#hence the disclaimer

[another-whump-sideblog]

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Significant neurological damage, likely due to repeated concussions, predominately impacting balance and grip strength

Deficiencies in vitamin A, vitamin B1, vitamin B2, vitamin B3, vitamin B5, vitamin B6, vitamin B12, Vitamin D, calcium, chloride, iron, and potassium

Severe deficiencies in iron and vitamin D

Psychological symptoms of PTSD, anxiety, and obsessive-compulsive tendencies. Further testing recommended.

Ema hates this.

She was supposed to feel better once she got away. That was supposed to fix it. Getting away was so so hard, and it's not even over?

Ema hates this.

"It's not so bad." Tom says. "It could be worse."

That's not very helpful. "Neurological damage doesn't go away. I'm going to have this for the rest of my life."

"Well... yeah, but now we know. I should've noticed earlier, it was obvious. I can't believe I didn't notice..."

Tom sounds annoyed. Ema tucks her knees under her chin.

"It'll get better. I think it would help to do some physical therapy. And psychological therapy. And the vitamin and mineral deficiencies, that's easy! I mean it sucks that we didn't know before, but we know now. Oh, we should also take you to a dentist. What's wrong?"

Ema is ineffectively trying to blink back tears. "I thought I was going to be okay. I thought it was over." "But this is good! These things were wrong before, but now that we know about them we can fix them or make them better. Wouldn't it be worse if all those symptoms of deficiencies and damage and stuff were just how things were going to be for the rest of your life?"

Ema hates this. "I don't- I can't-" She takes a shuddering breath, afraid she'll start crying if she tries to talk more.

"It's okay. You're okay. I really think you should see a therapist though. I... don't know what to say to help you feel better."

Ema grips her hair tightly. She hates this, she hates this so much. "I don't want to go to therapy! I don't want to talk about it! I want it to be over!"

"I- I don't know- Ema, it's okay."

Ema is sobbing in earnest and Tom is getting annoyed with her. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry!"

"You didn't do anything wrong. I just- I'm not good at this!"

He's mad at her he's mad at her-

"I- I think I'm making this worse, so I'm going to- to go. And then when you're feeling better we can talk about how I can, like, help you the next time you feel this way, okay?"

Tom waits for her to answer, but leaves when she doesn't, and Ema doesn't stop him. He's just in the other room, but it does help Ema feel better, which makes her feel a bit guilty. It's just easier when she can focus on calming herself down instead of trying to calm Tom down.

She feels so pathetic. She's been crying more since she escaped than she ever did in captivity.

Tap tap tap. Tap tap tap. Tap tap tap.

She's safe. She's okay. And Tom is right, now she knows some ways to feel better. She shouldn't feel this way.

When Ema's crying has slowed to only an occasional sniffle, Tom comes back.

"Are you okay? Are you- did that help? It seems like it helped, for me to leave, but I felt really bad for just... leaving you, while you were upset."

"It helped. I'm sorry."

"You have nothing to be sorry for." Tom doesn't sound annoyed. Just... sad.

"I... don't think there's anything you can do, if that happens again. I don't know why I started crying. Everything you said was right."

"Well, someone can be right and still be a dick."

"You weren't being a dick."

Tom is quiet for a moment. "You started crying when I brought up therapy. Should I... not bring that up?"

"No, you can bring it up. I don't know why it freaked me out."

"You said you don't want to talk about what happened. Does the idea of therapy make you feel stressed? You don't have to talk about the past at all with a therapist if you don't want to. I mean, you probably will eventually, but not until you feel comfortable with it. A good therapist will respect your wishes." Tap tap tap. "I don't know. I guess. I just want it to be over. I want to never think about it again."

"I... don't think that's possible."

Ema buries her face in her hands and sobs.

"Would it help if I touched you? Like, gave you a hug or something. Or would you rather not be touched?"

"Please don't touch me."

"Okay. So I know some things that don't help now, at least. Um... so, do you want to try therapy? Helping people find therapists is something I'm good at. You wouldn't have to talk about anything you didn't want to. And hey, I'm not a therapist, maybe I'm wrong that you'll have to think about it. Maybe a therapist can teach you how to not think about it. I don't know."

"I think... I've been emotional because of the deficiencies. I want to try getting more of those vitamins and stuff in, and maybe try physical therapy, and then see how I feel."

"I think you're going to need therapy no matter what. You've been through a lot."

Ema starts to tear up again.

"But... it can wait. I don't like to put these things off, but... this isn't about me. I don't know a lot about therapy, but I know that it doesn't work very well if you feel forced into it."

"...Thank you."

"Do you want help making a meal plan? To get the vitamins you need in? And I can look into what supplements you should be taking, that stuff's all unregulated so I don't think you just grab the first thing that says vitamin supplement, y'know?"

That... sounds nice. Not having to do it herself sounds nice. "I would like that."

[cyanide-sippy-cup]

Wayne Family Adventures literally had 2 entire seasons worth of healthy dad Bruce who sits down and talks with his kids. He brought Jason down from a nervous breakdown. He got Damian a dog. He told Tim that it's Batman who looks out for Robin. He felt incredible guilt over missing even one of Cass' recitals. He plays with the kids, he takes care of them, he talks with them about family and what they mean to him. He puts in the work.

And yet we still have people coming out of the woodworks to claim that being an asshole is "integral to his character" the one time he says fuckshit to the kids.

Look I came from from multiple abusive households (yeah that's right I'm pulling this card). I know what that looks like. This ain't it. What Bruce said is fucked up, no doubt about it. But this is after potentially years of kindness and heartfelt discussions. Saying something fucked after all that healthy behavior isn't abuse, it's a call for help. And that's what the kids are trying to do. He's scared. He even admitted to Damian that none of it matters as long as they're safe.

This arc isn't to point and go "oh look at how horrible Batman is and how he treats his family". It's showing how grief and trauma can twist the people you love into something that hurts, and the effort and pain needed on both sides to fix that (like in the Jason episode, how he lost control and almost hurt Dick and then told them to take care of Bruce). Keeping this idea that violence and abuse is integral to Batman and his relationships is the same mentality that has kept main timeline Bruce in that behavior for the last god-knows-how-long.

[khaopybara]

Ongsa, do you want me and Tinh to help you pursue Sun?

EARN PREEYAPHAT as CHAROEN, MILK PANSA as ONGSA NANNAPHAT and VIEW BENYAPA as AYLIN feat. FORD ARUN as TINH and JUNE WANWIMOL as LUNA episode 4 of 23 POINT 5

[thesoftestcowboy]

I'm curious about something... (and fucked up the last poll. if u saw no u didnt)

*As in, you enjoy listening to it, like it aesthetically, think of it as attractive, whatever. This is NOT about whether or not you understand the language or if you like whatever you associate with it or whether or not it's "useful" (e.g. If you do not speak a single word of japanese but really love how it sounds, vote for it. if you think italian sounds sexy but don't really care about visiting Italy, vote for it. If you like the look of the hebrew alphabet but not how it sounds, DONT vote for that. It's about the sound.)

Before you come at me: These categories are not perfect. Some of them are sub-categories of a bigger family (Indo-European), some languages are in the same category but sound really different etc etc. I had to leave out or group some of these together in a way that I felt made most sense for what I wanna know & the demographics of this site. I'm not a linguistics expert.

Feel free to share your thoughts in comments or tags! 👍

[ariose-ambrose]

I feel so fuzzy after a couple of drinks, I’ve always been a lightweight. I wish my lover would kiss me and hold my chin in his hands, tracing my jaw with his lips. I’m so blissed out, I gasp as his hand explores my body, undoing my belt. He orders me to take off my pants and I kick them off, giggling as I wiggle out of them, the alcohol making my movements clumsier than they’d usually be. I hold him in my arms as he fucks me, his darling pet on cloud nine beneath him

(This is about faggotry 😘)

[originalartblog]

your skk is so real and true to me. like its Them

this is such a great thing to hear I'm ✨🥺✨

I like to think I can mostly keep them in a permanent "status: ????". is it romantic? is it platonic? could it be both at the same time? perhaps queerplatonic would be a better term? I don't know you're the reader you tell me. The important part is that they got each other's back and can be stupid together and perhaps get their dose of cuddling while they're at it because they need it. Whether they kiss or not is so secondary to me but I NEED them to yearn for each other's company in big and small ways both.

[postseasons]

dragon in the new warm mountain didn’t you believe in me? 🫂🫀

(happy (not?) retirement queen 🫡)

[pjshermann]

First and Last words in A Little Life

Jude

First - "There's only one closet"

Last - "It's a good story. I'll tell you."

Willem

First - "That's okay. I have nothing to put in it anyways."

Last - "You're wonderful too. Don't you know that, Jude?"

JB

First - "Who wants to live on Twenty-Fifth and Second anyway?"

Last - "At least Willem isn't here to see this."

Malcolm

First - "I don’t understand why you don’t stay where you are."

Last - "To Willem!"

Harold

First - "Sullivan hates me."

Last - "Please."

Julia

First - "Jude!"

Last - "Jude, please."

Richard

First - "Working on something?"

Last - "At least Willem isn't here to see this."

Andy

First - "Jesus fucking Christ, Jude"

Last - "At least Willem isn't here to see this."

Ana

First - "I don't see why not"

Last - "You have to tell someone."

Brother Luke

First - "I thought it was you."

Last - "Why are you doing this, Jude?"

Dr. Traylor

First - "Come to the kitchen and have something to eat"

Last - "Get up!"

Lucien

First - "How old are you?"

Last - "Dinner."

[hirudo-verbana]

[wellnoe]

i want to post about my current life experiences but i don't want to sound like an idiot bc i'm a novice in the things i am currently trying.

with that disclaimer: if you look up hazy ipas you get 500 articles about how they all taste the same which is a strange to me bc in my imo that is not true. there is great variety to be had. like even the hazy ipas i don't like i would say i dislike for different reasons.

[rushthehollow]

the light at the end of a long, grueling storm 🖤🩶🧡

[yomkippur]

season 2 character takes. i do accept constructive criticism but beware i am as wet and pathetic as ulf

[morporkian-cryptid]

I was going to make a joke about these being the shittiest Inari fox statuettes in the history of Shinto, but you know what? I think I did a pretty good job! Especially considering I made them from scratch out of Fimo dough using a fork, a paperclip and an eraser.

[dr-zeddy]

The Fanfic is online! :D

The first 7 chapters of the Volcano Manor story-arc are now readable at Archive of Our Own~

The Crucible Rebellion

(it's still a working title, IDK how to call this arc or the fic at all ;; I hope you like it! )

[a-hell-of-a-time]

New OC: Yukitaka

Note: This OC will be by request only, and I'll only be rp'ing as him with interested parties. He, like Caim will not be forced upon other rp'ers, and nor does anyone who interacts with Andrealphus need to interact/accept Yuki.

Honestly this is a self indulgent fankid that I want to test out.

Name: Yukitaka (meaning Noble Snow)

Nicknames: Yuki, hellspawn,

Parents: Andrealphus (father), Caim (mother), Yui (mother)

Age: Infant - toddler (main verse); 15 going on 16 (I Got Teleported To the Past to Fulfill My Destiny in Hell)

The following is for the I Got Teleported To the Past to Fulfill My Destiny in Hell verse

Orientation: Gay

Likes: fighting, swordsmanship, hanging out with his friends, festivals, soccer, parkour, snowboarding, Chikao (his boyfriend, a nekomata), the cold

Dislikes: Ryuu (rival, dragon youkai), goetian politics, the heat,

Occupation: Precautionary heir (illegitimate), next great marquis

Personality: (Note: This is a heavy WIP since he's a new OC that's still being fleshed out)

Loud, brash, brazen (a quick tongue that has gotten him into plenty of trouble) and confident to the point of arrogance are just some of the adjectives used to describe Yuki. He is not afraid to call things as he sees it, nor afraid to speak up for himself should the situation warrant it. He is equal parts of both parents when it comes to his attitude and fearlessness, caring little for the intricacies of goetian decorum in favour of pursuing his own interests.

He can be rash at times, especially when faced with something that catches his interests. He is known for getting swept up easily in his emotions and the adrenaline rush of a good fight, or the height of a soccer game, or when participating in sports that Caim has considered reckless and which threaten to put her in an early grave.

When it comes to his combat skills, Yuki is quite proud and fearless; he won't hesitate to challenge opponents stronger than him, and will meet any challenge head on. This has led to him often rushing in, sometimes without thinking, and ending up with more than his fair share of injuries.

Despite this, Yuki is highly intelligent, a good strategist and has a good heart that looks out for the people he cares for the most, such as his friends and family. He isn't one for injustice and if someone has wronged him or his loved ones, he won't hesitate to make things right or settle the score.

Tl;dr: This kid is a cocky little shit who is too smart for his own good and runs his mouth like nothing else. He's also the kid that will help you in a pinch while also threatening to fight any enemies of yours. Or anyone in general if they're strong enough. He may/may not value his own safety and is a bit too reckless.

He means well though.

History: Born to the Great Marquis, Andrealphus, and the former Great President of Hell, Caim, Yukitaka is a goetian with the blood of his tengu (youkai) ancestors running through his veins. His birth was shrouded in secrecy, and he spends most of his days living with his mothers just outside of Tokyo. He attends one of the local high schools and is the top student, as well as one of the stars of his school's soccer team.

Approaching his 16th birthday, Yuki awakened his cryokinetic powers, prompting Caim to reveal his goetian heritage. She also explained how, once he turns eighteen, Yuki will have to choose between following in his father's footsteps, or remaining in the human world.

To prepare for this future decision, Yuki started splitting his time between his father's mansion in Hell, and his family home in the human world. While at his father's he trains to master the demonic abilities inherited from his father, along with the ins and outs of goetian politics, all the while remaining hidden from the Ars Goetia at large. While in the human world, Yuki continues with his studies in the hopes of graduating high school with his friends.

Should he make the decision to follow in his father's footsteps, he would be initiated into the Ars Goetia, and his identity revealed to the nobility at large. Should he stay in the human world, he would have to continue living among humans and taking on mundane jobs all the while hiding his identity and abilities.

More TBA.

Powers/Abilities:

Cryokinesis: Can manipulate ice and snow for a wide variety of uses (offence - weapons; defence - shields; weather manipulation (can cause blizzards, drop the temperature to sub zero, etc.)

Extreme Speed: Can move as fast as any tengu, appearing as a blur to the untrained eye.

Swordsmanship

High endurance

Weapon of choice: Katana

Verses:

Normal Verse: Yuki is born and Andrealphus struggles to be a dad while hiding the child's existence from Paimon. Shenanigans ensue.

I Got Teleported To the Past to Fulfill My Destiny in Hell: Gusion (keeperofanswers) showed Andrealphus many books, each covering alternative lives based on choices made, and not. One of the books was triggered by magic, and Yuki manifested from its pages as if it were a portal. He is now living with his father in Hell while trying to figure out a way to get back to his own time.

[nihongoseito]

How do you stay motivated in self-study?

メッセージありがとうございます！ thank you for asking!

this is an interesting question for me because i've been self-studying for so long...almost 12 years at this point(?!?!). i decided to learn japanese for fun and for no other reason than because i wanted to (i'm a big proponent of "if it sucks, hit da bricks" lol). i was just a kid, so i had no idea at all how much time and effort it would entail, and sometimes i think that back then, if i had known at the time how much studying and studying and more studying it would take for me to become conversationally proficient, i wouldn't have even started. and i'm really, really glad i don't live in that world, where i never decided to self-study because i thought too far into the future and tried to quantify my studying.

so i guess that's my biggest piece of advice, even though it sounds counterintuitive: try not to plan where you're going next or any specific long-term goals, because if you're anything like me, you'll scare yourself off. if you focus just on what's right in front of you—today's kanji, your current textbook, etc.—then you'll have a much easier time remembering why you like japanese (or whatever target language you're working on!). that kind of viewpoint on learning a language makes it really clear that you are building a beautiful structure out of many discrete pieces, not just out of thin air or sheer linguistic osmosis. not only has that attitude kept me motivated, since making decisions as i go always keeps things fresh, but i also genuinely think it's helped me learn better and remember what i've studied.

also, don't be afraid to give up on something, a book or a grammar point or even a whole routine/study plan, and try something else instead. you can always come back to it later, and in my opinion there's no point trying to quantify or quantitatively evaluate your learning in that way. there's absolutely no shame in admitting something is too hard right now. plus, letting yourself feel confident in what you do know is a great boost to motivation—every single little piece is an accomplishment!

does any of that make sense?? this is how i've handled it anyway! ofc, the nature of self-study is that it's different for everyone, but hopefully the things i've said here resonate with some people :) みんな、頑張ってね！！