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hi everyone!!! hereâs the eretra au that a few of you might remember from my wip posts a few months (?) ago! iâm really excited about it, so i hope you guys like it. itâs very loosely based off a kdrama called big, although there arenât very many similarities. i hope you guys enjoy it :)Â
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My First Love Come Back to Me
Eretra. Big AU.Â
Iâll Love You in the Rain or Shine Series: Chapter 1
12788 words.Â
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Eren stands in the deli section of the grocery store staring down at the premade sandwiches that have, judging by the wilting lettuce and stiff-looking squares of cheese stuffed between dry bread buns, been sitting there all day after being passed over by other customers for more enticing premade meals like the colorful, little sushis in their plastic containers or the burritos so stuffed with filling that beans are practically spilling out of the tortilla wraps meant to contain them. He looks at one particularly sad-looking sandwich. Turkey chunks and droopy lettuce leaves are shoved inside a stale bread loaf. Tomato juice from the poor fruit that was cut to make this depressing sub bleeds out from the bun, dripping onto the plastic wrap that can hardly hold the thing together. A strange assortment of veggies also poke out from the bread - bright yellow bell peppers, chunky strips of carrots, and slices of onions - but they look as though someone has carelessly dropped them into the sandwich because theyâre not even evenly dispersed through the sub. It is, Eren thinks, the most wretched sandwich heâd ever laid eyes on.Â
Itâs a little sad, the fact that Eren is spending so much time picking out something to bring to a family dinner that he would claim, if anyone bothered to ask, to not give a single shit about. And, really, he doesnât, but it makes him feel slightly better about going to those miserable gatherings if heâs able to bring something he knows his stepmom will hate. Except sheâs not really his stepmom. To be more precise, the woman is his fatherâs first and only wife - the bastard having never married Erenâs mother - and his half-brotherâs mother. In all honesty, Eren can completely understand why the woman hates him. He is, after all, a constant reminder of his fatherâs infidelity. Itâs not like Eren likes her either and, with all of the snide comments about his upbringing and disappointing career path (although Eren has no idea why that is any of her business), she hasnât given Eren any reason to.Â
Eren looks down at the sandwich again, leaning towards not getting it. As much as he would love to purchase it and slap it down on the dinner table with a cheerful smile, there are only so many times he can buy disgusting sandwiches for his family dinners. He really outdid himself last time with a self-made sandwich with all sorts of odd ingredients (blue cheese, coriander, tuna, onions, cherry tomatoes, the works) that had no business being slapped between the same two buns. He even remembered not to toast the bread buns. Apparently, the only thing his fatherâs wife hates more than sandwiches are untoasted sandwiches, but not everyone can afford a $300 panini press like she can. Apparently, any panini press with a smaller price tag canât be called a real panini press. Eren only half-regretted his decision to bring the disgusting thing to his fatherâs house an hour later when he sprinted out of the house and biked half a block away to empty the contents of his stomach on the edge of a poor neighbor's sidewalk. No, a normal deli sandwich would be a step down from his previous contribution to family dinner, Eren decides.Â
He walks up and down the aisle of the grocery store, taking his time even though heâs already a half-hour late for dinner. (Heâs doing them a favor. Nobody in their right mind should be having dinner at five when the sun is still high in the sky.) His green eyes glaze over tubs of soup and plastic bins filled with salad. For a moment, he wonders if he should walk through the shelves of chips on the other side or maybe into the frozen food section so he can haul a tub of melting ice cream to his fatherâs house, but he wonders if thatâs too petty. Itâs probably best not to, Eren thinks with a grimace. He doesnât want to ruin junk food for himself forever.Â
In the end, Eren purchases a little tub of potato salad, hoping that itâll be enough to piss off his Disney-esque sort-of stepmother. Itâs not perfect, but he supposes it will do. Itâs probably not as grotesque as the stuff heâs brought before, but he likes how simple it is. That womanâs definitely going to be miffed that Eren bought potato salad as if he cared so little that he couldnât be bothered to spend a few minutes in the kitchen to make the same dish. Heâs really going to enjoy seeing the vein on her forehead pulse when she sees him standing at the door with the potato salad.Â
Eren thanks the cashier for ringing up his purchase, sliding two dollars into the charity box next to the register, and walks away with his tub of potato salad, whistling as he practically skips out of the grocery store. He hadnât taken as long as he would have liked; there are still fifteen minutes before six and he had hoped he would burn enough time to arrive at six-thirty, but maybe he can take a roundabout way to his dadâs house, Eren thinks as he drops the tub carelessly into the front basket of his bicycle. He unlocks his bike with a click and pulls it off the bike rack before mounting it and pedaling away.Â
Taking the direct route would be too quick. Eren quickly pedals across the road as soon as the road is clear and finds his way to the creek that cuts across the suburbs. Itâs the same creek Eren used to play beside when he was a child. He fell in there once trying to catch a frog and his mom scolded him for being so reckless. Itâs also the same creek that he frequented during the spring of his sophomore year of highschool when he was assigned to do a bug project, which Eren hated especially when the same project was no longer mandatory after his school cut the science departmentâs funding the year after. Eren doesnât think heâs visited the creek ever since he graduated from high school. He blames it on college and summer internships taking up all his time and never really allowing him to return to his youth, but the truth is that Eren wouldnât have sought out his childhood even if he had the time.Â
Itâs not that Eren had a terrible childhood. In fact, Eren would say that he had a fairly happy childhood. True, he grew up in a (mostly) single-parent household, but his mother was always patient and attentive to him even though he was a pain the ass about 75 percent of the time. Nothing incredibly significant happened. He didnât win any awards and he never made the honor roll, but his mother was fine with it as long as he did his best. It was strange, but he got a lot more shit about his grades from his sort-of stepmom than he did from his own mother. Heâs not particularly sure what his father thought about it. Erenâs father never said much of anything to defend him, but his father hardly said anything to him at all. It was kind of like not having a father at all, so it wasnât really that surprising when Eren found a way to avoid his old neighborhood completely after his mother passed away after his senior year of high school.Â
Eren hadnât planned on returning so soon. Actually, he hadnât planned on returning at all after he had left for college. He only came back the summer after freshman year, but he bummed it at his best friend Arminâs house and only ventured as far as Arminâs front lawn. The following summers he crashed at his ex-boyfriendâs house - an art student-turned-tattoo artist who somehow ended up setting up a shop in the city Eren and Armin grew up in - or Arminâs dorm when they were both working at their internships. Somehow, they ended up landing jobs back in their hometown because evidently the big city did not want them and they were too young and broke to go up against the universe. Maybe another day.Â
Itâs not that bad. Despite renting an apartment near his neighborhood, Eren hasnât run into any childhood friends that might still remember all the embarrassing things he did as a teenager. Heâs bumped into a few parents at the grocery store that would smile up at him and talk about how nicely heâs grown while reaching up to ruffle his hair. Other than a few childhood friends and the âfamilyâ he feels obligated to meet due to the biological bond he unwillingly shares with his father, Eren has successfully avoided most of his past.Â
He pedals past his old middle school, zooming past the gates and grimacing as he remembers the less pleasant parts of his past - struggling with algebra, running a mile at seven AM, and the terrible school uniforms they forced on everyone in a strange attempt to boost standardized test scores. Heâs happier when he crosses the street and is greeted with the lit-up shops - the convenience store where heâd happily slurp down slushies with Armin after school, the Chinese restaurant that his class would frequent every year for Lunar New Yearâs, and the bakery store that always smelled of freshly baked tarts and pies. Erenâs pedaling slows as he approaches the bakery and he inhales deeply, his lungs filling with the scent of buttery baguettes and chocolate tarts. The aroma is so distractingly sweet. His mouth begins to water at just the thought of them, and Eren wonders why he hadnât bothered stepping foot in the bakery since coming back. Heâs about to stop his bike and pop in for a brownie or a lemon bar only to realize that heâs biking far too fast and about to crash into someone.Â
âShit!â Erenâs bike screeches as he swerves out of the way and he crashes into a pole so hard that he can feel his teeth rattle. He topples to the ground with a hard thud, groaning as he rolls over onto his side that didnât get smashed violently against a pole. When he opens his eyes, he sees stars as well as the face of an old man that he had last seen a decade ago. Eren tries to sit up, but his side is throbbing and he can only clutch at his side, trying his best to suppress a groan so as to not startle the man he had nearly collided with. He gives the man a weak smile. âHey, Mr. Ral. I havenât seen you in a while.âÂ
The old manâs mouth, which was already open to begin with after seeing Erenâs embarrassing bicycle collision, falls open a bit wider. âA-are you ⌠okay?â he asks after a while, squinting a bit as he looks at Erenâs face and tries to place a name to it. Eren doesnât really blame him for not remembering who he is. Itâs been quite a while since theyâve seen each other and Eren has grown up a lot since then.
âYeah, Iâm fine. Just a little bump,â Eren says, laughing it off. He manages to sit up and pushes himself off the ground, standing up and brushing off the little pebbles that have managed to stick to his face and clothing. He picks up his bike, leaning it against the pole before turning to the man again. âItâs Eren, by the way.â He pauses, observing Mr. Ralâs expression. When he sees that the man doesnât recognize him, Eren politely adds, âEren Kruger. Iâm Zeke Jaegerâs younger brother.âÂ
A spark of recognition finally lights up in the old manâs eyes at the mention of Zekeâs name. Erenâs not going to lie, but it kind of hurts. âAh, Zeke,â Mr. Ral says fondly. Eren shifts from feeling hurt to feeling slightly jealous. âHow could I ever forget him? And you, of course. You two used to play with my dear Petra back in the day.âÂ
Petra, a name that Eren hasnât heard in years, and yet hearing it still makes him blush like a young schoolboy. He ducks his head, his hand rubbing at the back of his neck, and he prays that Mr. Ral doesnât notice the sudden flush of his cheeks. âYeah, itâs been a while. How is, ah, Petra doing?â he asks. He had meant to ask the question casually, but he stumbles over the words a little too quickly.Â
âPetra? Sheâs well,â Mr. Ral answers with a smile. The corners of his eyes crinkle and his laughter lines deepen. He doesnât seem to notice how flustered Eren is. âShe just started teaching at the same university that Zeke is teaching at.âÂ
Thatâs certainly news to Eren. Zeke hadnât mentioned that at any of the family dinners Eren had attended recently. It could just be because Zeke hadnât run into her yet or it had simply slipped his mind, but Eren kind of doubts it. If Petraâs father knew, then itâs highly unlikely that Zeke didnât know. As much as Eren wants to frown, he fights the urge to turn the edges of his mouth downward and gives Mr. Ral a thin but polite smile. âThatâs great to hear. What does she teach?âÂ
âEnglish,â Mr. Ral replies, his chest puffed out proudly. Itâs endearing how much he adores his daughter. âShe teaches some upper-division classes on creative writing and a few classes for freshmen on critical reading and writing.âÂ
Erenâs smile is more genuine now, more fond as he listens to Mr. Ral speak about his daughter. âYeah, that sounds like her. She was always really good with words.â He remembers lazy summer afternoons lying underneath the shade of a tree and pretending he was sleeping so that he could listen to Petra talk to Zeke on the front porch. It wasnât even that he wanted to eavesdrop. He just liked the sound of her voice. Eren wonders if itâs still as wonderfully soothing and soft as he remembers.Â
âAnd what about you?â Mr. Ral asks, snapping Eren out of his reverie. The old man seems to ask out of polite obligation. It figures that he isnât really interested in Erenâs life. After all, he hadnât remembered that Eren existed until five minutes ago.Â
âI just graduated a few months ago. I majored in child education,â Eren replies. He looks down feeling slightly embarrassed although heâs not sure why. It feels like a step down from Petraâs accomplishments. His sort-of stepmom would certainly agree. She enjoys rubbing Zekeâs doctorate in Erenâs face whenever she gets the chance. Eren clears his throat and adds, âIâve been working at Liberio Daycare. Itâs near Shiganshina Elementary.âÂ
Itâs unclear whether or not Mr. Ral recognizes the name but he nods and reaches over to give Eren a pat on the arm, a grin on his face as if the old man is actually proud of him. âThatâs good! Your parents must be proud.â He doesnât notice the way Eren flinches and carries on. âItâs good to hear that youâve been well.âÂ
âLikewise,â Eren says. His eyes wander towards the bakery. It hadnât occurred to him to look for Petra before, but now that he knows sheâs back in town he canât imagine doing anything else. He half hopes that sheâll be inside, maybe clearing the display for the night or wiping down the countertops, but all he sees is a girl his age at the register munching on some lavender bars that hadnât sold. Before he can stop himself, Eren finds himself asking, âIs Petra in?âÂ
âPetra?â Mr. Ral asks with his eyebrows raised. Maybe it does seem out of the blue that Erenâs asking. Petra was always more Zekeâs friend than Erenâs. Mr. Ral gives Eren an apologetic smile and a shake of his head. âIâm afraid not. She told me she was eating dinner at a friendâs house. Iâll let her know you stopped by. Maybe you two can catch up sometime.âÂ
Eren shouldnât feel so disappointed, but he can feel himself deflating at Mr. Ralâs words. He really doubts Petra would want to meet up with him. Itâs not as if they were incredibly close before. Still, he gives Mr. Ral a gracious smile and says, âThat would be great! I should probably get going. I have to, ah, eat dinnerâŚâ His voice trails off and he looks to bike only to find the front basket empty. Eyes straying further, he finds that his tub of potato salad had rolled out of his bike basket and onto the ground where it lay pitifully. Thankfully, the tub hasnât broken and the potato salad hasnât spilled out, but somehow the salad looks even more pathetic than it did when Eren purchased it. Itâs something Eren would have been happy about fifteen minutes ago, but itâs embarrassing now. Quickly, he goes to pick it up and drop it into his bike basket with the slim hope that Mr. Ral wouldnât think much about it, but Eren has never been that lucky.Â
Mr. Ral must find him pitiful because he asks, âWhy donât you take some dessert home?â Heâs already heading back into the bakery, gesturing for Eren to follow him despite Erenâs protests. âIf you donât, theyâll just go to waste. Or into my employeeâs stomach, and goodness knows that sheâs already eaten enough desserts today already.âÂ
âThank you so much, sir,â Eren says, humbly bowing his head.Â
âSasha,â Mr. Ral calls the girl at the register. âCould you ring up a few things for Eren?âÂ
The girlâs head snaps up at the call of her name, her cheeks filled with pastry and crumbs all over her mouth. âSure thing,â Sasha says, gulping down the last of her lavender bar and wiping her mouth with the back of her hand. She walks over to the side, Eren following her on the other side of the counter, and washes her hands hastily. As she wipes her hands dry with the hand towel, she looks at Eren brightly and asks in a chipper voice, âDo you have anything you want in particular?âÂ
Erenâs eyes scan over the display, but he doesnât really look at anything in particular. He just wants to get out of this situation as quickly as possible. Heâs embarrassed himself quite enough for today. âJust ⌠whatever youâd recommend,âÂ
âAlright-y,â the girl hums, taking a bag and stuffing it full with little tarts and tea cakes and croissants. Eren looks at her briefly, realizing that he doesnât recognize her. She must have moved here sometime during the past six years when he wasnât around.Â
As Sasha finishes preparing the bag, Eren walks over to the register and gets ready to pull his wallet out but Mr. Ral walks over, shaking his head. âNo need to pay for it,â Mr. Ral says. He reaches over the counter and takes the bag from Sasha, presenting it to Eren with a smile. âConsider it a treat. Really, youâd be doing me a favor just taking it. They would have gone to waste otherwise.âÂ
âAh, thank you,â Eren says, his face flushing once more. He takes the bag from Mr. Ral with a small bow of his head. âIt was great seeing you again, Mr. Ral.âÂ
âLikewise,â Mr. Ral says with that same crinkly smile. He walks Eren to the door, watching as Eren packs the desserts alongside his potato salad. âTake good care of yourself, Eren, and tell your brother I said hi.â He waves as Eren assures him heâll do just that, returning to the shop only once Eren has biked away.Â
This is not how the night was supposed to go. Eren was supposed to be wandering around the neighborhood with his potato salad before waltzing into his fatherâs house an hour late, his sort-of stepmother silently fuming at the dinner table while the family sat and waited for him. He hadnât planned on bumping into his childhood crushâs father, and he certainly hadnât planned on looking so incredibly pathetic in front of Mr. Ral. He can only imagine what Mr. Ral will tell Petra when she sees her dad tonight. Maybe something about how he grew up to be such a loser even though his half-brother managed to graduate with a Ph.D. and is now a successful anthropology professor at the local university. Itâs not something that usually gets Eren down, but thinking about it now is making him feel especially miserable.Â
Erenâs not sure why the thought of Petra knowing how his life is so embarrassing. He hasnât spoken to her in years, so her opinion of him shouldnât matter. And even if she did have an opinion of him, heâs sure it wouldnât be unkind. Petra had always been nice to him even when he was a kid and just being an annoying third wheel to her and Zeke. When his childish admiration of her turned into puppy love and eventually evolved into a full-fledged crush, she never brushed him off or thought him annoying, although there was a chance that she just never noticed. He couldnât blame her for that when Zeke, honor roll student and valedictorian Zeke, was always standing right in front of her. He wasnât even surprised when they started dating. It was inevitable. And when they eventually broke up for some reason that Eren still isnât quite sure about, Eren knew heâd never be able to compare so he never tried to pursue her. It���s not surprising that he and Petra ended up losing touch.Â
As much as he would love to blame Zeke for it (and it would be incredibly easy for him to blame Zeke), he canât. Maybe itâs strange that he doesnât harbor a deep hatred for his half-brother. Their relationship has all the makings of a classic sibling rivalry - a complicated family history, stark differences in accomplishments, and affections for the same girl - but Eren could never bring himself to hate Zeke. Even if Zekeâs mother liked to hold all of her sonâs accomplishments over Erenâs head, Zeke himself never bragged about them. In fact, he was quite humble and would even offer to help his younger half-brother if he was struggling with something in school. Oftentimes he would invite Eren to hang out with his friends even though their age gap made it a little awkward. He even remembered Erenâs favorite snacks and would make sure they were in supply whenever Eren came over to visit. If Zekeâs mother was an evil Disney stepmother come to life, Zeke was that one fairytale sibling that was kind to the tragic main character, so Eren had no choice but to like Zeke. Even when Zeke broke up with Petra and Eren couldnât understand why, when Zeke told Eren that it âjust happened,â Eren kind of left it at that and accepted that because he couldnât imagine Zeke doing anything wrong.Â
Could Eren be classified with an inferiority complex with regards to his brother? Probably, but most siblings can. Eren would have to challenge whether or not someone with inferiority complexes would admire their brother as much as he does, but they might in a weird way. Erenâs sure that he and Zekeâs relationship would still be complicated even if they didnât have all the weird history with Eren and Zekeâs parents.Â
Eren sighs as he flies down a dip in the road, letting gravity carry him down instead of pedaling. He really doesnât feel like heâs in the right headspace for this family dinner. Usually, he lets all of that womanâs snide comments ricochet, but his armor has grown weak and he can just imagine her landing the right thinly-veiled insult, her words burying into his skin and hitting right where it hurts. For a moment, Eren considers calling the dinner off with an excuse that will be sure to piss his stepmother off â probably something about how he has to restructure his lesson plan for the upcoming week â but he glances down at the potato salad and bag of baked goods in his bike basket and realizes that he really doesnât want to eat them all by himself. If heâs going to suffer, he might as well make the rest of his family suffer alongside him. And besides, heâs pretty much already at their house anyway.Â
His bike slows as he approaches the white-picket fenced house. He takes the potato salad tub and the bag of baked goods before leaving his bike on the driveway, not bothering to chain it to the fence because nobody would want to steal the old thing he bought from a garage sale anyway. The sight of it lying in front of the house instead of properly locked up will be sure to piss off that woman too, which is just an added bonus. With a sigh, Eren marches up the front steps, shifting the food all on one arm so he can ring the doorbell. The familiar chime rings out, muted from behind the wooden door. A muffled voice mumbles something Eren canât hear, but he already knows that the speaker has nothing good to say about him.Â
The door is thrown open and Eren looks down to see his stepmother glowering up at him, blue eyes a raging storm. âYouâre late,â she hisses. She doesnât even give him a greeting; she just stands there in front of him silently fuming. Behind her stands Erenâs father. As expected, he says nothing to defend his sonâs tardiness. The man just stands there, uncomfortable as he quietly observes.Â
âSorry, Dina,â Eren says, squeezing past his stepmother who makes an indignant noise. He dangles the food he brought in front of her face, rolling his eyes when she snatches the bag from him only to wrinkle her nose in disgust when she sees the potato salad. âI brought dessert, too. Do you want me to put it somewhere âŚ?âÂ
Dina snatches the bag of desserts from him too, still huffing. âWe have a guest tonight too. Do you know how rude youâre being?â she says, continuing to nag at him even though Eren has stopped listening to her years ago.Â
Erenâs father gently grabs Eren by the elbow, subtly ushering him inside to avoid any more conflict but Eren yanks his arm away.Â
âWell, maybe if you told me we were having a guest beforehand I would have showed up on time,â Eren snaps. He sounds angry as he says it, but he really does mean it. Itâs one thing to be rude to his stepmother, but itâs another thing entirely to be rude to a guest he doesnât know. Heâd at least wait for introductions before deciding whether or not to show any manners.Â
Before his stepmother can say anything more, Eren stomps off into the dining room where Zeke and the guest are waiting. He keeps his head down, cheeks burning, as he pulls out his chair - the one furthest from everyone - and slumps down into it. âSorry, Iâm late,â Eren mumbles, still looking down.Â
âEren,â says a deep voice that Eren recognizes as Zekeâs. Hearing the voice of someone other than his stepmotherâs makes Eren relax a bit and he rests with his back against his chair, a little more at ease now. He can hear Zekeâs small smile as his half-brother asks, âArenât you going to say hi to our guest?âÂ
âUh, yeah. Hi,â Eren says. His eyes flicker upward, first at Zeke who sits across from him, and then at the guest. He looks so quickly at first that he doesnât register exactly who heâs seeing until he does a double-take, his green eyes widening as they take in the woman sitting there. Itâs someone he hadnât expected to see ever again, much less sitting at his familyâs dining table, and heâs so surprised that he almost chokes. For a moment, he thinks it might just be a doppelganger, but thereâs no mistaking the soft dimples that appear in her cheeks as her lips curl in a smile. â...Petra?âÂ
âHi, Eren.â Petraâs voice is still as gentle and soothing as Eren remembers, the sound of it so honey-sweet that he feels his cheeks bloom a soft pink. Thereâs so much about her thatâs different, but thereâs so much more thatâs the same. Her hair is shorter now, no longer falling right at her shoulder, but curling right under her chin in a short bob. Itâs the same shade of ginger it was when he was a kid. If itâs under the right light, it would probably burn a fiery gold. Her doe eyes are the same pretty amber, sweet and dangerously entrancing at the same time. Sheâs even dressed differently, her button-up blouse and slick gray trousers such a departure from the casual jeans and t-shirts she wore ten years ago when Eren was still in high school. Eren feels horribly underdressed - his ratty university sweatshirt over a thin cotton tee and his ripped jeans are so shabby in comparison - but a glimmer of silver on Petraâs wrist attracts Erenâs attention to the charm bracelet she wears, jangling with charms that Eren remembers her collecting in her high school days, and he feels a little less like heâs meeting a stranger and more like heâs reuniting with an old friend.Â
âHow are you?â Eren asks shyly, his smile bashful.Â
âIâm well,â she answers, and Eren feels himself melting into her voice the same way he did when he was thirteen. When she smiles, her head tilts ever so slightly to the right just the way it did when he first met her and her dimples deepen into her cheeks. âHow are you?âÂ
âGood,â Eren answers because he doesnât trust himself to string together more than a word or two at a time. He wonders if she realizes how heâs unraveling at the sound of her voice or if sheâs as oblivious as she was the last time.Â
âIâm glad,â Petra says, and the warm look Petra gives Eren reignites a flame in the pit of his belly that he had thought he extinguished long ago. Her head tilts a little bit more to the side, her eyes twinkling. âI missed you,â Petra tells him, and Eren finds himself in love once more.Â
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There are rules to dealing with your ex-boyfriend after youâve broken up, Petra knows, but itâs been ten years and she figures that these rules can be bent. So what if the last time she saw Zeke she was broken-hearted, crying in the rain as he turned his back on her? She was younger then, her feelings out of control for someone who didnât care for her nearly as much as she cared for him. And, sure, maybe itâs terrible that she never received the closure that she deserves, but she canât hold a grudge against him forever. They work in the same university and cowering behind the nearest trashcan every time they meet doesnât seem to be a viable option. Petraâs older now and so is Zeke. Theyâre mature. They can be friends like adults are after theyâve broken up, so the universe should be able to understand her accepting Zekeâs dinner request that evening even if her friends couldnât.Â
She only started to regret her decision when Zeke offered to drive her there after his classes ended - saving gas and the planet, he explained - and she agreed. Although Petra repeatedly told herself that it was a simple family dinner and that such an invitation was extended to Zekeâs other friends on occasion, she found herself sitting impatiently in her office, biting her nails down so close to the quick that her fingers started to bleed. Having to bandage her fingers as she waited did absolutely nothing to soothe her nerves.Â
âI donât see why youâre so nervous,â Levi tells her over the phone. He taught in the mathematics department, but they had met after Petra had nervously stumbled into the wrong building and into his office on her first day at the university. The man has a perpetual scowl on his face, and that very same expression had nearly sent Petra running until she weakly explained that she must have gotten lost and he kindly redirected her to the building her office was located in. She thought that was going to be the end of their interaction until he emailed her shortly after asking if she had gotten to her office alright. Finding him a kindred spirit, he had become her first (and sadly only) companion at the university aside from Zeke. âIf youâre friends with him, it shouldnât be that big of a deal.âÂ
âWell, itâs just that I havenât really seen him since we, you know, broke up,â Petra explains, but she doubts that Levi understands. She had told him her history with Zeke a few weeks ago after he asked her why she was so jittery at the faculty luncheon, but he didnât have much of a reaction. It was sort of nice having someone to talk to that wasnât as hyperbolically reactive as the rest of her friends, but it was also painfully difficult when Levi didnât show her any sympathy.Â
âYou saw him last week when you were at the library to look for reference books,â he reminds her as if it were the same thing. âI donât know why this dinner has you in a panic. You left me nearly a hundred messages while I was teaching class.â He hadnât even replied to her texts, the bastard. He had simply left her on read until midnight before sending her a thumbs-up emoji to let her know that he had read her messages, which was not exactly the response Petra was waiting for.Â
âThis is different!â Petra insists, but she knows Levi will never see it that way.Â
âYouâre making this a much bigger deal than it needs to be,â Levi says. She can hear him scribbling something on the other end, probably correcting exams for his differential equations classes and marking a poor studentâs paper in an abundance of red. âEither cancel or just go to dinner with him. Youâve had family dinners with him even before you guys got together right?âÂ
âYeah, but that was back when we were kids,â Petra mumbles, fiddling with the hem of her shirt.Â
âThen youâll be fine,â he tells her.Â
âYouâre horribly unsympathetic sometimes,â she sighs.Â
âIf you wanted sympathy, you shouldnât have called me,â Levi says with a cluck of his tongue, but he chuckles when he hears her groan on the other end. âReally, itâll be fine. Youâre just overthinking it. Iâm sure itâll be fine. And you said the kid will be there, right? His brother, so itâs not as if youâll be alone with Zeke and his parents.âÂ
Petra lays with her head on her desk, her phone pressed against her cheek. âYeah, youâre right,â she mumbles, but her lower lip still sticks out in a pout. The thought of Eren being there, sweet little Eren with his eager puppy eyes and wide smile, does make her feel better if only a little. She probably hasnât seen him since she broke up with Zeke. She wonders if heâs changed very much. Heâd be in college now? Or maybe he graduated. âI havenât seen him in awhile though. What if he hates me now?âÂ
âYouâre overthinking again,â Levi says. He sighs on the other end. If Petra didnât know him very well, she would think she was bothering him, but heâs always like this. âAre you going to be okay?âÂ
âYes. No. Maybe,â Petra sniffs. She looks sadly at her bandaged fingers and picks at the ends of one of them. âShould I just cancel? Maybe I can tell him I fell down the stairs and had to go to the hospital or something -â Someone knocks at the door and Petra lets out a startled yelp, nearly falling out of her chair because sheâs so surprised. When she looks at the door, she sees Zekeâs silhouette against the frosted glass pane. The sight of it makes her want to hide behind her desk. âGod, heâs here already!âÂ
âToo late for you to run then,â Levi says, not even bothering to hide his snickering. Heâs such a sadist that Petra doesnât even know why sheâs friends with him sometimes. âHave fun at your absolutely normal dinner with your friend and his family.â Click!
âAsshole,â Petra mutters under her breath before shoving her phone in her bag. Thereâs another knock at the door â the same long, slow knocks that are a signature of Zekeâs â and she hastily shouts, âIâll be right there!â before shoving her papers in her bag and stumbling out of the door, nearly tripping over her own feet in the process. She must look like a mess because Zeke raises an eyebrow at her when she emerges from her office. Petra catches a glimpse of her reflection in the window and winces at her frumpled shirt and the hair falling out of her bun. She mumbles an apology as she pulls the hair ties out of her bun, her hair falling in loose curls around her face.Â
âDid I catch you at a bad time?â Zeke asks.Â
âNo! God, no,â Petra says, inwardly cringing at every word that comes out of her mouth. Even she can tell how awkward her responses sound, a little too quick and desperate. What is she being so anxious for? Itâs just dinner with a friend â an ex-boyfriend, but a friend nonetheless. Petra clears her throat and asks as casually as she can manage, âHow are your parents?âÂ
âHmm? Theyâre well, I suppose,â he answers. Everything about him is familiar. Heâs grown just a bit taller since Petra last saw him, his shoulders a bit broader and his jawline a bit sharper, but he still wears the same double-bridge glasses and the right corner of his mouth still quirks upward just the slightest bit when he speaks. He even walks the same way, his strides a little too long and quick, and Petra finds that she still has to struggle a bit to keep up. If Zeke notices the same thing about her - how she still wears the same shade of lipstick, how she still has that habit of wrapping her hair around her finger when sheâs nervous like sheâs doing now, how she bites her lip when sheâs not sure what to say next - he doesnât mention it. âMy fatherâs still working at the hospital with my grandfather. Heâs been promoted to director of the orthopedics department.âÂ
âOh, congrats!âÂ
âAnd you know my mother has been at the hospital now that she doesnât have to worry about me anymore,â Zeke says. Itâs strange how casually he says this, as if he doesnât remember that the last time he spoke about his mother to Petra was when they were still together. âShe really missed being in the OR. Says sheâd rather be doing surgeries all day than taking care of me.âÂ
âItâs nice that she can go back to it.â She nearly stumbles over a step but catches the railing before she can. When she looks up again, Zeke is already on the sidewalk and she hurries after him, a little breathless. âAnd Eren?âÂ
âEren?â Zeke seems a little surprised by the question although Petra doesnât know why. He leads her to a car - a slick Mercedes with a shining blue exterior and tinted windows that donât quite match Zekeâs academic profession â and opens the car doors with a click.Â
âYour brother,â she clarifies as Zeke walks over to the driverâs side and slips into the car. She opens the passenger car and slides into the seat beside Zeke, setting her bag down next to her feet. The door swings shut behind her. âHeâs coming to the dinner too, right?âÂ
Zeke turns on the engine and the car comes to life with a pleasant hum. âMost likely,â Zeke says as he checks the side and rearview mirrors before pulling out of the parking space. He even drives the same way, his arm resting on the side with his hand tapping against the door while one hand is on the wheel. Just watching him makes Petraâs chest feel tight.Â
âAh, thatâs good. I havenât seen him in so long,â Petra says. For some reason, knowing that Eren will also be there makes her feel a little more relaxed about the dinner. âIs he still in college? I think he should have graduated by now.âÂ
âHe graduated a little while ago. Heâs teaching now. Still on probation, but he says his colleagues like him so heâs not too worried about getting tenure after the probationary period is over.â He slows the car to a stop at an intersection and leans over, fiddling with the radio dial. He sets it to the jazz station and the sound of smooth brass and relaxed percussion fills the car.Â
Somehow, driving down the streets with Zeke is far more nostalgic than it ever was when Petra drove on her own. Some nights Petra drove home by herself, and all it ever felt was lonely. Maybe itâs the familiarity of having Zeke beside her like when they were teenagers, driving back home after watching a movie downtown or returning from a basketball game at their high school.Â
Petra doesnât ask any more questions about Zekeâs family. She figures she can catch up with the rest of the Jaegers when she sees them at dinner. Instead, she asks Zeke about his classes and finds that conversation with him comes more easily after she stops stumbling over her words. He tells her a little bit about teaching anthropology (âFar less painful than you think it would be, at least when the kids arenât just taking it to fulfill their core classes,â he says), his plans for the upcoming week (âItâs midterms, but the students should be fine if they actually look at the study guide.â), and the butterfly exhibit opening up at the museum downtown (âIâm thinking of putting it up as extra credit. Who knows, they might actually look at the other exhibits while theyâre wandering around.â). Petra also fills him in on her own life, mumbling about how she still has to make the answer key to her own midterm and expressing interest in the butterfly exhibit Zeke mentions.Â
They pull up next to Zekeâs house, the very same one he grew up with. Not much has changed from the outside. The white picket fence is a little worn and the rose bushes have been replaced with peonies. The house is still the same shade of cream, but Petra is sure that the Jaegers had it repainted over the summer like they usually do. She looks up at the second-story window where Zekeâs room should be and vaguely wonders if itâs still his room or if heâs moved out and hasnât mentioned it yet.Â
Walking up the brick steps to the door is a bit surreal. Petra doesnât realize just how silent sheâs been until the chime of the doorbell startles her and Mrs. Jaeger opens the door. As with most of Zekeâs family members, Petra hasnât seen Mrs. Jaeger since she broke up with Zeke, but she had an amicable relationship with her. She canât recall Mrs. Jaeger ever being angry, so sheâs surprised when Zekeâs mother opens the door with a terrible scowl on her face.Â
âMom, you remember Petra,â Zeke says, moving aside so that Petra can enter first.Â
The scowl quickly slips from Mrs. Jaegerâs face, replaced with a smile that Petra is more familiar with. âPetra, of course! I havenât seen you in ages,â Mrs. Jaeger says, her voice strained. She waves Petra and Zeke in, shutting the door gently behind them. âItâs nice to see you again.âÂ
âLikewise,â Petra mumbles. She looks at the kitchen doorway where Zekeâs father leans and gives him an awkward wave. The man, just as silent as he was when Petra was young, gives her a polite smile and a nod in acknowledgment.Â
âSorry, weâre a bit late,â Zeke apologizes as he shrugs off his coat. He walks over to the dining room, Petra and his mother trailing behind him. âA student wanted to talk to me and it took a bit longer than I thought it would.âÂ
âNo need to apologize! Eren hasnât arrived yet anyway. Heâll probably be late. Again.â Thereâs a harsh tone in Mrs. Jaegerâs voice that Petra hasn't heard before. When she looks up, she sees Zekeâs mother hovering around the table and arranging dishes, the same polite smile on her face as she does so. âYour brother, of course, didnât bother to send a text to notify us that heâd be late.âÂ
Petra wonders if Mrs. Jaeger usually speaks about Eren with such disappointment in her voice. Maybe she had always spoken about Eren like this and Petra had never been around to witness it or maybe itâs something that developed while Petra was away. Whatever it is, Zeke and his father seem used to it. Zeke merely shrugs, pulling out his phone to flip through his phone while his mother continues to mutter about how disrespectful her stepson is. Mr. Jaeger continues to stand at the doorway, not bothering to join them at the dining table, his eyes fixed on the carpet. He doesnât bother to defend his son.Â
âMaybe heâs busy,â Petra says, interrupting Mrs. Jaeger mid-rant. She feels rude for speaking while Mrs. Jaeger is talking, but sitting in silence while Zekeâs mother speaks ill of Eren doesnât feel right either. All eyes are on her now - Mrs. Jaeger a little surprised, Zeke with an eyebrow quirked upward as if in amusement, and his father with a look thatâs almost relieved. Petra clears her throat and continues. âHeâs a teacher, right? It must be difficult teaching so many children every day â making the lesson plan and everything. Maybe texting slipped his mind. Heâll probably be here soon.âÂ
God, she hopes Eren will be here soon. Her cheeks are starting to burn bright red and sheâs thinking that perhaps speaking up might not have been the best decision.Â
âAh, youâre probably right.â Mrs. Jaeger seems a little more composed now, perhaps remembering that they have company over. She settles down in the chair across from Zeke and flashes a pleasant smile at Petra. âHe can be quite forgetful of these things. Of course, youâd never worry your father like this. Youâve always been so responsible.âÂ
Has talking with Zekeâs mother always been this difficult? Petraâs head is starting to spin, unsure of what response would be appropriate. She feels as if she should defend Eren, but she doesnât want to make things awkward either. In the end, she smiles awkwardly at Mrs. Jaeger as if accepting the womanâs compliment and reaches out for the glass of water in front of her, raising it to her lips before she can say anything else that she might regret.Â
âDear, come sit next to me,â Mrs. Jaeger calls. She gestures for her husband to join them at the table and Mr. Jaeger stiffly walks over from the doorway before taking a seat at the head of the table. Mrs. Jaeger folds her hands on the table, her gaze still on Petra. âHow have you been, Petra? We havenât heard from you in a while. How long have you been back?âÂ
The series of questions leave Petra tongue-tied and unsure of how to answer. Itâs so strange how casual the Jaegers can be about asking after her, like she hadnât been such a large part of their lives â or at least Zekeâs life â ten years ago before disappearing completely. As if they didnât know the real reason she hadnât kept in touch. Sheâs not sure if sheâll ever be able to act as oblivious as them.Â
âEr, Iâve been back for a while now,â she replies. She bites her lip when she sees the look of surprise on Mrs. Jaegerâs face. When she glances over at Zeke, he doesnât look back at her. Heâs returned his gaze to his phone screen, ignoring her. Nervously, she laughs. âI guess Zeke didnât tell you, but Iâm teaching at the same university he is. A few undergraduate English classes and then a graduate course on nature and romantic poetry.â Petra doesnât know why she feels a lump at the back of her throat or the sting of tears at the corner of her eyes. She nibbles at her lip again, looking down at her lap so that she doesnât have to look at Zeke or his family. She doesnât have a reason to feel hurt or upset. Maybe Zeke was busy and didnât have the chance to mention it to his parents or maybe it just slipped his mind. It isnât a big deal.Â
âOh, that must be nice! Who knew you two would be working together after all these years?â Mrs. Jaeger says. She subtly pushes the cheese plate on the table towards Petra, gesturing for her to take one.Â
âMmm,â Petra says, nodding as if she agrees with Mrs. Jaeger. Itâs not as if sheâs wrong. Petra certainly didnât know any of this would happen. She knew some of it would â getting her degree, teaching at a university, eating dinner with Zekeâs parents â she just hadnât predicted other things like Zeke breaking up with her, not speaking with him for ten years after knowing him her entire life, or having to pretend that sheâs okay.Â
Petra reaches for a cracker and a spread of raspberry goat cheese and shoves the entire thing in her mouth, hoping that she wonât have to answer any more questions.Â
âThe university is nice,â Zekeâs father murmurs. Itâs the first time heâs spoken all night. The sound of his voice startles Petra, but the other Jaegers donât seem too surprised. âItâs near the museum too. Very convenient.âÂ
âAh, the museum!â Mrs. Jaeger clasps her hands together and looks at Petra expectantly. Petra nearly chokes on her cracker out of nervousness. âHave you been there yet?âÂ
âEr, not yet,â Petra says hastily, wincing at the pain in her throat. She takes a quick sip of her water to relieve it. âI havenât really found the time, I guess.âÂ
âOh, you should absolutely go!â says Mrs. Jaeger brightly. Petra had never thought Mrs. Jaeger was one to love museums, but thereâs probably a lot about the woman that Petra doesnât know now. All Petra really remembers about the woman is that she stayed at home during the daytime and worked at the hospital at night. Sheâs bound to have found other ways to occupy her time now that she doesnât have to worry about Zeke anymore.Â
âYou sound as if you really enjoy it.â Petra nibbles at another cracker. She feels as if she should smile right now, but sheâs not sure if sheâs able to. âAre there any exhibits you would recommend?âÂ
âOh, theyâre all good! The staff especially âŚ,â Mrs. Jaeger gushes, but her voice begins to trail off. Her eyes flicker over to Zeke as if waiting for a sign to proceed, but her son pays no attention to her. He simply reaches over for an almond on the cheese plate and pops it into his mouth. His motherâs smile tightens and she continues, âThe butterfly exhibit thatâs opening soon should be exquisite!âÂ
Petra looks from Zeke to Mrs. Jaeger. Aside from Mrs. Jaegerâs forced smile, Petra really canât tell whatâs wrong, so she puts on a false smile of her own and nods. âI know. Zeke was telling me about it on the ride here.âÂ
Thereâs a long and awkward silence. Zeke puts no effort in speaking and neither does his father, who still sits and stares at his lap. Only Mrs. Jaeger and Petra seem to be putting in any effort to pick up the conversation, both trying to appear calm as they search for some common ground to work with. Instead, the doorbell rings and Petra swears she hears a sigh of relief escape Mrs. Jaegerâs lips.Â
âIt seems Eren has finally arrived,â Mrs. Jaeger says, her chair scraping across the floor as she gets up from the table. As she turns to leave, she flashes Petra an apologetic smile. âIâm so sorry you had to wait so long.â Petra is about to tell her that it wasnât a problem, that she didnât mind waiting (even if it was a lie), but Zekeâs mother has already disappeared into the next room with Zekeâs father following silently behind her.Â
For a moment, Petra wonders if she should try to talk to Zeke so more. Itâs not that the quiet bothers her, but sheâs never felt comfortable sitting silently next to others unless she was completely comfortable with them. Ten years ago this would have been fine, but now sitting with Zeke beside her without saying a word is making her skin crawl and her throat dry. She glances at him from the corner of her eye, trying to gauge his interest.Â
Zeke doesnât seem to be bothered by the silence at all. Heâs still scrolling through his phone, occasionally reaching out to pluck a cracker or another almond from the cheese plate. If heâs fine without any conversation, Petra figures she shouldnât bother him. She settles down with her back against her chair rather unhappily and tries to occupy herself another way.Â
Petra tries not to eavesdrop on the conversation going on in the other room. First, she stares down at the lace tablecloth, gazing at the delicate pattern until the floral designs are burned into her corneas. Mrs. Jaegerâs voice begins to drift into the dining room, her tone just as cold and harsh as it was when she spoke about Eren earlier this evening. Another voice floats into the room as well, a voice like Erenâs but a bit deeper and rougher than Petra remembers. As the two continue to talk, Petra finds herself straining to listen to the conversation, but she canât quite make out the words. The words exchanged donât sound incredibly pleasant though.Â
â...if you told me we were having a guest beforehand I would have shown up on time,â Eren hisses as he walks into the room. Heâs taller than he was when Petra had seen him last â probably as tall as his brother if not taller â but he walks with his head down and doesnât seem to notice Petra seated at the table even as he pulls out a chair to sit down. Without looking up, Eren mumbles, âSorry, Iâm late.âÂ
Zeke looks up, his expression amused. âEren,â he says, setting down his phone for once. He rests his chin in his hand, mouth quirked upward in a smile. âArenât you going to say hi to our guest?âÂ
âUh, yeah. Hi,â Eren says, mumbling into his lap. His eyes flicker upward, first at Zeke and then Petra, but he doesnât really register who Petra is until he takes another glance. His eyes are huge like a doeâs. Heâs always had big eyes even when he was a child, large and green like gemstones. Heâs grown into them more since the last time Petra has seen him, but theyâre still enormous, growing wider as he recognizes her. His mouth falls open in surprise. â... Petra?âÂ
She can feel her lips curling in a smile. âHi, Eren.âÂ
Eren smiles back at her, a little nervous but a lot more relaxed than he was when he first arrived. Heâs still shy when he smiles, looking up at her before glancing down at his lap again. âHow are you?â He sits up straighter in his seat, no longer slouching.Â
âIâm well. How are you?âÂ
âGood,â Eren answers.
âIâm glad. I missed you,â Petra tells him, and she means it.Â
His smile is a little wider now and Petra feels the most relaxed than sheâs been the entire night. Itâs nice to know that, despite everything, at least Eren hasnât changed and she feels less awkward being at a Jaeger family dinner after ten years of estrangement.Â
Mrs. Jaeger puts down a tub of what looks like a potato salad on the table, opening the container with a frown. âAt least you didnât come empty-handed,â she comments wryly.Â
Eren winces but doesnât say anything.Â
Petra sits up. âIt looks, um, delicious.â It doesnât. It looks like a pile of mush and not at all like anything edible, but Petra begins to spoon some on her plate anyway out of politeness despite the look of alarm on Erenâs face. âEren, your brother told me you started teaching recently. Where do you teach?âÂ
âJust, um, down the street. Not really elementary ⌠itâs a daycare,â he says distractedly as he watches her help herself to his potato salad. Eren hesitates for a moment before taking the spoon from Petra and switching their plates. He does it absentmindedly, almost as if he doesnât realize what heâs doing until he notices everyone looking at him peculiarly. Flustered, he explains, âItâs not, ah, I donât think itâs very good. So.â As if to prove his point, he puts a heaping spoonful of it into his mouth, gagging on it as he swallows it down, and scrunches his face up in disgust.Â
Mrs. Jaeger looks rather smug as Eren chokes. âIâll just put this away then,â she says, removing the tub of potato salad from the table. She gestures for Petra to help herself to the other food on the table. âHelp yourself to everything else, Petra.âÂ
âEr, thank you,â Petra says. She does feel bad about not eating the potato salad, but Eren looks pretty relieved. Because sheâs talked Zekeâs ear off in the car and doesnât know how to carry on a conversation with the Jaeger parents, she decides to continue her conversation with Eren. âDaycare seems like it would suit you. I bet youâre great with kids.âÂ
âIâm alright,â Eren mumbles as he pushes the potatoes back and forth on his plate, but heâs hiding a smile on his face, secretly pleased. Heâs never been that good at hiding his emotions, which Petra thinks is an endearing trait. âTeaching at a university is probably harder.â He freezes for a moment and then hurriedly adds, âYour dad told me you work as a professor now. I ran into him before coming here. He mentioned that you taught English âŚ?âÂ
She doesnât say anything for a moment, casting a side glance at Zeke. She thought Zeke would have mentioned that they were working at the same university, but maybe it never came up in conversation between the brothers or they just werenât as close as they were before. Forcing a smile on her face, she nods, âYeah, I teach English, but I wouldnât say teaching university is more or less difficult than handling a daycare. They have their own challenges, right?âÂ
âYeah,â Eren replies, voice soft. His smile grows wider and, after Petra asks him about what itâs like teaching at the daycare, starts animatedly talking about his students. He seems very endeared towards a young girl named Gabi, a very mischievous but sweet troublemaker, and her companion Falco, a young boy that often has no choice but to be dragged into all of Gabiâs shenanigans.Â
Talking to Eren makes the rest of the dinner go by easily. Heâs always been easy to talk to even when they were teenagers and she was dating Zeke. Sometimes she would wait at the Jaeger house and talk with Eren while they waited for Zeke to come back from baseball practice. Eren was always so animated when he talked, using his hands and sometimes bouncing up and down his seat when he got excited. He still does that now as he talks about his work at the daycare, listening intently whenever Petra or even Zeke exchange their own stories about teaching. It makes her feel as if the past ten years hadnât really happened, like Zeke and Eren had been a part of her life the entire time.Â
âOh, I brought dessert,â Eren says brightly. Before Mrs. Jaeger can say anything, he gets up to collect the paper bag on the kitchen counter and plops it on the dining table. He pushes it closer to Petra. âYour dad gave me some while he was closing up his shop.âÂ
She laughs. âI eat too many of these as it is,â Petra says, but she plucks an almond cookie from the bag. Her teeth sink into the cookie, savoring its subtle nutty flavor on her tongue, and sighs. âDonât tell my dad. He wonât let me eat anymore when I get home.âÂ
âYour secretâs safe with me,â Eren grins.Â
Petra peers into the bag. âDid he give you any chocolate croissants?â She looks over at Eren. âThose are still your favorites, right?âÂ
Eren looks surprised. âAh, yeah,â he replies, blinking. âYou remember?âÂ
âOf course, I remember,â she snorts. She manages to find a pain au chocolat and places it delicately on Erenâs plate. Itâs a little smooshed from the ride here, chocolate spilling out of its side, but Eren still looks at it hungrily. âWhy wouldnât I?âÂ
Zeke leans forward. âI like the lemon bars. Let me know if there are any in there.âÂ
She laughs and actually does manage to find one, but itâs a lemon-lavender bar. Zeke assures her itâs fine, picking off the little bits of lavender that are on the top of the bar. They eat like that for a moment and Petra feels an overwhelming wave of nostalgia. Itâs probably unhealthy to yearn for the past, but Petra wouldnât mind if things somehow ended up the way they were before.Â
When their dishes are scraped clean and the conversations begin to fade away, Zeke pats down the corner of his mouth with a napkin before announcing that they should stop for the night. He has papers to grade tonight, he explains to his parents who nod understandingly. The wooden legs of his chair scrape against the carpet as he gets up from the table and Petra slides out of her own seat, ready to follow him.Â
âAh, Petra,â Zeke says, pausing like heâs just remembered. He looks at her, head tilting slightly. Heâs stopped by the door to the living room, his hand resting on the doorframe. âDo you mind calling an Uber to pick you up? Iâd drive you home myself but âŚâÂ
âI âŚâ Petra blinks, feeling like a deer in headlights. If she looked around, she would see that the rest of the Jaeger family has a similar expression. Sheâs not sure why she feels so surprised. Maybe itâs because she had expected him to drive her home, but maybe that was too much to ask of him after he had taken the trouble to drive her here in the first place. Itâs not even that far of a drive to her house, but itâs probably too cumbersome for Zeke, whoâs busy with grading papers and preparing for tomorrowâs lectures. Thereâs an awful lump in her throat like she had swallowed an egg whole, but Petra forces a smile on her face as she begins, âSure, let me just call my dad -âÂ
âIâll take you home,â a voice says suddenly. Everyone turns to see Eren standing up from his chair. At first glance he looks angry, but Petra blinks again and thereâs only concern on his face as he collects his jacket and walks over to Petra. He shrugs it on and smiles down at her, his expression a little apologetic. âEr, you donât mind riding on a bike, do you?âÂ
Petra has to lift her head to look at Eren and she wonders when he had gotten so tall. It must have been after she left for college. âNo, thatâs fine,â she replies numbly, too shocked to really think about it. She shuffles silently after Eren, mumbling a brief âthank youâ when he helps her into her coat.Â
âIt was lovely having you over again, dear,â Mrs. Jaeger says to Petra, a smile pasted on the womanâs face as she saw the two out. She doesnât say anything about Zeke not offering Petra a ride back. âDo come again sometime.âÂ
âOf course,â Petra says, although the promise feels empty. Sheâs not sure if Mrs. Jaeger notices or even cares because the woman shuts the door in her face before Eren and Petra are even out in the driveway. Itâs not a cold gesture, but itâs a change from the days when Mrs. Jaeger would wait until Petra was almost out of sight before shutting the door and disappearing into the house.Â
Petra shoves her hands into the pockets of her coat and follows Eren down the driveway, watching as he runs to the bike he had carelessly discarded on the ground before entering the house earlier. Embarrassed, Eren hastily picks up the bike, brushing it off and mumbling something about how he had been in too much of a hurry earlier to properly lock up his bike. Petra assures him itâs fine. Sheâs only half-listening anyway.Â
âYou can just sit here,â Eren says, patting a padded seat on the back of his bike. He throws a leg over his bike easily and looks at Petra, waiting expectantly.Â
She hadnât objected to the ride home before, but now she looks at Erenâs vehicle of choice skeptically. âAre you sure youâll be able to pedal with me on it? Iâm a whole other person.â Petra hovers beside the bike, but she doesnât get on.Â
âYeah, itâs fine. It was fine when my boyfriends were riding in the back, and theyâre a lot heavier than you,â Eren replies. It takes him a moment to register what he just said and then his face begins to color, cheeks glowing pink even in the dim moonlight. âI mean my ex-boyfriends. I rode around with my ex-girlfriend too, but she was really tiny too. She was âŚâ He probably would have babbled on and on if Petra hadnât sat down.Â
âYour exes?â Petra asks, eyebrow raised. She hadnât really thought about Eren dating, but itâs funny to think about now. She doesnât remember if he ever dated anyone when he was in high school. She probably shouldnât tease, but she canât resist grinning at the boy and saying, âIt looks like you were busy in college.âÂ
âNot that busy. Just ⌠probably as busy as your average college student,â Eren mumbles under his breath, face still flushed. He gestures at Petraâs hands and then makes a motion around his waist. âYou can ⌠around me if, you know, youâre comfortable with it.âÂ
âOh, right.â She leans forward and wraps her arms around Erenâs waist and wonders briefly how someone so tall can have such a thin waist. âDo you remember the way to my house?â she asks.Â
âOf course,â Eren says. âItâs not that far from here.âÂ
For some reason, the way Eren answers makes Petra feel warm. Maybe itâs just the heat transfer from resting her cheek on his back. She closes her eyes, feeling the wind rush around her as Eren bikes her back home.Â
It feels so comfortable, clinging onto someone so familiar and breathing in Erenâs scent, something like pinewood and a little bit of peppermint. He feels strong too, sturdy like a redwood tree. Petra doesnât know why she doubted his ability to bike with her additional weight. Heâd probably be fine having someone twice her weight in tow. She experimentally gives Erenâs waist a little squeeze. It must have been too sudden of a squeeze because they come to a screeching stop, Petraâs face slamming against Erenâs back and the two of them nearly go flying.Â
âOh, ouch,â Petra says. One arm is still wrapped around Erenâs lithe waist, but she raises a hand to rub her stinging face. âThat hurts.âÂ
âS-sorry!â Eren stammers. He twists around to get a good look at Petra, forehead wrinkling. âI didnât mean to stop so suddenly I was just ⌠surprised.â He brings his hand down to where Petraâs arm is hooked around his waist, but he snatches his hand away as soon as their skin brushes as if heâs been burned. âSorry!â
âItâs fine,â Petra assures him. Her nose is throbbing dully, but itâs not bleeding. âItâs my fault anyway. I was just surprised. Youâre a lot bigger than you were the last time I saw you.âÂ
âIâm alright,â Eren says with a shy laugh. He pushes off on the bike and starts for home again, pedaling easily despite Petraâs weight. He doesnât startle when Petra leans against him again, her cheek rubbing against the cotton of his hoodie. His breath hitches a little when Petra wraps her arms a little tighter around his waist, but it goes unnoticed by her.Â
âWere they nice?â she asks. Eren makes a confused noise, and she canât help but smile. Clarifying, she says, âYour exes. Were they nice?âÂ
Eren pedals in silence for a while before responding. âYeah. They were nice.âÂ
âThatâs good.â Petra sighs against his back, not noticing the way he shivers as if he can feel her breath on his skin. âYou deserve to date nice people.âÂ
Petra might have imagined it, but she thinks she hears Eren say something in reply. He says it quietly, though, and the wind carries it away too quickly for her to hear. She straightens her back, lifting her head from where it rests against Erenâs back, but he doesnât repeat himself and she doesnât ask. Maybe itâs just one of those things that are meant to be spoken aloud but not heard by anyone.Â
They donât speak much the rest of the way home. Petra figures Eren is having enough trouble biking with two people and holding a conversation would only tire him out more. She just lets herself rest against him, watching as they pass streetlight after streetlight. It probably would have been more convenient to call a Lyft or an Uber, but Petra thinks accepting Erenâs bike ride isnât bad either. It saved her from having to wait awkwardly for her driver to find the house while Zekeâs parents waited for her to leave.Â
She wonders if she should have gone to dinner in the first place. Maybe Zeke had only invited her out of politeness, but she had taken it to mean more than it did. Sheâs stupid to think that arriving at the Jaeger house meant that things could go back to the way things were. It was noticeably tense in the house. At first, Petra thought it was because of the strained relationship between Mrs. Jaeger and Eren, but now sheâs not so sure. Itâs not as if Mr. and Mrs. Jaeger had met her with open arms. They hadnât been hostile, but they were polite in the way that people were polite to house guests and not in the way they would be to a childhood friend of their son. God, sheâs so stupid. She should have just declined Zekeâs offer politely and never spoken to him again since he was obviously content with not speaking with her for ten years.Â
Burying her face in Erenâs hoodie, Petra gives him another squeeze. Eren doesnât brake this time. He just lets out a surprised âoh!â and falters for a bit, bike slowing, before picking his pace back up and continuing on their way.Â
âWeâre almost there,â Eren tells her. As he approaches Petraâs house, the bike begins to slow before stopping completely in front of the driveway. When Petra lifts her head, Eren is looking at her, smiling. âAre you alright?âÂ
âYeah,â Petra nods. She gets off the bike and pats down her windswept hair, brushing some stray locks out of her face. She manages to smile back at Eren. âThanks for the ride back. I hope it wasnât too out of your way.âÂ
âItâs fine.â Eren sits at his bike, his smile a little lopsided. He looks as if heâs about to say something, but nothing comes. Itâs only when Petra turns around towards her house that he opens his mouth. âHey, Petra?âÂ
Petraâs hand rests on the gate of her wooden fence, just about to open it. She looks at Eren, watching as he fidgets with the handle of his bike. âYeah?âÂ
âDid Zeke âŚ?â His voice trails off and Erenâs looking everywhere except at her face. He nibbles on his bottom lip and Petra wonders what heâs so nervous about. His expression looks pained as if heâs scared whatever he has to say will hurt her, but Petraâs not sure why it would. After a moment, Eren swallows and forces a smile on his face. âDid Zeke tell you that ⌠I work near your university?âÂ
âYou do?âÂ
Eren nods. He looks a lot less nervous now, his shoulders relaxed. âWell, itâs not that far by bike.âÂ
âReally?â Petra hums. âI should come visit you some time then.âÂ
âOh, you donât have to -âÂ
âOr you could visit me?â she suggests.Â
He blinks. âI can?â Eren asks. âIs that really okay?âÂ
Petra almost laughs. âOf course. Why wouldnât it be? You should just let me know beforehand if youâre coming,â she tells him. She walks over, pulling her phone out of her purse and handing it to him so he can add his number. âText me or call me. I might not respond right away because I might have a faculty meeting or a lecture, but Iâll get back to you as soon as possible.âÂ
âOh, alright then,â Eren says. He types away on her phone, handing it back to her as soon as heâs finished. He watches with wide green eyes as Petra sends him an emoji â a simple âHi, Eren! Itâs Petra đâ â and looks back at her with a grin. âIâll come visit sometime.âÂ
âThatâd be great,â Petra says, and she really means it. âThanks again for the ride, Eren. I really appreciate it.âÂ
âIt was no problem,â Eren tells her. He waves as walks through the gate and up the steps of her porch. Heâs still waving when she opens the door and turns around, his smile a little goofy but cute at the same time. âHave a good night!âÂ
âYou too,â Petra says before shutting the door gently behind her. She takes a peek out the window and sees Eren still on the sidewalk with the bike. He stands there with a pensive look on his face before pushing off his bike and riding off into the night. Petra watches until heâs a tiny speck down the road. When she blinks, heâs gone.Â
Petra finds her dad waiting for her in the living room, sleeping because he canât stay awake for very long after dinner. In his lap sits a half-finished crossword puzzle. Petra smiles affectionately at her father before pressing a soft kiss on the old manâs brow.Â
âIâm home,â she whispers as her father begins to stir.Â
âAh, Petra,â says her father. He looks at her, eyes still bleary with sleep, and gives her a drowsy smile. With a hand, he pushes up the glasses that were slipping off his nose during sleep. âDid Zeke drive you home?âÂ
Her lips press into a thin line. âNo. He was busy,â Petra replies, trying to keep her voice as even as possible. âEren took me home instead.âÂ
âEren?â her father repeats, not seeming to remember the name.Â
âZekeâs younger brother,â Petra reminds him. She leans against the back of her fatherâs armchair as she tries to describe the half-brother. âHe was a few years younger than me. Brown hair, big green eyes, kind of gangly.âÂ
âOh, Eren,â her father says, nodding. Petraâs not sure if he actually remembers or if heâs just being polite, but then he suddenly says, âI saw him earlier this evening before I was closing up shop. Heâs very polite. Heâs a nice boy.âÂ
Petra leans over to rest her head on her fatherâs shoulder while her arms lay folded on the back of the armchair. She thinks about her ride home, how it could have been cold and miserable and lonely. And maybe her thoughts were all of those things, but the ride wasnât. She can still feel the warmth Eren emanated from underneath his hoodie, how comforting it was to have someone to hold.
âYeah. Heâs a nice guy,â Petra says softly.Â
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Noir (yutae)
Week II pt. 1
Tokyo â fall of 1983: Nakamoto Yuta is quickly rising in the ranks of one of Japanâs most notorious yakuza families, and heâs poised to climb even further if he can stop himself from being ruined by the pretty Korean boy whoâs shown up out of nowhere.
Chapter 1Â | Â Chapter 2Â |Â Chapter 3Â |Â Chapter 4Â |Â Chapter 5Â |Â Chapter 6Â |Â Chapter 7Â |Â Chapter 8Â |Â MasterlistÂ
Glossary of Japanese words
Characters: Yuta x Taeyong + NCT ensemble, Twice J-line (for funsies)Â
Genres: Gang!AU, angst, smut, fluff, 1980s!AU
Warnings: graphic violence, swearing, minor character death, alcohol use, mentions of drugs, period-typical homophobia, xenophobia, BDSM
Rating: 18+
Length: 4.5k (will progressively get way longer)
A âfoot soldier,â as it turned out, was the smallest of small fry in the syndicate. Â They were mostly responsible for manning the many front businesses that Inagawa used for small change, low-level intimidation, and charity work. Â Taeyong found that he did get to carry a revolver around with him but was forbidden from using it in non-life-threatening situations because he had only been a yakuza for about a week and had only gotten the opportunity to practice firing the thing twice. Â This was both for his own protection and for the protection of the gang; almost nothing could have been more damaging than the misfiring of an illegal gun by a rookie.
All Taeyong had needed to do to leave his mechanic job was to submit a letter of resignation, which in honesty was the most obvious solution. Â People were allowed to resign without a specific reason â his boss didnât own his soul. Â And Taeyong wasnât too sad to leave since he hadnât been close to anyone working there.
After a week, Taeyong found himself leaning over a yellow plastic desk at the entrance to a miscellaneous electronics shop in Akihabara, bored to death and resigned to people-watching. Â Taeyong usually avoided Akihabara because he wasnât particularly interested in electronics nor in otaku culture. Â More than that, he hated how the few times he had come to the neighborhood in the evening heâd been approached by creepy middle-ages men trying to entice him to go âchatâ with some âlovely young ladies.â
But now he was here among the neon lights with nothing more to do with himself but try to look inviting to customers.  If he was being honest, part of him wanted to sabotage the whole racket by looking purposefully glum and driving people away.  Despite his sweet face, Taeyong did have an aggressive streak in him but he always considered himself principled about those who got hit by it.  For instance, swindling major corporations out of millions of yen, as he was vaguely aware that Inagawa did, seemed perfectly ethical to him.  Selling faulty electronics to innocent working-class people on the other handâŚ
âTaeyong!â Mark yelled from behind him, forcing him out of his contemplative rabbit hole of Robin Hood ethics.
Taeyong turned around to see Mark walking up to him, a stack of colorful business cards in one hand and a badminton racket and shuttlecock in the other. Â What a fuckinâ weirdo , thought Taeyong, although he couldnât help but like the guy.
Mark had been the first person Taeyong had spoken to as an unofficial member, he supposed, of the Inagawa-kai, as he was the one responsible for escorting Taeyong back to his apartment and spending the night there to ensure that he did not try to run away or go to the authorities. Â Taeyong didnât sleep that night because his head was full of too many questions, and Mark wasnât allowed to, so the two instead got to talking â as much as they could given the supreme awkwardness of the situation, anyway. Â Â Â Â
âWhat do you need?â Taeyong asked and in response, Mark passed him the stack of cards as if that were an explanation. Â Before he got around to illustrating his intentions with words, he began bouncing the shuttlecock against his racket, twisting the string bed 180 degrees between each contact.
âI need you to stand on the sidewalk and hand these out to people,â he finally said, still focused on his game. âThey say weâre having a promotional sale. Â Itâs supposed to drum up more business which we can handle with the three of us here instead of two. Â But for this to work, you need to stop scowling. Â Show off that charming smile of yours.â
Mark was sure a cheeky bugger. Â If Taeyong did stick around in this gang, heâd eventually use his age advantage to mess with the kid once their gap in experience wasnât so large.
âWas this your idea?â Taeyong asked.
Mark shook his head no, pausing his game of hand-eye coordination. Â âIt was our Shategashira âs.â Â
âNakamoto?â
âHasnât he told you to use his title? Â Or just Yuta if you want to use his name.â
Taeyong huffed a sigh. Â This â Shategashira â of his had really become an exasperating figure in his life over the past week. Â Theyâd barely interacted, but the coolness and ease with which Yuta always addressed him made him feel funny; as if he truly had no control over the trajectory of his life anymore simply because he was dumb enough to follow some sounds in an alley. Â But who was he kidding? Â His life might as well lead him to being in a gang. Â Wasnât that what heâd always wanted? Â And anyway, there was a reason the Inagawa-kai had an entire Korean division and some Korean leadership. Â Taeyong had just imagined more bombastic motorcycle rides and fewer junk computers.
âYeah I remember now,â Taeyong said, shuffling the business cards in his hands and making his way out from behind his desk. Â âSo how do I get people to take these?â
Mark walked with him to the front of the shop, his hand on the older manâs shoulder. Â âJust smile and say âpromotional sale: premium consumer electronics. Â This week only,' or some shit and try to get these into the hands of everyone who walks near you. Â I think you can handle it.â
âI will try,â said Taeyong.
He found it was easier to get people to take the cards than he had expected, although his success didnât seem to go further than that, as most people who took a card only regarded Taeyong with a confused scowl once they had it in their hands. Â After about an hour, a woman came walking towards Taeyong on his side of the street, and she was truly the first person Taeyong fully noticed his whole shift. Â He noticed her because no one could have not: she was slightly taller than average, especially in heels, with long black hair blown out, a green bodycon dress, black heels, and a gold chain necklace. Â Taeyong thought she might have the prettiest face heâd ever seen on a woman. Â He also noticed her because she was staring right at him as she approached. Â Taeyong wasnât fazed because he was used to nice looking girls coming onto him. Â They would inevitably be put off either by his ethnicity or by his lack of interest in them â whichever they perceived first â and then bad things would happen. Â However, the intensity in this womanâs gaze felt different as she came to stand just a few feet away.
âMomo-hime??â Taeyong heard Mark yell from somewhere within the store. Â Huh? Â Soon enough both he and Jungwoo had emerged and were greeting the gorgeous young woman. Â Taeyong stayed frozen to his post because he didnât know what to make of the situation nor of his role in it. Â She was a âprincessâ anyway. Â What business did a street rat have introducing himself to her?
Soon, though, Taeyong found he didnât have to. Â She exchanged a few words with his coworkers, and they nodded, pointing her his way.
âLee Taeyong,â said the woman, bowing once she had finally gotten close enough to greet him. Â âIâm Hirai Momo. Â Itâs good to meet you. Â Yuta told me you had been brought on.â
Taeyong was so confused he felt like he was floating, but he bowed back despite himself. Â âNice to meet you too.â Â The name Hirai sounded familiar but Taeyong took a moment to place it. Â Then, like being slapped in the face, his brain found the missing puzzle piece that allowed him to make an association. Â The Hirai family ran the entire operation, didnât they? Â Shit . Â Â Â Â Â Â
âWhy are you here, Neechan ?â asked Jungwoo.
Momo smiled. Â âYuta sent me to retrieve you, Taeyong,â she answered, causing Mark and Jungwoo to raise their eyebrows in unison.
Taeyong could feel the blood rush through his veins, and it felt cold. Â âI â did I do something?â
âDonât worry,â Momo assured. Â âEverythingâs alright. Â Yuta-san just wants to make sure youâre adjusting alright and to have you get some more target practice in with your new piece. Â How does that sound?â
Yuta was turning out to be the most involved boss Taeyong had ever had. Â He still had no idea what was going on, but at least he wasnât in trouble and if he was being honest, he liked firing the gun and looked forward to another sanctioned opportunity. Â Taeyong chided himself as he noticed a piece of his mind wondering churlishly what this girl was to Yuta. Â That doesnât pertain to you , he told himself. Â
âThatâs fine,â he said.
âGreat,â said Momo, winking like a girl from an animated television show or something. Â âSo, youâll go to headquarters and meet him right after your shift, got it?â
Got it.
***
The Inagawa-kai Tokyo headquarters was located in a simple, box-shaped black building on the edge of Aoyama. Â It wasnât a short structure â it had about seven stories â but compared to much of Tokyoâs architecture it remained strategically unassuming. Â Once inside the building, a tall man with dark hair and a patchwork of tattoos and scars across his exposed skin approached Taeyong and told him he would escort him to the meeting. Â At first Taeyong didnât recognize him because he hadnât gotten a good look the first time, but he soon realized that his companion was one of the men who had essentially arrested him a week ago, a fact which made his throat tighten. Â Taeyong also cautiously noted that the man had a fresh stump of a pinky finger on his right hand covered in bandages. Â Must have gotten in a bad fight.
The man led Taeyong down a series of identical concrete hallways until they reached a sliding door made of oak, at which point he left Taeyong to enter the room by himself. Â Taeyong hesitated for a moment but was stunned into action when he heard Yutaâs expressive voice anticipate his presence from inside with the simple utterance of two syllables.
â Douzo .â
Within, Yuta sat at the same desk where Taeyong had first met him, surrounded by expensive Scandinavian furnishings, walls of glass and concrete, and a pristine bonsai tree on a ledge behind him. Â Yuta himself wore black pants, a silk shirt, and a yellow velvet smoking jacket of all things. Â Taeyong felt something twist in his gut at the sight of him and his intent gaze but decided to file the feeling away somewhere very deep for the purposes of later contemplation.
â Shategashira !â Taeyong greeted with a salute, as he was now pretty sure he was expected to. Â âWould you like me to sit, sir?â
âAt ease,â said Yuta, waving him off and letting Taeyong relax a bit. Â âNo need. Â Iâll accompany you to the range right now, if thatâs alright.â
âOf course, Shategashira .â
And with that, Taeyong let himself be led back under the florescent lights of the complexâs maze-like hallways.
âHow are you adjusting, Taeyong?â asked Yuta.
Taeyong was constantly surprised that the couple times he had seen Yuta since their initial meeting, he always made sure to check up on him. Â He didnât know what to make of this. Â He guessed it was just standard practice â a measure to make him feel protected and ensure his devotion, or something of the sort.
âItâs alright, I guess,â Taeyong responded. Â âI like Mark and Jungwoo. Â Johnny seems like a good guy too. Â In all honesty, I donât have a lot to do right now. Â But I do appreciate having the position at all!â Â Taeyongâs tone was absolutely all over the place, not knowing where to stand between familiar and deferent. Â Taeyong thought he saw his little speech provoke a smile in Yuta, and suddenly that knot in his stomach was back. Â Well, fuck.
Yuta spoke. Â âI acknowledge that you donât have the most exciting posting. Â But thatâs partially why I wished to speak with you today. Â After you.â
Yuta left that tease there. Â They had come to the end of a hallway to an orange door with chipping paint and a black symbol indicating that protective equipment for eyes and ears was recommended inside. Â Yuta held it open and Taeyong passed through.
Once in the vestibule of the shooting range, Taeyong set himself up where he was supposed to stand and aimed his revolver at the target on the other end of the room as Yuta leaned against an acid-white wall with his arms crossed and his chin raised slightly.
âRelax your shoulders,â Yuta said, and Taeyong cleared his throat, shimmying his shoulders lower on his back in response. Â He took a deep breath and focused on the red bullâs eye placed on the heart of a human-shaped target, both hands on the gun. Â He had to refrain from grinding his teeth.
âWait until youâre ready,â Yuta coached, voice low and commanding, âthen focus your energy and count down from three before you pull the trigger. Â Simple as that.â
âYes, Shategashira .â Taeyong did as he was told, steadying himself, focusing his eyes on his target, and counting 3âŚ2âŚ1⌠BANG!
Taeyong felt himself sway backwards for a moment after firing but regained his balance quickly â something he had not done the first time he had shot the thing. Â That time, he ended up on his butt, confused and embarrassed as Mark thrashed around on the wall in a fit of performative laughter. Â The practice heâd had since then had helped, but so did the pressure of Yutaâs gaze.
After a moment, Taeyong heard clapping coming from next to him and he realized he had been closing his eyes. Â When he opened them, he saw that a chunk of the wooden target was missing on its inner thigh.
âWe can work with that,â Yuta remarked, finishing his short round of applause. Â âCertainly enough to cripple, and thatâs important. Â However, I get the sense you werenât aiming there, hm?â
Taeyongâs breathing fumbled when Yuta began to stalk towards him. Â âWhat we need is to teach you some precision and confidence,â he explained. âWeâve got to work on your kill shot. Â Do you mind?â
Yuta was asking for the gun, so Taeyong handed it over with an âof course, Shategashira .â Â Â Â Â
Yuta took a sideways stance, holding the revolver out with one arm, and proceeded to shoot five times in fast succession, obliterating the plywood head of the target cutout until it was nothing more than splinters. Â Taeyong did not care to imagine it as belonging to a real human. Â When he had finished, Yuta turned to regard Taeyong, and to Taeyongâs surprise and horror, he broke out into a wide grin. Â God , thought Taeyong, Iâm alone with a psychopath and a gun . Â Although, once that thought had passed, Taeyong couldnât help admiring the princely charm of the way the smile had spread like a sunrise over Yutaâs face. Â What the fuck was going on? Â
âYou see?â said Yuta, ebullient, âyouâll be doing that soon enough.â
Soon enough . Â Right, Taeyong would need to sort out his future, and soon.
âLetâs try again. Â Go back to your stance. Â Weâre going to stay with two hands for now.â
Taeyong took the gun back and repositioned himself in his starting position, holding the weapon with his outstretched arms and lining it up with his sternum. Â Yuta came up beside him and held his hands over Taeyongâs shoulders.
âMay I?â he asked, and Taeyong nodded, allowing Yuta to press down onto his shoulders and straighten his spine. Â Taeyong could feel the other manâs breath and it was sending his nerves into a state he did not need them to be in, heat crawling up his neck. Â Â Â
âDo the countdown again,â Yuta instructed, âdeep breath, and then fire. Â Donât let your eyes close, alright? Â And try to stay still as much as possible. Â You can if you really engage your core.â
Taeyong nodded at all the advice and tried to follow it â attempting also to avoid noticing the watchful smile blooming on Yutaâs face in his peripheral vision. Â He took in a deep breath of the roomâs stale air and counted down again, eyes trained on the cutoutâs heart and intent not to shut.
A BANG rang out once more throughout the vestibule. Â Â Â Â Â Â
Taeyong did narrowly refrain from closing his eyes, but they seemed to have gone out of focus. Â Once he blinked the fuzziness from them, as if erasing an etch-a-sketch, he could see that heâd succeeded in blowing a hole through his targetâs crotch.
Yuta giggled and slapped Taeyong over his right shoulder. Â Taeyongâs head spun. Â Was he supposed to be scared of this literal mob boss or not?
âI have a hunch you werenât aiming there either, huh?â Yuta asked, and Taeyong shook his head no. Â âThatâd definitely be an effective shot though, wouldnât it? Â Might actually be better than aiming for the heart in some situations because you can make them talk while they bleed out.â
Holy shit. Â In an instant, Taeyong became painfully aware of his reality. Â He was practicing shooting because he might be in a situation where heâd need to â where others would be aiming at him the same way he was aiming at this outline of a man. Â What if it was him who got shot in the heart, or worse, shot in the dick and forced to bleed out horrifically? Â Taeyong felt lightheaded but managed to squeeze enough air from his lungs to speak.
âDo you mind me asking you a question, if itâs not too forward?â
Yuta raised an eyebrow. Â âShoot,â he said, obviously amused by his own word play.
âWhy am I here?â asked Taeyong. Â âWhat am I doing here now? Â What am I training for?â Â That was three questions, but oh well. Â Taeyong didnât feel like being measured.
Yuta sighed and cocked his head, eyes fluttering to regard the floor.
âI had a feeling this would come up,â he said, smiling wryly this time. Â âKeep practicing and Iâll fill you in.â
Taeyong nodded and prepared to shoot again, hitting the targetâs left shoulder this time when he pulled the trigger.
âGetting closer to the heart,â Yuta observed, appreciative. Â âYou see, Taeyong, there are only two favorable outcomes for you now that this ball has gotten rolling.â Â Taeyong relaxed his arms and watched Yuta begin to pace, his face steeled by caution.
âThe first, which would be preferable to the family, is that you stay on with the Inagawa-kai and devote yourself to our line of work. Â However, I understand that what has happened was not your choosing, and you may want to return to your normal life as soon as possible. Â Whichever path you choose eventually matters little to what I need you to do for now, so donât worry about it yet.â Yuta paused, giving Taeyong a moment to recover from the way his emotions had just gone topsy-turvy like his image in a funhouse mirror. Â Then Yuta gestured towards the gun Taeyong was now pointing at the rubber floor. Â âPlease continue,â he said. Â Taeyong hit the target in its stomach and caught a hum of approval from Yuta. Â Â
âEither way,â Yuta went on, âyou will need to establish trust here. Â Even if you want to leave, you will have to stay on long enough and perform well enough to prove that we can trust you to be an ally even in the civilian world. Â Does that make sense, Taeyong?â
Bang! Left hip.
âIt does,â Taeyong replied, resigned. Â This was all his own fault anyway. Â He couldnât help his curiosity though. Â âIs this something that happens often?â
Yuta chuckled slightly. Â Bang! Sternum. Â Taeyong was quickly gaining enough balance and confidence to keep himself still while firing.
âSimilar situations have occurred although we obviously try to avoid them. Â For instance, the two men who brought you in to me have been duly reprimanded for their carelessness.â Â
Taeyong was preparing to fire as Yuta said this and was immediately thrown off when his mind returned to the image of his abductorâs freshly severed finger, putting two and two together. Â Is that what a mistake gets you here? Worse, did Yuta purposefully assign that guy to escort Taeyong as some kind of warning? Taeyong was already pressing down on the trigger when this thought came to him and it caused him to misfire wildly, hitting the wall on the other end of the range a few feet from the target.
âFuck!â
âDo you need me to stop talking?â Yuta asked.
Taeyong held the gun in his left hand while shaking out the wrist of his right, as if the problem had been purely physiological. Â âNo! Â Er â sorry, just give me a moment please, Shategashira .â
âThatâs alright,â said Yuta. Â âYouâre doing pretty well for a beginner. Â Take a break for a bit.â
Taeyong nodded, feeling defeated but somewhat relieved. Â Â
âSimilar situations,â he mused âLike what? Â If you donât mind telling me.â
âTake Jungwoo, for example. Â He worked for a circuitry and computing firm that was under our thumb. Â He knew nothing about it â he was simply a technician and didnât have access to the books â but when the small company had defied our understanding with them one too many times, Jungwoo happened to be unlucky enough to witness the consequences. Â We gave him the option to make it up to us by working for us. Â It was difficult for him at first, but now his closest friends are in our ranks and he gets to do what he loves while never needing to worry about money. Â So, it worked out in the end.â
Jungwoo, huh? Â Taeyong had thought the guy seemed a bit too cheery to be a natural gangster.
âI see. Â I donât really have a thing though, that I love doing, you know?â
Yuta shrugged, then smiled in a way that was meant to be reassuring.
âWell, you may not love it, but you know about vehicle mechanics, right? Â That will be useful to us. Â However, to be honest I do feel for you, Taeyong, I really do. Â You caught my attention immediately and have weighed on my conscience. Â I want to help you make the best of this, and the best thing you can do now is quickly prove your loyalty both to me and to the people I work for. Â That way, you will get the most flexibility in the least time. Â Thatâs why Iâm scheming to fast-track you to that point.â
Taeyong was mystified as to why his superior, who had implicitly threatened him into becoming a yakuza in the first place, was being so nice to him; so reasonable.
âWhat does that mean?â Taeyong asked, eyes going wide in anticipation.
Yuta leaned back against the wall and watched Taeyong from under his bangs. Â âIâm in the middle of a project that it would be nice if someone helped me with. Â Itâs not inherently dangerous and itâll give you a good idea of how we operate. Â If you do a good job you will both understand the world youâre now living in and if you want to stay in it, and hopefully, gain enough trust to be allowed to make that decision when the time comes.â
Taeyongâs thumb skimmed nervously over the textured handle of his revolver, eyes searching the vestibule for some sense of reality. Â He felt almost dizzy with exhilaration at the idea of helping Yuta out and spending more time with him - studying him. Â âWhatâs the project?â he asked.
âAn investigation.â
âAn investigationâŚâ Taeyong repeated.  What did he know about investigations?
âYes,â said Yuta, âIâm gathering information on a certain executive at one of the nationâs largest companies. Â For blackmailing purposes.â
Taeyong almost laughed at how upfront Yuta was about this.
âOkayâŚâ
âIs that a yes?â
âDo I have a choice?â Asked Taeyong. Â Yuta smiled, something almost predatory in his expression. Â âWhat would I have to do?â
âAccompany me when I go out following leads, be my lookout and my sounding board for ideas when no one else is free to help. Â You can be more involved depending on how well you do with that. Â Think you can handle it?â
That didnât sound too out of the box for things Taeyong could do. Â Besides, Yuta had said âlookoutâ not âbodyguardâ or something. Â Taeyong was used to fighting, but his dustups were usually with hoodlums from Shin-Ĺkubo, not with armed career criminals.
Taeyong nodded. Â âYeah,â he said. Â âYeah I can.â
Yuta pushed himself off the wall. Â âPerfect. Â Before we finish here though, Iâd like to get you to hit your target.â
The way Yuta said it so flatly made it clear to Taeyong that this was a command, not a suggestion.
âYes, Shategashira .â Â Â Â
âI think I know how to help,â said Yuta, âitâs something I used to do when practicing. Â Do you have someone you want that to be? Â Someone you hate so much it makes your toes curl? Â Makes you want to smell their blood?â
Taeyong pictured the leader of the Specters â the boy whoâd beaten him black and blue until he couldnât hear or think; the boy who had only refrained from dragging Taeyong from a chain on the back of a car when he heard sirens coming for him, and all because Taeyong had dared to be zainichi . Â Sure, Taeyong wouldnât mind a little payback. Â He nodded at Yuta, both menâs eyes going dark and focusing on the target.
âGood,â said Yuta, placing his hands on Taeyongâs shoulders and squeezing. Â This time, Taeyongâs mind had gone too cold to let the contact affect him. Â âNow, donât let them get away with anything less than a bullet to the heart.â
With that, Yuta pushed away and Taeyong imagined his victim, ugly smug face and rising sun headband appearing in his mindâs eye with chilling detail. Â Relax, breathe out, 3, 2, 1, BANG!
Taeyong was steady as the bullet passed an inch or so from the bullseye and the sight caused a great sense of relief to wash over him, like stepping into a hot tub on a snowy day.
When he turned around, Yuta was watching him with a smirk, arms crossed over his chest.
âWhen do I start, Shategashira ?â asked Taeyong.
Yutaâs smirk morphed into what Taeyong could only describe as a proud grin. Â âYou start now.â Â Â
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Thereâs Only Us Left Now
So 2020 can go away now please. The last couple of days have been extremely rough mentally and I just didnât have the energy to write or do much of anything. Iâm still feeling a bit meh but I donât want to leave you guys hanging so I wanted to update this before work today. Thank you to everyone whose been reading this!Â
I Had a Dream I Was a Vigilanteâs Side Kick pt. 3
      Wayne Enterprises had always been a place Halley was unfamiliar with. Sheâd only gone into the building a mere handful of times since being a Wayne but regardless she knew exactly where she was going. She still had her id badge Bruce had given her, hoping it still was active. She flashed it to the security at the door, gripping onto the new folder filled all the information she needed for this visit.
      She felt as if she permanently burnt a bridge with him after that night long ago when she broke out the Joker with the intent to kill him. She wasnât mad that Bruce stopped her. She had grown to be thankful for it. The normalcy Halley had come to embraced until quite recently wouldnât be possible if Bruce hadnât been there to stop her. But there was still that voice in her head that told her that he hadnât forgiven her.
      Dick and Alfred would tell her others and she had hoped them to be right. Bruce did start sending her invites to Galaâs and the likes about a year ago. He also made unannounced bank transfers into her account that Dick had set up for her when she started college. Bruce had done so quietly, not even telling Dick and had never tried to reach out to her for explanation.
      When she questioned Alfred about it on one of their Sunday lunch dates, the butler just said, âMaster Wayne still cares. He wants you to be taken care of.â
      Halley bit the inside of her cheek at the memory and the feeling of still being unable to reach out. Even with forgiving Bruce, there was still a part of her that was bitter for stopping her. Jasonâs words about how sending criminals to Arkham was the same as sending them through a revolving door were proven right by his death. And she also couldnât stop herself from thinking that Bruce was only doing what he was doing for appearances. People started talking, wondering why his daughter was no longer appearing at events or spotted with the family. Â
      Halley pushed herself back into focus, smiling at the guard as he granted her access into the building. She was relieved that it was only Batman Inc. that he revoked her access too after all. Taking a deep breathe she walked through the large lobby of the building, hearing the heels of her boots clicking against the tile floors.
      Her visit was unannounced but she felt confidence raging through her in determination to make her case heard and understood. She had thought of just sending her file of research straight to Alfred but she wanted to make sure that Bruce knew she meant her piece. She didnât want him to just look over it with a shrug or scoff or whatever way he might. She wanted him to know that this Tim Drake meant trouble and wasnât just another lost boy for him to take in and use.
      The elevator ride was long having to constantly stop on multiple floors of one of the tallest buildings in Gotham City but eventually she heard the ding for her floor. She exited and began to walk down the long hallway passing the large board room and other conference rooms until she reached the desk and secretary sat outside of Bruceâs office.
      âExcuse me,â Halley cleared her throat to gain the womanâs attention. âIâd like to talk to Bruce,â
      The woman looked up with her confused, unfamiliar of Halleyâs face since sheâd been out of the public eye for such a long time. The woman cocked her eyebrow up unsure who the girl thought she was to just walk in here and expect to see the big boss. Halley found herself chaneling her younger self, her own persona she had made to wear during Bruceâs charity Galaâs and such when the woman clearly wasnât budging an inch.
      âIâm his daughter, Halley Wayne,â she gave a fake smile. âItâs a family emergency and I really need to speak to my father.â She hated the sound of her own voice but she pushed past it and hid the sneer she wanted to give at statement. She flashed her teeth at the woman again, raising the badge up to confirm she was who she was claiming.
      âOh! Miss Wayne!â The womanâs attitude changed, rushing to stand and move to Bruceâs door. âIâm sorry, I didnât realize. Let me just let him know youâre here, heâs in a call.â
      Halley watched as the woman disappeared behind the large oak doors. Halley bit her lip, looking around the room, trying to hide her impatience. She saw the large portrait hug on the opposing wall of the door of Bruceâs parents and smiled softly at it. As she gazed at the portrait she also noted the one Alfred had forced them to do hung right next to it. It was one of Bruce, herself and Dick and Jason. She frowned at that painting.
      âHalley?â Bruceâs concerned voice tore her out of her loathing. He stood by the open doors, his secretary making her way back to her desk. âIs everything okay?â
      âHey Bruce,â Halley nodded to him, turning around to face the man.
      She looked him over seeing just how worn down he looked even though to the average person heâd look fine. She could tell from his eyes. He looked at her with mixed emotions. He was shocked to see her and she felt somewhat prideful. She had managed to pull one over the big bats. She shook the thought away knowing that she was here for a reason.
      âCan we talk?â She asked, gripping the folder tighter.
      âOf course come right in.â He said moving out of the way and motioning for her to enter his office first.
      She made her way in and waited for him to close the door before turning to face him. She knew he had his office under tight security and knew she could speak freely. She didnât wait a second longer and held up the manila folder she had held securely the entire walk and train ride to the building. Bruce took note of the folder and looked at her silently asking for an explanation. She handed it off to him. He opened it and quietly browsed through the pages she had placed inside.
      âHis nameâs Timothy Jackson Drake.â She spoke at he looked at the first couple of pages. âHeâs fifteen years old; lives in the East End. He has an IQ of 142 and actually got the Wayne Scholarship for a full ride through Gotham Academy.â She started, as Bruce stopped reading and looked up at her.
      He didnât yet question the significance or relevance of the information, knowing it must be important if it brought Halley to him after all this time. He wore a serious look as she didnât falter and continued on,
      âHis parents are Jack and Janet Drake. Jackâs a business man. Not to your caliber but good enough. Heâs attended some of your Galaâs and charity events. His motherâs a stay at home mom, only works a couple of shifts at a local flower shop.â She spoke, finding herself moving to look around the office, as if it would help her get through this faster. She paused as she stood in front of the large windows overlooking the heart of Gotham. Â
      âI did some more digging though because it seemed too clean and there were a couple of transactions in Jackâs accounts that just didnât add up to me.â She explained. âJackâs found himself tangled up with Oswald Cobblepot after taking out a couple a loans from him to help pay the rentâ She frowned as Bruce meet her stare.  âLike I said heâs a business man but not like you. He was down on his luck and I guess making a deal with the Penguin seemed logical.â Halley huffed rolling her eyes at the manâs stupidity.
      âWhat does this have to do with the boy?â Bruce asked looking back into the file; most of the information wasnât on Jack but instead his son.
      âWell, his son knows about us to start.â Halley said bluntly causing Bruce too look at her with firm eyes. âHe figured it out. He recognized Dick after seeing him in action a few months back on TV with the Titans; he had seen the Flying Graysonâs as a kid and he quickly put two and two together. He came to me and told me he knew who we were. He asked me if he could be Robin.â
      Halley paused, hesitating on telling him about that but she knew she had too. As much as this was killing her she had to be fully transparent about this. She felt like the kidâs life could be at stake if she wasnât honest to Bruce. She stored back any pettiness she had left and continued,
      âI think he knows about his father and Cobblepot.â She said looking down and shaking her head. âI think he wants to become Robin to try and help his father or something; I donât really know that part but Bruce, he canât. He-,â
      âHeâs just a kid.â Bruce finished, lowering his eyes. He ran a hand through his hair before walking over to his desk and placing the folder onto it. âWho else knows about this? Have you spoken to Dick?â
      Halley shook her head no. Dick had sent her a text asking if everything was alright after getting the notification of her being in his safe house. She had lied and said she needed a quiet place to work on her paper. She didnât want him to worry, so she decided to keep in him in the dark for now at least.
      Bruce nodded at his former ward, placing his hands in his pants pocket. He walked out from behind the desk and made his way back over to her near the window. âThank you for coming to me with this. Iâll look into it; make sure he doesnât do anything foolish.â Bruce paused.
      Halley bite her lip and nodded to him hesitantly. It was as if she was beyond uncomfortable in his presence. He frowned at this and opened his mouth to speak again, âThank you for feeling like you could come to me with this. I know itâs been a while since weâve last spoken and I am truly sorry for how things left off. I was just doing what I thought was right.â
      âIâm not here to talk about that Bruce,â she snapped, glaring down at her feet. She felt the sharp pang of awkwardness take over after she lashed out and cursed to herself. She had gotten better with that and here she was again.     âIâm sorry, I just-âShe sighed, looking up at him for real this time. Bruce didnât apologize and if he did it was very rare. âI forgive you, Bruce. I forgave you a long time, I just wasnât sure if you had forgiven me.â She admitted.  âYou had done the right thing and I should be thanking you.â She smiled just a crack, finding her voice again. âJust make sure he doesnât do anything stupid okay?â
      She started to head towards the door knowing that she had nothing left to say but was stopped when Bruce spoke up again, âYou could help me with this, you know. I think youâve proven to yourself and me that-,â
      âNo; thank you but no,â Halley cut him off, shaking her head at the thought. âIâm not a hero and the days of me pretending to be one are long over.â
      Halley left without another word feeling her mood shift once again as she closed the door behind her. She gave the secretary a fake smile again before heading back down the hall to the hallway towards the elevator. She tapped her foot against the floor anxiously waiting and hoping and praying that Bruce wouldnât come after her. And for once luck was on her side as the door opened before any such thing could happen.  She entered and pressed the button for the ground floor immediately suddenly wanting to get as much distance from herself and this place as soon as possible.
      She felt multiple ranges of emotions. Satisfaction, reluctance, confidence and temptation. She had finally talked to Bruce; she had finally gotten the justification of knowing that he didnât think so lowly of her. Maybe all of his quiet attempts to reach out werenât just some show? But she still was hesitant to believe it. Actions spoke louder and he had never personally and verbally tried reaching out. He had only ever done so in hiding. And then she had also stood her ground. She went in and said her piece without once wavering. But then he had to go and ruin it. He just had to go and tempt her by offering her a place back in the life that had almost ruined her.
      She tried to shake the thoughts out of her head pushing herself to walk as quickly but unsuspiciously out of Wayne Enterprises. She had done her part. She had made sure the information had gotten shared and she could get back to her life and put any invitation of her old life back where it belonged. She had more important things to worry about, like school papers and homework and other more tasking things.
      What a joke, she chuckled to herself. There was a time when the things she had just listed off didnât even come close to importance and now here she was putting them higher up on her list. The thought made her spiral back into the thoughts of her old life and how it really had going on close to three years this April since Jasonâs death and her giving up her mantle. It had been even longer since she first met him and became Nightshade; longer since she was face to face with her father.
      âStop,â she whispered to herself before she walked to the sidewalk to hail a taxi.
      It wasnât long before she was able to get ones attention and quickly told the driver to bring her to Gotham University. She had more important things to concern herself with than Batman and Tim Drake; she had a paper she still needed to finish writing.
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How to turn a London Con trip into a âChernobylâ trip.
Iâm home so I can finally make this post.
Where to start.
Okay-
Letâs start with âChernobylâ. It happened a few months ago, fell on our heads like a nuclear bomb. We all loved the protagonists but Viktor Charkov, the KGB chairman, is also a memorable, creepy, hateful character who got under our skin with the cold truth of his words, the harsh reality of his behaviour. He was too real, too pragmatic to be ignored. From stories Iâve been told in person, heâs no different than the executive arms of tyrants we had here not more than forty years ago. He exists. People like him live among us.
As for the actor himself, so strange. See, there is no mention of Alan Williamsâ age on IMDB or Wikipedia and thatâs enough to show that, apart from his theatre, TV and film work, little is known about him. Where to find him, contact him, heâs too old to care about social media and apparently he never was too sought out, not with a âface like a bagful of donutsâ as he jokes.
But I was thrilled. I wrote the first chapter of âA single bulletâ after watching âChernobylâ and I just had to show it to this elusive low-profile thespian who inspired me. Because... I donât know, because. Just to say âThanks for doing a magnificent job. Thanks for helping me understand evil.â
So I tried contacting his agent. I gave her my name and nationality. I thought Iâd just send her the link and forget about it.
Apparently, she forgot about it too because I never heard from her.
After a month London Con was upon us, but what to do in the evenings? Plays of course. I booked a ticket for âThe woman in blackâ and âThe Huntâ with Tobias Menzies. Then I searched and searched for Alan Williams plays but, to my dismay, he had finished playing Ivan Romanovich Chebutykin in âThree sistersâ at the beginning of June and his new play, âFaith, hope and charityâ, wouldnât premiere before September. Just my luck to be in London in between the two plays. No stage door queue, no autographs.
After spending a full Saturday at London Con and Sunday at the British Museum, Monday had to be a day of leisure. A free concert at St Martin-in-the-Fields before lunch was all I was capable of attending, drag my steps towards the closest bus stop that would drop me off⌠wherever. I didnât care.
But then I decided to read my post from the previous day about managing to buy a ticket for âThe girl on the trainâ at the very last minute and meeting Alex Ferns, the naked miner. The unexpected ticket, the unexpected hug.
Now how difficult would it be to meet an actor who is NOT doing a play at the moment?
Very very difficult, confirmed one voice.
Heâs rehearsing for âFaith, hope and charityâ, isnât he? disagreed another. He must be. Itâs almost August and the play opens in September. Heâs at work right now. He must be!!!
I googled and googled for almost an hour. I found that âFaith, hope and charityâ would be staged at the Dorfman theatre near Waterloo station so I called the stage door. I explained to the receptionist that I did not know Mr Williams in person but I was visiting London for only a few days, was a big fan of his work in âChernobylâ and I would really love to greet him. The man on the phone was very helpful revealing that this was their first day of rehearsing (the incredible coincidence!) and they had started only⌠an hour ago. He asked my name and I said âWell⌠you can say Eleniâ, I mean, who needs my complicated surname, right? The guy said heâd save my number and let Mr Williams know.
Oh god.
But I couldnât just sit there waiting for a call, Iâd never get that call, come on.
So I rushed to the Dorfman Theatre. I was breaking my brain trying to figure out how I could get the Charkov chapter of âA single bulletâ printed in a district with no stationary shops whatsoever. I was hoping I could⌠shove it into his face I donât know, and later imagine heâd be reading it. He didnât really have to read it, just nod condescendingly and lie that he would, and that would be enough to put a smile on my face. Just like all those toys and drawings people give to celebs at cons that end up in the hands of volunteers, assistants or charities, if not in the trash.
When I got there I talked to a different receptionist, a very professional, very unhelpful young man. For safety reasons he wasnât supposed to disclose neither the time theyâd finish nor the time of recess. For safety reasons I had to go through Mr Williamsâ agent to get to him. Outrageous, the woman didnât even forward my story to him, let alone give me permission to meet him. I was hopeless, I was being turned down. I was being an idiot.
âBut they must have a lunch break, right??â I insisted. âCanât I just wait outside?â
That guy was a goddamn sphinx, and the helpful guy was still talking on the phone or to some lady there, I donât remember, so I couldnât reach out to him. Suddenly I felt unnecessarily needy as if I was sitting on the subway floor, shaking my hat to passers-by, clinging my few coins. How humiliating.
With heavy steps I exited the theatre. Why is it so complicated, why do I need someone elseâs âpermissionâ? Iâm not a child. I looked around, it was a sunny day, people were sitting in coffee tables out in the patio. Some tables were empty but I didnât care, I just sat on a column by the entrance, far enough to not be seen by the receptionists and feel like shit for lingering, close enough to catch anyone exiting.
For an hour and a half I crouched over my phone trying to figure out how to contact the agent without sounding too stalkery. I called the agency but the girl on the phone gave me the same email address where I had sent my fic. Fine. I changed the wording of my message again and again so as not to sound too needy or creepy even if I knew it wouldnât work.
I knew I had missed my concert for no reason and I would soon have to leave because who doesnât like giving up? Itâs better to give up than stress over something thatâs never gonna happen. It always is.
I was seconds away from clicking âsendâ and making a fool of myself to the agent for a second time when I thought I saw someone, a towering presence stopping a few meters away, looking over, hesitating, waiting.
I raised my head.
There he was, three-dimensional, bathed in sunlight. Not an image in my head anymore.
Believe me when I say that I was staring at Gandalf, Santa Claus, the Grail Knight from âIndiana Jonesâ, the Big Bad Wolf.
I honestly donât know what I was staring at.
But there he was, in all his elderly silver-bearded glory. A myth in my mind, in the flesh. How did he know I was there? I didnât tell anyone. I was supposed to be hiding.
After nanoseconds of deer-like stun I did the polite thing and jumped on my feet, ready for a handshake. I mean, I had to stand up, right? He had come out just for me.
Shit. What had I done? The nerve.
The first thing I remember noticing when I got closer were his faded blue eyes with a distinguishable light-shaded rim circling the iris. The rest was just word vomit, how we all love him on tumblr, write fics, make memes etc.
Memes?
I described to him the âTry me, bitchâ edit we all love, courtesy of @two-screaming-rats.
He didnât get it at first, then he laughed so HARD, so damn hard. You guys have to see Charkov laughing his heart out.
He said he only had a few minutes before he had to go back to the rehearsal so I decided to start the conversation with the Charkov fanfics. He was quick to apologize for not answering my email. âIâm sorry but⌠but I honestly donât know what to say when someone sends me a story,â he admitted humbly. âI read all of them but⌠I mean Iâve been sent stories based on my characters before but I really wouldnât know what to say.â
Okay first of all, he read my story. I donât know if he read it a month ago when I sent it or minutes before he exited the theatre to greet me but he did.
Secondly, there are more stories about his characters? WHERE.
âIâm not a writer anyway,â I said apologetically.
The unexpected reassurance. âBut you are.â
I guess one doesnât have to be The Writerâ˘, they just have to write. What a way to be courteous to a fan though.
Then I mentioned how we love Charkovâs trademark, his glasses, how weâre frantically looking for â80s-looking glasses, how we obsess over specific frames and brands.
âTheyâre not a brand,â he clarified, âthey were specifically made for me, theyâre an exact replica of Viktor Chebrikovâs glasses. Just like our clothes that were made by seamstresses who worked during that era.â
Naturally I praised the productionâs attention to detail that has us ranting, how beautiful and âEuropeanâ it all looked, how true the script was to Lyudmilaâs story as it was described in Svetlana Alexievichâ âChernobyl prayerâ. I talked about my thoughts when I first heard there would be a âChernobylâ TV series: the Americans made a TV show based on events that affected Europe, now thatâs a new one. He mentioned Russian media admitting that they should have made that show, not the Americans. I agreed but also added âThatâs the thing, it may be beautifully made, it may be the truth, but itâs still propaganda. Just because itâs true, just because the Soviet government did all those horrible things, that doesnât mean that the show is not serving someoneâs agenda.â He disagreed saying that the Soviet people were shown in a good light for their bravery and sacrifice. Well, we knew that, didnât we.
I said how impressed I was by his portrayal of Charkov because we were told about people like him by dictatorship victims at school. People who had been tortured in the â70s came to us, talking about their time in underground cells, in the hands of sadists like Charkov. I told him about my uncle who was arrested and executed by the Nazis for distributing left-wing leaflets, about my grandmother who had to escape to the mountains during the civil war that followed the German occupation because she was a communist. I explained how real it felt to me, his last scene with Legasov in the kitchen. How bleak and horribly accurate.
He mentioned âYouâre one of us, Legasovâ. To him Charkov was just doing his job, working for the greater good and he agreed with the quote in my fic, that Charkov âcouldnât wait to retireâ.
He then joked about Charkov being blasĂŠ after the committee meeting, âMeh, Iâm done with arresting people, I let others do it for meâ.
I assure you all those questions were answered in a couple of minutes, and I was certain our meeting was about to come to an end.
But then⌠he gestured toward an empty table.
Donât let an aged man standing, was my spontaneous thought. I was reminded of my father.
Then I realized. He gestured toward an empty table.
Table. The two of us. On a sunny day.
Time, he was offering me his time.
And⌠oh my god, this was practically an interview, why was I not recording this, he was answering my questions so effortlessly.
No. That would be rude, that would be greedy.
Just relax and enjoy the moment and try to remember fucking everything.
I asked him what his inspiration for Charkov was, if he based his portrayal on other actors or historical figures. He paused to think and explained that the script was very strict anyway, very defined. However he did mention  Charkovâs line, âI know youâve heard the stories about us. When I hear them, even I am shockedâ and how that reflected Stalinâs hypocritical quote, âWhat do I know, Iâm just a peasantâ.
His favourite line was âTrust but verify, and the Americans think that Ronald Reagan thought that upâ.
âIs that really an old Russian proverbâŚ?â I wondered.
âI⌠donât know!â he laughed.
During the rest of the conversation he mentioned his friend whose job was to translate the Pravda, and his years in Canada where he met Czech-Greeks, namely Greek communists who were driven away by our right-wing government after the Second World War. Even the Soviets didnât want them so they were sent to the Czech Republic and ended up in Canada. These people belonged nowhere.
I didnât know that, and he didnât know about Vladimir Gubarev, the writer of the play âSarcophagusâ and science editor of the Pravda who was the recipient of Legasovâs tapes. I quoted him saying âWhy call the protagonist Legasov since thatâs not how Legasov was, they could have used a character whoâs a scientist and give him any other name.â Like Ulana, I added, whoâs a composite character, or Chebrikov/Charkov, mostly fictional.
Our conversation was coming to an end; he asked me what plays I saw in London and he smiled when I mentioned Alex Ferns in âThe girl on the trainâ.
It was truly overwhelming; I was torn between being swept away by the moment, focusing on nothing but the faded blue of his eyes, bathing in the calm rhythm of his voice, and actually paying attention to what he was saying. Only once did my eyes dart at his left hand spotting the unusually thick golden ring on his finger. When oneâs mind plays tricks the best way to discipline is a glimpse at The Ring because if he didnât have nearly my fatherâs years Iâd probably be having a horribly inappropriate crush.
âTime to go,â he apologized.
We took a couple of photos and I pulled out Svetlana Alexievichâ book, asking for an autograph.
âWhere should I sign?â he asked.
âWherever you want.â
He flipped through the pages noticing my page markers, notes and underlinings. âWhat are these for?â
âJust⌠just notes. Do you want myââ I suggested grabbing my big-ass permanent marker.
Without a word he gave a knowing smile and, like an experienced conjurer, he pulled out of his jacket an elegant little sharpie. Delicate pens for delicate words.
I didnât dare read what he wrote to me then, I could only make out his name through that intelligible doctor-like writing. Surely my name wasnât there because I hadnât introduced myself. Still, I thanked him from the bottom of my heart.
Time to go.
We shook hands and I said how honoured I was that he had spent time with me. I tried not to stare as he disappeared into the theatre but before I left I ran into the foyer, quickly thanked the receptionist to whom I had talked on the phone and stormed out of the building with that huge wave of adrenaline pumping violently in my ears.
As I crossed the street I was grinning like an idiot. I knew I had to stop right there and write down everything before I forgot - but it was pointless. Iâm not a recorder to have to write down everything the minute it happens. Itâs enough to remember the pale rimming of his eyes.
Now, two days after meeting him, Iâm still torn between pride and embarrassment. What the hell was I thinking? Doesnât a man deserve to work in peace?
But as Iâm writing this and attaching his signature on the first page of âChernobyl prayerâ I dare for the first time read what he wrote to me.
Pleasure to meet you.
People say they have religious moments when meeting their favourite celebs.
Mine was poetic.
What a darling, darling man.
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TMA Retro 4: Page Turner
I was touched to see some tag commentary on yesterdayâs post! Honestly, it gave me an emotion - I am traditionally very anxious about engaging online, it speaks to my immense love of TMA that it brought me to Make A Post At Last. Itâs very affirming and reassuring to get some response to my lunatic treatises. Yâall are all right. đ
Anyway, grab some lighter fluid and a sturdy wastepaper basket, time to torch your haunted novel in MAG 4: Page Turner
Itâs ironic that this statement is about the Vast when it is one dense motherfucker. so many dangling plot threads are introduced here, each ready to hook you and start reeling. weâve been into the meta plot since episode one but this episode is the first time the audience is made aware of such.
seriously: Jurgen Leitner and his library, Gerard Keay and Mary Keay, Michael Crew. the figures introduced in this one thirty-minute installment loom large over the rest of the entire run
you could, your first time through, even file this away as a one-off scary story if not for the fact that Jon knows whatâs going on (enjoy it while it lasts, my son). Heâs heard of Jurgen Leitner. He alludes to an incident with his library in 1994. Deeper than that, he immediately takes the statement at face value and treats the claims within it as authentic, which is a complete 180° on the first three episodes
and this is such a smart story choice? Jon shapes our perspective into this universe and up until now heâs been utterly dismissive of the validity of the stories heâs telling. To go from practically rolling his eyes to scheduling a meeting with his boss about tracking down more haunted books - that tells us that Jon takes this seriously as a threat. And that makes us take it seriously too, makes us take note that strange books are dangerous things in this world. Any offhand mention of books in future statements will be enough to make us sweat
And! It starts winding the narrative tension on a character level. Why and what does Jon know about Jurgen Leitner and his library? Why does he say his name with such venom? And if heâs so sure about the supernatural nature of these books, why is he so loath to believe the other statements?
(and then it takes 80 + episodes to fully answer these initial questions. Jonny enjoys a slow roasted torment)
love that the statement giver presents, as proof of his iron-clad sanity, the fact that he works as a theatre technician. speaking as someone with an unfinished theatre degree: theatre people are feral my good buddy, try again. I mean, we refuse to say the name of one of the most famous plays in the English language because we think a ghost will trip us for the indiscretion. this is not the trump card you think it is.
a quick sidebar for the Red String Brigade: The Trojan Women is an ancient Greek tragedy that involves a baby being thrown off a city wall. The Seagullâs first published English translation was done by Marian Fell, and also a seagull is a bird and birds can fly. Much Ado About Nothing is very good and you should all watch the version from 2011 with David Tennant and Catherine Tate.
itâs interesting that these early episodes seem to take a cue from urban legends in some respects. Nathan Watts gets extremely drunk at a party and then is almost skinned by a monster while having a smoke. Joshua Gillespie is approached while engaging in a whirlwind of debauchery and has to take care of a cursed coffin after accepting money for what he thinks is a drug trafficking gig. Amy Patel regularly spies on her neighbour for her own entertainment and then has to watch him be replaced by a malevolent entity only she can perceive. and now Dominic Swain pushes past his guilty conscience to score a valuable book off an unknowing charity shop and...gets a bit dizzy and haunted by a phantom stink for a few days then gets âÂŁ5,000, well anyway, the point is he got spooked! spooked after doing something kind of iffy! that is pure urban legend procedure; modern day fairy tales imparting dire  consequences onto societal transgressions. in a horror story this structure offers a false sense of safety - if youâre a good person, the monster wonât come for you. I canât recall which upcoming statement yanks the rug out from under us with the first completely random victim.
cannot comprehend how this guy didnât start plugging the book into google translate the second he got home. that probably saved him from being taken by the book but I am still judging him for not even trying it. yeah youâd be sucked into some sort of sky hell but at least youâd know whatâs in the book!! could never be me
(yes I am aware in this universe I would have been eaten years ago. Iâve made my peace with that)
grbookworm1818 slays me. I donât know which is better, the idea of Gertude carefully curating the most sixty-five-year-old-on-goodreads username she could as a cover for her cursed purchase history, or her actual sixty-five-year-old brain just expressing itself naturally because Gertrude is a very busy woman who doesnât have time to immerse herself in the ins and outs of internet culture, she just wants to buy the demonic tomes sheâs selected for destruction and get on with her day thanks.
did Gertrude know what a meme was? which Archivist could convincingly pose as a millennial best, Gertrude Robinson or Jonathan Sims?
The Key of Solomon and its former keeper, Samuel Liddell MacGregor Mathers, are both real historical figures. the book is basically Renaissance-era magical au fanfic of the Bible, and the man was a 19th century British occultist (and likely drinking buddy of Jonah Magnus) who founded a Very Serious Secret Society. this is a picture of him whiiiiiich rather dispels any sense of menace heâs meant to invoke. what kind of cosplaying nonsense
Mary Keay is such a striking figure. âShe was very old and painfully thin, but her head was completely clean shaven, and every square inch of skin I could see was tattooed over with closely-written words in a script I didnât recognise.â a Look, a vision!
Iâm guessing that Our Gerard was blasting heavy metal at 2 am to try to drown out his undead mother while waiting for her manifestation to dissipate. I like to imagine him frequenting Reddit advice posts about dealing with toxic family members, poor lad
oh my gosh Mary refers to Gerard as âher Gerardâ is that where Jon got âour Gerardâ from?? I feel betrayed??
whatever, Iâm reclaiming it. Our Gerard is meant with affection now babey!Â
the eye portrait is a bit puzzling. the inscription - ââGrant us the sight that we may not know. Grant us the scent that we may not catch. Grant us the sound that we may not call.ââ - could almost be read as an invocation against the Eye? But in general Gerry is fairly Eye-aligned, so...shrug emoji
(honestly my main takeaway from the eye portrait is that itâs finely detailed and near photorealistic so we can add âtortured artistâ to our list of Gerard Keay traits and is it any wonder that heâs so Fandom Beloved?)
Mary is Not Good at negotiating sales. her main technique involves terrible tea, bringing up repressed childhood trauma, and getting her magic book to drop animal bones onto customerâs shoes. Iâm guessing Pinhole Books was in bad shape even before the police investigation and murder charges.
hahaha, the Vast pushes Dominic down the stairs. classic. you gotta grab what opportunities are available
so did Gerard have to follow Dominic back to his flat and wait awkwardly on the doorstep at like 3 in the morning, hoping none of his neighbours would notice and call the cops
the revelation that Maryâs been dead the whole time! this episode may be more intent on world building and plot set-up but damn if it isnât still a good little ghost story.
kind of rude of Gerry to just burn a book in this guyâs flat without asking and then steal his wastepaper basket.
Jon may not call the statement giver a liar for once, but never fear, heâs still our petty bastard man. accuses Gertrude of filing statements without reading them, has Sasha double-check Martinâs research, grumps about his general misfortune . heâs stressed from the Archivesâ disorder and having flashbacks to a certain picture book but by Jove, that wonât stop him making snide comments on whatâs supposed to be an official audio transcription!
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Batboys scenario: Secret Model Girfriend. 1/2
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Batboys Scenario 1: secret model girlfriend.
Boys are dating a nerdy, clumsy and very plain looking girl, not knowing she's a very gorgeous model they've been obsessing over and one day they're invited to a shoot to meet s/n [Stage name] and let's just say the boys say some pretty hurtful shit, needless to say they get the biggest shock of their life when the model sounds an awful lot like their girlfriend!
Dick Grayson: Kori got him backstage he was so giddy about meeting [S/n] he has a lot her posters on his old bedroom back at the manor and a few cleverly hidden magazines hidden back at his and Y/n apartment, His girlfriend has no idea he's here...His eyes wonder around the set ladies of every shape and various stated of dress eye him, some flirtatiously, other curiously and few could care less.
You meet a lot of attractive men in this industry so the more seasoned models have learned *not to flatter yourself, chances are he's just window shopping or fishing for attention.* Then she came into his view [s/n] she looked more stunning in person than on paper.
She wore a dark blue cover dress over a white bikini, her short/long glossy hair was flowing, her plump red lip were curled into a friendly smile that brighten the room her eyes were covered by sunglasses, Dick felt butterflies in his stomach as the [y/height] woman approached the he caught wisps of her perfume in the air...
that caused Dick to stall for moment. It was familiar he quickly pushed that aside and introduced himself. Y/n being the ever good actress she was used her s/n's [accent], They hit it off pretty well they talked about the show and her up coming tour and eventual somehow got on to relationships. "So.. Kori says you have a girlfriend, what's she like?"
the model asked as the raven haired snorted, not his cutesy 'OMG I thought you'd never ask!~' snicker this was a sarcastic snort. "Oh...yeah, she's nothing special... pretty boring really." Kori and S/n both gawked at as he continued. "It's not serious, I'm only with Y/n because of a dar-" he was suddenly cut off by a seething Kori "Richard! that is Y/n!" she snarled ready to pummel him.
Dick's stomach suddenly felt like it was full of sand a lumped formed throat as the familiar little hiccups his girlfriend would make when she was trying hard not breakdown crying filled the very quiet set. he swallowed hard as S/n took off her wig and sunglasses letting her natural hair fall over her face, as her teary e/c eyes looked up at him in betrayal,
 before Dick could say anything she pulled the keys to their apartment off her key-ring and threw them at him before running off sobbing, Kori went after her while all the other models gave the flabbergasted man the evil-eye, now Dick really was living up to his name sake.
Jason Todd: Artemis was your bodyguard when she wasn't with the outlaws, Jason got curious where the amazon was getting her extra cash from and followed her. to say he was excited was an understatement, S/n was he dream girl,Â
he had her posters,magazines and a few of her interviews saved on his phone, he used to and still does have a few inappropriate dreams about her, So, when he saw the Amazon talking the the Model who was in a red  bunny girl outfit; Jason was over the moon.
While Artemis was very against the idea of letting Jason meet S/n..."He's going to hurt you." she said in hush tone, But you brushed it off saying that you've known Jason since before he was the hood and knew he wouldn't do anything!Â
Sure, he's S/n fanboy, but he loves you...Or so you thought! It's seemed like a normal interaction he asked for S/n's autograph and talked about her her travels and shoots then...got bad, Fast!
One second Jason was talking about his time in Japan talked about the cherry blossom festival how the petals reminded him of pink snow, the model felt a little off by this...he never talked to Y/n about this maybe thi...no, she was being silly!Â
"Oh, I've always wanted to go during that time, but scheduling is a bitch." She suddenly Jason's hand on hers the model cocked a brow looked up at the raven haired man, He said he was in the country for an escort mission got to spend a few night in a traditional hotel in the mountains...it was pretty relaxing.
"And it just so happens they gave me a free trip for two the next time I was there, how about it?" he smirked as S/n pulled away from him "Artemis tells me you have a girlfriend why d-" Jason's smirk immediately dropped then S/n mentioned Y/n who was hoping Jason was just joke flirting with her alter-ego.Â
But was soon throw out the window along with your broken heart! "Oh..her..Yeah, she a real prude, just dead weight" Y/n felt her anger boil over as he continued talking shit about her.
Y/n didn't even realize she punched Jason in the face, till she heard a crunch, and felt pain erupt in her left hand that was now broken. When her vision cleared she saw Jason on the ground clutching his now broken nose looking up at her shocked. "What the fuck? You broke my nose!" he snarled as the model took off her wig and sunglasses and his eyes widened in horror and awe as his girlfriend glared down at him tearful and angry.
"Fuck your nose! and fuck you!" she spat before running off, Artemis looked between them both before helping Jason up as she glared the raven haired man in anger and disappointment. "I told her this was a bad Idea..." the amazon huffed as she gathered Y/n's things and went looking for her, all while Jason just stood there too stunned to move as his mind kept repeating...
*Y/n is S/n...Y/n is S/n,* Â Y/n his small mousy (ex) girlfriend who he's known and trusted since his Robin days, was the pin-up model glaciers would sprout a pair of legs for, and earn a degree in linguistics just the for the off chance that she'll talk them?!...and he just fucking ruined it!
Tim Drake: Stephanie who found out S/n's true identity by accident, was the one who convinced Y/n to tell Tim about her other life, he was getting suspicious about her business trips, and late night phone calls...However, every time she had the opportunity to say something she'd chicken out or something would come up for either Y/n or Tim leaving it for another day of cancelled plans or Tim giving her the silent treatment for standing him up.
Then she came out of her bathroom to find Tim going through her phone! "What are you doing?!" The h/c demanded the raven hared man lips formed a tight line. "Who's Grant?" he huffed ignoring her question. "Nobody, just a co-worker!" she hissed trying to snatch her phone back but Tim kept it out of her reach. "Really? then how come I've never met him?" his eyes narrowed suspiciously.Â
"He's been overseas the last few months, It's a lunch meeting we're discussing filming locations?" Y/n said wasn't a complete lie she did say she worked in a photography industry, And Grant was a fellow model who also doubled as location organizer for the firm, But Tim was still skeptical he could tell she wasn't being truthful.
"Really, Just a co-worker?"
" Is that a problem?"
"Yeah..actually you're my girlfriend, why hell is he calling you his sweetheart and baby?!"
"Sorry, I didn't realize my friends needed your permission to call me nicknames!"
Y/n snapped as Tim's jaw set indicating he was furious. "OH! So, now he's a friend, what the hell happen to just a Co-worker?!" The raven haired man demanded as the h/c flinched at his raised voice, This wasn't fair this wasn't fair at all! "I don't see that the big deal is, I don't give you shit for hanging out with Stephanie or Cassie?!" She huffed bringing his exes into the mix big mistake..."Well at least I can trust them!?" Tim seethed shoving passed her.
"What are you talking about?!" Y/n demanded she already knew where he was going with this. "I know you're cheating Y/n, So just save us both the god damn time and just tell me!" Tim snarled as Y/n looked affronted she knew it was coming, but it still stung that her Timmy would assume that she was sleeping around!
 "Fine! You want the truth Tim? Well here it is, I'm S/n!" She said crossing her arms as Tim gave her a once over a sneered. "The model?...Right, If you're gonna play around at least make up a better lie then that..." He spat storming out of her apartment... leaving a sobbing Y/n in his wake.
Later while on patrol with Spoiler, Tim let her know that he and Y/n broke up when the blond demanded why? He told her how he went through Y/n's phone and found her texting Grant and how the H/c had the audacity to lie and tell him she was S/n the pin-up girl! "Tsk, can you believe her?" he snorted then noticed how nervous Steph suddenly got.
"Uh, Tim she wasn't lying..." the blond said meekly as Red robin looked at her incredulously. "Wh-What you mean?" he asked feeling clammy all of the sudden, Stephanie explained that Y/n pulled a Hannah Montana and really was S/n..Grant is gay and her set manager they really were just co-workers...
She was actually going tell him in the morning before she left for her meeting, But he had to be jealous,distrustful and nosy...then the reality slowly crashing down on him like bucket of cold water... He broke up with Y/n over nothing, he went back to her apartment intending to apologize, but it was locked down tight and Y/n was gone...
Adult! Damian Wayne: Y/n was bored she was stuck at home playing Skyrim and eating junk food, "Well I can't be having a worst time than Dami." she mumbled to herself, her boyfriend Damian Wayne was stuck at some conference in Bludhaven...the poor guy. After doing the thieves guild quest line, the h/c got bored and decided to watch some TV when she switch over she was met with a Vicky Vale live at a Wayne charity gala...
*Gala? Damian never mentioned a Gala.." Y/n was confused as she saw Dick,Tim even Jason on the screen with dates...Did Dami lie? She though for a moment. No, he's up-tight but Damian isn't a liar...The h/c stomach dropped when she saw her boyfriend on screen with some d-listed blonde wrapped around his arm.
Y/n's face contorted into anger as she shut the TV off, What the hell! why didn't he tell her about the gala?...She looked at her reflection from the floor length mirror, She was wearing her big glasses, no make up and a Transformers t-shirt...Was Damian embarrassed of her? the h/c felt tears welling in her eyes then shook her head and wiped them.
She'll show him! But first she needs a date! Y/n pick up her phone and called her friend Robbie Reyes (ghost Rider)."Ey, Robbie! It's N/n are you still in Gotham?" The Latino man confirmed that yes he was still in the city. "Good, there's this charity thing downtown and I need a date."Â
She smirked as the mechanic said he'll go but, he doesn't have anything to wear. "Oh,don't worry about that I got you covered." Y/n already called her stylist and the formal wear shop they got there the same Time Robbie did.
by the time they were done getting dress S/n and Robbie Reyes looked like a Hollywood couple. She in a dark purple gown with gold flowers decorating the front and dipped low in the back, and Robbie was in dark tux with a matching purple shirt and gold tie. Â
"Remember, I'm only doing because we're friends...And you promised an autographed poster to Gabe." the Latino chided causing the model smile that's Robbie always big teddy bear when it comes to his little brother! "Don't worry I haven't forgotten.." She eyed him int the tux and smirked Y/n was Robbie was fine.~ "Y'know you should clean up more often! you'd be a real chick magnet...you could use a girlfriend."
the man next to her snorted and rolled his eyes annoyed "You sound like my brother..." he sighed as they pulled into the Hotel parking lot a few men whistled in amazement at the black 69 Charger. the Valet took Robbie's keys eagerly, but not before the Latino gave him the 'don't hurt my car!' speech causing Y/n to roll her eyes...Men and their cars, She doesn't get it and never will, She looped her arms around his left arm as Vicky Vale zeroed in on them.
"Oh, speaking of late arrivals S/n has just arrived with a Bad boy!~ could love be in the air in Gotham?" The reporter questioned as S/n fans booed or cheered as as the 'couple' walked along the carpet. "Is it always this bright and loud?" Robbie whispered in the model's ear cringing as some girls squealed at the little interaction and the camera flashes went off around them.
"Yeah, but it get's pretty quiet once you get inside." She whispered back to the camera's it looked like they were flirting, as the blond reporter asked about their relationship, "Sorry, everyone but, Mr. Reyes is just dear friend of mine, he's got more important things going on then dating at the moment." The [fake/h/c] explained with a tight smile Robbie confirmed causing Vicky to pout as the two got inside.
Robbie was immediately blindsided by a man Y/n recognized as Jason Todd who started asking the mechanic about that sweet 69' outside! the two men started mingling and talking about cars.
 while Y/n rolled her eyes and wandered the ballroom the model surveyed the room for Damian and found him and his little tart...Taking a deep breath Y/n made her way over to them, when she got close enough to hearing what they were saying.
her heart hurt as the man she loved told his fake entourage how plain and frigid she was not worth bragging about! Dick who knew about S/n looked very uncomfortable and disappointed in his little brother. then he noticed you and looked stunned to see you there, Damian must told them you were sick or something... feeling more determined Y/n stood up straighter and spoke.
"Really now, because an hour ago you were telling me how much you loved me..." She hissed in her normal voice Damian stiffened shoved his date away and whirled and looked around in a panic.
 "Down here love." She said in her S/n accent his green eyes looked at her bemused as his date and 'Friends' all looked at Damian like he grew three heads. "Dude, your dating S/n??!" One of the men said befuddled remembering all the crap he was saying about his girl...they all pictured some librarian spinster type! Not one of Gotham's top desirable women.
"More like he was...oh, here take this I don't need it anymore." she huffed taking off the necklace he'd giving her for their anniversary and handed it to Damian, She got close enough for him to see some of her natural h/c peeking out from under her wig and the outline of her contact lenses. "I...But." Damian still in shock tried to figure out how to talk,
 It was too late he dug his grave and he dug it deep. "It's been fun, Now if you'll excuse me I gotta find my date and go..." She said calmly and walked into the crowd disappearing in the sea people, Damian snapped out of his stupor and followed after Y/n just in time see her get in a black muscle car with an unknown male and drove off into the night.... Â
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Love and Hate
Summary: Finding yourself in a tight situation with Dean during a hunt, your adventure takes you to places that help you discover new things about your friendship with Dean.
Pairing: Dean x Reader
Word Count: 5881
Warnings: Angst, fluff, humor, sexuality, smut, some dom!Reader and sub!Dean, dirty talk, bit of a cum fetish because itâs me
A/N:Â I have no self control anymore, but I always say itâs never good to limit your imagination. Sorry this story is late, but as you all know Iâve been preparing for my surgery next week and my brain has been frazzled. This was betaâd by @kittenofdoomage and the gif made by me. Enjoy!
âI hate you.â
Dean grunted a laugh and shifted, pressing his body up against yours. âNo you donât.â
âYes, I do. Itâs your fault weâre trapped in this stupid freaking closet!â you growled, pushing at his shoulder and making him stumble backward a few inches before his back hit the wall behind him.
âWhat would you have liked me to do? âOh hello, Mr. and Mrs. Mansfield, my name is Dean and this is Y/N. Donât mind us, weâre just going to continue robbing your home. Have a pleasant evening.â Come on, Y/N.â
Crossing your arms over your chest, you narrowed your eyes at him. âFirst, keep your voice down. Second, we could have just explained to them that the antique katana they bought a few days ago has the very angry spirit of a Samurai tied to it, and that we need to destroy it so it doesnât kill them.â Dean blinked a few times and raised a brow at you, making you sigh. âYeah, that sounded better in my head.â
âI know you havenât been hunting very long, but you learn that itâs better to not ask permission, especially when it comes to saving someoneâs life.â He shifted closer to the door and pressed his ear against the wood before continuing, âIâd rather steal and destroy a haunted sword than have to sit and explain hunting and monsters to some dude wearing a suit that costs more than Baby.â
âI get it,â you whispered, âbut I donât like breaking and entering⌠especially when the owners of the house come home early and we end up getting stuck without our phones because someone decided it was going to be a quick in and out and we could leave our stuff in the car.â
âListen⌠we just have to stay put until they go to bed,â Dean replied, turning around to face you. âOnce the coast is clear, we can search the far side of the house. Once we find it, we can go out the back door, same way we came in.â You nodded and leaned back against the wall behind you, feeling around in the darkness and admiring the softness of the several fur coats that surrounded you. âDonât even think about it.â
âI wasnât,â you growled back. âItâs too dark in here to even try to find one that fits me, anyways.â
Dean opened his mouth to say something, but soft voices coming from the other side of the door made his eyes widen and his mouth snap shut. He pressed a finger to his lips and pointed at the door before pressing his ear to it once more. Straining you hear, you could only make out some words.
â... purchase⌠successful⌠benefit⌠tomorrow⌠bed⌠tired,â a higher pitched voice said, likely female.
A deeper voice replied seconds later, â... shopping⌠services⌠sleep... golfing.â
Muffled footsteps thumped up the main staircase and you heard a door shut moments later. Dean turned and looked at you as you shifted toward the door, holding a hand up and tapping his ear. A few seconds later, another door shut and Dean smiled.
âI totally called it,â he whispered.
âCalled what?â you inquired.
âThey donât sleep in the same bedroom. Iâm guessing their marriage is just for show at this point,â Dean said with a shrug.
Rolling your eyes, you moved closer to him. âAnd how the hell could you possibly know that?â
âThere were no photos of just the two of them in any room we went in before they came home. The only photo I saw that had them both in it looked like it was from some charity ball, and they were frowning and not touching each other. Instead of a couch, they have two separate recliners.â Dean smirked. âOh, and I found a bra stuffed into the desk in Mr. Mansfieldâs office that is definitely two cup sizes bigger than Mrs. Mansfield.â
âOkay, okay, I get it,â you said, grimacing.
Dean nodded and sighed deeply. âI guess some people donât realize that loving someone and being in love with someone are two very different things. It seems like they treated their marriage like some kind of business merger.â Dean shook his head and clicked his tongue. âSo now Mr. Mansfield gets his physical contact from some kind of call girl he canât satisfy while he and his wife sleep in separate beds. And theyâre both trapped in a dead and loveless marriage that neither of them know how to fix.â
âThatâs pretty deep coming from a guy whose last form of âphysical contactâ,â you did air quotes with your fingers, âwas with a stripper named Stardust.â
Dean spun around and glared at you. âI didnât pay her to sleep with me. No cash for ass, Y/N. She came onto me and asked me to meet her outside the club.â A tiny smirk tugged at the corner of his mouth and he bit his lip. âAnd believe me, she was completely satisfied.â
With a snort, you patted him on the shoulder. âWhatever you say, stud muffin.â He pouted, and the pathetic expression only made you giggle before you changed the subject. âDo you think the coast is clear?â
He clenched his jaw, dropping whatever snarky reply you knew he was going to say, before he spun around, pressing his ear to the door. âI donât hear any movement, should be good to go as long as weâre quiet.â
You couldnât wait to get out of the tiny closet, and you quickly moved forward. Unfortunately, you caught your foot on something, making you stumble forward. You crashed into Deanâs back with a grunt, but he barely moved, shushing you as you righted yourself.
âIâm fine, thanks for your concern,â you hissed quietly, slapping Dean on the shoulder with the back of your hand.
âIf I got concerned every time you tripped, I wouldnât be able to do much of anything else. Youâre the clumsiest girl I know. Worse than when Sam lost that rabbitâs foot.â
Your nose crinkled as you raised a brow. âWhat rabbitâs foot?â
âStory for another time,â Dean muttered, slowly turning the knob on the door until he could push it open. Quickly and quietly you both slipped from the door and tiptoed down the hallway straight in front of you that led toward the opposite side of the house.
Most of the house had been searched before you were interrupted by the Mansfield's coming home, but there was still one wing of the spacious home that had not been touched. Since neither of you had found the katana in question yet, it was likely down in one of those rooms.
Dean quietly sneaked across the foyer, making sure to stay on the balls of his feet as he walked. You followed quickly behind once it made it to the hallway, being careful to close the closet door again before you ventured across. Dean directed you to the left side of the hallway while he searched the right.
It only took about ten minutes of silent searching for you to realize the katana wasnât in any of the rooms. There was only the garage left and Dean joined you in the hallway as you stared at the large door in front of you.
âIâm regretting not grabbing the flashlights,â Dean admitted in a whisper.
âOr our phones,â you added, smiling at the grunt he gave in response as you slowly turned the knob and and pushed open the door. There was no light coming from anywhere inside the room, and you could barely see more than two feet into the room with the ambient light coming from the hallway behind you. âWhy donât we just turn on the light?â
âAnd get caught if one of them decides to come downstairs for a drink of water? Pass.â Dean stepped forward and reached his hands out, trying to feel his way.
You opened your mouth to protest, but Dean was already in the room, shrouded by darkness. After a quick glance behind you, you followed him into the room, slowly feeling your way along the shelves lining the right side of the room as you walked.
âI can't see anything,â Dean grunted from somewhere to your left.
âHold on I'll set something on fire,â you replied, pulling out your lighter. A flick of your thumb ignited the flame, and you grinned, bringing it close to Deanâs hand so he could feel the heat of it.
âOw!â Dean yelped softly, jumping away from you and rubbing the singed hairs on his hand. âDonât light me on fire, crazy woman!â
âRelax,â you laughed, holding the flame out in front of you to light the way. âI didnât mean you, and you of all people should know how difficult it is to burn a body. You need some kind of accelerant.â
âYeah, well, last time I checked, clothing was very flammable. And Iâd rather not go up like a roman candle.â Dean began to laugh, but you heard a thud followed by a crash, and the back of Deanâs head disappeared from view. âOuch.â
âShit, Dean,â you hissed, trying to move quickly but quietly  toward where he was face down on the ground. âAre you okay?â
âYeah,â he mumbled, turning over on his back, âjust watch out for the -â
His warning came a split second too late as your foot also caught on some kind of sports equipment sticking out from one of the large metal shelves, sending you tumbling to the ground and smack onto his body. He grunted with the impact and you froze when you felt something hard pressing against your stomach.
âGee, Dean. Is that your gun in your pocket or are you just happy to see me?â you whispered, glancing down between your bodies.
Dean scoffed, turning to his side and pushing you off him before reaching down between his legs. You watched him closely, squinting in the low light, as he lifted up the katana you had been searching for, your eyebrows shooting up in surprise. âNo. Itâs actually a haunted sword. I tried to brace myself when I fell, but when I reached out, I grabbed the sword.â
âWell, thatâs lucky, I guess,â you murmured, sliding your hands along the floor, searching for the lighter you dropped. âWe need to get out of here. I know this room is far away from the bedrooms, but we canât risk it, they might have heard the crash.â
âSounds like a plan,â Dean grunted as he got to his feet. When he grabbed your hand, you looked up at him with confusion, but then he hoisted you up to your feet.
The lighter was your fatherâs and you couldnât leave without it. Dean grabbed your hand again, and you couldnât see his face for any indications as to why, until you felt him slide the cold metal into your palm. He curled your fingers back so you had the lighter in your fist, and Dean patted your hand before he started moving back towards the door.
âThank you,â you whispered, slipping the lighter into your pocket.
âI know how much it means to you,â Dean replied, waiting for you to join him at the door. Once you could finally see his face in the light of the hallway, you saw nothing but compassion and adoration shimmering in his green eyes.âLetâs get out of here.â
Not being one to argue, you followed quickly behind Dean as you walked through the house and to the back door. One of the Mansfieldâs must have locked it, and the second Dean flicked the lock and opened the door, loud beeping began sounding throughout the house. Dean cursed under his breath and you both sprinted out of the house and into the back yard, thankful that Dean had already cut the feed to the security cameras when you entered.
By the time you made it back to the Impala, you were both out of breath from running three blocks through several back yards and a small public park. Dean threw the katana into the back seat and you both jumped in the car before Dean turned the keys and gunned it down the street back toward the motel.
âMaybe we should keep the sword, it might be cool to have it displayed in the bunker,â you mused, turning in your seat to study the gorgeous sheath and hand crafted meticulously decorated hilt of the blade.
âNot gonna happen. You heard what Sammy said. The second you unsheathe it, the Samurai spawns and kills whoeverâs holding it. I will give it to the dude that made it, pretty clever saying youâre giving your rival a sword as a show of good faith, when you know thereâs your own personal attack Samurai ready to kill him the second he uses it.â Dean clicked his tongue. âPoints for douchey creativity.â
âYeah, I know. Itâs just⌠the craftsmanship is phenomenal. Itâll be a shame to burn it.â You turned back around and leveled your gaze at Dean. âSpeaking of that, how are we going to get a fire hot enough to melt that kind of metal?â
âI have just the place,â Dean smiled, turning down a side street away from where your motel was.
About ten minutes later, Dean pulled into the driveway of a large house, slowly making his way around to the area behind it. There was a separate building with a large chimney and your eyes widened when you realized where you were.
âAbsolutely not,â you protested, shaking your head. âWe canât, Dean. Itâs⌠itâs not right.â
âItâs just a crematorium, Y/N. Itâs the only place that has a fire hot enough. Weâll break in, torch the sword, and be gone before they ever know what happened. We will have to unsheathe the blade so it burns quicker, but youâll be there to protect me?â he asked hopefully, earning a glare from you. âCome on. We need to get rid of it, and weâre kind of short on volcanoes in St. George, Utah.â
The idea of using a place where they burn dead bodies to destroy a haunted object made your stomach queasy, but Dean was right. It was the easiest way to get rid of it and you had a low likelihood of getting caught. Who in their right mind would break into a place like this? Hunters and psychopaths. And you were slowly finding it harder and harder to discern differences between the two.
When you opened the passengerâs side door, Dean did a happy jump and reached into the back seat to grab the sword. âIâll keep watch, go ahead and unlock the door. Youâre better with locks than I am.â
âYeah, I know,â you said sarcastically, pulling your lockpicking set from your back pocket while Dean walked to the trunk of the Impala. The lock on the door was a simple pin and tumbler design, and you had it unlocked in less than thirty seconds. You pushed open the door and stepped inside, stumbling slightly as Dean brushed past you, looking around in awe. There was no alarm panel on any of the walls, and you shut the door behind you before following Dean further into the building.
âThis is so cool,â Dean whisper-yelled at you as you walked back toward the furnaces.
âThis is so weird,â you replied, earning a shrug from him. âSeriously, why are you so excited?â
âNo reason,â Dean muttered, darting to one of the furnaces and opening it, peering inside. âI just like hunting with you. Sammy would have refused to go along with my stupid idea and come up with his own, but you listen to my reasoning and will help no matter what.â
âDean, Samâs followed a lot of your plans before, stupid or otherwise, and you two have hunted together for a long time. I think you should give him more credit.â You laughed softly before continuing, âBut for what itâs worth, I do enjoy hunting with you as well.â
âFound an empty one,â Dean announced, pointing to the furnace he had open and ignoring your reply. He tossed you the shotgun and a handful of salt rounds and you loaded it quickly, pumping it once to chamber the shell. âReady?â
âThe melting point of steel is pretty high, so make sure you crank it,â you reminded him. âBut Iâm ready. Letâs do it.â
Dean turned the dial on the temperature gauge and the furnace roared to life with angry red and orange flames. After waiting a minute for the temperature to get high enough, Dean nodded, unsheathing the sword and tossing both pieces into the middle of the fire before slamming and locking the door. Almost immediately, the spirit of a Samurai flickered into view right behind Dean. His traditional battle armor was bloody and dented and he held a long sword above his head that was dripping with blood.
Aiming, you fired, hitting the ghost square in its center mass, making it dissipate into a puff of mist. You kept the gun raised as you pumped the shotgun, ejecting the spent shell and chambering a new one as Dean watched the blade of the sword turn from red to white with the heat.
âYou okay?â he asked, not taking his eyes off the small window. âItâs white hot, should start melting soon.â
âIâm good,â you said, scanning the area for the ghost. You heard something creak behind you, and you spun quickly, firing just in time before the Samurai's blade was thrust into your stomach. Your heart was jackrabbiting at this point, and you pumped the shotgun again, trying to take deep breaths to calm yourself. That was a little too close for comfort.
âCome on,â Dean muttered to himself, making you turn and look at him. The Samurai came out of nowhere and he waved his hand, sending you flying backward into the main part of the crematorium. âItâs starting to melt,â Dean shouted.
You landed on the ground with a hard thud, gasping for breath when the impact knocked the wind out of you. The Samurai disappeared for a moment before flickering back into view right over you. He reached down, wrapping cold fingers around your throat, and you lashed out out with your arms and legs, but your limbs only sailed through him and didnât connect.
âDe -â you gasped, grunting when the spiritâs fingers tightened around your throat. He raised his blade and you flinched when droplets of ice cold blood landed against your face. Your vision was going black around the edges, and your body began to go numb and you secretly hoped he knocked you out before he killed you so you didnât have to feel it.
You heard something swish through the air and the pressure on your throat immediately vanished, making your eyes pop open as you gasped for breath. The ghost of the Samurai disappeared, but reappeared a second later and burst into flames with a loud wail. Coughing at the tight dryness of your throat, you rolled to the side glancing up at Dean.
âThank you,â you rasped, chest heaving with deep breaths.
Dean grinned and tossed the fire poker to the ground, offering you his hand. âOf course, sweetheart. You didnât think Iâd let you get killed by an evil Samurai ghost, did yah?â
âI was hoping you wouldnât,â you chuckled, wincing at the pain in your throat, allowing Dean to help you to your feet. You gently traced your fingers over your neck and pressed down softly. âOh, man, thatâs gonna bruise.â
Dean glanced behind him and caught sight of the metallic puddle that was in the bottom of the furnace. âWell, at least we finished the hunt without anyone else dying. I think we can handle a few bumps and bruises. Weâll get you some ice when we get back to the motel.â
âSounds good,â you whispered. âNow letâs get out of here. I need a drink.â
Dean nodded, grabbing the shotgun from the ground before walking over to the furnace. He turned it off and scraped the liquid metal out of the furnace and into a small ceramic cup. You were about to ask him what he was doing, but the distant sound of sirens made you look at each other with wide eyes. You both hastily grabbed your stuff and ran from the building and out into the Impala, and Dean sped down down driveway back to the road before you even had your door closed.
Of course, things never do go your way, and not too long after you left the crematorium, Dean was pulling over to the side of the road behind a row of trees. The police scanner you got him for his car had come in handy several times in the year heâd had it, and this was one of those times. The cops had a description of the Impala from the owner, who lived in the actual funeral home building, when he woke up to the sound of gunshots.
âWell, so much for heading back to the motel,â Dean grumbled as he killed the engine and turned in his seat to face you. âHowâs your throat?â
âIt hurts,â you rasped, âbut I think I have some cooling lotion I can put on it in the meantime. If you wouldnât mind helping out?â
âYeah, of course, sweetheart,â Dean replied with a smile.
Digging in your bag sitting on the back seat, you located the soothing lotion and popped it open, gently rubbing some into the front of your throat. You saw Dean subtly sniff the air and grin, and you raised a brow as you handed him the tube of lotion.
âWhatâs the smile for?â
You turned in your seat so your back was to Dean and swept the hair away from the back of your neck. The majority of the damage was to the front of your throat, but the ghost had huge hands and his fingers wrapped almost completely around your neck, leaving the back just as sore.
âThis lotion,â he squeezed some on his fingers, âI smell it every time you come out of the shower when weâre on the road.â He shrugged, rubbing the white substance between his fingers. âI just like the smell of it.â
The exact reason you bought it was because you knew Dean would like the smell, and as he began to rub some of it into your neck, you looked over your shoulder at him. âLook at the scent on the label.â
Dean flipped the bottle over to the front label and his eyebrows shot up. âApple pie?! No wonder I love the smell,â Dean laughed, bringing his lotion covered fingers up to his nose. âI wonderâŚâ Before you could stop him, he tentatively licked his fingertip before grimacing at the flavor. âWell, it might smell like apple pie, but it definitely doesnât taste like it.â
âYou really just ate some of my lotion,â you giggled, shaking your head. âSuch a weirdo.â
âYeah, but Iâm an awesome weirdo.â He tapped your shoulder and you turned to look at him. âTurn around, let me make sure the front of your neck is covered and looks okay.â
Obeying his request, you turned in the seat to face him. Deanâs cheeks were a light shade of pink and you decided against mentioning it. His surprisingly soft fingers began to gently caress the angry red marks on your throat, and you couldnât help but stare at his soft features in the light of the moon.
Deanâs eyes shifted up to meet yours when he felt you staring, and he returned your soft smile before adding more lotion to his fingers and continuing his ministrations. Your mind didnât stop, and your eyes began to water when you realized that if it wasnât for him, you would have been killed. As much as you pretend to hate the man, your feelings for him never ceased, and you knew he would always be there to protect you.
As if Dean could hear your thoughts, his fingers gently traced up your neck, to your jaw, before he cupped your chin, running his thumb across your cheek as he stared into your eyes, concern flooding his features as your forehead creased.
âAre you okay? I didnât hurt you, did I?â he asked, his gaze darting back and forth between your eyes and neck.
âNo, Dean,â you whispered, reaching a hand up and placing it over his where it was still resting on your cheek. âJust⌠thank you. You saved my life tonight and I just wanted to make sure you know I appreciate it. I should have been able to handle the ghost, but you stepped in and -â
Deanâs lips pressing to yours made your eyes widen, but you easily melted into the kiss after the initial shock wore off. Dean pulled away too soon, and you chased his lips, making him chuckle.
âWhen I saw you on the floor with the ghost on top of you, I got so scared. Iâm just glad I got there in time to save you.â He smiled and rubbed his thumb gently over your bottom lip.
Pressing a kiss to the pad of his thumb, you smiled back at him. âYouâre always there for me, Dean. On hunts, when some guy in a bar is getting too handsy, when I need rescuing from Samâs monologuesâŚâ He smiled at that before you continued, âthe only constant thing in my life is you. And I should have done this a lot sooner.â
Jerking forward, you pressed your lips to Deanâs this time and cupped his face in your hands, appreciating the rough stubble that tickled your palms. Dean eagerly returned the kiss and you could feel him smiling against your lips when you unzipped your jacket and pulled it off.
âDid you just go full rom-com on me?â Dean murmured against your lips.
You rolled your eyes and pushed his cheeks together, making his lips pucker. âJust shut up and fuck me.â
Dean nodded tightly, your grip on his face limiting his movement. âTotal rom-com,â he mumbled.
âAnd you love it,â you said with playfully narrowed eyes, adding a sassy head wiggle for emphasis.
It was like a match was lit between the two of you. Desperation gave way to frantic movements, and you began tearing at each others clothing, your lips only breaking apart momentarily to remove your respective shirts. When you were down to your bra and panties, and Dean in his boxers, he managed to do what you assumed to be a practiced move and flipped over the front seat, landing on his back in the in back seat, crooking a finger at you.
You traversed the seat a little less gracefully. Your socked foot slipped on the leather, sending you crashing onto Deanâs chest with an oomph. His cock was hard, pressing against your stomach and you smirked.
âNow I know thatâs not a sword this time, right?â you whispered, a teasing smile on your lips.
Dean reached forward and adjusted your body so you were straddling his hips, a knee on either side of his legs. He kept your hips still and lifted his own, grinding his cock against your core. Even though the thin barrier, Deanâs cock was warm and hard against your slit. And he was bigger than anyone youâd ever been with.
âYup, not a sword,â you squeaked, making Dean chuckle lowly.
Once his grip relaxed, you braced your hands on his chest and swirled your hips, earning a breathy grunt from him. Dean, for how aggressive and alpha-male he is normally, definitely liked being dominated by women when it came to sex. Even though youâd never slept with him, you saw the bite marks, restraint marks, and hickies that adorned him after one of his conquests.
It wasnât hard to piece it together.
Keeping your movements slow, but firm, you continued to grind against Deanâs cock, savoring the breathy whimpers and growls that rumbled from his chest. His eyes were closed and his head tipped back, and he inhaled sharply when you leaned down and began running your tongue over his sensitive nipples.
âBaby,â Dean groaned pathetically, âplease.â
âPlease, what, Dean?â you replied before clearing your throat, ignoring the scratchiness. You waited for his reply, pressing kisses across the freckles on his chest.
âNeed to be inside you, sweetheart,â he begged. âYouâre so wet, I can feel your pussy dripping through your panties.â
You pushed against his chest and slid down to straddle his thighs, taking in the darkened wet spot on the fabric of Deanâs boxers from where you dripped through your panties. His cock was painfully hard and twitched while you admired it. Reaching forward, you slipped your hand under the elastic and wrapped your fingers around the warmth of Deanâs shaft. He was thick and long, and you knew you were wet enough to take every inch.
Several seconds passed as you continued to slowly stroke him, shamelessly staring in awe at the expression on Deanâs face. His eyes were on yours, lidded and sparkling, and his bottom lip was pulled between his teeth. The man was practically dripping sex and you couldnât resist anymore. In one fast motion, you unhooked your bra and tore your panties down, Dean helping you get his boxers down, and repositioned yourself over Deanâs cock. You had to tilt your neck against the roof of the car in order to be able to get in this position, but once he was inside you, it wouldnât matter.
Deanâs hands were back on your hips, and when he squeezed, you looked down at him, freezing your movements as you hovered a few inches over his cock. âCondom?â
"I'm on the pill and clean," you said softly, brushing your lips across his cheek. "We can use one if you want," you lowered your voice, "but there's something more pleasurable about being filled with cum. Don't you wanna fill me up, Dean?"
Deanâs face brightened with a crimson hue and he swallowed hard, nodding eagerly. You felt him shift below you before he pushed his hips up, sliding the first couple inches of his cock into your pussy. Your mouth fell open with a gasp at the unexpected stretch and moved your leg back down, shifting your body weight backward to take the rest of him until he was completely buried inside you.
âMy God, youâre fucking huge,â you rasped, eyebrows knitting together in concentration as you adjusted to his size. Waiting was never your strong suit, so you did an experimental roll of your hips, groaning at the thick slide of him inside your channel. âJesus.â
âCall me Dean,â he sassed with a grunt, making you smile. âGonna need you to start moving here, Y/N. âM not gonna last, youâre so tight.â
Taking that as a challenge, you began rocking your hips while lifting yourself up, allowing Deanâs cock to almost slip free of your pussy before you moved back down, taking him completely once more. His fingers were digging into your hips, likely going to leave bruises, and you remembered he liked to be marked up.
Once his eyes were shut again due to the onslaught of pleasure from you riding him, you wrapped your hands around his wrists and quickly pinned his arms on either side of his head. His eyes popped open and you watched as they flickered from confusion to pure lust. Dean bent his legs behind you, giving him leverage, and began meeting your movements. You had to lean forward to keep your balance, allowing his cock to slam against your g-spot with each thrust while your clit rubbed against the smooth skin above the base of his cock.
âFuck, Iâm close,â you rasped. The soreness in your throat was intensifying thanks to your heaving breaths, but you kept him pinned down when he tried to move his arms. âMake me cum, Dean,â you growled, making his eyes widen. You were teetering on the point of your orgasm, and you knew the aggressiveness would spur him on.
When you tightened your hold on his wrists to the point of where it would leave bruises, Dean grunted, picking up speed with every jerk of his hips. His eyes never left yours as he laid beneath you, both of you sweating and fogging the windows like that scene from Titanic. Deanâs eyes burned with a fire that consumed the emerald of his eyes, and one particularly hard thrust send you catapulting into your climax with a squeaky moan.
âFuck, fuckâŚ. FUCK!â Dean shouted as your walls pulsed around him, dragging him over the edge with you. His cock throbbed inside you, filling your pussy with cum as you slowly kept rotating your hips, drawing out every last drop and every last twitch from his spent cock.
When Dean hissed from the sensitivity, you slipped off him and flopped backward against the opposite door, catching your breath as his spendings leaked from your stretched pussy. Dean leaned forward before he shifted back, propping himself against his door, admiring his cum leaking from you while he rubbed his wrists.
âNever knew you had that side of you,â he complimented with a lopsided grin. âHowâd you know that I -â
âLike to be dominated?â you finished for him with a laugh. âI notice things, Dean. Your behavior gets a little timid after you have a conquest, the marks they leave on your body, and... I donât know,â you shrugged, âyou just seem like the type.â
Dean huffed and chuckled, nodding his head. âWell, I definitely enjoyed that.â He reached down and grabbed his discarded flannel, cleaning himself quickly before passing it to you. âTry not to get any cum on my seats, yeah?â
Grimacing, you glanced down at the several globs of cum resting on the seat between your spread legs. âLittle late for that.â Laughing at his defeated sigh, you quickly cleaned up and pulled on your clothing, opting to open the door and walk around to the passengers seat instead of more seat acrobatics.
Dean was already in the driver's seat in just his t-shirt, sliding a new tape into the player, as you dropped into your seat, shut the door, and began buttoning your flannel. The sex excursion killed some time, so you were ready to make a break for the motel to grab your stuff and jet back to the bunker.
When the first few chords of a familiar guitar began to play through the stereo, you glowered at Dean, who was only smiling, tapping his fingers to the beat. âReally Dean? Youâre âNight Moves-ingâ yourself?â
âOut past the cornfields where the woods got heavy⌠out in the back seat,â he jerked his thumb over his shoulder, âof my sixty-seven Chevy,â he sang along with Bob Segar.
Your annoyance quickly dissolved into giggles as Dean continued to sing along with the lyrics, enthusiastically drumming his fingers on the steering wheel and smiling at you.
âI hate you,â you said with a laugh.
Dean smiled and shifted into drive, shooting you a wink. âNo, you donât.â
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Betting on the Bullseye (24/30)
Summary:Emma Swan loses a drunken bet that means she has to ask her celebrity crush - if you can call him that - to be her date to her officeâs annual fundraising gala for Bostonâs Children Shelter. Killian Jones is that celebrity. She expects all kinds of humiliation and for her dignity to be completely lost all because of the ridiculousness of the situation.Â
What she doesnât expect is for him to say yes.What she truly doesnât expect is to actually like the man.
Rating: Mature
A/N: You guys are continuously awesome, and I appreciate you!Â
As an FYI, I have this story completely written now, down to the last word, so if anyone was worrying about that, you donât have to! But mostly I wanted to let you guys know that Iâm going to be out of town for a week, so there wonât be any updates next week (but maybe an extra one this week)đ
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âHappy birthday,â Killian hums against her neck, kissing the sensitive skin and rubbing his chin into her. She claims that it doesnât tickle her, but it always does. He hopes itâll work to wake her up since nothing else will today. âYour alarm has been going off for fifteen minutes.â
âHmm,â she mumbles, twisting to the side and burying her face in his bare shoulder, ignoring the sound of her alarm like she has been while heâs listened to it wondering just how long sheâs going to sleep through it. He swears sometimes itâs like sheâs dead to the world. Other times sheâs woken up by a whisper of a touch. Thereâs no in between for her. âThat doesnât sound real.â
âIt is, darling,â he promises, nudging her stomach with his knee until she flips back onto her pillow, opening one eye while she stares up at him. He knows that heâs got a smirk on his face, that she probably finds him to be obnoxious, but heâs been awake for longer than her. Heâs not nearly as annoyed by life as she is. Then again, the only work he has to do today is finish up packing Emmaâs things to take to the new place this weekend. He can fall back asleep as soon as she leaves for work and not have to get dressed until they go out for her birthday tonight.
âCan you go to work for me? I would love you for the rest of my life.â
âWhile thatâs a promising offer, Iâm just not sure that itâs worth it.â
âHey,â she protests, opening up her other eye as her lips part, her teeth showing the slightest bit before she presses them together again.
âJust speaking the truth.â He leans over in the bed and quickly slants his lips over hers, waiting for her to open up to him until he can make it a little deeper, leisurely exploring her mouth and waking her up as he gets lost in the kiss and the way that Emmaâs nose is buried in his cheek, her hand softly gripping in his hair. God, he loves when she messes with his hair. âYou need to get up and get ready.â
âI can stay in bed for thirty more minutes if I donât shower.â
âYeah, but you wonât want to shower after work and before we go to dinner, so you should shower now to get it over with.â
She rolls her eyes at him, but when he kisses the tip of her nose, he can see her smile despite the still dimmed lighting in the room. âI donât like that youâre reasonable.â
âYou do. I promise. Now go get ready, Swan.â
She mumbles and groans, but eventually she gets out of bed and turns the damn alarm off before she heads into her bathroom to shower. Heâs a bit of an arse, so he doesnât bother getting out of bed even though he should likely fix her breakfast since itâs her birthday and she hasnât been too happy about turning twenty-nine. Knowing her, though, she wonât want to eat anything but a yogurt with how late sheâs running, so heâll make her food some other day. Itâs the least he can do if heâs going to be up anyways.
Heâs only been staying with Emma for a week and a half, and theyâre still in her old apartment until the furniture theyâve bought gets moved to their place. Itâs got a new mattress and bedframe like they both wanted and a couch, but everything else is still shipping or they havenât found what they wanted yet. It was a pretty quick turnaround on buying the apartment in Seaport, so they werenât exactly expecting to be able move in so quickly. He was expecting to have at least a few more weeks, but after they closed on the place, he called Robin and Will to help him pack up his clothes and a few personal items from home. Itâs a bit of a disconnect walking into a place heâs lived for years and seeing it furnished only to turn a corner and realize that the books on his shelves are missing along with some of the photo frames he had on the side table in his study. He was going to leave them, but he wanted some personal mementos.
His clothes were easy enough to pack, especially since he only packed his winter things for the next few months, but that odd feeling of emptiness washed over him when he noticed that only his shorts and some swim trunks remained. That emptiness went away when he was hanging his things and a few of Emmaâs in their closet, one that they get to share, and those awful Christmas sweaters they both own were hanging side by side, green tassel sticking out against all of the black and navy clothes that he owns. Heâd never get rid of them, though. They mean too much to the both of them, so theyâll stay hanging in the closet.
God, itâs both weird and wonderful that theyâre getting to share everything in a home together.
The wonder is most definitely going to fade once they get into an argument over the dishes or making the bed every day, but he doesnât care in the slightest.
Maybe heâll go buy those barstools Emma saw when they went shopping on Sunday. Sheâd really liked those, but they werenât sure if the stools were the right size. He checked, and they are. Thatâd likely be a nice surprise, especially if he gave them to her today.
Barstools for his girlfriendâs birthday present. Itâs what every woman wants.
Or a necklace with a pearl pendant hanging at the end of the chain because gifts are difficult and Emma never wants anything. Heâd seen her look at the necklace, though, and sheâd run her fingers over her collarbone for awhile after she saw it. Itâs simple and beautiful, and he thinks Emma will like wearing it most days just so that she has something to fidget with. Sheâs always doing that with her earrings or bracelet, so a necklace should be nice, right?
A necklace and some barstools. And this hot chocolate basket that heâs been putting together, her swan mug hidden away in it. For someone who claims that itâs her favorite mug, she sure as hell doesnât notice when itâs missing for weeks on end.
Yeah, those should be fine things to give her before tonight.
He donated some money to her work and to a few of her favorite charities, but heâs not going to tell her about them. He thought about it, but it doesnât quite seem right. Theyâre in her honor and will help out a lot of people who need the help, and thatâs all that matters to him.
He hears the water shut off in the bathroom, and he takes that as his cue to get finally get out of bed, throwing the covers off of his legs and slowly moving off of the old mattress so he can get some sweatpants out the suitcase heâs living out of, pulling them on and up over his hips so he wonât freeze while moving out to the kitchen. He may not make her breakfast, but he can at least make her some coffee so she wonât be cranky at work.
Coffee would also be really nice for him. Emmaâs alarm went off for far too long, and he can feel the slightest pounding against his temple.
âDo you think it would be too obvious if I called in sick to work?â Emma ponders as she walks into the room a few minutes later, a towel still wrapped around her head but her lashes coated in mascara and face powdered so that her freckles have faded. âI mean, they know itâs my birthday, but people get sick on their birthdays. Itâs just a day.â
He takes a sip of his coffee, the liquid still a little too hot from his lack of creamer, and shrugs his shoulders while Emma grabs a mug out of the cabinet and starts making her cup.
âYou could, but if you donât go to work, your other option is to stay here with me and pack up your belongings.â
âI mean, packing is very sexy. I could stay and we could forget about packing for you to give me all of your love and attention since it is my birthday after all.â
âFor someone who has been dreading this day, which you literally just said is only a day on the calendar, youâre really milking it.â
âI am indeed,â she smiles, holding up the carton of milk she just got out of the fridge. Emma Swan, a woman who doesnât like to let bad jokes pass by her. âI just donât want to go to work. Iâm working with Kathryn all day and blegh.â
âDid you just say the word blegh instead of making the sound?â
âYep.â
âWeird.â
âDebatable.â
âIâm sorry you have to work with Kathryn, but hopefully she wonât be that bad today. And I feel like youâre going to have a good day today, signing your new contract and all that, you badass of a woman.â He takes a step toward her and leans down to brush a kiss across her temple, knowing the toothpaste on her tongue wonât mix well with the coffee. He loves her and is proud of her for negotiating a raise that she deserves for her time there and for all the good work sheâs done this year, but her really is not a fan of toothpaste mixed with coffee. âAnd when all is said and done today, I promise Iâll give you all of my love and attention.â
âThatâs all I ask.â
When Emma leaves for work, he takes a quick shower and gets dressed to go to Gold and Williams to pick up some of the furniture they saw the other day. Heâll pack later. Heâd honestly just feel better if he went ahead and got the furniture now, mixing in with the morning crowd on the train as he makes his way to the south end. Heâs still got some work to go on navigating Boston, but heâs figuring things out. Itâd help if he had a car here, but he doesnât want to buy another one when he has a perfectly good car back in California. Then again, itâs either leave it there or take a road trip across the country every time he travels.
That would be ridiculous. The miles and time alone.
Maybe heâll get Emma to take a road trip with him when she has off for Thanksgiving since theyâre spending it with his family so that they can spend Christmas with Emmaâs. Or maybe heâll simply become a master of taking the train.
Or he could ship his car across the country. Thatâs a thing.
It takes a few minutes in the store for him to find the barstools, telling the man whoâs helping him, Eric, that he wants four of them before he wanders throughout the rest of the store, looking at the chairs for the living room theyâd both liked the other day. Itâs odd shopping without Emma, but then again, she did most of their apartment viewing by herself so a chair seems like a much smaller thing. They can always return it if it doesnât fit, but he likes the blue velvet and gold accented frames that surround them to go with the light gray of their couch. By the time heâs left the store he has put in orders for the barstools, arm chairs, lamps for their bedside tables, and a loveseat to sit at the foot of their bed all to be shipped to their apartment. He knows that Emma liked the loveseat because he distinctly remembers her sitting down on it and tracing her finger over the teal material and talking about how good it would look with the blue and green accents on the pillows on their bed.
Heâs never thought this much about interior decorating, but Emma is having such a blast starting with a clean slate that heâs enjoying it. He likes watching everything come together too.
The rest of his morning is spent packing up Emmaâs apartment, sectioning off her clothes and tying them up in bags so theyâll be easier to unpack. All of her dishes but a few theyâll need over the next few days go into boxes, wrapped in bubble wrap, and he makes note of the appliances sheâs missing. Heâll ship some of his things from home here. He wonât need a fully stocked kitchen some place heâs not living full time, and thereâs no need to buy more plates when he and Emma eat out off of paper plates most of the time anyways.
Maybe they need a few more plates for when they have guests. Heâs thinking about flying out Liam, Elsa, and Aiden for Christmas and having them stay over so that they can meet everyone. Of course, heâll have to fly in Anna and Kris as well. He could offer to fly in Anna and Elsaâs parents, but theyâre apparently visiting after the holiday.
Itâs something to think about, though.
When he tackles her shelves, thatâs an animal in and off itself. Sheâs got everything marked for keep or donate since nothing in her apartment can stay here, and honestly, heâs a little confused by some of the markings. There are several rocks that donât look like anything, but Emma has them marked to keep so he packs them away. He assumes Leo has given them to her, but heâs honestly got no idea.
The music on his phone stops playing as it rings, and he reaches to the side and slides his finger across the screen, tapping the speaker so he doesnât have to pick it up.
âHey, Will.â
âWhy the bloody hell do you have me watering these plants if you donât even live here anymore? Canât I just let them die?â
âNice to hear from you too,â he scoffs, wrapping up a picture frame. âAnd yes, you have to water them until I get them moved to Liamâs or Robâs. Or yours. I think youâre rather fond of the plants, mate.â
âI donât like your bloody plants.â
âItâs okay to like the plants. Theyâd make your apartment look less like a bachelor lives there.â
âA bachelor does live there.â
âSeriously, take the plants with you.â
âIf I take the plants with me, then you wonât pay me to water them.â
âTechnically I also pay you to dust, but you never do that.â
âIâm not your maid. Iâm your friend.â
âWho likes the money I pay you out of the goodness of my heart for helping me with my house.â
âYouâre the most generous man in all of Hollywood,â Will chuckles as the distinctive sound of the ceiling fan in Killianâs study spins. Itâs got this thing where it clicks if it spins too quickly. He needs to fix that. âWhat are you doing today? You got plans? Rob, Rol, and I are going to watch the Kings play later. You want to join us from afar?â
âWhat time?â
âSix our time.â
He clicks his tongue as he wraps another frame thatâs filled with a picture of Emma holding both Leo and Brody the day after Brody was born. God, that had been such an awful day for him, but Emma looks so besotted with those boys that it doesnât even matter. It worked out for them anyways. They worked it out.
âI canât,â he admits, feeling the smallest tinge of guilt, but this is how things are going to be sometimes. Not all of the time, but still. Heâll have to take the three of them to a match sometime soon. Maybe heâll buy them passes for Christmas. âItâs Emmaâs birthday, so weâre going out. Iâll try another time though, okay?â
âAye, thatâs fine. Itâs not like itâs going to be a good one anyways. Tell your lady I said happy birthday.â
âI will. Iâm sure sheâll appreciate it. Are you not working at the bar tonight?â
âNo, Iâve got today off. Oi, man, Iâve got to tell you about this guy who came in last night.â
He and Will keep talking until Killianâs finished packing up the bookshelves, everything sorted into different boxes and bags and stacked up next to the door as Will regales him with stories of the bar and Rolandâs attempt at ice skating for the first time last week. Robinâs also apparently been dating one of the moms of one of Rolandâs classmates. He leaves for a little bit of time and suddenly everyone is getting their lives together. He absolutely cannot wait to annoy Rob about this the next time they talk. The man would rather die than talk about his dating life, so he kind of wonders how exactly Will knew about Robinâs new woman. He never explained. Eventually Will has to go, and Killianâs left spending the rest of the day doing as much packing as he can, only stopping to eat a late lunch and drink another cup of coffee.
âHow is it so cold outside?â Emma asks as she pulls off her jacket and takes her beanie off, shaking her hair out and closing the front door behind her. âSeriously, itâs freezing out there. Have you been outside today? Probably not. Youâve probably been packing this entire time. Sorry I couldnât call at lunch. I missed it to read over my contract one more time. Your girl has officially got herself a pay raise.â
âCongrats, love,â he laughs, taping up a box and then putting his tape down so that he can walk over to the kitchen where Emmaâs puttering around in the cabinets. Theyâre mostly empty now, but sheâs probably trying to find a glass. âDo you feel less stressed?â
âExponentially.â
âGood.â He presses a kiss to her cheek before reaching above her and getting a glass out of the cabinet to hand to her. âI actually went and got some furniture for us this morning, some of the stuff we looked at on Sunday, and itâs being delivered to the apartment. And then I was packing up some things we hadnât gotten yet. I was about to go work in your hallway closet.â
âI can do that,â she blurts, her cheeks flushing, and he quirks his brow as the gears start turning in his mind over why she wouldnât want him messing with the closet.
âYouâre hiding something.â
âI am not.â
âYouâre a horrible liar, remember?â
âMaybe.â
âDefinitely.â
âSo what do you have hidden in the closet? Iâve been in there before, so I know that itâs not dead bodies or anything.â
âGross.â
He shrugs. âIâm just saying. Iâm also going to go look.â
He sidesteps out of Emmaâs way, the curiosity too much, but he also knows that if Emma really doesnât want him to look, sheâll tell him to stop. And he will. Whatever sheâs hiding isnât bad or untrustworthy. He simply doesnât know what it is.
âKillian,â she chuckles, grabbing onto the back of his shirt and tugging him back so that he turns around and backs himself up against the wall to look down at Emma. Her eyes have widened, and her lips are somewhere between a smile and a quiver. He simply canât tell. âPlease donât look in the closet.â
âI wonât if you really donât want me to. I just wonder how you didnât think of me looking in there while you were gone today.â
âI forgot.â
âYou forgot about your deep, dark secret?â
âItâs not a deep, dark secret. Itâs a surprise for you.â
âFor little old me on your birthday?â
âOh my gosh,â she scoffs, rolling her eyes and leaning forward to pat his chest. âYouâre so cocky, but yes, for you. It was â I was â do you just want it now?â
He does, but he can be patient.
âYou can save it. Today is about you anyways.â
Emma groans, actually groans, and itâs a bit of a mixture between frustration and pleasure. Heâs got no clue whatâs going on right now. Absolutely none.
âItâs not a big deal,â she starts, stepping to the side and sliding open the closet door, the old folds of it crunching the slightest bit. âLike, itâs really not a big deal. I was going to put them up at the new apartment and let you, you know, just notice when you noticed.â She bends down and picks up a small box, and when she hands it to him, he can see Liamâs address on the return label. What the hell? âJust open it or whatever.â
âOkay,â he mumbles, looking up at her and noticing the way sheâs fidgeting, her feet never staying in place. âSwan, unless thereâs something super freaky in here that my brother has sent you, and Iâm not sure where the limitations lie, I promise that thereâs no need to be nervous.â
It takes a bit of work to open the package. Liam really doubles down on masking tape and heâs working with just his nails, but eventually he gets into it, the cardboard folds moving open and revealing a few envelopes that are full of picturesâŚof him. Theyâre of him. Thereâs one of him as a child with his mum, a blue popsicle melted all over him. Thereâs another of he and Liam at his graduation, another of them when theyâd just moved into the apartment in California, and several others that heâs seen before but not in a long time. These are from the books that Liam keeps, that heâs made sure to save even when they were in the system and could barely have belongings. These are his childhood, the fond memories of his childhood, and despite how much heâs always loved them, for a long time it was difficult for him to look at some of them, especially the ones with his mother.
âDid you,â he starts, putting the pictures back in the box, âdid you ask Liam for family photos so you could put them up in the apartment to surprise me?â
âYeah. I thought â I thought it would be a nice thing for you to have some of your home here. And, like, I figured it was a better thing than a picture of Queen Elizabeth or, like, a palm tree that would just die in this climate. I know itâs not a big thing but I â â
âEmma,â he laughs, dropping the box to the ground and stepping forward to wrap his arm around her waist, holding onto her tightly as he pushes her up to the wall and quickly slants his lips over hers, feeling the softness of her mouth as she gasps into his own. He knows that heâs surprised her, that she didnât expect such a fierce moment over what she very obviously thinks is a big deal but wonât admit, but the truth of the matter is that it is a big deal. Theyâre flush against each other and into the wall, and when his tongue moves against hers, she cants her hips up to his as he matches her rocks, the two of them moving together.
He knows that theyâre both sentimental, that they both hold onto things from their childhood, that they hold onto the happy moments, but he also knows that theyâre often only sentimental about it late at night when maybe exhaustion has gotten to them. Sometimes itâs when theyâre walking on the beach by his house, Emma wrapped up in a sweater that reaches her thighs as she tells him about the first time she made a friend who she got to stay around for more than a few months before she was moved to another house in the state. Itâs a sometimes thing, not an always, but it means the absolute world to him that Emma would do this.
She hasnât moved the mountains, but he would never ask or expect her to.
Heâd go to the end of the world for her, and he knows that sheâd do the same.
Emmaâs hands move over his shoulders, and itâs what snaps him into attention before he moves his lips from hers and trails them along her jaw, burying his face in her neck and breathing her in as his heart pounds against his ribcage.
âSo you like them?â
He nods into her neck before he pulls back, looking into the gleam of her eyes before he leans forward and kisses her noise, his breath still catching up to him as he rests his forehead against hers. âI love them. Why were you so nervous?â
âI donât know.â Her voice is a bit high, the smallest bit broken, and he groans a bit knowing that itâs all because of him, that their hips are still pushed together with Emma pinned to the wall. âI wanted to do something big for you to make Boston your home a bit more easily, but I couldnât think of anything. And I donât know. I figured you wouldnât pack up all of the pictures you have at home so that you would still have them when youâre there. It was the least I could do, and I wasnât going to make a big deal about them, but then you were going into the closet and yeah.â
âI did pack some of them,â he chuckles, leaning back and flashing her a grin so that sheâll stop biting her lip. Heâs just now noticing that his hand has traveled up her shirt, and he wonders when he started tracing her spine. âNot all of them but a few, but I donât â I hadnât gone into those pictures for years. Itâs so hard to see Mumâs face sometimes, but this is good. I appreciate it. Really. I donât need you to do big gestures. I donât â Emma Iâm happy to be here. I canât say it enough. Iâm happy to be here and to be with you.â
âYeah,â she nods, moving her hands back up his arms to his shoulders before her hands cup his face, soft pads caressing him as he leans his cheek into her so that he can kiss her wrist, âIâm happy too. We should probably stop making out in my hallway and get ready for dinner.â She pats his face as her lips curl into a smile that makes her eyes crinkle. âYou need time to fix up that face.â
âMy face looks fine.â
âObviously you already packed up all of the mirrors in this place.â
It doesnât take long for the two of them to get ready even though he needs to take a shower, and after he gives Emma her gifts, clasping the ends of her necklace together over the back of her neck, they make their way outside so they can drive to dinner. Emma has work in the morning, so neither of them are really planning on drinking too much or staying out late.
âSo this place is really called the Barking Crab?â he asks as they walk from the parking deck to the restaurant, moving through the surprisingly crowded streets even with the chill in the air. Emma had put on a short black dress earlier, had checked the weather, and then quickly changed into black jeans and a sweater so that she wouldnât freeze. As much as he appreciated the dress, he appreciates Emma not dying of hypothermia more.
âYep. Itâs good and fun, right on the water obviously. Youâll like it because as much as I know that you like the occasional stuffy restaurant, how can you pass up eating greasy food out of baskets?â
âYou canât,â he scoffs, reaching down to wrap his hand over her palm while they walk. âAnd itâs seafood, so how can it get better?â
âIf it were a cheeseburger.â
âIâm sure they have those here, but considering you picked the place, Swan, I donât think you can complain.â
âWe already talked about this. Itâs my birthday. I can do whatever I want.â
âThatâs not how that works.â
âIt definitely is.â
âSo if you committed murder, you think you could get away with it by saying it happened on your birthday?â
âYou took that from zero to one hundred real quick.â
âI was making a point.â
âOne Iâm choosing to ignore.â Her steps hurry then, heels clicking against the pavement, and he has to quicken his step to keep up. âI see Mary Margaret at a table.â
âShe got one outside? Itâs freezing.â
âThey have heaters.â
âStill.â
âYouâll be fine,â Emma laughs, squeezing his hand tightly before releasing him and running up to meet her friends, wrapping Mary Margaret in a tight embrace, the two of them rocking from side to side.
Sheâs already moved onto David by the time that he gets there, so he bends down and presses a kiss against Mary Margaretâs cheek, asking her how she is and about the kids before heâs hugging David and doing the same to him. Heâs just about to settle down when Ruby and Dorothy show up, so itâs another mess of hugs and too much conversation all happening at once. Heâs only met Dorothy in a professional capacity, but he feels as if he knows her a bit from Emma and Ruby talking about her. Sheâs great, if not a bit shy, but thatâs honestly not an option with Emma and her friends.
Okay, so itâs not an option with Ruby, but he doubts Dorothy would be here if she didnât fancy Ruby.
Eventually the all sit down around the table Mary Margaret got for them, Emma sliding into the chair next to him and opening up the menu to read through all of the cocktails out loud.
âYouâd like the Dark and Stormy, babe,â she tells him, pointing to the rum on the menu, âor maybe the Tea Party since, you know, youâre a Brit in Boston.â
âSo damn funny,â he scoffs, tapping his fingers against her thigh from where his hand has been resting.
âIâve never even thought about that before,â David laughs, closing his menu. âYou may also like the Bloody Mary.â
âYouâre all regular comedians.â
âAw, heâs kind of crabby,â Ruby sighs, her lips curling up into a smile. âSo obviously the Crabby Margarita will also work for you.â
âI believe a margarita would be better for Mary Margaret.â
âOh Iâm not drinking tonight, but I appreciate the pun,â she sighs sweetly, obviously not going to get in on teasing him about his heritage. âBesides, tonight is about Emma and being one year away from thirty, flirty, and thriving. We should totally be making fun of her.â
âWhat kind of alcohol puns can you make about Emma, though?â Dorothy asks.
âNot really any,â Ruby admits, shrugging her shoulders before taking a sip of her water. âThough, usually when weâre making fun of Emma, we talk about the great tequila incident of 2012.â
âNo.â
âWait,â he laughs, twisting his head to look at Emma and the absolute look of horror that is covering every inch of her skin, âwhat is this now? Iâve never heard of it, and I really feel like I should know about something thatâs called the great tequila incident of 2012.â
âBabe, you really donât want to know.â
âI really do,â he promises, excitement running through him as he looks between David, Mary Margaret, and Ruby to see which of them is going to break and tell this story.
âSo Emma and I were living in this awful apartment,â Mary Margaret begins, reaching up to tuck her hair behind her ear only for it to fall back from not being long enough, âand we have absolutely no money. Iâm a teacher fresh out of getting my Masters and Emmaâs just gotten hired as an assistant PR director after that shitty receptionist job sheâd had, so we, literally, never go out to do anything because we donât have money. Ever.â
âUntil your homegirl got hired at the same place as Emma,â Ruby adds, excitedly moving her shoulders up and down while Emmaâs leg taps underneath his hand.
âYeah, so we went out to celebrate Ruby getting a new job because sheâd spent so damn long in school, and your girlfriend who is about ready to bolt right now, has a few too many drinks. Sheâs always been a bit of a lightweight.â
âThatâs rich coming from you, honey.â
Mary Margaret rolls her eyes at her husband before looking back at him. âThatâs not the point. Youâre just mad because you werenât there that night. Anyways, weâre at a bar and Emma has had too much tequila, so when Ruby suggests that itâs time to go home, Emma just refuses. I mean, absolutely refuses because that awful song Call Me Maybe is on, and she insisted that she had to go around quoting it to every man in the bar before she gave them her number.â
âPlease tell me you didnât, Swan.â
âI did,â she groans, leaning into his shoulder and burying her face in his jacket. âI had to change my number because I kept getting calls asking to talk to the hot blonde that gave away her number and then proceeded to ask every single person if theyâd be willing to go on a Segway tour with them by saying âwe could see Boston, and then I could show you my place.ââ
The laughter starts in his stomach, but it makes its way up his entire body, his core and his shoulders shaking as it bubbles up and out of his mouth, nothing containing it as Emma keeps her face buried in his shoulder despite the fact that he must be moving her. Itâs not the most embarrassing thing in the world. Not really, but heâs imagining Emma singing the song and propositioning all of those people while Ruby and Mary Margaret were likely curled up in balls laughing at her.
âWhy a Segway tour, Swan?â he laughs, squeezing her thigh. âWhat about that would lead you to taking these guys back to your place?â
âI donât know. I was drunk. I obviously wasnât thinking.â
âSo now Emma isnât supposed to drink tequila, and if she does, she either has to sing the entirety of Call Me Maybe or pay for all of us to go on a Segway tour of Boston.â
âEmma, love,â he soothes, moving his hand from her thigh and wrapping it around her shoulder so that he can rub it up and down her arm as she obviously replays the night in her mind, âIâm going to need you to stop drinking too much in front of Ruby and Mary Margaret because it seems to get you into all kinds of predicaments.â
âBut thatâs how she met you,â Ruby points out, and he smiles at the thought. âIâm still waiting for my boat, by the way. I want it to be called The Love Boat. Iâve said it before, but I obviously need to say it again. I think red will be a good color for it, not tacky at all.â
âYouâre not getting a boat,â Emma groans, her cheeks flushing a deeper shade of red. âAlso, are we ever going to order? Because itâs my birthday, and I want to eat.â
They do eventually order, and soon the table is full of ridiculous cocktails and water glasses as well as crab, lobster rolls, shrimp, and more seafood than six people will need. But they manage to eat most of it between laughing and sharing more embarrassing stories about Emma. Heâs got several up his sleeve, but heâd rather listen to the tales of when all of them were in university together (apparently David came along a bit later, but he knows the stories well enough) and just starting out. Emma is so comfortable with her friends, comfortable with letting them tease her and share things from a time when she likely wasnât sure of trusting people too much, and heâs not sure if heâs ever been more thankful for three of the people sitting across from him.
They were the ones who Emma opened her heart up to and who didnât let her down for the first time in her life, and heâs exponentially glad that she has them.
âIâm going to run to the restroom,â Emma mutters after she takes another sip of her water before placing it on the table.
âIâll join you,â Mary Margaret adds only for Ruby and Dorothy to say the same thing. âAnd you two cannot make a joke about women traveling in packs to the bathroom when the two of you do stuff like that all of the time.â
âWasnât going to, honey,â David sighs, smiling up at his wife. Mary Margaret simply smiles back before sheâs walking away, trailing after everyone else as they disappear into the restaurant and out of sight. âSo do you feel like youâve officially been initiated into a Boston man? Youâre eating seafood by the harbor when itâs freezing outside. All you need is to be wearing a Sox cap.â
âWell, I did leave my hat and my jersey at home. I knew I was forgetting something when we left the apartment. But yeah,â he shrugs, fingering at the condensation on his glass, âit feels good to be here. Itâs definitely not California, but Iâm happy. I canât wait to get into the new place, though. Iâm tripping over boxes every two seconds.â
âYou never know how much stuff you have until you move, and Emmaâs a packrat so thatâs got to be awful.â
âItâs not that bad,â he admits, twisting his head and looking out at the water past all of the people who are crowding the streets. âWeâve gone through everything and either donated it, trashed it, or packed it. I donât think either of us really expected to be able to move so quickly.â
âBut when has anything in your relationship ever gone as normal?â
He clicks his tongue, not really sure how to answer that. âEh, depends on what youâre saying is normal. I think we do what works for us. We havenât been together for years or anything, but weâve been together for awhile. And besides two or three days, once we were in, we were all in.â
Davidâs eyes slant for a moment, the blue turning into slits, and his lips flatten out into a straight line while he looks at Killian. He briefly sees David tilt his head to the side, something almost unnoticeable, but then heâs widening his eyes again as his features relax. He was just being studied, and heâs honestly not sure why.
âYouâre going to propose.â
If he were holding his drink instead of thumbing at the water on it while it rests on the table, heâd drop it. Heâd drop it and then likely freeze for the chill thatâs blowing over the restaurant, the temperatures continuing to fall the longer they stay out here. He can feel the heat as it moves across his face, red flames tickling his skin, and he knows that itâs not from the nip of the air or the warmth of the heater thatâs just behind their table.
âPossibly,â he concedes, his eyes glancing over to where Emma had disappeared into the restaurant. As much as heâd like to talk about his thoughts and his plans and the rings that heâs been looking at when he can, he knows that they donât have a lot of time. âHow the hell do you know that?â
âYouâre not as suave and mysterious as you think.â He raises a brow, and waits for David to continue. âYou love her. You love her in the way that I love Mary Margaret, and while you two are different, itâs still the same.â
âAye,â he smiles, eyes only straying from David to look to make sure no one is returning to the table, âI do. I love her, and I want to marry her. I know that now isnât the time, that things are crazy with the move, but Iâve been thinking about it.â
âGood.â
âYeah?â
âYeah, Killian, thatâs incredible,â he laughs, his own face covered in lines while he reaches down to break off a piece of bread. âEmma is like a younger sister to me, and I love her. I just want her to be happy. And youâve grown on me too, so I guess I want that for you.â
He winks, knowing that heâs got a smirk curling up on his lips. âI tend to have that effect on people.â
Emma comes back to the table first, her hair now pulled up in a ponytail, and sits back down in her chair, her hand landing on his knee and squeezing while Mary Margaret follows closely behind her.
âWhere are Ruby and Dorothy?â
âI donât want to talk about it,â Emma mumbles.
âTheyâre asking the chef if sheâd be willing to make Emma a small birthday cake,â Mary Margaret explains as she rolls her eyes a bit at Emma. âEmmaâs embarrassed because she doesnât want the entire restaurant looking at her as they sing.â
âIâm not embarrassed. I would have been fine if Killian and I had just stopped for milkshakes on the way home.â
âNonsense, Swan, youâve got to have your birthday cake.â
Ruby and Dorothy come back to the table with the promise that Emma is going to have a birthday cake brought out to her in a few minutes. Sure enough their waitress comes to the table with a serving dish full of cake, Emmaâs name written in sauce on the white of the plate, and everyone sings to her while he watches her attempt not to blush. It doesnât work, but she tries.
And later that night after Emma has fallen asleep claiming too much cake and seafood, he scrolls through his phone at the pictures from tonight. Thereâs several of he and Emma, even more of shots he had to take for she and her friends, but as he does, he never uploads a photo of her face online, not since the night they met at the charity gala. Who heâs dating isnât a secret, but that doesnât mean he doesnât want to control what he puts out there on the rare occasions that he does post things online so that Robin doesnât get onto him about not being social media savvy enough.
So itâs that thought that has him posting a photo of Emma as everyone sings to her. Her hands are covering her face, the loose strands of her ponytail doing the rest of the work, but he can still see the slightest bit of her smile under the glow of the candle light and the bulb lights the restaurant had up.
KillianJonesOfficial: Happy birthday, my love.
He wants to say more, but he thinks heâd rather keep those thoughts to he and Emma. Sheâs the only one who really needs to hear them.
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Letting Go: Part 4
Author: biaswreckingyourlifefics
Pairing: Baekhyun x Reader
Genre: Angst
Word Count: 2.5k
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You look at the empty table that was set for four. The only seat currently occupied was Jiaâs, and her face held a very guilty expression. Then, like a light bulb suddenly turning on, it finally dawns on you what Jia was up to.
âJia, what is this?â Baekhyun lowly asks.
âWould you believe me if I said everyone else canceled?â She replies sheepishly.
Jia had lied and said everyone was going to dinner, but really, she had set up a double date. Jongin and her. You and Baekhyun.
Everyone was silently stared at each other for a moment. Baekhyun and you were trying to process what was happening, and Jia and Jongin were too nervous to comment.
You didnât know how to feel. You stare at Jia, wondering how you were going to get through a dinner with Baekhyun, now knowing it was a fake double date.
You slowly look at Baekhyun, wondering what is going through his mind. His face was completely unreadable as he looks between Jia and Jongin. You couldnât tell if he was angry, confused, put off, or what.
His eyes suddenly meet your wide ones before you can look away. All you could do was stare at him, hoping he would see that this wasnât your idea. When he slowly begins nodding his head, you exhale the breath of air you didnât know you had been holding.
âWell, weâre here... I guess we should eat.â
You follow his lead and sit down in the seat next to him and across from Jia. Holy shit, this is awkward, you thought. There was complete silence at the table, so you took the opportunity to peek at everyone through your eyelashes.
Jia was taking turns looking at everyone. She looked slightly nervous, now that her plan was in motion, and the guilt was still etched onto her face. Jongin was looking at his menu, not raising his head to look at anyone else, and not wanting to take any of the blame for his girlfriend's actions.
You casually look to your left to see Baekhyun, sitting somewhat stiffly, almost like he was scared that if he moved too much he would bump into you. You look down at yourself, noticing you were sitting the same way, so you take a deep breath and force yourself to relax. All of you were already here, so you might as well try to get past the awkwardness. Besides, you were friends. It wasnât like this was a blind date with random people.
âSo, how was everyoneâs day?â
At your words, everyone visibly tenses since you had the courage to break the silence. Jia becomes excited, taking your words as a cue that you arenât mad at her. Jongin gradually relaxes, now that you had finally spoken, and it wasnât to yell at Jia. Baekhyun continues to look at his menu, not making eye contact with anyone, but he does answer your question.
âGood, but if you remember, weâve been with you two all day.â
Oh yeah⌠you had forgotten that they were at the shop with you two. You sigh, not knowing how to start the conversation. Luckily for you, the waitress came up and took all your orders. When she leaves, taking the menus with her, your only source of distraction goes with her.
âOkay, Iâm sorry I lied, but I thought it would be nice if the four of us went out together.â Jia begins to explain herself.
âYou couldâve just said, âHey guys, letâs go to dinnerâ. That wouldâve worked just as well.â Baekhyun calmly responds to her before sipping from the water glass in front of him.
âWell, weâre all here now, so letâs just enjoy it, yeah?â You say. Jongin nodding his head and agreeing with you.
Dinner goes well, and once everyone lightened up, you had a lot of fun. The four of you joked around, and they shared stories with you about wild things theyâve done over the past years. You enjoyed hearing about their crazy antics and learning about their experiences as a group. You and Jia also silently watched as Baekhyun and Jongin hotly (and weirdly) debated which fantasy movies were better, and they informed you about a charity event Jongin and Chanyeol were taking part in.
Dinner flew by, even though it was very weird in the beginning. You enjoyed spending time with just the three of them and away from the big group. You felt comfortable with them, even though you lost count of how many times Baekhyun made your heart flutter every time his arm brushed yours. You felt like a schoolgirl with her first crush, but you needed to knock it off. You were in your mid-20âs for goodness sake!
When it was time to leave, Jongin and Jia took off one way, while you and Baekhyun went the other way. As you were walking out to your vehicles, Baekhyun is the one to break the silence.
âWell, that was fun, even though Jia lied to get us here.â
You shrug your shoulders. âI mean, everything went okay in the end, and we got food, so Iâm happy.â
âFood is always a good thingâŚâ
âMhmm. So, do you want to hang out and play some video games or something?â You ask hopefully, not noticing Baekhyun watching you out of the corner of his eye.
âI would, but thereâs something I have to do at SM tonight. Weâll hang out soon though. Have a good night and drive carefully!â Baekhyun quickly says before turning away from you.
You watch as he walks away, confused by what had just happened. Why did Baekhyun suddenly seem different? He was laughing and joking inside the restaurant, but now he was acting distant like maybe he had on a front during dinner.
Also, you couldâve sworn you remember Baekhyun telling Jongin he didnât have plans for later⌠Maybe something came up? Or maybe Jiaâs plan weirded him out more than he let on?
You were brought back to reality by the sound of a car door shutting somewhere in the parking lot. Shaking your head, you slowly open the driverâs side door of your vehicle and climb into the seat. You turn the key in the ignition and start your engine, but before you can put the vehicle in drive, your phone dings with a message.
Jia: Dinner was great! I think B definitely has a thing for you!
You snort and stare at the phone wondering if Jia and you had been at the same dinner.
You: I really donât think so, Jia, and please donât do that to me again!
Jia: Oh, stop. Everything went fine.
From her perspective, maybe it did, but you couldnât help but think something was different about Baekhyun. Maybe, Iâm just overthinking things, you thought. Probably. You tended to do that.
A few days go by after the dinner, and now you know somethings up. You had known Baekhyun for less than a month, but ever since the two of you exchanged numbers, you had made it a habit to text each other every day. Even when one of you was busy, you found a spare minute to at least text the other a simple, âHey, how are youâ.
Since the dinner four days ago, you hadnât heard a word from Baekhyun, and all your texts had gone unanswered. You assumed he was just busy with work, but you had a feeling that wasnât the case. Jongin still found the time to stop by your work daily, usually with another member in tow.
Today, however, you were all by yourself. It was Jiaâs day off, which meant you had no one to talk with while getting your work done. The coworker who was with you instead was an older woman in her 40âs, and she liked to pretend that you werenât even there. She wasnât mean per se, but she didnât go out of her way to talk to you or Jia.
That is why you are surprised when you notice her come into the backroom of the store and head straight for you. You try to hide the confusion on your face as she reaches you. Maybe it was something work-related that you needed to do.
âThereâs a man out there looking for you.â
You stare at her, wondering if she could be any vaguer. A man? Was it your brother? Did something happen?
âDid he say who he was?â You ask her, trying to get more information out of her.
Shrugging her shoulders, she wordlessly walks away. You couldnât help but roll your eyes. Why is she in customer service? You put down the things in your hands and head up front to the shop. As you walk around the corner of the hallway, you do a quick scan of the shop, looking for your brother.
âY/N.â
You jump, hearing a voice come from your direct left. Turning your head, you see Baekhyun standing next to you.
âJesus, Baek, you scared me.â
A small smile grows on his face. âSorry.â
You move away from the hallway, so you were no longer blocking the doorway, and turn to look at Baekhyun. You attempt to hide any excitement you feel at him being here at the shop, but honestly, it was kind of hard, especially after not hearing from him for a few days.
âWhatâs up?â
âJust wanted to see if you were free for lunch.â He casually asks like it wasnât a big deal.
Lunch? He was asking you to lunch?
âRight now?â Baekhyun nods his head, confirming. âYeah, I can do lunch. Just let me go tell my coworker.â
He nods again, and you go back to the backroom to tell your coworker you were taking your lunch. Once youâre all set, you meet Baekhyun by the front door.
âWhere do you want to go?â
âWe can go to the cafĂŠ on the corner. Itâs pretty good. Have you been yet?â
You tell him you havenât, but that this was the cafĂŠ Jia had recently been telling you about. The two of you take off toward the building a few spots down from yours and immediately find an empty table in the back. Once you sit down, the waitress attempts to hand you your menus, but Baekhyun stops her.
âDo you mind if I order for you?â He asks you casually.
You blink a few times in confusion. âYou want to order for me?â Once he nods, you say, âWell... okayâŚâ
You space out as he talks to the waitress. You havenât heard from him in days, and then he randomly shows up, asks you out to lunch, and then orders for you? I guess weirder things have happened, you thought, but you had never had a guy order for you before.
âThank you.â You say to him as the waitress walks away.
âDonât worry about it. Itâs just something that I know youâll like.â
âOh, getting cocky now, are we?â You tease.
He starts to laugh, but then you watch his face change back to the somewhat serious look he had when he was in the store. You feel awkward at the sudden change in his expression, so you try to make small talk.
âSo, how have you been the past few days?â
âIâve been alright, how about you?â
âNot bad. Just working.â
He nods at you, and the two of you fall into another silence. You hated it. There were hardly silent moments between the two of you. In fact, you almost didnât believe Baekhyun knew how to be silent.
âDid I do something wrong?â You blurt out, trying to understand what his deal was.
âNo, you didnât do anything wrongâŚâ Baekhyun looks down at his hands, and then back up at you. ââŚbut I feel like I may need to clear the air with you.â
âOkay⌠about what?â
He sighs. âLook, I think youâre amazing. Youâve become a really good friend of mine... oddly fast actually⌠but⌠Iâm not looking for anything right now.â
Once he finishes his sentence, he stares at you, waiting for your response. All you could do was stare back at him and blink, not knowing how to respond to anything he just said.
He thought you wanted to date him? I mean, I guess I sort of do, you think, but you had never given him any indication that you felt that way. At least, you didn't think you had.
âIt has nothing to do with you. Iâm just interested in someone else.â He adds when you still donât say anything.
After another moment of silence, you say, âDid I do something to make you feel like I wanted to pursue something with you?â
He blinks a couple of times in confusion. âYou donât?â
You raise your eyebrows at his question, and he throws his hands up in front of him once he realizes how cocky he sounds.
âWait, I didnât mean it like that. Itâs just⌠the date that was set up â â
âBaekhyun, I had nothing to do with that dinner,â you cut him off.
He pauses in surprise. âYou didnât?â
Shaking your head, you reply, âNo, that was all Jia.â
âOhâŚâ He says while looking back down at his hands. âIâm sorry⌠I guess I just thought⌠I mean, I thought I was getting a certain vibe from⌠youâŚâ
You donât know where the words that come out of your mouth next came from, but you were not expecting them to come out, and you were almost just as shocked as him.
âI won't lie to you. I do have a crush on you, but I had nothing to do with that dinner. I know you donât see me that way.â
Baekhyunâs eyes widen at your admission. âYou have a crush on me?â
At that moment, the waitress comes up and drops off your food. You stare at it, not wanting to look back up at Baekhyun. Why did I just admit that and to Baekhyun of all freaking people?!
âY/N?â
You close your eyes, already regretting the can of worms you had inevitably opened, but there was no way you could take the words back. You started it, so now you might as well finish it.
âYes, I have a crush on you.â You say, finally meeting his eyes. âBut I already know you have eyes for someone else.â
Baekhyun hadnât moved an inch since your confession, but you didnât think he could get even more still, and yet here he was proving you wrong.
âHow do you know that?â
âIâve seen you watching her whenever weâre all together.â
Baekhyun stares at you, eyes still wide, not believing his ears. âYou knowâŚ?â
âThat you like your best friendâs girlfriend? Yes.â
Baekhyun looks down at his food in shock. âI thought Iâve been hiding it pretty wellâŚâ
Maybe it was your outsiderâs perspective, but you didnât know how any of them had missed the fact that he had feelings for her, and now you had made it apparent to at least two more people. âIâm not the only one who knows. Jia and Jongin know too.â
âPlease, donât say anything to anyone.â Baekhyun silently pleads, closing his eyes.
âI wonât, but you need to try to move onâŚâ
âI knowâŚâ
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â...Where is our child ?â - Wonder Woman x fem!Reader
Hey, so because I often receive messages about you guys wanting âmore Wondermomâ (yes, âWondermomâ became a thing) well...Iâm writing this story. This is basically a part 2 of : âtake care of my babies or youâll dieâ, so if you didnât read that you can if you want, so this story will make more sense and...Boom, part 2, hope youâll like it :Â
PART 1
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The present :
You and Diana were sitting side by side on an upside down car, looking at the destruction the latest âLeague fight to save the Worldâ created.Â
Fortunately, everything happened after the small town where things went down was evacuated (thanks god your brother, Bruce, was always planning things so carefully and almost always managed to bring the villains where he wanted them to be, in inhabited places). But oh the destruction was still there.Â
The small coffee shop that was absolutely the cutest and that made you want to sit in and drink a warm cup of brew was no more.Â
The school, a school that eerily resembled the one your son used to go to, was no more.
Peopleâs houses were gone. They all lost everything (though probably, âWayne Enterpriseâ would get a new charity and give money and men to rebuild the place). All their possessions  were no more. Pictures of their families, the same kind that hung in your house, souvenirs and all...no more.Â
Worst, the library and book shop right next door were no more...You sighed as you see a few pages of destroyed books fly in the wind.Â
Your Dianaâs arm is around your shoulder, and you cuddle closer to her as you witness the destruction you and your friends were responsible for...But hey, you saved the World again. Small sacrifices were always needed you know ?Â
Still, her presence reassures you, makes you feel better. It always have. Having her beside you always made you stronger.Â
Your wifeâs voice startles you, as you werenât expecting her to speak right now, in that short moment of peace after the storm :
-Remember when I said that I did NOT want our child to ever fight ?Â
You smile weakly and straighten up a bit, turning your head to look at her. She smiles back at you, and you take a wild strand of her hair to put it behind her ear lovingly, brushing your fingers along her cheek, before saying :Â
-Yes I do. The good old days.Â
-When he wasnât born yet and we could still hope.Â
-Really, what did we expect ? Heâs ours, of course he would have to fight one day...
-I just wished there was another way. That he could have had a normal life.
A loud sigh behind you makes you jump a bit and you both turn around...to be faced with your brother and his sons.Â
The sigh was from the youngest, Damian and...oh God you couldnât believe that brat was already an adult. You wished you could turn back time, to moments where he was not that giant man, but a tiny insecure boy who often came to his aunt for advices and hugs (yes, hugs. It was a secret between you and him).Â
You donât even have time to say anything as Damian begins :Â
-You know, Thomas isnât a baby anymore. Heâs perfectly capable to handle himself on a battlefield. After all heâs from my...our family, there wasnât any other way, and such an extraordinary being couldnât have just a ânormal lifeâ. Heâs important. Hell, he even saved Supermanâs life today. Heâs vital part of the league. And...
You roll your eyes and cut him off :Â
-Yes yes I know Damiâ, you told us a hundred time.Â
-And yet you still baby him. You know, he just turned twenty and...
-LALALALALLALA I CANâT HEAR YOU MY TOMMY IS STILL MY TINY SON LALALALALLALAAAAAA !!Â
Diana chuckles lowly, your nephews (but Damian) full on laugh at the face their little brother is making (seriously, it could be the illustration for the word âannoyedâ in the dictionary), and even your brother utter a small smile.Â
Of course you know your boy isnât a small child anymore but...you canât help it. You canât help but being a little bit sad and angry at yourself for ever letting him become a superhero too. You canât help but feeling guilty about the life heâs doomed to lead. You canât help but worry about him constantly.Â
Sure, heâs twenty now but...Some things never change.Â
Speaking about things that never change :Â
-Wait...Where is he ?Â
Bruce looks away and his sons do too, but you catch Timâs look before he can and itâs impossible to avoid your gaze once itâs locked on something and...With a dangerous voice, you ask :Â
-Spit it up Tim, my boy...Whereâs our child ?Â
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The Past :
âWhere is our child ?â was a sentence that was heard way too many times in the Prince-Wayne household.Â
It started about a year after Thomas was born.Â
The only somewhat peaceful year you had (âsomewhatâ because of course, you were always worried about him, and Diana had the incredibly strong fear that he would die in his sleep and oh...the entire first year, she would wake you up almost every hour of the night, by getting up from the bed to go check on him, and then coming back and pulling you into her arms...Oh and letâs not talk about the time you had to find a baby-sitter because you were both busy !).Â
Yup. Things were still pretty normal for the first year. Just very worried first time parents things really.Â
Besides, Bruce was a huge help, and the boys too, always around to help and support you (no one could change a diaper like Bruce, and it impressed you a lot to see that he was that skilled at it, given the fact he never had a kid that young...). He even made the effort to leave Gotham more than once just to take care of his nephew and...really, this made your heart flutter, to think that you were so important to him that he would stop watching over his (and yours) beloved city just to come and look after his baby nephew. To think that for you, and only you, he would âbreakâ his (damn stupid) promise he made to your parents all those years ago...
Yes. Bruce helped tremendously through this first year. And everything was rather fine.Â
But one morning, everything changed.Â
You woke up to Dianaâs screams of panic, and, half-asleep, you donât quite remember how you managed to rush that fast from your bedroom toward your sonâs !Â
But here you were, with your wife, staring at the empty bed you put your baby in the night before...
It took you only half a second to register what happened, and to enter the âdetective modeâ your brother taught you.Â
And as Diana was completely panicking and yelling âWHERE IS OUR CHILD ?!â, you detached yourself from the situation and...observed.
It was important. To not let your feelings overwhelm you. The life of your son was on the line.Â
First thing you noticed was that the blanket was gone too and that...A giggle.Â
A giggle stopped you dead in your track. Followed by a âmama !â and you raise your head and...Oh boy.Â
Crisis avoided.Â
Your son hadnât been abducted or anything. Nope.Â
Your son was a meta-human.Â
Damn.Â
Here he was, his blanket still around him, flying above you and your dear wife. Giggling loudly, clapping his hand and doing flips in the air, cheerfully saying âmamaâ as he pointed at you and Diana.Â
You can almost hear Dianaâs heart calm down as she quickly flies to the ceiling and grabs your son. She holds him tight against her heart as she goes down and..is it a disappointed sigh he lets out ? Yes, itâs definitely a disappointed sigh ! He wanted to fly more !Â
Heâs pouting now, pointing at the ceiling and saying âup upâ. But your wifeâs look stops him. Calms him.
It is full of worries. Full of uncertainty. And even a one year old boy understands that something is âupâ indeed. He stops and looks curiously at his distressed mother, grabbing her cheek and rubbing it tenderly in the hope to see her smile and...it works. It always works.Â
Diana turns to you with tears in her eyes and...You understand.Â
Why ? What happened ? He didnât even have one drop of blood from Diana. He was from an unknown sperm donor and you. He shouldnât be a meta-human...And yet. Yet here he was, a one year old boy flying.Â
You never knew why. Bruce made thousands of tests on him but...he never really found a reason. Maybe it was the time he resurrected you, long ago, with a Lazarus pit ? Maybe it left something in you ? Youâd never have an answer.Â
All you knew was that your baby was a meta-human, and that would make it even more difficult to keep him away from âthe fightâ.Â
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From that point, everything kinda went downhill.Â
You and Diana tried. Really REALLY tried.Â
You and Diana tried to keep him away from any danger for a long time. Early on, Thomas understood that he was different, and that his powers (a super force and flying...just like his mom really, which was strange) had to stay a secret.Â
Diana helped him control it and...he was good at it. Hell, great. And oh so smart (that he took after you, according to your wife).Â
He was the perfect mix between a Wayne and a Prince. Intelligent and strong. Observant and caring. Passionate and compassionate. Every good things about both your family ? He had.Â
Unfortunately, it also meant that he was twice as stubborn than any of you and...Well, imagine someone more stubborn than Bruce, you, Diana, or even Jason or Damian ? He was the stubbornest person ever.Â
To her great displeasure, Thomas actually resembled a lot Diana in his personality. He had that way about him, that need to...Do things he thought were right. Which meant that in many situations, you and your wife were like âThomas noâ, and he would be like : âThomas yesâ.Â
He had that bad habit of doing things he wanted to do. Itâs not that he didnât listen to you, oh no, on the contrary, he was terrified of you and the way youâd scold him with such a calm voice. He was very respectful and polite too and wouldnât do something that was bratty or anything but...He was also a free spirit.Â
One that couldnât stay away from helping people.Â
You realized that very early on.Â
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Thomas was five when he discovered that his beloved uncle and cousins were the famed night vigilante of Gotham.Â
He found out by wandering around Wayne Manor one day, a day you all had a family lunch. Itâs Diana who noticed his absence first.Â
-(Y/N), where is our child ?Â
A search party was immediately put on. All of you knew Thomas had an unhealthy amount of curiosity that already got him in trouble a few times. Â
Itâs only when alarms started to ring in your brotherâs pocket that you finally found him...Somehow, he had found the secret passage behind the grandmother clock in the hallway, and infiltrated the Batcave.Â
-WOOOOOW ! YOUâRE THE BATMAN !!Â
Is what he yelled as he ran toward his uncle. Automatically, Bruce caught him in his arms and looked at you...and oh you werenât happy.Â
Of course, it wasnât your brotherâs fault but...those days of you wishing your son would never have the kind of life you, your brother, your nephews and wife had were now annihilated.Â
Now that Thomas knew the uncle he already admired so much was the Batman, and that his cousins were Nightwing, Red Hood, Red Robin and Robin ? He was doomed to become one of them.Â
Why was he doomed ? Because even though he was just five years old, Thomas already thought that his âabilitiesâ should be useful, and not always hidden. Even though he was just a five year old, he already had this gut feeling that there was something bigger out there !Â
Quickly, connections were made in his mind and he understood as well that his mothers were some of his actual heroes too ! Wonder Woman and (your Superhero name) ! THE GREATEST EVER !Â
You damned the day that someone gave your son such a big intelligence. The day someone decided that heâd be a genius, just like his mom and uncle...
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The âpeaceâ was longer than youâd thought though.Â
Diana was still teaching Thomas how to use his powers, you were teaching him the things your brother taught you so many years ago (how to fight, how to observe, how to fight while observing and vice versa !). He often met with his cousins and uncle and, strangely, didnât argue too much when they told him to stay behind, to go to bed, when theyâd go and save Gotham.Â
But you knew better. The only reason why your son didnât argue is because he knew he wasnât ready. That boy was too smart for his own good, and if he thought he could genuinely help and not be a burden, he would have been in Gotham Cityâs street long ago (or in Washington DC, which is where you and Diana settled in).Â
But much like you and Bruce, he always planned things carefully, and he knew that now was not his time yet...
His tenth birthday arrived and the most he did was fighting against his cousins âfor realâ. His tenth birthday arrived and, fortunately, he wasnât a âsuperheroâ yet. But you could see one day he would be.Â
You could see it in his eyes. The way he studied every move from you, Diana, Bruce, Tim, Jason, Dick, Damian...The way he visibly âstoredâ everything in his mind and all. He would be, but not now. Now wasnât his time yet.Â
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âHis timeâ came when he was twelve and a half.Â
It was just a regular day in Gotham really. You, Bruce and Thomas were walking down a calm street, on your way to meet with the rest of your family (your nephews were all grown up now, and gathering them all together was always quite difficult...and your wife only arrived in Gotham a few minutes ago. You were in vacation at your brotherâs, while she still had to work at the museum in DC).Â
Yes. It was just a regular day in Gotham.Â
Itâs like trouble followed you really. Screams. Thatâs what caught your attention.Â
It was near your lunch date and when you arrived on the spot (already in costume of course), you werenât surprised at all to find your nephews and wife already fighting. You tell Thomas to âstay putâ as you and Bruce jump in the fight.Â
Just some regular thugs attacking someone.Â
You guys, having fun punching low life criminals, taking this lightly (after all, you were some of the most powerful and mightiest superheroes on the planet, what could some thugs could really do to you ?), almost laughing in their face but...There was one you didnât notice.Â
It wasnât your fault you didnât though. You got distracted. By both the fun you were having and Dianaâs question.Â
âWhere is your child ?â she asked, and when you looked where you told Thomas to stay put to find the place empty, your heart drop.Â
And so you didnât notice one of the thugs.Â
One lurking in the shadow.Â
One with a gun.Â
None of you have time to react when the shot is fired. Directly aimed at you.Â
Bruceâs scream is desperate. Dianaâs is even worst. And you close your eyes, ready for your fate. You know you donât have time to get out of the trajectory. Besides, ever since your parentsâ death...gun shots always have this freezing effect on you, reminding you too much of that dreadful night, even though you remember very little of it and...
It takes too long. Why arenât you dead yet ? Or maybe you are and you donât feel it ? You open one eye. Then the other and...Thomas.
Your son.Â
Heâs in front of you and...something falls from his hand.Â
The bullet ? Your baby boy can stop bullets with his bare hand ?Â
In the matter of seconds the remaining thugs are taken down by your son, who jumps from man to man expertly, getting rid of them without actually really hurting them.Â
Finally, he turns to you and takes off the hood of his jacket (smart boy thought about hiding his identity...probably, even those thugs heard about the famous âThomas Prince-Wayneâ, one of the heir of the Wayne fortune).Â
He stands in front of all of you, your stunned ass just staring.Â
Until a surge of anger rises inside you. The worries you had a few minutes ago turn into anger and you approach your son, grabbing his shoulders and, with your harshest and yet calmest voice (the one that always gets to him and made him brush his teeth vigorously as a kid, when he didnât want you and you âconvinced him to), you say :Â
-Thomas Steven Prince-Wayne ! What didnât you understand in the words âstay putâ ?
He looks at you smugly (and you can almost see a younger version of your brother...the Wayne genes were strong, after all, you looked a lot like Bruce and your son was half-Wayne and..oh he definitely took almost everything from your parts of your family, and nothing from that unknown sperm donor. Good. But still, his smug face right now was exactly the one you hated, that your brother made when he won at something when you two were younger). He says :Â
-Oh I understood everything mom, itâs just...I didnât wanna stay put. Or rather, I couldn't. That guy was going to hurt you !Â
-This is not a reason to put your life in danger and...
-This is the best reason to put my life in danger ! I saved you mom ! And I would do it again if I had to ! Sure I wasnât sure Iâd be able to stop the bullet but...Iâve been practicing secretly with Damian and...oh donât look at me like that my cousin, they would have found out one day or another, and if iâm going to be in trouble, then so will you !...Anyway I was saying, I just had to try ! I couldnât watch you die mom ! I need you ok ? And...Iâm ready. Iâm ready mom. I am. I want to be like you guys. I want to help. I have to help. Please, let me help. Let me save peopleâs mother. Please. Just, let me. Uncle Bru...uh, I mean, Batman, tell her please ! Convince her, I know you agree with me !Â
You know how heâs feeling, and you know that if, years ago, you would have had the ability to stop bullets, you would have gladly jumped in front of your parents and...you canât really resist can you ?
His pleading look goes between you and Diana and...You  know thatâs it. You know you canât convince him otherwise. Forbid him to go out, and heâll sneak out without your permission.Â
The best thing to do really, is to tell him :Â âyesâ. To let him help. Because like that, youâll always have an eye on him. At all time. Or...So you thought.Â
************
So you thought, because âwhere is our child ?â was one of the sentence you pronounced the most.Â
âWhere is our child ?â Heâs fighting the biggest and baddest villain on his own, because heâs too reckless, just like his moms.Â
âWhere is our child ?â Heâs at his uncleâs house, training with his cousins. He left a note...
âWhere is our child ?â At a charity gala, gaining intels on a suspicious person, he stole one of Dickâs suit.Â
âWhere is our child ?â hiding behind the sofa, because he doesnât wanna do the dishes.Â
âWhere is our child ?â at the Leagueâs watchtower, being formerly introduced by Damian...Oh shit, you were going to be late !Â
âWhere is our child ?â flying to the stratosphere and back, just for fun, and to blow off some steam.Â
âWhere is our child ?â heâs making out with his date, right on the front porch. And itâs past his curfew.Â
âWhere is our child ?â in the middle of the battlefield, putting his life in danger to save others.Â
âWhere is our child ?â right there, between you and Diana, in your bed...he was afraid of the thunderstorm.Â
âWhere is our child ?â Thomas is in the hospital, fighting against death, after he got badly injured while doing superhero stuffs...
âWhere is our child ?â he just escaped his bedroom, where you and Diana were forcing him to stay until he recovered from his injuries...Damian helped him, picked him up in the batjet, and now, theyâre âpurifyingâ Gothamâs street.Â
âWhere is our child ?â Grounded. In his room. Pouting.Â
âWhere is our child ?â ...Heâs everywhere, heâs nowhere, all the time. Thomas Steven Prince-Wayne cannot stay still. He cannot ignore a cry for help. He cannot...He cannot not be like you and Diana.Â
A hero.Â
Someone people admired, someone people needed.Â
But there were times, oh there were times where he was just your boy. Cuddling up with you on the couch, watching silly movies. Or bonding with his uncle and cousins. Enjoying his family.Â
There were times where he remembered what you told him years ago : to live his life.Â
************
The present :Â
âWhere is our child ?â was a sentence that occurred way to many time in the Prince-Wayne household.Â
Like now. As the League just saved the world once again.Â
You thought Thomas was with your brother, but here Bruce was, with all his sons, standing in front of you, and trying to avoid your gaze. You had just asked Tim, one of your nephew, where was your boy (that wasnât a boy anymore) and you knew he was about to crack under your intense look when...
-Relax, Iâm here mom.Â
Hearing his voice instantly relaxes you and you turn around to look at your baby bo...No. Heâs not a baby anymore.Â
And right here, right now, faced with him, in his costume, all grown up...You know heâll never be your baby again.Â
His chiseled face is dirty from the fight, and he has a nasty cut on his shoulder...but it doesnât seem to bother him as he walks toward you in all his glory, wearing his newly made superhero suit (he kept the family colors...red and black). And you canât help but see the Wayne in him. Tall. Broad. Muscular. Proud. Caring. But also the Prince. Royal. Elegant. Impressive. A warrior. The best of his time.Â
And heâs not your baby anymore.Â
-I told them to come and find you to tell you not to worry. But I can see by your face Damian is the one who talked first...
Damian makes a very cute pouty face (that is quite hilarious to see...itâs just like the face he used to make when he was just a ten year old kid...except that now, heâs almost thirty).Â
Thomas doesnât let you or Diana answer as he says :Â
-I was just checking around to make sure all threats were gone. Uncle Bruce said it was fine but..Well, Iâd rather be 100% sure. No offense Uncle Bruce.Â
-None taken my boy. Better be safe than sorry.Â
-Exactly. Thatâs what you taught me.Â
The fond smile your brother gives your son melts your heart but...You put your âmother cowlâ back on and turns to your son, frowning. But Diana beats you to it :Â
-Thomas Steven Prince-Wayne.Â
It became a habit of your and of your wife, to call him by his full name before scolding or lecturing him. And you can see his eye rolling as if on their own accord, your son too used to it to resist. Your wife continues :Â
-I thought that we agreed, all those years ago, that if the fight seemed desperate, youâd fly the other way.Â
-I donât remember ever agreeing to that...I remember you guys forcing me to...
-You signed the contract Tom.Â
-Not willingly.
-You still signed it. If your uncle taught you anything about business, itâs the unbreakable sacred thing that a contract is !Â
Thomas rolls his eyes again, and shifts on his feet, ready to just listen to his momâs lecture without intervening again. He turns his attention to her and cross his arm, just like you do when youâre focused on something. Diana keeps going :
-Thomas. You need to be careful. I canât loose you. We canât loose you.I know youâre not a child anymore, but your our child. Weâll never stop worrying and...just be more careful. Stop throwing yourself in the path of danger.Â
Your son seems surprised...itâs true that, usually, his momâs lectures are way longer. But now..it looks like sheâs already done ? Is it his turn to say something ? Should he defends himself, even though he noticed the crack in his momâs voice that he so rarely heard ? That sign that this all situation hit her more than anything ? No, he has to explain to her why he did it :Â
-I had to save Superman. Heâs too important and...
You have to intervene :Â
-YOUâRE TOO IMPORTANT FOR GODâS SAKE !Â
Thomas is shocked. As are the rest of your family. Itâs the first time they hear you raise your voice...Usually, when youâre angry, you have that very calm toned that is terrifying and..Theyâre just not used to you yelling. And you add :Â
-Your mother is right Thomas, we canât loose you ok ?! I already lost so much in my life, I couldnât handle your loss and...Listen. Iâm so proud of you for what you became, I know youâre not my baby anymore but...stop...stop throwing yourself right in the mouth of the lion...stop thinking you owe anything to the World because youâre a meta-human, stop...Just...stop please...
Your son isnât sure how to react. Lectures and scolding ? He can definitely deal with it but...his mother breaking down ? His mother that he thought invincible on the verge of crying ? Holding tightly onto his other momâs arms as if she needs her to stay on her feet ? That, he never encountered...And so he approaches her slowly, his cape flowing in the air making him look majestic.Â
He doesnât expect you to fall into his arms, nor does he expect Diana to do the same and..When his eyes crosses his uncle, he suddenly understands.Â
Yes. Yes it had been close. Very close. He almost died. Without a goodbye. He almost...disappeared forever, and he wouldnât even had had the time to see his moms again.Â
He remembers how the World turned into a mess of dust and blood, how everything surrounding his mothers were just orange fumes from the fight, from making the earth move so much. He remembers Diana running towards him desperately, and the look on her face, so scared for him...He remembers you from afar, running too, and he was glad he couldnât see your facial expression. He remembers his uncle Bruce almost dying because he was distracted by Thomas being in grave anger. He remembers Damian jumping above the fight to come and join him, though he knew heâd be too late. He remembers Dick yelling something to the Flash, and only now understood that he was yelling at him to go save his baby cousin. He remembers Jason aiming to shoot at the one who was threatening Superman and his life, but knowing he would be too late too, not fast enough. He remembers Tim freezing, an expression of horror on his face...Â
The reality of what almost happened downs on him like a tornado. So far, he was in the eye of it, calm, not realizing that he almost got annihilated. So far, all he thought about was how he saved the great Superman from an imminent death threat. He didnât think of the consequences...but now ? He was swept away by the power of the tornado, swirled violently around by it, and understanding that he almost broke the heart of the people that counted the most for him.Â
His moms.Â
His uncle.Â
His cousins. Hell, even Damian looks quite shaken.Â
So this is why they didnât want to come with him to âcheckâ if there were any remnant of threat (they werenât for sure, he just wanted to double check because thatâs what Bruce taught him). He found it a bit odd at first but...they just needed time alone to process everything. They needed to calm down.Â
Thomas almost died, and his death would have shattered the entire family...This is why he found his moms cuddling so close. They just needed each others comfort. Their son was still alive, somewhere with his uncle and cousins (and with whom would they trust him more to hang out with ? You knew that with Bruce, Thomas would always be safe). They needed to come down from their feelings. To process things.Â
They almost lost their son. For real this time. He did put himself in danger before, but it was always by a long shot. While there ? He almost died.Â
And Thomas cursed himself for understanding all that only now, as his moms were clutching at him. Thomas cursed himself for his stubborness and insensitivity. Cursed himself for only thinking about him and what he wanted...
He hugged them back. And made a himself a promise.Â
He wasnât a child anymore.
It was time to stop acting like one.Â
It was time to be responsible, and to truly think more. Just like his mom and uncle Bruce taught him.Â
It was time to stop with the poor impulse control.Â
He wasnât a child anymore. He had to grow up, and to stop acting so fast. He couldnât always help it, after all, he was a lot like his mom, Diana. But it was time...Time to grow up. To truly grow up.Â
************
Laying in bed besides her, your legs tangled with hers, her hands in your hair, yours around her waist, her face nuzzled in your beautiful locks...You take a deep breath. And you can feel her smile.Â
Itâs early. Oh so early. But you both have to get up, lots of things to do.Â
But neither of you want to.Â
Diana kisses the crown of your head lovingly and your arms tighten around her. None of you want to stand up. To face reality.Â
Itâs not your jobs, or obligations or such that make you not wanna stand up. But the fact that...Your boy is gone.Â
Well, thatâs ominous sounding. Your boy moved out would be better.Â
Yesterday. He moved out to his own apartment. In Gotham at that. It wasnât that far but...still.Â
But you have to get up. And, lazily, you do. You both sit on your side of the bed, one hand still in each others, fingers locked. But you have to let go as you two stand up. Only for a moment though, as Diana is back at your side in no time, her arms around your shoulders, yours around her waist, as you walk toward the kitchen.Â
Thomas always thought it was cute and funny, how you wouldnât let go of each other until you both got your first cup of coffee...The thought of your son makes your heart tighten.Â
Itâs the end of an era. Your boy is all grown up.Â
âWhere is our child ?â was going to slowly disappear (which wasnât that bad really), as he was on living his own life and...Here.Â
Your child was here. Flying behind the kitchen window. In his superhero costume. Holding a bag.Â
You open the window and he comes in, explaining that he was just dropping bad and that he brought coffee and donuts and...You smile.Â
But of course.Â
Itâs not because he wasnât a child anymore, that he would stop being your child.
He would always come back to you, and you and Diana would always worry about him. From day one you worried. Hell, Diana even worried before he was born (oh remembering your doctors appointment was something...it was funny now, but at the moment, you would have killed her).Â
He wasnât a child anymore, but he was your child, forever.Â
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This is a complete mess. It doesnât make sense, itâs too fast and too slow at the same time. Sorry I made you wait so long for such a shitty story yo...I donât know whatâs wrong with me lately, I have such difficulties to write decent stories and uh. Just sorry. I tried...Might delete (for real this time) because this is a huge fail.Â
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Victor and Adam: NaNoWriMo Day 4
In fact the whole place seemed mismatched. Like someone had just found a bunch of furniture and decorations in a charity shop, bought the lot and said thatâll do.
âHey guyâs.â Chelsea called over waving franticly.
âAdamâs joining us.â Nate explained as he sat himself down in the teal chair. Chelseaâs grin widened.
âThatâs great.â Adam nodded and took a seat in the red chair. The three of them ordered their lunches, which came with a free dog biscuit for Bongo who was tied up outside. When Nate popped out to give him his treat Chelsea turned to Adam and said.
âSo any luck with solving your little mystery?â ve asked.
âWhat? Oh no not really. Iâve been busy. You know with school.â Chelsea rolled ver eyes.
âYou Adam Frankenstein are a certified nerd.â For a moment ve looked thoughtful before shrugging. âMust run in the family.â
âOh ha ha.â
âBut seriously how can you not think finding out more is more important than studying different types of rock.â
âActually weâre studying population growth at the moment.â Chelsea shook ver head.
âYou know what I mean.â
âYeah. But it doesnât matter. I didnât see who it was and I havenât seen anyone since. And Iâve been going to the ruins every chance I get. Thereâs been nothing.âÂ
âWhat are you two talking about?â Nate asked returned to the table.
âOh weâre just talking about Adamâs mystery man.â Nate rolled his eyes.
âI donât know why you two are still making a deal out of that. It was probably just some drunk dude who got lost.â
âWell he didnât sound drunk.â Adam muttered. Though truth be told he wasnât entirely sure what a drunk person sounded like.
âWell thereâs no point talking about it. Whoever it was clearly hasnât come back.â Nate reasoned taking a sip of his drink. Adam wanted to keep talking but Chelsea shot him a warning look so instead he turned to his salad.
âSo Adam whatâs your verdict on school? Now that youâve had a week to experience it.â Chelsea asked. Nate raised an eyebrow at ver.
âWhat Iâm just curious,â ne shrugged. For a moment Adam didnât speak. What did he think of school? He knew he didnât like English, words were hard, or history or religious studies. He liked maths, and he had mixed feelings about science. His dad had insisted he take all three sciences, but physics was the only one Adam felt he was any good at. He spent most of Art and IT messing around though he did like doing line sketches. Heâd been banned from using the pottery wheel after pressing so hard on the peddle it had broken. Then there was the people. Miss Nakajima was nice, as was his geography teacher and his physics teacher seemed to have picked him out as one of his favourites. His chemistry teacher didnât seem to like him but then again she seemed like the kind of person who hated kids in general. But the other teachers seemed to ignore him. Sometimes so much so he had taken to asking Nate or Chelsea or even Shreya in the two lessons they had together for help. He knew they were ignoring him because they would look right at him with his hand raised, and he wasnât exactly easy to overlook. Then there was Jouko who had decided he really didnât like Adam. He wasnât so bad in maths but everywhere elseâŚ
âItâs fine.â Adam eventually replied. âI like physics.â He added quickly. Chelsea scoffed.
âOf course you do. Youâre Mr Keenâs favourite. I mean Iâm surprised all the science teachers donât love you youâre a living experiment.â Adam shrugged.
âWell Iâm not a chemistry experiment which is probably why Mrs Newell doesnât like me.â He joked.
âHonestly I thought youâd be the exception for her.â Nate joked. âYou gonna eat those?â he added pointing to the small cubes of hard bread Adam had left at the bottom of his bowl. He shook his head and handed the bowl to Nate.
âThanks.â He began eating them one at a time. Chelsea rolled ver eyes at him but didnât look up from ver phone.
âSo Adam got any plans for the rest of the day? Cause Nate and I were going to the cinema. After Nateâs dropped Bongo back home of course.â Adam shook his head.
âNo I was just going to go home and⌠Well I hadnât decided what I was going to do next.â
âWell then come with us. In fact you can choose. I want to see a horror film. But Nate wants to see this new spy flick. Which one do you want to see?â Adam shrugged. The only films heâd seen so far were a few black and white comedies Igor liked and that film about a girl who found a magic door heâd found on tv one day.
âWe could flip a coin.â He suggested.
âSounds good to me,â Chelsea said pulling a coin from ver pocket. âHey Nate heads or tails?â
âUh heads?â Chelsea threw the coin in the air caught it and slammed it down on the back of her other hand.
âTails I win. Weâre watching my choice.â Nate sighed and stood up.
âFine. But we need to get going if Iâm going to drop Bongo off in time.â
***
It was decided that while Nate went home Chelsea and Adam would get the snacks for the cinema. They were trying to decide whether to get popcorn or crisps when out of the corner of his eye Adam noticed a woman standing not too far away glaring at him. At first he wondered if he knew her, but she didnât look familiar.
âCan we help you?â Chelsea called having looked round and also spotted the woman. The woman raised her eyebrow and scoffed.
âWell I donât know, are you withâŚâ She gestured to Adam. Chelsea and Adam exchanged glances neither sure what this lady was getting at.
âUh yeah.â Chelsea eventually replied. The lady gave her a smile that didnât look either friendly or happy.
âReally? All by yourself? Are you sure thatâs safe. I mean.â She dropped her voice to a loud whisper. âI donât think it should even be out in public.â For a moment the two of them just stared at her unsure what to say.
âUmm what?â Chelsea eventually asked laughing. âLady weâre just buying snacks.â ne turned to Adam. âDo you know her?â Adam shook his head. No he didnât know her. But he was used to strangers not liking him. But none of them had been as forward as this person.
âWell didnât you hear about what that thing did.â She sighed dramatically. âWhy that poor family I canât imagine the grief. Honestly that thing should have been destroyed. I mean all this nonsense aboutâŚâ She never got to finish her sentence because she was interrupted by Chelsea admitting an inhuman screech and giving her a hard shove.
âHow dare you!â ve screamed. âHow dare you speak about him like that. Adam is my friend. Not only that but heâs a human fucking being. A human child at that.â Ve spat. The woman was shaking with rage.
âThat thing is no human. Itâs a monster.â There was that word again. Monster. It rang in Adamâs ears like an alarm, repeating continuously long after it had been spoken. Adam didnât hear the rest of the argument. He didnât hear anything at all. All he could think was how he had to get out of there. Not really thinking about what he was doing he dropped the pack of coke cans heâd been holding and started walking towards the exit. Though walking was slow and difficult with his legs shaking so much. And the fact the world wouldnât stop spinning didnât help. In fact truth be told he felt a little bit nauseas. And were the bottoms of his trousers wet? When had that happened? Once heâd reached the doors he just kept walking not really sure where he was going. Was he going anywhere? He didnât even notice Chelsea calling his name and running after him until he almost stood on ver.
âOh sorry Chelsea.â Ve shook ver head.
âItâs fine. Are you okay?â Adam opened his mouth to speak but another wave of nausea hit him and he closed it again. Chelsea frowned looking concerned.
âHey donât listen to that bat. Okay? Sheâs an ass just looking to cause trouble.â Then ve reached out and tugged on his arm. âCome on letâs go find Nate.â But Adam just stood where he was.
âShe knew,â he muttered. âShe knew about⌠What I didâŚâ Chelsea frowned.
âAdam what are you talking about?â But he couldnât say it. No if he told nem the truth ne would see him no differently than that woman did. And then another thought hit him. How many other people knew? Did his teachers? Was that why they avoided him?
âI didnât mean to.â He whispered not realising he was speaking out loud.
âDidnât mean to what? Adam!?â but Adam ignore his friend instead walking away again.
âIâm going home. I. I donât feel well.â He hoped he sounded convincing. It wasnât quite a lie but he wasnât very experienced in telling half-truths. Chelsea raced to catch up with him.
âHey if you donât want to go see a film thatâs fine. Maybe we could go back to your place and hang there?â Adam stopped.
âAre you sure?â
âYeah. Look I canât just let one of my best friends go off alone when their upset without at least trying to cheer them up.â
âIâm one of your best friends? Youâve only known me a week.â Chelsea shrugged.
âHey itâs not like I have a lot of options.â This made Adam laugh. Just a little but it felt nice.
âSee Iâm exactly what you need when youâre feeling down.â
âOkay Iâll give Igor a call and tell him about the change of plans.â While they walked to the cinema where they were supposed to be meeting Nate Adam rang home. Igor picked up fairly quickly and seemed fine with the idea of having two surprise guests.
âMy my first Victor now you. We are popular today.â He chuckled.
âWait what do you mean first dad?â
âOh nothing. Just your father had an old school pal pop round for a chat while we were out.â
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Let Me Protect You Part 2 Chapter 6/?
Pairings: Chris Evans x OFC Emilia
Word Count: 1,118
Warnings: Mild Angst, Feelings of Worthlessness
Rating: PG-13
Summary: Now that Chris and Emilia have established their relationship, she moves into his house after her brother decides to live in New York. Emilia is in bliss, thinking maybe her life will finally be at peace. Â But are things always that easy in Emiliaâs life?
 The next morning, you woke up early, not being able to sleep; your mind in a constant panic over what the articles would say about you and Chris, specifically you.  Chris was still passed out, Dodger lying at his feet on the bed.  Smiling softly, you quietly get out of bed, grabbing your phone, and doing your morning duties in the bathroom.
Taking a seat on the couch, you pull up in the internet on your phone, and type in âChris Evansâ in the search bar. Â Dozens of articles appeared on the screen, many of them talking about your trip to Disneyland. Â Inwardly groaning, you decided to click on the TMZ article at the top. Â
Chris Evans And His New Girlfriend Spend The Day At Disneyland
It appears that our celebrity hero, Captain America himself Chris Evans spent the day at Disneyland yesterday, and he was not alone. Â Our sources say he was seen holding hands and canoodling who appeared to be the same woman who was seen with him in Boston over the holidays. Â No one has yet to figure out who his mystery lady is. Â
*His rep was not reached in time for a comment*
âOk, that wasnât so badâ you softly spoke aloud. Â Your heart rate increased speed as you saw just how many comments were left under the article. Â Internally battling, you didnât know what to do. Â Chris always told you not to bother reading comments or any news article about him that he hasnât given an interview for. Â He said they also warp things into sounding bad; and that the comments would most likely hurt. Â But you had to know; you had to know what people thought of you. Â You were dating someone in the spotlight. Â If this kept up for years, sooner or later, you would probably be attending shows and functions with Chris. Â
Taking a deep breath, holding it for a few seconds, you let it out as you pressed comments.
You regretted it instantly. Almost everything that was said hurt you; hurt you to your core. Â
THATâS the person heâs dating?
Sheâs not even pretty.
She doesnât look good enough for him.
He could do so much better.
Sheâs actually pretty. Â Good for him.
It wouldnât hurt her to shed a few pounds.
Leave her alone guys, let them enjoy their time together.
Minka was way better. Â He needs to go back to her.
Where did he find this chick?
He deserves better! Â
Your heart shattered as you read down the list of comments. Â Most of them hated you. Â Is this how Chris felt about you too? Â Did he really love you, or was him dating you just a charity case? Â Tears streamed down your face as you quietly sobbed, not wanting to wake up Chris, or for him to know that you read these articles. Â
Closing out your phone, you threw it onto the couch beside you.  You felt completely worthless.  Worthless of Chrisâ love, of anybodyâs love.  Everyone was right, he deserved so much better than you.  But you had nowhere to go.  No, you would stick this out until he was the one to ultimately end things; which you were positive he would at some point.  Maybe you could move back home, or even go to New York. Eric would take you in againâŚright?
The toilet flushing broke you from your thoughts as you quickly dried your tear stained face. Dodger came padding down the stairs and straight for you, giving you kisses on your face. Â You giggled at him; Dodger always knew how to make you feel better. It was just a gift that dogs had.
Chris came down the stairs and spotted you right away. Â He padded over to you and you smiled when you saw him. Â Even with bed hair and just waking up, he was still the most perfect man you had ever witnessed in your life; and for now, and who knows how much longer, he was yours. Â
He bent down to give you a kiss, âYouâre up earlyâ he stated. Â Shrugging back, âYeah, couldnât sleep.â
âEverything alright?â he asked you, his eyes showing concern. Â You smile back, showing him you were fine. Â âYes Chris, everything is great.â
âGlad to hear. Â So I have a meeting this afternoon with my agent. Shouldnât take too longâ he said while he made his way to the kitchen for his morning cup of coffee. Â
Perfect! Â That gave you time to run out and get his Valentineâs Day present seeing as it was tomorrow and only one thing came to mind.
As Chris left for his meeting with his agent, you got into your Jeep and went to the best lingerie shop in the city. Â
You felt really out of place as you walked into the shop; everyone looked like runway models there! And here you were, in your frumpy t-shirt and ripped jeans. Â You ambled around the shop until you found the perfect set! Â It was a babydoll top in a navy blue color; the bodice was full lace. After trying it on, you knew it was the one. Â The bottom barely covered your ass and it came with a thong. Â Since Chris was an ass-man, you knew his tongue would roll out just looking at it. Â
You needed to amp up your game, and go even further. Â The paranoia was really sinking in that one day Chris would leave you for someone prettier, someone more beautiful, someone normal.
~~~
âDo you really think we need to go public with this? Already?â Chris asked as he sat across the desk from his agent. Â âYouâve already been seen with her in public back home in Boston, and now at Disneyland. My phone is ringing off the hook wanting to know who you are dating. Â Itâs totally up to you if you want to go public with your relationship. Iâm just giving you advice hereâ his agent replied sternly. Â
âYeah, umm, alright. Iâll talk to her this weekend sometimeâ Chris stated, letting out a frustrated sigh. Â He knew at some point he would need to take your relationship public, but not this soon. Â Sometimes he went a full year before being able to go public. Â He liked his private life, and he definitely didnât want to overwhelm you so soon. Â Things seemed a bit off with you lately and he wanted to get to the bottom of it before going public. Â He wasnât embarrassed or anything by you, not by a long shot. Â He loved you with every fiber of his body; he never felt this way about anyone before. Â All he wanted to do was protect you from the cruel world he knew was out there. Â
A/N: Iâm SO sorry that was a short chapter guys! Â I will make it up to you in the next couple, I promise!!!
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Amor Vincit Omnia ( Yoongi/Oc)
Chapter 9.
About a week after he was shot, Yoongi and I fell into a sort of routine. I learned to stay away from him when he was working and he pretty much left me alone. He wasn't a cranky patient , instead he did his best to help me out when he could. i assumed he must've had a word with Hye Mi because she did not call him or come home again. It wasn't really my business anyway, or so I told myself. The hurt was still there and I did feel a bit resentful, doing everything for him, knowing all his affections lay with the other woman. But then, my work on the pottery studio kept me busy as well so I didn't think too much about it. whatever it was between us, it worked better when we did not talk to each other.
about ten days later, the doctor visited us at the penthouse and gave Yoongi a clean bill of health . He also got rid of his sling and my husband was ecstatic.
"The timing is perfect. Jimin and Taehyung just got back from the Milan Fashion Week and they're throwing a charity event tonight. Jimin said he'd drop by later to see you guys." Seokjin grinned. He had tagged along with the doctor, to get the final documents for the studio signed.
I waited, wondering if Yoongi would be able to sign the papers without hurting his hand when he casually flipped through the pages, nodded and then slid them across the table to me.
"I..Me?" I squeaked.
He raised an eyebrow.
"It is your studio." He said simply.
I stared at the file in trembling disbelief, my heart stopping when I noticed that the deed had been made to my name. It took me a moment to realize that his name really wasn't mentioned anywhere. Even if we were to break-up or ...anything, I would still own the studio.
He must've seen the look of utter panic on my face, because he stood up and walked over to me, lightly touching my shoulder.
"Don't over think it. Just sign." His voice was soothing and I picked up the pen with trembling hands, inking my signature shakily. I glanced at him and he gave me one of his rare, genuine smiles.
And I was lost.
"Well, that's done , then. We can probably start setting up the studio from tomorrow. I'll pick you up in the evening, Ji Soo?" Seokjin smiled and I nodded.
Once he left, I stood for a few minutes, just steadying my breath. Yoongi was back in his study and I went and stood near the door, nervously shifting from foot to foot. I didn't know what to say but it seemed very awful not to say anything to a man who had literally just dropped a few million dollars on my head.
"Is something wrong?" He asked briskly, without looking up from the computer. I jumped a little.
"Uh. No. I..Just... What would you like for dinner?" I said stupidly.
He looked up from the computer.
"Didn't you hear Seokjin? We're going out for Jimin and Taehyng's Charity event tonight.... " He frowned and I mentally kicked myself.
Just say, thank you for doing this for me, I screamed internally but my tongue really wouldn't function.
Finally I flushed and bowed awkwardly and shuffled out of the place quickly.
What the hell was wrong with me?!!
"Ji Soo..." His voice nearly knocked me down and I all but ran back to the door.
"Yeah?" I said breathlessly.
He looked a little awkward as he rubbed the back of his head and stood up. I watched him as he moved to one of the oak cupboards in the corner and pulled out a couple of boxes.
"These are just stuff that ...well....stuff I bought for your studio. You don't really have to use them..but if you like..you can..." He shrugged and I stood there slightly slack jawed.
"Thank you..I'm..I mean.. Thank you so much. For everything." I said keeping my eyes fixed right on him but he looked away at once.
"It's nothing... Just... Do a good job. " He shrugged and went back to the computer.
It was a silent dismissal and I slowly went back to our bedroom. I wanted to open the package and see it at once, but my heart was pounding too much, there was sweat gathering in my forehead and good God, I was genuinely in trouble.
I couldn't start having feelings for  my husband , i really couldn't. it would be emotional suicide of the worst sort.
After a few calming breaths, I made to open the gift boxes when the door bell rang.
Damn it!!
But I slid the boxes into my cupboard , fixed my hair and went to the door, Â smiling when i found a grinning Park Jimin and Kim Taehyung, looking tired but hyper as always.
They carried huge boxes and I laughed when Taehyung grabbed me around the waist , lightly tossing me around . He was very physical in his affections and while it had freaked me out considerably at first, I was pretty much used to it right now.
Jimin gave me one of his airy-fairy kisses and looked me up and down critically.
"i think..I got your size right. But it's best if you try this on right now..." He said swiftly, thrusting a box into my hand.
"What is this?" I said surprised.
"Only the most expensive couture dress in Seoul.." Taehyung laughed and then he waved." Hi Yoongi hyung..." He said cheerfully and I felt sudden heat on my back when I realized Yoongi was standing right behind me. Very close. Too close. I could lean an inch back and would hit his chest.
So of course I leaned forward and edged away.
"It's..expensive?" I looked at Yoongi in confusion and he shrugged.
"Jimin gifts us clothes for his Charity every year. It's a sort of a tradition. Did you get me the Dior Suit i asked you for?" Yoongi said casually and Jimin grinned, handing the box over to Yoongi.
"One of a kind and expensive as hell. Just like you hyung." He winked and Yoongi rolled his eyes.
"You should try the dress on , right now...Here, look at it." Taehyung led me to the couch and slowly took the dress out of the box . I stared at it in genuine admiration. It was Gorgeous, a champagne colored gown with a cowl neckline and capped sleeves, the fabric shimmery like water rippling in sunlight. But my heart clenched when I saw the thigh high slit. I couldn't wear something that showed my thighs.
Or more specifically, the scars on my thighs.
I bit my lips, not sure what to do, when Yoongi stepped in casually.
"The color won't go with my suit, will it? Besides , she doesn't really wear short dresses. Â Get her something else. Did you bring your portfolio?" He said swiftly. Jimin frowned but pulled out a tab and handed it to Yoongi.
Yoongi immediately passed it on to me and both Taehyung and Jimin exchanged looks. Â
"Pick one of these, then." He said impatiently turning away to take his box back into the bedroom.
"Wow. It's rare, seeing Yoongi hyung like this..." Jimin said and chuckled.
"Like what? " I said confusedly and they both shook their head.
Well, okay then.
I flicked through the gowns and finally chose another champagne colored gown with an empire waistline and a beaded bodice. The dress sparkled prettily and Jimin smiled.
"One of my favorites. I'll have it sent to you in an hour or so. By the way, I'll also send in my stylist. You guys need to look your best tonight. " He winked.
"You look fine. Come out fast!" Yoongi's voice was impatient from the other side of our bedroom and i looked pleadingly at the stylist , who was adding the last few touches to my make-up.
"Almost done, Mrs. Min." She said nervously and I stared at myself in the mirror. I'm pretty sure I'd never looked prettier, including the day I got married. But Jimin's stylist was a perfectionist and she pretty much wanted fix every micro-mini flaw ( real and imagined ) in my face.
I wasn't complaining. I'd always liked dressing up.
The knot in my stomach was for quite a different reason.
The last time we'd gone out, Yoongi had pretty much abandoned me in the crowd. I'd ended up assaulted by that guy..( Wu Yifan?) . Of course, Yoongi still didn't know that had happened, but i couldn't help worry he might do it again. Leave me flailing in a sea full of unfamiliar faces.
"Two minutes or I'm leaving without you..." He snapped.
The stylist laughed and I stared at her in disbelief.
"You're laughing? He's furious." I whispered.
She shook her head.
"Oh, all husbands are the same. He's just behaving the way any husband would."
That made me genuinely pause. Yoongi wasn't really my husband though was he?
When I finally stepped out , i had a momentary disconnect from my body as i stared at him.
Min Yoongi in a suit looked like something straight out of one of my pre-marriage fantasies. My throat went dry as I stared at him. He gave me barely more than a cursory glance before moving to the door and holding it open for me.
"Hurry up, the Chauffeurs' waiting."
I followed him, only stumbling a little on the soft carpet. He gave me a glance but didn't offer an arm . Once we got into the car and started , I couldn't keep in the question that had been bothering me for a really long time.
"How did...How did you know I didn't wear short dresses?" I said nervously. He gave me a look and sighed.
He didn't reply for a while.
Finally, just when I gave up waiting for him to answer ,
"The night I brought you home from the hospital, I had to... change you into your clothes. I... I noticed some of the scars on your legs." He stared out of the window, voice rough.
I blushed and sank into the seat, feeling horribly, horribly embarrassed. I could tell that I'd made him very uncomfortable as well. Â
"I'm very sorry about all of that." I said stiltedly.
He turned to give me a look.
"I'm sorry too. " He said softly.
"You don't have to be-"
"Sorry that I can't kill your father all over again. "
And that was that. He didn't say anything else for the rest of the ride, answering my questions with just hums.
When we reached the hotel, I couldn't help but stare. It was the most expensive place in all of Seoul and I went a little dizzy staring at the elaborate decorations, quadrillion stalls and buffets and souvenir shops. There were ballot booths up on the entrance and suddenly, my curiosity couldn't be contained. I'd never been to a place with so many different booths and attractions. As I watched, a couple used some of the props to take pictures of themselves. They looked so much in love, the lady laughing as she leaned into her husband's embrace while he kissed the top of her head
"I... can't we go see those?" I said pleadingly and Yoongi gave me a look of disbelief.
"Do you even know what my reputation is? That's for teenage girls in pink. Keep quiet and follow me." He snapped. I sobered up at once, regretting my momentary loss of composure. He was right. He was the CEO of Bangtan, not a teenager out on a date with his ditzy girlfriend.
But suddenly, I wondered how it may have been if I'd met him when we were both teenagers. My heart ached a bit. No doubt I would have fallen in love with him and no doubt he would have thought me a nuisance. Not very different from the present really.
The ball room where the Event was taking place was massive, filled with people dressed to the nines.
"everyone wants a piece of Bangtan.." Namjoon commented bitterly, offering me a glass of champagne. " hi guys..This is Mia. Mia, This is Yoon Gi and his lovely wife Ji Soo."
A bored looking female hung on to his arm, giving my husband a lingering glance when he smiled at her politely. I stepped a bit closer to him, rather childishly. I almost glared at her but managed to arrange my features in a smile.
"Hi." I said politely but she looked right over me.
Namjoon took my hand and placed it on his arm before dropping a friendly kiss on my cheek.
"You look breathtaking by the way, Ji soo. Â Yoongi is going to have a hard time fighting guys off tonight." Nam Joon grinned.
Yoongi looked pissed.
"I just saw that you've included her name in the Date for the Night auction. Do you want to die?" He hissed. Nam Joon rolled his eyes.
"Don't worry boss, I'll buy her myself." He winked at me and I felt foreboding rise inside me.
"You better. Tell the rest of them too. If someone else comes near her, I'll shoot you down, you bastard." Yoongi said coldly. Nam Joon's smile faltered for a second.
"Fine. fine. Ji Soo, why don't you come with me, I'll show you around the place. Yoongi could you take Mia out for some lemonade, there's a stand outside."
I wanted to protest something fierce when my husband moved out of my arms and took Mia's hand, the latter looking like she'd won a lottery. But all i could do was smile numbly when Yoongi gave me a curt nod and left without a backward glance.
By all logic, I should be glad. I had wanted to look around the place, after all. But i couldn't keep the bitter feeling of disappointment out of my mind. I would have liked it better if I'd done the exploring with my husband.
"Stop looking so upset. I'm hurt." Namjoon said with a half smile and I immediately straightened, regretfully. I was being rude.
"Thank you so much. I was actually really looking forward to seeing all these booths. They look fascinating." I smiled genuinely and his face lights up.
"your wish is my command. And you're right. Jimin's really out-done himself this time. Him and Taehyung planned the whole thing. " He sounded like a proud father and i grinned at him.
"it's amazing. Where are they by the way?"
" busy with some last minute things, don't worry. They'll meet up with us later. You want to try shooting some hoops?" He grinned back.
"What's that?" I asked confused.
He looked at me with disbelief.
"This won't do. Come along." He took my wrists lightly and led me to the nearest booth.
An hour later I was completely exhausted from laughing and walking around, Namjoon's witty banter keeping me in splits most of the time. He was incredibly polite and friendly and any of the awkwardness I may have felt for him was completely gone. We took photos with ornate masks and had our names engraved in little grains of rice, later framed in a small liquid filled jar.
I got one made for Yoongi with the words "For better or for worse" in a black framed container. Namjoon didn't bat an eyelash and paid for it all, ignoring my protests.
"Don't worry about the money. I'll collect from Yoongi later. Or you could repay me with a free pottery class, when you can." He winked and I laughed. After picking out a couple of stuffed toys at one of those toy machines, I spotted a mom with two toddlers near the lawn and handed the dolls to the kids. They seemed pretty happy and I felt an awful sort of longing as I stared at the babies.
We were stopped as music began from the inside. Â Namjoon glanced at his watch and indicated that we should get back inside.
As I stepped into the ballroom however , there was a roar of sound. i blinked, catching sight of Yoongi in the distance. Mia was still hanging on to his arm and there was bit of a commotion up front.
"What's going on?" I said nervously.
"Oh..it's called the date for the night auction. Don't worry, Ji Soo. You'll just have to stand there with the rest of the ladies who've been nominated. Once your turn comes one of us will make a contribution to Jimin's charity in return for which you'd have to spend the evening with us. I'm sorry but the last girl we chose was such a pian in the neck and we're always expected to choose one. i thought it would be fun if we got to choose you. At least we like you." He said with a little smile and I felt horribly nervous.
"I just have to stand there right?" I said nervously.
There turned out to be a raised platform on the stage in front , occupied by seven other women all looking incredibly beautiful. I just stood there, feeling like an idiot as cameras rolled all around us. All the guests sat around round tables with elaborate flower arrangements and the men were cheering enthusiastically. Â My nerves began to splinter, ugly flashbacks of my debutante ball surfacing as I tried to look for a familiar face in the crowd.
It wasn't hard, Yoongi and rest of Bangtan were sitting right up front . My husband stared straight ahead, a look of stone displeasure on his face and i realized he really didn't want me up here. No doubt he was afraid I'd embarass him somehow. Biting my lips in worry I tried to smile.
Suddenly, Jimin's voice came from the left of the podium and I watched d as he grabbed a microphone greeting everyone enthusiastically.
"Thank you so much, everyone for making it tonight. there's wine, there's beauty and there's plenty of love in the air. Tonight is a night to indulge but let's not forget to do our bit for the world. With that being said, the Date for the night auction will begin shortly. Men, keep your wallets open, contribute to a good cause and in return have the chance to wine and dine with one of the lovely young ladies we have here tongiht. to make things interesting, as the organizers , Â Bangtan will be withdrawing from the auction..." There was a collective roar of approval .
But my heart dropped to my knees.
I glanced at my husband who looked like he'd taken a punch to his gut.
"So all you wonderful guys, you can have your pick of the..." Jimin stopped , hesitating when he caught sight of me on the podium and he immediately glanced back at Yoongi, clearly wondering why I was up there. Namjoon looked pale as parchment while a Seokjin , Jung Kook and Hoseok glanced at Yoongi uncomfortably, as though waiting for him to explode. My husband didn't, his only change in demeanor indicated by the way he was drumming his fingers against his knees.
It was a relatively tame affair, with each woman being picked out after one or two bids.
When my name got called, however there was a definite change in the air. Or maybe I was just being paranoid.
"Opening bid...30,000,000 Won." Jimin read in confusion and I could see his eyes widen in genuine disbelief. That was a lot of money. " To Mr. Kwon Ji Young. " He finished .
I felt my body begin to tremble in genuine nervousness. I didn't want to do this. Â I wanted to run off the stage.
I stared beseechingly at my husband who sighed and ran a hand over his face. He nodded his head determinedly and then said something to Jung Kook who immediately nodded and disappeared into the crowd. Yoongi turned back to me and gave a small thumbs up.
It's okay, Â he mouthed and I tried to relax. He was here. Of course he was here. No one could hurt me. He was right here, I tried to tell myself. But my hands wouldn't stop shaking.
"50,000,000 Won. Wu Yifan ." Came another voice from the crowd suddenly and I flinched at the scarily familiar tone.
Wu Yifan.
I couldn't stand here, I thought in desperation. i had to get off before I vomited all over the podium. I didn't want to stand somewhere anyone could see me. I wanted to hide. I glanced at Yoongi again and he held his fingers up, pointing them in a V at his eye.
Look at me, nowhere else.
I nodded, my throat dry as I struggled to gain my composure. He smiled then, an odd smile that transformed his face. No anger, no disappointment. Just Him. I bit my lower lip as I continued to stare at him and he grinned wider
I'm here, he mouthed.
I nodded lightly.
Don't worry, he mouthed again.
"60,000,000 Won. To Kang Dae Sung ." A voice came out.
Afterwards, I tuned out everything else, didn't even bother listening. I kept staring at Yoongi while he looked back at me.
It was the most profound moment of my life, the way he looked at me. I stared at him and suddenly i knew, without a doubt that this was the man I was going to think of for the rest of my life anytime someone said the phrase ' that special someone '.
Maybe I didn't Know  him completely now, but I was going to . I knew without a doubt that I was going to let him hurt me, because that was what he did . I was going to let him shatter my heart to smithereens because how else did stories like this end?
i stared at him and he really didn't look away. It amazed me. A few months ago we were strangers . But now..now.. I had a house. A family, i thought fondly, looking around at the seven rich and successful men who were so humble , loyal and friendly. Maybe he didn't like me as much as I liked him but he didn't hate me. Â
His handsome face broke into a little laugh and he shook his head fondly and slowly , i felt the nervousness seep out of me. I found myself smiling back.
He really didn't hate me.
Why else would he be helping a wife who had a million hang-ups about a zillion things. He could've ignored me now. No one would blame him. i wasn't the only woman here. He could have thought, ' let her deal with it' but he didn't. He was holding my gaze, offering me comfort with just that steady firm look of his.
Offering me comfort the way he knew to.
Oh, God...I was going to fall in love with him and destroy myself in the process, I thought helplessly.
And there was nothing anyone could do to stop it.
"And at a whopping 250,000,000 Won, to Mr. Kwon Jiyong for the night. Mrs. Min Ji Soo."
Someone came to escort me off the stage and and I stepped down without a word. A second later a slim man in an expensive suit took my hand and walked me over to his table. I glanced helplessly at Yoongi but he was smiling.
"Don't worry Mrs. Min. I'll take you back to your husband in just a minute. I was just doing him a favor. You'll be in safe hands till then." Ji Young said politely and I nodded gratefully. It suddenly made sense. Yoongi had asked Ji Young to bid on me in his place. Relief flooded through me and I relaxed completely. Ji Young introduced me to his wife, Dara and his friends.
Once the auction came to an end, everyone began to move and I glanced up to find Yoongi grinning down at me. He reached out and to my utter surprise, wrapped his fingers with mine and yanked me close, arm coming around me in natural intimacy. My brain stopped functioning at the proximity, the way his scent clouded my senses and made my stomach clench. Heat began pooling in the pit of my stomach, a very pronounced cramp. It was such a new and unfamiliar feeling I couldn't think straight.
To make matters worse, he pulled me closer till my shoulder brushed the soft fabric of his shirt, and he bent down till his breath touched the edge of my ear, warm and soft.
"You looked like we were selling you off to a prostitution ring or something." He whispered , sounding very amused. There was laughter in his voice and I felt my heart clench. I'd never heard him laughing. It was the most beautiful thing on the planet.
the rest of the night went pretty much uneventfully. But I couldn't help but fall in love , not just with my husband but with the rest of them as well.
Taehyung and his endless energy, Jimin and his sassy back talk that his hyungs put up with. Jung Kook who behaved like the oldest and not the youngest and Hobi's way of turning the simplest thing into a laugh-fest. Seok-jin, Nam Joon and Yoongi were the patient ones, grounded and generally moderating their rowdy friends before they went overboard.
Together, lounging in their expensive coats and suits, flashy watches and that air of power practically oozing out of them , it suddenly made sense that these guys were the most sought after men in Korea.
and I was married to the grumpiest of them.
I'm pretty sure that shouldn't have brought a smile to my face.
But that's exactly what it did.
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A Saving Grace, Chapter 4
TITLE: A Saving Grace
CHAPTER NUMBER: 4/? + Prologue
AUTHOR: Losille2000
WHICH Henry/CHARACTER: Actor!Henry
GENRE: Drama/Romance
FIC SUMMARY: All press is good press, right? Not if you ask Henry Cavill. After recordings from a disastrous interview go viral, Henryâs life begins to crumble around him. He has no idea how to stop it from happening. Fortunately, he has a new assistant who could be his saving Grace.
RATING: M (sex, language)
WARNINGS: None yet.
AUTHORS NOTES: Enjoy!
Chapters: Prologue - 1 - 2Â - 3 . Also on AO3!
Chapter 4
After the tour of Henryâs palatial house, Kal following close at their heels, they ended up in the office to concentrate on some real work. Grace was still unsure as to what she needed to do, but was grateful to find that she had her own desk in the large room, off in a quiet corner. Henryâs desk sat in the middle, one of those huge oak desks with intricate carvings that probably cost more than her car. Okay, maybe that wasnât hard. Her car was a piece of shit and in the shop again, hence being reduced to an Uber ride from her next-door neighbor. Still, it was impressively sized, the offhanded comment that he was compensating for something playing at her lips.
She carefully reined in the urge to put a voice to it. Instead, and probably more troublesome, she thought frivolously about how it was one of those big, sturdy desks perfect for fucking if he were so inclined. But she wasnât going to put a voice to that, either. In fact, she was going to completely forget about it and shove the thought out of her head, as unacceptable as it was.
Henry sat down in the chair behind his desk like it was a velvet-cushioned throne covered in gold gilt. It took him several seconds to find a comfortable position before he eventually focused on the computer sitting in the center. The top workspace of the desk was tidy and sparsely decorated: a few notepads, a cup containing pens and pencils, and a landline telephone. A tray for mail and other documents as needed sat at the right corner. Very much a business setup, but also with a lot of unused space. This puzzled her; he didnât seem like such a minimalist. No man who spent his free time on women and clubs and luxury to excess was a man who kept a regimented and sparing workspace.
Unless sheâd got him all wrong from the outset.
She didnât know what to make of him, honestly, especially after their little conversation-slash-argument. Ultimately, sheâd wanted to poke at him. Test his weaknesses where the subject of his problems were concerned, to get some sort of baseline to anticipate how he might react in future public situations if someone mentioned it, as they were sure to do. The story was getting old; the press wanted fresh blood in the water. Theyâd try anything to get a rise out of him to sell more magazines and get more website hits.
She hadnât intended to let her personal opinions mix into the discussion and let it become as heated as it did. Worse yet was that she couldnât really find it in herself to totally condemn him now that sheâd spoken with him. Before, itâd seemed so clear cut. Sheâd been able to put him in a box with Dave. Meeting him, feeling him out, watching his body language, had humanized him in such a way that she had not been prepared for it.
Yes, sure, what heâd said in that damned recording was horrible, but his reasoning and explanation? She almost understood him. That, more than anything, was the cause for her initial ire. Working for Dave, and what Henry had insinuated, was a sore spot. But she also understood Henryâs yearning for a woman who met him halfway in a relationship.
After all, thatâs all she wanted from a guy, too. Hadnât she just gone off on the straight male species the previous afternoon, after her last breakup email? None of those idiots ever met her halfway, in the way she wanted them to. She gave and gave only to never reach equality in the relationship. The only difference was that she didnât have cameras and recorders shoved in her face to catch her inevitable meltdown and spread it across the globe.
So, despite her better judgement, Grace found herself begrudgingly accepting of her new boss. He deserved a second chance as much as anyone else, right? It pissed her off. She didnât want to accept him, and it was very clear he didnât want to accept her, considering the way he warily glanced in her direction, but at least theyâd reached an impasse.
âWhat?â he asked, an errant curl falling across his forehead. He flicked it to the side with his fingers. They were long and thick, like the rest of him.
âI apologize for earlier,â she said softly and turned to the laptop Dany had mentioned earlier. She flipped the lid up and hit the power button. âIâve been working for Dave too long and I automatically think every guy I work for will be the same.â
Henry huffed. âI didnât exactly give you the best impression of me outside, or with what I said a little bit ago. Itâs my fault, really. I mean, youâre here for that reason. My mouth gets me in trouble.â
Grace nodded, and looked over her shoulder at him. âI just need you to be aware that I will not hesitate to call you out in the future. Â I really want you to prove me wrongâhell, I want you to prove the world wrong.â
âI look forward to it.â He tried to hide it, but she saw the twitch at the corner of his mouth that threatened to turn up into a smile.
Grace spent the next half hour in the silent office familiarizing herself with the set up left by his previous assistant, ran through most of the emails in the inbox, and then returned to her own work laptop for any pressing matters. Â The first thing to arrive was a notice that Henry had a new engagement in a week at a charity ball for the National Coalition Against Domestic Violence. In Atlanta.
Grace groaned. For the first engagement after something like Henryâs fuck up, it seemed a little heavy. In fact, it would be incredibly difficult for him to show his face there with no cushion of some positive press prior to it. These people were going to eat him alive, or they were going to completely forget about the recording. She hoped it was the latter, for everyoneâs sake.
âDid you see theââ she began, but paused when she glanced back at him.
âYes.â His jaw clenched, the word spoken tersely. âIâm all for it, but it seems like a lot after theyâve kept me under lock and key for so long now.â
She agreed. Then she lied to make him feel better. âI donât think itâll be too bad. You just show your face, do the photo op, write a check at the auction. Besides, you might be sexist, but I donât get the abusive vibe from you.â
He guffawed. âThatâs something, I guess.â
âSorry, I justââ She bit her lip. She really had to watch herself now; sitting behind a computer monitor on social media the last five years had made her feral when dealing in real person-to-person relationships. Maybe that was why she found it so difficult to like him? âYeah, Iâll just shut up.â
Henry chuckled. It was a surprisingly nice, deep rumbling. âItâs also a masquerade, so if things go dodgy, I can always cover my face and no one will recognize me.â
Grace frowned and scanned his hopeful face, dropping her eyes to his broad shoulders and chest. The simple cotton t-shirt strained against the muscles contained within it. âYeah, I donât think a mask will be much help.â
A single brow rose in a suggestive arch. âAre you checking me out?â
She shook her head as she turned back to her computer. âIf I were checking you out, youâd know it.â
âRight.â
So why was her face blazing hot with a blush? Grace grumbled under her breath and clicked angrily at the web browser to open the correct link to secure plane tickets for the trip. âHow long would you like to stay in Atlanta? In and out? You have a radio interview the morning of the ball, but nothing else scheduled.â
âLetâs fly in the day before, come back the day after,â he said. âSince Iâve got the time.â
Grace pressed her lips together, dying to question him about the note of frustration sheâd heard in his tone about having free time. Instead, she asked, âPrivate or commercial?â
âCommercial,â he said. âAnd Iâm leaving Kal at home, so youâll need to make those pet hotel reservations.â
Kal popped his head up from the large memory foam dog bed in the opposite corner of the room. Grace laughed. âI never knew a dog could look so dejected.â
Henry huffed. âHeâll be fine.â
âWill his master be fine?â
âWhy do you ask that?â
Grace again turned in her chair and held up Henryâs information booklet. She wanted to know what she was dealing with emotionally that he kept Kal certified as an ESA. âIt says heâsââ
Henry cleared his throat and trained his eyes on his computer, trying too hard to not get invested in the conversation, and in the process lasered in on whatever had come across the screen with a scowl. âHeâs both, but itâs not flying I need him for. Sometimes itâs just nice to have company on long shoots where you donât know anyone.â
âBecause no one could ever make new friends.â
His shoulders tensed, his face becoming slack and impassive, almost as though heâd checked out for a minute, as though he were having a memory of something. Finally, he seemed to animate again and said, âYou know, itâs not as easy for some as it is for others.â
Grace didnât say anything. It was a sore subject, clearly, and she wasnât going to get anywhere with their working relationship if she continued to harp on it. In fact, she guessed he didnât really need to explain anything. She already understood the reason for her assignment to him, and it was that his social anxiety manifested itself in a myriad of ways.
When theyâd met outside, she instinctually paid attention to Kal first, simply because she adored dogs and she thought it would be a good ice breaker. Now she understood that Henry probably used him, at least in a few instances, to ease the awkwardness of new acquaintances. It gave two people something to talk about for a bit, that could flow into a normal conversation. Even so, it was still strange to look at the man sitting so kingly behind his desk and know that, on the inside, he was just a bundle of awkward nerves.
Honestly, the fact that he didnât have it all together made him a little more relatable. At least he was human; a human who made stupid comments in public settings, sure, but still redeemable. She wondered why Dave didnât think about going with that angle for Henryâs new publicity plan. Introverts and socially awkward keyboard jockeys everywhere would love a role model to show the world that foot-in-mouth disease was a real affliction plaguing even the most successful and handsome of men.
âYouâre sure you donât want him to come?â
âWhy? Iâll have you.â
âAm I a friend, then?â Grace asked.
âNo, youâre my employee that I can use and abuse,â he said.
She tossed the book back on her desk and stood up, smoothing her blouse over her stomach. âIn that case, Iâm taking my mandated fifteen-minute break and getting some coffee. Do you want some?â
âAre you any good at brewing it?â
âUsually I let the percolator do that,â she quipped. âBut my hand has been known to slip on occasion and add a few extra scoops.â
His grimace made her laugh.
âDonât like strong, bitter coffee?â
âI come from the land of tea, love,â he replied, his voice dripping in a much-pronounced accent. The curl on the top his head fell back across his forehead.
Grace gagged. âUgh, I hate that stuff. Just go for the fully leaded experience! Quit wasting your time with leaf flavored milk water.â She added a visceral shudder for good measure. âAnd just so you know, this conversation is not part of my break. Because Iâm still dealing with my slave-driver of a boss.â
His face lit up in a bright smile. Really, despite the initial awkwardness between themâmeeting outside, and then the brief argument earlierâhe already seemed to be much more at ease. Maybe his social problems werenât as severe as some, but they were still deep-seated if they continued to bother him at thirty-four.
She wondered if, perhaps, he didnât need a psychologist more than he needed a publicist.
Henry stood from his seat and moved around the desk. Grace frowned at him. âWhat do you think youâre doing?â
âIâm going to supervise,â he said. âThatâs my job.â
âItâs coffee, not rocket science,â she replied. âIf you want coffee, Iâll be good and give you some weak ass coffee.â
He shook his head and brushed right past her out the door of the office. She stood still watching his swiftly moving ass, shaking her head. Maybe the next few months wouldnât be that bad after all, now that he seemed to be loosening him up. And that ass, man. She felt certain of her ability to bounce a quarter off its flexed surface.
Rolling her eyes at herself, she pushed those thoughts down. But even as she tried to do that, he paused briefly as he turned a corner down another hall, glancing back in her direction. He must have caught the look on her face and the position of her trained eyes, because he laughed a dangerous, deep laugh.
Okay, that time, sheâd been checking him out.
 Henry had whiplash.
One minute they were arguing with each other, and two hours later theyâre laughing with each other over coffee. Oh, and she started checking him out, trying to be sly about it, but he caught that appreciative female twinkle in her eyes more than once. She could try to deny it all she wanted, but he wasnât an idiot. Nor was he immune to an attractive woman eyeing him up.
Theyâd only just met that morning and he still wasnât sure what she thought about him. Though he knew a great deal of physical attraction to someone rested in the intellectualâwhether they particularly liked each other or notâa person could still objectively find someone else physically pleasing. She might hate him for all he knew, and simply found herself transfixed because she was human and could appreciate a nice body. The incredibly confusing problem was that he didnât get the objective feeling from her, as though she were a scientist clinically considering is attributes. There was heat there, in her gaze, when heâd turned back and caught her staring at his arse.
Had her ire earlier all been for show, to test him?
Not that it mattered anyway, one way or another, about what she thought of him. She was his employee. De facto, yes, but his employee for the foreseeable future all the same. Most importantly, if he allowed himself the opportunity to consider her in the same way, he was, in a way, proving her and everyone else right. What could be the most sexist thing a man in a position of power could do? Oh, yeah, hit on his assistant. Talk about devaluing someone. He refused to allow himself the pleasure of considering her in any way but professional. It would save them all a lot of heartache down the road.
Besides that, he couldnât trust himself. After months of imprisonment in his house, mostly away from the general public and female companionship, he had no way to gauge whether his mutual attractionâpurely physical, mindâwas due to lack of options or borne out of a real interest. He wasnât about to ruin what was left of his dignity on something like this when he had so little to go off of.
Still, though, he found himself watching out of the corner of his eye as she moved around his spacious kitchen. Theyâd both agreed to disagree on the coffee, and he set a pot to brew while she rummaged around the refrigerator looking for lunch options. She didnât seem satisfied with anything, and her perusal stretched on and on while they drank their coffee. Finally, she stepped back, her hand on the refrigerator door, and stood up to look at him.
âYou have the most well-stocked fridge of any bachelor Iâve ever met,â she said. âMy older brothersâthey live togetherâhave beer, like five boxes of cold pizza, and a door full of hot sauce. Oh, and a place with tons of fast food sauce packets.â
He couldnât contain his laughter. âThatâs not even as full as it usually is. Iâm on the âclean everything out because Iâll be gone for most of the rest yearâ phase.â
She scrunched her nose up and looked back inside. âWhat do you want? I canât decide on anything. Thereâre too many choices.â
âYou donât have to make me lunch,â he said.
âArenât I supposed to?â
He sighed. Sure she was, but he didnât want her to do it. It would just cement her unfavorable opinion of him. âYouâd be responsible for securing food for me when Iâm either in the middle of a shoot day or in the middle of interviews on a junket. That sort of thing. Otherwise, I can take care of it myself.â
Grace nodded and shut the refrigerator. âGood thing, because Iâm a horrible cook. I can burn water.â
âThereâs no such thing as a horrible cook if you can read a recipe,â he said.
âThen I lack the tenacity for it,â she replied with a laugh. âAnd you have to admit, thereâs something in the way certain people just âknowâ when somethingâs done in the oven.â
He rolled his eyes playfully. âYeah, they use a thermometer.â
Grace scoffed.
âBut youâre probably right,â he conceded.
Having won the argument, she shook her head and closed the door. âHave you been out of this house at all sinceââ
âJust my jog this morning with Kal,â he interrupted.
She moved over to the kitchen island and leaned against it, setting her elbows on the granite countertop and resting her chin in her hands. âWould you like to go out for lunch?â
âYouâre serious?â
Grace chuckled. âYes?â
He stepped away from his spot and rounded the island. Then he grabbed her in his arms and planted a giant kiss on her forehead. When he set her back down and she peered up at him with startled wide eyes, he almost felt bad for doing it. But he couldnât contain himself. âIâm sorry, itâs just been a really long time since Iâve been out.â
âYou act like youâre a caged lion and Iâve just let you back into the wild,â she said with a light laugh. Her skin on her neck had filled with a bright red blush.
âI am and you are,â he said.
She looked at him a long time, considering him a little more closely. Then she sighed. âI would have told them to fuck off.â
âThatâs what got me into trouble in the first place,â he said. âLet me find some shoes and get my wallet.â
âThere are ground rules, though!â She called after him. When he turned to look at her, she continued. âNo alcohol. No clubs. No women.â
âBut youâre a woman.â
Grace coughed. âWell spotted.â
He thought she wanted to say more, considering the way the muscles in her face relaxed⌠and then brightened with a sweet smile. There was definitely something else, but she didnât say it.
Instead, she laughed again. âHurry up, Iâm hungry.â
He didnât need to be told twice.
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Places to Shoot in Bangkok Part 6: Khlong Toei Slum (Worst Ghetto in Bangkok)
Chromacoma back at it again this month with a guide of a more serious and gritty nature. Following some recent requests, I have dedicated this monthâs entry to the slum area of Khlong Toei district (also often seen written as âKlong Toeyâ).
You might recall my saying back in the Chinatown guide that you donât need to go to Chinatown to shoot pictures of Thai Chinese people. Likewise, you donât need to go to Khlong Toei if you want to see and take pictures of a real Thai urban slum, they are everywhere. Just look out from many high up vantage points anywhere in the city and look for the tiny little areas featuring tightly packed, wooden-walled lean to shelter type homes with corrugated tin roofs and dogs running around everywhere and that is just as likely a slum by any other name. Itâs just that the Khlong Toei âslumâ is MUCH, MUCH worse than anywhere else. It has long been known by Bangkokians to be very much the epitome of the word and is perhaps most often cited as a typical worst-case example of such an area in Bangkok. It is famous for its extreme poverty and resulting issues such as high crime and drug abuse, which is off the charts.
That said, I believe that (at least in the case of men) itâs not especially unsafe in broad daylight as a Westerner as long as you conduct yourself humbly and with some respect for the inhabitants of such dwellings. For women, you probably would also be fine but I feel that I canât quite recommend it to a solo female photographer in full conscience. Either go with a guy or at least go as a group of women together, I am genuinely sorry if that upsets any female readers but I want to be fully responsible for the quality of the advice I give here so that would be my honest gut feeling about it. I couldn't feel entirely comfortable recommending any woman I know to go there on a solo tip. I'm sure there are lots of Western women volunteers who have worked at many of the charity foundations in the area and found no problems roaming around there whilst they were doing their bit as volunteers or whatever but I personally think that a little caution is needed, especially once you get off the busier main routes and head deeper down into the less travelled parts (by farangs) of Khlong Toei.Â
With all of the above out of the way, you might feel that this is gonna be a really scary venture into a dangerous ghetto and it CERTAINLY can be (especially at night when I wouldnât necessarily recommend it to anybody really) but in many ways it can seem a deceptively different scenario. For starters, due to its relatively close proximity to the Sukhumvit  (especially Ekamai and Thong Lo areas) and Rama 4 roads (mainstream Bangkok) and also perhaps because of its infamy, you do actually get some more adventurous Westerners here on their SE Asia adventure trip of a lifetime deciding to go and walk around the area. Thereâs also sometimes a volunteer worker or âvoluntouristâ to be found doing their bit here and there as well, fair play to them. So, itâs not as though you are going to blend in any time soon but the locals there have definitely seen the odd backpacker with a camera before, believe me. As with anywhere else in Thailand, if you approach slowly and calmly with a smile, some people will even be a little smiley and friendly in return, despite the obviously huge gap between their lot in life and yours. This can be humbling.
HOWEVER, in more than two decades in Thailand, this is the only place where, when trying to walk down random alleys and walkways, the locals have politely tried to stop meâŚnot to prohibit me from entering per se but rather to try and advise me that it really wasnât perhaps in my best interests (from a personal safety point of view) to do so. That is something I hadnât ever really experienced (or can at least remember experiencing) in Thailand before. So, think about doing your own risk assessment for this maybe because it's very much real life, not some reality TV show.
On this trip, I saw used needles and syringes lying around discarded as rubbish on the floor (again, I have never seen that anywhere in Thailand)Â where children were playing. I saw some of those children playing with rubbish as their toys, some of them were stinking to high heaven as they had soiled themselves and their clearly drunk or high mother right next to them didnât seem to want to clean them up. I walked past people openly smoking either 'yaabaa' or 'ice' methamphetamines in front of me in broad daylight, as the sickly sweet chemical smells wafted into my face, they carried on like zombies regardless. People are shooting up drugs here with needles any time day and night. This is not a 'nice' place.
All of the above seems more relevant when you consider that to see the real Khlong Toei slum, you need to be off any of the main roads and waaaay down these alleys and back streets and train tracks (!) wandering around and going as deep as you dare into the labyrinthine networks of poverty stricken walkthroughs. You might well find yourself standing on top of the old train line which runs almost right through peopleâs little shacks (in the main photo at the top of this post, those tiny wooden and cardboard boxes on the train lines in the photos are where I found people living and sleeping!) or you might get stuck up a dead end and need to follow a local to see whether their route will bring you back out to some kind of civilization again. Itâs fun but in all honesty, itâs not perhaps for the faint of heart. This is also a time to watch out for any rabid, and diseased soi dogs that might be on the attack. The potential danger from the locals also extends to those with four legs! Itâs best to be confident if you turn a corner and find yourself in the midst of a pack of them as the local Thai strays often smell fear, and then things can get tricky very quickly. Make like a local Thai and keep on pushing dead straight ahead and show them whoâs boss. It can take a bit of nerve at times, if you panic and get stuck, wait for a passing Thai and walk quickly alongside them, they know which dogs can be easily brushed aside and which ones you might want give a wider berth to.
Itâs not the best place for normal lenses. It is certainly doable but you can really benefit from a 35mm or even a 28mm for this mission. There is a lot of shadow play and contrasting bright and dark scenery to deal with. In terms of equipment and technique, it has a lot in common with the Chinatown approach I guess. Zone focusing is highly recommended. Film shooters need ISO 400 flexibility at a minimum I would say and take an extra roll or two beyond what you might be expecting to use. Also be forewarned that one problem I have had is that in certain parts of the slum, the sheer smell of all the litter and refuse and waste can be a little overpowering at times. Itâs quite an assault to the senses in more ways than one. People are basically living right in and on top of a huge, rat infested rubbish dump. In this shot below where the young woman is salvaging something from the large open skip, she was (I believe) trying to collect up old aluminum drinks cans for money but I couldnât get any closer as I was already dry heaving, I mean quite literally convulsing and looking to get away from the stench and sheer squalor at that point as I had been in the area for about an hour longer than I had anticipated.
I did find some people who seemed quite happy in their humble little slum homes as they worked away doing some sewing or running a tiny little shop that caters to the residents of their particular little alleyway. Itâs not all sad people. This is the kind of place where youâll easily stumble on a crowd of guys having an afternoon heavy drinking session of whisky or beers around a table, perhaps whilst an illegal card or dice game is going down. Just be cool and make like Dionne WarwickâŚ.walk on by.
Of course, you could opt to sit down and take the drink offered to you but it can all get a bit sticky when you later wish to untangle yourself from the mess you might end up in. Of course, many backpackers do this and then take photos of their newfound âThai drinking buddiesâ and go home with tales of how they personally found the âreal Thailandâ etc. Â Hey, who am I to judge? Whatever you wanna do and at least itâs as a result of going your own way and meeting people and seeing places that are not part and parcel of the standard tourist package, right?
Also, in terms of culture shock (and especially if you are on holiday here), youâll likely be needing a steely resolve emotionally when you see how people (especially kids) are living their lives in such an area. As with many capital cities in âdeveloping countriesâ (whatever that means anyway), this slum area is within a fairly close proximity to huge, high end shopping malls and âthe havesâ living their comfortable lives. This little photographic mission is more of a photojournalistic opportunity in essence really. Itâs very much the gritty and certainly shitty end of the stick and itâs out there for anybody to go and see and record with a camera. I highly recommend black and white film for this kind of thing but then again I would say that of course. Use whatever youâve got with you (the best camera is always the one with you, or so they say) and really try to squeeze the best out of it and yourself.
By the way, âKhlongâ means a canal, and âToeiâ is a flower sometimes used in Thai food and drinks, I think the English name is âPandanâ but donât hold me to that 100%. I know what it looks and tastes like, I just donât know for sure if Iâve got that right or not. The âTâ in âToeiâ isnât really a âtâ sound at all but rather a combination of what it would sound like if you tried to say âtâ with more of a âdâ sound. I am trying to make it simple for non Thai speakers to at least attempt to say it correctly.
Taxi drivers know it, assuming you can say it correctly.  Nearest MRT station is Klong Toei. The slum itself is actually in several areas and so really should be pluralized into âslumsâ. Generally however, when people talk of the Khlong Toei Slum, they are talking about the biggest, most concentrated area of it and this is where you can also find a charity or foundation or two. Here below is a map cutaway for you to use on a device and show to a taxi driver, it has both English and Thai on it. Anywhere within the red arrows outer perimeter is pretty much different shades of full on Klong Toei ghetto but you should explore randomly within that area as much as possible, itâs almost different every time you go. There are some key landmarks also in English on that map in case you are very âdirectionally challengedâ (or your taxi driver is!), for example Bangkok University. I hope that this blog entry proves useful and that your day there goes well. I never normally say this butâŚgood luck!
For those that donât make it there, this post at least features some of my work from a recent trip there to give you just a glimpse. For anyone who is bothered, these were with a Rolleiflex and Ilford Delta 400 as I recall.
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