#he's depressed tho man needs a therapist if anything

[edwardslvrr]

༯ 405, TREVOR ZEGRAS

trevor zegras x singer!reader

the one where rumour has it YN has a new boyfriend and Trevor has a new girlfriend

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warning this is all fake and just for fun, no hate to any of the people mentioned. Just a reminder that this is pure for entertainment xoxo

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username imagine if she’s back together w trevor

username after that album? bro is sobbing in the corner

username would be such a YN thing to do tho

username what if new bf is old bf 👀

username so many paparazzi and no one thought tp take a picture of the dudes face???

username this outrageous behaviour, YN. we’re out here sobbing to her new album and she has been macking on some new dude

username no fr she has me sobbing here like a child for days now

username atleast she looks hella good

username cool and whatever but tour dates pls?

username YN it was suppose to be me next😔

username imagine it is jack hughes

username jack’s probably trying to shoot his shot w trevor now tbh

username she wasn’t interested in Trevor’s unemployed ass anymore lol

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los angeles, california

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yourinstagram good riddance deluxe is out NOWW!!

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username oh wow- this is depressing

username “i hate the fact that i miss you around” MOOD

username jack really feeding into the rumours abt him and YN by liking this

username not people believing that rumour what??

username honestly the weirdest rumour i’ve ever heard

username y’all will believe anything atp

username WHAT DID U PUT IN 405 WHAT

username “how are you looking at me like a stranger” my heart bro??

username imma go call my therapist.. this is too much

yourbestfriend okay OUCH?

yourinstagram oops?

username ayo jack i see u dude

username the last picture such a mood

username too much pain girly

username “i loved you so hard for a time” trevor go sit in the corner and think about what you did.

trevorzegras

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trevorzegras all summer long

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username in his tim mcgraw era?

username bringing up taylor swift any time he can in his personality

username uhm.. last picture?

colecaufield suspicious

username glad u seem to think so too

username cole spill what you know

username soft launch?

jackhughes winner

username wtf does that even mean

username ellen, get jack back on the leash pls

username pls let that be YN 🙏

username YN out w her new man, Trevor hinting his new girl. Can i please go cry..

username as long as it isn’t some tiktoker you got my approval.

username trevor just wants to be a tiktok star, leave him be

username he’s unemployed, he needs to get money from somewhere

username a lot of questions rn

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username that’s definitely jack

username bro u say that abt an ARM

username she isn’t a homie hopper dude

username could be trevor🤷🏼‍♀️

username why do i feel like her and trevor are back together, like there’s no way it’s a coincidence they both have a new partner at the same time

username how did people ever get to the fact she could be dating jack?! y’all are so weird

username nah after that album i refuse to believe she has already moved on

username she’s probs dating him again

username i mean the album was writing a while back tho-

username i refuse.

username yn probably panicked so hard when she realised she posted that

username she def cried

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[luvscr]

price, ghost and alejandro reacting to m!reader's sh scars (hcs)

cw/tags: depression, sh, scars, hurt/comfort, angst, fluff fluff fluff, probably ooc characters but idc🫶

apologies for any grammatical erros!

long ass note:

so i got this request which i won't be showing in case it might trigger someone nor will i tag the person who requested this bc im not sure if he would be comfortable with it. i've never written about sh hurt comfort before, simply because i didn't feel like i could do justice for the comfort part but i tried my best and tried to make it not so triggering. your media consumption is your own responsibility, please proceed carefully and do not read if you're not in the right mindset. if you're struggling, i know it's hard but please reach out to a loved one or even me. you're not alone, you matter.

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price:

it was purely on accident that he saw your scars. he wouldn't mention it to you but he would ask around, people you interact with if they've heard or seen anything. when they asked questions he would simply shut them down or use his rank and pull the "classified information" card. he wouldn't really know what to do, given he's your superior so it was kind of his responsibility, so he got in touch with kate to help him find a therapist. his first instinct is to get professional help if needed. he would invite you to his office so it's just the two of you and make you comfortable, even make you a cup of tea. he would approach the topic carefully and wouldn't force you to tell anything you didn't want to, reassure you that he's not upset, he just wants to help. if you refuse to get a therapist it's okay, he completely understands and will offer you to talk to him instead. he may come off as stern sometimes but it's just because he genuinely cares so much about you and is worried constantly, no matter how old the scars are. he would try to think of alternatives for you to put that energy into if you still struggle and would be there anytime to comfort you. he kinda acts like a dad (like w everyone bruh)

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ghost:

oh sweet lord this man. he kind of had a feeling when he noticed that even in the hottest weather you only wore long sleeved clothes. he would notice them when your sleeve and the somewhat shorts you had on accidentally rolled up. you just ignored his eyes burning holes through you, given it was normal for him to just stare menacingly at anyone. (not on purpose tho he just looks mean by default) i wouldn't say it would trigger him, but it would definitely stir up some unpleasant feelings inside of him because of his past. he knows exactly how you feel and wants to help you, no matter if you're a friend or just some rando at the base. just like price he would approach the subject carefully, knowing well how hard it is to reach out for help and how it's even harder to open up and actually talk about it. he isn't the best at comforting but he's is a damn good listener and he'll let you know that if you need him don't hesitate to talk to him even if it feels useless. will crack those stupid jokes of his to make you feel better lol tbh i feel like he would be the best kind of person to open up to because he relates so much, he completely understands the feeling of being ashamed of self-destructive activities and would be the sweetest during a relapse. would caress gently the older scars on your body if you allow him to :(<3

he strikes me as a very straightforward person bc of the graves scene. my dude just straight up told the cabrón to stfu (as he should!!) so based on this i think as soon as he sees he's all up in your business. of course not with the intention to make you uncomfortable but he just wants to make sure you're okay and is absolutely willing to help whether it's finding a therapist or just giving a shoulder to lean on. he values every single person in his life and would literally do anything for them and obviously you're no exception. ngl it would be kind of uncomfortable and awkward as you're not used to so much attention especially surrounding your mental health, but he just wants to do good and he's willing to do anything to help and i mean anything. you need a break from work? done. a hug? you don't even have to ask. he will do everything for you if you feel too drained to do even basic things such as cooking meals, helping you shower if you're comfortable with that and etc. basically becomes a househusband for you!

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alejandro:

[theworldofkirby]

i adore you, noble haltmann… (president haltmann x reader fanfic)

A/N: hai guys i wrote a haltmann/rader fic as a kind of sequel to the dedede dating simulator bc i dont feel like coding another game to make a haltmann dating sim so take this haltmann x reader fic instead

ok so like u are in dream land right??? well :) it was taken over by capitalizm!!!!1 omg

you, (y/n) the SEXIEST freak in planet plopstar is almost crushed by one of those leg things on the haltmann works company star dream thingy ok? yea so you dodge that and like… there's a window or somethin and a guy falls out of there

you watch as he falls. he falls for like 10 minutes. but then he lands on the ground next to you and you hear a crumch.

"ow" the male says

"omg!!!!! are u ok" u ask the masculine man

"i think i broke my pelvurouscula" he says

"omg no……" u say and hold him gently. u have magic healing powers so u heal him

"gasp" he gasped. "i don't feel like dead anymore"

he gets up and u cant help but admire he. his beautiful egg shaped bod and wicked pinstripe suit. and his luscious hair and mustache.

"newayz my name is haltmann. max profitt haltmann" he said with not a trace of happy

"haltmann….. my name is (y/n)" u smile

"ok" he says. "i have to go home. bye"

he goes into his headquarters but u follow him. u keep talking to him "um so wat are u doing? i almost died" u frowned

"oh no" haltmann says. "did i accidentally park my plant on u"

"ya" u nod

"im so frickign sorry" haltmann starts crying. "i'm such trash i cant commit capitalizm without almost killing peopel"

u frown at the egg's sadness. "dont cry haltmann…" u say comfortationally

"no it's not okay i'm shaking and crying rn. i might throw up" haltmann starts crying

haltmann cries and opens his office door and runs in and throws himself onto his bed dramatically like a sad disney princess. u enter his office and hear some haunting lyrics…

"I pull away to face the pain

I close my eyes and drift away

Over the fear that I will never find

A way to heal my soul

And I will wander 'til the end of time

Torn away from you

My heart is broken

Sweet sleep, my dark angel

Deliver us from sorrow's hold

Or from my hard heart"

u turn off haltman's ipod. "Haltmann" u say

"no my music" haltmann sobbed

"haltmann." u say again but more like… asssertively

"ouuu" haltmann screams into his pillow. "first i break my airpods and now my music is dead"

"HALTMANN" u grab him and sit him up

"what" haltmann sniffs

"whats wrong" u ask

"u see (y/n) i lost someone in da past… i forget who that was tho… but like someone died ok? and now im sad" haltmann explaines

"halmann" u look into his deep blue orbs. "i…"

"yes (y/n)?" haltmann blinks his beautiful sapphire saucers at u

"i…" u blush "i…"

"..." haltmann …ed

"i think u need to seek therapy" u gently stroke his bangs

"omg… ur right" haltmann tears up. he gives u a hug. "thank u (y/n)"

"ur welcome" u smile

"im so tired of depression. i will defeat this evil inside me. thank u (y/n)"

u get on his computer and start googling local therapists in dream land. "here's one," u say. "call them and see if they're accepting new patients"

haltmann gets his sexy cellphone out and calls the therapist. "hi mr. therapist, my name is max profitt haltmann and my friend (y/n) says i need therapy"

"ya we can take u in" says the therapit. "we will have u do an intake next month ok"

"n. next month." haltmann starts to tear up

u look at haltmann ernestly. "better late than never, haltmann… ur patience will be rewarded"

haltmann sighs haltmannly. "ok. we will do next month"

haltmann finishes scheduling his therapy appointment. u look at him with a pleased look on ur face. "that was kinda sexxy of u haltmann, working towards self care like that" u smirk and wink

haltmann blushes "haha yea i guess that is pretty sexy. um, not that i'm trying to be cool or anything" he stutters

"hey u can call urself sexy and cool all u want," u laugh. "ur epic even"

"(y/n)..." haltmann blushes. he leans in and gives u a kiss. his cute little mustache hairs tickle ur upper lip.

"teehee" u giggle. "ur mustache is so cute"

"thank u" haltmann says. "star dream says its ugly"

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2 MONTHS LATER

haltmann knocks on ur door. u open it

"hi (y/n) my sweet honey bunches of oats" haltmann wraps his hands around u and dips u for a kiss

"h-haltmann" u blush "where did this come from"

"so u see, i followed thru with therapy like u suggested. little did i kno this would change my life" haltmann says. "going to therapy made me realize that i wasn't treating myself with respect, and if i want to feel respected by others, i need to develop respect for myself. without respect for myself, i won't be able to recognize gneuine respect from my friends and employees. and i cant live being so cynical anymore. i need to love myself, (y/n). i need to be my own bestie becuz who will be there for me when everyone is gone? i need to be there for myself"

u look at haltmann like this:

"haltmann… u… u mean…"

"yea. i love myself, (y/n), and its thanks to u…" haltmann kisses u again. "sory i didnt talk to you for the past 2 months btw i was depressed amd busy with therapy lol"

"its ok haltmann i love u no matter what" u stroke his egg head

"yea" haltmann nods. "um btw i like need some new music to listen to bc my therapist says i shuld stop listening to such depressing music if it makes me wallow in sadness more"

"say no more" u say as u smirk and take out of ur bookshelf a CDs of Hannah Montana 3 and the High School Musical Sountrack

u and haltmann spend the night picking out the best disney channel songs to boost his self confidence. soon enough its morning. "omg its morning" haltmann gasps

"it was nice spending the night with u haltmann" u blushed "we should do it again someday"

"no, (y/n)" haltmann gives u an onion ring "we will do it again today. marry me"

"ok" u blush

u and haltmann have a beautiful wedding with the stupidest most extravagant dress and cake bcuz hes rich. ur live happy ever after the end

[unnervinglyferal]

Hiii

idk I have anything much to say really

uhhh I have some screenshots of a Typical Straight Guy™ from a dating app if you wanna see him call me a “slapper” for not wanting to sleep with him if you wanna see them

I made a new minecraft skin if you wanna see that

I’ve been not managing to go to a sexual health clinic for like a week now (I have to plan it beforehand and shower successfully at the right time and haven’t been quite doing that)

huh ig I do have things to say

I might be too unwell for talking therapy currently? That’s what my therapist suggested might be the case (we’re thinking I should be fine as long as we stick to easier stuff). Also we’re looking to get a second opinion about me getting some mood stabilisers or anti-depressants or some such (that’s about my psychiatrist tho, not psychologist/therapist).

my bf - did I mention I currently have a bf? - anyway his phone broke and couldn’t text me so I assumed he was ghosting me but in fact he was desperately trying to reach me through other messaging methods which I don’t check regularly. And honestly although I was sad about the presumed ghosting and him not being into me anymore I was also kinda relieved? cos he says he Loves me and definitely means it but we haven’t been dating all that long so I think it’s just infatuation and I don’t wanna break his heart but idk how much I like him like that.

I might be lithoromantic honestly (meaning I feel romantic attraction only if it’s unreciprocated) but I do not have enough data points. And it might just be cos depression yada yada

I had this kinda conversation with my therapist and I just hate that I can’t get closure on any of this or resolve anything, I just need to not think about any of it cos if I properly confront it I just get suicidal and it’s just… exhausting.

ik it’ll get better and I’ll be happy in the future but I’ve been suicidal for 5 fucking years. why does it have to take so fucking long man.

ugh this turned out to be longer and sadder than originally intended so I’m gonna send the aforementioned media in another ask to make me feel better

Closure is a fake thing that's not real. Once the situation is over, you make peace with yourself and yourself alone. And it's going to take as long as it takes, but I promise life can be better than that. Even if you've never known anything else, it's out there, things can be better. A tadpole that was born in a bucket has no idea that there's a world outside of it. You've just got to hold on, try to make things better a little bit at a time.

You don't have to break things off with the guy just because you're scared of what might happen. Just be honest with him and let him make his own choices about it with the information that he has. If he doesn't want to protect himself from getting hurt by you - even by accident, without meaning to - you can't do that for him. You can't really do much on behalf of other people, really. And everyone gets their hearts broken at some point, it's like losing your baby teeth. Part of growing up.

...Also what the fuck is a slapper.

[secretsfrommylove]

i made this account because i need to vent. i think my boyfriend is abusive. i think ive known this for a while but its getting to a point where i cant take it and things need to change. i love him more than anything and will never leave him but i need him to be better. im tired of being constantly degraded and blamed because of his jealousy over me being sexually abused when i was younger. im tired of him always being angry and me always doing the wrong thing. im tired of him censoring all my conversations and not letting me hang out with my best friend and when i do accuse me of cheating the entire time. ive never fucking cheated. im tired of him constantly talkingn about how attractive other girls are but if i look at a guy he thinks im cheating. im tired of him going thru my phone and asking if ive had sex with every single fucking person we pass on the street. im tired of him hitting me or choking me or getting aggressive “as a joke”. im tired of being called a slut and a whore every single fucking day because i had sex with a couple people when i was 13. THIRTEEN. THEY WERE ALL FUCKING 16 OR OLDER I DIDNT HAVE SEX I WAS RAPED. im tired of you asking if they were better than you or had bigger dicks when i was fucking traumatized. im tired of being treated like shit and im tired of u getting mad at me when ur mom defends me because she knows i wont do it myself. im tired of apologizing when i didnt do anything fucking wrong. im tired of being scared ur gonna leave me at any moment because im not pure enough for you. i love you and ill never leave you but i cant live like this. ill never say this to you but please just fuckint get it you need a therapist youre so mean to me all the time. im tired of you being fuckint racist and getting mad at me because im a “dumb leftist bit ch” im tired of you invalidating every one of my fuckint points. im tired of you constantly asking for a break when you know that triggers me. im tired of you constantly hanging up on me when i told you thqt gives me panic attacks. im tired of you ignoring me everytime i try to ask you whats wrong and why youre clearly fucking mad. im tired of you guilt tripping me everytime i actually fucking tell you ur an asshole (2 times in over a fucking year of this). im tired of you acting like im the toxic one when its because im mentqlly fuckint ill and have panic attacks. im tired of you telling me i smell bad when u know i was bullied for thay for years and im tired of you making fun of me when im too depressed to shower and brush my teeth. im fuckint tired. i want you to change but idk how to tell you. i dont wanna leave you ur the man i wanna fucking marry and have a kid with but not like this. not without therapy and maybe medication. im not going to be abused and mistreated and walked over every fuckign day and put up with it like i did for the last year. ive been telling my best friend whats been happening wven tho if u found out ud break up with me and youre not the saviour u think u are. im not gonna deal with that shit. you need to grow up please just fucking go to therapy im so tired

[ghost-of-the-machine]

i had a bad dream and it was a bad dream because it really wasnt that bad

it was about brian, he came back to me again and i. was mad but he owned up to his mistakes and he missed the attention i gave him and i missed giving it and i fucking went back to him and i felt butterflies and. i lingered too long, i wanted to stay

it makes me so SICK no matter how far i denounce him, it doesnt matter if i never think of him much, my brain cant let him go for some reason. why do you miss that? i was so miserable, i was being used. he ADMITTED that he didnt want me to be happy with anyone else and that he wouldnt try to make me happy at all so?

why do i still feel like i want him? its so hard to shake.. i do want him. i really dont, but i miss the attention, even if it was nothing at all. even if the closest thing i could get to any kind of affection was an "aw" when i was sad, i wouldve PUT UP WITH IT for him. i told him that, i told him i would deal with it if he could just.. sincerely apologize to me. for yknow. sexting a teenager!! but he didnt. he wouldnt. he said he couldnt apologize if he didnt mean it

my head still tries to make little fantasy scenarios with him, where everything turned out well and he could change and we could. what??? be happy together? yeah right. he didnt like you fat, didnt like you as a man and only entertained it longer cuz even if yr a man, you still have a cunt and thats what he wanted. annoying as fuck

i just wish i could let it go!!!!! why do i dream about him? and why are they good dreams? dreams that make me wake up with this sense of yearning, something i REALLY need to kill right away like. as fast as possible

im not going back to him i never ever will im . ive never been happier!!! when i left it felt like the end of the world and i was so depressed but ive NEVER FELT BETTER. i have people who actually love me now

and also??? he always pulled this shit talking about how i was a problem for him too, bitch?????? i was 16, you were talking to a 16 yr old with undiagnosed bpd of course im not gonna act RATIONALLY im fucking scared!!!! i was so scared!!! that first night when we met and like. 10 minutes after asking me how old i was it got sexual like IMMEDIATELY and it. felt nice but i was still scared. he doesnt even REMEMBER that conversation, but its burned into my brain. if you want a mature partner then maybe talk to an adult 🥳

i miss the attention, yes, but i dont miss how it made me feel. i dont miss the way it made my guts turn, made me shake. makes me shake just thinking about it. its the same reason i panic on fucking GRINDR, having people interested in me in that way is scary, it reminds me of him. i? i dont know.. its like whenever i get into sexual situations if its not approached gently i get SCARED, scared as if i was a kid again. it wasnt just him, after all. i wish i could just.. grow up? i wish that i didnt get so scared but i know its not my fault, i know that. whatever happened to me, i should have been PROTECTED. i shouldve been safe, but i wasnt

and it makes me so fucking angry? i never told anyone then because i knew that if i told my family, theyd blame me. and i LOVED him, i didnt want anything bad to happen to him, even if what he was doing was so horribly bad for me. i used to talk vaguely about him with my therapist and i started to frustrate her, thats why i dont go anymore. she would get frustrated because she didnt know what my problem is. I KNOW what my problem is, i just.. i was still talking to him, i was trying to approach it in a way that would protect him, even if he didnt deserve it

man. i hate being a tool for people, like genuinely. so tired of it.. yeah, tell me all about yr problems and ill be there to comfort you and listen. never ask about mine tho! never never never. you can ask me for nudes or pictures of my underwear, force me to roleplay with you even tho ive made it clear i dont really like it. ill do it to get you off! im so.

im glad i left. it was a good choice, he made me completely fucking miserable. very few times have i gone thru so much pain it literally forces me to dissociate from my body and view myself from above but! asking someone like that to apologize for uhh idk a crime? guess thats TOO FAR, tried sayin "erm well actually age of consent laws are higher in the us then a lot of countries ☝🤓" kill yourself!!!! like actually!!!!! im glad hes always miserable, i hope it never gets better for him ever

thats the worst part about it. is if it wasnt me, i would absolutely advocate for his death. because hes the kind of person i fucking despise, hes the absolute worst person to me. but i just.. i have a hard time extending that to him because he was awful to ME. he was mine and i used to love him!! i should hate him, and i do, i just wish it came as easy as hating any other predator

hated the way he acted when we argued tho, he tried gaslighting me before. you do not gaslight someone with bpd!!!!! cuz i fucking remember!! i read into everything anyone does extra of COURSE ill remember what happened. tried telling me i initiated it when i literally didnt cuz i knew better!!! i knew i shouldnt be talking to adults, but.. i did it anyways. that fucks me up a lot, it makes me blame myself. i knew i shouldnt, but the attention felt too nice, i didnt want to lose it and LOOK where it got me. permanently altered 🥳 nice job.

will NEVER let him blame me tho, cuz he started it. we separated like 4 times, and EACH TIME, he came back. am i that good? fuck if i know cuz it never felt like i was. probably missed getting his dick wet to our messages honestly. cuz when i was finally 18 he came back and immediately made it sexual again. im ashamed that i didnt stop him

i remember we argued because he thought i was irrational in thinking he would do bad things to me considering he literally told me before "so, consent doesnt matter between us, right?" ??????? im irrational for that?? do you even hear yrself? idk it just. pisses me off i hate him, i wish i could permanently kill the part of my brain that dreams of him fondly because it doesnt happen often but when it does it ruins my whole day

i just. i was too immature to be in a relationship with, but mature enough to be sexted every night? make it make sense!!!!! ik this is a lot, i just. need it off my chest so i can go back to normal. i wish it didnt affect me still but it does. i wish i could have fun!!!! wish i wasnt scared of getting sexual without randomly getting this intense sharp FEAR, fear that shoves me back and makes me run. i want to HEAL from this, i dont want to be like this anymore it fucking sucks. i feel like he ruined me. he'd roll his eyes at that

[teyvattherapist]

hi hi i wanted to ask if ur oc's had any fantasies? specifically ohm and sulien 👀

i like that you had to specify ohm and sulien in case i wrote abt nanami, sumiko, or alphonse LMAO--

See this is a hard question if I'm trying to keep it SFW?? yeah so anyways here's this, under a cut for the death m/. if you want like.. proper nsfw ones i can do that too lmk--

tags: death mention(Ohm), general dark themes(Ohm), at least Sandrone is hopeful wtf-

also peep the new banners for them wow

Sir Ambros definitely has some fantasies of fucking dying. But that's like.. a given. I mean hear me out. You lose your brother, you end up permanently disfigured, you lose your parents, and then the God who is the cause of it all grants you a blessing. He's been questioning why he's still alive since he was fourteen. That never went away.

Constantly fantasises about the various ways he could go out. Ohm won't do it himself, he's too stubborn for that. Nor will he let himself falter when fighting alongside his team, that'd make him a bad doctor. But he does think about it a lot. Will it be the Fatui coming to finish the job? Perhaps one of the Gods he hunts down during the Lantern Rite. Maybe he'll be betrayed, or perhaps the darkness, or ooo how about a lawachurl? that'd be a way to go.

These daydreams can get particularly violent, but such is the nature of his thoughts anyways. His karma certainly feeds into these fantasies, but he's been having them even before he had such physical debt so.. Oh to die <3.

Beyond that depressing fantasy though. Ohm quite often fantasises about what he calls "what ifs". What if he never went to Snezhnaya. What if he and his brother escaped together. What if he didn't meet Morax. What if he this what if he that. Whenever he's idle his mind always wanders to things he could have done better and the bittersweet fantasies surrounding them. Hence why he doesn't like standing still, really.

He also has a fantasy about his lollipop jar being bottomless. Its expensive having to restock as often as he does.

Sandrone fantasises about knowing everything, never being out of the loop, always being aware. Sulien? Sulien fantasises an end to the hell he's found himself in. When you have to protect yourself in the way he has, you craft different versions of yourself. And that's exactly what he's done. Sandrone, the knowledgeable gentleman of the Fatui Harbingers and Sulien, the boy who really just wants to go home.

Sulien fantasises about a house by a waterfall, he daydreams consistently of having a family that cares about him and that he cares about. Really, that's all he wants. To settle down, to put down his claymore, his weapon. He fantasises of a day where everything is okay, and all of his problems are solved.

He does chastise himself for it though, these fantasies are hopeless, useless, they are unachievable. But he can't help it, alone with his usually overwhelming fragments at night. This is a solace in the darkness for him, imagining a better life for himself. It's sad in a way, for this to be his only real comfort.

Still, despite the hopelessness of the situation and how endless things may seem. These fantasies persist and give him a small, tiny amount of hope, a small flicker of sunlight. Maybe one day he can come to terms with himself and have a family. Maybe.. For now though, he'll just imagine this other life entirely. Maybe a couple of kids, at least two dogs, and that house.

Sandrone also fantasises about owning every book in the world, but that one seems even more unachievable. He is trying though.

[kisafavi-17]

Jack:

- football star

- quarterback

- friends with newsies in middle school

- HELLA TALL

- openly bisexual

- he/him

- seems scary but is really nice

- had a small fling with sarah

- RED BULLLL

- average student

- creator of blog

- junior in high school

- just turned 17 in february

- teachers love him

- massive flirt

- loves horror movies and will put them on to have background noise

- HIS REAL NAME IS JACKSON BUT CALL HIM THAT AND HE WILL END YOU

- lives with medda

David:

- straight A+

- honor roll gate kid

- taking 5 AP classes

- gay and on the ace spectrum

- major social anxiety

- new kid

- met jack first

- closeted/didn’t know

- tutor to most newsies

- has a older sister sarah (by 1 year) and younger brother les (10 years old)

- he/they?

- editor of the blog (once joined)

- mentally ill

- scared of spot

- sophomore taking junior classes

- 15 years

- reads romantic novels to understand women

- has feminine products on him at all times

- FEMINIST

- has sensory issues

Race:

- pothead

- always has nic of some kind

- TRAUMAAAAAA

- always horny

- flirts with all

- attracted to few

- very openly gay

- gets bullied a lot

- on-scene reporter for the school news blog

- barely passing

- he/they/she (doesn’t care really)

- swears A LOT

- met spot in 4th grade

- sophomore (got held back a year) 16 years old

- is down for anything

- lives with jack at medda’s

- is the meme lord

- does. not. sleep. (or sleeps all the time no in between)

- has dyslexia and reads wattpad or redit

Spot:

- either really rich or really poor

* Rich:

- daddy’s money

- old family friends with jack

- arranges interviews with people for the blog

- on baseball team

- picks on boys

- REFUSES TO MAKE FUN OF GIRLS

- lowkey feminist

- internalized homophobia

- drives a porsche… a BRIGHT RED porsche

- he/him (says nor/mal like a douche tho)

- HELLA DEPRESSED

- takes “performance enhancing” pills

- secretly hangs out with the newsies

- junior but really young

- david is his tutor

- lowkey really dumb

- refuses to read anything. ever

- IS NOT FUCKING SHORT!!!

- he’s like 5’10 (says hes 6’0 tho)

- real name is thomas

* Poor:

- TRAUMATIZED AFFFFF

- wears zip-up hoodies with black skinny jeans

- beat up black vans

- emo

- also a really young junior

- hot topic is his ✨home✨

- everyone is scared of him

- the “quiet kid”

- he/him

- closeted bi pref men

- race is his only friend

- occasionally smokes weed

- oldest sibling of 3 (twins one of each. 5th grade)

- has a job no one knows about

- works as a waiter at a dinner an hour from school

- IS. NOT. SHORT.

- HE. IS. LIKE. 5’11.

- gets into fights and never looses

- secretly simping for race

- protects the newsies

- writes anonymous articles for blog

- ✨black eyeliner✨

- always has painted fingernails

- B+ average

- real name is sean

Sarah:

- book worm

- LESBIAN

- she/they

- loves the book worms

- reads anything and everything

- does photography for school blog

- definitely does theater/choir

- owns wattpad

- writes on wattpad

- definitely simping for fictional characters

- has tried a vape once

- lightweight

- tall

- like 5’8.5

- mamma mia fangirl

- loves DC movies

- has every girl/boy crushing over her

- therapist friend

- always has everything you need somehow

- met jack at a party

- doesn’t allow ANYONE to pick on david along with jack

- cottage gore ascetic

- loves disney

- drives a blue subaru

- is on the high school dance team

- hates the term “UwU”

- is a 16 year old junior

Blink:

- on football team

- still has eyepatch but no one cares

- gayyyy

- dating mush

- PDA

- funny af

- is a really old sophomore

- 16 years old (a january baby)

- camera man for race for blog

- besties are bumlets, mush, and jack

- only one without family trauma

- has twin sister

- has the funniest laugh ever

- volunteers at homeless shelters

- cinnamon roll🥺

- real name is dylan

- hornyyyyy

- has smexy pics on snap

- harry potter fan

- griffindor

- TWITTER WARS

- starts beef for no reason

- watches horror to freak mush out

- it works

Mush:

- hates horror movies

- is dating blink

- is on the wrestling and dance team

- people tease him for being on the dance team

- 15 year olds sophomore

- wants to be a veterinarian

- owns a chicken for some reason

- no one knows how he got a chicken

- chickens name is Kentucky (hehe)

- is a cinnamon roll 🥺

- body dysmorphia

- has eating disorder

- nicknamed sunshine (brought to you by blink)

- has braces

- has mainly girl friends and everyone thinks he’s dating them

- he/him

- pansexual

- civil rights activist

- hates when blink gets hurt

- is a crackhead some times

- is a vegetarian

- works lighting for blog interviews and reports

- PDA is not his thing but he doesn’t mind it

- BOTTOM WHO LOOKS LIKE A TOP

- people think he’s a crybaby when in reality, he rarely cries

- loves disneyland and disney in general

- friends with everyone

- is the matchmaker

- cuddle bug with blink

- mostly C’s and B’s on his report card

- real name is aaron (hehe)

- is a romantic so… mush

Bumlets:

- emo vibes

- on dance team

- is secretly good at soccer

- gamer boi

- has only been in one long term relationship

- is broken hearted

- keeps to himself

- they/he

- pansexual

- had a crush on blink for a bit

- has crushed on every newsie at least once

- is pretty chill

- 15 year old sophomore

- currently single

- taking AP classes with david

- is like really smart

- reads AO3

- doesn’t like wattpad

- plays CoD and halo

- rages when he games

- LOVES GRILLED CHEESE

- scary dog privilege (owns a pit bull)

- pit bulls name is kiara

- knows how to ballroom dance

- romantic boi

- doesn’t open up easily

- knows how mush got his chicken

- friends with poor spot

- is a writer for blog because he can actually spell

- real name is lucas

- has depression hence “bumlets”

- surprisingly really strong

- ✨flexible✨

Skittery:

- one of the oldest newsies (terms of joining)

- only talks to bumlets and jack

- doesn’t like david to much

- has a RBF

- is 16 (turns 17 in august)

- is a junior

- smokes cigarettes

- doesn’t have social media

- is on the varsity water polo team

- ✨rings galore✨

- tries to be cool

- has 2 cats

- cats are cheesy and monica

- has an older brother in college

- works at 7 11

- is not looking for a relationship

- he/him

- straight ally

- tried being gay but didn’t work out

- drinks white wine

- always stressed

- decent student

- A- average

- friends with all the coaches

- headphones are his lifesaver

- is a very numb human

- always has cold skin for some reason

- even in like 100 degree weather he is still cold to the touch

- had facebook then deleted it because hack found his account and spammed it

- historical fiction type of dude

- is the one who finds all of the info to give to writers/reporters for blog

- loves bumlets dog

- drives a toyota prius

- real name is jefferson

- no one but jack knows how he got the name skittery

Crutchie:

- was in a car accident

- real name is charles

- has social anxiety and dyslexia

- should get picked on but jack doesn’t let that happen

- soft boi

- technically isn’t a newsie but shows up to the meetings

- is a emotional support teddy bear

- is the assistant director for the school plays

- best friends are jack, sarah, and mush

- only has instagram

- terrified of heights

- occasionally sleeps over at meddas

- adults love this child

- they/them

- gay

- loves disney

- knows the entire hunchback of notre dame movie by heart

- is 14 years old

- freshman. the only freshman newsie

- child of the group

- goes to all of his friends game or competitions to cheer them on

- is really short

- like REALLY SHORT

- says “rawr” a lot

Medda:

- jack and races mother

- (A SINGLE MOM WHO WORKS TWO JOBS WHO LOVES HER KIDS AND NEVER STOPS WITH GENTLE HANDS AND THE HEART OF A FIGHTERRRR IMMA SURVIVOR)

- is a voice actress

- has been in disney films

- “if you’re going to drink id rather you do it in the house” mentality

- hates the idea of nicotine

- on the PTA

- has annual passes to disneyland

- loves all the newsies

- wants to adopt poor spot

- is in her late 30s to early 40s

- she/her

- straight… kind of

- she says she’s straight but by definition she’s pan

- civil rights activist

- has an ACAB sticker on her car

- PRIDE FLAGS EVERYWHERE

- if the sexuality/gender exists in the lgbtq+ community, she has their flag

- likes gardening

- will never use the wrong pronouns

- doesn’t really eat at chain restaurants

- not afraid to kill someone who hurts one of the newsies

- i’m serious

- she’s tried

- ….

Les:

- in 5th grade; 10

- friends with poor spots siblings

- is friends with the newsies

- loves medda

- is like another crutchie without the trauma/depression/anxiety/etc.

- asks david if him and jack are dating

- he knew david was 💅 before david did

- loves it when one or all of the newsies picks him up from school

- everyone loves him

- got picked on for having a “looser brother”

- spot (both poor and rich) picked him up one time with david. said “if you have a problem with les, you got a problem with me!”

- les was never bothered again

- gets lifted onto the guy’s shoulders all the fricking time

- loves feeling tall

- wants to play football like jack

- is very smart

- is ridiculously fast

- he has the fastest mile time in the whole grade

- teachers pet

- doesn’t have many friends his age

- brags about the newsies to his classmates

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ok maybe bad thought

but I think high functioning people are taking over ... spaces? like idk, I have an autistic cousin brother who can't do shit, hasn't been able to go to school ever so doesn't know how to read and write and he is in a situation he can't get help cause india🌟 but I have been trying to find sources on the internet for him. but I won't get shit, everything is either centered on high functioning autistic people, they have like categories and shit for the most minute differences among high functioning autistic people... or it is focused on caretakers of autistic people extremely on the other side of the spectrum. nothing for my brother, no one is talking of his needs and ways for him to cope and get better at things he needs to or wants to. and like he can't speak clearly, doesn't have a lot of coherent vocabulary to speak eloquently as a result of not functioning properly and getting care, so no one even spares a while to listen to him

I have another cousin brother who has major adhd i think, I mean these both are my theories tbh, but he couldn't pay attention for shit. I remember trying to teach him when I was younger and he can't functioning at all. he also had dyslexia yeah. lately he has been better, after my aunt finally got her shit together a d found a more accommodating school(not very tho, just one that won't hit him and kick him out of classes) but man I tried so hard to find stuff on the internet for people with adhd who can't function at all, cause he was struggling a lot a few years ago, but can't find shit. it is all about, hidden adhd, frustration around not having 100 percent productivity, and honestly just a bunch of people making shit up because anyone has adhd now lol I cant believe the amount of people diagnosed in my school, almost half of my 3 classes is diagnosed with adhd and 1/4 of other 3 lol and these kids have nothing that "abnormal". I am getting into criticism of overdiagnosing and psychiatry yeah. for the smallest of "abnormalities" that are not true a bunch of people are diagnosed and getting medicated so they can meet upto capitalist requirements of productivity but my brother who can't function at all, can't do anything, no one gives a shit about him, no one even acknowledges he exists they all just want to send him to extra care cause if u can't function then there is not point right you got to function at least a bit to get help

the following opinion will like change in a minute because I know this is majorly my fault but. I have depression and I dont function at all maybe bc of it. no, not just like "oh m not bathing for two days omg having such a bad episode suicidal thought aaa" (sorry for being bitter m pissy and jealous and tired) but like I haven't been able to work at school a little over 3 years, my grades are bad and over time they have gone down so bad am failing high school risking everything and I cant get out of bed, can't eat and that is when my parents are on my head 24/7 trying to take care of me but I cant cooperate and... everytime I try to have a conversation try to find shit to get me help all I hear is about high functioning depression and how it is so hard to live while hiding and whatever even my therapist sometimes pits me against it talking about how they all may have it worse and am just. yeah I know they must have it bad I know depression thoughts and symptoms are not fun first hand but. I have some consequences I am suffering that they don't, and these consequences kill my chances of ever surviving and it seems like many people don't care bc no one wants to invest in low functioning...

people dont care if you can't function. as long as you can do the shit u need to, u deserve help. but when u can't, they don't want u. I have had small chat with like 1 person who had depression like mine, she was an adult in her late 20s and she was rich, so she is ok though not doing anything makes her feel worse. she doesn't have a therapist anymore, no one cares if she feels better, she failed at school and college she cant do shit now. I feel like the reason I never see someone else in my place is because they all either got silenced, or killed themselves. I'll end up the same.

it is really funny that my 3 irl friends who have depression but are high functioning have medications, got them pretty quick because they were like this is hindering my full productivity but I didn't get it and still have to somehow prove that I need them even though I failed school while those 3 freinds I am not exaggerating 1 of them is a top student at school, other is also going to a prestigious uni in uk, and the last one is a genius artist he does exhibitions and shit

these are my, close friends but somehow everytime I mention anything remotely about how it really sucks that my depression is ruining my life, my future. if I mention that i wish I could function even if I stayed sad, they get crazy mad and I mean crazy mad. one time they all just straight up ganged up and told me how horrible I was for being ignorant to them and I was like no. no, it is not the same. no, our places are not interchangeable. maybe I am being a bitch, yes i am jealous, but there is a part of me that feels like I really am not bullshitting. it is different. those terms low-functioning/high-functioning should exist, and need to be acknowledged for their differences, because of the society we live in. they say "it doesn't matter bc u both feel the same and both need treatment" but that is idealistic and utopian. it does matter if u r ruining ur future or not, if u r not being able to participate in life or not. people use heavy terms so easily to excuse this, they are like "u r suffering at hands of capitalism" but that doesn't mean it is not a different level of suffering. capitalism is the reality at the moment right, so why are you all speaking over us... and not acknowledging that we are suffering more. idk if this makes sense

idk who am criticizing. this is a rare moment when am not criticizing me, majorly cause am thinking of both my brothers... maybe am hitting the wrong spots maybe my jealousy is blinding me cause in cad if ny brothers it is the lack of indian mental health system that is preventing help to them and trust me I am majorly frustrated at that. but I am in the right system and somehow I am still not idk.... but m also frustrated at the internet, for not giving them or me the basic stuff, any damn acknowledgment man any acknowledgment. this post is more about how none of you care or say anything except when it is speaking over low functioning people and scream about how hard it is

Idk but I think it is like that gifted child burn out thing that a couple people here brought up. honestly I was a gifted child who is now burnt out, I found it relatable but after a while I was like ok I get it, it sucks u can't live upto expectations but stop acting like it was worse for people like u and me than those people I saw being abused bc they weren't born genius the low functioning people who got bullied and rejected since they were 5 and that always held me back from gathering pity about being a former gifted kid. you guys made such a big deal about it that it was speaking over them I felt like. when I saw a couple people finally bring up how they wished more people talked about not being good at shit since they were kids and everyone hating them being abused by the system and stuff... I think death2america did it too... I was like yeah... and I feel like that is a parallel to this. people said that it was tiring how gifted people kept speaking over them, snatch away any sympathy they may get by loudly crying about how it was really bad for them though, and I feel like, this is happening again too. high functioning people take over idk spaces and dont let low functioning people speak. no one is interested in them, how to help them how to talk about them bc they are useless to them. and it may be like how people dont like acknowledging their privilege... they don't want to acknowledge there is something worse than their situation bc they fear it will dimish the value of their pain which is understandable and pitiful but, at why at the cost of others. why can't we acknowledge it and rather work on what everyone needs instead of speaking over others. why can't we have more conversations about low functioning people have sources alongside ur shit

and I think this along with other reasons may also be one of the reasons why over diagnosing happens and we let it bc rather than focusing on the reasons we begin diagnosing for to treat people stuck in viscious cycles we are now more focused on listening to people who can at least contribute and function and be useful reach their full productivity levels rather than people who are suffering bc of things that are not artificial bc they should die right if they cant do shit let's not even help them in the slightest. this doesn't mran high functioning people shouldn't get help, it means they should not be shadowing low functioning people ig

[mothdruid]

(I might as well the be the 💀💀 anon at this point) that’s so cool tho, I wish I could get into acting n maybe modeling but I am ceo of being insecure, ig I am getting fed up with my like 5 or 6 year old now trauma messing my life up like I pretty much got kicked out of college for said trauma n they wouldn’t do anything to try and help me, and ig I’m sick of feeling like my abusers will always have control over me in the way I have daily mental breakdowns over it bc I’m still kinda shocked this actually happened to me and no one knew or realized. Barry’s kinda helping me in a “fuck this I don’t need to think about it all the time I don’t have to let that shitty moment in my life define who I am and fuck up every opportunity that comes my way because some shitty ppl decided to take advantage of me” which amazingly I haven’t realized till now that that is something I can do n it’s all bc of this Irish man who I think is insanely pretty n talented

i'm so glad to hear that he is helping you! it's kind of wild how such small things can help us! that is kind of how i've started living my life. my existence is basically "i'm depressed and an anxious mess but i can't let it stop my life."

i would suggest that if you are having that much trouble to potentially look into therapy. therapy is phenomenal and really helps. i've been going to therapy for four years now and i don't know where i would be without it. my therapist also encourages my whole fanfic writing and hyperfixations! my therapist is honestly one of my favorite people i have in my life ❤️

sorry i just gushed about my therapist lmao

[moons-and-stars-and-shit]

It worked! Sorry to bug you with a message! But I'd like to request a cake now!

So, about me. I have an actual name but I don't think I've heard it in months😃, instead I have a bunch of nicknames! (Rion, ri, oreo, onion, o, etc), I'm actually nb so I chose that name, however I 100% consider naming myself Arson💀My pronouns are they/them and I'm about 5'5, I have short, fluffy brown hair that I usually dye the front blue. I'm Asian hispanic, but I really don't look like either- my favorite foods are either really spicy and salty or sweet. Not the overwhelming chemical sweet tho, like a natural sweet flavor. My personality type is infp, and ig when I first meet people I can be shy (that's an understatement, I was mute for the first week of school🕳🏃‍♂️) but once I get to know people I can be pretty chaotic (once again, arson). I'm not a 100% demon spawn though, I don't really like making scenes in public and I probably will cry if I do- but I still have fun lol. I'm also the person who copes with severe mental health issues using humor, to an alarming degree 😔 I'm the therapist friend when really I'm the one who needs therapy. I also have a social battery that can die at random times, so I really like/need friends who can handle random mood changes of me going from energetic to silent in seconds. Academically, I'm really book smart, I'm a tutor, but my grades don't reflect it. I tend to procrastinate a lot and avoid studying, usually I catch myself last minute or trust memory on tests, but every now and then there's something that tanks my grades. I'm not very athletic, but I still try to play sports. I enjoy the feeling when I do something right, but the rest of the time I usually beat myself up for messing up.

And now just random facts 😃👍

My favorite color is yellow, not the bright eye sore shade that makes you want to throw up, but the nice softer, light shade. And I like anything that comes with that color! (Sunflowers, flowy sundresses and flip flops, summer activities, burning concrete, warm rain, etc). Nobody knows my music taste, it changes weekly, however I usually come back to mitski/cavetown or summer themed songs a lot! I enjoy playing music, but I have the curse of being a fast learner so that usually leads to be being bored and learning a new instrument at any given chance. And my birthday is a weird date that fucks with zodiacs so I can be considered either a leo or cancer, my personality changes a bunch, so take your pick lol. (Though emotionally I tend to be cancerous, I just express it and show it in a way a leo would) And someday I wanna be a long term traveler, or a florist. Just a job that makes me happy :). And I guess if I had to classify my aesthetic it would be bloomcore or soft grunge. I like wearing big sweaters and if I could I would wear a bunch of butterfly clips in my hair and wear mom jeans. (I would also wear man crushers, I mean, platforms if I was confident)

Aaaannnnd that was really long sorry!

To sum up, I'm just a bipolar bitch with depression and anxiety 👍

Thanks a bunch for just taking the time to read this!

@oririon

Romantic Matchup

Bokuto Koutarou

How Y’all Met

IERJNDJS

I’m getting a classic summer love vibe from this matchup 👀

Ok so I just Hc that Bokuto LOVES flowers

So he would always just go to the local flower shop to look at them

Pls hes to precious I cant-

But anyways you we’re working a summer job at the flower shop

And you grew fond of our little owl boy

You would always talk to him whenever he visited

He just made your job that much more enjoyable :)

So one day you stopped him right before he left and told him he could pick a bouquet of flowers if he wanted

He BEAMED at you and picked a bouquet of flowers he always looked at whenever he came

But what shocked you was instead of walking out with them

He gave them to you!

He then went on talking about how he really liked you but didn’t know how to tell you

At this point he was just rambling

So you laughed and asked him if he would like to go to the ocean with you after your shift

He agreed and you swear you saw stars in his eyes

After your shift you met up with Bokuto and went to the beach

You guys literally spent ALL day there!

And even some of the night 👀

Being the gentleman he is offered to walk you home

And when you two got to your house he asked you to be his s/o

What They Love About You

Ok starting off with a strange one

He loves the fact that your favorite color is yellow 💛

He just thinks it fits you so well 😊

He loves that you have to ability to turn your trauma into humor

Now I’m ngl...

Ye found it extremely concerning at first 🥲

But once you explained it was like a coping mechanism for you

He was super supportive!

AAAAAAAA

He LOVES your aesthetic!

He thinks it’s so cute

And once again he thinks it fits you 👀

He appreciates the fact that your smart

If he doesn’t understand something in class

He’ll just go to you!

And honesty going over the material with him has helped your understanding as well 👀

Bokuto s grades:📈

Your grades: 📈

Favorite Things To Do Together

Oml he loves summers with you

Any summer activity

Beaches

Ice cream

Flower meadows 👀

Summer night drives

The whole shtick

But when it’s not summer

He loves doing classic seasonal activities

Examples:

Fall - Jumping in leaf piles, coffee dates, preparing for Halloween, etc

Winter - Snowball fights/Making Snowmen, Christmas movie marathons, hot cocoa/ baking, etc

Spring - Dancing in the rain, picnics, gardening etc

It’s a vibe year round with bf Bokuto

Random Hc

His favorite season is summer

And his second is winter

Ik...polar opposites

Oof

He TOTALLY gets your mood swings

Although they may not be the same as his

He still understands them and respects them

Every year on your anniversary he buys you the exact same bouquet he gave you at the flower shop

Speaking of the flower shop 👀

He got a job there with you the following summer

So you guys basically spent most of your days together

Bokuto is REALLY bad at dark humor

But for some reason he still tries 😭

It’s either TOO dark

Or not dark at all 💀

Astrology

(We’re gonna go with your cancer zodiac 😂)

When Cancer and Virgo make a love match, a strong, down-to-earth relationship with staying power is the happy result.

This is a relationship with great potential to get better and better over the passing years.

Both Cancer and Virgo are goal-oriented and disciplined.

They are sincere and devoted to one another and share a strong sense of purpose.

No lightweight love here: These two were not really built for flings!

Cancer and Virgo deeply admire one another: Virgo respects Cancer’s quiet strength and dedication while Cancer appreciates Virgo’s keen adaptability and intelligence.

These lovers may get off to a slow start, but over time, bonds will only grow stronger.

The Cancer-Virgo love match prides itself on common sense and strong principles over fluff and inconsequential or fleeting connections.

They enjoy the material comforts of life, but they will only feel good about their bounty if it has come as a result of honest hard work.

There could be tiffs if Virgo becomes too critical for Cancer’s easily bruised feelings; Cancer needs to understand that it’s just Virgo’s nature to point out what they observe, that it’s not a personal attack.

A Virgo may bristle at their Cancer mate’s stubborn streak, but it’s a trait that a patient and understanding love partner like Virgo could come to appreciate.

Also, Virgo’s urge to serve suits Cancer’s affectionate, nurturing nature well.

Their dedication to working toward the same goals.

Both partners in this love match enjoy a stable home life and nice things, and Virgo truly enjoys helping Cancer along the way to achieving their goals.

Their shared goals and desires make theirs a highly compatible love match.

Overall Aesthetic

Bloomcore 🌸

Bloom - Jesse

This Side of Paradise - Coyote Theory

Flaming Hot Cheetos - Claire

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Bloody Painter Headcanons

am i gonna write about helen even tho no one cares? fUCK YEA @creepy-bi-day hope you enjoy. Im still not a writer sorry :/. also my personal hcs, its okay to disagree. Also dark themes again. 

Bloody Painter

Backstory:

was born on Oct 1st, 1980, fully name Helen Otis

mother is white, father is Japanese

is an only child. Helen’s parents had a very difficult time in getting pregnant like yeeeaaars (10 ish) and they also really wanted a girl. Like in their head, they would be getting a girl. and when they did get pregnant the ultra scan did show a girl. so they were in shock when a boy popped out. 

they no likely. Since helen’s mom was a teacher, they decided to raise the boy as a girl and simply homeschool them until they had to go to college, once there they could simply transition into a girl. This is how they thought trans people were so they thought they’ll do the same to get a girl (This was obliviously wrong)

so they tried to do that but mother couldn’t get the needed forms and paperwork to homeschool Helen so they had to go to school. so their parents decided the best thing to do was to make them as manly as possible in 6 months. so everything pink and girl (lots of which were comfort items like plushies, and art things) were thrown out in front of poor 6 year old Helen who didn’t understand what was happening. Helen couldn’t do art, couldn’t wear certain clothes, couldn’t say certain things. punishments weren’t physical but there was a lot of yelling.

around the 3 month before school started, their parents decided that maybe Helen should meet their grandparents (parents kept giving excuses why they couldn’t visit). everything was going swell until the grandparents on the father’s side asked why name their BOY a GIRL name. before the parents could say anything, helen said “cause im a girl?” ... yaaaa queerphobic grandparents and little helen didn’t get along. plus helen was white passing so asian grandparents blamed their mom.

parents cut contact with the grandparents, and yelled at helen a lot. (poor bby) this mental abuse continued over 3 months and caused helen to stop talking and start repressing a lot of his feeling which his parents encouraged cause “”bOYs donT hAve fEeLinGs””

in school, the parents told the teacher that there was a mix up when filling out his name and that they should call him Otis. Of course one teacher messed up and called him Helen, and then they got a lot of comments form their peers, but they learned not to say that they were a girl at this point. 

helen was lightly bullied for his name, and when they tried to tell a teacher they were told to “man up :))” 

and so more repressing feelings

it wasn’t until middle school where someone (a kid who they later learned was named tom), stole and planted a watch of another girl into helen’s bag. This meant helen’s bullying got a lot worse. Before it was a comment here or there, now it was physical and a lot often. this is also when he began to develop symptoms of anxiety and depression.

he slowly became friends with Tom, who was also bullied a lot. But one day Tom took Helen to the roof where Tom confessed into planting the watch. Helen was very upset, and the two started to argue when Tom slipped off the edge, Helen tried to hold on to Tom, but Tom let go of his hand. Tom dead.

there was an investigation done, and Helen wasn’t in trouble as some students and teachers said how they saw him hold onto Tom. The school was given a speech about how bullying was bad, and tried to get things back to normal. Helen’s bully did die down, tho lots of ppl tried to spread rumors about how he pushed Tom. 

his parents were more upset over how this would look and not about Helen’s mental health. Helen never told them about the bulling. 

When high school started, the bullies acted as if nothing happened. and on Halloween, Helen snapped and killed 5 of the main bullies. He was caught and sent to a mental hospital. 

so you think that finally, Helen can get the help they need right :)). ahhah no....

so the hospital did diagnose Helen with depression and a mild case of anxiety, but basically put them on pills. the actually therapist had a very hard time getting Helen to open up. this is because the on their first session helen started with his gender identity, and the therapist told him “look you are biologically a boy, so you must be a boy :))” and when they said that sometimes he felt more comfortable when they were more fem, they was told that was wrong. 

so helen shut up like a clam cause they did not feel safe with this guy

at least they learned how to somewhat manage their depression and anxiety :)

once helen turned 18 he was released, and Helen decided to be an artist and not kill. but he saw another one of his bullies and said fuck it.

slender saw and was like “i like this child. imma adopt them”

and Helen joined the mansion

Personality:

look Helen was mocked and betrayed by basically every person in their life, they don’t trust ppl

they are nice, but they don’t new people

if you’re nice they’ll be nice, if you’re mean they’ll be mean, simple

cold hearted, look if you are neutral to them and get run over by car they wont do anything. the world was shit to them, they’re shit back.

quiet. like Helen could be inches away and you still won’t hear them

buttttt if you get close (good luck) you see a passionate, kinda nerdy, very kinda touch starved, sarcastic person who just lived a shitty life. 

Fun Facts:

k mans has a 6 inch dick, 7 when hard, but is thick, and stretches you out-

*cough* moving on-

bi sexual. Helen has a very hard time acknowledging romantic feelings but is down to date the girls, gays and theys. again good luck getting there but it may happen.

gender fluid Helen has come a long way and their gender identity has ranged from girl, boy, both, none and yes. They’ve settled on gender-neutral pronouns but doesn’t hate being called she/her or he/him usually. On a bad day, they can’t say the same. 

Called them painter. The only ppl who can called them by their birth names are ppl who are close to them. On fem days, they like Helen. On masc days, they like Otis. Sometimes they don’t care, sometimes they just wanna be called painter. If you’re not sure and you actually care just ask, he’ll say what day it is. usually they dress accordingly, but still if you’re not sure ask, they’ll prefer it.

Speaking of clothes, the fit??? is on point???? like imagine dark academia with more blues, blacks and tans. Helen looks like the protagonist of a boarding school au.

they will wear skirt and dresses and corsets, and do they’re (slightly basic) hair and makeup.

some creeps (jeff) tried to make fun of helen for this. And when you look at Helen you dont think that they’re much of a fight. Helen’s lean and kinda thin (kid doesn’t eat a lot), but Helen did karate for year cause their dad wanted their “perfectly normal son” to do something manly and kinda close to their culture. Helen learned how to fight with a very good guard and how to be very fast but not so much strong. Wasn’t until he got out of the mental hospital did he learn about pressure points, specially those that dont need a lot pressure :) you see where this is going. 

Basically Helen is that one movie character who touches a spot on someone's neck and they pass out. (this is the best i can describe it, they dont do this exactly but similar things) 

also very talented at art and arty things. like annoyingly good. he’ll try wood craving and make amazing things after only learning about it an hour ago. Current draws online and does online commissions to pay for his coffee

actually likes hunting, not with gun but with like bows an arrows. they dont hunt often cause they like animals

has to finish whatever they’re working on. please force this baby into bed

has a coffee addiction

likes classical music and lofi. 

dont talk about the whole painting with blood thing, they were 14, it was cringey, they know

hair is like chin length ish, its black with waves, so if they wanna be masc they can tie it up and when its fem, they can let it down and straighten it 

forgets to eat, feed them

k this is long. As you can see I can also write a whole essay about Helen. I will write about Helen’s and Johnny friendship, along with the other creeps later. but im tired. 

[kisafavi-17]

Jack:

- football star

- quarterback

- friends with newsies in middle school

- HELLA TALL

- openly bisexual

- he/him

- seems scary but is really nice

- had a small fling with sarah

- RED BULLLL

- average student

- creator of blog

- junior in high school

- just turned 17 in february

- teachers love him

- massive flirt

- loves horror movies and will put them on to have background noise

- HIS REAL NAME IS JACKSON BUT CALL HIM THAT AND HE WILL END YOU

- lives with medda

David:

- straight A+

- honor roll gate kid

- taking 5 AP classes

- gay and on the ace spectrum

- major social anxiety

- new kid

- met jack first

- closeted/didn’t know

- tutor to most newsies

- has a older sister sarah (by 1 year) and younger brother les (10 years old)

- he/they?

- editor of the blog (once joined)

- mentally ill

- scared of spot

- sophomore taking junior classes

- 15 years

- reads romantic novels to understand women

- has feminine products on him at all times

- FEMINIST

- has sensory issues

Race:

- pothead

- always has nic of some kind

- TRAUMAAAAAA

- always horny

- flirts with all

- attracted to few

- very openly gay

- gets bullied a lot

- on-scene reporter for the school news blog

- barely passing

- he/they/she (doesn’t care really)

- swears A LOT

- met spot in 4th grade

- sophomore (got held back a year) 16 years old

- is down for anything

- lives with jack at medda’s

- is the meme lord

- does. not. sleep. (or sleeps all the time no in between)

- has dyslexia and reads wattpad or redit

Spot:

- either really rich or really poor

* Rich:

- daddy’s money

- old family friends with jack

- arranges interviews with people for the blog

- on baseball team

- picks on boys

- REFUSES TO MAKE FUN OF GIRLS

- lowkey feminist

- internalized homophobia

- drives a porsche… a BRIGHT RED porsche

- he/him (says nor/mal like a douche tho)

- HELLA DEPRESSED

- takes “performance enhancing” pills

- secretly hangs out with the newsies

- junior but really young

- david is his tutor

- lowkey really dumb

- refuses to read anything. ever

- IS NOT FUCKING SHORT!!!

- he’s like 5’10 (says hes 6’0 tho)

- real name is thomas

* Poor:

- TRAUMATIZED AFFFFF

- wears zip-up hoodies with black skinny jeans

- beat up black vans

- emo

- also a really young junior

- hot topic is his ✨home✨

- everyone is scared of him

- the “quiet kid”

- he/him

- closeted bi pref men

- race is his only friend

- occasionally smokes weed

- oldest sibling of 3 (twins one of each. 5th grade)

- has a job no one knows about

- works as a waiter at a dinner an hour from school

- IS. NOT. SHORT.

- HE. IS. LIKE. 5’11.

- gets into fights and never looses

- secretly simping for race

- protects the newsies

- writes anonymous articles for blog

- ✨black eyeliner✨

- always has painted fingernails

- B+ average

- real name is sean

Sarah:

- book worm

- LESBIAN

- she/they

- loves the book worms

- reads anything and everything

- does photography for school blog

- definitely does theater/choir

- owns wattpad

- writes on wattpad

- definitely simping for fictional characters

- has tried a vape once

- lightweight

- tall

- like 5’8.5

- mamma mia fangirl

- loves DC movies

- has every girl/boy crushing over her

- therapist friend

- always has everything you need somehow

- met jack at a party

- doesn’t allow ANYONE to pick on david along with jack

- cottage gore ascetic

- loves disney

- drives a blue subaru

- is on the high school dance team

- hates the term “UwU”

- is a 16 year old junior

Blink:

- on football team

- still has eyepatch but no one cares

- gayyyy

- dating mush

- PDA

- funny af

- is a really old sophomore

- 16 years old (a january baby)

- camera man for race for blog

- besties are bumlets, mush, and jack

- only one without family trauma

- has twin sister

- has the funniest laugh ever

- volunteers at homeless shelters

- cinnamon roll🥺

- real name is dylan

- hornyyyyy

- has smexy pics on snap

- harry potter fan

- griffindor

- TWITTER WARS

- starts beef for no reason

- watches horror to freak mush out

- it works

Mush:

- hates horror movies

- is dating blink

- is on the wrestling and dance team

- people tease him for being on the dance team

- 15 year olds sophomore

- wants to be a veterinarian

- owns a chicken for some reason

- no one knows how he got a chicken

- chickens name is Kentucky (hehe)

- is a cinnamon roll 🥺

- body dysmorphia

- has eating disorder

- nicknamed sunshine (brought to you by blink)

- has braces

- has mainly girl friends and everyone thinks he’s dating them

- he/him

- pansexual

- civil rights activist

- hates when blink gets hurt

- is a crackhead some times

- is a vegetarian

- works lighting for blog interviews and reports

- PDA is not his thing but he doesn’t mind it

- BOTTOM WHO LOOKS LIKE A TOP

- people think he’s a crybaby when in reality, he rarely cries

- loves disneyland and disney in general

- friends with everyone

- is the matchmaker

- cuddle bug with blink

- mostly C’s and B’s on his report card

- real name is aaron (hehe)

- is a romantic so… mush

Bumlets:

- emo vibes

- on dance team

- is secretly good at soccer

- gamer boi

- has only been in one long term relationship

- is broken hearted

- keeps to himself

- they/he

- pansexual

- had a crush on blink for a bit

- has crushed on every newsie at least once

- is pretty chill

- 15 year old sophomore

- currently single

- taking AP classes with david

- is like really smart

- reads AO3

- doesn’t like wattpad

- plays CoD and halo

- rages when he games

- LOVES GRILLED CHEESE

- scary dog privilege (owns a pit bull)

- pit bulls name is kiara

- knows how to ballroom dance

- romantic boi

- doesn’t open up easily

- knows how mush got his chicken

- friends with poor spot

- is a writer for blog because he can actually spell

- real name is lucas

- has depression hence “bumlets”

- surprisingly really strong

- ✨flexible✨

Skittery:

- one of the oldest newsies (terms of joining)

- only talks to bumlets and jack

- doesn’t like david to much

- has a RBF

- is 16 (turns 17 in august)

- is a junior

- smokes cigarettes

- doesn’t have social media

- is on the varsity water polo team

- ✨rings galore✨

- tries to be cool

- has 2 cats

- cats are cheesy and monica

- has an older brother in college

- works at 7 11

- is not looking for a relationship

- he/him

- straight ally

- tried being gay but didn’t work out

- drinks white wine

- always stressed

- decent student

- A- average

- friends with all the coaches

- headphones are his lifesaver

- is a very numb human

- always has cold skin for some reason

- even in like 100 degree weather he is still cold to the touch

- had facebook then deleted it because hack found his account and spammed it

- historical fiction type of dude

- is the one who finds all of the info to give to writers/reporters for blog

- loves bumlets dog

- drives a toyota prius

- real name is jefferson

- no one but jack knows how he got the name skittery

Crutchie:

- was in a car accident

- real name is charles

- has social anxiety and dyslexia

- should get picked on but jack doesn’t let that happen

- soft boi

- technically isn’t a newsie but shows up to the meetings

- is a emotional support teddy bear

- is the assistant director for the school plays

- best friends are jack, sarah, and mush

- only has instagram

- terrified of heights

- occasionally sleeps over at meddas

- adults love this child

- they/them

- gay

- loves disney

- knows the entire hunchback of notre dame movie by heart

- is 14 years old

- freshman. the only freshman newsie

- child of the group

- goes to all of his friends game or competitions to cheer them on

- is really short

- like REALLY SHORT

- says “rawr” a lot

Medda:

- jack and races mother

- (A SINGLE MOM WHO WORKS TWO JOBS WHO LOVES HER KIDS AND NEVER STOPS WITH GENTLE HANDS AND THE HEART OF A FIGHTERRRR IMMA SURVIVOR)

- is a voice actress

- has been in disney films

- “if you’re going to drink id rather you do it in the house” mentality

- hates the idea of nicotine

- on the PTA

- has annual passes to disneyland

- loves all the newsies

- wants to adopt poor spot

- is in her late 30s to early 40s

- she/her

- straight… kind of

- she says she’s straight but by definition she’s pan

- civil rights activist

- has an ACAB sticker on her car

- PRIDE FLAGS EVERYWHERE

- if the sexuality/gender exists in the lgbtq+ community, she has their flag

- likes gardening

- will never use the wrong pronouns

- doesn’t really eat at chain restaurants

- not afraid to kill someone who hurts one of the newsies

- i’m serious

- she’s tried

- ….

Les:

- in 5th grade; 10

- friends with poor spots siblings

- is friends with the newsies

- loves medda

- is like another crutchie without the trauma/depression/anxiety/etc.

- asks david if him and jack are dating

- he knew david was 💅 before david did

- loves it when one or all of the newsies picks him up from school

- everyone loves him

- got picked on for having a “looser brother”

- spot (both poor and rich) picked him up one time with david. said “if you have a problem with les, you got a problem with me!”

- les was never bothered again

- gets lifted onto the guy’s shoulders all the fricking time

- loves feeling tall

- wants to play football like jack

- is very smart

- is ridiculously fast

- he has the fastest mile time in the whole grade

- teachers pet

- doesn’t have many friends his age

- brags about the newsies to his classmates

[c-e-c-r-o-p-i-a]

do you have a lot of headcanons? If so can you tell us them? :) 💕

HELLO IM SORRY THIS TOOK SO LONG BUT SKSHDHDH ITS A DOOZY strap in y’all

Connor:

- he’s VERY gay!! he figures it out pretty early in life and tries to tell his family, but they just kind of act like it never happened (internalized homophobia intensifies). he thinks that if he tells people he likes girls too that it’ll be less made fun of (it’s not)

- at first he paints his nails purely to get on his dad’s nerves, but then he likes it and keeps doing it (fuck gender, I’ll do what I want). in college, he goes by he/they pronouns

- he’s got BPD (borderline personality disorder) along with his depression and his family tries to treat it with everything but medication (which he desperately needs) bc they believe it can be solved without “getting hooked on drugs”. he’s also struggled with having an eating disorder.

- he’s rly artistic. his mom has always supported it, but when he brought up the fact that he’s interested in art school after high school, the dreams were crushed bc it wasn’t practical

- he’s got mild ADD!! so he’s been discouraged his whole life because teachers don’t believe in him and think he’s a bad student bc he just can’t focus (or he focuses too much, like with his art, and can’t focus on anything else)

- he’s like incredibly smart. he’d be a straight A student if he wasn’t so discouraged by literally everyone (school, family, etc)

- boi is a Sagittarius and u can’t tell me any different

Zoe:

- (like I’ve mentioned before) she dyes her naturally dark wavy hair blonde and straightens it every day so she’ll be less associated w her brother. people are surprised when they find out they’re related

- zoe is pansexual!! everyone’s hot. it’s a problem. she keeps this to herself because she’s seen how her family has treated Connor for coming out to them, and doesn’t want them to hate her too

- she’s a Virgo

- since she’s so likeable, she has a lot of decent friends. she’s friends with everyone. this also means that she doesn’t really have close friends and spends most of her time alone with her guitar. and...

- zoe’s an extrovert. she gets super frustrated when she can’t be around people, like her family, because they’re all shitty. she loves school simply because of the interaction she gets to have. she can’t wait for college bc of this. she probably posts her music on a private account just to get that interaction

Evan:

- Evan’s on the autism spectrum. this is based on a lovely post by sincerelymlb (x). more details about it are in that post!! seriously go read it

- Jewish!!

- Evan’s zodiac is cancer

- he probably has the worst body image of the main squad. I headcanon that this comes from his dad, who’s always made fun of him for his body shape (and everything else about him) even tho his dad lost a bunch of weight after leaving heidi in the most unhealthy way possible. he probably spews a whole bunch of unhealthy eating habits at Evan every time he calls. asks him how his “beach bod” is coming along

- a lot of people believe that Evan’s bisexual, but I tend to lean more toward demisexual biromantic. demi is on the ace spectrum, meaning he’s gotta have that emotional connection before he feels sexual attraction

- Evan’s been in therapy since before he started high school. he’s got every anxiety and also depression, and possibly a panic disorder, and since his mom’s a nurse she got him medicated. he doesn’t believe he needs medication bc his self esteem is so low that he doesn’t think it’ll fix anything (and doesn’t take it) so then the cycle continues. he doesn’t mesh with Dr. Sherman but he’s too much of a people pleaser to ask for a new therapist & because of this he doesn’t believe in therapy for a long time

Jared:

- aw man. Jared is so sad. all of his “friends from other schools” and “girlfriends” are fake, they’re all lies, his only friend is Evan and he makes up these stories so Evan will think he’s cool & not leave him :,) and Jared helped Evan with the whole lie situation bc Jared knows what it’s like to lie for your own personal gain :)))

- boi is a Scorpio

- Jared is similar to zoe in the way that he just thinks everyone is hot. he ain’t picky. honestly he takes what he can get like I feel like this boy would have sex with anyone

- I have this headcanon that Jared has two moms. idk why I just DO. and that he’s oddly protective of them and all lesbians (like Alana, but we’ll get to that in a sec)

- also jewish!!!

- I also have a headcanon that Jared picks on Connor bc he’s got a crush on him, and Evan because he’s got a crush on him, and Zoe because he has a crush on her, and—

Alana

- she’s a big ol’ lesbian. she figured it out pretty early on like Connor, but her family was supportive as hell so she never saw it as a bad thing. when she got to middle school and noticed all of the bigotry she figured it was a need to know kind of thing. she’d tell them if they asked.

- she’s got two dads, so internalized homophobia was never really a thing for her. they also shelter her & dote on her a lot bc she’s the only kid left in the house (she’s got older brothers who all graduated while she was in elementary school)

- Aquarius babey

- she comes across as very self centered, but she just struggles with interaction and hates silence. it’s almost an impulse to fill the silence, and she’s gotta ramble on about something or she’ll freak out, so she usually talks about herself bc it’s what she knows best

- she takes up extracurriculars to fill up her time, since she doesn’t have any close friends at all. being in every activity possible and stressing over how to manage her time is better than sitting at home and thinking about how lonely she is. she also has excuses not to hang out with people this way, because she’s afraid people will leave if they get too close

- depression & anxiety!!

if u read this far ur a BLESSING thanks for reading my rambles

[isrustandstardust]

1. What type of criminal would you be?

A very very sick serial killer like Ed Gein.

2. What are you listening to right now?

I lived with a Killer. I watch it every morning.

3. If you had to choose a stripper name, what would it be?

Vixen.

4. If your phone started ringing, who would you hope is calling?

Nobody, I hate talking on the phone.

5. Do you drink?

A little.

6. Do you smoke?

Way too much.

7. What is the first thing you notice in someone?

Eyes, attitude.

8. Do you get attached easily?

Definitely no.

9. Do you like your eye color?

It’s pretty common but I like it.

10. Have any stupid human tricks?

11. Humor me. What physical ideal do you imagine in a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner?

I don’t have an ideal. I like blue eyes, but it’s not a must have. I don’t dwell a lot on physical features.

12. What type of personality traits do you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner?

Honesty, kindness, intelligence and a little bit of perversion.

13. Any other essential quirks/interests/other you look for in a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner?

I need someone with similar interests.

14. Any romantic gestures you really like?

I’m not into romantic gestures at all.

15. Any sexual fantasies? Are you daring enough to share one?

I have lots, but I keep them private.

16. Have you ever been in love?

Once.

17. Do you have a crush/romantic interest in anyone?

I’m in love with my husband.

18. What’s your sexual orientation (if you feel comfortable answering)?

Bi.

19. What’s your favorite color and why?

I’d say black but technically it’s not a color. So I’ll say orange and teal.

20. What was your most embarrassing moment?

I really can’t remember one.

21. Do you ever wish you were someone else?

It happens.

22. What were you like when you were a kid?

Awkward xD

23. What would your dream house be like?

Full of light, with a big garden.

24. What last made you laugh?

My husband being silly.

25. Do you have a place you like to go to collect your thoughts?

I stay at home when I need to.

26. What is your favorite/least favorite food?

I like red meat and I do not eat bread or pasta.

27. What turns you on?

Intelligence and perversion.

28. What turns you off?

Stupidity.

29. Have you ever been skinny dipping?

Once.

30. Would you go bungee jumping/sky diving if given the chance?

Yup.

31. Do you have any siblings?

A younger brother.

32. Do you like to dance?

A lot.

33. What is your definition of cheating?

Doing something you cannot talk about with your partner.

34. Have you ever stolen anything?

Yes.

35. Do you regret anything?

I could have done a few thing better.

36. Do you have any phobias?

Arachnophobia, thalassophobia, atelophobia.

37. Ever broken any bones?

No, never.

38. Ever come close to death?

Twice.

39. What is your religion/spirituality, if any?

It’s a really complex matter.

40. Have you ever been to a psychiatrist/therapist?

Yes, with no use.

41. Are looks important in a relationship?

No.

42. Are you more like your mom or your dad?

I’m not like my parents.

43. What is your favorite season?

Autumn.

44. Do you have any tattoos?

I have 15.

45. Do you have any piercings?

Not atm, but I’d love to get pierced again in the future.

46. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?

5 boyfriends, 1 girlfriend.

47. Have you ever had a crush on a fictional character?

Like, always xD.

48. What is your favorite thing to do?

Drawing.

49. If you could only visit one place outside of your hometown, where would it be?

Iceland.

50. Do you get jealous easily?

No, not at all. But I get jealous with a reason.

51. What is your favorite type of food?

Low calories food.

52. Do you ever want to get married?

I am married.

53. Who was your first kiss with?

My best friend at the time.

54. How many people have you kissed?

I don’t know tbh.

55. What is your idea of the perfect date?

Being with someone I like.

56. Are you an introvert or an extrovert?

Introvert, almost asocial.

57. Do you believe in life on other planets, ghosts, or mythical creatures?

I believe in life in the universe.

58. What talent do you wish you’d been born with?

The kind of music talent my husband has.

59. What is your saddest memory?

All the memories related to my mother.

60. Do you believe in love at first sight?

Yes.

61. Do you believe in soul mates?

Yes.

62. Have you ever dyed your hair?

A lot. Pink, blue, red, purple, blonde, gray, orange.

63. Has someone ever spread a nasty rumor about you?

You have no idea XD

64. Would you go against your moral code for money?

It depends on how much money.

65. What are three things most people don’t know about you?

I have several personality disorders [family and friends do not know], I can write backwards like DaVinci, I’m into pretty weird stuff.

66. Have you ever been diagnosed with depression?

Yes.

67. Have you ever contemplated suicide?

Yes.

68. How long was your longest relationship?

4 years and counting.

69. Is the glass half empty or half full?

I don’t know, is it alcoholic?

70. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?

Leeet’s not go there...

71. Who is your most loyal friend?

My best friend Francesca.

72. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend/partner, what is your favorite thing about him/her?

He’s a good man.

73. What is your favorite thing about your body and your personality?

I like my hands and lips. And I like my wit and sarcasm.

74. Are you a bad person?

Maybe.

75. Are you a lover or a fighter?

Both.

76. What did you do on your last birthday?

Had dinner with husband and friends.

77. What is your favorite quote and why?

So it goes. It helps me let things go.

78. If your best friend died, what would you do?

I’d be crushed I guess.

79. If you had to go back in time and change one thing, what would it be?

Human evolution?

80. If you only had 24 hours to live, what would you do?

I’d love to be by the lake one last time.

81. What is the strangest dream you’ve ever had?

Where do I start? I dream about apocalyptic end of the world pretty much every night.

82. Are you happier single or in a relationship?

Being single or in a relationship does not define my happiness.

83. Who were you in a past life?

A witch.

84. What is your happiest childhood memory?

Me and my dad watching western movies.

85. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?

Yes.

86. Have you ever had an imaginary friend?

No, it I had an imaginary guardian angel when I was young.

87. What is the story behind one of your scars?

My scars are from self harming.

88. What is your ideal career?

The one I have.

89. Do you want kids?

Maybe, in the future.

90. Do you live with your parents?

No, I’m not 8.

91. Do you have any pets?

Not atm. I want a Rottweiler and a Sphynx tho.

92. How do you feel about PDA?

I’m ok with that, I’m very affectionate.

93. If you could change one thing about the world, what would it be?

People.

94. Where would you like to live?

Iceland.

95. Where would you go on your dream vacation?

I’d love to visit Japan, Russia and Iceland.

96. Describe yourself in one word.

Smart.

97. Describe yourself in one sentence.

‘You seek traumas as the night seeks dreams’.

98. Where do you see yourself in five years?

I honestly have no idea, I guess still here, with a better house and still doing my things :)

99. What is your greatest accomplishment?

Overcoming my mental illnesses enough to function as a normal human being.

100. What is the meaning of life?

42.