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1shimaru · 11 months

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actively gave myself personal space instead of squishing against a wall on public transportation 🥳🥳💕

#talking #I Am Allowed to take up space #every1 on the train knows we need room to park ourselves and Stance

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patchyourbrokenwings · 2 years

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new addition to my mantras that I have to repeat to myself every hour of every day because I am so traumatized beyond my own comprehension; "you're not doing anything wrong. you're allowed to be here."

#breathe breathe breathe #i am allowed to take up space #i am not doing anything wrong by breathing and living #trauma #toxic family #emotional abuse

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shitpostdevil · 5 months

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watching this blog come together is kind of wild

like I would actually perish at this point if it disappeared bc I've put so much work into it

#i can very confidently say that i have never really understood what it meant to “feel like myself again”#i killed off so many worse versions of myself i thought there was nothing left #but truly #i am writing again; and have found so much passion in an art i used to indulge in constantly #im making art that i actually enjoy and dont think is complete shit because of my inability to conquer traditional media the way i want to #I FUCKING COSPLAY WITH MY PARTNER #and indulge in anime/manga pretty consistently #that is something i used to get made fun of for by someone who was supposed to be a parent #it took me a very long time to not feel stupid in cosplay #sometimes i still do #but IM DOING IT!!!#even if its not amazing #or i look like shit #or my art looks like shit #or my writing is shit #at least im fucking DOING something #pushing towards goals #practicing #every step i take is a step in the direction i want to be in #i am enough #i am allowed to take up space #ive seriously got this #theres nothing to be scared of anymore #the only thing that i continue to struggle with is my own mental and physical illness #but i am learning and adapting more and more every day #IM FORGETTING HOW TO HATE MYSELF I SAVED MY OWN LIFE #yapping

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aapex--predator · 11 months

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slowly learning that moving past trauma doesnt mean forgetting, it just means giving yourself the time and compassion to rest when it resurfaces.

#just. got really worked up today #had to go have a smoke and stare at the sky for a while #and maybe… maybe nic isnt a good substitute for everything else. but. but its a step in the right direction #it feels like self compassion somehow #the significance of letting myself rest and not. not IMMEDIATELY punishing myself for being affected #i couldnt even ACKNOWLEDGE this before id just. id get so angry at myself and lash out #before id spiral from this but im able to take a step back now and let myself hurt #yes its a shitty situation. yes they deserve better. but. but i cant control this. and i deserve to feel safe too.#i am allowed to take up space #I AM ALLOWED TO TAKE UP SPACE !!!#i will continue to remind myself until it becomes undeniable.#maybe im not perfect but im trying and i dont deserve to be hurt for my failures.

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deoidesign · 3 months

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if adam and steve were muppets who would they be

muppets, presumably

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fumifooms · 7 months

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fumi i hope you know that in an extra of how laios' party is formed he is explicitly banned from getting a crush on marcille.

like i know you went in depth on the trauma he has because of humans on your laimar post about the succubus but please know that he was explicitly banned its so goddamn funny.

im crying laughing while typing this out happy laimar love loses 🥂

Lmao yeah 🥂

It’s a very fun comic! The marriage seeker mystery can finally be put to rest 😌 I don’t really think it changes much, that it overrides anything we knew or that I theorized, esp since we already knew about the party-wide romance ban, but the meme potential (and fic potential) IS so strong now that we know Laios was the one most targeted and distrusted of all… And trust was the biggest issue, romance brings nothing but trouble in their minds but the trouble they experienced with the marriage seeker was because she was disingenuous and manipulative and Laios was oblivious, and as time went on the party realized that Marcille was trustworthy and they stopped worrying about that particular scenario happening. It can def bring a new meaning to the "This is my succubus?!! No one can see it no one can know AAAAA" line though lmfaoo. It’s so funny and honestly such a win for aroace Laios

#I’ve been wanting to make a post detailing the history/timeline of the Touden party and its members so it helps out so much #Ask #Laimar #Spoilers #Laios going for her throat when she tries a kiss because of his workplace conduct contract #Laios post-canon going to Chilchuck like So if i wanted to date Marcille…… Am I allowed…#Chilchuck ‘… Laios the party disbanded a year ago. You’re the king’#‘Whew ok thank goodness’#Dungeon meshi manga spoilers #Honestly Chilchuck in that extra comic takes up all my brain space the rest is just sprinkles on Chil’s introduction. I love the insight #we got on how he does business. HE LOOKED LIKE A MEAN COWBOY WHEN YOU ENTER THE WRONG SALOON #Oh might as well say it here but i think many ppl are following me lately expecting laimar content and </3 #You’ll have to send asks to pry laimar content out of me bc I have moved on to greener pastures.#Aka overanalyzing every pixel of marchil interactions #Meta

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bunnihearted · 1 month

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#i wish i could go to the library..#and just get cozy in a chair and read for a couple of hours #sadlyyy the past couple of years #parents have decided to make libraries (aka the ONLY quiet zone we have in society)#into their own private playgrounds #and they take their kids there so they can run around and yell and slam things and stomp and just be loud af #and it sucks :(((( it makes me so sad bc libraries are supposed to br quiet and calm #places to go to study and read and such #NOT yet another place where kids get to be noisy and ruin a quiet calm space #and librarians dontsay anything anymore... when i was a kid they always came and SHHHHHHH aggressively lol #and i cant say anything bc then im a 'child hating miserable cow who thinks kids should get beaten up'#idk the thing is yes kids should be at the library... to cultivate their interest in books...#and that should be encouraged... ofc!!!#but some weird shift in society had happend post pandemic and ppl are just stupid and weird and dumb #yes kids running around looking at books and their parents reading for them is chill #but parents allowing their kids to SCREAM and sit in a chair and so #and stomp*** and throw things.....#why is that ok?? why do ppl even think thats ok... and im not a bitter hag for saying that kids shouldnt be noisy #or play in a library.... like why tf dont u go to a playground that is created for children to play and be loud #and let them run their excess energy off. and THEN go to the library #allowingyour kids to ruin an entire library for everyone else is fucking shitty #and libraries are the only place that have ever been quiet and now theyve taken even that from us #(us = neurodivergent & noise sensitive ppl)#and idk its smth that makes me despise society even more.. bc nobody even listens when i calmly and rationally say that hey this isnt ok #bc they only hear that im a child hating bitch who wants kids to have no rights and be murdered in the streets 😐#just bc i think they should be quiet in a library........#but if i go to a playground andstart telling everyone to be fkn quiet then everyone would think im crazy right??#idk i just hate everyone bc i am noise sensitive and libraries SHOULD be quiet but now parents with their kids have ruined the only place #to go. and nobody listens bc they think that if youre noise sensitive u should just sit in your own home 24/7.#and its like crazy to me bc im not going to a store or a cafeand saying YOOOO everyone shut the fuck up im noise sensitive!!!

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llitchilitchi · 3 months

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calling out acephobia in fandoms and fanworks is so weirdly difficult because there's always Some Way to jargon your way out of it that would never fly with most other identities

#litchi.txt #vent #cw aphobia #I dont know if Im jaded to it or if Im just anxious to speak up cause acephobia is just kinda Like That #'it's not a harmful stereotype! surely there are some people who relate to this!'#'well of course I don't /actually/ think they're broken! I am just voicing their feelings on the matter!'#'they're still asexual! asexuals can still have sex!'#'actually it's never stated what kinda asexual they are so in this work they're [insert microlabel]'#not to mention that you can never be sure that it's not just someone venting their own feelings around their asexuality #and like all of it is valid! very much so! it just becomes kinda :// when you see these always everywhere #or when the asexuality isnt even like... considered #never see this kinda erasure with other labels #(or that might just be the fandom spaces I occupy. I digress)#tho I've seen a few uh... takes. that were like 'people are allowed to headcanon them as a different sexuality'#and I've seen these thrown about with sapphic identities a lot #(or with certain trans characters which is a whole other level of shitty)#either way just. eugh. Im tired

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heartbreakincident · 4 months

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genuinely why was i so afraid of interacting in fandom and putting myself out there my life has gotten so much better now that i have Fandom Friends who support me

#i was so afraid of being seen as 'cringe' and embarrassing myself #and i sort of still am #but it used to keep me from like. talking about the shit i liked in a public forum bc i was so afraid of people making fun of me #but now that ive started unpacking that and allowing myself to take up space i have all these cool mutuals??? friends??? and its nice???#why did i keep this from myself for so long #kellan.txt

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moe-broey · 7 months

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I've never been a "born in the wrong generation" type of guy because for So Many reasons I would be dead. Full stop like I would have died during childbirth I would have died of appendicitis age 8 and that's not even factoring in my queerness and neurodivergency and ultimately my mental health (carefully maintained thanks to support/modern advances in medicine and treatment). On Top Of That my hobbies include The Video Game and many such things that are of modern invention (adjacently: including The Device I'm typing this out on right now which has become my main avenue of communication to the outside world)

But I'm just saying that. It WOULD be nice. To exist in a world where fluorescent lighting doesn't exist and everything is possibly 99% less overstimulating all of the time forever.

#and like. a little less capitalist dystopia. i could do with less of that.#but focusing primarily on my own struggle. it's just a bummer sometimes like #i genuinely had fun!!! w my sisters and friends!!! esp at the arcade w ddr that is ALWAYS so fun #but man you can't even take me to your own damn house unless if you're ready to accept vampire rules.#my sister can/does dim the lights if i ask and i don't mind asking it's just fucking crazy to me like #damn uoy guys live like this. bright ass lights ten diff convos at once music in the bg. what if i died on this beanbag #BUT. THAT IS. one thing that is very nice i AM allowed to die on the beanbag!!!!!!! i'm allowed to cozy up and rest #while everyone does their own thing and i can listen in and chime in every now and again. severely underrated tbh #i really only feel a little hopeless when i think about like. public spaces where the only thing i can control is myself #IF i am ever employable again my requirements would be. no florescent lighting. i will die.#which like. kind of limits my prospects.#i do enjoy outdoors/physical work actually though so. i'm just limited bc i have to bind.#i am. so severely. banking on top surgery working out. it won't be a cure-all but by god it WILL open up my options #plus the. constant fatigue. of binding. but not binding is even worse. i need divine intervention (surgery)#SAD. well there are other people in yhe world #but man rhat is like my fave joke to make but i feel so much sadness attached to it. the world will move on without me.#there are a million other people who are far more capable. much 'easier'. ect.#and i know the answer is well there's only one me and there are a handful of people who love me. who keep me and include me #i am very thankful for that.#it's just a bit of a bummer sometimes. i stay silly and have the most fun i can but i am a little sad about it.

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musical-chick-13 · 10 months

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"This show is SO good, you should watch it!!"

I gotta be honest. If I look at a character list on Wikipedia and get five characters down without seeing a single woman, it's probably not for me.

#I have no patience for 'there is exactly one woman in the main/supporting cast' anymore #unless the writing is INCREDIBLE and the themes are explored with a type of depth and nuance I can't get anywhere else (like shiki)#(daily media plug for shiki)#then I just. probably will not vibe with it. if there are no women. (also shiki DOES have interesting female characters in it)#and this isn't to say that like. things involving men or talking about men or that have a male protagonist are Not Worth #My Time that is NOT what I'm saying at all. I just want like. several women. who show up and affect the story. like LITERALLY that is all I #am asking for. I feel like that's just. the bare minimum. but alas.#mel screams about fictional ladies again #there are plenty of things that are male-character-focused that I enjoy and even genuinely think are good! but I do want people to #ask themselves why they aren't willing to go to bat for media that DOES have more women in the cast than men.#(I mean. the answer is misogyny. but I want people to be. aware of that. and evaluate accordingly)#(evaluate meaning 'acknowledge I have some biases I need to continue deconstructing' not 'drop interest in everything tumblr #user musical-chick-13 personally doesn't like')#I feel like so many times we get trapped in this space between overcorrection via 'don't like ANYTHING that's pRoBLeMaTiC in ANY way'#and people taking the 'it's fiction it's not that deep' to the conclusion of 'because I cannot actually hurt fictional characters because #they're not real that means I am incapable of hurting irl people when they talk about those characters'#like there is. nuance here. there is a middle ground. and most people have NO interest in finding it lmao #and like...if you carry your biases from irl (which EVERYONE HAS. INCLUDING ME. COURTESY OF LIVING IN A PREJUDICED SOCIETY.) into a #direct and one-to-one evaluation of stories or characters that allow you to exercise those biased ideas. then that reinforces those biases #like. no hating...for example every anime lady isn't the same as structural misogyny like the pay gap or anti-women violence #but if you automatically associate the idea of 'female character' with 'lesser-than' it strengthens the already-present societal idea that #women are not as important or dynamic or worthy of support and attention as their male peers. if you are willing to see every (white)#fictional man as having interiority and depth but struggle to see that in any fictional woman then it adds to the things society is already #telling us about women. it creates an association of 'women' with 'inferiority' and uh. that's what misogyny is.#it is not the same as misogynistic crimes against irl women but it IS a reflection of the rhetoric and societal impulses that lead to them #and even if it's a reflection and not the actual thing. it's still important to break down and examine and reevaluate because #if we don't examine our OWN biases. then even if we tear down the greater oppressive structure we'll just end up building it back up again #no your thousands of words of m/m fanfiction or liking late 2000s shonen anime isn't responsible for misogyny nor are these things #inherently misogynistic. I just want like. some acknowledgement that something being 'for fun' doesn't automatically mean that bias/#prejudice is nowhere to be found

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mars-ipan · 27 days

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this is gonna sound incredibly virtue signal-y i fear but i have been feeling. so fiercely protective of all the transfems i've ever met lately

#marzi speaks #I PROMISE I'M NOT TRYING TO EARN GOOD BOY POINTS HOLD ON LET ME. EXPLAIN MYSELF HERE #obvs we're in kinda a tense political climate rn #and i'm noticing trends have been getting . increasingly misogynistic lately?#in like . a subtle but for sure still noticeable way #and women are being dismissed and all this awful shit #and ppl are going. completely mask off about it when the woman happens to be a trans gender #and it reminds me of when i was a little girl. and how my mom spent so much time in my childhood #training me to not stand for and take misogynistic bullshit from anyone. and to defend other women too #she taught me to assert myself in professional or academic environments. she taught me to stand proud and take up physical space #once as a kid my great uncle (who's always been a nut) didn't let me come on a fishing trip because i was a girl #when i came to my mom crying about it because i loved boats and fishing and my family she just about murdered him. completely tore into him #my whole life my mom has been there to tell me that people will try to put me down. they will try to overlook me or dismiss me #or make me feel smaller. and if i dare to get too confident i'll be labeled bossy or a bitch #and that no matter what i do i cannot let those pieces of shit win. i cannot let that stop me #and that i'd have to fight so fucking hard for it my whole life and it won't be fair but i will do it because i have no other option #and i'm seeing a lot of transfems having to navigate that now too #but they didn't get the privilege of being trained in this since day 1. they have to figure it out on their own #and the demonization right now is so strong that a single misstep can be. so dangerous #and it makes me so mad. all of that built up anger from every time i've had to learn how to not take misogynistic bullshit comes to a boil #the little girl scout in my brain who grew up forcing people to see that a girl can do whatever the fuck she wants fuck you is ACTIVE rn #she's angry. she's so angry. because she's seeing the same bullshit she dealt with in middle school being repeated again #anyways. transfems. i love you so much. you deserve so much fucking better.#i hope you can safely advocate for yourself. until then i will fucking yell and scream from the rooftops because this shit is so unfair #you should be allowed to succeed and you should be allowed to fail. and you should be allowed to take up as much goddamn space as you want #and wear whatever the hell you want. transfems i love you and i am so so angry on your behalf. modern feminism has failed you #and i am going to kill someone over it #remember to be loudly and unapologetically yourself as much as you safely can. do not let them crush your spirit

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philosophicallie · 4 months

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ok time to try to blame someone else instead of me

#being dramatic but idk im also trying to think abt why i am this way #in part to the fact that i inherently view myself as a burden and always have since a child since i could like. comprehend the things my mom #was going through for my life & moving the america etc etc #but like yeah i was basically as independent as couldve been in the PH bc i had multiple ppl who could take me places and take care of me #but in the US it was just my parents and our family and our X amnt of cars #idk i just keep thinking about how much i miss doing anything in my life and how i used to be a dancer a martial artist a potter like #there was so much to me and now because i refuse to learn to drive and get a car i just. am locked out of everything #bc my aspirations cant work out on 1 vehicle in sparse & spread ohio #like idk maybe its the fact that i always was just like im not allowed to have friends im not allowed to go out in the summer #im not allowed to visit friends or extra places or events #never really been independent until i basically ran away and even now im just #only partially independent bc sure i have money and i have my own space but. im dependent on a driver and other ppls schedules and it just #idk i cant not see myself as a burden all i can think of is that im not a good enough woman let alone wife and thats something no one wants #like i barely know how to cook i barely eat i dont clean i barely wash i barely provide like. yeah idk also ever since i had a breakdown #i feel fundamentally just. changed especially about food. and idk i have been asking for others to cook for me more but i still am waiting 4 #the next time someone says you can make it yourself and i starve for the next 24 hours #idk dude i literally cannot see myself as not a work of labor. its all mama ever ranted at me about. very verbally very constantly up until #i stopped being difficult with her being the head of the family of like 12 #whatever. whatever #im done blaming someone else im gonna eat my words with regret and shame :/

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bunnihearted · 9 months

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ig i just personally dont rlly vibe w ppl who think that merely saying 'i wish they died' just to lighten the heavy weight of their overwhelming emotions (that they cant control may i add) is the same thing as actively actually murdering someone 💀

#did u know that venting can actually make someone feel a bit better and less inclined to act on thoughts.....#when u create environment in society where u force everyone to supress and hide all their ugly thoughts and emotions #those feelings will grow stronger and stronger and poison you #and that's why ppl eventually explode when it cant be contained anymore #ppl expressing things - that they prob dont even mean or want to be true or a reality #is nowhere near the same thing as ppl acting on it or causing others harm #but then also i am of the opinion that *everyone* deserves help and treatment. ppl shouldnt be discarded and labeled as broken or crazy #sm ppl have overwhelming emotions they cant control bc all of our brains are different. there should be *quality* help available for everyo #instead we live in a society that shames ppl. that push ppl into boxes and say #if u dont fit into this tiny neat little square u are ugly broken disgusting and reprihensible!!!#then they just banish u to the shadows where they dont have to see u or look at u #anyway this is a whole society thing that is connected to this issue in my braib #brain*#what i was gonna say was that i personally think venting and expressing your thoughts - no matter how ugly they are #is necessary for humans. esp when it's in a space where the potential target of the thoughts wont see #esp when there are no plans of taking yhe thoughts into action #asl long as u can separate complaining and venting ur frustrations and causing someone (undeserved) harm irl #thats just who i am and this is my blog and i dont appreciate ppl telling me #that i have to shove it all back inside and im not allowed to express anything #if you're a wasp who thinks everything should be bottled up. that everything should be expressed delicately #then u do you. but you do not tell me that i have to conform to your ways. i find your ways harmful and regressive #so maybe we should just go our separate ways huh? everyone arent meant to get along #theres no use in arguing or fighting or reprimanding ppl everytime u see smth u dont agree with #esp when all u see is a *thought* that causes no material harm to another person. then u should just be on ur merry way

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piplupod · 2 months

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#i just wish someone would look at me and Know that im not doing well fjfkdl #struggling so hard to stop myself from taking self destructive action against myself bc boy howdy i just want to fuck myself up #and then maybe someone would look at me and go ''hey u dont look like ur doing so well - do u need anything?''#but thats never worked in the past and theres that whole thing of ''if u want help u need to ask for it''#unfortunately. asking doesnt seem to work very often. i seem to have to Show people somehow that im not okay. like prove it to them #both medical ppl and my family fjfkdl #so here i am again trying to stop myself from [redacted] bc I shouldnt have to prove to anyone that im not okay #honest to god idk who to even talk to about anything. like the workers at the centre are not counselors/therapists #and i dont have another counseling appt for three ish weeks so uhhh #but im kind of like... i need smth idk. i feel like im on the verge of some kind of really bad breakdown #i cannot keep going on the way i currently am - that much is clear.#but idk what can change really. other than getting the girl to give me space fjfkdl #but the bugs and the abuse and the exhaustion and the food will all continue to exist just the same #nothing can be done about any of that! RIP!#i think honestly i just want a good long hug fjdkdl im just so scared and tired fjfkdl and tired of being scared tbqh #oh well !!! i cannot want for what i cannot have! wants don't exist unless i can fulfill it myself easily! otherwise theyre not allowed!!!#pippen needs 2nd breakfast

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icewindandboringhorror · 2 months

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Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)

#twitter and other short form shit and everything being a Phone App On Small Screen instead of a Proper #Computer Website i feel like has just ruined the format of literally everything for me. Thoughts just keep getting more and more condensed #with detail and nuance taken away. everything over simplified into only the basics. blah blah blah. I've already probably rambled about thi #all before but it's just SO frustrating. I literally just CAN NOT talk that way!!! even if I try!!! I took multiple advanced placement #english & language arts classes in school and I literally never made below an A on any assignment EVER except for ESSAYS #where I would legit get almost failing grades just because I cannt express myself concisely. I took an english placement test thats made to #like evaluate your competency in a subject and out of the 102 multiple choice questions I only missed TWO of them. almost a perfect #score. But for the 5 open response questions (about articulating thoughts succinctly) I did not get a single one of them lol #I only got partial credit on 3. It's like I OBVIOUSLY understand the material and I know how Words Work and how to analyze and interpret #meaning and etc. etc. But it's just when I have to express myself CLEANLY I can't. It's always ''well you have very good points and you #get around to the idea eventually and I think it's very insightful - but it just needs to be shorter/the side tangent needs to be removed/#etc.'' I've always wondered if it has something to do with being on the schizophrenia spectrum and how that can cause disorganized #speech sometimes hmm..ANYWAY.. But I just naturally express myself in a very particular way which is lengthy and I can't rea #ly seem to control it. So it's basically like just.. being gradually pushed out of every place that won't accomodate people with different #ways of like perceiving and expressing or etc. Everything cannot ALWAYS be 100% 'Short and Snappy and To The Point' or a quippy one #liner or the Bare Minimum of information being provided or etc. Some peoples brains just do not work like that!!!!! Sorry I operate #in detail and elaboration lol. ANYWAY.. I still sometimes use random ''dating sites'' like OKCupid to look for platonic friends since #I never leave the house so it's hard for me to just meet friends naturally. And I just realized today that they added a RIDICULOUSLY small #character limit to their messaging system (2000 words?? augh). And also took away answer explanations (when you answer a compatibility #question you used to have a space to give detail and explain why you answered the way you did) and removed a few other features and it's ju #t like.. how the fuck is any of this actually helpful in terms of judging compatibility? take away ALL nuance and anyting that actually #is meant to tell you anything about a person? Bumble's character limits for your profile description are even more fucking insane and so #is every other disgustingly minimalistic place I've seen like.. OKC used to be superior BECAUSE it allowed for a TON of detail. like back i #2016 or something there was SO much data you could look at. long form question answers. personality trait summaries. etc. Now you have #SOO little to judge off of when evaluating compatibiility it's like. You'd have better luck just throwing a dart in a crowded street and #talking to whoever it hits. Why are people so fucking allergic to reading anything longer than 3 words and providing DETAILS!! It just seem #harder and harder to find any place to meet platonic friends where you have any amount of actual data to go off of and it isnt basically #just random 'speed dating' set up shit. AARGH. &I know 'oh just join a club& meet ppl irl' 1. erm..covid. 2.I mostly want to meet ppl #in places I'd like to move so I already know ppl when I get there. You kind of HAVE to do that online. bc I am not there yet.. WISHING for #Complexity.Com where ppl can upload full 900 page psychological files of themselves. MINIMUM profile character limit 30k words lol

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