#not much of a guard if she belives everyone and everything

[chaoslulled]

you're alive... which means you made the right decision. * eren.

was  it truly  the  right  decision?   mikasa  can  say  it  until  she  is  blue  in  the  face  because  she  belives  in  him,  believes  in  saving  him.   like  he's  some  sort  of  disaster  that  can  just  be  washed  way  with  the  next  thunderstorm.    &   sometimes  he  wishes  that  he  could  be,  that  it  was  all  that  easy.   that  he  didn't  see  ymir  everywhere  he  looked,  that  he  didn't  see  the  impact  that  the  small  scale  rumbling  had  created.   what  if  he  had  followed  ymir's  advice   &   not  stopped?   what  if  he  had  broken  everything   &   everyone  around  them,  not  giving  a  damn  as  he  did  it?   if  he  had  done  it,  would  paradis  be  safer?  

there's  so  many  questions,  so  many options  that  flitter  through  his  mind  on  a  daily  basis.   sure,  he  managed  to  hold  back   ––   but  at  what  cost?   his  mind  is  more  fractured  than  ever  these  days   &   he  sees  the  way  they  all  look  at  him,  ready  to  pounce  at  the  sight  of  him  acting  even  a  miniscule  off.   he  can't  blame  them.   if  they  weren't  so  ready  to  pounce,  then  that  would  make  them  stupid.

"   is  it?   "    the  words  are  careful  when  they  come  out;  tone  used   &   worn.   too  little  sleep,  too  many  thoughts.   they're  circling,  over   &   over  again,  ready  to  strike  the  moment  he  lets  his  guard  down.   ready  to  sink  their  teeth  in  if  he  allows  them.

teeth  slowly  sink  into  his  bottom  lip   &   he  leans  his  head  againt  the  edge  of  the  bed,  looking  out  at  the  stars  that  are  streaming  outside  the  window.     "   i'm  always  going  to  be  a  prisoner.   so  much  for  freedom.   "

[iceprincessviviane]

Whispers in the darkness

Paring: Yandere!C!Technoblade x BookwormEnchanter!Female!Reader

Type: Romantic (Technoblade is yandere) Trilogy - part two. (Previous part, next part)

Warnings: swearing, possessivness, yandere, angst, injury, blood, threats, sugestive content, silly jokes created by me.

Summary: Technoblade is trying to convince and adjust Y/N to new situation and himself. Some time has passed, but troubles are showing.

Author's note: Continuation from part one. Insipration from ACOTAR. English isn't my first language, so sorry for any mistakes.

Words in red colour are Technoblade's voices.

Words in blue colours are Y/N thoughts.

Three days have passed and Y/N felt better. She was almost lying in bed all day, but she started to fast recovery. All her energy was restored and she could left their room. Technoblade went at adventure in Nether, for some supplies. She slowly went downstairs, hearing the cooking sounds and humming. Of course Phil was standing in the kitchen, preparing something. They both froze for a while. Realization hit her harder, than she expected. He knew... he had to know. Winged man sighed and his shoulders dropped. As he thought, he didn't know what to do.

"I... I noticed that Techno has thing for you, I adviced him conversation or something... when he left two days ago for training I have never expected, that he will come back with you in his arms. I was shocked, afraid and confused." Phil explained slowly.

Y/N bit her lip and hugged herself. He was one of her the most trusted person here, aside with Foolish and Bench Trio.

"Listen, I was with Techno through a lot of shit. He is my friend and I will always be on his side, no matter what. I don't fully support... this kidnapping, but I am still with him." He continued, then took cups of tea and plate with sandwiches. "Hungry?"

Y/N nodded and sat down. He put everything on table and sat too. Everything looked like during her last visit. Phil was living in house in opposite combined with Techno's by bridge.

"So... you won't help me convince him to let me go, right?" She asked with saddness.

"Unfortunetly no. I am not going to be involved in stuff between you and him. But is it that bad? You are not missing anything, Techno is caring about you, here is safe and all the stuff you need." He looked at her.

"I used to be a free person, you know..."

"I am sure, that he will let you go on backyard. On attic, we can set up enchanting place with books and stuff. Sometimes Ranboo is visiting us." Phil was determined to show good sides of current situation.

He didn't want to be manipulative, but for everyone's greater good, was that she had to accept her fate. Technoblade could be rough, when it came to be obedient. He really acted diffrent, since he found his thing for her and now, when Y/N was there, he was calmer and more relaxed. If she would escape, he will for sure track her down and then, everyone which would help, will be in great danger. Technoblade wasn't leaving something behind. Probably whole Smp will be burning. Maybe it was selfish, but Phil didn't want any argues or wars for now. Y/N was eating quietly, thinking about his words. It wasn't that bad for sure. She expected being injured and thrown into cellar or something and actually they didn't even tie her.

"You are being serious with that enchanting place and yard?" She asked quietly.

Phil nodded and smiled to her gently. After eating he took her to the attic, where was some space and shelfes. Immediately her humor improved, they even started to talk about setting up enchanting place. Later this day, Phil left to his house and Y/N was reading on the couch, cover by the blanket, because days here were colder than in main Smp part. Technoblade managed to bring most of her personal stuff here including clothes. She was wearing warm sweater and pants, but still got closer to the fireplace, which was very nice in her opinion. Sun started to go down, she was thinking if Techno will come, Phil said that he sometimes made trips, which lasted days.

Sudden sound of opening door caused her to turned at it's direction. Piglin hybrid stepped inside and smiled to her warm.

"Hi darliIIIAAAAAA!" He screamed and dropped something.

Y/N frowned and stood up. Small ball of fur squeaked and immediately recognized it's owner, it asap ran to her and hid behind her.

"Snowflake!" She screamed and picked up her fox gently, then petted it's head softly.

"It bit me!" Techno growled and sucked his injured finger. "This had to be surprise..."

She sent him warm smile and again sat on the couch. Snowflake snuggle her head into Y/N's chest, she hugged her back.

"Thank you for bringing her here..." She looked at him softly. "It mean a lot to me..."

The Blade smiled proudly and came closer. Fox started to growl, when he approached. Y/N gently petted her.

"It's all right my little one. He isn't that scary as he seems in first take." She smiled at Techno.

After a few minutes small ball of fur calmed and accommodate itself on Y/N's lap and went to sleep. Technoblade quietly sat on couch and looked at them curiously.

"Do you know that I am scary, intimidating and grim huh?" He whispered.

Y/N rolled eyes and looked at him. "Of course I know. I experienced that few days ago."

Silence fell upon them, Technoblade didn't excatly know what to say, this whole situation shloud looked way diffrent, he just didn't predict this whole chase, althought is was fun.

'Make her forget about it.' 'She will understand.' 'Chase was interesting.'

"Phil showed me the attic and mentioned, that there we could make enchanting place. Is that true?" She asked quietly, looking deep into his eyes.

"Yes of course! It's all yours, you can make there your working place." He said and took her hand, then gently rub it with his thumb.

"Really?"

He nodded with honest smile. Y/N hugged him gently, watching out at fox. "Thank you. Also I need a basket and blanket for Snowflake..."

"This isn't a trouble princess."

}*{

Some days passed Y/N was busy with making her workplace. Technoblade helped her, Phil occasionaly showed, but didn't want to interrupt them both. They worked hard with wood, she made enchanting table, because he brought most of her supplies to cottage, being careful and avoided everyone. For now none was looking for her and Techno wished, that this would last the longest, no troubles, no worries, just him and Y/N happy.

Piglin hybrid also brought her notes and books, so Y/N could study again, she was so happy about it, finally could do something useful. When the attic was finally done, she went into their shared bedroom. Deep inside she was still hesitant, when it came to Technoblade, but decided to don't make him angry. Being in tundra wasn't so bad, but also wasn't a paradise. Yes, she was thinking how to get herself from this awkward situation, but hasn't find solution yet.

Immediately Snowflake get up from her basket and sniffed around. Y/N smiled softly, recently her fox was more curious and brave, even tried to play with Techno's fox named Aura.

"Let's go to outside for a while, we both need fresh air."

They went outside, Y/N took a deep breath. Fox immediately jump off and started to run through the snow. She covered herself more by cloak and sit near, watching cute ball of fur playing around. Fresh air let her relaxed more and clean up thoughts. Around were silence, hound was sleeping in special building, sometimes Steve was moving in snow, to find a good position. Around the fence slept more wolfes, guarding the exits. Y/N swallowed slowly, she wasn't able to go through. Unfortunately, Snowflake had another idea, fox fast ran away from yard, jumping in snow and spinning around.

"Snowflake!" Y/N stood up immediately and ran to her. "Come back!"

But little fox puppy didn't want to listen, it ran away even more far. Worrying owner didn't think too much, just found place, where dogs were away and jumped over the fence. One of them woke up and started to bark and howl. Snowflake put her ears back, came back into her owner's arms, curling up. She hugged her tightly.

"Don't do it again, you scared me..." she whispered quietly into it's fur.

Cold wind started to blow and Y/N heard the whole hound howling, it was terrifying. She turned back just to meet Technoblade standing intimidating with sword in his hand.

"Are you trying to escape?" He asked slowly observing her.

"What? No! Snowflake ran away, she got over the fence..." Y/N explained quietly.

"You really think, that I am going to belive in this?" He made one step further, she responed with one step back.

"I am not lying!"

"You better not be lying, because you won't like my punishment, my dear." Technoblade looked deep into her eyes. "If fox is causing troubles, maybe it should disappear?"

Y/N shook her head. "I promise, it won't happen again, please don't hurt her!" She had almost tears in her eyes.

Piglin hybrid nodded slowly and gave her his hand. She took it gently and together came back inside. Silence remained between them, Phil was in his house, busy with books. Y/N took Snowflake upstairs and put in the basket. Fox immediately curled up and went to sleep, she backed into kitchen. Technoblade waited with narrowed eyes, she swallowed hard.

"You broke a rule."

'She wanted to run away from us!' 'She deserve punishment!' 'We won't let her leave the house!'

"I know, but I just wanted to catch Snowflake! You really think, that I would escape without nothing, only in cloak?"

"No, but rule is a rule."

He moved closer, towering at her. Their eyes met, red and y/c. She saw there anger and disbelief, but she didn't do something bad. Technoblade gripped her chin once more, Y/N hissed, when she was forced to look at him.

"Listen Y/N. I really feel diffrent around you, calmer and stable, but that doesn't mean that my true nature disappeared." He said slowly.

"I know, I told you... Snowflake ran away, I just wanted to save her..." a single tear strimmed down at her cheek.

Piglin hybrid moved his hand to wip it out, then cupped her face. Atmosphere changed immediately. Maybe it was warm, which radiated from his body or this gentle touch, but somehow room became hotter. Red crawled at Y/N's cheeks and Technoblade sighed quietly. His thumb has been found on her down lip. Time has frozen, she was looking straight into his eyes, their gaze locked. She grabbed his wirst gently, but he didn't stop.

"What are you doing?"

"I'm admiring. Be quiet."

But when he leaned in and Y/N colsed eyes, pending what will come next, silence distrubed light grunt from the door. They immediately turned heads at this direction. Of course Phil was standing there with awkward face.

"I am assuming, that I am bothering you..."

"Yes." Technoblade's eyes narrowed.

"Of course not. Come in." Y/N said and left Techno's grasp with smile.

}*{

Phil stayed till late hours, they discussed some cases, she left them quite soon, because conversation bored her. Y/N started to work in attic, but when night has fallen, she moved to their bedroom and started to read book. Snowflake laid on her lap, so she could pet it's head slowly. Phil and Techno talked quietly, so it was immpossible to hear anything.

When the door opened, Y/N lifted her sight, piglin hybrid entered into the bedroom. His eyes narrowed, when he spotted cute, little ball of fur, but didn't say anything.

"Talking is over?"

Technoblade nodded and closed the door, she put away book. Snowflake jumped off bed and went straight into her basket, avoiding him at all cost. Y/N sighed quietly and stood up, Techno locked his sight on her posture.

"I am going to take bath. You can go to sleep, if you want."

He blocked her way out, she looked at him with surprise. In one heart beat Technoblade pinned her to the closest wall. Quiet 'welp' left her lips.

"We had a thing, before Phil naughty interrupted us." The Blade whispered with deep voice.

"Did we have?" Y/N asked while looking at him, she tried to act tough.

"Oh yes, we had my dear."

He put left hand on wall near her head and right hand gripped her chin, forcing her to look at him. Their eyes met again, confidence faced uncertainty. His touch was more gentle, that she might expect.

"Let myself be clear. You will have to pay, for today's little bad behaviour."

"Wh-what do you mean?" She suttered.

"Let's say... if you don't want me to throw out this little, annoy ball of fur... you will have to kiss me." Technoblade said with deep voice.

Y/N looked at Snowflake peacefuly sleeping at basket and sighed helplessly.

"Do you promise? And never, ever again will threat her?"

"Yes. I always keep my word."

She nodded slowly, red crawled on her cheeks, cupped his face carefuly, hesitated for a moment. Y/N, closing eyes, gently pressed their lips together, in slow, shy kiss. She had to stand on her tiptoes, to reach Technoblade's lips. His hand moved at her waist and pulled her closer and he kissed her back in more confident way.

Y/N was so sweet and her lips so soft, like they were made for him. Piglin hybrid fast took control of the situation. Hand from her chin slipped on neck, to press their lips closer. Y/N made quiet moan, which caused his blood to boil. He smiled through a kiss.

'So good for us.' 'So sweet, so soft.' 'Don't stop, don't stop!'

Voices went feral, their demands and screamings filled his head, in one smooth move Technoblade grabbed her thighs and lifted Y/N up, without breaking the kiss. Now, she slipped hand into pink hair. He muttered with satisfaction, but then she broke away and opened eyes. The Blade snorted, greedy for touch, contact and pressed lips to her neck, kissing slowly.

"Techno!" Y/N winced and grabbed his shoulders.

"Relax princess." He whispered into her skin softly. "It's part of the punishment."

She blushed even at her ears, when he pressed few more kisses, then broke away too. They looked at each other in silence.

"Well, now I think, that it wasn't a punishment for you at all." Technoblade laughed slighty. She shook head with disbelief and helpless, then looked down.

"Oh, don't be so shy, I mean, I like it, but you don't need to be."

"Are you going to put me down?" Y/N asked with impatience.

"Maybe yes... maybe no." He hid head in her neck's crook.

In fact Technoblade just had to chill a little bit. His blood was still boiling, lips were touch starved and hands didn't want to let her go. After a few deep breaths, he gently put her on the floor.

"Thanks you." Y/N giggled softly.

"Go for this bath." The Blade smiled haughty and kissed her forehead.

She nodded, grabbed night clothes and left bedroom. Technoblade was smiling like idiot, when she went out. Feeling in his chest grew only bigger through days, when she was here. Also he wanted show everyone that Y/N is his and only his, he would bite her shoulder or neck, maybe give her golden jewelry, but for now it was pointless. As long, as she wasn't leaving the basement, all of this could come later. Of course Technoblade desired to mark her, but her shyness and innocence were too adorable and entertainment.

}*{

Next week has passed without any serious problems. Technoblade was always in cottage, Phil sticked around lot, so they could spend time together. Usually, they were talking, pair of friends described Y/N their adventures, Phil was telling of far away lands, and she was always listening witn true amazement. When Techno and Y/N were alone, he usually read her books or they just cuddled on couch. Sometimes she was trying to work on attic, but it was quite hard, since piglin hybrid has become clingy and very touch starved. He stole her few kisses during this week, but they weren't so intense as their first kiss. But since yesterday Technoblade has acted like he was always lost in his thoughts. That was something diffrent, so she noticed quite easily.

Y/N was sitting at the table and watching piglin hybrid carefuly. He was making her cup of tea, but silence reminded between them for too long.

"You are taciturn, since yesterday... something happend?" She asked finally.

He smiled and turned back to her with cup of tea. "You are so caring darling." He put the cup on the table.

"That isn't answer of my question..."

"You don't need to worry about it. Everyone has a quiet days, even me." Technoblade grabbed her hand and squeezed it gently, it caused Y/N to smile too. She took a sip.

"It taste better than Phil's?"

"Um... I can't tell the diffrence." Y/N shrugged, it tasted good, tea like tea.

"Great." His smile widened and she felt warning twist in her stomach. Something was odd...

"You... are sure, that everything is all right?"

This time, he didn't even bother to answer. Just looked at her and studied her face. Y/N blinked... but suddenly her eyelids became very heavy. Though she was sleeping today well. Fatigue mastered her body, Y/N groaned quietly and put cup down with loud sound.

"Feeling tired?" Technoblade asked slowly.

She lifted her sight at him with little struggle. His face was stern, but something in his eyes... made her shiver inside.

"What... what did you do?"

"Nothing... nothing at all."

Y/N stood up slowly, but she tripped at first step, needed to support herself by table. He squeezed her hand harder and embrece waist, to hold her. She couldn't push him back, all energy went out, her sight found half full cup of tea...

"You bastard..."

Dark laugh left his lips, he lifted her in bride style, like she was like a feather. Technoblade kissed her forehead reassuring.

"I think, you shloud go to sleep my love."

Then, Y/N started to see blurry and finally lost consciousness. She didn't know how long she has been unconscious, but when she woke up, she has seen their shared bedroom. Then felt cold metal around her wrist. Still little tired and probably under the influence of drugs, Y/N tried to move herself from bed. Chain from her wirst was attached to wall and it was pretty long.

'What the hell happend...?'

Y/N didn't want to believe, that Technoblade drugged her... maybe staying here wasn't the best idea... Door opened with quiet noise, causing her, to look at it's direction. Piglin hybrid went inside with tray full of food. She clenched jaw and looked at him with narrowed eyes. If she could, she would throw at him fireballs again.

"Don't even think to get closer." She hissed quietly. "What is this?" She rose her hand with a handcuff.

Technoblade put a tray on table and sighed. Actually he had all his netherite armor on, sword at his belt, then trident and axe on back. Y/N swallowed hard.

"I am going on adventure with Phil... actually it's for supplies..." The Blade said slowly.

"So you chained me?!"

"I don't want to risk anything darling."

"Take it off." Y/N said totally serious.

"I-"

"Take it off!" Tears started to come up into her eyes.

Technoblade didn't even move slighty. He just watched, when she tugged chain couple of times, then sat helpless on the bed and quiet sob left her lips. He immediately came closer and crouch on her level. Despite her protests, Techno grabbed her hands and rub them gently with thumbs.

"I will be back in three, four days. You have food on table and I brought you new books. Chain can reach bathroom."

"Please take the chain off!"

'Music for our ears.' 'Make her stop crying.' 'We already miss her...'

He kissed her forehead, but then stood up and left her room, closing it on a key. Y/N was too shooked to make any move, she pulled her legs closer to chest and hugged them. Loud sob left her lips this time and tears strimming down at her cheeks freely. Snowflake jumped on the bed and snuggled near, to cheer up it's owner, but without any success.

Y/N just couldn't believe, that Technoblade actually did this. She behaved good all the time, didn't even fight his... sudden whims or whishes. He wasn't exactly as people talk about him, he had feelings, goals and persons which he cared about. He was a person, not a weapon. But this... she called fire at her fingers and grabbed the metal. After a few minutes, it didn't make any effect, but she spotted slight purple light on metal.

Enchantments.

Closing eyes, she focused on chain. After a second she had an answer. Mending and Unbreaking. Y/N cursed aloud, without key or magic, there was no way to open it. She was too weak for casting spells. It was made by Phil for sure, Technoblade didn't know enchanting that good... she curled up on bed, trying to find a way out of this horrible situation.

}*{

Ranboo sighed stepping at outisde stairs in Technoblade's basement. He was here so long ago, at least three weeks ago. Moving into mansion took a lot of time and they had to finish filling the rooms. After this, Eret told Foolish, that Y/N is missing, they immediately went to her home, only to find out it was empty and some things were taken. He helped with searching, because Eret and Foolish stated, that she couldn't just leave without a word. A week of no progress caused them to stop. Ranboo saw the true sadness on demi-god's face and he wished he would help. Tommy and Tubbo missed her too and Michael wanted, that Y/N read his tales. Enderman hybrid sighed once more and stepped inside. Main door wasn't locked, none dared to come here and steal something, maybe except Tommy. He would do that without any hesitation.

He needed blaze rods and some honey, to start bee farm for Tubbo. He was in the middle of searching, when heard suspicious nosie from on top. Ranboo looked at celling unsure. Technoblade and Phil were on trip, he know that, because they met in the Nether once in fortress. He knew only one ghost and he wasn't here for sure... Then he heard quiet whimper and sob. Tall teenager swallowed hard and started to head upstairs. The noises were coming from Techno's bedroom, that was really odd. He tried to open door, but it was locked. Looking around, he spotted the key on the nearest shelf, so took it and open door slowly and quietly.

Ranboo almost dropped everything in his hands, when he saw Y/N on floor, chain around her wrist, eyes full of tears, skin more pale than usually. She immediately looked up, her gaze was full of shock and disbelief.

"Y/N?" He knelt near her, look if there were any injures or wounds.

"Ranboo?" She almost cried this words. "What... what are you doing here?"

"I am getting supplies from Techno... and you? For gods sake, Foolish and Eret were looking for you!"

Tears left her eyes, when she heard this words. None has known what exactly happend... telling whole story wasn't a great idea.

"Why there is a chain on your wirst?"

Y/N bit her down lip and looked at him embarrased. This whole story was an absurd, what if he won't believe her?

"Technoblade..." she whispered quietly.

"Why Techno would do that? And Phil, he wouldn't allow it..."

"But he did!" She screamed, clearly with fear in her voice.

Enderman hybrid was confused, this didn't has sense or logic. He sighed slowly and looked at Y/N, no she wasn't lying, so what was the case? What was going on here?

"Let me help you with this..." He took metal into his hands and tried to break it. After few minutes, he grabbed sword, but still, stubborn chain didn't want to let her go.

"It's enchanted... only key or magic can release me... " Y/N explained quietly. "And if I leave... gods help us... Technoblade will be after me."

"But... why? What did you do?" Ranboo asked without even thinking.

"I don't know! This is madness, I just want to get back to home, but they won't allow me." Y/N started to shake and tears strimmed down at her cheeks.

Ranboo hugged her gently, she was watching out to not water his skin or suit too much. He rubbed Y/N's back gently.

"We will need help... to get you out of this I guess."

"No... Technoblade will be after them... please don't tell anyone!"

"But, what about you?" He seemed worried.

"I don't know... I will try to break out, but I don't know when... just please promise me, that you won't tell anyone!"

Ranboo hesitated for a moment. How will she manage to break herself? And how could he be quiet about it? Eret and Foolish are still sad and hopeful or her returning, Michael every night is asking, where is aunt Y/N.

"Right, I won't... but someone will know, now or later."

Y/N sighed, he had right... someone will eventually step inside Technoblade's house and find her... but now there was no better plan.

"Yes, but at least maybe that won't be my close friend... you shloud go, before they see you."

He again hesitated, but after all, hugged her for goodbye, stood up and left. Also put everything as it was when he came. Still he was torn, because, wanted to help, but didn't want to let down Y/N or betrayed Technoblade's trust. Finally he left closing the door carefuly, lost in thoughts.

}*{

As Technoblade promised, he stepped into house exactly four days after leaving. Inside was silence, he had full backpacks and was tired, Phil went to his part, they both needed rest. After put everything in magazine, he went upstairs and entered his shared bedroom. Y/N was sitting under wall, where chain was attached, room didn't changed at all, some things were moved, but nothing odd.

'We didn't see her for such a long time...' 'We are going to hold her whole day.' 'Can't wait to see her again!'

"I'm finally back princess." He hummed and got closer.

She looked at him and stood up slowly, a little bit shaky, she unsure wrapped arms around his waist and closed her eyes.

"Please, never ever again leave me alone here... please." Quiet whisper left Y/N's lips.

Technoblade smiled satisfactorily, then hugged her back and pressed soft kiss on her forehead.

"Will you be obedient now?" He asked cupping her face in hands and wiped out tears.

Y/N nodded almost immediately, Piglin's hybrid smile widened, well that was better than he has expected. He couldn't complain, more things could be complicated, but for now, he wanted her to calm and be nice as she shloud be.

"Good. Let me help you with this." The Blade took gently her wirst and pulled out small, golden key from his pocket, then opened handcuff. Skin where it was, was violated, red abrasions and scabs, his eyes narrowed.

"I will take care of this don't worry."

Y/N sat on bed and looked as he put away his cape, weapons and grabbed bandages, then cover injuries with it.

"Thanks..." she said after everything was done.

"Now I am going to take off my armor, then maybe bath. If you want... you can go downstairs or help me."

Y/N looked at him with a hesitation. They together started to undo Technoblade's armor, after a while he ended looking at her, when she was patiently helping. It took a moment, netherite armor was heavy and parts were big, but after everything was done The Blade hugged her tightly.

"I missed you sweetheart..." he whispered into her ear. "I'm glad, that we are on good terms now."

Y/N bit her lip, most important thing was, that they couldn't know, that Ranboo was here. This made her anxious, poor boy, wouldn't have chances with Technoblade...

"I missed you too." She smiled gently and pressed shy kiss to his cheek.

Night has fallen quickly, piglin hybrid was napping a lot after bath and Y/N finally could go to the attic or kitchen, so she spent time mostly there. Working and making herself her favourite meal. When she entered the shared bedroom, Technoblade was sitting on bed shirtless and taking care of his sword, he lifted his eyes in her.

"Come in."

Y/N closed door and walked few steps forward, this view reminded her, that actually she had trident with her, when got kidnapped. Where it could be now?

"Technoblade..."

"Yes sweetheart?"

"When we met in forest, I had trident with myself... what happend with it?"

Piglin hybrid stopped and put sword away, then stood up. She swallowed hard, maybe it wasn't a good idea...

"Why do you want to know?"

"Trident is important thing for enchanters... and this was my only one. I also spent a lot of time searching for it and enchanting it..." Y/N said honestly.

"It's safe in the cellar." He got closer to her and smiled gently.

She nodded and let him hug her, then wrapped her arms around his waist. Technoblade placed hand on her neck, kiss was slow and gentle. Piglin hybrid smiled after breaking out. Inside, Y/N sighed with relief, he didn't noticed, that Ranboo was here.

She let her guard down in vain. The Blade's gentle touch fast, became inescapable grasp on her throat, Y/N pupils widened immediately. Tried to pull him out, but that was only a weak try.

"You think, that I am stupid or blind?" He asked, then lifted her up, still holding her throat, air started to go out and didn't come back.

Y/N tried to kick him of, but again that was only a weak try, even when he was tired. She grabbed his wrist and trying to push off his hand, only to take breath.

"After a whole week, you just casualy asking me about your trident huh?" His eyes narrowed looking at her reaction.

'Grip her harder!' 'Make her cry and scream!' 'Show, who is in charge here!'

Voices again went feral, but this time they demanded violence and wildness. His sight almost became red and ears was full of noise.

"Techno!" Y/N whispered quietly, fighting to stay focused.

"Apologize and everything will be all right."

"Please..." Tears started to strimming down at her cheeks, she became weak.

He shook his head. "That's not how you apologize. Just say that you are sorry for being dirty, little girl, forgive me."

"I... am sorry... for being... dirty little girl. Please forgive... me." Words slowly left Y/N' lips.

Technoblade smiled with satisfaction, then just let her go. Y/N' body hit hard the floor, she hissed at sudden pain and looked up at male. He grabbed her chin, forcing her to stay like this, on knees.

"I hate do it to you. I really do. Please promise me, that you will be good, obedient, little girl."

Graps on her chin hardened, Y/N nodded almost immediately. After this, she had enough, hear pounded so fast, eyes full of tears.

"It's late, let's go to sleep princess." He left her chin and went straight into the bed.

She stood up shaky and quietly, then grabbed her night clothes and went into bathroom. When came back, Technoblade is sleeping peacefuly on his side. Y/N without any distrubing noise, snuggled into bed and turned her back at him. She couldn't sleep at all, just laying there and thinking. After today for sure her mind changed and situation seemed to be horrible and without exit.

The mattress sagged under the weight of Technoblade, when he changed his position. She immediately froze, again he put an arm around her waits and his head right behind her's. Y/N swallowed her tears in silence.

}*{

Couple of days have passed and Y/N became much more shy and quiet. Technoblade usually held her around, but when not, she was in attic working or reading books. Piglin hybrid was satisfied with her behavior, showing his affection and caring way.

It was almost an evening, Phil was working on supper, Technoblade and Y/N were sitting on couch, he held her hand and read ancient poem with shinning eyes. Winged man couldn't resist to smile, while was hearing it.

Everything became much calmer. Well it ended, when Ranboo stormed into cottage, heavy breathing, burns on his face from tears and he was in full netherite armor.

"I am sorry! Please forgive me..."

[justanotherpjofan]

I know I been posting a lot on tcf but suck it is my blog so here we go again (This one is going to be long, but bear with me)

Before we knew for a fact that cale won't die even if he stabs his heart I was thinking about something sad at first but funny when all is done.

First of all Cale is dead.

He died while fighting after stabbing his heart and of course everyone in the continent is shook, the greatest hero is dead.

Because it was in the middle of a fight, the army and allies were all present so the news travel very fast.

Alberu decided to for at least this one time give the whole glory to Cale even though he knows he never want it but because he deserve it.

At the Roan kingdom's plaza every single being that was helped by cale united among the citizens and common people from all the western continent.

Is a huge funeral of the highest level of honor, Cale is laid down on a bed of leaves from the world tree given by the elfs, the wolf tribe, the tiger tribe and the whale tribe all of them there presenting their respects.

The leaders of Breck, Whipper, Caro and The Jungle all mourning.

Rasheel and Mila there without moving because they can't belive it.

Dodori crying because he couldn't give the hero a happy ending

Cale's family are a mess Raon who is threatening to kill every living is being hold by Eruhaben, just for him to not run wild, Choi Han making a vow to never leave his people alone again, Rosaly, Lock and Jack crying their eyes out because they fail.

Cage and Hannah cursing enraged.

Ron and Beacrox dreadfully silent, while a single tear runs out through Ron's cheek because he just lost a son.

Duke Deruth, duchess Violan, Basen and Lily all crying and blaming themselves.

On and Hong not wanting to leave Cale's side even though they know that he is not going to open his eyes anymore.

Alberu for once not even trying to hold his Crown Prince facade anymore and letting his true feelings show.

When suddenly Cage runs toward Cale, nobody tries to actually stop her because she is an allie, she then pulls out the divine item of the god of dead and puts the book on top of Cale's chest.

Then a neutral voice is heard all over the plaza and no one knows from where is coming.

"I bring this child to do my biding and he did it at the cost of his live even when he didn't wanted to, now I'll reward him by giving him some more time because at least once I can defeat death"

All the people there suddenly stop crying and lift their heads to look at Cale.

The book starts shining and burst open pasing all the pages till it close and then dissapear in thin air.

Everyone is expecting and finally they can see Cale's eyes opening slowly, it looks like even opening them is taking some effort.

And a soft groan could be heard on the deadly silent plaza.

Cale tries to focus his eyes but he truly is tired like he could felt asleep immediately, he looks around a little before asking in a hoarse voice "Hyung where am I?"

On, Hong, Alberu, Choi Han, Eruhaben, Rosalyn, Lock, Ron, Deruth and many others where by the bedside looking down with tearful expressions and the mouths open in surprise.

Cale who doesn't know what's going on just brush it aside because he is really tired just ask instead "Can I sleep some more?" His body aches and feels heavy so he doesn't wait for an answer and close his eyes again but nobody worries because they can hear his faint breathing.

The plaza is crying tears of joy now relieve that the commander is alive and shock because a god just revive him confirming pretty much that Cale was a god messenger.

Choi Han carefully lifts Cale and the crown Prince tell him to move Cale to his bedroom, while everyone silently follows.

Alberu takes care of the people gather in the plaza before following as well, saying to the people something like "My dosaeng just woke up I got to go"

Cale then wakes up a little confused but feels lighter than before, before stiffing up at the attentive gaze of his family Raon is weeping on his lap with On and Hong, Eruhaben and the other dragons are inspecting him, Choi Han is guarding the door without missing a single move that Cale made Alberu is sitting on the couch with a cup of tea not taking his eyes off him either.

They were all scared because they fear that Cale could stop breathing at any moment.

A confused and massively hungry Cale sits up and look around noticing that he is in Alberu's room.

A little later Alberu explains everything and there is a single thought in Cale's mind.

"The bastard god of death revived me infront of the people on the plaza, am I going to ever have my slacker's life? Forget being a hero I fucking got revived how the fuck I'm going to rest now?

[depressedhatakekakashi]

Let Me Through

Prompt: Chocolate

Words: 1504

For: @abyssaldespair

Mission objective: Make it through the Hokage’s residence without any distractions and leave the box of chocolates on Shizune’s desk.

Rank: D Level. No major threats and no one really wanted to stop and have a chat with him, so it was unlikely that he would be held back in his objective.

Payment: Shizune’s affections and perhaps, if he was really lucky, a date.

Most people would think he’d lost his mind for putting so much thought into leaving Shizune a small box of chocolates, but they didn’t understand. None of them were war criminals trying to start a new life in a village full of people who hated them. The hatred was deserved, of course, Obito wouldn’t deny that. It just happened to make things more difficult for him.

Anything that involved going out into public was a challenge. Some people would just glare at him, which he could handle, others would avoid him at all costs, but then there were the select few with enough courage to walk up to him and tell him exactly what they thought about seeing him walking around the village a free man.

Last time he was out, he had barely survived a run in with Nara Yoshino, and that was only because Kakashi had intervened on his behalf.

It was just easier for him to treat everything he did like a mission. He could plan out his actions, make a clear objective, and before he knew it he would be back in the safety of his little home under the watchful eyes of his Anbu Guards.

Well, he was always under their watchful eyes, but his point still stood.

“Get to Shizune’s office, drop off the chocolates, and get out,” he muttered to himself, double checking that he had taped his little note to the box so that she knew who it was from. All of this work would be pointless if he forgot the most important part. “Once i’m done I can go home, relax and enjoy a quiet night to myself.”

It would all work out. It had to work out, he had put far too much thought into this for it to fail now.

“Hey, Obito!” Just outside of the Hokage’s residence, Obito heard a familiar voice calling out to him with far too much joy. Uzumaki Naruto, of course. If there was anyone who was going to throw a Kunai into his plans, it would be the hero of the world. “You came outside into the sunlight!”

“Well you know,” hiding the box of chocolates behind his back, he did his best not to pout. It wouldn’t do him any good to let Naruto know what he was attempting to do. The last thing he needed was the twenty three year old trying to give him advice on love. “Just visiting a friend.”

Naruto frowned, leaning to the side a little to try and get a good look at what it was Obito was hiding behind his back. “A friend?” he asked, huffing when Obito simply nodded his head to confirm. “You know, Kakashi-sensei doesn’t really like sweets.”

“I’m aware of Kakashi’s bad taste buds,” rolling his eyes, Obito took a step back. “Why do you even…wait, you don’t think-” That couldn’t be it. Surely Naruto wasn’t dumb enough to actually belive such a thing.

“Well, it’s not like it would work anyways,” placing his hands behind his head, Naruto beamed. “Kakashi-sensei’s already dating Bushy brow’s-Sensei.”

Death was the only option now. If there were people out there who honestly believed he was trying to date Kakashi of all people, there was simply no recovering. He’d have to crawl into a grave and die.

It was easier that way.

“Obito?” Naruto appeared directly in front of him suddenly, his face far too close for comfort. “You alright?”

Lifting a hand, Obito brought it down across Naruto’s head, hard. “Kakashi!?” He screamed, causing everyone around them to stop and tune into their conversation. “Out of everyone in this village you could have guessed, you had to choose him!? Why would I- that doesn’t- Do you hate me so much that you would honestly believe…”

There were no words.

Him trying to get with Kakashi. As if.

“What’s this I hear?” dragging his eyes away from Naruto, he cringed when he saw Gai rolling towards them in his wheelchair, his face devoid of the blinding smile he would usually sport. Though, that wasn’t much of a surprise. Anyone who knew Maito Gai knew there was exactly one person in the world he hated.

Obito was unfortunate enough to be that person.

“Oh, Bushy brows Sensei. It looks like Obito’s trying to-” Acting fast, Obito slapped a hand over Naruto’s mouth and planted his other hand in the kids hair, box of chocolates now visible behind tufts of yellow hair.

“I am trying to teach Naruto here the importance of information gathering,” he finished for the kid, laughing awkwardly when Gai raised an eyebrow. “You see, if he learns how to be a little sneakier and gather information before running head first into battler I think he’ll make an even better shinobi.”

“Your Lies are worse than your choice in chocolates,” before he has an opportunity to turn around and scold Kakashi for appearing in the middle of his little crisis, the box of chocolates is snatched out of his hand. How Kakashi got it when it was squished against Naruto’s head, he’s not quite sure, but he’s determined to get it back. “Also, Naruto please learn to read the room. Obito’s not dumb enough to try and woo me.”

“Woo you?” Gai’s eyes darkened. A look Obito is certain is reserved for him. “As if.”

“I wasn’t trying…why are you all like this? What have I done to deserve this, and no Gai, I don't want an answer to that question,” he added when the Taijutsu master opened his mouth to respond. “I am going home.”

“Mmm, good idea,” glaring back at Kakashi, Obito grumbled when he saw him tucking the box of chocolates under his arm. “I’ll make sure Shizune gets these.”

Mission status: Complete and utter failure. Not only had he been unable to even get into the Hokage’s residence before being stopped and thoroughly embarrassed, now he was subjected to the worst possible punishment.

There was no way he was going to get a date with Shizune now. What woman in her right mind would date a failure like him? He couldn’t even get her gift to her without interruption.

“Shizune?” Naruto spoke when Obito dropped his hand from his mouth. “Why would you be giving Chocolates to Shizune?”

“Well you See, Naruto,” Kakashi began. “When a boy likes a girl-”

“Finish that sentence and I’ll risk Maito’s wrath just to stab you.”

He might not be able to keep his dignity, that had flown out the window years ago when he first met Kakashi and now every day of his life was dedicated to just surviving a single hour without embarrassment (which so far was a beautiful failure), but he could at least keep one secret.

“Ma, we’ll just have to make it a double date,” Kakashi decided, clearly determined to crush all of Obito’s hopes of clinging to even just a scrap of dignity. “That’ll be fun. What do you think, Gai?”

Was it possible for his day to get any worse?

“A double date?” A familiar voice reached his ear. Just as sweet as he remembered it. “Who with?”

Oh…

Oh no.

“Well,” Kakashi effortlessly dodged Obito when he tried to tackle him, leaving him to fall face first into the dirt. “Obito was going to ask you out, but I think Naruto ruined his plans.”

Naruto, Gai, Kakashi. All of them were at fault for this. Not one of them would live to tell the tale when he was done with them, it didn’t matter that his chakra was blocked and he couldn’t use his sharingan.

He was going to murder them all.

“Oh,” laying on the ground, Obito turned his face so that he could see Shizune. At the very least he could see her beautiful face when she turned him down. “Well, I guess I could let you two hang out with us as long as you’re not too embarrassing.”

Hang out with them. The words hit Obito like a Susano.

She was saying yes. Shizune was actually agreeing to a date, with him. Uchiha Obito.

“I make no promises,” Kakashi responded with his usual aloof attitude, holding the box of chocolates out towards Shizune. “For you, though, I think he chose the worst kind.”

“Well, you’re not exactly known for your knowledge in sweets,” she giggled as she took the box from him and turned towards Obito. “You alright?”

“Ya…just…” a date. He still couldn’t believe it. After the complete and utter failure of his mission, he had still managed to secure a date with Shizune.

Perhaps he wasn’t as unlucky as he thought.

Toss A Coin To Your Writer <3

[crossdressingdeath]

I think that the evidence that jfm favours wwx are small parts of the novel like when wwx arrives to lp jfm takes jc's dogs (of course that was the best action to take but kids are selfish by nature) and later jfm hugs wwx or something that shows affection and that's why jc gets angry and kick wwx out of his room, later we have jc saying that jfm is always harsh with him than wwx bc he has the temper of his mother. the true is that jfm would sacrifice wwx for the sake of his family but jfm is kind to him and treated him well not as a other servants so this kindness is enhance by yzy beliving that wwx is only to be a reminder that another woman was better than her in everything including having a better son and by jc who believes he deserves everything and his father should be do and give everything to him and he shouldn't share anything with wwx.

The thing is... none of those are signs of favouritism. Yes, JFM is kinder to WWX than he would be to servants, but that’s because WWX isn’t a servant. He’s JFM’s ward and head disciple. Of course JFM is going to be kinder to his ward, his best friends’ child, than he would be to a servant. YZY calling WWX a servant doesn’t make him an actual servant! Next, the dog thing. Okay, I don’t know if you’re a younger sibling but it’s like this: there’s a period where your older sibling gets to go to bed later than you and you are convinced that it’s because your parents love them and hate you. That is of course ridiculous, your sibling is older and so doesn’t need as much sleep, so they get a later bedtime. The love your parents have for the two of you and whether or not they love one of you more doesn’t factor into it. It’s about different requirements for different people and being treated differently based on your needs. That’s sort of what’s going on with JC’s puppies, except turned up to twelve or thirteen because one person has to lose in this situation and the needs and wants of the children involved are in direct opposition to each other. WWX needs those puppies gone. He will not be able to function with them around. JC will manage just fine without the puppies. It’s not about favouritism, it’s about JFM weighing the needs of the two people involved and finding that WWX’s simply hold more weight in this situation. JFM doesn’t love JC less because his whims are less important than WWX’s mental stability, any more than a child’s parents love them less because their older sibling gets to go to bed later. And as you get older you realise that love doesn’t factor into bedtimes as a general rule, which, credit to him, JC does seem to figure out. Note that after we move from him and WWX being nine to them being fifteen and older the puppies never come up again. Even JC realised that JFM taking the puppies he wanted away because WWX needed them gone wasn’t favouritism. Hell, even YZY realised it; she never brings them up either. And yes, JFM picks WWX up that one time and JC throws a temper tantrum about it and locks WWX out of his room, but remember: as far as we know JFM picked JC up more often than he picked WWX up. He picks WWX up once, and we know he picked JC up at least a few times. JC is actually in the lead there! And he picks WWX up while WWX is panicking because of the dogs, it’s not like he just scooped the kid up just for the sake of it. Not leaving a kid in easy reach of the animals terrifying him is just basic decency, honestly. So again: not favouritism.

And of course... even if they were signs of favouritism, that doesn’t change the fact that at the end of the day JFM unequivocally chooses JC. When he goes off to die he tells JC to take care of himself like a good father would. What does he tell WWX? To take care of JC. In CQL, to die for him. JC is the one who matters to him. JC is the one he’s thinking about. If he saw them as equal in his eyes he’d tell them to look after each other; if he favoured WWX he’d tell JC to look after WWX (which would actually be a really powerful scene if we were supposed to conclude that he really did prefer WWX all along and is frankly too obvious for a writer like MXTX to miss). JFM’s last scene blows any uncertainty as to who he favours out of the water: JC is his son and heir, WWX is JC’s guard. WWX doesn’t get a proper goodbye from the man who raised him and who he loved and respected above everyone but JYL, and JC does. That kind of makes it pretty obvious that JFM did not favour WWX.

[aliasimagines]

The Cat's out of The Bag//Jason Todd

a/n: i suck at titles 🤷🏻‍♀️. Anyway hope you like it 💕

word count: 1130 (? At least i belive so, i checked it when I finished writing it at 3am but im just too lazy to do it agian)

requested by @im-hqlover

Jason and reader were trying to hide their relationship from other people at school, but somehow someone finds out and soon the whole school know about their relationship. (Maybe kinda angst and fluff too, because I love this combination.)

It was one of the first things you talked about as a couple. One of the first 'rules' that were set in the relationship. Neither of you made a big deal out of it, Jason completely understood and was very much okay with keeping it a secret.

It's not that you were embarrassed about dating Jason. But he was very popular. A lot of people from school had crushes on him. And you were kinda okay with that, because you knew that he trusted you, that he chose you, he wanted to be with you not anyone else. But maybe some people at school couldn't handle Jason being in a relationship so calmly?

Just thinking about it made you stress. So you didn't tell anyone. Okay maybe a few closer friends knew about it but noone you guys didn't trust. And it was cool, everything was going fine.

So when you walked into school one day, only to hear people whisper behind your back and to get stared at by everyone you had no idea what could have happened.

Until some girls walked up to you while you were still packing your books in your bag from your locker.

"You're Y/N, right?" you heard from behind you. You turned around to see Becky and her two side pieces friends. You noded confused. These three were like the Heathers of Gotham High.

"Yes..?"

"Is it true?" Becky asks now louder, her words drawing more attention from the passing by students. You had no idea what she was talking about. You had no idea why she would wanna talk to you of all people.

"What is?"

"You and Todd." added Chelsea, the girl on Becky's left. "I personally don't think so."

You gasped. What? How did they know?

"Todd? As in Jason? I don't even know him.." you tried, still caught off guard. The third girl, Sarah lifted her phone and held it out for you to see. On her phone the school tumblr was opened and there was a picture of you and Jason walked out of a bookstore hand in hand. The picture was blurry as you were only lit by street lamps and the store's sign. The picture was taken last night.

You cursed mentally. Someone from school must have seen you and upload this pic to the schools social media. You felt sick. All those whispers made sense now. You slammed your locker closed and left without a word. You ran to the one place were you knew noone would disturb you. The art classroom. You practically tore the door open and fell on the floor. Fortunately noone was in. You felt your thoughts getting louder and louder. It was getting so overwhelming you wanted to scream but you just went to hug your legs close to your chest. You could have sworn that the empty and half covered canvases were mocking you while thei finished pieces just rolled their nonexistent eyes.

You closed your eyes and tried to focus on your breathing. You wish it wasn't a wednesday. Jason didn't have a first period on wednesdays. If he was here this whole thing would be so much easier. You could call him, sure. But between patrolling all night and studying for his finals in all his free time Jason needed all the sleep he could get. And he should wake up soon as it is almost 8am.

Somewhat calmer you took out your phone to maybe listen to some music that'll help you figure out how to get to class. I mean you knew you had to walk to your classroom in a few minutes but there was nothing else that you wanted to do less than that. But yes. Eventually you have to get up and go out. You bit your lips summoning all the courage as you heard the bell ringing.

You opened the door, peaking out if there was anyone on the corridors. When you saw none you hurried through the school with your head hanging low. You tried so hard not to make any noise, to sit on your chair without making a sound, to make yourself invisible. You tried so hard to focus on the teacher but every two minutes you heard someone whisper your name quickly followed by Jason's... You wished for a lifesaving bell instead you heard your phone buzzing slightly. Carefully you looked at the screen.

Jason wrote.

Quickly making up an excuse for the teacher about how you felt sick, which wasn't suspicious at all, you were out on the corridor once again.

Jason: 'I'm in the library. Can you get out of class?'

You: 'Already out, be there in a sec'

Entering the library you knew where to search him as the two of you met up there once or twice. You weren't wrong, behind a big shelf full of classic literature stood Jason leaning against the wall, clearly frustrated. As he saw you he pushed himself away from to wall and opened his arms. Without hesitation you hugged him. He buried his face in the crook of your neck.

"I am so sorry, y/n." he whispered. "I came as soon as I saw the headlines."

You pulled away so you could look at him.

"The whats?"

"Headline.. Oh shit, you didn't see? It's all over the internet. Gotham Gazette has already written a damn article about it. Bruce is making calls at the moment but..."

"Oh my god..." you panicked. Not only the school but whole Gotham knew about yout relationship now. Great, and now you wanted to cry. Jason noticed and cupped your face.

"Please baby, I am so sorry. If I could I would erase that damn picture but... Ah no... I know it's overwhelming, it's okay, if you feel like crying I've got you okay?"

You noded and hugged him again.

"It's just... I know it's stupid but-" you took a deep breath" I'm just kind of afraid..? People been whispering since I'm here and school only started half an hour ago"

You looked at Jason and it made you hurt, you knew he felt guilty even though he had no reason to do so. Shaking, you took his hand.

"Jay it's not your fault, you can't do anything about it now." you said. He bit his bottom lip.

"I know.. I just hate seeing you so hurt."

"It's so much better now that I've got you here."

"It's gonna okay. We are in this crap together, alright? There might be some people who want to have a say in about our relationship, and yes some people might look at you with jealousy because they think they ever stood a change. But they don't because I love you . No one else. "

[hit-me-with-a-ladle]

This is Ch.2 for my creepypasta story.

Now this is the second chapter to my story and its description can be found in my blog, i manly update on wattpad does i still will be putting these chapters on tumblr (not as frequently doe :/). so yeah have fun and hope u like it.

A sharp pain was the first thing felt by the girl the moment she woke up from her coma. Laying on a dirty, ruined couch, she put a hand on her head and softly groaned. At that moment she heard the light murmur of male-sounding voices near her and tensed up. She was confused and dazed. She didn't know where she was or why she was there. Not knowing what to say or do she just overheard their conversation, hoping they wouldn't notice she was awake.

" I-I don't know what the-they were thin-king, bringing a young h-human girl to be the next middle-m-man. A-a-are the elite becoming that desper-des-desperate?" One of the men said. He sounded considerably young, around eighteen years old. The boy appeared to have a stutter. His voice was also soft, almost sounding more like a whisper than anything else though still audible. ' What is he talking about?' The girl thought to herself, her train of thought was abruptly stopped by another voice speaking up.

"I don't think it's smart to doubt the elite's decision Toby, even so, she seems to hold some attributes required in a middleman." A monotone voice spoke. A soft "yeah" was soon hear from one of the men and it sounded forced. Then a bone-chilling chuckle came from the same monotone man. "What's so funny?" One of the men spat, their voice was deep and husky. "Well if you must know," The other man said sounding amused "It's kind of funny that out of all of us you should know just how capable she is." He rudely remarked snickering. The other man seemed to growl under his breath "Wasn't she the one that knocked you down and stabbed you in the leg?" The monotone man finally said in a provocative tone.

"Well, now you're just begging me to kick your ass." The irritated man spoke in anger and stood up but promptly cringed from the shooting pain from the injury to his leg and sat down. "I'd like to see you try," The monotone man replayed amused by his comrade's actions. The irritated man was about to say something when another voice spoke up, "Can you guys stop fighting already, I mean there's an unconscious girl in the living room that we have to prepare for her inevitable death." A boy said, he also sounded young similar to the first man, but this time his voice was much louder and sounded naval.

When overhearing what the boy said, she loudly gasped in shock without thinking, that seemed to catch the men's attention and they quickly went quiet. The atmosphere was so tense you could cut it with a knife. An awkward and unbearable silence fell upon everyone. But soon it was ended by the rattling of chairs getting put aside and the pattering of loud footsteps approaching the room she was in. Not knowing what to do, panic was the only thing she could feel at that moment. As she laid there, not moving a muscle the first that spoke was the man in a white mask.

"So now you choose to wake up? Took you long enough." He said to her annoyed, she looked at his masked face and then looked around the room. It seemed to be a log cabin by the walls being constructed from wood, and by the general look of it, it was pretty big. The couch she was on was in a rather rough shape, and right across from it was a scratched up wooden coffee table. Then she noticed one of the men resting on an armchair in a similar state as the couch she was on. He seemed to be looking right at her, though it was hard to tell from the blue mask that covered his face.

"Where am I? And who are you, people?" The girl spoke in a harsh tone trying to seem strong, though, in reality, she was terrified, and the men appeared to notice. "Aren't you a snarky one? But don't try to act tough or else." The man in the feminine mask said boredly. "Now, as for who we are, my name is Timothy Wright, but you will call me Masky." He hardly spoke while pointing to himself. The girl scanned him from head to toe and noticed that one of his legs was wrapped in a now blood-stained bandage. 'Did I hurt him that badly? Well serves him right.' She thought while glaring at him. "That guy over there," He continued and pointing to the tall man sitting on the armchair with his legs crossed, "Is Jack or as he's better known, Eyeless Jack." The man, named Jack nodded his head in her direction. "That shorty over there." This time he pointed to a short boy whit blond hear leaning on the door frame to the room, "Is Benjamin Lawman or Ben Drowned." Ben waved at her and smiled, but the smile was more creepy than anything else. "And lastly," Masky said while pointing to a boy with orange-tinted goggles " That's Tobias Erin Rogers or Ticci Toby." The boy then spoke up, "Ju-just call me T-toby."

"You're in your new home." He emphasised. "Here you will live till the day you die. Now, as for your purpose, you have been assigned the role of a middleman from now on." He said while looking at her dead in the eyes. "You're kidding, right? Is this some sick joke? A middleman? What even is that? You must be insane if you think I'll believe you." She responded hysterically while frowned and glaring at the man even harder than before and crossed her arms. "Oh, but you will, you don't have a chose in the matter." The masked man responded, looking at the girl sternly, he then sighed "I guess I should explain your new job shouldn't I." What he said sounded more like a statement than a question, and he carried on explaining.

"You will be the middleman of this forest," He said while pointing to the windows and sure enough, on the outside, there was a forest ' How didn't I notice that before?' The girl asked herself. "You have the job as negotiator, judge, executioner, errand boy and among some other things. But that won't be as easy as it sounds, because in this forest reside evil monster, creatures, demons, killers and different mythical being. Things that you humans thought were only in legends and tales." He said that as if he'd said it a million time before and continued "Now, we four were ordered," He moved to point around the room, gesturing to the men. "To get you and bring you here. So in the range of the next six months, we can teach you everything you need to know about being a middleman and how to do it right. At the end of those six months, you will go thru a four-stage test that will prove just how much you have learned, but if you were to fail, you will get executed. Do you understand?" He finally finished while looking at her and tilted his head. The girl was baffled and couldn't believe what she heard, better said she didn't want to believe it.

"You can't be serious right? I mean do you expect me to accept everything you just said as fact" The girl protested while immediately standing, "I don't know who you think you are, but I'm certainly not staying here any longer." And as she was about to head for the door, Jack suddenly spoke up. "And where will you go? You don't have any clue where you even are. Do you think you can just go out of this forest like that? Well, I'm sorry for ruining your parade, but that's not going to happen." He responded to her in his usual bored voice that seemed to be laced in a thin veil of sarcasm. 'He has a point,' She thought while looking at him. 'But it can't be that hard to leave a forest, right?' She reassured herself. "Oh, and another thing, this isn't a normal forest. No, it's a portal between the human world and underworld." He smirked through his mask when he noticed the girls face turn pale, "Though it doesn't look like it, you are in a branch of hell, and the only way to get to the human world is by knowing where the portal is, and we certainly won't be telling you of its location anytime soon." He remarked this time in a way that was much more malicious, almost seeming like he wanted to make her mad or provoke her.

But the girl didn't budge 'Is what he's saying true? I hope it's not, but I can't afford not believing him.' Still not moving from the place she was standing, she glanced down, "Why me?" She said, defeated. Those two words seemed to catch the men off gourd. " W-well," The boy named Toby spoke up. "You we-were chosen b-b-by the Elite." He said softly. "Who are the elite? And what do you mean by they "chose me"." The girl was quick to ask. "The El-elite are four o-o-of the strongest creatures in the underworld, they are the on-ones that choose the midd-middlemen for every branch and reg-ion of hell." Toby said, "We were als-also told m-m-many thi-things about you, your n-n-ame, hobbies, what you aspired to b-be, your dark-est secret, and mu-much more." He finished. "Better said we know everything bout you, Y/N." The boy named Ben stated calmly while smiling. Hearing her name come out o his mouth sent shivers down her spine.

The girl collapsed on the couch in defeat and put her arms to her head, 'Is everything that they're saying genuine? It can't be, can it?' She was in a state of dread and didn't want to belive what they were saying. 'I need to calm down, there has to be a way out of here somehow, and I'll find it.' She kept reassuring herself." Now, as I was saying, we four will be teaching you everything you need to know," Masky spoke up again with his hands behind his back." Your room is upstairs to the left. You should get as much sleep as possible we will start training tomorrow at nine-thirty am," He said while looking into the girl's eyes, "Do NOT be late, or else." He finished while going near the front door of the cabin, "Oh, and don't even try to escape, someone will be standing guard to make sure you don't." And with that, he and everyone else left. She was left alone whit her thoughts in the empty cabin,

'I should go and check out my room shouldn't I, maybe I'll find a way out.' and with that, she went upstairs.

[forget-me-nights]

Not to be the person that brings unnecessary angst into the fandom but:

(Re)watching Atla, especially the episode in which Katara faces their mothers murderer, it bothered me a great deal how she dismissed Sokkas pain. Sure she was high on anger and revenge but still. It wasn't fair.

But it got me thinking about Kya's and Sokka's relationship. He is the older child, right? So obviously he should have more memories with her than Katara, right? He should have private moments or inside jokes or sth. That makes is proof of their closer bond due to his age, right? But instead Sokka says this:

He doesn't even remember HER FACE. He doesn't say anything about a bonding moment between the two, as if he only knows he had a mom at some point but not the person herself. And sure trauma CAN do that to one, especially at such a young age, where you barely remember anything anyway.

But Katara remembers her. She remembers her face and her voice and their last moments together. So why is that? Is Katara right and Sokka doesn't care as much about their mother as her ? No. I don't think so.

Let's compare how they both react to her death even in hindsight:

Katara is overcome by grief. She cries for her loss until she cries for revenge. She cries so much until there is nothing but anger left. In between that though, she cares for their tribe, trains herself to become the water bender she was meant to be and cares for the gaang. She uses her grief to fulfill the role her mother has left open.

Sokka on the other hand keeps his cool. (Like some posts already pointed out). Not only that but he also keeps his smiles and his jokes. He doesn't seem to have changed much despite her death. Instead he helps Katara get acquaintanced with the loss of their mother and then with their father. In the end he remains to be the sole protector of their tribe. And then he helps Aang and Katara go to the north pole and so on. Being the (self appointed ) protector of everyone leaves no time to process everything so in the end he doesn't grief Kya. Katara becomes the only mother he knows.

But what if there is more behind that? What if a part of him doesn't WANT to remember her? What if a tiny, treacherous part of him is relieved, that he can't picture a single moment with her?

When he tells Zuko the story he is resigned and sad of course but as soon as Zuko hints about leaving, Sokka jumps back into his " goofy persona", making jokes left and right, ready to spend the night with Suki. It's such a fast change of mood, you could belive, you've accidentally skipped a few scenes. Most people would need a moment to collect themselves after recounting their most traumatic experience. The only thing we go was the line "I thought he'd never leave" though that seems more to be a sign of really wanting to spend time was Suki.

So let's get into their sibling relationship:

In general it's clear they would do anything to protect each other, even if it means getting the short end. Like this comic shows:

Even if they do clash often, with their different approaches to the world and its inhabitants, Sokka is a bit overprotective of and very loyal to her. (Remember when aang accidentally burned her). They love and respect each other very much and their rivalry is merely a typical sibling relationship.

But there is a huge difference between them: Katara is a bender. The only one in their tribe at that. And even though the tribe and Sokka don't really get that, even Sokka himself understands what it means: she will always be the more powerful one. The more important one. The one their tribe needs. It's not like in the fire nation, where benders and non-benders really fight side by side. They might go into war nonetheless but it's clear to Sokka: her abilities have nothing against any weapon he could wield.

Its mentioned a few times but of course most prominently in "Sokkas master", that he feels inferior because of that. Nonetheless he sees himself as the leader and protector.

So we got that Sokka

didn't have time to grief

sees himself of the protector of his loved ones

doesn't take more time than needed to think about his mother

would do anything for Katara, if it meant she was safe

So there is obviously quite the (partially self made) pressure on him, that has a direct connection to their mother's death. Obviously these are pretty common ways to deal with such a loss but I believe there is something more to it.

Noticed how I again and again mention him to be a "protector"?

Well after the loss of a loved one, a lot of people try their best to not let that exact thing happen to their remaining loved ones or anyone else. They make a promise to "never drink so much " or to "never smoke" etc.

So I think it's pretty obvious that Sokka made such a promise. A promise to not let the fire nation harm their tribe again. But what if that promise goes deeper than that? And what if he didn't make that promise to himself?

What if he made a promise to his mother, that he should always do everything in his power to protect Katara? Not only cause she is his sister but because she is the only water bender left here?

And to make it worse: what if he took that promise to heart so much, that he actively believes himself to be less important than her? That she is the prodigal daughter and he is only her babysitter? Her guard ? Her protector? That he is exchangable and worthless in comparison to her?

What if the real reason he doesn't remember his mother is because he barley wants to? Cause remembering her means remembering his promise that he failed again and again, having been mostly lucky they had Aang and then later Toph to actually be the one to save and protect her?

[throwaway09251998]

Hey all. This is just something I had to get rid of. This is manipulation that I authored and will not send. I post it here hoping to satisfy my need. Many years ago she used this site to express herself to me in her most raw form, I never repaid her with the terrible truth about me.

They say a friendship that lasts seven years will last the rest of your life, we were meerly months away..

A Letter I'll Never Send

Hey dork,

I'm writing you this letter I never intended to send. It is currently 8/18/2021. We have not been talking much as of late. I know our friendship (as it was) is coming to an end. I know this as I shrink from your life. I am not the one you call when you are upset, I am the one you entertain when you have energy. I am not the one you run to when you are hurt, I am the one you take a break from, so you can heal... you have asked so many times lately for me to just give you space. Just to give you a couple of days...

I asked to call you tonight to talk things out and explain how I've been feeling. How I have felt so alone without you, and alienated by you and your friends in the group you have invited me to... That was selfish, I can't keep you to myself forever. So I apologized for it, though you don't know why, and said I didn't need to call after all.

Instead of calling you and talking it out, I'll write how I'm feeling here in hopes of some release. I love you, I don't say it enough and we both know that, and we both know why, I'm just a little... damaged. I love you more than I could ever express with the few words I know, so I won't try. Hopefully someday my soul can touch your soul in a way that can convey have you have made me feel. You have enriched my life immeasurably and I don't think I've ever properly thanked you, and for that I am truly sorry; you may never know how much this horrible and guarded, silly man treasures you.

The whole time I've known you, you and everyone around you have praised me for my influence on you. The depraved egotist I am I ate this up. In doing so I did a massive disfavor to you, and how amazing you are. Taking all the praise that ought have been only shared between you and God.

It is only as of late that I realize how little I have done for you. In recent months you joked that you just can't learn from me. You joked, but it is true. Through no one's fault but my own, I have been unable to teach you anything. Everything I tried and failed to teach you, you sought out somewhere to learn in a way you could digest and learned the thing yourself. You're incredible. You're so much smarter than anyone has ever given you credit for. But when you did this, I would rob you of the credit and steal the glory. This is not fair and I am more sorry for this than I am about perhaps anything else in life. I may be the most harmful person you have met thus far and I will pray for as long as I remember you meet no one as bad as me again.

Lately you have gone out on your own, and blossomed into a most beautiful young woman and mother. You have joined a church and made godly friends and learned more and more about their interests. Selfishly I have sat lamenting this, as my role in your life shrinks. As I become less important. As I shrivel and die in your heart.  As I am too distant to be there when you need and too insecure to enjoy that you have good people that will be there, I sit, bitter and alone. Alone through my own choices and bitter at everyone for my having made them.

I am sorry for the way I am. I pray for strength so that I may never express any of this to you. Even now, writing this, I think of scenarios where I may send it. That is selfishness.

My time with you, as your closest friend and confidant, it's drawing to a close. I could not be more proud of how you have grown, and from this day on I promise to never claim any part of what you have accomplished. I have had no part in your amazing work. I have burdened you and held you back long enough. Plucking a flower from its field to covet it and hide it away is wrong. You ought be with others as kind and caring as you. None as selfish and conniving as myself. I will pray for forgiveness and I will release my grip on you.

If you ever receive this letter understand I have failed in my promise and am only seeking to steal you again. Do not let me.

There is such a good life for you where you are. I belive that boy, you know the one, is quite infatuated with you, again I am sorry for holding you back from exploring that. My jealousy is another evil I have pushed upon you.

I must push myself from you, subtly and slowly. You will not notice my absence, I add nothing to your life now, only to steal you from those that do.

I pray one day to become a man you can be proud of, a man who might add something to your life. Until then I will try to keep my distance. I am sad we may never get to fight that dragon together, or survive on that raft.... I am sorry for what I am, and for what I am not. I love you so much. Goodbye, for now...

[mogekolover]

WMMAP Fairy!AU(LP universe)

WARNING: THIS ENDED UP BEING TOO LONG OMG (and i didn’t even got to talk about the Fairy plants...

AU Details: 

- Athy has fairy power. 

 - Athy likes the fairy flowers(she doesnt know they are fairy flowers) 

 -Fairy flowers(and fairies) also like her a lot bc she next queen. 

 - All hail Diana the previous FQ

(My friend told me to write this here bc I forget in which of my 847683974698379123 Twitter accounts I posted this)

(This will be more of a description than an actual... “writing” because I’m a very lazy person and I have no motivation to do so, let’s just hope I don’t start making bullet points all of a sudden)

Ok so.

Diana was what was left of the spirit of the previous Fairy Queen (FQ for short) because all went to hell when some people(emperors and the like) became too obssessed with experimentating on magical creatures, the fairy forest was lost completely. 

Now, because intelligent people ALWAYS have a back up plan, the FQ essence/spirit manages to reincarnate in a human body so it will be easier to make a new forest (they have managed to pass down the seeds to make the forest again) and each reincarnation dies and we now have Diana. Because of how much time has passed Diana doesn’t remember why she always carries the seed bags with her, she just knows they are important to her, and that she needs the perfect place to plant them (something that never happens).

*cue Claude and Diana love story*

Because of Dianas death, the spirit/essence was supposed to technically die with her(like, definitively)

BUT

Because of Claudes genes(his magic) the spirit manages to transfer the wish to make the fairy forest again into Athy, and because of her crazy amount of mana, the fairy magic part of her started revitalizing essentially making Athy into a half fairy and also the next FQ.

PS: in my crazy mind blackie ONLY has her Obelian magic, not her Fairy magic, making it so that Lucas never ate any of it when he ate Blackie, leaving Athy with her (at the moment) dormant fairy magic/genes. Her magic waking up little by little when she gets the seeds.

DETAIL FILE: ATHY

- She got the seeds from Lily on her 15th birthday and she’s the only one that takes care of them,she doesn’t even let Lily to help her.

- She gets so “interested” in her new plants that she ignores and declines(and even fakes to be sick or bussy) all of Jennettes invites to tea and along the way stops caring about Claude.

- It was already rare to her to go out, but now she just stays inside the Ruby Palaces grounds, only going out when it’s an event she can’t ignore(or if she gets forced by Lily). 

- The more the plants grow, the more her fairy part starts to wake up, and because of that, the plants start growing faster, which in turn maks her fairy part more awake. Also, because this plants are supposed to make a new fairy forest (that kinda acts like the “Fairy Kingdom”) andAthy planted the seeds in the back of the Ruby Palace, when the plants are fully growm, it looks as if the Ruby palace has its own forest, a very dense one might I add, big trees everywhere, obstructing the view of everyone to see the inside of it and also hiding a little bit the Ruby Palace.

Because of this everyone in the palace is pretty worried because obviously from some seeds you don’t get a forest like that, but Athy shrugs it off, saying that if the plants don’t harm anyone, they can continue to grow.

- Now that she has a fully grown forest on her backyard, she spends A LOT of time inside of it, coming out in time for tea time, her meals and her study lessons.

- on her 18th birthday all hell broke lose because Rosalia insisted that Athy had something to do with Jennettes poisoning (even is Athy basically lived like a reclused in her palace), and Claude being a dumb f*ck believed that.

Because Athy’s 18, she’s supposed to grow her wings(idk dont ask me i forgot why) and obviously she doesn’t know anything, the poor soul. And because of how angry she feels, her magic kinda goes out of control and in front of everyone, her wings appear/grow. 

SCENE:  This will be the "declared guilty" scene (not gonna write in detail btw, maybe some parts)

“ Athy is in the throne room, and doesn't know why the f*ck she's there. She had just came from a stroll in her forest when royal guards forcefully took her to the Garnet Palace, not answering her questions, so when she asks in the throne room "You are guilty of poisoning Princess Jennette!" was what one the nobles present at that moment said angrily. 

She frowned "I haven't seen nor talked to Her Highness in the last two years." 

"Liar!" said another. 

"What prove do you have?" she was getting angry now.

"There is no need of proof when it's something as obvious as this." 

 Everyone looked at Claude. Athanasia was very angry now. 

"You are to be hanged tomorrow at sunrise." She wanted to scream in rage and pain. Rage because of this idiots blaming her without proof. 

 And pain... *rip*

Because her back felt as if it was going to break. And she screamed. 

*cue big and grotesque description of wings growing out of her back* Through all that, she heard little voices. 

 "𝘠𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘔𝘢𝘫𝘦𝘴𝘵𝘺!" 

 "𝘔𝘺 𝘘𝘶𝘦𝘦𝘯!"

She heard a commotion, but she could barely listen now as the pain increased tenfold, making her double herself on the floor, letting out tears and screams. 

Then she saw white... and then she saw visio- 𝘮𝘦𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘴 

 Memories from the ones before her  “

So basically Athanasia got all the memories from the FQueens before her(she didn't get the memories from all of Dianas previous "mortal" lifes) and now she isn't angry, she's LIVID.

after the light fades(bc she didn't imagine the light, she emitted light to finish her transition from normal human to Fairy Queen) everyone looks at her surprised bc now she has this big majestic wings and a breathtaking dress.

[The wings is a combination of first image (for the color) and the second image (for the form). The dress is the one she wears after her “transformation”]

And her eyes are sharp and full of hatred. while everyone is surprised the fairies go and greet her, and she greets them tenderly, doing a 180 from pure hatred to pure motherly/familial love

When she finishes greeting, she goes back to her cold demeanor, and says that she doesn't want to see any of them near her forest or obelia will suffer more than it will do in the upcoming months

With that she teleports to her castle deep in the woods The fairy castle

Long story short, obelia will go into chaos(bc no one will belive her until it's too late) so Claude has to suck up his pride and hate for her and apologize This is where Lily becomes the savior of the empire. Why? bc she will be the one to convince Athanasia to put everything back to normal bc she(Lily) could die if this went longer (contaminated water, all crops ruined, no rain + contaminated air, yep, pretty apocalyptic) so Athanasia considers that, and accepts Claudes "apology" and makes Lily live with her in her castle

Obviously she restores the empire (it takes like 2 weeks or so) and tells Claude to not bother her and that she doesn't want to see his nor his "offspring"(Jennette) faces near her forest. 

[questionthebox]

Poets Diary, The DSA Event

i’m going to start this off as a deication to my mother, The Goddess Aphrodite, of which, when she came to me that time, i came home from college, and sat in my living room, what she said to me, i understand now mother, i understand everything. secondly i am dedeicating this to my most beloved, and assured, elly, who has stuck by me, as i was mired in physical and mental anguish and ailment, in those years of exile, 

yesterday, i attended what was both a DSA meeting, and rally for this young latino man running for city counsel in Los Feliz California, which is bascially a suburb of Los Angeles, i arrived early, around 2.40 pm, dressed colorful, wearing a leopard print bucket hat, these anime shorts i bought off a man i befirended of instagram, and my light green bapestas, somewhat shy, yet confident, i walked up to these men, cooking, this took place at a park, they were preparing the BBQ,  and i was sort of meandering around, they were very nice, and i was speaking to the man i would later find out is running for the city counsel position, and if you know me, or if you’ve seen my eyes, you know all it takes, for me to relinquish my shyness, is when i feel comfortable in the space, to reveal myself, and so i did, we talked, we talked about my ideas, for the town i live in here, in Los Angeles, and i blew this guys socks off when i was talking about “nationalizing” the small motels, and empty lots, and having the middle aged latino men in my community, who have experience in “construction” etc hring them, and having them oversee and train the unemployed youth in our community, to build that free housing, thus making everyone feel involved and belonging to something. 

amidst political talk, and the exchange of plesantries, and as many others started to filter in, 

people who seemingly knew each other, i found myself drifting somewhat aloof, mind you i wasn’t shy, or scared, more so, i was shedding something, shedding the miasma of the years i have built alone, and in that i found Anthony, yes me, Anthony, causually making jokes, making people laugh, being my gregarious self, swifttly and deftly moving between groups of people, all of whom, were representitive of something, i have been searching for, not simply community, but an aesthetic of life, that is young, romantic, ambigious in the sense of love, direct and explorative in the sense of career, utilizing the educations they have to do something postive in the world, i was intermingling with people my age, who were public school teachers, working for non profits a few artists, and other young professionals, and it was fucking exhilarating, eye opening, assuring, my mind while speaking with these people, was simaultaneously connecting the dots, 

and something i became aware of, as the warmth of myself started to take center stage, and the casualness of conversation with the myriad of people, started to take on a more intimate direct sense of things, and i myself feeling their warmth, listening to them, observing who they were intrinsically, started to realize the absolute tragedy and folly, of all prejudice, here i was, amidst and welcolmed by people who were non binary, queer, and on the spectrum, people of many different races, and ages, and these people openly asked me to be their friend, followed me on instagram, and asked me, if we all could hang out, a funny little side note, i stepped aside, with this young man, to smoke, i didn’t know he was Gay or what have you, but as we were walking to an area, to smoke, he made a direct pass at me, calling me cute, in the process, he was a young mexican american man, and i blushed lol, it caught me off guard in a good way, and he and i hit it off big time, and i came to find out he utilizes or uses female pro nouns, i say all of this, to say, i will never ever utter a prejudice word for the rest of my life, from this point forward i count myself as an “ally” and i understand the folly of all prejudice, when i cut my hand, the same thing that is in there that pours out, comes out of your hand, and thus prejudice is irrartional and horrible, an affliction, of ignorance and self loathing and misery. 

There was also a woman, amidst women, how could there not be lol i am me, so there’s always a woman, i knew in heading there, i could feel in the air, i would meet a woman, and there was much women to meet, and being as i am, i made myself known, to the women, there, there was one woman, utterly goregous, long blonde curly hair, she was a teacher, but there was one woman, of whom i spent the most time with, of whom, proposed we’d meet and hang out, outside of the event, and this woman, she was probably about 5 foot 4, skinny, she wore a grey colored pixie hairstyle, there was something in her yearning, lost, romantic, and we opened up to each other, in a way that was completely unexpected, and i am now infatuated by her, as she carried a musk of soemthing, i feel both of us entail, she also self identified as an Anarchist, which is interesting because when i took that political test it labeled me as a Libertarian Socialist, and this is important in the sense, that i am fundamnetally open and decolonized. we followed each other on instagram, and in viewing her pictures, i see something there, and i can’t wait to spend time with her,

there was alot, i was wrestlign with, there, understanding, something about myself, i believe i have figured out what i want to do with my life, because when Hugo the man, who is running for city counsel, got up on one of the picnic tables and gave a speech, to all of us, what he said had me emotional, i belive i can do what he did, but better, because the blessing in my years in the wilderness is i got to see all of the misery present in life, the poverty, the violence, the prejudice, the misery, the struggles, i have known people, who are queer, struggle with their queerness, people who are poor struggle with poverty, in me are all the people and experiences ive had since age 18 in 2010, and i intend on crossing the rubicon and actually manifesting change within the world. 

all of the self loathing, and doubt ive had, is gone, there is only anthony, an i am present in this body, with others, in all things, and i intend on exploring all things, with everyone, 

[livcosmos]

September/October stories and struggels

Happy spooky season everyone!!! It’s been a while since we last talked, school has be crazy and I feel like I am going more insane as the days pass but I finally found a little free time to chatch up with you. Considering that I had so little time those past weeks, I watched quite a few movies, most of them movies I wanted to watch since forever and I’m really happy I finaly got to see them plus I’m even more exited to discuss them!

So starting with the movie I watched back at the beginning of september. I hate it when I don’t get to write those discussions right after I finish that certain movie or book because I don’t remember all the details and I hate not remebering all the details but there is nothing we can do about it now, I took notes tho while watching so we have at least some of the details.

Starting of with ‘Chemical Hearts’, I was so super excited to watch this one because I absolutely love Lili Reinhart and I was so so so excited to see her in this movie, besides that, a few years ago I started reading the book this movie is based on and I was even more excited because of that. Lili was absoultely stunning in this movie I love her and I loved her as Grace! I remember feeling so inspired after watching this movie, I wanted to take out my notebook and write, I think the best movies and the best books are those who inspire you those who leave you with louds of ideas, the ones that make you want to do something as inspring, I love that feeling and this movie definitely gave me this feeling, I absolutely loved it. It also had sooo many beautiful phrases full of thruth they bescaly exposed what it’s like to be a teenager and I loved that! I wanted to write down all those wise phrases so so beautiful!! As I said before I loved Grace so much and it was so painfull to see her go trough all those phases but it was also so relatable and the fact that in the end she and Henry didn’t got back together made the whole thing even better because that’s just life you think youre going to be together forever but that’s not how it realy goes and high school it’s just a little portion of youre life and then your paths divide...it’s sad but its very true! I also love (ok I am deffently using the word love way to offten I’m really sorry..) how she said that one time that she is broken and he should’t try to fix her like one of his pots (by the way I loved that thing with breaking the pots and than rebuilding them and the parallel to Grace....ahhhh just perfect😍😍) because he couldn’t fix her, that sentace stayed with me since than, I found it sooo sooo beautiful!!! I highly recomend this movie! 

I also finnaly, after such a long time, got to watch ‘Little Women’, I was ultra exited for this movie, I have the book laying around in my bookshelf for a year now and I wanted to read it but as I said earlier the time isn’t with me. And I normaly don’t do this but I diced to watch the movie before reading the book because I was way to exited for, it and guess what I more that enjoyed it, I loved it!!!!!! I can’t wait to read the book even tho of corse I got spoiled for it because I watched the movie first but the book is always better so I’m sure I will still love it!

This movie was as inspiring as Chemical Hearths, Jo inspired me so so much and jet again after whatching this I wanted to grab my notebook and write my own stroy (or better say continue it) I loved Jo, she was my favorite out of all the March sisters even tho I didn’t always agree with all her actions like how she refused to marry Laurie even tho I do get her point on marriage and I also very much agree with her but still I loved Laurie and it made me so so sad to see him suffer! Also I think I’m not the only one who after watching this movie got all obsessed with Timothée Chalamet!!!

But I guess Jo and Laurie are eally better friends than anything more because I really really liked their friendship! I also really liked Amy with her painting and all but oh boy I got so mad at her for stealing Laurie away ahhaah... but than I kind of made my peace with it I have learned to accept it because it must have been hard for her to live in Jo’s shadow and she had a crush on Laurie all her life. Ooooo but when she burned Jo’s papers oh my God I was fuming I was beyond mad I don’t even want to imaging what it must have been like for Jo! Another thing I absolutley loved about this story is that all the sister where so artsy, I love art so much and I found it so beautiful how each sister had her own art, Jo with the writing, Amy with the painting, Beth with the music, Meg with fashion, that was sooo sooo nice and their palys!!!! Ah God my hearth when they were making up all of those theater plays, absolutley lovely! As I mentioned Beth, I’m sure there is more about her in the book because even tho she is important for the story I feelt like there wasn’t much of her and I’m not sure I like her but only because we only saw so little of her. As for Meg I really really wanted to like her more because she likes fashion and everything but I don’t know... her wanting to marry so early and become a house wife... that ruined her a little for me because I have to admit I am with Jo on that one I feel like she could have done so much more in her life than what she got, I am reaching high as Jo, I don’t want such a “boring” life like Meg. Other that that I also really loved the time period they live in and I love how their mother thought them to be nice and so lovely, I love how they have given their Christmas food to that poor family and how they have been taking care of the so so beautiful! Ah but that guy, Friedrich something... I didn’t liked him at all and I don’t like it that Jo chose him in the end but what can one do... I’m really proud of Jo tho, that she didn’t give up and that she made it as writer and I am really looking forward to read the book!

Next we have ‘The Sun is also a Star’ movie, as I mentioned in one of my previous posts ‘The Sun is also a Star’ is one of my favourite books of all time ( by the way I found the notes I took while reading the book and I to this day regret not writing a discussion about it...) so I was very exited to see what they did with the movie and I had very high expectations! I must say I liked it of course it wasn’t as good as the book but it was all right I guess. There were tho some things that bothered me, I am aware that the movie can’t be exactly as the book but still I think those changes they made are kind of crucial and that’s why they bothered me so much. Starting with the fact that they made out of that one day where everything takes place into one day and a half like nooooo just no!!!! They ruined the magic of that one beautiful perfect day, the book starts in the morning and it ends at night with her leaving and not like in the movie the folowing day!!!! The other thing is that they left out that security guard lady, in the book for me that lady had such an important role and I can’t agree with them leaving her out in the movie! And this point also leads us to the ending, it bothered me that they didn’t found each other again in the airpale (with the help of the security guard lady) I cryed so much when I read that part and I don’t agree with how they made them meet again in that coffee shop it’s just not accurate! I know it’s impossible to do everything perfect and I konw I am beeeing nit-picking but still. And not to forget how they changed the thing with the lawyer guy, or better say how they left out that it was his fault that Natasha had to leave, because of his affair with his secretary, I still blame him and I don’t agree with him beeing so innocent in the movie! I know I have criticsed this movie a lot but I did enjoyed whatching it and did like it!

I also watched those new dance movies on Netflix the one with Sofia Carson, ‘Feel the Beat’ I believe it’s called and the other one with Sabrina Carpenter and Liza Koshy, ‘Work it’. I had such a great time watching them they gave me such happy feelings! I have to say tho that I liked ‘Feel the Beat’ more, in my eyes it was better than ‘Work it’ but they were both really good and funny! They made me want to dance again, I feelt really sad that I gave up dancing because I really love dancing and I belive that in an other life I was supposed to be a dancer but you can’t change the past...

Oh my how is it possible that I almost forgot to mention this amazing movie... I also watched Enola Holmes and my God did I have a great time watching it! It had everything I ever wanted, it was funny, it had mystery in it ( I always love myself a good mystery), it took place in London (London is my favourite city ever), there was British accet all over the place, it had action and not to forget Sam Claflin also had a role in it, (I love Sam Calflin)!  I also love Millie Bobby Brown and she was once again amazing! It was really really good I highly highly recomend watching it!!! (Not to repeat myself but this was also a very inspiring movie 😂😂)

And because I am already at it and I was more than excited when it came out I want to mention how much I love Shawn Mendes new song ‘Wonder’, that song is such a masterpeace I can’t listen to it enough I am basicly crying every time I hear it, because of how much I love it and how much it toches my hearth! The lyrics ahhhhhh......😍😍😍so so so beautiful I just can’t and don’t get me started on the music video! And when I watched the trailer to his documetary the other day I was screaming and crying at the same time with excitement I can’t wait to watch it!!! And I can’t wait to listen to the new album, December can’t come soon enogh! If all the songs on that album are as good as ‘Wonder’ I think I’m going to pass out!!

Can we also talk about how Ariana Grande is releasing a new album this month??!! Like how unespected and more than welcomed is that! The single is coming out tonight and I can’t wait for it!

Even tho I’m still on my One Direction phase from the summer and I don’t think it will ever go away, I still welcome this new music with all my hearth! ( Yes I am kind of 10 years to late with my obsession with One Direction but I don’t care I love them and they have totaly marekd my summer this year and they got me trough the hard days.) They are my happy place and my go to running songs! I also will forever love and treasure Harry Styles esspecially young Harry Styles like omg my heart😍😍! 

And because I started talking about it I have to mention it now because I forgot to do it in my ‘Chain of Gold booktalk’ the song ‘Slow Hands’ by our boy Nail I totally conect it with Matthew Fairchild, I can’t explain why but I do! I tend to do this thing where I conect a certain song with a book character, the one song I am obsessed with at that time I am reading a certain book tends to become the song of one of the characters and every time I listen to that song I think about that character. Like ‘Boyfriend’ by Ariana Grande is in my head Julian Blackthorn’s song and ‘Havana” by Camila Cabello Isabell Lightwood’s. Does that make sens? Probably not and I also got totaly of topic I’m really sorry!

I think I am going to end it here because this post is gotten way to long again. If you made it here thank you so much for readig and I hope to see you in my next never ending post😂😂😂! Have a great day!

[originalhomestuckscenarios]

This is my first time sending a request so sorry is this doesn't fit/abide by the rules. So Zombiestuck au. Who do you think would live or die? How do you think it would play out?

Ok I have no idea how zombie stuff works (since like the only things with zombies I came across was a webcomic) so sorry but I really have no idea what people do and how it works?

Zombiestuck

Beta kids

The beta kids stick together no matter what. They have a base where they spend most of their time.

It is protected by Jade who has her sniping spot where she gets all the zombies who try to get in even though their base is allways well locked its no better to be safe than sorry.

The rest is just improving the base from the inside. However when it's clear from zombies John and Dave are setting outside traps.

Jade is also trying to plant food and is taking really good care of it.

But of course they sometimes need to go out for supplies and they allways go as a group.

They actually avoid fighting if possible while they are out since they can't be sure how many zombies are out there.

When they see other people they try to help them in any way they can. Since it's only human to help others in such tough times.

But those terrible conditions don't stop them from goofing around in their base. After all it's easier to keep your sanity if you have fun from time to time.

In the end they all survive and save few people from other groups too.

Alpha kids

Dirk managed to make few robots that were protecting their base but the base itself wasn't in perfect conditions (and Dirk tried to fix that) still the robots never let any zombie inside.

Jane also tried to set many traps around just in case and so far it was enough to keep everything away.

Jake and Roxy are taking care of gardening and wich was the most reliable food source. But they still needed to go out for other supplies from time to time.

Dirk mostly volunteered to go alone but Jake allways went with him or whoever decided to go.

They took this a bit too seriously and so the atmosphere in their base was a bit awkward expecially when Jake or Roxy tried to light up the mood.

In the end they all survived but they didn't let their guard down.

Beta trolls

They weren't doing very good job. While their base was well equipped and had very good defense they couldn't cooperate well. Karkat tried to be a good leader and keep everything together but things started collapsing quickly.

Vriska often left the base without notifying anyone. She allways came back with more supplies.

But her reckless behavior often brought zombies to the base and so Eridan had to take care of it since she allways brought the zombies to area of the base Eridan was defending.

Nepeta and Equius were Frontline fighters and so when a bigger group of zombies approach they actually risk a lot.

Feferi tried to cheer others up while taking care of any injuries. But of course the zombie bites.

Nobody knew what Gamzee Terezi and Aradia were doing to be honest and even if someone asked them none of them gave proper answer.

Sollux was doing a lot of things at once. He was defending helping Karkat with making decisions and tried to contact other people. But even though he was doing all that if anyone complained about a thing he whould just be stop out of spite.

Kanaya was also doing most of the work but she actually did everything without thinking too much about it.

And Tavros just felt useless... He tried to help around but he actually didn't do much but set up few traps around.

One day he did that he got caught off guard but Aradia reacted in time and managed to save him. However few minutes later Aradia noticed a bite mark and knew that she was fucked.

So she asked to be killed. She observed people around and knew what happened after such bite so it whould be for the better if she died now.

Nobody wanted to kill her but in the end Karkat was the one to be forced to do it.

After this incident Tavros couldn't belive that it was his fault and Vriska being a total bitch wasn't helping either.

Feferi Nepeta and Gamzee tried to help Tavros but he just couldn't listen to it. He knew that it was his fault Aradia died.

But after Sollux yelled at him Tavros managed to get himself together.

Next loss was Feferi who tried to help Eridan with bigger group of zombies Vriska yet again unintentionally brought.

After that Eridan was so mad he tried to kill Vriska at least 3 times. But he was stopped each time by Kanaya.

So he just decided to leave on his own and nobody knew what happened to him.

Next thing that happened was Vriska was getting ready to leave just like Eridan did but she was followed by Terezi their fates were also unknown. 

For some time they were doing pretty well but it couldn't last for long since yet again another person was killed... This time it was Nepeta.

Her and Equius were guarding the base outside and they were doing great job holding all the zombies off but she got bitten by one zombie she thought she took down.

At first she didn't notice that but when no zombie was around Nepeta just then looked at her leg that had a bite mark on it.

She panicked when she saw it and she knew what it meant. So she didn't keep it a secret and just told Equius about it.

He blamed himself for this and as she begged him to kill her he couldn't do it. So Gamzee did it instead.

After that Equius was even more brutal towards the undead and he destroyed any threat not carrying if he lives or dies.

He actually survived and never got bitten becouse he hit so strong and so fast that even if more than 10 zombies attacked him at once he still whould get out of the situation unscathed.

So in the end Sollux, Tavros, Karkat, Kanaya, Equius and Gamzee survived. Aradia, Feferi and Nepeta died. Eridan, Vriska and Terezi were separated from the group and were nowhere to be found.

Dancestors

They couldn't do anything right everything was in chaos and the only ones that seemed to care were Rufioh Aranea Porrim and Kankri.

Meenah was bearly ever seen in the group and she was just constantly exploring. So nobody whould even notice if she died. But she did say that she was going to join someone else instead and since then nobody heard from her.

Aranea sometimes hoped that she whould see Meenah again but she knew it was impossible so she just tried to make everything work.

Latula just tried to protect Mituna and try to lift the spirits up for everyone.

Kurloz was also in Mituna protection squad but nobody knew what in the flying fuck him and Meulin were doing. They just stood in one place and talked about God knows what.

Cronus tried to help but he wasn't sure what he was doing.

Horrus was just working on traps and ended up setting so many it was almost impossible to go outside without risking getting killed by one. But he knew the way around them and had all memorized.

And Damara was basically just doing the same thing that was happening before the apocalypse.

First death was Horrus who was attacked by bigger group of zombies while he tried to measure few things to add few more adjustments to the base itself so it whould be indestructible. He of course held them off but since he was caught off guard he couldn't get out without getting bitten.

Shortly after Cronus died while he, Porrim and Rufioh went for more supplies. He was a sacrifice that needed to be made in order for other two to live.

Next death was shortly after and it was Damara.

She wasn't taking it seriously from start to finish (but still did better job than others). She was outside doing nothing worth noting and killing each zombie she saw one time there was just too many of them.

After that things only got worse. But fortunately nobody died... Yet.

The thing is Rufioh got bitten but he didn't tell anyone. He was scared but in the end he knew that it wasn't going to end well either way.

He managed to keep it a secret but soon enough Porrim found out and she couldn't handle it calmly. So in the end he got both yelled at and killed.

In the end Aranea, Kankri, Porrim, Meuiln, Kurloz, Mituna and Latula survived. Meenah ran away. Rufioh, Horrus, Damara and Cronus died.

~Mod Kanaya

[originaldanganronpascenarios]

Saimatsu oneshot

A oneshot I forgot to write about things they forgot to say lol

3rd person POV

After graduation everyone moved on with their lives. Most of the students went their separate ways and one of those was Shuichi. Even though he still was pretty close friends with Kaito he didn't spend much time with him as they used to. But the real thing that was constantly bothering Shuichi was the fact that he didn't say to Kaede how he felt back when he had an opportunity to... Now he just regrets it since even though it was months since everyone parted ways he still felt something for her. Nobody knew where she was or what she was up to.

On top of that Shuichi felt lonely and his only distraction was work. He knew that it was pathetic what he did but at this point he just couldn't care less about being a waste of space.

He was exhausted and felt empty but he never gave up. Once in a while he'd meet up with Kaito and that's only time when he can forget how things turned out even if it wasn't that bad.

Today another full month passed after graduation and to Shuichi it was a day when he remembered every failure like every other month. Currently he was with Kaito in a ramen shop "What's wrong? Is it the usual?" he said calmly they both knew that yes it was 'the usual' and Kaito just couldn't stand it "Look man if you will just look back at everything you won't be able to move forward" he said it once again it almost felt like they were repeating same conversation over and over again but this time Shuichi's response was different "We both know you are right... Maybe it won't hurt to try..." as soon as he finished Kaito smiled "That's the spirit!" the two continued discussion but every once in a while Kaito was looking at his phone nervously. Shuichi of course noticed it "Is there something wrong?" he asked.

It caught Kaito off guard "What- no! Everything is fine!" he looked a bit surprised to wich Shuichi sighed "If you need to be somewhere right now I'm not stopping you"

"It's nothing really!" he said putting his phone back in his pocket. The two continued hanging out like nothing ever happened. Soon they parted ways yet again.

Shuichi started heading home and he took same route as allways.

As he passed by the park he heard a nostalgic tune... "Clair de Lune" it made him think even more about Kaede and it drove him crazy. It almost felt just like he was back at Hope's peek sitting in the music room next to Kaede who played it for him. But it couldn't be the truth. It just couldn't.

To prove it to himself he decided to follow the music he finally had to get ov-... Wait a second... she was there.

He couldn't belive his eyes he moved towards a woman playing on a keyboard on a park bench. Not controlling what he said or his movements he said "Kaede?" wich made the girl sit up and look at him.

She was super happy to see him "Shuichi!?" she stood up and hugged him "Oh my God it's you! So Kaito wasn't lying when he said you'd be here!" he hesitantly hugged her back.

That's when he realized that when Kaito was texting someone it was probably Kaede...

She freed him from her embrace and smiled "So how where you all the time I was gone?"

"Where were you even? Why didn't you say anything?" he felt kinda wierd asking so many questions out of the sudden but he needed to know.

"You didn't read my letter?" she asked a bit surprised

"what letter?" now she got him curious.

"I left it in your locker a day before we graduated. I didn't wanted to forget about it and also I thought it whould be better than leaving you sms... Not that I even could since my phone was broken! I also had a lot of rehearsals planned and couldn't even find time to see you in person" she looked away for a moment and smiled again "But I'm so happy to see you again. You have no idea how much I missed you!"

"I missed you too" he smiled hearing her voice was something he wanted to hear for so long.

"Okay so since you didn't read my letter I'll just say what was in it okay?" he just nods to it "It's kinda long so let's sit down" the two sat down on the bench.

Before she started to explain he spoke up "Kaede sorry to interrupt you but can I say something"

"You didn't interrupt me since I haven't even started yet but sure!"

He felt his heart beat like crazy he didn't had his hat on so he couldn't even try to hide his embarrassment. Still there was no way he'd back off now "I-I wanted to say that for a very long time and since we are talking about things we didn't say to each other..."

"yeah?"

"I think I love you"

There was a moment of silence and after few seconds Kaede let out a sigh of relief "Gosh and here I thought I was going to be looking like an idiot as I tell you about my huge crush on you I still have" she laughed slightly after the statement. Now Shuichi was just stunned after her statement... His eyes were wide and he looked like he was about to say something. But no word came out of his mouth.

She put her hand on his shoulder "Shuichi are you okay?" by the tone her voice it was clear that she was worried. It brought him back to reality "I'm sorry I am just shocked you feel the same!" he looked away blushing as she giggled "So... That makes us a pair then?"

[yon-gi]

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hii, i know i’m not the type of person who talks a lot in here. i think there was a time i used to be but since i got on a hiatus of making content i kinda didn’t have much to say neither i think people really care about what i say or what’s going on in my life... but i don’t have another plataform where i can speak freely, in terms of... my... ex-but not really sees it...

i just want talk and vent for a lil bit. and this will probably be ignore which is fine. i’m not seaking for attention. i just really want to express my feelings somewhere without the feeling of this one person seeing it...

so. i’ve been with this girl since january/february of this year and i thought everything was fine, but apparently it’s not. i thought we had a good relationship and healthy communication - which we did - but i did not see this one coming. i had my suspicious because i saw her flirting with someone on my tl, but i thought: you know what, i’m overthinking, this is nothing.

OH BOIII. so she text me a long ass paragraph explaining that this journey of me and her was for her to love herself... and she apologies she did that to me, but she likes me but we can no longer be together and she can’t see a future with us. and we talked about it (or i just cried and cried while pretending everything was fine). and JESUS CAN I STOP CRYING anywaysss

we did have a good relationship and there’s nothing i can really point out on her besides the flirt thing on my tl she did and didn’t really deny. or maybe she didn’t understood it when i mentioned it. whatever, what is done is done. and she stills wants to be friends and say i can talk to her... and i don’t know what to do. it’s obvious i’m not going to reach out to her even though i really want to. it’s stupid

FUCK. I’M SO FUCKING STUPID. LIKE, I KNEW THIS WOULD HAPPEN. I KNEW IT, I KNEW IT. because it’s always like this (and by always, read: two times) and i told her i had trust issues and she had them too and in the beginning i was very scared of this relationship but she always reassured so i begin to trust her and beliving this could actually work. but noww? ohhh i was caught of guard. i feel like the floor is not here and i just keep falling and falling... i did cried like i mention already45611 times and i did have two episodes of panic attakcs and i lost my head and called her but she didn’t answer because she couldn’t... and the THING IS I KNOW SHE COULDN’T i trust her, i believe she really couldn’t. but i still felt hurt.

she was my pillar. my mental health became so much better because she is a nice person and she always knows what to say. and now that i’m without her, i feel so alone and i don’t know what to do with my life... i don’t find joy in stuff.. this is so stupid it has been just a few hours omg i’ll probably be fine... why am i like this... but i do really feel lost. 

thankfully, a friend did cheered me up. and i don’t i’m sorry if u read this. i really am... i just don’t know what’s going to be like it from now on and it’s not like i can’t live without her or something! i can live just fine i guess... but just thinking i don’t have anyone who to talk to in the moorning or at night neither i have no longer someone who waits for me to go to bed to say goodnight or be there for me when i need it. idk, i feel alone again - and not in a good way.

maybe this will pass and it’s just a phase. and i’m probably being too dramatic not to mention i was tutoring my lil cousin earlier when this happen and i start bleeding from my theeth cuz that’s what happens when i’m anxious or about to have a breakdown - it was embarassing /sings. and FROM 0 TO 10 HOW EMBARASSING IS TO DELETE HER PICTURES WHILE CRYING LIKE A BABY

okay. feel 0,1 percent better after letting all of that out.

edit: i was writing this, put it on draft and went to eat. i texted and she replied the minute next so i asked if i could call her. we were talking and i mentioned the flirty thing... and she said it was true bc of a gc and everyone was shipping them and she said and i quote “it would be fun to pretend we together” i don’t think it’s that fun specially when i thought everything was okay...

she said we can still be friends and continue to talk... but that one last comment made me rethink a lot not to mention when i asked if she like me she said i don’t know. and idk i feel so uneasy. for the first time with her i don’t feel safe anymore. 

istg i wasn’t this dramatic when it came to my last two relationships. i’m sorry if u came this far here’s a cuddle for you <3

[girlwithwolftatoo]

How about the courtiers and mc get into a fight and it gets so bad that the courtiers say some off handed comment saying they hope that mc dies so then mc fakes their death for several months then just casually shows back up.

I’ll take this since the moment MC decides to dissapear so I can portrait their reactions.

Vulgora:

*Don’t belive it can be true, but everyone is telling them you don’t appear in any place and nobody has see you in a while (and you’re not used to dissapear).

*Organices a hunting to find you (or your “remains”… they don’t want to think about it) and since they find your old bag in a climb… they think the worst.

*This is a unique time in which they go depressed and angry at the same time, using anyone olse (mostly Volta) to complain about how you were such an idiot and went to explore alone, just to change their mind a few second later and blame themselves for your “fate”.

*Instead of getting more aggresive they go more calmed. Forgets to go to clandestine fightings and parties to lock themselves into their mind for a long, long time.

*When you finally show up they think you’re just an hallucination (they won’t accept it but has dreaming of you for a while since you were gone) and when they get you’re real goes crying and yelling at you for scaring them.

Valdemar:

*It takes some time before noticing you’re not just not visiting them but the rest of your palace friends. That turns on a red light in their head because nobody including the Countess knows where you are.

*They know exactly where to search for you… and after a few hours searching into a pile of dead bodies and human remains the people in charge hands them a bloody piece of clothing they recognize as yours.

*Have you read Guy Maupassant’s tale about this guy who falls in love with a  dead woman’s hair? This is awfully similar for Valdemar will carry your piece of clothing everywhere… sometimes even talk to it.

*Their behavior goes more and more erratic and it’s fair to announce they start to act real nuts, and that’s why when you come back you find them in the dungeons singing a lullaby to the clothing.

*I’m affraid their reception towards you won’t be cute, first because they want to be sure you are fully alive, and last, because they will claim that when the day of your real death comes they’ll keep your heart in a jar so you can be together forever (all this said as they hold you and kisses you in a hungry way).

Valerius:

*He goes more and more worried as he notices you’re not around the palace or any other place in which the servants could spot you, and in the end he commands a searching across all Vesuvia.

*Now your face is printed in reward papers in the town, and the consul is giving a good price for your head… or the whole body if it’s possible.

*Stays in a denial state for weeks, yelling at everyone who dares to insinuate you’re not even in this world anymore. But eventually the guards give up and he has to admit the defeat… not before trying to search for you by himself (just… try to portrait him in a hunting suit yelling like an idiot in the middle of the forest).

*In public he pretends everything is going fine, but deep inside, in secret, he literally cries over you, and if there’s alcohol enough involved he may accept his guilt feelings in front of everyone.

*And that’s why he loses it when you come back. He doesn’t even care if there’s people watching him, he goes after you and hugs you thightly, asking you to never dissapear like that.

Volta:

*Doesn’t miss a second to run and ask the Countess for help. “If MC’s not here it means they can be in danger!”

*Your trail is lost in your shop and since there’s no signal of violence nor a willingly departure, she thinks the worst… and cries the whole trip back to the palace.

*She’s actually a crying mess for maybe one or two months, crying and eating and crying again. Even Vulgora can’t handle her depression for she feels guilty of your loss.

*Although she’s having a bad time doesn’t cross the line between sadness and drama, and after some weeks she starts to recover herself, although your single memory makes her fall again.

*And when you’re there again… She runs and tackles you and covers you in kisses and begs for your forgiveness and won’t let you alone in literally HOURS before she’s at least half sure you won’t leave her again.

Vlastomil:

*Of course does a full SWAT operative to find you, even if that means to cooperate with Valerius (who’s the one in control of the guards) and promise him not to bring his worms at the meetings.

*After everyting points at your possible death, he loses it and stays at his estate crying and being completely depressed, even forgets to feed Wiggler in time.

*Tries to make a funeral in your name, but fails because none courtier seems to really care… Well, the truth is they tried but his features to make it go just as he wanted was so much for them and they gave up.

*He’s the one who crosses the drama line, and makes some extremelly ridiculous atemps to “reunite” himself with you, which includes getting drunk inside a bathtub, jumping from a window and begging Valdemar to accept him as a study subject (Val doesn’t even want to touch him so…).

*One day you come back, harmless and safe, and he thinks you’re just a dream and touches you everywhere before convincing himself you are alive. And he… well, he passes out right there. He’ll be fine after some minutes.