#maturation

[in-tenebris-et-in-solitudine]

Master Your Emotions..

[poligraf]

Whatever may happen to thee, it was prepared for thee from all eternity; and the implication of causes was from eternity spinning the thread of thy being, and of that which is incident to it.

— Marcus Aurelius

[softpine]

AAA ok I remember you made a post about Casper’s half-sisters but I can’t find it anywhere 😭 how many does he have? 3? 4? His story is getting so good I love Coco already 💖💖💖

omg i had a hell of a time finding the post where i talked about them, it didn't come up when i searched any of their names! but here it is :)

from left to right it's katelyn, paige, juniper, and tatum:

[odettecarotte]

Unfortunately crises in culture, as well as those of personal maturation, with which they are intimately connected, do not resolve themselves immediately upon recognition. They come upon us and are resolved in their own time. It may help to understand them as events of 'cosmic consciousness,' ontological in nature: we do not have them as much as we are held in them even as we are summoned to deeper consciousness and consequent transcendence.

Barbara Fiand, Living the Vision

[sweetblkhottie]

Ghosting

I'm ghost on every social media, but here; I'm drawn here when I wanna hermit & go incognito.. Every. Time. Maybe it's because I've always been a writer. Been pondering real hard lately bout how I want this space to LOOK, what I want it to bring Me, and what My intention is for its creation moving forward.. I mean, this is another piece of Me; it's a manifestation of My own (creative) energy. I'm big on SELF discovery rn... and we can always start there.

"Who is Sweet Black Hottie?"

Where will this lead Me?

[papallonadaurada]

Nathalie Sancoeur in season 5:

- Call me Nathalie AvecCoeur

[rovenim]

A Letter to Myself #21

Another 10 March for 21 times! Hello, glad to see you.

Can't believe i'm already 21 years old this year. 21... it's a golden year for me because 21 is the age of late adolescence and early adulthood. I don't really want to leave my teenager energy and ready to face adult *adults are so boring for me, lollll*

But i give thanks to Jesus first because He still given me an opportunity to live in this world, change, enjoy my late teens era and everything. This year, i feel a good energy or good vibes for my birthday unlike last year full of sadness, anger before my birthday. It sucks. I feel like i'm growing up from last year, i've changed to be a good person 1% than last year.

it's not uncommon for me to feel sad because I miss my childhood, my early teens which were full of happiness. but now I make it all as a stress reliever. I can reminisce about those times and make me happy even for a moment. I was also at the lowest point last year where I felt I couldn't fulfill the dream of little Rove. I'm really sorry. But I promise, with Rove growing up having a new dream it will make it come true. You can do it!!

I really felt the maturation process from last year to this year, i can feel it. everything that happened from the good to the bad made me the 'someone' I am today. I'm quite happy with myself now and i feel like i have started to accept both the weaknesses and the strengths in me. But I have to continue to find the best version of myself every year, get to know myself better, reduce the 'people pleaser' and other bad habits that exist in me.

This year I hope I can be more of a person who has a great sense of gratitude. I realize that having gratitude will have a positive impact that is good for me, whether it's physically or spiritually. I'm still learning and will continue to learn endlessly to be a better person.

I hope I can find true happiness, gratitude grows in my heart, spread positive energy to those around me and become a wiser person in dealing with all the things that happen in my life.

Once again, happy birthday. Congratulations on reaching 21 years old, Rove.

My wish, for you, is that this life becomes all that you want it to Your dreams stay big, your worries stay small. You never need to carry more than you can hold. And while you're out there getting where you're getting to I hope you know somebody loves you and wants the same things too. Yeah, this my wish.

[wayti-blog]

"To track the growth of structure to an even later time, the researchers further used motions of galaxies in the local universe. As galaxies fall into the gravity wells of the underlying cosmic structures, their motions directly track structure growth.

“The difference in these growth rates that we have potentially discovered becomes more prominent as we approach the present day,” Nguyen said. “These different probes individually and collectively indicate a growth suppression. Either we are missing some systematic errors in each of these probes, or we are missing some new, late-time physics in our standard model.”

The findings potentially address the so-called S8 tension in cosmology. S8 is a parameter that describes the growth of structure. The tension arises when scientists use two different methods to determine the value of S8, and they do not agree. The first method, using photons from the cosmic microwave background, indicates a higher S8 value than the value inferred from galaxy weak gravitational lensing and galaxy clustering measurements.

Neither of these probes measures the growth of structure today. Instead, they probe structure at earlier times, then extrapolate those measurements to present time, assuming the standard model. Cosmic microwave background probes structure in the early universe, while galaxy weak gravitational lensing and clustering probe structure in the late universe.

The researchers’ findings of a late-time suppression of growth would bring the two S8 values into perfect agreement, according to Nguyen.

“We were surprised with the high statistical significance of the anomalous growth suppression,” Huterer said. “Honestly, I feel like the universe is trying to tell us something. It is now the job of us cosmologists to interpret these findings."

“We would like to further strengthen the statistical evidence for the growth suppression. We would also like to understand the answer to the more difficult question of why structures grow slower than expected in the standard model with dark matter and dark energy. The cause of this effect may be due to novel properties of dark energy and dark matter, or some other extension of General Relativity and the standard model that we have not yet thought of.”"

article here

[poligraf]

The way in which a man accepts his fate and all the suffering it entails, the way in which he takes up his cross, gives him ample opportunity — even under the most difficult circumstances — to add a deeper meaning to his life.

— Viktor Frankl

[softpine]

AAAAAHHH okay tbf I can’t blame Austin for getting mad because from an outsiders point of view I can see how it might’ve looked like Elaine got pushed :( Austin who trusts no one to the point of immediately assuming the worst of his best friend….I’m pissed he hit Matt but I also wanna sit him down and talk it out. No doubt Elaine is scared SHITLESS. BRANDI IM LOSING IT.

austin's reaction..... man.... the fact that he sees elaine injured on the ground and his mind jumps to "matt pushed her. why would matt push her? he's jealous. things are going good for me and badly for him, so he wanted to drag me down with him." he's working backwards to make the situation fit what he subconsciously believes to be true: that everyone is out to get him. he can't accept that matt was trying to do something for austin's benefit (matt truly believes he's saving austin's life, whether it's true or not is up to you to interpret), but austin believes matt is just another person holding him back. it sucks to know they've been friends since they were kids and austin used to trust matt with personal knowledge; he wasn't always so cynical. now he feels like he can only rely on elaine for emotional support, because he literally doesn't trust anyone else. in his mind, everyone either wants something from him (his family) or doesn't want to see him succeed (his friends, work, school). that's not true or healthy at all, but it's hard to break out of this mindset. and sadly it leads to situations like this, where you hurt people who never wanted to hurt you :(

[irreplaceable-spark]

Podcast: Gay Parenting: Promise and Pitfalls | Dave Rubin & Dr. Jordan B. Peterson

Dave Rubin is the creator and host of The Rubin Report. He is the author of Don’t Burn This Book and Don't Burn This Country, and the co-founder of the community building platform Locals. 

In this episode, Dave Rubin and I discuss the evolution of his lifestyle, the recent Leftist push of transgender ideology, and much more.

[egar-allen-hoe]

Fade to Black

Fade to black, call the curtains on the remains of the cast.

My show is done and to the suburban greenroom I must go.

To beige living rooms and late-night television.

Cold Tetley tea and lukewarm conversation. Lost nights in tides of washing and dish

water.

No reviews will come for this nineteen-act play.

No monument, no entry in musem or library for this stage bound calamity.

Come feed on my dying art you fucking vampires!

And, leave me to rot soulless, in my middleclass tomb.

Another plain jane amid the lot.

That is to say I will not die quietly, no.

May you all choke on the ash and-

That puts a stop to all this.

[Exit stage left]

[mybreadsmybutters]

when i was a kid i wanted to be a famous youtuber like dan and phil so that people would gay ship me with my irl best friend and we would be sooo weirded out by it and laugh and make videos joking about it but secretly it would make her realize her repressed gay crush on me and i'd help her through her gay crisis and then we would have a sickeningly sweet sappy romance and read fanfiction about ourselves together... anyways just found out she's married to a guy in the mafia now so i probably don't have a chance

[snaxle]

btw if a trans man decides that they want to get pregnant and you're not normal about this and start spewing a bunch of transphobic shit i show up at your house and beat you to death with a baseball bat

[suiheisen]

studio trigger understood the assignment. i would let her wreck me.

[enjoying-live-69]