#breaking out of routine

[helenwhiteart-blog]

Are you becoming more aligned with yourself than you realised?

Has your year been really challenging in lots of ways….but….when you allow yourself to pull back and gain the overview, you can sense just how positively impactful and on track it has all really been? Can you sense how you have actually been getting much more in alignment with who you really are all along the way, if not always by the most predictable or tidy means? Can you sense that it has all…

[nightingaletrash]

I know we all get a giggle out of Dracula playing at being his own staff and running around the castle to do the work of a household by himself but a thought I had during today's entry was that it could be another tactic he uses to make Jonathan more vulnerable to his manipulation.

When the driver disappears, Jonathan is left waiting on the doorstep of the castle, waiting for the Count or a member of the staff to let him inside. All the while, he's stuck standing there in his thoughts, stranded in the mountains of a foreign country that are very much hazardous to him. There are wolves, strange blue flames, and an inescapable feeling of pure dread created by the foreboding scenery and general fear of the people around him. The whole journey to Castle Dracula, Jonathan felt afraid. And now he's alone with no way out, left with only his thoughts as he waits to be let into the 'safety' of the castle. He describes being crowded by his doubts and fears, wondering what on earth he's gotten himself into, but also how he can't turn back because he's a full-blown solicitor, and that this whole situation is starting to feel like a nightmare that he can't wake up from.

And then Dracula arrives, welcoming him inside and insisting on carrying his luggage for him, and Jonathan feels his doubts and fears melt away. Dracula - while strange to him in some ways and already arousing some suspicion with his resemblance to the Driver - immediately becomes a sort of safety from the nightmare. That long wait between the Driver's exit and Dracula's arrival generates an unease that can be taken advantage of.

In dogs, feelings of Fear leads to Seeking, Frustration and Rage behaviours. Whatever makes the Fear go away first becomes super reinforcing and the dog will go with what works: strange man with a big stick stops being scary if I bite him, then I'll bite faster the next time a similar threat appears. Going in my crate means the scary thing stays away from me, then I'll go in my crate when I feel scared. This person makes me feel safe? If a scary thing happens, I'll go to them and they'll either make sure the bad thing doesn't kill me or they'll tell me that I don't need to be scared.

In Jonathan's case, Dracula is the positive association. Scary place, scary circumstances, lots of doubt and fear? Well the Count I've come to visit has arrived to let me inside, away from the scary things, and is treating me to a lovely dinner while being very polite and courteous. I am no longer scared, therefore the Count is someone who makes me feel safe and therefore I am safe around him.

By letting Jonathan wait to be let into the castle and to engage in socialising, Dracula lets that fear build up. Lets it get to Jonathan just enough that he starts to feel it keenly before sweeping it away and becoming a point of refuge and safety. The only refuge and the only safety.

[see-arcane]

Arthur, normally: "I will reserve all my talking Specifically for one (1) scheduled guys night out to share ear-tingling stories. Not a word more or less for the next month."

Jack: "Seems about right for him."

Arthur, when Lucy is Not Well: [INSERT MORE THAN THREE LINES OF DIALOGUE HERE]

Jack, already packing his medical bag: "oh god oh fuck, that's too many Art words happening, something's wrong wrong"

[utahlive]

[yi3248]

ive already lived my life without you (is it okay to want you?)

the ghoap animatic that has occasionally haunted my files is finally done!!! (albeit with choppy timing lmao)

[pespillo]

they did say the easiest way thru a guy´s heart is thru the stomach

[memen18-m5r3]

new installment in my authleft lore saga ヾ(•ω•`)o this one's adding details to the things i've established in my previous posts so feel free to check them out for context (it's under "authleft family drama" tag now).

quick recap of what's going to be relevant here: the steel factory where all of authleft lives appeared long before any of them and as if by itself. this + the chthonic atmosphere of the workshops lead some to believe that this building is "alive". with its own will and needs.

Commie suspects Trotskyist of subversion and usurpation of production (how's that bad, you might ask? well, nobody knows what's gonna happen if production were to ever seize...and Commie's not risking it), and takes him out when no one's looking. Does it with a heavy heart, but believes it to be for the good of the family (or so he tells himself to better sleep at night).

There's no solid evidence, no go-to suspect (Trot wasn't popular with the rest of authleft for various reasons, at this point it could be anyone 'cept selected few), and no body. Therefore, the common story becomes that Trotskyist "disappeared" on the factory grounds. Naturally, Commie keeps quiet about his participation in this disappearance. Trot gets proclaimed dead after a while of him being MIA. It's a precedent that has never happened before so everyone's a little freaked out. Posadist searches under every pipe, but finds no trace of his father. It's at this moment when intrusive thoughts and voices turn more and more frequent for Posad. Gradually he is pushed towards the idea that it was the factory itself that ended Trotskyist.

This creates and fuels fear and paranoia regarding the factory's machines, and given that Posadist serves as a mechanic, he becomes unable to perform his duties. Which is a problem. Commie doesn't go straight for the kill this time as he finds Posadist more pliable, as well as less of a threat (and they need their mechanics). So, Commie tries to "fix" his nephew, but he doesn't know how to deal with this kind of situation and ends up making it worse, solidifying the delusions. Posadist reaches a point of breaking, where he starts to consider the factory an extraterrestrial technology or even a life form sent to Earth by a more advanced communist civilization. Not only does he fail to do his job, now he actively interferes with production.

Commie, in his final attempt to reason with Posadist, blurts out that he (Commie) is the one guilty of Trotskyist's death. This revelation comes too late, however, as it falls neatly into the conspiracy theory. Posadist calls his uncle an "alien accomplice", but he won't take him alive, for he himself almost got in touch with these alien creatures, and that he has something greater to offer them. Posadist hides in the factory's depths, and that's the last time he is seen in his "normal" form.

TL;DR: Commie kills his brother out of personal suspicions, then drives his nephew to psychosis with inept attempts at psychological help (and lying...lots and lots of lying). For the greater good tho!

[necrotic-nephilim]

as an apology for being gone for a month, have a uquiz i spent a week making! pls feel free to reblog with which character you got, i worked way too hard on this silly little thing. there are eight different characters you can get that are varying levels of unknown, with comic recommendations for each character <3

[thatweirdtranny]

why is finding the right skincare routine so impossible

[boopsloop363]

Invited all my friends up to San Antonio for the weekend at my cousin's. They all politely refused and blamed it on their schedules but they all seemed to shy away the moment I told em we'd be doing work on my cousin's house. I get it, who wants to work for free especially when you have zero experience in home improvement... but like, y'all are men lmao

[the-fiddlesticks-affair]

i'll say this though the 15 years later affair (and to a lesser extent the say UNCLE affair) did make me realize that i fucking loooove thinking about napoleon and illya Old. to be clear i dont think early 50s is That old but it shows such a promising start. if thats the way theyre acting right at the start of middle age it can only get better from here. also yes to say nothing of the fact that im a huge sap and i love when a) two characters Find each other again later in life and b) have History (for better and worse) together. i love when two guys sit around and reminisce about the good old days AND old wounds AND fret over how much time they feel theyve wasted AND get excited when they realize they have more time together than they thought they were ever going to get. im only human

[queer-omens-in-the-archives]

Can we have a second Tuesday this week because we spent most of this one basically unable to talk or text (barely capable of making any words) or do any hobbies (combination of: information/processing overload & wording incapability) and I want a refund.

[ghosts-and-blue-sweaters]

I am going to try writing… the last time I wrote Anything was sometime in early-ish December I think… starting again is quite intimidating and a bit scary. HOWEVER, posting about it on tumblr makes it feel a bit less intimidating and scary.

[wiiwheel]

drop the 3am skincare routine

I use a cleanser, then an hyaluronic acid gel, then a moisturiser in the evening. That's all from The Ordinary

In the morning I use a cerave cleanser and spf moisturiser

[autistic-katara]

I HAVE SOMETHING TO DO ON TUESDAYS AGAIN

[bassdaily]

i have a headcanon where the reason Bass is constantly trying to fight and defeat Megaman is because she is actually a tomboy girlfaliure who can't express her emotions in a healthy way.

To be fair, the reason Bass is constantly trying to fight and defeat Mega Man is because "failure who can't express emotions in a healthy way" is actually canon.

He's a pretty typical edgy shounen rival, being a girl would add some interesting flavor and depth. "Angry Kid who keeps bashing their head against the wall in a fight they'll never win because they're a born loser but are too hopelessly stubborn to ever quit" hits a little different when that angry kid is a macho chick trying to prove that she's just as capable as any [mega] man. The daddy issues transcend gender, the personality and character traits work equally well either way, the fact Bass is overpowered (as a playable character) but always loses to Mega Man (as a game boss) same... but the vibe changes when she's the only daughter in the villains' skull-shaped lair, trying to out compete her two hundred brothers.

What motivated Dr. Wily to make his knockoff Mega Man a girl? Is this public knowledge, and if not, does Rock know? Did things go left when she manipulated her way into Light Labs to steal plans for Wily and realized that if Dr. Light tried to do any repairs he'd find out How does Bass herself feel about any of this, or is she oblivious to anything gender identity related, since her only concern is "who is the strongest"?

(I like the idea. But it is of utmost importance to me that any version of girl!Bass- whether she was built that way or transitioned at some point- looks and acts exactly the same. That chest armor works just fine, no sculpted tiddy armor please.)

On a related note, when MMX and MM7 came out in the early '90's, and quite a few people mistook Zero as a lady. Mostly because of the hair, but the boob lights did not help. I always thought Zero would've been a more interesting character that way.