#and everything feels pointless

[haechannabelle]

ok personal venting in the tags time. giving u my TMI like stray kids said

[virgothozul]

[wolke17]

nah I know I’ll never heal from choso’s death, that shit has me traumatized for the rest of my life I’m not kidding

[skeletoninthemelonland]

never lay down in bed right after eating. don't think about staying on your phone for nearly two hours in that position. don't sleep either. acid reflux is real and i hate that guy

[crispy-ghee]

I appreciate the people who like my characters and stories. It's nice not feeling like I'm the only one who gives a shit about them sometimes. I know that I should make art for myself, and I do, but still. Sometimes I need to feel like someone out there actually cares.

[leham-n-daavocado]

Just finished the third season of Bridgerton (it was an incredibly frustrating watch)...People have said that Penelope is named as such because of her nickname Pen and her being a writer... but has anyone thought of the reference to the Odyssey and Penelope being the wife of Odysseus? You know, she had to be loyal for 20 years while Odysseus gallivanted across the globe and was distracted/cheating on her Circe? I feel like it goes with the whole Polin narrative too. She's the one who had to wait for him to get a clue. And if you've read the Penguin version of the Odyssey, you know everyone is like omg! Odysseus, so amazing, the sacker of cities etc. Which parallels Colin's "glow up". Totally think it's more of a literary reference since the two of them are writers...

[tangledinink]

i dont think i really wanna do anything anymore is the thing.

[mad--sad--bad]

No matter which way I go, I always see dead ends.

[shesalittlelost]

Hotd is just not team black centric enough for me to give two fucks about it but I'm disappointed coz I've been waiting for it since the first time it was announced. Too much greenies is such a turn off. Nobody cares!! We need more of the best and cuntiest Targaryens not the lewser group.

[ghostlycleric]

It’s really really interesting that they left El’s feelings to be resolved in season 5.

The last time we hear about El’s feelings towards Mike it’s in her letter: “I have gone to become a superhero again. From, El”. That is quite literally El saying she doesn’t love Mike anymore.

She considers writing love to be the bare minimum. “You can’t even write it, Mike.” She thought Mike not saying or writing it meant he didn’t love her anymore. So, she stopped writing it too. While it wasn’t necessarily a breakup letter, that was her telling Mike that she is done waiting for him.

That would’ve immediately lead to their breakup if it weren’t for Will. (That’s why she doesn’t even try to kiss him during their reunion in the desert.) Will talked Mike into giving that monologue, Will lied about who had his feelings. The same feelings that Mike was reassured by and called back to in his monologue to El. The relationship we’ll see Mike and El in at the beginning of season 5 will be built on a lie.

How long this lie lasts is mainly based on the painting, but also on El herself.

Will’s feelings are solidified. Mike’s seem solidified. El’s are unconfirmed. (But, last we saw it seemed she’d lost feelings.) We never see how she responds to the monologue, but we do know some things about after it.

She’s distant. Will has reason to believe that Mike and El haven’t talked at all since the monologue. He asks Mike, kind of timidly, “has she talked to you at all?” and Mike says “not much”. He then reveals that they talked about the supernatural stuff, about her loss. We don’t hear anything about the state of their relationship.

They choose to have Mike and Will have another heart to heart at the end of the season instead of Mike and El. They choose to have El walk out on that hill independently with Mike staying by Will’s side behind her.

I don’t think they’ll pull an off camera breakup for them. But, we saw from how El acted in the desert reunion that she won’t be hostile to Mike after a mature breakup. In the pizza place right before the monologue, she holds his hands and appears to be trying to gently tell him something. I’ve never gotten anything but breakup vibes from that moment. They get interrupted, then the monologue happens. If they didn’t let it get interrupted, Mike and El would’ve broken up.

They’re set up to start yet another season with a rocky relationship built on a lie and an I love you. We saw from the way seasons 3 and 4 happened, that is a recipe for disaster.

I can’t wait to see how they decide to reveal El’s feelings and the painting. In what order? How? How long do Mike and El stay together? How does Will react? How does Mike react? How does El react? There’s so much volume in this love triangle it’s insane.

[lunasberry]

life feels so pointless.

I don't know why I'm here.

[bonetrousledbones]

what they dont tell you about being slightly brainrotted about undertale aus is that sometimes you will have sick as fuck ideas for how to "fix" certain aus you dont really vibe with but be very hesitant about actually wanting to talk about it because you do not have enough brainrot about the specific characters that would fit better to do it justice outside of drawing it like once and then never doing anything with it ever again

[circusclownproductions]

Y’all don’t ever make me a famous blog id go fucking insane. I’d go crazy you hear me no serial killer on the planet would be able to fathom what I would do

[babbybones]

i can see why toby tweets about UTDR so sparingly now considering you have some people who will be like "What does this drawing of Spamton Pogging/this Mob Psycho 100 Crossover Fanfic mean for the jbjksfbgsdgbjksdagkjsf" and then you have others who are like "well I know this lore was dropped on the official website and is clearly a Sincere Piece of Storytelling but I think it doesn't count"

[rapidhighway]

i want to write fic soooo bad but i feel like i just can't present a narrative in a way that anyone will understand idk it always just feels so nonsensical, whatever i write. Even just writing a plan its like after a while all words just lose all meaning idk what this meanss idk how to do this

[sillee]

hello all! another update from me! sorry i have been MIA much longer than i expected. this next video (eclectic victorian build with me) has taken much longer than i expected and also some bad family news has really thrown me off this entire week, if im honest!

stickers for US are mailed and international folks stickers are all ready to go, i just need to go to the post office to drop them off. <3