#ask bella love

[conscious-love]

Could you recommend similar blogs or tumblers that you like? I’m trying to keep my feed positivity, motivation and growth oriented.

Sure! Here are my favourites:

@quietlotus

@letgoness

@thecalminside

@lazyyogi

@aspiritualwarrior

@abiding-in-peace

@dharmarainbow

@ladybluebottle

@inkflowergarden

@chibird

@thedailyzen

@positivelypresent

@sheisrecovering

@theambitiouswoman

And some will hate me for this one: @jordanpetersonquotes If you’re not a Peterson fan, I promise you’ll still like the other blogs I mentioned. And if anyone I tagged dislikes being mentioned with him, sorry but I think you’re both awesome!

Enjoy!

[linkedin-offficial]

chimera vivi batch of stuff #1million

[helenofblackthorns]

reading tftsa is always an emotional experience especially when you get the short stories focused around the Blackthorns because the absence of Mark just bleeds out. like when you read about Julian being Helen's suggenes and Simon being the witness to Julian's parabatai ceremony you are just burdened with the knowledge that that's not who they would have picked if the circumstances were different. in a different life it was Mark.

[vampiresinforks]

MY FAVORITE TWILIGHT SAGA SCENES II. a little crowded

[cupidgnome]

Madi got her first gig in the acting industry + Brent and Madison booked a table at a restaurant in Windenburg for a Family reunion! There Brent met Madi's mom, Moira Petsch, and Madi met Brent's dad and sister, Jim and Bella!

+more pics!!

Jim Val Meir - Brent's extremely humble and caring dad

Bella Val Meir - Brent's funny and bubbly sister

Moira Petsch - Madison's iconic, overprotective, snob and nosy mom

[greenerteacups]

Hi GT,

Forgive me if this is a stupid question, but I absolutely love the recs you've given (you've introduced me to tomione, and I love it!) and I was wondering if it's possible to give you some recs in return? There are some books and fics that definitely have dramione / got vibes, and I was wondering if I could share them with you!

So glad you've enjoyed them! Feel free to rec me anything you want. I've read most of the classic recs in terms of fic and adjacent content (Cruel Prince et al), but I'll try anything that's well-written. My tastes run towards weird and/or audaciously creative stuff, and I can forgive a lot of weaknesses in plot on the grounds of (1) ambition or (2) character work. My turnoffs are instalove, protagonists who can't fail, and most Y/A (I'm not a hater, I swear, I just need characters who can say "fuck" when their leg gets chopped off.)

I'm also a fan of weird and fucked-up dynamics.(Wuthering Heights was my favorite book for a while, and as a teenager I wrote an AU in which the book ends on a long sex scene where Heathcliff fucks Cathy's ghost and then immediately gets murdered by Catherine 2.) Obviously, I am very normal.

[iingezo]

@insomnianoctem YES !!! Ancient Lights is a series full of soo much iconic art that I can't even be mad at how infamously abundant they are -- HAPPILY shuffling through a stack of Diana duplicates lovelovelove & custom cards for folks been going real well ! I still want to get a template I'm happy w older series' style but its neat to see an older horse in the newer border / formatting too > > (Herd Moonfairy for the penpal I sent it to ~ ✧)

[bellcza]

they already adopted gavi we just need pedri now

when fabrizio drops the “🚨🚨🚨 pedri and gavi to fc barcelona femení. HERE WE GO 🚨🚨🚨” we will be there TRUST

[jack-loves-bella]

Hi Jack. How did it feel to beat the ever living shit out of Hannibal?

Therapeutic.

[conscious-love]

Hi! Just found your blog, currently going through a breakup of after 4 years and thhis blog has been very helpful in processing it. Thank you so much <33

Hello! I’m very glad you’ve found my blog helpful ☺️💙

Keep healing and growing! ✨

[sugarsnappeases]

GIVE US QUILLKILLER THOUGHTS!!!!!!

i would be delighted to!!! i’ll try to say things we (@quillkiller and i, we’re conjoined) haven’t said before lol…. please be warned. this post got LONG (lots more under the cut)

so for me the general trajectory of the quillkiller relationship is devotion -> betrayal -> haunting (and the devotion and haunting are sort of synonymous, no? different shapes of the same undying love) so i’ll try to follow that trajectory in this post too

so. Devotion. we’ve said before that a big part of bella’s character is her need to devote herself to something. she’s a follower at her core, and before she meets voldemort, she finds this in rita. rita who’s mean and nasty and genuinely believes she deserves to be worshipped (major god complex). bella who wants to worship her, wants to give her everything, wants to give herself up to rita like an offering, a sacrifice.

and it digs deep into the both of them, this devotion, claws its way into the marrow of their bones until they can’t let each other go. they’re in different hogwarts houses and come from what feels like different worlds but bella’s sneaking into the ravenclaw common room at night, they’re passing notes in class, exchanging looks in the great hall, meeting up in secret nooks and crannies. bella is getting married but rita is the journalist at the wedding, kissing her before she walks down the aisle, sneaking off to fuck in one of the side rooms later. bella sending patronuses like ‘come over’ or just showing up at rita’s flat, clinging onto each other even when they know they probably shouldn’t and that it can’t last and that it’ll have to end at some point, taking as much of each other as they can get bc they know that it can’t be forever and they didn’t even think it would last this long… i imagine them waking up together like this:

and the thing is!! there’s so much love. so so so much love. like even w bella married and everything, that’s never an issue at all. they’re happy, they have fun and they make each other laugh and they love each other so so much and so so well even if they both think that’s it’s ultimately gonna fall apart. and that brings us to Betrayal.

it’s the idea that both of them are selfish and obsessive and cruel but before they’d always been all of these things together. but bc they are these things and bc they’re always pushing each other and challenging each other and making each other more, they’re always, inevitably, gonna cross a line that the other cannot. for rita, this is her article, and for bella, this is her dark mark.

and to me, their respective betrayals happen kinda concurrently, like either one of them could happen first, but they don’t fully fall apart until both of them have happened bc, for example, if the article happened first, bella wouldn’t forgive rita (it’s disloyalty and bella can’t understand or forgive it bc she’s unendingly loyal <- another core bella trait) but bc of the disconnect there, the way they both can’t quite understand how unforgivable what they’ve done is to the other, i don’t think rita would necessarily see a huge issue. like they’ve fought before and it hasn’t been final and if rita called, bella would still show up, ofc she would. and vice versa. if the dark mark debacle happened first, rita can’t forgive her for that (bc no matter how morally reprehensible she is, rita can’t justify or support genocide and doesn’t understand how bella thinks she could), but if bella called, rita would go.

that’s them one betrayal in ^^ (i.e. rita post bella’s mark showing up at lestrange manor bc bella called. or bella post rita’s article showing up at rita’s flat bc she called). and they need both the betrayals to happen to be fully over (and obvs both the betrayals are inevitable bc of who they are and the circumstances they find themselves in even if they’re trying so hard to cling onto each other). i think by the time of both the betrayals, they’re already hanging on by a thread - hanging on so so tight, don’t get me wrong, but things are already falling to pieces, they just haven’t noticed yet, or haven’t let themselves notice yet.

it’s been building and building bc they both want everything, they want to have their cake and eat it too, selfish and hungry and wanting, that eventually they cross they line and it all falls down. they lose their ‘one good thing’ (<- bella says this about rita), they lose the woman that they still love, the only woman they ever have and ever will love, bc they just kept pushing for more:

and it’s both of their faults but they blame each other and hate each other and love each other just the same and they don’t realise that the closest they ever were to everything they ever wanted was when they were together. until later. thus. the Haunting.

and i have a lot of visual aids (quotes) for this part lol. this spans the rest of their lives, and i tend to mostly consider it from rita’s pov bc she’s not in azkaban and a lot more mentally present and also lives a lot longer so i think it’s more tragic for her (bella is also very much tragic but i will say that by the end of her time in azkaban, she’s really not much more than a shell of herself and she would’ve had most of her happy memories (a large part of which are w rita) sapped from her by the dementors and therefore it’s hard to say how much capacity she would’ve had for being haunted, being as, in and of herself, she would’ve been little more than a ghost x)

we’re gonna kinda gloss over everything here bc i have lots to say and this is already so so long but i have quotes that refer to a) rita’s general existence after the break up:

(obvs we're referring to her articles here. and just everything she writes in general. and everything she does. and everything she is.)

b) rita after bella breaks out of azkaban in 1996, and she sees her on the cover of the daily prophet:

and c) basically just rita for the rest of her life. forever. til the day she dies (this quote makes me a little insane...... !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!):

IT IS MY KNIFE AND MY HEART TOO!!!! WHAT THE FUCK!!!!! anyway i'm gonna stop talking here bc i've rambled on for far far too long (although i have more to say if anyone wants... i'll always have more to say about them i think) but for now!! i'll love you and leave you with a few links to posts/fics that i think vaguely encapsulate our quillkiller conception (and by that i mean reccing jen's fics and a couple other things i've said):

life-changing fic 1 (rita writing bellatrix's obituary) | thing i wrote (unsent letter from r to b after azkaban break-out) | life-changing fic 2 (bella visiting rita post-azkaban break-out) | thing i wrote (another kinda quillkiller thesis...) | life-changing microfic (nsfw, that good old bellatrix black devotion)

[justsumtransdude2000]

QuillKiller's Easy Beginnings

I know that a lot of people enjoy the internalized homophobia narrative in relation to relationships involving DE's and purebloods, and I often enjoy it too, when done correctly. However, QuillKiller is one of the instances where I think, characterization wise, it simply doesn't work. Specifically, I'm thinking when the internalized homophobia narrative is pushed onto Bellatrix.

Why? Well, what do we know about Bellatrix? She is dangerous, clinically insane, murderous and undyingly loyal to whatever she applies herself to, and canonically that thing is the dark lord, yes, but what else? She is self assured. When she battles people she taunts them because she is sure she'll beat them, when she argues she does it sardonically and with the very distinct air of I'm right, you're wrong, fuck off and die before I crucio you. Everything she does is with a sense of superiority and self respect. She knows who she is, and she wouldn't brush that off (especially in her teenage years, because Bellatrix as a teenager was a spitfire and a rebel in one way or another) to replace it with being who she needs to be.

So, when she realizes she's gay she doesn't think, she knows. She isn't afraid of it, or angry at it, guilt doesn't eat her alive about it, she doesn't dread not being the perfect daughter about it, because she's Bellatrix fucking Black, when has she ever been the perfect daughter, and when has trying to ever been fun? But this, her queerness and being able to weaponize it to piss off her family? That's fun. Bellatrix takes everything about herself and sharpens it until it's the perfect thing to ruin people with, especially when she is filled with teenage rebellion and hate.

Enter stage left Rita Skeeter, the openly lesbian trans girl (because fuck Terf-k Rowling, Rita deserves to be queer and trans and she is beautiful because of it) who is in everybody's business and runs a gossip column for Hogwarts. I imagine it starts 3rd year. Bellatrix has discovered this powerful, sharp thing about herself, and there is someone just as self actualized as her. Rita knows who she is, knows how to prove that to people. She runs smear campaigns against people who are transphobic towards her, and occasionally gets in trouble for hexing students who say nasty things, and she is a bit dangerous because of her abilities and Bellatrix loves it. She loves how being close with Rita is this game, loves how she walks a narrow tight rope of being loves and being smeared, loves the adrenaline rush it gives her (because she is so adrenaline junky coded).

And that love for all that Rita Skeeter is turns into love for her in 5th year.

And Rita Skeeter is intrigued by Bellatrix. By her ideology, the way she thinks and acts and is quick witted. The way she defends her so easily, the way curses flow from her wand with ease that Rita can tell is actually years of training and practicing (she ignores the thoughts about who she has had to practice on). And maybe it starts out as a story, but it turns into something else. It turns into this weird feeling in her hears, and sneaking into Bella's dorm, and learning what she likes to eat for breakfast, and wearing each other's ties on purpose and smearing transphobes together, and feelings.

And it's quite easy for them to fall in love.

[bellaxgiornata]

Favorite coffee flavor!!

Soulie you went straight for the jugular with this one 🤣

This is a tough one. Right now I am nonstop craving fruity flavors, so I've been making lots of strawberry iced lattes. But I do enjoy trying different roasts and different flavor combinations (usually something with lavender or peanut butter is often a go-to for me). Something my husband and I love going to do for date days is hitting up different coffee shops to try out different flavors and roasts at different places for fun.

I just really really love coffee 🙃 I've not-so-secretly always wanted to open my own coffee shop, which probably explains all the coffee references in my fics...

[episodes-without-incident]

They may not have referenced cats for a while but lemme tell you being named Bella during the past month-ish of drawfee while they work through the twilight movies has been JARRING

I CAN IMAGINE I love that they decided they needed a new movie to make jokes about for four years, and I love that that movie accidentally ended up being Twilight of all things.

It also reminds me of the episode where they chose a random name and explained all of their jokes in detail to them. Got to be one of my favorite Drawfee bits.

[flores-desyatov]

I feel like its common to see people eat fish (mainly salmon) and lettuce and cream cheese on a baguette but not on a croissant.. 😆 so what team are we? Cream cheese or no cream cheese?

I had no idea what you were talking about and then I saw Bella's reel 😂 I'm Latina, I mix sweet and savory stuff all the time. I'm team cream cheese on a croissant 🥐 why not? 😉

[bellcza]

My favorite story regarding Pedri’s family being lifelong, inter generational Barca fans is that his town used to be mostly Madridista, but his grandfather decided to go for Barca to be different😭 Like he saw his whole town root for Madrid and said naw fuck that. (If you’re wondering where I got this story from, it’s in one of the Athletic articles about Pedri)

omg i had no idea that tegueste was mostly m*dridista. i loovee that so much he was like fuck it we barça ball. i also love that pedri’s dad is the president of the barça fan club there, too! him and his family are so 🥹🥹🥹