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Isn't bite also touch?

Chapter one! (Weekly updates)

(Loki x Female demon!reader, eventual smut!)

Check chapter two here!

SUMMARY: Loki was saved by a demon and now the demon girl is attached to him like a cat is attached to catnip.

Is this trickery? Is this Devil lying to Loki to gift him punishment?

Warnings: Graphic Depictions of Violence (future chapters), angst, mentions of trauma, emotional manipulation, demonic creatures.

Tags: Hurt Loki, protective Loki, protective reader, grumpy Loki, fluff and angst, Grumpy/Sunshine, hurt/comfort, soft Loki at times (he's touch-starved but emotionally unstable), bubbly reader, (future) demon-sex.

Note: Hello! This is my first time writing for Loki and sharing a story of mine, English is not my first language so please be kind.

Everything has been made with lots of love, and I'll see if I add more tags as the story goes. If you like it, please let me know your thoughts!

“We caught him. We got Loki.” Steve Rogers bragged, spreading the news to the team through the tiny speaker the headphones had.

Some sighed relieved, others—specifically Tony, accompanied by Natasha, hurried to examine the cell he was going to stay at, temporarily, before being sent to receive Asgardian punishment.

Loki didn't seem even slightly defeated at the concept of staying in the cell once again, it's almost as if he's planned it, and with Loki, you could never know. He still had the smugness in his expression, but he lacked his army and scepter, so the Avengers couldn't help but be overly suspicious of his unbothered behavior.

The cell was intrinsically made to protect the external side from whatever— or whoever— was inside, a stronger, hopefully more long-lasting copy of the first that was destroyed before the official New York attack. The concept was created by S.H.I.E.L.D with the support of Stark to provide safety to everyone whenever Hulk decided to come out, and Loki knew it was still that way, but at the moment those were the special occasions in which it can be lent to any dangerous individual.

But seeing as they had to strengthen the new cell, based on what happened to the first, Loki didn't know what the improvements of this one were.

Anyhow, none of the Avengers expected that a being was rushing to the same spot some of them were, at the same time. You hurried sneakily hoping not to be found, hiding in the shadows to find the local you were informed of.

The shadows moved with you whenever you walked, in the literal sense, and morphing to whatever shape you desired. The silence that your footsteps provided was unfamiliar to human (or enhanced humans, or alien) ears.

When you arrived at the cell responsible for locking Loki — recently having discovered his name — you hesitated coming closer, seeing that Stark and Romanoff were there first. You chose the option of sticking to your shadows by the corner.

“Second time you come here, and this time Banner is well-protected and miles away. Should you have a plan for this, we'll lock you again so you can see that you will always lose no matter what you try next.” Tony's voice was loud and clear, giving no room to thinking otherwise, that's what he always sounded like.

His confident tone did not manage to afflict Loki's expression, so if he did feel the impact or had a change of emotions, it was unknown to the two watching his every move.

Natasha kept a serious glare at him, one that'd inspire others to shiver until they even dare question the temperature of the room. She waited patiently to see if Loki would snap and try some escapade at any given moment.

He didn't.

“I always have a plan, Stark. By now, you should know that. It would make our little encounters way simpler.” His velvety voice was surprisingly smooth and showed a contrast to the silence of the room, impacting them with the sophisticated and kept-together tone. Almost managing to make them shiver.

At least Tony, not Natasha (she didn't seem to be easily intimidated). Or you, the one that's still in the shadows.

“Well, then you can calculate your plan for as long as you'd like, for as many days as it takes, 'cause you're not getting yourself out of this prison. We made sure of it.” Natasha stated, and Tony quickly nodded in response, glancing at Romanoff and having his eyes come back to Loki.

After that, you watched them leave.

You could sense every moving thing in the huge room, your powers presented to you the incessant—and quite loud— heartbeat that was coming from Loki's chest. Blame it on yourself for being able to detect that but you silently wondered how they didn't notice.

After some more time spent in silence, you could sense Loki's nervousness increasing, it was palpable, and honestly, the atmosphere was becoming kind of pleasant to you, who decided to wait and analyze the way his emotions were changing.

Fear. Although he seemed to not want to demonstrate that, perhaps also afraid someone might be watching through the cameras.

Was nobody really going to come?

You realized with disdain that maybe his plan involved counting on a third-party. This time he couldn't possibly understand the patterns of the cell beforehand, he also couldn't appeal to the team's distaste for each other, so a fight like the other time wouldn't be able to be induced.

Maybe he thought Thanos would come for him, seeing as he led the army of Chitauri. Maybe he thought he'd be tracked and they'd come for him again, to finish the mission.

You knew this, you knew everything that involved vulnerability. Humans were somehow unique in this matter, but Gods always carried something special within and most of the times it is related to their godlike trait of specialty.

You get Zeus as an example: the leader of the Gods on Olympus, will always be scared of failure and being inferior, and when found in situations he sees as disrespectful his anger will always be human-like, his punishments will be tainted by an emotional and human anger.

This is something special about the Gods we can live with, this is what makes them and their stories interesting to humans, the feelings and flaws. Semblance to humanity.

Their flaws are deeper and carry more pain than humans could possibly experience. The God of Mischief, Tricks and Lies carried a long-time pain and years of trauma for being betrayed and lied to. It was interesting to watch life be ironic and to see the flashback coming to life behind their eyes.

To be frank, you weren't expecting him to depend on someone else to escape, it's supposed to be common nature for him by now. The distrust, the tricks any time, to be wise in the nature of misleading and manipulation.

But anyhow, you decided to wait and check if any other noise or heartbeat would make a sound in the room.

It didn't, still just Loki.

So you approached, still covered, protected from view by your shape-shifting shadows.

The atmosphere was colder than you had expected once you were in front of the cell, your hands touched the armored glass. Invisible now, abandoning your shadows. You didn't know if the cold was coming from him or if they just kept the air that way. Probably both.

Loki was in the middle of the cell now, facing his bed for the night.

His thoughts kept betraying his facial expressions, being louder than he allowed his face to show, they were a constant mess of scheming and planning different ways out, a bunch of diverse techniques for trickery with the intent of finding his freedom.

Honestly you were getting a bit of a headache, but you realized he clearly didn't know that to do. You could sense his restricted powers moving through his veins.

You touched the glass with your fingertips first, then, with your fingernails, applying a slight pressure to it. Making Loki violently flinch and turn his body back to the entrance expecting to see one of the Avengers there to taunt him.

He saw nothing and immediately frowned due to that. Then relaxed, noticing there was nobody there and thinking it might have been something else. You wondered if he could sense you or if he thought it was an illusion.

You decided to make use of the fact he still kept his front to the entrance—where you secretly were— and once again slowly scratched the glass he was being kept in.

Loki visibly flinched once again.

“Fine, I thought it was nothing at first but I can definitely feel someone here now. Who is it? Who's there?!” He asked out loud to the empty room.

You waited in silence, seeing his fear was quite the spectacle. It's humanly cruel to admit but the fear that comes from Gods are a treat to be felt and experienced. To you.

You were slightly shocked he could feel your presence there, although it did answer the doubt you had before to know if he could feel your presence or not.

You were tempted to scare him further, so mischievously as you decided to be, you closed your hand to a fist and knocked on the glass. Different areas, at the same time.

He looked around dramatically quick, closed his expression after noticing this was possibly a trick. He got back in place and his eyes dared to look forward— frighteningly exactly where you are—, and crossed his arms, presenting a —also—dramatic stance.

“Very funny, really adorable. I don't enjoy playing with witches, especially ones that won't show themselves, I'll let you know. Take off the spell.”

Really? I thought he liked tricks. You guess fear changes people, you could laugh at his scaredy cat behavior some other time.

You took off the spell and showed your human form to him, making a mental note of how he seemed to gasp when you appeared out of nowhere. You noticed the cell seemed to restrict his powers although it seemed not to erase it completely, which is a capable downfall for the team of humans, they should've checked this before.

You presented yourself in a full black uniform with a long matching cape covering your shoulders, and your hair was kept down and loosen. The most noticeable detail was the metal mask you kept covering your nose and mouth. Allowing him to stare only at your eyes, not being able to see your full face.

“Loki, Loki of Asgard.” Your voice broke the silence, your eyes seemed to shine a little brighter after pronouncing the words.

He stared at you, his eyes questioning and doubtful, multiple questions running through his mind.

“And who are you? One more of the freaks coming to teach me how to behave in midgardian society? How do you know who I am?”

“Let's humbly say that I'm here to…save you,” he couldn't help but laugh at that.

“And what's that supposed to mean? You were in silence just then for a while, you clearly want something from me, and I want to know what it is. And I wish to know who you are, or maybe…who you're probably working for.”

“One of Thanos' children?” he thought, you don't care enough to ask what it means.

You gave him a strange look he could not decipher.

“I work for no one, only myself. You can think of me as an angel, if you want, or if you need it. But I want to help you. Your powers have drawn me to you.”

“No angel would ever assume they feel drawn to greatness or power, I can only believe you may be a witch,” he eyed you up and down again, you noticed he seemed to do it a lot. Like he was constantly trying to understand things about you.

“No, I'm no witch. But I do admire them,” you let your head down a bit, then stare at him. Allowing your hands to try and reach the glass once again.

His eyes widened even before you managed to complete the touch. He thought you were going to scratch it again.

“No, no, don't do that! Stop scratching the glass!”

“Don't worry, I'm merely touching it this time.” you reached the glass and analyzed it, your hands glowing a black flowing matter, your powers, attempting to understand what it was made of and what could be its weakness. “Someone really doesn't want you to come out, it seems. The cell is reinforced by an invisibility spell that's hiding a layer of Adamantium.”

“I don't know what that is, but the cell wasn't built for me that's for sure.”

“It's a special metal, possibly the second strongest metal on Earth. Maybe it was built for you, or maybe not. I could sense your powers from miles away. You're more powerful than you think you are, with more experience you could turn a prison of Adamantium into multiple pieces.”

He seemed to get angrier at what you said. Immediately scowling at you.

“Are you claiming I'm not experienced with magic? What would you know?! I'm over a thousand years of magic experience, I'm pretty sure I can handle anything by now.”

“Then break the cage yourself.” you simply stated. “Do it then.”

“I can't, you dim-witted creature. As you can see, my magic is restricted.” He gesticulated to the cell around him, crossed his arms and looked at you.

“I know you carry more power than the supreme sorcerer in person. Again, if you had more faith in yourself mayhaps you'd be able to break it and find your way out on your own.” Your eyes wandered to the ground, making it seem like you didn't even care much, turning around slightly as if to go away.

“And you…you can break it?” he asked after some seconds, lowering his voice.

You turned back, looking over the whole glass. Your body leaned a bit backwards with you, showing a bit of drama through your movements.

Then you placed yourself exactly where you were, and straightened your posture to speak to him.

“Yes, yes I can break it for you. I'll help you.” You decided. He seemed overly suspicious of every movement you made.

Placing your hand on the glass you let yourself feel all the tingly numbness that comes with allowing your powers to overcome, then you feel the glass start shattering under your fingertips. The strength of the material was stronger than anything you were used to physically handle daily.

Surprisingly, Loki's hand started glowing a light green color and his eyes closed as if putting the same effort as you into attempting to break the glass, less than he usually would be able to but still trying. His body got closer to the glass, not actually daring to touch it yet.

Your powers together managed to crack the top of his glass cell, this was when the loud warning noise came along, ringing in your ears and making you flinch.

Loki grew alarmed and his magic was visibly weakening as the noise took over all the place. Seeing as these were extreme measures, you started putting double the effort to break it faster.

“It would be incredibly great if you could just help me again. It was good before, it was working.” You told him to make him pay attention to you once again. “You shouldn't let your emotions get in the way like that, I can sense your desperation from here, it's distracting!”

He looked at her in disbelief but he put his hands in front of himself again, his powers grew strongly green and the glass cracked more and more.

“You talk about desperation but I'm not the one that's raising my voice…” He muttered in the middle of everything.

“If you helped me I wouldn't need to!”

“Didn't you say you could do everything by yourself?”

“I'm just saying in a matter of hurry to get you out, it would be great to have your powers help me break the second most powerful metal on Earth!”

“You should thank the gods that I-”

“Well I don't! I simply DON'T thank the gods,” you said louder than before. He seemed surprised but quickly recomposed himself. “And stop attempting a threat, should the humans arrive I can let myself out easily. Be more grateful.”

“As if! For all I know you must be a witch planning on kidnapping me… But seeing as being with the midgardian costume-show is worse, I don't mind the entertainment of being kidnapped by a…“ He took a pause to look at you, and you raised an eyebrow at him, slightly tilting your head. “Uh…insane, scary witch.”

You could feel the heat increase and the announcement that there was an escape plan happening kept ringing loudly into the ears of both you. It would be a matter of time until the Avengers could track you and come back to the room. You both turned your heads to the entrance door that was right behind you, nothing yet.

Loki watched as your eyes seemed to go completely black in an instant, hands were getting shakier both yours and Loki's, then in the blink of an eye, the glass smashed in tiny little pieces.

Loki put his arms in front of his face due to the impact but you didn't, your hands were still glowing with darkness and gray speckles of light as the magic slowly dissolved. One of the multiple pieces of glass crossed your forehead marking a small bleeding cut, that's when you noticed you probably should have had the reaction to protect your body to the glass. You noticed a few tinier pieces made contact with your mask, making a quiet but obvious sound of ripping steel, only a little, but what a shame.

You didn't want Loki to get too suspicious of you so you didn't make it heal faster, you let it bleed a little and it's close to your left eye.

You watch it with interest, you quite like blood, you like the reminder you can bleed.

Putting your hand to the light wound and taking a bit of the blood on your skin, you let it taint your fingers a little red.

“We should go then.” You stated as a final decision.

You noticed that the moment the glass was destroyed, Loki's eyes seemed to get a bright blue shade for an instant, they even seemed a bit lost, then they went back to the green-grayish tone.

“Wait, we could–”

You teleported both of your ways out of there, right before the Avengers arrived.

★

You realized your plan carried no real structure and it upset you immensely. Now you were stuck in an isolated mossed area with an alien God that appeared to be in deep distress.

“You know this is great, where in the all the Nine even are we?” He looked around at that, checking the varied tree species the place had. And turned to look at you in disbelief.

“Are we still in the United States?!” He questioned loudly once again and started walking straight ahead.

“If there wasn't such pressure on us I could have teleported us somewhere nicer. I couldn't let them be too close,” with that you followed right behind him, managing to keep your footsteps steadier to make it seem as if you know what you're doing.

“If you had waited a little before teleporting us I could have gotten the Tesseract back! If we had the Tesseract I'd manage to find somewhere to hide, very far from here… You didn't let me dictate our plan and now look where we are,”

“The Tesseract?” You asked a bit confused, then you slowly nodded as you just remembered seeing something about that. “The bright blue cube the Avengers carried with them? Is it important?” You were curious now.

“Yes, it is property of Asgard. And it should be with me. They took it from me.” He started going faster and you hurried to match his steps.

“First of all, why? Second of all,” you paused as you tripped on the rocks. “Ugh. Second of all- I definitely should be the one on the front. Let me lead the way.”

You certainly didn't appreciate feeling inferior.

You ran a little to go and stay in front of him, turning your back to Loki and proceeding to walk first.

The Asgardian behind you was confused by the suddenness of your actions, and stomped his foot seemingly taking your choice as insolence.

“Where are we?! What the Hel is going on?!”

“I told you I was going to save you. I did, I took you out of that god forsaken cell, I freed you.”

“Freedom would be a solid belief if I could be by myself right now.”

“Hey. I have been nothing but nice,” you don't know why you were defensive. “And you have yet to mention why the Tesseract should be with you. I said I can do anything, if you convince me, maybe I can bring it to you,” you said firmly and stared right at him.

That made him pause his steps for a while, you were almost near a tunnel. You paused as well.

He blinked, and looked at you before speaking.

“It's the space stone, a stone that allows you to teleport anywhere you want at any given moment. It controls space in time, and I was using it to my benefit for my plans.”

You looked down to the floor deep in thought with that. Keeping quiet for a little.

“You don't need that, you have me.”

He stared at you quietly too, you almost didn't notice how his eyes shined a little greener after your words, looking… lively, or honest.

“You'd…move us whenever we needed?”

“Yes, of course,” you exclaimed bubbly.

Everything seemed warmer to you, noticing the Tesseract wasn't going to ruin your plans if you lacked it, your powers are useful enough for that.

He looked at you oddly, then kept walking. Indicating with his hands that you should walk as well, silently not caring anymore if you're first.

“I wish you would tell me who you are. The only thing I can see other than your eyes is the mask.”

“You wish for me to take off the mask?” You smiled sardonically. “Are you this curious?”

“You did call yourself an angel,” he began. Your eyes turned slightly darker at the mention, but you were looking at the floor, you kept smiling under the mask.

“I did, yes. I am one, somehow,” you lied.

You know he can see through your lies, he chose not to comment.

The tunnel was right in front of you two now, you both kept walking. It brought nothing but humid ground with water puddles that kept announcing you in the dark, sometime or another you could hear the small noise of a bug.

Overall, it was quite cold. You thought the cold in the cell had been due to keeping the atmosphere that way, but Loki's presence felt as cold as the air around you, literally.

“Are you cold?” You asked.

“Hm?” He was distracted analyzing his whereabouts. “No, why? Is it cold? I didn't notice.”

You hummed, you were kind of sensitive to the cold so you weren't sure if you were the one on the wrong. Maybe it was just the tunnel.

Either way, you opened your hands spreading all your fingers, absorbing as much warmth as the place could have.

You noticed Loki's fingertips growing immediately the green it gets when he uses his powers, and…oh.

He conjured you a blanket. A dark green one, that looked very soft.

“I'm a gentleman, I can't let you go cold.” he looked at you and waited for you to take it.

Still, you kept your hands growing warmer and warmer, you got both of them together and huddled a tiny speckle of… fire.

You were satisfied with that, but made it a bit bigger. Now you carried a small flame in the air among your fingers, and your entire hands were glowing red. You felt warm enough, the pyrokinesis required the warmth of your entire body.

You didn't notice Loki's admiration right beside you, his eyes sparkling with the movements of your fingers through the air.

“You can control fire? Impressive,” he said in awe.

“It's nothing,” your cheeks felt just as warm as your hands, you supposed you could blame it on the pyrokinesis effect. “You can still give me the blanket, put it around me or something,” you moved your shoulders trying to demonstrate.

So he did, he placed it around your shoulders. It wasn't exactly long, good because it wouldn't touch the dirty ground. Or come close to it.

As you two walked the rest of the tunnel, now feeling less cold than before, a green light flowed by your side again. Loki's hand grew a green light to help us see the dark way in front of us, the fire helped already but it's nice that he thought to add to it.

You just assumed he liked feeling useful as much as you.

Maybe you were a creature cursed to desiring greatness for eternity, however, his powers did draw you to him even further. Your eyes brighten as you look at the green surrounding his fingertips.

He looks at you curiously, eyes changing from his hands to your face back and forth.

Both of you don't say anything.

★

The 'Avengers' as they have recently been named, decided the world was under a giant threat again seeing as Loki had not only escaped but he did so with the help of an unknown person.

This opened possibilities for a thousand different theories. Maybe the God of Mischief had fans, but it'd be really quick enough for them to plan and manage to save him?

Plus, they knew the 'person' was powerful when checking the cameras, seeing the woman appear out of nowhere, and seeing they teleported together. At first they thought Loki was the responsible one for that, but what if he wasn't? It mainly worried them the fact that humans —if it was what saved him— do not simply have superpowers like that.

It became a S.H.I.E.L.D case the second they discovered.

“What if he has more aliens he brainwashed?” Clint asked at the table. “I don't wanna deal with these aliens any more for today, I've had enough.”

“Considering the fact you were just brainwashed by the guy, I can give you that,” Natasha answered, putting a hand on his shoulder. She looked at him more caringly afterwards when the others weren't paying attention to them. Saying quietly: “Are you okay? Don't you think it's better if you rest for now?”

“I'll have enough time to rest after we get that serial killer slash crazy alien back to the cells. Or better yet, out of this planet.” With that, he looked at the other teammates.

Tony was checking the securities and zooming in on the screens, recording to save every detail of the presented outfit, mask, all the angles of this person, anything he could get.

Thor was relentless, demanding to know any information the humans could grant him with. He didn't understand how it wasn't quicker to locate him.

For him it seemed more like a family missing thing than a mass murderer villain missing, they guessed that after all, Loki was still his brother and Thor still had such a big heart.

“If this being is more powerful than my brother is, I don't think we'll find them in these…” Thor turned and gesticulated to the cameras Stark was studying the scenes from. “What are these again?” He mumbled in a hurry, just wanting to get his point across.

“Cameras.” Steve replied.

“Cameras! Of course,” Thor said again making a dramatic case with his booming voice, “I need to check in Asgard to see if he's not there, maybe the Asgardians even know something…I don't know, I'm not sure.” He kept looking around nervously, and picking on his hands as he spoke.

“Thor, relax. We're going to find him, it's our main mission to get a hold of this freak.” Bruce replied now. “If there's one thing about our group of very strange individuals is that we don't like to fail, we're too arrogant for that.”

“Speak for yourself, I'm far from arrogant.” Tony replied clicking on another screen and bringing it closer to him, the technology making the images clearer.

Steve tries to hide a snort, and Natasha can't help but actually laugh. “Come on now, it's not time for jokes.”

“Yeah, don't make us laugh,” she says.

“Is this amusing to you, Steve?” Tony said. Looking away from the screen. “If you think I'm too arrogant-”

“I have no time for this.” Thor turned around, picking Mjolnir with extreme ease and turning it in the air. “I'll be out for a while. If you find news about my brother don't forget to look up to the sky and scream very loudly the name 'HEIMDALL', please.” He made sure to give a quiet scream to interpretate them screaming to Heimdall.

“And who's that Heimdall guy again?” Clint asked.

“The man that sees it all. The guardian of Asgard. I asked him for news regarding Loki's location, but he seems to find absolutely nothing, it's unbelievable. He said there's strong magic protecting his surroundings, or him in itself.”

“If Loki is on Asgard, make sure to send us a letter or a text message to warn us and proceed be sure to keep him there, forever, no need to bring him back.” Tony said dismissively. “We've got enough trouble as it is.”

“Well, now you're just being rude. I bet Loki didn't mean any real harm with his actions. He wasn't like that before.” Thor replied once again, and then turned to the exit to go outside. “Again, if you find anything of him, make sure to yell to the sky!”

The moment Thor left and they saw the rainbow appear through the window and make quite a loud opening, Natasha looked at them and said:

“So who's going to be the one to take the role of insane and yell at the sky?” She asked with a smile.

“Hopefully no one, his brother might be having a blast with Asgardians chicks in a pool, if they have those there. And everything will go back to normal, we'll have no need to worry,” Tony said.

“Just because that's what you'd been doing if you escaped prison doesn't mean that that's what Loki's doing right now.” Steve argued.

“Who let the popsicle speak again? I don't know about you, but other people are familiar with the concept of having sex-”

“Is this conversation really necessary, Tony?” Steve argued back.

“Well, hopefully Tony's right about not needing to worry and-”

Mary Hill entered the room before Bruce could finish the sentence, “Am I interrupting? I apologize, I hate to be the bringer of bad news…actually, no, I'm alright with that.” She said menancingly. After that, she put a laptop on the table they were meeting at.

Also, putting next to it a bunch of information resources, such as multiple other tablets and laptops containing images that are some blurry and others in perfect quality. One of them even contained an image of a woman, seemingly an ID, but they weren't sure.

“Fury was in contact with other agents that could know anything about the characteristics the unknown person had. They studied the height, the weight, the length of their hair, and other things. We tried to study the precise gender this person has but aren't so sure, so we call it Being, they weren't even sure it's human. Still, they checked the powers, the speed in which the glass was broken, everything they could through the images. Changed the angles and studied for news about it, checking specifically also the mask she wore.”

While she narrated every step of the professionals she opened one of the screens and displayed it to another device to share Fury's screen. That's when he began to talk to them, to tell the story through his side as well.

“The creature, we were looking first for witches or any enhanced human beings such as other possible soldiers like Rogers. We were both relieved and worried to see it wasn't the case, our work couldn't be granted with much, but what we found of it should be enough for now to know what we're working with.”

Hill presented a specific image on screen, one that seemed like the one on the ID, the 'woman' had her eyes wide open seeing as she had to look directly at the camera for the important exam.

The image was black and white, of course. But she had her eyes completely empty, the document was inked with white the part where her eyes should be.

“They checked for occurrences and similar characteristics on other people surrounding the same places. What we found complicated is that the situations in which people disappeared like that and appeared out of nowhere were brought up by different people in different parts of the world.” The images kept moving to present women, men and children, not much, probably just up to eight identities that they could collect from around the whole world. “But what's most interesting is that, none of these people actually exist.”

Fury stated and caused the silence of the room to grow instantly tense. They immediately found that frightening.

“Has Loki really been planning the attack on New York for that long? This must be related to him somehow. When, how-” Clint began and was interrupted by Fury again.

“These people would appear on a certain day and disappear at any moment. It was uncertain, it has no pattern, we're in doubt of our process because we can't seem to be sure just one person could be responsible for this. And we're unsure of Loki's relation to this being, at least any relation before today.”

The pictures presented could vary from news where there would be people morphing out of shadows or coming out of something slimy to become human. They weren't sure these things were related to one another but they carried similarities with the pattern of power presented in the cell earlier.

There were videos of men, women, even animals, morphing into something else. And mainly all of them had to be related to the shadows one time or another, that's all they had, they had to stick to it.

“We believe we're dealing with a shapeshifter, and even worse… We believe it's a demon.”

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‼️NIGHTBRINGER HDD CH. 4 SPOILERS‼️

masterlist | events | ch. 3

do we really not get to kiss them ??? not even during hdd???

...i'm in here complaining like i'm not a lesbian but MY POINT STILL STANDS ‼️

ofc asmo has something with "aphrodisiac" in the name. like what if it was actually an aphrodisiac ???

ik he wouldn't do anything like that against mc's will but however, in the instance that it was consensual, would your nails even dry fast enough before the shit started to kick in ?? like what if you're too horny to function before the polish dries ??? then what

imagine being such a bad cook that you fuck up sandwiches. LUNCH. MEAT. SANDWICHES. are you not embarrassed?

also how is mc getting from place to place to place so fast ??? teleportation ???? bc in the og timeline it kinda makes sense, though i feel like they'd be more tired than they are rn. in nb though? it makes no sense at all considering the fact that their powers are consistently weakening. which makes me think that this is either the og timeline or some undisclosed au

uncontrollably sobs. curls up into a ball and dies. implodes into a black hole.

i love sappy sentimental satan I LOVE CHARACTER GROWTH. the thing is, this can be said about the satan from either timeline. nb satan was more mentally and emotionally unstable, but that doesn't mean satan from the og timeline(s) didn't feel just as isolated as this satan did, if not even more so

imagine still not feeling like you belong after living with your "brothers" for millenia? having to act like you're ok and fine with constant isolation and ostracization from the people you want to love, the people which want to love you, but being unable to find common ground and pushing each other away even more than before

THEN SAY I LOVE YOU BACK 😐 i hate this man but i also love him but i also hate him but i also. more on this here bc i rambled too much

i couldn't NOT add my man like c'mon

maybe he clings to them so much because he knows they won't judge him offhandedly like his brothers do? bc they won't assume the worst of him at first glance? idk i feel like, other than the obvious reasons, there's more behind why he busts into mc's room unannounced all the time. being alone with self-deprecating thoughts is hard, and having someone else to fill the silence and the negative space with something positive does help

or maybe i'm reading too far into this and being biased bc thats my man

even if the throne wasn't based around bloodline, unless they become immortal, they wouldn't be able to be next in line anyways 😭 mc is nawt passing those trials diavolo went through either. no ma'am

the king's crucible ?? is that what it was called ???

honestly i can't lie, mc being the center of the world bc they're the center of the boys' world is cute. corny, but cute

damn they're that sexy ??? bringing everyone who meets them to their knees

minus luke obv

i wanna meet michael...i'm tryna see sum

and bring god and the demon king down while you're at it too...🫣

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poggieking3 · 5 months

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piping hot take! i do not really like PTSD being thrown around with the main 4 (mario, 3, 4, and meggy). i have C-PTSD so i can say shit on this. 4 nearly DIED in that castle and was left traumatized, meggy was mentally AND psychologically tortured for AT LEAST a month straight, mario has his own demons i'm SURE, and 3 is on his way getting more trauma. give these guys a BREAKKK they've gone through way too much, how much else are they going to take.

whole fucking rant under the cut

like, okay please don't get me wrong here. i like puzzlevision, i actually really like him. he is interesting, his character his interesting, i love his character design, his personality. i fear that this mini series will end up having 1 or multiple of the main 4 getting traumatized, and then have it never touched on again. this happened to meggy DEADASS like her trauma was never mentioned again after western spaghetti. wren easily fucked her up for LIFE. and it's just? forgotten...?

like holy shit i wish PTSD was handled more accurately in this series, especially as of recently. i like how melony's was handled. she was grieving deeply for axol and helped herself cope by adopting her pet axol jr and taking care of it, and keeping axol's memory alive. meggy was grieving deeply for desti and trained hard to fulfill desti's wish and win the splatfest, also keeping desti's memory alive. 4's castle trauma also was done right. bro was having a whole bipolar manic episode and was SUFFERING from his own nonexistent self-worth and self-esteem, and was taken advantage of completely by puzzlevision. he watched EVERYTHING around him crumble. he watched HIMSELF crumble and was an outside witness to it, with no control. then, meggy being tortured and killed over and over and OVER again is quickly forgotten about, just like that???

i love PTSD representation in media. i cherish it. it makes me feel seen. i'm just. upset how wren fucking RUINED meggy's life by torturing her over and over, killing her, making her lose her sanity and trust, and then it's. never mentioned again. she has hands down gone through THE WORST of the entire cast. i fucking know what it's like to have my life ruined by people, multiple people in my damn case. i did not go through what she did, but if my trauma was cast off to the side after the movie it occurred in i'd be MAD for sure!

i've talked about how i'd handle meggy's trauma. after wren broke her fucking mind, she'd be coping EXTREMELY poorly because of how much she endured. she'd be inconsolable. she'd be emotionally unstable and lash out. she'd feel threatened by tiny inconveniences because they'd remind her of what wren put her through. she'd be terrified of male inklings. she'd have CONSTANT nightmares since every day in that simulation, she woke up in bed remembering each fashion wren killed her in. she'd pat her chest and stomach, scared she got shot again. she'd have panic attacks hearing guns go off. something as small as a southern accent could set alarms off in her head.

if i had a nickel for every time meggy's life was threatened by a villainous man hellbent on scarring her for life, i'd have 2 nickels, which is weird how it happened twice. she wasn't even safe ON HER OWN VACATION?

i just don't get how the movie pretty much made her suffer repeatedly and there's nothing as small as a reference to her trauma in the current episodes? we saw her fight off wren in that tier list 3 and 4 made together because 3 said she has plot armor. but that's it!

put the solar system bitches in a series of happy, wholesome filler episodes and PRONTO. give these guys a trillion dollars in compensation each. imma be real upset if, after the puzzlevision series, the trauma relating to it is never heard of again, ESPECIALLY given that puzzlevision's been a prominent threat for a solid year now

luke and kevin i love you both saur much i just. clenches fist to myself.

#smg4

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pianocat939 · 1 year

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Ok so for my multi-part series survey the results ended up with a 60.2% for Rise turtles-

Which isn't surprising considering my content-

Anyway-

I have some monsters already as an idea-

Disclaimer: I'm planning to have this more horror-leaning than my usual works + Age is kinda not set for the characters because for one thing they're probably immortal monsters. Two, some of the roles wouldn't make sense if they were teenagers- nothing nsfw- but like for example: being a widow. It just wouldn't make sense.

I'm not going to assign them to characters yet

Futakuchi-Onna (Double-mouthed lady). She's a woman who eats little and thus due to the negative energy, develops a second mouth on the other side of her head. Literally it would be really weird if I didn't put in Japanese monsters bcs I love them- and in my opinion, a lot of them are really scary. I'm planning to have this character be like a widow who's so emotionally unstable of being alone, ends up developing obsessive qualities once MC meets them.

(This is like super obvious to who it goes to- and to be fair I researched certain monsters for the sake of assigning it to this character) The Black Charro- basically a demonic horseman who wears all black and goes up to bad people offering wealth in return for their soul. I'm planning to have MC who accidentally encounters the Charro, and denies his offer no matter how much he tries.

Bunny Man. Basically a man who murders people in a tunnel under a bridge while wearing a bunny costume (No it's not William Afton). Their bodies are hung over the bridge apparently. I'm thinking the bunny man spares MC at first, and in a later time frame shows up around their house at night multiple times.

Nishi Daak. An evil spirit who can lure in victims by masking their voice as a victim's loved one. They can only call out the victim's name twice. MC gets lured by them at first, but right before the Nishi Daak can strike, they get distracted by an actual friend/loved one. Nishi Daak gets pissy and tries to get MC in their true form.

Also- I want to know if people want me to add in other characters as love interests- other than the turtles I mean.

#yandere #yandere x reader #yandere rottmnt #rottmnt #yandere tmnt #rottmnt x reader #tmnt x reader #tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles

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mrsshabana · 2 years

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Anonymous asked:

“Amo tus fanfics, de verdad, cuando vengo cansada del trabajo los leo y me animo

En cuanto a tus futuros trabajos estoy deseando leer ese AU Nurse y el canon!!

¿Nos puedes contar algo más?”

Awww tysm! That makes me so happy to hear! ♪(^∇^*)

Honestly the nurse au and the canon fics I started, I am really excited about. And I have lots of fun ideas for them, I just don’t have enough time to dedicate to them right now. As I have 3 fics that I am updating. So, who knows when I will post them. I have this habit of making my fics very long, so maybe if I can learn how to shorten things, that will help me.

But I can totally tell you more about them!

Nurse AU: This au was heavily inspired by the Asylum season of American Horror Story. I want to make it very disturbing in the same kind of way. And really focus on the darker side of Gyutaro, and some of the mental health issues he has. He is going to be a very difficult patient to deal with. He is very manipulative, doesn’t care for others feelings, is emotionally unstable, and has a distorted self image. In this fic he has Antisocial Personality Disorder as well as Borderline Personality Disorder. But he has more BPD symptoms. His doctors are going to try many things to help him, even though most of the staff has already given up on him. As his health only is getting worse and he has many medical issues. Maybe some of the doctor’s will even resort to more primitive methods of treatment…

Canon AU: As for the canon fic I started, this one has been so fun to write. I actually feel like it is my best writing yet. I’ll give you a gist of how it goes. You were born into the entertainment district, your mother being a courtesan. But instead of being fully Japanese, you are only half. Your father is a foreigner so you have a unique appearance compared to the other girls in the district. Because of this reason, your mother believes that as a foreign looking woman, you will be able to fulfill a fetish for the men in the district. She ends up selling you to the Kyogoku house, and in return uses the money to pay her own debts so she can leave the district. Of course Gyutaro is lurking around, and he is intrigued by your unique appearance. And he grows a twisted obsession with you. I won’t go into detail about what he ends up doing. But I had plans for this fic to coincide with the entire story of Demon Slayer. Where Gyutaro doesn’t die and the entire outcome of the story is drastically changed.

I chose to make the reader half foreign so it would be more relatable. As I am pretty sure that the majority of people who read my fics are not Japanese. I wanted you to be able to imagine yourself in this universe in a more realistic way. And Gyutaro is attracted to your uniqueness. Whether it be your hair, skin, eyes, etc. I don’t specify what the unique thing is so everyone can kind of imagine it in their own way, and fit themselves into the story. Plus I'm mixed irl so I thought I could include some of the things I've experienced

Anyway, I love both of these fics I’ve started and I’d love to post them one day. Maybe after I finish the band au or the pet au. We’ll see. Let me know what you think! 💚

#gyutaro #gyutaro shabana #gyutaro x reader #gyutaro x y/n #replies #nurse au #canon

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tatiejosie · 1 year

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28 for Bella

ohohhhhh boy thank u for asking!!!!!

28. Top ten things that you love about your blorbo

• She's so pretty uwu <3 Her heterochromia is a really cool touch to her character design, and I love the punk 90s milf look. I'm using this opportunity to point out that Bella is unusually tall for a woman, but you can rarely notice it because Mandrake is the main Tall Bitch of the film, and there are few other adult humans to compare. I also very much enjoy her looks because she is Very Shaped and as much as I'm looking respectfully, I am most certainly still Looking. She's making it very hard not to look. [The film also never uses her looks to demean her character, but that's just Ghibli for you. Respect women juice has been dranken]

• She shamelessly reclaims her unusual appearance. Messy blue hair, mismatched eyes, pointy nose, massive stature and you won't see a hint of insecurity in this woman. She's glamorous and happily high-maintenance (wears makeup everyday, sharp manicured nails, hair-curlers routine), straying out of mainstream beauty standards whenever she feels like it (vibrant makeup colours, mismatched eyeshadow, bright high-heeled boots, skull earrings). Note the high contrast between the orphanage's matron and Bella. That woman sticks out like a sore thumb but she's oozing with confidence.

• She's not afraid of dirty labour and gross things. Look at her holding the damn slug with her bare hands and putting her entire arm into the gross gunk of her table without an ounce of disgust. She's not some dainty wimp who's afraid of chipping her perfectly manicured nails on the carcass of a roadkill. She's part of the primordial soup and she has no fucks to give.

• She is SO capable and versatile. Non-gentle reminder that Bella Yaga has been single-handedly managing the household; daily chores such as laundry, shopping, cooking (the artbook states that Bella is a great cook), probably cleaning to a certain extent; working on magic and the chores that come with it, foraging and gathering plants, processing the raw materials, preparing the spells and potions; and managing her spell business while maintaining her clientele and deliveries? And that's just the chores thing, but there's the whole bookkeeping aspect of maintaining the household and her business. Clearly Mandrake uses the demons card for any possible task, but she cannot do that, and the end credits show that Mandrake is only starting to learn how to cook! Bella is also the one who drives the car, and she seems to have the skills to repair it as well according to the credits. So yeah TLDR Bella is the housewife, the breadwinner, the Mom Friend, the Beer Dad, the Vodka Aunt, and the most reliable person of the house. We love a multitasking queen

• She's hot-headed and seemingly immune to bullshit - you're not getting away with being a treacherous little bitch without experiencing the Smack Of The Century. She also doesn't seem to be receptive to Earwig's manipulative ass trying to sweet-talk her way into practicing magic; I'm on the fence about the morality of Earwig's controlling behaviour so it's nice to have at least one character who doesn't fall for her bullshit.

• She's officially described as a skilled magician, even to demon standards! She has a whole ass notebook with hand-written spells that she probably crafted herself. And considering that the book looks childishly girly and worn-out, we can assume that she started writing in this notebook when she was a child.

• She's considerate and emotionally intelligent enough to live with and manage an unstable demon. Idk if that really counts as a quality because that's very much a fear response from abusive behaviour but hey, Mandrake loses his shit very easily and she's able to interact with him on a daily basis without dying so that's pretty girlbossy in my book. She seems supportive of him and obviously cares for him and his comfort, even if he's difficult. [Note that in the book, she does fight back when Mandrake assaults her]

• She's one of the queerest characters of the Ghibli pantheon. Excentric and glamorous, skilled beyond classic gender roles. She was ambiguously involved with Earwig's mother and Mandrake. Her husband is the twink of all times. She's the gruff drummer who starts the bar fight and WINS the bar fight, she's the blunt auntie who shittalks your parents with her cigarette hanging off her lip.

• She's a professional drummer and Mandrake thinks she's really skilled. Drumming takes a highly efficient coordination and an incredible sense of rhythm. Drummers are human metronomes with the stamina of a beast - they're the backbone of their band along with the bassist and yet they're always placed in the back of the stage bc otherwise they'll be too noisy and drown out the rest of the band. Managing to be both the brawn who bangs like a caveman, and the galaxy brain who maintains the entire song's tempo. Drummers are the unsung heroes hidden in the dark, carrying the weight of the drumline. That's Bella Yaga for you. /lh

• She still gets flustered when she's shown affection. That's it that's the thing I can't be normal about

Thank you so much for allowing me to be cringe about this specific blorbo, I love Bella very much and I feel that she deserves more love <3

#if anyone manages to read the whole thing im kissing you #earwig and the witch #bella yaga #.bella #ghibli

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Chapter 44 really was amazing!✨️

The Sukuna POV was an emotional rollercoaster except the rollercoaster is on fire and everone is screaming. He is so mentally unstable... Sugur might have won their fight, but Sukuna is winning the "my POV is a mental breakdown" contest (not much of a victory). Like he asks Yuuji if he thinks there is more beneath the surface and expect "no" because he knows how he presents himself and is not even willing to aknowledge that peaople are wrong??? He wants to be a one dimensional charicature so bad... Yikes.

Also he has such theatre kid energy! Everything is a performance with him in such a delightfully devastating way! Giving everyone nicknames to pretend that he doesn't know their names, only for Yuuji to call him out on the fact that he knows who Megumi is? Iconic. Defending the throne of skulls? Peak evil former theatre kid moment.

Sukuna really is putting a lot of effort into this act as a demon with a god complex. Quite a tiring act to hold onto for a millennium... He seems to be aware that he uses his god complex to hide his true feelings when he is lying to others, but when it comes to lying to himself using his persona as King of Curses he seems willfully oblivious. Or at least he was until Suguru used Divine Judgement on him and forced him to face himself and the fact that he is miserable and anyone with enough emotional intelligence sees him as miserable (like Yuuji), not as a god/vengeful spirit/demon crawling from hell/whatever else.

The fact that Yuuki knows that Sukuna is miserable but doesn't want to empathise with him is so... fair enough from Yuuji, like my poor sweet sunshine child deserves to be mad for everything Sukuna did to him and Toge, but also I am reluctantly annoyed because Kenjaku would be so smug about this and he doesn't deserve any second of enjoyment in life.

The new deal Yuuji made with Sukuna is certainly something. Also Sukuna panicking about dying even if he blames it on Yuuji, but also thinking (or refusing to think) that he will finally die is so interesting. King of having emotional inteligence but never using it to deal with his own emotions (valid).

Sukuna thinking about Yuuji's grandfather's last words and how certain he is that they are about him. That will be a devastating revelation, especially for poor Yuuji who just got the world's worst roomate living in his head. Kenjaku should have gotten hit by Mahito with that car.

The fact that Sukuna would have hugged him (even if he denies it to himself)? Peak sad wet poor little meow meow behavior.

"Can you writhe in agony a little quieter?" —> I would say Yuuji killed him with this, if not for "That once upon a time, someone loved you."

The "Don't leave me" that Sukuna will ignore because he is unstable and wants to only have 3 emotions.

I laughed out loud for a full minute at the crocodile story, I can't believe Sukuna randomly decided to help with that. "You limited yourselves with this esoteric plot"🤣 The kids going along with the story he invented too! Sukuna seems like someone that was fond of art, maybe once he gets over the whole being evil thing he can use that one minute he got from the deal to write poetry or something. Yuuji is also fond of drawing and stories now that I think about it. He is also emotionally intelligent like Sukuna. Definetly a weird coincidence.🤔

Sukuna being impressed? by the fact that Shoko would eat an entire tray of cupcakes meant for her children was kind of cute. "Good for her" —> I agree, she deserves it.

Yuuta hearing that Toge was hurt and instantly deciding to move to his school and abandon the "homeschooled by a former cult leader" life, peak gay behavior. You really managed to show his intensity and his progress with that decision.

"The fuck is wrong with you, by the way? You're cursed or something?" —> King of Curses and King of Tact and approaching sensitive subjects with care and understanding.

Poor Megumi? My boy is going through it.

The Tsumiki and Nobara friendship!✨️I am so happy you decided to give Tsumiki an arc! Nobara seeing that the perfect Tokyo girl also has problems of her own is so good for her. Tsumiki seeing that you can be combative and still have friends will be nice for her as well. They can learn so much from each other!✨️

Satoru finally meets his other kids! I am so happy for him and his horrible highlighter clothes. Yuuta even called him dad!✨️The Geto kids joining the training sessions will be good for them, especially Nanako and Mimiko who still need to let go of the stuff Suguru taught them in his post kfc breakup era.

"Satoru slips on his vivid shoes. They’re not so bad once you get used to them! Yuuta’s eyes are totally numb now." Forget killing a little girl for money, Toji's worst act clearly was telling Satoru that orange should be his favorite color encouraging him to wear eye burning neon everywhere.

Satoru's dented traffic cone fashion taste 🤝 Suguru's horrible knitting skills

i am so happy you liked it!! SADFGHJK i feel like sukunas entire EXISTENCE is an emotional rollercoaster, good god this man is a trainwreck. you’re so right, the rollercoaster is on fire, there are no seatbelts in sight, and it’s a never-ending vertical loop. he somehow has getou beat in the mental illness department, which is honestly a feat worthy of praise. or therapy. probably both. he asks questions he knows he’ll get the wrong answer to then gets hurt by those answers, but just keeps asking anyway for the twisted hope someone will see through his facade. he’s such a fucked up theater kid. it’s all a lie, it’s all a performance, but where does it end? how much of it has actually become his real identity in his pursuit to be perceived as such? i don’t think even sukuna knows.

you put it so well — he realizes he’s lying, but to some extent refuses to confront it: either by ignoring the contradictory turmoil inside him or embracing the fact that he’s a liar without acknowledging what he’s lying about. sukuna has a complex past with lying, and we’ll see more of it in his next pov as well as its origins when his backstory is revealed.

yuuji, my poor sweet sunshine. yeah, i agree that it sucks how kenjaku is right — at least at first. he was correct in believing yuuji would make sukuna fall apart, but, perhaps he hasn’t foreseen that yuuji could also be the only one who can put him back together…sukuna on some level realizes this, but he refuses to acknowledge it because that would require admitting he both wants and needs yuuji’s help. but you’re so right, he’s too sad and wet and pathetic to address it as things currently are.

so. that may take time. yuuji is still very resentful, and is having his beliefs challenged for the first time. their new binding vow certainly doesn’t help with it, especially since sukuna immediately antagonized yuuji with it and drove him away from his loved ones further. which of course means they’re stuck with just each other!! an interesting predicament, especially since sukuna wants yuuji’s attention so badly but gets hurt by yuuji every time he actually gets it. wow they’re a mess. god they make me unwell

sdfghjk sorry i always go off when it comes to yuuji & sukuna, they’re def in my top 5 favorite duos in the story. but wahh inuokko have my heart too <333 (though i guess both of them now have different surnames in this story….) yuuta is so accepting, and he finally feels like he understands someone else’s predicament for once, both relating to yuuji and megumi. and yet, both of them are distancing themselves from him and from their own feelings. yuuta has quite the task ahead of him for sure.

and so does nobara! proud of her for offering to help, and for accepting tsumiki’s imperfections, because it comes closer to her realizing even the dignified tokyo girls she admires are just people too.

i snorted at your last two comments lmao. so real, toji really encouraged gojo’s bad fashion in the sweetest yet worst way and now getou’s terrible knitting will make it worse. so happy for all of them.

thanks for reading!!!

#tpg

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malka-lisitsa · 9 months

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Star wars Headcanon: Katherine's BPD

@sithdestined brought up a point about the resources and training Katherine would have gotten as Katerina while with the jedi order, so I want to touch a little on the differences in her BPD for this verse.

Unlike her TVD main verse, Katherine spent a lot longer in this 500+ year life span as Katerina than she did in her canon universe, and ALSO never knew her father.

Because of this Katherine's bpd stems less from an abuse root, and more instability in her life when she was younger. Lack of needs being met, and circumstances that lead to abandonment issues.

Katerina had a more mild case of BPD to start, and when she joined the Jedi order, she was given training that helped her manage her emotions and emotional responses as a whole. How to rationalize and talk herself out of a spiral. Essentially A CBT therapy training.

This helped Katerina immensely while she was in the order and worked with regularly to keep herself in check, and with very little in the way of opportunities for abandonment triggers, Katerina did really well in her environment.

It wasn't till she met and fell in love with Stefan that her BPD symptoms started to act back up. There was suddenly someone so incredibly important in her life that she was capable of losing, and this often triggered her abandonment issues and ultimately lead to her choice to leave the Order for love.

While she was with Stefan he was incredibly good at meeting her needs and took very good care of her, so Katerina's BPD symptoms were highly manageable again in her still mild case.

It's not until she LOST STEFAN and the spiral there after that lead to some incredibly shitty situations that resulted in a lot of traumatic events, did Katerina's BPD move from a mild case to an extreme one.

Her emotional regulation was next to zero, trust issues sky rocketed, paranoia, for a while she had all 9 symptoms in her little bpd infinity gauntlet. Luckily her desire to live returned after a very short time, with the reminder that Stefan wouldnt want her to go before her she was meant to. - Once again survival instincts set to max.

It was in this time period's unstable grief spiral that Katherine changed her identity and also made a lot of enemies. Impulsivity, paired with zero emotional regulation, and rage tends to land you on a lot of people's shit list.

Eventually, Katherine evened out and her spiral ended with her in a delightful chaotic neutral alignment, and a lot of trust issues.

However unlike her canon universe counterpart- Katherine had prior training on how to help regulate her emotions. Now out of her spiral, Katherine does a lot better with her emotional reactions than canon Katherine does.

This Katherine can and will get up and walk away BEFORE she acts or reacts on her anger. It is her first step to emotionally regulating herself. She also will try to talk herself out of a spiral if her abandonment issues are triggered. Katherine tries to rationalize the actions of others before her brain takes them and runs with some demonized story of how they hate her and are going to betray her.

Keep in mind, these tactics do NOT always work, she very well may slip up and fail to regulate herself, but UNLIKE canon Katherine, SW Katherine at least has the tools to TRY, and there for isn't quite as reactionary as her canon counterpart.

That being said her white hot rage is still the same, and the way she reacts violently is just as probable should she fail to regulate herself after a trigger.

Thank you for coming to my ted talk.

#the one and only... sort of: ooc #verse: star wars au #headcanon

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lumilasi · 2 years

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I decided he deserves his own ref post. Currently his ref is included together with my birb siblings, when he kinda has nothing to do with them lol

He has that swirly pattern on his knees as well, where the two skin colors meet. I was too lazy to showcase it in this ref tho, given usually his outfit covers his knees anyway.

Bio below:

Name: Konjou Nakano (first name means willpower)

Nicknames: Kon/Kon-chan (his bf) Thorn boy/thorn demon (people when they don't know his name) Forest spirit/forest god (Jinchou & Homura, before they knew who/what he was exactly)

Age: 31, but his human body is stuck in the state it was when he was 19, mainly meaning he's shorter than he should/has no facial hair, and is generally somewhat immature for someone that age.

Height: 164 cm (human) roughly 50 cm as Bikou

Son of the witch Belladonna with chimeric, unstable magic powers

Role: Initially Belladonna's familiar (as Bikou) later a wild card character, once he returns into human form and runs away. Mostly he attempts to fight his half-brother.

Family: Mother Belladonna/Saori Nakano, unknown father, cousin Kiyoi, half brother Yaguro/Asahi Hino. Nephew Kousai & niece Chiyuri (in the future), Foster father figure Angus, Grandfather figure Hanzoku/Ryoushi

Love Interest: Amnesiac Soul eater Jinchou & his bodysharing Soul-born-spirit Homura. (Long story short; Homura was born from a piece of Jin's soul, and is his own person, acting as sort of a familiar for Jinchou)

Friends: Yume, Chouma, Murasaki siblings & their bathhouse staff (post-main story)

Powers:

Konjou has 3 types of powers, none of which are technically natural to him, and only one that could've been:

Forest witch magic - specifically his vines. He can summon vines from his body and form them into any shape, size and length he wants, use them as offensive weapon, form them into defensive shield, and even use them as transportation for climbing/swinging himself around. He can also grow flowers on them, mostly roses whose color indicates his mood. (black - angry, blue - sad, red - in love, white - happy/content, gray - scared). Konjou can also inject his vine seeds inside things and damage them from within - including living things.

Shadow elemental magic - Allows him to shapeshift between human and a shadow wisp, though mainly this is done against his will by Belladonna. Can traverse through shadows, and even form vines from shadows instead of using his forest witch magic. These vines are weaker though. They are more useful for the internal attacks as they can slip into things easier than the more solid vines.

Reverence - The primary power of the antagonists and main villain of this oc group. Konjou can spread decaying/rotting energy of "Reverence" from his vines.

WEAKNESSES:

Due to the unstable nature of Konjou's powers, using them tends to cause him pain, especially since the vines come from within his own body and are attached to him. Tearing them doesn't harm him per say, but it really hurts. Sometimes he even starts bleeding from the seams of his two skin colors. (which is where the vines are emitted)

He's very mentally and emotionally volatile due to his abusive/neglectful parenting, and might lash out and hurt people even when he doesn't mean to. He's also socially awkward, and even after his life and condition improves, he tends to struggle forming connections with new people.

PERSONALITY:

Konjou is very temperamental and easily angered person, who has very conflicted and bitter feelings towards most people in his life due to his neglectful and traumatizing childhood. This causes him to often be at odds with them, whether warranted (Belladonna) or not (Kiyoi).

Despite his easily flaring temper and aggressive nature, Konjou does crave genuine connections with people, and is extremely protective and easily scared over the well being of those he does love.(Jinchou/Homura)

He is very curious about the world due to being confined for most of his childhood, and very eager to try new things, even take stupid risks because he is somewhat naive/has a poor sense of self-preservation.

Overall, he is bit of an angry, anxious mess who's somewhat mentally immature due to his past, but deep down has a good heart and really just wants people to care about him.

FUN FACTS:

Konjou tends to feel envious over his cousin Kiyoi, feeling his mother is using him to replace him. This causes him to lash out at his cousin, even when he knows none of this is Kiyoi's fault. (He tends to feel bad afterwards)

Konjou LOVES spicy food. The spicier the better.

Despite supposedly being the older brother, Yaguro often acts like the mature older sibling between the two, understandably so.

Konjou's slightly weird, malnourished looking waist is a birth defect.

Out of all the adults in his life that essentially failed him (his mum, Hanzoku, Angus), the only one whose death made him genuinely sad was Angus. (it was still complicated, because Konjou knows how much of a bad person he was/he did play a part in his awful childhood, namely for not doing more to help him when he could have)

Once freed from his mother's control, Konjou's eyes turn into more normal looking human eyes (still yellow) and he loses the ashy skin patches. The vine pattern stays.

Between the two, Konjou is closer with his niece as he feels awkward around shy Kousai.

He does start aging properly eventually, though mainly he just grows facial hair and calms down a bit; he's still stuck being short

BG STORY:

Konjou was born as sickly and weak child with no powers, pretty much opposite of what his mother had wanted. She chooses to keep him still, working to improve his health and give him the magic powers she wanted. The issue is, she never asked him if he wanted them & the process has been very painful and long.

Most of his childhood was spent in pain, his body slowly trying to adapt to the changes the magic infusion was doing. She had some medicinal help for his pains from a man working with his mother, a foreigner called Angus Belmont. Konjou developed a parental bond of sorts with the man, often even preferring to stay near him rather than his mother.

The infusion and experiments eventually became too much to him, causing Konjou to lash out at his mother more and more, until one day he almost killed her, "forcing" Belladonna to transform into a shadow wisp spirit, to protect herself. Instead of bringing him back like she'd initially meant to, Belladonna chooses to keep him in this friendlier form for years, making him forget who he was. '

Konjou lived most of his following years as the shadow wisp familiar "Bikou," until the talk about the other son of his father trying to hunt Belladonna down triggered his memories, causing her spell to reverse. Before he could be subdued, Konjou escapes, his initial intention being to go and kill this other child for threatening his mother, given his life did depend on her (and some complicated psychological stuff).

After his escape, he meets an amnesiac artifical soul eater Jinchou (and his Soul-born spirit companion Homura) who nurtures him back to health as he'd passed out due to exhaustion and not having eaten for days. The trio become close, and the pair help Konjou to locate this dangerous moth spirit he was after. Howeever, during the fight against him, Konjou is taken aback by the genuine concern Yaguro shows him upon hearing him ramble out pieces about his past, causing him distress.

Homura & Jinchou step in to help with the fight, but it gets fully interrupted by Angus, who was sent to ho and find him. After subtly threatening Konjou about Jin, the boy begrudgingly agrees to go back, as long as Angus promises not to tell Belladonna about Jinchou and Homura, and she wouldn't turn him back into a spirit. Angus agrees to the former, but is unable to really promise the latter, as it depended on how he behaved towards her.

Jinchou & Homura are left heartbroken by him leaving, and also determined to get him back. Yaguro and his witch companion Yume suggest to the pair that they could join them in trying to find the headquarters of the group Konjou was staying with. They refuse however, wanting to find him on their own, not trusting the pair after their fight.

Konjou begrudgingly chooses to behave, no longer lashing out to his mother while still plotting on running again as soon as he can, to go find Jinchou. In the end though, Jinchou and Homura find him, never having forgotten Konjou despite their tendency for memory loss due to their condition.

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