#I've started it with a totally different mood in mind - bc my mood was at a bottom of a very big hole then

[i-like-to-look-at-your-back]

Sleeping off

[mire1li]

Reader as Alastor's Mother part 2

Part 1!, Part 3!

𓋼 You would absolutely decorate his microphone with a bunch of ribbons you found!

And he would absolutely allow it in fear of upsetting you, although he began to take them off later on when he had to leave, but seeing you get sad at his actions changed his mind… It did not help that the ribbons were glittery.

“Oh look, Sparkles got sparklier!” Angel had said when Alastor was passing by.

𓋼 He wants you to be happy but don't even try having feelings for anyone in hell, they'll most likely 'disappear under mysterious circumstances' and then you'll just so happen to hear their screams on Alastor's radio broadcast <3

Lucifer tries to flirt everytime he sees you outside (or once he comes back to see the hotel which… would be 'some' time later…) But it's not long before Alastor shows up bcs he has a shadow follow you everywhere

“My mother certainly would not want someone so… ancient…”

“are you trying to make me sound like a fossil?”

“Maybe~ I can’t say for sure though!”

"Y'know, I've stolen wives before… maybe it's time to steal a mother instead!"

"I'm going to fucking kill you"

𓋼 Lucifer would play silly games with you and bring you gifts by leaving them at the hotel’s doorstep, although you never received any (like he thought you did) because Alastor would always take them before you saw them. Or he would make them his own to give to you if you were having a worse day than usual!

“Mother, I had noticed that you weren’t feeling all too great so I brought you a wonderful gift!”

“Oh, thank you, darling!”

Your mood always brightened when he gave you these gifts. 𓋼 One time when Lucifer visited the hotel, he went straight to you to ask you about how you liked the gifts.

"[Name]! Hello, deer, how are you? Did you like the gifts that I left you?"

"Hello Luci, I'm fine, thank you! … Gifts? what gifts?"

"The ones… that I left on the doorstep of the hotel!"

"I dont recall seeing any gifts there… but Alastor recently started leaving the hotel more often! Not for very long though…"

And then Lucifer realised. You never received his gifts because Alastor got to them first! After that, he made sure to put a note with his signature on them. Though, that still didn't deter Alastor, to Lucifer's dismay.

𓋼 One time, Angel returned to the hotel at an unreasonably late hour, so you went to make sure everything was alright.

"Are you alright, Angel?"

"Huh? No, I'm totally fucked!"

"Why? What happened?"

"You know Valentino right? My boss?"

"Of course I do, everyone hates him quite a bit here and you always talk about him"

"Right, well, fuckin' Val made me work an extra 10 hours!"

"He what?!"

"Yeah! Absolute bitch move."

Naturally, Alastor was watching and listening to you two so you turned to him, with quite the menacing look in your eyes.

"Oh Alastor, prepare your radio broadcast!~"

𓋼 You noticed that most of the residents of the hotel all came to you for advice quite often (except Niffty, she's just an entirely different entity)

"It seems they have become quite fond of you, Mother"

"They have, haven't they?"

Alastor's expression was always one of annoyance whenever someone came to you for help. He wouldn't dare admit it, but he was most certainly jealous of anyone who even stood too close to you, let alone talked to you.

𓋼 Because of that one time that Alastor stood right next to Charlie to spite Lucifer, Lucifer decided to stand just that close to you to get back at him.

"An eye for an eye, Mr Radio!"

"I recommend you watch yourself."

𓋼 One time, when you were out of the hotel and walking around Hell with Alastor, Vox just so happened to see you on one of his tv screens, Valentino sitting by him, messaging someone.

"Hey Val, who the fuck is that with that old-timey prick?"

"Hm? No clue."

"You didn't even look, fuckhead"

"How would you know? You're too busy eyefucking Alastor."

"I am not"

"She's probably just another one of those redemption hotel idiots. It doesn't matter"

But Vox still just glared at the screen.

𓋼 Vox continued to keep an eye on you, seeing just how wonderful you are and so when you were outside the hotel alone (or so he thought) he went up to you. Somehow he didn't catch onto the fact that you're Alastor's mother.

"Hello-"

"What do you think you're doing?" Alastor, of course, suddenly appeared out of thin air, standing in between you and Vox, with an even more annoyed smile than usual.

"Alastor, is this another one of your friends?"

"No-"

"Yes, absolutely, ma'am. Great friends, in fact!"

"Ha! Well, you see, this is my Mother."

"Your what?"

Yeah, Alastor simply walked away with you whilst Vox was buffering.

𓋼 Vox constantly tried to talk to you alone but Alastor was always there to stop him, so unfortunate.

"Would you stay away from my Mother, you-! Ahem, my apologies, Mother."

"Hah! Your mother? I think you meant our mother!"

𓋼 Alastor would absolutely cover your ears when swearing at, or insulting, anyone.

𓋼 When you first met Valentino, you were so mad at him on Angel's behalf that you knocked him out and brought him back to the hotel with you. Of course, Vox was there with Val but he was like a lost duckling, just slowly trailing behind you, unsure what to do.

"I'm back!"

"What the fuck did you do??" Angel was lying down on the couch when you entered, dragging the unconcious Valentino behind you.

"A favour to you and hell!"

"No, but how?!"

"That's a secret~"

"Ok… so why'd ya bring him here?"

"Redemption"

𓋼 Back to Lucifer! He would tell you random animal facts to try and impress you! He would also unironically ask around, and search up (if necessary), how to impress a woman.

𓋼 Lucifer would suddenly start playing the violin for everyone in the hotel 'for everyones' entertainment' as he called it. (It was meant for you though). Each time Lucifer did this, Alastor told you that something important happened that required your attention. You always stayed for the beginning though.

𓋼 One day, you were baking cookies and you and Alastor left the kitchen for a while whilst they were in the oven, however, you both somehow managed to forget about them… so when the smoke alarm suddenly rang, you ran into the kitchen, everyone wondering what happened.

"Fuck!"

"Language, Mother."

"Don't you 'language' me, young man!"

𓋼 You redecorated his room. He wasn't a fan of all the new colours, but he still appreciated the gesture. (There was a lot of glitter involved)

𓋼 After a while of you staying there, everyone definitely sees you as a mother figure (Alastor didn't appreciate this much either but he's willing to look past it for his friends)

𓋼 As small gifts, you made everyone items that resemble them and filled them with different colours of glitter and paper that remind you of them. Bonus: Behind the scenes! 1. Yuri's bad timing:

2. Vox and Val:

[throughtrialbyfire]

20 Questions for Writers

thank you so much to @wispstalk and @dirty-bosmer for tagging me!! <3

gonna tag @mareenavee @changelingsandothernonsense @thequeenofthewinter @skyrim-forever @trickstarbrave @oblivions-dawn @orfeoarte @gilgamish @totally-not-deacon @archangelsunited !! no pressure as always, and if i havent tagged you and you wanna do this, go ahead and say that i did, i'm tagging you in my mind <33

answering under the read more!

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

five atm! but i'm planning on splitting my one-shot-as-chapters fic into individual fics. i think i'll have around 11, then, if i don't take out some.

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

99,173

3. What fandoms do you write for?

TES and CoD Zombies! though i don't write a lot for CoD Zombies, just when i get in a certain mood for it here and there. old special interest wont grant me a moments peace lmao

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

i only have five uploaded, but i'll put them here!

1. An Inner Sanctity - 41 2. If By Sun and Moon I Swore - 38 3. Cycle of the Serpent - 23 4. The Mark You Left - 15 5. Portraits Under Forgotten Suns - 2 (this is the one i'm gonna split up into their own fics :3)

5. Do you respond to comments?

yes!! i even carry on convos in the comments sometimes for the hell of it, i love interacting with ppl <33333333

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

i think the one-shot for the prompts "forgotten/devotion" for tesfest '23 about the shipwreck of the brinehammer, since the main character dies lmao

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

the one for the prompt "in bloom" from tesfest '23!! it was just a little fluff fic for my ocs athenath and ja'dato <3

8. Do you get hate on fics?

luckily no, the spaces i've found myself in these days are really positive :3 especially compared to when i wrote on FF.net in like 2009

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

none of it is published, but i do sometimes! it's a good way to flex my muscles (haha) in blending thought and action, balancing descriptors (how vivid is Too Much), and seeing how certain characters interact with each other in a vulnerable state. maybe i'll post some someday, idk. mostly i just do it for funsies, so idk what kind you'd classify any of mine.

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

i havent in many years, so no, but that could chance if the mood strikes me

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

nope, but when i was writing for a different fandom in high school, my writing for a particular character wound up on ppls RP accounts as their versions backstory, as well.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

no, but if anyone wants to translate my fics, feel free!! just give me a heads-up!

13. Have you ever co-written a fic?

yep, on my old ao3, a good friend and i turned an RP into a fic! i enjoyed it immensely bc we wrote really well together!

14. What's your all-time favorite ship?

idk, i just groove where the dynamics take me <3

15. What's a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

i hate to say it, but An Inner Sanctity needs a major overhaul that i don't have the energy for right now. when i started writing that fic, i didn't have a solid grasp on athenath's personality. now that i do, i'm gonna need to rewrite all the chapters i've had ready for it, and pivot the direction of the fic to get it where i wanted it to wind up eventually. i really do want to finish it, though.

16. What are your writing strengths?

i get a lot of compliments on my imagery/descriptions/atmosphere! i love describing shit, so i'm glad ppl enjoy reading those bits of my work <3 oh!! and character/narrative details. i wrote a ~180k word fic in my senior year of high school solely off my mental notes for it, and it still wasnt finished when i dropped it a year or so later due to Circumstances

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

biting off WAAAAAAAY more than i can chew!! i have so, so many things planned for CotS and who knows if those things will get picked up on by folks or even work later down the line. GAHH

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

if you can realistically do it, go for it. if i could fluently speak all the languages i've tried to teach myself, i'd probably include them in fics where they would fit!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

naruto, i was writing naruto fics on a defunct dress-up site when i was a kid AHAH.

20. Favorite fic you've written?

Cycle of the Serpent. theres seldom a time i'm not thinking about those elves. yes, i will admit with my whole chest that i'm a tad desperate for people to read it and interact with it, but i think if i could explain everything (without spoiling it obviously) i have planned for this fic and just how much is going on in the background of the details i throw in, the reasons certain characters behave the way they do, and the amount of time i've spent working on it (the doc for it is at roughly ~96k and we're not even at the Real beginning of the solitude arc) and the sheer amount of hours i've spent making sure details line up, you'd understand why i'm losing all my sanity daniel-amnesia-the-dark-descent style over this story. i started writing it as a for fun "no one's ever gonna see this" exercise that also helped me greatly in recovering from long covid brainfog, and i think even if one day i look back and think of it as "not the best thing i've ever written", it'll still be one of the most passion-driven things i've ever written, and i'm happy about that. <3

woof, what a ramble. if you made it to the end of this, thank you, and i hope you're having a good day!!

[sorryimananti-romantic]

hi! i've recently been binging your fics and they're all so different! i love the royal and fantasy aus specifically, and love when you combine both! the oneshots are like watching a movie, i find myself totally engaged in the fics <3

take me home was brilliant. i'm amazed at the amount of effort you put into it! rereading it really made me go wow bc the foreshadowing, the different major and minor things happening all connecting in the end is just chef's kiss. can i ask what your writing process was for such a long series, and for oneshots in general? you don't have to answer that if you don't want to share, have a good day/night! <3

thank you so much! that's a huge compliment, and yes, ofc i'll share even tho i'm starting to feel like a clown 🤡

for take me home, i think i mentioned somewhere but i started at like chapter 30 sth- i wasn't sure about the direction at first, so i just started at the part where yena is drowning and yunho saves her. i wrote like 9 chapters and went 'hey wait what if-' and then i started writing the beginning. the only thing i had in mind at that point was yena and hwa being endgame, and the double identity of junyoung. even the darkling part i came up with in the end lol.

my writing process is... impulsive. with take me home, i did some basic worldbuilding and the roles of the atz members before writing, and the role of oc. i created all the plot twists and whatever as i wrote, and whenever i had a new idea, i would go back to rereading the entire thing and adding hints/foreshadowing so it connects. so it's all a mess with me having ideas at the most random times lol

for oneshots, it's pretty much just a prompt in the head. or an inspiration from a drama or book or real life. just a little prompt like for example, for white love fic, i just went ice prince hj x fire princess and just started writing without a plot in my mind. i always write with an empty brain, which is why i have to be in a certain mood to be able to sit and write.

so to conclude (sorry for the rant i was actually trying to figure out the writing process myself too) my process is being a mess, starting with a prompt, writing with an empty brain, creating a plot as i write, having multiple ideas (and mental breakdowns) in between and going back to insert it where it needs to be, and recently, trying to avoid it being unnecessarily long and trying to not self doubt and ditch it in the middle. that sums it up! thanks for asking!

[hidekomoon]

Yep! I'm a doctor working on a surgical ward. But I'm ngl if someone comes into the office and says "Doctor" to get my attention, i do not look up because I have not yet absorbed the fact that that is me. In terms of time to rest ... not really! Am on the job ... trying to learn how to not suck at the job 😂

I'm glad your mental health is stable. Now that I've moved I probably need to look into going back to therapy

Me when you tell me you may have guessed who i am: 😳

Altho saying this, it would be pretty cool to read your zine. What is your short story about? I think having lots of short term artistic goals is smart tbh. Stops you from being overwhelmed, but encourages you to keep up with skills. Maybe I should try that ...and hey if it helps with the self esteem and Mental Illness then even better.

Do you have to go back to school to do this thing in September? I feel you on the comparing yourself to friends. It's better not to do it but it's hard not to. A lot of my friends did shorter courses than me at much better universities so have been working for a lot longer and earning for a lot longer. So it's hard not to feel behind.... i get that. I think as long as you validate your feelings but don't let them take over it's okay? Another one of my friends just got engaged 2 weeks ago. I feel like I'm so far behind, just starting out work and missing an ex who left me a year ago. Idk it takes time. But defffooo tell your unhelpful fam to fuck off for sure!!!

wow! i don't know shit about surgeries or being a doctor but i'm sending you strength. it doesn't sound easy! but when somebody comes in and calls you 'doctor' and you don't realize it's you at first: that is such a mood. children call me "ma'am" and i always forget they're talking to me and not to some other lady behind me 😂

i hope your move wasn't too stressful! i helped a friend move a few months back and it was extremely tiring

yeah i think i've guessed! i'm going to try to message this/your? blog later if you don't mind

my short story is about sad gay people (no one is surprised). it takes place in 4 parts (childhood/teen/30s/50s) and it's about the relationship between 2 women who love each other but it never seems to work between them. and also it's about death. it's in french but maybe i'll translate it one day so my english speaking friends can read it

short term artistic goals are the best tbh, keeping me sane since i left high school

technically i don't Have to go back to school in september... but otherwise i would have to find a job and there's no guarantee i find one. i haven't paid the registration fee for next year yet tho (i have until the end of this month i think) bc it IS a lot of money. i have that money, i just wanted to keep it for other expensive stuff... so idk i'm procrastinating my registration until i won't be able to. i love Not Making Choices

yup exactly i'm trying to acknowledge my feelings but not let them overcome me. tho i guess i'm lucky, i don't have the feeling i'm late in the relationship department, though i am very single. i guess i really don't care about being Different in this domain, while i do in the Career domain... it's strange to feel SO confident and carefree about one thing and totally lost & powerless in another. i really don't think you're late either. relationships take time and a lot of luck (i know it's also a lot of work but you also need to find the right person. which takes a bit of luck). i'd rather be 40 and finally find my soulmate than being 40 and divorcing my spouse of 15 years, you feel me?

[catboyelimgarak]

Omg that sounds like such a freakin hassle;; I'm so glad that I already had a 3ds by the time I bought DDD (I was... a few years late) BUT THEN they did that package release thing, and I got those. Thankfully I have a ps4 and that's what I play them all on;;

But No I totally understand that for a good while there you can kinda guess Nomura might have had some of this planned. Tbh I'd guess maybe he had kh1, kh2, COM, and Days planned out, but after that it became a mess and more contradictions started popping up. He normally is pretty good at having it tie back into the story in some way (like the inclusion of Terra Aqua and Ventus), but he also has this dumb habit of raising SO MANY QUESTIONS, giving us answers to like, 2 in the next game, THEN GIVING US EVEN MORE!!! WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS BLACK BOX!! WHY IS XIGBAR LIKE 3 DIFFERENT PEOPLE!! WHERE IS MY BABY BOY DEMYX!! But maybe I've just been so used to his bullshit because I've literally been playing (or... watching my dad play for a bit there) since I was 3, and I'm so intrenched into this story that I don't even care what he does with this anymore. Like I have no clue what the fuck the plan for kh4. What the fuck even is Quadratum. Why is this weird lovechild of Riku and Noctis that showed up in an in-game ad actually relevant?? AAAAAAAA

Tho, going back a tad, I guess there still is the argument that he only intended for kh to be a one game thing because the whole "there's only one keyblade and it chooses it's weilder" thing from kh1 was so quickly scrapped omg

Also I totally get not wanting to play Re:Com bc the gameplay... well tbh I'm one of the weirdos who doesn't really mind the card based system but also I have to be in a Very Specific Mood to play it. Which sucks bc I honestly think it has some of the best story in the entire series. It also gives us Larxene aka my best bitch.

Sorry omg I talk waaay too much esp about stuff I like I'm sorry I'm bothering you;;;;

I made another post on my main blog that holds this one, and honestly, Nomura possibly did think KH would be an only one perhaps, but somewhere in there he got inspired to make another and then fell down the rabbit hole. Because if you compare the first game to all the others, it has a totally different tone and feel to it, thus making it so much more magical and whimsical than the serious sequels/prequels that just further confuse us lmao.

You’re not bothering me at all!! I can talk ages about this fucken dump truck of a series! You should hear/see me and my friends talk about this in person as we are introducing out other friend to the series (she was gifted the game by our other friend, the 1.5/2.5 remix ones when it went on sale a few months back)

It’s always good to see fellow Star Trek fans who are into more similar stuff 👀

[1eos]

Kendra! I was wondering your opinion as you’re the tumblr philosopher on these matters and I enjoy and agree with you on your literary critiques. But Lately (past year or so) I’ve seen a lot of comments along the lines of “does this drama have a happy or sad ending” literally any video on Instagram that has a collage of dramas or movies you’ll find comments like this or ones like “this story isn’t going the way I want I’m going to stop watching” I honestly am so confused I swear this is a newer phenomenon where people decide what to watch based on if the ending is happy or if the story comes together the way they want.

Like, I understand —sometimes I am only in the mood for something sad or dark so I can cry, but, I never determine what I’ll watch based on the ending! are people asking about the ending so they can watch in peace knowing it’ll end how they want? They can’t handle the events or the narrative if the happy outcome isn’t there? Is this like a side effect of fan fiction and self-insertism? Or an over-reliance on escapism? I am so confused by this and I see it on such a large scale.i can’t help but be bothered by it when I’d normally just mind my business but I feel like it’s so derivative of the work and feels like it’s enabling people not to be affected by work if it hurts them or is tragic or complicated. Maybe I’m just overthinking this and need to log off Instagram sometimes

oh let's DISCUSS!!!!!!!!!!! i've noticed this phenomenon too nd i mainly think its another fallout from fanfiction 😑 like when ppl say 'does it have a happy ending?' MOST of them are not asking if the story's themes take a turn that's upsetting or if there's heavy triggers (bc when ppl want to know abt triggers they straight up ask abt triggers) they're ACTUALLY asking 'does the story end how i want it?'

it's hard for me to put into words but nowadays ppl start getting into a piece of media not with the intent of enjoying what's there, but actively fighting against what something is to create fandom fodder. FOR EXAMPLE ppl who watched squid game or all of us are dead but get upset when........ppl die? its a fucking death game show and then zombie drama like what do you expect??????????? ppl are LITERALLY fighting against what the narratives are supposed to be.

and like you said there's nothing wrong with wanting to know if a piece of media is super heavy emotionally or super fluffy bc sometimes you want one or the other. nd there's also nothing wrong with wanting to know abt any specific triggers in a piece of media. that makes sense. it even makes sense for something's tone or message being offensive to you so you drop it.

BUT imo there's a difference btwn accepting that you and the narrative of what you're engaging in just aren't compatible and being upset that this piece of media isnt something you can control and make your own. like what even is a happy ending to these ppl? is it everyone living and getting what they want? well is the narrative about people facing consequences for their actions? is it in the horror genre where characters are EXPECTED to die? is the happy ending two characters ending up in a romantic relationship? ok but is the narrative about how the characters need to accept themselves before focusing on an intense romantic relationship??

my point......a lot of times when ppl ask 'does it have a happy/sad ending' theyre bypassing everything abt the possible themes and narratives involved bc a good/bad ending is entirely subjective on what actually goes on in the story. so you asking that BEFORE engaging with it is boiling it all down to your preconceived desires........the cookie cutter approach to media..........being totally detached from what's actually in front of you. that's why ppl are mad that a marvel movie isnt a gay romance movie. or being mad that people die in a show abt a fucking death game

the rise of fanfiction has people sooo adverse to accepting the story put in front of them its crazy like ppl have forgotten that writers (sometimes) actually have a story to tell with specific messages!!!!!! this isn't burger king!

[aonogifreactions]

Rin thirst headcanons nobody asked for

MINORS/EMPTY AND AGELESS BLOGS DONT INTERACT YOU WILL BE BLOCKED :)

a/n: n/sfw!! totally random headcanons i started writing bc i was t h i r s t y. enjoy <3 im sorry i was so chaotic, my mind no worky!! ><

Words: 1,3k.

Rin:

hear me out. he’s usually the one that initiates everything, but sometimes he enjoys if you take the matter into your own hands... literally. he loves when you stroke his cock softly, just to tease him; he’s gonna whine and moan quietly, gasping when you fasten the pace, gripping the sheets so hard he almost rips them apart.

his hips are jerking into your hand to get even more friction, his eyes tear up due to the pleasure he’s getting; his tail wraps itself onto your other wrist mindlessly, urging you to let him cum.

He's trying not to let out any sounds, so he covers his mouth with his hand; you, however, take his hand away from his mouth and encourage him to moan even more, "I wanna hear you, Rin. I wanna know if what I'm doing it's okay. Please."

once your hand gets covered with his cum (and boy ITS A LOT), his hips jerk a few more times until he recovers. his tail unwraps and he apologizes to you with rosy cheeks; he kisses you on the lips gently as a thank you afterwards.

now, the sight of him inserting his dick into your pussy is so lovely; whether you notice it or not, he’s always looking how it disappears within your sweet, wet pussy. when you clench on him when he inserts it, oh god you’re about to witness the most beautiful face expressions you’ve ever seen.

It's like.. he's almost hypnotized. His face is calm, slightly adored with a blush, yet it has that dark vibe; his eyebrows furrow together, as his lips part a little. He then places his hands on the bed and pushes his hips further inside you - yet, his eyes jerk from your cunt to your face, at which he looks almost drunk-like; his very much own twists in pleasure. His eyes furrow again, but this time he looks into your eyes; his gaze is so intense that when you look closely enough you can see his pupils dilating. Rin hisses and moans, biting his bottom lip and drawing blood by accident. His eyes close and he grunts once he feels like he's balls deep inside you.

he hisses every time you clench on him, and I'm not even making it up. his dick is so sensitive (or so he thinks) that he can’t think properly; the way your walls hug him so tightly drives him insane. he’s about to sob when he feels like he’s gonna cum, Rin completely loses himself and his thrusts become erratic, yet faster at the same time; he just needs that sweet release and he’ll do ANYTHING to get it.

Going a little back to the jacking off headcanons. He gets horny at random times of the day, usually in the evening when he has his free time. You two could cuddle and watch a movie, then suddenly he's nuzzling his head into your chest or kissing your neck; "I'm sorry, I've been holding myself back all day... I know you're tired, but please, just today okay? I'll make it up to you, I promise." Then nuzzles his cheek into yours softly. He does feel bad whenever his horny brain starts acting up, but if he says that he'll make it up... He will. And twice as much.

Speaking about making up, he’s gonna try to scare you with his teeth. Not literally, but he’ll tease you by biting your coochie a little. not painfully, it’s more for shits and giggles if he’s in the mood. he’ll bite you here and there, especially your sensitive clit; the feeling of his massive teeth is surely different than normal, human ones. he likes to use hit tongue too, and believe me he can flicker that fucking tongue so fast against your pearl to the point that he’s disappointed you came so fast.

on days that he feels more gentle and less like teasing you, he’s gonna press tiny kisses on your exposed cunt. he ALWAYS finishes oral with the final kiss on your pubic crease and then lies on you with his head on your chest, so you can play with his hair. good boy deserves a reward, doesn’t he?

it’s always so cute how he gets horny. he tends to stick to you a lot, and if he’s desperate in public, he’ll take advantage every time if you happen to stay in front of him, so he can press his hardness against your ass. Rin in general gets really subby and leans to your touch, even if it's just you touching his face like caressing his cheek. Speaking about cheeks! They get that rosy color, his behavior changes too - he appears tired to others, but.. he isn’t tired by any means. He WANTS to get tired. His eyes seem heavy and somewhat half-lidded, and his tail is “for some reason” always near you, teasing you with its tip, sometimes even sneaking under your shirt and drawing invisible patterns on your back.

literally, he’s just looking at you like:

don't judge him, he’s just horny.

jokes aside, he has really pretty balls. will I elaborate on this one? no. why? everyone considers “pretty” differently, so I leave this one for your own imagination. 

we’ve talked about his tail, but let's talk about his pointy ears. they’re sensitive too, but not as much as the tail. Rin loves ear massages, but usually, you end up with him rubbing his thighs in shame. He feels guilty for being aroused, since all you wanted to do was to get rid of the stress he had, but oh well.

this man. THIS MAN. SIT ON HIS FACE. in fact, not only there. he’ll eat you out like a starving man. he likes having you on top of him and watching you bounce on his dick; he’s gonna play with your tits, knead them, kiss them, whatever he’s able to do, really, especially if he’s lying on his back - he’s addicted to that sight and often encourages you to ride him, considering that you can have your own pace as well. that was the longest sentence ever, anyway.

cuddlefuck? cuddlefuck. just casually doing nothing and suddenly he’s kissing all over you and trying to tease you through your panties.

here I present you me thirsting:

do you see his fucking back? these m u s c l e s? Kato's fucking testing me BUT HERE I GO.

If he notices you simping over his back? oh baby he’s gonna tease you so bad. mostly for shits and giggles, but he WILL take his hoodies/shirts off just to flex. he enjoys if you run your hands down his back when he’s shirtless. if you have acrylic nails, oh boy scratch his back anytime. he LOVES the feeling of acrylics.

wash his back?? massage his shoulders?? he’s GONE. sleeps instantly but you have an occasion to touch that muscles all you want.

okay but.. him showering?? how water droplets run down his back?? I am DECEASED

not really into fucking in the shower cus he’s afraid he might slip, (that’s probably happened already...) but petting? teasing your pussy? his hands slowly moving upwards and playing with your nipples while he stands behind you? you don’t have to ask twice. in fact, not at all. showering with him never ends up with either of you being actually clean.

he’s tried to tease your slit with his tail once. you ended up laughing your ass off because instead of getting more turned on, you started to laugh because it tickled you. Rin? eMBARRASSED. almost started crying with his dick rock hard.

[lode-builds]

Do you have any tips on custom terraforming and custom trees? Or is there a specific YT chanel or blog you follow for advice yourself?? (Love your builds btw, I recently haven't had the energy or a good enough mood to play mc but it's always amazing to look through people's projects for my own inspiration).

 heyo! so it's a bit tricky to give advice on this kind of thing bc I more go with the flow until things start looking right, but I can offer some basic (and probably very vague) advice under the cut

for terraforming: think natural, organic shapes and avoid hard edges. this seems obvious but it can be hard to remember especially when making upward slopes/mountains etc.

^this is from literally 7 years ago bc I'm not at my new computer but it's a good example bc it's got good and bad things to it. you can see how at the bottom of the build it gradually slopes up from the water and then transitions pretty smoothly to a steeper slope, that's a pretty good example of how mountains can look. if you've taken algebra, think exponential graph type shiz. even if you have a steep cliff it usually doesn't rise completely vertical from the ground. you can see the area I circled does pretty much that, which makes it look out of place with the rest of the build. 

another good thing to keep in mind is block variation, which adds texture to the landscape. I've definitely gotten better at this over time through practice and watching other people build. the blocks you use are gonna vary depending on the biome/environment ofc, but I like to play around with multiple blocks w/ similar colors

depending again on your biome, greenery is always a plus. I tend to avoid using bonemeal to add grass/flowers/etc, because personally I don’t love the red/yellow color combo. as for custom trees, I typically make the trunk/branches first (using a combo of logs, wood planks, fences, stairs, slabs to get the right shape/colors) and then filling in leaves until it feels right lmao. 

I don’t really watch tutorials on building, but I do watch a few builder youtubers when I have time. GoodTimesWithScar is known for being a super talented terraformer with a lot of large-scale builds. (his current hermitcraft starter base is a really cool tree iirc, which might be good to check out!) BDoubleO100 is another inspiration of mine, and is really good at nailing fine detailing in building (his texturing has inspired me a LOT). in my last post with the castle, those pine trees were inspired by some he made in one of his videos. he just started a new season of his youtube building series, where he talks in depth about his build process––would totally recommend. through association I know lot of other hermitcraft members have great experience (GeminiTay PearlescentMoon Grian etc etc etc), so you can check them out too! 

big takeaway that I’m sure everyone’s heard before: practice makes progress woohoo yass! but it’s true, I’ve definitely seen improvement just by trial and error and experimenting with different things over time. also learning from other people can be super helpful as well. tools like worldpainter/worldedit/voxel aren’t necessary at all, but they’re sometimes super nice to use especially in the planning stages of building. if you’re able to download/willing to use them, there are a lot of youtube tutorials on how they work

this is a super general overview and I’d be glad to answer some more questions if you have any specific ones! just realized this has been sitting in my inbox for a few days and wanted to make sure I got back to you. again, I’m no expert and if anybody else wants to reply w/ extra advice feel free <3

[nicistrying]

Tuesday 1st Feb 22:

It's been a looooong day. I feel like this morning was an entirely different day. Worked just an itty bitty 8-12 shift and I should really have stayed later but I was just so tired and my head was pounding so I made a deal with my work buddy when we started that we would go really hard and actually leave on time, so that was what we did. Smashed through our frozen delivery in 3 hours and chipped in on other departments for the last hour. Matthew picked me up and we had lunch together (a lovely novelty!) before he went to work.

Tried to nap, had just barely started dozing off after almost 2 hours on the couch when Maggie accidentally pressed her 'play' button so I had to get up and play to show her what happens when she presses it. So we went outside for play time. We played football and frisbee which she seems to really enjoy since I taught 'catch'. It's great exercise for us both. We're working on 'middle' too! I just have to be careful not to ask her to do it when she's too excited bc she forgets to stop and goes straight through my legs and jumps up at the other side 🙄 But she's learning!

Did some housework and some laundry, had a nice hot bath and ordered myself a Thai takeaway as a treat

Anyway since I have no workout to ramble on about today, a personal update instead: sertraline seems to be working! I don't want to speak too soon but it's been like 10 days and I haven't had a single really bad day. They were every couple of days before and I felt like the majority of the time I was depressed. I still get anxious / sad with the same triggers but it's actually bearable and feels like a normal level of emotion is the difference. I don't have to cancel my entire day and go to bed to shut down. So that's great! I had a couple of drinks the other night to see how that would be and I was totally fine! Sleepy but I'd been up since 5.30 so idk if I can blame that on the meds alone. Anyway I'm so so so glad I finally took the step to try it (if a little annoyed it took me so long) bc I feel actually able to cope with normal things now and it's kind of mind blowing! I totally get what people mean when I've heard them say their base mood is just that bit better. I don't have to put so much effort into trying to have my personality, it's actually there. I'm cracking jokes and stuff again. I heard myself the other morning and was genuinely surprised. Gaaaahhh I'm so grateful. I know there will absolutely be bad days again and they'll suck but if they were just every now and then I think I could manage.

[watchmegetobsessed]

hi! i was just wondering: you always have so many fics planned and ones that you put out. most of the time they’re thousands of words as well and im just wondering how you do it? how do you come up with all these unique and incredibly thought out ideas without feeling drained or lose interest? i love writing but find it so hard sometimes to come up with ideas (especially as specific and drawn out as yours) and when i do it can be hard to think of the little bits that make up a whole fic, or to not lose interest in the middle of writing one. i just wanted to know how you make up your ideas and stay consistent with it?

ahh this message made me feel like i have my shit together but its like the total opposite!😄

truth is that im not at all consistent with my work, i don't plan ahead and my inspiration is like a rollercoaster most of the time! the only reason im able to write thousands of words a day currently is bc im only working part time and even when im at work i can easily sneak in some writing next to my tasks. i write very impulsively, if i have an idea stuck on my mind i basically have to get around and find the time to write it bc it would drive me insane otherwise, it would be on my mind 24/7 until i just can't take it anymore and type out 6k words in one sitting. i can't just schedule my time and decide when im gonna write, it doesn't work like that for me, bc its based on my mood and my motivation that can't be just brought out whenever i feel like it.

i struggle a lot with keeping up my interest in a story especially when its a longer one, like a series or something thats over 10k words, bc it takes me way longer to write than the speed my mind thinks the story out, plans it and moves with it and often im still in the middle of a story when im already thinking of a next one which is such a pain in the ass and im still to find a way to fight that. i try to focus on one story at a time and try to work as fast as possible to avoid neglecting it and starting a new one but i dont always succeed, that makes me feel like a failure. sometimes i just put the story aside, write the one that broke my train of thoughts and try to get back to it, it all depends on my mood and how im feeling at that time. believe me, im probably the least consistent writer around here, im a mess with so many stories on my computer that were put aside for some reason, you wouldn't even believe! you just have to try and see what method works best for you, for me, impulsive and fast writing is my thing, i have a guess that its got something to do with some issues in me, i've been thinking about getting checked out by a doctor bc i've been showing possible symptoms of adhd and it's been getting worse the past years. the way i write might also be very much connected to that, the way i can't even function if i don't sit down and write a story when im really stuck on it, it sometimes feels worrying. it allows me to post often and very long stories, but im telling you it's not normal, how i just in some cases can't even focus on the tiniest task because in my head i have the story on repeat and im like obsessively stuck on it until i can get it out. hope yall won't think im crazy after reading this lol i promise im gonna get help when i have the money for it!

as for the ideas... i always thought i have so many ideas because im the kidn of person who likes to think about the 'what if' situations, whether its about my life or someone else's, i just like to get into scenarios that might never happen to me, but i live them through my writing. i can get inspired from the most random things, i can't really give you advice on this one, it's just something that's been always part of me.

i follow a lot of writers around here and i know for a fact we all work differently, you have to go through the process, find what fits you the best, what works for you and what doesn't. the only advice i can give you is to be patient with yourself, which is a hard task, something i can't do myself all the time either, but you'll get around and you'll get better in it, i promise!

[samwrights]

Oooh no filter Friday?? 🥴 🤪 Can I get some bratty s/o headcannons? 👉🏻👈🏻🥺 I've seen you mention Iwa and Tsukki 👀 but I'm open to whoever inspires you 💜

IWAIZUMI LOVES (fake) BRATS AND NOBODY CAN CHANGE MY MIND ON THIS.

But uh, let’s get my underrated bois in this bc I feel like they all love brats.

Hanamaki—

Sure, he hardly ever gives a fuck about anything

But having a bratty s/o gets under his skin

Because he knows that you’re not a genuine brat; he knows you’re doing it because it gets him riled up for the most bomb sex.

It’s almost like a little game that the two of you play of the most filthy version of cat and mouse.

Oddly enough, the most common occurrence of this instance is when the two of you are trying to decide dinner.

Makki will literally offer up so many different ideas but you just keep whining about how you don’t want whatever he suggested.

“I’d say you can have my dick for dinner, but I think I’d rather see you starve.”

Your bratty behavior eggs on his own desire to deny you and make you became depraved for him.

His appetite focuses solely on you and the desire to have you beg for his cock for the rest of the night.

But to get there, he’s got to deny you any chance of getting off.

Which includes tying up your hands so you can’t touch yourself, blindfolding you so you can’t anticipate his next move—his torture often starts with sensory deprivation.

Delicate, ginger motions as his lanky fingers dance along your skin, skirting along the outside of your bare slit send you into overdrive.

“Hiro...touch me...please?”

“Should have been a good girl, [name].”

Ukai—

He will never admit to loving your bratty behavior.

Ever. To anyone.

But there’s a reason, a method to his madness if you will, that he makes it a point to absolutely spoil you.

Any time you want to go out and do something, even if it’s not his cup of tea, the answer is yes.

I can totally see him supporting a nasty spending habit as well.

And everyone almost feels bad for him because it seems like you’re sucking him dry.

I mean you are, but we’re getting there.

He keeps saying yes and yes to you until he’s frustrated with something entirely unrelated to you that causes him to snap.

And shit, you love that this is the dynamic that the two of you have because when Keishin snaps, you know he gonna snap that dick inside you real good.

He never has a tell, so he’s a bit more tricky to handle when the mood comes up.

The only give away is that he tells you “no” in the most concrete tone.

“C’mon, Keishin, let’s go—“

“I said no, [name].”

Huhoh, game on.

“Fine, I guess I’ll just go with—“

“You, are going nowhere you little fucking brat. Now strip.”

[woozi]

i agree how you described twt, sometimes everyone's just ready to fight it seems, i've genuinely had fun on both platforms at different times but now it's just too much on stan twt (no space for difference of opinion djsjdjj) it's good to know you're having fun as well :3 & omg i've seen few of my moots starting to give svt their attention after fallin flower dropped, everything abt it is <3333 the song, mv, choreo i love it.

hdjdjddkdjdj " virgos 😐 " also me in next breath "happy birthday mark :D i love you so much 🥺💕💗" any virgos reading this i really hope you enjoy your month to the fullest djjdjd <3. righttt?? you're correct abt mark's temper being very virgo djdjdkd.

your line screams hard-working people <3 jihoon, jaebeom, jeonghan the 3Js <3. isn't jaebeom also an infj? (i don't take mbtis seriously but at the same time it also makes me happy if it ends up matching someone i like djdjjd) chan & yugs 🥺 these two imo have the sweetest personality, like the one which makes you feel welcomed & they also have the cutest laugh 🥺.

i love jus2 <3 focus on me is one of my favorite kpop mvs of all time & also drunk on you??? i love this song so much, very sexy of them. the vibes, style and everything w/ their album, i want more songs like that. and for when i am feeling melancholy i need more songs like jjp's verse 2 😭💔 but i am also okay if they don't want to go back to these units bcoz everything so far they've been giving is just as great <33 ( maybe in future we'll get blessed w/ features 🥺)

honestly g7 as grp and individually have won me over with their music style, even if i don't like full album ik there will be 3-4 songs which will be exactly what i like to listen to, all of the music they've released individually i've liked it so much. there is this song of youngjae's, titled "i'm all ears" i had no idea of its existence until it popped up in my spotify i'm so glad it did, it's been in my playlist ever since. there was also a time when i was obsessed with jackson's 'on the rocks' djdjdk.

aww <3 the live performance video of 1° has mark as thumbnail so for long time i used to associate this song with him jdjddk. i think the only j*pe thing i'd miss is got7 studio live sessions 🥺. RIGHTJDKSKS aju nice's mv is very cute djjddk I love it, in reality its reverse tho, i see them and boom! 💖💛💗🤍💕💙

it was the year they won first bb*as award so that gave them the exposure, and no i don't follow them anymore. mixed feelings abt them, very negative feelings abt f*ndom fjdjdjd. i do miss what it used to feel like liking them sometimes. at that time i never thought i'll willingly drop them from my interest (i've stanned zayn since 2012 first him as grp member then solo. sometimes thinking abt it gives me a whiplash hddjks it's been 9 years, really thought it would be same with them too but it didn't happen)

i've had falling in love by yugs and in to you by jaebs on loop for days djdkdk i really love these two songs and also air by bammie <3 (i'm slow jams kinda person djdjdk :3)

(bam released the most fun album & title this year idc abt others, ribbon is one of the soty) also special mention of look so fine & running through the rain. yes! you do make sense they feel organic & very them.

exactly 😭 it's more believable when they drop stuff out of nowhere like encore 😭😭. the way youngjae posted his letter on twt too ddjjdkssk the announcement & release of encore is such a 'you just had to be there' situation the excitement, nervousness, confusion and everything 😭 sometimes i can't with them. also is the bibi with mark on ost, the same one you mentioned in last ask? the ost is really good <3, it must've been fun to see it happen (if its same bibi).

making a whole ass playlist just for me???? 😭😭😭🥺💗 yza you're so sweet nooooo 💖

and don't worry abt replying late jdjdkdjd i mean it, sometimes my friends text me after weeks and i'm am the same. it's really okay <3. i hope this week is treating you kindly, take care yza - 🪂

p.s ( just saw last post djjej) - it was me who manifested more bunny dino <3 manifesting even more <33

i was on stan twt during my younger years too and it was v fun and memorable to me ngl <3 idk what happened though.. it's evolved to be.. Something Else.. i still see a lot of good people there though 😭 and now that i'm in my Hag Era... idk it's just too fast for me now 😭 it's still my go-to place for updates though nothing can top twitter on that dept

and ms fallin flower.... i feel like everyone was blown away by it (based off of what i see carats when talk about it) and rightly so!! she SERVED. the looks too oh my god. it's another factor i look forward to and enjoy so much when i watch their performances!!

u know what? virgos 😐 indeed KJJKDFJKFDJKFDKJ i want to slander virgos today because it's their season and no one slanders them that often so <3 ABOUT MARK'S VIRGO TEMPER THOUGH... i know i've said i enjoy seeing it sm but whenever i think abt it i cant help but say that.. I Love His Temper <3 he doesn't get pissed off in a scary and douchebag-y way it seems so... contained?? IDK HOW TO DESCRIBE IT he punched an a/c though so that might not be the perfect word to describe him lmaoo <3

THE J TRINITY HFDJFJDJHDF BESTIE UR MIND IS SO!!!!!!!!!!! honestly... maybe it's the acts of service for me <3 JKDFKJFDKJFJKD i think this is just my eldest sister and savior syndrome speaking though kfjkdkjf ALSO OH MY GOD THE WAY U NOTICE THESE THINGS <3 THAT'S SO SEXIE OF U!!! and yes he used to be an infj!! there was an interview that's more recent wherein he mentioned that he's now an enfj though but i cant rmb which interview it's from :/ ALSO MOOD FKJJKGJGKF i dont believe in mbtis too but im just... a little obsessed w it for the fun of it all <3 and the way u described them </3 what if i tear up a little </3 I LOVE CHAN'S LAUGH SO MUCH BUT IM SO SOS O GLAD U BROUGHT UP YUGYEOM'S LAUGH??????????? IT'S NOT TALKED ABT ENOUGH LIKE...... HELLO!!!!!!!!!!! one of my bird moots said he sounded like a schoolboy in choir 😭😭😭😭😭😭

GOD UR TASTE!!!!!!! what if i start falling in l*ve a little :/ what then :/ focus on me was ahead of it's time and people fucking slept on THEM i cannot fucking believe this. this has to be some kind of sick joke 😭 ALSO HAVE U SEEN THE CHOREO FOR SENSES!!!!!!1 INCREDIBLE!!!!!!!!!! holy fuck!!!!!! sorry for the expletives but like.... holy SHIT they did THAT!!!!!!!! ALSO UR SO RIGHT </3 jjp verse 3 when... ALSO did u know i let go of the jjprojects url... thats the worst mistake of my life KDKJDSKJDSJK also agree wholeheartedly <3 i think they're all trying to find their footing this time around as soloists and im so proud of them for that!! i'll stand by my jus2 agenda though bc they're almost in the same company so maybe.. i might have hope left 😭

SO TRUE BESTIE!!! the same principle goes w svt for me as well <3 got7's such a flavorful group musically like... all of them have the capacity to go solo and they're still considered flops.. waht the fuck <3 ALSO OMG FJDKJFKFJD YOU'VE HEARD The Song!!!!!!!! maybe he'll be releasing something along those lines <3 esp now that he's supposedly coming w an album KJSJKDJSK on a similar note.. do u also listen to jamie (the other artist on the song) <3 NOO SHUT UP THIS CANNOT BE FOR REAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!1 i was obsessed w on the rocks too 😭😭😭😭😭😭 IT WAS MY FAVORITE ON THE MIRRORS ALBUM HELLO??????????????????????????? im proposing to u rn

ok now i have to watch all the live vids again JKDSJKSJDKDSKJ ik keep saying 'ur so right', 'i agree', and 'so true bestie' but im gonna have to say this again bc i LOVE LOVE LOVE live sessions sm no matter the artist. i also just am a little partial to live bands in performances like that in general so JDJKKDSJDS

the way you're saying these cute things abt the svteenies.. </3 giving me heartache!!! i'd bully them though i can't coddle them anymore <3

not the fandom JKFDKJFDKJFDKJFKJF ok but i think it's mostly their younger fans tbh. it wasn't this bad before.. i also really liked bts during their debut days. their songs were really good!! i kind of lost interest though and couldn't really get into them although their songs slapped lol. my irls are still into them though so i still hear about them. 9 YEARS............................... wait oh my god it HAS BEEN a little over a decade since 1d was The Thing huh 😭 now i feel kinda old lmao. and i totally get that feeling </3 it really do be like that sometimes JKFDJKJKFD

you really ARE keeping up w the sevens oh my god how are you doing it!!!!!!!!!!! it's like getting svt content now at this point but more complicated bc u need to get the updates from different sources JDKJSDKJJSKD love ur song choices too <3

ALSO FULLY RELATE!!!!!!!!!!!!!! when i saw bam's teasers... the aes was my cup of tea and THE HIGHLIGHT MEDLEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i can't fucking get it out of my mind it's objectively one of the best things i've seen from kpop in 2021. i'm super impressed <3 love how abyss really supported bambam on this. they really went all in for him!!

I KNOW GKJDFJDK I GOT SUPER ???????/// DURING THE TIME EVERYONE THOUGHT THEY WERE DISBANDING LMAOOOO they pulled a move that's so unheard of though no one really expected That. i respect jaebeom so much for handling all the paperwork and shit behind the scenes it must've been HELL!! ALSO IT MEANT I CRIED FOR NOTHING THEN 😭😭😭 AND YES OH MY GOD IT'S THE SAME BIBI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE SHOCK I HAD WHEN I SAW THE LIST????????????????????????? thought i was gonna black out like,,, mark,,, AND BIBI??????????????? she's fucking phenomenal how is she just a YEAR older than me.. INSANE!!! ... and i also thought jackson was gonna have an ost for this movie.. idk why it wasn't released though i didnt look into it :/

i had a rough few days so i'm not yet finished with the playlist (my laptop's Dead i am still trying to revive her and uni's starting soon 😭) but for the mean time, here's another one that some people from caratblr previously asked for JDSJKSDJ these are mostly english songs though its not my k-playlist KJDSKJSDJK

i do hope this week gets better!!! and i hope that you'll have a fun one too <3 thank u for being so patient w me 🥺 i just get so many messages and find the need to recharge FDKJDFJK

ALSO I FELT LIKE IT WAS U!!!!!! OH MY GOD, i even searched my blog for the word manifest but for some reason your ask didn't come up in the search so i didnt mention u in the tags so i wont misattribute if it ends up not being u 😭 thank u for manifesting this chan for me he's my little... hop hop now ig... 😭

[edengarden]

Hi! May I have a romantic heaven box BNHA matchup, please? :)

I'm Flo, a 19 years old bisexual girl.

Appearance: I'm 164 cm(~5'3) tall, with slim, kinda athletic body. I have medium long brown hair and same coloured deer-eyes(probably most attractive part on me), I also wear eyesglasses. I have thin mouth unfortunately. Also, I have a tiny little scar above my right eyebrow(I opened our car's door on my head years ago lolol), it's barely visible. I'm vain and always dress like a lady: so dresses and skirts, I have a classy, elegant or cute style, depends on my daily outfit. I wear light makeup, but not all the time.

Personality: Ambiverted, Virgo with Leo ascendant and Pisces moon. Slytherpuff. Needless to say, these already represent how confusingly dual my personality is. My behaviour constatntly changes, depending on who I am with: I try to sell myself, being two-faced, wearing a mask(sometimes I appear to be talkative, other times full-stoic), but to people I really do love, I'm quite blunt. Most of the time I'm caring and relatively kind person(but can be an asshole&harsh if tired emotionally). Highly critical, opinionated and rational-thinker, and I usually analyze everything: movies, books, other people, myself. HATE small talk, I always want to talk about some deep shit, sharing my opinions, thougts(only if you ask for it). Enjoy debating. Also, I'm the REALLY clumsy, like clumsy af and I have an invincible talent in getting myself into the most embarrassing, cringe situations. Hate appearing to be weak or crying in front of others(I never do), and generally I can get melancolic and depressed easily. I don't really trust even my loved ones, I always hide my deepest emotional(or whatever) issues, I just can't stand the fact being emotionally vulnerable. Also, I bottle up feelings well. But I can be soft sometimes which suprises people. One of my best friends said, I am suprising, always doing something unpredicted. Additionally, I stress over something all the time. About my humour, it's kinda ironic, dark, morbid, troll-ish; roasting, teasing people 24/7. Don't worry, despite my sometimes serious act, I can be a total dumb idiot. Selfish, vain, lazy,  snobbish hahah. Quite liberal, and I almost never judge people, I mind my own buisness. When I can talk about something I love or just sharing my opinion, I am passionate and be ready for a LONG rambling. Oh, I love alcohol and going out with friends, also I smoke those occassions. Plus, I have god-like hands, everyone told me that I could earn money bc of my massaging skills(I just know by instict how to touch people lol). Oh, and I daydream and zone out a lot. I love going out and drink alcohol with my friends(and sometimes somoke too), the drunken me can be a real asshole, but also hugs out of the blue, I get softer. Oh, and I curse fucking much, I have a disgustingly flithy mouth, bc of my rather innocent appearance and behavior ppl are suprised how much is... cruse.

Relationship: I don't really have a 'type' but I get bored easily: I takes a lot for me to really like in long-term a person, so I fall easier for complex and charismatic ones(but like I said, I can fall for other personalities too!!). I'm a quite difficult person to be with and to love, so I'm suprisingly flexible in a relationship. Only thing I need and without it wouldn't work at all: DEEP CONVOS AND SOME INTELLECT. Also, I have a quite roasting-bullying type humour, so my lover should understand and being able to handle that. Anyways, I'm not much of a PDA person(but I don't mid handholding, short hugs etc. if my partner really want to), and not romantic at all(also cannot flirt hehe), and for a long time I can be bit distant. Love language is words of affirmation&quality time, and if I have to express my feelings I'm best with acts of service. I love cuddling, ppl are suprised when I initiate hugs but tbh I love physical affection. I'm probably more likely the 'friend' lover. I need a lot, lot, lot alone time.

Hobbies/Likes: classical literature, theatre, politics, hiking, sightseeing, mysteries, reading about disappearances(crimes), trying out new things, yoga, running, horse riding, table tennis, listening to music, cats, thunderstorms, rainy days, cider, tequila

Music taste: Oh man, MIXED. I listen to literally everything except techno, it depends on my mood honestly. But if I had to say something, I think indie, alternative rock, electronic and psychedelic songs are the closest to me, but I've grown to listen more and more rap. Most of the songs are depressive as fuck, I mean I can be at my happiest, but I'd still listen some dark shit. But still, I enjoy pop(2000s pop at parties FUCK YEAH), jazz. Also, some occassions all my ears and mind need is some good ol' classical music. Some faves: Tame Impala, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Jack Stauber, Fink and some Hungarian bands that no one knows unfortunately. :(

Sorry if I was too long and more sorry if I've already requested before(my brain just rots lol), then just ignore me, hehe~♡

Did you,,, did you just copy paste like 3/4 of who I am

Man when I was reading your persona I was going “RinRinRinRinRinRin-“ but I decided against it UwU

ALL IN ALL you honestly sound like my type of person?? Like deadass I’d wanna befriend you. Fuck them small talks tell me what you think of the expansion of the universe and let’s talk about what if drugs are illegal bc they make us perceive true reality-

I’m going to match you up with... Shindo!

This one is a Battle of Wits, I swear. You didn’t trust him a single bit when the two of you first met, no one even thought you’d ever become friends. Shindo could practically see the gears turning in your head and quite frankly he was impressed?? You’re a highly intelligent individual who was able to keep your guard up and seclude yourself from others while not appearing TOO unapproachable? Boy was whipped and he didn’t even realize it. While others thought you were sort of cold and pragmatic, he thought you were the most well-balanced human in the world.

You guys 100% had an enemies to lovers thing going on, but it was slightly different. YOU started off completely uninterested in him, but while he made you think the feeling was mutual, I think Shindo found himself gravitating towards you. You can bet he secretly celebrated every little victory and step forward he made with you. Boy did NOT let up.

I seriously think he’s entertaining enough for you to keep interest in him. Shindo is as two-faced as you are (if not more), and he WILL change his behaviour within a second to keep your interest (somehow no one noticed his habit of doing that when he was crushing on you?? SUSPICIOUS). Also not a big fan of small talk; if he’s interested in you, he wants to know how you tick. He wants to know what you enjoy, what you like and what you dislike. And when you tell him while trying to still keep an emotional distance from him, he takes it as a challenge. No, he doesn’t think your relationship is a game, but he does think it’s highly entertaining and interesting.

When you start softening up to him, he won’t even grow bored. He’s worked so hard to get close to you and it finally pays off and he’s so happy??

But he won’t ever initiate PDA, just because he too has an image to uphold lmao if others don’t personally know you they’d never know y’all are falling for each other.

Songs!!

- One of My Turns, Pink Floyd (“don’t look so frightened this is just a passing phase one of my bad days” just hits different for the two of you?? I’m not saying your relationship is toxic bc it really isn’t but the VIBE is there)

- Do I Wanna Know?, Arctic Monkeys

- Dollar Days, David Bowie

- You Give Love A Bad Name, Bon Jovi

[thirddoctor]

I've been thinking about the memory thing bc I was worried it might happen again, and--different writers aside--I think a potential in-universe reason for that (intentional or not) is that during Spyfall, when the Doctor did that... she was alone. Imagine having to explain to your three very present companions why you're wiping the mind of the guy you just spent all episode helping. I mean, yeah, Tesla didn't go into the future like Ada did, but I'm sure he would've protested just as much.

I was very curious to see what would happen at the end of the episode, because if she wiped their memories that would be consistent but bad, and if she didn’t it would make what she did before even worse from an out-of-universe perspective since the implication is that two male inventors—one of them notorious for stealing ideas—can be trusted with knowledge of futuristic technology but a woman like Ada Lovelace getting a glimpse of the future and knowing random out of context words like “computer” is just too dangerous (and I can’t even think what the justification for Noor Inayat Khan’s memory wipe was since she wasn’t an inventor and would soon be executed).

I’m glad there was no memory wipe this time around, but it does make me wonder why on earth there needed to be one in Spyfall. Your in-universe explanation is interesting though—I can see the companions definitely reacting against that, not just for Tesla’s sake, but also the possibility that she could do it to any of them.

Graham: So, Doc, if we ever decide to pack in the ol’ intergalactic sightseeing bit and go back to our lives on Earth, full-time, is that what’s gonna happen to us? You’ll just make us forget, like it never happened?

Doctor: No, ‘course not! Totally different situation.

Graham: Well, that’s what you would say if you were gonna do it though, innit?

Doctor: This is different, I promise. You’re different.

Ryan: How are we different from Tesla? We’re from the past too, right? Least from where you’re standing.

Yaz: Is it because we’re not important? We’re not… not going to amount to anything back on Earth?

Doctor: No, don’t be daft. It’s ‘cause you’re my mates. I don’t go around wiping my mates’ brains! Well… *awkward pause* Anyway, who fancies another trip? Anyone hungry? There’s this planet I know, made entirely out of ice cream…

Graham, whispering to Ryan and Yaz: Hang on now, I’ve just had a thought. Tell me if I’m being paranoid, but if she can mess about with people’s memories like that, delete everything she don’t want them to know, well… we’d have no idea, would we? How do we know it’s never happened before? What if tomorrow morning we wake up and don’t even remember this conversation?

Yaz: Come on, Graham, the Doctor wouldn’t do that. I mean, she just wouldn’t… right?

*awkward silence*

Thirteen definitely doesn’t want her friends to see her darker side, although I think that’s already starting to slip. They picked up on her mood in the previous episode and began to question her after she tried to hide Earth’s identity from them, and in this ep she openly taunted the Skithra queen in front of them and hatched a plan to kill her with the fam’s help. I doubt they put too much thought into that in the heat of the moment, but I wonder if afterwards they maybe realised how quickly she went for the lethal option, and with so little fuss compared to their encounter with the Dalek.

It’ll be interesting to see where that goes, and I wonder if she would have been so quick to mindwipe Ada Lovelace and Noor Inayat Khanif the others had been around.

[illfoandillfie]

Hey. I would like to get the How To Find Love reading. I've been bssically single all my life. I once was with a guy but I don't count this one as a relationship bc I didn't want it from the beginning and saw him only 2 times before I "broke up" with him 4 weeks later. The guys who show interest in my aren't my type. A good friend told me that I might be a bit intimidating (have a lot of respect) bc I seem to be a person who knows what she wants. I'm not the type for dating apps so that makes it more complicated. Hope that's enough of a description. 🙈 Thank you! 💜

here you go lovely!

Tarot cards: The Chariot, 3 of Swords, 5 of Cups, The Sun, King of Wands

Okay so the middle of the circle is Key Issues pertaining to your love life and here it’s represented by the 5 of cups. It’s a bit of a self-pity card. The person depicted on the card is looking at their 3 spilt cups but they have 2 still standing that they’re ignoring. It’s sort of like when you look back at a situation and think about what might have been if you’d done something different. It’s not necessarily harmful but it doesn’t exactly help you either, it means you’re more likely to miss things that are happening in your present because you’re so focused on the past.

On the left we have the 3 of Swords which represents behavioural patterns influencing your love life. You’re afraid of getting hurt so you’re not making as much of an effort as you could be. Totally understandable!! It is scary to put yourself out there or approach someone, especially if the only people you know have been interested in you are not people you want to be with. This might be contributing to the intimidating vibes you seem to be putting out because it is so much easier to scare people off then to risk letting them hurt you. This might be manifesting in automatically assuming people won’t be interested in you or creating/exaggerating incompatibilities as a way to prove you wouldn’t work well together. It might also be a constant cycle of delaying talking to someone until they leave or talk to someone else. And I don’t want this to sound like i’m saying you should settle for someone you aren’t attracted to!! Like absolutely have high standards for yourself! but also, next time you rule someone out without talking to them first, stop and think why. Are you deciding they wouldn’t be a good partner because you genuinely believe it, or is it fear of rejection/being hurt that is keeping you from making a move.

Then we go up to the top card which is areas you need to grow. Here you have The Chariot. The Chariot can refer to travel so it may be that seeing new places or having new experiences may be a way to grow and open yourself to love. But the Chariot can also refer to direction, control and willpower. It’s a card of determination and self-confidence and ambition. Those are what you need to work on, what you need to grow. Easier said than done, I know. But you do have it in you to direct and control your love life, to connect with people you want to connect with and find the experiences you want to have. It might just take some work to get there.

Next is areas you need to change. The Sun. The Sun is I’d say the most positive card in the deck. It’s about joy, success, positivity and celebration. You need to think more positively. Manifestation works both ways. If you put negative energy out into the world, you receive negative energy back. Think highly of yourself, tell yourself you deserve the best. Be optimistic about your situation and believe that the sort of love you want is coming. Fake it till you make it. Right now you’re getting bogged down in the what ifs and the maybes and the past, you’re focusing on your spilled cups. Turn your attention to what is good and the cups you still have left.

And finally, what you need to liberate/open yourself to. The King of Wands. Now, theres two ways we could take this card. Court cards are usually read as people so this king could be someone who will enter your life. If that’s the case they may be a little older than you and a fire sign (aries/leo/sagittarius). It might be that this person is a potential partner the universe is sending you and you need to be open to seeing them and connecting with them.

OR. The king could represent you. See, the king of wands is also about overcoming challenges. He’s a big picture sort of a guy, a leader. Completely in control. The wands suit is tied to fire and action and this king is master of both. Embrace that energy, be open to being in the drivers seat, to being an agent of change. You can control the situation.

I drew from two oracle decks for you, Spellcasting and Hedgewitch Botanical. 

From Spellcasting you got: Friendship / Trust / Closure

Friendship could be a sign that your friends will be able to help you find a romantic partner - perhaps one of your friends knows someone you might like or perhaps it’s more that it could be useful to have their opinion on potential love interests. It could also be a sign that love will start as friendship first - this may be a way to trick your brain into not thinking about getting hurt. Talk to them as if to become their friend and see what happens. 

Trust is calling you to trust not only others but also yourself. Trust that no everyone is out to hurt you, trust that you can be happy, trust that love will come. 

And Closure. When a door closes, a window opens. New opportunities are waiting for you but you need to make room for them. Clean out your negative thought patterns and fears to make way for more positive experiences. 

From the hedgewitch botantical deck you got: Cohosh - Repel / Foxglove - Connection / St. John’s Wort - Stabilize 

Repel relates to rejecting bad energy and negative thoughts/feelings. Definitely ties in with the Sun card above. Push away things that are holding you back or weighing you down. Dwelling on the negative is seldom helpful. 

The oracle meaning of Connection comes from many folklore tales that link foxglove flowers to fairies, magic and the unseen. Foxglove is also associated with the planet Venus which rules love and relationships. This may be a sign that a new potential connection is coming towards you. But it’s also about other connections - those with our friends or our communities or even different aspects of ourselves. Connections take work and require space and attention to flourish. 

And last but not least Stabilize. St John’s Wort has long been used as an antidepressant/mood stabilizer which is where the oracle meaning comes from. Stabilize refers to having a clear mind, focused thoughts and subdued emotions as you consider your situation.