#and in this case with the idol i wouldn’t really call it being in love with him

[lunimy]

why is a kpop idol making me for real question if i’m aro

[bicheetopuff]

I mean there are some stuff leaning into Izoch (like him calling her his hero) but the talk being about Toga... well, it jut feels iffy to me to see izoch in a romantic light at that moment. Though if hori really wanted to shut down izoch completely, i think he would have had ochako confess in some way and izuku to reject her? This ending just looks like he didnt want to have any sort of conclusion so he chose the safest route by conforming nothing.

Yeah it feels like he left everything open ended to give himself or someone else the option to pick the series back up if they wanted to. But even then, I can’t really see Ochako suddenly confessing in a spin-off.

It feels like she was really unsure about her feelings as a teenager, but honestly I wouldn’t mind if she had an arc where she developed feelings for Deku or someone else on her own accord without any external factors telling her how she’s supposed to feel. It feels like it would come full circle. But if she does have an arc like that, I honestly still can’t see it being with Deku. They’d probably introduce a new character entirely.

Also I’m not sure where the whole “you’re my hero” thing being explicitly romantic came from but I’ve seen multiple people point it out now. It doesn’t really make sense to me though because there’s other cases of it being said in purely platonic contexts. Like, Kota calling Deku his hero or Deku referring to All Might his hero and idol, etc.

I know it was said between kirimina and kudoichi too but even then it didn’t really feel like they were said in romantic contexts. I love fanon kudoichi but there’s really not much substance between them in canon since we don’t know enough about their relationship. And with kirimina, while I do think Kirishima likes Mina, I think he still saw her as his hero even before those feelings might’ve developed. But also, don’t forget that Deku said this:

Comparing Katsuki to All Might… the guy he idolizes so much that he covered his room from top to bottom with his merchandise… the guy he strives to be more than anyone else… idk that seems a lot more meaningful to me than saying out right that he’s his hero. Some things are truly just implied.

He doesn’t like talking about his feelings regarding Katsuki but I feel like as the audience we know that Izuku still thinks of him as his hero given everything that’s happened, even if he hasn’t spoken it verbally. And if he doesn’t, I’m fighting him because Katsuki literally saved his life ajdnejdn.

In kirimina and izuochas circumstances, it was just the right thing to say in the given situation. I feel like if hori truly wanted to make it romantic, he would’ve used it with kamijiro and gentle and la brava as well in order to set it in stone.

About Ochako confessing anyway in order to shut izuocha down, I don’t think that’d be entirely fair, especially since Izuku would probably entertain her feelings and try his best to like her back for a while before either a) actually falling in love with her or b) realizing he doesn’t love her like that and breaking things off with her because he realizes it’s not fair for her to be with someone who doesn’t love her the same way she loves them.

That, and I think Ochako kind of shut down her own feelings, since every time someone brought it up, she’d say something along the lines of “it’s not like that” or “I would’ve done the same for anyone” and even in the provisional license exam when she told herself she wanted to get rid of those feelings. It just kinda tells me that even if those feelings were still there, she never planned on doing anything about them because she genuinely didn’t want to.

But also, I still don’t think Hori has to confirm any relationship in order to conclude the story, and if he does start a spin off, I wouldn’t mind if he decided to canonize any romantic pairing or not as long as the conclusion to the spin off is an actual conclusion and he closes the rest of those doors that he left open, yk?

[yuseirra]

More about 159~

hahaha XD aw, GOSH this comic is CRAZY, I think it would be fun if I read it as books and in volumes, it's because it's incomplete, and scattered eps that things feel so tense and awkward, I'm sure. It'd have more sense of flow as a volume.

I wrote a lot of things based on my stream of consciousness this morning (because well I draw hikaai and I DO care a lot about character portrayals and analysis) and I want to share it with you all! I reread it after the heat of the moment and I find it really funny,

If you want to feel assured about Ai and Hikaru (and perhaps ONK as a whole) or like the ship hikaai, I feel this is another post that could help you. Like I said in my ch 159 review, if this ain't it, I have no idea where this is going to head and I might as well take a break off from this piece for a bit and get some air. P3R episode Aigis is coming out on the 10th (great timing!) but I think I'm on the right track. I got so many things right since I picked this up thus far :D So for now, here we go again:

This is just my intuition and a piece mostly based on gut feelings.

Ha;; This morning, I saw someone extremely worried about Kamiki and Ai and couldn’t leave them feeling uneasy... I’m not in a position to calm others down, though!! I'm the one who needs to be calmed!! give me time to brace myself!!! I get tense because I care about where the story's gonna go too!!! I analyze characters and make fan works. I HAVE to look into the source material and make sense of things in order to do that o<-< I’m really stuck with this manga, aren’t I? What a ride... Okay I know the character looks a bit out of it. But listen, even if we criticize the character, we should wait for the next chapter before doing so. Come on, what would Kamiki even LIE about in the first place? Let’s sit down and think calmly. Let’s go over the facts.

Honestly, it would have been better for Kamiki if Ai wasn’t an idol. If Ai hadn’t been an idol, Ai wouldn't have had to die for deciding to keep her very kids with him!! Ai was murdered because she was an idol who had a boyfriend and kids(it's an absurd reason but to Ryosuke, that was his reason to go through with it). If she hadn’t loved Kamiki, she wouldn’t have died. This isn’t Kamiki’s fault, of course!! To add, if Ai weren’t an idol, they might not have broken up in the first place. Even if they had broken up, Ryosuke wouldn’t have tracked Ai down and killed her!! Things would have been so much better for this character if Ai hadn’t been an idol. His situation on the matter, It's totally the opposite of Nino and Ryosuke’s!

To Kamiki, Ai was certainly one-of-a-kind and irreplacable, yeah. But from Kamiki’s perspective, Ai was never a perfect, flawless figure that he found the need to idolize. She was someone who learned acting from him, who was clumsy and scattered, who needed his guidance in the beginning. She shared the same pain, opened up to him, understood him, accepted him, and loved him. Even though she gave him a deep wound and they parted ways, even when he thought she didn’t love him anymore, she remained precious to him to the point where he was willing to give his life for her. She was the person he wanted to marry. Ryosuke and Nino would kill her for not being perfect enough, but that’s not who Kamiki is. He’s actually the biggest victim of that incident only after AI herself. If Ai had survived, he might have been able to meet their children, reunite with Ai, clear up misunderstandings, and more importantly, Ai would still be alive. That alone would have made life more bearable for Kamiki than living in a world without her. I keep saying this but I'm sure he wouldn't have leaked the address to Ryosuke on purpose. I wrote many theories about this and I came to a conclusion that it must have been a mistake on his end, after getting drunk from sadness after Ai dumped him in the phone call. What kind of mastermind could he even be regarding this case? He was 19 at the time. It's total nonsense. There is no reason for him to try and attack Ai who tells him she has their children growing smart and healthy. He's lying about it to Aqua to make him feel better about avenging him because he believed that's what him and Ai's wanted.

What kind of grand conspiracy could a character like this possibly be behind? At least when it comes to Ai’s death, I don’t think he’s responsible. Even if he grew mad, I feel like that would have taken place after it happened. So what is it that this character wants? I’ve been curious about that too-

When I heard anime S2's opening, I immediately realized!! He wants to see Ai again! Would Aqua say something like,

Aqua has Ruby, Kana, and Akane. He’s not going to live just to get closer to Ai or live solely for her love. Maybe to fulfill Ai’s wishes, but that’s different.

“Without you, I cannot live anymore

I would sacrifice anything for you

I can’t get enough of your love

What should I use to fill in what’s missing?”

If Kamiki has any goal, it’s this: He's never been seen to have a desire for Ai to be the ultimate, perfect idol. He’s not twisted that way. If he’s twisted, it’s more like, “I’ll give anything for Ai.”

Think about it. If someone you love died, what would you want most? You’d want them to live again, right? You wouldn’t go around committing serial murders saying, “No one can surpass them!” You’d just want to see them again if there was even the smallest chance. That’s the most important thing. Nino and Ryosuke are twisted. They liked Ai as an idol, not as a person. But this person has two cute kids with Ai... even though they never got to see them properly. He says he has paternal love, and I believe that because there’s no reason for him to hate the kids. He was prepared to take responsibility, after all. Wouldn’t he be happy about having kids with Ai? Wouldn’t he find them adorable, especially since they look so much like him and the one he loves? Seeing how much he still cares for Ai, he’d probably love their kids too. He refers to them as "Yours(Ai's) and mine". He’d probably want to bring Ai back for the sake of the kids, if not for himself. He even believes Ai died because of him, so that would only add to his desperation and longing. When someone dies, they can’t come back, so that possibility doesn’t usually cross the mind-

However, It seems that the songs are saying there is some kind of hope for that becoming a reality even if the chances are very slim. To think Kamiki would have wanted to preserve Ai’s image as an idol and that's what's been driving him? No way. That’s exactly what killed Ai. He’d probably be sick of that... He just wants Ai to live. That’s his motive. He’s been hanging onto that.

As for the Hikaai ship, I had been holding off on judgment until Ai’s feelings came out. I felt like I won’t know until I hear from Ai herself how she feels about him so I waited out for quite long till the entirety of the movie arc, until it got its closure-

And it really occurs to me, people don’t seem to realize how much thought and conviction it takes for Ai to feel that strongly about a person.

Ai is scared, has a sensitive soul, overthinks things, is defensive, and gets wary. She’s afraid to love and get close to people because she doesn't want to get hurt.

But Ai couldn't give up Kamiki’s child because they were what she had with him, even while she was afraid it would be a burden to him!! Do you know how much certainty, affection, and love that takes? It doesn’t seem to resonate with people as much as it does for me, it's such a deep and strong feeling. That's what really got me. She was scared, but she still wanted them because they were theirs...and she protected their children with all her heart that point onward.

This kind of love is something that you might encounter just once in your lifetime, you might never get to meet someone like that at all.

So I thought, “Good for Ai. She found someone she loved that much.” Kamiki must have been a really precious person to Ai to make her feel that way.

In my opinion, for someone to make Ai feel like that, they would have to be the kind of person who would give out their every part of their organ, even their heart to her if that's necessary, and still think it’s not enough. And when you listen to the songs, the speaker does really seems to express that kind of emotion. That's why I thought 'Oh, this is definitely Ai's lover. This is Kamiki that's saying these things.'

You have to trust Ai’s judgment. Ai is serious about love, and she found someone to give it to. He's the one person she decided on. She wanted to live her life with him, worried about him until the end, named her children after jewels because they looked like the one she loved. Had her son who takes after his dad so much have the characters "love" and "longing" in his name. That’s how much she adored him.

What does that tell you? And when you look at the backstory, it seems Kamiki thought he loved Ai even more than she loved him.

Then that must mean he must have treated her really well. So, it’s not about whether Kamiki loved Ai or not anymore. That's totally just a given!! What’s important now is what he has done since Ai's death.

In chapter 155, he said he was "going to do what he could for Ai" and left. Then Aqua showed up near him in this chapter saying, “I need to save you.”

When you listen to the songs, the narrator keeps saying they don’t mind dying. This is a character who has already said they could die for Ai. So what will they do? I think they’re planning to die “for Ai.” But is offering something for Ai or dying for her really what Ai would want? No. Ai would want Kamiki to live and be happy, and they know that, but they’re lying to themselves. That’s the lie this character tells. It’s a self-sacrificing but self-satisfying kind of thing. That's why Aqua says the lies "are for his own sake". This also explains why Ai left a message asking to help Kamiki. This character is someone who could go to extremes "for Ai", but Ai didn’t want that, which is why Aqua is trying to stop it.

If this isn’t the case, then I won’t be able to make sense of this manga... Haha, the Persona 3 DLC will be out soon, so I’ll just go play that...

This feels right to me, though. If it’s not, I don’t know what else it could be;;

Maybe Kamiki's been possessed by an evil god? But even if that’s the case, the motive he has would probably still be about "saving Ai".

On another note, Kamiki was so gentle and kind in his tone when speaking to Aqua. He spoke really softly, didn’t he?

If he had been able to raise the kids with Ai, he would have been the type to pamper and spoil them... He'd have been a sweet dad. I feel like Ai really did choose a good guy to father her kids.

The way he speaks to Aqua feels quite similar to the last lines and atmosphere of the lyrics of Mephisto.. something about it will be brought up soon, I mean Aqua's wearing that same clothes.

To Kamiki, Aqua must be his and Ai’s cute son, right? But does he know Aqua’s soul is originally that of a 30-something-year-old doctor? If he’s possessed by an evil god, maybe he is aware of these things. But if he doesn’t, it might be a bit awkward. His son is almost the same age as him inside...

Aqua is Aqua, though? But that thought still made me laugh a little. I could imagine Kamiki suddenly speaking very formally towards Aqua upon figuring out he's actually the doc who aided Ai with delivering his children safely. Kamiki seems like the type to speak with a lot of courtesy... the way he speaks has been very polite. It depends on the character, but I think that is part of how he is originally.

[showtoonzfan]

Okay,guys. What do you think of fionapollos recent video?

Ganna be straight to the point, I didn’t like it. This is ganna be a long post so if y’all love reading, feel free to but I’m warning y’all now. Of course, what I’m going to say are my opinions only. This is coming from a person who actually follows Fionapollos, I love listening to her art commentary vids and I hope she keeps up the good work! But for this recent video specifically? I don’t think it was good. Not to say that Fionapollos didn’t handle this well for the most part, she’s always respectful and open minded and I’m glad for that, but the structure and overall execution of the video was poorly handled.

Outside of being an inspiring animator and a help to spread awareness of how incredible indie animation is, I have no respect for Vivziepop, but that doesn’t mean I want to be biased or one sided. There were only two sections of this video I agreed with, it’s in three segments. The first segment was about Erin Frost and the evidence they had provided, and like me and some have been saying, the evidence just wasn’t strong enough to indicate a really toxic environment, especially since what Erin had provided was screenshots of her being on good terms with Jane and Sam. I never really saw an issue with Jane deciding to move the assignment to someone else since Erin was struggling, because like Fionapollos said, people in this business just want to get stuff done and if someone can’t do it, they have to take measures where someone else can.

Now maybe this wasn’t mentioned because there isn’t really evidence to support it, (it’s just a statement) but we do know that according to Ashley Nicholas, Viv had talked behind Erin’s back, calling her too mentally unstable to work. I personally believe that there was a lot of gossip provided by Viv and/or Jane and Sam regarding Erin, they’ve all shown to be shady before so I just wouldn’t be surprised if this were true, however let’s move on. Other parts of the video I agree on were Fionapollos simply just being fair. She stated that the fake document is damaging to indie companies and studios, and how her audience has the right to feel the way they feel, but outside of that there wasn’t anything specific that I agreed on outside of the Erin stuff. Her closing thoughts were nice as usual, but I’ll move on to the actual issues I had with the video.

If I had to speak in general, I feel like Fionapollos just didn’t have enough evidence, cause this video is basically a rehash of what her last one was, where she didn’t have enough evidence back then, only this time in her personal opinion, Viv is just a flawed non-perfect person who makes mistakes and needs to stop being put up on a pedestal and idolized as someone who is perfect….something I drastically disagree with but I’ll get into more of that later. When I say that she doesn’t have enough evidence, what I mean is that the stuff that she looked at is only the FROSTING of the iceberg pointing to Viv being a narcissist who mistreats her employees. Like I said there’s only three sections, and the only section where she actually looks at evidence against Spindle is Erin’s section and the document, something that was obviously fake and I’ve already shared how I dislike it when people pay more attention to the fake/troll side of things rather than the real actual evidence. I was shocked/bothered to see that KenDraws’s document isn’t even mentioned here, since the topic of this vid is how Viv/Spindle treats her employees and that document could have been a MASSIVE factor in evidence pointing towards the mistreatment being legit in some areas. Instead, the majority of this vid is very empty and lacks something that you could make a case out of. Of course she was going to go with the “I just think Vivziepop is flawed”- route, because she doesn’t have the same knowledge of evidence and drama that Viv has been through, wether that be in the past few months or past 2 years. It’s just clear that she so far has only seen a few bits and pieces of evidence but not the mass amount pointing to Viv being a problematic childish person. And I get it, she’s not like others where she constantly follows every single move Viv makes or constantly checks her status online, but if you’re going to make a video like this, you should be more informed.

The middle part of the video is the worst. It’s dedicated to talking about the fake document and AnimationCallout, (which this section of the video doesn’t do much, it’s just panting Spindle in a victimizing light) and she also dismisses the transphobic allegations by saying it was included in the false document so it makes her question if that is true as well (despite the fact that the screenshot of Viv’s discord messages had been floating around awhile before the document). The biggest part that made me roll my eyes is where she mentions Viv’s old weird art, indicating that she assumes people spite her all because of old shit she did years and years ago, which if you know me is another thing I hate the people bring up regarding Viv’s controversies. Her old art is irrelevant. This entire middle section felt irrelevant because the topic is about Spindle mistreating their employees so I don’t know why she felt the need to bring that up as well as how fake documents affect animation studios but that’s just me.

There’s also things that weren’t mentioned that bother me. Like I said KenDraws document wasn’t mentioned, but there’s more. The most obvious is that Erin ain’t the only member who left Spindle. For a video about Spindlehorse mistreating their employees, there’s no mention of anyone else, or people who claimed to be mistreated. KenDraws, Ashley Nicholas, Salem Squidder, Nicolas Jordan, Jane Walker, the list goes on. This is evidence that there’s definitely more going than just “Viv is flawed”. You can only use that excuse so long, as more and more people who were close or her or worked on her stuff left.

I also feel like it’s a glaring issue that Spindlehorse/Viv never acknowledge their mistakes or even confront their controversies. Name one time Spindle came out and made an official statement on the allegations or drama. Zero. They always let the fire burn, hide behind the fanbase, and wait for the waters to cool before moving on and pretending nothing ever happened, only speaking up if someone dare call Viv problematic. They silence any ex member and never take accountability, and it’s something the public has yet to acknowledge, no one ever acknowledges this shit and I’m so tired of it. This is why I never agree with anyone who tries to paint them in a victimizing light filled with people who are “just trying to get by” when there’s no evidence that leaves me to believe that’s true, especially when they’re too cowardly to even confront something or make a fucking statement. Doesn’t help that they always ignore allegations against Viv or just shut the other side down by simply saying “she was nice to me end of story”. How are we supposed to believe that these people are genuine who don’t want to hurt anyone if they aren’t saying anything? How are we supposed to believe Viv is just an imperfect person if she NEVER acknowledges her faults and keeps making the same mistakes over and over again?

I truly believe that Fionapollos had good intentions, but I’m really tired of folks just dismissing Viv or the shady stuff that’s been going on at spindle with just “they’re imperfect stop putting them up on a pedestal”. Like I said there’s plenty of evidence pointing to the people at Spindle lacking self awareness and Viv being an abuser who blacklists people and talks behind other’s backs, so this vid just didn’t do any justice. She just doesn’t know the half of it. Sorry.

[mha-quotes-and-such]

TW: MENTIONS OF ABUSE

What do you personally think of Endeavor x Hawks? I think it's an interesting ship because it explores further the idea of Endeavor improving as a person, and it can help explore the idea of Hawks finally letting down his barriers and being truly honest with someone. A lot of people call it unhealthy because it's an abuser and an abuse victim but I think considering Endeavors current atonement arc it could instead lead to a past abuser learning how to be gentle with a survivor and a abuse victim learning to let go of the pain by seeing first hand that A) They can be loved, and B) That an abuser won't always be an abuser if that makes sense. The age gap is really dependent on your views, in fiction I don't care as long as they're both adults but in reality that's a hard no. I also think it could explore the topic of Idol x Fan and how that can impact a relationship. Sorry for rambling I just like odd ships and I think there's more to this ship than people will allow. Ships like this allow discussions about abuse and idol worship to be had in a way that doesn't make it gossip about real people while also having a respectful discussion.

Before I get into this, I’m just gonna make a few things clear. 1. As long as a relationship is between consenting adults, whatever I dont care. Age/age gaps wouldn’t typically effect my opinion on a relationship as long as theyre adults and have been for the duration of the relationship. 2. Its important for people, regardless of their previous actions, to attempt to grow and change, and its important for there to be encouragement of this growth

That being said, I’m really not a fan of the ship. I think idol worship, age gaps, and the power dynamics that come with them are something super important to talk about, and can be done well in regards to Endeavor and Hawks. You definitely can do this in a shipping way, but personally I don’t like the approach. I think sometimes we (collective, internet wide) feel the need to explore all one-on-one relationships in the context of shipping, as thats the popular culture at the moment. Sometimes though, that can skew or downplay some of the important (and frankly, often more interesting) aspects of a relationship. If you’ve ever seen that popular post that says (paraphrasing here) ““Shipping and blorbofication are not inherently at odds with understanding a story” and “a lot of people can’t understand a story because they only know how to engage with it in terms of shipping and blorbofication” are two statements that can and do coexist”, thats kinda what I’m trying to get at. Unfortunately a lot of nuance is often lost when its put in the context of shipping

I also think that a lot of their personal growth (overcoming trauma and rectifying past abuse) is kind of… trivialized? if they’re shipped. It’s definitely possible to do it in a respectful, meaningful way, but I think for me personally its just not a satisfying conclusion. Especially in the case of Endeavor, he shouldn’t be attempting to make up for past behavior in order to get something. If he’s apologizing to his children in order to get a relationship with Hawks, its not actually “redemption” so much as it is just continuing to behave in a particular way for his own gain

Tldr: Its cool if you ship it, I just think that the most important parts of their dynamic, which really need to be addressed, are often downplayed for the purpose of shipping. I also feel its just not a satisfying end goal for their character arcs

[solarwynd]

Wasn't it the comapny that gave the TXT guy (yeonjun hope that's right name) cause i remember watching a clip where he was like "I'll do my best to make the title worth" or something like that. Idk if the "IT boy" title existed before jm in kpop but what i know is he made that title relevant in kpop, he made it big and literally no one (as far now) in kpop can outdo him or even reflect half of his talents and success so the 4th gen fans fighting for IT boy for their fav is funny cause at their age jimin wasn't just getting hit tweets from stan twitter but he was making it so big that his name is the first thing that ppl remembers when they hear kpop, he's with his music since his first solo, he's got streams, big numbers, sales, recognition, brands behind him, style, artistry, like there wasn't single thing left that he wasn't rulling with so it's funny if they think their favs can have that title because they got some hit tweets on twitter cause where is everything else that jm got?? Where is the reflection of that? No where so either show it your fav getting those or shut up with that title. Nothing against any of the 4th gen idols by the way it's their fans I'm talking about. Also hybe does try to push the guy alot, they do give him alot of "spotlight" and they do want to portray him as something similar to jm but it's sadly it's not happening anywhere. Neither in perfomances nor anywhere else.

Now it's pathetic how KTHs try so hard to steal ant title they can for TH cause they kinda know he's got no relevant titles. See call me an anti or whatever but this is me being a very unbiased person but for me taehyung is the most overrated idol cause he literally is not offering anything given his status. It's only because he's good that ppl love him (same case as enwoo) cases he's neither got the voice or singing, nor the dance or perfomce, and don't get me started with his personality cause kwgsisjskshsksjskdbsjsm still can't get what "unique" the fans and members see in him. Idk maybe because he's rebellious kinda guy so they find it attractive or what but for me he's childish, immature, and a irresponsible person at many occasions so yeah. KTHs be call him main-lead dancer, lead vocalists, perfomer, IT boy (they literally have it in thier @ as if they don't know who the fandom calls it with). KTHs is nothing but stealing titles and flex the followers that reflects nowhere in his artistry cause imagine friends being his first song that surpassed 100k then 300k sales in US, having those streams, Jimin outdoing him every single time with his sales and streams whie they be flexing some magzine sales like i really find it pathetic that you got nothing to flex about his artistry so you're flexing him as some model lol

“4th gen fans fighting for IT boy for their fav is funny cause at their age jimin wasn't just getting hit tweets from stan twitter but he was making it so big that his name is the first thing that ppl remembers when they hear kpop, he's with his music since his first solo, he's got streams, big numbers, sales, recognition, brands behind him, style, artistry, like there wasn't single thing left that he wasn't rulling”

.🎯

Wouldn’t even call th “overrated” because people are very honest about exactly what his main appeal is, and that’s physicality. He’s more over praised because people have concocted that everything else he puts out somehow matches the level of his attractiveness. Which is what I’ve said before about him getting away with a lot of mediocrity because of it. No one really reveres his music because there’s nothing special or memorable about it. Some will throw in his personality like you said but it’s 👎🏾 to me. Most armys are drawn to him because he’s aloof and it makes him desirable in their eyes, but he just comes off as real pretentious and snobby.

[yuzuuu4]

“ (...) I understand, Akehoshi... You and I, we’re twin souls. (...) Due to some trick of fate, we’re now by each other’s side.” - Hidaka Hokuto, SS Chapter 34

Summary:

“Hokke,” a lilting voice calls out to him, drawing all of his attention to the source like a moth to a flame.

(...)

“Say, Hokke, isn’t it funny how someone can feel so lonely even with so many people around?”

What are you thinking of, Akehoshi?

“Hokke,” a lilting voice calls out to him, drawing all of his attention to the source like a moth to a flame.

Watching this ethereal being—Akehoshi, he corrects himself—slowly stretching his hand out towards the sky, splaying his fingers and looking at the stars through the gaps of his digits makes Hokuto’s breath hitch. It was as if something was different this time, and he couldn’t figure out why.

Akehoshi’s mouth purses, and opens with a soft exhale. Hokuto finds himself enraptured by every little movement, but resolutely keeps his eyes away from his unitmate’s mouth.

“Say, Hokke, isn’t it funny how someone can feel so lonely even with so many people around?”

What are you thinking of, Akehoshi?

He wills himself to take a step closer to the grounded star, oh so desperately climbing back up with every fibre of his being to be with his kind, only to come crashing down with a violent thud. “... Akehoshi—” “It’s scary, Hokke. I… I know I’m different from everyone. They always call me a ‘genius’ and that I’m ‘talented’, but… is it really something to be proud of when it’s so lonely being a genius? I’m not as perfect as everyone thinks.

“So why do they keep thinking that I am? Can’t you tell me, Hokuto?”

Won’t you tell me what thoughts lie behind those miserable eyes? Hokuto falters on his next step; he doesn't know how to answer Akehoshi without revealing how his hands are no cleaner than the rest of them, putting this star—this boy the same age as him—on such a high pedestal.

Through the court of his own mind, he pronounces himself guilty of the same crime.

How would he atone for this wrongdoing? His brows furrowed with a frown. Logically, this boy is what the others call him: a genius. Someone who is completely out of this world, blinding everyone he meets with his sheer brightness. A freak of nature, and the sun personified.

Yet, is he not the same boy who only wished to watch the sakura fall from their perches with his friends? A boy that has a pet dog he loves dearly, and only wishes to shine and have fun with his friends? In that case, then it would not make him any different from the rest of them.

He frowns even harder, hand balling up into a fist by his side. If only he could resolve everything with his fists.

The unnaturally dim skies in Akehoshi’s eyes flick over Hokuto’s troubled expression, scrutinising every miniscule twitch and flit of his eyes. He smiles wryly, as if understanding his inner turmoil.

“... Ahaha, I said something weird, didn’t I? I can tell because you went quiet. Sorry, I shouldn’t have said that! I just thought you’d understand, that maybe if I become a shining idol like my dad—no, a shining star, then I…”

He’s made up his mind.

If Akehoshi wouldn’t be considered by the vast majority to be the same as them, then Hokuto would just have to grab onto this genius’ arm and never let go.

“You’re already a star, Akehoshi. You’ve always been.”

The faint spark that he saw in his (no, not yet his, never would be his) star’s eyes was what urged Hokuto’s mouth to keep spilling the words resting on the tip of his tongue like overflowing water from a cup.

“You’ve always been a shining star to everyone—including me. But if that’s too lonely for you, then…”

“Hokuto–” He feels Subaru startle when his hand comes up to lace their fingers together, thumb idly rubbing at the back of Subaru’s hand.

“If it’s too lonely for you alone, then I’ll become a star just like you, so we can be lonely together at the top.”

Hokuto meets Subaru’s wavering gaze, eyes brimming with determination. It almost scares him, with how natural it feels to give up everything for this boy. To do anything just to see his sparkling smile directed at him. He knows that the other two would have agreed with him if he told them.

He sees Subaru choke on his tears and laughter, free hand sloppily wiping at the river of tears sliding down his cheeks.

“Hokke, you’re so weird and stupid sometimes. But I really like that about you, y’know?” “I know, Subaru.”

I really like you too went unsaid, but the hand squeezing his told him that maybe Subaru knew already.

[cocogrrrl]

rendezvous

Chapter 5: After Hours / I Think We Have the Guy

during the few hours after the meetup, kyle gets a troubled tip from a mysterious text and yn gets a name.

wc: 1753 cw: implied alcohol + drug use, mental health stuff, details about the murders (graphic, but not totally detailed) check the series masterlist here! previous chapter

Kyle’s body sunk into his bed, the cold sheets enveloping his dazed state. Only the light from the moon illuminated his room as it gently hit his face. His gaze was pointed to the ceiling, mind full of worry. He didn’t even bother to change out of his clothes yet. He was too preoccupied and exhausted to do that.

At least today’s over with, right? He couldn’t help it, though, many conflicting sets of emotions washing over him.

He couldn’t sleep over the fact that he, like, almost attacked someone. It goes against what he even stands for. What the hell was that even that for? He knew he was going to deal with someone sick when he approached YN, but he didn’t think that he’d already get looped into the sick shit they did already.

Fuck. Does that mean that only worse was to come for him? He hoped not, but so far this mission seemed to not guarantee anything for him. Would he have to make the first move on YN once more? Is he going to see the borrower again? Would he have to do worse? It hasn’t even been six hours, yet he feels like things are only going to go for the worse.

It’s okay, though. This is all going to be worth it. This is all for the better good. Peace will be restored once he gets his evidence, and he might even get transferred to a better position if all goes well.

…Right?

All of a sudden, sweeping his thoughts off for a split moment, a ping from his phone could be heard. He checked to see what it was—a notification.

April 1, 1:11 AM

??? hi kyle. i’m sure you’re looking for the killer on the letter case, yes? well, you’ve actually already found your guy. it’s me. 

Just because this person messaged you at a time and date that involves angel numbers, does not mean this is your guy.

The letter case is the string of murders Kyle has been solving for the past few weeks. That’s what it was called by locals because each victim had a love letter (unsure if for them) placed somewhere at the crime scene. It makes it seem rather lighthearted when the actual murders were grisly and simply not for the faint of heart.

He was shocked, to say the least. He had to sit there for a few moments. This guy must be insane. He could technically track their location. At least in the morning. Yeah, that’s the first thing he’ll do once he gets to work.

Maybe he was a fake anyway. I mean, there are definitely some sick people out there who’d come out and say that they’re the murderer when they really aren’t—perhaps this guy was just one of them.

??? don’t just leave me on read!!! i know you’re reading this, you were just out a while ago you’re gonna make me reaaall sad if you don’t reply :(

How the hell does this kid know where Kyle’s been? Could it be YN? Maybe it was some who just really lucky at guessing things.

He rolled his eyes and sighed. I guess he had to reply. What would happen if he didn’t? Would another body show up tomorrow? There hasn’t been any indication that the timing of the murders seemed to be patterned. For all he knew, the killer may tend to strike whenever they’re upset.

I mean, it wouldn’t hurt to know whatever was happening anyway. This might just be some kid, but by the off chance that this is his guy, then score for him.

kyle how can i even confirm that you are the killer anyways?

??? i know things that most people don’t like i know that you’re the guy in charge of the case

kyle i’ve given statements to the news about the status of the culprit multiple times

??? the first victim is a bakery owner the second was her mentee/cousin the next one is a local idol lastly the most recent one is a seamstress

kyle i believe those details have been disclosed as well

??? stop being mean!!! hmph :<

kyle i’m not? i’m just simply stating that the information you’ve provided me with so far is all accessible by the public

??? you leave me with no choice then! i have photos of the bodies

The next thing Kyle received were photos of the bodies, some of them dissimilar to those recorded by the department. Maybe it was one of those journalists? He wasn’t sure.

A few photos seemed to stand out, though. Some of them were photos of the victims  unconcious in the places where their bodies were found. They hadn’t been mutilated yet, though. They were just knocked out.

Kyle didn’t want to put his trust in that person yet. Maybe it was edited? You’re gonna need one hell of an editor to do that, though.

 

kyle i’m gonna need more than that

??? so mean! i didn’t!!!

kyle  okay? look, if you’re some kid trying to be cool, please stop it it’s really disrespectful

??? i’m not a kid dipshit i do have proof clyde donovan is the son of the seamstress he said that he was likely targeted by the killer a few days before his death he was held at gunpoint by me and he said that i wanted to sew a football in his face he thought it was funny at first but after seeing how the dress his mother made was sewn onto her he didn’t find it that comedic anymore

The urge to throw his phone across the room out of fear was tense, almost palpable. Chills crawled up his spine. Why? It’s because the guy was correct.

Kyle had conducted a few interviews with people close to Betsy Donovan when her body was found at the local park. It was a place that she and her family frequented growing up.

Clyde, as mentioned, revealed exactly what the anonymous texter told Kyle. Honestly, if anything, this person seemed to know this situation better than Clyde did himself. The detail about the football thing wasn’t mentioned at all when he interviewed him, or at least he doesn’t remember anything like that. He might have to recheck the tapes later.

This information wasn’t released to the public at all for the sake of the family’s privacy. This fact, combined with the photos, likely meant one thing: he was actually talking to the culprit.

Who was this person exactly? Immediately his first thought is YN. I mean, he is pretty sure that it is her, and she did get his number earlier. Plus, he was just with her and this person just referenced knowing that he was out. Maybe she’s just messaging him through a burner phone. Knowing how much she gets from her borrowers, it doesn’t really seem like it would put a dent in her wallet to buy a few backup phones.

kyle why are you messaging me

??? i want to help you solve find out who i am

kyle aren’t you just endangering yourself then?

??? don’t you want some extra help on your case? i know how bad you wanna take me down

kyle yeah but not like this

??? that’s why i’ve devised a plan for you, detective you receive information from me about the murders and my identity if you follow my requests

kyle i’m not doing that

??? i’m not gonna have you rob a bank dude jeez i’m just gonna ask for small favors

kyle like what?

??? you’ll see do we have a deal though?

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The blinds were closed, and so your whole room was just barely lit up by your night light. Your body was drowning in the stiff cushions of your couch. Your senses were tingly, probably even hazy. You might’ve had an extra bottle of some cheap liquor to relax your senses.

You were tired, to say the least. Your body was absolutely drained, but your mind still ran endlessly—no matter how much you wanted it to stop. You just wanted to sleep, nothing more, nothing less. Dear, God.

You didn’t like your mind during hours like these. It’s when everything would hit you at once, the surge of emotions sending you to a wave of nothingness. You’d wish it’d be noisier sometimes, but you knew that you couldn’t handle loud things as well. Maybe the quiet is for you. It sounds funny, considering the type of life you find yourself living in, but it’s true.

Scratch that. You were lying to yourself. You’re pretty sure you had about two bottles and a shot in the thigh earlier. 

Your mind drifted off to places you didn’t want to, namely in the house of sympathy. Now that you were thinking about it, you kind of felt bad for Brad. I mean, maybe this is his first serious case, and you might’ve completely traumatized him already. The only “serious” problems this town had were probably as easy to solve as it is making your bed or something. 

Are you right for wanting to toy around with him? Definitely not. Is there anything good that is to be expected from you anyways? You’re not a good person at all. You’re the furthest thing from. You still can’t help but feel a little remorse after seeing the mortified look on his face earlier, though.

In retrospect, when you had to put him through the actual act of taunting the guy with a knife, you just felt awfully mean. You felt like those mean girls who force their “weirdo pet” friends to bully their friends just to see them suffer. How low of you.

What can you do now, though? The plan’s set in place, and whatever damage you have planned out has already been done. There’s no going back now.

You checked your phone idly, hoping to see something, anything to take your mind off of the barren hellscape that is your mind. A text from Bebe sent about two hours ago caught your eye.

April 1, 1:41 AM

bebe hey yn? i think we have the guy if anything i think we have heaps of information

You saw the message and smiled. It’s not that you’re going through this with this plan. It’s that you’re going through with this plan while enjoying it. You piece of shit.

bebe his name is kyle broflovski

next chapter.

[1tarot1with1k1o]

hi! here for ur game :) i choose kim namjoon

i feel you’d get along with with momo from twice, sunny from girls generation, and seulgi from red velvet

Helloo~ and welcome to the game!

Ooh, interesting choices! I’ve never thought about being friends with those idols, but I’d definitely be curious to see how it would go. They’re all nice and very charming people, so thank you for choosing them for me! Mark is SUCH a sweet guy, and he has the softest hands haha, so I’m happy to remind you of him. I’ve never been that called to get to know Wendy in depth, but she seems chill, so I appreciate it! Taemin…what an honor lol!! He’s THE kpop idol™️, so it’s such a compliment for me to remind you of him!

I think that namjoon would find you…interesting? You might be someone who is very different from the people he is used to meeting or hanging around with, and I feel like his smart self will really want to get to know you in order to sort of “study” you? Not in a weird way, but he simply would like to know more because he finds you very “layered”. He would love to listen to you talk about your hobbies and views. He would like to know how you form your thoughts, and the kind of experiences you faced during your life. The things you say might even inspire him to write songs, or to look at certain things in a different way. You two would be like those people who look extremely different but that actually get along well, and that deep inside are more similar than one may think. I see that your friendship would stay superficial (as in, I don’t see you becoming very close friends. Just people who occasionally meet in the same place, and have a talk), but you’ll definitely have a positive effect on each other even just by being acquainted! You could learn many things from each other <3

Jungkook would also find you an interesting person to hang out with. I saw him smiling at you while you’re talking with a group of people. He may find your mannerism and your mind peculiar. Not necessarily because you act strangely, but like for Joon, you may have a personality that he’s not used to. I heard language barrier, so he may be too shy to actually talk to you. Probably because you would have to communicate in English, and as good as he is, he will feel too intimidated to actually talk a lot in a foreign language. He may even be worried about accidentally saying something wrong during the conversation. Ironically, I saw him talking more if Namjoon is around, since he would be less scared about making mistakes. Joon may not even have to ever correct him or to interfere in the conversation, but it still would make Jungkook feel more comfortable to have him nearby in case he needs some extra support. You would laugh and enjoy your time together! He would find it fun to be around you. You might end up having friends in common, although I don’t see you two actually interacting more than just a few times. You’d mostly be the kind of person you greet and then move away from, in order to meet your friends. I don’t wanna say a professional relationship but that’s the kind of vibe I get tbh. In a positive way of course! It’s not like he would have to force himself to talk to you. Not at all! You two may just have different walks of life that wouldn’t give you much to talk about with one another.

Overall, you would have positive interactions with both of them, but they would likely not lead to developing a close friendship with neither. You might interact more with Namjoon than with Jungkook. Mostly because the conversation would flow more easily between you two. Not just for the language, but even for the fact that your personalities or personal views may be a better match.

Thank you for participating! I hope you enjoyed the readings ^~^

[aeoki]

Blackjack - Gifts Will Not Arrive: Chapter 12

Location: Underground Family Residence Characters: Shinobu, Mayoi & Hitsugi Season: Autumn

Shinobu: Y–You say you're being tailed by bad guys? Who are these bad guys?

Mayoi: Ah, I was curious about that too. But Hitsugi-kyun wouldn’t tell me any of the details.

Hitsugi: I’m sorry. I can’t say a thing.

…I probably can’t keep saying that, huh.

Anzu-senpai, you’re an amazing person. You’re loved by everyone and you’re a “producer” with a special position at ES and Yumenosaki.

If you continue to be successful in the industry, then you’ll definitely enter “his” field of vision.

No, maybe you’re already within his grasp.

Depending on the circumstances, “he” might use you as he sees fit – as a pawn in his schemes.

You should learn as much as you can about “him” before that happens.

If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles, after all.

It might not sound very convincing coming from me, who betrayed your trust and used you for my own goals.

But I want to protect you. At the very least, I want to make up for pushing you around and making you sad.

No, just knowing that you acknowledged, loved, worried and came to see me – someone who’s like a ghost…

It felt like I was rewarded for living so desperately all this time.

I want to repay you. Even if it’s just a small amount – even if it’s a shameless act,

Anzu-senpai, there was once a god in the idol industry you all dwell in.

Shinobu: A god… That’s someone who comes up in our conversations sometimes – the “Godfather” or something.

Hitsugi: That’s just a nickname of his, though. Perhaps it’s fitting but everyone has been using that to refer to him lately.

God created everything. He dyed this country in the colour of idols. There was a golden age of idols, by idols and for idols a long time ago.

But that’s in the past now.

One day, God abandoned everything and disappeared.

But there is an individual who took over his place with a nonchalant look on his face.

That is my life-long enemy.

He is called “Priest”, and he is my real father.

Shinobu: “Priest”...?

Hitsugi: It seems you know of him. Good, good. You really shouldn’t get involved with him.

“Priest” has the ability to transform into others. It means he’s good at using disguises. He can use his power to create false records in his family registry to become a completely different person.

“Priest” used those abilities and replaced God – even now, he’s sitting at the top of the idol industry, controlling everything from the shadows.

Mayoi: I–If you’re the son of someone who’s like a king, then that would make you a prince, right?

Shinobu: So you’re an unexpectedly distinguished person, huh, Kurone-dono.

Hitsugi: It’s nothing as good as it sounds. I was born to inherit everything from “Priest”.

By everything, I mean everything. Wealth, power, looks, mentality – in other words, his soul.

Anzu-senpai, do you remember wandering into that mysterious place during the school trip?

The people from that land have the ability to fraternise with the dead. They’ll let the soul of the dead possess them.

It hasn’t been proven by science that a soul exists, so it should all be treated as nonsense, wild ideas or a hallucination, though.

“Priest” believed in it. At the very least, he decided it was worth investing in.

So God captured a priestess from that land in Australia and forced her to birth a child.

Mayoi: You mean–

Hitsugi: “Priest” is human. He’ll grow old and will die one day.

But “Priest” strongly feared losing everything he went through so much trouble to obtain once he died.

So he came up with a plan.

If “Priest” were to die of old age or in an accident…

In that case, he would use the abilities of the priestess to summon his own soul into the body of an individual who shares his own blood and genes.

By doing that, a human being exceedingly close to “Priest” physically and mentally – in terms of soul and even personality – can be “reproduced”.

And so, “Priest” will attempt to live eternally by trading bodies every time he dies.

Shinobu: T–That sounds like something from a fantasy novel ~de gozaru. I did have a feeling it would be possible based on what Mayoi-dono said earlier.

Hitsugi: Yes. It’s rare in Japan, though.

“Humans that aren’t supposed to exist” who aren’t acknowledged by their country and live in the sewers or in the middle of nowhere overseas do exist on occasion.

Mayoi: Sometimes, those people are exposed and they make front-line news. It’s something that could very well happen to us, so we’re a bit alert when it comes to that sort of information.

Shinobu: Hmm… But if that “Priest” can trade bodies and reincarnate that way, then it sounds like something straight from a manga.

Hitsugi: A manga, hm? Yeah, I bet it’s all just fantasy.

I don’t think “Priest” is sane anymore. And annoyingly enough, this insane person has enough power and wealth to distort this world.

And I’m his son.

Born for the purpose of harbouring his soul when he dies in the future.

I’ve been given the appropriate body and skills to make that happen. That’s how I was able to summon my big sister’s soul.

I wouldn’t have any evidence to deny that it’s all just in my head and say that it’s just a split personality disorder, though.

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[wooahaes]

ghosts of the past

pairing: non-idol!junkyu x gn!reader

genre: (light) horror. a little fluff between kyu & reader (established relationship).

word count: 0.8k~

warnings: ghosts. reader believes in ghosts, junkyu does Not.

daisy's notes: i think abt the fact this guy just. does not flinch over horror. men i want to watch a horror movie with fr.

Despite being in a very committed relationship with you, there was one key difference between you and Junkyu. Junkyu did not, by any means, believe in ghosts. And you…Well…

You’d dragged him into ghost hunting in a long-abandoned house, and that probably said more about how much Junkyu loved you than any doubts he might have about ghosts. 

Part of the reason he agreed with you was because he knew Hyunsuk and Jihoon were out in the car. When he mentioned his plans with you for the night, Jihoon looked up, said ‘Nope,’ and decided he and Hyunsuk would stay outside to call for help in case something happened. You had carried the ghost-hunting equipment in your bag, and insisted on handling everything ‘just to be sure’ that nothing was broken. You’d shoved a two-way radio into Junkyu’s hands (‘just in case’), saying something about how Hyunsuk had the other one, and started to go through what else you had. 

Junkyu’s job was to hold onto the camera. Simple, easy, and all he had to do was record your cute face as you wandered around. A digital audio recorder, a pair of headphones to plug into it, an EMF gauge… 

“You’re really serious about this,” he noted, watching you show off the digital thermometer you’d brought. 

You nodded. “I couldn’t afford a thermal camera, though… Maybe I’ll save up for it.”

Please don’t save up for it, Junkyu thought to himself. He’d never rain on your parade, though… Just maybe gently sway you to save the money for emergencies instead. Thermal camera can come later. 

You flipped on the EMF gauge, holding it in one hand as you pulled your bag back up on your shoulder—everything else safely tucked away into it again. Despite his own disbelief of ghosts, Junkyu listened carefully as you explained everything. Something about electro-magnetic fields. He didn’t entirely follow, but you seemed excited enough. 

For the longest time, you heard nothing from the thing. There were temperature drops, sure, and Junkyu had felt this shiver down his spine… But that was because it was cold outside. It had to be, right? Jihoon and Hyunsuk were probably watching the two of you like hawks, too, which is why Junkyu could never shake off the feeling that he was being watched. He set the camera down, making his way over to where you were looking at ripped curtains.

“Honey?” He said quietly, immediately getting your attention. His go-to was usually babe or baby. Honey was his way of saying he needed something. “Can we go home? It’s cold.”

“Just a little longer,” you frowned. 

He sighed, taking your hands. “We haven’t found anything so far.” He began to sway, swinging your arms with his, “We could go back to my apartment. Jihoon will drop Hyunsuk off and me and you and have ramyeon and watch a movie and cuddle… It’ll be nicer than being here, hm?”

Despite the fact you wouldn’t mind cuddling with your boyfriend… You couldn’t fight this nagging feeling that something was off here. “Junkyu—”

“I won’t even rub it in that I was right,” he teased, leaning in. “Although I think I am right—”

You rolled your eyes at his cheeky expression, going to close the distance between the two of you… Only for the EMF gauge in your hands to suddenly go off with a screech. The two of you jump apart with a gasp, and you immediately began to fish around in your bag after you switched it off. You pulled your headphones on, wandering away from Junkyu.

“Is someone here?” You asked, having flipped on the audio recording device. With a long enough pause, you spoke again, “Are you in the room with us…?”

“Honey, I think we should go—”

You ended the recording, running it back immediately. If you listened closely, you could hear this faint voice, scratching through. Jun… kyu…? You turned back to your boyfriend, confused as to why you just heard someone calling to him—although broken apart. It had to be him, didn’t it. “Junkyu?”

He furrowed his brow. “What?”

“It called to you,” you said quietly. “It said your name.” 

He quickly came to your side, taking the headphones. When you played it back, you watched the confusion cross his face… Yet it wasn’t this baffled expression you would expect. It was as though he was trying to remember something, like it was at the tip of his tongue and he was starting to get frustrated that he couldn’t just say it. 

The hair on the back of your neck stood on end, and you turned to see a figure standing, cloaked in shadow. “... Jihoon?”

He took a few steps forward, and Junkyu looked up. If it hadn’t been for your reflexes, the audio recorder would have likely hit the floor and broke in some way. He pulled the headphones down, letting them drop around his neck, jaw having dropped.

“... Yoshi?”

taglist: @twancingyunhao

[ryqoshay]

Happy Life: Owlhane

Primary Pairing: YohaRiko Words: 514 Rating: G Time Frame: Sometime during their college years Prompt: Pianissimo

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Author's Note: Primary entry for the 14th

Summary: Yohane dresses as an owl

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“Are you really going to eat dinner dressed like that?” Riko inquired.

“Dressed like what?” Yoshiko returned a question of her own. “This is Yohanowl’s natural garb!”

“You said earlier that it was your newest garb.”

“Geh…”

“Also, wouldn’t Owlhane sound better?”

Yoshiko pondered for a moment. “Perhaps… Owl… hane…” she sounded it out before nodding. “Yes, Owlhane is better. It seems the elite little demon knows best.”

“I’m back to being a little demon again?”

“I-I mean angel ascended!”

“I thought I was the guardian of Owlhane’s prey?”

“Mohhh… Riri!” Yoshiko whined, waving her arms in frustration, making it look like she was actually flapping her wings due to her owl outfit.

Riko couldn’t help laughing a bit at the absurd, and thus very Yoshiko, scene before her. It was exceptionally cute as far as she was concerned.

“I must say,” Riko said after a moment, “that costume is very well made. Your wings are actually silent, like a real owl.”

Yoshiko grinned with pride. “Of course it is well made! Yo… Owlhane herself had a ha… wing?... claw in its creation!” She flapped again. “Although I must admit it’s not completely silent. I’m not sure that’s possible without using actual owl feathers. Nonetheless, Owlhane insisted that we strive to at least achieve pianissimo!”

Riko wondered for a moment if it was selfish to assume Yoshiko used a music term to refer to her costume because she was dating a pianist. Obviously, Yoshiko knew the term from her time singing as a school idol, but Riko couldn’t recall her using music terms outside of such situation. Or perhaps she did, and Riko only started noticing after the two became a couple. Still, intentionally introducing words from her girlfriend’s interest into her normal daily lexicon seemed very much like something Yoshiko would do.

“Eh?” Riko startled away from her thoughts as a feathered wing flapped near her.

“See?” Yoshiko asked, having moved around the table while Riko was distracted with her thoughts. “It’s just barely audible, but you can hear it. But with everything else happening on stage, I doubt anyone in the audience will notice.”

“I couldn’t hear it from across the table.” Riko admitted.

“Pianissimo achieved!” Yoshiko declared.

Audience. Stage. Riko recalled. “That reminds me, Yocchan hasn’t told me what this new play is about.”

“Oh, well you see…” Yoshiko began to explain excitedly as she returned to her seat.

The couple began to discuss the upcoming play being planned by the theater club Yoshiko had joined at the college they both attended. It was an original work written by a group of students in the literature club based on an amalgamation of several myths and legends. Yoshiko had been assigned the role of a wise owl that would assist the protagonist along their journey.

Riko listened intently to Yoshiko’s descriptions while trying not to laugh whenever the owl costume interfered with Yoshiko’s meal. It all made for an enjoyable, if again, a bit absurd, time. But, such was often the case when one loved and lived with a purported fallen angel.

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Author's Note Continued: Some readers may remember my entry for Promptober 2021 that I called Yohanowl. It was a quickly written, silly idea I had while trying to fall asleep. And since it was a bonus entry already, I didn't bother with much editing or whatnot. The important part was that I enjoyed writing it.

But it has apparently stuck with me, as it was the first thing to come to mind when I started thinking about the entry for this year, and my self-challenge to include the prompts from the two prior years that I participated; there was a Promptober 2020 edition, but I hadn't joined IFH by that time.

Honesty, I've no idea how much I will delve into this made up play for Yohane's college theater club, where she plays an owl. I don't even know what myths or legends I would draw on, I just typed that out for the sake of giving Yohane something to explain. But gods help me if it turns into some massive story arc or the like...

And for the record, Owl was the prompt from '21 and Wonder was from '22.

[xiucakes]

the pink book.

the pink book

xiumin x reader, wonwoo x reader.

word count: 2.2k

summary: you meet a handsome roommate who just moved in, you offer help but you never knew it could turn up like this.

warnings: (mostly) angst, fluff, no happy ending.

a/n: this is my first fic i’ve wrote, i’m not the best at writing as i’m trying to improve so do leave comments if needed! enjoy reading! pls note that this was purposefully wrote lower cased and not proofread!! thank u! ❤️

being a student at SM university was harder than you thought. walking back from a long day to your dorm, you saw a unfamiliar figure standing in front of the dorm.

“hi, do you know where the owner is?” spoken the man with a face of an idol, you were stunned. how could someone be this handsome right at your doorstep?!

“i’m the owner, is there anything you need?”

he looked up and down, you were bewildered as you noticed his cat-looking eyes checking you out.

“i’m moving with you. i’m a transfer student from seoul.” him replying with a low tone.

“what’s your name by the way?” he asked.

“my name is ___.” you were fidgeting, looking away from his direction.

“i see. pretty name.” he exclaimed as he stared at you

“what about yours?”

“i’m kim minseok, but you can call me by xiumin if you want to.”

“do you need help with your suitcase?” you said as your eyes redirected to his.

“sure, would love to get help from a pretty girl anyway.” he grinned.

dragging his suitcase, your heart was pounding fast as your mind was blown at the fact that a flirty handsome guy was living in the same dorm as you. he was right behind and you couldn’t believe it was real. you led him to the only empty room in the house.

“alright this is your room. this is the only other bedroom in the house so decorate it however you like! let me know if you need anything!” you smiled at him.

“will do ___!”

1 week passes..

who knew this wasn’t just a small crush? you thought the butterflies in your stomach would go away but it didn’t. everytime you looked at minseok, your heart starts beating and you feel a guilty knot in your stomach. it was worse knowing that he probably doesn’t feel the same way towards you as it was now known he was the flirty type towards everyone. with no surprise, he became popular instantly.

you were snacking on some cereal at the counter as you weren’t craving for a huge meal for dinner. suddenly, minseok barged in with someone with him, a girl you were definitely unfamiliar with. walking towards the stairs, holding her hand tightly.

you stared at them with the spoon filled with cornflakes and milk holding your hand, your heart tightened. he glanced at you and just went into the room to shut the door. you assumed they just had sex, maybe a one night stand? you didn’t really know for sure.

you went out for some fresh air and sat at a nearby bench, to let out your feelings. you sobbed hard, cupping your face. you didn’t expect minseok to like you back but it hurts so much.

after 30 minutes or so, you went back to your dorm. you went to your room straight, while minseok was on the couch. not sparing a glance at him, he on the other hand was confused and wondered why you looked puffy as if you just cried.

the next morning, you woke up to the smell of pancakes. you went out to see that minseok was almost done flipping the pancakes. he smirked when he saw you.

“hey ___! you want some pancakes? i made enough for the both of us.”

you stood there nodding your head, half awake.

“i’m going to brush my teeth and wash my face first.”

you came out of the bathroom refreshed and sat at the table, eating the chocolate chip pancakes minseok made.

“ahem. so about last night, i’d like to apologise.” he coughed his apology out.

“um. for?” you seemed confused on his apology.

“for barging in the dorm with a girl last night, it seemed rude and i didn’t tell you prior to the occasion.” he said with ease.

“oh no it’s fine, i mean we all are legal adults anyway. i wouldn’t be surprised if you brought home a girl once in a while. just let me know beforehand so i don’t get so frightened.” you fake smiled shocked that he even bothered to apologise, with the pancake still in your mouth.

“may i ask why you were crying yesterday?”

said minseok with a worried face.

“i didn’t cry? what do you mean?”

“don’t lie to me ___. you don’t normally cry, you and i know that. you do know that you are someone important to me. right?” he exclaimed with a stern look with a worried tone.

an important person..? to him? what kind of sweet talk bullshit is this?

“i really mean it minseok, let’s just finish our pancakes and get to class already. we are going to run late!”

minseok didn’t want to force it out of you but he had a gut feeling.

a few days passed, you avoided minseok unless it was something related to school or something important. he was getting tired of your silent treatment. you were walking to your locker, not acknowledging his presence near you but he grabbed your hand.

“___, what the fuck is wrong with you?”

you stood there blankly with the obvious eye bags you have. you were too drained to try and process what he wanted to mean.

“what do you even mean by that?” you said softly, avoiding eye contact. you knew deep down why he confronted you.

“don’t act dumb, just tell me the reason. i don’t understand why you’re hiding this from me!”

he shouted, people around you both looking at him with clueless eyes on what’s going on.

“look minseok, i’ll tell you eventually. i just need time.” you glare at him, letting go from his harsh grip.

“whatever, you have 1 day. or i’ll find it out myself. i’m tired of this silent treatment you’re giving me.”

he growled.

you stood there wondering why this affected him so much. i mean, you both were just roommates. right?

you went to bed deciding that once and for all, you should tell minseok the real reason why you’re acting this way towards him. otherwise the friendship between you two will end soon, and you definitely did not want that to happen.

the next morning, you made some breakfast bagels for minseok. you knew it was his favourite breakfast item. knocking on his door, he opened with messy hair, droopy eyes and shirtless, looking surprised that you were at the door. seems that he just woke up.

you fake coughed to ignore the beautiful sight in front of you, and started the conversation.

“i’m sorry for not telling you what’s bothering me this entire month, i’ll tell you what’s going on after classes end. i hope you can accept these bagels as somewhat my apology for now.”

you grinned to make sure he accepts it.

“alright ___, i’ll be waiting.”

he gave a small smile and you just wondered how one can be adorable with that small smile.

the bell rang, you were rushing back to the dorm. you walked in but you saw minseok on the couch with a girl on top of him, they were making out.

“hey minseok.”

you spoke. he pulled away from the heating session and glanced at you.

“oh you’re here, come and sit down.”

you glanced at the girl and him.

“is this your girlfriend?”

you questioned him, knowing the answer.

“yeah! i actually wanted to introduce her to you earlier but you know, our little fight.”

he grinned.

“so are you going to tell me the reason once and for all?”

you mumbled a yes.

“can she step away for a while though? i won’t take long.”

he nodded.

“go back to your dorm first baby, i’ll meet you there once i’m finished with this.”

he grinned and gave a peck on her check, god you wished you were her.

she left shortly afterwards, giving you a small smile.

“where do i start?”

you said with worry.

“whenever you feel that is right.”

he responded with ease.

“i love you.”

you finally said it out. he sat there with shock.

“i loved you since the day we met, the day we became roommates, walking to class together, making meals for each other, watching movies while cuddling, it just made me fall in love with you more. i ignored you because i felt jealous when you brought back your girlfriend that night, hence why i ignored you for so long. now that you both are together, i’ll be submitting my form to change dorms so i can move on. thank you for being a good roommate minseok.”

you explained, holding back the tears and the pain in your heart.

minseok was stunned, he never expected this kind of response.

you got up from the couch.

“this will be the last time we’ll see each other okay? i’ll see you when i’m better.”

you walked away to your room.

minseok on the otherhand couldn’t believe it, he got his girlfriend named yeojin just to move on from you. but he couldn’t hurt her like that. he called yeojin to tell her he needed to rest for the night. he went to the bedroom, feeling hollow.

the next morning, he woke up to the dorm being silent. he opened your door, to see that all of your stuff are gone. there was a bright pink book and a small box on the bed.

he went through the pink book first.

07/03/2023

Today felt like the best day of my life! This handsome guy named Minseok came to my dorm and told us we were roommates?! Like unbelievable!! Hope this guy was better than my past roommate, turns out we have the same classes together too! He seems nice.

he chuckled at the past notes, he didn’t know you felt this way. he found the second note.

17/03/2023

Today wasn’t the best. Minseok came in with a girl today, could that be his girlfriend? I heard grunts from the room so I guess it is her. Should I ignore him? It’ll hurt but it’s for the best.

his smile dropped reading your note. he almost teared up whilst reading it, but he didn’t want to seem like a crybaby even though you aren’t here.

21/03/2023

It’s 5 days before his birthday. I got him a present. I’ll muster up the courage to go talk to him once and for all, I feel childish doing this to him. I hope I can make this whole situation alright.

tears welling up in his eyes, he’s never felt this upset before.

26/03/2023

Dear Minseok,

I know you are reading this as the busybody you are. Happy birthday. This is somewhat a farewell letter to you? I’m assuming you read my old notes in this book. I bought this book because of you. Writing my cringy feelings and hopefully when we got together, I could’ve shown you. But that’s long gone huh? I hope you appreciate this present I got you. I can’t speak to you without trying to prevent myself from kissing you so I’ve decided to do it this way. I hope you can give it to her of some sort or keep it as a souvenir for yourself. Once again, happy birthday Kim Minseok.

Love,

___,

he finally let his tears flow down, he liked you but he never knew you liked him back.

he felt so foolish but he can’t turn to you now because of yeojin.

2 weeks has passed, you were still lingering on minseok’s mind. he missed you so fucking much. meanwhile, you made a friend called wonwoo. he was your classmate. he was kind, handsome and understanding to your situation, wonwoo liked you but he didn’t want to be used as a rebound. so he held in his feelings for now, whilst you continued ranting to him about minseok. you felt some feelings for wonwoo but you thought it was infatuation because you still felt that connection with minseok.

minseok has always watched you and wonwoo, he felt jealousy. why were you talking to him for so long? you even changed your seat just to talk to wonwoo.

a month has officially passed. you and wonwoo got together shortly, you both were delighted and were happy together. you’ve officially moved from on minseok and you couldn’t be more happy. wonwoo treated you like a queen. fetching you from school, buying you meals and taking care of you always.

one day, you were near your lockers and walked past minseok. you glanced at him but you saw he was holding a pink book.

it was your book to be specific, the one you left in your bedroom. you felt stunned slightly and stopped your tracks. wonwoo realised you stopped walking, asking what was wrong. you came back to your senses and told him you zoned out slightly. he shrugged it off and continued holding your hand.

minseok watched you both walked away, he held the pendant necklace you left for him whilst he was wearing it. he broke it off with yeojin recently cause he knew what he wanted. it’s just that he couldn’t get it. at last, all of the memories he had with you was only left with the pink book.

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your character (anne and any of the ocs!)

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Yeah, you only THOUGHT you wanted this. Buckle up, buttercup!

The process of writing for Anne actually started before last year. I took a course on piracy back in grad school and my final paper was an argument for reading nonheteronormativity into piracy—something you wouldn’t think is so controversial but I guess homophobia’s a stronger drug than I gave it credit for. Anyway! Of the many points that paper made, it also made a real case study out of Anne Bonny and M. Read—themselves and their relationship with one another. My prof thought it had legs and pushed me to consider rewriting and refining it but honestly with the way actual history scholars are, I doubt my gay little voice pointing out all these gay little things that might make historical figures gay little people will have an impact. It’s literally to the point where one of the sources I use all the goddamned time actually has a note on both Bonny’s and Read’s pages refusing to address the possibility of a romantic entanglement between them. (Like you could have just said nothing, but you saying you’re going to say nothing is sus af.)

Anyways.

Last year I put her on a blog and ended up really loving her, but really struggling to find people who wanted to write with her. At the time, most of my followers were interested in muses I wasn’t as comfortable with, and getting them to interact with a woman character was like pulling teeth. I eventually gave up, grew despondent, got busy, and abandoned the blog. I’ve thought about going back to give up the URL, but otherwise I don’t think I’d go back.

Anne turned into this really special muse that I’m actually very protective of. Not, like. In the sense that I don’t want her to get hurt or look stupid—she should do both, regularly, for my own amusement—but in the sense of…being really fucking proud of the way I write her. She isn’t Black Sails’ Anne Bonny, despite her face claim; she isn’t ever going to be Our Flag Means Death’s, despite that being the group I get to write her most with; she’s just Ren’s Anne Bonny. Born from history and headcanon and exploration and projection. I’m probably pretty full of myself for this, but I’ll out myself: I think I’m the best goddamned Anne Bonny writer out there, and no other Anne is half the Anne I am.

And I say this having recently asked a friend of mine who also writes her to let me write with her sometime. Because I also have a big dumb lesbian crush on her.

I’m lucky to have fallen into the D-RPG I did with her; I still feel like no one actually wants to write with her here except to indulge their weird friend Ren, and I don’t love that feeling. (I s2g Orion, Ken, don’t start!) Even there I feel weird asking for people to tolerate her—especially since they recently had a different Anne who was Very Important to them—and yes, Orion, second direct call-out cause I’m not being down on myself when I say “tolerate,” I mean that I know she’s abrasive and doesn’t make good first, second, or third impressions outside of certain psychopaths and so hers is a matter of toleration—but I’m lucky there. People are nice and they agree to tolerate her. They talk to me and I’m really getting to develop who she is under circumstances that have just…ended up more relaxed despite being frought with danger. Maybe because she didn’t join, and so has (almost*) no one there she wants to impress.

*She did recently meet Izzy and he complimented her piracy so yes she is trying extra hard to impress one of her idols.

And that’s all the steam I’ve got for that one, folx!

[translationandbetrayals]

My journey with Idol’s animes and mangas - Part 3

A new path of this journey has ended. Today I'm going to talk about “Kami Kuzu Idol” (or, “Phantom of the Idol”, but I don't like the choice of the english title).

BUT! First of all I want to say, I’m not a big fan of men idols. I tried, it is hard (but lately maybe is not), and I just can say the biggest company of men idols is Johnny’s, where you can find groups like Arashi, NEWS, Hey! Say! JUMP, Sexy Zone (if you saw Fuller House, you might know them) or King & Prince; 

but I know there’s another one called DD Company, which has groups I’ve been told to listen (and are interesting), these being MeseMoa, *ChocoLate Bomb!! and Panda Dragon.

  Okay but… Why am I saying this? Well...

  Kami Kuzu Idol is an anime about a guy called Niyodo Yuuya, who is in a duet group with Yoshino Kazuki called ZINGS

; this guy (Niyodo) is an idol just because he thought it was easy money, 

has the problem that he doesn’t give his best… Well, anything. Suddenly he found the ghost of the “Kami Idol” Mogami Asahi; we have them talking about how Asahi died, how she really misses being an idol (she died just when she reached the center as she said). After a small and involuntary action from Asahi (she literally possessed his body and couldn’t get out for a moment), they started working together 

and making Yuuya a better idol and partner for Kazuki, because, yes, there was a kind of threat to both of them to get better (well, Niyodo) or Yoshino would go solo (and he has a bit of stage panic).

  After the first live being possessed by Asahi, all changed.

  I won’t lie, I hated Yuuya, at first he even wanted to overwork Asahi, but she wants to see him get better. Niyodo doesn’t know a thing about idols, seems to not pay even a small attention to what he’s been told at work, or about being a fan, so he won’t give a kind of connection with his fans, as idols do. So Asahi’s work also becomes a kind of “Let me teach you about this wonderful world, work, my never ending dream” (she doesn’t say this, is my interpretation of her actions).

  A part of the anime is also “OshiBudo like”, this meaning that fans have a point to exist as characters. Mainly three fans, who are Niyodo’s. They’re more comic, but as I said about OshiBudo, they work for their idols; oh right, in this case the fans are all women…

Until a certain moment, because ZINGS isn’t the only group, another important (just one character to be honest) is C Grass. They are the biggest idol group in the anime, “The princes of the nation” or something like that. Well the leader Setouchi Hikaru, was (or better said still is) a big fan of Mogami Asahi, and he was looking to ZINGS, he found sometimes the same mannerisms of Asahi on Niyodo (I wonder what would he think if he knew the truth)

and he even threatened Yuuya to stop disrespecting Asahi in that way, this also makes him to try not use her a lot.

  This anime was nice to watch, but tries to convey many things (i think) in 10 episodes.

Now a meme i agree with for most of this anime.

The important point is how it ends, saying that an idol is someone who stands on a stage and shines, so they make their fans’ hearts shine, and while the fans loves them more, the idol’s shine will grow, and as the fans keep loving them (this meaning after they are idols, whatever is the reason) they will keep shining; obviously this last part are heavier words as it refers Asahi’s death, and her surprise about still having fans that still love her; but it is applicable to that time after the day they graduate (leave being idols, specially if they become a normal person) 

  I like how Asahi explains what being a fan is, how a fan feels, how important it is to Niyodo, even though this dummy just realices it basically in the last episode.

  The songs are nice to listen to, but i wouldn’t get all over that, but the meaning of some of these are explained at the last episode.

The opening was “Let’s ZING!”

The endings changed basically for every episode (well, it was more like rotative)

Personally I Liked “Uraomote no Duet” and “Hare La Lu La”

  The 3D was used for scenes where they dance, but I found it a bit weird when i looked at Niyodo, personally i don’t think it fits right with his character design.

  THEY HAVE DIADEM MICROPHONES! I’m sold with microphones at sight (please learn SHINEPOST)

I think I don’t need to say that Asahi Mogami is my favorite character; but also, without her there, the story wouldn’t exist as it is. She’s cute, a top idol, she really likes that work, and is really proud about it,

but not being annoying, that’s why she helps Yuuya; she has told even when she failed, stuff she doesn’t know about (skin care for example) and how she did it. She is such a pure soul.

  Yoshino is a cute guy, the total opposite of Yuuya, like a lost puppy I'd say. You think in the first episode he might lack self trust, and is confirmed later. He does his best, maybe limited by that self trust lack.

  The Niyodo fans are funny, in a way relatable, but not as much as the fans we saw on OshiBudo; because it is also a completely different ambient. You can see part of ZINGS 'story through them.

  Niyodo is annoying,

but you may understand why he might think some stuff, how he does stuff. He gets trust on Asahi to even avoid overwork her, and to work in a way he can make her proud (specially last episode). At the end you learn to like him.

  Hikaru is interesting to me, he’s a kind of tsundere fan of Niyodo; I don’t care about this point though. There’s an episode where we have context how he became an Asahi’s fan, and then an idol, and even how he got her death’s news. But my interest is how he became a fan, because my emotional state was probably a bit similar to his; I don’t want to put here personal stuff, but feeling empty, and not having such energy to even go to school, 

 and then having your heart filled with that magic idols give, is pretty important.

  “We want the fruity level” you might think (yes, i think it is important to add this on every post). OKAY! The point here is the work Yoshino puts into not becoming a soloist, is not only because of his own good against his stage panic; he says it. Besides that, Hikaru is like a tsundere Niyodo’s fan, he even blushes a bit hard at one point.

The fruity level is “meh”, but exists.

  With all said, it isn't the best anime, has one of the bestests girls, touches some light topics in an interesting way, gives a good laugh, and is casual.

I give it a 6 or 7 out of 10.

But it is recommendable, at least to be all “awwwww” about Asahi being a ball of cuteness and love for being an idol.

  -CaMHH

[kfanopinions]

i think nct is really a mess. group of 23 young men. just like other men out there, they like pretty girls, flirting, one night stands, smoking but their fans still think they are pure and too busy to date. rumors just rumors but i think with such a large boy group like, the possibility of having a crush on the same person is very high. i dont know if they know about it or not :v we dont know exactly what they be behind the camera. can you do the reaction reading about this situation? it's so funny lol

i don’t think the size of the group matters as to why they could be defined as a “mess,” or “messy.” of course they are typical men lol my own father calls men pigs and dogs. which is why as women (i’m assuming most of you guys are women and if not…) fans alike we need to clear away the rose colored glasses and look at idols as normal everyday people — because they are just regular people, the only difference is that they’re known by a lot of people.

the smoking thing while it’s bad for their health it doesn’t contribute to a person being messy or that they are not “innocent.” they just smoke 🤷🏽‍♀️ i had friends come to school high as a kite but they wouldn’t do 99.9% of what our anon talked about so…there’s that ^^

i agree that they can end up liking the same person, no doubt about it. like you said whether they know is a different story. if they had no idea even if they f*cked that person i would say it was fair game. if they didn’t know they didn’t know lol

i keep everyone who i like a secret from my friends (female not male) because i’ve had experiences where they told EVERYONE and people i didn’t even know approached me about it, and a friend finding out and dating the person i liked within 2 days of me saying i liked them (they said they only liked them as a friend and yet did that) so even friends can be real shitty no doubt in my mind “colleagues/group members” can be just as shitty.

that being said, i think we need to think about our own friend groups and ourselves. how often did we fall for the same person? how often did both people know? how often did we have shitty friends/people who had no respect for us and our feelings? me personally it was only 2x my whole school life and i had a decent sized friend group.

did people date other people and the same person within my friend groups, yes, but as far as i was made aware of people were at least respectful of each other’s relationships. is that the case with most/a majority of idols 🤷🏽‍♀️ we’ll never know.

also, we cannot assume that everyone is “straight.” so that drops the percentage down again of liking the same person because people are of different sexual orientations. and with saying that…we all like/love/are attracted to people to different degrees. sometimes we just want that 🍆 or they want that 🐱 (🤣 sorry had to say it) and that’s as far as it will go. lust/desire are different then genuinely liking someone.

sorry if this sounded preachy… it wasn’t my intention 🙇🏽‍♀️

okay now when you said do a reaction what do you mean? i’m currently working on what they would do if they were attracted to the same person, is that what you meant?