#consequences of my actions lol

[thefrontporchclubph]

It's funny...

Surprise, surprise - here I am once again looking at the consequences of my actions. Met a really decent dude. Kind of cute, really tall, has great body, has stable professional life, and is looking forward to settling down. Now here's the funny thing - I know for a god damn fact that I would never ever want to settle down i.e. have kids and get married. I made a vow to myself when I was 18 that I would never step into this kind of life that the straights would want me to get into. But WHY OH WHY do I always go for the guy who wants this kind of thing haha. I mean, I obviously know why. I can be such a manipulative bitch sometimes and I don't know what I want. I say that I don't wanna get married yet I go for the guy who wants to and is ready for a family. I say I don't want kids yet I fall flat on my knees when I find out the guy has paternal potential. Truthfully, I don't what I want and I don't know who I am at the moment. I'm tired of that. One thing that I can say I'm proud of about myself when that dude and I broke our communication off, was that I did not once apologize for my wants and for being myself. I didn't try to be a people pleaser around him, I was actually telling the truth about myself no matter how much shame it still held. For example, I told him my body count of 60. That's a lot for a 24-year-old. But not once did I say sorry about it nor defend me about it. it's so liberating, so freeing, such a relish to not be apologetic about yourself. To just tell the truth. To not care if the other person will like it or not. This is the beauty of it, I guess. But I digress, I take on the challenge of going for the guy who is obviously in a different stage in my life. I always seem to go big or go home but when things are going great, I become half-hearted about my decisions. This is what that quote was talking about "it takes practice to feel good, too." I go for that kind of guy because I may be bored, or maybe deep down I really do want those things and it makes me feel wanted & feel like the girl in the movies who's got it all - the man, the house, the job, etc. And then when things start to fall into place, I get uncomfortable. My brain's trained to feel uncomfortable the moment things start to be stable. Isn't that crazy? I've gotten a lot of practice being uncomfortable. But when feeling good takes its place, boy do I make the biggest mess and run from it. It does take practice to feel good and I should be devoted to that practice. Our brains are survival machines so obviously there will always be uncomfortable situations & crises we'll deal with. But feeling good? unwinding and not giving a fuck about the past or the future? Ah, that's even more liberating and freeing. I hope one day I free myself of the decisions I keep making about love and relationships. I hope someday I find what I truly want and need and that I finally know myself and rebuilt myself. I hope someday I get to ask myself, is this what you want? And say yes to it wholeheartedly and I hope someday I find someone who can say and feel the same. Oh, what a long time it'll be before that happens. And that's okay, I'm only 24. Love should be the last thing on my mind anyway but it doesn't hurt to always try what's out there, I guess.

[leafwateraddict]

Found some old sketches I had for @llamagoddessofficials Coraline au along with some headcanons I had for Dart and Patch (also stuffing.. gore?)

Ft. A sexy Dart because I saw a fancy looking corset and put him in it and instantly regretted it (along with some ideas for his button eyes)

Also other Mc/Thread along with some sentences i thought of if I ever ended up writing that drabble (which I probably wont- rip)

[iamacolor]

I'm afraid I might have stolen your joy and you might never get a chance to perform on stage because of me.

LOVELY RUNNER - EPISODE 11

[frogprinsen]

So in Season 1, during the intimate scene, we saw more than we need to because it was showcasing how we are invading their privacy by watching.

In Season 2, it faded to black after they closed the curtains because this moment is only for them and no one else should be able to watch them now.

Following this, I honestly expected that they wouldn’t have shown us more than they did in season 1 cause they did it before with a purpose BUT I WAS WRONG.

Now that I think about it, it’s completely fitting that they showed is these scenes explicitly and not just implied some of the things happening like in previous seasons. I thought it would’ve been for no reason to do so anymore but I completely went over the fact that this is how it is. THEY ARE PUBLIC NOW. Everything they do, there are people watching. They no longer have actual privacy, everyone will be able to see them and make comments and assumptions whether they want to or not.

And I think it’s just amazing how these intimate scenes are written based on the stages of their relationship.

[xiaq]

B, going to the climbing gym without me because I'm sickly: Goodbye, darling! Me: Bye! Don't let any vital, healthy, people flirt with you, okay? B: I won't; I'll say "Begone, wench, I have a diseased wife at home!" Me: Perfect, thank you.

[last-in-line-for-hell]

Persistent Memory

[buwheal]

We can't hear it Spam, but it's real to you. I get auditory hallucinations a lot, and usually what helps me is a distraction. Maybe... name 5 things you can see? Or make paper airplanes with old messages, or draw some pictures. Otherwise, I'm sure someone has a crossword or story they can send you to help you out!

[habken]

your art looks like that of a really cool indie comic i would read forever

thank you that is so nice :')) one day.. one day i'll be living my comic making dreams

[scentofpines]

have you ever considered...that identifying out of woman/girlhood because you don't relate to the societal implications, expectations, etc... contributes to making womanhood (feel) even more restrictive? maybe you feel better when thinking of yourself as anything but a girl/woman because you do not feel like a woman (what does that even mean?) but in my opinion you just added another brick into the prisonwall that is gender.

[isp-annafer]

I'd like to give Polites from Epic the Musical a formal apology because when I first heard Open Arms, it was so cheerful and optimistic and soothing my first thought after finishing the song was, "Oh, he is so doomed by the narrative. He's gonna die."

(And, fool that I was, despite all the warning signs, he became my favorite.)

[jtt-033-1613]

my mother when I asked if she “had ever heard of a show called the xfiles?” like she didn’t live through the 90s

[icantalk710]

Felt like such a sleepyhead yesterday, but hoping the blue blood is flowing today 🥱☕

[the-last-quest]

I’m sure everything is going to turn out fine :))

[autistic-daydreamer]

If I said I was writing a kotlc fic where Fitz ran away to the Forbidden Cities at some point that is after Legacy (undisclosed time of when after, still deciding) and ended up in Norway and it's angst, would yall be interested?

[nightlexi]

Who are you willing to lose? Mylo? Claggor? …Powder?

(still WIP)

As a Vi Truther I couldn’t NOT give her the goggles,,, might take longer to finish this now but it’s worth it…… right?

(also FFFFUCJKKK drawing the atlas gauntlet????? The geometry breaks my brain)

:D consequences of my actions

[laufire]

me, at any given time, reading comics: the writers should've killed that child.

me, a hypocrite, (re)reading "a death in the family": but not that one 😢