#and also because i only got 2 recs anyway

[silverskye13]

doodle requests... etho as boogey?

Oh did I send a shiver Shiver up your spine? Well, I do it all the time It's a little trick of mine

Did You Hear the Rain -- George Ezra

[schzpin]

more mixed media in object show media! more metaphorical and mature themes in object show media. more flowery and pretentious object show media!

[yo9urt]

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[graceshouldwrite]

How to Write Political Intrigue (with book recs)

POLITICAL INTRIGUE! Intrigue in general! What is it?

For the purposes of this post (as well as how it's usually used in the writing/reading community), think: scheming. Plotting. Conspiracies in the shadows, bids for power and survival, secret plans, masterful illusions, all of that stuff.

It could be on any scale that you'd like, from a duel of wits (think Light's and L's game of cat and mouse in Death Note)

...to a large-scale plot involving entire countries and their people (like any espionage networks during any major wars, such as the American Revolutionary War to World War II, and so many more)

...or even medium-sized conflicts (families, like in The Godfather, or smaller national disturbances like the Watergate scandal).

Below are 4 core tips on how you can successfully write (political) intrigue plots:

1. Read + Research

Despite how hard it may sound, it's actually pretty easy to craft a realistic yet thrilling intrigue plot—with so many examples in real life and fiction, you can easily base your plot on an existing one and just change a few things like the characters, setting, and maybe a few plot points.

History and current events are always great places to look to, but here are some books that are chock-full of great politics + intrigue:

Leviathan (Thomas Hobbes): one of the most famous treatises of politics + human nature and their intersection. The book is an in-depth exploration of human nature, government, politics, and all of the root causes of why they exist. While it does take a specific philosophical angle (you might not agree with Hobbes' ideas), they are detailed explanations of how things work + why they are required from one perspective.

48 Laws of Power (Robert Greene): GREAT BOOK for helping you plan out the means by which you want the intrigue to happen. There are lots of simplified rules that tell you why people plan and scheme (e.g. "control the options; get others to play the cards you deal," or "pose as a friend, work as a spy"). There are LOTS of really great small stories of when a rule is applied in real life that are also general plot inspo!

The Godfather (Mario Puzo): very very good, intricate, and more emotional because it deals with the intrigue surrounding families

Joseph Fouché: Portrait of a Politician (Stefan Zweig) (biography): Fouché is absolutely insane. A genius at political intrigue. His life is literally one of the craziest stories of scheming, betrayals, survival, and a general vying for power, especially behind the scenes.

The Prince (Machiavelli): obviously, I can't leave out the original tips + tricks book with explanations of WHY intrigue matters as a means, especially in terms of protecting your power.

Trust Me, I'm Lying (Ryan Holladay): a large part of intrigue plots (you need to cover up the actual game you're playing) is the manipulation of information, creating illusions and spectacles for other people to believe. This book goes in-depth about media manipulation and information wars.

Empire of Pain (Patrick Raden Keefe): takes a rather different angle, through the personal/corporate manipulation of government, as well as how wealth dynasties (especially within families) are established. Remember the opioid crisis? This book explores the generational politics of money and power that led up to that.

Prince of Thorns (Mark Lawrence): Look! Fiction! Anyway, I'm biased because it's one of my favourite works of fiction of all time, but it explores political intrigue not only through an actor participating in it, but through the lens of the common folk. I.e., the consequences all that power play has on the populace due to a lack of actual good governance...

A Song of Ice and Fire (George R. R. Martin): I haven't personally read/watched anything GoT, but it's pretty much obligatory to put this series down in a post about political intrigue. It's famous for doing it well.

2. Plan. Like, meticulously

First of all, decide what scale you want your intrigue to be on: large-scale government/international affairs type, a corporation thing, something between two people, or even within a family? There are so many possibilities.

Intrigue plots are like mysteries; they must be tightly logical to be satisfying. One of the best ways of ensuring this is through analyzing each involved party—the actors.

Each actor has their own motivations, goals, and psychologies. After you establish what they want OUT of their intrigue, think about how they'd go about achieving it: a naturally hot-headed person might try to intimidate their way into getting what they want, or they might learn through the course of the story to cool down a bit.

A naturally imaginative and analytical person might come up with all sorts of scarily genius plans, and near-flawless execution. Of course, they would also react in different ways, depending on personality. Character consistency alone will make your plot seem that much more logical.

However, cracks in logic will happen because humans are inherently imperfect and not always rational. These cracks must be DELIBERATE and realistic and must seem planned out; they can't seem more like the author forgot a detail, or didn't know how to explain something (e.g. something happened and the writer never included the consequence of it because they forgot). It must be clear that it is a flaw on the character's part.

3. Never write intrigue for the sake of the intrigue

The incentive of all scheming comes down to mainly two things: gaining power and keeping it. Of course, you could choose to explore more unusual things, such as characters exercising intrigue to satisfy boredom... (think Light and Ryuk from Death Note).

But, the bids for power, security, and survival can be used to highlight things about human nature. Themes to explore include ambition, sacrifice, the pursuit of happiness, the corruption of character, the preservation of innocence in a cruel system, etc.

4. Explore through a narrow lens

Most intrigue plots are full of complex motivations, characters, goals, and the means they use to achieve said goals.

You should gradually let your intrigue plot unfold through the POV of a few characters, preferably one or two. An omniscient narrator for this type of story is INCREDIBLY difficult to pull off without confusing the reader.

However, more POVs work if you use all of them to focus on ONE or a few intrigue plots only—it can provide a multi-layered effect, exploring the same line of action and consequence through different perspectives. But, if everyone has their own intrigue plot, it's too easy to create a tangled mess where readers can barely delineate one plot from the next.

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Sorry for the massive hiatus—I have officially started college!! I've been pre-occupied with settling in, classes starting, a social life, extracurriculars etc. etc...life has been super busy, but great :)

I've started working on my books as well as poetry more recently, and I'm glad I'm getting into a new workflow/lifestyle. It certainly is different, but I'm starting to enjoy it.

Anyway, I'm surprised it took me this long to do a post about this topic, considering the fact that it's basically my writergram niche and my entire personality IRL, but I think it was mainly because I was trying to find a good angle to approach this massive topic. But, stay tuned for (probably) a part 2 because there's SO MUCH MORE to cover.

Hope this was helpful, and let me know if you have any questions by commenting, re-blogging, or DMing me on IG. Any and all engagement is appreciated :)

Happy writing, and have a great day!

- grace <3

[rogueddie]

Fake Dating Steddie Fic Rec

Important: READ THE TAGS! Leave a comment and kudos! If I was only allowed read fake dating fics like these, I would die happy 🤞

I Like to See You in the Morning Light

BonitaBreezy

"Wait,” Eddie said, his drug-addled brain catching up suddenly. “Wait! My alibi is that I was having sex with Steve Harrington?”

After it all, Eddie Munson is left to pick up the cracked pieces of his life. Luckily, he has new friends to fall back on.

Words : 27,362 Chapters : 1/1 Rating : Teen And Up Audiences

AO3 : x

you want it straight from the heart (why can't this be love?)

emryses

Steve let out a long sigh. “I’ll do it. I’ll be your fake boyfriend, okay?”

“You could at least sound happier about it,” Robin muttered.

Words : 12,417 Chapters : 1/1 Rating : Teen And Up Audiences

AO3 : x

i’ve got you under my skin

strawberryspence

Steve Harrington has to marry Eddie Munson (also know as the Devil Incarnate), so Eddie won’t get deported back to Canada and for Steve to finally achieve his dream to be a producer.

Or: The Proposal AU Steddie Edition

Words : 49,923 Chapters : 6/6 Rating : Teen And Up Audiences

AO3 : x

Saying I love you to your best friend, and to the friend that could perhaps be something more

songsformonkeys

Ever since he discovered that he liked girls - and that, generally, girls liked him too - Steve Harrington has not spent a single Valentine's Day alone. 1987 is shaping up to be the first and that really sucks.

Eddie, fed up with listening to Steve's complaining, agrees to be his date for the day.

Words : 5,901 Chapters : 1/1 Rating : General Audiences

AO3 : x

Invitations

nbfutureboy

Steve’s being harassed about his love life, and enlists Eddie’s help over Christmas break to get Dustin off his back. All he has to do is pretend to be Steve’s boyfriend in front of all of his loved ones!

Words : 6,902 Chapters : 1/1 Rating : Teen And Up Audiences

AO3 : x

Let's Be More Than Strangers

DrowningByDegrees

It’s meant to be a one-off favor to Robin, Eddie passing himself off as her boyfriend. Robin gets to hang onto the secret of why she never so much as bats an eyelash at the guys who come into Scoops Ahoy. Eddie gets more ice cream than he knows what to do with and the opportunity to pull one over on the former King of Hawkins High. Unfortunately, it all works just a little too well, and Eddie finds himself continuing to come back.

Words : 19,592 Chapters : 2/2 Rating : Teen And Up Audiences

AO3 : x

Can we always be friends? (We've got too much love)

sparrow_in_hawkins

Steve offers to be Robin's pretend boyfriend to get the guys at school to leave her alone. She's reluctant at first, until Steve admits that he's not interested in dating girls anymore anyway.

Meanwhile, Eddie's encounters with Steve Harrington had always been brief, but he could never help being captivated by him. Naturally, he doesn't know how to react as Steve starts popping into his life more than ever--probably should do nothing, because Steve has a girlfriend. Right?

Words : 42,525 Chapters : 6/6 Rating : Mature

AO3 : x

i know what you want from me

hyxzw

After two years of getting rejected from college, and totaling nineteen of disappointing his father, Steve Harrington decides to finally reclaim his life by spending the summer kissing Eddie Munson.

Words : 86,788 Chapters : 6/6 Rating : Mature

AO3 : x

A Coat of Paint

songbvrd

Steve agrees to help Eddie paint his trailer, but isn't prepared for the bisexual crisis it sends him spiralling into.

Words : 56,334 Chapters : 13/13 Rating : Explicit

AO3 : x

Two Truths and a Lie About Steve Harrington

endzela

Steve is desperate to find a date for his high school reunion, and his best friend Eddie volunteers to pretend to be his boyfriend. What Eddie doesn't know, however, is that Steve has had a crush on him ever since they became friends in college, and although Steve is not planning on letting him find out about it now, spending a week together in the same room might make things difficult. Especially since Eddie keeps flirting with him at every chance he gets.

Words : 20,057 Chapters : 2/2 Rating : Mature

AO3 : x

[ramblingoak]

The Cardinal's Bride, Chapter 9: Denver State of Mind

~~ Please visit The Outlaw Brides Masterpost to catch up and read more stories from this world ~~

Thank you to @tasty-ribz for the wanted poster and to @ghuleh-recs for the collage!  For some more amazing fanart check out: @meowsaidmissy (1 / 2), @snail-shell2335  here, @vahvco here, @ghulehgwen here, @rabidghoul here, @nocterish here, @enjoy-my-swearing​ here, @blacktie-whitenoise (1 /2), @z-xmyers (1/2/3/4), @foxybouquet here, @delulluart here, @mustluvecho here, _simpera_ on instagram and valkyrieinpink on twitter.  Also a huge thank you to @kissingghouls for all her help and emotional support.

Cardinal Copia x Female Reader ~ You finally learn what happened to the gang in Denver, but as your time at the farmhouse comes to an end you can't help but worry what the future holds.

Warnings: swearing, violence, angst, fluff, nsfw 18+ only, mdni, 6,300 words

~~~ Two Years Ago ~~~

“Hey shitheads, I have a plan.”

“Swiss, did you hear something?”  Copia was focused on the cards in his hand, idly shuffling them around.  “Also it’s your turn, stronzo.”

“All I hear is the sound of you desperately moving your cards around.”  Swiss grabbed a few chips and tossed them towards the small pile in the middle of the table.  When Sunshine shot her hand out and grabbed them before they landed he slammed his cards down.  “Goddammit, Sunshine.”

“Didn’t you hear me?”

“Yes, Sunshine, we heard you.”  Copia leaned his chair back on its back legs and smirked at the Ghoulette.  “We’re just not interest–cazzo!”

Copia grunted when he fell backwards, Sunshine having kicked at the leg of his chair and pushing it over.  He continued to curse in Italian as he jumped up onto his feet and glared down at the smirking Ghoulette.

“Do you want to listen now?”

“The last plan of yours we listened to nearly got half of us hanged.”  Swiss had set his cards down and crossed his arms as he glared at her.  “Also I got shot.”

The Ghoulette shrugged and reached over to swipe Swiss’s cards, clicking her tongue when she looked them over.

“Well lucky us, you survived. This hand is terrible, why are you betting on this?”

Swiss growled and grabbed his cards back, but after looking them over again he shook his head and threw them down onto the table.

“I nearly lost my arm!”  When Copia snorted, Swiss looked over and glared at him.  The glare deepened as he watched his boss drag the pile of chips over and start neatly stacking them with his others.  “That hand shouldn’t count.”

“You’re only saying that because you lost.”

“I lost because of interference.”

“Eh, you would’ve lost anyway with that hand.”  Swiss jumped up and attempted to grab Copia’s discarded cards but Copia slapped his hand away.  “Fuck off.”

“You fuck off, show me your cards.”  When Swiss reached out for them again Sunshine was the one to move his hand out of the way.  She grabbed his wrist, twisting his arm at a painful angle until he grunted and slapped the table with his other hand.  “Ok!  Ok, fucking fuck.”

The three settled back into their chairs, Copia shuffling the deck and starting to deal the next hand.  Sunshine cleared her throat a few times, glancing at Copia and Swiss after each one.  When neither man gave her attention she growled and hit her fist on the table.

“Doesn’t anyone want to hear my plan?!”  When Copia and Swiss continued to ignore her she took a deep breath before continuing.  “It involves Saltarian.”

She grinned when Copia’s eyebrows popped up and he set his cards down as he turned her way.  

“You have my attention.”

“Finally!  Alright so I got some information this morning an–”

“Wait, wait.”  Copia waved his hand back and forth while shaking his head.  “Who gave you this information?”

“That doesn’t matter.”

“It does matter.”  He leaned back in his chair, staring her down for a moment.  “It wasn’t Cowbell was it?”

“I don’t trust Cowbell to tell me the weather when we’re outside.”

“Okie dokie.  Continue.”

“Thank you.  Ok, so word is that some business associate of Salty’s from overseas has moved to Denver to open a new branch of his bank.  Frank Holden. Salty has invested in his for a very large sum of money.”

“How large?”  Sunshine glanced over at Swiss.  “Like, worth ‘getting shot at’ large?”

“Have you ever stopped to think about why you’re getting shot at all the time?”

“Yes and I’ve decided it’s because of you and your stupid fucking plans.”

“Children, children, can we focus?  Per favore?”  Copia looked pointedly at Sunshine until she sat back down, sheathing the knife she had pulled out.  “Alright, bene.  Keep going.”

“Well, there’s going to be a big party at this guy’s mansion to celebrate the grand opening, but it’s happening before the safe is delivered to the bank.  So Salty’s investment will be sitting somewhere in this guy’s house.”

“Sitting somewhere being guarded.”  Copia scratched at the stubble on his chin for a moment.  “Do we know how much money?”

“Enough to start a bank branch in a rich town.”

Copia grunted and stared down at the table in silence, only glancing back up when Swiss spoke.

“So far I haven’t heard a plan.”

“That’s because you both keep keep fucking interrupting me!”

Sunshine froze when a shadow loomed over her.  Both Swiss and Copia suddenly seemed extremely interested in their cards and wouldn’t look her way.  She sighed knowing that only one person in the casino, or anywhere, would have that effect on them.  She plastered a smile on her face and spun around to greet the newcomer.

“Bone Daddy!”

Secondo just loomed for a few beats, glaring at his brother and the two Ghouls.

“Why aren’t you working?”

“We’re on break, fratello.”

“I don’t give you breaks.  Sunshine, shouldn’t you be singing?”

“Nope I switched with Aurora.”  She smiled sweetly up at Secondo while batting her eyelashes.  “Kid’s got a set of pipes on her.”

“Si, that’s why I pay her.  Coincidentally it’s also why I pay you, but yet here you are playing cards.”  He turned his attention to Swiss.  “You’re supposed to be tending bar.”

“I switched with Aurora too.”

“So she’s singing and serving drinks?”

“Yeah she’s super talent–ow!  Ok, ok Papa!”  Swiss jerked his shoulder out of Secondo’s grasp, nearly toppling his chair over in the process.  “Sorry.”

“You have thirty minutes to get back to work.”  When Copia started to open his mouth Secondo shot him a glare that kept the younger man silent.  “Thirty.  Minutes.” 

The trio was quiet for a while after Secondo left, the only noises were the shuffling of cards although none of them were actually thinking of what was in their hands.  Copia eventually cleared his throat and laid his cards face down on the table.

“So.  Denver.”  Sunshine grinned at him and waggled her eyebrows.  “When is that money being delivered?”

“According to my source it'll be at this guy's house in a few days.”

“So no chance of intercepting it then.”  The two Ghouls knew Copia was mostly talking to himself as he mulled the information over in his mind.  “We’ll have to find a way into his house.”

“There’s gonna be a lot of guards.”  Swiss had laid his own cards down before leaning back in his chair.  “Big city like that?  It’s gonna be a lot of money.”

“Si, it won’t be easy.”  Copia clicked his tongue and then pointed at Swiss.  “We could pretend to be guards.”

“Oh please, those bastards’ll recognize you immediately.”  The Ghoul tapped his fingers on the table’s edge a few times before grinning.  “How about doing it the old fashioned way with dynamite?”

“When will you and Dewdrop learn that blowing things up doesn’t actually fucking help?”

“It’s better than your id–hey!”

Swiss and Copia both flinched when a handful of poker chips hit them in their faces courtesy of Sunshine.  The Ghoulette was glaring at them both, that familiar fire in her eyes that let them both know she was seconds from moving onto throwing sharper things at them.

“How about both of you shut up about your shitty plans and listen to mine, the actual plan.”

“Like you have a better idea?”

Sunshine rolled her eyes at Swiss, “Oh you mean better than dynamite?  Yeah, I do.”  She turned and smirked at Copia,  “We’ll be getting into the house, but not as guards.”

“As what then?  They’ll still recognize Copia.”

“Not if we clean and dress him up a bit.”  When Copia raised his eyebrow at her she grinned, slamming her hands down on the table in excitement.  “This is gonna work!  I can feel it!”

“Lucifer’s balls Sunshine, just fucking tell us.”

They all flinched when Secondo’s voice came booming out from behind them.  The trio looked over to see him glaring at them from across the common area the Ghouls used.

“Ten minutes!”

When Secondo was out of earshot Copia stood up, grabbing his whiskey glass and downing the rest before slamming it back down onto the table.

“Fuck it.  Will it just be us?”  Sunshine shoved her chair back, nodding to Copia as she stood up.  “I’m in.  Swiss?”

“Let’s see…stick around here and serve drinks or ride to Denver and have a good time?  That’s a tough one.”

“Okie dokie.”  Copia glanced towards the hallway to check for his brother before turning back to his Ghouls.  “Get your shit and meet me outside in five minutes.”

Sunshine pumped a fist into the air and immediately took off towards her room.  Swiss got up a little more slowly, raising an eyebrow at Copia as he stood up.

“Still don’t know what this plan involves.”

“Knowing Sunshine?  Probably a lot of knives.”  Copia slapped a hand on Swiss’s shoulder while flashing the Ghoul a grin.  “Maybe a little dynamite.”

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

“But who’s the girl?”  

Sunshine stopped arguing with Swiss and turned back towards you,  “The girl?”

“You said it started with a girl, but I haven’t heard anything about a girl yet.”

“She was just trying to be dramatic Principessa, there’s not really a girl involved.”

“Oh yes there is.”  Copia glared over at the Ghoulette, baring his teeth at her when Sunshine smirked at him.  “I’m getting there!”

You smiled at Sunshine as you settled back against Copia.  It felt silly to be hung up on some girl in Copia’s past, but you couldn’t help but remember what he had told you that night after Mary and Saltarian’s men had attacked you.  Although he did laugh about it afterwards, it was obvious that his broken heart wasn’t the worst wound he had gotten.  And you sincerely doubted whoever this girl was had actually broken his heart.

“Hey,”  You looked up at Copia when he nudged your shoulder,  “She was just some girl.”

“Like me?”

“You are far more than ‘some girl’ to me, Principessa.”  Your eyes fell shut when he leaned in and pressed a kiss into your hair.  His next words were said so quietly you almost missed them.  “Far more.”

“You lovebirds done?”  Copia groaned as he turned back towards Sunshine.  “Lots of story left.”

“There’s not that much night left though so let’s speed things up here.”

“Hey!  I’m trying to set the stage!”  When Copia stared at her silently she sighed and hung her head.  “Fine, fine.  Well, we made it to Denver and got things in motion.  The whole plan was contingent on being at this party so we had to work on getting ourselves in.”

“I still say we should have just blown up part of the house.”  When everyone but Dewdrop turned to glare at Swiss he shrugged.  “A very small part.”

“Anyway, I came up with the idea of Copia posing as some rich and interesting Italian lord, someone this banking guy would want to impress.  Now obviously, rich and interesting is a stretch for our Cardinal, but I had confidence he could make it work.”

You were desperately trying to hold in your laughter, but when Copia looked down to glare at you the giggles bubbled out.  He just looked so offended at Sunshine’s dig you couldn’t help it.  After a moment he growled, his arm tightening around you right before he yanked you into his lap.  You shrieked when his fingers dug into your sides and you desperately tried to wriggle away.  Copia just held tighter, laughing as you twisted around.

“Stop, stop!  I’m sorry!”  

He immediately relented at your apology, but when you tried to move out of his lap his grip stayed firm.  With a huff you settled back against him and attempted to smooth your hair out.  When you glanced over at Sunshine you froze as you caught her eyes already on you and a big grin on her face.

“You guys done?”  You hoped that she couldn’t see your blush, but you doubted it so you just nodded.  “Ok so, we got your man cleaned up, into some decent clothes and then threw him to the wolves basically.”

“The wolves?”

“So my plan was to get invited to the thing and that involved parading Copia around town.  Getting him seen.  Swiss had the idea of putting a notice in the paper about a visiting Italian dignitary and that was the push we needed.”  Sunshine swiped the whiskey bottle from Swiss’s hands and took a drink.  “Next thing we knew Holden came calling to where Copia was staying wondering if he wanted to invest in his bank!”

“You’re leaving out the best part.”  Sunshine turned to look at Swiss and you watched as they seemed to have a conversation with just their eyebrows.  “Stop it, the best part was he brought his daughter.”

It wasn’t hard to miss Copia freezing behind you and you couldn’t help but do the same.  

“Yeah it was obvious this guy had his own ulterior motive for meeting Copia.  He wanted to set up a marriage agreement right there.”  Sunshine noticed the look on your face and immediately corrected herself.  “But he didn’t!  I think Copia nearly choked to death on his breakfast when the guy brought it up.”

“No, I just had to go on playdates with her.”

You poked your finger into Copia’s side at that.

“Playdates?”

“Uh, si.  Just parading her around town.  Nothing fancy.”

Swiss snorted, slapping a hand over his mouth to stop from spitting out the swig of whiskey he just took.

“‘Nothing fancy?’  You bought her a damn horse!”  He yelped when Sunshine turned and punched him in the chest.  “Fuck, what?  I was just telling the story.”

“Well shut the fuck up, I’m the one telling it.”

“Then fucking tell it!  We’re gonna be here all night.  Just skip to the fucking party.”

The two of them continued to argue with each other, Rain finally sighing from his spot next to Copia and getting up.  He threw you a wink as he wandered over to the other side of the fire, settling in next to Mountain where he was talking with Aether and Dewdrop.  You glanced down at your lap, picking at one of your nails for a moment before turning to the side a bit so you could look up at Copia.

“What was her name?”

“Hmm?”  Copia leaned over and swiped up the bottle Rain had left behind, taking a quick drink before answering.  “Whose name?”

Stupid dense cowboy.

“Her name.  Holden's daughter.”

“Oh, eh.”  You narrowed your eyes when he shot a glance towards Sunshine.  She and Swiss were no longer arguing but the Ghoul was also on his back in the dirt clutching his stomach so that was probably why.  “Cara.”

“That’s lovely.”  It wasn’t, but the jealousy you were feeling was ridiculous.  “A very pretty name.”

“Yeah but that isn’t her actual name, right boss?”  Copia stiffened behind you at Swiss’s words.  The Ghoul groaned as he slowly got back up and settled next to Sunshine again.  “That’s just what you called her.”

“Wait, that’s her nickname?”  You dug your elbow into Copia’s gut when he didn’t answer.  “What’s her actual name?”

“I don’t remember.”

While Sunshine and Swiss burst out in laughter you just felt annoyed.  

“You spent a few days romancing this girl and you can’t even remember her name?”

“A few days?”  Sunshine snorted and pointed at Copia,  “Try weeks!”

“It wasn’t fucking weeks!  And I wasn’t romancing anyone.”  He squeezed your waist and dropped his mouth close to your ear.  “It was just for show, Principessa.”

“Do you know my name?”

You yelped when he nipped your ear lobe, squirming as his breath tickled your skin.

“You know I do, I remember saying it when you had my cock in your hands earlier.”  He chuckled when you gasped, his hands tightening on your waist to keep you still.  “Now stop squirming before I drag you back to the barn so we can do that again.”

With a little grin you settled back against him, eagerly taking a drink when he offered you the whiskey bottle.

“If you guys are done I’ll keep going.”  Sunshine was smirking when you glanced over at her.  “And for the sake of time I’ll skip to the party where everything went to absolute shit through no fault of my own.”

“This again?  Belial, give it a rest Sunshine.”

“Fuck off Swiss, it was all mostly your fault anyway.”

“My fault?!  I did exactly what you told me to do!”

“All I told you to do was create a distraction!”

“And I did, didn’t I?” 

“I didn’t mean to distract them with your dick!”

“Then be more specific next time!”

It looked like the two of them were about to start fighting again but they froze when Copia called out to them.

“It took more than Swiss’s dick to ruin the plan Sunshine and you know it.”  He grabbed the bottle back out of your hands and took another drink.  “The unexpected guests didn’t help either.”

“If you would have let me kill Mary back in Montana they wouldn’t have gotten in the way at the party.”

“We still would have had to deal with Secondo.”  You looked up at Copia with a raised eyebrow at his brother’s name.  “He apparently had been invited as a possible investor.”

“Trust me boss, I can handle your brother.”  Copia shuddered and mumbled something in Italian under his breath as Sunshine waggled her eyebrows.  “You’re right though, the unexpected guests didn’t help.  But neither did your tantrum...”

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

“You fucking did what?”

Sunshine flinched at the sound of Copia’s voice and quickly started scanning the crowd to try to find him.  She knew that tone of voice and nothing good ever came after he used it.  Her eyes finally fell on him as he stared down Holden’s daughter.  Ok yeah, he was pissed.  Sunshine downed the rest of her champagne and started pushing her way through the crowd towards them but she only made it a few steps before an arm sliding around her waist stopped her.

“Going somewhere, beautiful?”

“I’ll be dragging your body to the undertaker if you don’t get your hand off of me, Mary.”

“Aww c’mon, I was hoping you’d dance with me at least on–shit!”  Mary hissed, grabbing at Sunshine’s wrist to keep her from digging her knife into his stomach.  “Why do you always have to put up a fight?”

“Trust me, Mary.  It wouldn’t be a fight.”  She looked around her for Copia again but was distracted by the curious looks being thrown her and Mary’s way.  With a fake smile plastered on her face she deftly pulled the knife away and placed her hands on Mary’s shoulders.  “Stop smiling like that.”

“This is nice!  I missed this, having you all pressed up against me.”

“Don’t get used to it.  What the fuck are you doing here anyway?”

“Probably here for the same reasons you are.”  Mary smirked and leaned in close, being mindful of the socialites dancing around them.  “Money.”

She jerked back, glaring into Mary’s face when he continued to smirk.

“That money is gonna be ours, so don’t even bother.”

“Yours, huh?  I don’t know, it doesn't seem like you guys are much interested in the money to me.”

“What the fuck does that mean?”

“Looks like Copia is about to be arrested.”  Sunshine quickly looked over to where he was, groaning when she saw Copia arguing with a few of the hired guards.  “And last I saw Swiss he was wandering off with Holden’s wife.”

She winced when Copia shoved a guard away only for two to come up behind him and grab his arms.  Oh fuck.  At Mary’s laugh she jerked her head back around.

“Swiss was supposed to wander off with the wife.”

“I don’t doubt it, but was Holden supposed to know about that?  Because he followed them not long after.”

“Fuck.”  She ignored the surprised glances being thrown her way and tried to think of what to do.  If Holden caught Swiss with his wife they were screwed.  An angry snarl drew her eyes back to Copia in time to see him punch Secondo in the nose.  Ok they were extra screwed.  “Fuck!”  

“I’m always willing Sunshine you just gotta ask me nice–fuck!”

Mary groaned, clutching at their crotch as they fell to the ground.  Sunshine turned back towards Copia but he was being dragged away by the guards.  Her eyes moved to Secondo’s, widening briefly when she noticed he was looking at her.  He was quite the sight at the moment, his usually perfectly styled hair disheveled on his head and blood dripping from his nose.  His eyes were narrowing as he took her in as well and Sunshine grinned, giving him a jaunty wave before spinning and moving quickly into the crowd.

She needed to find Swiss and get the fuck out of there.  They’d just have to worry about Copia later.  It wouldn’t be the first time he needed to be busted out of jail; she just hoped she wouldn’t have to do the same for Swiss later.  The crowd parted easily, most wandering over to where the commotion had happened with Copia.  Sunshine grabbed the skirt of her dress, picking up her speed as she got close to the stairs to the second level.  With any luck she would run into Swiss, hopefully with the key to where the money was being kept in his hand, and they could get the job done.  She jogged down a hallway, turning down a corner at the end where she immediately found herself running right into the Ghoul.

“Swiss!”  Her hands flung out to catch herself but she quickly recoiled when they were met with bare skin.  “Where the fuck are your clothes?”

He was hurriedly doing up his pants, his dress shirt they bought for the night balled up in his fist.

“No time for that, we gotta go.”  When he grabbed her arm she jerked away to glare at him.  “Sunshine, I'm serious we gotta go now.”

“What the fuck did you do?”

Swiss didn’t get a chance to answer her question, a shout from behind him making both Ghouls freeze.  Sunshine’s eyes widened when Holden, in a similar state of undress as Swiss, stumbled out of a room and started pointing his finger at him.

“Get back here now!”

Sunshine groaned, hanging her head as Holden started shouting for some guards.

“Satan’s dick.”      

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

“So you all got arrested?”

“Yep!  As I have been saying from the beginning, these assholes ruined everything.”  She pointed a finger behind her at Swiss, who was practically laying on the ground now sulking.  “Swiss decided to romance not just Holden’s wife, but Holden himself.”

“I couldn’t say no to him when he had already caught us together!”

“Shut up.  Anyway, Swiss apparently didn’t tire the guy out enough because he got up after Swiss snuck outta the room and then realized his keys were missing.”

“I tired him out just fine thank you very much.”

“Shut up.  But then there was this guy,”  Sunshine pointed over at you and Copia as she continued on.  “This guy threw a fit because Cara sold the gift he got her.”

“What gift?”  You glanced up at Copia again with a confused look on your face, pausing briefly as the action made you a bit dizzy.  All the whiskey had finally started to get to you.  “Wait, the horse?  She sold the horse?”

“She claimed that he was too rambunctious for her.  Hard to handle.  Idiota.”  Copia shook his head in disgust.  “There is nothing wrong with Brizio!”

You snorted, immediately covering your mouth when Copia glared at you.

“You bought Brizio for her?”

“Si, but she gave him some stupid name like Snowfoot or something, I don’t remember.”

“Copia lost his shit when he found out, hence all the shouting I mentioned.  Unfortunately his Cara didn’t take too kindly to being called an idiot so she brought the guards over.”  Sunshine took a drink and then grinned as she continued.  “Secondo, who was desperately trying to ignore that we were all there, came over to try to calm Copia down, but…well that didn’t go over well.”

“Wasn’t the first time I punched him in the nose and it won’t be the last.”

“Sure, so yeah they shoved us all in jail and thanks to the ever helpful Mary Goore quickly figured out who we all actually were.”  She tipped the bottle back, finishing its contents before chucking it into the fire.  “We were set to be hanged in the morning.”

“Hanged?!”

“Those wanted posters say ‘Dead or Alive’ for a reason, Principessa.”  Copia gave your waist a squeeze before he continued.  “Luckily for us Secondo brought Dewdrop and Phantom with him when he came to town.”

“What do you mean?  Why is that lucky?”

It was Swiss’s turn to answer, although it sounded like he was half asleep.

“Dewdrop knew I stole some of his dynamite, not that he ever goes anywhere without a few sticks as well.”  Swiss lifted his head up to throw you a wink.  “Just in case.”

“So what, you guys blew up the jail?”  When you were met with silence from the three of them your mouth fell open.  “Really?”

“How else were we supposed to get out?  Dew only blew out one wall anyway, it wasn’t that bad.”  Sunshine shook her head as she laughed about it.  “Secondo sure as hell wasn’t gonna bail us out.”

“Why not?”

“Eh, he was a little upset over his nose.”  Copia had reached up to tap yours, laughing softly when you batted his hand away.  “He did come by to wish us luck getting out though.”

Now you felt even more nervous meeting his brother.  You were about to say as much before you yawned, your mouth stretching wide from the force of it.  Copia said something to Sunshine that you didn’t hear, the tiredness suddenly taking over.  All that whiskey probably didn’t help either.  You jumped a bit when Copia began to stand up behind you, gripping your elbows to tug you up with him.

“Wait, Copia, what about Brizio?”

He grinned, tugging you close to his chest and tucking some hair behind your ear.

“While the Ghouls got all of our stuff together I went and got Brizio back.”

“That easy huh?”

“It helped that while we were in jail someone stole the money, so that was a nice distraction.”  He turned towards the farmhouse, wrapping an arm around your waist to help you along.  “Mary beat us to it.”

“What an asshole.  Oh!”  You covered your mouth with your hands, laughing in disbelief at what you just said.  “You’re a bad influence.”

“Bene, I don’t want to be a good one.”

You looked down to hide your reddening cheeks, that grin of his making you blush like usual.  He tsked when you stumbled up the porch steps, the whiskey definitely starting to take its toll on you.  Copia let go of you briefly to open the front door but instead of going inside you stopped and looked up at him, remembering something Swiss had mentioned earlier.

“Copia, what happened in Montana?”

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ 

“I don’t want to go to sleep.”

Copia chuckled as he helped you get into bed, the now familiar nightgown soft against your skin. 

“Your eyes have been closed since we got inside, Principessa.  I think sleep is happening whether you want it or not.”  

“No, no I have to stay awake.”  When Copia pulled away you managed to get your eyes open, watching his figure move around in the shadows.  He had quickly divested himself of his clothes and was pulling the big shirt from Harold over his head.  “If I fall asleep it’ll be tomorrow when I wake up.”

You frowned when he snorted, his head popping out of the neck of the shirt.  He moved back towards the bed and slid in next to you, under the covers much to your delight.  His arms were around you instantly, pulling you against his warm body.

“Tomorrow will happen no matter what.”  Copia placed a knuckle under your chin and tilted your head up so your eyes could meet.  “What’s so bad about tomorrow?”

“I don’t want to leave this place.  This house, the farm…Ethel.  I feel safe here.” 

“But you’ll still be with me.  I’m always going to keep you safe, Principessa.  Just like I promised.”

The tears were building up in your eyes before you could stop them and you angrily swiped them away.  You didn’t want to spend tonight like this, a weeping mess.

“I know, I know you did.  I feel safe with you, Copia, I do.”  Even the dark room couldn’t hide his grin and you did your best to match it despite how you were still feeling.  With a trembling hand you reached up and cupped his cheek, his beard was already growing in and the stubble felt rough against your palm.  “Kiss me.”

“Hmm, I don’t know.  I’ve come to find out your kisses lead to other things.”  He took your hand in his and brought your palm to his lips, pressing a gentle kiss in the middle as his mustache tickled your fingers.  “Besides, your breath smells like whiskey.”

He laughed when you yanked your hand out from his and roughly turned away.  Damn him and his teasing.  You stiffened when his arms slid back around you and you found yourself tucked back against him.  Despite your irritation you couldn’t help but relax, the warm feeling of being in his arms making you even sleepier.  

“You’re horrible.”  

His breath hit your ear when he huffed out a laugh, making you shiver.  Before you could stop them your eyes were falling closed again and your body relaxed as you began to drift off to sleep.  Copia’s breath tickled your ear again and you fell asleep clinging to what he murmured into your ear.

“I promise to be here when you wake up.”

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Copia couldn’t sleep.

He hadn’t been able to bring himself to admit it to you, but he wasn’t looking forward to leaving either.  It had been so long since he had felt settled and at peace.  There had been moments he hadn’t even thought about why he was there or even why you were there.  You had already wormed your way inside his chest, like you had always been there.  Those moments made him feel guilty though, like he was forgetting his purpose.  Forgetting what had led him to this farmhouse to begin with.  

What had led him to you.

He couldn’t let his feelings, whatever they were, get in the way of why you were there in the first place.  Nothing could get in the way of him killing Saltarian.  Things were just more complicated now.  Even when he was initially planning everything, your kidnapping and the ransom demand, he hadn’t wanted you to get hurt but now…now he couldn’t let you get hurt.  Copia wasn’t sure if he deserved peace but he knew you did and he was going to do whatever he could to make sure you got it.

You mumbled something in your sleep and Copia tilted his head to look down at you.  After a few hours you had turned around, pushing him onto his back with a surprising amount of strength considering you were asleep.  Copia had let you do it with a smile on his face, amused at your grumbling as you eventually settled with an arm and a leg flung over him.  You were now snoring softly, your breath puffing against his chest with each exhale.  This was definitely something he’d be teasing you about later.  He reached down to tuck some of your hair back behind your ear but he froze when you started mumbling.

“It’s not fair.”

He stroked a thumb across your cheek as he grunted softly.

“Hm?  What isn’t?”

“Your smile.  Not,”  Your thought was interrupted by a big yawn before you relaxed back against him.  “Not fair.  I hate it.”

Copia snorted and squeezed you briefly, smiling when you snuggled further against him.  

“I’m sorry, Principessa.  I’ll smile less.”

All he got for an answer was another snore, but it was what finally helped him relax himself.  You hadn’t been what he expected, far from it, but now that you were here he wasn’t going to let you go.  At least not without a fight.  He let his eyes close and focused on the feel of your body against his.  He could get used to this, used to you.  

He whispered a prayer to Lucifer that he would be allowed to.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

“Take the shot, Cardinal!”

Copia gritted his teeth as the flames drew closer.  The chapel was starting to fall apart around them, the sound of the flames crackling drowning out distant gunshots.  He couldn’t move, his entire body frozen in place as he looked on in horror.  Your eyes were full of fear as Saltarian kept you in front of him, blocking his body with yours.

“This is your chance!  This is what you wanted!”

You were so scared, Copia could see it.  He could feel it.  Were you scared of him?  Once more he tried to speak, to call out that he would keep you safe but he couldn’t get his mouth to work.

“You’re a coward, Copia!  All these years and you can’t do it.  Because of her.”

No, no no he had to do this.  He ignored the tears streaming down your face and the heat of the flames on his skin.  He had to do this.  This was his one chance.  When you screamed he shook his head, his heart clenching painfully as he watched you sob.  

“Take the shot, Cardinal!”

This was his one chance.

He raised his gun, his eyes meeting yours as he aimed.

He took the shot.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Copia woke up with a gasp, the sound of the gun firing seeming to echo around the room.  He quickly looked down and started to grab at you, needing to feel that you were there and safe.  Not sobbing and broken in front of him like you were in his nightmare.  You mumbled something as he ran his hands over your back and arms.  Your nose scrunching up like it did whenever you were annoyed with him.

“Is it morning?”

“No," He took a deep breath and let his head drop. "Go back to sleep Principessa.”  

He reached up to smooth your hair out, shaking his head slightly at his trembling hand.  The sounds of your crying were still echoing around in his mind.  You had been so scared, so frightened.  He gently pulled away and eased out of the bed, needing to get some distance between you.  You had been scared of him, of what he might do.  There hadn’t been any trust in your eyes, just fear and pain.  He couldn’t help but turn to look at you but even seeing you safe in bed the nightmare wouldn’t leave him.

Cirrus’s words from the other night ran through his head, words she had been repeating from his brother.  ‘You’re going to get this girl killed.’  ‘Your actions have put everyone at risk.’  He had ignored them at the time but now with the nightmare skittering under his skin it was all he could think about.  Would he actually be able to keep you safe like he promised?  Safe from Saltarian and his men?  

Safe from himself?

Copia immediately got up and stalked towards his clothes.  The nightmare had to be a sign, a message warning him about what could happen.  He couldn’t do it, he had worked too long to let anything get in his way now.  As he got dressed he kept pushing away thoughts of you, thoughts he had been thinking of only hours before.  Thoughts that he needed to stop thinking of.  

He fastened his gun belt before grabbing his hat, turning back towards the bed as he secured it on his head.  The moonlight was illuminating your face and he couldn’t help but stop to watch you for a moment.  His steps were quiet as he moved closer, kneeling down at the edge of the bed so his face was level with yours.  The leather of his gloves creaked when he clenched his hands, trying to stop himself from touching you.  

Copia watched you for as long as he dared, trying to memorize your face.  He wanted to remember you this way.  Soft and peaceful.  Beautiful like you had always been to him, even when you were nothing more than a city girl.  A pawn in his desire for revenge.  He had let you become more than that and he now realized how foolish that had been.  

Your mouth opened in a quiet snore and this time he couldn’t help but brush a hand over your hair.  He would still do everything he could to keep you safe, but this, whatever this was between you needed to stop.  Copia had spent the last ten years swearing vengeance and he couldn’t let anything get in his way now.  He stood up, clenching his fists again to stop himself from reaching out and holding you.

He had to let you go.

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Sarah jie jie, In Blossom rec or no?

this is a real tough question to answer hooooo boy where do i start??

i mean, for starters, the premise of the show is actually really fun, and i like it a lot so far!! let's talk a little about this:

(spoilers for the first 2 eps in its entirety which covers the background/setup of the story)

this is yang caiwei. her dad was a minister who was framed for one thing or another, demoted, and subsequently murdered. she was disfigured in the process, and ended up in the city of heyang where she grew up to be a corpse bearer training under a coroner.

yang caiwei has been betrothed since she was a little girl to:

pan yue. this boy is the son of a concubine so his relationship with his dad is very meh. when yang caiwei's family got into trouble, pan yue's dad quickly cut off all ties with them. this led to yang caiwei being turned away at the door p harshly when she came to pan yue for help. pan yue himself though has loved her since he was a boy, and has been looking for her for 10 years!!

ANYWAY these two find each other. he wants to marry her. ofc he does!! she's his 白月光, and he wants to love and protect her!! he's disowned his family so that he can do this, he is ALL IN BABY. he's only found her again for all of 10 minutes and he's already planning their wedding in his head lbr.

she is calm and composed and v sensible because of the way she had to grow up. this whole thing seems too good to be true, and also she might be harbouring some ~feelings over the way he just cut her out of his life when she needed him the most. the yang caiwei she is now just wants to live her life as normal.

the chemistry is 😘 at this point, and i am so invested in their relationship. at this stage, i was still thinking she was the second female lead and was like. huh. this is going to be one of those shows where i'd ship these two more than the official couple i guess??

anyway enter:

shangguan zhi. sister of pan yue's best friend, who is obsessed with pan yue, putting it mildly. she also has this ~thing about her own physical appearance - essentially, she thinks she needs to look and act perfect to be worthy of pan yue's love. this involves a lot of witch doctors and v unhealthy dieting and scrolls on how to smile the perfect way and walk the perfect way. y'all get the gist.

shangguan zhi hears that pan yue is getting married (to someone ugly at that!!!) and loses her shit. she decides the way around this so she can be with her yue-gege forever is-

(you guessed it!!)

-body-swapping with yang caiwei, and pushing yang caiwei (and also the shaman who actually helped her with the swap) off a cliff so that nobody ever finds out.

to her credit, it actually works!! she swaps bodies with yang caiwei, and marries pan yue.

what she didn't account for was being murdered on her wedding day.

ANYWAY. the actual yang caiwei, now in shangguan zhi's body (😭), survives the fall from the cliff, rushes to the wedding with the intent on stopping the wedding and getting her goddamn body back, and reaches just in time to kinda sorta witness shangguan zhi's murder.

cue her thinking that it was pan yue who killed shangguan zhi (she knew the whole wedding thing was too good to be true) and pan yue thinking that shangguan zhi had something to do with yang caiwei's death (after all, she was obsessed with him and had a whole fit over him wanting to marry someone else).

everything about this premise was *chef's kiss*. give me a bucket of popcorn and some comfy pillows, i can watch this all day.

EXCEPT.

except my dudes shangguan zhi (and subsequently yang caiwei-in-shangguan-zhi's body, let's call her shangguan caiwei for now) is played by ju jingyi. 😞 zhhz played yang caiwei TOO WELL my friends, so that when jjy took over, shangguan caiwei felt like a whole different character. it's a bit difficult to reconcile yang caiwei and shangguan caiwei tbh, which made watching the third ep onwards a bit jarring, especially after zhhz set the character up so well.

it's not like......fatal to the show. i mean. i went in expecting nothing from jjy (rightfully i think 😑) and i wouldn't say i am disappointed by it just because i was prepared to be ehhhh about her going in. i'm still watching the show mainly because i like the plot and also, and this is a big factor that i truly cannot stress enough:

liu xueyi looks so good in this show hoooooo boy

look at this!!! is this a face i would suffer 30+ episodes of jjy for??? apparently it is!!

tl;dr: love lxy + like the plot + dislike jjy = still watching and will likely finish the show. is it a rec?? conservatively, i'd say soft yes??? i mean. a huge part of me watching this show is because i'm entertained by the shenanigans, 😍 over lxy, and daydreaming about an alternate universe of the show where we have zhhz instead of jjy as the female lead. it's not something to watch seriously though!!

[on-leatheredwings]

i've found your account only a few days ago but ever since then I've been STUCK here rereading your fanfics, especially ones with damian. i wasn't even a dc fan (heard about some stuf, watched some films and cartoons, but that's it) but now im reading comics since im Obsessed and need more batboys in my life (rip my productivity😔)

Anyway, after Sleepover i'm curious what will Bruce (and maybe even Thalia) think of batboys strange behaviour towards reader. He's smart, so he definitely notices it early on, but how he'll react....

I can see him being weirded out (like he was by Jason's anger issues, before his death), but he also can be an enabler, since Robin (literaly any of them) had a hard life, so if those relationships can help him why not pretend that everything is normal? you'll be safer in a Wayne's Manor anyway

All in all, thanks for a new hyperfixation 💞💞

P.s. About games:

1. Boyfriend to death 1&2 - since you're into yanderes you might want to check this game out. I prefer the second game, but the first is also fun. But beware the trigger warnings!!

2. Long live the Queen - more of a raising sim than dating sim but you still can romance some guys and girls.

,3. Hatoful Boyfriend - mostly a comedy, but there is a yandere.

4. The Royal Trap - it's been a long time since i played it, but it used to be one of my favorites so i'll just mention it.

5. Higurashi - once again not really a romance sim, but its an interesting horror mixed with a slice of life

;A; AWWWW THANK YOU IM SO HAPPY YOU LIKE MY STUFF.... THAT MAKES ONE OF US GIJSDOFAFGHFOJDSD

and yes yes get into DC!!! (girl who hasnt even read a full run since like. injustice)

damn now you got me thinking and excited. incoming spiel

i agree entirely about bruce just knowing how Bad things can get, so to make things simpler, he's like "yes, your darling(s) can stay in the manor, boys. 🙄"

mmm yes..... when it comes to bruce noticing the batboys are yandere, i think it's always sinfully delightful to just have him be reluctantly okay with it. 😈 it's also easier narratively ngl but i also like the idea that the batfam is all just corrupted.

bruce's thoughts are that they (his sons) fight for vengeance and justice but this is where they could use some leeway.... we all need our vice... they fight so hard for gotham, they deserve a little treat (getting rid of your human rights)... it's very "Dad who wants his sons to have happiness even if its not healthy" of him. in fics where bruce is a yandere, well, he's the exact same way so he can't judge. although if that's the case, i like the idea of bruce just being like "yes what we do isn't right. let's not talk about it. just don't kill <3"

still wondering what i like more. a yan!bruce who's self aware what he's doing is wrong but he just refuses to think about it. or a yan!bruce that justifies it all because of his paranoia, Tower of Babel style (if you don't know, that's when it's revealed batman has plans to subdue/kill the justice league just in case they go rogue.)

for the batboys depends on their personality... for damian, he's so resolute in things that i prefer when he just believes 100% what he's doing is okay, if not actually righteous. ^_^

hmmm talia.... I'M STILL UNSURE HOW I PREFER THAT AS WELL... i think talia being a you-arent-good-enough-for-my-son mom is a little cliche but also. she kinda would say that. you'd have to prove your worth somehow but idk how tf darling would do that LOL. in the end, i think talia is just relieved/comforted that her son indeed feels desire and wants love and will continue the family legacy (regardless if youre afab/can biologically have children.)

no THANK YOU FOR THE ASK!!! AND THANKS FOR RECS!!!! heheh yeah ive checked out btd and im not averse to the warnings its more like im not that most of into the designs ngl. fox guy seems cute? AND LMAO FUNNY BC IM ON A HIGURASHI REWATCH (never played it tho)

[jake-kiszkas-smirk]

So Good (part 2 of Dirty Little Secrets)

Jake Kiszka X Fem Reader

18+ only, minors DNI

Warnings: unprotected sex, oral fem rec, anal play, use of toys, fingering, dirty talk, light cum play, overstimulation, daddy kink, restraints, crying, talk of pegging, spit play if you squint, I think thats it, let me know if i missed any,

Part 1 Here

You sat in bed lounging on your day off. You counted yourself lucky that you hadn't had to go in today seeing that there had been thunderstorms happening on and off all afternoon. You also loved being home when it rained, curling up with a book or watching your favorite show. The sound of your phone buzzing prompted you to reach for it, assuming it was Jake requesting something specific for dinner as he often did.

Darling, I think your present just got delivered and I'd rather it not get rained on, can you please bring it inside? 3:40

And don't you dare open it. 3:41

You nearly jumped off the bed in excitement, making your way to the front door as you slid across the hardwood floor in your socks. It had been at least week since Valentine's day. You opened the door to find a box that was bigger than you had imagined. You quirked a brow as you picked it up, shaking it a little as you walked back into the house. It must have been packaged securely because no noise came from it. You set it on the kitchen counter and stared at it quizzically, biting the inside of your cheek as your mind raced to figure out what it was. You stepped closer, looking at the return address. Looking around as if Jake might jump out and catch you you reached into your pocket for your phone. Opening safari you typed in the company name. The site popped up and said they made "Custom Bedroom Accessories". You clicked on their item list and your eyes went wide; paddles, restraints, floggers, swings...fuck your heart began to race with anxious excitement.

Glancing up at the time you realized you had about 2 hours until Jake got home. You left the package on the counter and quickly hurried off towards the bathroom. You ran through your 'everything shower', shaving, exfoliating, hair, everything. After that you went to the closet, checking to make sure there were no toys that needed to be cleaned. You and Jake had a special separate box to put the toys in that needed to be cleaned before being used again. Taking the few that were in there you sanitized them and placed them with the rest of the toys, after all, you wanted him to have options. After moisturizing and slipping on your skimpy silk pjs you quickly made your way back to the kitchen. You began cooking dinner, planning something that was just as delicious when re-heated...silently hoping he'd want to use his gift as soon as he stepped in the door. Deciding on spaghetti you got to work preparing it.

The flash of lights as Jake pulled into the driveway had a giddy giggle falling from your lips. You quickly covered your mouth, telling yourself to calm down and not give him the satisfaction, he's such a tease he'd make you wait days if he knew you were excited. Hell, he might do that anyways. You took a steady breath, centering yourself as the front door opened.

"Baby that smells delicious" he stated as you heard him toss his keys in the bowl and slip off his shoes.

"Wanna come have a taste?" You replied, stirring the finished product.

"Of course," He turned the corner and you could have melted into the floor.

His hair was in a low bun at the back of his head, he often wore it like this when it rained outside. He was in a pair of tattered old jeans, and a loose fitting t-shirt that looked slightly distressed, his silver medallion necklace around his neck. You caught the corner of his lips twitch as his eyes landed on the box resting on the counter.

"You been in this all day?" He said with a grin as he toyed with the hem of your very short shorts. His fingers brushed the skin of your leg, "And shaved too..?" He teased, wrapping his arms around your middle and whispering, "Almost like you're expecting something"

"I don't know what you're referring to" You said as you fought back your grin, trying to ignore his hands as they trailed down your waist and under the waistband of your shorts, feeling the smooth skin there and just barely brushing his fingers over your center.

"Yeah right" he retorted, nipping at your earlobe.

"Do you want to taste this or not?" You said in a sassy tone,

"I wanna taste something" he replied suggestively, moving to kiss at your jaw as his fingertips massaged over your hip bones,

"Jake," You giggled as you smacked his arm, "That was awful"

He smiled against your skin and reached forward to turn off the stove.

"You okay with pushing back dinner a few hours?" He asked, continuing to adorn your neck and shoulder with kisses,

"Mhmm" You nodded, resisting the urge to do a little excited happy dance

"Go sit pretty for me on the bed," He ordered with a smack to your ass when he released you.

You walked as casually as possible to your bedroom, taking a seat in the middle of the bed. You heard the sound of the box being opened, and you felt yourself bubbling with excitement. Your heart felt like it was going to stop when you heard him making his way to the room, anticipating what he'd have in his hands. A frustrated sigh accompanied with a scowl took over your face when you realized it was still in the box. A soft laugh passed Jake's lips as he took in your reaction,

"Patience" He said as he slowly started to pull his shirt over his head. Turning to you he crawled up the bed, kissing you he slowly laid you down against the mattress. Your hands roamed over his tan chest, wrapping around his bicep, "If you remember...when you gave me my gift, I didn't make you cum"

"Jake, its-"

"Hush." He interrupted, "I plan to make up for that tonight, if thats ok with you"

He'd made up for it multiple times before now...but who were you to say no?

You nodded, watching his face turn into a smirk,

"Then I need to hear you say you remember your safe word, love," He said as he nonchalantly started to slide your shorts down your legs. Your lips parted with a small gasp,

"Cactus" you said confidently.

"Good girl," He placed one quick kiss to that spot right above your clit and then climbed off the bed. You sat up on your elbows, watching him strip down to his boxers. You noticed he was already half hard and realized he was probably looking forward to this more than you. He knew what was in the box, he'd had all this time to fantasize and plan.

As he moved to face the box you tried to look around his form, and then heard the sound of metal clanking. Your eyes went wide as he lifted it from the box and turned to you.

"I had this made for you..well...us" He smiled, taking in your expression, you probably had stars in your eyes. 'Us..' You'd circle back to that later.

In his hands he held a silver spreader bar, the cuffs attached to each end were leather that had been stained a beautiful forest green, the inside of them was black velvet. He sat on his knees between your legs, holding the bar so you could admire it,

"Its beautiful," You said as you felt the soft material, "Its so soft"

"I made sure it had that, can't have it marking up your pretty legs can we?" he moved to start putting the first cuff around your right leg, "Is this ok?" he asked as he used a finger to check that it was snug but not too tight,

"Yes, its good" You already felt breathless. Jake moved your leg to the side and your other leg followed, keeping them closed. Jake's eyes flashed to yours, his head tilting curiously

"Don't get shy on me now, we both know you're a depraved little thing" he gave your thigh a firm swat "Come on, spread em'"

You bit your lip as you let your legs fall apart. It wasn't something Jake hadn't seen a hundred times before, but you were feeling very vulnerable and it was electrifying. He changed the length of the bar to where it would have your legs completely splayed, and then put on the second cuff, securing it right above your knee.

He sat back and admired his handiwork, a devilish grin on his face when you experimentally tried to close your legs.

"Stay put" He said firmly as he climbed off the bed and moved to the closet.

"As if I could go anywhere" You said through a laugh, hearing him chuckle in the closet. When he emerged from the closet you saw him carrying a singular toy, the one you'd gotten him for valentines day. You groaned as your hand moved between your legs, lazily rubbing your clit.

"You are just too eager aren't you?" He said as he made his way over, eyes fixed on the hand between your legs,

"Yes daddy," You cooed, fluttering your lashes at him. He stopped in his spot at the end of the bed, that smug smirk appearing again,

"Oh?" he knelt to his knees at the end of the bed, eye level with your exposed core "Is that who I am tonight?"

"Mhmm" you hummed, but it was bordering a whine as he moved your hand away,

"You want daddy to be sweet and love on you huh? Baby this pretty little cunt?" he hovered so close you could feel his warm breath against you,

"Yes," You replied on a forced breath,

"Don't you worry, I'm going to give it plenty of attention tonight" the way he said it, that teasing tone had your skin prickling with goosebumps,

You opened your mouth to answer but were cut off when he held the vibrating plug against your clit, you gasped, legs fighting to close,

"Yeah? Better than your fingers huh?" he ran it down through your slick and then back up to your clit, upping the vibrations. Tossing the remote out of your reach and his told you he wasn't turning it off anytime soon.

"Y-yes..fuck that thing is powerful"

"I'm aware" He sneered, you lifted your head to see him glaring at you playfully. As you relaxed back you thought back to when you had first used it on him, turning it up to this setting and not showing him much mercy either.

"Whats going on in that head of yours thats got you clenching around nothing?" Jakes raspy voice brought you back, his mouth falling open to mirror the moan that came out of you when he slipped his fingers inside you,

"When I used that on you" You admitted quickly,

"You really liked that didn't you?" he paused, "What if I told you I wanted..more next time?"

"More?" Turning your head so you could look down the length of your body you watched him lick over his lip, his eyes meeting yours,

"Yeah, more than your fingers, more than the plug.." His words trailed off, a low growl rumbling in his chest as you tightened around his fingers,

"You-Jake are you asking me to-" his cheeks flushed pink, and you moaned as he nodded to confirm your question,

"Baby..listen to you" His fingers began moving faster, curling into that spot he knew so well, "Are you gonna cum listening to me talk about how I want you to fuck me?"

"Uh huh" You whined, completely lost in his words

"Fuck, you're already dripping" His breathing had picked up significantly, "Give me more y/n, cum for me"

You felt the sensation building as you closed your eyes and thought about what he'd said, picturing him under you, whimpering and writhing as he took your cock had your orgasm crashing into you. He worked you though it, groaning along with you as you came.

Not even giving you a chance to catch your breath he abruptly removed his fingers from you and stood in one swift movement. He grabbed the bar between your legs and push it towards you, lifting you ass of the bed and shocking you when his mouth found your back entrance, lapping over it obscenely as he moaned against you. This was new territory for you, he'd touched you there, used toys, but had never done this.

"Daddy-Daddy-" You rushed out, hands shooting down to his hair and instinctively pulling him away from you. You weren't sure why you'd done it, it didn't make you uncomfortable per say, regardless of specifics Jake had definitely picked up on your apprehension and was navigating it seamlessly.

"Well that just won't do," Jake said as you released him, tsking as he climbed off the bed, walking around the edge and pulling the hidden arm restraints from under the mattress.

You studied him as he moved, he wasn't mad or even a smidge annoyed, he was just on a mission. His boxers were tented even more than before and it had you drooling as he gently took your wrist, "Can't have these getting in the way" he secured your first hand and then moved around the bed to secure the other.

"You came so pretty for me baby," He placed a quick kiss to your cheek, "I think I need to see it again" You noticed him picking up the plug off the bed from the corner of your eye,

"Fuck-" You huffed in a weak laugh, your head falling back onto the pillow he'd moved beneath it.

"Oh, you thought we were done with this?" He held it up between his fingers as he moved back between your legs, using his free hand to pull his boxers down and kicking them off the bed before sitting back on his knees. "Not a chance, love." He grabbed the bar again, successfully lifting your ass off the bed for a second time, you held your breath as you waited to see what he was going to do next,

"So wet for me," He raised to his knees, running the underside of his cock over your clit,

"God-you're so hard" You whimpered, "Fuck me, please"

"Yeah? You want my cock baby?" he turned his head and kissed the inside of your knee, "I'll give it to you, but first we have to get our little toy nestled in it's place"

He pulled his cock away from you and pressed the bar even further, essentially folding you in half. Your eyes rolled back as he leaned forward and spit directly onto you, Taking the plug he ran it through your slick, swirling it so it was adequately soaked before even making it to where his spit had landed. The vibrations were almost too much,

"Wait-" he immediately pulled it away,

"Can you turn it off?" You asked, giving him your best doe eyes,

"What if I turned it down?" He wagered, reaching for the remote.

"Yeah, I think thats ok" He turned it down to a soft vibration pattern and moved back to his spot, holding it against you he looked for your nod of confirmation before starting to slowly press it into you,

"Thats it baby, just like that" He praised as you relaxed and breathed through the initial and very brief discomfort. "That good?"

"I want more" your hands tugged against the restraints, wanting nothing more than to touch Jake. He reached down, wrapping his hand around the base of his cock and teasing his head at your entrance, that fucked out smile on his face as he shook his head

"Greedy, greedy girl" he pressed in just a little only to pull back, running the hand that wasn't holding the bar up and down your thigh, "Tell me how bad you want it"

"So bad, so, so, bad" you'd be bucking your hips off the bed, trying to coax him in further if they weren't already in the air,

"Not good enough baby," His hand dropped from your thigh to rub gentle circles over your swollen clit, a moan sighing out of you at the contact,

"Daddy please, I need it," You pouted, "Want your cock buried deep inside me with the plug in my ass, wanna feel so full-please"

His brows rose in surprise at your words, groaning he pressed into you, "I love when you say filthy things to me, ask me to do things to you...you're just such a good slut for me aren't you?"

You were, you were and absolute feen for this mans cock and he knew it. As his thrusts went from languid to slamming against you his thumb pressed harder against your sensitive clit, a strangled moan ripping from your chest. The sound of metal clinking filled the room as you fought your restraints

"Oh poor baby," He crooned, feigning empathy "Are you sensitive? Does this sweet little clit need a break?" Sweat was beading on his temples and pieces of hair had fallen loose from his bun, he was a vision.

You nodded vigorously to answer his question, squirming as much as you could,

"I'm not stopping until you cum," he moved his thumb faster as his hips rolled against yours. The way he was fucking you had you seeing stars, pulling out almost all the way and then pushing in so deep you were sure he was going to split you in half. "I can tell you're right there, squeezing me so tight-fuck" his head fell back as he closed his eyes,

Your skin was on fire, that coil in your stomach tightening so rapidly you didn't even have time to warn him you were going to cum, curses and choked sounds coming out of you between ragged breaths as you came for the second time tonight.

Before you had even made it through your high he was pulling out of you, mustering all your strength you looked to him in time to see him rapidly stroking himself, brows knitted and lips parted as he came warm and messy on your cunt.

His eyes were no longer on you, but on his cock as he used it to smear his cum over you, going as far as pushing it back into you half way and pulling back out, coating himself in your mixed releases,

Finally taking his hand away from your clit he reached down, tearing the air from your lungs as you watched him run his finger down the length of his cock, gathering the wetness and slick and bringing it to his mouth. He sucked it clean, moaning around his finger as his eyes rolled back,

Wordlessly you stuck out your tongue, a desperate look in your eyes

"Oh, did you want a taste too?" he asked, you nodded with your tongue still on display,

"Sorry baby," He slowly lowered himself to his stomach, "I'm feeling greedy tonight too"

Without warning his mouth delved between your legs, licking up the center and sucking your clit into his mouth,

"Oh- You- You fucker!" it came out as a laugh that quickly evolved into a high pitched whine, Jake laughed against you,

"Thats not very nice" He teased, "You're just to damn good baby, I need more"

"I-, I can't" you said, tears forming in the corner of your eyes,

"Just one more y/n, you've been so good, just one more" he was now the one pleading with you. You felt his hand brush against you as he grabbed the base of the plug, carefully moving it in a circular motion,

"Oh god" You rushed out, tears now starting to roll down your cheeks,

"One more," He repeated, free hand reaching up and under your top, groping your breast and pinching your hardened nipple,

"One more" you parroted back to him, not able to form words yourself anymore.

"Yes y/n," he rasped, "Cum on daddy's face and its all done, I promise"

"Ok, ok, oh-" You sobbed out, "I'm gonna- I-"

Your legs shook and your stomach quivered as you were pulled under the wave of pleasure that crashed into you. You were sure you had blacked out momentarily, being brought back to earth by the feeling of Jake lightly kissing the inside of your thigh. He looked at you from the corner of his eye and tapped the plug lightly twice, his way of asking if you were ok with him removing it. You gave him the go ahead and he continued his kisses as he carefully removed it.

Your eyelids were heavy as you watched him take the cuffs off your legs, taking time to massage each leg and cover it with kisses. Sliding his hands up your body he massaged your hips as your legs fell back together.

"What do you need love?" He kissed your collar bone, using his thumb to wipe away any remnants of tears, "Water? Shower? Cuddles?"

"Yes" you replied simply, smiling softly at him as he undid the restraints on your wrists, showing them the same care your legs received. "And food"

"You got it" He giggled, "What do you want first?"

"Hmm" You thought as he pulled the comforter over you, "Food, drink, cuddles. I wont make it if I try to walk to the shower right now"

"So dramatic" He teased as he made his way towards the door, shooting you a smile over his shoulder. You grabbed a pillow and hurled it at him, he dodged it as he left the room

"Oh just you wait Jacob!" You warned playfully, "Just. You. Wait."

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pairing: felix x fem!reader (afab) // chan x fem!reader (afab)

genre: nonidol/collegegrad!felix. waitress!reader. college au. hurt/comfort. angst. fluff. smut - MDNI, 18+ only. reader pov. friends to enemies to lovers au. slowburn romance. lots of pining. cheating. abusive boyfriend/ex. drama galore. the sexual tension is REAL in this one.

content & warnings: explicit & strong language. very thematic elements. felix is reader's estranged childhood bestie. chan is low-key an asshole in this ngl. heavy topics are mentioned such as: abusive/toxic relationships, cheating, and pathological lying. drinking/partying. the summer vibes are real in this one. there will be humor/fluff throughout to balance everything. and ofc smut too because who am i if not a whore for filthy felix smut. 😉

word count: 4.1k

summary: ever since you were born, all you've ever known is living a simple life in the small australian coastal town of bridgeport bay. you're content with working at your parent's beachside restaurant angel waves for the rest of your life, and you're happy with your place in the world - you have good friends and an even better boyfriend. that is, until everything comes to a standstill when a familiar face from the past visits town for the summer. and in the wake of his return, lee felix upturns everything you thought you were content with here in your comforting little beach town.

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ᴅᴏ ɴᴏᴛ ʀᴇᴘᴏsᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ sɪᴛᴇs (ᴛʜɪs ɪɴᴄʟᴜᴅᴇs ᴛʀᴀɴsʟᴀᴛɪᴏɴs). ©ʙʟᴏssᴏᴍᴡʀɪᴛᴇsᴛʜɪɴɢs ⤐ ᴀʟʟ ʀɪɢʜᴛs ʀᴇsᴇʀᴠᴇᴅ

Every day leading up to the party at Jeongin’s, you met Felix outside early in the morning. At first, it just started as you waking up before the sun rose to catch a glimpse of him wading into the ocean waters. 

 But then, things steadily turned into you sitting outside on your parent’s porch, just like you had on his second day back at Bridgeport Bay. And each time he acknowledged your presence there in the wicker chair, he’d come over after his swim, trickling with cerulean teardrops from the sea and smelling of warm salt and sand. 

 The two of you got to talking, as the mornings passed. And the later in the week it grew, the more you realized how much Felix hadn’t changed. He was still the taekwondo prodigy from elementary school, who had risen to fame amongst his university classmates in South Korea. He was still the goofy kid from your childhood, the middle schooler who had grown up to play weird pranks on his friends in university. He was still the kid from high school who hated tomatoes, and always asked for them on the side when his university’s canteen had ‘burger night.’

 He was everything you had known him for, but so much more too. 

 He was a grown adult, who had foraged a life of his own in a country thousands of miles away from Bridgeport Bay. He was a fully-fledged man - who had a degree in Performing Dance Arts and hoped to become a dance instructor after his summer break. 

 Not to mention, he looked very different from how you used to know him.

 Every day that passed, with him standing there in front of you, drenched in seawater, you were reminded of this fact. 

 From the chiseled abs and sculpted arms and sharp, pointed jaw. 

 When the sight of that side of him became too much, you usually called it quits - claiming that you had to get ready for the day. In reality, you just had to make a hasty escape. 

 So that you could sink to the floor in your bedroom after you had said your goodbyes. 

 So that you could listen to the raging clang of your heartbeat against your ribcage in the quietness of your room. 

 So that your mind could play that version of him over and over again in the forefront of your mind. 

 And then before you knew it, it was the day of the party and you and Yeji were driving over to Jeongin’s house in her car. Chris lived close to Jeongin’s place, so he was going to meet you guys there.

 “This party is gonna be so fucking good,” she was saying, just as she pulled up to his place. Already, there were loads of cars lining either side of the residential street. And just as you had remembered it, his quaint house was tucked right next to the beautiful mountainside of Bridgeport Bay that you had always glimpsed from your bedroom window growing up. “Like, I’ve been wanting to go to one for a while now… thanks so much for inviting me, babe.” 

 As you stepped out of her cherry-red Corolla, you flashed her an easy smile. “Yeah, no problem, I thought it’d be fun to have you tag along…” Plus, you had a feeling that you wouldn’t know many of the people at the party besides your immediate friends. And Chris, of course.  

 The two of you began to make your way over to Jeongin’s front door. You noticed the large number of people who were lingering outside, with adults who looked around your age holding bottles of beer, and couples making out while sitting on the front lawn. So basically, the usual that happened at such parties. The bass of the music vibrated through your heels and into your spine as you finally stepped through the threshold of the house. 

 Everything was dark, save for the few lanterns and candles that were lit throughout the place. Party-goers were everywhere, only getting rowdier as the minutes ticked by and the alcohol flowed through bloodlines. There was a makeshift dance floor in the center of the living room, which was almost unrecognizable from how many wriggling bodies were crammed into the small carpeted space. Men and women alike rubbed up on each other, and you quickly averted your eyes as soon as you saw a few begin to move like fucking pole dancers. 

 “I need a drink,” you said, massaging the back of your neck in awkwardness as you and Yeji flooded through the cramped hallway. It had been so long since you had been inside Jeongin’s house, but walking between the dark sage-colored walls brought you back to your teenage years when you used to come over on occasion to hang out with Felix and Jeongin and the rest of their friend group. 

 The kitchen wasn’t bustling with as many people as the rest of the ranch-style house, meaning that you could catch your breath for a few seconds. As you stood there, off to the sidelines, you watched as Yeji fetched you a beer - she was going to be the designated driver for the night, so no alcohol for her. The few guys that stood near the countertop that was overflowing with bags of chips and candy gave her silent looks of interest. 

 Your best friend had always been rather gorgeous, even at the tender age of nine, when you had initially met her. Her long, raven-black hair was silky and seemed to shine under the lights of the kitchen, and she had a perpetual smile plastered onto her face. For the party, she was dressed in a show-stopping black mini-dress that brought out the milky tone of her skin and clashed perfectly with her dark eyes and red-tinted lips. 

 On the other hand, there you were - in a simple pair of light-washed shorts and a pastel blue tank that had a small daisy print on it. Your outfit was nothing fancy, and nothing compared to the glamorous aesthetic of your best friend. But it was comfortable and you liked being comfortable. 

 Just then, you felt warm fingers thread through your own, pulling you back. You peered up to see a smirking Chris. “Hi, there, beautiful… mind if I get your name?” He asked in a low voice that was hard to hear over the blaring EDM music that was pulsing throughout the entire house. 

 Already feeling the smile brighten your entire being, you leaned up into him and gave his lips a sweet kiss. “Hi, babe- did you just get here?” Yeji stepped in front of you then, pushing a red solo cup of beer into your free hand that wasn’t currently threading through your boyfriend’s dark tresses. 

 “Nah, I’ve been here for a while- it's been nice catching up with some old friends.” Chris reached forward, grabbing the cup out of your hands and taking a big swig of the liquor. As he pulled the rim of the cup away from his mouth, he frowned slowly. “Ugh- this tastes like shit. I need to give Jeongin some pointers next time he buys the alcohol.” 

 “Hey Y/N, do you mind if I leave you here? I’m pretty sure I just saw one of my old friends from high school and I-”

 Chris was already waving a nonchalant hand in the air, pulling you a little closer to his side as he said, “Don’t worry about it, Yeji, she’s in good hands.” You drew your gaze away from your boyfriend’s chiseled jaw and offered your friend a delicate nod. 

 “Seriously, don’t worry about me and go out there and have some fun… you deserve it.” Yeji squealed at your approval, wrapping one of her arms around you and giving your side a tight squeeze before she was flitting out of the kitchen altogether. 

 Just then your boyfriend was tugging on your hand, pulling you through the threshold of the kitchen and out into the throng of people again. “C’mon, I want you to see some of the guys from high school.” By ‘guys,’ he meant his best friends from the soccer team that he had played on throughout high school. He still kept in touch with them regularly, but you didn’t hang out with them that much, so it had been quite some time since you had seen their faces. 

 “But I hate big crowds,” you whined at him as he tugged you through the bodies that were smashed together in the dining room. Felix had said that it would be a small party with just some close friends, but obviously, he had only said that to get you to come. You’d need a lot more than just one beer if you were going to get through the night unscathed and still standing. Chris pulled you out to the back patio area, passing the pool that was full of shouting drunks. “And I don’t really-”

 Your voice caught in your throat as your boyfriend finally stopped in front of the fire pit that was tucked away into the corner of the backyard. You had sat around the raging fire and had roasted marshmallows one time before, back when you were a junior in high school and it was winter out. 

 There, sitting around the fire, were a handful of Chris’ former teammates from high school. And also, some of Felix’s groupies. 

 And then, there was… 

 Felix, too. 

 He was sitting in a lawn chair that was pulled up close to the fire. He was tipping his head back as he took a long draw from his glass that looked full of coke. He had never been a big alcohol drinker. Similar to you, he was dressed down - in tight black jeans and a baggy graphic tee. A single thin silver chain hung around his neck, drawing attention to his exposed clavicle. 

 It took him a moment to notice you, but as soon as he did, he was rising from his seat and darting over to your side. “Y/N- hi, happy you could make it!” He exclaimed cheerfully, as he gave you a quick side hug. 

 Almost instantly, Chris was pulling away from your form and finding a seat near his friends, seemingly forgetting about your presence right then and there and instead focusing on his old friends. 

 You gave Chris a glare from the way that he was practically abandoning you around a bunch of near-strangers. But you managed to flash Felix a faint smile, “Yeah, thanks for inviting me. Although, I didn’t think there’d be this many people here…” Your voice trailed off, as your eyes followed the line of people that were spaced around the pool’s edge, jumping into the blue-tinted water or chatting with alcohol in hand. 

 Felix ran a nervous hand through his blonde locks, grimacing quietly, “Jeongin said it was just gonna be a quiet thing. But, obviously, he invited more than just a few people.” Rolling his eyes at that, he motioned with a tilt of his head to the two empty chairs that were nearby. “Wanna roast a couple of marshmallows with me?” 

 “I’d love to.” You said with a grin, as you took a seat beside the fire. Immediately, the warmth enveloped you, calming your racing heart and forcing you to relax in your chair. 

 Your anxiety was just from the large party. 

 You had never been a big fan of immense crowds. 

 Yeah, it was definitely from that. 

Felix kept his gaze on you as he slid two fluffy white marshmallows onto separate roasting sticks. “I thought you were bringing Yeji tonight.” He gave you one of the sticks, and you soon leaned forward and slowly began to roast your marshmallow. 

 “She’s here- just off catching up with some of her old friends from high school,” you began, as you watched the flames lick around the whiteness, biting into the gooey skin and toasting it a beautiful brown colour. “You know how it can be sometimes… time slips past you when you meet friends from the past.” 

 Your eyes flitted over to his form then, and he caught your stare. The air seemed to halt around you, the tension snapping between you as his face darkened somewhat. The starry-night sky did little to brighten the atmosphere, the waning crescent moon shining high above your head and casting a light glow across his freckled cheeks. 

 Like the fucking elephant in the room, you both knew that your words were meant for more than just Yeji and her friends. 

 “Mhm- it can be a lot to deal with when you see old friends again.” He mused in a low voice, one that you knew was only meant for you to hear. His gaze slid away from you then, as he focused all his energy on smushing his browned marshmallow between two pieces of cinnamon graham crackers and a slab of milk chocolate. “Here,” he moved towards you, offering up the s’more with delicate fingers. 

 You snorted incredulously, pushing his hand away from your face, “That’s yours, Felix.” 

 “Well, I want you to have it.” 

 And before you could offer up any more protests, he was shifting against your side, shoving the sweet thing into your open hand. Fingers brushed across fingers, and you were jolted backward from the contact. From the softness of it all. From the feeling of his palm swiping against your knuckles. 

 “Besides, I’ve already had like, five tonight. I don’t need any more marshmallows for a while.” 

 Quietly, you took a tiny bite out of the warm dessert. The sugar burst across your tongue, and you were brought back to your childhood, during the days when you and Felix used to roast marshmallows on your parent’s porch deep into the summer months. 

 The melty center of the marshmallow reminded you of him. 

 The saccharine taste of it all remained you of him. 

 And suddenly, you no longer felt hungry for another s’more. 

 Eyes scanning over the fire pit, you caught sight of Chris. He was sprawled out in his chair, chuckling over something stupid that his friend was telling him with animated gestures. You could tell that the liquor was going straight to his head, making him dizzy and irrational. You always hated when he drank. He turned into a different person whenever he did. 

 Just as you were about to tell Felix that you didn’t want another s’more, a voice rang out from across your side. “Ayo- you made it Y/N… good to see you!” You peered up from your seat to see a beaming Jeongin. He reached out to you, rustling your hair playfully as he drew closer to the bonfire. 

 “It’s a bigger turnout than I thought it would be, that’s for sure.” You said, but you couldn’t help the smile that erupted across your face at the sight of your old acquaintance. It was good to meet up with the people from your childhood. It felt like you were taking a trip down memory lane, one which was endearing and peaceful, and full of happiness. 

 At least, most of the feelings you felt right then were joyful ones. 

 “I bring offerings,” Jeongin announced to the entire ground that sat around the fire pit, holding up the plethora of green beer bottles that he had clasped in either hand. “We’re about to play a lit game of truth or dare!” 

 Seungmin, one of Felix’s friends from high school, grumbled out from across the roaring flames. “Can you please stop using the word lit? It’s really fucking annoying and super outdated.” 

 Jeongin rolled his eyes dramatically, sticking out his tongue in defiance. “Get used to it bro- it’s my new favorite word.” 

 “You guys are so fucking ridiculous…” You heard Felix say under his breath from beside you. Nonetheless, you saw the fondness that crossed his face at the sight of his friends bickering together. Just like old times, it would seem. 

“The rules are, if you can’t tell the truth or do the dare, you have to take a shot,” Jeongin explained, as he picked a few empty solo cups off of the ground and began to fill them up with beer. “We’ll go clockwise, so… Jason, you start.” 

 The first player up was one of Chris’ friends, and he chose one of the girls that you didn’t know to pick truth or dare. She chose a dare and was forced to jump into the nearby pool fully clothed. Everyone around the campfire clapped in delight at how daring she was, and the game steadily continued from them. 

 Halfway through the first round, Yeji appeared from the backyard porch. “What’d I miss?” She asked, as he leaned over your shoulder and peered into the fire. 

 You shrugged, giving her arm a fond squeeze, “Nothing much, we’re just playing a few rounds of truth or dare. You wanna join in?” You watched as she found a lone chair somewhere off into the distance, dragging it towards the fire and plopping into it right beside you. And just like that, Yeji joined in on the fun. 

 The first three rounds passed in a blur of shots being thrown back and confessions being thrown around. You had avoided playing wholeheartedly, instead opting to take a few drinks in the wake of avoiding pressing truths or a crazy dare. 

 As the night passed on, the crowd of people around the pool seemed to grow, the music from inside the house getting louder and spilling out into the backyard. A few more people joined in on the game as time slipped by, and soon, you had a large group participating in the fun. The entire time, Felix hadn’t taken a sip of alcohol, instead opting to nurse his cherry coke. You guessed he must’ve been the assigned designated driver for the night for some of his friends. 

 Yeji lost her rights to drive by her third shot, and since everyone else was pretty shit-faced, that left only Felix as the completely sober one. The idea of having him drive you home sent a pang of hurt to course through your veins. You didn’t want to be a nuisance or bother him in the least bit. 

 “I choose… Chris!” Changbin, one of Felix’s older friends, shouted over the loudness of the party. It was his turn to pick his victim and you could tell his ideas were going to be bad - if his wide smirk was anything to go off of. “Truth or dare?” 

 Chris’ eyes were so glazed over, the red flames from the fire reflected off of his irises in an eery kind of way. His cheeks were dusted with a crimson flush from the liquor, a deep, toothy scowl permanently etched onto his lips. At that moment, you didn’t even want the others to know that he was your boyfriend. His drunkenness was too embarrassing. Albeit, a lot of the others were nearly blacked-out too, but something about Chris slurring his words and yelling loudly did something funny to your heart. Made it trip over itself and forced a lump to form in your throat.

 “I- choose… dare.” He mumbled elatedly, throwing his hands up into the air in defeat. But he seemed rather pleased to still be playing, to be given a dare that was cutthroat. He had always loved drinking games. 

 Changbin rubbed his hands together, grinning mischievously, “Alright… I dare you to… kiss the hottest girl here.” 

 You felt your heart drop into the pit of your stomach. You hadn’t expected the dare to turn out in that kind of sense. The others around the campfire let out dark chuckles, and you felt a shiver run down your spine as Chris shakily rose from his seat. 

 “Not even a fucking debate-” He started in a scratchy voice. As he neared you, you could feel your eyes widen painfully. 

 No, no, no, please don’t- 

But then just as you thought he was going to dip into your form, he was turning to your side, eyeing Yeji like she was a piece of meat. She was pretty shit-faced, but still had enough sense in her to blush profusely. 

 And just as Chris was about to lean into her for a drunken kiss, you found yourself shooting up from your spot, palms landing on his rigid chest as you pushed him back so hard he bumbled around the lawn like a complete drunk. 

 “What the fuck, Chris?!” You screamed, the tears already beginning to prick at the corners of your vision. Your boyfriend gave you a deep frown, the light in his eyes dimming to annoyance. You could feel the eyes of everyone on you guys, and the sounds of the party seemed to dim in the background, as you stared at your boyfriend with the hurt already beginning to bloom in your chest. “Why would you-”

 “I wasn’t actually going to kiss her, stupid!” He retorted back, chuckling at how stupid you had been. 

 And maybe you were being stupid. 

 Maybe you were overreacting. 

 After all, it was just some dumb drinking game. 

 It wasn’t that serious- 

 “Don’t call her stupid.” 

 Felix’s voice seemed to ring out across the entire yard, dancing around your ears and making your cheeks heat up in a peachy-pink colour. You turned to him, noticing the way he was scowling Chris’ way. He was up from his chair, fists clenched at his sides. It was hard to see through the tears that were steadily flowing down your cheeks, but you could faintly make out the taut line of his lips that were pressed into a displeased line. 

 “Felix, I-”

 But then you had no time to react, as one of his hands was clamping down around your forearm, yanking you backward and to his form. “Let’s get out of here.” He said in a low voice, as his hand trailed down your bare arm and his fingers threaded through your own. 

 Just as you were getting dragged away from the scene, Yeji stumbled out of her chair, calling out to you in a desperate plea, “Y/N, wait!” 

 Felix offered her no time to explain, as he pushed you through the crowd of people and into the house. He lead your wobbly legs the entire way, holding onto your hand firmly as it was hard to see through the mistiness of your vision. Finally, when you arrived at his car, he opened the passenger door and helped you into the seat. 

 When he had buckled himself into the driver’s seat and the ignition was roaring to life, Felix finally turned to face you. Reaching over the center consul of his car, he gave your hand a tight squeeze. 

 “Forget about him, yeah? He’s not worth your energy right now.” He said in a faint voice, one that graced over your ears and was a nice respite from the booming sounds of the party. 

 You roughly scrubbed at your eyes, trying to will the tears to stop. You were feeling so many emotions all at once… embarrassment, betrayal, but also… relief, to be taken out of such a situation so quickly. 

 “Where do you wanna go?” Felix asked upon your silence, and just then you managed to peel your eyes open, taking a glance at the clock on the dashboard and reading that it was well after midnight. “Home?” 

 You leaned your head against the black leather seat. It felt cold under your skin. Comforting, almost, to have something chilled touch your feverish cheeks. “No, I don’t want to sit alone in my room, not yet…” His face became clearer in your mind then, and you saw the way his mouth ticked up in a faint smile from your vulnerable admission that you didn’t want him to leave your side so soon.

 “Then I know just the place.” Felix mused in that silky, deep voice of his. And soon, he was pulling away from the curb of Jeongin’s home, merging onto the street and taking you to his mysterious location that would seemingly make everything better. The entire time he drove, his palm stayed pressed against yours, fingers threaded through yours. “You just focus on my hand, yeah? Don’t think about anything else…”

 Just like that, his soothing voice was lulling you into a mindless kind of stupor. With the bright town lights flashing around you as he drove steadily down the highway, you were brought into a listless state of limbo. 

 And he was right. 

 Focusing on him, and his touch was helping tremendously. 

 Helped take your mind off of everything, and all of your warring feelings. 

 And instead, all you could focus on was the way that his palm felt so soft pressed against yours. 

 The way his fingers fit so perfectly between yours. 

 Almost like, you had been destined to hold onto each other’s hands. 

To be continued...

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Hi!!! Your posts are always amazing and I have so many bookmarked because you create the best little collections. Anyway, I am in a big BL rut right now and I can't seem to get into anything. Any fast-paced, recs that can bring me out of my slump? Thanks so so much :)

Oooo, fast paced is pretty subjective lemme think...

Imma got with the narrative sense of the word pacing (rather than just an in-your-face fast-moving plot, although that too,) so: good tension, craft, and narrative. Here's my pulls - I went broad and into the well, in case you had seen some recent stuff.

10 Fast-Paced BLs to Pull You Out of a Slump

(I'm assuming you have seen KinnPorsche)

I did a quick pitch for each cause I'm drunk so maybe they're funny, all spelling errors are my own and the result of growing up in 3 different English speaking nations and 2 non-English ones.

Someone wanted more elevator pitches a while ago, here ya go!

Our Dating Sim - nerds in love, reunion, deadlines, gaming, teasing, pining tiny idiots, ADORABLE

2. Semantic Error - you cannot be a BL fan and not have watched this, the ultimate enemies to lovers, also the prettiest

3. To My Star - neurotic actor (actual puppy), grumpy chef, sparks, cooking lessons, LOVE!

4. We Best Love - defines fast paced in romance, literally when asked why his character fell in love so fast Yu said, "well I only had one 20 minute episode." Yet... we BELIEVED IT.

5. HIStory 2: Crossing the Line - it's a perfect sports romance, don't bother me with trifles

6. Not Me - also how do you say antidisestablishmentarianism in Thai? + hot boys kissing who probably shouldn't be and convoluted soap opera identical twins plot... someone at GMMTV thought it made sense, we just here for the tattoos and the the Pride scene

7. The Eighth Sense - who let Korea be this angsty? SO MUCH TENSION.

8. Unintentional Love Story - omg the plot, forced into a totally understandable betrayal, falling in love despite himself, put into a corner he can't get out of, the AGONY, the eyes EMOTING at us in PAIN

9. HIStory 3: Trapped - hot cop falls in love with hotter mafia boss he is chasing for MURDER (bonus weirdly domesticated switch-blade wielding hit-man obsessed with geeky police tech support - COME ON)

10. Long Time No See - assassins, cat fishing, either side of a turf war, HOT sex scenes then even hotter beating the shit out of each other and kissing while COVERED IN BLOOD (this came from KOREA?)

There.

All kinds of flavors.

One of them just HAS to work!

If not, you could go for shorts. Try Strongberry:

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Hi I LOVE luis and I LOVE Serennedy and I’m SO HAPPY you have asks on!!

Anyways I was laughing to myself this morning about Luis’s first words to Leon being in English. Ik it’s just for the benefit of the players of re4r BUT I like to think that he only had to take one look at blonde, thicc, gun-clad Leon and go “yeah that’s an American, better speak English” like logically that’s a Spanish man in his isolated Spanish village, so he had no other reason to NOT speak Spanish there!!! He clocked Leon so fast lolol.

That’s not really question but wanted to share my brainrot. So uhhh, read any good Serennedy fics lately?

TUMBLR DELETED MY EXTREMELY LOMG ANSWER TO THIS AND I AM S O MAD BUT YOU HAVE SUCH A BIG MASSIVE BRAIN I JUST H A D TO DRAW YOUR CONCEPT

((Also not to plug my own art or anything but my main is @wisecrackingeric-2 if you wanna see more stuff like that!!!!))

BUT OH MY GOD?? Y E S ?????????? HOW HAVE I NEVER THOUGHT OF THIS BEFORE HOLY CRAP Leon’s big bodacious behind and jokes aside I REALLY WISH we got to see more of Luis using Spanish in casual conversation!!!!!! Like clearly he’s both VERY fluent in English and Spanish and uses them both interchangeably but GOD I WISH WE GOT TO HEAR LIKE A FULL CONVERSATION BETWEEN HIM AND MENDEZ OR SOMETHING. Like that opening scene in seperate ways???? MUWAH. IT WAS SO COOL. ANYWAYS YOUR ACTUAL QUESTION YES I HAVE S O MANY FIC RECS I CAN GIVE YOU!!!!!

‘Nothing Fades Like The Light’ by @greasedcowboy is genuinely possibly my favourite fanfiction of all time. I’ve never had to go lay down on my bathroom floor because of a fic until this one HXNEHENDIX

‘Another Time’ by @hamartia-grander is S U C H AN INCREDIBLY WELL PACED time travel fic with the most GUT WRENCHING plot twists EVER’

‘I Carry All My Sins’ by @mooseonahunt I don’t. I don’t even wanna spoil this one. Just. Just read it totally blind

‘Loves For Show’ by @theprestigegirly Is S U C H a good fake-dating slowburn fic which is H I G H PRAISE coming from someone who usually isn’t a fan of the genre!!!!!!!! Seriously if you like beautiful wording and gorgeous depictions of raw human emotion this one’s for you!!!!!!!!!!!!

‘We’ll Be Alright’ by @ugetelynx IS SO GOOD. GOD ITS SO GOOD MAN. It’s a S U P E R unique AU and the way Lynx weaves the story and takes you along the path of these two slowly learning how to live a life with one another- MWUAH. LITERALLY SO GORGEOUS. Prepare to have your soul ripped out of your ribcage

‘Redemption Of The Guilty’ by Sylanna!!!!! Again another one where I’m like just!!!! Go read it!!!!!!!! I don’t wanna spoil it!!

‘Digital Man’ by @geddy-leesbian CHILDHOOD FRIENDS AU CHILDHOOD FRIENDS AU CHILDHOOD FRIENDS AU (<- going insane pounding my fists on a wooden table)

‘Renovations’ by Gayhorrorboy IS SO CHARMING AND FULL OF GENUINE LOVE FOR THE SUBJECT AT HAND!!!!! I’ve been watching my friend work on this fic for MONTHS now and I can say with confidence it was made with so much love and care I can’t reccomend it enough!!!!

I W O U L D be tacky and add my own fics to this list but I haven’t stooped that low yet HANDHDNSJX if you’re curious though my AO3 handle is just WisecrackingEric!!!

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elliot's 2023 fic wrap up

2022 version

alright friends it is once again time for me to review the (many) fics i read in the previous year and try to write a more or less concise rec list of my absolute faves (i wish i didn't have to chose but heh i'm not gonna subject anyone to 332 fics in 1 post - also wait only 332 fics? that's like. over 100 less than last year, what the fuck. anyway)

okay now first the part that interests no one but me (yes you may skip this) and that's the numbers part! i'm not making a whole elaborate spreadsheet to then not throw around cool numbers. anyway.

i've read around 4,932k words in 332 fics across 18 fandoms. that is much less than last year, and yeah, i've been generally less productive in 2023 but we don't have to talk about it. at least i have more variety of fandoms this time (let's ignore that it's only 2 more and also that from fandom 13 on there's only 1 fic per fandom)

i started out the year strong with 847k words across 72 fic in february (followed by 753k across 42 fics in january, and 621k words across 63 fics in march). it goes downhill for the rest of the year. eh it wasn't my year so what! 2024 is gonna be more filled with fic reading again!!!

my top 3 fandoms are so entirely unsurprising to me i am almost disappointed in myself. when did i become so predictable. top fandom is young royals with 166 fics! congratulations young royals, you are a very persistent hyperfixation, you didn't peter out after 2 months like i expected. Spot number 2 is taken by avatar the last airbender with 41 fics! giant leap there, but it's also funny because i fell into an atla rabbit hole late 2023 (as i do every few years) and it still got up to 41 fics despite uni not allowing me to read last semester (uni is evil). Same as last year, spn takes third place with 38 fics. speaking of persistent hyperfixations.......... *big sigh*

and that is it the boring part is over let's go to the fun section LET'S REC SOME FIIIIIICCCCSSSSSSS (under the cut)

JANUARY

bet you you'll ... (noraverse) (series) by @gh0sthugs | young royals, wilmon | teen&up | 52k words

a kid fic!! and such a sweet one too! i'm kinda weak for kid fics ngl, and nora is so sweet and wonderful, and the relationship that slowly forms between wille and simon is beautiful and comfortable. this whole series is just such a good time

spreadsheet notes: ah to fall in love with the dilf next door who also happens to be the ex crown prince of the country

A Royal Intervention by AnxiousAnaconda | young royals, wilmon | teen&up | 18k words

erik is being such a dumbass in this one. like, he means well, but he's kinda messing up and pissing people off (understandably). it's nice to get a view on erik that's not portraying him as this perfect guy though, and the fic is actually so much fun to read. and hey, the prime minister of luxembourg gets mentioned, which i was kinda waiting for in yr fic ngl

spreadsheet notes: big sigh... erik you fucking idiot. stop listening to august. also shoutout to xavier bettel apparently (edit: this aged poorly, fuck xavier bettel)

and each slow dusk by @if-fortunate | young royals, wilmon | mature | 49k words

okay. ooookay how do i even begin with this one. ohhh boy. okay. so. world war three. wille gets stuck in bjärstad with simon, many many things happen, it's about finding hope in a horrible situation and trying to live life despite everything falling apart around you. it's incredibly well written and something about it just has me in awe

spreadsheet notes: i don't know what it says about me that this is without a shadow of a doubt the best fic i have ever read in my life

Put Me Back Together and Take My Heart by @notalotgoingonatthisinstant | young royals, wilmon | mature | 50k words

i once again don't know what to say, this one is sooo good. simon is suffering and both wille and i hate it, but... but wille is there for him and ugh, they just... they just can't be apart. a story of reconciliation and healing from both physical and invisible wounds, and of making the right decisions for yourself

spreadsheet notes: ugh. UGH. my guys. MY GUYS. yeah let's go blackmail the queen

Department Six by @thisdiscontentedwinter | teen wolf | gen | 4k words

a fun short one about stiles and danny working for the fbi and being delightfully weird and mysterious

spreadsheet notes: HILARIOUS i'm in love with outsider pov always

FEBRUARY

There Are No Wolves in California by @thisdiscontentedwinter | teen wolf, sterek | gen | 5k words

you know, sometimes you see a fic you know is going to hurt you, and you've never clicked on anything faster. this is definitely one of those fics

spreadsheet notes: let's be wolves today yeah well derek what if i just break down and cry instead

you got my body, i got your body by @prince-simon | young royals, wilmon | explicit | 9k words

this one's technically part of a bigger series (which, definitely read that one too), but i'm highlighting this one cause... damn... this made me feel things... like, gender things... which is really weird cause wille's gender in this is very much different from mine BUT STILL

spreadsheet notes: how almost 9k of pwp gave me so many gender feelings i will never understand

Changing Channels: Queer Premiere by @emeraldcas, @fellshish | spn, deancas | gen | 27k words

this might actually be one of the funniest fics i've ever read. dean and cas are so stupid (affectionately) and all the crossovers are delightful (bonus that i knew all the other shows). everyone go read this it's gonna be the best time

spreadsheet notes: mel and fells have genuinely outdone themselves this is the most hilarious shit i've ever read

Catalyst by @stretchoutfics | young royals | teen&up | 3k words

a backstory for boris! this fic is within a series of other side character ficlets, but this one has a soft spot in my heart

spreadsheet notes: AAAAHHHH HE KNEW ABOUT THE RECKLESS DRIVING BUT DIDN'T BRING IT UP but also... him being a gay man trying to help the queer crown prince navigate his sexuality that's kinda nice actually, like boris understands at least a bit

The most beautiful boy by lovelysarcastic | young royals, wilmon | teen&up | 88k words

there's something incredibly grounding about this fic. the way it develops, the way wille rationalises his thought processes, the way the relationship between wille and simon develops... this fic just kinda sucked me in and spit me out again feeling... content and calm and... it's just... this fic is so beautiful

spreadsheet notes: dude i love this so much??? they're both so stupid??? i love them???

MARCH

All's Fair in Love and Hunting by @badjoices | spn, deancas | mature | 20k words

they're playing gay chicken but also are being incredibly competitive and stupid about it, and i'm just sorry about the shit sam has to witness. so many shenanigans in this fic

spreadsheet notes: they are both so stupid omg

["mi cotufita" started sharing their screen] by @omar-rudeberg | young royals, wilmon | explicit | 60k

so... this is a follow up to one of my favourite fics and it is a delight. very horny but also very sweet? and also for some reason there's porn. fun times! oh, and this fic made me cry. it really has the range

spreadsheet notes: how are they so horny it's so funnyyyyyy, but also if i were wille i could never look linda in the eyes again

A Light To Guide You In The Dark (Warmed By The Fire's Glow) by 80shairmetal | stranger things, harringrove | teen&up | 19k words

this is just... people taking care of each other out of the kindness of their hearts. finding comfort in strangers who become family. growing and helping each other. there's such a beauty to this one

spreadsheet notes: this is just..... comfort

did you see the love in my eyes, oh were you gazing through this disguise? by @tooindecisivetopickaurl | young royals, wilmon | mature | 67k words

fake dating my beloved. they're so in love with each other but they're pretending not to be while pretending... to be? i'm obsessed with them. but they're so respectful with each other and cautious of boundaries and they really are best friends who also happen to be obliviously in love

spreadsheet notes: love a good fake dating au they're so stupid i love them

flash like a setting sun by @playedwright | 911, buddie | explicit | 22k words

because you only realise you're in love with your best friend when you're scared you're losing him. that's the fic. and it's beautiful

spreadsheet notes: oh this is sooooo beautifully written and ugh just <333

Other people's secrets by @sflow-er | young royals, walty & wilmon | mature | 239k words

yooooo hello? so first off this is an outsider pov on wilmon which i am always obsessed with anyways but the focus isn't just on them, this is henry's story. it's a beautiful story about how friendships form and warp and change, how feelings manifest in different ways, how decisions and actions have consequences. it's an incredibly mature take on post-s1, and it's probably my favourite of the year. also ace representation!!!!

spreadsheet notes: ace henry my beloved <33 also love seeing wilmon from an outside perspective! such a good, well thought out fic with lots of healthy comminication <33

APRIL

if i stare too long by @brawlite & @toast-ranger-to-a-stranger | stranger things, harringroveson | explicit | 191k words

i haven't seen st s4 (and probably won't watch it) but that definitely won't stop me from reading harringroveson fic. i mean, who wouldn't look at those three and immediately want to see them together. the way their dynamic is written in this fic is peak, i don't even know what more to say. i also very much trust these authors with billy, and again i wasn't disappointed. there's just something in his head that's intriguing.

spreadsheet notes: this whole fic is such a vibe it makes me feel of hot summer chillin

MAY

Rewrite the Stars (series) by @in-amor-veritas | young royals, wilmon | mature | 137k words

definitely one of the highlights of the year, simon's whole life in new york... those scenes, they just show such a wonderful life simon has built for himself, and his relationship with wille doesn't change it, but he manages to fit in (after, you know, fun rom-com drama shenanigans). also. this is a kid fic. kid fics are my weak spot. rasmus is my new favourite little guy. also shoutout to luis best side character ever

spreadsheet notes: YELLING i love this fic sooo much it is everything

Where The Wind Will Carry Me by @1-life-to-give | young royals, wilmon | teen&up | 49k words

AND THEY WERE ACTORS PLAYING LOVE INTERESTS. do i have to say more? the tension guys the TENSION. also erik's side-plot i'm in love

spreadsheet notes: hopping up and down like a hyperactive chihuahua EN I LOVE THIS

Your love is my turning page (the t4t wilmon as girldads au) (series) by @willesworld | young royals, wilmon | teen&up | 17k words

i know i know another kid fic BUT!!!! t4t wilmon. makes it automatically superior. i'm not even kidding, add trans characters and i will like your fic (that i probably already like a lot) aroun 300000000 times more. but also this series comes for your feelings. it hits

spreadsheet notes: i am weak for t4t wilmon AND them having a biological child there's something so beautiful about it like that could be meeee ; siiimon i need to hug him and i need to hug wille they're gonna get out of this i prommy ; recovery and one step forwards a hundred steps back, but they made it there in the end ; they were so happy :((((

JUNE

A trace of dew by nuncflore | elden ring, this is too complicated | gen | 13k words

very elden ring-esque writing style, wonderful representation of whatever the hell is going on in the lore. hehehehehhe fucked up family ehhehehehe DIVORCE. my friends are so talented :))

spreadsheet notes: CAP I AM EATING YOU

Hanging from the Ceiling by @spicymiilk | spiderverse | teen&up | 6k words

for like. a week after i saw the new spiderverse movie i made miles 42 my entire life. that also meant reading this fic. and damn did this fic hit. i am still thinking about it

spreadsheet notes: i need more miles 42 content he is my favourite guy ever

The Darkest Little Paradise by @yourdemiurge | young royals, wilmon | explicit | 79k words

*holding you at gunpoint* read this fic. read it now, in this moment. you are not gonna regret it. believe me when i say you NEED this fic, you really do. doesn't even matter if you've seen yr or not. you're gonna thank me later

spreadsheet notes: THIS IS INSANE I CAN'T BREATHE MADY WHAT THE FUUUUUCK

JULY

Protected (series) by bastuba | young royals, wilmon | explicit | 69k words

hey do you ever read a fic and you just feel. so incredibly grounded because something about the characters feels grounded? like, they aren't grounded, but they still give off that vibe? idk how to explain this properly but that's this fic. also wille and simon cook together (i haven't read all parts of the series yet btw)

spreadsheet notes: incredibly grounded very mature how is wille like this ; i'd be like wille, always complaining about the heat ; they're soooooo. idiots. getting tattoos for each other ; i too would come out on a podcast about food ; SAFE SEX

AUGUST

The Season of Rebirth by @notalotgoingonatthisinstant | young royals, wilmon | mature | 30k words

part of a series, but i'm picking out this one specifically because it's soooo sweet!!! the title fits the fic so well, like yes it is the season of rebirth, but simon and wille's relationship is also rehashed in a very cool way, this fic is like one giant easter egg, i love it so much!

spreadsheet notes: wille taking the season of rebirth to recreate their early relationship, i am obsessed with him he's such a dumbass romantic

The Upgrade by @groenendaelfic | young royals, wilmon | explicit | 13k words

it's about the moment simon realises who wille is. that's why this fic is here. i mean of course also because it is very good, but mainly because of that moment

spreadsheet notes: the moment simon realised who wille is i am wheezing

Right Where You Left Me by @armandgender | spn, deancas | explicit | 94k words

if you're wondering why this fic is on my 2023 list instead of the 2022 list.... well that's because it took me almost a year to read the last chapter, and in terms of how my spreadsheet works, that makes it a fic i read in 2023. anyway. if you haven't read this fic yet, what are you even still doing here. click on that link right now. you want complex emotional situations? intricacies of ill-advised marriages? you wanna pick through abusive behaviour and encourage infidelity? well you're at the right place! also this has one of my favourite jack characterisations ever. it also made me go on multiple rants

spreadsheet notes: I FINALLY FINISHED IT AAAAHHHH I LOVE THIS FIC THE CABIN THE CATS JACK!!!!!

Alejito y Marimar (series) by th0ughts | red, white, and royal blue | teen&up | 18k words

OBSESSED WITH THIS DYNAMIC YOOOOOO. seriously the friendship between alex and martha is an expansion of the rwrb universe that is much needed, trust me

spreadsheet notes: the friendship i didn't know i needed in my life <333 ; they're just chillin!!!

SEPTEMBER

Change of Address (series) by hearmerory | avatar: the last airbender, zukka | mature | 134k words

okay. oooookay. strap in for this one, it is a lot. emotionally. like yes zuko is autistic, yes yes yeeees, i agree, also azula is treated like an actual person with actual mental issues, she deserves to be treated with care and this author definitely does that! this is the kind of series that makes me want to disappear in it, but it's also the kind of story i need breaks from, because it is so heavy (definitely check the tags for this one). zuko's relationship with sokka is written so thoughtfully and iroh is characterised incredibly and the author even included ursa in a way that didn't undermine everything that happened in the series before she appeared again. i can only recommend this one!

spreadsheet notes (there's lots of parts to the series, so this one is long): hhhh if i were ms jamieson i would have snapped after two days probably ; be nice katara!!!!! he's nervous ; i need to murder ozai ; and i need to murder zhao as well ; iroooohhhhh he should have just. taken the kids with him that first time he noticed something off ; yeah i think there was a reason why iroh never took zuko to the movies ; ozai needs to suffer ; i need to destroy ozai. violently and painfully ; iroh is the best uncle ever, zuko deserves all his kindness ; azula...... you don't have to fight for affection, it's not a competition..... they love you ; iroh should have taken her with him the first time around, she was like. 10, he could have just picked her up or sth ; ..... hakoda you idiot ; IROH BACKSTORY IROH BACKSTORY ; sokka and the plan that changed his life <3333 ; they are so soft with each other ; they all deserve all the therapy and support and yes sokka obviously you have adhd get with the program ; URSA??????? also i am living for sokka and azula's dynamic they are everything ; i don't. i don't understand her. i don't fucking understand her how could she not want her own children. how can she talk about them like that. like she knows them she doesn't know them she LEFT

Every night my teeth are falling out by @sulkybender | avatar: the last airbender, zukka | mature | 9k words

i was in need of some good zuko angst and oooohhh boy was i lucky to find this author. PEAK zuko angst. this fic in particular is very dear to me because it explores how mental illnesses would be handled in a world where there's practically no resources to help. i think we need that more

spreadsheet notes: yes well. how DO you deal with a schizophrenic fire lord in a fantasy world? (you stay with him and support him that is how)

OCTOBER

for years or for hours by @ghostinthelibrarywrites | the witcher, geralt/eskel/jaskier | explicit | 52k words

listennn i love myself some good polyamory fics, and this is the first fic i read for this ship and now i am OBSESSED with them. but this fic in particular.... the concept alone, like. what do you do when you thought the man you love was dead for 800 years, and then when he comes back you have another man you love. the answer is simple. polyamory. the two men you love also love each other. perfect coincidence.

spreadsheet notes: YO the concepts of witchers in modern times alone is sooo cool but adding in everything else? hello yes?

this is a love story by @achillestiel | supernatural, deancas | mature | 3k words

listen, i've never seen fleabag, but that's not the point. this is intriguing and funny, that's the point

spreadsheet notes: fucked up families and you want to fuck the priest hell yeah

The road not taken looks real good now by @stretchoutfics | young royals, wilmon | explicit | 90k words

it's not even the wilmon part i love about this fic (i very much enjoy it of course don't get me wrong) but wille and his kids. like, i don't want to spoil anything but like. wille's interactions with his kids are so important in this fic, and they're written so well. like, emilia is my favourite character in this, i kinda wish there was more with the kids honestly. this fic is definitely a highlight of the year, and to get back to wilmon, i do love how they're portrayed in this fic, how their dynamic plays out, and specifically how certain decisions do not depend on simon

spreadsheet notes: no but. the care put into this story. i can't--

NOVEMBER

Averno (series) by @sulkybender | avatar: the last airbender, zukka | mature | 12k words

a fascinating take on a fire lord zuko that was never part of the gaang

spreadsheet notes: HE JUST DESERVES KINDNESS but also he's a little fucked up WELL NO WONDER GIVE HIM KINDNESS ; i mean.... what makes a monster really ; well then let's get him out of his cell shall we (also hiiiii suki hello <3333)

Half Awake in Our Fake Empire by @hmslusitania | 9-1-1, buddie | teen&up | 34k words

another kid fic!!! but in a different fandom this time!!! seriously, giving buck a child fills so many of my life's needs it's ridiculous

spreadsheet notes: THEY'RE A FAMILY (thank you for giving that man a child)

a soldier (who carries a mighty sword) by @ghostinthelibrarywrites | the witcher, geralt/eskel/jaskier | explicit | 92k words

everything about this fic is wonderful!! the world(kaer morhen!!)building, the developing dynamic between geralt, jask, and eskel, ciri and yenn, the conflict, jask as a teacher!!!! aaahhhhh!

spreadsheet notes: they're my new favourite guyssss this whole fic is so cool, what they've done with kaer morhen <3333

Will We Last the Night by CSHfic & VSfic | avatar: the last airbender, zukka | teen&up | 143k words

this fic asks what if sokka had been stuck with zuko since the end of s1 and delivers a delightful answer. this is the adventures of zuko and sokka (and sometimes iroh) travelling through the earth kingdom. shenanigans ensue

spreadsheet notes: i am obsessed with this i'm just. i know it was only shortly but their life in ba sing se. obsessed

DECEMBER

Grudge Match by @catcas22 | elden ring | gen | 17k words

i'm not entirely sure how to explain this. it sure is an elden ring fic

spreadsheet notes: i don't even know what to say. this is ridiculous and brilliant and stupid and genius all at the same time. hell yeah suburban demigods

Lonely Digging by @toast-ranger-to-a-stranger | stranger things, harringrove | teen&up | 3k words

this is hilarious. go read it to unlock intense life-threatening flirting

spreadsheet notes: best way to flirt billy's doing everything right

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(quick note: i’ve tried to find everyone’s tumblr handle, but i’m aware that not all the authors have tumblr/have it on their ao3, however if i somehow missed someone, i can go back and rectify that!)

if you’ve made it all the way down here i am giving you a kiss <3

[victoriartdrawings]

So here's the promised part 2 of the Zonami fics rec!!

Part 1 can be found here

(i havent got the time to read or do much on this blog and post the rec with all college stuff last week and the beginning of class, sorry !!)

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/10264637/1/The-Bounty

Already recommended it in the 1st rec (author dreamsinword ) but i still put it again here because i'm in love with her writing, and frankly the experience not only made me smile like in the manga, (Zoro and Nami dynamics, (besides the obvious romantic tones) and the rest of the crew are on point! ) but it nails the characterization of everyone, and with OCs that you feel could belong in Oda's world!!!!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/37865146

(warnings: if ABO genre is not to your liking then dont read this one!)

So i only went through 1 chapter,( it has 11 chapters up) but so far (which is, not very far, but bear with me 😅) it doesnt seem to fall into the cliche of the'strong omega who doesnt like alpha but in the end falls under the alpha's charm anyway because uuh uh, sexy and smells goood!!!!- a trope that i personally hate because of consent issues... (no flames if you love it though 🙃)

it describes the strawhats crew with a dialogue that seems pretty thoughful (of what the scenario want to do and tell us) and not just in a way it only copies the anime (luffy screamed: i'm hungry!! Nami said: Baka!/ Robin was reading in a chair and Franky was building something that i found often in fic). (also i love any Abo writers who dont focus totally on smut, smells, dominance, and physical side of the genre and rather works on the system, the world and how the implications of the second sex impact the psychology and story as a whole! ) that said, the story seems promising!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/48206047

@cutieininferno on tumblr!!!!

fic where you feels the very obvious attraction between them (but without the too much cringy emotionally stuff like 'he had nice abs, sexy and she was love with him! so strong!) but it still make room for the plot and you want to know what happens next!! (also bonus point for including the witch nickname in the actual plot, love it!! ) all in all, go read it what can i say more beside im sad there isnt more kudos???!!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/22678642

Good plot. Nami centric (and her origins), friends - to lovers, i enjoyed that one too!

One shots, short fics

https://www.fanfiction.net/u/776756/Rasetsu

Sweets little drabbles,

angstier than the previous one (and can be read as friendship)

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/2430733/1/Because

oh boy this one is a little messy but it hurts in the best way (also mention of implicit sex) love the 'mature' take on them!

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6358367/1/Small-Steps

more friendship, and analysis of Nami from Zoro pov

https://www.fanfiction.net/s/6375303/1/Moments-Like-These

how to write perfect Zonami in 642 words. No comments.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/49450201

ANgst angst angst, implied sex, sort of...friends with benefit, (still happy ending) again, from Zoro pov!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/8336653

They made out in the storage room. this is uditory torture for the rest of the crew. I laughed during this one!!!

https://archiveofourown.org/works/8330107

again, a make out, a drunken kiss and a stupid competition. Love it.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/1128823

Drabbles so sweet i have to brush my teeth.

https://archiveofourown.org/works/8336968

One shot abt Zoro first time - do you know how much i like this headcanon???? no? now you know. Virgin Zoro with accidental rizz is awesome!! (Luffy is always this element in the fic who made me crack up!!!)

[evernkillian]

Tomarry/Harrymort Fanfiction Recs | One- Shot Edition; Part 1

Standard Rec Lists Disclaimers Apply: Please for the love of God read the tags and Author's Note/s, This is NOT the ultimate rec lists or whatever, the fics below are my cup of tea.

Also, I tried my best to make the Quotes I included spoiler free but if you think it is just tell me!

(also I have more fic recs! Here)

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1. naïve melody by TheOnceandFutureQueenofTarts

G | 2.9k Words

Summary: “You invited me to go to a fair with you,” Voldemort says levelly. “Because we’re going to battle to the death soon.”

Well, when he puts it like that.

Fluff beloved. They understand each other the way only enemies can. Voldemort as the Drama Expert™ also accidental date 👀

Voldemort returns, looking punchably smug and carrying the largest stuffed lion Harry has ever seen. Competitive git. Harry holds his stuffed snake a little tighter and ignores the feeling of rejection. He’d meant it as a joke, anyway; there’s nothing to be disappointed about. Voldemort clears his throat. “I propose a trade.” And he holds out the stuffed lion to Harry, his other hand gesturing for the snake. Oh. Harry hands over the snake hesitantly and accepts the lion in turn. Did we just win each other stuffed animals? he thinks.

2. Breaking More Taboos by Destiny_Of_A_Dragon

M | 3.3k Words

Summary: The first time Harry broke the taboo, he’d been beyond starving, with little to no choice. The second and third times were much the same.

But the fourth?

That’s when everything changed.

I KNOW I RAVED ABOUT IT ALREADY BUT. IT DESERVES REPEATING. LIKE PLS. THIS FIC HAD ME IN A CHOKEHOLD AJSVSHSBSHSH. Also, Deliciously Dark Harry. Voldemort saw that darkness, and moved. When I crave dark Harry who's oblivious he's dark- I read this. Sadly no favorite quote since spoilers 😔

3. Roads Untaken by wynnebat (@wynnefic)

T | 3k Words

Summary: Harry wanted to be outraged on behalf of the castle that he still considered to be his home. Hogwarts didn't deserve to have a piece of Tom Riddle lodged inside it like a particularly vicious splinter.

But there was something he was annoyed about even more than the fact that he was once again alive at the same time as a once and future dark lord. For the first time in his life, he sympathized with Voldemort, and knew that in this one instance, Voldemort might sympathize with him.

Harry looked at Tom head-on, and said, "Albus Dumbledore is a bastard."

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Both turned down for the position of Hogwarts DADA professor, Tom and Harry have a few things to say to each other.

Ahvshsvs laughing at Dumbledore in this fic. "I am happy to have done right by you.", He says, while making another mistake. Aberforth, Tom & Harry bonding over insulting Albus. They got drunk and planned to build a new school- it was hilarious.

"Do you want to grab a drink at the Hog's Head? Dumbledore's brother works there. He can join us in insulting Dumbledore."

4. V Is For Vampire by duplicity (@duplicitywrites )

T | 13k Words

Summary: One cursed night over seventy years ago, Harry agreed to bite Tom and turn him into a vampire. Flash forward to today, when Tom hires a rag-tag group of starving film students to film a documentary about their lives as two totally platonic vampire pals.

Because Tom thinks their life as vampires is interesting enough for mainstream media.

Because he’s crazy.

Harry should have just let Tom die of old age like any other sane person would have done.

What really endeared me to the Vampire Harry and/or Vampire Tom troupe. COFFIN SHOPPING!!! (⁠≧⁠▽⁠≦⁠) They're idiots who love each other very much. You know that love strengthened, and deepened with time? Yeah, like that. They're everything for each other. I love the whole crew (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠). Harry's endearing habit of knitting clothes for Tom. Artist Harry who draws (or redraws, as Tom makes a...sketch first) Tom's coffin designs ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ. Vampire Ollivander [insert shaky eyes]. Ginny is our lord and savior for putting up with these idiots. Ron Weasley is also our savior- because of him there are no....casualties. Jealous Tom [insert shaky red eyes]. Fluff- seriously, I read this when I need a pick me up (⁠ ⁠˘⁠ ⁠³⁠˘⁠)⁠♥. Also Honorary mention to Tom Riddle's Hair Curl™

Harry laid a hand on Tom’s chest and said, “Okay.” Tom’s anger floundered, replaced with confusion. The harsh, inhuman lines of his face smoothed out as he tilted back, withdrawing from Harry’s touch like it had burned him. “I said okay,” Harry told him. “I do have you, don’t I? You’re right. I choose to be here, with you, and I’ve done that for about seventy years now.”

5. Sola Fide by crowthing (@crowcrowcrowthing )

M | 7.9k Words

Summary: Surely what he was dealing with was some level of deity, because quite suddenly the man was standing in front of him. No trace of apparition, no burst of speed. The man had parted through space and now towered over him, translucent and human-like.

Harry offered up his bleeding hand.

Hermit Harry- still magical, though. His lifestyle is so calming, no kidding (⁠ ⁠╹⁠▽⁠╹⁠ ⁠). I love the world building (?) In it where it shows his simple life. Love the cute niffler and the gnome family (⁠ ⁠ꈍ⁠ᴗ⁠ꈍ⁠). Harry taking care of his magical garden and Voldemort supplying the rare seeds ಥ⁠‿⁠ಥ. *Screams* BWVSSGSVSGSGGS VEE AND HARRY'S RELATIONSHIP IS JUST 👌. Mutual Devotion [insert vibing emoji].

Blood glared against pale skin, ruby-bright, gathering in bunches and trickling down a bare chest. The man was so much taller than Harry, so much more, even while still so insubstantial. He eclipsed the world, staring down with those red, unblinking eyes and such pale, scaled skin.

He leaned in to rasp into Harry’s ear, “Worship me.”

[autisticlancemcclain]

fic rec friday 17

welcome the the seventeenth fic rec friday! where, on friday, i rec five of my favourite fics.

1. got got got it bad by @kairiolette

"He leans in to hook his arm around Keith’s shoulders in full. It’s right in Keith ear, when he speaks. “I have a crush on someone new, like, every week.”

“No—it's not someone.” Keith brings his head up, and it feels as heavy on his neck as if it were his center of gravity, and he meets Lance’s eyes with his own. Keith doesn’t mean to communicate something through their silence, he just kind of gets caught up in staring at Lance’s face, which tends to happen lately. Sharp features, cheekbones and chin. Impossible eyes and a loud mouth as expressive as his eyebrows. But Lance seems to come to some understanding on his own. He sits back in a rare, rare moment of speechlessness, that mouth of his slightly pursed and twitching in its search for words in what can only be, though Keith doesn’t know much about body language, immense confusion on the brink of realization."

Or: Keith acknowledges his feelings for Lance and promptly goes through the five stages of grief.

what have i said about fics from 2016!!! just the end note and the end made me LAUGH like i couldnt help reading this. they are so stupid and so lame and i love them so much. if u like 5+1 and u like klance being annoying i highly recommend

2. Wicked rather than virtuous by 2dick2down [EXLPICIT]

No one ever told you how hard it was to be sexy during a Washington winter, especially not Fifty Shades of Grey, which Lance often felt like the star of. And, all right, in all fairness, Keith wasn’t Christian Grey levels of wealthy, and he didn’t have any secret sex rooms, and Lance was not with him because he’d signed his ass over to a repressed BDSM god.

Don’t get Lance wrong. Keith was definitely a repressed rich boy. It was just that he was Mr. Grey’s inverse: the type of repressed rich boy you had to beg to spank you and even then there was no telling if he’d have to leave the room afterwards because he felt so torn up with guilt at having to hurt you. Which he didn’t. Or, well, he did, but Lance liked it. Enough to ask for it, anyway.

And was that honestly so crazy?

okay so honestly this is a porn fic. BUT it is a porn fic that also has a plot, and the plot is actually pretty sweet. the crowning jewel of this fic tho is how fucking funny it is. like i was genuinely laughing out loud on several occasions. i will provide for you an example of such:

“Let me cook for you, since you so rudely interrupted my attempts to feed you last night.”

“I don’t know,” Lance said. “If I remember correctly, I was stuffed for most of the night.”

Keith let that sit between them untouched.

“I know you want to laugh.”

it’s so funny. this is one of many moments. read it trust me

3. you build your tower (but call me home) by @parchmints

In the land of Arus, the youngest Nalquodian prince—Prince Leandro—is hidden away in a little castle that overlooks the kingdom; a countermeasure to protect him from the Galran assassins that have sworn to take his life.

And in the tallest tower of the castle, behind a grimy rose window and under a dusty sheet, is an enchanting gargoyle that the prince finds himself compelled to visit every day.

Almost as if by a spell...

idk what it is about me and gargoyle fics. im obsessed. this one in particular blew me away!! the plot was EXCELLENT, magic and fantasy and royalty that doesnt suck. so much fun and SO much intrigue. i read this the first time and literally could not put it down, and then when i finished i scrolled right back up to the top and reread it

4. you’re lucky that’s what i like by zenstrike

Lance rescues a hamster from certain doom.

or, Lance has Keith wrapped around his little finger and doesn’t even realize it.

okay this description is from the first work in the series and it does not do the whole thing justice omg. i am OBSESSED with this series. a month or so ago i was freaking out on here bc it was updated for the first time in forever and i was so pumped!! the way klance is written here is like nothing i’ve ever read before and i cannot get enough. they’re soft and they’re scared and they’re so so young and they don’t know how anything works yet but they know that they want to find out together. and they each come from a place of brokenness and strangeness and they know that beauty can come from that messiness and they embrace it but they are so sure that they will be the ones to stay tangled together despite the odds and they’re RIGHT. literally no words i could use would properly explain this series to you like i am speechless! 

5. layer cake by zenstrike

Keith and Lance, on the couch with a bottle of wine

this fic is from you’re lucky that’s what i like, and it’s singled out particularly because this one did things to me. i read it several times in a row just to fully process it. it’s so aptly named because the layers of devotion...genuinely almost more than i could and can handle. god. 

that’s it for today!! i’ll see y’all back next friday for the next fic rec post!!!