#about my mother

[aroacesafeplaceforall]

My father: I think it’ll be really sad if you don’t find anyone, everyone should have someone!

Me, an aegosexual/aromantic: I think it’ll be really sad if I don’t get sushi today after work dad, we aren’t the same

[wensdaiambrose]

A quick little story about my mother.

When my boyfriend and I went to stay at her house over the holiday, my mom brought out a box of chocolates that the company she works for had sent her.

My mother took out a single chocolate truffle, and proceeded to slice it into 4 pieces.

She offered me a 4th of the chocolate, and talked about how "it was so bad" for us to be eating the chocolate.

She offered me a second piece, and I said I was ok.

I then suggested that she offer my boyfriend the quarter of chocolate once he got out of the shower.

I did this because I wanted my boyfriend to experience my mom's bizarre & possibly disordered eating habit of slicing chocolates into quarters, for himself.

He came into the kitchen & she offered my boyfriend a quarter of a piece of chocolate.

He was very confused, but took it.

My mother then asked my boyfriend if he knew anyone that could take the rest of the box of chocolates off her hands, to give them away.

He said that he didn't have anyone to give them to.

She ended up giving us a baggie with the offending chocolates.

My boyfriend still talks about this, as he had never seen someone cut a chocolate truffle into quarters before.

My mother ate a second quarter of chocolate and then put the box away.

[hajicide]

when i was a child, my mother would bring a plastic cup into the bathroom to wash my hair. she would lather my hair up with shampoo and make me sit up straight while she helped me wash my body. when she'd deemed enough time had gone by, she would put her hand on the back of my neck and lower my body slightly. she'd fill up the cup with warm water and tenderly pour it onto my hair, smoothing it out at the soapy water cascaded down my back and into the tub.

now, at nineteen, i echo the same motions in my own bathtub. it's not the same without her.

[skaianbruja]

How the fuck do I get you to understand that the reason I forget things so quickly is because I live a condition that fucks with my short term memory and not because I have it out for you? You're a fucking therapist. You should know better

[beware-thecrow]

Someday i'll leave this house you built for me, and then no longer will you stay inside these walls. Like that i'll take away the last of you with me, as such i will snuff your trace from earth.

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

I just wanna say bc I KNOW you're somewhere on tumblr, to the teenage girl who attended Take Your Kid To Work Day at an office building in Ontario, Canada circa 2013 and had a conversation with a middle aged woman in which you showed her your Black Veil Brides fanart and fanfics and ship content and told her about different fanfic tropes including a/b/o verse bc she happened to know who Panic! at The Disco and Fallout Boy were and thus you felt the need to show her your bandblr ship art, that was my fucking mother and I had to clarify all that to her including looking my mother in the eye and trying to explain a/b/o verse without sounding like a lunatic.

It's been 10 years and I still regularly sent evil energies in your direction. Since you'd be probably two years younger than me and thus legally an adult now, please know if this post reaches you it's on sight.

[hwyman-again]

Please for the love of all that is holy stop fucking testing my patience. I am kind and gentle because i fucking choose to be and you are stomping out ever last fuck I have

[ttoothlessresistance]

I stg I will kill myself in front of her

[hiddenheathan]

Sometimes all I can taste is blood in my mouth all i feel is rage in my blood the chains of expectation and threat of your wrath are heavy and i hate you for it

[transassdemon]

[My art, don't steal, tag if reposting]

[thefrsers]

#they been knew

[bixels]

Learning that fans hated Applejack and called her "boring" is crazyyy to me because I genuinely, unironically believe AJ's the most complex character in the main six.

Backstory-wise, she was born into a family of famers/blue collar workers who helped found the town she lives in. She grew up a habitual liar until she had the bad habit traumatized outta her. She lost both her parents and was orphaned at a young age, having to step up as her baby sister's mother figure. She's the only person in the main gang who's experienced this level of loss and grief (A Royal Problem reveals that AJ dreams about memories of being held by her parents as a baby). She moved to Manhattan to live with her wealthy family members, only to realize she'll never fit in or be accepted, even amongst her own family. The earlier seasons imply she and her family had money problems too (In The Ticket Master, AJ wants to go to the gala to earn money to buy new farm equipment and afford hip surgery for her grandma).

Personality-wise, she's a total people-pleaser/steamroller (with an occasional savior complex) who places her self worth on her independence and usefulness for other people, causing her to become a complete workaholic. In Applebuck Season, AJ stops taking care of herself because of her obsessive responsibilities for others and becomes completely dysfunctional. In Apple Family Reunion, AJ has a tearful breakdown because in she thinks she dishonored her family and tarnished her reputation as a potential leader –– an expectation and anxiety that's directly tied to her deceased parents, as shown in the episode's ending scene. In The Last Roundup, AJ abandons her family and friends out of shame because believes she failed them by not earning 1st place in a rodeo competition. She completely spirals emotionally when she isn't able to fulfill her duties toward others. Her need to be the best manifests in intense pride and competitiveness when others challenge her. And when her pride's broken, she cowers and physically hides herself.

Moreover, it's strongly implied that AJ has a deep-seated anger. The comics explore her ranting outbursts more. EQG also obviously has AJ yelling at and insulting Rarity in a jealous fit just to hurt her feelings (with a line that I could write a whole dissection on). And I'm certain I read in a post somewhere that in a Gameloft event, AJ's negative traits are listed as anger.

Subtextually, a lot of these flaws and anxieties can be (retroactively) linked to her parents' death, forcing her to grow up too quickly to become the adult/caregiver of the family (especially after her big brother becomes semiverbal). Notice how throughout the series, she's constantly acting as the "mom friend" of the group (despite everything, she manages to be the most emotionally mature of the bunch). Notice how AJ'll switch to a quieter, calmer tone when her friends are panicking and use soothing prompts and questions to talk them through their emotions/problems; something she'd definitely pick up while raising a child. Same with her stoicism and reluctance at crying or releasing emotions (something Pinkie explicitly points out). She also had a childhood relationship with Rara (which, if you were to give a queer reading, could easy be interpreted as her first 'aha' crush), who eventually left her life. (Interestingly enough, AJ also has an angry outburst with Rara for the same exact reasons as with EQG Rarity; jealous, upset that someone else is using and changing her). It's not hard to imagine an AJ with separation anxiety stemming from her mother and childhood friend/crush leaving. I'm also not above reading into AJ's relationship with her little sister (Y'all ever think about how AB never got to know her parents, even though she shares her father's colors and her mother's curly hair?).

AJ's stubbornness is a symptom of growing up too quickly as well. Who else to play with your baby sister when your brother goes nonverbal (not to discount Big Mac's role in raising AB)? Who else to wake up in the middle of the night to care for your crying baby sister when your grandma needs her rest? When you need to be 100% all the time for your family, you tend to become hard-stuck with a sense of moral superiority. You know what's best because you have to be your best because if you're aren't your best, then everything'll inevitably fall apart and it'll be your fault. And if you don't know what's best –– if you've been wrong the whole time –– that means you haven't been your best, which means you've failed the people who rely on you, which means you can't fulfill your role in the family/society, which makes you worthless . We've seen time and time again how this compulsive need to be right for the sake of others becomes self-destructive (Apple Family Reunion, Sound of Silence, all competitions against RD). We've seen in The Last Roundup how, when no longer at her best, AJ would rather remove herself from her community than confront them because she no longer feels of use to them.

But I guess it is kinda weird that AJ has "masculine" traits and isn't interested in men at all. It's totally justified that an aggressively straight, misogynistic male fandom would characterize her as a "boring background character." /s

At the time of writing this, it's 4:46AM.

[bumblebeebats]

Top 3 ways to pronounce "worms":

woims (old-timey New York gangster)

wurrums (Scottish)

weuhrms (bad French accent like the narrator from spongebob)

[hajicide]

my mother was a chronic smoker, going through six cigarettes a day and then some. for my entire life, it was a bad habit she never seemed to shake. her car smelt like ash and her breath smelt like those rancid cigs she smoked, but after a while it started to smell like home.

when i'm far away from her now, i smoke in the sweatshirt i stole from her closet so that when im too tired to remember my inhibitions, i can wrap my arms around myself and pretend that i'm a little girl again and she's holding me.

[horreurscopes]

ELEKTRA: I am the shape you made me. Filth teaches filth.

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[radiance1]

The Justice League have a problem, one that needs some level of knowledge and expertise of a being from the Infinite Realms to give them a better chance of actually solving this problem.

However.

Every ghost they have summoned, without fail, took one look at Constantine. Squinted (yes, squinted). Then decided to go back to where they came without a word.

This. Would have been useful, nice even. If it was a situation where they needed the summoned being of a cult to head back to where they came without a fight.

But alas, that is not what is happening.

The Justice League, obviously, ask him why the ghosts keep fleeing back to their Realm at the sight of him, but Constantine can't answer because he genuinely has no idea why they keep leaving when getting a proper look at him.

So they keep trying and they do find some success in it. They summoned a boy, most likely older than he physically looks yet it still puts some of them off because of, well.

You know.

A boy with white hair and toxic green eyes. The boy stops short, as if not expecting to be randomly transported to somewhere else, takes a look around the room, then the Justice League. His eyes settle on one person.

Constantine, in particular.

He squints (Why do all of them squint? Nobody knows) and then a sudden looking of realization passes on his face. Different from the looks of vague fear and genuinely want to not involve themselves any further, his face held slight disgust and a heavy amount of disappointment.

Thankfully, he didn't leave immediately after that.

Constantine asks what's with the look on the ghost boy's face, the ghost boy in question squints even further. Stares at Constantine for a moment or two, buries his face in his hands and brings his knees to his hand and groans out.

"He could've done so much better."