#I’m so fucking done with guys.

[cherriisodapop]

Apparently its Lesbian Visibility Week

Well this is awkward

I guess I’ll take this as an opportunity to come out as lesbian rn if it wasn’t already increasingly obvious

I made this decision a month ago but was hesitant to come out because I didn’t wanna come out to everyone and then come to find out my sexuality has changed again-

So ye

Again, this (maybe probably) might change again idk but rn I feel pretty good about my decision ^^ Overall, I’m doing this mainly for myself so I can solidify the decision, face my sexuality with a pair of balls, stop being a little bitch, and be more open about it both on this blog and irl <3

❤️🧡🤍🩷❤️🧡🤍🩷❤️🧡🤍🩷

[transmascissues]

“trans men don’t have any real safety concerns to worry about” i can’t wear a mask when i go into public bathrooms even though i’m higher risk and bathrooms are some of the easiest places to get sick because i don’t reliably pass when my facial hair is covered and i can’t risk not passing when i use the men’s room, but i also can’t just use the women’s room for safety anymore because i don’t reliably pass as either binary gender anymore. so my only options are to risk getting sick, take my chances with the consequences of not passing, or just never use the bathroom in public (which has its own health risks).

and today, it almost didn’t even matter that i was putting myself in danger to ensure that i passed because, thanks to a faulty lock and a man who didn’t think to knock, i came very close to having my half-naked body exposed to a bathroom full of cis men. if i hadn’t been holding my coat on my lap because there was nowhere in the stall to put it, every single guy waiting in the (very crowded) bathroom would’ve seen that i didn’t have a dick. how well do you think that would’ve gone for me? my money’s on Not Well At All.

[watchyourbuck]

yes buddie marriage yes buddie endgame but you know which fucking fanon hd I will never move on from? buddie fucking in 2x01 right after their pissing match and being unable to keep their hands off each other bc they want each other so badly and it’s messy and nasty and disgusting and so fast GOD

[sanguinemoonlight]

Trump guilty on all 34 counts but now we get to hear republicans talk about how a convicted felon should get to run for office even though felons can’t vote (besides in Maine and Vermont wtf guys)

[solazu1]

So I barely survived today after only getting 20 minutes of sleep but hey what can you do? Haha (GET MORE SLEEP, THATS WHAT!)

Only highlight of my day was drawing genderbent jam, please ignore the incoherencies scribbled down I was literally dying

[royaltea000]

hey did it hurt

[ricky-mortis]

A portrait of Sir John Herschel because I‘m normal about Pulp Musicals

[iheartjameshetfield]

i tried getting these thoughts out of my mind, i really did…

this james would be into the filthiest fucking things ever and if you say anything else you’re a liar

i’ve had this thought where he’s on the bed, his back against the headboard and you’re on top of him for the sole purpose of making HIM ONLY feel good

there’s just smth so degrading abt the fact that he’s letting you do all the work and not even get rewarded for it.

he would force you to edge yourself on his cock, not even moving a single muscle and just letting you do all the work as he watches your cunt deliciously swallow him

your hands would be planted on his chest for leverage as you bounce over him as fast as you physically could, but you were just so tired from being edged all night, you didn’t even noticed that you’d slowed down until you fully stopped moving

“don’t fucking stop” he seethes “faster, come on” he slaps the side of your thigh for emphasis as you cry out, too tired to move, but continue anyway

“please james, i cant” tears spring the corner of your eyes as the friction against your folds become too much to handle

“shut up and fucking move”

you feel a knot tightening up in your stomach for the third time that night as you clench around james’ cock, causing him to let out a strangled moan

“shit, yeah just like that” a cocky smile appears on his lips as he tries to catch his breath

he hears you attempting to muffle your moans as you grind yourself harder and faster on him, feeling your release coming up

james notices this and yanks your hands off of his chest, using his grasp as leverage to pull you closer to him as your grinds come to a halt

“i thought i fucking told you not to cum?” he grunts

“please james, i’ve earned it, let me cum, i’ll do anything” at this point you weren’t sure if you were crying from embarrassment or from the stimulation

“you’ve earned it when i tell you you’ve earned it” he abruptly lets go of your hands, causing you to fall back against his chest “now come on, make me cum. that’s all you’re good for anyway”

you start moving over him again, your thighs trembling as you bring your hands back to rest on his thighs, making it a little easier for you to move

the room was filled with the slick sounds of your cunt moving over his cock and your plush ass slapping against his thighs

when you feel him twitch inside you, you let out a sigh of relief, using every ounce of energy in you to bounce faster

“ohhh, fuck, i’m gonna cum. gonna pump deep inside of you, okay? shit shit shit” he lets out a low groan as he thrusts upward, bringing his hands to your hips as he holds you still over him, forcing you to drain every ounce of cum

when he let go of you, you got off from on top of him, his cum falling from your cunt. even after you got off of him, you noticed that he wasn’t finished, his cock twitching as more cum falls from the tip.

he uses his cum to stroke himself easier, massaging his balls until he finished unloading every drop of cum.

the sight of his thick thighs covered in your slick and his cum, the way he moans as he rubs his thumb over his tip, it made you whine, clenching your thighs together.

the sound brought james’ attention back to you, his mouth open in an ‘o’ shape as his brows are fused together. “be a good girl and clean up your mess”

your eyes widened in surprise as you let out a dumb little “huh” making james laugh at you

“well it’s not gonna clean itself” he sighs “on your knees, come on. put that pretty mouth to good use”

you shakily move farther down the bed, looking into his eyes while doing so, just waiting for the moment to tell you that he’s just kidding, but it doesn’t happen.

once you’re far enough down, he spreads his legs so that you can access him easier, his cock already hardening again when he sees the intimidated look on your face

you bring your palm up to stroke him, gathering all the cum and wetness covering him up as you hesitantly bring your mouth to his tip.

he lets out a hiss as you suck on him, his thighs clenching and unclenching. you pull off him to lick the sides on his cock, cleaning him up. you move away so you could comfortably put him in your mouth, fitting in as much as you could as you play with his balls.

“good girl” he praises, watching you suck him off.

you feel him twitch in your mouth so pull away, wanting to clean up a bit more before he makes a mess again. you bury your face in the bed so that you can comfortably lick his balls clean, his cock resting over your face. when you finished, you started stroking him again, taking him in your mouth as you starting lapping up his tip

his whole body shakes as he lets out a shudder, his hand finding it’s way to the roots of your hair to unexpectedly push you down, making you gag. you continue you suck him off, your throat clenching around his tip as you lick the sides of his cock, practically slobbering all over him

he watches as his fat cock slides between your lips, not even making it all the way in your mouth. “look at you, so fucking cock drunk, you’ll do anything i say. fuck, m’ gonna cum down your throat, that what you want? want me to feed you my cum?” you moan around him as an answer, causing him to curse.

he forces your head down all the way, not caring about your gagging as he strokes himself through your throat, his hot seed spilling out of his tip directly down your throat. he keeps you still, your nose against his pubic bone, until he’s sure that every drop of his seed was down you throat “atta girl” he praises in between moans

the second he pulls your mouth off of him, you cough, bringing your hands up to your mouth to wipe the spit and cum around your puffy lips.

he sees your tear stained eyes, your face red and puffy as mascara covers your cheeks and your lipstick smeared across you chin and lips. he feels pity for you, so he motions you to crawl up to him so you can snuggle close to him.

you don’t look him in the eyes as you crawl, immediately laying your head on his chest as he cradles you into him. “im so sorry baby” he whispers to you

“s’ okay. im fine, really” you assure him, sniffling a little

he strokes your hair, scratching your scalp before threading his hands into your locks “you did fucking amazing” he places a kiss atop your head “my sweet girl”

“thank you” you beam, clutching his chest tighter as he brings the blanket to cover the both of you up

i feel like i should crawl into a hole and never show my face on this app ever again.

[loptrcoptr]

The blue eye samurai fandom, for some reason

[wavesoutbeingtossed]

The whole discourse about the privacy/secrecy/support thing has been sitting with me for a few days (I mean other than it always does to a certain degree) thanks to all the excellent discussion happening and I know I'm not saying anything that hasn't been said a million times before, but I think what we're seeing and what we're going to learn (e.g. from TTPD) is that it wasn't just the support issue, but how it was shown/handled.

We've all gone out of our way to show that introversion =/= lack of support. Someone can be shy, reserved, etc. and still show up for their partner, whether in public or at home. To chalk any of the differences up to the clash between introversion and extroversion is unfair to folks who count themselves among either tbh.

@thisisctrying said something the other day that hit the nail on the head about how if that support had been offered in private, there very well may not have been a Joever to begin with, or at least not at this point in time. (Sorry for loosely paraphrasing, and for namedropping you! Long time listener, first time poster.)

If this were a case where the "shy" partner said, "I am really uncomfortable with the spotlight personally and do not want to court it, but I will support you in your ambitions and offer you whatever you need to make them happen and make the glare bearable," I suspect that would have gone a long way to making Taylor feel seen and comfortable in pursuing her goals in the way that she now has. Again, that might have been more akin to the balance that seemed to have been struck around 2019 from what we can see, but even speaking in a general sense, there are lots of couples out there, celebrity or not, that have similar approaches where there are highly driven people and busy careers involved.

(A famous example being Dolly Parton's marriage. Tbh I know next to nothing about her and Carl, but she's always heralded as an example in this regard, because her husband is famously uncomfortable with the spotlight and hasn't accompanied her to public events in decades, but she's said that she never minded that because that was always work to her, and what was important was that he supported her in pursuing all her career goals and basically ensured she had a place to call home to return to at the end of the day.)

We're kind of in a brave new world with her current relationship because it felt like, at least at the start, we were maybe watching her figure out her boundaries in real time as to what she was comfortable with or not and adjust accordingly. Like so many have said, I fully believe the extreme privacy thing was initially driven by herself and her experiences in 2016, and she needed that quiet time to recover from all of the things and figure out how to exist in the world again.

Stating the obvious, it seemed like eventually privacy was equated with secrecy, turning the relationship and the celebrity into the elephant in the room and something to never be spoken of to the outside world. People are free to choose whatever works best for themselves and their relationships, and for some the separate public lives might work, but the “kept me like a secret but I kept you like an oath” theme is all over her work and it’s clear that it’s a sore spot for her, because she’s been made to feel shame just for the life she leads so many times in the past.

What I’m trying to say is that it’s pretty obvious something Not Great was happening behind the scenes, which didn’t just amount to “she wanted to be a public celebrity and he wanted to be a private hermit.” (Also, in case anyone forgot, this is a person who also chose a public-facing career who also has to engage in press for it, but I digress.) As her career reached new heights post-folklore, if she had the support at home to do all the things without judgment and with encouragement, and in turn offer the same support to her partner, she may have very well lived just fine with that, not unlike Dolly Parton’s case.

By reading between the lines in all the press since, as well as comments on tour and general ~vibes~ with TTPD teasers, it seems like one of the issues was that that was likely not the case. There was all the stuff that we saw — the reticence to acknowledge each other in the media (particularly on one side), the lack of public support even at events at which they were both in attendance for their respective jobs, the great lengths they went to not to be photographed together at events they attended yet no problem taking pictures with other friends and coworkers, the jobs that separated them, the withdrawing from the public even for work accomplishments, etc. Which could all be manageable if a couple chooses to do so together and are not inherently a sign of trouble in themselves.

But what we’re seeing now I think is a reflection of the things we weren’t seeing then, and it seems to indicate some very deep hurt. (I know, call me Captain Obvious.) And like so many have been saying, it feels likely that that part of that hurt is rooted in that very lack of private support where a person would expect it from their partner. Obviously as a Taylor fan blog I’m going to be more inclined to understand her side of a story, but tbh, it’s also because… this is sooooooo common, and something I’ve experienced in my friend group. (@taylortruther is right when she says most breakups are the same one way or another lol.)

One partner is resentful of the other’s success, or resentful that the other’s priorities begin to evolve as new experiences unlock new goals, or feels the other’s ambitions are not worthy of pursuit, and coupled with perhaps their own struggles in the same domain, it’s easy to see where that can chip away at the other partner’s morale and faith in the relationship. I know I’m just speculating here, but I also don’t think it’s totally unfounded. (Again, because a) I’m picking up what she’s putting down and b) it happens to sooooooo many women even among us dull normals.)

With all the pointed mentions about how much Taylor feels supported in her current relationship and how she in turn loves to offer the same show of support to not only her partner but other loved ones, how she’s stepped out more in the last year to a whole host of events, how she’s mentioned feeling like she locked herself away for years and she’s just proud of her partner and happy she can show up for him even if the chaos around it is unsettling, it paints a picture of what perhaps was happening before last year.

To feel like you’re all alone in carrying the weight of the relationship (or burden of it), of twisting yourself into knots to accommodate the other person’s boundaries (or insecurities) but not feeling reciprocity for your own has to be so painful. (The idea that it may have been even darker and to have a partner not only be unreceptive to your own needs but even perhaps resentful/dismissive/belittling of them is even more painful to think of. I guess we’ll find out when TTPD comes out if that was the case, too.)

At a certain point, that lack of acknowledgement will force your hand to be able to reclaim yourself. And it feels like the further removed Taylor in particular is from it, the more she moves from being sad about the life she felt she gave up by leaving, to angry at the life she felt she was giving up by staying. Especially being in a relationship now where it seems like everything comes much easier, where she can be open about the person she’s with and show up for them, all the stuff that seemed as challenging as climbing Mount Everest in her past is nothing more than a molehill at best in her current life.

TL;DR: I don’t think it’s privacy that inherently spells doom for a celebrity relationship like this; it’s the mutual support and respect that does. If Taylor had felt that in the later years of her previous relationship, I think we could be seeing a different, though not necessarily unfulfilled, person right now in 2024, who’d be happy on tour but whose personal life would look a little different. But it seems like by losing that support she lost parts of herself, and we’ve seen her reclaim that in spades in the last year, and perhaps to degrees she didn’t even realize she could from before all the Bad Stuff started happening in her young adulthood.

I know this was extremely long-winded and unnecessary, especially about total strangers we only know through scraps fed through the media, but I just always bristle at this idea that issues like these boil down to “personality differences,” as though one person wants to live in a city and the other on a remote island, or some shit like that. The whole support (and gender tbh) issue is one that’s just very close to my heart because again, I have seen it play out with so many of my friends in long term relationships and marriages and I just think people in relationships (and women in particular in some circles) deserve better than to feel like they’re being, well, tolerated.

[papertowness]

me , starting ‘ son of coma guy ‘ : oh haha this one has silly title i can’t wait !

me , 44 minutes later : 😀 what the fuck

[chelseasdagger]

guys i don’t know if i’ve ever been this happy before

[crystallizsch]

thinking about jamil’s hair snakes again bc of the one tag by @/sinjaangels (thank you 🙏) #overblot residue

at first i thought of it as a potion mishap but because of this tag i had another fun(tm) vision

so if i’m going for the route that the snakes were like a side effect of the overblot instead of potion shenanigans, i imagine the snakes just kinda slowly drain jamil’s energy / feed off his magic or something along those lines until he like ;;; idk perishes.

so despite the snakes’ “cuteness” and how the personalities are basically mini heightened versions of himself (which i realized is kinda similar to the tsums) jamil is not lying that theyre pretty evil bc theyre slowly killing him

[askamnesiamoonjumper]

aau rework version of the overload/boss fight where it actually has consequences and bearing on the character dynamics save me,, save me aau rework,,,,

[cowboyinternist]

what makes sam and jackie compelling/interesting as a ship to u? /gen :O (not related to anything ive been meaning to send u this ask for a while and only just got round to it lol)

i think a big part of it is that the way jackie talks about sam makes them a lot more interesting as a character?

because objectively, sam sucks! as we see them about 90% of the time, they’re incredibly self serving and negligent. and that’s putting it in as simple terms as possible.

but we get these small implications as time goes on that there’s something beyond that! which is most notable in the interaction they have with dana in episode 83 (another thing i could talk about for a million years (i could also go on a whole other tangent about how them showing their face is another really huge example of this but that’s off topic rn)). but none of them are necessarily set in stone, outright saying who they are. like MAYBE sam isn’t completely horrible, but who can really be sure?

but then Jackie says this in it devours,

sam is nice! really nice, actually! outside of the specific context of them being the sheriff and instead them,,, fundamentally as a person. and it isn’t like jackie is this one off character whose judgment we can’t trust. we spend an entire book getting to know her! and i feel like jackie is reliable in this aspect, especially post novel 1. this is the first and really like,, ONLY time we get info on sam from somebody who actually knows them personally. and interestingly enough, the next time we get insight on this aspect of their character, it can be linked back to jackie. they only decide to stand up against the university of what it is once they threaten josh, who is jackie’s half brother. and it is IMMEDIATE they are,, FRONT and fucking center in that movement. like their relationship is so interesting because jackie saying something as simple as that shakes up everything we know about this character.

and this all makes it very interesting to explore just,, what makes sam so fucking horrible outside of that? like what is it that drives them to be that way. and there are so many possible answers to that question and i have my own extensive thoughts on that but again,, off topic.

i love it all so much because it plays into the major themes of perspective that wtnv has? which i think is my favorite thing about the podcast. cecil has his own perception of sam, so does dana, so does jackie. and none of those perceptions are necessarily false, because they’re based on those people’s individual experiences.

also i enjoy the way their relationship is foreshadowed in the novel because i think that with the way she describes it, sam is like the LAST character you’d expect her to end up with lmao.

but yeah TLDR; i find them compelling because sam is absolutely awful and jackie is not, but she describes them as a really nice person anyways ^-^

[spicyicymeloncat]

Idk if this is a hot take but why is it always “Kai slaved away and worked his ass off to raise his sister” and never the other way round or them working hard together?

Like, I know he’s older but in the show, does he really… act older? Like if you think about Kai and Nya’s dynamic yknow? Because from my understanding:

When Kai and Nya are introduced we see Kai fail at making a sword and Nya being the one to chide him for it. Kai makes an overconfident statement about wanting to be a better blacksmith than his father. This suggests that one, Kai is rather rash as well as inexperienced (something that lines up with the rest of his character arc in the pots and also generally), with Nya being the more mature figure in contrast

Also just a note but in the shorts: “I can handle it!” “No you can’t, stupid”

Kai frequently being very good at neglecting people or things: leaving Lloyd at an arcade whilst being focused on finding samurai x, not even knowing samurai x was Nya or that she only did it because she felt left out by him, completely abandoning both Nya and Lloyd in s3 (and Ik he was going through it at the time, but in line with the fandom’s characterisation of him)

Kai in season 5: “After I lost my dad, I lost my way. But I was lucky to have my sister watch over me”

Generally, their dynamic isn’t one where Kai really provides for Nya at all. In fact, judging by the fact that Nya can make entire mechs and Kai struggled to make a sword, Nya was probably busting her ass to provide for Kai. And judging by the s5 quote, that’s probably true. I’m not saying Nya raised Kai, it just rubs me the wrong way when she’s treated like a decorative flourish to a narrative that paints Kai as a burnt out child who was forced to grow up too soon especially since that is such a mischaracterisation of him in the first place.