Self-Diagnosed Mumncle 

Ngl baby Gaara’s recollection of Karura is nothing like she looked like

I really don’t care for this new Iruka voice I just keep listening to him like ‘that’s not the sound of Naruto’s dad!!’

I will admit him spooking the sleeping children was cute I don’t know why I always find that so funny kjhgkjhg

“Let me buy into this fight” who taught seven-year-old Naruto to gamble

Christ alive the implication that Naruto has been doing the sexy jutsu since he was seven who will put this boy in ninja therapy

If Orochimaru had just continued to be Jiraiya’s long-suffering friend he might be half-endearing but alas he is fecal matter personified 

“Come on out, I made plenty, so you might as well stay and eat” Hjgjfjgfgffg I’m not sure what’s funnier about this scene the implication that Obito and Rin both independently followed Kakashi home without noticing each other, or that Kakashi did notice and rather than question this turn of events was just like “Guess I should make more fish”

“When you’re older, do you think you’ll become a chef” I would pay to see the AU where Kakashi becomes a professional chef why couldn’t that have been his Road to Ninja persona 

Ngl I spent the first half of Kakashi’s minisode wondering if Sakumo was dead or simply too depressed to take care of Kakashi and I think dead is the less upsetting outcome 

“It’s no fun when you’re not around, Kakashi” Obitooooooooooooooo

I’m not saying it’s suspicious that Sakumo is given two different depictions of his grave site in the anime but Sakumo fucked an alien and I stand by that statement 

All I remember from Sasuke Shinden is that a character called Sasuke “Sassy” as a nickname and if they do that in the Eng dub I won’t survive

“[Deep sigh] Alright Sakura, what is it?” Fhfjhfkjh what’s your damage Kakashi can’t your kids come to visit when people start exploding

God Sakura and Ino’s relationship is the realest.... she went to the Hokage bc her gal was worried abt her family friend and then comforted her from her loss... the looooooooove

Hinata not to devalue your work in any way but why did u collapse after poking one (1) man in the chakra point isn’t gentle fist based in taijutsu

Fhjfhkjhf I’ve seen that gif before of Kakashi knowing that Sakura was thinking about Sasuke but it’s still funny

Sasuke just hanging in the woods with kittycats what kinda redemption journey is this lmao

Ehehehe I’m still not over the fact that Sasuke recognizes Sai’s jutsu and Kakashi uses it to communicate like there are six members of team 7 and this arc PROVES IT HELL YEAH

I can’t believe I forgot the circus ninja oh my god 

“There’s good money to be found for performers like us” MOVE OVER EXPLODING HUMANS WHERE’S MY EPISODE ABOUT THE NINJA CIRCUS 

Everyone always commenting on the pupils and sclera of the Hyuga and Uchiha but nobody caring about Old Man Demon Eyes from the Bamboo Village:

You’d think at this point no amount of genjutsu could traumatize Sasuke 

They’re leaning wholeheartedly into the ninja cowboy music

That is not how I thought they would pronounce “Sassy” this show is full of twists and turns

“What about reviving the Uchiha clan? You’re the lone survivor right?” said Chino, inquiring about when Sasuke was planning to have vaginal sex

“You really think you’re going to find him inside that seriously scary looking cave?” GASP IT’S TENZO TIME

AIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIE IT’S MY BOYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY

“You’re Sasuke, right?” asked Yamato, as if Sasuke had not provided the memorable introduction of stabbing a seasoned ANBU in the shoulder as a sixteen-year-old during a dramatic reunion with his team

“It would be easier for us to keep things coordinated, if you sent us progress reports as you went...” Okay not to be that gal but I love that Tenzo and Kakashi are an “us” in this mini-lecture about how Sasuke should call his father (Kakashi) more often

P sure that’s Yamato’s last speaking role goodbye sweet man we knew ye well

“So does this mean that you trust me?” GO TO JAIL OROCHIMARU

Every time that Orochimaru touches Sasuke I want to leap through the screen you leave that boy alone!!! Go! To! Jail!

Sasuke having to explain his social life to Taka is a dynamic I never knew I needed. What more do I want from Naruto than frames like this:

"By showing everyone that Sasuke isn’t in the Hidden Leaf Village and that he’s still out journeying around the world, it reduces the possibility that the village will be harmed” “So are you saying that Sasuke has to keep travelling forever” “That might be so” I can’t believe the entirety of Taka came up with a better explanation for Sasuke staying outside Konoha than Kishimoto himself

“Compared to me, the likelihood that Kabuto will return to evil is extremely low”

He still helped kill......... 40,000 people????? Okay dude

I CAN’T BELIEVE OROCHIMARU IS ACKNOWLEDGING HE IS STILL EVIL!!!! GO TO JAIL!!

I’m gonna pretend I don’t see Tenzo following Stranger Danger and he’s on vacation on a beach where he belongs

Fhjkhfkjhfkj what’s the meaning of this Orochimaru you’ve looked the same since you were 25:

Sasuke: No. She’s older than I am

Orochimaru: [Soft gasp] What?

Man I remember vaguely Sasuke being involved in this fight based on the Tenzo novel scene later on but hoo boy I do not like this

SCREAMMMM TENZO TRYING TO PROTECT PPL IN THE AREA HE’S HELPING

“I can’t make direct contact with him, so I better go now” I hope it is because you filed a restraining order, Yamato

“To increase the rarity, what I’ve even done is, had all but one person in a clan killed” at this point En Oyashiro is just trying to bait Sasuke

God I love how righteous Sasuke is being rn like this is the kind of dismantling of oppression I wanted for him instead of sad murder times

This battle is bonkers:

Villain: Looks like you brought a sword to a dodgeball fight

Sasuke: Looks like you brought a dodgeball to a magic eyes fight!!

Well I certainly breezed past this part of Sasuke Shinden hello Fushin

I find it hard to believe that anyone but Naruto could best Sasuke rn 

I keep joking that those eyes in the sky look like Tenzo but I’m right and I should say it

What a long, drawn-out and slightly suspicious backstory for Chino (looking at you, Fushin of two personality types)

“But now you’re still able to travel freely... and that is all because you have people who love and protect you” Team 7 cutaway with closeups of Sakura and Naruto, Narusasusaku game strong

“For the Leaf’s nourishment, your entire clan was absorbed by your village’s Roots” wow what a shitty time for such an excellent pun

Unbelievable kkhkjhfk and by this I mean completely believable:  

Chino: Please explain your change of heart re: village corruption

Sasuke: I got a boyfriend

Unbelievable x2:

Chino: KILL ME 

Sasuke: Consider this.... you have.... boy who is friend. Good enough

Chino: Wow Sasuke, you’re right

Lmao @ Kakashi proudly announcing that Sasuke is about to enter an unsanctioned jutsu fight in a bet to free enslaved people how did this letter go “Dear Hokage-dad-Kakashi, I am writing to inform you...”

Even funnier: If Tenzo wrote the letter bc Sasuke is shite at contacting people: “Dear Kakashi-senpai, Brace yourself to be worried and proud—”

“Are you Sasuke’s...” yes Chino, whatever the end of that sentence is, you’re correct

Huh I could’ve sworn at least a good chunk of these freed people go to the Leaf. I didn’t make that conversation up. I have discussed it many times!!! My poor Tenzo cut out for more logical story lines I guess 

Omggggggg the Raikage is telling Sasuke about Naruto’s most vulnerable Sasuke moment..... the love!!! Is this the only reason they invited A lmao

En Oyashiro joining Rasa and Hiashi in the Bad Dad Club

I’ve said this before but Naruto and Sakura going on a date to talk about Sasuke is the most legit representation for their relationship I’ve ever seen that’s it that’s what them dating would be like 

“You’re just like a one man police force” lol @ them cutting out the fact that Sakura said this bc Sakura’s not allowed to have individual connections to Sasuke and also just like....... how much Sasuke still wants to be a cop kjhgkjhgk baby stop

I’ve belatedly realized that Kakashi types to the beat of the intro music and it makes me giggle

“The adult world can be complicated” is that ur way of saying ‘nepotism’ Kakashi

“I’m startin’ to get a belly” “I don’t want to hear about all that” PLS

“You two are really the only ones who are special to me” aw Shikamaru

That slap was A  Lot, Temari, surely there are better ways to tell Shikamaru you want him to be your boyfriend

“You don’t really think that Sai has—” “Well, he is very innocent.” 

Kakashi about Sai: He’s the baby of the family

Sai: I’m the oldest and most experienced of all the youth???

Kakashi: I mark ur ages by when I got you xoxo ur legal age is 3

I’m not sure that that’s the intonation I expected for Hinoko but I guess that’s on me for stereotyping teen girls hahah

“That’s my ninja way” “Our ninja way” I feel like this is shinobi flirtation

The outro with Little Team 7 fading to Big Team 7... I have but one heart

Also the implication that they took a photo immediately post war jhgkjhgkj. Kakashi still has a barely healed stab wound and twenty years of trauma. Sasuke and Naruto both just lost an arm. Also who brought a camera to the battlefield. Who took this picture. (Tenzo waking up from a 224 episode coma: We gotta take a family photo)

“You might consider yourself a member of Team 7, but I wonder if they think the same of you” [Naruto voice] Believe it!!!!!!

“If we just kill the lookouts, it’ll be like easy to get past the checkpoint” okay calm down Soku

Lmao Shikamaru struggling to deal with rebellious teens jhghjkg why are the anime episodes I watch so fitting to my own life

Man not to get 2 real it’s fucked up that Soku fears peace wyd militarism 

I don’t really believe that Soku is deserting the village but it’s a good tactic

[Panning to the bird scene at the beginning of this arc] We call that foreshadowing

Komori’s judgement seems to be clouded by his lowkey crush on Soku

“I’ve just been having these really bizarre dreams lately” that’s PTSD Shikamaru

“Feudal lords are always [tyrants] no matter where you go” then why.... do you have.... feudalism.......... [Tobirama screams in the afterlife]

Not to judge these guys so much but like.... ur ANBU and a veteran ninja surely you should have a disguise after faking your death??????? Kakashi, Iruka, what shinobi standards are you teaching exactly?? U didn’t even change ur hairstyles???

“Something similar happened to me as well” what are you... are you talking about when you pretended to be asleep during the Chunin exams because that’s not the same thing as sleeping under a pile of corpses Shikamaru 

NOOOOOOOOOO SAI WHY ARE THEY HANGING MY ANGEL FROM A CRUCIFIX 

AHHHHHHH I don’t like seeing Sai like this, Kakashi’s right he’s a baby!!

“Let’s just say I’ve found the place where I belong” Fhdjskhfksjhf this is definitely Root Code for something because Kakashi uses this line on Tenzo in his Tsukuyomi dream

“Then why didn’t Naruto come to get me? You and I have never been particularly close, so why were you the one who came here?” LMAO SAI ‘you’re not on my list of eligible rescuers Shikamaru 😒😒😒😒’ 

“Fret not, to me this is but a trifle” said Ro, lying prostrate on the ground in between groans of pain (same)

I mean... Gengo makes some pretty compelling arguments abt the shinobi system

“The alliance of nations that the Leaf is currently a part of... is only going to maintain a dark, tenuous peace” I mean... Gengo’s right even if he is a dick

“Lord Hokage told me everything... and I had a hell of a time getting it out of him too” “I don’t want to know what you did... I don’t even want to imagine it” JHGKJHGKJHG I WANNA SEE TEMARI INTERROGATING A FORMER ANBU, KAGE-LEVEL NINJA I LOVE IT

Wait are these last twelve outros dedicated to each of the rookie teams + Team Guy bc that would be adorable

JHGJHGGHGJHG DO WE ACTUALLY GET TO SEE TEMARI YELL AT KAKASHI

Update from 3 seconds later: We don’t but Kakashi’s “Euh?” sound as she knocks down his door is still very funny

“Friendship is useless” “If that’s true, then why are you crying right now” he’s been taking Sasuke lessons in his spare time

“Do you know of a man named ‘Zabuza Momochi’” !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“These are my only friends” said Sai, about two giant cartoon lions 

Sai’s genjutsu scene was actually much sweeter in the book bc Naruto, Sakura, Kakashi and Yamato’s chakra were all protecting him inside his own mind but I don’t mind my boy getting a hug

HAHAHAHAHA WHAT IS THIS CUTAWAY TO NARUTO BATHED IN GOLDEN LIGHT ANNOUNCING “RAMEN” LIKE IT’S A WHOLE SENTENCE OKAY STUDIO PIERROT U NEED A BREAK I GET IT

“What in the hell was that?” that was also my question Shikamaru

Shikamaru with full conviction: To be lazy.... that is my dream 

Hahahaha it’s Ninja Teen Romance Hours I guess

“Oh, you don’t want to [go out on a date]?” No that’s not what I’m saying” [walks away] TEMARI PLS

“Going on a date without a strategy, would be like trying to fight a tailed beast unarmed” [Nodding] “You have zero chance of winning, that way” I suddenly understand Kakashi’s dating life a lot more

They really rely on you being aware of Naruto the Last huh gjkhgkjhgk there’s been no mention in any of this filler of Naruto and Hinata even being in a relationship to this point as far as I remember

Fhjkfhkjhfkfh poor Iruka none of the kids know he’s President of the Naruto’s Dad Society

“I know I’m supposed to be striving to get ahead in my career, but there’s also a part of me that really wants to just continue teaching kids, one on one” Irukaaaaa <3333333

Looool even as Hokage, Kakashi just drops out of nowhere to give cryptic life advice and then leaves

Smash the statue, Tsukune, don’t let the establishment tell u what to do!!

“Eating ramen everyday isn’t healthy you know” am I to believe that Kakashi, the man who told Naruto, ‘if you're going to be a ninja, you need to eat your vegetables’ is on a ramen-only diet?? Falsehoods

“And it’s all thanks to you Iruka” khjhgkjhgjhg alright.... you win this round KKIR shippers

WHO IS ANIMATING THIS SCENE IT IS BUCKWILD??? There is no character model to speak of, most of the kids don’t have noses, everyone’s upside down or spinning around, and Iruka is... hiding in a frog sign???

There is no English translation of this caption???? EXPLAIN JAPAN. TELL ME YOUR FROG SECRETS YOU KNOW I LOVE FROGS [INSERT PICTURE OF TENZO HERE]

(Update I looked it up in the sub and the caption offers no more insight. “IRUKA UMINO, AROUND 30 YEARS OLD. STEALTHILY”)

“This is for Hinata, so let’s all try our hardest” Kiba loves Hinata MOST

You know how if you pause in the middle of an animated action, you sometimes linger on an in-between image that looks goofy because it was meant to add to the motion rather than be focused on? This whole episode is animated like one of those images

It’s okay Lee the only dumbbell Naruto is fixated on is Sasuke Uchiha

I know don’t usually post so many images in these liveblogs, but I really need anyone reading this to see the Leaf Village’s semi-canonical Unofficial Mascot Konorin:

He is??? The love of my life???

“I don’t even have a boyfriend and train every day from morning til night” yes you do. His name is Neji Hyuga and he’s very alive and he’s a jonin sensei and he will buy you all the knives you want after he takes all of Hiashi’s money and redistributes it. In this essay I will—

You see what I mean??? Neji wants to be there for Tenten (and Lee)!!!

Tenten: What would Neji do if he were here now

Neji: [starts manifesting]

“It’s you since you’re a taijutsu specialist, but Naruto and Hinata aren’t” yes????? Hinata is???? She doesn’t use weapons but Gentle Fist is entirely taijutsu??? Why does everyone keep forgetting

KHKGJHKJHGKFHKJHFKJ I CAN’T GET OVER NEJI JUST. MANIFESTING ABOVE LEE’S BED TO GIVE HIM SHITTY WEDDING GIFT IDEAS 

“And don’t forget: Hyuga” Neji........ what.... does this mean!!!!!!!!

Why say “Neji” like that Orochimaru and in fact why say anything at all [Konan voice] I’m the Hokage now, the entire criminal justice system is on its way you are going to jail!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I really can’t believe that the Naruto writers looked at Tenzo’s role in Naruto SD and decided “let’s do that.... but worse” 

They animated?????????? A smaller Lee??????????? Into Lee’s mouth???????????? As if the animation style wasn’t enough. I need a minute

They are really going full Naruto SD huh??? Cut away skit like a ‘genjutsu’ scne. Lee and Guy playing a married couple and Tenten a baby. Neji in drag. This is a choice

“How can you misunderstand Neji so much” “Even if it’s only as a ghost, I’m sure that Neji would appear” I need. Several minutes

Fhjkhfkjfh Shikamaru’s vision of Gaara, Bee, Kakashi and Tsunade hanging out at this fancy restaurant. Is this who he thinks Kakashi’s social circle is these days (he might be right)

“Okay, I’ll hear you out!” Is this implication of this scene that Temari thinks Shikamaru’s idea of a first date is marriage... and she’s WILLING TO GO ALONG WITH THAT. TEMARI PLS

“Hey Ino, why would you go out of your way to make something I love? Bc she looooves you Sakura

“Sakura, I thought the same thing” GOD JUST GET MARRIED

“It’ll be too late once we go in, I could get all caught up in the mood or something like that” wait........ does Temari think Shikamaru wants to get married or fuck???? Or both??? OH MY GOD

Gaara: Naruto’s getting married.... without meeeeeeeeeee

God I love Gaara’s Blank Period hair it is truly careless and happy hair

“His ramen’s extravagent?” JKGHKHKJH everyone in the Leaf Village trying to convince Gaara that Naruto’s taste is incredibly obnoxious which is true but not in the way being described 

Kankuro what’s your damage let Gaara buy a nice and personal present for the love of his life 

Every time I think this arc can’t get more ridiculous it exceeds my expectations:

[Vaguely horrified accompanying dialogue: “The Raikage—” “—Will do the Hidden Cloud Dance?”]

“Well then, Gaara is just going to have to do the Hidden Sand Samba” Ah. Of course. The Hidden Sand Samba. Why didn’t anyone think of this plan before

Gaara is blushing because his new dream is just to samba dance with Naruto into the night

Ahhhhhhhhhhhh Teuchi giving Naruto an “all you can eat forever” coupon that’s cute our sweet boy is so loved 

Gaara: My wedding gift to you, Naruto... is me :)

“I’m just disappointed that we aren’t going to get to see you dance, Gaara” you know what that’s fair Kankuro me too 

Hahahaha Shino dissing Kiba’s plight for becoming Hokage to these random kids

I can’t pay attention to anything this ninja cat is saying because they’ve got Naruto’s voice and it is very distracting

There’s something to be curious about how it would be if Kiba married into a family that has a contract with the Uchiha lmao

Literally the girl who Kiba is supposed to be in love with is given Hinata’s voice #kibahinarights

“Oh, just take it. Money means nothing to me” the Beekeeper is truly one of the strangest characters in the Naruto universe just conceptually. Why are they wearing a giant bee stinger on their butt?

LMAO @ Kiba having absolutely no self-doubt whatsoever. Goals!!

Shino becoming a teacher after the war is actually one of the post-699 futures I like, good for him!

Iruka sweet man Naruto has compared you to a father like 1500 times have you not overheard him one (1) time

Kakashi is such a dumb stubborn bitch trying to find a way for Naruto to have a happy wedding... I love him

“This is my fault, I never taught him how to treat women! Not that I even really know about that kind of thing of course” Iruka Umino confirmed canonically gay

“I just have to bow my head a little” KKIR: 2; Me: 0

I love this tradition of Hokage boys bowing their heads for cooperation between villages yesssssssssssss

Outro for the whole OG Team 7.... I’m fine everything’s fine I’m good cool cool cool cool cool

The implication that they just sell Kakashi wigs in the village... amazing

I know this is about to be an emotionally poignant moment but what Naruto’s presence is reminding is that the only word he has said in the past 6 episodes is “ramen” LMAO

“I’m going to have to apologize to her for raising you as a such a thoughtless, inconsiderate man” raising you... RAISING YOU..................... TRULY PRESIDENT OF THE NARUTO’S DAD SOCIETY GOD BLESS IRUKA UMINO

LOOK AT THIS CRYBABY NINJA THIS IS WHAT I’M TALKING ABOUT ONE OF MY FAVOURITE PARTS OF KONOHA HIDEN WAS HOW IRUKA KEPT BURSTING INTO TEARS OVER NARUTO EVERY OTHER MINUTE THIS IS WHAT BONDS LOOK LIKE

God..................... the Team 7 lover in me just despairs of this final episode bc they’re all separated and also Tenzo needs justice 4 being Kakashi’s co-wedding planner it’s in the book I read it!!!!

I will set aside my feelings to recognize that Kakashi looks very handsome

Goodbye Naruto you were certainly an experience and I mean that in every possible intonation 

[varibean]

this is gonna be a bit messy and stuff so excuse me for that, and maybe this is me just bein Autistic And Projecting, but like, sylas really is treated pretty bad for the heinous crime of Being Autistic 

and i mean, nobody besides philly really has any other reason to dislike him besides them thinking that he’s a Weirdo or whatever. philly has a good reason to want to keep him at arm’s length and not associate with him as much; he flirts with her and it makes her feel uncomfortable and is a tryhard with his affections

but ppl are just...kinda jerks to him, especially jan and ana. and it’s not that i’m like ‘aww they should all be his friends!’, it’s that they go out of their way to be malicious towards him. ana shoehorns in the fact that she thinks sylas is a joke while talking about lucy (despite the fact that he’s a strong/competent magician), january seeks him out do harm him (a shot from the crystal shooter should only be enough to bruise but she focuses SO MUCH on taking him down that it cracks through a tree like, Pls Chill), and then goes on to taunt him for having an emotional melt down, and tetsu adds onto the taunting (saying that him winning is a let down and that they didn’t expect him to even get this far, once again, despite him proving over and over that he’s a competent and strategic magician)

and tetsu and philly are also very much autistic coded (and isra but to narrow this down i’m keepin it Teen Focused, for now at least) just like sylas ya kno? and all three of them have trouble with social boundaries and understanding social cues at times (sylas trying to hard with philly and trying to insert himself in social situations, tetsu with su-yeong, philly with lucy)

but ppl really do just think so little of sylas because of these certain traits, going so far as to assume that he’s just a Joke or shouldn’t be there despite? constantly proving otherwise. but since they think he’s ‘weird’ or a pushover because he tries to avoid things he’s not comfortable with, they assume that he’s easy to take down, sb who’s not a threat. even lapointe, sb who’s taught him and knows what he’s capable of, has this attitude to an extent cus she clearly favored seiji and wanted him to be the one to win, then when it was sylas she kind of has that air of like....she knows he can win, but it’s like he’s Second Best in a way; she didn’t think he’d outlast seiji and now her expectations are doubled for him cus he’s The Last Bet (at least until january)

sylas is both pushed into situations where he’s supposed to excel AND viewed as incompetent of those expectations at the same time. and a lot of those judgements, i feel like, come from the fact that idk sylas’ traits don’t have any ‘’’’’’’’’’’redeeming’’’’’’’’’’ qualities, aka, they don’t work with neurotypical ppl’s and ppl who aren’t autistic’s way of viewing autistic ppl. he can’t be coddled like philly is and he doesn’t fit neurotypical character’s views of ‘cool smart’ character like tetsu does (both of which are their own issues in and of themselves but i’m running out of steam so put a lil pin in that one). the interests he does have he’s seen as Bad At (like his poetry) and that’s just like...ya kno sometimes i feel like autistic ppl just Can’t Like Things And Be Bad At Them. we’re always expected to bring SOME kind of benefit to neurotypical ppl and this is just me going into a bit of personal territory but it seems like in mainstream media you really do only get, a lot of the time, either the Super Smart And A Bit Awkward But Witty And Sharp autistic character or the Cute Sweet Protect Them At All Costs autistic character 

i don’t have like a neat and tidy conclusion to this except that characters rlly r just kinda mean to him because he’s ‘Weird’ and also imma shoehorn in here how i rlly like seiji and sylas’ friendship because seiji like, he teases him (maybe a bit too much at times if chapter five is anything to go by), but he also respects him and his abilities and supports the things he likes and encourages him to keep at those things, simply because he likes them (’did you really think it was ten out of ten?’ ‘oh absolutely buddy’), and he doesn’t expect sylas to be anything more than who he is, his friendship and companionship is all he needs from him and that’s nice

[notjanine]

2018 pop culture ranked

(highly subjective!)

MOVIES:

10. hotel artemis- everyone who didn’t like this movie is wrong. i know they advertised it as a john wick, but it’s not and that’s okay! accept it as-is, and it’s Good.

9. sorry to bother you- do i really need to explain

8. hereditary- i’m STILL mad at those last ten minutes for scaring me! toni collette is god

7. overlord- exactly what i wanted it to be. gross and fun! uglass wyatt russell COULD

6. the favourite- pls never let yorgos lanthimos write a movie ever again just stick to directing good scripts buddy!! bc i loved this!

5. spider-man: into the spider-verse- lissen. i know this should be higher. it’s near perfect. but

4. mission: impossible- fallout- i’m glad tom cruise has some weird danger fetish so he keeps making these. and that bathroom fight?? i’m still [redacted]

3. widows- name one flaw in this movie, i’ll wait.

okay okay okay. we all know what belongs at the top of this list. we all know what the best movie of the year was. but. it’s so close for me i’m gonna call it a tie

1. black panther- obviously

1. U P G R A D E - the first fight scene alone is better than every other movie on this list? give lmg an oscar for this; he’s got a Face and he USES it. and the cinnamontography?? what even is everyone else doing with cameras?? fling them shits around to make it look cool ppl. NOTE: i went into this movie knowing only -not tom hardy is in it -something about cyborgs. that’s it. don’t watch the trailer. go in knowing as little about it as possible. as a matter of fact, forget everything i’ve said about it up til this point. blacklist it on here bc i’m gonna post about it more. just watch it.

honorable mentions: the night comes for us (hot), game night (fun, and better than it needs to be!), ant-man and the wasp (hella bad science, but i enjoyed it a lot anyway???), death of stalin (iannucci), pacific rim: uprising (boyega is a star. eastwood is a good token white guy. A+ villainy tbh)

ALBUMS:

(not including scores/soundtracks!)

10. starcrawler - starcrawler - cut the sleeves off your t shirts, let your black nail polish chip, don’t clean your apartment for a couple days, put this on and channel your inner amanda brotzman

9. nobody’s watching - steady holiday - i know we’re all sick of whisper-singing breathy ingenues, but she’s my fave okay. 

8. prisma tropical -  balún - don’t you wanna feel like you’re in like a digital caribbean dreamscape??

7. dirty computer - janelle  monáe - again, i know this should be higher, but. it just doesn’t have the hit rate i want it to. does have some instant classics tho. miss monáe invented pussy with pynk and we have to respect that

6. isolation - kali uchis - She!!! this album is a PARTY

5. 7 - beach house - when black car comes on my consciousness instantly leaves my body to undulate in some dark starlit ether until lose your smile gradually brings me back to earth but i’m only approximately 60% corporeal until last ride finishes and i go to bed (yeah this is a nighttime album only)

4. soil - serpentwithfeet - bruh i was like six months late to this but holy shit. like multiple times during my initial listen i had to be like HE REALLY. when he said “i’m annoyed with clothes today / i’d rather swaddle myself in sorrow today” i FELT that

3. smote reverser - oh sees - jams all the way down

2. tu - alien weaponry - BANGERS ALL THE WAY DOWN

1. hive mind - the internet - morgan rhodes said this whole album makes you wanna rollerskate and that’s it. that’s the feeling. so good. smooth. fun. perfect.

honorable mentions (be the cowboy (i know, i know), acrylic, saturn, the hex, el mal querer, mozaik, the calling, double negative)

BONUS- EPs: (all of these would’ve made in into the top ten if they counted as full albums)

- the beauty of everything pt. 1 - alex isley - what a follow up to luxury!! i put this on in the morning a lot, set a good vibe for the day.

- conexão - amber mark - so good so good. this is a self-care soundtrack. put it on. light some candles. do a face mask. take a bath. braid your hair.

- crush - ravyn lenae - bops on bops. listening to this makes me feel like a girl in a way that is inexplicable??? like night song comes on and i’m. oh yeah! being a girl IS good and fun!

BOOKS:

(these are NOT all from this year, but i didn’t actually read many from this year, so this is just ~1/3 of what i did read, my faves, and the order’s only kind of correct, i didn’t put a ton of thought into ranking them but)

10. the shadowed sun by n.k. jemisin - loved it, but has one trope i HATE.

9. the hundred thousand kingdoms by n.k. jemisin - loved it. and the whole naha thing... made me feel some type of way (that #5 reinforced)

8. consider the fork by bee wilson - look. it’s a book about kitchen utensils. not for everyone. but i thoroughly enjoyed it.

7. the haunting of hill house by shirley jackson - oh man!!! spooky (idk why but my brain automatically fancast eleanor - nikki amuka bird, theo - tessa thompson, luke - billy magnussen)

6. don’t panic by neil gaiman - i read it THROUGH getting a tattoo. like lying in an uncomfortable position, exposed in a public space, with lots of people chatting and loud music. it’s that interesting and amusing (esp considering it was written before the trilogy was finished). but i’m a douglas adams nerd.

5. all but the bloody mouth by becca de la rosa - i read this all in one sitting on a rainy day when i should have been doing other things but i could not put it down. and i cried and i don’t even know why?? p sure i just got possessed by a swamp demon or something. would recommend

4. kindred by octavia butler - auntie octavia was that bitch

3. of things gone astray by janina matthewson - i would literally die for this woman. between this book and wtw she’s gotten more individual shoutouts in my gratitude journal than any other person (i think she’s second only to gus for 2018) (seriously though listen to within the wires s1 might be my single favorite piece of fiction in the universe)

2. the killing moon by n.k. jemisin - this is everything i want a fiction book to be i think. i forced myself to slow down on this just to enjoy it for longer.

1. the cooking gene by michael twitty - i would make this book into a horcrux. 

honorable mentions: alice isn’t dead (great monsters!), gulp (gross but cool), the patternmaster series (wild seed is my FAVE, but i read that one last year), sing unburied sing (ghosts), children of blood and bone (fantasy!), the shadow cabinet (the shades of london is my ya guilty pleasure i just fucking love ghosts okay and the first one is legitimately Scary)

[britneyshakespeare]

tagged by @tvoywonderwall thank you darling 😊

A. age — 19, goin on 20

B. birthplace — massachusetts, united states of america

C. current time —   1 pm

D. drink you had last — irish breakfast tea

E. easiest person to talk to — myself!

F. favourite songs (currently) — i’ve had dreamin by blondie stuck in my head all day so why not

G. grossest memory —  no???

H. horror yes or no — yeah. mostly sci-fi/fantasy horror, though. you know, the imaginative metaphorical, more-often-than-not campy stuff. true crime and rape/murder/suicide shit makes me so uncomfortable.

I. in love — hardly! ha

J. jealous of — ppl w their life figured out. i got a classic case of the young adult conundrum.

K. kids — want? have? like? i don’t think about em, i don’t know any.

L. love at first sight or walk by again —  you’re photogenically dressed, the conversation begins, oh god now what did i say? let me start over again

M. middle name — lee for my great auntie leonore :-)

N. number of siblings — 2 older brothers, a twin sister, a half-brother who’s like 20 years older than me and i’ve never met, and a probable future sister-in-law

O. one wish — god can i just drive wo having to LEARN to drive??? can i just?? have my license and know how to drive already???i wanna  skip past all that remedial shit. 

P. person you last called — my mom like 20 times bc she wouldn’t pick up yesterday

Q. question you always get asked — uhhh. depends on where. in real life by people i kind of know, i always get asked “do you have a sister? are you a twin?” by some confused peers when they see kaily walkin around somewhere, bein not-me. when i’m out in public old ladies ask me if my hair color is natural. people on here ask me who the hell marianne faithfull is. 

R. random fact about you — i've been catching up on my comic books ever since i finished david copperfield... a week ago? two weeks ago? i can’t remember. and i keep having dreams where i’m buying more comic books. i love comic books. ask me for spider-man recs anytime i’m always ready to go off.

S. song you last sang — you’re really gonna make me say i was singing kiss me thru the phone by soulja boy tell em to my dog this morning while i was waiting for the tea to steep huh? :\

T. time you woke up — woke up at 5 to piss, woke up for real at like 10 (i’m starting an 8 am class in less than a week pray 4 me)

U. underwear color — hmmmph don’t like this question

V. vacation destination — in your lover’s dreams

W. worst habit — i don’t really know what i have that can be considered “bad habits” and not just “symptoms of comorbid mental illnesses i’m going to be living with for the rest of my life”. but, uhh, on a more trivial note, i probably drink too much diet coke.

X. x-ray — teeth at the dentist and at the orthodontist back when i had braces. i’ve also had a couple of cat scans in my life.

Y. your favourite food — food food

Z. zodiac sign — taurus but who cares

i’ll tag @nospoonsgiven @a-stringofpearls @aliceic @pavlovers @sofhyuck @r3nton @sneez and uhhh anyone else who wants to do this. i can’t be assed to think of anymore people.

[bastard-man]

s13:

hi okay i kept talking in the tags on my last post so here is more about s13 predictions ig

like i said we all know den literally can't function without mac it's been proven several times in the show

CLEARLY in mac & dennis break up

& my thought is how this will affect s13

so like,,,they're lying if they're gonna try & pretend like dennis can actually cope w/o mac if anything i think he needs him more than ever rn. even if dennis miraculously developed quickly & amazingly enough 2 be a dad that doesn't change how much he depends on mac. boy couldn't live without him in s5, and he was still like, okay then? obviously none of these characters r okay but i've seen only a few ppl mention dennis in the latest seasons. consequently mac seems happier this past season especially now that he's out which is great (i mean then u have DDL & then that kinda shattered but let's not mention that rn) but like we know dennis has been like,,,ragin' a lot more & he was diagnosed in s10 & we haven't really seen him happy in awhile like compared 2 earlier seasons when he seemed more calm & happy. what he thinks he needs is to leave his old life behind but what he actually needs, probably, is the gang rn more than ever but ofc he's not gonna admit that! so he run!

there's a number of reasons why i can't see them letting den be gone for any length of time but the main one being that it just doesn't make sense? like frank said u can't just go be a dad & he was right, & even if i think dennis could be capable of that it's obvious he's getting Worse & to be away from his friends, his family rn is not gonna help that, especially when we know he would be miserable in ND which is literally essentially what he says in 10.01 when he gets off the plane. i'm not a dumbass who thinks he's a sociopath & i know he has big feelings but i still don't see this being a situation where a child is magically the thing 2 crack dennis & fix all his problems

so like, there's my argument based on just the POV of the setting. now let's go back 2 den himself. like i said it definitely seems like he's getting worse, & him admitting that he has feelings was a huge, pivotal thing for him especially to admit that to the entire gang. from there they could use that to finally get den's character to open up a lil more & not try to suppress everything which i think is essentially why he seems worse? he wants to be one way & not feel & it's affecting him as it has over the years. we also know from mac, that he's been distant w him. whether u ship them or not they have a connection that's different from all the rest. so mac senses that den is acting different& like pushing him away, & we know it's not bc he's gay cuz den always knew that. this is where theories come into play, cuz it could have to do w den's feelings & trying to push the gang away so that he can pretend everything is okay which i think is a reasonable guess, or if u wanna add another layer to that there's also been the mention of him being uncomfortable with mac being out because now he's scared of mac's feelings & his own feelings.

it could be bc of the thing b/w them, or just the different connection that they have, but mac is the only one who says anything about dennis being distant. so is he only being distant w mac, or do the others just not notice bc they're not mac? either way mac is the one who notices & he's gonna be the first one to notice things going on w dennis. den has been like on a downward spiral almost & i think the RPG & brian jr just brought that to a head, & he runs, supposedly 2 deal w the latter. (i'm sorry i'm referring 2 a fuckin baby like it's a war crime but i don't evenl like them anyway so it's fine)

like depending on how u wanna interpret it, RPG=dennis realizing how he feels about mac, or how mac feels about him, or just the fact that he was all upset about vday only 2 find out mac got him what he wanted more than anythin & it didn't even matter 2 him that there wasn't a rocket bc it was the gesture so i mean interpret that how u will but FEELINGS

& then brian jr=who he apparently knew about but only becomes a problem bc mandy all of a sudden decides 2 show up & also thinks he's someone else so i really still don't understand some of the logic behind this event but anyhow. he's like noticeably v on edge this ep bc he literally had no idea how 2 get out of it & then all of a sudden he's like wait no i don't want to, but that's not the only thing? pretending to be in a relationship w mac & mac telling him he wanted 2 fake it & raise the kid w him was obviously also adding onto that & still his response was "im not gonna PRETEND to be in a relationship w u for the entirety of my child's life" so again interpret that how u will but...obviously we know he decides 2 go raise brian jr

but he's not gonna be able to do that. not bc he's not capable. i'd like 2 point out he left everyone & everything behind including his RPG & his beloved range rover, so i mean he prob left everything at his apartment too. (i have some theories bout this but it is not the time for those) like his car. is still in philly. his decision is made essentially on a whim after a moment w his kid & like an existential crisis while his friends danced around him bc up until that point he just didn't wanna deal w it

so it could've been like a few hours b/w those scenes but it's still a pretty impulsive decision considering it's a child, a new state you don't even like, a lovely woman ur not interested in, and leaving your friends, family, job, and entire life back in philly. maybe he also thinks it'll help him w his feelings. but he's been repressing shit for at least 12 years that we've seen (we know it's been longer like prob his whole life) & noticeably been getting worse, gives a sudden revelation to his friends about his feelings, & then leaves. that's not...okay. like we know they all have trauma & ridiculously unhealthy coping mechanisms but even if u take everything else away he's not gonna be happy having suppressed all his emotions and problems & then leaving having barely dealt with them w the others at all.

especially mac, who's a huge part of this which u can't deny even if u don't ship them. now i do so like my comments are gonna sway a bit more but i think it'll still work even if u don't agree w me on that aspect. personally i think there could be some sort of parallel there about how mac has gotten happier, while dennis has been more unhappy? like mac comes out & u could even argue dennis being jealous & acting that way bc he wants 2 come out & he's been suppressing that for so long but he's still not at a place rn to do it. or even the fact that mac feels more open & free to be himself while dennis feels the complete opposite & if anything has felt like repressing things even more, while mac mentions being sensitive (12.08 hints he feels more free 2 be sensitive now that he's out & doesn't have 2 worry about being so masculine so that he won't be called gay) & dennis mentions his big feelings but he's still not rlly talking about anything bc i mean u don't really just reveal everything suddenly. so especially in that regard he definitely needs mac.

like not only bc of their connection but bc he depends so much on mac & now mac feels more open & honest & i really think den needs to be around him more, not pushing him away (which could also be why) bc he needs to see how much happier mac is & how he's changed & maybe it'll help him open up more, & if anything mac would probably be the best one for him to do that w anyway.

i'm also gonna mention my sort of views on some ways den could come back: now considering his car was still there i think it could even be possible that mac goes home to their apartment to find that dennis is still there, maybe just waiting or maybe packing, who knows. them blowing up the range rover & using the RPG without him only to find that he hadn't left yet, or at all is definitely something i could see happening (& i know this is a more serious post about den but come on i think we'd all laugh @ that) or the thing i definitely see happening is the gang talking in the bar, who knows how long it's been (maybe a day, maybe a few months) & all of a sudden dennis strolls in and says nothing, walks behind the bar & grabs a beer while the others just stop talking and stare. cue title card "dennis is back" (tbh this is one of the most realistic ones i think & i know glenn mentioned it might be funny if he just didn't come back at all but i think this is vastly more funny & in keeping w the show i mean come ON) or there's like the sad part. this again could depend on how u wanna view things. but if u look at it as dennis going on a downward spiral, only for him to kinda hit rock bottom w the RPG & brian jr. (which isn't even a theory that's literally what happened) then we know this isn't good. it's not a typical situation where they leave on good terms, or they leave happy because we know he wasn't happy. we know he initially didn't want this & isn't ready & we know he hates north dakota, & we also know it's not like he's in love w mandy or anything no matter how nice she seemed, as the person he was closest to was: mac. so it's not like he's really leaving for a better lifestyle either necessarily, because he may have mentioned envisioning himself getting married & having a kid but we saw how it went when he married someone he didn't love, and how he again was unable to function without mac, and it's obviously not how anyone plans on those things happening, & if they did have him settle down w mandy which i do not see ever happening we know he'd literally be settling.

so for him to have been going through a rough patch, to hit an extremely low point & then walk away from his friends, is not going to end well. he hit that low point & is now leaving without dealing with any of his problems because his focus is on fixing one of them: the kid, but also how he was affected by frank because he doesn't want the kid to grow up in that same way. so he thinks that's the most important issue, because he also likes to pretend he doesn't have any other ones, & thinks this is the thing he needs to deal with and everything will be fine. but he didn't deal with anything else, he's only bringing those problems with him, to north dakota, to mandy, to the kid, to his "new life." so if anything he's only gonna be more miserable and he won't even have mac there w him, who he literally depends on to function & considering he's only getting worse being w/o mac is the last thing he needs even if he thinks, or wants to believe that that's exactly what will help. idk how they're gonna deal w him being gone, if he's gone for any length of time or anything, but my point is if he's stated to be gone for months or something like that i'm pretty sure he's gonna come back at the worst we've ever seen him because he was only without mac for hours before he realized he had no idea what to do & they were only, what, a few miles away? part of all this is that he's codependent but that is most heavily dealing with mac. s5 dennis was still doing pretty okay, considering. so him not functioning without mac was just pathetic. s12 dennis has been a mess & him being without mac at arguably his lowest point is kind of scary to think about.

[transbcyfriend]

All the gay questions for the gays only asky

CARL I OWE U MY LIFE

1. describe your idea of a perfect date

answered!

2. whats your “type”

answered!

3. do you want kids?

i mean i’m not opposed to it, long as (at the time) i had the funds to care for them.

4. if you do, will you adopt or use some other form of child birth?

adoption, pls and thamk u

5. describe the cutest date you’ve ever been on

one time when i was younger i was taken to a roller rink and that was rlly fun. cutest one i can think of since all the rest were, Meh

6. describe your experience having sex for the first time (were you nervous? or was it easy peasy?)

OHO THIS IS A FUNNY ONE. before i even start, note that it was on labor day. ironic. but ye i was nervous at first, but it was surprisingly easy

7. are you a morning time gay or night time gay?

night time gay hands down

8. opinion on nap dates?

answered!

9. opinion on brown eyes?

i like how smooth and deep they feel – i like ‘em.

10. dog gay or cat gay?

DOG GAY, NO DOUBT ABT IT

11. would you ever date someone who owned rodents or reptiles?

answered!

12. whats a turn off you look for before you start officially dating someone

answered!

13. what is a misconception you had about lgb people before you realized you were one?

answered!

14. what is a piece of advice you would give to your younger self

answered!

15. (if attracted to more than one gender) do you have different “types” for different genders?

every cis girl i’ve ever dated has been kinda shy, every cis guy has been sort of the “”””protector”””” type, and everyone under the lgbt umbrella has been v sweet and gentle

16. who is an ex you regret?

this is too much tea to spill for a single post

17. night club gay or cafe gay?

cafe gay, i’m love me a cute little coffee shop

18. who is one person you would “go straight” for

answered!

19. video game gay, book gay, or movie gay?

answered!

20. favourite gay ship (canon or not)

mcfuckin UHHHHHH angus/greg from night in the woods, they’re adorable

21. favourite gay youtuber

y’know now that i think abt it every youtuber i watch is a straightie

22. have you ever unknowingly asked out a straight person?

ya but i didn’t kno i was trans at the time so shrug emoji

23. have you ever been in love?

ya

24. have you ever been heartbroken?

hm. don’t like this question. next

25. how do you determine if you want to be them or be with someone

i ask myself if i would b with them for the rest of my life, no matter the changes that happen to the person. if the answer is no, then there we go

26. favourite lgb musician/band

answered!

27. what is a piece of advice you have for young / baby gays

everything is gonna work out fine, but if u need to be closeted for w/e reason, b careful – i believe in u

28. are you out? if so how did you come out

i’m…kind of out? i have one foot in the closet and one foot out. like, i’m out at work and i’m out at school (at work i just asked for my actual name on my tag/i mention i have a boyf and that was that, at school every semester i just let my teachers know/also ramble about my boyf and it’s nbd), but. my mother is an evangelist and my father’s an aggressive alcoholic. yeah

29. what is the most uncomfortable / strange coming out experience you have

OKAY SO ONE TIME i was at work, ok, and the customer’s, this was like 7p at night, they see my nametag and they’re like “wait a minute. tell me abt that,” and i explained just y’know, matter of fact, “o i’m trans.” AND THEY ENDED UP ASKING ME A BUNCH OF RLLY WEIRD QUESTIONS LIKE “r u getting surgery?? what abt ur partner?? o, u 2 r gay????” and like i’m all abt answering ppl’s questions when they’re genuinely curious bc i’d rather them b informed, but like. i’m at work. this is awk

30. what is a piece of advice for people who may not be in a safe place to express their sexuality

do no harm but take no shit. keep ur stuff under wraps, but don’t try and b someone ur not.