#and also thoughts about sam and DJ

[peanutbutterandbananasandwichs]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/64760905

Title: No Choir

Word count: 1,797

Sam/Amelia, Dean Junior, post-series, disabled sam, chronic fatigue, just Sam quietly living his life as best he can x

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“Sam?”

The voice drifted to him, light but edged with concern, as he came-to in the flowerbed he’d collapsed into. He shifted, stiff and slow, damp earth clinging to his palms as he tried to push himself upright. Too late. There was the sharp yap of Miracle, a blur of sandy fur hurtling toward him like a cannonball. She skidded to a halt just inches from his chest, tail wagging. Behind her, Amelia appeared, moving fast.

“Sam.” Her voice was more urgent this time, not angry. Just . . . tight. Worried.

She dropped to crouch beside him, one knee sinking into the soft ground, her eyes sweeping him, the same way she looked over an injured animal brought into her surgery, all quick assessments and quiet urgency.

She spoke his name again under her breath, mouth pressed into a tight line, frustration creasing her forehead and the lines around her eyes. He saw her try to suppress it as she lifted them to meet his.

“Hey,” he whispered, soft and contrite. His hand lifted, fingers brushing a loose curl from her face. They left a smudge of rich black soil on her cheekbone, and he almost apologised—but she didn’t flinch, didn’t seem to care.

“Hey,” he said again, even gentler. “I know. I’m a pain in the ass.”

Her breath caught in a half laugh. She leaned in, pressed a warm kiss to his forehead. Her lips lingered there for a moment, then: “You’re damn right you are.”

A low chuckle rumbled out of him, tension easing in them both. “Your bedside manner needs work.”

“I’m a vet, not a doctor,” she said, matter-of-fact, hand dropping to his elbow, steadying.

“So, you're saying your patients don’t usually talk back?”

“Not as a rule.” Her grip tightened, readying herself to help pull him to his feet. “Come on. Let’s get you inside.” Miracle nuzzled at his side in agreement.

Sam waved his free hand in the direction of the flower bed, Amelia’s gaze followed, landing on the small rose bush, half-set in the dirt.

“Was supposed to be a surprise.” He said, sheepishly.

“Oh”, her fingers slipped from his arm, reaching toward a little plastic label nestled under the bush. She flipped it over, brushing the dirt from its surface.

Renaissance Rose. Variety: Amelia.

She smiled to herself, that little crooked half smile they shared in common.

“I saw it in the garden centre last week. Went back for it while you took DJ to school yesterday.” Roses always made him think of her, prickly but sweet. Not that he'd ever explained it to her quite like that.

“You want me to . . .?”

He nodded. And she got to work getting the rose settled properly into place.

They kept talking as she pressed soil down around its base. The dog crawled into Sam’s lap as he slumped back against the stump of the old apple tree they'd cut down last fall. It had been a loss to all of them, but time and disease had taken its toll upon it. He tried not to think about that too much.

“How long were you out for?”

“Not sure, minute at the most I think.”

“Sam . . .”

“I know.”

Amelia stood, wiping off the dirt on her jeans, then bent down to offer him her hand, he took it and she let him lean against her for a moment, getting his bearings.

“Come-on.”

They stumbled back across the garden together, Miracle trotting at their feet, Amelia grumbling lightly that this would be much easier if he wasn't a giant. He should have brought the cane out with him, saved her the trouble. Sam's fingertips reflexively rubbed small, conciliatory circles into her shoulder. He was going to start using it more, Sally at the support group had shown him where she got her custom one with a dragon painted onto the shaft. Maybe he should get something like that, not a dragon, but something fun.

Riot, curled up in his favorite chair, was soaking up the last of the day's warmth. The sunlight had faded but the heat lingered, and Sam felt it, too, as his fingers ran through the soft fur on Riot’s head.

“I should be taking a page from your book, hey old man?”

Riot cracked one eye open, gave Sam a reproachful stare, that was most definitely in response to Sam waking him up, but he chose to think that maybe he was agreeing, he did need to learn to take it easier.

Sam lowered himself gingerly into the chair next to Riot, he was going to have a nasty bruise on his hip tomorrow. Not that that was exactly a new experience, although there was a level at which it was comforting to come by them by such relatively mundane means.

Amelia placed a hand on his shoulder. Sam reached up and squeezed her hand gently. For a minute, they just sat there in quiet, comfortable silence, the ambient hum of the old house around them. Eventually, she slipped her hand away, and turned to grab something out of a kitchen cupboard.

Before he could settle into the stillness, DJ came barreling into the room, his small legs carrying him full-speed until he screeched to a halt right in front of Sam’s chair. A soft toy turtle, his current obsession, was clenched tightly in his fist. He looked Sam up and down for a minute and said, in the blunt tone 5 year olds specialised in, “you're all dirty”, scrunching up his nose. He'd definitely picked up some of Sam's hangups.

“Yeah,” glancing down at the dirt caked on his hands, his jeans, his shirt, face mirroring that of his son's as he took in the mess properly for the first time himself. “It's alright, though, kiddo.” Kiddo. He often found himself referring to DJ that way. His father's voice echoing in his mind, a confusing mix of nostalgic comfort, and disquiet.

Sam rubbed his hands together to shake off the loose dirt, then extended them for DJ to inspect, holding his breath as the little hands turned his hands over several times, making sure.

“Better?” Sam asked when the inspection was done. DJ nodded solemnly, his expression as grave as a small child could muster.

Sam returned the nod, ruffling a hand through the kid’s hair. He should go wash them properly, and change his clothes. Funny how dirt never bothered him in the moment, be it gardening, or hunting, but the moment he was done and had a moment to really notice, his skin felt itchy with it.

The reflection in the bathroom mirror greeted him the same way it had for what now amounted to most of his life. Sometimes he thought he should avoid looking altogether, but he could never quite manage it. He kept locked eye contact with the figure in the mirror as he turned the tap and let freezing water rush over his hands. He could feel the two of them drifting slowly apart from one another, not that he was ever really instep with his body, but he held it well enough together, with sticky tape and safety pins, most of the time.

One of the reasons he struggled with this energy accounting thing he was supposed to be trying was that “listening to his body” took such a conscious effort. That, and the years (centuries) of practice at pushing through the kinds of pain most human beings couldn't even begin to imagine, hell, he couldn't even really comprehend it most days, not fully.

He dragged his eyes away from the mirror, there was still dirt under his fingernails, he grabbed the nail brush from the soap dish and scrubbed as hard as he could, some habits die hard.

When he returned to the kitchen, hands stinging but satisfactorily clean, fresh long sleeve jersey top, and jeans, there was a steaming hot mug of tea waiting for him at the table. Amelia was gone, probably upstairs getting ready for her out of hours shift at the surgery. DJ had set himself with a colouring book, focusing intensely on filling in something with a light blue crayon as neatly as he could, the flipper of the turtle had made it into his mouth and he was chewing on it absently. Sam smiled fondly.

He was about to sit back down when he spotted the note next to the mug.

“Eat something. Vet’s orders xx”

Sam chuckled. She'd stop finding that joke funny.

He grabbed a bag of salted peanuts from the cupboard and returned to the tea. Carefully tearing open the packet he fished out a single nut, looked at it suspiciously for a moment, then popped it in his mouth. It was disgustingly salty for his tastes, but he'd promised he'd try. He grabbed another, repeating the process. “It's a good thing you're not here right now”, he thought to himself, “you’d never let me live it down. See, I told you salt was good for you Sammy.”

He thought about what Dean would have made of his little fainting incident this afternoon. Well for starters, he'd have clucked around him like a mother hen for hours afterwards, in that way that always made Sam feel smothered, babied. And then, the second he felt the imminent danger was gone, he'd have given him a sharp nudge in the ribs with his elbow, and laughed about how Sam had gone for a 5 mile run that morning, but that half an hour gardening had brought him down. And Sam would have laughed along, because it was better than being “looked after”.

He crunched another peanut, they weren't getting any better. He glanced up again at his son, who he'd given his brother's name, even if they never used it, and felt the familiar, dull ache in the pit of his chest. Maybe it had been unfair, putting that name, and all the . . . weight behind it on the kid. It had felt right at the time.

Sam let a deep sigh huff from his chest, slid the mug, and the half empty packet across the table, and scooched his chair over, trying to ignore the way the screeching sound it made as it dragged along the tiled floor set his nerves on fire. He leaned in to peer at the colouring book, “whatcha colouring?”

“Turtle.” DJ replied, still deep in concentration.

Of course. Sam smiled. “What kind of turtle is it?” He asked.

He grinned a wide gap tooth grin up at Sam, delighted at the question “leatherback.”

“Mind if I join in?” Sam enquired.

DJ passed him a forest green crayon and gestured at the seaweed bordering the image.

Sam took a sip of the tea, and got to work.

[diminuel]

Ok so, I know you are luxuriating in OP atm (and good for you! Enjoy all the inrichment a new fandom brings!!) but had a cracky yet I want it thought:

We are actually acknowledging the terrible finale for a sec. And Post Dean's Death, Sam purposely loses touch with the hunting community and just has his kid and lives his life as Dean Jr's dad. But! Something happens, he has to tell Dean (the 2nd? jr? DJ Winchester?) about monster blah blah family business when Dean 2 (the sequel) is older, think late teens. And once Dean II is an adult he starts hunting on his own in secret something something it’s in his blood/the family business something something son rebelling against his father with this Dean running to hunting the way Sam ran away etc. and tho Sam talks about monsters he still doesn’t tell all the details because it makes the punchline funnier, I mean Sam has trauma and it’s to hard to talk about the people he’s lost by name

Anyway! Dean Winchester the Younger brings home his partner to meet his dad, and it’s a coming out. No not telling his dad he's queer, Sam and Dean the Alive had that convo when the kid was 14 and it was very nice, no this is New Dean bringing home his boyfriend AND hunting partner- Castiel Fitzgerald

it’s Destiel 2 baby, the Squeakquel, now featuring Werewolf Castiel

(maybe Dean Son Of Sam gets bitten by a vampire and turns and it’s now a Vampire/Werewolf paring too)

Oh, I do like how you say it. Yes, I am luxuriating in One Piece!

But this, despite the terrible finale mention, is also enrichment for me! *lol* I think most of us have had this thought, it is inevitable.

(And I am totally up to drawing more Supernatural, especially if it's silly. *throws this comic at you*)

Awkward.

[wincestwhispers]

SABLE!! i need to know if freak father sam ever crosses the.... you know line? does he make advances?? does dean jr make advances?? because he saw the nudes of his uncle and maybe that’s was his dad wants?? i'm torn on this but you’re expert so pls tell me 😫

Saskia!! Delicious question!! My answer isn’t very simple though there’s a few ways i like to envision Wincest Junior.

I think the most realistic writing of it would be Sam adamantly refusing to cross THAT line, but everything else goes. This isn’t quite as fun but i have reasons for it. For Sam, it would feel almost like a betrayal to Dean. To touch Dj the same way he did Dean, to love him the same, to treat him the same. He can’t do that because it’s not the same, no matter how much Sam and Dj want it to be, and it becomes so achingly clear whenever he indulges those thoughts. There’s also the fact that to be so intimate with Dj, he would be forced to acknowledge their differences in every way. Sam knows it wouldn’t satisfy him, not how Dean could, but there’s this cavern in his soul that he can’t help to try to fill with everything but sex with Dj.

Sometimes Sam thinks (knows) his son has picked up on it; becomes painfully aware when Dj practically climbs on his lap to show him something at 16. All Sam can do to control himself is let Dj do what he wants until he accepts Sam won’t react to it. It’s not like God’s watching when he jerks off to it later. Sam would take secret photos of Dj and print them out to keep in a similar but separate box to Dean’s. Occasionally he gets both Dj and Dean’s pictures out and stares at them next to each other. Despite their glaring similarities, all he can see are the small differences and it consumes him sometimes. Sam watches his son for far too long and far too often but he doesn’t touch. He won’t do what John did to Dean. (He doesn’t know John also followed Dean to his hookups and listened or watched him get fucked).

Also in this version I am very partial to the idea of Sam having a second son (like John with Adam) that he doesn’t learn about until the kids a teenager. He looks eerily similar to a young Dean when Sam meets him at a bar the kid’s definitely too young to be at but he’s just drunk enough to convince himself it’s Dean and they fuck in a motel. Then he finds out a few weeks later that that was his son (the mother reaches out) and well.. the damage is already done. His second born becomes his outlet for all of the feelings he refuses to put on Dj. Of course Dean jr knows nothing about this, he only hates whoever or whatever steals Sam’s attention from him.

Now Dean jr on the other hand, would do anything to please Sam and keep his attention. Much like his late uncle. There’s a big difference though— Dj inherited his dads manipulation skills. He’s careful about it, trying to turn into Dean so his Dad will love him the same. After he finds the tapes he starts slowly showing more skin because he’s too hot, or needs to wash his clothes, etc. Dj leaves the door to the bathroom open “accidentally” every once in a while then more and more until it’s normal. Dj masturbates a bit too loud in his room when he knows Sam is home. Dj eats his food too sultry to not be intentional but it’s not like his Dad is gonna say anything about it. Oh but he wants him to.

Dj knows exactly what he’s doing and it’s to his endless frustration that Sam doesn’t do anything about it. Dj knows from the tapes that Sam can and will get rough and take what he wants, so what does it mean that he won’t with him? Is he still too different? Is he still not enough?

He intentionally wears Sam’s dirty clothes around the house that are always oversized. He finds bracelets that look like his ones Dean wore when he was younger and never takes em off. He tries to get Dean’s scent down (he never can, the impala and hunting is integral to it) and he touches Sam any chance he gets. Sometimes he’ll make an inappropriate joke just to see his Dad twitch and pray he finally breaks. He never does. Dj obeys his father so well, he’s such a good son. He cleans Sam’s guns for him at the kitchen table, only when Sam’s home to see of course, he cooks dinner for them when he has a long work day. He’s perfect. He also pushes and gets defensive and hostile when Sam has been too calm too long. There was a time when he ran away as a teenager and sought out monster trouble so Sam would have to go save him and hopefully be reminded of his old hunts with Dean. It was his worst idea. He’d never seen or heard Sam so angry in his life.

However! Even with all of this, I personally like to think that after all that time holding himself back, when he gets old enough to start having memory problems, Dj jumps on that immediately. So Sam doesn’t think he ever crossed that line. And he didn’t, when he was of sound mind, but Dj cherishes the memories of his aged father treating him like Dean (thinking he was Dean) even if it wasn’t real.

Now that’s my realistic answer but I do have fantasies/preferences outside that! I love love love Sam only crossing that line when he’s drunk, just like his daddy. The reminders of Dean just in drinking itself, the loosened control, Dj wearing Dean’s clothes.. it happens enough that Dj starts trying to make it happen. Up to personal preference if Sam remembers doing it, I like when he truly thinks he’s never crossed that line because he forgets about drunk fucking Dj into his mattress when he’s a few whiskies too deep.

There’s also the scenario where Sam descends into a different madness and tries to focus solely on Dj, to a point where sometimes he won’t realize he’s trying to shape him into his brother. It’s just so easy to get lost in his son, to escape his grief through Dj’s touch and loving innocence. He’s so much like Dean but he’s not, and sometimes Sam can momentarily forget Dean as he memorizes the unique texture of Dj’s skin, lips, insides— the different pressure and higher pitched noises. It’s easier to indulge and forget than to face and regret.

[lightofraye]

Wales Comic Con (Part Two)

This may be the second and last, unless something else occurs to me and I go "Oh damn I forgot about this." As it is, I'm impressed at my ability to torture myself and endure listening to Danneel's awful, awful voice. Can someone please tell her to get vocal lessons?

(Part One is here.)

First, a shout out to my daughter for her input and helping me know where to look for anything of note! So... her thoughts are in green, mine are in red.

First 29 minutes, Danneel demeans Jensen 7 times. Interrupts him 3. Jensen is praised only for his looks 2 times.

- 1:40 Mark’s greeting to the audience is hilarious.

- 2:58 The whole time Danneel is talking, Jensen is barely looking at her.

- 3:44 Jensen realizes just how HIGH the auditorium is and hears someone shout something like “Love you Jensen!” And he goes “I love you too.” He also takes the time to be appreciative that Kurt got invited to the convention.

- 6:20 Jensen is asked about which deaths was the hardest, and he definitely quipped that Dean’s hit him the hardest. Then it was cleared up: Which of Dean’s deaths hit him the hardest? He jokes “Death by taco.” (Mystery Spot!) As Jensen is explaining this to Kurt, Danneel… does not look happy. She’s just stone-faced. Oh she smiles here and there, but she’s not liking the spotlight off her. And I cracked up when Samantha starts pretending to throw a fit because, hi, Mary’s death?! Jensen laughs and points out “Let’s go with the one that jumpstarted the whole show!”

- 8:40 Ah. The lives’ question! Which life would the cast want—Sam’s or Dean’s? Danneel picks Sam. Jensen is surprised! Mark jokes “This is going to be a fun weekend!” Jensen: “Do tell.” Danneel explains that Sam is the nicest guy! Jensen: “I mean she’s not wrong.” A fan tries to cover Danneel’s ass by saying it’s because she would get to hang out with Jensen/Dean all the time. Danneel tried to pretend to agree by saying “Didn’t I say that?” No, no you didn’t.

- 9:53 Kurt’s answer. He started… uh, okay. He started by saying he’s hated Jensen in the past. Goes on about Jensen’s hair, about how it’s the best hair he’s ever seen in his life. Oh dear. Jensen’s… definitely uncomfortable. Then says something about Jensen’s jaw. The audience is howling. Kurt tells them to calm down. Danneel’s smug now. I can’t quite catch what Jensen’s saying, but it sounded like he owed Kurt for the compliment, thus comes out Danneel’s “I already paid him.”

- 11:40 (Danneel looks bored here. My gods.) DJ’s answer about being Ellen made me laugh. “She works at a bar!” Samantha looked like she had a laugh out of that. Then Jensen’s joke to Kurt about cushiest schedule.

- 11:57 Jensen’s joke to Kurt about cushiest schedule. Danneel interrupts about “Oh so you wanted to be Sister Jo!” Jensen’s laugh did not sound authentic here. Danneel didn’t like it, judging from how she kept shoving at his shoulder and he refused to look at her. DJ is fidgety and uncomfortable here. Hmm. Jensen’s answer: “Two people—Rowena or Crowley.” He feels they’re so interesting. Being bad but playing for the good guys. And he threw in Soldier Boy, haha! “See what I did there? I wove that back to me, somehow!” More bored Danneel looks. MY GOD WOMAN, it’s your HUSBAND.

- 14:00 As Kurt and Mark are talking about characters, Danneel pulls this “God I’m bored” look. I wanna shake her. Kurt also picked Crowley. Mark loved it!

- 15:17 Mark talks about being Crowley, then points to Jensen about a conversation of sorts they had on a plane once. He talks about how to love Supernatural is to love the Winchester brothers. There was no way around that. YES! Thank you, Mark! (Also his story about his poor stunt double had me laughing.)

- 18:00 Samantha’s answer, haha! “I would like to have been God.”

- 18:20 Ah. Danneel’s bullshit answer about auditioning for any female role. We know you lied, woman! Stop it! Oof. Jensen’s like “Uhm. Yeah.” Hiding his face, hiding his expression. He’s leaning away from her. (Ohh. Samantha intrigues me. She’s all “But it was the perfect role for you.” She’s not sincere. Nope.)

- 19:14 Ah. Danneel’s thing about working with a great actor. Jensen was trying for modesty “Okay, all right!” Then she shoots out with “Mark Pellegrino.” Jensen’s smile is forced and he isn’t looking at her. That stung. And she laughs, patting him hard on the shoulder. Well, a pat/shove and Jensen’s refusing to look at her. Jensen plays off her comment by saying “See, I did you a favor.” In regards to her not getting any role until Sister Jo. He plays along with her lie. Oh Jensen…. He made that dig about himself. And she doesn’t reassure him. Not one bit.

- 20:00 Oh! The supernatural question. Good lord, DJ went off on a spiel. I’m… intrigued. Is he hyper?

- 21:25 Jensen has this “Oh god.” Danneel is smug and amused. Uh oh. I think they’re about to go into the haunted mansion thing again. Yep. I was right. And Danneel keeps interrupting him. Good lord woman, let him talk.Jensen is more practical. (Ditto.) Apparently Danneel will believe anything and everything. That’s… not a good thing, actually. Also, DJ, stop kissing her ass.

- 23:47 Did she… yep. Danneel turned a divining rod into a sexual innuendo. Jensen just keeps avoiding looking at her. She tries to correct herself and just keeps making it worse. Again, she keeps shoving at Jensen’s shoulder. What is with her and that? Mark tries to interrupt about how it’s 15 years of conditioning regarding Jensen. He hears about something haunted and his first thought is to go to the trunk of the car to deal with it.

- 24:45 Ah. The basement story. Danneel interrupts him again—stop doing that and let him talk! And he’s plenty fun—watch him with Jared!First, I wanna know—what’s in the basement that they didn’t have room for in that gigantic house? I mean, seriously. Unless that’s where he’s been living, separate from the rest of the family. It is big enough…. Andddd…. She interrupts him again. Sure, sure, people life, but he’s exasperated by it. He manages to finish the story and yeah, it’s funny.

- 26:13 Ugh. Kurt. No. They’re not cute. Sigh.

- 31:10 HAHA! A fan had a question for Jensen and Mark playfully throws his arms in the air. I’m not 100% sure what the question was—sounded like it was about languages. Jensen quipped he was glad it was mainly Jared who had to do Latin, Sign Language, Lucifer, Soulless, “give it to the big kid”. Haha. “He’s such a nerd.” Ha! Jared or Sam, Jensen? Oh! Jared took Latin in school?! That’s cool! Jensen notes the writers must’ve found out and kept giving more of it to Jared. Jensen said it made him appreciate Jared’s skillset more. Then they segued into DJ and Jensen having to tap dance and the story is making me laugh!

- 35:35 Okay. Now I see why my daughter is critical. But I also understand. Sign language is hard. I grew up with it; I’m fluent in it. I was tested once and was measured at Advanced Intermediate, which is almost natural fluency. (It was for an interpreter job; I had to be certified at language level.) And even then I still don’t know all the signs! I’d have to ask my uncle—who is deaf—and go “What sign is for this word?” So I get it. It’s not easy.

- 38:26 Okay. Stop. I have to say this. Why is Danneel there?! She was in 5 episodes, admitted she didn’t watch the show at all (she lied about knowing Castiel’s lines, etc, for cryin’ out loud!), and so all she can do is just sit there, keep wiggling that damned foot of her, fuss with her fake-ass hair, and nod, as if she knew anything at all!

- 38:59 Okay. I’m cackling at how DJ goes “Don’t make up answers. They already know it!”

- 40:11 Right there, Danneel touches Jensen’s knee. He actually purposefully moves away. Interesting….

- 40:23 Mark: “I remember you singing ‘I’m too sexy for my shirt’. That was phenomenal.” Jensen: “I’ve washed that from my mind.” Haha! And yes, Mark is right. If you hear “Carry On”… something awesome is about to happen.

- 42:10 Last fan question. For Jensen. Mark and Kurt threw their hands in the air. I’m sorry, I laughed. It’s about what it was like switching from Dean to Soldier Boy. We know this is a fib answer. Jensen begins about how Kripke told him to not to do Dean. Jensen’s flabbergasted, because, yeah, he’s spent 15 years being Dean. And I love how he just plays Kripke going, flippantly, “Yeah. Pretty much.” on dropping Dean.

- 43:40 I had to make a separate time stamp for this. Jensen was trying to give a compliment to Danneel (why? She doesn’t deserve it) and Danneel barks into the microphone: “Water!” As though pretending to be Jensen being ‘Dean’ at home. Then she ‘cutely’ adds: “Go get your own water!” Jensen looks away, completely. Jensen: “No, that’s just me acting like an actor.” Yeah, he laughs… but that’s not a real laugh, not the way he gets with Jared or even JDM. It’s not funny at all. And I don’t buy Danneel “helped” him at all. Maybe record, as someone had to hold the damned camera, but it was Kripke who critiqued. Not Danneel. She can’t act her way out of a paper bag.

- 44:00 Kripke giving him the compliment as not seeing Dean in Soldier Boy.

- 45:00 Here Jensen actually asked Mark, Sam, and Kurt their process on being different characters. Kurt follows with an excellent compliment for Jensen about how he was always excellent, always cared, which was a part of the reason why the show lasted so long. Jensen’s deeply moved by this. I’m just in my feels here, y’all.

- 46:58 Now Mark’s compliment. “The lack of self-aggrandizement is—is empirical. It’s absolute. If you want to tell a story, which you do, which all of you do. I’ve watched all of you work. You want to tell a story, that supersedes ‘I want to look cool’. ‘I want to look cool’ is where you go back to the same. It’s when you go ‘how do I go tell the story’ and when that question just goes ‘how do I tell the story ‘that everything changes. And that’s down to the writing and down to the want and the love of the story and the love of what you want to convey. And I’ve been so lucky in my career that I’ve had so many things been given to me and or even written for me which is mind-blowing to me. Going ‘oh my god what do they want from me’ and I know Soldier Boy is like that for you because I’ve watched it. And there’s nary a spot of Dean in that. There’s no… it’s new. It’s something. It’s different. It’s a fully fledged character. And that’s what I expect from you anyway. You know what I mean? It’s what I expect from you. Because you want to tell the story. You know? That’s what I think difference is between the stuff that we like as fans—it’s made with passion, it’s made with love, it’s made with heart. It’s doesn’t always succeed. It isn’t always brilliant. But it’s made with an honesty to itself. As long as we honor that honesty to itself then we as fans, we as lovers, we can truly embrace it and go yeah, there’s something there for me. And that’s the greatest gift we get.” Jensen is truly honored by the compliment. It’s obvious. He doesn’t get compliments a lot at all… damn.

- Danneel is enjoying the attention she receives until 2:42 when Jensen is greeting the fans. She is side-eyeing him with extreme animosity as though he just sole away her spotlight.

- 5:08 Bobby’s death; Danneel interrupts when Jensen starts to answer.

- 9:29 Kurt begins to uplift and praise Jensen… but only for his looks. (???) This causes extreme discomfort for Jensen.

- 9:40 Danneel responds with a dig: “I already paid him.”

- 10:55 Danneel demeans Jensen after he asks “Do we pick characters on how interesting they are or characters who have the cushiest schedule on the planet?” and in doing so, she smacks his shoulder and laughs, “I’m kidding!”

-11:18 Just as Jensen states that he would rather play Rowena or Crowley, Danneel makes a less than pleased expression. Kurt is confused because—Jensen is “The Pretty Boy”. He can’t be “Interesting”. Mark is understanding and DJ is maintaining at least some modicum of professional intrigue.

-12: 04 Finally a dig at Danneel, a way of lightly defending himself in the form of playful banter. There is, unfortunately, a knowing look from DJ.

- 17:17 “I would have done any female role on Supernatural”. --Jensen is mentally calling her a liar while she is putting him down in front of an entire audience. Jensen is looking down in shame and astonishment at the hubris.

- 18:15 “I got to work with a great actor”—proceeds to embarrass Jensen again.

- 21:23 After Jensen discussed the possibility of there being something supernatural or beyond our understanding, Danneel proceeds to interject with her take in a more competitive tune. DJ kisses her ass. The two tell the haunted house story at 21:53.

- 23:13 Danneel demeans him.

- 24:41 “Must have been the air conditioning.” Demeans him.

- 33:04 Jensen critical: Lacks the capability to empathized or acknowledge that ASL may be vital as an actor for long term career path. (Note from Raye: This is my daughter's thoughts. Not mine. Respect it.)

- 42:30 Danneel would have to tell me (Jensen) to stop playing Dean at home… Jensen proceeds to rock back and forth apprehensively as Danneel makes fun of him in what again is a demeaning behavior in the form of witty banter.

-45: 35 Jensen’s acting is finally encouraged and praised by Kurt, and Mark, as opposed to his looks.

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I... honestly, y'all? I don't see the chemistry. The banter? Nope. That's not bantering. Maybe a touch of it toward the end when she actually isn't putting him down. And I know I'm not the only one who saw it.

Not one compliment. Not from his "wife". It had to come from Mark, who praised him beautifully, at the end.

This was Comic Con Wales, 2024.

[recreationalfanfics]

Twisted Night At The Museum HCs/Thoughts/Concepts:

These are brain farts but ya'll are making me feel like I have the biggest brain so-

- If the Daley! Reader had a Unique Magic it'd be: "Alive for the Night" where basically any statues on display and stuff can come to life. Including the ones of the Great Seven but they can only do it at night. (Idk if you guys want them to have it or not, ya'll can fight about it in the notes)

- The Daley! Reader was also adopted by Larry after Nicky moved out and became a DJ, Larry is still a super protective father whose very anxious and is looking through various museum archives to figure out if something can be done about his child whose stuck in Twisted Wonderland. He requires you to check the mirror and talk to him at least 4 times a day to know you're alright and if you miss a time, YOU BETTER HAVE A GOOD EXCUSE-

- No but parent teacher conferences and you have to hold the mirror so that your teachers can talk to Larry through it.

Larry Daley + His Relationship with the Staff:

- Crowley: No, he's been in this game long enough to know that Crowley isn't trustworthy and while you KNOW he isn't trust worthy, he is the reason that Larry wants you to check in 4 times a day. Crowley tries to paint it like everything is fine and Larry pretends to believe him. Crowley is just a bit off put by Larry because you're already such an odd and resourceful individual, that he can't imagine what your father (the man who raised you) must be like and while he laughs whenever Larry promises to bring you home, Crowley slowly starts to believe him. Like, bro, he deals with a magic tablet and brought a family of old Egyptian pharaohs together, Larry Daley is getting his child back.

- Crewel is the only man in this school that Larry trusts, along with Trein, but Larry does notice that Crewel seems a lot more concerned with your safety and has a soft spot for you. Crewel will also give Larry due respect and while he's not sure about his bland outfit choices, he's very much aware that your father loves and is worried for you and so, Crewel will make sure you are well behaved and taken care off until you're able to reunite. It's bittersweet for him because he does grow to get attatched to you but soon realizes that he's never gonna be your father back home. (SPLIT CUSTODY IS ALL I'M GONNA SAY).

- Vargas: Larry hates him so much. Like in the movies, he's always snarky and closed off from people he dislikes so their conversations are always so passive aggressive. Like, Vargas is all: "Ha, no wonder you look so wimpy! Look at your dad!" and Larry is all: "First of all, they're adopted (but still my kid) so neither of us can really say anything but second of all, I went face to face with a triceratops, so, yeah. Not sure if they have those in your world, but thats pretty impressive." and Vargas just brushes him off and he HATES IT.

- Next is Trein, who is like a strict grandpa to you and one of the other teachers who get along with Larry. As a father himself, he admires Larry trying to protect you as best as he can while he's in a different world, and he couldn't imagine what it would be like if his own children where stranded in a place he couldn't protect them in. So yeah, while your dad is awkward, Trein tries to help him out and ease both his and your anxieties. I also can totally see Dexter the Cappuchin Monkey and Lucius fighting across the mirror.

- Sam is one that Larry doesn't see to often aside from Larry trying to find old spells in old archives that require magical ingredients that he doesn't know about so he'll ask Sam about them or see if he can find any suitable substitutes and Sam will do it of course, for a fee. He really admires your dad's dedication but he also admires the relationship and bond you two have. Yeah, you might come into his shop to rant about how protective he is and some other flaws but you love him dearly. Sometimes he'll throw in a few freebies because at the end of the day, you two just want to be with each other again.

NOW LET'S TALK ABOUT SOME STUDENTS AND HOW I FEEL LIKE INTERACTIONS WITH THEM WOULD GO.

Now back to some general headcanons:

- Okay so have you guys seen the Stuart Little movies? Where he has a bunch of ladders and stuff around the room because he's small and can't get to places faster, thats kinda what you have to do for Jedediah and Octavius. They sleep on your nightstand after Deuce and Jack either made tiny beds for them or you made them in a wood work class or something.

- I can also totally see that after the first winter break, your first year friends bring back some old childhood toys that maybe Jedediah and Octavius can use to help or to help them travel faster around the campus.

- Deuce brought back an old remote controlled Magic Wheel (the motorcycle thing he likes) and gave it to them so not only can they ride around in style but they also have a tendency to drive recklessly and trip over poor unsuspecting students who are just trying to walk to their class. They'll do it especially if they mess with you.

- Ace brings them back like, tiny weapons from his old toy soldiers and stuff and while they might not do much, he just thinks its so funny how serious Octavius is when he's all: "Thank you, Child of Trappola, for I now have an arsenal to defend Fort Ramshackle!" and Jedediah rolling his eyes.

- You try to keep them on higher ground, especially due to the rats but I love the idea that when you're away on classes and you trust them not to do anything stupid, they're riding around on Grim and throwing toy spears at any rats running around and defending their home. Like to them, it's an intense battle where they could possibly die but to the ghosts, it looks like they're just annoying the rats that they eventually just give up and leave because they're so annoying and rambunctious.

- Out of all of your friends, they like to use Jack as a mode of transportation. After all, he's HUGE and when they sit on his shoulders, they're absolutely amazed by how much they can see. Jack tries his best to remember they're on his shoulders but if a class is really boring and he forgets, he'll lean on one shoulder which causes them to lose balance and almost fall but hed got quick reflexes and apologizes to them.

- THE WAY EPEL AND THEM WOULD GET ALONG. Like, Epel will walk in all roughed up because he got into a fight and walk past you to rant to Jedediah and Octavius and talk about how some kids were picking on him for being cute and little and Jed and Oct are all: "YA BETTER HAVE SHOWN 'EM THAT WHAT FOR!" and Epel is all: "COURSE I DID!" and you just sigh because you know that Vil is gonna ask to keep Epel away from your "little raggedy friends".

- BELIEVE IT OR NOT, SEBEK ACTUALLY RESPECTS YOUR LITTLE CREW. Especially after he finds out you want to be a Night Gaurd and mistakes your words and believes that you come from a family of noble gaurdians who keep the ancient relics of your world safe (which is kinda true but its not that dramatic) and when he sees you defend yourself with a mere flashlight, you become his idol.

- IN NIGHT OF THE MUSEUM TWO, THERE'S THIS SCENE THAT FITS PERFECTLY WITH YOU AND SEBEK FIRST MEETING, HERE'S THE LINK BUT GO TO 1:57 BUT THAT'S HOW I IMAGINE YOUR FIRST MEETING WITH SEBEK GOES.

You, whispering as your faces are squished together: "Listen, fae boy, you do not know who you're dealing with. I've seen things in my world, stuff you can't even imagine."

Sebek, whispering back: "Like what kind of stuff?"

You: "I'm not gonna tell you, but you're gonna drop your sword-"

Sebek: "The way you said it just made it sound like you were gonna say something really cool-"

You: "Yeah, you don't get to hear it, drop the sword-"

- OKAY BUT YOU BEING DEEMED THE NIGHT GAURD OF NIGHT RAVEN COLLEGE. Like idk, maybe you don't need as much sleep as everyone or during weekends, you just hibernate and then survive on naps and energy drinks throughout the week (it's such an unhealthy habit, all of the Dorm Leaders are concerned and Vil might trick you into drinking a sleeping potion if your eyebags get too prominent) but I love the idea that the bullying rates go down. Hell, even the Savanahclaw dorm kids don't try to start with as many fights with you around because they know you'll finish them with your flashlight. Like they're all cornering you and you blind one of them temporarily before you do some cool fighting moves. Your quick wit and training as a night gaurd is the only thing you've got to give you an edge in this world and by God are you gonna use it.

-And even if that fails you, you've got friends who've got your back. Like you get cornered by some bullies and then they feel something stab their feet and Jed and Octavius are bravely stabbing their shoes and the students are hopping around in pain.

- But yeah, the Night Gaurd in you just makes you walks around Night Raven College and look at all the various statues and history and you read and do your research on Twisted Wonderland.

- Like in the first movie, the thing Larry did after his first wild night at the museum was do research and by God, do you dedicate yourself to doing research on Twisted Wonderland and the study of magic.

- ALSO MALLEUS JOINING YOU DURING YOUR LATE NIGHT PATROLS OF YOUR SCHOOL GROUNDS and telling you everything there is to know about the magic here. You know how Ahkmenrah calls Larry "Gaurdian of Brooklyn"? I feel like instead of Child of Man, Malleus would call you "Gaurdian of the Night" because you tell him that's your dad's job and you want to fill in his shoes.

- MALLEUS AND SEBEK TRYING TO GET YOU TO JOIN HIS GAURDS BUT YOUR DUTY IS TO EVERYONE BUT HE'S ALL: "You know, just in case you might have to stay for longer, there will always be a spot in my court for you. As either my gaurd or my spouse-"

- "What was that last part?"

- "What?"

Feel Free to Send in any Thoughts/Asks/or Questions about this AU!

[winchestergirl2]

May Reading Rec List 2024

To show some love and appreciation to all the amazing writers here on tumblr, here are all the fantastic fics I've read this month. 💖

Many of these fics and blogs are 18+ only, and NSFW please heed the author's individual fic warnings and requests regarding no minors. I am not responsible for your media consumption.

Reading Recs Masterlist

Supernatural

Dean Winchester

Darken (Masterlist) @impala-dreamer

Authors Summary: ~You woke up in a trashed motel room covered in someone else’s blood and no memories of the past week.~

Without Her @foreverwayward

Authors Summary: Dean mourns the loss of the love of his life.

Tattooed @coffee-obsessed-writer

Authors Summary: Dean takes you to get ink

Sam Winchester

Lean On @winchester-fantasies

Authors Summary: Sam finds you years later after leaving you for Ruby. Set early in season 5. Inspired by the song “Lean On” by Major Lazer & DJ Snake.

Carry Me @welikeimagines-andfandoms

Authors Summary: Fun fluffy Drabble with the moose

You Lost Me @tattooed-on-my-wayward-soul

Authors Summary: Sam chose Ruby over the reader, now Ruby is gone and the reader and Sam are no longer together but Sam still loves her. The three go to watch the Supernatural play and Sam’s see what he really did to the reader.

Sam and Dean Winchester

Sleeping Arrangements @jinkieswouldyoulookatthis

Authors Summary: Imagine sharing a bed with Sam and Dean.  No smut, but oh how we wish…

Dawson's Creek

CJ Braxton

One Exception @zepskies

Authors Summary: Joey has invited you to a party at Pacey’s apartment, and CJ has agreed to go, despite the contentious history between him and your new friends. He doesn’t want to be the reason you miss out on a good thing, but it also means he’ll have to hide his apprehension (and his alcoholism).  

Tracker

Russell Shaw

So Close @thebiggerbear

Authors Summary: You meet Colter and Russell at the morgue to help them gain access. Had you known how this was really going to go, you might have pushed Colter's call to voicemail.

Close Enough @thebiggerbear

Authors Summary: When you'd met the Shaws at the morgue the day before, you thought that had been the end of it and you wouldn't need to see one Shaw brother in particular again. Little did you know that Colter was about to once again ask for your help and not only would you be forced to see Russell again but things were about to change drastically for the both of you.

Waiting For The Real Thing @rizlowwritessortof

Authors Summary: You can't serve in the same unit with somebody without getting pretty close. She managed to survive around him until a couple of years ago. And when she hears about their brother-in-arms troubles, she heads that way to help out. Of course, Russ beat her to it. And now she just can't make herself leave without seeing him.

A Line And A Half @zepskies

Authors Summary: When Dory’s eldest brother comes to visit her at Wyoming University, you don’t know quite what to make of Russell Shaw. But he knows exactly what he wants to make of you.

Walker

Cordell Walker

Moonlight Whiskey @idreamofplaid

Authors Summary: Cordell plans a romantic night for the reader that brings back memories from decades ago.

Ten Inch Hero

Boaz Priestly

When Broken Is Easily Fixed @deanbrainrotwritings

Authors Summary: priestly broke up with tish (yes!) uh, i mean… you watch him be pathetic and sad with his big wet green eyes.

Big Sky

Beau Arlen

Untitled drabble @anklesoverackles

[vestaclinicpod]

Audio Drama Sunday - 9th February ✨

I’ve listened to loads of audio drama this week and had a fantastic time doing it!! 

🌲 @hellofromthehallowoods (179) WE ARE SO BACK BABEY. What an absolute FEAST of voice acting talent in this ep!! I was so excited to hear so many voices I recognised. Don’t get me wrong, jus because I love their VAs, it does not mean that I would trust any of these Indescribables as far as I could throw them… I saw a very interesting reference to the riddle posed to Penny and Friday on Tumblr! What do you MEAN ‘The watcher will bring it’??? Also, my goodness, Nik, the minute I heard Noptilnopt’s voice . . . you are in hugeeee trouble. Like, big, big trouble with that heart of yours…. 

🦋 @remnantspod (27) OH!!!! Oh my god!!!! Okay, but that makes so much sense!!! My heart immediately broke for little Ted with his fear and his scars ☹️☹️ It’s very interesting to me that Stephen Grenville appears to have killed Pauline at the end there. IIRC the last Stephen Grenville murder was the poker player? I thought that was the Apprentice posing as SG?? Man, I really need to just relisten to the whole thing to untangle all these red strings!!!

🧋 @hinaypod (35 & 35.1) Gosh, I feel like I learned so much Elder Lore in this episode!! I’m trying to tie all this back to the DJ In The Dark ep about the Williams Crypt but I might need to relisten to make it click! All I know is that I would give my life for Pocket and I think that’s a normal reaction. There’s still so much mystery surrounding J’s disappearance. Hearing how hard Dooley looked for him makes me SO SAD. 

🗺 @tales-from-the-low-city (15) This episode dealt with the chilling aftermath of the discovery regarding the air supply. I found the part about particular residents feeling guilty for even breathing really interesting. I can’t draw direct comparisons, but there are definitely elements of life (particularly in the UK) that so clearly are a result of the abuse of others and it’s hard to fathom what to do about that as an individual. The ending of the episode leaves more questions than answers, but I’m so invested in finding out what will happen next for The Low City!! 

🍾 @ameliapodcast (48) Oooh, it was so good to hear more about Jackie! As someone who also had a failed attempt at running away from home as a kid, this story really struck a chord!! (My parents did not put a tag on me, I just figured that hypothermia wasn’t the way I wanted to die). I can really feel some kind of redemption arc coming on for our CIA ladies and I’m here for it. 

💍 @forgedbondspod (7) Aw! They’re making friends! This Aphrodite/Ares pact about falling in love SURELY won’t be relevant any time soon . . . Surely. I’m really excited to hear from Apollo solely because I love hearing Leon in things hehe. 

🔮 @spiritboxradio (1.1-1.4) I’ve had such a fun time listening to these first few eps of SBR. Sam is endlessly endearing and I love the augury reports in particular! They remind me of a WTNV horoscope in a really good way! What a charming start to what I’m sure will become a firm fave!! 

Have a great week!!

[cementcornfield]

end of the season thoughts that got away from me after i started typing!

this was probably not the team that would have won the super bowl anyway, as devastating as this is and as fun as it would have been for The Narrative :(

i am impressed with how a lot of the young defensive guys rallied, even if a lot of it was against mediocre to average offenses. i think we've got a lot of potential in mckinnley, fig, dj ivey (and dj turner and dax too. provided they heal up well). kris jenkins had flashes but i'm hearing conflicting things about him (i love his personality though) so hopefully he continues to figure things out. CTB had a very up and down season, hopefully he works out whatever was going on with him and come back next year solid.

i think lou is out, i don't see how he can't be. even with this win streak (again, against mostly bad offenses). it's a shame because he's a master schemer and knows how to stop elite QBs like pat and josh. but we've used almost ALL of our first to third round draft picks on defensive players the last few years (amarius being the only exception!) and none of them have developed like we'd hoped?? we need a DC who can work with guys where they're at. develop them and create a scheme that they can understand and thrive in!

i also think pollack HAS to be gone. even being generous and saying that ted and orlando had their best passing PFF grades this season, and amarius developed better than people thought, it's still not enough. the way that joe plays, the way that we structure our offense, makes it INCREDIBLY difficult for any o-line guy. this is a fact. and the other fact is that pollack's background is one that emphasizes the run and other kinds of offense (i believe. i was reading this from some of the o-line experts on twitter lol). he's not a good fit for what we want to do. it's time to move on.

i'd also like to move on from sam, as heartbreaking as that is. he's not the same player he was, and he's being paid too much for what he's been able to give us the last few years. rankins also obviously has to go, he barely made it on the field and even when he did, he did not at all live up to his contract. they are two of our highest paid players on defense and moving on from them can only help us cap-wise as well.

we've gotta pick up some help in free agency. anyone we can get on d-line and some guards too. i wouldn't mind adding a vet safety and a vet CB as well.

as for the draft, looks like we're gonna end up around 17 (lol one lower than last year!) and i'd say again we need to focus on defense. an edge or a tackle, someone who can HELP trey with the pass rush because we've got nothing. i also wouldn't mind a CB. because again, we have very little there reliably. then i'd say drafting a guard and another running back (in the mid rounds) should be the priority.

i'd also say we HAVE TO HAVE TO HAVE TO extend tee and ja'marr this offseason. the pressure joe has put on the front office!!! the agent switch!!! how amazing tee is when he plays and the NOTICEABLE difference when he's out (that second half last night!!) tee is a NEED and i have to believe the FO will work with these guys to figure something out. the fact that they have the same agent i think is going to be a huge help in this. plus joe's not so subtle threats. (if they fuck this up he's gone after his first contract. i really believe that.)

also! last but def not least, we've gotta figure something out with trey. he is under contract one more year, but he's not happy and making our star players unhappy is actually NOT a good strategy, shockingly enough!

[dakusan]

ELLO DOWN THERE!! *insert British pirates of the Carribean accent*

(just a heads up it's Collin not my full user cuz it's just really long saying my user)

I JUST HAD A KINDA WEIRD but chaotic THOUGHT (how uncommon of me)

but if you could think of any songs skz would fucc to what would they be? can definitely be more than one song (I was specifically thinking vamp skz cuz it's just funnier to me lol) but also regular skz

I mean some reason I picture the han we all know and love going at it with his playlist on shuffle and material girl plays 💀because I just see that chaos happening😭

OH COLLIN HELLOOOO DOWN THERE 🏴‍☠️

You chaotic menace, what the hell is this brainworm you’ve just unleashed upon us?? The image of Han Jisung mid-thrust while Material Girl comes on is UNHINGED and so real. He wouldn’t even stop. Just nod his head like “yeah she’s that bitch—keep going.”

Now I shall not be normal about this. We are imagining Vampire!SKZ with centuries of debauchery, bloodlust, and bad decisions—and now they're fucking to playlists they’ve either painstakingly curated or absolutely not curated at all. Let's begin.

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🩸 WHAT SONGS VAMPIRE!SKZ WOULD FUCK TO 🩸

(and why it’s either extremely feral or cursed)

BANG CHAN — “House of Balloons / Glass Table Girls” by The Weeknd

Mood: Low red lights, wine-blood mixture, silk ropes.

He’s not playing this on shuffle. This is track one.

Pulls you into his lap, bites your shoulder, mutters, “You’re mine tonight.”

Blood ritual but make it sensual.

LEE KNOW — “Closer” by Nine Inch Nails

This song IS him. Like if Lee Know had to pick a mood theme for his bite mark?

He's the type to edge you for three songs straight before even considering fucking you.

Bites your inner thigh to this exact rhythm.

CHANGBIN — “Power” by Kanye West

You didn’t think he’d be deep, but he is. This is his battle sex anthem.

Takes you against the wall, and the beat hits as hard as he does.

May also flex in the mirror mid-thrust. You’re not complaining.

HYUNJIN — “Earned It” by The Weeknd

You knew it would be sensual. You just didn’t know he’d choreograph the whole thing.

Bites you right as the violins swell. Whispers, “You wanted something beautiful, didn’t you?”

There’s roses. There’s candle wax. You probably cry.

HAN JISUNG — “Material Girl” by Madonna… unfortunately yes.

Playlist? No. He hits shuffle on his 800-song liked list and rolls with it.

One minute it’s “Godzilla” by Eminem, next it’s “Barbie Girl,” and you’re already naked.

The only one to moan to anime OPs with sincerity.

FELIX — “Telepatía” by Kali Uchis

He dreamwalks into your mind playing this exact track.

You wake up already grinding on him, disoriented.

It’s sweet. It’s dirty. He calls you "darling" with an Aussie lilt and licks your lips like honey.

SEUNGMIN — “Versace on the Floor” by Bruno Mars

This man has immaculate taste and a curated sex playlist.

Button-down shirt. Dimly lit hotel suite. Whispers of “You wore this just for me?”

Bites you gently and fucks you with slow, cruel precision.

JEONGIN — “After Dark” by Mr. Kitty

Has no idea what the song is, just found it on a TikTok edit.

But now he’s playing it every time and destroying you to it.

One time you heard “Unholy” by Sam Smith start mid-ride and he just bit your tit and kept going.

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🍑 WHAT SONGS REGULAR HUMAN SKZ WOULD FUCK TO 🍑

BANG CHAN — “Skin” by Rihanna

This man doesn’t play music. He sets a mood.

The bass? The build-up? The lyrics?? He’s grinding his hips into yours, making eye contact.

Tells you “Every inch of you’s mine” as the chorus hits.

LEE KNOW — “Pony” by Ginuwine

He doesn’t even think this is funny. He means it.

Rides the rhythm like a pro. You are not surviving this.

Smirks every time you moan on beat.

CHANGBIN — “Body Party” by Ciara

The bass hits? He’s got you pinned against the wall.

Your body IS the party. He’s the DJ and the main attraction.

Probably flexes at some point. Calls you “his reward.”

HYUNJIN — “Love to Love You Baby” by Donna Summer

You don’t fuck to this. You get devoured slowly.

Uses this to tease you until you beg.

Candles lit. Fingers trailing. You’re crying and he’s smirking.

HAN JISUNG — “Die For You” by The Weeknd

He thinks he’s doing a slow, emotional stroke. And he is. For 5 minutes.

Then the playlist switches to something cursed.

Might hit you with “yo this is my unreleased demo” mid-fuck.

FELIX — “Take You Down” by Chris Brown

Whispers “Let me take care of you” and suddenly you’ve blacked out.

Somehow the bass always aligns with his strokes.

The kind to kiss your ankle to this song and mean it.

SEUNGMIN — “All Mine” by Brent Faiyaz

You didn’t expect this but he’s that guy.

Makes eye contact. Doesn’t look away. Bites your neck at exactly the right lyric.

You say “I love you” and he says “I know.”

JEONGIN — “Talk” by Khalid ft. Disclosure

It’s cute until it isn’t. He fucks like a man who’s been studying.

This track plays and suddenly you’re the one saying “please.”

He blushes but does not stop.

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Collin, you absolute legend, thank you for this chaotic, inspired ask. Sorry it took me a bit to get to it.

Come back anytime with more cursed thoughts. I'll be ready. With garlic, holy water, or a bass-heavy playlist. 🩸🔞

[boykingscourt]

do you have any sam + alchohol headcanons? 😁

i thought about samjess matching cocktails yesterday and got sooo happy.. 😊

yes I do! I'm sorry to say they will not all be as cute as samjess matching cocktails though 😔

sam getting his first beer from fred jones (psychic in 8x08) is just one of those little pieces of canon I like to ignore because it doesn't make a lot of sense and also isn't very compelling for a character who has lived with two different alcoholics!

I think sam got his first beer from dean when he was still way underage, something john either wasn't aware of or said was fine because it's just one. teen sam didn't like the taste and also didn't understand why it was fun to drink after a hunt or "easier" as dean once let slip when he probably meant to say fun again

dean tried to get sam to drink with him more when john wasn't around and sam usually declined even if dean called him names for it. one night he did and ended up throwing up into the toilet so dean felt bad and stopped pressuring him (but only for a little while lol). dean would also bring up this story as a way to make fun of sam even if he did feel bad about it when it happened

once time dean or john got beer on sam's school work and ruined it, and neither of them thought it was a big deal and told sam he was overreacting. sam never left his work alone after that and quickly took care of it once it was done

at stanford it took sam a while to get comfortable drinking with his friends but he would eventually come to realize drinking could be okay and even fun with the right crowd

one of the reasons sam knew something was seriously wrong with brady after thanksgiving break was because the "new brady" tried pressuring him into heavy drinking (sam wasn't being pushed around anymore though) when the old brady had always been more than understanding when sam opened up about not wanting to be around his dad while he drank

when sam and jess were getting closer but weren't quite dating, jess went overboard at a party and had to throw up outside in the cold. she woke up the next morning thinking she'd totally blown her chances with sam because she was pretty sure she'd gotten puke on his shoes but she also remembered sam holding her hair out of the way and gently rubbing her back, giving her his jacket, and driving them both back to campus, making sure she got in safely and that her roommate knew to take care of her

sam made it a point not to think too much about his and ruby's first time because... yeah

he would never say so, but sam liked drinking on rare occasions with cas more than he did drinking with dean

sam understood dj might be tempted to drink before he was 21 so he made sure to give him a cool dad rant about safe(r) drinking and that if dj ever needed sam to pick him up or something sam wouldn't be mad so please just call

thank you for this ask, I had a lot of fun with it!

[ajistryinghisbest]

Eyes Like An Angel

By: azzyangelfish

Read it, or don’t…idk I hope you like it :3

Eyes are the windows to the soul. At least that’s how Christian remembered the saying. It didn’t make much sense to him when he had first read it, how could someone’s irises and pupils show a clear picture of who they were? That didn’t make any sense. Until he met him.

The wedding reception was simple but elegant, with a buffet-style food service, plenty of seating, the cake in the center of the dining room, and a large dance floor complete with a DJ setup.

Christian hadn’t had the time to say hello to anyone besides the pack before the ceremony, as he had been helping the mates get ready. However, now that the reception was underway he had started to mingle with the other guests. The first person he met was a girl who looked to be in her early twenties. Her jet-black hair was braided into a neat bun with gold jewelry that complimented her navy blue dress. What took Christian back was her eyes. Behind the golden frames of her glasses were her dark brown, nearly black, eyes. Despite their dark colour, Christian couldn’t help but feel as though he was being pierced by her gaze.

“Hello! You must be a member of the Shaw Pack?” Her voice was soft but sweet, holding her hand out for Christian to shake.”Oh, hi, yes I am. My name is Christian. And you are?” He took her hand and shook it, noticing how easygoing she was. “Nice to meet you, I’m Griffin, that’s my older sibling.” Griffin gestures to Angel who is currently talking to Arden. Christian was taken aback for only a moment before really taking a closer look. He realizes that, while they may not look identical, one thing remains the same between the two siblings. Their eyes.

Angel’s eyes weren’t quite the same colour as Griffin's, but the sharpness of their gazes remained the same. Christian knew that Angel was a middle child but he had never actually met either of their siblings. “Nice to meet you. I wasn’t aware that any of their family members were informed.” Christian mentioned casually, generally curious but not wanting to sound nosey. Griffin giggled softly and leaned against the table behind her, “Yeah, actually both myself and my brother are informed. I’m informed because of an incident that happened when I was younger. The Department couldn’t safely wipe my memories so I was just given informed status. I’m a paramedic back home. It's a cornerstone city like Dahlia so I deal with both empowered and unempowered people.” She says while taking a sip of her drink. Christian nodded softly, and, despite being his nosey self, decided to refrain from asking questions about whatever incident had led to her being given informed status.

Just as Christian was about to ask something, Arden came by. “I see you met Chrissy.” She teased and Christian rolled his eyes. Griffin smiled and a little bit of blush dusted her cheekbones. “Guess so, and you are?” The unempowered girl had shifted her gaze to Arden and it seemed as though Arden had no issues with that. Deciding to leave the two, very clearly flirty, pair alone, Christian made his way to the bar.

It was an open bar, and it wasn’t super busy at the moment. While waiting for his drink, Christian glanced around the room. Asher and his mate were sitting with Tank and Sam, seemingly chatting. Milo and Stealth were engaged in an expressive conversation with a few of the Keyton Pack members. Gregory Keyton was talking to Angel, who was laughing while David appeared to be blushing beside them. It was nice to see the pack not only together, but also to see them celebrating such a momentous occasion for the pack.

“Is this seat taken?” A low, smooth voice asked which startled Christian out of his thoughts. ‘Oh uh no.” The shifter turned around to see who he was talking to and locked eyes with a man who just so happened to have the most beautiful eyes he had ever seen. The man smiled, his eyes crinkling in the corners as he did. He had on a navy blue suit with a navy blue tie to match. “Do you mind if I sit here?” He asked, his voice was deep but not at all gravely. Christian just shook his head and shuffled over. The man smiled again and sat down. He looked about Christian’s age, maybe a year or two older, with dark brown hair slightly bleached in some places, and hazel eyes that Christian swore looked bronze.

“Wonderful, thank you. My name’s Declan by the way. You are?” Christian felt the tips of his ears turn red. Why is this guy flustering him so much? “I’m Christain, uh, I’m a member of the Shaw Pack.” He said and looked back to Declan who nodded. “Ah, my younger sibling is your alpha’s mate.” The dots suddenly clicked for Christian. That entire family must all have that same piercing gaze, but Declan’s was weirdly comforting. To Christian, it felt like Declan was giving him a warm hug with just one look. “Oh, you’re their older brother? Also informed from what Griffin said?” Christian asked, to which Declan nodded and smiled once again. “Yep that’s me, and yes, also informed. I’m a SAR technician, I work with a few wolf shifters.” Christian nodded again, he wanted to keep talking to Declan. Christian felt his core thrum with energy every time that Declan talked and he felt happier than he had in a while.

“Are you here with anyone?” Declan asked before Christian could. The shifter shook his head and took a sip of his drink. “No, I’m by myself. Are you?” Christian asked and looked at the other man. He hoped that the answer was no. Declan shook his head. “Nah, I’m on my own too. Although everyone has been very welcoming.” He added and looked back at Christian, “Sorry if this is too forward, but can I just say that you have a beautiful smile?” Christian felt a blush spreading across his cheeks and he smiled bashfully. “No, it’s not too forward at all! Um, you have pretty eyes…they’re kind of like an angel.” It was Declan’s turn to blush but he moved a bit closer to Christian and leaned down a bit so that they were at eye-level. “Well, aren’t you sweet? Would you like to dance with me?” He asked while looking up to see that people had started heading to the dance floor. Christian blushed but nodded a bit more vigorously than he meant to. “Yes please, I would love to.” Declan smiled and took his hand, pulling Christian to his feet and leading him over to the dance floor.

The songs were a mix of slow dances and more upbeat dance music. Declan stood at just about half a foot taller than Christian, and he gently guided the pair through the first few dances. For the remainder of the reception, Christian was either dancing with Declan or talking to other guests with Declan at his side. By the end of the night, he had his number and a promise of a date later that week.

“So I’ll see you on Thursday then?” Declan asked while handing Christian his phone back after typing in his number. Christian nodded and blushed as Declan’s hand brushed against his. “Yeah, Thursday at Max’s” Christian confirmed and slipped his phone back in his pocket. Declan smiled and held Christain’s hand in his own, squeezing it gently. “See you then, love.” He said before giving his hand one last squeeze and heading out the door.

Christian stood there with a stupid grin on his face until Asher found him. “Oh, there you are Chris-whoa!” The beta looked quizzically at Christian. “Dude, are you ok? Why are you smiling so hard? Also who were you with all night?” Christian rolled his eyes but couldn’t wipe the grin off his face. “I got a date with Declan.” Asher’s jaw dropped. “You got a date with our alpha-mate’s older brother!?!?” Angel, who heard this, peaked around the corner and grinned. “Arden got a date with my sister!”

[peanutbutterandbananasandwichs]

sam (of course) + ☠ and/or ∇

Headcanon meme

☠ - angry/violent headcanon - especially S5 onwards Sam is terrified of his own anger. Even in later seasons he still thinks of himself as an inherently angry person. He internalised it so bad. He actively works to suppress any feelings of anger, and any that make it through (the few times he expresses anger at Dean like when he found out he killed Amy, or re anything with Gadreel) make him feel violently sick afterwards. As time goes on he lets more and more things slide partly because he's afraid of upsetting Dean, but also because he's afraid of his own emotions. The only times in later seasons he really lets himself feel anger is on behalf of others (for instance Magda).

Sam has a very complicated relationship with violence. Expert compartmentalizer that he is he manages most of the time to view the violence he partakes in as a necessary tool. But he is aware of the dissonance of his desperate desire for safety. Partly this ties into his feelings towards his own anger in that he tries never to enact violence out of anger. Soulless of course didn't have any problem with this - all violence was neutral to him - simply a means to an end. And that complicates Sam's feelings too - because its important to him that even when he's stuffing the violence into a neat little box, that somewhere deep down he feels guilt for it, and it scares him that some part of himself is capable of not feeling that. And he's also aware that feeling guilt doesn't actually make anything better, it doesn't make him a better person if he shot someone but felt bad about it. But it matters to him anyway. When he finally gets out he does keep his gun, because he'll never quite feel safe without it, but he keeps it locked away and never gets it out. He hates that something he spent so much of his life trying to get away from - that leaving it behind was supposed to be the way to safety - ends up being a crutch for his ability to feel safe outside of the life. ∇ -. old age/aging headcanon - I'll be real I don't think I'll ever top this answer (that little fic you liked that I wrote about Sam and aging - was actually an answer for this meme many moons ago).

Buuut here's one that is more canon-compliant with Sam's actual ending. Sam's greatest fear re ageing is anything like dementia. Genuinely keeps him up at night. Prior to the finale he never thought about it too much because he really wasn't sure he'd live long enough for it to be an issue. But it plagues him once he's settled into his life on the outside, and especially once he has DJ.

[jacks347]

I've got Redacted second gen brainrot so have my thoughts for the kids of the pack.

Shaw: Marcus and Angelica, 4 years apart. Marcus, shifter, is the oldest of the second generation kids and takes over for David. Angelica "Angie" is unempowered, works as the security receptionist but does writing on the side.

Talbot: Matteo, unempowered. Manages the business end of the security company.

Greer: Rosa, Giovanni, and Alessia. Two years between each (Rosa was 4 and Gio was 2 when Alessia was born). Rosa, shifter, becomes beta after Asher and works as a junior investigator at the Department like Sweetheart. Gio, shifter, works as a male model (taking the pretty genetics in stride). Alessia, stealth, is an up and coming DJ and is the youngest of the second generation kids.

Collins: Carrie and Jason, twins. Both elementals, Carrie is a freelancer, Jason a gravitron. Both fully work for the security company.

In terms of age: Marcus is the oldest, Matteo and Rosa are a year younger than him, Carrie and Jason are two years younger, then Giovanni is three years younger, Angelica is a year younger than Gio, and Alessia as the youngest.

Carrie and Marcus have been together since high school, Rosa teases them about being an old married couple relentlessly.

Angie has a massive crush on Matteo but refuses to tell him, has only told Alessia and has sworn her to secrecy about it. Marcus and Matteo both take after their fathers and Marcus would have her head if he found out.

Alessia takes after Sweetheart and scares Milo like she's getting paid for it. (She actually is, Sweetheart gives her a dollar every time she gets him, has since her powers manifested)

Carrie and Jason are purposefully named after horror movie characters. Why? Because Darlin is petty and Carrie and Friday the 13th are the only horror movies they've ever successfully sat through. They also both have subtle southern accents they've picked up from Sam.

All the Greer children are ridiculously pretty. The rest of the second gen kids are jealous. Gio uses it to be an absolute heartthrob. (And he gets called out by his sisters every time he does cause they know to see through his bullshit)

Alessia has been taking dance classes since middle school, she's quite good at it.

In human form, Angelica is the fastest of the second gen. Claims she learned from being chased by her older brother for her entire childhood.

Marcus is a carbon copy of David but he has Angel's eyes. It's the only way you can tell them apart from a distance.

Matteo has a scar that splits his left eyebrow and barely misses his eye from when he got a little too high on adrenaline during the solstice party one year and accidentally got into a fight with a deer. No one knows how or why and he refuses to explain. Something about his dignity.

Was this stupid? Yes. Do I care? No.

You are gonna take my bullshit and you are gonna like it >:D

[wincestwhispers]

big thanks to your freak father sam … 🙏 thinking abt him today (his loss of soulmate) and how this will affect his son <3 <3 <3 hope your day is great!

you’re very welcome i know my job on this earth- discussing freak father sam🙂‍↕️ this is such a good ask, my answers are incredibly depressing!

The way Mary haunted Sam growing up, a mother he could almost feel but never knew, can’t remember, is not dissimilar to how Dean will haunt Dj. Except I think rather than it being an unspoken Thing, sometimes Dean is all Sam can talk about. Dj’s bedtime stories were always either about Dean or from Dean.

There are many topics regarding Dean that Sam doesn’t touch; many holes in the depressing life Dj comes to learn his uncle led. Dj fills in many of the blanks with his father’s flashbacks and episodes, all of which he tries to conceal.

Losing your soulmate isn’t like losing a limb, it’s more akin to losing your lungs. You needed them to breathe, to function and live. How are you supposed to survive without them?

I don’t think Sam was an angry father. He has moments but mostly he’s a shell of a man, trying to ease his pain with Dj’s love. It’s never enough. Not the way he thought it would be.

Sam conceived Dj on an awkward date turned one-night stand. Or it was supposed to be. When she tells Sam she got pregnant they try to make it work and get a place to raise Dj together. She leaves before Dj turns one.

Dj lives a fairly isolated life. They don’t move all the time and they’re friendly with neighbors but they’re never friends with them. Sam doesn’t really have or try to make friends, not outside the ones he already had and never contacts enough. Sam doesn’t enroll Dj in or encourage many extracurriculars unless he can be involved in them. Sam’s also very protective of Dj. It causes quite a bit of conflict at times.

Dj never knows if his father will be present or not on a given day. Sure he’ll be there, he’ll follow his routine, but it might be with glazed eyes and slumped shoulders.

Sam obviously keeps Miracle the sweet dog throughout Dj’s childhood and when she eventually passes Sam gets borderline suicidal from how depressed it makes him.

A lot of Sam’s parenting is based on what he remembers of Dean. He wants to give Dj a better childhood than Dean, of course he does. It’s hard though. Dj questions everything, is so stubborn, so pushy. Sometimes, Sam resents his differences to Dean. Other times, Sam resents that Dean could never be different like Dj is.

I have many more thoughts but ugh i have to get back to work. Tysm for the ask and I hope you have a great day too <3

[c9kefestation]

Any hcs you have? Any club penguin character this time!

Good morning gang (even thought it's noon as of posting this), welcome to episode 2 of ramblingfestation! I'm your host, G Billy, and im your co-host, G Billy-

I mentioned this like a while back but my hcs outside of the pb are kinda lacking i think so I'm sorry if this isn't going to be as juicy as the previous hc dump.

Here goes!:

Aunt Arctic has 2 sisters! with her being the middle child.

Sam/Shadow Guy is colorblind, specifically, he has protanopia (literally JUST searched up the term), it means that he can see only shades of blue and yellow (can't perceive the color red).

Not much of a hc but it might be fun to know, in my design for Shadow Guy, if you look closely, you'll see that one of his pupils is whited-out (just an outline). This, and the poof of spiky feathers he has on his head are a nod to him getting zapped by the toaster that gave him his powers (quick note: my clubp lore knowledge doesn't go very far, just fyi)

I've already stated this hc before but I might aswell also mention it here, Amy/Gamma Gal is a cane user! Never stops her from kicking ass though!

This one has something to do ab my design for the character again: Agent(PR) uses hair gel to style the feathers on their head. They try to make them as neat and cool-agent-looking as possible, but they always end up looking silly and dopey. Same applies to Agent in the normal club penguin universe, but they're more successful in their attempts. Ig that's how I differentiate them,personality wise, PR Agent ends up more towards the silly side while ClubP Agent ends up on a lil more towards the serious-ish one, if that makes any sense.

Idk much about Dj Maxx but I roll with the idea that he's a ghost. He and Dj Cadence are roommates (no, you may NOT quote the vine)! Though Cadence is the only one who leaves the igloo, Maxx just kinda chills in there. No one knows about his existence there except for Cadence, the PB and maybe other ghosts like Skip.

Speaking of Skip the Bellhop, bro HATES the sunlight. Whenever he hangs out with Jeff (SKEFF IS REAAAAL) during the summer, he has like a victorian ass umbrella with him to protect himself, aswell as some fancy ass shades (dracula fuckin ass).

The Penguin Band all live in the same igloo (you may now quote the vine)!

I was going to save this for a possible future post but Stompin' Bob has a lotta siblings. 1 older sister and 2 younger twins (boy and girl).

I think that's going to be it for today, I don't wanna overdo myself and explode cuz I've never rlly rambled like this online.

Hope u guys liked it!

[presidentjiannajake]

Jakes opinions

Im sorry guys I think this is going to be a long post but I hit the yart and wrote down all my opinions and thoughts. This is notes over the week so bare with me.

I absolutely hate Sabrina Carpenter, like the song "TASTE" leaves a bad taste in my mouth. Like she icks me out everytime I hear her songs.

2. I watched Sidelined: My QB and me and had some thoughts. This movie was god awful in the best way. If i could describe this movie it is exactly what my dreams are like down to the scenes. Like i go to sleep and dream about corny events like this movie. I shamelessly watched the entire thing. I do not recommend( i definitely recommend you guys watch it it’s so F$$king funny. NOBODY WATCH IT WE HAVE TO SEE IT TOGETHER TRUST!!!!!!

3. I saw this guy on TikTok sniff his customers bag of chips. If i ever catch someone sniffing my bag, I would burn the whole building down. Idk is it nasty to sniff someone's bag of chips or should it be normalized?

After making that notes page I also wrote another whole page dedicated to all of my "no exceptions what so ever".

After listening to jealous by nick jonas, latch by sam smith  and bulletproof by la roux i realized that im dropping out of college and becoming a full time DJ.

Last thing if I could put my personality in one song it would be "Walk in the Park" by Beach House. I absolutely love that song and could write an entire musical analysis on it.