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For the ask game: U - Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites.
(+ favourite ship for each??)
U - Three favorite characters from three different fandoms, and why they’re your favorites.
1) Makoto Tachibana (free!): god he's just so soft and sweet and kind and fiercely loyal to his friends and family,,, and like, in addition to that, i find his insecurities particularly relatable;; plus he's a very caring and genuine person,, and i find his crybaby moments to be particularly endearing like i need to protect this boy at all costs!! not to mention he's gorgeous lol it was love at first sight i knew he'd be a big softie from day one <3 <3 <3 my top ship for him is ofc: harumako! <3
2) Goro Akechi (persona 5): to be honest, i fell for his detective prince, sweet, naive persona (another case of love at first sight lol) but his ragged, broken, and sharp parts captivated me too🥺his big brown eyes and deranged demeanor have bewitched me body and soul <3 <3 <3 and like how much he loved his mother and how society had discarded him and abandoned him for being an illegitimate child with no family or support really got me in the sob story feels tbh;;; like he struggles so much to do the right thing, but deep down in his heart he cares for and wants to fight for justice he's deeply insecure and feels like he's ultimately unlovable and my heart just aches for him;;; my baby </3 how he truly craves being accepted for who he is even if he's shattered and messy and rough around every edge i think he genuinely cares for akira as being the first person to acknowledge and accept him for all of his faults and meet him where he's at and truly challenge his worldview. his greatest wish is to be together with akira and i cry every day thinking about it (also also he's such a fucking dweeb when he geeks out about how the metaverse works and his lil lightsaber and ray gun and his little dance during his all out attack god i love him so much) and ofc my otp for him is: shuake!! <3 <3 <3
3) Saika Totsuka (oregairu): i'll be fully honest, it was tough picking a third character bc there are so many that i love, but makoto and goro are like my TOP babygirls (i literally spun a wheel between saika totsuka, keith kogane, and kenny mccormick lol) but saika is the absolute definition of sweetheart!!! <3 <3 <3 cinnamon roll too good for this world,, too pure,, like not only is he really soft and sweet, but he is by far the most considerate character in the show <3 <3 <3 when hachiman is being self-sabotaging and is really struggling, saika was the only one who asked him how he felt and if he was okay;;;; he also seems to be the only character that genuinely really cares for hachiman and accepts him as an imperfect person while still trying to support him and help him when he needs it,, he's just so kind and openly loving that i melt whenever he's onscreen <3 it also helps that he's cute as a button lol <3 naturally, my top ship for him is: hachisai <3
thank you anon for being so sweet and sending me this ask!! im sorry this post is so long but i just love my boys sooooo much <3 <3 <3
if you'd like to send me an ask from this game, the list of questions is > right here < or if you'd like to reblog it yourself~~
#long post#ask game#ask meme#personal#anon#i really wanted to add pictures this time to really show off my favs~#i hope yall dont mind~~#also im just overjoyed that you would send me an ask for this game anon#it really brightened my day and made me very happy#even if this post is a bit late^^#but omg i could talk about my favorite characters forever and ever and ever#it was so hard to narrow it down to just three!!#im glad i ended up with saika as my final pick#bc he is such an underrated character#and he is just the cutest thing on this planet earth <3 <3 <3#also just how head over heels hachiman is for saika is mindblowing#and i really do think that saika loves him back#plus saika is a route that you can play in the visual novels of the series so true love is real!!!!🌈🌈🌈🌈🌈#i can't play it bc it hasn't been translated and thus isn't available in the US#but i KNOW that you can date saika and really thats all that matters#please if you like hachisai come and talk to me im begging you#its such a good ship but the show is so tricky to recommend;;;;;;#just watch ship scene compilation videos for them and you'll understand#or i have a hachisai amv playlist that i would happily link to anyone <3#(its very short but i love it)#pls talk to me about my favorite characters forever#thank you and don't mind my rambling in the tags lol
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i don't know the exact timeline for when ghilan'nain physically changed into what we see her as in datv, but im really attached to the idea that she didn't look like that before the veil was made. like she looked just like we saw her in solas' memory, untainted and with no extra limbs. her new form is the direct consequence of her fusing her body with anduril's blighted corpse after anduril's archdemon was slain and she died in the fade. she does not need to mourn anduril. anduril has become part of her greater whole. she would not be parted from her, even in death.
#datv#dragon age the veilguard#dragon age#ghilan'nain#anduril#maybe it wasnt even a conscious thing that she did. maybe she and andruil were trapped close together and when andruil died ghilan'nain#just subconsciously merged with her. or maybe it was fully intentional- a coping mechanism for someone who has never truly known death#before. idk!#wonder what elgar'nan thought when he saw her for the first time afterwards. we know that he is worried about her through codex entries and#but ghilan'nain refuses that worry and says she doesn't need it. idk. big thoughts#and not related but might be my last post for a while. tumblr is getting overwhelming and its been a bit rough lately#but until then have a ghilly post
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Ogerpon & Darkrai ko-fi doodle for CyclopeanSpook!
#artists on tumblr#pokemon#ogerpon#darkrai#gotchibam arts#ko-fi doodle#sorry if this is pretty late ;;#but I hope you still like it!! <3#I think i'm starting to have a bit of momentum w/ drawing again#I might actually be able to finish more doodles (maybe even comms?) this week#just gotta keep myself in check & avoid self-sabotaging again#I think streaming helps..... kinda?#used to be terrified at the idea of it but actually I just realized..... it's nice to have company ;w;#sorry I wasn't able to chat much! i was pretty focused on drawing#also i just found out abt the embedded twitch chat on the post..... next time i'll try chatting there too!#tysm to those who joined the stream ;w; appreciate the company!#queued
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Loud Clown Music Playing In Background 🎶 🤡
This is what I Imagine whenever he thinks this lmao- like Loid you’re not fooling anyone in that getup be for real
#do do dodododododo do do 🎶#was it for the mission when you crashed a fighter jet into a blimp to save your daughter?#I want to make a post about Loid in the movie even though I’m a bit late to the party#I just have lots of thoughts#good thoughts#loid forger#spy x family#spy family#sxf fanart#sxf#silly#doodle#my art#twilight#clown#have a consistent posting schedule? me? never#this is so dumb lol
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what I think the season one archival staff would dress up as for halloween!!
Jon - would not dress up. he has a professional image to uphold !!
Sasha - I feel like she'd go with a classic, like maybe a witch or a vampire!! or something matching with Tim :)
Martin - probably wouldn't have the courage to do anything fancy, but after badgering from his coworkers (aka mostly Tim) he would go for one of the classics too, like a ghost/mummy/zombie?
Tim - would absolutely go overboard with something extravagant and lots of accessories, but also maybe not something actually getting too close to the supernatural. so like, a pirate? or a movie character? OR something RIDICULOUSLY spooky (specifically to annoy Jon lol)
alternatively:
a few days before halloween, Jon walks in on the archival assistants discussing how they're going to dress up. he frowns and tells them wearing halloween costumes is actually against the office dress code, as dressing in such a ridiculous way would be highly unprofessional.
he walks in on halloween to see all of them dressed up as him.
(and yes they absolutely deny it - them? dressing up for halloween against Jon's strict instructions?? they would NEVER!! they simply decided to all wear dress shirts, ties, and sweater vests on the same day by pure coincidence :))
#YEAH I'm a day late whoops#I tragically didn't even think to do anything for halloween until now!! (other than dressing up I mean)#ngl I kind of want to draw these now... idk if I will since it's a bit late now but...#the magnus archives#jonathan sims#sasha james#martin blackwood#tim stoker#halloween#my post#tma#tma headcanons#100#250
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i’m very sorry that society has made you feel this way about your fellow disabled people. i hope you can reflect on why you believe that other people with worse symptoms than you are bringing down this community and giving us a bad name.
(especially in the context of a vent post that is not indicative of whether or not we are “actually trying” in real life.)
i am also sorry that society makes you believe that in order for disabled people to be respected we have to consistently be working toward a nebulous goal of self improvement and overcoming of disability as to not be perceived as lazy and inconsiderate by the world.
i hope you can be kinder and more patient with yourself and your disability in the future, too.
#i’m not mad even though your tags on my post were extremely rude and disrespectful. i understand why you feel this way#it’s the way that everyone in the world talks about this issue to me and everyone else who struggles with it to.#it’s pretty much impossible not to internalize some of that#but a key thing in disability activism is the realization that disability is actually disabling. and that there are wildly different#presentations of disability in different people. people with the same disabilities may have vastly different capacities for dif activity#internalized ableism#ableism#it’s also just a bit funny that the whole reason i made this post was because of the people who tell me exactly what you did in your tags#that all i have to do is work harder and try harder and#refusing to realize that my ability fluctuates day to day and hour to hour#there’s weeks where i’m on time every day. and then i have a moment that lapses into hours of stuporific depression#or similar exec dysfunction#that makes it impossible to consider going anywhere or doing anything.#and during episodes like this the alternative to being late is not being on time. it is simply not doing anything#time blindness is a debilitating symptom i experience. it has soured hundreds of events and relationships for me. this is not because#i just don’t try. or i don’t want to. or i do not torture myself about it. i promise#an explanation of which i am only delving into in the hopes that it enlightens you to my previous posts logic a bit more#not because i believe anyone has to justify their disability to anyone to be owed respect and compassion#i hope this helps a little
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part 2 of,,,, whatever this is X]
| 1 | 2 | 3 | ... |
it's not supposed to be very consistent, not rlly a proper comic, but it does work best if viewed all together! im super proud of how the next 2 parts are turning out, can't wait to share with y'all!!
huge thanks again to @crowned-ladybug for writing the carrot soup fics,,,,,, truly a life-changing experience, 1000/10, would recommend
(please lmk if you don't wanna be tagged! i was rlly touched by your reply on my last post and thought that maybe you'd like to see this one as well,, im so glad my little doodles could make ur day better, even if just a bit!!)
i wanted to ramble abt brushes and shapes and colors but im eepy rn and i really wanna post this while i still remember soooo no artist rant today sorry,,,, hope y'all enjoy nevertheless! <33
#no thoughts only carrot soup#hlvrai#carrots au#frenrey qpr my beloveds<33333#gently holds#ive been binging a looooot of fanfiction lately#but this is something that i keep inevitably gravitating back to#comfort place if you will#dang it i need someone to remind me to post that animatic wip#it's been a bit since i last worked on it but i put so much effort into it already#even tho it's barely started lmao#okay my brain Really doesn't want me to stay awake huh#oh well#sleepytime it is#have a very orange day everybody! im out#[drops mic and falls off the stage]#art tag or whatever
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day 1818 Happy (late) Halloween!!





#amphibian#frog#halloween#a bit late because this is how i spent my halloween evening so it wasn't done by my usual posting time :)#been a pretty weird week so I didn't have the energy or time to have any proper hallooween festivities :(#but i reqatched over the garden wall while carving a pumpkin and eating halloween candy which was really nice :)#I've done this idea on a pumpkin at least once before but it didn't turn out super well in my memories so i wanted to try again
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A "RETURN of the Number of PERSONS FLOGGED in the BRITISH NAVY, in each of the Years 1845 and 1846; specifying the Name of the Ship, the Offence, the Sentence and the Number of Lashes Infficted." Parlamentary Paper, Number 661 of Session 1847
So after reading the Post about Jopsons Flogging by @handfuloftime I went down a research rabbit hole because I wanted to see if their exist sufficient & specific enough Data to accuratly compare his punishment and put it in the historical context.
I found this Website, which features the two tables from the Parlamentary Papers and their Source.
(Note: The tables on the website are incomplete and inaccurate in certain places. I compared it from top to bottom to the original source and corrected/added the informations in my table.)
I used that as a basis for my own table, where I also added Averages and Sliders so people can search the Informations!
(Apparently Sliders don't work on Mobil, and I don't know enough about Google Sheets how to fix it :/
If anyone knows or if you find a some kind mistake please let me know.)
This week I visited the University Libary, which has access to the Parlamentary Papers Online, to see if such tables also exist for earlier years but sadly 1845 was the first year where they went into such Specifics.
(I hope to add some of the Years after 1846 to the table, when I can.)
Earlier years only had these Informations per Year:
Total Number of Punishments
Total Number of Lashes
Highest Number of Lashes Inflicted at One Time
Lowest Number of Lashes Inflicted at One Time
This Information for 1839 - 1846 under the Cut.
Also under the Read More are some Graphs, Medians & Averages about Flogging for Drunkenness Alone, seperated by Seamen, Marines, Boys and Everyone!
Hope that someone find this useful/interesting !
Corporal Punishment for Drunkenness Alone
Everyone:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 32,75 (1845: 36 | 1846: 31,4)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 31,07 (1845: 31,13 | 1846: 31,02)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,02 | 1846: 30,58)
Seamen:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 36 (1845: 36 | 1846: 36)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 34,37 (1845: 34,62 | 1846: 33,86)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 34,33 (1845: 34,41 | 1846: 33,86)
Marines:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 31,4 (1845: 32 | 1846: 31,4)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,09 | 1846: 31,09)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 30,8 (1845: 31,09 | 1846: 30,69)
Boys:
Lashes Sentenced Median: 24 (1845: 24 | 1846: 33)
Lashes Sentenced Average: 26,22 (1845: 24,4 | 1846: 28,5)
Lashes Inflicted Average: 25,33 (1845: 24,4 | 1846: 26,5)
Years
1839:
Number of Punishments: 2,007
Number of Lashes: 59,341
Highest: 60 | Lowest: 3
1840:
Number of Punishments: 2,026
Number of Lashes: 60,302
Highest: 48 | Lowest: 1
1841:
Number of Punishments: 2,066
Number of Lashes: 61,669
Highest: 50 | Lowest: 2
1842:
Number of Punishments: 2,472
Number of Lashes: 71,024
Highest: 100* | Lowest: 1
1843:
Number of Punishments: 2,170
Number of Lashes: 63,985
Highest: 60 | Lowest: 3
1844:
Number of Punishments: 1,411
Number of Lashes: 42,352
Highest: 72+ | Lowest: 6
1845:
Number of Punishments: 1,070
Number of Lashes: 33,511
Highest: 48 | Lowest: 3
1846:
Number of Punishments: 1,077
Number of Lashes: 32,360
Highest: 50* | Lowest: 3
*By sentence of a Court Martial.
+By order of the Commander-in-Chief for theft, in a shop at Chusan, and violence to the natives.
Sources: A "RETURN of the CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS inflicted in the ROYAL NAVY, in each of the Years 1839 to 1843, both inclusive, stating the highest and lowest Number of Lashes at each Time, and the aggregate Number of Lashes in each Year [ ]" Parlamentary Paper, Number 308, of Session 1845 + ABSTRACT of Total Numbers of CORPORAL PUNISHMENTS inflicted in the NAVY, and the Total Number of LASHES Inflicted, in each Year up to the 31st December 1846 [ ]. Parlamentary Paper, Number 661, of Session 1847
#british navy#the terror#thomas jopson#cornelius hickey#tagging him also because maybe some fan find this interesting too#good I hope this post is formulated okay#i tend to overthink that#also it's late BUT I finally need to post this#before terror camp next week#okay this week for me#but I havent gone to bed so I dont feel like it's monday yet#i spend lots of hours searching until I found that website the day the post hit#and when the Keynote was Anounced I knew that I had to finally finish the table#I spend SO SO Many Hours on this#I hope at least one person will find this useful#also the Admiralitys Capitalising really didnt help reign my german brain in#also this isn't all the maths I have in my notes#I calculated more Averages but I thought I might overwhelm people so I streamlined this Post a bit#Still mad that I worked so much to get this Sliders to work#even after they Broke#and they not even work on Mobile#need to fix that somehow in the future#i always had the Vibe that Floggings in The Terror might have been tuned down/adjusted for modern audiences
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#swampert#i can't believe this angle actually won#i didn't even think there was anything funny about it. it's barely an angle. it just looks like they're squarin up to fight you#but i guess that was funny. somehow#idk. swampert is a fuckin cool pokémon though#i quite like it. very awesome swamp beast#and for those of you coming in late‚ no i did not skip mudkip and marshtomp#they got fucked up in the queue order and ended up posting back during gen 2. so. if you're missing them#just scroll down a bit. you'll find them
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Spive and partybeetle double date (Bive n Pest HATE to see each other while Poob n Split was talking because they're bsf)
Floor 30: Double Date!
Surprise! it's Christmas themed! it sorta just happened :P
#regret-delivery#mod melon 🍈#postal-vator#anon#regretevator poob#regretevator bive#regretevator split#regretevator pest#partybeetle#spive#this was a lot of fun! i was so excited when i got this suggestion :]#at the time i hadnt even posted some fun split or pest & poob (upcoming)#also sorry if this is a bit late. cause this came out xmas-y i had to legally wait for December
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Just something about two men and their guitars
This is my contribution to society *leaves*
Yeah anyways they have like opposite themes (futuristic and middle age knight)
I like Xisuma and Wels duo <3
Also sorry but I literally can't stop redesigning X for some reason, the way I draw him never feels right somehow
Also trying out and new artstyle, I must say - pretty good but I don't think I'll stick around with it
#hermitcraft#hermitblr#xisumavoid#xisuma#xisuma fanart#xisumavoid fanart#welsknight fanart#welsknight#I love those two#you don't even realise#be prepared for a Xisuma sketch dump#it's coming closer#I just wait a little bit more to dump all of these#into one post#and also wels#I've been sketching him too much lately
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your alttp link and zelda art scratches my brain in such a way ill never get over
I'M SO HAPPY TO HEAR THAT !!!! that's the exact thing they're doing to me too so it's so exciting if it's not just me !! and like if I could put some of those little brain demons into art...
I like to think Zelda doesn't smile all that much like she's just kinda stiff and awkward but then when she does smile it's goofy big smile...
#many thoughts about tiny things#I've been feeling a bit art blocked and rough lately so they are just standing in a void in silly outfits#I FORGOT TO FUCK UP HIS LEG... it's very important to me even though I've forgotten or flipped it before so I added some squiggles in paint#it will continue haunting me on tegaki I guess rip#ask#link#zelda#a link to the past#tloz#the speed with which I went ''fuck it it's fine enough'' and pressed post on Tegaki and then instantly went ''HIS LEG!!!!!''#that belonged in a comedy. the wonkyness and mistakes that's fine but this? a tragedy.#how else will I learn to move on from all the land mines I stepped on in the game smh#my art
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I was an angel, but they made me leave
#2nd time using punish lyrics for a post can u blame me#uh anyways hi#gonna ramble in the tags to keep the og post from being more depressing than jt already is#i've had this piece sitting in the drafts since January#aka it snowed for a bit here which brought back my desire to die in the snow#i haven't really been active as much due to alot honestly#i've been so tired lately and sometimes i feel bad about sharing art or even talking to others due to feeling like my existence is a burden#life is moving too quickly#and i fear im falling behind everyone else#ermm ya rant over ig#warhammer 40k#wh40k art#sanguinius#wuvz draws#wh40k
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OC lineup! All the characters that currently exist in this "story"
#oeyä ayskxawngtsyìp#some small details may be subject to change#others might also be added to the “story” later#for example a while ago I was thinking maybe Rolukx and Se'txelu also have a sister because why not#tentatively named her Mingal and she'd be a teenager in the default timeline#(for reference at that time Se'txelu and Neynari are in their early 20s and Rolukx in his late 20s)#but she doesn't have a particular design yet and I haven't decided on many details#me being me i will also prooooobably give Neynari and Se'txelu some kids of their own at some point but again so specific ideas just yet#maybe even give rolukx a love interest#for personal reasons i can't decide whether it would be more cathartic to give him one or to not give him one#idk we'll see#also btw since this is chibi style don't take it as a 100% accurate height comparison lol#fwiw on that front I think Seylana and Neynari are a bit shorter than average#Rolukx is slightly taller than average#and everyone else is pretty solidly Average™ ¯\_(ツ)_/¯#also for those who didn't catch it in my previous post about these guys: Awlun is Lunaya's aunt (Awlun's brother is Lunaya's father)#hence the shared surname#also Seylana is not naturally blond; she started coloring her hair after Neynari was born to match her daughter#(there are canon Aranahe characters with hair like this such as Sa'nop and Nilngan)#(and yes I suspect it's artifical color because the tail tufts are still black. hence Seylana's tail tuft still being her natural color too#ANYWAYS#yeah#my art#neynari#se'txelu#rolukx#seylana#vontxu#awlun#lunaya
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It's thirty til midnight 'n the house is crowded with the hot press of bodies. Someone's shoutin'. Actually, most of 'em are shoutin'. The living room stinks like the spilled beer Two's ground down into the carpet. The TV's playin'. Some New Year's special that Pony's glued to. The record players skippin' its way through a Christmas album. The tree's still up 'cause none of them would let Darry take it down 'til after New Year's.
Darry checks his watch once, runs his thumb absently over the face, compares it to the little glowin' clock above the stove, stands up 'n shifts past the card game Johnny has been creamin' Dallas at for the last half hour. Darry wasn't sure how he had any money to his name left. He steps over the coffee table 'n catches the hand of pure shit Dallas grins 'n ups the bet on. Good lord Johnny was gonna have the shirt off his back before the night was over.
Soda's bouncin' back 'n forth between the holiday special 'n the card game, offerin' commentary only Johnny seems to enjoy. Steve's got a huge bowl of popcorn Darry had fixed balanced on his lap, pitchin' kernels at Two's mouth as he dives for 'em.
Darry sighs, snatches one out of the air 'n pops it into his own mouth, steppin' out of the way so Two falls unceremoniously onto his knees with a grin.
"Hey! I was gonna catch that one!" Darry rolls his eyes, absently grabs Pony from where he had his nose three inches from the tube 'n hauls him back, much to Pony's indignation.
"Sure you were. Just like you were gonna catch the other thirty or so that I'm gonna have to vacuum outta the carpet." But he doesn't really mean it. The mood's high 'n Darry's just pleased to have 'em all together. Outta trouble 'n safe.
"Hey it ain't my fault Steve can't throw straight! He ain't exactly got your arm, Dar." Two wraps both hands around Darry's bicep 'n Darry hauls him up, danglin' like a monkey with his knees all bent.
"Hey!" Steve takes his opportunity 'n dives off the couch, nearly dumpin' the entirety of the bowl onto Dallas' head. Dally yowls, drops his cards onto the table 'n snatches for Steve's ankles to drag him back across the floor. Johnny leans over, tips the cards up, 'n grins to himself, then promptly sprawls to the side to avoid Darry shakin' Two off him 'n onto the floor.
Soda, never to be left out, throws himself into the mess of limbs until they're all a tangled mass of carpet burn 'n sharp-toothed peels of laughter. Darry disentangles himself, hovers in the doorway 'n watches them for a moment. Then he checks his watch again, adjusts the worn leather strap, peers at the clock on the stove glowin' softly through the darkness of the kitchen, 'n slips out the back door.
He knows his time is numbered 'cause Pony 'n Soda have always been herders. Had to know where everyone was at all times. But Pony's sleepy 'n zoned in on the TV like a lifeline 'n Soda's had two shots (both hastily over the kitchen sink 'cause Pony still thought Soda was drunk on the plain idea of bein' alive 'n they all liked to let him think it) so he had maybe just a few more minutes than usual.
It's fridged outside. The kinda cold that burns along his bare arms 'n makes his breath hang in low clouds around his face.
He can't really explain it. He's never been real good about the holidays. They're just... heavy. Even before, well, everythin'.
He crosses the porch, sinks down on the stair 'n blinks down the empty street. There's a light or two on. One house or the other still holdin' out for midnight. Most are quiet 'n dark 'n Darry's heart does an odd little flip in his chest.
He doesn't know why he thinks about the winter he was twelve 'n had been the best of friends with the boy that lived on the corner. Or why his stomach sinks when he thinks about how hard he'd cried when they had moved out. Inconsolable even when their mama had pulled him up into her lap (though he was too big for that. Too big for needin' his mama.) (that last bit was never true. He still needed his mama. Maybe more than he ever had before.) 'n had just cried 'n cried 'til Soda 'n Pony had come home from wherever they'd been 'n that had been that. 'Cause he shouldn't cry in front of his brothers. He should be strong for them.
Somethin' shatters to the ground inside 'n jerks Darry outta his memory.
"Sorry!" Someone hollers 'n Darry chuckles to himself. Man, maybe he shouldn't have had that last beer. He must be in too good of a mood 'cause he doesn't even think about goin' in to reem out whoever was breakin' shit. But he knows that's not true 'n it ain't the beer to blame.
He runs his hands up 'n down his arms, stands up 'n crosses the lawn, dead 'n dry in winter, leans against the fence 'n hisses when the metal bites into his arms. He sighs, kicks at the hole ripped in the bottom, smiles absently to himself.
Soda 'n Two had put that there. Had run one of those push petal cars so hard into it they'd both flown off 'n scraped knees 'n elbows 'n come crawlin' up the steps with, not two, but three missin' teeth between the two of them.
God, they must have been in middle school then. When had they grown up so much?
"Agh put me down you sonofabitch!" Somethin' else hits the ground but this time Darry's mostly sure it's a person. No one wails so he figures he's still safe. 'N he ain't ready to go back in yet.
He checks his watch, fiddles with the knob on the side, a nervous habit he's had since he was eighteen. Fifteen minutes to go. Plenty of time.
A breeze kicks up, swings the gate open 'n closed so it lets out a low, mournful squeal. It hadn't hung right since the summer Darry was ten. They'd always just jumped the fence, givin' each other the boosts they refused to ask for, gigglin' when their mama had called them coyotes, takin' runnin' starts 'n laughin' off when they misjudged it 'n came down hard on their knees. Their daddy had sworn he was gonna fix it every summer since.
He never got to.
Last month they'd had a real bad wind storm that pushed that old gate forlornly back 'n forth for hours, wailin' 'n moanin' until Darry had scowled 'n muttered he was gonna fix that goddamn thing if it was the last thing he ever did. 'N then he'd looked over at Pony 'n they both suddenly felt sick to their stomachs.
He never did get around to it.
The wind howls 'n Darry flexes his fingers, realizes suddenly its the only sound he can hear. He checks his watch again. Five minutes to go. He should go back inside.
But then he's runnin' his fingers around the face 'n thinkin' about the people not waitin' for him back in that hot 'n crowded living room. Thinkin' about how it ain't really his watch.
It had been his daddy's. His pride 'n joy. Thick leather strap 'n gold platin' around the face 'n it had been his granddaddy's before him. God, Darry had coveted it. Could remember bein' thirteen, runnin' fingers around 'n around it til it shone. Fifteen 'n askin' his daddy if he'd pass it down to him one day. Eighteen when he had put it in his hands on his graduation day.
You gotta watch out for it. The time flies, kiddo. Be careful how you spend it.
Darry doesn't hear the screen door slam, or the patterin' footsteps across the lawn, or the creak of the fence as someone leans against it til Soda's there, head restin' down on Darry's shoulder. Darry jumps, scrubs the back of his hand against the tears so hot against his flushed cheeks they burn. 'Cause he shouldn't cry in front of his brothers. He had to be strong.
"I figured I'd find you out here." Soda wraps a blanket, stolen from the couch, around Darry's arms 'n he suddenly realizes just how cold he is. He sighs, pulls Soda in 'n tucks him under his elbow.
"C'mon, Soda. You shouldn't be out here." 'N he shouldn't. 'Cause he shouldn't ruin everyone else's good time with his stupid achin'. "Let's get you back inside."
Soda tilts his head back 'n blinks up at Darry. Or, no he doesn't. He doesn't need to. Hasn't needed to look up to Darry in a long time, long since hit that final growth spurt that had their mama lettin' out all his jean hems 'n hopin' they stopped below his ankle. "You shouldn't be out here alone, Dar."
"I'm fine-"
"Oh, I know. You're fine. You're good. You're peachy." Soda sighs, drops his chin back down to Darry's shoulder. "You thinkin' about them?"
'N he is. But not really. He's thinkin' about all of them. About breakin' promises 'n not bein' careful enough. About turnin' around one day 'n Pony's not six years old 'n followin' Darry around 'cause he was still young enough to think Darry was the coolest person alive. That Soda's not ten years old 'n missin' his front tooth 'n a permanent bandaid on his knees 'n bringin' home one kid after another until their house was always full. That Johnny 'n Two 'n Dallas 'n Steve ain't just his brother's friends or strangers hangin' around his living room or even just good buddies.
"I'm thinkin' about my resolution." He pulls Soda in closer 'n somewhere down the street someone bangs pans together. A lone firework bangs off into the sky, lightin' his brother's face in a way that makes him look like he was a kid again, pressed against the window 'n tryin' so hard to stay awake.
"Well, don't leave me hangin'." Soda yawns, presses his face into Darry's chest to shield it from the wind.
Darry smiles softly to himself, runs a hand through Soda's hair, the lamp light bouncin' off the watch face when he lifts his wrist.
"I'm gonna keep some old promises."
I ain't gonna let time slip me by. The back door bangs open 'n when Darry turns he can see the shinin' grin on Two's face, his arm draped around Steve's shoulders. Pony leanin' hard on Dallas though Darry knows he'll claim he ain't tired. Johnny shiverin' in his too-big jacket.
"Come on, Dar! You're gonna miss it!" 'N Darry knows he means the ball drop or the announcer on TV or the end of the special but Darry can only smile ruefully, shift Soda closer to him 'n sweep him right off his feet to carry him inside.
You're right. You gotta be careful or you will. You'll miss it all.
tags 'cause y'all were so sweet in my other post I was like well I simply gotta finish this right now😭@trekkiehood @strxwberry-julius @marmaladedcroissant @wildestdreamcatcher @sarcasticallyexplicit11 @scalls @greasernamedbug
#the promised completly outta season new years fic that had me in a strangle hold all afternoon#yall were too nice in my other post i was like i gotta finish this NOW#been thinkin a lot lately about how easy it is to miss out on life#i turned around n suddenly im not the same person i was five years ago#n where did those five years go?#lost n you didnt even realize you were losin them until you turn a corner n its been years#ugh#i just think darry suffers chronically with where did my childhood go?#where are my kid brothers?#were you once a stranger?#what changed?#when#the outsiders#ponyboy curtis#johnny cade#sodapop curtis#darry curtis#dallas winston#steve randle#two bit mathews#my writing#writers on tumblr#the outsider fanfiction#fun fact im always a little torn about whether soda actually drinks or not#but he gets a shot for the holiday why not
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