#i just want to create

[pansyboybloom]

me, curled over my embroidery hoop and trying not to cry as my hands shake too bad to thread the largest eyed needle in my pack: it’s not a disability it’s not it’s not it’s not a disability I’m not disabled I’m not—

[shinondraws]

"I need to stop adding pages to my next update" I say as I keep adding more pages to my next update.

[seelieforests]

I'm only 10 pages into writing and I am working so hard to fight my Impostor syndrome and negative thoughts. I struggle with feeling like there are already too many books, that my ideas are not unique enough to write about, that my view is not needed. I keep getting these thoughts but like, I have been coming up with worlds and stories for as long as I can remember, and I feel like it's crucial that I actually get one on paper or else I will explode.

So even if all those negative things are true, I need to do this for me. So I have to keep writing.

[blackrosesandwhump]

Today I really just want to crochet and write while curled up in a cozy blanket and drinking tea.

Is that so much to ask?

[seductive-snail]

okay but what if i stabbed myself.

[cas-echo]

I have this idea for an Echo x male oc/self insert fanfiction and also a very sad fanart for Dark Disciple, but I have never written fanfiction, and I haven't done serious fan art in quite a while...

[iamjustme42]

i want to knit and crochet and spin and dye yarn and cross stitch and sew and make art and read good and bad books and take pretty pictures of everything beautiful in this world and enjoy my life!!! I want to create and contribute to this world!!!!!

but instead im in grad school writing an essay on state formation and print culture

as if those things really matter

[venomous-soliloquy]

My life outside of work feels like a constant decision between drawing and writing, desperately wanting to do both, and ultimately doing neither.

[thassa]

i feel like my executive function has been absolutely awful the last few months, and i can't seem to get it to work. i even deleted most of my social media from my phone, and i find i just end up staring blankly instead of finding the energy to do the things i wanna do 🫠

[zombeikid]

I wish I had passion and drive and willpower.

[danidoodels]

They're twins your honor

[paradoxical-machine]

bwaaaaa i want to draw but have no motivation and everything i make right now looks like shit

[octkita]

I've girlbossed too close to the sun, and now I'm on the administrative side of theatre THIS SUCKS

[filmcel]

my fear w leaving school and moving to work full time is i end up doing that for the rest of my life

[octarineblues]

supporting communities & people impacted by the Southport attack and the far-right riots in the UK

here is a list of community fundraisers I found, starting with those aiming to support the Southport community after the appalling attack at a children dance party, to the fundraisers helping those affected by the subsequent racist and Islamophobic far-right/nazi riots

Edited on 5 August to include Middlesbrough fundraisers. Edited on 6 August to correct the link on the Books for Spellow Lane fundraiser, to adjust the name change for the Belfast fundraiser, and to adjust the wording in the second last paragraph.

Southport:

Southport Strong Together Appeal - organised by the community foundation for Merseyside, for those affected by the Southport knife attack

United for Southport families - the funds will be distributed among the nine families of the children who were at the party

Swifties for Southport - a fundraiser for the Alder Hey Children's charity, which supports the victims and the affected families, as well as first responders and clinicians. Extra funds will also support the wider Southport community

Fundraiser for the Southport Mosque - a fundraiser to aid rebuilding or possibly re-locating the Southport Mosque after the damages it suffered during the riots

Rebuilding Windsor Mini Mart - fundraiser to rebuild the locally-owned grocery store that was targeted during the attacks, broken into, and looted

Liverpool:

Fundraiser for the Spellow Hub - the Spellow Hub was broken into, looted and set on fire at night during the riots. The Spellow Hub is a newly created one-of-a-kind (in the UK) institution, which consists of a library as well as a community centre with a mission to help people get education and pathways to work

Books for Spellow Lane - another fundraiser for the library in the Spellow Hub, to replace the books and rebuild the library there edit: included the correct link

Hartlepool:

Fundraiser for the Nasir Mosque - the Nasir Mosque was attacked following Southport riots; this fundraiser is organised by Hartlepool citizens to help the mosque deal with the damages as well as to show appreciation for the role of the mosque in the community. edit: the funds will be also distributed to the local community!

Rebuilding the Farm Shop - the shop was targeted during the riots, and when the owner and his son tried to protect it, they were also violently attacked. The fundraiser is to help fix the damages to the store.

Sunderland:

help rebuild Citizens Advice Sunderland offices after arson - two of the Citizens Advice Sunderland offices were set on fire during the riots, and one of them is completely destroyed.

Hull:

Hull Help for Refugees - a local fundraiser to support the Hull Help for Refugees charity, the donated money will be re-distributed to community members affected by the riots

Fundraiser for Hull Help for Refugees and Welcome House in Hull - collected money will be donated to the two charities

Belfast:

help fix racially motivated damages - originally the fundraiser for the Sahara Shisha Cafe which was targeted by the far right in Belfast during the riots, now a fundraiser for all affected businesses in the area. edited to reflect the change of the name of the fundraiser to avoid any confusion

Middlesbrough:

Supporting residents after the riots - Middlesbrough has suffered so much during the riots, lots of businesses as well as just regular family homes were vandalised, had their windows smashed or even were broken into. This fundraiser wants to distribute the funds between affected people to help them fix the damages, and to generally support the local community. the newest fundraiser, imo potentially the most urgent one

Fundraiser for a Care worker's car which was set on fire - a car belonging to an employee of a care agency was set on fire during the riots while he was on shift at a care home.

If you want to donate locally but there is no fundraiser to support where you live, consider donating to your local charities oriented towards Muslim or PoC communities, or towards anti-racist and refugee organizations! And go support your local Muslim/Arab/Black/Asian/Refugee owned businesses!

If you have any information about other local fundraisers, feel free to add to the post or don't hesitate to let me know and I will add them here! We have seen so much hate in the past few days, we have to stay strong and keep supporting each other!

Stay safe everyone 💛

[jaradraws]

DISCLAIMER: the blood is a feature, not a bug 🩸☎️