Heaven is not fit to house a love (like you and I) | Part 5
Word Count: 6k
Genre: smut, angst, fluff
Summary: When you first met your boyfriend, it was love at first sight. No, more than that. It was love before you even met. It felt like you had known each other in another life and were meant to find each other again.
But that's not actually true, is it? You and Beomgyu don't actually know each other from another life, and the dreams you've been having aren't memories of your past life either. That's ridiculous.
But then why does Beomgyu get so defensive about them? And why does each dream feel more real than the one before?
A/N: this is the sequel to my series YAMQN but I'm trying to write it in a way that it would be comprehensible to people who have never read YAMQN. The parts in italic are the dreams.
Warnings: fem!reader, sub!gyu, dom!reader, choking, cunnilingus, fingering, riding, mentions of previous noncon
“Oh my god.” Are the words that stir you awake in the morning.
Beomgyu returns to the apartment to find you in the same position you had fallen in last night, and he freaks out.
“Fuck, did you stay there all night?” He asks, and tries to scoop you up off the floor but you push him away.
“Don't touch me. Isn't that what you wanted?” The raspiness of your voice from sleep adds to the harshness of your words, and Beomgyu frowns. “It's not what I wanted. It's what you wanted.”
“Look at me! What part of this exactly did I want?” You indicate towards your disheveled and miserable state angrily, his reply pissing you off. Was it disingenuous to be mad at him for his ridiculous statement despite you making the very same equally absurd one before him? Maybe, but you’re too bitter and upset that he left you last night to care. “I told you I'm trying to fix it.”
But Beomgyu is not one to let your hypocrisy go unnoticed. “Wow, that makes me feel so much better. I suddenly don’t care that my girlfriend thinks I’m a disgusting piece of shit.”
You have no comeback to that because you know there is nothing you can say that would justify your recent behavior, even if unintended, towards him, so you run away, knowing he would chase after you.
“Whatever.” You push yourself off the ground with great difficulty. It turns out that sleeping on the hard floor curled up in a ball and crying your heart out takes a toll on your body, and your screaming bones and muscles make sure you know that.
“What, are you giving me the silent treatment now?” He scoffs and you stay silent, proving his point as you make your way to your bathroom.
Are you using anger to push down the guilt you feel at what you've put him through? Yes, but he shouldn't have left you to your thoughts last night because despite his reassurance that he wouldn't leave, you still couldn't help but spend the long tortuous hours until you fell asleep imagining that his small break away from you would allow him to reconsider everything and lead him to dump the crazy, toxic girlfriend he has that is treating him like a criminal over something he never did. What if he decided it was all too much after all and left you to find someone else who he wouldn't fight so much with–whose friends didn't hate–who wasn't insistent on being friends with a guy he clearly feels insecure about?
“Come on, just fucking talk to me.”
Now he wants to talk when he made you go through needless hours of torture in the dead of the night by yourself?
“I don't have time. I have to get to work.” You tell him, voice almost inaudible from all the shouting and crying you did last night. Honestly you don't know how you're even going to speak to customers like this but you're intent on paying Beomgyu back for what he did to you.
“Are you fucking serious?” He asks, but you don't reply, just turning on the shower and stepping inside.
You can see Beomgyu is still outside through the fogged up glass pacing up and down the small bathroom and it brings your heart a sick sense of satisfaction that he's waiting for you–that he's atoning in some way for what he did.
You take your time, not just because the hot water feels heavenly against your aching limbs, but also so you’d make Beomgyu wait. You can’t make him wait hours like he did to you but this small punishment does slightly placate your resentful heart.
When you step out of the shower, he's immediately back into it, trying to convince you to stop and talk to him but you ignore him, keeping your mouth shut all through getting ready while he talks your head off.
“This is ridiculous. Why am I the one begging you to talk to me?” He finally asks and you hold back your flinch as you put the finishing touches on your makeup. You have to speak up now. You can’t rebuff him for too long or he might leave again. You cringe inwardly at all these manipulative thoughts filling your mind and prompting you to act in this underhanded way that you never thought you’d behave like before, but you can’t help yourself, finding yourself falling into this toxic way of thinking as if it was something that had always been embedded in a rotten part of your brain you didn’t know existed until it had been unearthed by the stress and pain of everything that has been happening lately.
“I tried to talk last night but you fucking abandoned me.” You finally shout, shifting the blame onto him again.
“I didn't abandon you.” He defends himself heatedly. “I needed time to wrap my head around what you're fucking accusing me of!”
“I wasn't accusing you of anything! I know it's just a dream.” You scream as if you could drown out the voice in your head trying to convince you that it was more than that.
“If you know that then why are you treating me like it's true?” It was his turn to throw out accusations, and this one hit a nerve.
“Because I can't fucking help it, okay!” Your lips tremble as you tear up. You really don’t know why these absurd dreams and images are affecting you to this extent. “I can't fucking control what my mind choses to spring on me and I can't control what that makes me feel.”
“Then what the fuck do you expect me to do about it?” He asks, frustrated. You completely understand his reaction. You would be furious and heartbroken if you were in his shoes. He might even be handling it much better than you would have.
“I don't know, okay? But you leaving me in the middle of the night to deal with this shit on my own is not helping.” You break down, voice turning pathetic and whiny as you cry. Unlike your previous actions and words, this wasn’t intended to sway him into giving into you. You truly don’t know what to do. You don’t want to be having these awful thoughts but you can’t stop them. Still your tears get to him anyway.
“I'm sorry.” He relents right away, always weak when it comes to seeing you cry. “I just needed some time to process it all.”
You scoff through your tears, softer too. “Who are you and what have you done to the Beomgyu I know?”
He cracks a half-hearted smile. “I guess even he has a breaking point.”
That is exactly what you’re so scared of–of him reaching that breaking point and leaving you. You give him an equally unenthusiastic smile. “Well, where do we go from here?”
“Wherever. Doesn't matter as long as we're together.” He says as if he could hear your fearful thoughts and you nod eagerly before he can change his mind. “Together, always.”
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Taehyun knows better than to approach you but he can’t stop himself, not when you look like shit and sound like it too. Due to your rough state, your manager has relegated you to working in the back where you're out of the customers' sight, and that's where Taehyun corners you.
“What happened to you? And don't give me that bullshit you gave the manager about laryngitis.”
“I don't owe you an explanation.” You sneer, which is useless since he can't see it when your back is towards him. You doubt it would have dissuaded him anyway given his next question. He is like a dog with a bone. He won’t leave well alone.
“Did he hurt you?”
You whip around to face him, the sneer now turned to a full on scowl. “He didn't. He would never hurt me.”
“You sound defensive.” You almost want to smack the know-it-all look off his face. “God, Taehyun, sometimes it feels like you wish he was abusing me so you have the chance to swoop in and act like the hero.”
That gets him to frown a little. “I don't need to wish for it when I know he is.”
“He isn't. He would never hurt me. I am the one hurting him. I am the one…” You stop yourself as you feel the tears building up again. You shouldn’t say more anyway. He would just use it against you and Beomgyu. “Whatever. You wouldn’t get it.”
But Taehyun doesn’t give up that easily. “Maybe I already know.”
You roll your eyes. “Sure you do.
“He forced himself on you, didn't he?” He says lowly and you’re glad you weren’t holding anything fragile in your hand because suddenly all the strength goes out of your body as an icy grip wraps around your heart.
“W-What?” You stutter, staring at him with a deer-in-headlight look that speaks volumes.
“I knew it.” His jaw clenches and his hands ball into fists by his sides. “I am going to smash his face in.”
“No. No!” You cry, shaking your head wildly. “He didn't do that, I swear. It's all in my head.”
Taehyun looks at you like you're lost your mind, so you quickly clarify before he misunderstands even further. “It's the dreams. I dreamt he… did that, but he didn't! Not in real life. And when I told him about what he did in those terrible dreams, he was so upset and hurt that I would dream up something so vile about him that he left for the night and I just didn’t handle that too well. That’s all. He didn’t lay a finger on me. He didn’t.”
You were doing your best to clear your boyfriend's name. It was the least you could do now that your stupid dreams have leaked out into the real world to threaten your relationship with Beomgyu and to infect even Taehyun. Yes, you’re responsible for leading Taehyun to come to these revolting conclusions, but even you could never in a million years have been prepared for what he says next.
“You had a dream about that too?” He asks and you look at him in utter confusion and apprehension, dread building up in your stomach until you feel you won’t be able to contain it anymore. “Too? You had the same dream?”
He nods slowly, his mind visibly working to try to make sense of what he’s saying. “That's why I was worried about that. The dream felt so real, just like the ones you told me about before, the prince dreams. Prince Beomgyu raped you in my dream.”
The world spins nauseatingly around you. How is this possible? How could he have had the same dream you did? You insanity can’t have rubbed off on him to this extent.
“That's impossible. It must be a coincidence.” You shake your head violently, trying to dispel this insanity before it gets forever entrenched into your mind. “Yes, it's a coincidence because I put the image of prince Beomgyu in your head and you hate him so of course you'd dream of something so terrible about him.” You attempt to convince yourself as much as him.
“Then why did you also have that same dream?” He asks and you shake your head more, making the nausea worse. “Do you also hate him?”
“It's a coincidence.” You repeat weakly but Taehyun appears to believe your weak excuse even less than you do. “Is it?”
You look up at him, and try to conjure up some conviction to defend your love, the love you find yourself hurting once again even in his absence. What the hell is wrong with you? Have you gone insane? You need to get a grip. “Don't tell me you believe the prince dreams are real. I didn't take you for the type to be so superstitious.”
Taehyuns's upper lip curls in disdain at the clear mockery in your voice.“I don't believe they are real but I believe in the psychology behind them. If you truly believe that your boyfriend would never hurt you then why are you having these awful dreams about him? If you truly believe he would never hurt you then why are they affecting you so much?”
“I can't control it.” You cry out, at your wit's end. How do they expect you to answer these questions for them when you can't even answer them for yourself? “It's not my fault.”
Taehyun's sharp face softens slightly. It appears he too is affected by your distress, though he's less lenient on you than Beomgyu. “It's not your fault, it's his. He makes you feel unsafe, that's why you’re having those thoughts.”
You shake your head, denying his accusation weakly. You're so tired. You don't want to talk about this anymore. You just want it all to go away. “Beomgyu wouldn't do that.”
“Do you truly believe that or are you just saying that because you want to believe it?”
“I–I…” You should believe it. You want to believe it, but something deep inside you is preventing you from doing that and if you could, you swear you'd tear yourself apart to get to it and crush it with your bare hands so you can return to the blissful love you once shared with Beomgyu and never have to think about it again.
Your gorey fantasy is interrupted by the warm feel of a hand cupping your cheek, and your look up to see that Taehyun had snuck up on you and is now standing right in front of you.
“Don't hide from it. There is something in there that your mind is trying so hard to tell you but you won't let it because it scares you.” He whispers, his thumb softly caressing your cheek, giving the opportunity for that strange feeling of yearning and affection you hold for him to reignite. How are these men able to so easily look right through you and read you like an open book? “I get it. It's hard to think such things of the person you fell in love with. It feels like a betrayal. It feels like you're doing something wrong, but you’re not. You're just protecting yourself.”
“He's not–he would never…” You stumble, your thoughts a bloody and mangled mess you can't untangle, but he shushes you with a finger to your lips.
“Listen to that voice deep in the back of your mind telling you the truth. I know you hear it.” He bends down, pressing his forehead against yours, his lips centimeters away from your own.
This is dangerous. This is wrong.
“Taehyun?” You ask, noticing the way his gaze is transfixed on your lips. You see it coming a long time before it happens, and you do nothing to stop it. You do nothing to stop him from pressing his lips against yours.
In fact, you don't just do nothing, you actively respond to his kiss, pushing your lips against his own, seeking out the alternative he was so clearly offering you.
He's right. There is something there. You can't even deny it and that scares you. There is something between you as inexplicable as those wretched dreams, and they're all threatening to tear you apart from Beomgyu.
But you're just as helpless against Taehyun as you are against the dreams, your treacherous body responding to his kisses despite your best efforts--your lips tingling against his slightly chapped ones, your heart clenching around every little hum and moan he breathes into your mouth.
When he finally pulls back, you're both in a daze.
"Angel.” He murmurs softly and that triggers something in you–and like muscle memory, you suddenly jump back, freaking out and in turn freaking him out. You seem to have that effect on the men in your life.
No. No. There are no men in your life, only one man. Beomgyu.
“What?” He asks, trying to reach out to you but you step further away, and you can't miss the flicker of hurt flashing across his eyes.
“Why did you call me that?” You ask and his eyebrows furrow in confusion. “I don't know. It felt right. Do you not like it?”
No, you most certainly don't like it. You realize it's a very common pet name but this was all just too many coincidences for your liking, and you can't stand it anymore. None of this makes sense and it's making your head hurt.
"I have to go." You tell him and his face falls. “What? You're just leaving like that?”
Whatever ghost of hurt was there on his face is replaced by stark and jagged betrayal.
“Yes. This was wrong. You shouldn’t have kissed me. You fucking know I have a boyfriend.” Your voice rises, more at yourself than him. You've really fucked up now. “You know we're having trouble and you're fucking using that to get with me. You're a scumbag, Taehyun.”
And you’re a stupid whore. This is exactly why Beomgyu wanted you to stay away from Taehyun but you were arrogant and thought you knew better than him and now look where that led you.
“If you hated it so much then why did you kiss me back? Don't fucking pretend there is nothing between us. I know you felt it too.” Taehyun will not take the blame lying down but it doesn't matter. He's not the one you have to explain yourself to.
“What I felt was shame and guilt for cheating on my boyfriend. I feel nothing for you.” You lie through your teeth. You don't know if Taehyun believes you or not but you know you're hurting him either way and he deserves it. He shouldn't have come onto you during your weak moment. “Go find another girl to fix your intimacy issues.”
You take off your apron and make your way out of the coffee house, ignoring the way your manager is yelling at you to get back or you'll be fired.
“I quit.” You shout back at him. You don't care. Let him fire you. It's not like you can go back and work with Taehyun after this anyway. One of you has to leave and you’re making it easier for the both of you.
You have to get back to Beomgyu. You have to atone for all you've done.
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Beomgyu knows that something is off with you immediately. You look worse than you did when you left in the morning and he's asking about it as soon as you come through the door. You know it's useless to lie to him so you just confess, hoping that the faster you come clean, the faster you can move on.
“You were right about Taehyun.” You say and he immediately becomes angry. “What did he do?”
“I quit my job. I won't see him anymore.” You quickly supply, hoping that would at least placate him a little bit. “You don't have to worry about him anymore.”
But Beomgyu will not fall for such easy tricks.
“What did he do?” Beomgyu asks gravely and it scares you. Not for yourself but for Taehyun. Yes, Beomgyu would never hurt you but would he hurt Taehyun?
“Beomgyu, you’re scaring me.” You tell him, once again hoping he'd soften just a little bit but it's to no avail.
“You're only making me angrier.” He tells you and you can clearly tell, so you make a last ditch effort to protect Taehyun. “I'll tell you if you promise not to hurt him.”
“He touched you.” He states and you shake your head, wide-eyed. Are you really that easy to read? “It was just one kiss.”
“I’m going to fucking gut him.” He rages, storming off towards the door, but you throw yourself in front of him, begging and pleading with him to calm down. “No, no, please, baby. It's over. I will never see him again. It will only be me and you. I swear.”
“That's not enough. He has to pay.” He growls, his fury rolling off him in waves and scorching your skin.
“If you hurt him, they'll lock you up. They'll take you away from me.” You try another angle, anything to get him to back down.
“When I'm done with him, there won't be a piece of him left to find.” His words almost make your heart stop, and the look on his face makes you think he might actually be capable of doing that, so you try even harder to protect Taehyun.
Despite the hostility you treated Taehyun with, you do not wish Beomgyu to hurt him. You care for him beyond what makes sense and you won't be able to live with yourself if Beomgyu lays a hand on him.
“Please, Beomgyu, I'll do anything you want.” You desperately plead, tugging on his shirt like a little child begging their parent not to punish them. “I will never see him again. It will just be you and me, just like you wanted.”
You recognize how insane you sound. If you had seen another woman behaving the way you are right now and saying the same things to her boyfriend as she tries to justify her cheating, tries to prevent her boyfriend from retaliating, tries to convince him he has nothing to worry about by promising to completely and fully devote herself to him… you would shake your head in pity for the poor girl stuck in this tumultuous and frankly scary situation. No, the gravity of what is happening doesn’t escape your notice but you find yourself falling into it no less severely. You just want this nightmare to be over. You want to protect Taehyun and give into Beomgyu and just do whatever the hell he wants so it would stop hurting.
And you find what you desire when the vengeful look in Beomgyu eyes falters a little bit, and you know you’ve got him. He’s got you. “You'll listen to me when I tell you to stay away from these types of men?”
“Yes.” Your answer is ready on your tongue. You are so tired. “You were right. I shouldn't have doubted you.”
The tension in his shoulders eases a little bit. “You'll forget about those disgusting dreams?”
“I will. I just need you to help me.” You pull harder on his shirt and he takes your hands in his and kisses them. His touch is warm, doesn’t burn as hotly from anger as it did a moment ago. “Of course, I will, baby. I will do anything for you.”
You nod. “I know.”
He puts your hands on his shoulders and wraps his own hands around your waist, engulfing you, his touch firm but gentle, slightly hesitant as he watches your reaction to his words closely. “You won't hide away from me anymore?”
“No. I'm all yours.” Once again your answer comes readily despite your trepidation. And to prove yourself, you use your hold on him to pull him into a kiss which he happily reciprocates. You can taste the sigh of relief on his lips, feel the rage slowly seep out under your touch as the kiss deepens.
Beomgyu is horribly lost in the kiss, his tongue chasing your own and his lips desperately latching onto you as if he’d stop breathing if he lets you go. You have a feeling he would stand there for hours, days, weeks, kissing you until you both perish if you don’t intervene.
He also won’t do anything more, the scare you gave him before having apparently done quite a number on him. So despite you very clearly feeling his need against your tummy, you know he won’t make a move to push things any further.
So you make the move for him. You let your hand make its way between your bodies to take a hold of his hard member, and immediately he is pulling back with a groan, his head thrown back for a second as a shiver racks through his body from the sudden burst of pleasure after being deprived for so long, before he quickly whips his head back down and gasps out.
“You don't have to.” He says as if he wasn't giving you the neediest puppy dog eyes you've ever seen. As if he literally wasn’t gasping for air at that small touch.
You scoff. “If I take my hand off your cock right now, you’re gonna cry.”
He gulps. “So make me cry. Better me than you.”
A sharp pang pierces through your heart. Despite how weak he is, how desperate, he still would rather hurt himself than hurt you again. You’re overwhelmed. You don’t know how to respond to that, so you just push him to the ground and say, “You’re crazy.”
“Crazy for you.” He whispers as he watches you take your pants and underwear off.
“See what you’ve done?” You sling one leg over his shoulder, bringing your pussy inches away from his face and letting him see how wet and puffy you’ve gotten for him.
He gulps and asks in a shaky voice, “Can I?”
You cock your head down at him as you play with his hair. “What are you going to do if I say no?”
Is it cruel to mess with him when he’s this needy? You don’t care. You just want to revel in everything he is giving you.
“Whatever you want me to do.” Comes his perfect reply and you reward him for it, unceremoniously pushing his face in your pussy. Beomgyu responds immediately–whether he wanted it so much that he was ready for it or he knew that what he would say would get him what he wants, you don’t know and you don’t care to figure out when his wet tongue was prying your pussy lips apart to seek out your dripping entrance, his entire lower face getting covered in your juices in seconds.
“Fuck, baby, how are you so good at this?” You groan, looking down to see him eat you out just as hungrily as he always does. Every time you’re with Beomgyu, it’s always full of passion and love and lust. He treats it like the first and last time he will ever be with you and his fervor is infectious. A sprawling fire licks up your body, sprouting up from where he was devouring your cunt, his kisses and licks so fractic and yet so deliberate.
Beomgyu doesn’t reply, he just mewls and nuzzles his face into your pussy more.
“Finger me open for your cock, baby.”
You swear you felt him almost cum on the spot at the command, but he holds himself back, one of his hands snaking around your body to grab a handful of your ass and spread it open while the other goes under you to press two of his fingers against your entrance. You feel the pads of his fingers swirling around it for a little bit, probably gathering enough of your arousal to easily breach your hole but you were so turned on, you didn’t really need it.
“Don’t fucking teas–” You don’t get to finish your irritated demand before his fingers plow into you in one go. It takes you by surprise so much so you almost fall, but with his hold on your ass, he is able to keep you in your place, pushing you further against his lewd tongue while his fingers work you open.
“Fuck, fuck, fuck.” You moan, pulling harshly at his hair as he sends you barreling towards your orgasm, his finger pumping in and out of you ruthlessly, repeatedly hitting that spot inside you that has you turning to goo in his hold. “I’m going to cum, Gyu. Don’t fucking stop.”
As if Beomgyu would even consider it. He fucks you as if he could cum from it, and you think he very well could if you asked him to. But you have other plans for him.
“Oh shit, right there! Fuck!” You cry out, finally going over the edge and coming over your darling’s face. Beomgyu happily lets you hump his face, getting those last shocks of pleasure before your punishing hold on his hair loosens and your breathing goes from fast and shallow to slow and deep, your eyelids fluttering to a half-closed position while his shines widely up at you.
He is like a dog begging for his treat, and you’ll be damned if you don’t give it to him. You take your leg off his shoulder, but you don’t put it back down. Instead you press your foot against his chest and push him to the floor. He quickly realizes what you want and compliantly lays down flat for you to lower yourself on him.
“Do you need it, Gyu?” You ask, shuddering as his clothed cock rubs against your sensitive pussy.
He nods quickly. “Uh-huh. Need it to survive.”
You laugh, breathless. He's ridiculous. “Need my pussy to survive?”
“Y-Yeah.” He whimpers, struggling to hold himself back from just dry humping you. “Would die without it.”
“Poor puppy.” You take pity on him and finally reach down to pull him out of his pants, the weak gasp he lets out echoing in your own chest. He did so well for you. You’ve hurt him badly and yet he’s still willing to be so vulnerable for you. You can’t believe you almost messed this up and for what? Demented dreams that mean nothing and a guy who is hell-bent on separating you from the one guy who loves you more than anything in the world because of his deranged savior complex?
You focus on the anger you feel at that to hold the images that are creeping at the edges of your mind at bay as you take in Beomgyu’s cock, feeling it stretch you out even more than it usually does now that you haven’t fucked him in some time.
And it’s not just you who feels the difference. Beomgyu can clearly feel the way your tight walls drag over every inch of his cock as you dutifully take him up to the hilt. You feel his fingers dig into the meat of your thighs as he tries to stay grounded and not cum the moment he’s surrounded by your fluttering walls.
“You okay there, baby?” You tease, grinning at the way he’s holding his breath and the tense arch of his back. You feel bad that your distance has affected him this much, but not bad enough that you don’t start moving just to watch him scramble to keep from cumming.
“Fuck, fuck, slow down…” He pleads and you laugh. “I can’t possibly go any slower than this.”
You really can’t. You were basically just swiveling your hips over him. You weren’t even riding him yet and yet he looks like you’re fucking the life out of him.
It doesn't feel so scary like this, with him writhing under you helplessly. Images still bleed at the corner of your vision from that unknown source, images of Beomgyu decked in flowery silk and expensive jewels but still just as weak for you as he is right now, calling out for his princess as he struggles to hold himself back.
And as your pace starts to pick up and your defenses get weaker, those images creep closer and closer until they’re blending with the image of him under you right now and become indistinguishable from each other, until your Beomgyu is prince Beomgyu and prince Beomgyu is your Beomgyu. It scares you but it also feels right, and you don’t know what that means. Have you finally lost it?
But it’s hard to care about your expired sanity with the pleasure pumping through your veins and flooding your brain. As always, Beomgyu cock fits you so perfectly it feels like it was made for your pussy, a shock of electricity spreading from that point of contact to take hold of your entire body, gripping your muscles until you're bouncing on Beomgyu's cock, chasing it further and further.
“Please, please, slow down! I can't–”
It moves your arm so your hand is wrapped around Beomgyu's delicate throat, pressing firmly on it to quiet his pathetic cries.
“Shut up, Beomgyu. You can take it. You will hold yourself back and not pop in my pussy like a little virgin before I let you.”
Tears collect on his pretty lashes as he sniffles and tries to listen to your harsh commands. But you can see how difficult it is for him. Beogmyu is extremely sensitive at the best of times so you just know that he's about ready to combust at any moment right now and it just makes you even more turned on.
You've never been so rough with Beomgyu, or with anyone for that matter. You've never choked someone before and you probably shouldn't either but you can’t get yourself to let go. You're being so cruel to him but something deep inside you is telling you that he deserves it.
For what? You don't know. Maybe it comes from that same place where the dreams come from and the thought scares you because that is a place of evil and you shouldn't be acting on it but Beomgyu hasn't even batted an eye in alarm. It's as if he thinks he deserves it too.
“Princess!” His choked cry pulls you out of your thoughts and you can tell that he is right on the verge of falling.“Please say I can cum. Please? I r-really can't hold it any longer. God, please.”
He was openly crying now, his sobs partly cut off by your hand around his throat and tears heavily streaming down his face you're sure your image is probably swimming in vision right now from the tears and the low oxygen. He looks pathetic but more beautiful than anyone or anything you've seen in your entire life. How could you possibly be expected to resist God's most beautiful creation?
Still, you play the part.
“Whatever. If you cum I won't stop anyway.” You tell him, and he must have taken this as permission because next thing you know his mouth is hung open and you feel his warm seed burst inside you.
“Fuck.” You look down as you continue to ride him at the same pace, seeing his cum seeping out of your pussy and sticking to both your skin, making obscene squelching noises as you jump on his dick.
But Beomgyu doesn’t complain for a second.
You don’t know what is wrong with you. Why are you doing that? And why isn’t Beomgyu making any attempt to stop you? He just lays there and lets you do whatever you want to him.
“Is this what you wanted?” You ask, tone sharper than you intended. You don’t understand why you’re angry at him when all he wants is for you to love him.
“I–I… I love you.” He slurs incoherently, his words both not making sense and yet answering your question perfectly at the same time. Beomgyu doesn’t care what happens as long as you’re together.
“Fuck, Beomgyu…” You curse, your own orgasm not taking long to grab hold of your body, not with his seed filling your pussy and the raptured, devoted look on his face.
“I love you, princess.” He whispers, barely audible with your hand so tight around his throat as you finally succumb to your own end.
“I love you too.” Your voice surprises you, your own tears having caught up to you without you realizing it until you hear the pitiful garbled sound in your ears.
You don't know why you’re crying. Is it from pleasure? Stress? The combination of everything you've been through these past few months?
You don't know but you know that it feels good to let it all out, your tears getting swept up and washed away by the waves of pleasure battering your exhausted body.
This orgasm takes everything out of you. You enter a state of complete dissociation, the pleasure and strange but profound sorrow taking turns ravaging your body until you're left limp and spent.
When you finally regain awareness, you find yourself in Beomgyu's embrace once again. Always in Beomgyu’s embrace. And he is rocking you and whispering sweet gentle nothings in your ear.
“It's okay, my love. I'm here. I got you. I will never let go.”
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A/N: decided to split the chapters after all since i have not finished the last scene yet and otherwise this chapter would've been very large. the last chapter shouldn't take too long to come out though. in any case, send me your thoughts as they keep me going and as always
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I have a really dumb idea for Fearless. Getaway happens, again. The crew is trapped on the necroplanet with six hours before the djd comes knocking down the door. When Megatron goes off to talk to Tarn, Fearless follows because why the fuck not. Maybe they make their presence known the moment that Megatron offers to exchange himself for everyone elses safety with a loud objection. Maybe they wait until a fight starts and Megatron gets the shit beat outta him to try and (fail) stop Tarn. Either way I want the angst to the max. Tarn taunting Megs for his hypocrisy, from wiping out organic planets by the dozen to practically begging for Tarn not to hurt Fearless.
Side note, not sure how this would fit into the angst but I'm laughing at the idea of Tarn having an almost a one-sided rivalry with Fearless because he went from being Megatron’s favorite student to second to a tiny fleshling.
Instant Angst coming right up!
Hope you enjoy!
Fearless VS Tarn
SFW, Platonic, ANGST, Familial, mention of wounds and some injuries, nothing too graphic, Human reader
MTMTE
Fearless wanted to go on the planetary mission with the Rod Squad.
But Megatron simple said no.
So, they tried asking Magnus, with a report too!
Still no.
They even went to Rodimus to ask to go.
Even he said no!
Fearless already was processing a sick note for the Co-captain when they saw the squad leaving.
They quickly got into their battle suit (similar to Verity’s in Last Stand of the Wrecker’s) and hopped into one of the larger med kits.
Getaway transmission inside the Necrobot’s dome.
Getaway: “And now Rodimus what are you going to do? The entire crew on this ship voted mutiny. All you bots will die like pathetic fools along side Megatron. I’ll make sure to say something to Fearless for you.”
Rodimus: “I swear if you lay a digit on them—”
CLICK!
The call had declined.
Rodimus looked stressed while Megatron looked like he was going to have a stroke.
Everyone who heard suddenly got worried about their little human on the ship.
It wasn’t any news about Getaway behaving certain ways around organics, especially after the incident.
Megatron clenching his servos.
TAP!
TAP!
One of the larger med kits Swerve had brought in suddenly moved.
Swerve: “Oh great! The med kits are possessed now!”
The tap opens and Fearless pops their head out.
Fearless: “Who was carrying the medkits!? I swear I nearly lost my lunch—what’s everyone looking at? Did someone die?”
Megatron looks like he is about to faint.
Magnus sure did.
Megatron: “WHY ARE YOU HERE!?”
Fearless puts their hands up in surrender.
Whirl: “Megs I think you need to get your priorities checked. This is great!”
Megatron: “And pray tell why having one of the most vulnerable crew members on the ship, well what’s left of the original crew, here in the same place we are going to get slaughtered by the DJD is great!?”
Fearless: “…what in the world did I miss…”
Fearless wordlessly as Megatron explained their situation.
By the end of it they swore they were going to kick Getaway’s tin can so far, he would be forever drifting in space.
The small human had never met the DJD in their life.
They heard stories about the group from other bots around the ship, but it was almost like they were too scared to even speak their names.
They tried one time talking to Megatron about them, it earned them a weeklong silent treatment.
To Fearless, they were more bad guys that had made their family miserable and deathly afraid of.
They didn’t truly know what DJD did.
Fearless decided to make themselves a bit useful and tried to help more panicy bots calm down.
Apparently, it helped the bots calm down when they held/petted/cuddled them close, and they were going to bare it for their sakes.
They noticed that some bots were going to need more durable things to hold and fidget with.
Thankfully they spotted a couple of loose bolts inside a bright pink scooter.
Too bad that the scooter started up knocking them out for a bit.
When Fearless eventually comes out of their ‘nap’ they immediately open up the compartment and sees a bunch of blue flowers.
They hop off and see Megatron standing in front of a statue… of himself?
Suddenly a new bot came out of nowhere and transformed in front of Megatron.
They glared at the mysterious mech.
Something was wrong.
Something was definitely wrong…
The human’s eyes nearly popped out of their skull when they heard Megatron address Tarn about surrendering to keep the crew safe.
What was this!?!?
They were still processing what Megatron had said when Tarn started beating him up.
Fearless was ready to see Megatron completely annihilate his metal behind.
They just stared in horror seeing their father figure not even attempting to defend himself.
The tiny human was FURIOUS!
Fearless runs, jumps on Megatron’s chassis, raises their blasters up at the purple Con with fire in their eyes.
Fearless: “GET AWAY FROM HIM!”
Megatron feels his spark stop seeing Fearless on his chassis YELLING at TARN!
Tarn was surprised to see a human DEFENDING Megatron.
Tarn: “What is this? Oh, I see. You truly have changed Megatron. From making every organic life form quake in your presence, to having to rely on them to fight your battles?”
Tarn laughs as he takes a step forward.
Fearless readies their blasters.
Fearless: “I’m warning you! Stay away from us!”
Tarn: “Ha! What is the little organic going to do? I am Tarn! Leader of the Decepticon Justice Division! Megatron’s chosen one!”
Fearless: “You sure about that? Cause last time I checked my names on the adoption papers and not yours.”
Tarn is in a slight stuttering mess, not expecting to hear that comment.
Megatron tries to move his servo but can’t: “Fearless don’t provoke him!”
Tarn: “You are a peculiar organic, aren’t you? Sadly, you won’t be remembered.”
Fearless glares at Tarn.
Fearless: “I’m not going to repeat myself Tarn, but I’ll do it for you so your tiny processor can comprehend. Stay away from us or I WILL—”
Tarn: “What are you going to do? Blast me in the face?”
Fearless with a determined smile: “Yes.”
BLAST!
Fearless had indeed blasted Tarn in the face, then proceeded to JUMP on his chassis and started punching and shooting.
Tarn was too startled to properly think what was going on as the human started climbing and tearing parts of his armor.
Fearless looks behind them and straight at Megatron.
They had a desperate look on their face.
Fearless: “GO!”
Megatron laid down on the floor for a couple of seconds stunned at what his organic child had just done.
He scrambled up and attempted to get Fearless.
Sadly, Tarn had gotten to his senses and grabbed Fearless harshly.
The leader of the DJD’s armor was dented and some holes sprinkled around.
Fearless had a scowl on their face and thrashed around in his clenched servo.
Tarn just flexed his digits and made Fearless stop and gasped hearing something snap.
That’s not good…
Megatron yelled at him to spar Fearless.
Tarn felt disgusted… and a bit jealous.
How come Megatron cared so much about his puny organic when he had him!?
Tarn sadistically laughed and threw Fearless into his subspace.
Megatron was about to demand Fearless back again when Overlord suddenly descended from the sky and demanded Tarn to hand Megatron over so he could terminate him.
Megatron slipped away with a heavy spark to the dome.
When he returned to the crew, Megatron told them what happened and who had taken Fearless.
Whirl was about to exit the dome at that same second if Cyclonus and Magnus hadn’t tackled him down.
Rodimus did his best to calm the crew, despite the sinking pit in his tank.
Everyone knew the chances Fearless had alone with Tarn.
They were slim to nonexistent.
Meanwhile, Tarn had just arrived with the rest of his group.
He opened his subspace and carelessly tossed the human aside.
Fearless yelped when they landed on one of their legs.
Another snap.
Oh, if Ratchet ever found out about this…
Well good news was that he wasn’t even here… yeah… good news…
Tarn just gave them a simple order to stay put.
He wanted to destroy them in front of Megatron.
No one else was to touch them under his orders.
A silver lining, now all they needed to do was figure out a way to get back to the crew and not die in the process.
Just two things.
While Fearless was starting to worry about the shortness of breath and hot/cold flashes they were feeling, they barely noticed much of the battle happening around them.
It wasn’t until Tarn and most of his group had gone to personally fight that Fearless realize that they had been left in the ‘care’ of the light blue minibot that had been giving them the stink eye since they snapped their leg.
Suddenly the minibot told them that she didn’t see them escape before head to Deathsaurus.
Fealess suddenly realized they had no one guarding them.
They yelped and grunted as they tried getting up.
Thankfully they didn’t need to stand up for too long thanks to a familiar looking felicon racing to them.
Ravage: “Fearless!”
Ravage skid to a stop in front of the barely standing human.
Fearless managed to give him a tight smile before leaning on him.
He smelled them a bit.
Ravage: “You’re bleeding.”
Fearless: “That’s probably from the broken bone.”
Ravage: “What is broken?!”
Fearless: “Yeah and I think something in my chest snapped too…”
Ravage kneels letting Fearless struggle to get on.
He flinches hearing their labored breathing and yelps.
Ravage: “This isn’t going to be a smooth ride Fearless. Hold on tight and don’t let go.”
Fearless gripping part of his armor: “Wasn’t planning on it.”
Fearless didn’t know what was worse.
Focusing on the pain in their chest and leg or focusing on the battle around them.
They definitely needed to apologize to Ravage for how hard they were clenching his armor.
Most didn’t even take notice of the felicon being used to move the injured human.
Sadly, there was one mech on the battlefield that had taken notice.
Fearless sees the giant shadow dwarfing them and Ravage.
All they see is Tarn’s large servo reach for them.
Fearless raises one of their arms and starts blasting.
Fearless: “GO BACK TO THE PITS WHERE YOU BELONG!”
It only slows down Tarn a bit.
It wasn’t enough.
Tarn slaps hard at Fearless’s smaller body.
To Ravage’s horror he sees the smaller body get plunged into the fray, swallowed by the fire and smoke of the battlefield.
Ravage: “FEARLESS!”
A pair of mechs had just seen the act from the screen.
One of them immediately ran out.
Time skip after the battle…
The bots who were well enough to walk started rounded up around Terminus and Megatron.
Megatron was trying to recruit a search party for Fearless.
When Megatron had gone out, it was impossible to find their tiny body amongst the chaos around.
Even right after dealing with the DJD and Rodimus pulling him out of the place, there was still no sign of Fearless.
Hope was dwindling fast.
Megatron: “All right, in 5 minutes we depart.”
Skids (yes, he lives): “Count me in.”
Rung holds Skids back: “With the low energy you have, I don’t think that’s wise Skids.”
Skids: “Fearless is out there, we need every bot on deck.”
Whirl hobbling over: “He’s right Eyebrows. My Amica is out there and needs us.”
Terminus looking at one of the monitors.
Terminus: “Your human is small, correct?”
Megatron not looking: “Yes.”
Terminus: “And in some form of armor?”
Megatron still not looking: “Yes.”
Terminus: “They leak a lot of red fluids?”
Megatron pauses before looking at the screen.
Fearless was INSIDE the dome and staggering to the door.
Megatron: “Sweet Solus Prime!”
Megatron sprints to the door faster than he ever had in his life.
No one knows how Fearless got this far.
Ratchet tells them that it shouldn’t even be possible for them to move with the amount of blood loss and broken bones.
But he wasn’t complaining.
No one is.
Ratchet doesn’t leave Fearless’s side for a couple of hours.
Ratchet stands up with Fearless, bandaged up and limp.
Ratchet: “I need someone to hold Fearless, very still, for a while.”
Megatron: “I’ll do it.”
Ratchet: “No offense Megatron, but you’re shaking like a new recruit. Any harsh movement is not what they need right now.”
Whirl hobbles over and opens his cockpit.
Carefully he reclines the seat and pulls out one of Fearless’s blankets from his subspace.
Whirl: “I’ll take them Doc. I’ll even sit down in the corner.”
Ratchet hesitates, but the determined look in Whirl’s optic finally made him gently lay Fearless inside.
As soon as Ratchet finished putting Fearless down, Megatron came up and carefully tucked them in.
Fearless slightly snuggles closer to the blanket.
Terminus peaks over Megatron’s shoulder.
Terminus: “They mean that much to you?”
Megatron watches Whirl carefully hobble to a corner and sat down.
He didn’t miss the Ex-Wrecker carefully adjust their blanket.
Megatron: “Yes, yes they do.”
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