#blog notes

[whatbigotspost]

At my Tues trivia tradition w/ my friends this week, one of the questions asked us to produce the top 10 US based social media sites w/ the most daily active users.

Some other team put tumblr on their list and the quizmaster made fun of them for it and said, "wasn't it fun before tumblr died" and I said to my team, "yeah I'm not even a daily active user there anymore" and one friend audibly gasped because I've been tumblr girl to them for well over a decade.

So yeah, I guess this is my way of telling y'all I'm not tumblr girl anymore. As I've gotten my AuDHD assessment, I've uncovered some really unhealthy stuff I was doing and reducing phone time/news consumption has been critical for me.

For almost 2 months, I've took my "screen time" on this app from 4 hours a day to ~0 simply by deleting the app and only using desktop. It's meant I basically went from "always on" to checking like 1-3 times a week to see what's in my activity. I'm at a place where I don't really look at my dash anymore. Maybe like 15 mins a week? It wasn't even a process of like weaning myself more and more. I just kinda cold turkey-ed it w/ the app deleting. I was at what I'd say was a very unhealthy level of use (I got a reality check by starting to track screen time.)

Deleting this app didn't result in me shifting my phone time elsewhere, too. It basically means I went from like 6 hours phone time a day on average to 2. My partner of 22 years almost cried tears of joy when I told him I had done this. I was about 3 weeks in before I revealed it and he was like "OH MY GOD THAT'S WHAT HAS BEEN DIFFERENT" because that man has said more times that I can count how much he wished I wasn't on my phone so much missing out on stuff he's saying to me or life that's happening around me.

I love tumblr. Always will, it's change my life in infinite ways (just 1 relevant example: would I have known to go get an AuDHD assessment w/o it? FUCK NO) but I've just had to change my relationship w/ it for my own well being. Figured I may as well let y'all know that's what's up for me lately.

I don't plan to delete or anything. I'll just be slow to reply and infrequent to post now. It feels good.

[knightsbrig]

Moving On

I don’t have very many followers, so I feel kind of silly doing a post on this, but maybe it’s good to give a final update here.

I don’t usually like giving out information about my real life online, but I feel like my actions will make more sense with a bit of context.

I’m seventeen, by this fall of 2024 I would have been a senior in high school… if I hadn’t graduated a year early due to taking extra classes online. But I did graduate early.

And now it’s time for me to go to college. Choose a career. Take up responsibilities and become a real person.

I’m busier than I ever was before, and I feel almost sick with how many things I need to get done and prepare for. I feel like I’m outgrowing a lot of the things I used to do, like writing/reading fanfic and making aus and fanart. I know that adults can still enjoy those things, and there’s nothing *inherently* bad or childish about enjoying that stuff, and if you’re an adult who finds relaxation and community in fandom, there’s no problem with that. More power to you, honestly.

However, for me, fandom/fanfic is too linked with the ‘me’ that’s a kid. I cherish those memories, but they’re the past. I can’t afford to hold onto that anymore.

That said, I still enjoy the shows, and I’ll still keep up with them, but I feel weird being so invested in fandom now. It isn’t the same.

To everyone that liked the stuff I’ve made, you were the joy in my life for many years. From the bottom of my heart, thank you. And I’m sorry that I couldn’t deliver more.

I probably won’t post here ever again. Goodbye.

[hyperions-light]

PSA if y’all don’t wanna participate in/see the stuff where I ask abt ppls rooks (which is completely fine do not feel bad!) block “the rook introduction hour”

Will do my best to remember to put that tag on all of it!

[ap-zelda3]

It’s been awhile since I’ve last posted here and I got a few things to show but I’m trying to organize everything before the end of the year. I wanna make this blog as neat as possible, this is a note if you happen to stumble here: hi to one and all！. Hope your having a nice day and I wanna know do you got ocs you like to yap about?

[machveil]

hi, just a friendly reminder that my blog is 18+

my content might not be explicitly nsfw or 18+, but I’m open to posting and reblogging that sort of content so I’d prefer if there were no minors on my blog, thanks lol

[dirigibleplumbing]

I have 2 takes I'm gonna start posting about soon that some following me may not want to see or engage with. they are:

it's okay to still enjoy the Harry Potter books, just stop giving JKR money

and

Supernatural really isn't a "Christian" show, Chuck isn't the "Christian" god, and the assumption that are they are is a glaring example of cultural Christianity

please consider unfollowing me or blocking relevant tags if you don't want to see these posts.

good-faith comments and asks about these topics are welcome

[sivavakkiyar]

btw when I type in all caps you’re supposed to read it like Gilbert Gottfried. Or when I string the same syllable

[sword-that-shoots-lightning]

This is winter telling you that I can answer asks via doodle comics for the next hour.

[kiryuing]

[whatbigotspost]

If I was remaking this blog w/ a coherent theme again in 2023 (which I’m not) it would likely be something like “why didn’t anyone tell me?” and focus on all of the advice, healing, reparenting, career, life skills, relationships, surviving post-child abuse, becoming a self-caring adult stuff I so clearly like to write about 😂 Then talking about the evils of capitalism and pro social justice stuff would still fit the theme seamlessly.

But ya know, I got here in 2012 so “call out culture” felt good somehow. Here’s to evolving.

[wedarkacademia]

[beepboopappreciation]

Is this anything

[mindfulstudyquest]

gentle reminder you can rise up from everything. you can recreate yourself. nothing is permanent. you are not stuck. you have choices. you can think new thoughts. you can learn something new. you can create new habits. all that matters is that you decide today and never look back.

[spr0utsies]

[dirigibleplumbing]

I'm at my limit. goyische leftists on my dash refuse to learn about antisemitic microaggressions or even major forms of antisemitism. people I know in real life are on tumblr "unknowingly" repeating phrases that call for the extermination of all Jews.

I participate in brickspace pro-ceasefire pro-Palestinian activism to the best of my physical ability, and I'm fortunate that my brickspace allies generally know better than y'all, so I'm done engaging with any of this on tumblr.

I'm blocking and blacklisting tags and post contents involving Israel, Palestine, Holocaust, genocide, and more.