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oh right, technically i sell t-shirts
i forgot about that
#holidays are coming up and it would make a terrible gift#that's the main selling point#anyways these exist and can be exchanged for legal tender#the cost is the listed price + the emotional expense of knowing that i am judging u#bc i am. i am judging u#why would u want this. why would u exchange currency for this#there are so many other things you could exchnage currency for instead#a grocery store shrimp platter for instance#with the nauseatingly red cocktail sauce that is SO much better than a t shirt any time#hmm chicken picatta at a local Italian Eatery perchance? i am. a big fan of anything picatta#oh oh i know! 3.6 POUNDS OF FRESH OKRA#FOR THE COST OF THIS FRIVOLOUS T SHIRT U COULD INSTEAD PURCHASE 3.6 POUNDS OF FRESH DELICIOUS OKRA#and then --hold on i have a recipe--and then what u do is#so it is basically sacrilege to suggest this but what u do is u skip the cornmeal entirely#my southern ancestors are shaking a wooden spoon at me right now but LISTEN. u skip. the gotdang. cornmeal#instead: wash chop and soak (for 10 min) the okra in a mixture of 1 egg to tblsp water#then coat in flour#THATS IT JUST FLOUR#No cornmeal. i am betraying my heritage rn but I'm RIGHT#coat in flour sprinkle liberally in S&P and FRY that suck in veg oil high heat#until crispy & brown & u hear your arteries clenching in apprehension#so. so yeah#that's what u should do instead of buying this shirt go fry the shit out of some okra#(but buy local and young & tender if u can bc the grocery store is full of old-and-therefore-super-stiff specimens#pro tip (aka grandma tip): if u can't chop okra smoothly with your normal cutting knife then it's too old and tough.#...i mean u probably CAN still fry the shit out of it I've certainly done that before it's just much less delicious#ANYWAY. anyway ANYWAY. shirt. okra. farmers market. that reminds me of a post i made back when we first started selling these dang shorts#shirts. shorts shorts. oh shit i should make a crop top option.#i. i don't Know How to make a crop top option#HUH . . . i need to lie down now and contemplate the constant and irreconcilable limitations of the human experience good night
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he says i hate everyone except you and that is addictive and that is kind of romantic and beautiful because you're young and you're kind of a sarcastic asshole too and you don't like bad boys, per say, but you don't really like good ones either. and you like that you were the exception, it felt like winning.
except life is not a romance book, and he was kind of being honest. he doesn't learn to be nice to your friends. he only tolerates your family. you have to beg him to come with you to birthday parties, he complains the whole time. you want to go on a date but - people are often there, wherever you're going. he's just so angry. about everything, is the thing. in the romance book, doesn't he eventually soften? can't you teach him, through your own sense of whimsy and comfort?
at first - you know introverts often need smaller friend groups, and honestly, you're fine staying at home too. you like the small, tidy life you occupy. you're not going to punish him for his personality type.
except: he really does hate everyone but you. which means he doesn't get along with his therapist. which means he has no one to talk to except for you. which means you take care of him constantly, since he otherwise has no one. which means you sometimes have to apologize for him. which means he keeps you home from seeing your friends because he hates them. you're the single exception.
about a decade from this experience, you'll type into google: how to know if a relationship is codependent.
he wraps an arm around you. i hate everyone except you. these days, you're learning what he's actually confessing is i have very little practice being kind.
#i used to think it was romantic too and then i was like. now i see it as a HUGE red flag#writeblr#it is also almost EXCLUSIVELY said by immature ppl who think this is normal#fyi even if u think it's funny and ur like 'im an introvert it's just TRUE' like. you need therapy (ily tho)#healed introversion is just ''i would prefer to be by myself'' not ''i hate every person'' ... hate is not normal. that is not healthy#im sorry. i know it feels accurate. but if you're walking around with that kind of rage....#1. you're making a LOT of assumptions about every single person u have ever met. which is often unfair and unkind#and also usually involves judging people based on their worst moments or little mistakes#2. you are being unfair to the person who is ur ''exception''#3. there is a VAST difference between ''ur my favorite person'' and ''the ONLY person i like.''#idk i think this is just a personal bias thing tbh#im sure there are people who have this experience normally#but i have YET to find a man who thinks like this and ISNT absolute DOGSHIT. although tbh.... like. im sure he exists#when u hit like 30 some of the things that were once kind of hot now just sound fucking exhausting. like ''im in a band''#edit in the tags: i used to kind of be like this too. but the thing is that like. my life became so much more peaceful#once i started believing that people are generally good. like yes i am mad at the world at large#but it's just.... a very hard way to live. you're not a bad person or wrong for the ways other people hurt you and taught you to be angry.#but that anger will continue to hurt YOU. it will punish YOU. it will prevent YOU from making new deep connections. it will protect you yes#but it will also cause MASSIVE blowback. bc if you lose the One Person... your life will fall apart. i know this personally.#i really recommend just trying to be... cautiously optimistic instead. like. yes#people can be horrible and cruel and there are some communities (incels for example) that aren't worth that optimism#but i think like... most people will hold a door for you . most people want to help you find your wallet .#i hope one day you are able to find peace. i hope that rage eventually smooths over. i know how hard it is PERSONALLY#and i know what must have happened to you. and im deeply deeply sorry we share the same wound.#but i promise - sometimes we all need someone else to help us carry the weight. eventually the rage has to die so that we can let help in#i had to spend years biting at outstretched hands. i still often do. im still very wary . and my heart breaks that you flinch too.#here's the thing: i don't blame you. but we were both acting out of fear and pain. .... not out of healthy behavior. and ... change#was needed. i needed change too. rage was useful for a while. then it just left me isolated and bitter. i had to (with effort)#choose to let that rage go. and let people in . VERY SLOWLY THO LOL
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"ok but are you diagnosed" what are you a cop.
#reminder that being diagnosed as autistic/ otherwise disabled is meant to help YOU.#if abled ppl expect u to justify every little thing u say abt ur experiences as (insert disability) they should explode#also if you dont wanna get officially diagnosed bc it will make your life harder no one will judge you. if they do theyre assholes#actuallyautistic#actually autistic#autism#autistic#autism pride#adhd#actually adhd#actuallyadhd#only tagging this as adhd and autism bc its all I am. however this can be about Literally any disability
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REMEMBER, YOU DONT HAVE TO BE EVERYONES FAVOURITE KING SALMONID YOU JUST GOTTA BE YOUR OWN FAVOURITE KING SALMONID <3
OR INKFISH I GUESS MAYBE?? >__>
#this is acctually a dream I had lmao#weirdly it wasn’t Joe tho like idk where they were#so for some reason it’s me cohozuna and horrorboros chilling at a hot spring??#and coho is getting a lot of attention from idk the apparent intersection of scalies monsterfuckers and ppl into bears#(not judging lmao I just am basically ace)#and I’m just chilling with horrorboros and I tell him it’s okay bc I still think he’s cool and that’s when he says the thing#and then screams and flies out of the room#woke up feeling enlightened thank u horrorboros of the hot springs for your wisdom#anyway#splatoon#splatoon 3#splatoon salmonid#king salmonid#salmon run#big run#splatoon salmon run#splatoon 3 salmon run#splatoon megalodontia#salmonid
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some people of footyblr just aren't cut out for sports i fear
#may i turn ur interest to stan culture#bc ur gonna lose a lot of brain power if u think a little banter means u need to drop ur fave#anyways so idols and actors have choreographed dances and movies u can go consume#so u dont cry about ur fave being rightly criticized for getting paid millions and ppl being upset at them for dropping a stinker#anyways but who am i to judge
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Kiss Me in Komorebi+ 🌸
[Episode Five] One Last Push!
For whatever reason, poor Antony was Tense when it was his turn to hang out with Daniel! 🙁 He made some night-caps for the two of them to share and started up a Deep Conversation. After Dan discussed his mood with him: after becoming friends with most of our self-applicants, it seems like Antony was feeling a little guilty that he hadn’t taken the gumption to sign himself up like they had: almost like he was here unfairly! It tickled Dan pink, and though he definitely took the time to explain that bringing himself to Komorebi meant the same as putting his name on the dotted line, I don’t think Antony heard much of what he said after that “cute”. 😉
@dirksdreamer
[ Part 24/?? ] 🌹
#ts4#ts4 edit#ts4 screenshots#ts4 gameplay#ts4 challenge#ts4 bachelor challenge#;kmik#sim: daniel#antony ark by dirksdreamer#||#i’m not TOTALLY happy with the dialogue in this but :| our boys did not give me a lot fhdhd#they legit just drank and chatted and dan discussed his mood with him and then turned??? flirty??? and they kept making flirtatious jokes#it was precious 🥹#i was strapped for ideas and it shows i’m SAHREE#but the cute is 100% canon daniel walked out of there smilin his whole lil pixel head off#i am so overwhelmed w how gorgeous antony is ugh#he’s so nice and polite but he has these moments where he’ll get tense#and afaik ifs from his#fear of being judged bc somebody??? was mean to him at some point#(lookin @ u and ur werewolf rage adrian 👀)#and so he was all tense at first and dan had to talk him down :((#so i sort of imagined- since he’s friends with most of the contestants who signed themselves up- he felt a little guilty#almost like it was unfair for him to be there when other people had taken the actual resolve to sign themselves up?#but dan reassured him that no matter how his application had crossed the desk#antony still came to komorebi regardless#and that was brave enough for all of ‘em#idk its very loosy goosy i’m SORRY baby its not my best 😩#we have three!! more!!! contestants!! to go!!#🌸🌸🌸
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riley asking shawn, "when you looks at me, does it remind you of what you can't have?" was a crazy ass moment because yes the line was about shawns intimacy issues and his inability to commit to a longterm relationship, but holy shit if that isn't the most blatant way you could confirm that shawn was in love with cory and the existence of riley was just a constant reminder that he had missed his chance and could never be with cory. what if i went insane
#boy meets world#shory#shawn x cory#i havent finished GMW because even though i like the dynamic between the kids everything abt the shaty ship tease makes me want to ***#it took me like 5 hours to get thru girl meets hurricane because i couldnt deal w the horrible way they dealt w angela#who even though i dont talk abt much is in my top 3 for BMW characters#but this one line from that one episode drove me mad like. did i die ? am i dead?#it actually took me until the end of the episode to realize what that line was supposed to mean#bc it read so explicitly to me as a confirmation of shawns feelings for cory#not to mention his ass literally LEFT THE CITY and never came back after riley was born#ignoring the continuity issues that crop up w this . its giving shawns wedding breakdown 2.0 lets discuss#i think that the take of 'shory is entirely one sided and shawns feelings for cory are unrequited'#is pretty surface level and it doesnt add up much if u take a deeper look into corys character#but GMW definitely leans into this take#what with shawn desperately trying to mirror corpanga in all of his romantic relationships (to run away from his feelings for cory)#like is it really in shawns character to marry a woman hes barely known a year ?#or is he just trying to mirror cory and topanga who basically rushed into marriage the second they. were legally able to#i'll let u be the judge#am i making sense idk im tired n i havent watched sn episode of GMW in months
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It's not fair that omusubi818 is so far away How am i supposed to throw my entire life savings at them
#i have a defunct birdsite account to lurk on the nuca tag bc i'm desperate for content and i need to see MOAR#but since i don't follow ppl i....miss a lot#yet somehow following the chains of yakuposters i found omusubi818's art and sdeifswuikodiwa#wAWHR T THE FIRC M98#the way they draw yakumo's tONGUE IN HIS MISTY VALE FORM. THJT'S IT. THAT'S WHAT I WANT#they made this one picture of yakuei smooching while yakumo's hanging the laundry out to dry and idk man. it just. it's GOT ME RIGHT HERE#points to the general area of my vital organs#HEY YOU! *points to u reading the tags* IF U SEE THAT ART AND UNDERSTAND . THEN TELL ME#i mean. just. look at their profile. the sneak peeks. the . the everything. the bunnyaku dj i' ve seen in thumbnails all over the everywher#i'm usually just chillin but i see a drawing by them and suddenly [consumed with lust for the rest of the evening]#holds the sites for their doujins in my trembling hands#why am i illiterate (narrows eyes spitefully at my lack of written language knowledge)#🤺this close to recruiting chinese reading friends to navigate for me#it's a battle between shame and desire now. hm. whichever shall win?#will i be judged? yes. but will i deepen our bond thru vulnerability? unlikely
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Bruh I be having literally the worst urges and I feel bad that I don't feel bad at all. Like damn. Guess I'm really like that. Well, anyway.
#i am apathetic to whatever monstrosities lie within my mindscape#or rather i enjoy them and am apathetic to the idea that they are evil#unfortunately the fact that I'm excited ab them makes me rly rly rly want to talk ab them#which would be bad#but if it gets bad enough i think its time i let my therapist in on the next circle of anouther hell#i know she will be kind no matter what i spring on her#but this. i dont know how to feel or what to think about all this#its pathological. i can fix it about as well as i can fix the fact that i adore music or get turned on by fear or am consistently-#-platonically or otherwise pulled to murderers and the like#i know its some psychosexual nonsense-- some fixation rooted in some perverse symbolism that i cant fully grasp#its so difficult to be a BadWrong thoughts and desires person#bc even tho i have like. some level of control and ethicsband whatnot. even tho im not doing the guilt ocd thing.#even though i know im ok the way i am#i also know i cant talk ab it. cant be excited about it. cant vent or happy rant about it. stay quiet. let it eat ya#cause ppl cant accept some things cant like. come to terms with things. again and again#i find myself relating more to 'good people' but being able to talk more openly and honestly with 'bad people'#like im too far from either side to ever be fully myself but i must let it out#and so i find i cant trust the people i love most with some of the most personal things more than i can trust a complete stranger#because at least that stranger has no spare room to judge. and i cant give af about losing a strangers high esteem of me#i share something truly heinous and sure i may be threatened but. disappointment from ppl u love is worse than murderous rage from strangers#which came first- the fixation or the corruption? i think it was the fixation#i was like that before. whatever false indulgences i have given myself will always sate the beast and not create it#i am not a bad person. but i will always have a monster inside me. a balancing act between#being a somewhat polite functioning member of society and completely losing myself to the dark#i dont hate myself. i wish i did sometimes so i wouldnt have the urge to vomit it all out#i wish i hated myself and felt such guilt over all that so i could be happy with being quiet. i wish it was only good that excited me proper#or rather i wish i knew someone like me in the right ways. irl. no phones no danger. who i could share with excitedly and not feel like ill#be told that im a freak who deserves to die. someone who will share equally horrific things with me and will keep me in check#i want talk therapy but with someone that has something SO wrong with them. a friendship that is nasty and fun and grossly honest#someone to say 'i know what ur talking ab/how u feel' when i say something pitch dark
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omg nico hulkenbergs wife is a crochet girly
#some of the shit she makes is so ugly but i just made the ugliest vest ever so i’m not judging#i love my ugly vest to be clear#but i have no leg to stand on to judge ugly crochet#she’s living my dream fr tho#rich husband funding her craft addiction#she sells pieces i should do that but no one would buy the things if i priced them like that HAHA#but honestly she’s real for it this shit takes ages#ACTUALLY i just looked a bit more and the biggest size she goes up to is a uk 12 💀💀💀💀#she said U TOO FAT FOR THIS#if i was rich and just crocheted all day without having to rely on a hideous desk job to feed and house myself#YOU BET MY CROCHET BUSINESS WOULD BE SIZE INCLUSIVE#it’s actually a big problem in general for a lot of the crochet brands out there#i mean it is in society but also i’ve seen SO many pattern makers that will say range of sizes and the range is size tiny to bit less tiny#so anyway i’ve come back round and i AM judging her crochet but not bc it’s ugly (even tho some of it is)
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when i love someone i WANT to learn abt their past traumas, their insecurities nd pain so that i can learn how to love them right. i want to understand how i should treat, reassure and comfort them. i want to learn their love languages so i can love them the way they need
#but why.... does no one ever want to do that for me?#i always have to bend and reshape so im as little bothersome as possible#and ppl always say stuff like omg u need to communicate nd u need to tell them blah blah blah#ok but what abt when u actually do all of that but no one listens to u????#i actually do communicate my needs. very clearly#yet... im never heard or listened to#am i just not worth that??? idk.. i dont get it#i just ache to be loved the way i love. bc i know that i love wholly and profoundly#but im gonna run out if i cant receive the love that i need#:((((#also it just hurts to be so understanding and supportive and want ppl to be comfortable#but then i dont get to take up any space or i dont get to have needs#i should only listen but never ask for anything in return#it just sucks#have i done smth wrong??? or am i just an awful person? delusional?#bc i have NEVER been in a space where im safe to express my feelings#not w my family. not friends. not even my therapists lmao (theyve also criticized nd judged me)#so im starting to think that maybe i actually am wrong#maybe if everywhrre i go im met by this. maybe i just need to suck it up#and be grateful for whatever scraps of love im thrown#bc clearly i am doing smth wrong!!!!!!
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hello there fellow gay ww1 enthusiast :D
*pointing dramatically through the crowd* ah hello!!!! there are others out there…. the few the proud….. through posting this stuff online i’ve met a handful of other gay ppl who are into this era but a majority have been what i have to assume are straight guys who really like war and guns and war movies with guns! so it is always nice to find community here and there :^)
#asks#spoopinatur4l#and also drawings of anime girls in the trenches#but who am i to judge#i was so caught up in my little circle of gay 1917 fans that i forgot the demographic for these sorts of things#there’s some stuff i don’t post on twit bc it’s very homosexual in nature and i don’t want to deal with ppl there#and also not on insta bc my entire family and a lot of my coworkers follow me there#tumblr is my last gay bastion#this is to say like 95% of the guys i’ve posted here are at least a little fruity#the homosexual implications of war and all that#ANYWAY thanks for the ask thank you gay ww1 enthusiasts i love you so dearly#i should also say that i rly appreciate ANYONE who looks at or likes my work i’m not trying to say that it’s a gay ppl only club#just that the shift in the type of ppl who looks at my work as it’s gotten more attention is a little novel to me#if u are someone who has enjoyed my work then i am kissing you directly on the mouth
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you mischaracterize kunikida so much did we watch the same anime
I don’t have to mischaracterize Kunikida, the anime does it for me lolz
But ah for serious, im curious on why u think I’m mischaracterizing him exactly?? (outside of like the meme art I’ve drawn, obvs thats all ooc cuz it’s supposed to be silly and not srs)
Bc if u think I’m mischaracterizing him Primarily bc he does not match how he’s portrayed in the anime pls look at/read ANY of the non anime versions of Kunikida. Anime Kunikida is VASTLY different than any other version of him
Not only is he cut out of many important scenes / emotional reactions of his are left out, but he is quite literally a different character with a different backstory due to the timeline of Dazais entrance exam being different - it’s quite interesting actually :>!
#I am aware I still probably mischaracterize him from canon manga/ln/extra content still but it’s probably not as extreme as u think#if ur judging it based on anime only#anime Kunikida is literaly a different character than manga/ln kunikid#kite answers#kite watches bsd#but yeah!! very open to talk if u think I’m srs doing something wrong lol#but aaa#ppl mischaracterize characters on the tumblr all the time#it happens *shrugs*#if ur referring to my last post that is official content :’) kunikida actually did all of that bc on some level he does care abt dazai’s-#well-being despite the anime cutting out everything that’d ever imply that -
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#EXCYSE ME#IMSK NORMAL ABOUT THUS#IF THIS AINT REAL LOVE I DONT KNOW#I WOULD DO THAY#I WANT TO SACRIFICE MYSELF FOR YOU AND THIS IS A SMALL THING TO SHOW IT#if i dont destroy myself for love im not actually in love#love is when looking at urself alone becomes painful bc youre not beside me#love is getting flashbacks of your hand in mine so vivid and painful#love is hating myself for being a human bc humans arent perfect and i wish i was perfect for u#love is loving myself every next day because you said you said you loved the soup i made you#love is judging myself and questioning my excistence when you tell me One thing but being my happiest self whan you say Another thing#my love is messy and strong large and hard but its real and its here even if yoh dont feel her presence#i hope u feel her presence when i look into your eyes and see everything when in some people i see nothinf#you make me feel everything i could ever feel and this makes it a rollercoaster#i hope u love a mess bc its sure i am one#poetry
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OK so I have an inkling of an idea for a trigun ficlet. A one-shot, really. Not really any plot, but I just have the urge to write my own interpretation of Weird Plant Shit. Like for how much ppl tag this stuff as xeno, most of it's honestly pretty tame. Which kinda makes sense, considering a lot of this is being based off of the plants in stampede, which While uncanny are not NEARLY the amount of inherent horror of the plants in the manga. There's some FREAKY shit going on there. So like. You know. What if I took more inspiration from That for Vash's freaky shit?
#speculation nation#YES this is for a smut idea. dont judge me#ive never posted smut b4 bc ive exclusively been writing akeshu & theyre teenagers#im not interested in writing smut of teenagers#but i have my interests 😭 and i am an undeniable monster fucker. we been knew.#just. vague idea. ppl have run with the plant idea. & id wanna too. but in a different sort of way.#thinking more. venus fly trap kind of situation. NOT easily translatable to human biology#the kinds of shit that may trip even the most adventurous man up. but we all know he would take it in stride in the end.#idfk so much of the allure of this pairing to me is the inherent inhuman nature of vash's physical form. and how that manifests everywhere#the human and the angel. for all that entails.#i dont have an idea for an actual story for these characters yet. my brain is spinning them but it hasnt come up with that yet#but a lil smth self indulgent to just play around with Fun Ideas? i reaaally wanna go for it.#we'll see if i end up writing this. & if i end up posting it.#im both somehow Very solidly kinky and VERY solidly shy about it. aka why i barely post about that kind of stuff.#face in my hands just talking about this here. who knows how i'd fare with posting it.#but if i go thru the trouble of writing it you BET id go thru the trouble of posting it#and you B E T itd be angsty. the inherent longing and unsaid words. what am i if not an unrepentant angst writer lol#thoughts & ideas r spinning. i will have a merry little time.#uhm. do i need to tag this as anything. is this too tmi? i dont even know#WELL if u read the word 'xeno' and keep reading that's on U. sorry#here just in case if ppl r worried i will tag this as#tmi/#sorry lol
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autistic person that cannot find satire funny vs. autistic person that can ONLY find satire funny.....
#tempted to make a poll about it bc i genuinely am curious#ive always felt shame abt that things i found funny bc i felt like it did Not Align with “”“typical”“”“ symptoms#but from my person experience when people exaggerate real life World Problems up to 11 to the point of becoming absurd i think its like.#if The Satire is Not Completely Absurd to the point where it doesnt matter whether its based on a real thing or not then its whatever#and if the satire doesnt even know what its trying to say then it goes from whatever to fucking dumb as shit#i think analyzing humor in general has always been smth ive felt the need to do as someone who constantly couldnt get jokes. the fun in it#is being able to analyze/dig into Why Certain Directions of humor can be funny as well as judging whether it works or not even if im not th#audience for it#anyway if u wanna know why im a hater about 80% of ''offensive'' shows to the point of not shutting up abt it. this is why
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