#i fucking hate my pain doctors

[cakemagemaeve]

So last Thursday at my pain doctor's appointment they switched me to a patch, only I had to wait until today to get it because laws. I managed to get through the weekend with the crumbs of my very last Norco, thrashed around in agony all night last night and barely slept at all because sleep meds and muscle relaxers don't work on me, but I took comfort in the fact that I'd be getting some relief today.

Except.

My pharmacy has it on back order and they don't know when they'll have it. The next one I called has it, but not in my dosage. The third has it in my dosage, but they don't take my insurance so it would cost about $115. The next pharmacy didn't have it, and neither did the next, or the next, or the next. I called about 10 pharmacies only to get the same answer every time (did I mention that talking on the phone, especially to strangers, is immensely stressful for me, especially when I'm already in mind-numbing pain?). Finally I called the pain clinic back and the receptionist promised to tell the doctor what was going on and that they'd call back soon.

4 hours later, I gave up on waiting and call them back. They won't alter my prescription in any way unless I come in for a visit, and the earliest they can get me in is 8:15 tomorrow morning. But really, what's another night of torture? Who needs sleep anyway! Clearly it's what I deserve anyway, me being just a filthy drug-seeking addict worth less than dog shit. I guess I should consider myself lucky that they didn't just Baker Act me on the spot.

So yeah. I fucking hate everyone and everything and honestly if a robber were to break into my house right now I'd get down on my arthritic hands and knees and beg them to murder me, and once in the afterlife I'd sing their praises and call them my angel of mercy.

I'm so sick of this. Nothing I do helps in any way and I really don't know how much more I can take.

[genderfluidgothwitch]

For those who are unsure of whether or not they really have the "sensitivity to cold" symptom of fibromyalgia, because you think that it's just you not being able to handle colder temperatures like other people, that's one way of putting it. The other way is, when it's winter and the temperatures start dropping, do you feel your pain more intensely? Do you feel like you have more problems with your joints? Is your partner always commenting how cold your fingers and toes are, but it somehow gets more frequent in winter? Those are other ways to consider being sensitive to the cold.

[spookietrex]

Man I just love when my body riots for my reason. Like who DOESN'T love waking up and immediately throwing up for what seems like no reason and severe stomach pain for hours afterwards? Who doesn't love lying on the couch/in bed for days because you're in so much pain and so fatigued you literally can't move. Like it's literally the best.

[comfortablyisolated]

I could scream I could scream I could scream

[autism-swagger]

I HATE BEING DISABLED!!!!!!!!!!

[an--artistic--autistic]

now to play the game of "did i throw up blood, or just eat a bunch of red food yesterday"

[mwagneto]

The thing is that yes, 13 herself is good, but the show as a whole just wasn't great during her run. Something something there's a baby in this dumpster

yeah like i recognise that most ppl just disliked the show even if they liked her but that's like... almost worse to me? coz i rly love her seasons like i hate the big twist as do most ppl but like it's literally doctor who i'm used to bad decisions. but like the episodes themselves are fine? good even?? i mean there's some i think suck ass like rosa or kerblam but a lot of them are like really good??? and it literally just. makes me really sad that ppl put up with 6 seasons of moffat but literally immediately gave up on 13. like it was actually fucking insane to watch how hyped everyone (EVEN non dw fans) was about her turning into a woman and then the fandom just. disappeared. like idk obviously i cant fault anyone for liking/disliking whatever they want but it makes me so fucking sad.. i like her & her era so much and it seems like 99% of people are only willing to acknowledge it even exists when they wanna make a gender joke abt tennant or when it'd look weird to not include 13 so they include her even tho they know nothing about her or completely misinterpret her as a silly goofy friendly #girlie coz people are chronically incapable of engaging w text if it's a woman

[bunnihearted]

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[dwarf-vader-of-middle-earth]

Nothing is ok. Everything's fucked. I hate being alive.

[stormyrainyday]

this entire year has been flop after flop why am i losing so bad your honor i am literally just some guy

[feytouched]

had the most absurdly infuriating interaction with an ER doctor telling me that "we rate pain based on a facial expression scale and you're clearly only in mild discomfort." while 2/3 of my face were covered by a N95 mask

[grey29]

Weird piece of self care advice:

As long as you’re not injuring yourself, there’s no fucking “best” type of workout. If you hate the types of workouts you’re doing then you should find another type of exercise because there’s probably one out there that you won’t hate.

Like I finally realized after 7 years of being a cross country runner that I HATE running. I’ve always hated it. But it was familiar and everyone thought it was such a good form of exercise so I stuck with it.

In college I realized I like ice skating and weight lifting and I finally got back into working out because of that and it’s so much less hard on my body and doesn’t cause pain flair ups for me.

Just putting this out there Bc I think it would have been helpful for me a few years ago to have someone give me permission to change the type of exercise I did.

[jjmej]

i hate winter and i hate my fucking knee i can barely fucking stand i hate it i hate it i hate it

[spookietrex]

Me filing for disability again: Hey guys, this time I can't leave my bed and my partner is literally doing everything for me. Like I can't walk more than 100 ft and that's with a mobility aid.

Disability: Prove it.

My therapist: Oh my God they're so miserable. They should NOT be working. Please let them focus on healing themselves because they had such a bad childhood.

My cardiologist: Yeah, that sounds smart. Let's work on managing stress first so we can manage your heart condition.

My neurologist(s): You should definitely not be working while you figure out what's causing these possible seizures.

My PCP: I don't know what they're talking about. They're making it all up. I know I diagnosed you with that heart condition, and that debilitating chronic illness (EDS) and fibromyalgia but NOW I'm going to edit your chart to make it look like you're making shit up. Hahaha you've never been diagnosed with PTSD! What are you talking about? I saw you walk once 8 months ago. You can totally walk without mobility aids now.

Disability: Clearly you just have anxiety and depression and are trying to get out of working.

[orcelito]

Whines bc im a few hours into my sleep and I'm not so nauseous now but my limbs...! My limbs, they ache...!!! And it's just all of them, the bone aches in all of them, so I feel like Peter Griffin Death Pose in this bed tonight

[arcaneyouth]

WAAA WEIRD VENTING IN THE TAGS RAAAUGHGAH WATCH OUT