#marie(android au)

[galaxyseclipse]

Space got me thinking about robot yuri

but this time I made it M4rie-flavored B) I don't even know if it would count as yuri, but w/e

I've got like a lot of lore now, it's been like what? three days?

unfortunately the brainworms escalate things very quickly

need to actually write it down, but y'know lol

[muaz2205]

Probably the most blursed fanfic idea i have

So here me out, what if Hero and Aubrey were Saiyans and had to deal with everything that entailed. And what if Sunny's dad took Goku's role in OG DB (albeit way older), but after the incident turned into a complete douche. And what if Mari was turned into an android by Gero post mortem to fuck with him after he killed Gevo?

Yes, I will be writing this, yes this will be on ao3. Will it be finished? I have no fucking idea.

Saiyan of Faraway: Timeline 2. An AU to an AU, that wants to be more accurate to DBZ as well as OMORI

Coming... whenever?

Btw ask me about the fic pls i need to write down ideas before i forget

[bokunoheros]

ཐིཋྀ KINKTOBER - day 12 squirting : shouta aizawa/eraserhead

warnings : afab reader, reader and aizawa are married, y’all have a cat, pussy slapping (pun probably intended), this is doo-doo dog shit, like this actually sucks, doo doo fart ass, dookie, poo poo fart, smegma, this fic reads like what sharting yourself feels like, this fic smells like the family bathroom at walmart, we’re fucking twelve (not literally), don’t expect anything else genuinely, butt, pretend this was never posted, PLEASE, day 12 is NOT REAL, THEY HIT THE PENTAGON— MR PRESIDENT GET DOW— bill gates did it, bill cypher is canon, squirting, fingering idk, eating ass, butthole rimming, 2024 election, ellen digestive did 9/11, Trump x Biden, 9/11, hilary emails included, proof of aliens existence, video footage of the area 51 raid, UFOs, alien butt sex, wrong usage of condoms, anal probing, biological dna harboring, sickle cell anemia, KLANCE is canon, Steven universe, major character death, gem fusions, love children, feel like cinderella naega byeonhae, NETFLIX ORIGIONAL, only on Hulu, Elsa x Jackfrost smut, playdough, me x YOU, tiana x nanami au, your mom x me, sarcamouche x kazuha, xiao x venti, improper use of crack cocaine, making herion, mentions of drug mules, dead dove: do eat, improper use of magic, meth making, cocaine balloons bursting, Harry Potter x Snape, hermoine x the whomping willow, herobrine x steve, unfortunate uses of pixels, bakudeku slime, hnnng harder daddy, mmhppgh— yeah yeah right there, cum consumption, cumflation, feeder fetish, oh yeah, koolaid man x me, very improper use of koolaid packets, nickacaco avocado weight loss journey, apology videos (tears included), , banjos, jake paul dcead body in forest footage (NOT CLICKBAIT), live leak posts, webtoon origional, anal stretching, did you know the human anus can stretch to the size of a raccoon?, now you know that, and also, the sun will explode June 17th, 3028, character flaws, bodily anatomy, your balls will explode on october 21st at 7:99am, my gleeby deeby ass, futurama, Micheal Angelo, improper use of abortions, medical surgery on a grape, plastic surgery, baby killing, tampon usage, description of endangered animal poaching, Mario Kart, tuberculosis, ima get it donnnne oh aye oh aye oh, butt stuff, dazai x chuuya, atsushi x akutagawa, mpreg, mad cow disease, omegaverse, ranpo x me, Dream SMP, matpat x scott cowthan, michael afton x freddy fazbear, aggressive typing, bath salts, bath salt inhalation, whippets, galaxy gas, all might is a bottom, skinny men, carrington x shigaraki, anorexia anorexia anorexia, afo x nana shimura, BLOODY MARY, BLOODY MARY, BLOODY MARY, TW gun law debates, tenko x mon, Amazon delivery, school shootings, talk of gun laws, bad dragon toys, silicon, aoyama belly button leaking, lego ninjago r34, ninja turtles r34, bloody mary r34, kamala harris r34, tenya iida x tensei iida, jesus x judas, luigi x bowser, sonic and shadow makeout sesh, i fuck your dad, suck his dick reallll nice, penis sounding with dirty twig, orgasm denial, overstimulation, xenotransplants, oviposition, diaper Taco Bell, people die, revival, dark magic, ecoterrorism, global warming, chemical warfare, wanda x the winter soldier, haruhi x tamaki suoh, cosmo x wanda, comicon, bronies, pegasisters, mentions of twilight sparkle dying, twiilight sparkle x mordecai, air planes, shootings stars, night skies, NLE Choppa, we could really use a wish bro, TuPac is back, floppa carts: plompy haze, death of a platform known as tumblr, twitter referred to as X, elon musk creates sex robot that specializes in butthole sex, Tesla sex robot, androids that FUCK, necrophilia, android phone usage, pheromones, premonitions and words of Jesus, divine intution, potion making, heavenly visions, satan, satanic visions, the heavenly principles, celestia is above mondstadt, spiritual healing, veganism, white washing, canon hispanic hanta sero, futanari, blasian mina ashido, bovine spongiforms, Tenya Iida virginity loss, bakugo is a fucking faggot, handjobs, footjobs, peaceful protests, the government is controlling you through vaccines, asian fishing,

vaccines might cause autism, freshwater fishing, they will, xenophobia, hentai hucows, incest, usage of slurs, starbucks coffee, lizards run the world, obama might be a lizard, inappropriate use of baby oil, gojo x getou, day twelve never existed and it was all a lie.

word count : 420k words and 69 pages

🐙 note : we are not locked in we are as loose as a ran through sorority president

🦊 note : i am. i have no words. idek what happened. we ran out of time so we went with the option we thought might make people giggle (no we didnt we did this bullshit for ourselves)(your regularly scheduled content will resume tmr!)

🪲 note : i ain’t fucking sorry

you adored your husband—shouta aizawa—so much so, that you were his dedicated housewife. he made plenty of money as a pro hero and… enough… as a teacher, so that left you to take care of the house and your shared cat. though when he did come home he was way different than he was at work, usually at work he was all nonchalant and cold but at home he was sweet and caring, sometimes even a bit rough. his students would definitely describe him as laid back and uninterested, yet when you were around they were in awe of his personality shift.

[inevitably-johnlocked]

Five Fics Friday: April 18/25

Happy Friday everyone! Hope you guys all enjoy what I've got for you this week!! Have fun!!

RECENT MFLs

Thicker Than Water by Lalaith_Yamainu (T, 2,748 w., 1 Ch. || Post S4, Older Rosie, Kidnapping, Threats of Violence, Family Feels) – John Watson might be Rosie's only blood relative. But that doesn't mean she doesn't have a family.

The Autumnal Reaper by JuniperAdler (E, 14,750+ w., 5/? Ch. || WiP || Serial Killer AU || Unresolved Sexual Tension, Serial Killers, Submission, Frottage, Drama, Dubious Consent, Hurt/Comfort, Seduction, Nudity, Fingering, Consent Issues, Bottom John) – John has found himself locked away in jail, convicted of crimes he didn't commit. He's getting out on a technicality where his friends are waiting for him to find the true killer. But is Sherlock hiding more than John could ever expect? And will John unveil things he wished he could keep in the dark?

Prior Engagements by PlaidAdder (T, 123,791 w., 27 Ch. || Parentlock, Action / Adventure, AGRA, Alternating POV, Established Relationship, Near Future, Sherlock is a Mess) – Years after Mary melted into the darkness, John and Sherlock are at their wits' end. Rachel Watson, aged nine, is about as difficult as you might expect a child raised by Sherlock Holmes and John Watson to be. But life is no picnic for Rachel, either. John won't even talk about her mother; and ever since Uncle Mycroft was assassinated, Sherlock just hasn't been himself. It doesn't help that the British government is in the hands of a gang of corrupt criminals. John finally decides that the right boarding school might give Rachel the structure she seems to need. It's not until Rachel disappears that he and Sherlock realize that someone else has had the same idea. Part 6 of Wild About Harry

The Night is Always Darkest Before Dawn by lawfulknightress (M, 244,526+ w., 36/? Ch. || WiP || Post-HLV, Parentlock, Angst, Kidnapping, First Time, Childhood, Fluff, Race Against Time, Uncle Mycroft) – Sherlock and John are faced with a challenge neither one of them could have imagined- raising a child on their own. Being the daughter of the great detective and his blogger, as some perks, including the occasional adventure and/or mishap. One day, though, problems come to a head, and will their family be able to weather the storm?

ANYTHING GOES (BOOKMARKED FIC)

Caffeine and Adaptive Programming by DemonicSymphony (E, 5,540 w., 1 Ch. || Androids AU / Bond Fusion || Android Sherlock, Coffee Shop AU, Pining John, Hinted Bond / Q, Toplock) – Sherlock is a coffee shop android slowly falling for a regular customer. But he's not supposed to be able to feel emotions.

[divnydoodles]

💗Revival H&H au character sketches + lore bits!

The StunStick, while essentially being an over-glorified taser strapped to a prybar, is crucial for the characters because it’s the only weapon proven to be fatal to the Security Henrys. It was assembled by a past mechanic who had left notes for future readers on how to survive the Arcadia androids. The device becomes prevalent throughout the story as it travels from hand to hand.

Any questions about the characters? Take it up with their creators! (Mari Faucher belongs to @cherrychan-0110, Frankie Keiths from @pringledraws, Viven Beaut and Foy Starrman from @cringey-tea, Devon Gould and Monty Spivak by @chrismangaming, and Tuuli Starling by moon_silkyx.x.x)

[dykekarkat]

tag game (even if i cannot bring myself to join bc of intense social awkwardness with such things):

could i get some crumbs of fae au? (●'◡'●)

or a more specific question; where on the spectrum would fae andrew fall— from minding his business but ready to drown someone in a creek when given the chance for the lols to does elaborate plans to mess with people and possibly eats someone...for the lols still? it's essential for pondering tonight (*ᵕᴗᵕ)⁾⁾ (i'm not gonna sleep, and yet still ignore all 4 aftg wips i got)

(also, android neil my beloved, that snippet with mary made me go feral for a hot minute...ugh, the inherent tragedy of them makes me ill /pos)

yayyy fae au!! tbh this wip is actually my most intimidating...getting fae characters right is so hard and sometimes i fear im not smart enough to really get the ring around the rosy manipulation type vibe that i want...but we persevere....

for andrew i think he's definitely more of a minds his business but if someone stumbles across him u best believe he's fucking with em for the lols. which tends to happen fairly regularly in the setting for this fic since neil is moving into a human village on the edge of andrew's forest. meaning there's a decent amount of interaction and lore within the village about the forest / how to be safe when traveling thru it / etc.

for example humans tend to leave andrew cakes or honey milk for safe passage. which andrew just kind of lets them think works because he thinks its slightly amusing (more amusing when they leave him food and he fucks w them / kills them anyway). he definitely enjoys messing with humans (especially when they're convinced they're safe or smarter than him) but he's got that boredom vs amusement issue occurring where it's too boring to seek out and only slightly amusing enough to do so when the opportunity arises.

which is not to say andrew wouldn't create elaborate plans to mess with people its just that he needs a good reason / interest to do so. and would u look at that the new guy is looking MIGHTY interesting.

[pleasantspark]

Fanfiction Masterlist

Note: This section is currently being updated, any FanFictions I post are here for Navigation. Color Codes are below.

Update (08/16/2024): For better viewing I decided to split the Oneshots and Series for now, Imagine/Headcanons are situated under the Oneshots section.

Update (08/24/2024): Dunno when I updated it, but I added a color code for WIPs and the like. Adding Drafts as well. Update (03/05/25): I finally decided to seperate the stories in a masterlist post, if this gets too much, then a Google Doc would be made, I also split everything up as well in it's neat little lines ahaha!~

Green: General Audience Orange: Teen Red: Unrated/Explicit White/Black: WIPs (Drafts)

Oneshots

How Frieza Implemented Gender Affirming Care on The Force (Zarbon x Saiyan! OC) A Horrifying Realization (Piccolo x Saiyan! OC) Oh Mary, Contrary How Does Your Garden Grow? (Vegeta x Reader) I Can't Imagine A Future Without You (Jeice x Zarbon's Daughter! OC) Little Blue Book (Vegeta x Majin! OC x Jeice) Premature (King Cold x Female Frieza Race! OC + Frieza + Cooler) Red Magma (Jeice x Cyborg! Zarbon's Daughter! OC) I Set Fire, To The Rain, Watch It Pour As I Touch Your Face (Blitz x Seraphina) From Afar (Pendleton x Reader) Mating Season (Cell x Bio-Android! OC) Robotic Heart (Android 16 x Majin! OC) An Alternative Reality (Gevo x Saiyan! OC x Android 16

Headcanons & Imagines

Ginyu Force Is Still Alive - Headcanon Zarbon is French - Headcanon Frieza Loves Pudding - Headcanon Human Jeice - Headcanon Frieza's Favorite Past Time - Headcanon Soulmate Imagine - Imagine If Frost Met Frieza's Wife - Imagine Why Jeice Didn't Went Pro - Headcanon Cooler With A AuDHD S/O - Headcanon Cooler With A AuDHD S/O (Coming Out) - Headcanon Cooler, Frieza, Cell and Ginyu (ERMWHATTHEHFIL!? Edition) with a diehard warrior - Headcanon Cult Leader! Cell | With A New Recruit - Headcanon & Imagine Cult Leader! Cell | Doubting Your Loyalty - Headcanon & Imagine Little Headcanons For Self Insert and Piccolo - Headcanon Cult Leader! Cell | Carrying The New Generation - Headcanon & Imagine My Cell Headcanons - Headcanons Cell With A Potential Partner - Imagine Raditz is Biologically King Vegeta's Son - Headcanon

Series

Forever & Ever Series (Frieza x FFR! OC): 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7 Addict Series (Frieza x OC, Human AU): 1 Little Kuriza Series (Frieza x Sayian! OC + Kuriza): 1, 2, 3 Three Ways To Love You, But I Want To Say It In One Series (Jeice x Zarbon's Daughter! OC): 1 Just Yours Series (Yandere! Ginyu Force x Zarbon's Daughter! OC): 1 Arranged Marriage Series (Salza/Thouser x Zarbon's Daughter! OC): 1 A Prize To Be Earned, Not Won Series (Salza/Thouser x Zarbon's Daughter! OC x Jeice): 1 Baby Daddy Zarbon Series (Zarbon + Daughter! OC / Zarbon x Saiyan! OC): 1 A Monster Has Vices, Too Series (Monster Form! Zarbon x Saiyan! OC): 1 Pink Eyes Series (Yandere! Cell x Saiyan! OC): 1, 2, 3 Apart of Your World Series (Yandere! Dragon Ball Ensemble x Saiyan! Isekai! OC): 1 LOYALTY. (Frieza x FFR! OC): 1 Strictly Business (King Cold x Saiyan! OC): 1, 2 A Tryst That Ended In Tragedy (King Cold x Saiyan! Pregnant! OC): 1, 2, 3

DBZ Related Fics.

This is a section I decided to use to put all my assorted DBZ Fics I wanted.

Champa's Autistic Daughter (Hit, Frost, Caulifa, Kale, and Cabba x Reader): 1 Coming Home (Latte x Various): 1, 2 Needy Subservient Makoshin (Degesu x Orion): 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8

Orion Magne's Custom Fics

Absolution: 1, 2

Commissioned Works

These are works that were commissioned. To Commission me just check my Kofi! ^^

@angelcritizes - Under The Influence (Mammon x Angel Dust)

Self Aware AU Fics

The self aware AU shorts.

Mammon Owns Beezlebub| Under The Influence (Mammon x Angel Dust)

Orion's Creepypasta Tumblr Mansion

Rewrites of Original Creepypastas now turned non-canon!

Janet's Retribution | Rewrite of Jane The Killer

[wordpress-blaze-157764418]

numb little bug

I want to start this off by saying—loud and proud—I am a BIG believer in mental health treatment, medication, therapy, Reiki, moon water, yelling into the void... whatever it takes to feel okay again when you’re not.

That said, this is not a post about bashing meds. This is a post about finding the right ones—and the very real hell of wandering through the wrong ones like you're in the world's most depressing pharmacy-themed escape room.

For years, I was in and out of medication. I always had this mental image of the version of me I wanted to be—happy, light, energetic, sarcastic in a charming way (not the burnt-out feral goblin flavor). And for a while, I was that person. I was active, smiling, fun, present. A good mom, a good friend, a good me.

Then life did that thing it does. You know, where it sucker punches you and then asks why you’re crying.

Between COVID, burnout, isolation, and the thousand papercuts of adulthood, I slowly became a version of myself I didn’t recognize. Introverted became full-on hermit. I hated leaving the house. Hated even thinking about it. I was trapped in a cycle: Work. Home. Despair. Insomnia. Repeat.

And because life wasn’t spicy enough, I started drinking way too much and mentally berating myself for not “getting it together.” I thought, I used to be strong. I used to be fun. I used to laugh more. So, like any exhausted, overwhelmed, emotionally constipated healthcare worker, I went to the doctor.

We ran through the Greatest Hits: insomnia, panic attacks, depression, that “everything is wrong but I’m still somehow functioning” vibe. I’d always been high-strung, perfectionistic, a bit of a control freak (Type A, but make it spicy). Eventually I was tested for ADHD and autism—and surprise! My brain’s just a limited-edition collector’s item.

I left with a pile of prescriptions and a flicker of hope that maybe this was the start of getting myself back.

At first? Magic. I was sleeping. I wasn’t panicking. I didn’t care so much if the towels weren’t folded the “correct” way (and that’s saying something). But… I still wasn’t happy. I didn’t feel like me. I felt numb. And yeah, numb can feel like “better” compared to raw despair—but eventually, it’s just another prison.

New meds, new hope, same result.

I was exhausted no matter how long I slept. I was hiding in bed from my own life. I watched my dogs—who just wanted to play with me—lay by my bed like little furry emotional support sentinels. My kids needed me, and I couldn’t reach them from whatever fog I was buried in.

It got dark. Really dark. Like “do I even want to keep doing this?” dark.

I finally sat with my little cocktail of pills and wondered: what if part of what’s wrong is right here in this pile? SSRI after SSRI, they numbed me, but never healed me.

So I did what you’re not supposed to do (don’t be like me, seriously), and I stopped everything except my sleeping meds. Withdrawal was like fighting a demon in a Walmart parking lot with flip-flops on—but eventually, I surfaced. And something weird happened.

I started to feel… better.

But of course, life tossed another curveball and my anxiety and panic attacks came storming back in like they were late for a meeting. So I went back to the doctor, hat in hand, feeling like an idiot. Another SSRI. Round four. Spoiler: it did not fix me. I was back to dragging myself out of bed, missing out on life, watching time with my kids and dogs vanish into a medicated haze.

So yeah, I finally said, enough. We tried a different class—an SNRI this time, with Wellbutrin in the mix.

And then…

I. Woke. Up.

Like really woke up.

I felt rested without a pharmacy’s worth of pills. I cleaned my kitchen at 10 p.m. because I wanted to. I started talking with my kids again, asking questions about their lives and actually being present. I didn’t cancel plans last-minute. I walked the dogs. I got up the first time my alarm rang. I didn't feel like I was existing in some doomsday fog. I started living again.

The worst part of feeling good again is realizing how long you didn’t. How much you missed. How much of yourself you lost—and how alone you felt in that hollow space.

And I’ll be honest, I still wake up wondering if it’ll slip away again. If it’ll all fade back into the haze of too-much-and-not-enough.

Because here’s the truth people don’t talk about enough: not all meds work the same for everyone. SSRIs, SNRIs, tricyclics… it’s all trial and error. And error. And another error. And then maybe a win.

You think you’re doing everything right—taking your meds, seeing your doctor, checking all the boxes—and you still feel like a ghost in your own life. And worse, no one gets it. They don’t understand why you can’t just “come out,” or “go for a walk,” or “snap out of it.” They don’t understand the bone-deep shame of missing your kid’s milestones because you were too tired or anxious to get off the couch. They don’t get that you want to do things, but your brain has other plans—usually involving doom spirals or hiding under weighted blankets.

But if you’re in that space right now, let me say this: Don’t settle for half of you.

Keep going. Try the next thing. Advocate for yourself like your life depends on it—because sometimes, it really does.

I’m still on medication. I’ll likely always be. But now, I’m on the right ones. And for the first time in years, I feel like myself again.

Not numb. Not empty. Not just surviving.

Me. Whole. Here. Living.

And that… makes all the difference.

Source: numb little bug

[brokecorviknight]

Hatchetfield Pokémon AU - Partner List:

Main Characters:

TGWDLM:

Paul Matthews - Exploud

Emma Perkins - Porygon

BF:

Tom Houston - Donphan

Becky Barnes - Comfey

Lex Foster - Zigzagoon (Cressellia is also here)

Hannah Foster - Mew

NPMD:

Pete Spankoffski - Stoutland

Steph Lauter - Luxray

Grace Chasity - Hatterene

Max Jägerman - Passimian

LIB:

Wiggly (Wiggog Y’rath) / Wendell (Dark/Psychic)

Nibbly (Nibblenephim) / Nicky (Dark/Psychic)

Pokey (Pokotho) / Porter (Dark/Psychic)

Blinky (Bliklotep) / Blaine (Dark/Psychic)

Tinky (T’noy Karaxis) / Theo (Theodore) (Dark/Psychic)

Webby (Queen in White) / Wendy (Psychic/Dark)

Important Characters:

TGWDLM:

Ted Spankoffski - Volcarona

Bill Woodward - Leavanny

Alice Woodward - Skitty

Prof. Henry Hidgens - Liligant

Gen. John MacNamara - Genesect

BF:

Ethan Greene - Cyclizar

Linda Monroe - Vespiqueen

Tim Houston - Cubone

NPMD:

Richie Lipschitz - Gallade

Ruth Fleming - Sprigatito

Solomon Lauter - Honchkrow

Detective Shapiro - Pikachu

NT:

Henry (Fake Prof. Henry Hidgens) - Mimikyu

Lucy Stockworth - Gholdengo

Wooly-Foot - Galrian Darmanitan

Konk (Ted Spankoffski) - Darmanitan

Pryce Perkins (Paul Matthews 23) - Ditto

Emilia Matthews (Emma Perkins Android) - MissingNo

Time Bastard / Homeless Man (Ted Spankoffski) - Iron Moth and Slither Wing

Jane Houston (Perkins) - Revaroom

Miss Holloway - Hypno

Duke Keane - Snorlax

Gerald Monroe - Vivallon

Perky (Emma Perkins) - Aribolva

Ziggy - Shiftry

Jeri - Nidoqueen

Jerry - Nidoking

Lumber Axe (Lil’ Jerry) - Witchwood Haxorus

Shelia Young - Froslass

Rose - Toxtricity

Melissa - Meowstick (Female)

Puss - Espeon

Named Characters:

TGWDLM:

Greenpeace girl / Harmony Jones - Shaymin

Ken Davidson - Grumpig

Charlotte Sweetly - Oinkalogne

Sam Sweetly - Braviary

Nora - Minccino

Zoey Chambers - Alcreamie

Deb - Liepard

BF:

Frank Pricely - Sableye

Sherman Young - Salazzle

Gary Goldstein - Meowth

Uncle Wiley / Wilbur Cross - Tentacruel

Man in a Hurry / Barry Swift - Yanmega

Dude with Peanut - Pachirisu (Peanut)

Xander Lee - Empoleon

President - Unfezant (Male)

NPMD:

Mark Chasity - Flapple

Karen Chasity - Appletun

Off. Bailey - Skarmory

Kyle - Chesnaught

Brenda - Oricorio (Electric)

Jason - Bastiodon

Caitlyn - Altaria

Ms. Mulberry- Audino

Ms. Tessburger - Corsola

Rudolph - Sawsbuck

Brook - Finneon

Trevor Lipschitz - Magcargo

NT:

Allison - Lanturn

Madame Iris - Reuniclus

Craig - Tropius

Barker - Coalossal

Rupert - Gigalith

Jonathan Brisby - Tyrantrum

Sylvia - Floatzel

Andy / Executive Kilgore - Aggron

Jenny - Milotic

Dan Reynolds - Karrablast

Donna Daggit - Shelmet

Tony Greene - Klingklang

Jacqueline Frost - Glaceon

Pamala Foster - Komala

Roman Murray - Morpeko

River Monroe - Combee (Male) or Teddyursa

Trent Monroe - Venomoth

Seaton Monroe - Ninjask

Jordan Monroe - Shuckle

Malone - Octillery

Hailey - Skuntank

Zach Chambers - Gogoat

Liz - Beartic

Judith - Butterfree

Martha - Clawitzer

Mary - Bibarel

Mima Chambers - Drampa

Bob Metzger - Witchwood Aegislash

Carl Metzger - Witchwood Doublade

Larz Metzger - Witchwood Doublade

Louie Metzger - Witchwood Honedge

Mary - Medichan

Noah - Furret

Gabe - Sudowoodo

Marco - Copperajah

Kale - Chatot

Thrash - Noivern

Skud - Rillaboom

Courtney - Zebstrika

Russ - Scovillain

Beth - Centiskorch

Eddie Chiplucky - Krookodile

Stopwatch / Daniel - Phantump

Spitfire / Sophia - Blaziken

Charles - Type: Null

Bruno - Pangoro

Otho - Flamigo

Freddie Biggs - Corviknight

Mina - Pyroar (Female)

Chrissy - Alolan Persian

Aubrey - Purugly

Teddy Bear - Mabosstiff

Jerrie - Golurk

Different Actors:

Hot Chocolate Boy (Peter Spankoffski) (TGWDLM) - Polteageist

Pete Spankoffski (AC) - Aromatisse

Prof. Henry Hidgens (HQ) - Jigglypuff

Prof. Henry Hidgens (WB) - Spinda

Max Jägerman (TGWDLM) - Cinderace

Ethan Greene (YJ) - Goodra

(I’ve been working on this for a few weeks. I thought it would be fun to share. Hope you all enjoy it)

[nightmareb1tch]

Hear me out Dbz-Dbs ideas

A animatic of "Hold Them Down" from Epic, but with Whis as Telemachus, and The Grand Priest as Penelope, Who is Antinous? Who is Odysseus? You decide. Also, you could do this with Whis as Penelope and Beerus as Odysseus. With Vegeta and/or Goku as Telemachus. Just someone make a Dbz Animatic with an Epic the Musical song

Biromantic Asexual Android 17 who's stance on sexual relashionships isn't just "Nope"? Also maybe a queer platonic relationship with his Wife? (Coming from a Biromantic Asexual)

Whis immortal angst where he outlives Beerus?

Angeldust from Hazbin Hotel and Whis as a rare pair? I just think they'd be cute.... (I'm a multishipper)

Since Chi-Chi is obviously toxic towards Goku and her family, causing stress on herself, a divorce fic where Chi-Chi learns something and both have a happy ending?

Stop shipping 17 and 18.... Just a suggestion.

A fanfic that focuses on different realities outside of the DBZ universe and how the DBZ characters would interact with other shows and movies.

Stop with the overloaded power scales and "Goku can beat everyone!" no one cares....

Stop the Homo and Biphobia in the fandom, I'm sick of hearing, "Goku is straight because he has a wife!" like, do other sexualities exist besides Gay and Straight? and thinking some of the main characters might be a part of the Lgbtq community is not far fetched, do you really think in a world of Aliens, Gods, and Androids that people care who you love or fuck?

Adding more to a character's backstory? I want to see your ideas about where these characters came from.

An explaination on how 18 and Krillian became a healthy couple, cause seriously, dude fell in love after one kiss!

Bulma....Just....Bulma. Also 18....

Mary Poppins Au? I just thought of it....

Tien X Yamcha fluff?

The Angels being actual siblings? Same with the Androids and literally any siblings Toriyama wrote.

People admiting that Toriyama could not write romance and family relationships.

Videl actually keeps her badass additude from when she first met Gohan, I want more Videl appreciation.

The Wives being protective. I want a Girlboss x Malewife dynamic where both of them are bosses.

Another rare pair.... Stella from Hazbin Hotel x Chi-Chi, toxic Yuri!

More Vines of the Angels from Dragon Ball Super, I don't care what you say, they were the true main characters of the show.

Maybe a backstory on how the DBZ reality was created... I already have a few ideas...

Some DBZ ships being edited to Bruno Is Orange, Misery Buisness by Paramore, Dance Dance by Fall Out Boy, Perfect by Ed Sheeron, and A girl like me by flowerovlove.

Angst edits of the characters. Aknowledging the character's trauma (Ahem, Android 17 and 18, ahem!)

Whis and The Grand Priest being father and son?

[stepswowdsen]

【KagePro】 KuroEne AU: MaryEne infiltrate Saeru's lab and confront him

Summary:

KuroEne AU: MaryEne team up against Kuroha/Saeru

Kuroha manipulates the MekaDan into splitting up and kills them one by one

Before leaving the hideout, Kuroha reassures Ene that he will be sure to come back for her... After all, he always keeps his promises (^-^) 🖤

Mary feels the snakes slowly return back to her, and Ene wonders why Saeru insisted on going by himself

Mary uses Captivating and Concealing to distract Saeru once he reveals his identity

Ene runs away carrying Mary and finds temporary refuge in an abandoned building so they can plan their infiltration of Saeru's lab

Mary uses Focusing Eyes to obtain entire floor plans of Saeru's lab

Ene uses Opening Eyes to disable security systems

Ene confronts Kuroha alone to stall for time so that Mary can learn how to control the Kagerou Daze with Combining

Lengthy discussion between me and Feila.

These are the main points ^^

I was imagining a scenario where, after Kuroha kills everyone on August 15th and leaves MaryEne alive on purpose, he reveals his true motives as the “traitor” of the Mekakushi Dan and the one behind everything.

Mary and Ene confront him at first, and then realize that they can't outrun Saeru due to his super strength and speed due to Awakening Eyes.

So, Mary, who absorbed the MekaDan members’ snakes after their deaths, uses Captivating Eyes to draw his attention to her, and then uses Concealing Eyes to completely blank out his surroundings in white.

And then Ene uses the distraction to carry Mary and run away with her since her android body won't get as easily tired, giving them some time to run and find a place to temporarily take refuge.

I HC’ed that Ene carries Mary cuz she hardly spends time outdoors, so she’d get tired easily due to her lack of exposure to sunlight.

So Ene carries her since she doesn’t get as tired with the body that Saeru built.

Ene then tells Mary that they need to come up with a plan to make the first move, otherwise they'll eventually get cornered.

My dialogue script WIPs and rambles are under the cut since this post is super long.

Dialogue Script WIPs

Rambles

Decided to show some dialogue snippet WIPs from the KuroEne AU Route where MaryEne team up against Kuroha/Saeru because I never posted them before.

I haven't cleaned up the rest though so I'll only post these snippets. I used line breaks to distinguish between different scenes since I write down ideas as they come to mind.

Saeru tells them, "You [two] have nothing left," telling them that all of their struggles are pointless and that their efforts will be in vain since they're the only ones left.

Therefore, the Queen (Mary) will use her powers to rewind the world to see her friends once more.

...

Ene realizes that she can stall for time against Saeru by engaging in conversation with him first, and then baiting him into intimacy, since she knows he won't turn down the offer to indulge in more pleasures with her.

I imagine that Saeru will eventually realize that Ene is stalling him... and that she must be desperate to resort to this, but realizes that her wanting to stall for time for Mary's sake for as long as possible is not the only reason for this, but that she's acting based on her inner yearning too.

While they're still talking, though, Saeru tells Ene that he basically decides who lives or dies, and that he could end her life right now if he so pleases. But then Ene counters this by telling him that Saeru is more interested in seeing how things will play out.

I especially love Saeru's line, “How could you ever expect to defeat someone who surpasses you in both knowledge and strength?” because it’s true.

Ene uses Saeru's interest/willingness to see more outcomes/gain more knowledge of her antics against him, and then counters him by saying that he’s not immune to “human sentimentality/emotions,” despite claiming to be above it all…

"You've always been much more interested in seeing what choices I make."

Also I feel like Saeru seems especially excited seeing his S/O (Ene, in this case) stand up to and defy him.

He looks down on humans and thinks he's above all human sentimentality while also claiming to love humans and their foolishness... That's such a human-like contradiction.

...

I think Focusing can be used more than once to check his whereabouts (assuming he doesn't change his appearance)

I don't think he even bothers changing his appearance since it's just MaryEne left.

Though MaryEne think it's best to use Mary's Eye Abilities sparingly so she can preserve energy and not get too exhausted. Saeru is aware of all of the Eye Ability Snakes and what they do.

Mary’s gonna try and use them sparingly to avoid revealing too much of their hand. Otherwise, he'll find ways around them and counter Mary's Eye Abilities. Like don't use them more than once in front of him in a single Route. Cuz he can still be caught off guard with the element of surprise.

Novel Route states that “he is a living encyclopedia with a full grasp of everything from the start of civilization up to modern science” and due to his nature of existence as the embodiment of Azami's knowledge/wisdom, also knows things beyond what Azami knew about herself.

Saeru told Azami (Mary’s grandmother) to create the Kagerou Daze in the first place, when she wasn't even aware she could do that.

Saeru can counter Combining Eyes (Queen Snake) in the Novel Route and MR2 by just using Awakening Eyes to rebuild his body

The most useful Eye Abilities to use against him are:

Combining, Locking, Captivating, Concealing, Focusing, Deceiving (maybe)

Discussion Rambles

KuroEne AU ideas I came up with just now

Also I just thought about something.

Mary would be able to know Kuroha/Saeru's whereabouts with Focusing Eyes as long as he doesn't change his own appearance (like he did in MR2 to avoid detection by Hiyori's Focusing Eyes)

Not sure if he's gonna do that here.

Depends on if he wants to make the game easier for them (not considering it a threat due to his ego since Mary is bound to reset anyways with only the two of them alive), or if he wants to make things harder for them on purpose.

I assume he's not gonna bother to change his appearance with Awakening Eyes in the first KuroEne AU Route with a MaryEne team up cuz only 2 are left.

Though ofc I still want to write a KuroEne AU Route where Ene gets to see Kuroha/Saeru's MR2 form...

In that case, Mary would still be able to see where he is with Focusing Eyes.

F: Tbh even if he changes his form, if he looks odd enough it'll be detectable at somepoint

How tf does Focusing Eyes work again-

Me: Yeah I think Focusing Eyes works by being able to zoom up on any person you imagine if you've seen them before.

In MR2, Saeru changed to the MR2 form to avoid detection by Hiyori's Focusing Eyes. Though once the MekaDan confronts him in the forest, Hiyori is able to use it to detect his whereabouts and can estimate how long it’ll take to reach them. Like Hiyori goes, "He's on the move again...!"

After he gets hit by a land slide and the mf just regenerates with Awakening Eyes

F: Oh no wonder it didn't work 😭 So you have to imagine their appearance first, then you can find them. I thought it'd be like zooming in really really close towards a certain area

Me: I think Hiyori has to know their appearance to zoom in on a certain area. This is probably one of the most useful abilities to use against Saeru.

Locking (Mary), Combining (Mary), Concealing (Kido), Captivating (Momo), Focusing (Hibiya), and maybe Deceiving (Kano), are the most useful ones to use against Saeru imo.

Focusing (Hibiya) and Opening (Ene) are really useful for infiltrating his base though

Me: Ok I just checked Focusing Eyes' wiki page rn to remind myself.

Hibiya can use Focusing Eyes to obtain entire floor plans of Saeru's lab after seeing a picture of Kenjirou.

I imagine that's how MaryEne's going to keep an eye on his whereabouts and plan their infiltration.

So Mary can still find his whereabouts while they temporarily take refuge in an abandoned building. Ene can use Opening Eyes to check out which security systems she needs to disable before entering

Me: One other thing I realized.

In Outer Science, the Bad End of the Music Route, since Kuroha kills everyone at once, this triggers Mary's transformation into a "monster" or Medusa, as Saeru calls it, since she absorbs all of the dead members’ snakes after their deaths.

In MR2, the members get killed throughout the day with some time in between.

I remember Mary was lying in bed first for a while from exhaustion because she was slowly turning into a "Medusa."

Mary instantly feels when a member's snake returns to her when they die.

Kagerou Daze: Ch. 57 - 58

In my KuroEne AU, Kuroha/Saeru splits up everyone in the MekaDan to search in pairs of 2 for the "Clearing Snake"

Then he starts to kill everyone, so the remaining members later try to search for the missing members.

Even if they don't know what exactly is going on yet, Ene and Mary must feel that something is terribly wrong

To get a specific member's snake back basically means their death... But I don’t think they would realize what it means at first.

F: Mary would stop every once a while like "Hold on... I feel another one coming back to me," or something like that as if she was trying to process what's going on

Me: Yeahhh like at first I don't think they know what's going on

Me: Imagine if Kuroha told Mary and Ene they should stay inside the base at first so Ene can take care of Mary?

Ene probably watches over Mary while Mary’s in bed at first. Since in MR2, she looks exhausted and her hair shortens (and gets blackened at the ends) as she absorbs more of the members’ snakes. And then eventually, Mary gets out of bed after feeling slightly better.

So then Ene worries that if the “Clearing Eyes” guy is targeting everyone in the city, then their base might not even be guaranteed to be safe anymore, so she leaves the base and takes Mary with her

F: MekaDan has 9 members, so spliting up into teams of 2 would let one person not get a team, which would be Saeru, it's all apart of his plan—

Me: RIGHT

I imagine Ene eventually gets a sinking feeling about this (once Mary starts getting snakes back) but ofc... he is her lover, so she wants to believe in him at first (before the reveal)

At first, Ene thinks, "Kuroha would understand if we temporarily moved locations to some place safe... Because frankly, I don't even know if our base is safe anymore... We'll regroup with him later! And then we'll try to find everyone! It's better if we all stay together!"

(Note: In Routes where Saeru pretends to join the Mekakushi Dan, he goes by "Kuroha" for obvious reasons)

I imagine there's going to be some scene where Ene gets teary eyed at the thought of Saeru leaving the base alone (like right before he leaves the MekaDan's hideout) and clutches onto his sleeves, saying, "Don't go... What if something happens to you and that 'monster,' the 'Clearing Eyes' guy, gets you!!!"

And Saeru just goes (...) before he turns around to face Ene.

Saeru reassures her that he has Awakening Eyes' super strength so he can scout across the city. And he pats and ruffles her hair and smiles at her like (^-^) and then gently caresses her cheek.

Me: One more thing I imagined.

Before Saeru leaves the hideout, he tells Ene, "I promise I'll come back to you."

And then, when he finds Mary and Ene (after he killed everyone), he goes like, "See? I always keep my promises..."

He is so evil for this honestly.

F: Oh God... 😭😭

"Jokes on you, I WAS CLEARING EYES!"

Me: Yeah honestly it's already devastating enough on Mary since he killed all of her friends and she physically feels the effects of slowly becoming “the next Medusa/Master” (as Saeru puts it)

But then Ene??? It must be so devastating to find out that her lover of 2 years is actually the mastermind behind everything who orchestrated everyone's deaths and killed everyone.

This must feel like your entire world flipped upside down and came crashing down on you all at once. The situation is so DIRE now.

Ene feels like she can’t afford to let her feelings get in the way, now that it’s been revealed her lover is actually a monster that needs to be stopped at all costs.

And Ene would definitely try to hide how she feels to avoid worrying Mary by keeping up a (^v^) shtick, but Mary ends up telling Ene that she should tell her how she really feels.

Honestly heartbreaking cuz she was probably getting flashbacks to all the happy times she had with Saeru (before of all of this happened) while she was running away with Mary.

Me: Yeah and then I imagine Saeru comes back to the base (after killing everyone) to find it's completely deserted. Saeru notes it's a good call on Ene's part, cuz if they just stayed in the MekaDan's base, they would've been cornered by Saeru.

Then he assumes that MaryEne either figured out his identity, or that Ene decided to take Mary with her after seeing their base might not be safe anymore (which is more likely)

Though they're probably laying low while trying to find out what happened to everyone.

On Mary and Ene’s end, no one is answering their text messages or phone calls, which is extremely concerning.

I imagine they’re not running around the city to avoid detection, just so Mary can preserve her strength just in case they run into the so-called "monster," so they move around quietly. At this point, Saeru probably eventually finds them by scent since he’s a snake.

F: Not to mention not listening to Shintaro's warnings because he was the one who had a bit of suspicions for Saeru

Me: Yeah I imagine Shintaro and Kano would've been a bit suspicious of him... 😭 Ouch

Me:

Kagerou Daze: Ch. 21

I just imagine Ene does that thing where she quickly goes back into her cyber body and tries to find the other members' whereabouts through GPS but just gets an error message. Something is OFF.

And no one is answering their text messages or calls...

Me: Mary feels the other's snakes slowly return to her (throughout the day) while they're still in the base, and goes, "What is this......? I suddenly felt..."

And Ene gets concerned when Mary's hair starts to fall off and she grows snake scales on her, and just goes like, "…Mary?"

Me: And then Ene eventually just thinks back on Saeru’s decision to go scout for the other members alone, "Why did he insist on going alone... A group of 3 would've been better!"

F:

Mary: He probably wants to go alone—

Ene: But why? Does he not want to be included? It's odd...

Me:

Ene: But the killer is on the loose...! It would've been better if everyone all stayed together...!

Ene: But I guess he’s always been a solitary person...

[galaxyseclipse]

About your robot yuri(?): Who and or how was Marie Built? and how did she get her crush on 4 :3?

I wanna go into more detail about different models later, but to make it short: Marie's a "performance model" android, so she's designed/built specifically for idol stuff; both she and Callie were built by their manager

as for her Four crush: basically Four(known as Yon) showed up one day as their new technician/repairperson, and was like, really good at their job and she found that hot for some reason. they were also way more chill about the whole "robot person" thing(hence the "carrying a conversation while having their hands in her torso" bit)

also the mysterious allure of someone who she only ever sees in baggy clothes, facemask, and gloves, y'know?

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ROUND 1

Elysium belongs to @wereh0gz

Lime belongs to @sonicrules

Find out more about them below!

Elysium the Shadow Android:

Elysium is a defective Shadow Android that was discarded by Eggman due to their imperfections. Their fur was misprinted, their voicebox is faulty, and there's a pesky glitch in their code that makes them uneager to fight like a Shadow Android is supposed to. Everything just seemed to have gone wrong in their production!

After being picked up from a scrap yard by Livewire (another OC of mine) and getting necessary repairs, he began his search for a new purpose, learning about the world, experiencing new things, and making friends along the way.

She has an insatiable curiosity and especially likes learning about the many cultures of Mobius, and has a great interest in the world's history and mythology. Biology is also very interesting to her, and loves to learn about the weird and wonderful creatures inhabiting the world.

Though it has a lot of trouble expressing itself, it has a big (metaphorical) heart and is loyal to a fault. It's friends can always be sure it will support them no matter what.

Lime the Shadow Android:

(art by @/DanzCandiani on picrew)

She's a Shadow Android who survived and became a loyal worker to Eggman after being nearly obliterated by Shadow and Omega. She eventually realized she was a girl and she named herself Lime due to the green color of her stripes. She loves Y2k fashion and has a collection of the Mobius equivalent of Barbie and Bratz dolls, which she designs little outfits for! Aside from that, she's very similar to Shadow and also has a huge interest in classic horror novels like Bram Stoker's Dracula and Mary Shelley's Frankenstein. (In the AU she's in, the Chaos Series, she also has altered memories to make her think that she's not only the real Shadow, but with Eggman as her Gerald and Eggman's daughter, Agatha (also an OC of mine) as her Maria, who she's the extremely loyal bodyguard to.)

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February 23rd (My Moods)

Original Stud AU: Yandere AU, Mundane AU, Parent AU, Future AU, Bodyguard AU, Pregnant AU, Breeding Stud AU, Celebrity AU, Married AU, Horror AU: Slasher AU

Alpha Stud AU: Yandere AU, Future AU, Bodyguard AU, Breeding Stud AU, Celebrity AU, Married AU, Horror AU: Slasher AU

General Moods: Dramedy, Hidden Sex, Alpha/Beta Relationship, Hidden Sex, Fantasy/Fictional Interracial, Rough Sex, Public humiliation, MILFS & DILFS

Main Muses: FREE FOR ALL

Male Muses: Son Goku, Izuku Midoriya/Deku, Minato Namikaze, Ragna The Bloodedge, Cyclops/Scott Summers, Batman/Bruce Wayne, Taiyang Xiao Long, M. Bison, Bowser, Warrick

Female Muses: Android 21, Lola Bunny, Sonya Blade, Korra, Rogue/Anna Marie Darkholm, Wonder Woman/Diana of Themyscira, Weiss Schnee, Tifa Lockhart, Sally Acorn, Ahri

Meme(s): Switched Attributes, Yasundere, Heart Eyes, Love at First Sight, Crossover Crack Ship, Sucks Off, Nude Drawing, You Look Submissive and Breedable Meme, Glorious Fun, Magical Sex Doll

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I rp as several muses, some of which include the following! They're listed by Fandom.

Bsd-Bungo stray dogs

Dazai-canon

Chuuya-canon

Fyodor-canon

Mori-canon

Gin-canon

Q-canon

Ren-oc

Daki-oc

Azusa(Charles)-oc

Irina-oc

Bleach

Renji-canon

Byakuya-canon

Hitsugaya-canon

Soi-fon-canon

Yumichika-canon

Naruto/Boruto

Naruto-canon

Hinata-canon

Temari-canon

Sumire-canon

Shiena otsutsuki-oc

Shiro okayama-oc

Naruko uzumaki-oc

Hueco mundo-oc

7ds-Seven deadly sins

Meliodas-canon

Ban-canon

King-canon

Diane-canon

Merlin-canon

Zeldris-canon

Lyonesse-oc

Enid-oc

Emrys-oc

One piece

Luffy-canon

Zoro-canon

Izumi-oc

Izou-oc

Miwa-oc

Black butler

Sebastian-canon

Undertaker-canon

Scarlett-oc

Xylas-oc

Dragon ball

Goku-canon

Chichi-canon

Supreme-Kai-canon

Black chichi-canon

Videl-canon

Android 18-canon

Vados-canon

Arinsu-Canon

Celera-oc

Mary-oc

Fairy tail

Laxus-canon

Natsu-canon

Gray-canon

Erza-canon

Lucy-canon

Juvia-canon

Mirajene-canon

Clara-oc

OBEY ME shall we date

Asmodeus-game

Yuki(mc)-game

Akari-oc

Miraculos Ladybug and Cat Noir

Marinette

Shadybug

Luka

Juleka

Sk8 infinity

Reki-canon

Langa-canon

Cherry-canon

Joe-canon

Gintama

Katsura-canon

Kagura-canon

Tokyo Ghoul

Kaneki-canon

Juzou-canon

Kurayami-oc

Sunako-oc

Diabolik lovers

Ayato-canon

Shu-canon

Laito-canon

Reina-oc

Darling in the franxx

Zero two

Assassination Classroom

Karma-canon

Nagisa-canon

Koro-canon

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♧If neither of us have a plot, we can simply come up with one, but do not come up with something without effort. ((If you have read this far, type "I like sweets", in the chat)) Oc's can be realistic, or drawn, or animated. ★I do cannon ships!!! I don't roleplay with furries, or nekos.

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□Author's Note: I do all sorts of rolaplays, BxB, GxG, and BxG, I'm mostly into BxB, but I'm open to the others, as long as there are good plots behind them. All rules apply, to all types of roleplays! Thank you for reading. Aus are always welcome

Oc's

Black butler

Xylas

Scarlett

7ds

LYONESSE

Enid

Emrys

One piece

Izou

Miwa

Izumi

Fairy tail

Clara

Dragon ball

Celera

Mary

Obey me shall we date

Akari

Naruto

Hueco Mundo

Naruko

Shiena

Shiro

Bungo stray dogs

Azusa(Charles)

Daki

Ren

Aloysiya

Irina

Diabolik lovers

Reina

Tokyo ghoul

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Sunako

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Emilie

Haruki

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Lucifer

Lucas

Saruna

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Five Fics Friday: December 6/24

Happy Friday everyone! Hope y'all had a great week, and are looking forward to winding down with some new fics on my radar this week. Enjoy!

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numb little bug

I want to start this off by saying—loud and proud—I am a BIG believer in mental health treatment, medication, therapy, Reiki, moon water, yelling into the void... whatever it takes to feel okay again when you’re not.

That said, this is not a post about bashing meds. This is a post about finding the right ones—and the very real hell of wandering through the wrong ones like you're in the world's most depressing pharmacy-themed escape room.

For years, I was in and out of medication. I always had this mental image of the version of me I wanted to be—happy, light, energetic, sarcastic in a charming way (not the burnt-out feral goblin flavor). And for a while, I was that person. I was active, smiling, fun, present. A good mom, a good friend, a good me.

Then life did that thing it does. You know, where it sucker punches you and then asks why you’re crying.

Between COVID, burnout, isolation, and the thousand papercuts of adulthood, I slowly became a version of myself I didn’t recognize. Introverted became full-on hermit. I hated leaving the house. Hated even thinking about it. I was trapped in a cycle: Work. Home. Despair. Insomnia. Repeat.

And because life wasn’t spicy enough, I started drinking way too much and mentally berating myself for not “getting it together.” I thought, I used to be strong. I used to be fun. I used to laugh more. So, like any exhausted, overwhelmed, emotionally constipated healthcare worker, I went to the doctor.

We ran through the Greatest Hits: insomnia, panic attacks, depression, that “everything is wrong but I’m still somehow functioning” vibe. I’d always been high-strung, perfectionistic, a bit of a control freak (Type A, but make it spicy). Eventually I was tested for ADHD and autism—and surprise! My brain’s just a limited-edition collector’s item.

I left with a pile of prescriptions and a flicker of hope that maybe this was the start of getting myself back.

At first? Magic. I was sleeping. I wasn’t panicking. I didn’t care so much if the towels weren’t folded the “correct” way (and that’s saying something). But… I still wasn’t happy. I didn’t feel like me. I felt numb. And yeah, numb can feel like “better” compared to raw despair—but eventually, it’s just another prison.

New meds, new hope, same result.

I was exhausted no matter how long I slept. I was hiding in bed from my own life. I watched my dogs—who just wanted to play with me—lay by my bed like little furry emotional support sentinels. My kids needed me, and I couldn’t reach them from whatever fog I was buried in.

It got dark. Really dark. Like “do I even want to keep doing this?” dark.

I finally sat with my little cocktail of pills and wondered: what if part of what’s wrong is right here in this pile? SSRI after SSRI, they numbed me, but never healed me.

So I did what you’re not supposed to do (don’t be like me, seriously), and I stopped everything except my sleeping meds. Withdrawal was like fighting a demon in a Walmart parking lot with flip-flops on—but eventually, I surfaced. And something weird happened.

I started to feel… better.

But of course, life tossed another curveball and my anxiety and panic attacks came storming back in like they were late for a meeting. So I went back to the doctor, hat in hand, feeling like an idiot. Another SSRI. Round four. Spoiler: it did not fix me. I was back to dragging myself out of bed, missing out on life, watching time with my kids and dogs vanish into a medicated haze.

So yeah, I finally said, enough. We tried a different class—an SNRI this time, with Wellbutrin in the mix.

And then…

I. Woke. Up.

Like really woke up.

I felt rested without a pharmacy’s worth of pills. I cleaned my kitchen at 10 p.m. because I wanted to. I started talking with my kids again, asking questions about their lives and actually being present. I didn’t cancel plans last-minute. I walked the dogs. I got up the first time my alarm rang. I didn't feel like I was existing in some doomsday fog. I started living again.

The worst part of feeling good again is realizing how long you didn’t. How much you missed. How much of yourself you lost—and how alone you felt in that hollow space.

And I’ll be honest, I still wake up wondering if it’ll slip away again. If it’ll all fade back into the haze of too-much-and-not-enough.

Because here’s the truth people don’t talk about enough: not all meds work the same for everyone. SSRIs, SNRIs, tricyclics… it’s all trial and error. And error. And another error. And then maybe a win.

You think you’re doing everything right—taking your meds, seeing your doctor, checking all the boxes—and you still feel like a ghost in your own life. And worse, no one gets it. They don’t understand why you can’t just “come out,” or “go for a walk,” or “snap out of it.” They don’t understand the bone-deep shame of missing your kid’s milestones because you were too tired or anxious to get off the couch. They don’t get that you want to do things, but your brain has other plans—usually involving doom spirals or hiding under weighted blankets.

But if you’re in that space right now, let me say this: Don’t settle for half of you.

Keep going. Try the next thing. Advocate for yourself like your life depends on it—because sometimes, it really does.

I’m still on medication. I’ll likely always be. But now, I’m on the right ones. And for the first time in years, I feel like myself again.

Not numb. Not empty. Not just surviving.

Me. Whole. Here. Living.

And that… makes all the difference.

Source: numb little bug

[colorwrites]

welcome to colorwrites!

this is, just as it sounds, my writing blog! this is where i'll be posting mostly short little drabbles, maybe the occasional longer fic if i happen to get one done. (though those will be cross-posted from ao3) additionally, i'm accepting prompt suggestions & requests!

HOWEVER. before you send me anything, please note the following:

I WILL NOT BE WRITING: - nsfw of any type - reader inserts or fics involving your ocs - fics involving media i'm not familiar with - *most romantic ships as a main focus.

on the shipping one: i'm not against it!! romance just isn't my favorite genre to write. you may see ships i personally enjoy pop up here and there (albeit those tend to be very few and far between), but the romance is never the main focus.

WHAT I WILL WRITE: - angst, hurt/comfort, slice of life, maybe fluff. - heavy content, within the bounds of what makes sense for the fandom & characters involved. all common triggers will be tagged. - canon divergence, post-canon, some aus, some crossovers as long as i'm familiar with both of the medias involved. - platonic & familial relationships.

PRIORITY FANDOMS + CHARACTERS:

note: priority characters are just my personal blorbos, hahaha. i will absolutely write for other characters if requested, but note that it may take me longer to get their characterization down <3 whichever fandom is currently bolded is my current hyperfix!

OMORI - priority character is sunny.

INFINITY TRAIN - priority characters are simon & grace

IB - priority characters are garry & mary

DELTARUNE - priority characters are noelle & berdly.

DRAGON BALL Z - priority characters are android 17 & android 18

SUPER PAPER ROBLOX - priority characters are scriptliss & tess

don't worry about that last one shh. /silly

thank you sm if you read this far! :D i'm looking forward to posting here, and i hope you guys enjoy what i have to offer. <3