likeee hes really really intelligent like genius level but has very little social intelligence and also very little emotional intelligence but that doesn't stop him from caring and loving deeply it just makes it hard for him to express himself to his loved ones or give them the advice they need sometimes. and he comes into the server like not naive but very wide-eyed and trusting and purgatory leveled that to the ground. he is emotionally volatile constantly and despite him saying that he's not effected by things his responses to 1) Fred's "death" 2) hideduos date and 3) Empanda's death via eyeworker says otherwise. he claims to be extremely self aware but he is not, well sometimes he is but he will not talk about it he'd rather die. he's so unserious and takes the world at arms length except for his daughter who is his #1 reason for living. he can be a piece of shit often and laughs in the face of vulnerability but he'll always come and apologize afterwards. he's just a guy he just turned 20 and hes a single father and also a master engineer and idk man idk
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If I was bound for hell, let it be hell. No more false heavens. No more damned magic. You hate me and I hate you. We’ll see who hates best. But first, first I will destroy your hatred. Now. My hate is colder, stronger, and you’ll have no hate to warm yourself. You will have nothing.
Jean Rhys, from Wide Sargasso Sea, 1966
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Things core to my existence:
(because i wanna fall in love with myself again)
collecting leaves in the fall and preserving them in books so i find them later
a cup of hot drip coffee in the morning, especially with a splash of my favorite creamer
going book shopping, even when my tbr is stacked high
hugging and squishing my cats
going thrifting to find my personal style (my vintage shop)
getting pizza and watching my favorite show
plants as decor
decorating my space to feel like home
cooking a lavish dish for dinner with no recipe and no real plan, just vibes
really nice architecture — particularly if it is unique to that building
going to botanical gardens and taking photos of all my favorite plants
soft blankets on cold evenings
journaling everything — lists, feelings, little doodles, etc.
going shopping and seeing something that reminds me of someone I love and purchasing it for them
getting pretzels at the mall and eating them as if it’s my last meal on earth
studying up on a subject just because it interested me
long, slow walks amongst big, tall trees, bonus points if they make me feel like a small child again
finding and observing all the little critters in our area
the daily crossword puzzle
movies and tv shows with academic vibes/plots
tucking into a bed made with freshly-washed sheets after taking a long and hot bubble bath
making pinterest boards for everything that brings me joy
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