#non vent now ig

[royalberryriku]

I still have the flu but now I am armed with medicine, tissues and a heater

[munamania]

it’s just i spend so much time sharing little things about myself in the hopes that it sparks a connection with people and also i guess that maybe sometimes people will think of me yk. to feel like i exist outside of my own head. i dont think this is a bad thing it’s just where im at it’s a natural want for connection and it like. works for me. and i also dont think it’s bad to have the friends i do that are like ‘surface level’ yk. i still appreciate them and love them. it’s just, this is where im at, desperately clawing in different spaces in my life to be known even tho it’s embarrassing lol. and it just sucks that i never had to try to with her. not only did we have this extremely insane chemistry right off the bat, she’s someone that in like every way has made it seem like she actively wants to know me. beyond just the polite and whatever kind of level. and it’s like, of course that feels absolutely amazing given ive been pining since day 1 but also i just like her a lot as a person. you know. and it all sucks and makes me wanna combust sometimes that things aren’t the way i’d like them to be between us of course lmfao but i also think she’s an incredible person and she’s managed to make me feel so safe and calm and simultaneously obviously fucking crazy and energized and whatever. u know. whatever my point is here im gonna be done now <3

[1nan0th3rl1f3]

was almost asleep then had to search up "sesame street cooking game" bc I loved one as a kid and damnit I might replay it tomorrow(it was family food btw. also loved cooking with cookie monster tho)

[ikyw-t]

feeling very stressy depressy today yet again today for no particular reason. except unlike yesterday i cannot spend the day playing video games and instead have to start my school work for the week so... that's a bummer. also my bestie invited me out on sat for food and drinks which sounds fun actually but for some reason made me feel worse atm? lol. like.... ok clearly my emotions have nothing to do with reality. like i had one weird/awkward conversation at work and now ive been feeling sad and weird since..ok. seems dramatic and totally unnecessary but alright.

[p-redux]

I'm back from the dentist (won't be my last visit, I'm having a lot of work done) so, without further delay, I present you the Sam Heughan, Sarah Holden, SH and SH, #samarah PROOF they stayed together in the same villa in the Canary Islands a few days ago.

First, here's a refresher on my previous post where I showed a fan shared he saw Sam on the same flight with him headed to Las Palmas, Gran Canaria, Canary Islands. 👇

And a refresher on my other previous post showing Sarah Holden was also in Gran Canaria.

Soooo, onto the PROOF that #samarah stayed at the SAME villa. A few days ago, I was DMed the info on WHERE EXACTLY they stayed. But I didn't want to post pics while they were still there since the location could be easily found via a quick Google search. Now that Sarah has posted she's back in Scotland and Sam has posted he's in Austria, I can post info about where they stayed. Here is the listing for the villa. Just copy and paste it into browser and you can read the location, all the info, and look at over 40 pictures of it. 👇

https://www.vrbo.com/no-no/feriebolig/p10693498

Here's the main pic on the listing and some info 👇

And here's Sarah's IG post where you can see the villa's pool in the background. It's the same shape and you can see the same wall and fencing detail in both pics. You can also see the black chairs and table. 👇

Here's proof Sam was in the same villa 👇 The flooring in the bedroom in the villa is the same as in the room where Sam is in. The painting to the right of him is the same, but it's reversed because of the video.

Here's both of them from the same villa. Notice the matching ceiling vents throughout the villa. The same ones are in the kitchen where Sarah is, as in the bedroom where Sam is. Also, the same exact doors in all the rooms in the villa. And the same kitchen microwave and oven in the kitchen in the villa as in the pic with Sarah. The door is on the other side because, again, the pic is reversed due to the video. 👇

You can also see the reflection from the room on Sam's watch. 👇

In addition, someone pointed out in DM that Sarah had already been to the Canary Islands with her son last March. 👇

So, she probably told Sam how great it is, and she an Sam planned a few days' vacation there, just the two of them.

I rest my case, your honor.

FACTS: Sam was in the Canary Islands. Sarah was in the Canary Islands at the same time. Both stayed at the Tauro Villas Deluxe 1. Sam did not post where he was, which is usually the case when he's on a non work, non charity trip. BTW, Anyone who leaves comments that "they could have been there as friends or workout partners," will have their life experience card revoked, and be sent to a remedial course on THE FACTS OF LIFE. JS 🤗

Sarah is around age 32, is a single mom to a young son, lives in Scotland, is fit AF, I don't think I've ever seen such a flat stomach on a woman, AND this is AFTER having a kid, and she battled a pretty serious health scare. She seems very cool. So, let's see if she and Sam are dating casually or more will develop. Stay tuned...

[yanderederee]

I want a yandere too. I want someone to love me even with my flaws, bc I tend to lose focus and I do things last min and I'm neurodivegent and I feel like most of my yanderes (especially baji) wouldn't judge me or see my as weird.

Just wanted to pit this out there bc I saw your tags on my last asks and I wanted to respond to that and ig start a discussion or suggestion?

I hope u accept.

For a while now, I’ve been shifting this ask through my head to conjure a proper response …

For starters, I forgot Yandere was part of the prompt I started writing; so I see this as headcanon in Baji’s actions/reactions in types of situation. I could write a whole separate indulgence piece on how yandere!Baji would develop past this:)

I find myself taking a realistic approach to it all. At first/in youth, I don’t think Baji has enough maturity to really understand other people’s neurological/psychological struggles. He’ll understand there’s some tension in those aspects, but I feel that Baji would be quick to frustrate.

Baji doesn’t understand why you’re suddenly giving him the cold shoulder, when in reality you’ve found yourself non-verbal. It wasn’t that fucking hard to place a food order?

Let Baji be dramatic at first. Let him pick apart what’s actually happening.

Once he sees the way you struggle and try to muster the courage to ask for a refill of your drink, he’s in awe with how relieved and proud of yourself you are after managing the small task.

He’d probably seem pissed off and go quiet himself, but it’s cause Baji is mulling the idea over in his head how you can’t to feel that way.

“What gets you so nervous about being in public anyway?” Baji asks blatantly.

You felt this question at the tip of his tongue all day, and while his actions were putting you more on edge, you noticed little details.

You would notice how his tone is lower, not scowling or rolling his eyes at you anymore. You could tell he felt guilty for his immaturity, after his own actions and choice of words.

Just, the way you were so quick to put up your defenses confused him.

“There’s a lot of … unknowns, I guess.. it doesn’t really make sense to me either, Keisuke… I just— my body reacts like I’m doing something, wrong. Like, I’m inconveniencing everyone around me. If I wasn’t standing here, If I wasn’t taking up someone else’s time, other people’s lives would be more… convenient.”

You could tell you were barely getting anywhere with him, but he was trying to understand. So you kept trying to help him understand.

“L-like even now… if I hadn’t dragged you out to hang out with me today, your time could have been better spent. Mikey and Draken invited you out right? But you declined on my behalf..” you smiled, but that same tinge of guilt hit hard.

“Yeah, doing the same lame shit I’ve done for the last week, no creative pass times with those bone heads sometimes,” he laughed. “You don’t think I’m having fun now?” Baji asked.

“Well, it can be hard to tell,” you chuckled back, weary of meeting his gaze. “I can’t really tell if I’m being entertaining enough, or when people get tired of my needless input. I’m.. kinda slow, I guess, I lose focus on what’s happening sometimes and suddenly I’m not on the same page as everyone anymore. But, like, with everything.”

“Does that make sense?” You sighed, heart palpitating in suspense.

It felt good to vent out all the things that made you anxious, especially when you can’t tell why most of the time. Maybe in time, it would.

Baji cycled through your words, silently.

“I… think so.” He mumbled, scratching the back of his head.

“That part of you’s kinda, what I like about you, though?”

Your eyes twitched, and with an unbelieving look, you eye him cautiously.

“Like yesterday, when you spaced out while Chifuyu and I were arguing about Gekijyo, you suddenly jumped right in with a whole other thing from left field. It was hilarious, but I just remember thinking, ‘who the hell thinks of stuff like that?!’ In-in a good way… you’re pretty smart, yaknow. I really respect the way you handle yourself when you’re caught off guard.”

“Honestly, it doesn’t make sense to me, how you go through live so cautiously and worried all the time. But you make smart analysis out of situations that seem unwindable, and,” Baji held out his hand, and carefully pulled a stray hair from your face.

“I just can’t help but like you. You’re funny, and encouraging. When you’re comfortable, you shine. I see so much passion in you, and can’t help wanting to fuel that part of you.”

Baji gently pressed his palm against your cheek.

Sure, little things could sweep you up in thought, distracting you to the point of frustration. So long as he could keep quipping back and forth, laughing, and watching you smile so genuinely— Baji imagined he could take on some of those struggles of your behalf. Maybe, with just a little weight lifted off your conscious, he could watch you grow and eventually take them on with ease, with a smile.

꘏

Over time, Baji would pick up on any stims you had, if you had any.

Started picking up on signs that something was becoming too hard for you to handle, or perhaps comprehend.

He learned your mannerisms, and how to talk out down from any panics you may undergo.

Baji takes it upon himself to learn about the people he cherishes.

He doesn’t drop people because they’re too hard to deal with. Baji doesn’t break off ties, especially when he can tell you’re working through struggles. Physical and psychological.

Baji Keisuke would eventually become surprising attentive, but mostly only with his partner.

He doesn’t walk on egg shells around them, but he will reconsider if he’s acting too harshly.

[rzyraffek]

Hiiii I do like to request slashers with a really calm reader that as a kind and calm aura and talks their way out of situations and for some reason just makes however is trying to fight or attack them vent, cry on their shoulder without even noticing that and when they point that out the reader is just like Isn't that how it goes with everyone? "🤔🧍‍♀️🧍‍♂️" (male or G/n reader would be cool🥲)

YAaas😈 Will go will he/him pronouns

Request open as always have fun reading

Micheal Myers

S/o was vibing making tea in kitchen when micheal just spawned in hallway

So he either had to runaway or try to talk him out of this situation

"Eee you want some tea? I heard that the guy that thats chasing(DrLoomis)you isnt very kind isnt he?"(yes yes s/o trying to make micheal wanna kill somone else but not him yess)

Micheal enjoys smell of tea (bruh I love white tea with hint of rose/strawberry) and he for sure would enjoy taste of it but hes shy and nono dont see his face pls.

S/o wont make him vent mostly due him being mute and non comunicative at all but He definitly will vibe and think about how much he would rather be stabing Loomis rn

But ig he wont stab him? S/o makes nice tea, keep up,king, he might come again and again just to lisen him ramble about daily life and steal food from fridge

Brahms Heelshie

This one is opposite of Micheal. Brahms will probably instantly vent and cry. He wil talk about how lonley it was and how alone he felt and how everything was unfair

He will hug him, he wont stop for a while

He accualy never intended to kill him, never but He thought that he has No choice. But now He loves that he didnt kill him!

S/o is a great lisyner and great person to talk to! He is so matture and smart!

Easiest way to calm him down is giving him glass of water or cup of tea AND hugs of course dont forget about hugs

Brahms is a big babi he is emotional he will cry a lot

Asa Emory

"???Qhat you talking about??" Look nothing personal but He came here to like??? Kindap you?? Im mean yeah he would love to tell him how much kindaping people and putting them into huge jars is tiring but like??? Sir?? You gonna be in jar next??

I mean its more intresting than average screaming and begging for help🥰

He will start with "lmao this loozer thinks hes gonna talk me away from killing lol" to "yeah sometimes its so hard you know? Once one of them stabed me and I still have scar :( " and "oh you wanna see🤨😳 i mean yeah?😳" and takes his shirt off

He will kinda forgor he suppose to kill him and just vibes ESPECALLY if s/o likes bugs HE WILL BE LIKE: :D omg u like moths🥺😊? Wanna hold hands😳😈

He will eat his dinner and then ask for recipie

Billy Loomis

This guy already talks more than he should have. One question and he will do a monologue about his traumatic past and everything

Ofcourse not litteraly, he speaks in weird sentences (yall seen the movie) Nothing is said streight forward

He will hug them looking for support and probably falls asleep due to crying and huge amount of emotions

Then he will woke up and think "😳 did? Did I Just got laid? Noo its impossible wtf happened here??? Is he dead or???" " hi billy did you sleep well? Are you better now?" "AAAAAAAAAAAAA"

He is shocked, first of all he just vented, second of all he slept on somone with their consent, and third of all ??? He feels better now?? Yep s/o is definitly a wizard, yep no way it could possibly help, he just did some magic

Thomas Hewitt

I- Im not sure He ever expirienced somone just being nice, just being nice, without some plan to gain anything from it, without hint of manipulation or plan to use him

He wanted to kill him but He Thomas acually felt guilt, he didnt seem to deserve it. He helped his friends even when he himself was in danger.

Thomas broke when s/o started talking. Again Thomas is mute he wont magicly start speaking like eminem RapGod song

But he will akwardly hold his hands together and be shy (Thomas is shy guys)

S/o just seems to understand him so well

He wont kill him and he probably will be like "Luda🥺 theres this little goblin creature in our basement can we keep him💖" "No way in hell imma-" "he knows how to cook and do chores!" "Yeah sure we can keep him"

Cool his alive now!

Now just preapre for being thomas therapist for rest of life

Hopefully u like it, didnt really have idea what to write

[wooahaes]

call on me

pairing: non-idol!dino x fem!reader

word count: ~0.6k

warnings: vent fic p much: reader feeling kinda unloved by her family via forgotten plans. no proofreading, intentional lowercase.

daisy’s notes: yeah these feelings didnt go away like i hoped they would haha so ig take this

chan always picked up on the second ring. tonight, this was just as true as ever, and you were thanking the universe for it.

“hey,” he had said, and you could hear the way he was smiling in his voice alone, “i thought you were meeting up with your family.”

“they forgot.”

chan said nothing for a moment, and then you heard a slow intake of air. “they... forgot?”

you sat alone in your apartment, dressed nicely and makeup done because you liked looking presentable for these kinds of things. it was a celebration, wasn’t it? it wasn’t even your idea. and yet things weren’t set in stone, so maybe you should have just... waited before you did any of it. now it all felt like a waste, and you stood up to start cleaning yourself up.

“how did they forget?” he sounded more upset than you did at this point.

you didn’t know. truthfully, you wished you did. “it’s not a big deal--”

“it is!” he said, and you could practically see the way his brows furrowed together. “it is. you told me you weren’t looking forward to it, but you were, weren’t you?”

you turned your phone to speaker, setting it on the bathroom counter once you arrived. you started getting your supplies out to wipe away your makeup, “not really. it was my family’s idea. it feels rude to forget. we didn’t even make reservations so thankfully it’s not serious, but...”

chan grew quiet. you could practically hear the gears turning in his mind. “so... you’re free tonight?”

you paused. “yes?”

“i’ll be there in half an hour,” he said. “either we can stay in and cook or order takeout, or we can go out. tonight’s about you, okay? i want to spoil you.”

you let out a long sigh, “but we already celebrated, and you’re supposed to go out with your friends--”

“then we’ll celebrate again!” he genuinely sounded happier than you did. “you’re graduating. i’m proud of you. i’ll just tell them that i can’t make it--”

“channie, you don’t have to cancel plans with your friends.”

“it’s fine,” he insisted. “you’re upset. it’s my job as your boyfriend to come take care of you. i’ll go next time.” you could hear the sound of him pulling open his closet door. “do you want to stay in? or should i take you somewhere nice?” he didn’t give you a moment to reply, “ah--never mind, i’ll prepare for both... just decide what you want, okay? i’ll see you soon.”

chan hung up there, leaving you standing alone in your bathroom in your silent apartment. you stared at yourself in the mirror for a moment, reaching up to fix where your eyeliner had smudged while crying earlier (thankful that waterproof makeup existed, and that you’d opted for it this time on a whim). as much as you wanted to just cozy up to your boyfriend while on the couch, you weren’t sure you could stomach sitting at home any longer. even if it was just somewhere casual, maybe getting out would help you feel better...

but if nothing else, you were sure chan would make everything okay. that was his superpower, he’d told you.

“so just call on me,” he had said that day, wiping away your tears, “and i’ll make you smile again.“

the kiss he greeted you with that night was sweeter than any dessert you’d share with him. and you were so, so thankful for the people that mattered in your life.

taglist: @twancingyunhao​ @wonuziex​ @synthetickitsune​

[macgyvermedical]

Curious if you know much about food sensitivity testing. My cousin's SIL is purportedly a wellness NP and has their whole family getting their sensitivities checked every 3-6 months with lab draws. I always thought allergy testing was done with scratch test on skin. And like how do you cast a wide enough net to test for everything? I didn't think labs really worked like that? I thought you kind of had to test for specific things and almost like a process of elimination.

It seems as though every time cousin gets tested there is a whole list of foods she should remove from her diet because she is "sensitive" to them. It always feels like that list is whatever she's been eating most recently (and usually that food is something that she used as a replacement for something she was sensitive to last time) for example she cut out cow's milk and went oat because oat was ok on the list. Then all of a sudden oat wasn't ok anymore and she went coconut. Now coconut is supposedly causing trouble. Cousin said she didn't think she was having issues with it but is now looking for alternatives and I'm just worried about her.

When I asked the SIL what the sensitivities mean the response was that it causes inflammation which can lead to skin conditions, weight gain, problems in the digestive tract, or cancer.

Obviously I know food sensitivities exist and that there's a lot of processed garbage in our food the whole thing just feels off.

No worries if you don't want to answer thing or if you don't know. This is partially me venting in your askbox

Before we can talk about what your SIL is probably doing, we have to talk about food allergies, food sensitivities, and how we test for them.

A food allergy is an inappropriate immune reaction to a chemical that is present in a food.

The first type is the "immediate" type. When the food is ingested, the body's immune system misidentifies one or more proteins in that food as dangerous and "overreacts" by creating an antibody called immunoglobulin E. Immunoglobulin E (aka IgE), triggers the release of histamine and other chemicals that, in the extreme excess caused by IgE, cause symptoms like itching, swelling, hives, low blood pressure, difficulty breathing, vomiting and diarrhea. These symptoms can be life threatening. Less severe versions of this can trigger gastritis, brain fog, asthma, and non-life-threatening versions of the symptoms listed above.

Proteins from peanuts, tree nuts, cow's milk, eggs, fish, shellfish, soy, wheat, and sesame cause about 90% of these allergic reactions.

There are other immune reactions and other Immunoglobulins. For example, there is immunoglobulin G, which serves as a "memory" and helps protects against viruses and bacteria. IgG essentially makes an impression of everything that comes into the body. When you get titers drawn to determine whether you're immune to something (a test you might need to get if you work in the medical field), the test looks for specific types of IgG to determine whether your body still remembers the virus or bacteria you were immunized against or exposed to. More about this later.

IgG, along with IgA and IgM can contribute to autoimmune conditions like MS, graves disease, rheumatoid arthritis, and lupus (which are very technically allergic reactions to oneself).

A food sensitivity or intolerance on the other hand is a condition caused when a person doesn't have the necessary enzymes or microbiome to digest a particular sugar or protein in a food. Food sensitivities do not have anything to do with the immune system. Instead, they have to do with digestion. A food sensitivity often results in bloating, gas, diarrhea, and abdominal pain. While unpleasant, you won't die from an intolerance or sensitivity.

While not technically an allergy or a sensitivity, people also may have conditions that are exacerbated by certain foods, such as sugar or wheat exacerbating arthritis.

Now onto the testing. Allergy testing comes in several forms. You can do blood testing for specific allergens by looking for specific IgE allergens. For example, if you suspect you are allergic to peanuts, you can have blood drawn to check for peanut IgEs. You can also do a skin test, where a section of skin is marked with a grid and small amounts of allergens, along with control solutions, are injected into each section. A welt forms if the substance triggers histamine, and means the person is allergic to the substance. Another test is simply to give the food (in a controlled setting) in increasing amounts until the person has an observable reaction.

For non-dangerous allergic reactions and intolerances, an elimination diet can be done, where a person limits themselves to foods they know are completely safe, wait for symptoms to go away, and then start adding in foods one by one and documenting responses. This can take several months but can be worth it for someone who feels they have many foods that trigger unpleasant symptoms.

What your SIL is probably doing:

There are many companies that offer home allergy testing. This is usually done with a card, where someone places a few drops of blood on the card, mails it in, and gets results for between 90 and 100 different substances.

The problem is, home allergy tests do not test for IgEs. They test for IgGs. Remember that IgGs don't have anything to do with allergic reactions- just the presence or absence of a recent ingestion. All IgG testing does is say "yup, dude ate some peanuts recently".

You might then connect "hey, when I eat wheat my arthritis gets worse, and you said arthritis is partially caused by IgGs" well yes, but your arthritis is caused by IgGs that have identified your cells (among other things), while the antibodies tested for in the test are the ones which have identified the wheat proteins. Just any ol IgG won't do- it's gotta be specific. Wheat may be doing something to aggravate your arthritis, but wheat IgG's aren't what that is.

To be clear, this isn't just my opinion. Every allergy-related organization in the world is in agreement- IgG testing does nothing to determine what you're actually allergic to. We have lots of tests that work for that. IgG testing just tests for what you've eaten or been exposed to recently. Which sounds exactly like what your cousin is experiencing.

R E F E R E N C E S

[sandraharissa]

So I haven’t been in this fandom for YEARS but I just came across smth that always bugged me so ig I’m venting.

So the fandom has always been very critical of Odin but I always found it to be to a fault. I’ll generally see very exaggerated, not canonically supported takes on Odin that paint everything he ever did in the worst light possible. To the point where it’s just extremely boring to me. Odin being pure evil is infinitely less interesting than him being gray flawed-but-loving parent. Now I realise a huge chunk of the fandom would love a ‘Loki realizes Odin will never love him and gets over him’ narrative but I find it 1) personally extremely emotionally unsatisfying 2) waaaaay beyond a story that could ever be handled well and with enough nuance by the mcu 3) a bit too not complaint with the first movie and in general with the framing in all of these movies to truly stick the landing.

For example, ppl would often try to turn the information that was stated in canon that ‘Loki got adopted’ into ‘Loki got kidnapped’. The problem with that is that it’s solely based on headcanon. From a Watsonian perspective you can try to argue that Odin could be lying but from a Doylist perspective this is the only time we’re given information on that matter, and if the truth on such a crucial aspect of the story was different then it’d be extremely important to reveal the real truth to the audience at some point, but the writers never do that. Actually there’s a deleted scene found in the script where Loki reveals to Laufey that he’s his son, where Laufey explicitly agrees that he abandoned Loki, calls him weak and ‘a bastard son’. Now this is a deleted scene so it’s not canon, ig we could say it’s soft canon, but either way it gives us insight into the writers’ original intent behind writing the whole script including the vault scene and it presents the more fleshed out version of the story, where such a crucial information as Loki’s origin is indeed double-checked by Loki with the ‘original source’.

Next matter, the writers never thought through the story nearly as much as the fans do. The worldbuilding, history and lore of this world are next to non-existent. We don’t know anything about the Jotun culture, so who knows maybe leaving someone of royal blood in a temple was done for their own protection or maybe it was a sacrifice to their gods or smth, or maybe it has no meaning at all and he was simply left behind anywhere when others were fleeing. Similarly we don’t know anything about Asgardian customs so maybe the party at the end of the movie was smth disrespectful toward Loki’s recent presumed death or maybe it was exactly how they do it. We’re just left to either take the framing at face value even tho the framing is sometimes noticeably faulty or come up with headcanons.

And speaking of that party scene, along with weird assumptions about Asgardian culture I’ve also seen weird reading of Odin’s behavior. Now Anthony Hopkins clearly never cared about this role and in most scenes he barely even moves so I know that probs doesn’t help the perception that Odin the character doesn’t care about what’s happening around him, but we also do get some things out of him like this:

He's shown alone and isolated from the rest, staring blankly at the Bifrost where everybody thinks Loki died and it seems he can barely speak, but that somehow translates into ultimate proof that he’s happy/indifferent that Loki is gone, like ??? Absolutely bizarre takes. I would often see ppl scrutinize Odin’s behavior like this like they’re body language/human behavior “experts” or whatever, as tho it’s not the case that all the characters often appear to be underacting/underreacting when intercut with Loki’s drastic and often very realistic looking displays of emotion. And even with that in mind there’s always enough obvious cinematic language used in those scenes that you can clearly tell the authorial intent. Like you’d think somber music and sad faces and staying away from the party, in contrast to all the partying guests, would make it clear enough that Loki’s family is mourning. But ig they’re not mourning visibly enough for some ppl’s liking.

There’s more scenes like that that really convey the love between all the different family members, but then we also get these confusing scenes like ‘your birthright was to die’ or ‘am I not your mother’ or ‘That hope no longer exists to protect you. You betray me and I will kill you.’ that just kinda happen but then nothing ever gets explained or resolved. Unfortunately it’s likely the writers just think there’s nothing wrong with this kind of behavior and that the characters were justified/right in saying those things. So the fandom’s stuck not being able to just ignore the worst of it, and for me also not being able to ignore all the framing and writing that conveys real love within the family that I want to root for.

In broader strokes I would say the first movie is the most defining for the franchise and the characters and that’s the one that has me rooting for Odin and Loki’s relationship. Then came TDW and it was the real beginning of the end, not TR. This movie was the first that tried to simply sweep under the rug all the interesting drama the previous movies built. They find a way to get rid of Frigga, they get rid of Odin and rush his arc to its end (originally with no intention to bring him back ever again, according to interviews) and they also tried to get rid of Loki for good and rush his arc to its end. Leaving Thor free from having to deal with all the family drama ever again that ig powers that be decided no one wanted to see, until changes were made. With the third movie continuing to axe everything that’s left from the Thor franchise and continuing the task of writing out Thor’s family members, bringing Odin and Loki back, giving them both more flattering conclusions and then killing them off again. And what a pity cos the bones for great arcs for these characters are all there. If only there was a single cohesive vision for the franchise that allowed for continuous cohesive arcs throughout the trilogy.

Anyway, ig I still had some mourning to do for all that development that never happened and that at this point we’re way beyond ever getting.

[fuka-petals]

Long post but I need to put this out there ig please read it fully if you have any interest in my non fandom posting or my art direction in the future

I'm going to try and work on my art more, I'd like to be able to finally make stuff for myself that I can enjoy now without relying on others for that.

This also means i will probably be redesigning many of my ocs. My sona and some newer guys are the only ones that will stay the same but will also have secondary designs.

Also I do not plan on ever finishing AB anymore, it no longer interests me as it brings back bad memories. All ocs from it will be most heavily redesigned and repurposed for a new story or scrapped, though litan is my only guarantee that will have a new story as I associate her with my online friends who are important to me

My main stories currently are Dysphoric Wishes (also more so community, I'd love for others to join in on the project), Project BIBLICAL (this is my sona's story and is extremely personal but I'm working on explaining it and publishing it, I'm not an sane or mentally stable person and I need a place to vent my frustrations at the world), and finally Wired Angels. I also have a fourth project that isn't ready for publication yet.

If you haven't noticed I care a lot more about other media than my own and I'd like to fix that and make something I'm truly happy with and proud of. Also, most of my hyperfixations will definitely influence my works more than they have before as I think that would help me find more appeal in my own work

Also, I plan on finishing my game wips. I have a lot and I want to finally finish some. Dysphoric wishes will have a vn followed by a ynfg, the vn will be lucidete centered and the ynfg will come out once I have enough people in the project to have enough of an world to build off of. Project BIBLICAL will consist of bullet hells once I am talented enough to make one, and Wired Angels shall also be a vn despite being a ynfg, as I think it'd be interesting. I also do have a few other vns of other stories I'd like to finish.

Sorry for rambling but it's now dawned on me after reading something that I've always hated what I make and have never truly liked any of it and I need to stop relying so heavily on others

Thank you for reading

Ps. If you'd like to join dysphoric wishes you can find the project on toyhouse, which mine is linked in my bio, just head to the worlds section and it'll be there, you can join by applying for membership and just throw some random bs in the reason why section and I'll let you in. I'm also going to make a tumblr page for it.

Secondly, you will see a drastic shift in what I make to be more horror centered. This is because 1. The genre interests me 2. I wish to be like the person I had looked up to in a creative media sense

Thirdly, I will also be starting an oc content only account. You may ask questions about them there. I'd heavily appreciate if you do as they are extremely important to me

Okay now actually thanks for reading

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Tw vent. Not too hardcore on trauma just hardcore on description And stress (I don't think anyone reads these?? But if your ocs need trauma or issues ig????😭 This is just a convenient way to get things off my chest)

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Spades and diamonds am I so fuck stressed lately!! I start a new job today, cool. Best friend A is moving STATES AWAY in less than a month, that's hip. Best friend B has spotty availability due to recovering from a surgery, awesome sauce. My younger sibling is moving out in less than a month, chillin. I'm being kicked out before the year ends, fucking. Cool beans. dude. Jesus God damned Christ.

I don't want to love my family or need to be nice to them!! I just fucking learned that me and my younger sibling both dislike my mother!!!!! My older brother keeps trying to act like my dad at the worst. Fucking. Times. And I'm going NUTS.

Basically Everyone™ at my new job LOVES my mother.

When getting kicked out, it's probably either I take my cat or cats or they get put in a pound or left outside. Fuck. Fucked fuck fuck fuck fucker.

Like do I leave early or what. God damnit. Advice might actually be useful, Tumblr. I'll try to censor and explain easily.

NON TW STARTS HERE.

I'm 17 years old physically and I'm 18 on December 10th. I will be homeless but I have a couple options on housing.

A) I beg and beg and cough up all money to stay here with my mom, her fiance, and my older brother

B) I go live with my friend cat. Pros is I can bring my cat probably, cons are the transportation is unreliable and it's cramped.

C) I see if I can live with best friend b. Pros are I might get my own room or suchlike and I'm basically family, cons are my cat can't come I think.

My mental health isn't really the priority right now. I have a bit of things to take aka my clothing (about 1 large tote? Maybe), a 7ft shelf and the things on it, xbox, my bed if needed, and my stuffies(tote full). Other things are honestly sentimental or just small idk.

I'm still in school and I will be for at least 3 more years. Not including college, if I can go.

I make around $400 per check but this job pays less so it'll go down to about $250 I think?

I can't drive and I take medicine (prozac and meclizine), I'm also undiagnosed depressive and possibly (heavily) auDHD. I need to find a dentist too but wtvr.

On a list of things to do should I

A) start downsizing possessions to 3 totes max minus the shelf itself

B) start talking to cat about moving in, see how it'd work etc

C) pack a bit. Idk.

My options aren't a lot since my mom, who I'll start calling Diane now (not her first name it feels weird), places a 7pm curfew on me since I've been to a psych ward(self admitted). She tends to stick her nose in my business if I'm not too careful and anytime we're alone there's a 70/30 chance she'll mention me being kicked out and ask about it. I plan to keep being as secretive as possible, she isn't even aware of any arrangements or stress. She's not sheltering but she's not a good mom. It's a weird balance of careless and overbearing.

To inform more on my mom I'll write a separate post that'll probably be shorter but wtvr I'm just scared I guess. Mostly for my cat. He thinks I'm his mom or something so I'm scared that if I don't take him with me he'll die. Advice of any kind is appreciated, any questions too.

[katrinapavela]

You can post this anonymously but I’m also new to the Scandal fandom and it’s incredible to me that T&K still interact publicly, there’s new blind items coming out, Olitz/Terry are doing numbers on social media (almost trending every day) and I get to witness it in real time.

Except now the interactions come from K more than T…i just hate feeling like it’s not 1000% genuine (if that makes sense???) bc she always doubles down/ does damage control shortly after…I.E “but daddy I love him” before T’s premiere and the black wife effect Tik Tok and then her saying “oh yeah it was just to get people to register to vote” and posting her hubby with the hashtag #proudwifey multiple times on IG and then doing a panel and talking all about Black Love lol like okay girl…

I’d like to continue believing in Terry but K’s antics make her seem a little annoying, attention seeking and as a way to get her social media interactions up/keep her name in the media

As for T, i love that he’s out there doing his own thing. Good for him for booking law and order and for directing Ezra!! 💖💖

Sorry for the long essay but i just felt like venting. Feel free to share your thoughts!!

Hello 👋🏾!

Just to clarify, I can *only* respond publicly to anonymous messages. I have the option to reply privately or publicly to non-anons.

Now, let me post this picture before I say the next part so that you know I’m saying this with love,

I will say 2 things.

1. The reason I no longer discuss this publicly is because some people tend to want me to assuage the cognitive dissonance they experience when they see the *way* former these former costars act, and then the obfuscating words or posts that tend to follow (more so from one, though the other does it occasionally and folks don’t get nearly as upset). I have made peace with this entire situation and created an understanding for myself where I can just enjoy things and leave the rest. But I had to process all of that internally (and in the GC with folks I trust)

2. KW had a lot more to lose in Hollywood than TG. We let white men get away with all kinds of behavior and do not question them half as much as we do BW. I’m not gonna add to that. I get why she does the spin after things get a little too hot. That’s her life that she worked hard to protect, even if it doesn’t suit a fandom’s expectations. Chile, it ain’t my life, and she’s not my doll. So…

Ok, that’s the that on that from me 🙂🤗

[auspex]

brief mini announcement: after reflection. I'll be holding off on posting publicly about WoD - for now temporarily. I will still talk about it in private discords; im not dropping my games or anything... but yeah... just not comfortable posting publicly rn.

personal ponderings and ig reasoning for my choice below.

info for reference: https://www.patreon.com/posts/werewolf-5th-and-86463964

this is a must read if a modern WoD fan imo.

this is not an analysis or specific criticism as it aint my place (im white). i just wanted to vent. and over the course of writing this i decided not to post publicly about WoD for now. if anyone wants to discuss though, i would love to.

i mean in short i dont want to just sit on this info.

so w this werewolf stuff, for context, i only briefly skimmed 1 of its previews and so was holding opinions on it until after i read it fully. and already knew older stuff was anti-indigenous in many respects, (never read it for this reason so dont know details beyond the obvious issues with certain names being used) so now that its fully confirmed the new one is still bad in this way (v v v v disappointed) and the ppl who made it bad and are straight up anti-indigenous are still employed its just. like. ugh. what the fuck. i also didnt know so many of the ppl in old white wolf remained employees when paradox took over???? i fell for the rebranding AUGH.

+ outside of werewolf with outstar still having her position w seemingly no criticism or action or apology given???

theres of course also gonna be a bunch of people way worse than her employed too , that arent as public, so we dont see it, unless wronged former employees speak out about it. (which is very brave and essential. )

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in the end i largely believe in the capitalist society we live in corporations are gonna be immoral at their core and that includes paradox. but i dont want to use that belief as an excuse to do nothing. and i feel perhaps i have used that as an excuse before.

sambrano said the following:

so, we have to hold their feet to the fire. but im not sure if im just misreading or stupid (really, probably just ignorant) but im not sure what exactly is the best thing to do. just express our outrage in someway?

if a boycott was organized i would join. but if one isnt? idk! and idk if a boycott is best. i want and need to hear abt what specifically ingenious and fans of color in general believe is best atm so i suppose my next steps are to just. listen. and see.

idk this is really bad. not sure what 2 do what 2 do.. hhmmhmhmh. just awful all around. my impatience is killing me but i must wait to see what others say.

it seems like when you get down to it the way WoD treats Native Americans specifically in this instance and overall non-white people/non-white culture is abhorrent. both in and out of universe. and i feel if im not careful i could be complicit as a white fan. so i want to proceed very carefully.

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if you read, thanks for reading. i hope i can learn what should be done. in the interim...

im not dropping WoD - but something should be done to address this and until then. i dont feel comfortable posting publicly about WoD. ill still discuss OC stuff in personal discords unless others feel this is still inappropriate.

and im still posting on tumblr. just not WoD stuff. this may last a day, might last a week, may last who knows how much longer. but yes. wait and see ig.

[genuine-possum]

Coming Out Plan / Vent

TW: mentioned unacceptance ig

I'm thinking of coming out to my parents within the next two weeks. I wanna be going by Jynx with my family for my birthday which is in mid-January which is why I'm hoping to do it now.

I am terrified because even though I know I'm safe and have a place to go even if I wasn't, the last few times I've tried to come out it's been ignored. I've said that I'm non-binary and it's been discuss at the time and then left completely unacknowledged afterwards.

I've been going by Jynx on here for over a year. With close friends for about as long. With my boyfriend practically since I met him. And at college ever since I started in September. My parents are the only ones not listening and so I haven't been able to tell my siblings.

Hopefully this is gonna change. I've mostly talked to my mam about this so I'm gonna try talking to my dad first maybe, I'm sure he will listen. he might be confused but I'm willing to answer questions and I think that if he's on side then it might be easier for my mam to accept it and let me 'go public' as far as she knows.

I'm sorry that this is so vent-y and ranty and rambley. this was supposed to be short and explain my situation but I need to get all of this out.

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tagging mutuals so that they're aware and can maybe give me support and advice: @angelwiththeblue-box @thedragonemperess @depressedtransguy @slaysicle @redacted-thething @blueskiesandstarrynights @ghost-light @royalswille

[whitepassingpocs]

I dont like to say it because some white people might be weird about it but...

(Happy vent? Happy rant? Infodump? Idk if this is accepted here cause its not really a question just me being happy and proud but ye!)

I was raised white american with some dutch and polish influence because that was the closest my family had to their cultures on my mom's side with my dad's side being an enigma due to family dieing while my parents generation was quite young and disconnecting and a butt load of trauma. That and some light sprinkles from my half brothers(my dads son, we dont share a mom) italian side and the whispers of scotch-irish my great grandpa gave us.

As a kid, ive always felt a connection to native american culture. I really loved movies about it and it felt right. Ive always had a sort of connection to nature with impecible intuition. Ive felt watched over and protected by natural spirits that i couldnt see and felt a deep and on going connection to the earth. I could see spirits and creatures no one else could and picked up things others didnt. I felt ig... "Awake" to nature and the spirit world.

I substituted myself with wiccanism and paganism because it felt the most right at the time and did my best to keep it white/celtic/polish as to not appropriate other cultures. I was like this from basically 12 to 19. I came out as bi around 13 and trans/nonbinary around 16.

Finally, when i was 19, my mom bothered to mention that my great grandpa on her mom's side was an inuit man(some form of first Nations Canadian) and my great grandma on her dad's side was cherokee. Suddenly i had all these native american heritages that made so much more sense, especially concerning our more native features.

The more i read up on my native cultures and two-spiritism, everything in my life started to make more sense. My gender finally felt right, my orientation, my masculinity, my affinity towards nature and natural sources. The fact that two spirits, in many tribes, are considered closer to the great spirit and a blessing unto the tribe and the family( when i was made to feel unwanted and burdenous to my family due to disability and mental illness). It showed me that even if white society never understood me, i would of been and am loved and respected by my native communities and sometimes i cant help but cry when i think about it.

Being native is hard and every new tragedy being unearthed makes it even harder. Thanksgiving is becoming unbearable by the year but honestly, reconnecting and acknowledging this part of me i subconsciously knew was there and finally learning about my native ancestors has given me so much healing and pride. Ik pple tend to dislike the combinations of what white pple call "horoscope gemstone instagram magic stupidity" aka natural religious practices and non-white community but knowing all this time that even if i cant prove it, what i see and feel is real and that my spirituality, gender, orientation and race are combined in just the label two spirit is what makes me... Well me just brings me so much happiness. It fits like a glove.

Ik that just because you feel a connection to a culture throughout your life dosent mean you are that culture obviously but to me... Idk. Not to get spiritual but it feels like some source of power, be it ancestors or whatever, was always pushing me to investigate and now everything suddenly feels so right. The final puzzle piece of my nativeness was placed and it makes me feel so complete 💚💚💚

thank you for sharing your beautiful story 💕