#on being left behind

[theprofoundcosmos]

i can turn you into poetry but i cannot make you love me.

(creds will be added in a hot sec! my bad y'all ;p)

[funnybutsadalso]

- on being left

[ixioideae-letters]

i miss you more than i remember you

clementine von radics / c. c. aurel / miles johnston / ranata suzuki / clementine von radics / sue zhao / madeline miller / lily thula / salma deera / clementine von radics / shelby eileen / jedaleyjd via pinterest / holly warburton / mary oliver / mitski / sea wolf / nickie zimov / trembling blue stars

[sentientsky]

Wuthering Heights, Emily Bronte // Mikko Harvey // "Cosmic Love," Florence + The Machine // unknown (pls lmk) // "Twin Sized Mattress," The Front Bottoms // also unknown (sorry!) // Richard Siken // David Leviathan

[asoftepiloguemylove]

Is there any chance you could make a web weaving of wanting to be a better parent than one’s own? Like a protective individual wanting to spite a bloodline of pain to foster love and care to their own child? To be better that one’s own parents? I think a web weaving of this would be gorgeous!

Ethel Cain Family Tree (Intro) / The Oh Hellos Dear Wormwood / Emily Brontë Healthcliff / Caitlin Conlon (@/cgcpoems on instagram) / Lia Marie Johnson DNA / Nicola Yoon The Sun Is Also a Star / Daniel Jamie Williams Dear Mother... / Marina & The Diamonds The Family Jewels

[ruinsofathen]

why didn’t you make me good enough, so that you could have loved me?

1. Rien ne va plus, Margarita Karapanou  2. Matthew 27:46, The Bible  3. Saw (2004) dir. James Wan  4. The Diary of Franz Kafka  5. unknown  6. I Guess the Old You is a Ghost, 2014  7. The next time we talk on facebook, Clementine Von Radics  8. From the Hours, Michael Cunningham  9. & 13.Bungou Stray Dogs  10. Sometimes I still feel the bruise by Trembling Blue Stars  11. Wishbone, Richard Siken  12. Aishite Aishite Aishite by Will Steston and ReeK  14. Caitlin Conlon  15. DNA by Lia Marie Johnson  16. Olivia Laing  17. The End of the Fucking World

[hauntedbythenarrative]

For a while it was love, wasn't it? For me it was love

craigslist (on tumblr)//Ghost world, Holly Warburton//Isabella and the pot of basil, Arthur Trevethin Nowell//Waiting room, Phoebe Bridgers//Waiting for This Story to End Before I Begin Another, Jan Heller Levi//Disappointed love, Francis Danby//Flower, Jisoo//Helen in Egypt; “Leuké”, Hilda Doolittle//Sue Zhao

[aupoealis]

your damaged child . . .

[outof1emons]

Bittersweet Life (2008) // Extremely Loud and Incredible Close by Jonathan Safran Foer

[mai-library]

I am not a jealous person. I make it my business to never envy others but my friend just achieved her dream. She was able to grasp it within her fingers and I am typing this sitting at a desk I hate, in a building I hate, doing a job I hate because it is not yet time for me to be achieving my dreams. And everyone keeps talking about how everyone has different timelines in achieving their passions but most days I feel as if my passions do not matter in the grand scheme of things.

~things I wrote at my job I hate instead of doing my job: part 11

[theprofoundcosmos]

it's fine: you can walk away from what you used to love.

will add credits!!! i swear!

. / . / . / doki doki literature club, Sayori's unsual poem 'get out of my head' / . / . / @/bpd-anz on tumblr / @/inanotheruniverse on tumblr / @/6aint on tumblr / .

[arunneronthird]

tell 'em all they'll love in my shadow

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bonus 8: How met your mother (CSSR design by @qourmet!)

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[mayhemspreadingguy]

Lost boys

[floating-goblin-art]

an old dog

+some close ups

[tofixtheshadows]

So I've been thinking lately about how Mithrun is Kabru's dark mirror (more on that another time- it needs its own post), and I thought it interesting that one of their parallels is that they were both cared for by Milsiril, but in opposite directions. She took Kabru in as her foster after he was orphaned and tried to convince him not to become an adventurer. On the flip side, she helped rehabilitate Mithrun specifically so that he could rejoin the Canaries.

And I kept wondering: why?

For Kabru, obviously she loves him a whole lot- despite any other shortcomings in their relationship, I do believe that.

So I get why she tries to convince him not to go dungeoning, and, failing that, at least prepares him as thoroughly as she can.

But why help Mithrun? She used to hate Mithrun, but after realizing what a secretly twisted person he was, she actually thought of him more positively (oh, Milsiril). So it wasn't as if she held the kind of grudge that might motivate her to make his already-depleted life even more miserable by sending him back to the dungeons. And it wasn't that she felt bad for him either, since she didn't visit Mithrun for the first ~20 years of his recovery.

The Adventurer's Bible says that Utaya was the impetus for Mithrun returning to the Canaries, but Milsiril is the one who made the trip to see him and tell him about it.

Why would Milsiril work so hard to get her old coworker back into fighting fit? Why encourage him to return to such a dangerous lifestyle, when she was the one who chose not to mercy-kill him?

That last panel is such a crazy thing to hint at and then never elaborate on. Without it we could have just thought that Milsiril wanted the Canaries' work to continue without her, even if it seemed out of character. I think some people even assume she's just a natural caretaker as a foster mom and handwave it to include nursing Mithrun too. What could Milsiril's suspicious motives be? What does she gain from Mithrun joining the Canaries that isn't an altruistic desire to see dungeons safely sealed? Feeling a sense of responsibility for the work she left behind isn't an ulterior motive.

My theory is: Milsiril, knowing that Mithrun was empty save for the burning desire to face the demon again, wound him up like a clockwork doll and pointed him back at the dungeons.

Hoping that he'd eliminate the biggest threat to Kabru's life, before it was too late for him.

Milsiril the puppetmaster.