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happylilsheep · 2 years ago
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but i will eventually
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thediktatortot · 2 months ago
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ozymoron · 1 year ago
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hate when im reminded im actually talented and that most people cant draw the kind of shit i can draw and that its actually kinda incredible i can do what i can do and that im just so used to being in art spaces that i forget its a genuine skill most people dont have
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ambersky0319 · 1 year ago
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I have at least 5-10 and I have not reached true perfection ever
Dw about reaching true perfection! It's not a requirement, the game doesn't end after reaching perfection, and if you want you can always go back and play the farm again later. You don't need to delete old farms to make new ones so you'll always be able to return to your previous farms if you decide you wanna further your progress
Also, as a reassurance: there's really no right way to play this game. You can take literally dozens of years in game to reach perfection or even complete the community center and you'll still be playing as correctly as someone who minmaxes or speedruns.
And! Since this was your first farm! Obviously you're gonna look back and think of all the things you could have done differently. And the beauty of this game is that you can make a new farm and implement everything you now want to do instead, while still being able to look back fondly on your first playthrough.
okay so any stardew valley players, how many farms do you have and how many of them are at true perfection? because I'm on my first playthrough and usually with first playthroughs, I feel obligated to reach perfection with my first farm/first character/etc... but I'm super tempted to start a new farm because I feel like I wasted a lot of time in my first two or so years when I could've spent it like,,,, making money/food/fishing/etc and for some reason I feel guilty about it, even though I know this is a game you can take at your own pace. does that make sense??
I guess I just kinda need reassurance that not every farm needs to reach true perfection before starting a new one 💀 I feel like I didn't manage my time quite right and that I rushed the wrong things due to stress and obv being new to the game/new to farming games in general lol,,
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fuctacles · 2 months ago
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The concert goes great, even if they stay in the sidelines. Wayne doesn't want to get trampled by the crowd and despite urging Steve to go have fun without him, he insists he can hear the music just fine. At some point, he nudges Wayne's shoulder while shimmying with the music and the man joins his awkward wiggling with a roll of his eyes. 
There's an after party in the nearest bar, concert goers filing out of one venue to another in an unspoken agreement, and Steve only needs to send Wayne one raised eyebrow for them to join. 
"We can sleep in the car, you know?" Steve yells to close to his ear when Wayne orders a black coffee. 
The man shakes his head. 
"Maybe you can! My old bones might not survive it!" 
Steve frowns, but he insists it's okay. He invited him expecting to be the designated driver, and Steve should let loose with a drink or two. 
Talking is hard, over the loud music and chatter surrounding them, but they discuss the concert itself and other bands that might be cool to see live. After Steve slams the second empty glass down on the counter, he gently grabs Wayne's elbow. 
"Wanna dance?" he asks loudly over the music.
Wayne takes a cursory look around, feeling responsible for Steve's safety. The establishment is either a progressive one or people are too drunk to care, because he sees a few same-sex pairs on the dancefloor. So he nods and lets Steve pull him into a dance. 
He expects friendly bopping in each other's orbit, but as the song changes, Steve's hands find his shoulders. Wayne instinctively reaches out, palms hovering around his hips with hesitance. As the younger man tries to bridge the gap between them, he has to grab him to stop him, but it only seems to spur Steve on. His hips buck as the grip tightens, making Wayne curse under his breath.
"Jesus Christ, kid. Stop."
Steve deflates, the coils of his muscles relaxing with defeat.
"Sorry."
Wayne shakes his head. 
"Let's get out of here."
They are sharing a bottle of water, leaned against Wayne's truck, when Steve says it again.
"Sorry, I thought..."
"I told Eddie I wouldn't."
Steve frowns. 
"What?"
 Wayne struggles to light up his cigarette, so Steve reaches out to shield the flame for him. 
"Thanks," he says around the filter, and takes a drag. "Told Eddie I won't sleep with any of his friends." He doesn't look at Steve, choosing to wait for his reaction instead. 
"That's a bold assumption, old man."
It's an embarrassing thing, to reject and be rejected, so of course he jokes, they could both use the laugh. So Wayne looks down at him.
"Right, I would reach my death bed before I could peel off those jeans," he shoots back, and Steve grins, some of the cockiness and confidence back.
"You've noticed," he preens. 
"Hard not to," Wayne murmurs around his cigarette. When Steve reaches out, he shares it without a thought.. 
"So, you do this often?" he asks, puffing out smoke.
Wayne snorts, and Steve sends him a confused look.
"Sorry, Eddie asked the same thing. No, I don't make a habit of hanging out with young men. Boys."
Steve is quiet for a moment, before piping up. 
"So I'm special."
Wayne rolls his eyes. 
"I can see why you're friends with Eddie. Yes, Steve, you are. You have this stray dog thing  going on that makes me want to give you shelter and food. Kind of like Eddie, actually."
Steve makes a face. 
"Don't compare me to Eddie after I wanted to get in your pants."
The man smiles crookedly, not unlike his nephew.
"Would be easier than yours."
"Well..." As his eyes trail down, Wayne snaps his fingers in his face.
"Don't even think about it, kid."
carry on
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batmanisagatewaydrug · 1 month ago
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tl;dr: how do i become ok with my partner using porn? do i have to become ok with it?
detail/context: i am in a LDR. im demisexual, my partner is allosexual.
i thought i was ok with porn use at first, but about a year into the relationship i realized it bothers me a lot. i feel like im not enough, and i really dont know how i could ever be better than the limitless amount of content on the internet. it felt especially bad after my partner mentioned that they would probably continue to use porn even when we close the distance and live together. i tried my best to make peace with it, but found myself crying like 3x the usual amount, so i talked to my partner about. i already felt guilty, because i told them i dont care about porn use before, and now i suddenly was not cool with it. i felt like i was deceiving them. but my partner was very understanding and said they will stop using porn because they care more about me than any of that. which is great and very sweet of them! its been a few months and they told me that while they miss porn somewhat, its not really a big deal.
except now, several months later, i keep feeling like im taking something from them. i feel im being unreasonable and abusive and selfish. like, all the other progressive people are totally cool with it. so why is it so hard for me? what the fuck do i do.
some other relevant bits: i dont look at porn myself bc it generally speaking does nothing for me. me and my partner still masturbate, mostly to each other's nudes. i told them i dont care if the fantasize about whatever they want, but in their words, they cant really masturbate without some sort of visual input. they have some rather extreme kinks they dont want to involve me in even in imagination, so thats what they mostly used porn for, and also the main thing that makes me feel like im taking something away from them.
hi anon,
god okay there's a lot of meat on this question, let's do this.
first thing's first, because this is important: this is not abusive behavior. stop that. asking your partner to stop doing something that makes you feel stressed and upset is not what abuse it. that's called "being a human person with feelings and wants" and it's not illegal.
okay, so, second: do you need to be okay with your partner using porn? I mean, no. you don't have to be okay with anything, technically. your boundaries can be whatever you want them to be. but given the distress you're still feeling even though your partner has fully acquiesced to the thing you asked for and, frankly, sounds pretty fine with it, there's clearly some lingering dissatisfaction on your end. you wouldn't be here if the situation was as simple as "asked my partner not to use porn anymore, they don't, all is well, thumbs up emoji."
so that brings us to your first question, which is how you, sweet anon, can learn to be okay with this. I'm going to tell you straight up: I don't have a singular hard answer to that. I don't know you, I don't know your brain and the specific emotional baggage you bring to this, everyone is different, etc etc. but like. let's talk about it.
here's the thing: me personally, I don't understand why people are bothered by their partners enjoying porn. like, I get it in theory, especially when it's a situation where you're describing where you feel you're being negatively compared. and don't get me wrong, I've definitely worked with some people with real shithead partners who explicitly WERE comparing them to actors in porn, saying they wished they looked more like the actors, etc. and that absolutely is uncool, we do not condone.
but in general, to me, it kind of feels like this: suppose you're a cook, right? you're a great cook, you love to do it. and nothing makes you happier than making a big delicious meal for you and your beloved partner to share together. and they like eating your food! of course they do! you prepare it with love and you know all of their favorite things.
they're still going to want oreos sometimes.
and that's not a slight on you. it's not that you're cooking is worse than oreos. it's not that you're failing to make them happy and there's a gaping hole in their soul that only an oreo can fill. it's not that they're sitting with you at the dining table eating your delicious homemade meals thinking "goddamn, I wish this was just a plate full of oreos." it's just that, you know, oreos are yummy and sometimes they really hit the spot. you can like two things without either of those things negating or diminishing the other.
and I'm, like, absolutely not under the impression that a dinky oreos metaphor is going to totally change how you feel about this. I want to be so clear that I don't think you're being, like, heinous or unreasonable or anything. you're feeling a very real distress, and I have to imagine that it's exacerbated by the fact that you and your partner are long distance and you might feel like you're failing to show up for them in a lot of ways, including sexually. that's a very normal reason to feel insecure! a lot of people do! long distance relationships seem really hard! and I think realistically the only way through this discomfort, if you do want to go through the discomfort, is to really zero in on what's making you feel uncomfortable and insecure about your partner jacking it to something other than you, and honestly talk them about the areas where you're feeling like something may be lacking and find ways to mutually reassure each other that everything's cool. you know, get that reassurance that they do in fact love and enjoy your delicious meals and that the oreos don't negate that.
lastly, and I cannot emphasize this enough, it's fine if your partner watching porn never feels super comfortable for you. you're allowed to ask your partner not to do things! if they really hate it they need to say something about it! idk it can be very admirable to want to change your view on things but also most people have some stuff that's just always going to feel like a boundary they don't want to compromise and that's Fine.
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aphrodicci · 8 months ago
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[I AM FOLLOWING AYESHA K.FAINES RESEARCH OF FEMININE ARCHETYPES]
↳ the sexual feminine archetype of the huntress archetype.
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♇ when your percentage of the lover percentage is lower than 70%. and when your personal score matches with your percentage goddess the most. [your lover archetype is dominant and the huntress archetype is the second dominant too].
♇ the bohemian is one of the sexual feminine archetypes that belong to the feminine archetype the huntress, whereas the other sexual feminine archetype is the coquette.
♇ women who belong to the bohemian archetype are very enticing women, women who like to be careless and are usually gone with the wind. they're independent and like to achieve goals they set for themselves.
♇ they dont really care about how people think of them, and they're the type to not care about the opinion of others. their lovers always try and please them and achieve the bohemian women's expectations. they're the type to have lovers drop everything for them.
♇ they are creative and like to seek things that please them, they don't like to listen to what other people tell them, and while this can be an admiring trait of someone, it can sometimes make them someone hard to work with as they're someone who is hard to find common ground with.
♇ though when they're developed, they can be very adaptable and can go with the flow. other people could consider them as down to earth, and people who don't like to remain inside.
♇ they're confident and whenever women are confident, there's a lot of men who would want to humble them, people in general, so bohemian women usually get into contact with people who attempt to compete with them.
♇ sometimes they can be cut off to their emotional core and vulnerabilities, but sometimes they can be difficult to relate to because if their ego is high, they like to separate themselves from everyone like, "i'm so different than you". for example, blake lively.
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♇ she has gotten critique because of her not being relatable to the audience, but i dont think that should be something she should get hate for. though other things added onto her controversy, her being someone who isnt "pleasant" to interview, and someone who likes to flaunt her status and association with other people to make the difference of her status evident to those around her.
♇ besides from blake lively, people who have the bohemian archetype can be easily distracted if they're underdeveloped and do have the potential of being in infidelity controversy.
♇ bohemian women are very charming women, and like to be one with nature, they usually exhibit very hippie and mysterious characters. from the many interviews i have watched, i've noted that many of them are very progressive people.
♇ and i've noted a lot of bohemians have wild hair, not in a bad way, it's like the natural messy but charming hair.
♇ due to their regal attitude, bohemians are usually found intimidating, but this can also be because they're easily annoyed. most of them have hearty laughters which can sometimes be found as obnoxious. they're expressive with their bodies, use their hands a lot when speaking.
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♇ compared to most archetypes i have written about, it's the bohemians that can do without a partner. people are usually curious about their romantic lives.
♇ they're very divine people and get complimented a lot, their roots and their culture is something that is very important to them, and i realised that a lot of people have a very earthy colour palette and like very flowy clothing.
♇ they're usually creative, most of them tend be musicians or actresses. and when they speak or sing they have really sultry voices. most bohemians especially evolved ones, are very humble people.
♇ when they're young, they go through many phases, like angelina jolie, for a moment she was the other archetype of the huntress which was the coquette, but now she embodies the developed bohemian.
♇ they are honest, love to experience the world and learn for their surroundings. most bohemians are happy around children and are very natural around them. they feel like they can be their true selves around the youth. their identity is very important to them.
♇ those who belong to the bohemian archetype can be very intimate, especially when conversing with other people. the type to hold intense eye contact and make other people nervous.
♇ they like to engage with the people around them and can be very straight-forward. when they go for artistic pursuit, they are very embraced for what they do. and because of that, they like to give back to the people who support them.
♇ they know how to give a good performance, and have to sides to themselves, they can be loud and outgoing but they also know when and how to be classy.
♇ most of the bohemians i've researched are also excellent dancers, or just like to move their bodies.
♇ they tend to fall into much controversy with people who insult them, whether it be people in the industry or the audience; when they're in a relationship their lovers do become very intense and obsessive about them. and when they do get into relationships they usually go for partners who are in the same industry as them.
bohemian women are usually the lead women in entertainment, whether it be the most known actress in the show, blake lively, or the main vocalist, stevie nicks.
underdeveloped bohemians can be over-bearing, they don't know how to engage in conversations without making it about themselves, or something the conversation had nothing to do about.
overall, they're very well-spoken and put thought into everything they say or do.
people want to be around them, they are considered the "cool girl" in their group, and what makes them more popular is when they speak about the other popular people they're associated with. when they're the cool girl, they either naturally embody or it can force other people to perceive them that way which makes them appear as more over-bearing.
when developed, they like to separate fame and their normal life, and this is when they're their down to earth versions. they can be the life of the party and very humorous, they try not to take everything seriously.
bohemian women tend to be very athletic as well, even if bohemians are more on the earthy side, there's this fire they have to them, they love to laugh a lot and make sure other people feel or behave the same way.
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bohemians i put above are lisa bonet, ava gardner, eartha kitt, tina turner, eliana kalogeras and willow smith.
understanding the bohemian archetype, i see that they are very graceful people, people who are connected to their craft and are usually the kind and understanding one in their group.
♇ and to make the bohemian archetype easier to comprehend i gathered characters from different tv shows or films that come under the archetype.
♇ from gossip girl - serena van der woodsen, she's an evident bohemian, the type that is gone with the wind and is portrayed as the "nicer" character compared to her and blair waldorf. she is the type of character that gets the most attention in the show and even real life. she is considered as the character that is down to earth and engaging with other people that makes her more approachable to other characters.
♇ from the vampire diaries ⟶ hayley marshall, especially in the beginning, perhaps she embodied both the coquette and the bohemian. yet when she was introduced to the show, her type cast was to be the cool girl that was straight forward and didnt like drama. hayley marshall embodied the mysterious essence bohemians usually carried.
♇ from teen wolf ⟶ allison argent, compared to lydia, allison was supposed to portray the character that was the kinder and more approachable character. she was very natural and was very proud of her roots of being a hunter. but because she didnt like to follow the rule of hunting werewolves all the time, she turned to a rebel and made her own morals that the rest of the hunters followed.
♇ from daisy jones and the six ⟶ daisy jones herself. she was the very free "im just a girl" version of the bohemian. she was practically stevie nicks if she was in a show, [and im pretty sure her character and the show was inspired by the band]. she didnt listen to what other people told her to do and followed her own life. and sometimes she was hard to reason with which sometimes made her overbearing.
♇ we have game of thrones ⟶ margaery tyrell, she was clearly supposed to be the "kinder" queen compared to cersei. she liked to make people around her comfortable, like sansa and the small folk from the kingdom. she wanted them to see her as someone who is relatable and down to earth, and she was someone who easily tamed the men around her.
♇ we have 90210 ⟶ annie wilson, she was another serena van der woodsen "im just a girl" archetype. like most under developed bohemians, annie was someone who could be clumsy with situations she never needed to involve herself in. and sometimes she could be considered as someone who was a "pick me" with how much she wanted to be deemed as the cool girl.
♇ we have resident evil ⟶ claire redfield, the moment she arrived in resident evil two, she was the cool girl riding the motor cycle, the helpful character that flirts and empathises with sherry, who she finds looking for her mother. she is connected to the child and wants to protect her.
♇ we have from the vampire diaries ⟶ caroline forbes, she had a lot of phases, but in the end, especially when she becomes the vampire, she is considered by the "less annoying vampire" by the audience. even though elena gilbert is kind herself, she is more of the maiden archetype. caroline is someone who becomes down to earth, helpful to other people in the show and is always willing to lend an ear to those who need it.
♇ you series ⟶ guinevere beck, she can be considered both a maiden and a bohemian with how unaware of her surroundings she was. though to joe, she embodied the "not like other girls" persona which had him interested in her.
♇ until dawn ⟶ sam giddings, she was the athletic type of bohemian, and compared to all of the characters particularly the woman in the game, she was the kindest and most endearing one. she saw the flaw the other characters had when they pranked hannah, and was actually the one who wanted to stop it, but she was too late. she easily learned from her surroundings and was sympathetic to the animals in the game, especially the ones chris thought of harming.
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♇ as i have done my research, i gathered that a lot of bohemians are are likely going to have capricorn, leo, cancer and sagittarius; in order of how much they appeared. this gives them the out-going but engaging characters.
♇ they are also going to have sagittarius, capricorn and gemini appear in their dominant signs; in order of how much they appeared. this gives them the wise but go with the flow personality type. being the type of people who learn as they interact with the world.
♇ the planets sun, venus and mars appeared in their dominant planets the most; in order of how much they appeared. this gives them the happy, understanding and engaging personality traits, someone who makes most people comfortable around them, and the mars points to them being very athletic.
♇ the element that appeared the most was fire, and this highlights their passionate side, one that does not listen to other people and interact with the world how they want.
♇ lastly, when it comes to the modality, what appeared the most was mutable, and this could direct to why they can be people who are creatively gifted, and to why they can be very empathetic to others, they usually put themselves in the shoes of other people.
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tranquilreign · 1 month ago
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hi! i dont know if ure accepting request atm, but its something thats been on my mind, so i wanna let it out
how abt tae and reader, who promised each other that they will marry each other at 28 when they were kids, and now they're 28, def single, and im thinking of idiots who dont realize they're feelings with each other even their own feelings until this topic comes out one day, and boom, idk, do ur magic
sorry if this was too specific, and thank u in advance!! sorry for my bad english, i've gone through ur masterlist and its so so good!! hope u have a good day, today, tomorrow, and for more days to come 🫶🏻 love yaa 🤍
when we're twenty-eight | requested oneshot
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pairing; taehyung/reader genre: fluff, childhood friends to lovers au! warnings: swearing, self-doubt, slight pining word count: 2.2k synopsis: you and taehyung promised each other that you would get married at twenty-eight if you were still single. well, you're both now twenty-eight and single. the only thing is, you claim you’ve both forgotten, but feelings are still there.
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You had begun to lose hope in your capabilities of the progression of your life when the first couple in your friend group announced their marriage, at the right age of nineteen. And you weren't the only one. You had a large friend group that always planned to go out to karaoke or Korean barbeque.
The friend group had originally started with you and your childhood best friend, Taehyung. It expanded over time due to the friends you made in your separate classes in high school. Even in college, a surprisingly large number of you ended up there, having sadly lost touch with the ones who separated from you.
But now here you were, twenty-eight years old, sitting on the couch at one of your friends' houses, who were celebrating the future arrival of their third baby.
Taehyung sat next to you, bouncing his leg to the beat of the music, arm slung over the back of the couch casually. You were leaning against him, lost in your own thoughts of how you had progressed in life.
"You're doing it again," Taehyung's deep, silk-like voice whispered into your ear, his hot breath fanning against your neck.
You hummed, not having heard what he said. You absentmindedly played with a strand of your hair, letting it curl and fall through your fingertips.
A sharp poke to your side makes you jump. You turned to glare at your best friend, who held your gaze. His chocolate eyes held mischief, stoic expression forming into a smug look.
"What was that for?" you pouted, rubbing your side.
Taehyung tilted his head, a single eyebrow raised. His dark hair fell over his eyes with his movement, which you casually pushed out of the way with your fingers.
"You weren't listening to me," he responded.
His arm moved from the back of the couch to your shoulder, pulling you in closer. His breathing was steady, and both of you looked at one another in silence. Taehyung moved forward, his nose pressing against your forehead.
"You can't keep comparing your life to our friends."
Taehyung could always read you. He knew everything about you, when you were unhappy or nervous. He was quick to be by your side, comforting you or supporting you with whatever decision was made.
"It's hard not to when everyone is getting married or having their, like twentieth kid," you whined, pulling away from him.
Taehyung hummed at your saddened expression, patting you on the head soothingly. Pulling you back into him, he gave you a tight squeeze, rocking both of you back and forward.
"Ew. Can you two stop being so gross?"
You both turned, looking at Jungkook. He looked at you with distaste, pretending to gag at your cuddling. You shifted out of Taehyung's arms and smacked the younger boy on the back of the head.
"Ow! What the hell!" he pouted.
Taehyung chuckled, sitting up in his seat and leaning forward to look at his friend.
"You're just jealous you don't have a friendship like me and Y/n," Taehyung taunted playfully. Jungkook snorted.
"The only thing I'm jealous about is that you get to feel Y/n's breasts-"
"Okay! That's enough," Seokjin interjected, placing his hand over Jungkook's face and pushing him away so he lay back on the couch. Jungkook struggled against Seokjin's grip, eventually pushing his hand away, exhaling dramatically.
"I could have died, Seokjin!" Jungkook scowled.
"Please, if anything, you're nose is slightly flatter now," Seokjin waved him off.
The older man's gaze shifted to you and Taehyung, both of you stifling your laughs.
"Kook does have a point, though," Seokjin continued, stopping your laughter. "His implication of 'can you two stop being so gross' means stop acting like a cute couple."
You choked on your own saliva at his comment, coughing loudly, hunching over. Taehyung rubbed your back, patting it every now and then to help.
"Excuse me?" you coughed out, looking between the two men.
"You guys act more like a couple than most of the couples in our group," Jungkook pointed out, raising his eyebrows.
"Which brings me to my second point. Didn't you guys say when you were kids, you'd agree to marry if you were both single by twenty-eight?" Seokjin questioned.
"I completely forgot about that," Taehyung mumbled.
"Yeah, me too," you confessed.
Though it was a lie. Both of you remembered, too scared to bring it up. You had pinky swore that you would marry one another at twenty-eight if you hadn't found someone else.
Neither of you realised, though, that you had been holding out for each other the whole time.
You couldn't think of anyone else you'd rather spend your life with than your best friend. He was there for you whenever you needed him, and when you fought, you would both admit your mistakes and make up.
You didn't know you had developed feelings for him until recently. Thinking that the butterflies that danced in your stomach when he'd show up unannounced, holding pizza and soft drinks, were normal. Something that just happened between friends who loved each other so dearly.
Or how he would hold you when you cried, often doubting yourself and feeling as though you were falling behind in life, in comparison to the rest of your friends.
Taehyung thought differently. Ever since you were kids, Taehyung knew he didn't want anyone else. All the late nights, calling, cuddling up to one another during movie marathons, and lying on the couch together in silence. It was peaceful. It was something Taehyung yearned for.
He wanted nothing more than to always be by your side. Waking up with you next to him, the sun rays shining through the cracks in the blinds and hitting your radiant skin. He couldn't help but let his mind wander to a future he could have with you. Yet, not knowing how you felt, he would never bring it up, scared he would drive you away.
"Well, looks like we're getting married, Tae," you beamed looking over your shoulder to him, eyes shining with excitement.
Taehyung's heart fluttered at the nickname. He had heard it a thousand times from his friends. But with you, it was always different. Your voice was always angelic to him, his name sounding perfect when it fell from your lips.
"It seems so, but at least let me propose properly," Taehyung teased.
You hummed, nodding in approval at his request. In that moment, Taehyung understood that when he proposed, he would finally confess his feelings. After all the years of yearning for you, he was determined to express himself. He wanted you to know that this marriage held significance for him, even if it didn’t mean the same for you. That was a promise he made to himself.
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Taehyung stood at your door, holding flowers for you, and in his pocket sat a small box, encasing a silver ring. He had dressed up for the occasion, palms sweaty as he waited for you to open the door.
You swung the door open, smiling brightly at your friend. He was wearing a beige suit, with the jacket slung over his right shoulder. He held a beautiful arrangement of lilacs and primroses, smiling shyly.
"Hi," you breathed, opening the door further.
You wore a simple sage dress, which stopped at your ankles. Cream open-toe heels complemented the dress, simple yet beautiful. Taehyung entered, handing you the flowers as he passed.
"Hey," he attempted to sound casual.
"Look at you," you teased, playing with his brown tie. "You tidy up nicely."
"Not too bad yourself," Taehyung shot back.
You pouted, but giggled. Moving into your kitchen, you had a vase prepared on the countertop. Removing the string that held the flowers together, you carefully placed each stem into the cool water one at a time, being careful not to ruin the display.
Taehyung waited, his heart racing, thinking of every possible way this could go. What if he confesses and you decide that marrying him is a bad idea? Or that you'll laugh at him.
The sweat in his palms worsened, and he ran his hand through his hair as his nerves increased. You returned at that moment, vase in hand. You placed it down onto the coffee table, beaming at him.
Taehyung's heart melted at the sight of you. You were simply breathtaking. Your smile, your eyes, everything about you was perfect. He coughed, then proceeded to pull his trouser leg up slightly and get down on one knee.
You played along, feigning a gasp. You laughed, watching as he took your hands in his. Taehyung's face suddenly became serious, which you took notice of immediately.
Your expression softened, and you gently ran your hand through his hair comfortingly. You had no clue what had suddenly made him so serious; it confused you.
"We don't need to do the big theatrics, Tae," you soothed.
"I want to. I need to," Taehyung breathed.
You stood, waiting for him to continue.
"Y/n. I understand that if I say this, it could quite possibly ruin our friendship forever. But I know if I don't do this, I will never forgive myself."
You grew worried at his words, quickly wanting to speak, but Taehyung held his hand up.
"Please. Just let me say what I need to say, then you can decide from there."
Taehyung paused, trying to calm his breathing. But he knew if he didn't speak now, he never would.
"Y/n, I have known you since we were five years old. Our friendship has meant everything to me, and it still means just as much. But I must confess..."
You waited, but he didn't say anything. Kneeling down to his height, you lifted his head so he would look at you. Tears ran down his face, making your heart break. You caressed his cheeks, wiping his tears away and giving him a reassuring smile. Taehyung let out a shaky breath.
"I have loved you from the day we first met. I knew I didn't want anyone but you to be by my side, to be my forever."
You moved to sit down cross-legged, stunned. You watched him with wide eyes as he sniffled, before continuing.
"When we made this deal, to marry if we were both still single, I made sure I wouldn't be with anyone, because waiting for you, no matter how long... I know it will be worth every second of the future we would have together."
You began to cry at his confession. You couldn't understand how it had taken you so long to realise his feelings. You felt guilty for having made him wait all these years, so that the only time he felt as if he could properly confess was during a deal you made when you were five.
"I want nothing more than for you to be happy, Y/n. And I want to be the man in your life who provides you with that happiness. I want to be able to hold you when you're sad. Kiss you when you need reassurance. You are all I want, and all I could ever want, no one else but you."
Taehyung felt as if he could finally breathe, eyes downcast to the floor. He did not dare look at you, scared of your reaction. Silently, you wiped away your tears and stood up. He sighed, knowing he had now ruined everything.
"Well, are you going to propose or not?"
Taehyung looked up at you, shock evident. Your eyes were glassy with tears, but you smiled. He mimicked your expression, reaching into his pocket and pulling out the small black velvet box.
"Y/n. Will you do the honour of being my wife?"
"Fucking hell, yes," you choked out.
Taehyung stood pulling you in to him by the waist, not wasting a moment to press his lips against yours. It was soft and gentle, but it had so much love and passion.
You both laughed into the kiss, tears still continuing to roll down as you embraced each other. Pulling away, you rested your head against him. He hummed lightly, the vibrations in his chest relaxing you.
"I love you, too, Tae. I always have," you confessed.
"Well, now we must feel really stupid having waited twenty-three years," Taehyung joked.
You laughed, looking up into his eyes, which held so much love.
"It's alright, we'll have plenty of time to make up for those lost years."
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ahhhh!! thank you so much for requesting this! I felt if I wrote too much about their obliviousness, it would begin to be a bit familiar to the jungkook one I wrote.
i really hope you enjoyed and I also hope this is along the lines that you were looking for! I did want to make this a little shorter as I tend to go off rambling! so I do hope this has been to your liking!!
and honey, please don't apologise for your english, it's perfect! better than me I must say, I can barely function as it is haha <3
i do also want to apologise for not uploading over the weekend, I was away at a wedding so I was away from my pc!
if you've made it this far please take a look at my other works. or you're interested in making a request please look at the links below!
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the-s1lly-corner · 8 months ago
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Can we have some feral EJ x Reader where EJ thinks of reader as a mate/partner and is super protective/possessive of them
Protective!Eyeless Jack x Reader
chat we are getting freaky with this one/j love the idea of jack progressively becoming more monster like and stuff with time something something human morphing into something else trope my beloved notes: reader is gn, leaning into the monstrous side of jack for this one, implied that hes more deteriorated than how i normally write him, established relationship, reader is aware of jacks deterioration cws: canon typical violence and gore, jack keeps an eye on you and that can be labeled as light stalking, jack is kind of deteriorating compared to how hes usually written
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even if you dont see him, hes going to be following you from behind to make sure you get home safely without anyone giving you any trouble... its actually a little nice once you get used to it, knowing you dont need to worry about someone else lurking in the darkness
of course and thats assuming he doesnt step out of the shadows to actually walk by your side
the second anyone even poses any threat to you theyre getting ran down, theres not really any exception to it
you notice yourself that he goes from trying to appear visibly intimidating to outright inflicting harm onto someone who makes you feel uncomfortable or unsafe
sometimes you may even consider his actions too far for the situation. and to that he says that he doesnt want to take any risks when it comes to you
the only food that really goes to waste, the idea of eating someone who wished you ill will makes his guts churn
a lot of internal conflict for him... on one hand he knows that its only a matter of time before he hurts you himself thanks to his instability and blood lust.... but on the other hand hes grown so fond of you that he cant bear the thought of you leaving
hes not very physically affectionate but he does like knowing where you are at all times if he can, as well as having a means to get to you
when he is physical he holds you closer and firmer than before... teeth clenched close to your ear as he mutters about how youre both made for each other and that hes never going to leave your side
if you dont show up to his place at least for a little while for a bit hes going to go out looking for you, and hes not going to stop until he figures out where you are and why you havent come to him
hell he might even take it upon himself to move in with you if you let him... something he wouldnt usually consider
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thestalkerbunny · 4 months ago
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Stalky's Live Direct React
It's mainly regarding Pokemon Z-A cause that's all I DEEPLY AND CARNALLY CARE ABOUT but let's get French
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New Trainer fits look cute; the male protag looks a LOT like Sycamore.
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ALL THE CHIKORITA HATERS CAN FUCKING HUFF MY DUFF, MY GIRL IS BACK, NOBODY TOUCH ME, THIS FUNKY LITTLE MANDRAKE DINOSAUR IS HOME. EVERYONE SUCK IT HARD.
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Why it look like he on an awkward lunch date?
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Now a new game changing mechanic: PARKOUR AND FALL DAMAGE /j
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Tf is you
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TF is YOU?
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Mega Evos are BACK Bay BEE
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LOOK OUT ITS A WELL DRESSED FRENCH WHITE WOMAN (With insignia possible new team boss?)
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I HAVE FOUND THE WEIRD OLD MAN I WILL BE HYPERFIXATING OVER, EVERYONE ELSE MAY LEAVE, ME AND THIS WEIRDO NEED TO BE ALONE.
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Wait....Wait is that the fucking GIANT from the last game.....
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Oh my God it fucking is, That's AZ.
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Someone getcha dog off the damn roof.
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Hottest take-I think the overall theme is going to be Progress Vs. Nature. Much like the Art movement of Art Deco Vs Art Nouveau; human design compared to natural design. As seen in the Z and A logo Straight rigid lines vs organic curves.
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NOTHING LIKE CHATTING WITH YOUR HOLOGRAM SON.
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Ah I love the scent of french trash in the air.
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One of these things is not like the other-one of these things is ANCIENT.
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Ah that's who you is.
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GOD HE'S SO FREAKISHLY TALL-FUCKING CROTCH HEIGHT TO HIM. Also HIGHLY cool choice to show him with a knee brace and a cane because in recorded history and science-WE ARE NOT MEANT TO BE THAT TALL and people who do reach that height often need disability aids to help.
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We gotta get her. She's a fucking CEO.
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I love that he just....has a hotel now. He's got old classic hotel vibes. Honestly-I really like it because if there's one thing I DONT like in design is ultra modernism where it's minimal with no colors or patterns. It actually irks me the heck off-I get pissed off walking into an apple store.
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Fucking gated communities.
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Ah...I don't think we'll be exploring the rest of Kalos and be primarily centered within the city itself. A tad bit disappointing, I was looking forward to returning to Laverre City to see what happened to the charcoal remains I left when I went there in XY and BURNT EVERYTHING TO ASH
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New game feature: YOU ARE NOW IN THE ATTACK RANGE, FUCKING BRACE YOURSELF IDIOT.
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THIS. THIS IS WHAT IM TALKING ABOUT FUCKING COMPANIES WITH FUCKING MINIMALIST DESIGN AND LOGOS AND SHIT PISS ME THE HELL RIGHT OFF.
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DETECTIVE? D--DETECTIVE?!??! -frantically climbs over chair- DETECTIVE??!?!?!?!?
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GET YOUR CRINGE ASS WORM OFF THE ROOF
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Ah I love when Pokemon comes out around my birthday. It makes me feel so SPECIAL like it's a unique little treat just for me.
I'm honestly rather excited, Having the entire game take place in a contained singular city is a new angle. We're very used to being thrown willy nilly out into the wild to rough it between god and sheer luck. But now it's Urban Exploration. Which I think can be a strong idea on how FAR Lumiose city has developed since we long last saw it.
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owlf45 · 2 years ago
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romance me with mosquito facts
mosquitoes, when in a condensed enough space, sound like gentle rain.
i work with a specific mosquito species, called the aedes agypti, which carries diseases like dengue virus, west niles virus, and yellow fever. the males are generally smaller than the females, though emerge into adults sooner. you can tell the difference between males and females by the fluffy antennas of the males.
gay mosquitoes everywhere.
mosquitoes tend to be social, if stupid creatures. if you stick two mosquitoes alone in a cage, they probably wont chill (and wont mate). it's just not their style. this is especially frustrating when trying to set up specific genetic crosses.
although i never met them, there used to be a researcher at the lab who did the most batshit stuff. we keep our mosquitoes in mesh cages, so they can't escape but they can feed through the mesh (so we don't have to reach in and out of the cages and potentially let some loose). this old researcher used to grab the morning newspaper, roll up his pants, collapse in a chair and settle his calves over the mesh cages for literal thousands of mosquitoes to feed from him. for hours. i want to meet this man so bad.
mosquitoes are stupid and annoying and prone to killing themselves akin to a goldfish constantly getting stuck in a filter. but strangely enough, you grow to love them. they are simultaneously fragile and durable, easily discernible and difficult to hunt. you can tear their hind legs off and put them through shock a few times and they'll be fine, but a single finger will smush them (quite inconveniently, when you know that bitch could've moved!).
directly after bloodfeeding a female mosquito, if you kill her—often by clapping her directly between your hands (female mosquitoes are the only ones to bloodfeed)—the blood will still be warm.
although i dont screen larvae for traits as often as I used to (I tend to do more database/mosquito caretaking work now), certain gene-linked traits can be found physically in the larvae and pupae stages—sometimes they glow bright blue/green under fluorescent lighting, for example.
like I said though, i mostly work with caretaking. i do the bloodfeeding, i replace their food and water, and i make sure they're in good health and can lay eggs on a proper surface. the mosquitoes under my care live for about a month and a half, though if they're still alive by the time we need to hatch the next generation, we simply fridge them and kill them off. put mosquitoes in the fridge for a few minutes and they'll go to sleep. put them in for a few hours, and they'll usually die— we keep them in for 24 hours to make sure, though.
mosquitoes are difficult to contain. compared to other biochemistry departments, you have tiny creatures that are mobile and can fly, and can't always be seen by the average person unless they're specifically looking for it. I've worked in microbiology labs before, but if there was contamination, it was solely on the researcher. contamination from a loose mosquito is hard to track. this is all to say that I work in a bunker—double doors, minimal vents, no windows.
mosquitoes are the deadliest animals in the world. mosquitoes kill over a million people a year (hence my research). i sit in the back of the bunker sometimes, in the side warm room where we keep our cages of mosquitoes, hundreds of different genetically modified lines in progress at a time, and I have blood on my palms— blood that I fed to my subjects before I squashed them because they escaped from their cages, and I think about the fact that for over 200 lines of this species, I grow them from eggs to adults to death and hatch their offspring again and again and again. i think of lovecraftian horror and I hear gentle rain and remember images of war that keep me up late at night, and I wonder what's the point, for a few numbers in my bank account, and then another mosquito has gotten loose and lands on my arm and doesn't bite me, because it's already full; because i already fed it; because it's just looking for a small, dark place to rest in the folds of my jacket.
mosquitoes love to hide on black surfaces.
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quirekey · 4 months ago
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Could I request yandere TFO Sentinel x a techno organic astronaut reader who accidentally crash landed onto Cybertron. (they have a translator inplant)
They really want to go home, surely Sentinel will help them....right?
Ooo you silly goof anon, you like a possesive and protective sentinel dont you >:D ALSO SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG!!
Disclaimer: Forced relationship, Kidnapping (?), Love against will
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[ SENTINEL PRIME ] x [ GN!READER ]
[ sentinel prime x human!gn!astronaut!reader ]
SUMMARY
You are a wealthy astronaut that has a miserable mental state. You never had anybody on your side so you decided to sign up for a fatal task, travel to Cybertron. When you start to land, a train from Iacon suddenly rams into your rocket and it drags you down into the city. Sentinel catches your rocket before you faint in fear. Sentinel and you have a ‘talk’ and Sentinel decides to keep you as his… [ part one! ]
Sorry if this isn’t the best summary, this is a pretty long fic compared to others!
FANFIC
You have been sent to a planet that has been recently discovered. You had a strong gut feeling that you were probably gonna die, but you didn’t have much to go back to. Your life was pretty miserable. You never really had many friends and your family never believed in your dream of becoming an astronaut. Sure, you were born with lots of smarts and you became extremely rich for it, but love over cash as they say.
You made your way, progressively getting closer and closer to this planet that you humans named “TRON CY-637” or as you called it “Cybertron” for short. This planet was planted far from Earth, forcing you to stay in the ship for a long period.
After a while of you dazing up at the walls, you have realised that the planet was within your range of sight. It was very strange looking. The planet was constantly moving and shape-shifting, it seemed somewhat robotic.
You landed and WHAAMM!! Your rocket-ship was suddenly knocked over by some sort of cyber-train, you think..? The train dragged you down into some sort of underground city and your rocket started plummeting down after the train made a sharp turn. You instantly went into fight mode, pulling the emergency lever and grabbing the needed equipment to protect yourself.
SWOOSH!! You suddenly stopped falling…? The gravity finally stabilises and you fall onto your bottom on the ship ever-so-suddenly. You slowly got up, the sight in front of you blurring and smudging into a pure black.
You slowly woke up, shifting on the harsh metal below you. You barely open your eyes, seeing blurred colours. Gold and grey? This wasn’t the ship… You launched up onto your feet immediately into a fighting stance. You were standing on some sort of very-oversized table. The walls were drenched in a shimmery gold, patterns traced in many crevasses. Everything around you was a sort of metal. You relaxed your shoulders but still had your fists clenched.
The silence was suddenly broken by some strong steps heading your way. Before you could act, a sentient being appeared from the corner of your eye. This thing was gigantic. His outward look screamed perfection with his shiny chassis and his seemingly confident posture. His smirk only proved your point. Your thoughts suddenly end at ‘a robot?’ As the sentient being speaks up.
“Heyy.. You're awake, eugh...”
You fixed your translating-implant that was on the side of your helmet and looked up with mixed fear and shock. Seemingly it was a guy or something judging by their voice. The human predictions of an alien were way off the chart because this is not a green humanoid, this was a robot!
”What even are you? You look so fleshy… Saw your puny ride fail and I kinda had to save you, don’t want the city to have any dents, ey?”
He suddenly started laughing, leaning forward and giving a cocky smile. The laugh sounded like those ‘rich-men laughters’ from the TV shows. You backed off and snarled slightly, you did not trust this bot one bit. His laugh slowly stopped and he got up, scoffing silently.
”Voice-box broken or something? Speak up.”
”.. What are you? What’s your name!?”
He widened their optics and placed a hand on their hip, tilting their posture. He placed a hand on their chassis to seemingly show themselves off and spoke up with a rich and powerful tone.
”I am Sentinel Prime, the ruler of Iacon city. I am the hero that will save all of Cybertron. You will bow before me, flesh.”
”No, tell me where I am now!”
You launched forward slightly in place, seemingly willing to start conflict. The bot looked down at you with disgust at your sudden burst and you backed off again, fearing him. He chuckled and leaned down to you as you stepped away, his face close to yours. His voice then dropped into a deep and somewhat possessive tone.
”… You will know your place. You will not lash out at me, you will always be under me and you will be mine. Got it?”
His finger gently raised your chin up, showing you his face. You have to admit, he is kinda hot, but you are probably gonna die. Sentinel then swept you off your feet and held you in his servo, staring you up and down. Your silly and puffy astronaut suit covered most of your body and this disappointed him, so he tried to take it off.
”HEY!! I need this to survive! I don’t think you guys have oxygen on this planet…”
”Ox-uh-geen…? No, I don’t think so. Fine, I’ll spare you then.”
”Thank y-“
”If you go to any-bot for help, if you try to escape and if you try to even love somebody else that isn’t me, I will rip your oxygen supply away from you. Clear?”
TO BE CONTINUED
Feel free to ask me for part 2 if you want more! This was pretty fun to write :)
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superscourge · 4 months ago
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I'm gonna quit drawing at this point, I'm behind everyone else and I'm not getting any better
thats no reason to quit!! if you quit then you wont be able to see yourself get better after all!! the only way to improve is to keep going, youll get better over time, its not an overnight thing or even something that happens over a couple years, its something youll be honing and improving on for a long long time. even the masters still push themselves to learn and grow with their art
you cant let "being behind everyone else" hold you back either.. comparing yourself to others is how you kill your motivation! so what if theres ppl better than you or learning faster than you? theyre NOT you. you are your own artist and you learn at your own pace and are at your own point in your own art journey. you cant hold yourself to the standard of other people because you are not other people. we're all different!! you gotta focus on YOUR journey and have fun with it in your own way, not worry about how others are doing theirs
like. to quote a certain youtuber: you think i came out the pussy drawing mozart??? LOL. nobody starts as a great artist or even a mediocre one. we all start from the bottom. sure some people click with art more easily or faster than others, but nobody's inherently Good at art--we all have to work to improve and get better.
just think--if you keep drawing and keep practicing and learning, you WILL get better, and youll be able to see it by comparing your current art at the time to your art from like a year ago, maybe even months ago! you WILL see results, but only if you keep going. so please dont give up bc other people are better than you. theres ALWAYS going to be someone better than you no matter how good you are, so dont even worry about that--worry about your own work and getting satisfied with it for yourself!
so ya pls dont quit, you will get better but you have to put in the work and give yourself time. if u look at ur fav artists' early works, i can almost guarantee u that their art looked wayyyyy worse when they started compared to how it looks now lol. dont think abt the progress you havent made and instead get excited about the progress you WILL make <3
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zucchichat · 2 years ago
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My opinion to "desperate" artists and TIPS TO IMPROVE YOUR ART
This is my art journey
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6 years later...
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If artists want support and followers, they should earn them by their own accomplishments and hard-work.
I hate it when they earn it from guilt-tripping others, being desperate and earn followers out of pity
You can never have a stable and healthy relationship with your followers that way, and you may get worse when you dont gain any interactions with them
Please stop doing this, and start growing your acc on your own. If you feel like your art doesnt appeal to others, start taking advice and study from other artists around you that you like. There are thousands of FREE resources on all platforms: Instagram, Youtube (recommended) , Pinterest (for reference) ,... And alot of separate websites you can find!
Trust me, hard work pays off
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Its okay to feel like you dont improve at all, but thats not true, if you study and practice often (no need to do it everyday, it can be 2-4 days a week) you're already better than yourself yesterday
Compare your art to other artists has alot of benefits since you can see what to improve and see the progress. But dont do that too often, it'll turn to be an unhealthy obsession and in this world where there're always people better than you, you'll suffocate yourself forever. Thats a hard hit to reality but it's the truth. In this i recommend:
Find artists that you like and set them as your art goals, they can be artists with totally different artstyles, art is never something stable and its always good to try new things
From your art goals, start "taking" some of your favourite things about the artists and "artistically" add them to your own.
Tracing is another way to study privately for beginners, but i dont recommend doing this for long, it can stagnant your progress if you rely on it too much.
Unless its your style of choice, practice confidence in your streaks and lines, use your whole arm to draw (i know it can be boring at first, but everything you do now will have a rewarding result)
Stepping out of your comfort zone sometimes. You dont have to do this if you consider art as a hobby, but if youre serious or wanting your art to take a new step, i recommend expanding your art to many categories, like drawing backgrounds, hands, poses, anatomy, ect.
Study color theory, this is optional but i heavily recommend, this makes your art UPGRADE NO EXCEPTIONS
Here are some of my very basic tips, you've probably seen them everywhere and hear these thousands of times already, but if you're reading this and feel motivated, consider this the start of your journey! This is gonna be an exciting, might be tiring and frustrating, but memorable
Goodluck! The future awaits new extremely talented artists to bloom💖
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quartergremlin · 11 months ago
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have you made comics about leo's brumation before? I dont remember that coming up before your most recent ask! did i miss smth? (also love this most recent story, really heartbreaking. he musta compared himself to his siblings so much :( )
-@hapfish
okay so i thought that i talked about it in the notes of the last comic but apparently my stupid jank phone did not save my edit like it told me it did! So uh. sorry about that. totally did not notice. 😔
other than that i alluded to it in this post, tho the event was much fluffier at the time.
i was referring to this stretch of the comic!
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At this point we're going on three years into trying for a kid with no progress, so the Hamato Medical Team smash their heads together to look for a solution! The uh *checks notes* yeah the number of eggs isnt the problem, so there's gotta be something else we can do. Enter: brumation.
Brumation is important for the reproductive health of turtles (here's an article that mentions it, but all sources that i've found are about that vague). So they crank the air conditioner in his cart and Leo spends that winter half-asleep and getting taken care of by yuichi, donnie, and shelldon. This does not work.
and thank you! It's been a long time coming, I'm happy it's been well-received.
Absolutely. Mikey with their little bundle of sunshine, and raph and cass trying and having a kid immediately. Hadt've hurt.
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cripplecharacters · 1 year ago
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hello! so, i currently have an oc in the works. i dont have much for his character yet, and hes kind of a blank slate at the moment, however, whilst trying to develop him i had the idea to give him a disability; its something i dont do with my characters very often, and i feel like it could give some depth and realism to his character. however, i..... dont know where to really start with it? i have the vague idea that i think id like him to have crutches, so some sort of leg disability, but just going off that its been hard for me to find any condition that feels quite right. im unsure about making him an amputee either; seemingly the "go to" for anyone who wants to make a physically disabled character. i want to try and represent a disability thats less fetishized by the general public, and looking through this blog here its definitely apparent that a lot of people are tired of seeing basic half amputee characters with overly functional prosthetics; i wanna avoid that. sorry this has gotten a bit rambly, but basically what im asking is,, do you have advice for what i could use as just. a general starting point in this? im terribly uneducated and lost at the moment and id love some help. thank you :]
Hey!
It's great that you're interested in writing a disabled character (with care). I'm always happy to see more writers/artists/creatives do that.
You mentioned wanting to give him crutches, which is cool. However, you mentioned crutches as meaning a leg disability, which isn't always the case — and while I don't have statistics on it, I believe that most crutch users do not use them for leg-only problems, and a lot of them have the not-so-fetishized conditions. Here are some suggestions of what you could give your character, which hopefully gives you some ideas. If you need, you can get back to us with a more specific question after you figure out what exactly your character has.
Cerebral palsy — probably the most common reason for using crutches in non-elderly people, and the most common (physical) disability in younger people in general. If your character has diplegic (meaning lower limbs affected) CP, he could use crutches and if he has hemiplegic (one arm and one leg affected) CP, then he could use a single crutch or a cane. Cerebral palsy is generally extremely underrepresented when compared to how many people have it IRL. Just be aware that there is a lot of research involved just about the condition itself — multiple types (spastic/ataxic/dyskinetic), different kinds of body involvement, tons of different mobility aids and orthotics to learn about. There is also hereditary spastic paraplegia, which is not the same as CP but similar and progressive.
Spinal cord injury — the general assumption is that all people with spinal cord injuries are fully paralyzed below the neck or waist, and that's not the case. If your character has an incomplete SCI on any level or just a very low level injury, he could be using crutches or switch between a wheelchair and crutches. It's essential to research SCIs to have them be more than “legs don't work, but that's literally it”. SCI can come with severe nerve pain, spasticity, atrophy, and a lot of other things. Worth noting that spinal cord injury could be traumatic, but could also be congenital (spina bifida) or illness related (polio, transverse myelitis, spinal stroke, or cancer, for example). You could think that it's overrepresented in media, but SCI is generally just used as a “default condition” for why a character is in a wheelchair, and a lot of these representations are unfortunately very shallow.
Paralysis — in the monoplegic sense here. Much more rare than the rest of the things here, but your character could have a single paralyzed leg, largely due to nerve damage. Could be traumatic or illness-related (e.g., cancer, infection, or multiple sclerosis).
Stroke (and other traumatic/acquired brain injuries) — stroke can cause a million different symptoms and depending on what happens to your character exactly, he might need crutches. A big portion of stroke survivors deal with hemiplegia and could use a crutch on their non-affected side, for example. Some kinds of stroke might cause your character to have troubles with balance and require a mobility aid to not fall. Of course stroke will also cause other symptoms for your character (it wouldn't be too realistic to only have him have problems with his legs) for example speech issues, headaches, or seizures. Stroke can happen to anyone, and it wouldn't be weird to have a younger character with it. Very common in real life but very rarely represented in fiction.
Limb difference — you can definitely write a character with a limb difference or an amputation without fetishizing it. The main concern with the fetishization is the concept of the robotic limb that works just as well as or even better than a meat leg, and thus the character is “fixed”. But your character could just… have a realistic prosthetic (people do use prosthetics with crutches) or not use one at all. A lot of congenital amputees, people with limb differences, or with high level (above knee) amputations might do that. He could also have a leg length difference, which could cause him to need crutches (for example, Morteza Mehrzad has one of his legs significantly shorter after a pelvic injury, and he uses crutches among other mobility aids).
Chronic pain — very broad category for too many specific conditions to count. Neuropathy in the legs and/or lower back could be a reason for using crutches, for example. Unhealed, or poorly healed past injuries. Arthritis in knees or hips. Hypermobility that makes him unsteady or dislocate joints. Pain in bones or muscles where he can't fully weight-bear.
Gait disorders — another broad category (sorry). Your character could have problems with his gait and need aids for that. It could be caused by dyspraxia (I have it), ataxia, progressive muscular dystrophy (there is a lot of different types), Parkinson's disease, or a lot of other things. Could also be injury related.
And of course you could have multiple characters that are disabled to make sure that there is some variety.
I hope that the above list gave you some ideas for your character. If you have more questions, feel free to send another ask
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