#and idk how much of the problem is me how much of the problem is US and how much of the problem is my motivation levels and stuff

[light-wrath-paradise]

Ok people in this thread either need to stop describing my experiences or I need to get tested.

Actually can plural egg cracking (memes or otherwise) become a thing. It might seem obvious to YOU that emotions don't normally have gender identities and gender fluidity doesn't normally give you different hobbies per gender but nobody bothered to tell ME until I was already knee deep in this shit

[saintshadow]

What should you be aware of?

pile i

The fact that you’re better off than you assume yourself to be. I get the vibe you constantly worry for no real reason. Idk you just seem pessimistic in my personal opinion. I feel like you’re realizing things are okay. You could be coming into the deeper parts of adulthood. (25+) or even finally reaching your 20’s! Though I do sense this is 25+ vibes. 30 is the number I keep hearing in specific. It seems like you have a problem of dissatisfaction. Things just aren’t ever good enough for you, and honestly I see WHY you feel that way. Like security/abundance is cool, but feeling like that spark inside of you isnt being fed sucks real bad. I feel like you could be experiencing a lot of mundane disturbances & annoyances. Feeling as if you are unappreciated or underdeserved by those around you even. Sometimes your head gets in the clouds and you need to refocus and ground. You are easily hurt/offended and have tendencies towards bitterness- I understand WHY, dgmw. It’s just that you need to be more hyper aware of this because it’s starting to affect your relationships.

pile ii

Change, I keep hearing change by deftones. You’re honestly a bit of an emotionally vacuous hole sometimes. Like you forget how to consider other people or connect with them empathetically because you have little to no empathy for yourself. I feel like this is NATURALLY who and how you are, but sometimes you have to try to connect or reach out more. I feel like this pile kind of already knows everything they need to be aware of. Some of you could struggle with fear or anxiety with water? Idk why that just came to me, you’re going through some pretty uncomfortable changes and transformations. Others could be uncomfortable with you because of this. Like you almost don’t seem like you’re able to effectively communicate or meaningfully connect with the world around you because you’re uncovering some kind of divine wisdom inside of yourself through this transformation.

pile iii

Things are improving, even if it feels like you are still stuck you will be free, for some reason I’m thinking of silk moths. How difficult it is for them to get out of their cocoon, you could feel stuck in the cocoon so to speak but I think your molting process is actually just beginning. Perhaps you fear never leaving the cocoon, you feel trapped and exposed in it as if you can’t seem to just be free. I sense emotions of embarrassment and rage, it feels like life has not been fair to you. It usually isn’t fair to anyone unfortunately, but regardless; you’ll find soon that things are getting less painful. Some of you could be struggling because you don’t see that now is a time to shed and not take physical life action. This is why your plans keep getting blocked, because you’re becoming a whole version of yourself. Meaning that you have to let go of the protection of the cocoon. As much as you hate the cocoon, you remain stuck inside of it, it’s like there are little webs and pieces you aren’t seeing that all this fussing and movement in your cocoon is helping remove to make your molting process easier. Have faith and chill out. 🫡

@honeyluvsw credited for these beautiful solar dividers

[statesys]

🌸 : how many alters do u have? do u consider yourself to have a high headcount?

we believe ourselves to have like ~100, but only 40ish have been properly " found " ? I suppose we'd consider it kinda mid range size ough 👍

🧩 : do u have any subsystems? if so, how do they work?

we have one identified and it's like .. a headmate got chopped into multiple pieces, and then each piece got seasoned differently but it's still the same meat yk ? spicy steak, salty steak, bland steak .. all stesk ..

🍧 : are there any alter(s) who u would consider the “core”? if so, are they the host?

well I would've answered yes, me, but I'm not so sure anymore ? but I am the Host and previously maybe still idk the Core too >_>

💞 : do u have an innerworld? how complex is it?

yes and urhhmm not super fancy I don't think, it's very unstable / fuzzy anyways, but it's evolved from a Void to kinda a little house with vague concepts of rooms, there's a more detailed outside now too but it's still. Simple and barely there ?

💧 : how does fronting work for your system? do u have a “front room”?

urh kinda this[link] but also sometimes it is the Pushed To The Side thing, it seems to vary. more often now others have been co-fronting/controlling instead of js being there too.

and urhh we don't have a Room but we have a Table that's been around since the beginning and it's basically a visual for those who find fronting easier w something to actually look at / into

🍀 : how do u communicate with ur headmates?

by yelling really really loudly and annoying them until they talk to me /silly [ mostly external communication or "vibes" / feelings, we usually js memory share or co on and blur our conscious together to talk ig ]

🍡 : do u use alter roles/labels? which ones do u use?

ehhh we use things like host, co host, protector and holder, plus like rationalizer and battery bc Headmates liked them. but we don't try put much weight onto labeling roles, as that's caused a lotta problems in the past

🌺 : who fronts the most? who fronts the least?

well our freq fronters rn are Adeline, A.D, Eclipse, Myles and Rowan, and usually Cass, Gabrielle & Willa pop in a lot. urh besides a few most the others rarely front if ever so they're all the Least ig 0_0

❄️ : how often do ur hosts/fronting patterns change?

host so far has stayed the same, we have got some oscillating co-hosts tho ? fronting patterns is generally a set 3ish stay the same for a while, with 3 or 5 switching in and out more frequently.

🥝 : how often do u switch?

it used to be a very very rare occurrence, however Recently it's been becoming a lot more frequent >and< a lot more noticeable, both purposefully and not. one of these fuckers just has a out of sys crush/squish tho so /aff

🪷 : do you co-front with other alters often? is co-fronting easy or difficult?

we basically only co-front / that's how we front, switch, etc. it's pretty easy, varies day to day and headmate to headmate but generally easy

🌷 : how long does it take for u to switch?

honestly it's usually pretty instant in being able to Do stuff or See, but properly feeling yourself can take anywhere from a few minutes to hours, sometimes we never properly front and you're stuck in this weird limbo of being but not being ?

🌨️ : do ur alters have specific voice claims for what they sound like in headspace?

most of us sound the same minus a couple accent changes or distinct voices, HOWEVER there's been some ideas circulating that we could try changing our in sys voice by finding a voice claim and trying to like. will it to change. idk, js an idea

🌱 - do u have any introjects? what are their sourcess

we're mostly introjects actually, our sourcelist is private unless you're a friend .. but we're like tv/movies, a few factives, some songtives and a kintive(?)

💐 : do u have any hosts? co-hosts?

I'm the host, and co-hosts it's seeming like Rowan and Gabrielle mostly, possibly Eclipse and Cass too ? dunno, we have some that could "qualify" as a co host but it's more a user choice thing than a set criteria

🍃 : if u have an innerworld, can u see into while you’re fronting?

some struggle more w it, but generally if we focus we can see it vaguely. it's more sensing it than seeing it ig

💗 : do u use any origin/-genic terms? what are they?

closegenic[link] 🔥

🌿 - do u have any npcs in your headspace?

not that I know of D:

🍬 - has ur system created any rules ur alters are expected to abide by?

we've tried .. however we've yet to properly sit down and discuss stuff bc we're all chronic Do It Laters >_>

awa awa

- myles

PLURAL ASK GAME!! ⋆˙⟡

⊹ ࣪ ˖͙͘͡★ get 2 know ur sys!!

!! this post is for everybody! u may use this regardless of origin/beliefs, just remember to follow ur own dni

🌸 - how many alters do u have? do u consider yourself to have a high headcount?

🧩 - do u have any subsystems? if so, how do they work?

🍧 - are there any alter(s) who u would consider the “core”? if so, are they the host?

💞 - do u have an innerworld? how complex is it?

💧 - how does fronting work for your system? do u have a “front room”?

🍀 - how do u communicate with ur headmates?

🍡 - do u use alter roles/labels? which ones do u use?

🌺 - who fronts the most? who fronts the least?

❄️ - how often do ur hosts/fronting patterns change?

🥝 - how often do u switch?

🪷 - do you co-front with other alters often? is co-fronting easy or difficult?

🌷 - how long does it take for u to switch?

🌨️ - do ur alters have specific voice claims for what they sound like in headspace?

🌱 - do u have any introjects? what are their sources?

💐 - do u have any hosts? co-hosts?

🍃 - if u have an innerworld, can u see into while you’re fronting?

💗 - do u use any origin/-genic terms? what are they?

🌿 - do u have any npcs in your headspace?

🍬 - has ur system created any rules ur alters are expected to abide by?

[dayseternal-blog]

Heyyyy do u know any NH FF after the last n how their relationship continues and yeah😭 idk how to explain what im looking for🥲

Sure! There are some I haven't recommended before!

NaruHina Post-The Last Blank Period

"More Than One Life" by history_huh - Rated E, Canon-Compliant, Multi-chapter, Complete. How Naruto and Hinata made it from The Last to the wedding and a little bit after that.

"Hime" by @thestrangeryoucanget - Rated M, Canon-Compliant, Two-shot.  It is set on Hanabi's kidnap on the beginning of The Last, after Hinata goes with Toneri, and after the end of the movie.

"do you adore?" by tendermoon - Rated T, Canon-Compliant, Multi-chapter, Ongoing. twenty kisses they share.

"star vessel" by @quirrrky - Rated M, Canon-Compliant, Multi-chapter, Incomplete. From a jealous boyfriend to missions together, honeymoon, overprotective husband, nightmares and reveries. Everything from the moon and back.

"In Your Care" by Speckofoursource - Rated T, Canon-Compliant, Multi-chapter, Ongoing. Hinata might have fallen for him first, but Naruto fell for her the hardest. Seven chapters detailing my take on the NaruHina wedding story, starting with a low key and intimate engagement. Generally canon-compliant and will contain some spoilers for the final season of Shippuden.

"under the moon's light" by @powerful-niya - Rated T, Canon-Compliant, One-shot. Naruto and Hinata enjoy a romantic evening at the Rinne Festival, but they soon find themselves taking a nostalgic trip down memory lane.

The one I wrote recently - "With You" - Rated T, Canon-Compliant, One-shot. Hinata and Naruto support each other in the aftermath of the Moon mission.

The following are ones I've recommended in the past:

“With You in the Future” by @chloelapomme - Rated E, Canon-Compliant, Series of related one-shots. Back at Konoha from their moon mission, Naruto and Hinata learn to know each other, how to live with each other, how to solves problems together, and how to start a family. With their past behind them, their future is right before them.

“NaruHina 2020” by @angelicalixx - Rated M, Canon-Compliant, Series of one-shots. A collection of short NaruHina fics for NaruHina 2020.

“My Name on Your Lips” by katarinahime - Rated E, Canon-Compliant, Series of related one-shots. Hinata calls Naruto a plethora of different names, some he enjoys more than others.

“Permission to Engage” by WaterRolls - Rated G, Canon-Compliant, One-shot. Naruto proposing–as only he can do.

Untitled from "Postscripts" by WaterRolls - Rated M, Canon-Compliant, Short One-shot. Prompt: Here, Naruto seeing Hinata with a high ponytail for the first time (they have gotten together in this time) and he was left in awe at the sight of her bare neck and all of sudden he felt the urge to kiss it. And before he realised, he already did and it caught them both off guard.

“Chapter 18″ from “Between the Trees” by @utsus​ - Rated T, Canon-Compliant, Short One-shot. Prompt: Jealous Kiss.

“Day 2: Cravings” from “NaruHina Week 2017″ by @hinatamyqueen - Rated T, Canon-Compliant, One-shot. She never knew she could hunger for another’s touch this way.

“The Urge to Touch Her” by @cherryjutsu - Rated T, Canon-Compliant, One-shot. The urge to touch her was a dangerous thing.

“Hair/Haircut” from “Orange and Lavender” by Reading Bennie - Rated G, Canon-Compliant, Short One-shot. She was fed up. Hinata loved her husband and her children dearly. But this was the last straw.

“Close Quarters” by @spyder-m - Rated M, Canon-Compliant, One-shot. Much to the chagrin of their teammates, since becoming couple, Naruto and Hinata are acting much more open and affectionately around one another… Even while in the middle of missions.

Untitled by @nekomamoru - Rated T, Canon-Compliant, One-shot. Prompt: “I know I’ve kissed you like, ten times, but just like another ten, please.”

“like liquid starlight” by wordbends - Rated G, Canon-Compliant, Short One-shot. Too many nights away from home.

“The kids, they ambushed me!” by @linisen - Rated T, Canon-Compliant, One-shot. During the blank period - kids around the ages of one and three.

“Matchmaking” by @happyocelot - Rated G, Canon-Compliant, One-shot. Everyone knew that Naruto and Hinata were a very happy couple. Everyone except the Hyuuga clan, who had clearly missed the memo. Thus began their clueless, well-meaning, but extremely irritating attempts to set up the former Hyuuga heiress and the hero of the Fourth Ninja War. Even though they were already together.

I also wrote "Shared Vows" - Rated E, Canon-Compliant, Series of one-shots. A series of one-shots concerning the highs, lows, and in-betweens of their romance, not in any chronological order.

If anyone knows of others, feel free to add on!

[balrogballs]

"#and don’t get me started about vague ‘islamicate’ aesthetics in diversity-fanart…#that is outright just SLB-bollywood core#aka biggest cultural export and one of the clearest methods of ‘erasing muslims while using sexy mughalcore aesthetics’"

hello sorry this is not directly relevant to your tags but i was wondering if you had any thoughts on like. (correct me if i am wrong) the indianisation of middle-eastern media (e.g. the 2019 live action aladdin and the casting of charithra chandran in one piece live action as the princess of a middle east/north africa inspired country) or if you had any leads on commentary about it!

OH BOY OH BOY THANK YOU FOR THE QUESTION, and apologies in advance that I have, as per, taken the opportunity to yap, and run… the comparison did have me Thinking A Lot on my train ride today so thank you for that as well, considering my commutes are normally very dreary…

Also before I actually start, a quick note re: my tags referring to fandom, I do want to note that it’s not that I’m calling these elements “problematic” or whatever, hell I often enjoy the spectacle, and have used these aesthetics myself. I also think Islamicate aesthetics do have progressive potential when done with a degree of self-awareness and used as a tool rather than a medium, especially in period-fantasy eg Tolkien (and not to blow smoke up my own ass but thinking about how Maglor and his musicality is introduced in Prayers via old-timey romantic ghazals and qawwalis before he starts singing about “waspfuckers”), or even in cinema itself as with the old Kamal Amrohi film Pakeezah, one of the best “queer death/anti-futurity” narratives that Indian cinema has come out with. 

It’s more that I see these aesthetics replicated so often as progressive in and of itself, “representative” of a culture, specifically, the South Asian subcontinent and India in particular, where said representation just directly echoes the dominant cultural narrative whilst framing itself as transgressive or antiracist… without such a framing, the aesthetics aren’t “regressive” in themselves. I see it kind of like, idk, making Tinkerbell wear a Wonder Woman leotard, where the leotard isn’t a problem and can be cool, but the intention of it is deeply uncool. Or to use a MENA example, a 2025 Iranian state production of LotR starring Ayatollah Elrond dealing out fatwas to Sauron Rushdie. But with both examples being called “progressive antiracist portrayals” that will decolonise fandom/cinema/literature/whatever. Each region or regime has its own nationalistic propaganda, but Bollywood and Hollywood have a much larger stake in global film culture so to speak, hence me focusing on them. Basically, less “this is bad and people shouldn’t do it” and more “this is what’s actually happening here”. 

I also have reading recommendations/reference list at the end because I don’t want to look like I’m talking out of my ass lol. 

So my (academic) background when it comes to film studies is more in the Indian popular cinema area since the cultural exports I worked on were from the subcontinent, in that I did a comparative study and Malayalam regional cinema read against Bombay-produced ‘cultural export’ films… And coming from that position, I’d say the ‘Indiafication’ of MENA aka Middle Eastern & North African identities in Anglophone cinema, primarily Hollywood, and the ‘Islamicate’ tropes of Bollywood cinema, are two manifestations of a very similar visual-political logic, but also that the former is proof of the latter’s relative “success”. 

By “visual-political logic”, I mean both speak to a similar selective appropriation & decontextualisation of Muslim cultures to serve dominant narratives, ethno/nationalism in the case of Indian popular cinema + cultural imperialism in the case of Hollywood/US cinema. However, the historical trajectories of said flattenings are very different, as Indian cinema actually used to portray Muslim subjects as far more complex and multifaceted (see: Garm Hava, Pakeezah or early Shyam Benegal films, or even current Malayalam middle cinema), but now either view them as romanticised, nostalgic ‘Islamicate’ relics (see: Umrao Jaan, Bajirao Mastani, Kalank) or walking, talking terror threat (see: Kerala Story, Uri: Surgical Strike) or both (see: Padmaavat). And with Hollywood, “Indian-humour” of the “haha they have stinky-lunchboxes” variety was widespread until, speaking loosely here, the late 2010s, when politics-of-representation entered the field.

So the "Islamicate" in Bollywood refers to cultural artefacts shaped by Islamic civilisation but divorced entirely from Indian Muslims: stuff like ornate calligraphy, Mughal courtly architecture, Urdu-inflected dialogue, sufistic motifs. These forms remain central to Bollywood’s visual economy, especially when drawing up a romanticised precolonial North India, yet detaches it from living Muslim presence in the country, which is seen as undesirable to the point that citizenship itself is withheld. And “real Muslims” are then demonised in the exact same film industry, while the aesthetics of precolonial Mughlai Islam is commodified… especially insidious when the “Indian Muslims are descendants of barbaric Mughal invaders” has not only been used to whitewash extreme acts of violence and brutality to said population, but is quite literally the official line taken by the nation-state. Essentially:

The ✨ Islamicate ✨ in Popular Cinema:

👿 Muslims 👿 in Popular Cinema:

The reason I mention this specific bifurcation or go into Islamicate cinema at all even though your question doesn’t relate to that, is because imo Bollywood’s selective aestheticisation and erasure of Muslim identity is mirrored in global cinema and one of the ways its done is through said Indiafication of Middle Eastern cultures and individuals. So in Anglophone films, especially post 9/11, actors of South Asian descent are often cast as generic Middle Eastern, Arab or “vaguely Muslim” characters without cultural specificity… like the Aladdin example you mention, where any racial/religious complexity is collapsed into this fungible “brownness”. On the surface level, it’s that South Asian, often Indian, bodies are used to stand-in for the Muslim ‘other’ in order to avoid using Arab/West Asian actors, who are considered more politically volatile. But further in, this kind of superficially diverse casting is also used to mask the persistent Orientalist tropes in US/UK cinema: an Arab Muslim is either a violent terrorist, an abject victim, a fully-assimilated patriot, or a liberal poster-child who disavows all aspects of his ethnic, religious or national identity aside from said vague “brownness”.

South Asian actors, especially Indian ones, are seen as more pliable: familiar to Western audiences through the global reach of Bollywood, and yet “brown” enough to evoke Muslim alterity without ever actually naming it. So Jack Shaheen talks about this very in depth in Reel Bad Arabs, but this kind of flattening isn’t just out of convenience or “they think we’re all the same”, it serves the ideological function of separating the viewer from “real Muslim lives” so that, say, imperial wars instigated by the States, or Britain’s surveillance regime (Prevent), can continue without a mass “hey aren’t those actual people?” awakening. And the use of Indian actors and “Bollywood” aesthetics in films or other visual productions that ostensibly depict the Middle East just reinscribes that racial hierarchy: India and Indians posited as a more acceptable, liberal, secular postcolony, while the Arab world can remain as the locus of danger, tribalism, and extremism. And the language of representation, ie, the well meaning and often diasporically originating “finally we Indians, nay, not just we but a super scrubbed down and regionally isolated performance of our culture, get to participate in a Hollywood that used to be super racist about us”, is used to couch that process, in order to tamp down protest against what is just straight up Orientalism II: Cinematic Boogaloo…

Also was chatting about this with @antlered-vixen and he mentioned the role of colourism and the catered-to audiences’ need for ontological signifiers for The Evil Muslim Other, and I think that’s definitely worth mentioning here, so a swift addition on the matter with these indented paragraphs:

Colourism absolutely impacts casting practices in both Bollywood and Hollywood, shapes which bodies are deemed visually “authentic”, and this is definitely a thing when it comes to villainous Scary Muslim Terrorist roles, or in period fantasy pieces, Jaffar-type Roles (and I think this is actually an area where both the PJackson films and RoP have shat the bed in). Darker-skinned South Asian actors are disproportionately hired to portray violent or extremist Muslim men because their appearance conforms to visual tropes that associate darkness with deviance and hypermasculinity, again thinking about that colonial visual economy, paper-bag ism etc. And global cinema, particularly post-9/11, these actors are frequently cast as undifferentiated “Middle Eastern” threats, signifying a generic, menacing brownness, eg Body of Lies or Homeland… and this logic comes from epidermalisation (Fanon term, iirc) ie. reduction of identity to skin where darkness = ontological threat.

+ crucially, this visual coding is gendered: darker Muslim men are not only racialised but also hypermasculinised, portrayed as aggressive, libidinal, and incapable of tenderness (again thinking about Prayers Maedhros who is deliberately said to have “white” facial features ie eye colour/hair colour combined with tanned skin, hypermasculine Muslim aesthetics and other external signifiers lol…).

But yes, this sort of thing ties easily into broader regimes of postcolonial masculinity, where the Muslim man becomes a symbolic antithesis to the secular, palatable, liberal subject. In Bollywood, you can see this (above) in Alauddin Khilji in Padmaavat, whose deliberately darkened skin, “animalistic” sexuality, and violent excess mark him as both racially and morally “other” to the fair-skinned, dharmic Rajput hero. In both contexts, darker-skinned South Asian men are thus instrumentalised rather than “included”: their bodies used to enact a performance of dangerous Muslim masculinity that stabilises nationalist or imperialist narratives, whether it be Hindutva-inflected “secularism” in India or liberal multiculturalism in the West…

Overall, I guess my take on the matter is that these visual/casting economies aren’t just accidental or representational or unrelated, but ideological tools which uphold geopolitical power structures on a global basis. As such, US cinema’s Indiafication of the Middle East + Bollywood’s Islamicate aesthetic both serve Orientalism, aka romanticising + pathologising whatever iteration of The East is deemed to be the current threat. In the postcolonial and neoliberal movement this is mediated not just through journalistic or political propaganda but also circuits of soft power… hence Bollywood, as India’s most powerful cultural export, participates in a “theatrical articulation/performance of the nation”, where the country’s ostensible pluralism and diversity is marketed abroad even as religious minorities and the caste-oppressed face everything from precarity to state violence on the domestic front. And similar to that, Anglophone cinema’s substitution of Indian for Arab actors aligns with global capital's desire for de-risked diversity: South Asian actors are often seen as less politically fraught, less culturally resistant, and more easily integrated into Western liberal narratives. 

And in both instances, Muslim cultures are not represented but “managed”, aka converted into aesthetic forms that reinforce the mythologies of secular India and liberal Empire, while occluding the lived realities of exclusion, surveillance, and violence faced by people in the MENA region across national contexts, which includes both international occupation/threats but also regional ethno/religio-nationalist regimes, eg, Saudi Wahabbism, Ayatollah as heads of state in Iran, etc…

Hope that’s a decent chewing through? And just to swiftly swerve back to fandom but also with cinema in general, it’s less that I want to see ‘less’ of that specific aesthetic, and more that there are dozens and dozens of other ways to define ‘Indian-ness’ beyond Bollywood, or the kind of costuming and set-pieces used in these big-budget Bollywood films. Eg. looking beyond the UP-Delhi-Bombay belt gets you quite a lot of costuming room, and frankly I think creating an AU in which Maedhros and Maglor walk around in mundus should be referred to as my sexiest and most valuable contribution to the Silmarillion fandom…

Thank you so much again for the question, this was fun to think about, and I hope I didn't sound too dry because I feel like I can sometimes... and sorry for going on all these random tangents!

 And a reference/readings list, as promised... a couple of sources are academic-access, iirc the Alsultany one, but I've picked out WorldCat library links for the others!

Sunaina Maira - Youth, Citizenship & Empire After 9/11

Jack Shaheen - Reel Bad Arabs: How Hollywood Vilifies a People

Evelyn Alsultany - Arabs and Muslims in the Media: Race and Representation after 9/11

Tejaswini Ganti - Producing Bollywood: Inside the Contemporary Hindi Film Industry

Mushirul Hasan - Legacy of a Divided Nation + Moderate or Militant

Marshall Hodgson - on the generally valuable debate around the term 'Islamicate' when used in wider-cultural terms, however, pretty uncontroversial when discussing Bollywood/cinema...

Christophe Jaffrelot - Modi's India - rise of an ethnic democracy

Priya Joshi - Bollywood's India: a Public Fantasy

[rederiss]

idk for me it's bc jeremy isn't really open when it comes to his problems, so out of everyone i would see him as the most likely to have an allergy that no one else knew about, and also the most likely to accidentally eat something with nuts in it

(jean/kev have raven trauma so they're super conscious about food, neil's mom definitely would've made him check 10x bc they can't afford to deal with an allergic reaction, and it would interfere with what sweets that andrew could eat since he couldn't eat anything that was processed in the same factory as nuts)

kevin feels like he would have a pollen or dust allergy to me. i also imagine neil as one of those people who don't realize that bananas or tomatoes aren't supposed to be "spicy".

Actually now that you said it, I can see this! Jeremy would totally accidentally have a peanut and Laila screams “JEREMY PEANUTS!” And that’s how Jean finds out. They scramble everywhere, trying to find the EpiPen. Jean is in the back saying “What does it look like?” Which raises so many question in of itself. Jeremy is too stunned to speak, though no one knows if his throat is closing up or not until he slowly pulls out his EpiPen and goes “it’s right here.” Cat snatches it then jabs it into his thigh without warning. Everything goes quiet until they hear Jeremy laugh and says “are we not calling 911?”

Neil not realizing that tomatoes and bananas are suppose to be spicy is so funny! He eats a banana one night in the dorm and looks at it, staring at it. Matt raises an eyebrow at Neil and says “What you doing?” Neil keeps staring at it then take another bite. “For a fruit that is yellow, I never understood why it’s so spicy.” Matt stares at him. Neil stares at him. Matt calls Wymack “Hey, so. No more bananas for Neil.” Neil screams what in the background. “Well, he just said that bananas spicy. Yeah. Just now. I don’t know coach! Considering his situation, are we that surprised? Okay.. okay.. bye.”He puts down the phone and simply says “You’re allergic.” And Neil goes “Oh… that would make so much more sense.”

[plant-sys-1]

Answering all of there right now >:D

🎉 I became plural about 2 years ago, when I created my first tulpa - Vlad. Back then I didn't knew much about endogenic and/or traumagenic systems, so I didn't even consider ourselves plural. Then, I started educating myself more, when I created Theo (my 2nd tulpa) and got to know what even a system is. In January/February 2025 i started creating headmates, who are not tulpas.

💯 currently, there are like 50~ of us. 4 of our members were not created willingly.

🧠 I created the tulpas, so I become less lonely. Theo later on agreed to be my (agere) caregiver. When I started creating non-tulpa headmates, my top reasons were: a) to cope with trauma b) to cope with my problems other than trauma c) to not to be lonely

💭 we have a few headspaces, some of them are built by me (Alex), some by other members. Example of one of them would be a playground in the forest.

🌅 it's mostly me (Alex), who creates other members. As I mentioned before, Vlad was the first one here.

⚖️ There is some power imbalance, eg. some of us are fronting/interacting less, but that's not because of their origins, neither sources.

🦄 we are a mixed-origin system, most of us are created willingly (parotraumagenic, willogenic, tulpagenic), currently 4 of us were created non-willingly (catharigenic), some of us are from our dreams (dreagenic) and some form from our kintypes (kingenic).

🏇 we plan on to encourage our headmates to talk to people more irl. Right now, we are afraid of doing this and do it as least as possible. We're a proxy system (the host fronts most of the time and the others front rarely), so the others kinda "get away" with talking to people. But still, we need to be more open.

🧬 some of our willowmates are more developed, some less. And fun fact: in our case it's not about the amount of time that the member is in our system! Some of our willowmates were more confident and sure about their personality, sexuality, traits, ect. even a few days after being created. And some are still forming, after a longer period of time.

🎭 yes, some members have a totally different tone of voice than we usually have. Also when someome else is fronting, the body even walks in a different way.

🕯️ it doesn't affect our life as much as the others may imagine, because of being a proxy system. But being a system overall is a positive experience for us most of the time. We do have some struggles tho

🗣️ we mostly communicate in 2 ways: in thoughts or in our private discord server. We sometimes see and talk to eachother in headspace(s). Our members communicate most often with members from the same source, but they sometimes talk to others as well.

📚 when I create the willowmates (because I, Alex, do it most often) I:

a) made a special category of channels for newer members in our server, which helps them with self-discovery, and tell them how "it all" works.

b) just simply talk to them and try to nicely introduce them to the rest of the system.

c) try to help them find out more about them (sexuality, gender, name, hobbies, ect.)

🎨 We are mostly different from my myself, but we have some collective traits (like being able to draw or being nebularomantic).

🌈 As I mentioned before, we're a proxy system, so I (Alex, the host) front the most.

🕵️ we are actually planning making our own vocabulary since a few days, and we are probably going to post it soon >:}

😡 we "came out" only to my parents, so not irl. They kind of accept that, idk. On the internet - not directly to me, but I've seen many horrible anti-endo posts, before blocking some tags.

📋 some of us have those "pieces" of memories, which are in some cases clear, in some not. A few of us (2-4, can't tell rn) have some traumatic/unpleasant events.

👨‍👦we have 2 littles/syskids, and one age regressor (who is me). One of them fronts pretty often (in our case often doesn't mean actually often lol) and he is clearly enjoying his presence :>

📺 many of us are fictives, one of us is a factive (although it's not entirely a factive).

🍝 I think that our headmates being created doesn't really affect our system that much. I mean, they don't treat me like some sort of god XP

🌠 honestly, now it's not the worse time. And these 2 years ago, when I created Vlad, was the best time for me to understand the whole concept of tulpas.

🧱 we generally have a very bad memory, even some holes in it, and idk if it depends on being a system or not...

🛸 yes, my parents kind of know. But they know that "well, I created some personalities that are taking control over me sometimes and yeah, there's about 50 of them". I didn't use the vocabulary that describes our system better, like the names of our origins, because they wouldn't understand.

🧁 I'll give you a made-up dialogue that I came up with (it DIDN'T happen irl):

X: just don't be controversial on the internet, ok?

Me: but my personalities are controversial!

X: ohh.. wait, personalities..?

XD

- Alex🐸

Created plurality ask game

These questions are meant to be answerable by both created systems and mixed-origin created systems.

🎉 - How long have you been a system? How do you define when you became a system?

💯 - How many headmates do you have? Are they all created?

🧠 - Why did you create headmates/create a system? Was it intentional or not?

💭 - Do you have a headspace? What's it like? Did you build it?

🌅 - Who created the others? Who is the first created headmate?

⚖️ - Is there a power imbalance in your system, especially between created and non-created headmates? What's the nature of this imbalance?

🦄 - What's your specific origin? Do you have more than one?

🏇 - Are you currently working on any system skills? What are they?

🧬 - How developed are your created headmates? How do you define this?

🎭 - If you can switch, do you have different mannerisms or speech patterns between headmates? Was this always the case?

🕯️ - How has having a created system impacted your life? Has it been a positive experience or not?

🗣️ - How do you and your headmates communicate? If you are mixed-origin, do you experience interaction with created headmates differently than non-created headmates?

📚 - What methods did you use to develop your headmates? Is there anything that worked particularly well for you?

�� - How different are you and your headmates from each other? Has it always been this way?

🌈 - Who's the most common fronter? Has this changed in the past?

🕵️ - What sort of terminology does your system prefer? Do you have any terms you've created for personal use?

😡 - Have you experienced discrimination or bigotry for having created headmates? What happened?

📋 - Do you experience exomemories? Are any of them traumatic?

👨‍👦 - Do you have any littles? Is them being little influenced by your created plurality at all?

📺 - Are any of the created headmates introjects? What kind of introject?

🍝 - Would you say being created origin is important to how your system functions currently? What does this mean to you? Has this changed over time?

🌠 - Do you wish you were plural earlier in life? Mixed origin systems, do you wish your created headmates could have been there earlier?

🧱 - What barriers do you have in your system, such as memory or thought barriers? Did you make them? Did you want them?

🛸 - Does anyone IRL know you're a system?

🧁 - Give me a silly oversimplification of your system and who's in it.

[luxfuxxvii]

things that help me write in case anybody else hasnt found their process and wants a little inspiration:

clean room = clean mind = brain empty = BAD = writers block. have the perfect amount of messy in your room, but an organized writing space. for me, i associate a clean room with a clear mind. empty room, empty mind. if i have a clear mind, im probably thinking thoughts my therapist would be proud of, im also probably thinking about wellness and cleanliness and happy things and spiritual wellness and hmmm maybe i should do yoga. well guess what? writing is messy. writing is having bad thoughts, bad ideas. writing is thinking "how can i hurt my character the most?" or "how can i comfort my character after being hurt?". in order to figure that out you have to let it be chaotic. but EVERYTHING has a spot, okay? for me, i have a pile dedicated to clothes, all tossed into a reusable bag, with a few shirts artfully spilling out onto the floor. but other than that, my floor is relatively clean. you want chaotic, not crowded.

have a spot dedicated to writing. im not talking "this is the only place im allowed to write", im talking a writing shrine. all of my writing stuff is on my nightstand, this way i can write in bed or on the floor, whichever i deem my designated writing space for the day. my notebooks in the same spot. my bluetooth keyboard is also there. i have a cup for pens and highlighters. i have pages ripped out of notebooks filled with tips for revising. passive vs active voice. varying sentence structure. i have an old notebook i used for my creative writing class that i can go to for finding poetic devices. i have a blank sketchpad that ive been using to make little charts or timelines. the books i need for reference are all in my little spot. also thats where my snacks go (offerings to the gods, aka the evil tarantula in my brain making webs of LIES ((bad, bad headcanons)))

have a special writing thing. basically the equivalent of lucky socks or lucky charms or literally whatever, except its for writing. i have a shirt i specifically wear when i plan on writing. its literally just a cream white button up. i dont NEED to wear it in order to write, but on days where i know i can write but am still struggling, putting it on really helps. i struggle to write in special outfits because most of the time, if im wearing a cute outfit, i am performing. well writing isnt a performance. i am a scatterbrained rat. so its usually pajama bottoms and my writing shirt. booya.

water. idfc. idfc. water. water. drink it. chug an entire 20 oz in one go unless you think youll get sick. if youre not gonna get sick, get to chugging. "i always forget" cool me too. adhd sucks man. but i have POTS, so i have to drink 120 oz of water a day. the thing is, i NEVER remember its there. everyones always taking sips at a time and then forgetting they even own a water bottle. solution? drink the entire thing in one go. do it coward. its the only way. if drinking water gives you a stomach ache, i promise you, thats because youre dehydrated. you will get used to it. im sorry it hurts. but the more water you drink, the more it starts to go away. the headaches stop. suddenly you actually start to crave food, and it doesnt even hurt to eat it?????? what???? yeah man. water helps pretty much everything. i might make a separate post to talk about this actually.

find your medium. paper? keyboard? you do both, but for different things? for me, i like to write in notebooks. idk, it just works. i discovered this in my creative writing class. she had us use notebooks and i discovered that writing by hand really gets me in the flow. writing with a keyboard makes me want it to be perfect, and overall, i really struggle to read things on a computer. however, i do like using keyboards because the words get typed faster. problem is, when im using a keyboard on a hard day, my brain cannot keep up with my fingers, and so i stop typing to think of a word, and then im out of the flow. writing it by hand takes longer and gives me ample time to come up with sentences. also the cursor isnt blinking at me menacingly. but also, if ur a paper person, ONLY EVER WRITE IN PEN!!!! ITS LITERALLY A GODSEND!!!!!

some days, you just need to write different things. what i mean by this is there are days when i can absorb information and give instructions, and then there are days when i can follow the instructions. i say "im going to take notes on how to use passive vs active voice", and thats what i wrote for the day. other days, i look back at my notes and i say, "yes im going to put this into practice", and then i DO. writing is writing man. learn as you go. no matter what, youre writing. some days its a notes day. some days its a letter to your best friend. some days its a poem. some days you actually sit down and write the fucking shit you wanted to write (finally). also remember that you dont need to write the same amount of words every time, too. i wrote 18 pages by hand all in one day. the next day? i barely wrote 3. the day after that, i didnt write at all. THAT IS PERFECTLY ACCEPTABLE.

find your system. no im not talking about this writing routine im informing you of right now, im talking do you plot or do you have vibes? are you a very weird, confusing, and inconvenient mix of both? lol. me too. you CAN plot. you CAN just have vibes. but which one actually gets you to start writing? figure out which one you are. think on it rq, cuz it leads to the next one.

timelines can suck it. for me, if i figure out a consecutive timeline, my motivation goes out the fucking door. this is because i FUCKING HATE HATE HATE HATE time crunches. EVEN THOUGH IT'S NOT MY TIME CRUNCH????? ITS THE CHARACTERS?????? basically, for the first draft, i cannot have any concept of time in my story, otherwise i will feel trapped, like i HAVE to do it in the way i originally planned, and then I'll never write it. so how i solve this, is i get an idea. just one. one idea, for one scene. i write that idea down as a little summary (and i really mean little, guys) and add a couple notes to give it vague vibes (moonlight shining through branches, water droplets on skin, laughter, etc), and THEN i write that scene down from memory. this is because i primarily write based on vibes, even though in my head i know exactly how this scene is going to serve the plot, and where exactly this bad boy will fit in my plot. but i know i might change my mind later, so i dont write that down. i recommend doing this if you have adhd, because if youre only writing down ideas one right after the other, chances are, you are not elaborating on them enough for your future self to go back and fall in love with the little note you made. we are just too forgetful. so you write down one idea, add little notes on the vibes you want to incorporate in your idea, and then you go and write the scene. thats it. one at a time. if you come up with another idea as you go, write it at the top of the page where the title goes and pray to god it sticks in your brain when you find it again.

i hope this helps a little in a very adhd way? this is my process (its not really process, more like a rulebook). i hope it inspires you guys to find the things that work for you, or at least opens your mind to the more chaotic organization your brain might need. i know i really struggled with the advice that suggested i do things neurotypically???? like no thanks. nuh uh.

[sparrow-in-the-field]

I just rewatched the clip from thunderbolts where Bucky mentions that John's wife left him, and now I'm just sitting here giggling to myself thinking about how Bucky can possibly know that when it's clear no one else does.

Even ignoring Bucky's "yeah John, I know you" because it's making me a little feral to think about rn, this implies that either a.) they have stayed in touch, or b.) Bucky has been keeping tabs on John. And both options are fantastic.

(More under the cut because idk how to shut up about these two)

John: I saw you're running for Congress! That's awesome, I bet you'll win.

Option A is fun because I imagine it starting with John, trying to make amends but like in an awkward "hey it all worked out in the end so it's all water under the bridge now, right??" kinda way. So instead of idk, any serious conversations or reflections because John is still emotionally stunted lol, he just tries texting Bucky out of the blue (and Sam, but I think Sam would just ignore him, maybe even block his number lol). Bucky is intrigued enough to engage--not a lot but just enough for John to keep doing it.

Bucky: thanks man.

John: yeah as not much is going on with me. Well, except Olivia's leaving me. But what can you do, you know?

Bucky:...that sucks.

John: yeaaah it does. Guess it's the risk that comes with this kind of work. That why you've stayed a bachelor all these years? Probably smart.

Bucky: *leaves him on read*

Idk, I think it's one of the reasons I'm drawn to winteragent, because despite everything, they have a lot in common, and Bucky, with years of life experience before ever meeting John, is the one who really sees that. He knows what it's like to be a military man, he knows John wanted to do the right thing and it just didn't happen. He knows what it's like to have your entire world flipped upside down, and not necessarily by your choice (John was assigned to be Cap, it's not like he asked to be; he was thrown into something he knew nothing about beforehand). So yeah, by the end of it, Bucky can't help that he's worried about John, or at the very least wary to leave the guy completely alone (not for emotional reasons, Bucky convinces himself, but practical ones--the guy is a supersoldier now, in a vulnerable place, he could be swayed to a wrong side). For so long, Bucky didn't have anyone who worried about him when he was the winter soldier; he's not going to let that happen to someone else.

Option B is more angsty, but I think it would start with Bucky feeling, idk, not exactly responsible for John, but kind of connected to him? Like they went through a lot and Bucky feels weird just abandoning him?

So he's quiet about it, but he keeps tabs on John. He used to do stealth missions all the time, so in a way, it's easy. He knows John's started working for Val, which he decides isn't a huge problem but something to keep an eye on. He learns about the divorce, and probably didn't plan on bringing it up, but John just speaks in an irritating enough way that he can't help digging at him at least once. It reveals to John, that Bucky has cared enough to keep track of him. John should be angry at the mention, but instead it eases his mind about being around Bucky again (John had wanted to be able to make amends, but never knew how). Bucky knows him, and yet he's still here, helping them.

When they become the thunderbolts, Bucky is almost relieved. It'll be easier to keep John on a good track when they're working together (especially since John listens to Bucky every step of the way), rather than watching him from the shadows. When they become the thunderbolts, John is relieved, because there's someone on the team who really knows him.

[tjodity]

Elaboration on the tr!Ros disability thing--

I am making this connection largely because I am a bit chronically ill and have mental health issues, both of which contributes to me needing varying amounts of assistance with life compared to an ordinary person. That is to say I don't necessarily believe that this is an intended reading, I'm just connecting parallels because of my personal history.

That said, I think there is something about tr!Ros's whole struggle that really does resonate with that experience. Ros places such a high importance on being competent and independent. The most visible motivation for this is her desire to be helpful to the people around her, which is what she has voiced as her reason for wanting to become stronger most frequently.

But below that is the certainty that she will be left alone, that she will have no one to turn to when it really matters, which is something she's been voicing at the start of the Realmathon.

And below that, much more rarely voiced, is the desire to be a fully fledged, autonomous human being, capable of doing great things and treated with respect.

I think this is why tr!Ros is so continuously resistant to things like being handed armor and weapons, given physical protection and immunity from her harmful actions, and does not internalize any assurances or compliments she's given by the people closest to her. She is sort of treated with kid gloves by the people closest to her.

Aimsey loves her, but will also frequently override her decisions, brush aside her concerns, and corral her back into the castle to keep her safe. The Kingdom cares about her, but they also don't really ever acknowledge that she has an interiority and problems that run deeper than resources and physical protection. She is treated like she is extremely susceptible to harmful external influence and fits of emotion, and not like she has a complicated, flawed system of morality and logic she operates off of. She is frequently shut down, isolated, dismissed or demeaned under the pretense of her safety or her own good.

And I think the consistent conflict and the parallel start to come in here when this desire intersects with the fact that she is somewhat dependent on other characters. She dies a lot. She struggles with fighting on a PvP and PvE oriented server. She is easily overwhelmed emotionally and physically. She is prone to destructive behavior that leaves difficult consequences. She is suicidal. She loses important items like her elytra on a somewhat regular basis that make large chunks of the server inaccessible for her.

And I feel like the fact that she does need help with a lot of stuff is frequently used against her to undercut her desire for autonomy and the fact that she's a fully fledged adult human being. She is corralled into the empty Castle and told to stay there. When she talks about how she wants to do things on her own she is scoffed at and immediately handed whatever item or resource she was working for. When she expresses jealousy or dislike towards anyone on the server she is dismissed as childish. When she talks about wanting to be independent her need for assistance in the past is used to shut her down. Her violent actions are used to wave away any perspective on morality she may have.

IDK. I feel like tr!Ros's struggles are relatable to the struggle for personhood when you are disabled and/or mentally ill in a way that requires assistance and how people sometimes treat you.

[bomberqueen17]

home/writing

back in buffalo for the week. i am always so discombobulated when i first arrive. i did get a bunch of shit done yesterday but all of it was odd little discrete tasks, or i only worked on them for a little bit and didn't finish them. i have things to do today as well, and i'm trying to be coherent about it.

one of the things i did manage to do was publish another chapter of the solarpunk sequel to the beta doc. i'm like.... halfway through the sequel i think, and it's going slowly because i'm not sure how i'm going to get the plot climax to come together. and i'm paying the piper, as i foresaw: fanfiction has a level of engagement that original fic doesn't, and I really tried to cushion myself against that by trying to collect people who'd come along with me, but of the 20 or so people i gave access to the doc, only half have engaged with it at all, and of those, only about half made it all the way though the first one and into the sequel, and I know people are still plugging away and I did expect there to be some tapering-off-- it's so many words! it is and real life is so busy, etc-- but I had foolishly expected a few more people to actually follow through, since I'd made it so very very opt-in to start with. So I do treasure every comment but there just aren't very many, and I know the first novel needs some structural changes but I don't know how to identify or make them, and I know I need to slog through and finish the thing before I can decide how to revise the start of it. And as I had sort of expected, I'm really having trouble being alone with myself in it, and it doesn't help that the pace is so slow because I don't have very much time to work on it now-- when I do have time, I have to spend so much effort convincing myself that people will care and it is worth doing etc etc. Lack of momentum is a real bitch.

No shade to those who haven't been able to actually interact, but, I am struggling. Last week was really bad, for hormonal reasons I suspect, but having come out the other side of that, I am grimly aware that it wasn't just that, it is a real problem I'm dealing with. So, if you did request access to that doc and have been thinking about getting around to it, I'm still in need, maybe more than ever. And if you did request access and never saw the email where I granted it, do let me know. And if you didn't request access because you thought so many other people already had, or something like that, well. I never closed the form.

I keep trying to convince myself it's not a bad story. I did just get to the exciting bit, I think. It's got first draft problems but I swear there's good bits. But sometimes I feel like I'm just deluding myself that anybody's going to want to read this. Yeah I've published millions of words on AO3 and reasonable numbers of people seem to love them, but those were other people's characters; my own just aren't that compelling, is the unavoidable feeling it gives me. So I'm having a really hard time with that, but I knew I would.

In my weary despair last week I tabbed back over to my fanfic docs but you know, that's a sort of false comfort-- it's been so long since I updated most of those stories that I don't think I'd get a lot of engagement if I did finish the half-done chapters and get them up. I might try; I know there are a few rereaders, and some people subscribed who'd probably come back and look. But I'm really determined to finish this story with the solarpunk stuff and the mammoths and talking dolphins and so on, even if almost nobody wants to read it, because I never was going to be able to sell it anyway and sometimes you just really need to tell a story.

It's just lonely, and I'm tired.

Anyway. I just spent two hours trying and failing to make myself write more and am giving up to go do more unconnected home tasks because idk what else to do.

[beabakx]

hey y’all i felt like coming on here and speak a little bit about all this patti situation.

let me start off by saying that i’m a bigbigbig patti fan so maybe i could not be completely objective in some parts, lemme know.

HK:

i think that her complaints were pretty reasonable, there was a sound problem, and the audience confirmed that too, it was too loud to be next to and sharing walls with a playhouse.

Patti said in an in interview that when saying loud she meant by the instrumental because the bass was going through into her studio and audience.

so no, it was not racist.

then kecia (pls don’t get me wrong she’s a legend) posted a video saying that was bullying and racially micro aggressive (?) which i don’t really get because if they hadn’t insulated (idk if the word is right english is not my first language sr) the walls there would have been way more problems with patti’s show.

and i’d like to also point out that patti followed protocol and what her manager advised her to do, and also send thank you flowers after.

so i really don’t really see how that video was necessary.

Interview:

okay that new yorker interview was really something but still, wasn’t as bad as people made it out to be.

i don’t agree with her saying that kecia is not a bway veteran because she most certainly is, but i also get that she was mad, i mean kecia quite little made public racist allegations against her, but no patti was rude and comparing careers was just inappropriate.

she also shouldn’t have called her a b*tch because name calling is never right but i also feel like the word is now just a ‘space filler’, or at least where i live.

then i don’t really think she said anything bad about audra, she simply said that they’re not friends and that they rifted, she wasn’t even disrespectful about it, or i least i didn’t find it disrespectful or offensive. and audra said the same thing in another recent interview: they’re not friends and they haven’t spoken in over 10 years. so i don’t really see why people are getting so worked up about it.

was she rude? yes. was she racist? no

(the interviewer is also known for not really ���standing up’ for women and always wanting to create drama)

Open Letter:

that was just so unnecessary and hypocritical if i may.

broadway has said nothing about the GENOCIDE in gaza and now they’re making an open letter because what was merely and clearly, to me, a miscommunication?? tf??

no such call out was made about people actively trying to bring other performers down (woody allen against mia farrow), sexual assaults (kevin spacey) or even admitted pedophilia (dustin hoffman).

i read the letter in its entirety and while i completely agree with what it stands for calling patti lupone a misogynistic racist is just too much. just completely out of context.

apologies:

her apology was actually pretty good. i so insanely appreciated it. and people coming at her because ‘it’s just a feel apology!!! she clearly doesn’t mean it!!!’ get a grip honestly because how are you demanding it a second and then the minute later not wanting anymore?

but anyway doesn’t she at least deserve another chance? i mean we are all humans and we are allowed to make mistakes and when we realize our wrongs we apologise and i think we always should see how much that can take for someone. obviously some people only do that for themselves and their ‘image’ but i don’t really think this is the case since her apologies sounded sincere and felt to me.

another thing i am insanely keen on is that throwing around words like racism, misogyny, but also homophobia and transphobia, doesn’t just take away so much importance and power from the word itself but it also does not help the cause at all. it can be so counterproductive.

stay safe y’all love ya dolls!!!

[k1rian]

heeeey, so if you have seen my resent post you should know that things ... are not so awesome at the time (to put it in that way) i have gotten it to work but idk how much it can hold and i dont have anyway to get a replacement

sooo, im opening emergency commissions, please be know that because of my problem i wont be able to deliver at my normal speed, i will still do my best

any support means the world to me and gives me an oportunity to continue drawing, so thanks

At last, it has happened, I'm now open for commisions.

You can check details above and DM if you are interested (here or in discord @k1rian_).

I hope you find my art atractive and feel encouraged to ask for a comm.

Shrimp u spoon.

[relaxxattack]

for a while there i was sympathetic to tumblr because of how much they’re in debt; i was kind of like “well of course they’re absolutely desperate for new users, they literally need the money or else tumblr goes down forever”. and then suddenly today it hit me that there’s actually no fucking reason for that debt to be causing these ui changes? the userbase has been INCREDIBLY clear about what they want from tumblr over the years, not to mention clear about the fact that even twitter people don’t need this place to look like twitter. it actually would be very… EASY? for them to just make changes in a direction people would actually be HAPPY with?

for fuck’s sake there were people trying to organize a “crab day” for tumblr despite tumblr doing nothing but telling us to go fuck ourselves for months on end. there were people spending hundreds of dollars on check marks just for the glee of MAKING FUN of twitter. can you IMAGINE how much money this userbase would donate to tumblr if they actually made ui updates geared toward what people have been asking for?

if tumblr actually crowdsourced ideas or even just LISTENED to their userbase it may have been possible for them to make way more money than they’re begging for now, they just insist on trying to drive their actual demographic and loyal userbase out for literally no reason

[rystiel]

i feel like poolverine easily could’ve been one of those “they’re flirty but it’s mostly unserious” situations, and for most of the movie yeah they were extremely gay, but wade’s been like that with other guys and it was never treated as a serious type of relationship before. they’re willing to die for each other, but even then the romantic aspect of their relationship could be glossed over because it’s a superhero movie, that’s just what they do, and they’re working together to save a whole timeline—it’s not just about them. but then the movie doesn’t end with them saving the day and moving on. i think this’s really the part that sells poolverine as a genuine relationship to me… logan’s leaving, and wade calls for him. he can’t stand to let him go. then he introduces him to his family, and logan stays. he doesn’t really need to stay, but they’ve both decided they’re better off with one another than without

[hivemindscape]

im a big fan of esper powers slipping loose in harmless ways when they're happy