#Introduction to General

[valtsv]

forgive me if this is utterly incoherent but i'm suddenly thinking about tsv sainthood again and how saints are the living product of violent traumatic assault on the body and subsequent death and rebirth as "something else", elevated to divinity by their sacrifice in theory but seen and treated as subhuman - created for the sole purpose of serving their former fellow man, upholding the infrastructure at the very bottom of the social hierarchy - in practice, and how intrinsic their suffering and death is to that conception. the corpse is, after all, "the utmost of abjection". a corpse is necessarily an object, a thing, a concept, because to acknowledge it as a person is to acknowledge one's own fragile position in the symbolic order, and how easily that is broken down and rendered meaningless. even more so when the symbolic order is as sociopolitically relevant as it is in the silt verses. saints are necessarily subject to abjection in much the same way as the corpse, because to look upon them and allow yourself to understand that they were once a person is to acknowledge that you could just as easily be in their position, and enduring the terror and revulsion in the face of that absence of meaning - that utter void of alienation - for an extended period of time would drive almost anyone blindingly insane with fear and grief. dehumanisation necessitates a sacrifice, necessitates death, necessitates assault upon the body, and this assault upon the body encourages its dehumanisation in an ouroboros of violence.

[eightyonekilograms]

A person who thinks all the time has nothing to think about except thoughts.

So, he loses touch with reality, and lives in a world of illusions. By thoughts, I mean specifically, chatter in the skull. Perpetual and compulsive repetition of words, of reckoning and calculating.

I’m not saying that thinking is bad. Like everything else, it’s useful in moderation. A good servant but a bad master.

— Alan Watts

[starstrike]

Mithrun's desire as an SA analogue

TW discussion of SA and detailed breakdown of aesthetics evoking SA. The way I discuss this is vivid in a way that may be triggering, though there is no discussion of actual sexual assault. Just survivor's responses to it.

People relate to Mithrun and see his condition as an analogue for a few different things, like brain injury or depression. And I think all of them are there. But I also see Mithrun's story as an SA analogue, and Ryoko Kui intentionally evokes those aesthetics. I think it's a part of Mithrun's character that a lot of people miss, but I very much consider it text. This is partially inspired by @heird99's post on what makes this scene so disturbing; so check out their post, too :)

So to start off with, the demon invades Mithrun's bed, specifically. There's even a canopy around it, which specifically evokes this idea of personal intrusion; the barrier is being pulled apart without consent or warning. The way the hand reaches towards Mithrun's body from outside of the panel division makes it almost look like the goat stroking over his body. It's an especially creepy visual detail; similarly, the goat's right hand parts into the side of the panel as well. It's literally like it's tearing the page apart; but gently. So gently.

Mithrun is in bed. It is his bed that the demon is intruding on. He's in a position of intimacy. The woman behind him is a facsimile of his "beloved" that he left behind; the woman who, in reality, chose Mithrun's brother. He is in bed with his fantasy lover, who is leaning over him. While this scene isn't explicitly sexual, it is intimate. And it is being invaded. The goat lifts Mithrun gently, who is confused, but not yet struggling.

The erotics of consumption and violence in Ryoko Kui's work(remember that the word 'erotic' can have many different meanings, please) are a... notable part of some of her illustrations. I would say she blurs the lines between all forms of desire: personal, sexual, gustatory and carnal, in her illustrations in order to emphasize the pure desire she wants to work with and evoke to serve her themes. Kui deploys sexual imagery in a lot of places in Dungeon Meshi, and this is one of them.

In this case, horrifically. The goat's assault begins with drooling, licking, and nuzzling. The goat could be enjoying and "playing with" its food. But it can also be interpreted as it "preparing" Mithrun with its tongue as it begins to literally breach Mithrun's body. The goat also invades directly through his clothing; that adds another level of disturbing to me. There's nothing Mithrun can do in this moment of violation. Mithrun is fighting, but he is fighting weakly, trying to grip on and push away when he has no ability or option to. All he can do is beg the goat to stop. And it doesn't care. This all evokes sexual assault.

The sixth panel demonstrates a somewhat sexual position, with Mithrun's thighs spread around the goat's hunched over body. In the next, the goat pulls and holds apart Mithrun's thighs as he nuzzles into him. The way the clothing bunches up looks a bit as if it has been pushed up. It has pinned Mithrun down onto the bed, into Mithrun's soft furs and pillows. It takes a place made to be supernaturally warm and comfortable, and violates it. It's utterly and intimately horrifying. To me, this sequence of positions directly evokes a rape scene. I think Kui did this very explicitly. These references to sexual invasion are part of what makes this scene so disturbing; albeit, to many viewers, subconsciously.

This is also the moment the goat takes Mithrun's eye. Other than this, the goat seems exceptionally strong, but also... gentle. It holds Mithrun's body tightly, but moves it around slowly. It doesn't need to hurt Mithrun physically. But in that moment, it takes Mithrun's eye. Blood seeps from a wound while an orifice that should not be pierced is penetrated. This moment, the ooze of blood in one place specifically, also evokes rape. That single bit of physical gore is a very powerful bit of imagery to me.

Finally; it is Mithrun's desire that is eaten. After his assault, Mithrun can find no pleasure in things that he once did. He is fully disassociated from his emotions. This is a common response to trauma, especially in the case of SA. It's not uncommon for people to never, or take a long time to, enjoy sex in the same way again; or at all. They might feel like their rapist has robbed them of a desire and pleasure they once had. I think this makes Mithrun's lack of desire a partial analogue for the trauma of sexual assault.

Mithrun's desire for revenge was, supposedly, all that remained. Anger at his assaulter, anger at every being that was like it; though, perhaps not anger. Devotion, in a way. To his cause. I don't know. But the immediate desire to seek revenge is another response to SA. But on to Mithrun's true feelings on the matter.

This is... So incredibly tragic. Mithrun feels used up. Like his best parts have been taken away. Like he's being... tossed aside. This certainly parallels the way assault victims can feel after being left by an abuser. Or the way assault victims feel they might be "ruined" forever for other partners. These are common sentiments for survivors to carry, and need to overcome. In the text, it's almost like Mithrun feels the only being who can desire him is a demon who might "finish devouring" him. That that's his only use. It's worth noting that Mithrun trusted the demon. Mithrun's world was built by the demon, and Mithrun, in that way, was cared for by the demon. I think this reinforces Mithrun's place as a victim.

There's also something to be said about Mithrun as a victim of his own possessive romantic and sexual desire. The mirror shows him his beloved just dining with his brother, and it infuriates him. He doesn't know if the vision is real, nor if she has really chosen his brother as a romantic partner. The goat then creates a whole fantasy world where she loves him. As Mithrun's dungeon deteriorates, she is the only person that continues to exist. Mithrun continues to have control over her. And that is the strongest desire the demon is eating, isn't it? There's something interesting there, but I don't know what to say about it.

In conclusion, I think Mithrun's story is an explicit analogue for sexual assault-- though, certainly, among other things! The way the scene plays out and is composed explicitly references sexual violation and invasion of the body. His condition mirrors common trauma responses to sexual violence. And, at the end, he finally realizes he can recover.

Let's end on a happy Mithrun, after taking the first step on his journey to recovery :) You aren't vegetable scraps Mithrun. But even if you were-- every single thing in this world has value. Even vegetable scraps.

[fullscoreshenanigans]

Posuka Demizu's Second TPN Christmas Art for 2024 [Complementary Piece | Source]

[all-pacas]

wait i need to talk about this cut scene from the pilot.

I really love this scene. I get why it was cut — it's sort of random and doesn't fit in the episode pacing-wise — but it does such a good job introducing the team and their characters. It literally tells us everything we need to know about all three of them.

Foreman is a little haughty. He's gone to top schools, has top opportunities, is impatient and ambitious and smart. When Chase doesn't know a medical term, he does immediately. He's been here three days and is Unimpressed by House. He's completely dismissive of Chase, but takes more of an interest in Cameron, asking how long she's worked here and what her specialty is, and seems a little offended on her behalf at her secretarial work.

Chase is lazy. He likes not having work to do, he's a flirt, he comes off as a little dim and apathetic. He's unimpressed by Foreman's humble bragging, and rather sarcastic. (This scene alone also completely clarifies Foreman's much later "fire Chase, he doesn't appreciate the job" rant to House.) He makes fun of both Foreman and Cameron. Twice he jumps into the conversation uninvited, first to share his specialty and then to explain Cameron's secretarial work.

Cameron is helpful. She is nice. She is… a little anal. No one asked her to answer House's mail, she does it because she can't stand to see it piled up and deleted. While Foreman is being Visibly Bored and impatient, and Chase is doing his crossword puzzle, she's actually working. She's unoffended by Chase's teasing, and — as she does much of the rest of the pilot — gives Foreman some exposition about how long she and Chase have been here.

In the pilot proper, we get quite a lot of exposition about Foreman — we learn his education and history and he's sort of our viewpoint character for House; he has by far the most scenes and lines of the team — and a bit on Cameron (and almost nothing about Chase). But this scene introduces them so perfectly. I love it so much.

TRANSCRIPT:

FOREMAN: I’ve been here for three days and I haven’t seen an actual patient. This is all we do? CHASE: [doing a crossword] Until the checks start bouncing. FOREMAN: So glad I passed up that neurology job at Sloan. So glad I was able to parlay a chief residency position to this — CHASE: So glad you’ve filled us in on your vaunted past. FOREMAN: My point was it doesn’t matter how smart the guy is if he’s just wasting our time. CHASE: Yeah. See, uh, you completely discounted the possibility that I’m here because it’s boring. I get to tell women I’m a doctor and I have time to actually date them. [beat] Nine letters. Iodine deficiency in children. FOREMAN: Cretinism. [to Cameron:] So, uh, how long have you been here, Cameron? CAMERON: Six months. Chase has been here a year. FOREMAN: What’s your specialty? [simultaneously] CAMERON: Immun — CHASE: Intens — CAMERON: Immunology. CHASE: Intensive care. FOREMAN: Is House abusive? A misogynist? Or just can’t afford a secretary? CHASE: He doesn’t need a secretary. FOREMAN: He’s got her answering his mail. CHASE: No, he doesn’t. FOREMAN: What are you doing? CAMERON: Answering his mail. FOREMAN: She’s answering his mail. CHASE: But he didn’t ask her to. CAMERON: He throws all of the requests for consults in the trash. I get them out and apologize that he’s too busy. [Foreman sighs loudly.]

[momijigari]

Genius

[hadesindeadwinter]

remmick alone is evidence that vampirism is not only not the answer but will remove the individual even further from their culture and identity.

he has absolutely no connection to anyone—not the people in the juke joint and not his own people (both at home and in the diaspora). he believes he has this kinship to the black americans due to the history of oppression they share, but he lacks the understanding of what race, racism, and white supremacy are. so, he ends up forcing what he thinks is the objective truth—that vampirism is the answer, that it's true liberation from oppression—onto them and ultimately ends up pushing racism and white supremacy onto them.

on the other side, he has no kinship to the irish either. his issue with irish oppression seems to be, in part, down to religion. undoubtedly, he has witnessed this subjugation of ireland at the hands of the britain, but for him, this oppression started far before that. those coins he hands to mary look similar to the solidus—the coin used by the romans c.4th century and onwards. he witnessed the introduction of christianity to the island and how it destroyed irish culture, the original religion, everything—that's his first oppression, the one that would have really shaped him since it was the kind that he witnessed before becoming a vampire. whereas, the irish people he would have interacted with (both at home and in the diaspora in the US) would have been identifying heavily with religion, especially catholicism, since for most of them, oppression by the british had made irishness and catholicism interchangeable.

if remmick had never turned into a vampire, he would have still experienced this subjugation and destruction of his culture. but, at the very least, he could have continued to live out his life alongside other irish people who had memories of pre-christian ireland and he would have felt that kinship he craved so much. if he had never turned into a vampire, he would have never gone and enacted the colonialism he hated so much onto others.

[ thank u to @draculoves for letting me get this out of my system to you first ]

[blatantprinterpropaganda]

!! i think ciize deserves an award for this face

[randelion-red]

[front-facing-pokemon]

[tisajest]

Finally got around to reading Justice League Unlimited #5

And um...how old is Bart supposed to be?

I know he is in Tim's "generation" but he looked very young in the issue, I'd sooner think he was in Damian's age bracket [13-17] than Tim's [18-22].

I might just be suffering from short = child syndrome tbh

[mousebitecel]

we dont talk enough about how this episode was a pioneer for 9/11 jokes considering it aired in 2007

[turtlesystem]

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-> 🐸 | YJ

Identity: man, he/him

Species: part human, part animal

Assigned turtle: Asia Minor Tortoise

Normal age: 17-18

Online: sometimes

Job: host (in pain)

Temperament: mild-mannered, overthink(er), thoughtful

-> 🧬 | Bruce B.

Identity: man, he/him

Species: part human, part animal

Assigned turtle: Eastern Hermann's Tortoise

Normal age: ranges b/w teens, 20s, 30s, and very occasionally in his early 40s

Online: sometimes

Job: "a significant part of YJ that happens to be Marvel's Bruce Banner", rationalizes events for us, maintains the inner world "database", symptom holder

Temperament: very socially anxious, kindhearted, bookish

-> 🧪 | 8096 Identity: man, he/him Species: human-adjacent Assigned turtle: Gopher Tortoise Normal age: 20s and 30s Online: pattern unclear Job: "a fragment of the fragment of the host", forgets things for us Temperament: passive, "sighs often", "already gave up" -> ⚛️ | Banner-616 Identity: plurigender (lunarian), it/she/he Species: human-adjacent Assigned turtle: Galapagos Giant Tortoise Normal age: late 20s and early 30s Online: pattern unclear Job: "some type of holder..." Temperament: detail-oriented, introverted, "good at masking"

-> 🌌 | Luke

Identity: starboy, he/star

Species: interstellar/solar entity "with gorgeous blond hair"

Assigned turtle: Indian Star Tortoise

Normal age: 8-17 y/o

Online: pattern unclear

Job: "part of YJ", carries out daily tasks and sets goals, connected to Luke Skywalker (Star Wars) somehow, symptom holder

Temperament: creative, work-oriented, asocial, a little cold (he’s chill though)

-> 🍃 | Maple/Legolas

Identity: andryne, he/leaf

Species: Nandor/Sindar elf "with even better hair than Luke"

Assigned turtle: Chinese Softshell Turtle

Normal age: ~1000 y/o

Function: socializer, sensory processor, attachment holder, symptom holder

Online: frequently

Temperament: ambiverted, very friendly, "shares too much information", lonely

-> 🦉 | Patroclus

Identity: man, he/him

Species: human

Assigned turtle: Seychelles Giant Tortoise

Function: "I've been here for a while, so I know my way around"

Online: frequently, used to lurk but is thinking of being more active

Temperament: insightful, gentle, reserved

-> 💿 | Cindy

(WIP)

-> 🐳 | William

Identity: boy, he/him

Assigned turtle: Yellow Mud Turtle

Normal age: "basically negative years old"

Function: little, holder of things

Online: pattern unclear

Temperament: curious, a little shy, "literally the cutest little guy ever, heart emoji"

-> 🚨 | Arlo

Identity: genderfluid ("Ben Shapiro's worst nightmare"), they/he/she/xe

Species: human with the essence of a rabid animal

Assigned turtle: Alligator Snapping Turtle

Normal age: 13-19 y/o

Function: protector, (extreme) anger and trauma holder

Online: often

Temperament: hyper-protective of the system, bad at receiving affection, sarcastic

-> 🍓 | Elio

Identity: man, he/it

Species: (alter)human

Assigned turtle: Red-Eared Pond Slider

Normal age: 19-20 y/o

Function: co-host, substitute host

Online: sometimes

Temperament: professional shut-in, mildly dead inside, analytical

-> 🏙️ | Clark

Identity: man, he/him

Species: human "with deluxe features"

Assigned turtle: Green Sea Turtle

Normal age: 19-21 y/o

Function: substitute host, passive protector, internal helper, very slight Clark Kent (DC) introject

Online: sometimes

Temperament: adaptable, polite, altruistic, cautious

-> 🍮 | Argyle

Identity: mascuneu, they/he

Species: ghostly entity

Assigned turtle: Proganochelys

Normal age: physically and mentally ~25-30 y/o, technically 200+ y/o

Function: former full-time co-host, currently a part-time co-host, split from YJ

Online: occasionally

Temperament: contemplative, calm under pressure, socially awkward, dislikes being perceived

-> 🐶 | Logan

Identity: boy, he/him

Species: beagle (fully puppykin)

Assigned turtle: Florida Box Turtle

Normal age: ~9 y/o

Function: little

Online: pattern unclear

Temperament: excitable, energetic, playful 

-> 🐻 | Spencer

Identity: man, he/him

Species: human

Assigned turtle: Asian Giant Tortoise

Normal age: late 20s, 30s, and 40s

Function: caretaker, former protector 

Online: occasionally

Temperament: responsible, caring, patient, stoic

-> 🦀 | June

Identity: lavender boy, they/he

Species: human

Turtle type: Pinta Island Tortoise

Normal age: 13-15 y/o but "feels and acts like an old man"

Function: former host   

Online: occasionally

Temperament: insightful, enjoys the little things in life

-> 🌺 | Natasha

Identity: girl, she/her

Species: human

Turtle type: Hawksbill Sea Turtle

Normal age: late 20s, early 30s

Function: caretaker, Natasha Romanoff introject

Online: sometimes

Temperament: straightforward, observant, prefers to watch events unfold over participating in them

-> 🌸 | Joanne

Identity: feminine, she/her

Species: human

Turtle type: Loggerhead Sea Turtle

Normal age: late teens, early 20s

Function: "storage"

Online: rarely, if ever

Temperament: melancholic, gentle, sympathetic

-> 💠 | Tony

Identity: boy, he/him

Species: human

Turtle type: Wood Turtle

Normal age: "old enough"

Function: caretaker ("surprising I know, but I'm damn good at it"), Tony Stark (Marvel) introject ("in the flesh")

Online: sometimes

Temperament: likes to act cocky for the bit, easily bored, very playful

-> 👽 | Mace

Identity: xenoboy, he/him

Species: extraterrestrial

Turtle type: Common Snapping Turtle

Normal age: 9-13 y/o

Function: middle

Online: occasionally

Temperament: "Vincent from Stardew Valley if he was a tad older and an alien"

-> 👹 | Matthew

Identity: boy, he/him

Species: human

Turtle type: Spiny Softshell Turtle

Normal age: 21-24 y/o

Function: boundary enforcer, internal helper, partial Matthew Murdock (Marvel) introject

Online: occasionally

Temperament: righteous, slight mischievous streak, mildly ominous

[warframeinfested]

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hello, hello!!! :D this is someone's alternative account where they go crazy and babble about warframe 1999!! you may call me nova

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[eli-am-confused]

Reasons I would get fired from PEIP very quickly:

1) painted a pin-up picture of President Howard Goodman on the side of an aircraft Bad Batch style

[booart5]

Intro

Hey Started posting my art to Instagram less than a year ago now idk, thought it might be a good idea to post on Tumblr too. Gonna have to go through my backlog of Instagram posts, but that's cool. I basically throw any art that I manage to finish on here, mostly fanart, mostly Star Trek