#most of these are vent/realization I had

[devilbeez]

Okay like— can we as a twst fandom come together and agree that

Azul dress like every male shoujo anime character ever. Like sweet babycake, my top 3 most beloved child, I will sell little of what I have left of my soul to you if you ask but I will not going to let the fact that you dress like someone from Ouran high school host club go

Jamil’s life would’ve been better if Kalim wasn’t in it in the first place. Don’t get me wrong the angst and fluff of those two are chef kiss but like….it really would’ve been better for Jamil’s mental health and actual development if Kalim never wanted to become his friends. It wouldn’t be as juicy of a story but Jamil would’ve been way less traumatized

Deuce’s mom is hot…….

Neige deserve more screen time. I don’t care if you love him, I don’t care if you hate him like me, he deserves more screen time so we can either hate or love him with an actual reason. I can guarantee you more than half of what you probably know of him is from fanon lore because Neige isn’t secretly evil canonically, Neige doesn’t have a big bad plot to over thrown Vil in canon, and imma call my self out here, Neige doesn’t think his cuteness is a cursed similar to Epel and want to break from the heroic roles but can’t because the industry is fucked and go on to keep feeling guilty because he isn’t appreciating the opportunities he have with every waking moment. Even if those are a much more interesting plot point. His wiki page and screen times are so short it make accurate fanfiction writers cry slightly inside.

Lastly, the ramshackle ghosts deserve recognition and there should be a petition for them to have names. They’re the uncles that stay when dad went to get milk and they deserve to be love as much as the nrc boys and staff

[rapidhighway]

[totheidiot]

i hate that the solar eclipse just now serves as a reminder that nobody loves me.

[seiya-starsniper]

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[neverendingford]

along the same line as the whole "why do you need to know someone's autistic before you stop bullying them for their autistic traits?" thing I've seen floating around

apologizing for it once you know is meaningless. it doesn't change the fact that you deliberately mocked someone for their behavior.

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a customer mocked my stutter and I've lost all patience with that so I looked him in the eyes and said "I have a speech disability" and he immediately got all apologetic and was like "I wasn't making fun of you". Bro yes you were. you didn't realize you were making fun of a disability I've spent my entire life struggling with, but you were nonetheless.

just because you don't know you're being an asshole doesn't mean you're not being an asshole. you can apologize but I'm not going to forgive you.

[freakwiththeknifecollection]

Yeah, you should only create for yourself, but if I'm putting it out there I would like to know that I'm not just endlessly shouting into the void

[katyspersonal]

Speaking of "something intimate touched by dirty hands", I'll be real, I kinda do still need someone to "cleanse" image of Mic0lash for me. Ever since the grand fandom rift I've of course fallen onto the better side where fans are trying their best, I just can tell my Mic mutuals are trying their best with the guy. But something so incredibly bad is connected with the character- You guys know how negative experiences with people can ruin a character (and you're in luck if not the whole piece of media)? This character for me is a manifestation that if someone claims to really love and need me, I should keep in mind that it is a lie I should not trust.

I should know by now that when something sounds too good to be true - it IS, but he is like... an "avatar" of that realization. Someone I could just look at at be reminded without the words that yes, I should remember that I'll never be happy or valued like I want to. That my "ability" to see something good even in the darkest people or to listen to the intention of even the most distorted message is reserved for someone else. For something else. I am just not built for things like long friendships, celebrating holidays, exploring the world together, just being loved, just being able to trust, just being cared about, just sharing life with someone. My role in this world is to be a "tutorial enemy". Someone people would have a negative experience with but in exchange, understand who they are and what they really want in life, and let go of their struggles and wishes that tormented them. But I feel like I can only fulfill my purpose in this world for as long as I am ignorant about it. If I stop trusting people and seeking the type of love I need - I won't get attached, so I won't get hurt when people hurt me, so I won't be slain. Because this is what I am in - a videogame enemy that people need to defeat to level up and proceed to their own games. And if I stop respawning - how I can be what I am?

I just should not learn a thing, because people better off after they "murder" me. More cruel and reclused, but better off - more self-sufficient, more confident, more.. secure of how much good they deserve. It would just help them to be more cautious when someone actually toxic appears. Like, someone who is not even self-aware, not struggling and not remorseful. So they won't take chances, to the better.

But I just need to blind myself to the truth, because I've got nothing better to offer to this world than being that "tutorial enemy". People are better after slaying me. I drop Insight points upon being stabbed, and it happened so many times. I guess this character is just cursed with being associated with a truth so horrible that it is better off not realizing it and just be moved like a pawn.

[liyazaki]

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[spocks-kaathyra]

when the weed starts tasting like the realization that I'm still deeply lonely and I'll never be loved how I need and it's selfish of me to even want it

[truckstoptigers]

anybody else feel like their father deserves the electric chair

[arthur-r]

(wrote this song before i left for college but it’s sure applicable to life right now!!!!)

lyrics: falling from grace, i’m a rusting lace artifact / tears down my face as i break my immortal pact / trust me, i want to be healthy / trust me, i want to be special and loving and sweet / trust me, i know that i’m broken / please, i just want one more chance to prove that i could be the— / best friends know how to reveal me / best friends know how hard i try to have something to say / best friends know that it’s not helping / can i just go far away to where there’s nowhere else to— / turn around, up and down, i’m melting!!!! / turn around, i have something to say!!!! / color bleeding, heartbeat leaving, need a place to lay my head / arms are folded, fine print bolded, everything is overloaded!!!!!!!! / color faded by the sun, i bite my tongue, i’m coming undone / color faded by the sun, i bite my tongue, i’m coming undone / color faded by the sun, i bite my tongue / trust me, i want to be healthy / trust me, i want to be special and loving and sweet / trust me, i know that i’m broken / trust me, i know that i’m broken….

[squishe]

I LOVE MY FRIENDS

[hopefulyellowlamp]

it really hurts to see the people i trusted and loved more than anything in the world just move on from me as if they never knew me

[gentlelarkspur]

The best part about this breakup is that I can finally admit how much I hate Chainsaw Man. It’s mid tier AT BEST.