#it's a never ending cycle

[thewordsarestuckinmyhead]

just when i think i've cleaned up the plot of my novel, some other plot hole randomly appears, whole scenes turn into useless nonsense, and i realise i haven't mentioned anything in the first half about a key factor that would assist in the entire resolution, making it seem not only implausible, but frivolous and nonsensical!

[readingismyhobby24]

Me: I'm going to watch YouTube

*opens tumblr*

Me: I'm going to write a fic!

*opens tumblr*

Me: I'm going to go play a video game

*opens tumblr*

Me: I'm going to do something productive with my life

*opens tumblr*

[wunderflammer]

It's a simple formula:

- I listen to an episode of Welcome to Night Vale every day while I get ready for work.

- I get too close to the newest episode.

- I stop listening to Welcome to Night Vale to "save up episodes for later."

- Months go by.

- I return to Welcome to Night Vale, beginning at a much earlier episode/story arc.

- I am flooded with dopamine and nostalgia.

- I listen to an episode of Welcome to Night Vale every day while I get ready for work.

- Repeat ad infinitum.

[3leafstem]

And then without the background because I'll never be happy with a bg ever

[zykamiliah]

Me: i will remind everyone of sj's crimes, specially the unwarranted child abuse of multiple victims

Also me: but let's remember that he has a fucked up life so that's to blame too

Me: BUT it was his choices what damned him!

Also me: choices made bc he has a lot of unresolved trauma and the worst coping mechanisms and also he has no friends

Me: but he could be smarter about his own survival!

Also me: he's learned he's worth nothing and also his self esteem is very fragile bc of this and it fuels his poor decision making

Me: but-

Also me: FUCKING DAMNIT HE'S A COMPLEX VILLAIN THIS IS WHAT MXTX WAS WARNING US ABOUT

[maleficore]

Sceleritas: Oh Master, consider the tiny mishap with the bard you had the last time we met.

Sceleritas: Your unconscious, clever mind hungers for extreme violence.

Sceleritas: Who knows you might kill next if you do not satisfy your Urge?

This bit of dialogue from Sceleritas fucks me up so bad. As Durge (unless you're metagaming for a particular outcome instead of going full roleplay) you're being placed before an impossible choice. Do you kill dozens of people by taking out Isobel or risk taking the blade to one of your companions again?

You know you can't control yourself fully so the threat is not empty. And you definitely care about your companions more than you do about a bunch of Harpers you've just met. But there may also be the tieflings involved, mostly children. Sparse in numbers now, but still people you've once saved. Was all that for nothing because now you might need to sacrifice them all? Do they tip the scale? How much is too much? What price are you willing to pay for your friends' safety and your own peace of mind?

"What is the worth of a single mortal's life?"

You and your companions are fighters, you have a mission. Fate of legions more people depends on you taking out the Absolute. Can you truly afford the risk? Whose survival is more important? Yes the Harpers may be valuable allies, but you are the ones with the prism. Without the party they don't stand a chance.

I hate how that's not ever touched upon properly in the game.

Killing or sparing Isobel is the only path-defining choice for Durge until the end of their personal quest and is treated as reference for their entire attitude towards being a bhaalspawn in act 3 no matter what other dialogue choices you make. Kill her and you more than embrace your heritage, you revel in what you are. Any other choices made up to that point are immediately voided.

But what if you did it out of fear? What if the "prize" you were awarded for it in the form of the Slayer terrifies you even more than the Urge itself? Which is a feeling you are able to express, but it holds exactly zero value because there's only two paths for you to take and nuance is not allowed. Why are you not able to express regret and have that matter? Not to mention that if Isobel dies due to unforeseeable consequences of other actions, it's still treated as if you went up the stairs and dug a knife in her back when nobody was looking because you simply felt like it.

Yes sacrificing Last Light is not the choice of a perfectly good aligned hero, but it is also not something only a villain would do. People make terrible choices when there's an axe raised over the nape of their neck and where the Urge is concerned Durge has absolutely no close confidants or support system who could help them make a better one.

The foundations of a complex character are there and every time I notice the game fumbling like this, railroading into an evil/good binary despite that, it ruins my fucking day.

[kalied0skull]

I did my skin care routine n now it burns 😞😞😞

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well maybe you shoulda ,, been more careful with ur skin 🤨 /t

[boy-oneder]

Am I ethically acquiring 2 tv shows just because there's an actor in it I'm obsessed with? Yes.

Am I going to watch either of said tv shows? Probably not.

[mother-of-houseplants-2]

every day i cycle between writing projects. i have a million writing projects. project a is my novel of course. then there’s mfa apps. that’s not really a project it’s just a task but if i frame it like a project then its easier to tackle! so that’s project b. project c is fanfiction (shameless) and project d is more fanfiction (riverdale) (yeah. sorry.) project e? poetry. and projects f-k are fanfiction (misc.). my wrists hurt. when will it end

[beneceadraws]

I'm currently in absolute Shadowheart drawing mode, and every time I draw her I have a new idea for her

[toomanyplotbunnies-sendhelp]

I have a little question for all writers (fanfiction writers or otherwise) on tumblr:

Is it normal to have a "peanut gallery" in your brain comprised of the characters you have in your WIP that kinda just watches your vivid scenarios and comments about it?

Like, say I am thinking of a fight scene, right? In my brain, I have both sides of the fight chilling on a comfy sofa, commenting like my vivid hallucinations are a sports event. For example:

Villain to the Hero: "That move was really smart for someone as dumb as you."

Hero at the Villain: "Well, you are lucky I don't want to kill you cause with that move right there, I could have taken your head off."

Like, really? Am I the only one whose brain works like this?

(Also I am pretty sure this is how reaction fanfics are born)

[ghula-herz]

Suche einen Song heraus, welcher zu deinem Charakter passt. Gern mit einer Textzeile welche du besonders passend findest. Erkläre warum gerade dieser Song 'Deiner' ist.

" I'm a nightmare dressed like a daydream"

(Blank Space - Taylor Swift, TV)

I would just like to quote someone aka @heartlostinsea here: "the beginning of evil"

[wereh0gz]

Wanting to exercise to feel less weak and have less joint pain -> not exercising bc I feel weak and have joint pain

[umilily]

okay, time to get my shit together for real and write my last report.

[catcatb0y]

Nothing like getting back into something you burnt out of a while back and realizing exactly why you ended up burning out last time.

[timove]

Felt tired the whole day, yet now that I can finally sleep I get this sudden rush of energy